#i will not elaborate though because i wrote it when i was 16 and it's uhh... not aged well

[voidscarredadjudicator]

Just wanted to say thanks for writing your fic! It has inspired me to starting writing my own Splatoon fic (albeit this one is a bit of a crossover.) I hope you keep doing what you love. :)

Crossover or not, it's honestly amazing to hear that I've inspired anyone in any capacity! I'd love to see it whenever it's finished!

[constelationprize]

Okay so I wasn't going to post about this because there is a kind of person I don't want to attract to this blog and I have so blessedly few followers it might not even matter but. It's been driving me insane for days.

You guys know we can't hold people accountable on information they don't know, right?

I've seen this said in two contexts: Kevin and Thea (and the other Ravens) in regards to Jean, and Nicky and Aaron in regards to Andrew.

I won't elaborate much on Jean because TSC2 is yet to be released and I expect this to be expanded upon there, but I'm going to point out a few things: there is no proof that the Ravens at large knew exactly how old Jean was (I do not personally looked that different between 16 and 18), which is a shit excuse, but is compounded by: the Ravens are a cult with a dog-eat-dog mentality. No one there had the time or the will to think "well let's consider the ethics of this situation" because they were all locked in the fucking Torment Nexus. Riko deliberately packaged Jean and the circumstances of his SA so that it would further alienate him from the rest of the team. He was offered to them as a scapegoat and even if a single person there thought the situation looked iffy, they were not in an environment that allowed people in power to be questioned, and so no one was going to look their captain and head coach in the eye and say "hmm actually Mister Moriyama I think you're wrong". They accepted the version of events that Riko and the defensemen he picked told because they were the loudest voices and because an easy lie is so much better to hear than an ugly truth. Yes they are complicit for not seeing the red flags and cowards for not standing up if they did, this does not mean that their actions were senseless or purely out of some inherent moral cruelty.

But most of all: none of them saw a need to defend Jean because JEAN never defended HIMSELF. And yes, WE THE AUDIENCE know why that was, but you cannot expect everyone to. Jeremy knew, because he was outside of the situation and already looking for signs of abuse in Jean.

So, while I don't LOVE how Thea seems to have reacted to Jean's assault, I understand why she did it. (And if Nora hadn't been bullied off of writing her, I would have loved to see her come to terms with how she played a part in the abuse of someone she clearly cares about). As for Kevin, Jean himself says he did his best to not let him know the full truth of the situation, and for other reasons I have my theories, but I will just sit back and let TSC2 prove me right on this one.

Now, about Andrew. It fucking baffles me how anyone can interpret Nicky and Aaron as deliberately malicious toward Andrew for no reason when they have made sacrifices to stand by his side for no reward at all.

Aaron's first contact with Andrew is a hopeful letter he wrote as an abused child longing for love and connection, which Andrew just threw back in his face. When Andrew is in juvie, Aaron tries AGAIN, even though he had no reason to believe it would work, and for all intents and purposes it looks like it doesn't change a thing when Andrew moves in with him! He is cold and cruel and distant and he kills Aaron's mother and buys a sports car with the life insurance money. Can you really blame Aaron for believing Andrew's motives are petty when Andrew himself goes out of his way to pretend they are? He bought a car. With the life insurance. Of the woman he murdered in a car accident.

What is more likely: that the brother with a history of violence who has pushed you away at every try killed your mother as revenge for her abandoning him? Or that he did it to be the first person to ever keep a promise to protect you?

And even after that, when Aaron truly believes that Andrew does not and cannot care about him, he makes a second deal to keep Andrew in his life. And then renovates it through college. He can't hold a single conversation with Andrew and he still won't let him go. Aaron reaches for Andrew in the only form he knows that Andrew will reach back even as he tells himself that it's for nothing.

I won't even talk about Nicky because that man left his only chance at happiness behind in a heartbeat to care for two teenagers who were all but strangers to him just because he (correctly) believed no one else would.

It's so crazy to look at this story, a tragedy about how the Minyard-Hemmick children were so systematically failed by the adults in their lives that they were subjected to horrible abuse, and the consequences of that made it so they had incompatible coping methods that stood in the way of them being capable of understanding each other, and those misunderstandings only drove them apart even as they were holding onto each other for dear life, and ask: Oh but why didn't they notice Andrew's trauma? :(

Bitch they tried!!!!! But at the point that Andrew even met Aaron and Nicky, he was past believing that the truth would make a difference, so he didn't even try to tell them; rather, as Nicky says multiple times, he did his best to push them away and make them believe there was nothing behind his attitude other than cruelty. And they still stood by him ANYWAY. Not even Neil, who has more context than both of them, figures out the truth of what Andrew went though until the literal last minute. Because Andrew, and repeat this with me, didn't want them to know, and they were not fucking mind readers.

It is so naive to believe that every single person who struggles does so openly; or even that if they do, that they'll accept help just because you, who Knows and Fixes everything, offered it. Be so for real. If there is one thing AFTG does well is portray realistic trauma responses and how people from the outside perceive them. Try to learn something from that, or if you don't want to, at least try not to publicly put your foot in your mouth so much.

[gregorovitch-adler]

20 Questions for Fic Writers!

Thanks for tagging me, @calaisreno !

1.) How many works do you have on AO3?

-> 69. It's been almost two years since I entered the world of fic writing. Enjoying my time!

2.) What's your current AO3 word count?

-> 204,949.

3.) What fandoms do you write for?

-> I've written for BBC Sherlock, Sherlock Holmes - Arthur Conan Doyle, Harry Potter, Breaking Bad, Better Call Saul, and Good Omens, so far.

4.) Top five fics by kudos?

-> An Old Photograph

Mysterious Cheekbones

A 'Brief' Case

We're Not a Couple!

Wounded

5.) Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

-> I respond to all the comments, sometimes to say thanks, sometimes to elaborate on something. I love responding to comments, and receiving new comments always brings me joy (obviously).

6.) What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

-> The Fall , I think. Although there are quite a few, but this one is the saddest.

7.) What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

-> I mostly write happy endings, so it was a bit difficult to choose. But I think Whisper.

8.) Do you receive hate?

-> Not hate, exactly but rude comments, sometimes. Including bots. But that's also rare.

9.) Do you write smut?

-> Yeah, sometimes. I've written porn both with and without plot. It's fun.

10.) Do you write crossovers?

-> I've written two crossovers by now. One was BBC Sherlock/Harry Potter and the other one was BBC Sherlock/Better Call Saul.

Sherlock/HP: The Hidden Side of London.

Sherlock/Better Call Saul: Better Call Sherlock.

11.) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

-> I don't think so.

12.) Have you ever had a fic translated?

-> Yes, three times. Twice in Russian and once in Chinese.

13.) Have you co-written a fic before?

-> No, I haven't.

14.) What's your all time favourite ship?

