#i’m probably autistic

[flawlesspider]

MINDLESS SELF INDULGENCE. Known for many things, Shut Me Up, Jimmy Urines whole thing, and of course their offensiveness.

I don’t think many people realize the whole point of MSI is to be shocking, to piss people off and to entertain.

In a ShockHound interview Steve Righ? said, “when we first started really it was just to screw with as many people as possible”

Sayings “I like the music, not the band!”is understandable yes, I cannot speak for the whole black and queer community, I know why these people don’t want to say that they like the band, but its hard to separate the music and the actual band when it comes to MSI, it’s hard for me to explain.

What I’m trying to get at is I don’t believe Jimmy Urine, or any of the members of Mindless Self Indulgence are genuinely bad people, yes, I know that they have done and said things that aren’t normally okay, but that’s their whole thing. Being offensive.

I know this whole rant is sort of confusing but I hope you know what I’m trying to get at, my wording it fuckin’ awful.

@ilovebeatingmywife

[desmorotu]

vincent’s playlist 🫧 (a glimpse)

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☆ as the world falls down - david bowie (at the Summit, if Lovely was revealed to Vincent instead of greeting guests with him, this would have been the song that played while they made their way to him. just like in the Labyrinth, this song gives that mystical, romantic feel. he’d stare in awe, mouth agape until he swallows thickly or until Sam comes up to close it for him LMAO. he’d chuckle in disbelief, looking deeply into their eyes with his kohl-lined ones and stuttering his words. he’d lick his glossy lips and trace his gaze down. “ex-fucking-scuse me? you look incredible, Lovely.”)

☆ square hammer - ghost (loves the intro, the lyric cadence, the sound of papa’s voice, and especially the thought of seeing it live. he was more of a rocker kind of guy growing up, always adorning band tees and silver chains of some kind. the year he was turned, in fact, was when he was the most into the style part of the subculture. after he turned he had decided to keep most of his piercings, including his triple lobe, helix, eyebrow, and nose ones. he fears that taking them out will heal them immediately because of his power, even if he knows it’s not technically true. he keeps this kind of music near and dear to his heart.)

☆ lovesong - the cure (loves driving to this song. whether it’s sunshine, rain, clear skies or cloudy, this song has to play at least once. he puts on his sunglasses and bobs his head to the beat, glancing over at Lovely often and smiling to himself when they’re doing the same. he plays it when they’re at home doing chores too, having a mini dance party for themselves. they go out to goth clubs often for the same atmosphere and to get new songs on their lists.)

☆ kiss me until my lips fall off - lebanon hanover (loves the bass. he sways his whole body if he chooses to dance, raising his hands above his head and “plucking cobwebs.” he likes reciting the lyrics to Lovely as a silly way to ask for kisses. loves the drums and the deep tone of the vocals, humming it to himself even if he’s not much of a singer.)

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☆ not my type: dead as fuck 2 - motionless in white (“she loves me ‘cause i like to give head like a zombie—eat! eat! eat!—‘til her insides are on me” …those lyrics low key [high key] turn him on and they burn a fiery heat into his chest. as a man with an oral fixation on both the giving and receiving end, the thought of his lover being so desperate to have their mouth on him sends his thoughts into a carnal frenzy. simultaneously, the lyrics make him want to grab Lovely, throw them on any flat surface, and let the lyrics speak for themselves. he always has his mouth on them, whether he’s kissing their neck + shoulders, back, hands, arms, chest, stomach, thighs—anywhere they’ll allow him, really. there’s rarely a time where Lovely doesn’t have hickeys, but it’s not always in a sexual light. he just likes to have his mouth on them.)

☆ dive in - pierce the veil (this song strikes a chord in his heart for a reason he can’t explain; perhaps it’s the piano mixed in with the intense guitar and drums? perhaps it’s because the song goes too fast for him to focus on his thoughts? he plays this in his headphones on full blast when he needs to pay attention to anything other than his mind. his favorite part is the octave jump and the beat drop near the end!)

