#i’m so loney

[kaiscumsock]

evan peters airport aesthetic

[theartsanityshoppe]

Found Family

[iwouldriskitall]

and eventually i would realize

that it didn’t matter how hard i tried

i would be never good enough

never smart enough

never pretty enough

never talented enough

because after i lost my sanity to please your demands

the invisible scale of perfection in which you used to measure me would change

and enough still wasn’t good enough

but i won’t realize until it’s far too late

and i am far too hollow

to be anything but empty and never enough

-memoirs of a perfectionist

[finnthenoodle360]

welp, guess who’s sitting here reading star wars hurt comfort fanfiction.

me

it’s me i am

just want someone to run their fingers through my hair and tell me it’ll all be okay :,)

[ol-blue]

i hate being the last one to sleep

[theold-ultraviolence]

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It’s sensitive girl hours idk if it’s because I’m exhausted from the whole year and specifically this week but

Tonight is just one of those nights when I’m feeling dread and so, so lonely. The thing is, I made two friends irl this year and it’s like — i’m feeling like I may opened up too soon or given too much too soon. Cause lately I’ve been kinda feeling like their interactions have changed. Idk if it’s me being paranoid but, it’s changed. And I don’t know it got me thinking like maybe I’m too much for people. In general.

I’m too shy, too serious, too awkward, too intimidating, too much of everything. Too busy, too stressed and tired. I open up too soon or too late. I’m Too giving sometimes. And people either take advantage of it or they just go away. Or only want one bit of me and not the whole thing. But I always end up feeling like I don’t really fit in anywhere. And i’m not anyone’s first choice in anything, ever. Like not even exaggerating, it is a fact. I’m not even my best friend’s first choice, I know that. I’m always the one reaching out to friends to try to do something, I’m never asked first and it would be nice to feel considered sometimes. Finding reciprocity is so hard. Both in friends and a partner. The latter just being unrealistic at this point lol. By now I don’t think that’s ever gonna happen, as dramatic as it sounds. For once I just wanna feel like I’m someone’s first choice. Like someone won’t think I’m too much of anything. I’m just tired of feeling so lonely all the time.

I watch everyone around me being in happy relationships and going out with friends and while I’m happy for them it’s always like — Here I am watching all of that while I’m alone in my bedroom with only my phone to keep me company. I haven’t even been like, kissed or touched, ever. EVER. I think my whole body would go into overdrive if i was but it seems impossible, honestly. I’m just so tired, and so loney.

[lov3rsrck]

COWBOY LIKE ME |

Chapter one: You Did What?!

Mattheo Riddle × Hufflepuff!OC

Series trope: Fake Dating

Chapter one summary: Things go down between Cordelia and Hermione when it’s revealed that Hermione sent out Cordelia’s love letter to her ex-crushes

Warning: none I think

Author's note: I will be writing in primarily 3rd person, but if I do write in first person, I’ll put it before the chapter begins. Comment if you'd like me to tag you when the next one goes up.

I’m so excited to finally write this story!! Enjoy reading and feel free to give me helpful criticism :)

Overall masterlist | series masterlist | chapter two: (coming soon)

Mattheo had never noticed her before, she wasn't the type of person to draw other’s eyes. Until today that is. Until that note. Well, love letter.

CORDELIA HAD NEVER meant for them to actually be sent to the boys, she only wrote the letters to stop crushing on them. And it worked.

Cordelia was walking down the hall with Hermione when she saw it. The small envelope in Cedric’s hand. And…oh god… he was walking towards them.

“Hermione,” she grabbed her arm to stop her, “what is that?” she questioned, despite knowing all too well what was in the older boy's hand.

“Oh.” was all Hermione said. Cordelia pulled Hermione in the opposite direction of her older housemate and into an empty classroom.

“Hermione. How did he get that?!” they weren't supposed to read those. Plus, she didn't even like Cedric anymore. She had a small crush on him in 3rd year, but so did almost every girl in Hufflepuff.

“So…” Hermione started. “About the letters.” Her hand found her own arm, rubbing it anxiously.

No. She didn't. Cordelia thought.

“Mione–please tell me you did–” Hermione cut her off,

“I may or may not have sent them out…”

Cordelia stood still, not knowing what to do now. Well, there was one thing she could do.