-> Sherlock Holmes/John Watson.

15.) A WIP you doubt you'll ever finish?

-> I've been meaning to complete A Fashionable Doctor for a long time, but I didn't get back to it for some reason. Not abandoning it, but yeah. It's a slice of life, fluffy fic. Alternate Universe - Different First Meeting. Pairing: Molly Hooper/Irene Adler. I will finish it, eventually.

16.) Writing strengths?

Characterisation.

Dialogue.

Realism in dark topics.

Descriptions in action packed scenes.

17.) Writing weaknesses?

I struggle to write descriptions when I have to set a scene. I'm an impatient writer, and I find it painfully boring.

Sometimes I tend not to follow the "Show, don't tell" rule. I've been trying to avoid this thing in my current WIPs, though.

I sometimes don't have the patience to write anything more than a drabble-length fic.

18.) Will you write dialogue in another language?

-> Haven't done that before, but I might, if I wanted to. Preferably in one of the 3 languages I speak.

19.) What was your first fandom?

-> BBC Sherlock. I started writing in January 2022.

20.) What's your favourite fic that you've ever written?

-> It was a tough choice between two or three works, but I'd say Superficial Wound, Deep Feelings. This is the first fic I wrote in the Victorian era style (for ACD canon fandom). Canon compliant to The Adventure of the Three Garridebs. Bittersweet ending.

Tagging: @helloliriels @topsyturvy-turtely , @lookingforlifeoutthere, @keirgreeneyes , @totallysilvergirl, etc.

[scullysstrapblog]

So far I’m on season two, but already I’ve got a list of things I’d do if I owned the legal rights to OUAT.

In no particular order; this is that list:

1. Make SwanQueen canon.

2. Have Cora put her heart back in so she can be the mom that Regina deserves. (Definitely have Regina and Cora go to therapy though.)

3. Tf was all that Peter Pan/Neverland business. I get that that’s where we got Henry realizing Regina was actually trying to be a better person and that her past shouldn’t define her future, but like it was a dumb ark. So I’m getting rid of that.

4. In place of the Neverland ark, we’d see Regina and Emma exploring their relationship, Regina and Cora mending theirs, Henry would stop being a little shit. Maybe there’d be something silly and Emma and Regina would share TLK?

5. Snow and Regina would actively try to understand each other, Regina would explain what being married to the soggy raisin was like and snow would see that Regina wasn’t evil she was just hurting.

6. I’d get rid of Neal somehow, like I personally think that a 200+ year old getting a 17 year old pregnant is creepy. Even if he wasn’t in triple digits, he would’ve been around 27 if the show is to be believed and that’s still statutory r*pe in my opinion. Like yeah I get Henry needs to be born but maybe figure out a way to keep him from trying to win Emma back? Like he fucked up big time so, he’d definitely have to go.

7. Hook’s gay. No elaboration. He’s gay. Fight me.

8. Honestly the blue fairy meddled in so much and from what I’ve seen she’s 100% evil. So she’d definitely have to go.

9. Rumple and belle, I know a lot of people like this ship but tbh, it’s kinda icky. Like there’s definitely a Stockholm Syndrome type of thing going on. Idk. Maybe Rumple and Hook can get it on? Belle can be with Mulan.

10. The whole, “Regina’s soulmate has a lion tattoo.” thing? Weird but people change, so I’d explore that but with Tink admitting that people’s soulmates can change as the person evolves.

11. Emma’s tattoo would definitely be explained. Because we all deserved that story.

12. Zelena saw how Cora treated Regina when Rumple showed her Regina’s life so I’d say that she wouldn’t have held any resentment towards Regina. I honestly think the writers could’ve made a much better storyline for them.

13. Another thing, why’d they just send Ruby away? Like, she’s such a great character and they just tossed her aside. They could’ve come up with something better. Especially if she was gonna just pop back up at random times.

14. The Robin/Zelena thing also gave me the ick. So that’s out. That shouldn’t have even been a thing.

15. I liked the time travel thing but if I made Zelena and Regina have a better relationship then that wouldn’t have existed so I’d have to find another villain to make it happen. BLUE!! She’d totally do it.

16. Emma would totally fall through the portal, regina would follow her because “Ms. Swan when will you stop being an idiot?!”

17. Maybe rather than being thrown into one point in time we could see Emma and Regina navigate through different points in their life while trying to keep blue from messing things up?

18. I’d have liked to see a bit more of Henry exploring his role as author. Maybe he’d write the stories properly rather than having a biased story that portrays things as black and white. Idk, I’d just like to see the stories get written as they should have been rather than the way Issac (was that his name?) wrote them.

19. Snow and charming would definitely apologize to Maleficent for taking her child and forcing her to take on Emma’s darkness. Maybe I’d show Emma and Lily finding a spell or something to balance themselves so they wouldn’t be so messed up.

20. Dark Swan ark would definitely happen but it would totally be explored the way it should’ve been. It was the “Dark Swan” ark not the “Pity me Hook and Dark Swan” ark.

Honestly this is all I’ve got so far, if you guys want more I’ll definitely add more but I have to get further along in the show because currently this is all I can remember.

And if you have some things you’d like to add to this list, please do! I would love to see what you all think!

[cchapsticck]

20 Fic Writer Questions

@dreamwatch tagged me and I have been so slammed at work but the show is open now and am able to look at my tags.

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

11!

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

146,941

3. What fandoms do you write for?

On this account its been Stranger Things, Baldur's Gate 3 and Critical Role - because we're sticking to a Dungeons and Dragons adjacent theme completely not on purpose.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

UNTITLED RECORDING rcd ca. 1987-1988 ANACRUSIS ca. 1987 head line sunflower broke wait, runner

5. Do you respond to comments?

I sincerely try to! I get them pretty infrequently so I'm always so tripping over myself to say something in response and surely sound like a total dipshit when I do. I know there are a few in my inbox I haven't responded to yet because work has my free time in a vice grip at the moment.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Oh surely dog at the door - the ending was always intended to be vague and open to interpretation but I cannot imagine any good faith interpretation to the ending is like. good. Runner up is probably of or pertaining to the body, which only takes the runner up status because its an elaboration on canon events that are objectively harrowing, versus with dog where I have engineered speculative misery for the express purpose of being miserable.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

head line, I think, is my only published fic with an unambiguously optimistic ending. I think there's been hope and happiness in my other fics, but not without caveats or as of yet unaddressed emotional complication in the futures of those stories. idk does that even make sense?

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not so far as I know but who knows, maybe there are corners of the internet talking mad shit what do I know?

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I have said it before and I will say it again, I feel like one of my greatest failings as a writer is my inability to write smut without cringing myself inside out. I just don't think I'm any good at it. Smut lives in my heart though.