☆ props and mayhem - pierce the veil (he doesn’t branch out too much when it comes to music, so a lot of his playlist is just ptv. he loves the lyrics and finds solace in them, despite how vic fuentes probably does not understand that he wrote lyrics relatable to a vampire and his supernatural culture. the song strangely reminds him of his last few years as a human. when this song plays, he thinks about the stranger from the Surge line. he hopes they’re peaceful.)

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☆ god complex - violent vira (when he listens to this song, his movements instinctively get more sensual and calculated. it’s not intentional, but the slow feeling of the music brings him to be a more captivating “predator.” sultry eyes, wet lips, and smooth touches often bring Lovely to a state of “aroused confusion,” as they call it. it’s like a switch; as soon as the song’s off, he goes back to normal. in most cases, however, the song ends long before Lovely is done with him. if vincent had a sex playlist, he’d think of adding this song.)

☆ love gun - kiss (SAM SHOWED HIM THIS SONG!! he absolutely loves the sick ass bass line and the cool lyrics. he agrees with sam’s sentiments that paul stanley’s voice is one of the best in rock history. he feels cool as fuck when this song comes on—especially when he’s driving. he drums on the steering wheel and taps his free foot in the floorboard. when he’s able to dance, you bet he most certainly will. he wishes he pursued his talent on the guitar, but he unfortunately no longer practices.)

☆ rosemary - deftones (“TIIIIIME SHIFT.” he loves the build up, the guitar, the seeming desperation in the vocals, and the overall tone of the song. he has to bite his knuckles to shut down the feeling that this song gives him. he breaks out in goosebumps and he loves how full and warm the sound is, especially when listening with headphones. he doesn’t really like how long it is, but it’s a personal preference that he excuses for the “dope ass vibes,” as Lovely likes to say.”

refer to vincent’s playlist cover at the bottom :)

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vincent is honestly the inspiration behind the song association in general, but asher’s song happened to come on while casually listening and i couldn’t help but make his post then and there. this one stays in the same kind of realm of music for the most part; i feel like vincent isn’t a super musical person anymore but he used to really enjoy it and is trying to get back into it. these are just my opinions! in my mind, vincent is on the goth side of things with a mix of a bunch of different musical subcultures thrown in. if you want more, lmk :3 (i will make them anyways, but if you desire a specific character then you need only ask!) @morgansplace

i wanna write mini fics but UGHHH i don’t think my writing is good enough smh. maybe i’ll do it anyways at some point.

k bye 💟

[cheesebeetle]

neurodivergence is bullshit what do you mean i watched [media] and now that’s the only thing i get to think about

[the-real-hank-green]

One time my dad made me hang out with one of his friends kids who was around my age and instead of doing anything fun I walked to a 7/11 with him made him buy a deck of playing cards with his money and then had him play rounds of solitaire while I starred at him and just didn’t explain the rules of solitaire except for saying “you can’t do that” when he eventually broke one of the rules of solitaire. I also kept the deck of playing cards when he left

[mostlyvoid-partiallyflowers]

I’m the worst when I am in the middle of a hyperfixation. Everything I see or hear suddenly becomes about that hyperfixation. I literally have 6 different aftg au’s I want to write now because every time I watch a movie now I immediately want to put the characters in that situation. I love having something I love in my head all the time but I feel like it makes me so annoying to the people around me. Does anyone also do this?

[novacellsblog]

i’m so obsessed with this little guy. o can’t believe i’m having my second spider-man obsession within the same year :D

[0venatrix]

Things that I did/do probably because autism

-Braking down and crying in the first few weeks of schooling

-Not wanting to go to school, not wanting to talk after hard school days, wishing I could just teleport away sometimes

-Struggling to learn math in primary, but doing better with the different teaching methods in high school

-Sitting in the same spot on the school bus

-Having few friends in school

-Being stubborn, sympathy lacking, and very black and white

-Specific environments don’t exhaust me, and when I have to leave them I don’t wanna leave

-Getting bored easily

-Clicking/biting things/drawing a figure 8 with my pointer finger when exited/stressed/randomly, hand gesturing a LOT,