“Hermione Granger!” she ran at the girl, Hermione running around the desks in the half-lit room. “You did what?!”

“Why would you do that to me!?” Cordelia shrieked out

Hermione ran behind the professor’s desk, Cordelia standing on the opposite side of it, “you seemed loney,” she explained, “I thought maybe this could help you get a boyfriend, or even just another friend.” Hermione ran around the desk and out of the classroom, Cordelia right behind her.

“I am not lonely!” Cordelia yelled at her, but Hermione was already down the hallway.

“I’m sorry Cordi!” Cordelia, out of breath from chasing Hermione, stood in the hallway in dismay, not sure what she was going to do next.

How was she ever going to show her face again? Cordelia knew Cedric was going to tell the whole hufflepuff house about her love letter and everyone was gonna think that she was some freak.

Cordelia jumped when a voice broke her panicked thoughts.

“Can we talk?” Cordelia turned around at the unfamiliar voice to come face to face with none other than…

Mattheo Riddle…

Overall masterlist | series masterlist | chapter two: (coming soon)

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Coming out as trans to Genshin characters (bc I have new characters added ,also gn reader)

Fybjbknjjkjjhhjjkj thank y’all so much for 56 followers and all the support I’ve been getting recently ♥ Also commissions are open

characters : Aether and Jean (separate) (yes I did the overworked duo)

I’ve done : Amber ,Kaeya ,Venti ,Heizou ,Ningguang and Zhongli (linked in my master list

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Aether

When you discovered your identity ,you wanted to tell your boyfriend ,but the problem is ,he is constantly stressed and has work constantly put on him even when he doesn’t offer to help ,but the problem is he doesn’t know how to say no.

You wanted to tell him ,but you were scared this would put some stress on him or make him dislike you. So you kept it in until it ‘felt right’ to say it ,but then days turned into weeks into months and you haven’t even try to hint it.

This was until one day your dysphoria was horrible that day and you couldn’t take it anymore ,you let all your tears out and all your thoughts were attacking you ,you couldn’t escape it no matter how hard you battled ,its still just there and you can’t escape it.

until you heard

*Opens door* “(____) I’m home! “ said your boyfriend extremely excited to see you ,but ….where exactly are you? Until he heard

“*sniff* Hey (pet name) . Glad your back home” you said behind a closed door

“Babe is everything.. ok?” Aether said concerned wondering what was going on ,he always told you if you have a problem tell him ,he will solve it .Maybe you thought he was too busy for you ,maybe he didn’t give enough attention to you, maybe you.. don’t love him anymore? He instantly disagreed with the last one

But still what were you hiding from him?

He opened the door to se you disheveled and in tears on the floor of your shared bedroom.

“Babe! Are you ok? Is there a problem? Please tell me ,I will help you with anything ,I promise!” He asked well in a panic

“Y-yeah I’m fine A-Aether ,noo need to worry” you said clearly not fine

“I can see your lying to me (____) ,please tell me the truth ,I won’t judge you.” He said from a loud to quiet tone

“W-well ,*sigh*…….” You explained how you had been feeling recently and how it was affecting you ,but how you didn’t want him to worry.

“(___) I had no idea you’ve been feeling this way ,honey you know I will help you with anything and that you have my full support ” he said well snuggling into your neck

“Is there anyway I can help? Maybe getting clothing ,but then I need to schedule and think of the windblume festival and-“

“Aether I appreciate this ,but having you be with me is enough”

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Jean

You loved your girlfriend Jean ,but it always feels loney .Since she’s busy with paper work and your busy with (————-) so the two of you barely see each other ,which made it hard to process in the relationship ,but you two found a way.

recently you found out your transgender and were excited and nervous to tell your girlfriend. That was until, you realized that if you wanted to do that ,you would have to be awake at basically 3 am to see an overworked Jean. You instead decided to do it on an off day.

You also wanted this to be surprise for Jean ,because she is overworked and this is probably only one off day in the year ,so you decided to get her something.

There was one person you knew that would probably know around when she gets her off day. Barbara ,that’s because Barbara is Jean’s sister. So she would also know what to get for Jean.

The day had came where it was her off day

“Jean ,(insert pet name) ,guess what special day it is?” You say waking up next to her

“Mhmm I don’t know if remember ,but you seem more excited about this ,so that means it’s a good day for us or just you” she says drowsily

“Yep! Let’s get breakfast then go to the Windrise tree !”