10. Do you write crossovers?

I suppose it depends on what one's definition of a crossover is? Like where's the line between an AU and a crossover? One time I wrote a DnD ST AU that includes no established WotC DnD NPCs but all of its world building, is that a crossover? Or does a crossover only constitute as a crossover as a matter of disparate series characters interacting? I have questions.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

lmao aint no on reading my business I cannot imagine anyone would be so moved to do so

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I don't believe so, but I also haven't looked into it.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I've definitely worked on collaborative projects before, they all exist in various states of planning or semi-publication or DM hollering. I enjoy it, its like playing toys with your friends.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

It really depends what I'm in the mood for? Vibes wise lol? I have a handful of ships that I constantly rotate around in my brain like a rotisserie chicken that re-enter the hyperfocus zone on a semi regular schedule. Ask my about my forevergirl ships.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will?

lol could be any of them tbh

16. What are your writing strengths?

lmao lol even I'm so bad at self praise this is a nightmare. I like to think I have a deft hand with character voice, I like to think my writing feels generally grounded, lived in?

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I really lack rigor, I think, when it comes to writing. I get discouraged by writers block very easily, I make it very easy for myself to walk away from a project. Which, I know isn't inherently a bad thing - some things just don't work out, or you don't have the time for that kind of commitment etc - but I often feel like there is a necessary momentum that I lose that just makes my creative endeavors just stagnate and I really struggle to manufacture that momentum for myself when it starts to diminish.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I think it depends, I think there are contexts where it's appropriate and contexts where its inappropriate. For me it boils down to like, one's ability to use the language authentically and grammatically, if the language being potentially inscrutable to the reader is part of the need of the use of another language - textually, does it feel authentic to the way multi-lingual speakers communicate, etc etc etc.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

I think the first fic I wrote with the intent of public consumption was KHR? I think?

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Hm. This answer changes from time to time depending on how I'm feeling about my work in general, but I think right now sunflower broke is holding that top slot. It got me back into writing, it made me realize how much fun writing Eddie's character was for me, the themes that sort of preoccupy me about him floated to the surface there. Just a little scratch of the surface with that one.

[minniepetals]

I didnt know there was a new chapter so i immediately read it AAAHHHHH

I want more 😭 i have a lot of questions and i need answers 🥲 what will happen if bangtan knew about yoongi's past... what happened to mc? how long will it take for her to heal??? and im freaking out because yoongi and mc are kinda similar... very secretive people and been through a lot of trauma :((( its nice that she trusted him and yoongi made sure he wont break that trust 😭 i lowkey want bangtan to make an effort to find out what happened to mc so they can understand her more but yeah they have a point... i cant wait for the next chapter because where is this leading??? I need more 🥲

Anyway, thank you for the update! I really love cmar and I'm so happy you're back and updating it again! Thank you so much! I'm looking forward to the next chapter!

-🌺

thank you so much bub!! regarding the questions: the boys will surely come around to knowing since they kinda know yoongi's somehow associated with the vipers (in some way shape or form) and there's a low chance they'll react badly. our girl went through a series of physical torture so it'll take some time for her to heal. there will be a brief description of what happens to her body when she wakes up and sees herself -- i didn't go too into details with it though. also yes! yoongi and y/n are very similar to one another. i think it'd be really cool if i wrote a scene where yoongi does gets angry and for y/n because out of all the boys, he's a composed man who doesn't get easily triggered so..just imagine it oop-. he's a good man overall, and even back in chapter one when their relationship was falling apart, yoongi didn't actively engage in verbally tormenting y/n, though his absence and silence most definitely had hurt her a lot.

of the boys, there are three quiet men who prefers their silence, all of them having chosen to be that way mostly due to how they were raised as children. these boys are yoongi, taehyung, and jungkook. perhaps i'll elaborate it further in the series itself but basically:

with yoongi, there's already a bit of context with him. he grew up being silenced and invisible so he's used to be quiet for the most part. he's a sincere man but does have a difficult time expressing his emotions (he's good at showing his lovers that he cares for them though, yoongi's kinda like a word of affirmation type of guy, ironically) -- emotions like the flawed part of being a human: anger, upset, sadness, etc.

we got a little bit of taehyung during the london arc. he's a hacker so he's mostly holed up in his lab and prefers not to socialize with the human population, so he's the type to be silent and observant rather than joining in the crowd and conversing. he's not someone who will feel the need to fill up the silence of a room and for the most part when he's with y/n (back when they were still together), they were always comfortable in their silence together. the two of them kinda just knows what's on the other's mind without having to say a thing

as with jungkook, there's not much around him just yet but if you look back at the flashback with the boys' pov (chapter 16), there was something jin said to namjoon during one of their disputes, saying "jungkook has gone completely silent" and that indicated a bit of his relationship with y/n, it being the fact that he was more open and talkative when y/n was around. you'll come to see in future chapters that y/n and jungkook relied on each other a lot back in the days. he loved her mostly through actions but always tried his best to speak up and change for the better for her, and when y/n left their life, it took some time to have jungkook coming back from being so silent.

there's only been one chapter to sum up the feelings of the boys and how the divorce of namjoon and y/n affected them but all in all, it most definitely hurt them in more than one way.

sorry i went on a whole rant omg, this is too long, but maybe you enjoyed reading a bit of context around three particular boys 😭

[toraashi]

for the fanfic number thing: 16 👀

page 16! It's supposed to be a fic where the reader is wanted in Inazuma and finds themselves on the Crux with Kazuha: It's a little out of character because it was one of the first Kazuha fics I wrote, but I don't hate it!

send me a number between 1-144 for an excerpt of a genshin fic!

“The atmosphere is quite nice, I will concede.” Kazuha relented, scooting nearer, pushing his elbows onto the rim of the ship, leaning out to observe the water, just as you had before. “The sea is calm today.” 

Welcoming the change of topic, you sighed lowly, replicating his position, peering at him through the corner of your eye, admiring the soft swoop of his delicate side profile. 

“Is the ocean ever really calm, though?” You mused, flushing sweetly when he peeked right back, scarlet eyes glimmering beneath his lashes. 

“Care to elaborate?” Shifting your eyes bashfully, you traced the salt residue beneath your fingertips, the ocean breeze catching your hair and stealing your breath - well, maybe it was Kazuha doing that. 

“It is ever-changing, ominously deep. On the surface, it may appear calm, but it is far too turbulent altogether to ever be truly so. Can a being so dynamic be truly at ease?” If it were anyone but Kazuha, they would’ve chastised your soft words for being so convoluted. The blonde’s chuckle launched your heart into the sky like a sudden anemo burst. 

“Truly, you are a wonder.” He praised, twisting from the scenery to face you, an easy grin on his cheeks. You returned it melancholically, nervous about his impression. “I cannot agree entirely. Even the most complex, turbulent creatures can have moments of ease, do they not?” Somehow, his words seemed to hold a double meaning, and you searched his wide, amused eyes for an answer, lips parted. The humor melted into something sweeter, and he raised a finger to brush across your cheekbones, knuckles rough and calloused. The touch of his hand coaxed a giddy smile. “There’s that smile.” He cooed, hand falling to your shoulder, rubbing soothing circles with his thumb. 