-Narrating what I’m doing, saying things like “Ruh”, randomly making guttural noises

-Tiptoeing, hopping around like a frog, “velocipatoring” down the hallway

-The urge to bite people (this is affection), strong emotions often end up with me feeling some type of angry, laughing when I’m angry and sad

-Pausing between words, not making eye contact/stering into your sole and judging you on the moral plain, not getting sarcasm, thinking REALLY hard about how to interact in specific situations, stuttering when saying lots, talking to slow/fast, changing the tone I speak in

-I cannot the texture of peas

-Being “not hungry enough” to eat yet

-Being obsessed with birds until I was 11, then became interested in the military but didn’t share that interest with anyone because I was scared of being judged

-Very quickly learning things relating to my interests

-Getting confused when people over explained things, needing structure and direction, hating sudden routine changes, wearing the same things/having clothes that are very simlar

-Worrying about very specific details of things, and being impatient because I’m stressed.

-Felling like I wasn’t my self, and that my real self didn’t fit in, trying to fit in.

-I can magically recognise patterns for some reason

-Self doubt and second guessing my self

-Taking forever to get my Ps. (I keep forgetting/avoiding to drive and I haven't got enough hours)

-Feeling weird because I finished school and that’s a major change to my routine and life.

[emon3mo]

I need 2 ten minute presentations done by tomorrow (I barely have any research for either of them done) but no matter what I do I can’t stop thinking about spider man

[chaos-of-the-wilds]

Important thing to know about me is that every time I go to type in any text box on my phone one of the first words always suggested to me is sonic and I think that spells out how rotted my brain is about this blue dweeb

[introvert-slushie]

Currently thinking about how much Ford tries to hide his hands a lot when he can…behind his back with this stance. Due to how often he’s been bullied for it.

And also, how Mabel is one of the ones who Ford feels happy about showing his hands to because she thought they were cool looking upon first shaking his hand, instead of him being judged for his six fingers.

[ID: Gravity Falls screenshots. The first three are of Ford with his hands crossed behind his back. The last two are of him shaking hands with Mabel, and letting her paint a turkey on his hand. He's smiling in both. End ID.]

[redactedonyt]

Y’all ever have like an art idea like FEEDING on your brain but you don’t want to work on it cause you can do it later and have more fun with it?

Or is that just me-

Also expect one of those really detailed art things at some point, I’m slowly adding to it.

[flawlesspider]

I was gonna try and my my blog look silly and aesthetically pleasing but nah, I’m gonna talk shit and rant about MSI

[endmylifelad]

Okay, I like silence. Prefer it. Especially after being around a lot of people and there is loud nonstop talk.

Except when it’s just my mom and I. Woman never talks to me. I always have to start a conversation. When she does it’s to ask something of me or fight.

Last night we were driving back from dinner at my dads place, and as usual it’s quiet. I’m fidgety, still a bit wound up from having a job interview and then hired in the same day. So I want to talk cuz I know she won’t and I need to just get the jitters out.

And what do I say?

You’d think I would talk about the job, the details, all that good stuff.

But what do I say instead?

“Did you know Hitler has five descendants?”

“Yeah. They’ve all but got a whole new identities and decided to end the family line, last I heard.”

What the fuck me.

And then when it was going quiet again, just-

��There was a trial a bit ago for a nazi guard. Whole trial the guy covered his face.”

…

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!

I HAVEN’T EVEN WATCHED OR READ OR ANYTHING ABOUT THAT SHIT!

I mean the only thing that could possibly spur my mouth to spew that was me thinking, very briefly, about a book I really liked called Night by Elie Wiesel. BRIEFLY. Was thinking about what I want to get or checkout at a library.

Other than that?

Not a clue.

[symbiotic-slime]

eddie freaking out over his neighbour’s music will always be peak overstimulation rep to me

like this is literally how it feels

[dirtmossart]

I love femmes.. another experience I had recently

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[somewandomnoobtalks]

hello dungeon meshi fandom