‘Ok ok ,let me just get dressed ok?” She asks

“Ok Jean” you said

you wait for about 30 minutes ,until she came out in her summer uniform which is good ,because it was a hot day today

the both of you enjoyed your breakfast and ,after lots of catching up the both of you were already there.

“Jean I have something to tell you” you asked quietly “Yes anything honey.” She responded

“Well Recently I’ve found out that I think I’m a (preferred gender) and would appreciate if you call by __/__ pronouns instead ,if you don’t wanna date me anymore that’s fine.“

She was shocked at that last part ,because why would she leave you? You are one of the bests thing she has in her life. “(____)….. I didn’t know you felt that way ,but always know I will support you for who you are. And will definitely will help you on this journey. I would never leave you for who you are and you are one of the bests things I have in my life”

you look at her in awe ,until saying a very quite ,but happy ‘thank you

she grabs you into a hug and you both cuddle

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thank you for reading and ,thank you all so much for the support :’D

[snakegorl212006]

Down the Rabbit hole

Staying in NRC is NOT an option anymore. I need to leave. Pronto. Niomi offered to help by getting in contact with a friend about buying a house in the city of the royal swords. As much as I'd love to move as soon as possible, there’s something in the way for me to move. Money. It must be pricey to live on the other side of town. So I have to find some stable way of living sence my boss is dead now. I needed some fresh air so I just grabbed my laptop ,phone, and chargers for both as well as some money to go to a cafe in Heartslabyul. It’s on the border of ramshackle and has the freshest and the most delicious treats and desserts. It'll definitely cheer me up. I entered the cafe and sat at a loney table. I flipped on my laptop and searched through jobs to help rack some money to buy a house. More jobs i see more dangerous the areas. I’m definitely not working anywhere in Heartslabyul, savanaclaw will eat me alive….“Excuse me” a voice spoke which made me jump slightly. I must’ve been so focus on the screen to see him coming over “what would you like to order” He asked as he swirled his orange hair. I told him my order as he wrote it down on a notepad “are you new. I don’t believe I’ve seen you before” he asked “oh i wouldn't call myself a regular but i come here occasionally” i replied “I’m cater. I work here occasionally myself and I must say it’s nice to see some new faces.” Cater said with a charming smile “well it’s nice to meet you” i replied “oh let me get that order for you right away.” cater said as he excused himself. I continue busying myself in trying to find a job…."why don't you work over here" cater spoke,making me jump again "well… My last boss just got murdered so if I become some risk by breaking some unspoken rule, count me out" i replied "hmmm…. i'm close with the owner.  Trey knows a lot of ,what you'll call, higher ups" cater smiled then he wrote something down "here take my number so we can chat k" he winks "ok thank you" i smiled as he walked away. Perhaps I would take the offer but I want nothing to do with Heartslabyul. My search was fruitless, nothing suited my talents and preferences so I decided to call it a day. When I began to pack up,my bag ended up falling to the floor, spilling cards. Weird…I don't remember having a deck of cards in my bag. In the middle of these cards is an envelope well sealed. I cleaned up the card deck and placed them on the table while taking the envelope with me back home. Once i reached my apartment i opened the seal to reveal a invitation...

First name last name 

I formally invited you to a private party happening tomorrow within the roseheart manor.You may find it strange, even a little bit odd for someone of prestige status to invite someone like yourself. Surely you’ve seen the news despite what little information the police has given, I know you were the one who survived the attack in the heart’s tower during a mock unbirthday party. Thus you’ve sparked my interest and so I wish to chat with you personally. I truly wish for you to attend my little gathering because I feel we have much in common.A survivor to another i do hope we’ll find comfort within each other and maybe become close companions.

Transportation will be provided and outfits which you can choose from if you can’t afford a high class suit/dress. 

See you at the unbirthday party 

-Riddle Roseheart

[journeytomonkiekid]

I know its way too early in their relationship, expecially after what happend now, but god, the way they are both missing social clues and how Mac went "wtf she saved me i guess she is not angry anymore" (+ the fact they are both loney and had bad relationships in the past) i feel like the second they will catch romantic feelings is gonna take them AGES of mutual pinning.