[sepyana]

Noir 2001 Ep. 11-18 Thoughs

This is around the time when Noir's plot starts to pick up.

Some general things first:

The sountrack of Noir is really damn good. I wanted to listen to is some more so I searched it up on Youtube. Turns out it's composed by Yuki Kajiura, which is a name I instantly recognized because she is responsible for the soundtrack of Madoka Magica, one of my favourite anime soundtracks ever. Explains the pmmm vibes I got for sure.

I will say though, she did improve between the osts. I like the Noir soundtrack a lot but there are a few janky bits the pmmm ost doesn't struggle with.

I had a lot of fun watching these episodes, the plot is interesting and the more "episodic" segments don't feel jarring to watch. I'm starting to like Kirika and Mireille a lot.

But the biggest reason for my interest is Chloe. I can't explain why, she doesn't get to do much yet. I dunno, she is just really charming to me.

Onto the episode by episode notes:

Ep. 11

This episode sets up the whole grand retour plotline, we see Atlena is planning something that Soldats is not too happy about. Also we get to know more about the book the photocopies are coming from.

I really like Chloe, I like that we get to see a show of her wardrobe only for her to pick the same wack ass outfit every time. Also the fact that she asks Kirika if she can keep the fork. What a weird little critter honestly.

The whole time her and Kirika are talking all Mireille could think is "What the fuck are these kids doing". She ends up giving in in the end.

Ep. 12

This episode is a oddity in that Kirika and Mireille don't appear at all. It's just Chloe and Atlena. It's a nice episode, we get to see a little bit of their dynamic. She does seem to care about her but Chloe might just be a tool for her too. It's a bit early to tell.

She is... I don't wanna say unmotivated but she is uninterested in the missions she is given. She cares about the integrity of it but she isn't interested in why she is given them. She isn't like "How dare you betray our organization bla bla"

Chloe's loyalties lie in Atlena only. She doesn't seem to care about Soldats, but she is interested in the Grand Retour, since the plan involves her.

Ep. 13

I wrote my thoughts in a seperate post like this:

I expected the painter to be one of Noir's targets or something because that's what happens with anyone who Kirika interacts positively with, thus why Mireille told her not to talk to him. But when he got shot I realized it was so he wouldn't get caught up in their mess and die. It's genuinely sad, you can tell at the end she is saying that from experience. Kirika was really happy to spend time with him, her face lights up. Something like picking up hobbies and making friends would mean a lot, especially to someone who doesn't have any idea who they are. Really nice episode overall

It was always present but after this episode you become on edge every time Mireille or Kirika i teract with a friend, expecting them to die. It does happen with George later on.

Ep. 14

There is some nice writing in this episode. Mireille denies her uncle could lie to her only for her to lie to him after. If she has things she would keep a secret surely her uncle must too.

There is definitely symbolism with the flowers but I am not smart enough to figure it out.

Ep. 15-16

Wild to me that Mireille and Kirika actually listened to Soldats. What if they hijack tour plane on your way to Vietnam or something? I don't think it's worth the risk.

The combat in this show is really lackluster. Maybe I am just not getting it. The henchmen are a joke, beating them is not fun to watch for me. And it drags on for so long too. I do like the shorter action sequences though.

It's funny that they say the poison the killer lady uses is "lethal to normal humans" and do not elaborate on that. Is she not human. What does this mean.

These episodes make me think Atlena does care for Chloe and isn't just putting on an act. Otherwise it makes no sense she would be fond of her in her inner dialogue and watch over her. She won't see that so why bother acting?

Ep. 17

The reveal that Mireille's parents were killed by Soldats was not surprising but I wasn't expexting them to be part of Soldats. We get to learn a lot about Mireille and Kirika's past but I don't have anything particularly interesting to say so I will skip that.

Apparently, her parents betrayed Soldats to protect her. But she had a brother didn't she, who got killed with her parents. Does that mean there is something special about Mireille?

Ep. 18

In every story with a duo protagonist there comes a time where the duo "breaks up". I wouldn't call this an arc since it's the span of an episode but yknow.

Losing my shit at crying Kirika she looks so much like the crying cat image here. How can you be so horrible to a face like that Mireille.

I get the sense Chloe doesn't give two shits about Mireille and only decided to tell Kirika about her because her dying would make Kirika upset. In a similar way to how Homura treats Sayaka, I guess. And she is right that it would make her upset. She is dependent on Mireille since she is the only person she actually knows. And I don't think Mireille realises that until the end.

The end of the episode was really cute. I am really starting to get attached to these two.

And that's the end! I decided to do a little sketch of Chloe at the end here for those who read this whole thing

There is a significant lack of Noir content and I want to change that so I might post some art on my art blog (^o^)v

[crows-murder]

Ask game: 2, 5, 16, 20 ✨️

2. talk about a notable time a narrative or character has looked you dead in the eyes and said “fuck your plan, here’s what we’re actually doing.”

when i first outlined my fic all the ashes in my wake i had a basic idea of where the story would go and who the main villains would be, etc etc

and then.

AND THEN!!

i wrote chapter 5 and i as like "hey it would be cool actually if the cursed mystic amulet had fallen into the hands of Big Mama" and i went with it. i mean, it's a fun lil twist and it was fun to write. except now i'm on chapter 7 and i have to rewrite a good chunk of my outline bc it doesn't WORK anymore now that big mama came along and became an important bit of the plot!!!

and thats only one instance in this fic where this happened actually. casey was not supposed to be in this fic as much as she currently is. (im not complaining about that one though bc i absolutely love her with my whole entire heart)

5. have you ever made a playlist about something you were writing as an elaborate means to procrastinate when you could have been actually writing and if yes drop a link, son

one thing about me is that i love making playlists for my fics and characters. i ABSOLUTELY made a playlist while procrastinating writing said fic.

HERE IT IS: fic playlist for ataimw

16. where is your favorite place to write?

either my university library or this little coffee shop in town. those are both very ideal writing locations for me because they include my favorite things: cozy vibes, coffee, books.

20. what is your favorite trope to write?

found family all the way. i'm sure it says a lot about me but its just so!!!! wonderful!!!! ON PURPOSE!!! I'LL STAY WITH YOU AND I'LL LOVE YOU ON PURPOSE!!!

if u look at all the media i've hyperfixated on, the common denominator is usually found family lmao

thank you for the ask!! <333

ask game

[denizenhardwick]

Theory: How Thralldom Works

AKA What Thralldom Even Is, How It’s Somehow More Disturbing Than I Previously Thought, Why Grey’s Hand Is The Way It Is, And How All Of This Connects Knights And Tenebrous.