HDHDHDB IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY THAT PEOPLE REALIZE THEYRE NOT ROMANTICALLY INVOLVED YET

Also I’m glad you caught the “she saved me, so everything is fine, right?” Kinda thing bc I was so worried no one would 😭

BUT YEAH man, Mac’s got a LONG road ahead of him when it comes to re-building trust

[carnivoreofthesea]

in your swap AU; how does pike wizard/amber, slime wizard/goobert and most importantly (the precious and need to be protected) lonely wizard would look like ?

are they now grimora's pupils now or still with mags but they are now undead ?

HI OK IM SO EXCITED TO ANWSER THIS BECAUSE I AM SOOO SO NORMAL ABOUT IT HEHAHDJAKDJADJ!!!

THERES A LOTOF STUFF UNDER THE CUT

So with magmento (mags), I did originally plan to have his pupils be in the crypt but it was getting too long. They're grimmoras pupils traits, But they have His students names and a few key features.

Pike wizard -> Decapitated Scholar

"Do not pity me, It was all worth my while."

Being a mortician before she died, She had made new ways to cremate the dead and be preserved longer. However she ended up dying from a mixture of chemical poisoning after inhaling some of the ingredients used in said embalming and an unfortunate accident. Her skin had become more frail and she had restered her head on one of the spikes on her fence. Poor baby got impailed without even realising it :[. She hopes that she could use her body to make a less deadly way of preservation, To no avail yet. She looks pretty similar to normal Amber but instead of a helmet she wears a mourning veil! Also her little spike is a singular fence post that looks a lot more fancy. She has the same concept as Amber, Hurting herself to be more appreciated by her scrybe (although its more the concept of death she was trying to pay respects to) and still being in servitude when the player comes.

Goobert (my baby boy <3) -> Goo pile

"Please, Please! Arghhhh... Battle me! I'm promise I am more than just a gnarled mess!"

Died in a horrible accident, Something that contorted and squished him past being recognized. His death was more famous than the life he lived, So now he strives to be remembered for something other than his death! He's trying so hard, please just give him affection :[. a lil kissie on the head for always trying new things and working to be good at them! He looks pretty similar to goobert, if not more. Gross <3. I’M SORRY BUT HE WOULD BE NASTY… He would be a pile of just random sludge and liquids, if you’re lucky you could find bits of melted skin? Purrrhapes his ghostly body would piece itself together but even then he would look like a nasty little pile of grossness. I love you babay… but you are nasty.. I would still hold him though!! Just put the goofy goober in a jar again please.

Lonely wizard (ALSO MY BABAY!!) -> Loney Dominguez

"PLAY A GAME! PLEASE?! I need something to do!"

He was quite young when he died, Being a coma was terrible considering he was such a rambunctious kid! He couldnt see or hear or move, but he could feel his body and think. Even when he died, Magmento trapped him in his coffin out of fear. He's not good with kids... Especially ones that are 6 FEET TALL. That may have been related to his death but I haven't decided yet. Also think of just a huge coffin that's hidden away under the main room, the player finds it and he’s just like. “Oh yeah, that's the crazy kid, He bites. I think.” And then you just see the coffin violently shake and scream. He has normal anatomy and would just be a very VERY rotting body. Like yes, he has formed, just melty and turning into goop. Maybe a few bugs live with him so he isn’t as lonely… Also think it would be funny if he still had a hyper fixation about wizards out of spite. Let my baby like his wizards damnit.

James cobb -> James Hobbes

"Oh neat. A player, Let's do it."

A mellow player who died... How did he die? His tombstone says he drowned but he doesn't have any signs of it like the others do. In fact he might even tell you that it's fake. He won't tell you how he actually died but as long as it solves the puzzle who cares? He's probably the most normal guy you'll meet, Also is very tired. Like. let the guy nap. please. strangely modern. Uses slang and sometimes makes suggestive comments but he's a baby girl for that. He’s actually a fairly healthy corpse, Only slightly pale and occisonally goes stiff. His hands are deathly cold but at least his hair is still a bright red. Good for him! Good for him :].

GRIMETHS ARE SO SILLY PDSUIAUFHIUFHW MANIC LAUGHTER

James Cobb -> Kaycee Cobb

“Don’t you wonder what’ll happen? C’mon, I wanna find out.”

IM TALKING F. R. E. AY KAYYYY. SHE IS MY FAVORITE CAN YOU TELL BATTING MY EYELASHES SO MUCH WHEN I TALK ABOUT HER. ANyways she’s the sillayest wizard ever. She doesn’t take herself seriously and just straight up tells the player that she enjoys being stuck in there. Its literally her dream and she uses magic to fuck herself up. She can finally have gender goals of occasionally turb herself into whatever the fuck she wants! Don't like feeling of skin? SIMPLY BECOME A SKINLESS BEING FOR A LIL! god i love her sm… She definitely indulges in the whole wizard shit and has a whole over the top outfit. other than that still very greasy <3

Lonely wizard -> Royal Wizard (GOD I LOVE HIM)

“YARGGGG! WATCH ME SKILLS, YE LANDLUBBER!!”

Oh my god. Peek tism. Category five tism events. He's a pirate obsessed wizard who has a problem with summoning things. Specifically. a ford f150. vehicular manslaughter never ends. He's very confident in his skills and thinks he should be a head wizard or at the very least a card, However he can only do a few spells… God he’s so silly I love him. He's a low poly pirate that I’m thinking of making black. give mah boy some pirate dreads!!! Why? Because IT LOOKS COOL. Anyways he locked away in a ship in a bottle by Grimeth as a “final test”. He's never getting out.

Goobert -> Stinking mass

“Ohhhh… Yes… Perhaps I’ll cast a spell that will finally make me disappear..”

Oughhh… Gender dysophoria baby… I love you poor baby. Turned himself into a pile of… Something? Honestly he doesn't even know. His final test is to turn back, And he’s trying real hard! The thing is, It would probably be easier if he was going to transform into who originally was but he didn't like how liked he looked… He wants to transform into something better to prove himself to be better than how he looked. god my baby. i need to hold him.

Bone lord -> Eye.

Need I say more? Its a painted eye in a black room that speaks in fucking wing dings.

[hwashotcheeto]

Hello, you don’t know me…I tend to lurk and read your posts (I’m 20 turning 21 soon so🤷🏾‍♀️) but I saw your post where you said even living is exhausting for you rn. I will say this;

As a person who secretly struggles with mental health problems it’s hard. Going into little slumps or feeling down for a while is soooo hard and I feel like people who don’t struggle don’t understand how hard it actually is. It disturbs your entire life and routine and pulling your self out of a depressive state is difficult.

Feeling alone is such a hard feeling no matter how many people in your life say that they are there. It’s hard. I said I secretly struggle because my family doesn’t know the full problem because I know they won’t understand/ won’t be understanding. My friends aren’t always super understanding either. So yeah it’s hard.

I’ve found ways to help pull myself out though and maybe me sharing some of my solutions might help you if you are open and willing to give it a chance.

Try doing old hobbies you love but haven’t had the time for. If you work, take off a day or two and have a self care day. Whatever that consists of for you. Whether it be getting you nails done or going shopping or just sitting in your room watching tv.

Something I like doing to ground myself a bit is sitting outside or opening my curtains and the window and just breathing in the air and looking at how beautiful nature is. Even the rain makes me feel at peace sometimes. But sitting and breathing in and smelling the air helps me a bit. Try don’t to think about stressful things while doing this. Think about stuff that makes you happy like a pet or something.

A good cry also helps too. But all in all, no matter how alone you feel always know there is someone rooting for you. No matter how alone you feel there is at least one person in your corner. With that one person anything is possible. Pull yourself up for YOU though. Change your mentality for YOU. There has been so many times I’ve caught myself slipping back into that hole.

Maybe this is off topic from your post but…I felt the need to share this.

I’ll label myself as 🫐(blueberry anon…ig) so you know it’s me. If you ever read this…novel I wrote😭😭. But goodl luck and you are loved from any angle you look. It might look black and grey and loney from your angle but from behind the curtain, you are loved dearly. Idk you personally but yeah…🙂

Blueberry Anon, it does mean the world that you went out of your way to type all that out for me. Thank you very much. 💜

[matchnightt]

OP UR SO SICK AND TWISTED FOR THE TEXT EFFECTS ON FUCK YOU AND YOUR LONEY IM SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP I KNOW I SENT THE SALTON SEA ASK BUT HEY!!!!