Warning: This theory is extremely spoileriffic, majorly for Knights of the Borrowed Dark and minorly for The Forever Court. [Note: I wrote this in 2017, before The Endless King came out. It may be worth an update and further analysis in the future, as I still believe this theory and would like to examine it now that the series is completed.]

Intro

This is a really long theory. It covers a lot, it seeks to explain a lot, but it all stems from what we know about thralldom.

Thralldom has been a mystery since it was first introduced; not much about it has been explained, yet it brings up so many questions. How does it work? Why are the Three able to do it? What the heck is going on with Grey’s hand?

The Three talk about it extremely vaguely, and The Forever Court doesn’t give much information on it beyond confirming what was already implied. However, that lack of detail, plus how plot important it is in FoCo, leads me to believe that it’s a part of something bigger.

I think that the explanation for thralldom reveals something gamechanging about the KotBD universe.

No, I don’t think I know what that is. But I know what vein it’s in.

Basics

At it’s most simplistic, the theory is that thralldom is an adapted version of what the Man in the Waistcoat did to the Opening Boy, and exploits a Knight’s connection to the Tenebrae.

Theory, Elaboration, and Evidence

Knights have a connection to the Tenebrae, described as them being “born closer to the dark.” This connection lets the fire of the Tenebrae’s sun bloom in them, and likely is the reason they can see in the dark. Besides this, we don’t know what it entails.

The Opening Boy and the Woman in White both used to be independent Tenebrous, but as of the end of KotBD, they’re part of the Clockwork Three, which is one entity in three bodies.

The Woman in White and the Man in the Waistcoat became parts of the same being because they were together for so long. The Opening Boy, however, had something done to him that made him part of the Clockwork Three.

Tenebrous are malleable, and easily change/are forced to change.

When trying to get information from Director Ackerby, the Three torture it out of him, rather than fishing through his head or anything of that sort, though they claim that they can.

In chapter 16, the Three say, “I wouldn’t fight it, little Knight. Worming into the heads of mortals is a talent of ours. Of course, the process isn’t perfect, flesh being what it is.”

They’re talking about thralldom; mortals obviously refers to humans here.

There’s also the definite implication that they use this process--or something similar--on creatures not of flesh.

We don’t know all that much about thralldom, except that it’s the process by which the Three can enter someone’s mind and control them, as well and sift through and even manipulate their memories.

I propose that their thrall process was originally designed to be used on Tenebrous, and they adapted it for Knights.

They called it a “talent,” but every other time they’ve tried to enthrall a Knight, it’s ended in that person dying. This high mortality rate would be explained it what they’re doing was meant to work on Tenebrous, who live longer and are more adaptable than humans.

The Three don’t even try getting into Ackerby’s head, and he’s a normal human, although they do make him hear ticking.

The Opening Boy--who I think the process was used on--seems to be mostly under the control of the others, though he still has a bit of free will and helps Denizen free Mercy.

It works by exploiting a Knights’ connection to the Tenebrae.

Perhaps being born closer to the dark comes with certain Tenebrous traits. A bit of their malleability, maybe? After all, they’re changed by the Tenebrae’s sun. It manifests as a fire in their chests, giving them power, but also latching onto their anger and, most importantly, turning them to iron.

Thralldom was originally a process meant to completely fuse one Tenebrous to another, and it’s being used on humans with only a little of the kind of adaptability it requires. Thus, the Three can get into Knights’ heads, but not completely change them.

Grey’s hand was turning to clockwork, which looked like it was growing out of him. This hasn’t been explained at all yet in the series, but if thralldom rides on the Tenebrous traits Knights have, this change would make sense.

Clockwork is what connects the three Tenebrous in the Clockwork Three, so that’s what would manifest.

The Cost, which also changes a Knight, notably starts in their hands, then works along the rest of their body.

Basically...

This is all really mindblowing for me, and has been freaking me out ever since I first came up with the theory. It’s disturbing, but it makes a lot of sense to me, and explains a lot of the mysteries of the series. It covers what having a “connection to the Tenebrae” actually means; it covers the Cost; it covers the Clockwork Three; it covers thralldom, and it finally explains Grey’s hand.

I’m not sure how great a job I did explaining and justifying myself, but I’ve wanted to share this theory for months, so I hope it makes sense!

[guardiandae]

Tagged by the wonderful @rayadraws!

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 70

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

710,529

3. What fandoms do you write for?

One Punch Man, Marvel. Formerly BTVS.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

" - 2,391 kudos "Natural" - 2,448 kudos "5+7" - 3,341 kudos "Milkyway" - 4,601 kudos "Salvaged" - 6,567

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Oh yes! But i have a habit that tends to backfire on me... I'll respond to all comments for a while and then after a couple weeks I'll stop responding because I want to finish a chapter first.... this is fine except sometimes by the time I let myself respond to all those old comments it's been like.... 5 years. LOL. But I really do like to reply to every single one.

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

The Distance Between Us

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Sugar & Spice

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Lmfao. Surprisingly rarely! I've maybe gotten two actual hate comments on my more spicy account. I've gotten more hate comments for making Saitama transmasc, but not by much. But like... I didn't make him transmasc anyway, it just happened. But yeah if people are whiny little bitches and I just roast them and then delete their comment because that doesn't fly for me, especially the transphobic weirdos.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Hell yeah. Ummm I like it when the weiners touch 👉👈

Actually lemme see. On my main account, my top tags are kind of all over the place. Mainly fluffy stuff, dirty talk. On my secret second account we'll get better results.... Watersports/Urination - obviously. Anal sex - duh, but boring. Dubious consent - spicy. Felching - MM. 🙏 Male lactation - MILK. HIM. 💦

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

Only "Now Recruiting", which still gets a lot of love tbh. It's about the Avengers trying to recruit Saitama, which isn't too crazy. Fun though!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

WOOF. I hope not. The sites that scrape fics are scary.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Oh yeah 💜 I love my international fans, and I always say yes when someone asks to translate. I just ask that they remember to link up with mine!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

My memory is bad but I really don't think so. I don't play well with others >.< Also why I have turned down RP requests every time.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Wade/Nate. It might have hibernated for years, but it came back with a vengeance when it came back. But any ship I've written for, it's gotta be a hyperfixation for me, so I promise I love them all.

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

[Redacted]. But I'm not sure it's that I never will - it's that I think I overshot my ending and I actually need to hack it back a little and just end the fic. The way I kept going, it would've added another small arc to the fic that made it end on a sad note. And That, I'd probably never finish. The fic is old enough though that even thinking about opening it up to do that makes me cringe.

Secondary: Salvaged. But don't panic! It's not that I'll never finish it, it's that I will but still not any time soon. ;; It'll be a lot of work to open it up again and finish it. I wanna finish some other projects first, including new ones (oops). But I don't feel 'cringe' about opening it again. Just a loooottt of files to sift through.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I'm told my dialogue is amazing. I think it's because I enjoy practicing the lines, over and over again, and pacing everything out to make sure it sounds like something the character would actually say, and somewhat flow in real time.

I'm also quite lucky at being able to have details fall into place in really interesting ways. So that thing that seems elaborately planned out, who knows, lol. It's sort of half elaborately planned and half happy coincidence.

People also tell me that I manage to capture their imagination and especially their emotions. 🫶

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Finishing. Haha. I'll either catch stage fright if something gets really popular (especially if there's a sex scene, oop) or I'll get bogged down with things needing to be perfect, or a secret third thing - I get really attached and don't want to end the AU because then I worry I'll forget it exists.

Memory problems. Returning to a fic is harder because even after a month I don't remember what happened. And if I'm going without writing for any period of time I feel like I forget who I am as a writer completely. Sometimes I really can't understand who wrote a fic of mine, because it doesn't feel like it was me.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Ummmmm I do this very sparingly because I know that google translate is very flawed and I'm not fluent in any other language. Sometimes a little bit of french or spanish has been appropriate for a Deadpool fic, but not full dialogue.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Buffy The Vampire Slayer <3 I didn't include that in my fic count tho.... I don't dare go back to That Place, even just to look (FF.net)

20. Favorite fic you've written?

I'm gonna have to break it up by ship otherwise this ain't even fair--

"Hello, Handsome" - Cablepool - it's just soooo creative and fun! and COMPLETE! "5+7" - Genosai - another really fun one, emotional ups and downs but ultimately soooo fluffy and nice and one of those fics that changed my life. Almost done! "Yours" - Skirth/Agony - a rare f/f pairing but I really enjoyed writing them <333 COMPLETE "Milkyway" - Eddie/Symbiote - can something be a fluffy family fic AND really dirty filthy kinky at the same time? Apparently, somehow. COMPLETE.

Tagging @aeriamamaduck @pohjanneito and @theomnicode!

[angryborzois]

Okayyy so old oc pt 1 (I'll be listing the stuff I wrote last year as well as little comments that I made as I transferred them here; the little comments will be in red)

OC creation date: April 2nd, 2022

Lol I made this OC back when all I was thinking about was growing my hair out for the Bonten Rindou hairstyle so you can see that reflected in here

Also the ability is just ripped off so don't mind that- it was just for personal fun so like yeah-

Name: I seriously didn't add a name? damn

Gender: Female

Age: 16 (Second-year as of 2018)

Height: 165cm

Ability: Nullify; no cursed energy as a drawback of Nullify (see I told you it was a ripoff) (will be elaborated later)

Grade: Semi-special grade (is that even a thing)

Combat style: Close range

Weapons: Cursed tools such as katanas and knives (the handles are normal but the blades are cursed)

Nullify: Essentially Dazai's ability, "No Longer Human". It nullifies cursed techniques and energy upon contact with the target's technique or the user. Regular attacks with no cursed energy will deal damage though because duh logic. Domain expansion will be canceled upon contact. Curses up to grade two can be easily exorcised with this ability, but for anything beyond that, this ability can only nullify their cursed technique.

Friends: Yuta, Toge, Yuji, Miwa, Nobara, Maki

Additional notes:

Skips class routinely

Hangs out with first years occasionally

Mainly sent on solo missions

Team missions are typically high-class ones where she goes with Gojo and Nanami

Stuff I wanna add rn:

Nobara and Miwa look up to her

Rika absolutely hates her

She's very chill and friendly--she's actually pretty normal lol

She doesn't interact much with the students--she's a bit lonely because she's a higher-grade sorcerer---the only people she talks to are people like Yuki, Gojo, or Nanami

She does talk to Megumi occasionally but it's mostly formal talk

Toge tries to include her in the friend group but she doesn't really wanna be with them because she feels excluded--but it's not like she feels included in a group consisting of a feral man-child and a too-serious businessman either (it's complicated)

I don't really remember if Yuki was canonically around the school much but I feel like if she was, she would take the OC to different places on her motorcycle

[bluejayblueskies]

Do elaborate on that first novel-length story you ever wrote, I'm interested! What was so out there about the plot?

(referencing this post)

okay so! for context, some important facts to know about young jay:

i was very into magic, fantasy, and other forms of escapist fiction (and still am!)

i grew up in a small conservative Catholic town, and tbh a lot of this story's plot reflects that because it has some Very Weird Gender Stuff in it

i did not really understand how romance worked but knew that it was usually an integral part of the books i read and therefore it should be an integral part of the books i wrote

i wrote all 71k of it in comic sans (not relevant to the plot, but important for the Vibes™️ i think)

so the plot of this story is, to summarize briefly, 'a species of magical people who predate humans fled to and now live in Antarctica and our main character is someone who is kidnapped by them and finds herself in their world, in the middle of a revolution against the government'

to expand:

there are a species of non-violent humanoid people (let's call them nvhs) with magical powers who predate humans who, when they hit the age of 15, stop aging until they find somebody to reproduce with. (23 yo aroace me is disappointed but unsurprised at this, and i actually think it may be a result of being told as a child that People Get Married And Have Kids And That's Just How Things Are In The World, and me, not understanding this in the slightest, took it to the extreme)

when humanity came about and brought with it war and violence and hatred, he nvhs fled to Antarctica and now live underground (literally underground, in caves). a strange disease swept their population after this, killing only the women. their solution was to go into the human world and find human women who could integrate with the nvhs, and the people in charge of venturing into the human world would never 'mate' [eugh] and thus never age.

their methods for bringing humans back to the nvh settlement were uhhhhh a bit sus (another disappointed shake of the head for 12-yo-me, though i did acknowledge that this one was kinda fucked up). they ended up getting cursed by a very pissed human woman who said that an extraordinarily powerful chosen one would cause their downfall. oh, and apparently, for some reason, the hybrid children of the nvhs and the humans are only biologically male, so it basically creates a society where the only women are human and power-less and the only men are nvhs and have powers. like i said, Very Weird Gender Stuff. in my defense i was twelve.

our main character is kali, who is kidnapped from her home at age 16 and brought to this settlement. she is rescued by a guy named alex who is thousands of years old but stuck in the body of 15-year-old for the aforementioned 'has not yet mated' reasons, and she meets a group of nvhs who think that the kidnapping of humans is wrong and oppose the nvh government. it's eventually revealed that she is the 'chosen one' and she has powers, which were stolen from alex some time ago (uh. surgically removed in a multi-day very painful procedure apparently, which is both more intense than what i expected 12-year-old me to have written and quite on par with what current me enjoys in fiction lol).