OW!!!!! (I’m in love with you)

Omg hi anon I’m in love with you too!!😭

my thought process on that part was that yknow—Charles extended his contract but he probably wants to say “fuck you and your money. I’m tired of your money” so it’s all distorted. that’s the only part that I think doesn’t really match up with Charles.. but at the same time it kinda does??? Idk I’m just a guy!!

[purplecraze]

Beauty and the Beast AU 26

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:04 AM

Narancia yawned again, and this time he slighty open the door, to check if the other was back to his regular self

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:04 AM

the door is jammed.

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:05 AM

"...Did that dumbass felled asleep on the door?"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:05 AM

boyfriend on the floor, blocking your door.

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:06 AM

He sighed, boyfriend was a dumbass indeed

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:06 AM

yup. but you love him.

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:07 AM

He sure did... Oh well! He got back in the bed, time to catch up some hours of sleeping, he just wished he could managed to give a blanket to the other

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:07 AM

not without waking him, no. time for back ache.

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:10 AM

Nara sleept for some more hours, and then checked the door "Wakey wakey princess, i would like to eat breakfast"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:11 AM

"hmgg💢" weak complained, but you can move the door a little further.

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:11 AM

He giggled "Is the floor comfy my love?"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:12 AM

"...............................................................woah!" he sat up, seeming shocked. "Why am I here??"

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:14 AM

He shrugged "Night you felt loney i guess. is ok i kept the door close, im not that dumb, but we chatted a bit- well, i chatted, you were more like 'ushaaaa', you were sassing e even like that"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:15 AM

"........." he checked the state of the door. "really didn't pull my punches this time...."

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:16 AM

"Yep" he laughed "I was like 'sorry fugo i cant let you in' and you were making sad puppy noise and then punching the door"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:16 AM

He grit his teeth. "This is bad....."

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:18 AM

"Nh..i immagined you would say that"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:18 AM

"Seems I was actively looking for you...."

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:18 AM

"I guess you were feeling alone"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:19 AM

".......I'm sorry. I should keep more distance.."

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:20 AM

"Ehy its ok" He pouted his cheek "C'mon let go eat some breakfast since we are up"

and opened the door, still in his PJ and coat

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:21 AM

"......?" he looked him over, staring at him.

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:22 AM

"Oh yeah- im using it as a vest-" he giggled awkardly "Its a bit too big to wear it with the rest of my clothes"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:23 AM

He blinked for a moment, trying to figure when and where he had taken that. he was fine with him having it, though, so he didn't question it.

He got up. "err, yes. breakfast.... we were going to make pasta..."

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:24 AM

"Not for breakfast" he snorted "We can eat some more jam and if you want i can make some eggs!"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:27 AM

"hm, sure...." he strut off towards the stairs, seeming rather lost in thought.

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:27 AM

"Yaay!" He happily trotted down the stairs, even if the weird sleeping patten, he was still somehow energetic, and got in the kitchen

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:29 AM

He followed him, on a distance. though seeing him dart around still warmed his heart.

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:30 AM

"Wakey wakey, bacon and eggy" He singed more to himslelf, cracking the eggs on a pan

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:31 AM

"that doesn't rhyme..." he sat down after taking the bread and jam, keeping an eye on him.

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:32 AM

"Wakey wakey dont be a grumpy asshole" he said back

"What you want to drink? I can make some tea or more juice or dunno, milk?"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:33 AM

"tea would be nice, thank you..." searching for something to do that wasn't stare at the other, he fixed up some of the bruises he had gained over night.

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:35 AM

"Ok dear!" And grabbed the kettle

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:36 AM

"....?" he sucked up some air. ".............Narancia?"

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:36 AM

"Yes?"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:36 AM

"uhm..... I was thinking that-...

....would you mind switching rooms?"

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:37 AM

"Umh...i guess is not a problem, i dont have a lot of stuff to move, but why?"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:38 AM

"I think it would be better for the both of us if I staid there instead, during the night."

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:39 AM

"Ah...im not sneaking out anymore if its what worries you"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:40 AM

"no, it isn't....just, uhm.......... my parents room is full of junk, but my brother's room is on the far other side of the castle. you could sleep better."

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:42 AM

"Oh- ehy is not that big of a problem ok? I get my sleep with some naps and such- also probsbily we will both get a better sleeping patten when the winter ends"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:43 AM

"......" he frowned, looking off and muttering something.

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:44 AM

"Mh? Whats wrong Panna?" he asked sighing "Is because of tonight?"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:44 AM

He nodded, not looking at him.

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:45 AM

"Then, if it makes you feel more safe, we could do that"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:46 AM

well, not quite, but. "just-........I don't want you to have to hear all that. it's humiliating."

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:47 AM

"A-Ah its because i said you sounded like a puppy? I-I meant that in a cute way- sorry-"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:48 AM

"No, not that! I sound like--... like an absolute maniac! like I'm out to murder you! It's disgusting and I hate it! and if I can't stop it, I'd at least prefer it to be far away from you!"

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:51 AM

"Nh..Panna you sounds more in pain than anything to be honest, and if chatting with you at night helps a bit, i dont mind it"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 12:51 AM

"Well, I do!"

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 12:53 AM

"We will switch rooms then" He sighed

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 1:06 AM

".....okay..." he replied a lot more docile. he was actually taken aback by his own bitey response. He didn't mean for it to go like that.. he just... wanted to protect the other...

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 1:10 AM

Narancia poured the tea and plated the egg with the bread and jam, sitting down

"I will start to pack my stuff later then"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 1:12 AM

he nodded a bit. "I--..... sorry... that came out wrong..."

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 1:13 AM

"Its ok, you are just worried!" And took a bite

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 1:14 AM

"........" he stared at the plate, embarrassed with himself, not knowing what to reply.

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 1:15 AM

"C'mon, eat something, its bad to skip breakfast" he smiled a bit

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 1:19 AM

he nodded a bit, stirring listlessly through his egg. "....I- ... I want this place to be-... I want you to feel at home here. I don't want to limit you to one room. I want you to sleep carelessly at night.. I don't want to burden you having to worry about me, like some invalid who needs looking after.... I don't want to end up scaring or chasing you off..."

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 1:21 AM

"Panna, look, is a bit weird here, with magic and everything, but im sure this is the most at home i felt on years" he gived another smile, more sincere

"and i understand, if it makes more safe then i will switch room, is not a big of a deal ok?"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 1:23 AM

he sighed, not too satisfied, but not quite knowing what else he'd want either...

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 1:24 AM

"Ehy, is a bit of a sticky situation, but we will learn how to navigate it" And ate some of his egg

"You arent used to have people in your house and im not used to magic stuff and everything else, but we will figure out"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 1:27 AM

he peeked at him. "yeah, I guess so..." he took a bite of the food, somehow feeling like he didn't deserve to after his behavior.

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 1:30 AM

"Mhh, i will move my stuff and then we will try to cook pasta!"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 1:31 AM

"alright. uhm.. do you need any help?"

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 1:32 AM

"If you want! I dont have a lot to move tho, beside my bag, some clothes and some stuff i found around the house, mostly junk, but i like to try to fix it"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 1:34 AM

"if there's anything you've taken a liking to in there, we can move that too."

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 1:35 AM

"Mhhh i guess for now the stuff in the bedroom is fine"

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 1:36 AM

"okay. " he ate on. "I'll check if everything is intact in the other room too."

orange-plane-boy — 09/22/2021 1:38 AM

"Ok!" He finished to eat and drinked some of the tea, it was really sweet, he added a bit more sugar, hoped fugo didnt minded

purplecraze — 09/22/2021 1:39 AM

he didn't seem to notice, at least. but it did seem to calm him down.

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[osric-giroux-ffxiv]

Burning the Page

There was no funeral for Kenward Slater.

His body had been seen to by two rather official looking Elezen gentlemen, and as far as Osric knew - from what Edalene had told him after he’d arrived back in Ishgard - the body had been buried in an unmarked grave somewhere out in the western highlands. 

Fitting, that the man who did so much to remain in the shadows should be buried out in the middle of nowhere to be forgotten.

Osric sighed, slipping his hands into his pockets as he glanced out the window of his sister’s study, watching the snow fall steadily outside. 

“Brooding? I thought the whole purpose of that meeting you just had to have was to get over this whole ‘grumpy broody boy’ bit you had going on’.”

He glanced over his shoulder, narrowing his eyes at his sister for moment before turning to look back out the window once again.

“Nothing? No? Really? Guess I’m just going to have to try harder then. Coffee?”

“If you’re going to throw insults at me, then yes, please.”

“Not insults, Ozzy boy, just truths. Stop thinking so hard, you’re going to hurt yourself.” She grinned, pouring herself a cup of coffee before pouring a second cup and offering it out to him.

He turned, leveling her with an irritated stare before moving to the couch to take a seat and taking the offered cup. He turned the cup between his hands for a moment before setting it down on the coffee table and glancing up at her, appearing contemplative. “...Can I ask you a question, Edalene?”

She shrugged, taking a seat in the chair across from him and taking a sip from her mug as she sat down. “Telling you no has never stopped you before, brother dearest. If I don’t want to I won’t answer. So ask away.”

He reached out, turning the mug on the table for a moment before looking across at her, “Before…at the beginning of the year-”

“Oh, you mean before we stopped speaking…again.”

“Yes…then. The last time we spoke you said it changed nothing, Kenward being our father. And I know I wasn’t in a place to hear it but…I think I am now.”

It was her turn to sigh. 

She sat up, reaching out and setting her mug on the table.

“Knowing the truth…it didn’t make those nights when you were forced to stay in the back while the rest of the family ‘entertained’ any easier. They didn’t make the comments from other families any less painful. They didn’t take away those loney days or those times you were berated for simply being…there. Knowing didn’t make mother’s behavior any easier to accept, or any more understandable. Regardless of who your father was - who our father was, you were still her son.”

She stood, walking around to the other side of the table to sit down next to Osric, elbowing him as she sat. 

“Ow!”

“Oh shut up, you big baby you’re fine. You’ve been looking for this magic answer for why you grew up the way you did. Why we grew up the way we did, and the answer is that our parents were just really selfish people, Osric. There’s no rhyme or reason to it.”

“Don’t know if that makes me feel better or worse.”

Edalene shrugged and reached out for her coffee mug. “Well, I mean, you’re still technically a bastard, if that makes you feel any better.”

“It does not, Edalene.”

“I was just saying…”

Osric hummed, picking up his mug with his right hand, flexing his left hand carefully as he took a sip of coffee. 

“He…also mentioned a will, of mother’s?”

Edalene scoffed. “That thing? What about it?”

He turned to glance at his sister, turning his mug between his hands. “Well, the fact that there was one, I take it from your response that you’re not planning on signing things back over to me then?”

“Do you want me to?”

“Fury no.”

That earned him an amused grin before Edalene took a long sip from her mug. With a satisfied hum she reached out, setting her cup down on the table before leaning back against the couch.

“I found mother’s will a couple of years after you left, Osric. There were a few things about what was supposed to go to who, and yes there were a few details that would have involved you - but you were gone, and you’d made it clear that you wanted nothing to do with the family business at that point, I wasn’t going to bring you back into something you wanted nothing to do with.”

She pointed to herself. “Annoying younger sibling. Not cruel.”

“You’re not even that annoying most of the time…”

“Aw, one might think that you were starting to miss me or something Ozzy.”

“...don’t press your luck Edalene.”

“I have to, just a little bit.” She glanced over before reaching up to poke the side of her brother’s head. “What happened happened, Osric, there’s nothing you or I, or anyone else could have done to stop it or change it. We’re who we are because of it. It’s done - Kenward, Mother, ‘father, Breakpoint, all of it. Let it go and be done with it. You still have that ‘family book’.”

“Aye.”

She motioned towards the fireplace. 

“Let it burn and start your own damn book.”

She stood, walking over to one of the cabinets behind her desk, grabbing two glasses and a bottle. She walked those over, setting them on table before wandering out of the room for a moment. 

Osric glanced over the back of the couch, watching her go curiously trying to figure out what, exactly, his sister was up to.

He continued to wonder until she returned, holding out what appeared to be a blank journal. He quirked an eyebrow, tilting his head as he looked up at her.

“I keep them around for work notes - this one is for you, and before you ask, no I didn’t go rummaging through you things, so you’re going to need go get that damn book if we’re going to watch it burn this evening. So off you go, trade them out, and yes - I will be checking them when you get back.”

He thought she was joking - until she started poking him to get him moving up off the couch and towards the room he was staying in. She did check when he returned to make sure he brought the book, and that evening as the snow continued to pour outside they sat at watched the book holding the ‘official record’ of their family history burn while enjoying good bourbon and quiet conversation.

He left the next morning with an empty book waiting to be filled.