alex's goal is to get his powers back, but he can't without killing kali (or so he thinks). eventually, he runs off to go confront the government on his own, and kali and the resistance group make their own (slow) way there to help him. etc. etc., kali gets re-kidnapped by the government, escapes bc they don't know she has powers, gets caught again, alex gets shot and dies in the process, kali brings him back by giving him his powers back (??? how does that work? unclear), and we address the horrible reality of becoming just as bad as your enemy when you look upon the dead bodies of hundreds of people who you have killed for the sake of revolution and go 'how does this make us any better than them?'

oh and of course the two MCs kiss. naturally. love conquers all and all that [derogatory]

there's a bunch of other stuff that happens that really isn't super important, but i guess the out there-ness is really just in the concept of it all? like the lore and the worldbuilding and stuff? like there are So Many specific devices--it's like a weird hybrid between magic-based fantasy and sci-fi, because the nvhs have powers that let them do things, but they also have super advanced tech and have a whole division of essentially 'mad scientists' who engage in some uhhh unethical experimentation and body modification. also the oldest character in the whole thing is 30 and me, 12, was like 'Yes that is the age of a parental person who would have a 16-year-old daughter' lol. also after allllll this nonsense, they decide to go back to the human world, take great pains to finally get back to kali's house, and are. promptly arrested and carted off to jail alkdsghlag.

also the story inexplicably alternates between first person kali's pov and third person limited from the other characters' povs?? for some reason?? idk

anyway, thank you for asking about it! whether you read all that nonsense or not, it was fun for me to drag this doc out of the graveyard where it belongs and cringe at myself (and realize just how far i've come and how much patience my father had to read over the whole thing when i very excitedly showed it to him ten years ago asdlkfjag) 💜

[blindrapture]

july 28.

the end of San Francisco, a rapture log play in five acts.

july 24th, act 1, was 3,000 words. july 25th, act 2, was 2,500 words. july 26th, act 3, was 8,800 words. july 27th, act 4, was 6,100 words. july 28th, act 5, was 4,700 words.

the total is 25,100 words. for one serial in the greater story's act 2. this was over a third of the length of act 1 as a whole. and also like half of a nanowrimo? but I wrote San Francisco over the course of... about a week, back in late April or early May. I'm still not ready to tell you the word count for act 2 as a whole.

they're big numbers, these word counts. but now that you've actually read some Long Logs, you might have an idea of why I don't want to give the big numbers until you're done! these logs are actually pretty damn engaging! to know ahead of time how long it is would be discouragement, or even a real risk of discouragement. and I want readers. :( (plus, how do you think I feel? having to write the damn stuff! when I saw the total word count for act 2, that actually just made it way harder to start act 3. I gotta keep reminding myself that short logs are okay!)

...so.

so San Francisco.

if you were to go back and read the earlier drafts of this serial, the difference is stark. a couple of elements are the same: Jordan and Donnie have a disagreement, they're staying with these RAF folks (with the same names), on day 4 they burn down the Golden Gate Bridge as things go bad, and on day 5 the Judge takes the city. but the old serial was.... oh my god so empty. so short.

there's a reason for this. I mean, yes, I wrote it when I was 16 years old, but I had already demonstrated I was interested in challenging myself, taking the time to make plots more elaborate. but the problem was this was November 2011, and I was going through hell. I had run away from home, given a plane ticket to go back to America, was staying in a house where I wasn't really.. wanted! had gotten myself back into high school, entirely of my own accord. was sleeping in the damn living room for months in a house of 10 residents, with my brother as landlord. my brother may have been able to stick up for me more, but he had jobs keeping him out of the house. so I had to deal with the catty underhanded group dynamics myself, when I was home from school; I had no bedroom to retreat to. even though this literally was the house I had grown up in, now deteriorating with garbage and poor upkeep by all these residents. and anyway, then, in November, one last resident had a beef with me. it wasn't because of anything I had done. it was just vibes. he was like that. and he had guns, and he had crude sensibilities, and he liked to think of himself as a drill instructor, and.

god I really hated that guy. >_< he was the basis for the Cody character. though Cody is much less of an asshole. the real guy wouldn't have ever given me a chance to explain myself, wouldn't have disarmed himself, wouldn't have stopped until I was gone. because he didn't! I left. I went home. not immediately, and not directly because of him, but. it was bad news after bad news, okay, and all things being equal I might have been able to face it all, staying in America was what I was made for... but I was already damaged goods. I didn't have it in me anymore.

and. yeah. I also didn't have it in me to give rapture the treatment it deserved.

so. fast forward to 2024, and I'm already rewriting act 2, and I get to San Francisco and feel this immense... shame inside me. I did not like to revisit that serial, because of the time of my life that it represented, and when I did revisit it there was nothing fucking there. so I knew I had to rewrite it better. apparently I took that real seriously. I think San Francisco is one of the best parts of the story now and can only hope I can match it later on.

but, like. one of the things I did in rewriting San Francisco was fictionalize the Cody character more. by fleshing him out, basing him off of more influences (such as Alex Kralie!), giving him more time to speak and show his own nuances, I was able to... if not "put some closure on the past," then at least disentangle some memories and separate the past from this story of mine that means... so much...

yeah. writing the new San Fran was therapeutic. and it produced a really cool piece of fiction. a tale of humanity, another look at our gods. another chance for EAT to speak.

yeah.

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music pieces referenced in log 5, "Synecdoche."

first is "Music for the Funeral of Queen Mary," by Henry Purcell. the actual original piece is somewhat obscure, but depending on what media you grew up with, as soon as you hear the horns come in you'll know exactly how it goes.

what a fucking piece. brilliant chord progressions. gives me chills.

as Jordan mentioned in the log, he had heard the song through much more modern contexts.

Kubrick nuts, and also all you trans girls out there, will be much more familiar with Wendy Carlos's rendition of the piece, as used in the opening to A Clockwork Orange.

but then I, me, DJay and Jordan, I did not grow up with this. (I didn't watch A Clockwork Orange until I was about 14 or 15, and I really wasn't much of a film appreciator then. the film bored me, except when it wigged me out.)

I grew up with Conker's Bad Fur Day.

honestly, if you haven't ever seen this game, I've gotta recommend it. seeing it. not really playing it. it is the one and only Rare game I grew up with, and was probably the N64 game that my brothers and I played the most. I was watching this game when I was 9 years old. (I have since gone on to beat it myself. it's a journey, for sure! but brutally hard at random times.)

it's actually almost definitely a big influence on me. when I stop and think, "hey, actually, Conker was a long unbroken journey filled with pastiches taken weirdly seriously, featuring a guy who's too tired to really object to the ridiculousness around him," I.. yeah, that definitely had a hand in shaping me as a storyteller. plus, "Nintendo with adult themes" means everything to me. "a game that should not exist" means everything to me. and frankly it is a way more clever video game than it had any right to be.

but. anyway. Conker begins with a pastiche of the opening to A Clockwork Orange. and I will have seen that cutscene a thousand times-- and yet I never got tired of it. the song especially makes it so rewatchable. such class. god, what a song.

.....right, anyway.

the other song referenced in the log is:

the thing is, there is no way Jordan would have known the name of this piece, nor the name of the person who wrote it. by all accounts, he would have just been like "oh yeah, it's That song." and I would have written it that way, but.

there's just no way to fucking casually refer to this song using words. there are, I mean, there are ways to, but those ways would also refer to many other pieces of classical music.

so I took some artistic license. hell, maybe the Legstep first played an audio file of some deep-voice man saying "Good morning. We'll start off this beautiful morning with a classic. This is Edvard Grieg, Morgenstimmung." and so maybe Jordan's words are a shortening of that. that's plausible.

but the point was, Jordan woke up in this gorgeous natural rabbit hole hearing one very specific song. you know the song. I promise you, you do, with 100% certainty.

yeah, you know the one.

I dunno, I thought this was somewhat funny.

it's also a dividing line. before this point, we were still in the San Francisco serial, albeit in a sort of coda to it. after sleeping, we're waking up to some new plotline. a new A-plot.

and that A-plot begins with this song.

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if you're wondering what "synecdoche" is, or "sin-ECK-duh-key," you can google it. or I guess I could just tell you.

it's a specific rhetorical device, one you'll also be familiar with, if not the word for it. it's the use of a Piece in substitution for the Whole. or vice versa, the use of a Whole in substitution for a Piece!

the example I usually know it by is, like. newspaper articles saying "the White House responded to the news..." where "the White House" is used as a Whole, substituting for the Piece (the White House's press response team!). or "Hollywood won't like that..." using "Hollywood" to refer to some specific people within Hollywood.

that's synecdoche! it's rhetoric. it's used in journalism and poetry alike.

this log is titled synecdoche for... some reasons. admittedly I don't entirely remember them all. but the obvious one is the court of the Judge, where he makes his sentence by synecdoche, assigning the same sentence to the individual as to the whole city. it's not fair for making sentences. but the Judge probably isn't all that fair, is he?

alright. see you tomorrow. :)

[sanini-panini]

annnd here's a rewrite of one of the absolute oldest things i've ever written. when i wrote the original version i didn't have a great concept of who ilia was as a character yet, but now that i've got that fleshed out, i thought i'd rewrite her resurgence theme. some elaboration on motifs under the cut:

from 0:06-0:12 the cello plays a motif from the background of jinal's theme (link here) and from 0:16-0:20 it's a motif from the background of the necromancer's theme (link here).

a while back, i decided that these two motifs actually represent karai (who has chosen jinal as her successor) and yaran (who the necromancer ultimately succeeded). and... ilia's story really starts with the fact that she is chained to the tale of karai and yaran no matter how much she wishes otherwise.

from 0:26-0:52 we have two motifs. in the cello is something from haku's theme (link here) and in the piano is ilia's (link here).

this relates to the fact that haku is the one who ultimately forced ilia to choose between being locked in a crystal for a long time or dying and letting the world end. she, uh, obviously chose the former, but she wasn't happy about it. on the other hand, though--this is the beginning of her journey towards settling into the power she was given.

0:56-1:06 you hear a repeat of karai's motif, then haku's, but the third little jingle is actually ilia's shared motif with morgan. saving morgan is the first time ilia uses her full potential--and the first time she is able to rein it back in.

1:07-1:44 there are a lot of things happening:

ilia's motif is in the celesta

the piano plays an out-of-order mashup of both the ennead and new guard melodies (taken from this piece). since both of these melodies are comprised of bits of the motifs for the corresponding characters, this kind of plays into the idea that ilia only really starts to accept her role because it's necessary to keep the others alive.

the bass guitar in the back (which is intentionally difficult to hear) plays four measures on loop: one measure of yaran's motif, then haku's, then karai's, and then a reprise of the piano bit from 0:42-0:48 (which is a representation of ilia's resolve).

1:48 to the end consists entirely of musical material from ilia's character theme (as well as material from the first version of this i wrote) because, well--the point of this song is that ilia finds her own reason to fulfill her role. "maybe i'll be a benevolent god instead" and all that.

[dutchforstrangers]

I really wanna know more about MBTI and Astrology stuff. I just know I am an INFJ and Capricorn…where should ai start?

Hi Eve (:

Ah yes, good old MBTI and Astrology stuff. First of all, both "personality typing systems" really differ from each other even though there are at least 12 types in both systems (and I could try to give every zodiac sign one of the MBTI-codes, but that's not for today).

Astrology is based on the placing of the planets above our head. If you ask anyone about their zodiac or starsign, they will probably name their so called "Sun Sign", which in your case is Capricorn (another Cap! I'm a Capricorn Sun too!). This is the sign most likely everyone knows and associates themselves with, however, if you look at planets typing your personality, you shouldn't be just looking at your Sun Sign.

You could look at your full natal chart, which basically tells you how all the planets are placed above your head at the day, place and time you were born, however, looking at your "Big Three" already tells you a lot! Your Big Three consists of your Sun Sign, your Rising Sign (this is the sign that was on the Eastern Horizon when you were born) and your Moon Sign. Quick explanation:

Sun sign = Identity, who you are from the inside

Rising sign = How others see you, who you look like on the outside

Moon sign = How you emotionally react and make decisions

Of course it's not hard science and it's all very debatable, but it's fun to analyse yourself or even others or characters through this little system! This actually makes me see how bad I have to finish my Digimon Astrology posts someday soon.

If you want more information on how it all works regarding Astrology and like you say in your ask wanna know where to begin, please go to these posts of mine about astrology! I've written three introduction posts and you'll find some interesting and handy information and links to other sites in there (:

As for MBTI... I can talk about this for a while to be honest. I love MBTI, but I also hate it at the same time? It's because I often think people look at it from only the MBTI-perspective and not from the perspective it's actually coming from: psychiatrist and psychologist Carl Gustav Jung and his "cognitive functions system".

I actually wrote about his work in my bachelor thesis. I'm more fond of the cognitive functions, though finding out your MBTI through a simple test, is a great way to start. Actually, I think I might write a full post on MBTI and Jung's cognitive functions in the upcoming weeks and I'll make sure to tag you (fyi, I already typed the DigiDestined with this system, though I haven't published it yet).

Anyway, here are two interesting test that are great to start with when you're new to MBTI and Jung.

16personalities test. I think this might be the most well known MBTI test? It has really nice descriptions of the 16 personalities!

Keys2cognition test. Veeeeeeery elaborate questions and you really have to take your time and reflect on yourself, but it's worth it. I actually used this list for my thesis.

Hope this is helpful! Thanks for the ask <3 I'll make sure tag you once I wrote the MBTI/cognitive functions post (: