#i've felt this with so many interaction but now i just was in the mood to post ab it

[woennix]

IM SO HAPPY AHHH

I've been losing my mind with all the qsmp-related interactions but this makes me so happy bc Charlie is so passionate ab dnd and ttrpgs and seeing them meeting and him being inspired by Cellbit is so nice IDK ITS SO COOL

the qsmp really is something else man, uniting communities and languages

[mrs-weasley-reid]

JULY REC FICS

Hello, my sweets!! I wanted to try something out to provide my full and utter support to all the amazing writers I've come across in the form of monthly rec fics (starting this month). Join me in giving them love through comments and reblogs. It really is a joy to hear how you're doing as a writer. It makes up for all the angst we write lol

I will be going based on what I've read recently and not by the date the fic was posted. And the number of fics will depend on how much I've read the entire month. Also, please respect these writers. Some contents are 18+, so MINORS should not be interacting in any way, especially when the authors themselves specify it.

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Spencer Reid

✿ a question unasked by @easy-there-leftovers ↳ SOOOO ADORABLE. I'm a workaholic craze gal, so it speaks to me on a silly level.

✿ missing the happy hormone by @lavenderspence ↳ I'm a sucker for Spencer fluff this month, what can I say? This fic Tina made had my waterworks going on for about a minute because it's so sweet

✿ desk duty by @reiderwriter ↳ All you have to know is the amount of evil laugh I made while reading this

✿ the theory of love by @ophelia-is-complex ↳ Genuine intimacy is quite a challenge to write, but THIS ONE, this one had me in a sappy mood

✿ like nothing matters by @cerisereids ↳ gagged and had to pause the reading so many times because HELLO— had me spiraling at work

✿ the devils disguise by @qlossytbh ↳ I said I sobbed a little bit, but I actually cried so much I ended up taking a nap and felt better afterward. It's all fluff, though, don't get me wrong. I'm just very dramatic when the red devil's on the clock

✿ not so funny by @reidmania ↳ Angsty, that made me wanna start a fight with some random twiggy tall guy. Sooooo good!

✿ cloaked in passions touch by @raekensluver ↳ If you don't like Spencer's hands, you're fucking lying to yourself!!!!!

✿ language of devotion by @gghostwriter ↳ I'm in love with reid, and this fic just had me stumbling back onto his lap like a good gal

✿ this req response by @mandarinmoons ↳ Sorry, I'm not sure what the title is, but it's so adorable and got me to go to work, so kind of a lifesaver tbh

✿ hallucinate by @gghostwriter ↳ Oooo, this one was so cute, hehe. Honestly, I lean towards Spencer fluff lately just because I've been too overstimulated with work this past month, so READ THIS ONE ITS CUTE

✿ it's golden, like daylight by @dudeitiskarev ↳ I actually felt like I was reader the entire time I read this. It's well-written and so adorable and something that should be framed in a museum

✿ much ado about nothing series by @incognit0slut ↳ binged it all morning, and I was whipped !!! It's ongoing, so if I have to wait, so does everybody else

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Aaron Hotchner

✦ choiceless hope series by @hotchfiles ↳ This series had me rolling over my bed on a Saturday. A lot of feelings getting played (mostly mine)

✦ beanstalk by @solardrop ↳ I kid you not; I was giggling like a weirdo when I read it. And that itself deserves the recommendation.

✦ too busy being yours by @hotchfiles ↳ Lari knows how to get a sick gal to giggle. I love bau!rossi!reader. I love Rossi as reader's dad, so I enjoyed it more than I thought I would

✦ ignorance by infatuation by @boneblushed ↳ Oh, this one was a nice snack while on my break at work. LOVED IT SO MUCH

✦ hungover by @basketonthedoorstepofthefbi ↳ Mmmm, such a good read! Plus Jemily is there sooooo

✦ from across the bar by @hotchscoffeecup ↳ Evil laugh ensues. A nice cuppa of some good ole kinky stuff

✦ doomed by @hotchfiles ↳ guys, I stopped my car in the middle of driving home just to read it, so it's THAT good. Honestly, I strongly encourage everyone to read all of Lari's works! She's my writer crush, if none of you realized it by now

✦ a bunch of cuties in love by @lavenderspence ↳ hehehehehehe this definitely did not remind me of that one older guy I used to flirt with who had an adorable younger brother that I babysat🤭

✦ schrodinger's cat by @none-of-your-bullshit ↳ angst on a Saturday morning is like taking a shot of soju before 11 am, and this one felt like it <3

how about you also comment your top 3 fave fics for this month to spread more love to our great writers?

[maplebellsmods]

Expanded Storytelling Relationship Bits Mod: 2

Ok..more storytelling and relationship options for your sims! 

(Really tried my best to push this out before the end of Jan) 😮‍💨

If you want more info about the mod check this page out: Expanded Storytelling Relationship Bits Mod 

This time around created more relationship bits. Here they are

I wanted to try something new this time, which is why it took me so much time. I'll get into it later.

But there are a few new things I have added and changed from the previous one. First off, there are more interactions available: social interactions, phone interactions, and rabbit hole interactions.

Each one of these interactions corresponds to a specific relationship bit.

Healing Touch: 'Plan Relaxing Activities Together,' 'Offer Comfort through Hugs and Physical Touch.'

Wisdom Seekers: 'Ask Questions about the Universe.'

Unbreakable Connection: 'Celebrate Anniversary of Enduring Connection,' 'Promise Everlasting Friendship' (Only available pre-promise).

I do need to note that, just like the other mod, many of these are cosmetic and don't have a full effect yet. (Emphasis on 'yet,' as I will slowly but surely make these more functional.)

If your Sims have the Wisdom Seeker, Tech-Savvy Partners, or Night Owl Companions relationship bits, some interactions will unlock on the phone:

Wisdom Seeker: Study Together at the Library 

Tech-Savvy Partners: Send Tech News 

Night Owl Companions: Night Time Activities Menu 

(Regarding nighttime activities, I haven't found a workaround for this issue yet. However, here's a temporary solution: When selecting an activity for the two Sims who have the rabbit, choose the Sim you want to go with first, and then select yourself again using the same option. I'm not sure why this happens, but it can be a bit inconvenient. I'll work on making the process more streamlined in the future, but for now, this is how you can get them to go to the same activity.)

The new feature I've been working on, which I'm quite excited about, involves social interactions. I've always felt that many social interactions lacked depth and context. So, what I'm currently working on is creating social interactions to fill that gap

One of these interactions is 'Provide Emotional Support,' which is available for Sims with the 'Healing Touch' relationship.

In this interaction, your Sim will be presented with several options when they are feeling sad. Your Sim can choose from these options to express why they are feeling sad. Once they make a selection, the other Sim will ask for more context, leading to the exchange of contextual advice and reassurance.

I've also developed another social interaction, 'Try to Confess Feelings,' which is available for Sims experiencing 'Unrequited Love.

Attempting to confess your feelings will lead to various outcomes depending on the option you choose. In this interaction, the Sim who hears the confession will have several response options available.

The choice made by the listening Sim will have an impact on their relationship, both romantically and platonically. Some response options may harm the relationship more than others.

The way the Sim responds through the animation doesn't affect the outcome. I've designed it this way to leave the choice entirely in the player's hands. However, unless both Sims are in a flirty mood and have a high friendship level, the Sim who hears the confession will always use the rejection animation. Nevertheless, this animation choice doesn't alter the outcome.

The social interaction 'Forbid Relationship With' can be used either before or after designating two Sims as star-crossed lovers. Some of the options will even add the 'star-crossed lovers' relationship bit to the two Sims (if they didn't have it), while others will remove it (if they did have it).

The interaction can be found under the Mean -- Arguments Pie Menu Category. Only a parent, grandparent, uncle, or caregiver can trigger the interaction. 

Depending on the chosen options, the relationship can either suffer a negative or experience a positive impact. While all of the options will influence the relationship, certain responses will have a significantly greater effect on it than others.

These are all the main points! I hope you all enjoy this new feature because I'm eager to create more! There will be additional interactions and other things I'll be adding to this mod. I'm constantly learning new things, and it's truly enjoyable to implement them!

Download Here

Public Feb 24

[buckys-little-belle]

Henlo! If it's okay, could you make write a fic about Bucky comforting his little during a thunderstorm? A storm was near my house a few days ago and the thunder scared me so bad-- The power didn't go out, but storms usually happen a lot where I live-- thanks <3

Rainy Days

Bucky Barnes x Little!Reader (They/Them Pronouns used/No Pronouns used)

Warnings - Reader is scared of storms, reader eats snacks, talks of loud noises, talks of lightning/flashing lights, descriptions of a thunderstorm, ready is sad and scared, Bucky is sweet and thoughtful!

Notes - I made this headcannons, I hope that's okay! Honestly I've been going through my inbox and drafts and trying to clear them out, but writing full fics is something I have to be in the right mood for. But headcannons? I've been feeling headcannons lately, so do send some headcannon requests in if anyone has some! And please expect very old asks to suddenly resurface in the shape of fics/headcannons written literally years later <3

SFW - Please keep all interactions with this post, and this blog, SFW!

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You've always been scared of thunderstorms. Rain is nice from time to time, but when the loud booms of thunder begin and lightning strikes, you suddenly begin to feel scared.

It's not rational, you know the thunder can't get you and that if you're inside you're safe from lightning. Yet when the storm begins to get louder and the rain begins to pelt harder, you find yourself curled up wherever you are, stuffie held safely to your chest.

Bucky could tell you'd get antsy whenever rain drops would begin racing on the windows, you'd stare outside seemingly waiting for something to happen.

After the first thunderstorm you two witnessed together Bucky knew he needed to be prepared for the next one. He hated seeing you cry, and how scared you got. He felt helpless and vowed to make sure that didn't happen again.

So now he has a small bin in his closet labeled "Rainy days". Inside are a pair of headphones he bought that block out any noises. It's made chatting between the two of you hard on those rainy days, you yelling because you can't tell just how loud you are, and him doing his best to charades his words. But because it rains so often, you two have had time to practice, and communication comes much easier.

He bought you little stickers to put on the headphones, so that instead of just plain boring black headphones, you have ones decorated by your favourite cartoon characters and fun little stickers of plants and dinosaurs.

He also has special activities for the two of you to do on those days. He wanted something different than the toys you have all the other days. This way you stop feeling dread thinking about thunderstorms, now that feeling is over taken with a subtle excitement for the special glitter crayons in the box, and the really cute stuffed animal named "Rainy" that you get to snuggle with.

Bucky always buys those PDF files on etsy that are colouring pages. For $2 he gets 6-10 fun pages, and he'll print them out for you on his fancy work printer. He finds it easier than buying colouring books because there's no risk of ripping your colouring when you evidently want to rip the page out and put it on the fridge. Plus he finds it over all cheaper, and there are no more tears when you don't like the way you coloured something, sad that you can't do that pretty picture anymore, he just prints out a second one.

Bucky is also a fan of physical media. He has both a DVD and a VCR player. So he has two movies stashed in the box that you really like for those rainy days, and those rainy days only. He doesn't know how, but you've been able to connect your headphones to the Tv, so you can't hear the thunder when you're watching them.

Also snuggles, rainy days mean as many snuggles as you want. Doesn't matter if he's on a work call, doing the laundry, or in the middle of making dinner. If you come up and ask for a hug you end up getting 20 minutes of snuggles and soothing back rubs.

You don't venture outside when it's a thunderstorm, but Bucky has been warming you up to "liking" rainy days by showing you how fun puddles can be.

He buys you a cute raincoat and matching boots, and as long as there's no thunder or lightning, he'll take you outside and splash in the puddles for an hour.

Instead of being terrified of thunderstorms, and hating the days they happen, you've slowly been able to accept that they'll happen sometimes, and you've grown to know your safe, very safe because Bucky is always at your side on those days. Ready to comfort you, ready to play whatever game you want, and ready to jump in puddles when possible.

[fragmented-sike]

A Lifeline for DID/OSDD: The Journal that could Change your Life

Hey guys! We're incredibly excited to share something that's finally been released for a month now: the Pieces in Peace Journal. This journal isn't just another project for us-it's resource born out of necessity and a deep understanding of what it means to live with Dissociative Identity Disorder and Other Specified Dissociative Disorder. And to celebrate a month of being launched, we're hosting a GIVEAWAY where two (2) lucky winners will receive a copy of the journal along with free lifetime updates to the journal!

Why we created the Journal

Living with DID/OSDD can feel incredibly overwhelming. When I was first diagnosed, I felt so alone. I felt like a freak. I felt isolated and scared and confused. This is why I got online and found community here to begin with. The daily challenges of managing different parts of yourself, tracking moods, tracking time-loss, dealing with memory gaps, and trying to explain your experiences to others can make life feel chaotic and confusing. I've personally navigated these complexities for close to a decade now, as I was diagnosed nearly 8 years ago, and I know firsthand how difficult it can be to find the right tools and resources to help make sense of it all.

Access to care is a major issue for so many of us. Whether it's due to financial barriers, lack of knowledgeable therapists, or simply not knowing where to turn, many people with DID/OSDD struggle to find the support they need. That's why I created the Pieces in Peace Journal-to offer a comprehensive, supportive resource that can be used alongside therapy or as a standalone tool for those who don't have access to regular treatment. I consulted with DID specialists and took tools from my own extensive treatment history to create this resource to offer the community.

This journal is designed to help you navigate the multifaceted nature of DID and OSDD, providing structure and clarity amidst what can sometimes feel like chaos. It's a tool for self-discover, emotional regulation, and system collaboration-a way to bring a sense of peace and understanding to your journey.

In the Journal you will find:

Post-Regulation Tracker: Track your feelings and progress after using regulation techniques for better self-awareness.

Communication Log: Record interactions between alters to enhance system communication and understanding.

Distress Tolerance Plan: Quick steps and techniques to manage and reduce distress effectively.

System Collab Goals: Set and track collaborative goals within your system for cohesive growth and progress.

These sections, along with MANY others (over 100 pages!!), are designed to support you in understanding and managing your system. They're tools to help you keep track of your progress, set goals, and ensure that everyone in your system is working together toward common goals.

Why the Journal Matters:

This journal isn't just a collection of pages-it's a lifeline for those who feel lost in the complexities of DID and OSDD. Each section is thoughtfully crafted to address the unique challenges that come with living with a dissociative disorder.

How to Enter the Giveaway:

To celebrate the one month launch of the Pieces in Peace Journal, we're hosting a giveaway! Here's how you can enter:

Check out the Giveaway post on IG for ALL the details on entering. Reblogging here counts as an extra entry!

This giveaway is open internationally and ends on August 20, 2024

Thank you so much to everyone who has supported us over the many years we've been on Social Media. We used to have a tumblr under the name FrgmntdPsyche that we deleted many years ago, however we are back now and plan on staying. Thank you to all of you who have had interest in the Pieces in Peace Journal and have supported us in it's creation and release! We truly appreciate every one of you and hope this journal becomes a valuable companion on your journey.

Stay tuned as we continue to work on making more resources for people across many spectrums (CPTSD, Chronic Illness/Pain, ADHD, and more!), host more giveaways, and help as best we can to give back to an incredible community who has saved our life on more than one occasion. Join our Discord for even more support and a great little cozy community of amazing people!

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for being semi-close to someone a lot younger than me?

This is something I've been worried about for a while, but it's become more prominent lately after me seeing several people say it's inherently creepy for an adult (or even just way older person) to be interacting with a child. And I really don't want to be like that, I don't want to hurt a kid ever, especially since I know what it's like to be groomed myself.

So I (18F) have known this kid (13) for about 3 years now. They reached out to me online because of similar interests- mainly in games and in YouTube channels, and we bonded a lot over that. They didn't have their age in their bio so I didn't immediately know their age, but I did find out a few months in.

Over the course of when we've known each other I've been as careful as I can to be age appropriate. I never bring up anything sexual for obvious reasons (the only time it ever came up was them asking what a sexual term meant, which made me very uncomfortable and I tried to change the subject... to which they started repeatedly inappropriately using the word. They ended up looking up the definition and where horrified. Even that conversation makes me feel wrong).

I also make sure to not put any of my personal issues on them. I couldn't always hide when I was upset- both because for the first year of us knowing each other I had unmedicated ADHD that made my mood swing a lot, and for the past 2 1/2 years or so I've been in a very toxic relationship that I still don't know how to get out of and quite frankly, am scared to get out of because I don't know how they'll react if I do actually leave them. Do to this, there's been times they could tell something was off and would ask me what's wrong. I avoided telling them as much as possible, just giving them something vague and reminding them that it's not their responsibility to help me, because they would always try to help cheer me up, and even that didn't feel right because they're a kid. They should be focusing on themself, not me. The worst of this though, is there was a time I was struggling heavilly with suicidal thoughts. I was planning to attempt, and sent out a vague "goodbye" type message, trying not to make it too obvious what was happening. They caught on though. They weren't the one who helped me calm down from that but I still know how awful it is to be sitting there, scared you're going to loose someone important to you. Especially for a kid. I've apologized for that happening many times, and it hasn't repeated, but every time they just go "It's fine, you were a struggling kid too back then" as if that makes that okay. It doesn't feel right.

Throughout the 3 years we've known each other, I've also tried to help out where I can with several issues they've had. Which was pretty much just me giving advice for how to handle difficult situations where I felt I could, and offering comfort and reassurance where I couldn't. Among other things, I helped them recognize several instances where other people they met online where intentionally trying to groom them. I explained to them that it wasn't normal for someone my age to want to be with them/find them attractive, because there where several instances of them telling me of 15/16 year olds getting with them. That no responsible person my age would be doing that to them, and that it wasn't okay for them to do that.

Because of the help I've given them, I notice they look up to me quite a lot. They have told me they see me as a role model and "the best person they know" (I can guarantee I'm not, and have tried to get them to not see me that highly because that seems unhealthy). They even see me as a sort of parental figure, including calling me parental-like names. That by itself I don't mind too much, I know they had a terrible home-life and didn't feel they could actually look up to their real life parents. So if I am giving them something I think every child deserves to have (a parental role model they can look up to), I'm glad. I just worry I'm not as good a role model for that as they think I am, and that I'm a creep, just like the ones I have gotten away from them in the past. I do care about them a lot, and do see them in that sort of familial way, and I want to protect them and help them have a better life, because I know they have struggled a lot and if I am able to help them, I want to. But I'm worried I'm causing the same harm that has been caused to me, and that others have tried to/have caused to them in the past without even realizing what I'm doing wrong. I don't want to be like those creepy assholes.

AITA?

What are these acronyms?

[lovverletters]

Yandere! Cupid (unfinished)

Note that this is a reupload from my previous blog @hyerinrose

T/W : creepy love letter i guess? Reader have two stalkers, cliffhangers bc i didnt finished it,

«────── « ⋅ʚ♡ɞ⋅ » ──────»

14th of February, Valentine's day to be precise is a day that many await. The day they could finally profess their affection for another.

[Name] walked through the hall where crowds of students were chatting up a storm about their crushes and lovers or their plan to confess under the old sakura tree behind the school.

They never believed those rumours and just chalk it up as a mythos created by students. One thing for sure is that [Name] would never take the stand of confessing or being confessed to.

It's not that they were against dating or love, it's just that they never felt the need to engage in it. [Name] believed that when the time is right, they'll fall in love. As for now though, it's not any sooner.

Once they reach their designated locker, they open it up only to find a letter assigned to them sat neatly in between the belongings in their locker.

"A love letter? no it couldn't possibly be" [Name] thought out loud as they picked the envelope that was littered with pink hearts on it, it also smelled like strawberry.

'Who would send me this? as far as I know, I've never interact much with anybody' [Name] would rather kept to themself than socialize with their fellow peers and if they have to, they'll try to make it as brief as possible.

"Might as well give it a read and turn them down obviously.." They tucked the love letter into their pocket and grab the books they needed and head off to their first class.

Entering the vacant classroom they took a seat in the left sided of the room. The [H/C]-nette is always the first to arrive so they have a moment of peace before the other students join them.

Taking out the letter, they gave it a read,

Dearest [Name],

I know it's quite the surprise for you to receive such letter and it is my fault I admit. I should've sent you more so you would understand the amount of affection i held for you.

I'll cut straight to the point, [name] I have been observing you from afar and I know I could've approach you but I am to shy to do so. As day goes by the love I have for you grew so large that it felt like my heart is about to combust from just seeing you.

I promise you that I will treat you right and cherish you for the rest of our eternity.

Would you please answer me,

Do you love me too?

Yes [ ] No [ ]

"Ugh creepy..." [name] then crumpled up the disturbing letter, deciding to not meet the person as they could be a disturbed individual. Based on the letter who knows what they'll do to them if they turn them down.

"Why is the first time I received these kind of letter gotta be like this?" They sighed.

Soon enough, students began piling into the classroom and the once quiet and peaceful place now filled with loud chatters. [name]'s [e/c] observed their peers exchanging chocolates to each other and some not subtly slipping letters into their crushes desks.

'Maybe I'm not fit for love and romance..' They thought with their eyes now downcasted to the book they were reading.

«────── « ⋅ʚ♡ɞ⋅ » ──────»

Up above in Celestial Realm, a figure with soft pink hair and fluffy white wings flew carefreely in the air when they were approached by someone who resembled them.

They recognize the person to be their superior, Aurrum. The older Cupid greeted the young with a smile and handed him a letter, it's a new task for him!

"Greetings, Ai. I'm glad to see you're in a good mood as always" Aurrum said with a closed eyed smile.

"Greetings to you too Sir Aurrum! And of course I am, it's the season of love! I'm so happy to see mortals sharing the love with one another" Ai happily spoke with a bright smile on his face, his golden eye shone with happiness.

"Right, unlike your other peers you seem to love this time of the year best. The other cupids are overworked whenever Valentine's Day rolled around"

Honestly Aurrum couldn't blame them really, imagine having to pair multiple couples throughout the day with little break.

"Mm.. maybe when I'll get older I'll start being grumpy like them but for now I'm enjoying this day!"

The older cupid laughs heartily and shook his head before remembering his own task.

"Well Ai, I'm afraid I can't stay here much longer for I have to hand these other task to other cupids" Aurrum spoke to which Ai sadly frowns. The man was like a father to Ai so he would really love to spend more time with him.

"Alright.. see you again Sir Aurrum!"

They both bid their goodbyes and went off to their separate ways. Ai opens the letter that contains a checklist of couples he has to pair. However one name sat at the end of the list with no partner.

[name] [last name] [redacted]

"that's odd.. usually the name won't be crossed out until a direct rejection is made. Unless the soulmate changed?" Ai thought deeply and pulled out the guide book to see what he should do.

"So that means i have to personally interfere this pair? Ah does that means I have to descend to earth then?" While he mulled over his next action a dove landed on his shoulder. it's the messenger bird from Sir Aurrum!

"Oh hello!"

"Greetings young one, I am here to relay a message from Sir Aurrum. Ai, my boy! I have forgotten to inform you about the last pair on your task list, as you know when it comes to a broken pairing we must personally interfere to fix the situation"

"For that you would need to descend to mortal realm and interact with them to find a solution. I have included a magic feather to use for when you need to disguise yourself as a human" the dove then present to Ai the magic feather using it's beak.

"That is all, take care young one" the bird then flew away back to it's master.

"How exciting! This is my first time personally playing matchmaker. I hope I can unite this pair together" The young cupid then flew his way down to earth where his and others fate will change.

«────── « ⋅ʚ♡ɞ⋅ » ──────»

[tenkasato]

HIIIII HOW ARE U LOL

so uh I love Akashi and I've always wondered what if his two personalities were twins? Oreshi (original) named Akashi and Bokushi (2nd persona) named Seijuro? And they had 1 s/o? This can be anything you like, hcs, one shot, I don't mind. Some ideas could be like their dynamic, the relationship between brothers and how s/o handles it, the difference between personalities of the twins and their own relationship with s/o? If you wanted to add a little nsfw you can as well- really anything you want

THANK YOUOUUUU❤

Dear anon, there are too many things we could cover and unfortunately I couldn't write all of them. This is a great concept. Maybe someday I could explore more and write them (such as interactions with the rest of the GOMs), but for now, here's what I came up with. Hope you enjoy! And again, apologies for the delay. ^^

Pairings: Bokushi x reader, Oreshi x reader

Having a twin could be a double-edged sword. On one hand, Seijuro was glad he had someone to hold intelligent conversations with (let’s be honest, the only mentally stimulating exchanges he had was with his brother). On the other hand, someone else knew his imperfections more than he did. For example, he owned an old, atrocious-looking stuffed donkey and hugged it to sleep. Akashi never uttered a word about it, but the judgemental looks the elder twin gave always left a bad taste in his mouth. Such things like these were blackmail material.

Seijuro and Akashi were both geniuses when it came to strategic board games. Their classmates placed bets whenever they clashed in the club. The twins both knew this. So, they would sometimes ocherstate a scripted game just so they could fool around with their classmates who bet their whole allowance for the wround. The two were just mischievous like that.

(It was only Midorima who knew, being the one who played the two most often.)

They go to different sections—Seijuro in Class 2B and Akashi in Class 2A. Sometimes, they’d be in a mood to prank people (again). “Nee-san, how about we exchange places today?” A chuckle, followed by a shake of the head. “How childish. Let’s do it.”

(This time, not even Midorima caught wind of it. The twins just knew each other so much not one person had looked twice).

Whenever he felt safe and relaxed, Akashi snored, quite loudly and ungracefully like a sleep deprived wild boar. Seijuro kept this secret to preserve the family name, but when push came to shove, he’d have no qualms using this as his blackmail material.

Akashi and Seijuro rarely lost their cools against each other. Sure, they disagreed a lot, but they always respected each other. (They absolutely adored and cared deeply for each other, pun unintended). They’d try to give way to each other as much as possible… except when it came to you.

It was Akashi who met you first, meek and thoughtful as you read a book from the library which he’d been looking for all morning. You raised your eyes when you noticed him, then you delivered him a half-smile. Akashi swore he had never seen anything this beautiful since his mother.

One day, Seijuro had not so casually mentioned about you. “I will pursue her.” Akashi had so many questions. How did he meet you? How can he be so sure about you this early, when Akashi was just starting to get to know you? But one look into those heterochromic eyes, Akashi knew Seijuro was dead set on making you his. With pursed lips, Akashi  decided he wasn't simply going to hand you over.

It was cute at first. You couldn't deny that you actually liked them and that you enjoyed their company. But you’ve heard how intense the two could be. You hadn't expected that it was applicable to them trying to win your attention. 

Akashi would gift you with grand bouquets of roses. Seijuro would bring you home every day (how is it that they have two different cars). Akashi would play the violin for you. Seijuro would write you poems. 

“They're a bit old-fashioned, huh? Akashi-un and Seijuro-kun,” Momoi pointed out. You stared at the latest handwritten letter from Seijuro, blushing profusely as you did so. You shook your head and surrendered to a soft chuckle. “Unfortunately I’m into those types.” 

No one directly confessed to you, but one didn't need those when he had been so blatant about their feelings towards you. 

You were there during the fall out. —“You didn't have to hurt them like that.” “If I hadn't, the team would've fallen apart. You were simply too weak to handle them. I had to step forward.” “Watch your words, Seijuro.”—And it had hurt you as much as it hurt Kuroko and the others. Your heart bled for them. You tried to be there for both Akashi and Seijuro, but what could little old you do anyway?

“Akashi, how can I help?” A smile,one that was strewn with grief and regret. “You being here for me is enough help.”

“Seijuro, talk to me.” He leaned towards you, head resting on your shoulder as your breath hitched. “There isn't anything wrong.”

Honestly, if you could give them both half of your hearts just to steal some of the pain, you would.

Years later, when friendships were mended, resentment vanquished, you stepped into a quiet coffee shop that Momoi showed you. A reunion with the rest of the gang wasn't something you expected to happen, but you were grateful. So grateful you had to hold back the tears when you came inside and see them bickering and laughing like old times. 

The twins were first to notice your presence. “Hey,” they both said in unison, and you had to stifle the laughter as you ambled forward. An empty seat was situated between the two, and you knew they had reserved it especially for you. Sighing good-naturedly, you plopped down in the middle and said, “I swear, you two.”

What a pain.

Bonus

Akashi absolutely abhorred Seijuro cutting his bangs unevenly like that on his own. Being the more “mature” brother, he made no comment. It was a difficult time for Seijuro after all. 

However, years after that, Akashi would bring it up, and call it his “rebellious stage”. 

Watch Akashi show pictures of said rebellious stage every high school reunion.

Watch Akashi send pictures of Seijuro's hideous bangs to your messenger 3AM in the morning.

[blush-and-books]

oh also! you’re a film major right?.. what did you think about the direction on the show?? and what do you think abotu the fact so much of donna and harvey is Hidden from the audience like we never see what the can opener thing is and when they spend the night in s3 we never actually see them kiss like he leans in and the door closes in front of the camera

HAHA!! yes i am a film major with an actual degree now lol. but let's all take my thoughts with a grain of salt.

i don't have any grand thoughts on how the show is directed, because it's always felt pretty basic to me lol!! the shots are very simple, the composition never goes too crazy (but sometimes i will say they do kinda eat some shots however overall it's incredibly one-toned), and tbh that's very typical of a show like Suits bc it's somewhere in between "network procedural" and "adventurous legal drama."

the fact that so much of donna and harvey is hidden from us is likely a combination of deliberate action, and whatever the fuck is going on in that writers room. The can opener thing reminds me a little of the character Maris Crane from Frasier - if you're unfamiliar, she's the wife of one of the main characters but she's never EVER shown on screen and we never hear her voice, she's just talked about in increasingly alarming descriptions (multiple facelifts, fragile and little body, etc). All of this is to say that the can opener thing suddenly becomes a bit where the writers are probably like "it would be funny if we reference it and build on it but we never have to decide what it actually is, so that we can escalate it as much as we want." first it's the can opener, then there's thumbtacks involved, and then there's supposedly a record amount (two dozen? three dozen?).

the choice to never show us their real first kiss in the other time is definitely absolutely deliberate. at this point in the series, i don't think it was locked in for donna and harvey to be endgame, so there was a lot of room to toy with the audience. they build us up with their flirting and talking about hooking up but they're going to deny us the satisfaction and leave us wondering - where does this really go? and do we really want to see them kiss for the first time in a flashback?? that's a big moment even if it's a past event, so they wouldn't want to just dump it on us in a way that's less meaningful than how it could happen in the present timeline.

id love to hear more things you think were hidden from the viewers!!!

small other bit of cinematic analysis: something that has started to irk me in my rewatchings of various episodes and getting stills for the edits i've been making is the series lack of solid two-shots between donna and harvey. so many of their interactions are just filmed in a shot-reverse-shot (back and forth between shots of each character over the shoulder of the other character as one of them speaks) and there is like SO MUCH INTIMACY that can be made just by putting them in a frame TOGETHER. and it's not that they never do this, there's some great examples, but I've found there's scenes between them that just could have benefitted from having both of them in the frame and not just cutting back and forth. if you'd like more explanation on this i will get stills from other series as well and demonstrate but it's a very little nitpicky thing honestly

thank you for this ask!!! send more when the mood strikes 🥰🥰🥰

[theinfernalsanctuary]

Greetings, Sister!

I have a question or two for you, if you're able to answer. :)

I'm going to be honest, I've been STRESSING the fuck out about how to write this so I'm going to try and keep it as short and blunt as possible.

I'm young (18) and I have Bipolar, OCD, Social Anxiety Disorder as well as Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I was also raised Catholic and have religious trauma regarding my thoughts and actions being constantly surveilled and judged, which has left me very hyper-aware of my thoughts.

These mental health challenges, especially Bipolar, have made my relationship to religion very conflicting and confusing. I have periods of extreme, unwavering belief in Lord Satan and then I will then constantly doubt His existence as well as my own loyalty, which is very distressing and exhausting.

Reverend Cain was my first substantial step into Theistic Satanism when I was 14. I've read The Infernal Gospel front to back and I've read some of The Satanic Philosopher and The Goetia Devils before I had to delete them out of fear of being caught reading Satanic literature.

I do very much respect and admire Reverend Cain, but the emphasis of complete and utter loyalty irks me a bit. He might have not meant it to be conveyed this way and it's just my religious anxieties, but the "You must be completely loyal and devoted to Hell or else I will smite you and everything you hold dear will be destroyed," really scares me.

Deep down I do believe in Satan and I do recognize him as my Father, but I'm so deeply frightened that I'm not "loyal" enough and that I will be seen as insincere by the Denizens of Hell because of my unstable mood swings and Reverend Cain has commented on how the Denizens feel about insincere followers(?).

What are your thoughts? I understand that I'm young, I definitely haven't had any proper interactions with demons and that my anxiety overtakes me at times, but this is a topic that is important and personal to me and I'm afraid to upset the Infernal Kingdom and especially Lord Satan Himself. :(

Thank you so much for your time, even if you just read and choose not to answer. <3

Signed, a young Satanist who has no idea what the fuck they're doing.

I'm sorry that that was your experience with Reverend Cain's works, I personally didn't have that experience and I hope that youll take another shot at it later. That being said, I think that now would be a good time to take a step back and continue deconstructing your pre-existing religious beliefs. If you're still afraid of Lord Satan and Hell as a whole, now is not the time to truly begin your journey, you cannot be afraid of the guy that's trying to help you if you're going to get far. That being said, something tells me that this isn't so much being afraid of Satan or upsetting him as much as it is being afraid of dissapointing him. (Hello, Catholicism!)

You mentioned being afraid of smiting or being labeled as insincere, but the concern that you show, in my opinion confirms your sincerity. When we talk about sincerity in your beliefs, it's more about intentions than the beliefs itself. Why did you turn to Satanism? Was it out of spite or the selfish need to be the eternal contrarian, or was it because there was something that called to you that felt safe or was even just interesting? People focus so much on prayer and rituals in worship when the learning is worship in of itself, even if it is the most passive form.

Many of the things that I post are more geared towards people who have moved past their initial deconstruction and because of that it has a very heavy focus on the spiritual aspects of worship over the practical, but that learning and deconstructing phase is incredibly important and incredibly difficult. Your faith will constantly ebb and flow, that's human nature as much as people don't want to admit it, especially when mental illness come into play. It's so important to not beat yourself up about it even if that means that you have to step away for a bit.

And finally, even if you decide that this isn't for you, nothing is going to happen to you because of it. I promise.

[eddiemunson-fanfic]

First look.

Eddie Munson x Plus Size!FM!Reader.

Warnings; fluff, drinking, smoking weed, groping, kissing.

You cursed your bestfriend for dragging you to this party. You knew she was from a small town, and sure, Hawkins was a nice cute town, and you were sure her friends there was cool and all, and you loved and cared for her deeply, but parties were really not your thing. You usually hated parties after an incident that happened when you were younger, and you stopped caring to go to them after a while. Drunk people all around bumping into you, and music booming over some speaker or whatever as you walked up to the house.

It was fancy, and you felt like you didn't fit in at all.

"Stop whining, you'll have fun, I promise!" your bestfriend encouraged you as you stood in front of her mirror looking at your outfit, not really liking the look of it. But she promised you looked nice. She was more put together when it came to looking nice and dressing up. You usually thrived in your skinny ripped jeans, band t-shirts and studded boots.

She had made you buy a skirt for once, and somewhat okay shirt. Sure, it was still your normal outfit somehow, just a bit more fancy, if you could even call it that.

"Steve and all the others will love you, I just know it!" she squealed as she looked at you. "Especially Eddie, he will be so stoked!" she grinned at you, and it made you laugh seeing your bestfriend this happy over you actually agreeing to join her for a party for once.

She had been talking about how you and Eddie was as if you were the girl version of him, and he was the boy version of you, and it got you intrigued enough to make an effort when you knew he was gonna be there.

But now that you had arrived at your destination, and you saw how many people there were across the lawn and everything? Your anxiety started to creep up on you, and especially when a drunk dude bumped into you, probably caressing your butt by accident, but it made you tense up straight away, not trying to ruin the mood, you look over to your bestfriend that lights up like she just saw god.

"Stevie!" she screams, letting go of your hand and running up to the guy she was looking at as he opened his arms, walking down the front porch after her. As they crashed into eachother, they were both laughing like idiots, as this so called Stevie spun her around in his arms.

"Hey Munchkin! I've missed you, big city girl!" he laughed as he put her down eventually, still hugging her. You smiled at their interaction as your bestfriend pulled away, and turned towards you, giving you a big smile as she motioned for you with hasty hands to come closer.

"Stevie, this is Y/N, my big city best friend" she stated proudly, making you giggle slightly. "And Y/N, this is Steve, my small town best friend" she announced to you.

So, this was the big Steve. The Steve. He seemed nice enough. You thought before you bowed slightly to Steve as he huffed.

"Come here, I'm a hugger" he stated, as he pulled you into a surprising hug. You let out a slight squeal as he hugged you, but you didn't mind, so you hugged him back slightly before he pulled away, smiling at you.

"Welcome, Y/N" he grinned. "Lets find the others and introduce you, huh? Make sure you get a good and warm welcome as you deserve!"

Everyone was very welcoming, you loved Nancy, Jonathan, Argyle, and Robin latched onto you straight away. She was holding onto your arm bridal style while she was showing you and introducing you to everyone, while Steve was on the other side, bridal style with your bestfriend.

"Now, where the fuck is that pothead again?" Steve spoke after looking around for someone.

"Which one of them?" Nancy laughed, and Steve glared at her, making your bestfriend giggle slightly.

"You know who" he stated, clearly annoyed, and Jonathan laughed.

"Argyle gave him some weed earlier, he is probably outside" Jonathan announced, and Steve huffed.

"He told me he wanted to quit" he said as he rolled his eyes, handing you another drink as you smiled at him. "I can meet him later" you shrugged your shoulders as Steve seemed as he deflated completely, as he looked over at you, giving you an "I'm sorry" look as you brushed it off.

"Beer pong?" your best friend chirped, and everyone seemed to be down. "Y/N?" Steve asked, and you shook your head. "I'll just watch for now"

Everyone seemed to be fine with it, and you actually had quite fun watching them figuring out who should team up to who, and scowling and laughing at eachother when someone had to chug their drink or didn't follow the rules.

You got asked to try a shot, and you did until you apparently took completely over for Robin as she sat down beside you as you were teamed up to Nancy as your bestfriend were teamed up with your bestfriend on the other end of the table.

"Oh, it's on!" you grinned, flicking your wrist with the ping pong ball in hand, looking at the last cup on the end of the table as Steve and your bestfriend tried their best to distract you. If you nailed this, you would win for the third time in a row.

And you did. Everyone got excited and Nancy and Robin jumped around you, and you pointed a finger towards Steve and your bestfriend. "Drink up!" you ordered with a smile plastered on your face.

After the fourth win of the game, you announced you had to go to the toilet, but would be back in a bit, as you giggled your way past your friends, a bit drunk, but happy, they announced they would be in the next room on the couch as Steve gave you directions to find the toilet and told you to go upstairs, because that would be less crowded.

You bumped your way upstairs, going by the directions as good as possible by the state you were in as you opened the wrong door, seeing a guy with long dark hair looking at you as if he just saw a ghost, as he puffed out some sort of smoke, making you giggle for no reason.

"Damn, you're drunk" he chuckled, and you shushed him, waving him off as you stood there struggling to be stable in your steps.

"Toilet" you announced, doing a tiny dance that announced to him you needed to pee.

"Stevie got a bathroom in here" he pointed beside him, and you ran in the direction he pointed, almost stumbling in his feet as you ran past him, giggling the entire time, not even bothering to close the door behind you before you sat down and did your business.

"Jesus" you heard him chuckle from the bedroom.

When you walked out, he was laying sprawled out on the bed as a starfish, and you flopped down beside him, giggling, not caring that he was a literal stranger.

He seemed to read your mind. "You know I'm a stranger, right? And you just laid down in bed with me?" he questioned your actions as you shrugged it off, rolling over to look at him.

"You just don't seem like you'd be dangerous or do me any harm" you slurred, stating matter of factly as your eyes got heavy, and you smiled at him with a goofy grin.

He looked at you and chuckled.

"Are you that girl that played beer pong with Stevie and the others from the gang earlier?"

"Yup" you said, the p popping as you spoke making yourself giggle as you reached up to touch his hair.

"Soft" you hummed, and he seemed to freeze, but didn't stop you from doing whatever you were doing.

You continued to caress his cheek, propping yourself up on your arm so you could look at him and your eyes locked for a hot second, making you blush.

"You're really beautiful" you said dreamily and he just chuckled.

"Now I know you're drunk" he tried to joke it off, but you playfully swatted at his chest as you scolded him with your eyes.

"Don't say that! You are beautiful!" you said more clearly, feeling yourself sobering up as you spoke.

"Y/N?!" you could hear your bestfriend shout from the hallway. You groaned as you pulled yourself off of the bed, but he stopped you, pulling you to him, making you fall on top of him, accidentally kissing him as you flopped down.

You pulled away as fast as you could, trying to get up, but he held you close, not letting go of you.

"Don't leave" he spoke, his voice barely a whisper as he looked into your eyes, pulling a strand of hair behind your ear.

"Okay" you whispered back, totally transfixed by his chocolate brown eyes, not even noticing your bestfriend in the doorway as she gasped, before she closed the door as fast as she could, startling you slightly, but he still held you close.

"You can kiss me"

"I am Eddie, by the way" he said, his voice raspy and soft as he got you to look at him again. "And I guess you are Y/N?" he smiled, and you nodded, words failing you completely, your eyes ghosting over his lips as he smiled.

So this was Eddie. Noe you knew why your bestfriend was so stoked for you to meet him. He was perfect.

And you didn't even hesitate a second before your lips crashed with his, kissing him hungrily, feeling brave all of a sudden as you sat up, straddling his lap, your hands on his chest as he moaned into your mouth, making your entire body ignite with some power unknown to you.

His arms pulling you as close to him as he possibly could, you grinding against him, your arms still on his chest as he grabbed a hold of your butt with both hands, lifting up your skirt just slightly to get a better grip.

"Fuck" he moaned, almost out of breath as he grabbed your ass so hard he spread your buttcheeks, feeling the air on your pussy gave you goosebumps over your entire body.

"Eddie?!" you heard Steve's voice from the hallway, making Eddie pull away from the kiss. Eddie whined slightly, as Steve's footsteps came closer, his door swinging open with a loud crack.

"Fuck" Eddie groaned, as you pushed yourself slightly off him, looking over at Steve, and Steve relaxed once he notices it was you.

"Thank god it's you and not his crazy ex again" Steve huffs, standing in the doorway with a typical mom-stance as he looked over at you both.

"Now, get the fuck out of my room!" he ordered, and Eddie pulled you with him, jumping off the bed as he pulled you with him out the door, patting Steve on his shoulder as he walked past.

"Don't be a sourpuss Stevie" he said, winking at Steve before he pulled you close, his arm around your waist before he placed a soft kiss to your forehead.

"Let me take you to another magical place" he winked at you, as you looked up at him, feeling that you would let him sacrifice you to the damn satan himself if he wanted to as you followed him willingly, dumbfounded by his beauty and aura.

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I don't know what I think of this one, but hope you guys like it! <3

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[littledollll]

Hi, I've never requested anything before but your an amazing writer, so here we go! Um, I was wondering if you could write about lucifer x fem angel reader where R was give to lucifer as a gift for something. But before lucifer receives r, God or some other angle cuts Rs wings off and casts them down to hell. And lucifer is furious for what happend to R, so they help them heal and take care of them and show them so much love, compassion and is very protective of R. And will kill or punish any one who dares to hurt their precious angle? Please and thank you!! 😊

Their Precious angel

Lucifer Morningstar x angel!reader

A/n: I’d like to see an unhinged Lucifer who only really cares about what R thinks. What about you? Thank you for your kind words and requests, apologize for how long this took!

Warnings: angry Lucifer, gory-ish description of reader losing their wings, really sweet Lucifer with r

It was a simple deal, Lucifer would join God and the Angels side at a war, and in return if they won be repaid with an Angel of their own. Something Lucifer would turn down without a second thought any other day but today, they needed a victory, just something to pick up their mood.

They didn’t give much thought to the reward at the time, it wasn’t why they agreed to it. But after? Oh after. Your sweet attitude and soft nature, how gentle you handled them whenever you interacted, not out of fear but the kindness of your heart.

This wasn’t a one day process, so much to their (and your) absolute pleasure, and other angels disgust, you two got the chance to know eachother quite well even before you were destined to eventually return to hell with them. Nobody else really approached them, either out of fear or dislike the only people really around them were you and well- God, something they weren’t particularly fond of but knew to expect.

You found no issue with the deal. The silver city was ironically not the most welcoming place, and Lucifer was so tempting, calm and inviting, despite their cold nature to the world something about them felt comfortable, warm, but that was your secret to keep, what would the others say if they ever knew you dreamed of their warm embrace?

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You were supposed to follow, walk with them. But you were held back by a group of Angels, and brought to kneel in front of God. His voice rung through the whole realm when he spoke, a bit dramatic for your tastes but now was not the time for your mind to wander, why were you still here?

“An angel who longs for the company of Satan themselves. A sin isn’t it? To desire, want more than what you have. Greedy. To long for the warm touch of another, Lustful.” You were dragged to a cliff you didn’t even know was previously there.

“You cannot be an angel once you sin. And neither you nor them get to enjoy an Angels wings, there will be no gift of regrowth.” It was unexpected but it was not quick or painless, they made sure of it. You could feel your wings being brutally torn from your body, a burning sensation across your whole body making a scream tear from your lungs. You felt pain until you felt and saw nothing. And then you were pushed.

This wasn’t supposed to happen. Not like this you weren’t supposed to fall, or lose your wings. It was cruelty, betrayal, a broken deal. Lucifer doesn’t take lightly to any of those. You couldn’t move. The agony had taken over your body rendering you useless, you felt dead. And all Lucifer felt, was you.

You were meant to come back with them, not behind and certainly not like this. Beaten and bruised, your wings, what happened to them? How- why did you fall? They had so many questions, and so much wrath. For now both of those had to wait, they’d nurse you back to health first they decided.

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Your pain was evident when you woke but somehow it lessened at the feeling of a gentle hand on your upper back, you were laid on your stomach thoughtfully enough and you felt a pressure wrapping all around your chest to your back.

“I’m afraid I couldn’t give you a warm welcome, or a welcome at all. Angel, how did this happen?” As soft and composed as always Lucifer’s voice sounded out. Though your head was pounding and all you could manage was a whimper as you tried to hide away from them.

You couldn’t get past the guilt. An angel was promised to them. Would Lucifer no longer want you? You doubted they were so superficial, but surely having an angel would serve some purpose, weather it be aesthetics or some type of power play, would you still be useful to them?

Lucifer read this as distrust. Did you think this was somehow their fault? Maybe it was, they should’ve been there, how stupid of them, to trust those who have proven unworthy of it before.

“I should’ve stayed, I know that now. Truly I didn’t know. Why did this happen? why would they do this to one of their own- to you.” Lucifer sounded confused, which was so unlike the lightbringer who was omnipotent and omniscient.

For a moment, you didn’t say anything, what could you say? Confess how your growing attraction to the devil was your undoing? Find a way to explain how it’s not their fault but they are the reason, how do you say that? They didn’t push you for information. Instead kept their soothing hand on your back and continued the gentle caress. Though it was clear they were waiting for an explanation.

“They held me back, you are not at fault, I was supposed to be beside you anyways. Apparently I’ve been collecting deadly sins the past few weeks, and I’m not worthy of my wings anymore.” your voice was hoarse and barely above a whisper.

“With or without wings, you are what all angels are supposed to be. This, what they’ve done to you. I promise you it not go unpunished, precious one.” They made you feel like you were made of glass, something precious and fragile to be protected.

“I’m not that weak, Lucifer.” You argued, and they cupped your face ever so tenderly. “I will not allow My precious angel to be hurt. They mock me, and they mock your strength. All in due time sweet one. You and I will make sure they pay.” You were glad not to be on the receiving end of Lucifer’s wrath because in that moment, they sounded furious.

The way they held you contrasted their words so harshly it was almost hard to believe this was the very same being that so carefully nursed you back to health. “I’m quite the fan of revenge, and I do not get on well with those break deals, my angel.”

The way they held you contrasted their words so harshly it was almost hard to believe this was the very same being that so carefully nursed you back to health. “I’m quite the fan of revenge, and I do not get on well with broken deals, my angel.”

[geminiagentgreen]

Hello!! It's me again!! I have another question!! I saw a post the other day, I think I saw it on twitter, but it brought up a Bible verse that I've always been confused on. The one that talks about honoring your parents. What exactly does it mean to honor your parents? Like what does one do to honor their parents?

I ask this because my relationship with my dad is not good. I don't want to get into to much detail here (as tempting as it is lol) so the most I'll say is that he isn't a great dad. He has a lot of anger issues, he's insensitive and at times judgmental. He knows the Bible like the back of his hand but he feels very dead in it. He hides behind it a lot instead of actually tackling his issues in any shape or form. Always says that God is working on him but nothing ever changes, he's still the same miserable man he's always been

Because of all of this, I do not love him. I try to, but I just can't. I don't want him around me, I try to avoid him as much as I can, his presence alone can greatly sour my mood. And yet, God talks about honoring one's parents. There's clearly importance to that, I just don't fully get it. I don't understand what it truly means to honor my parents. As much as my dad needs to change, does this include change in me as well? In how I view and interact with him? I hope this isn't to much of an ask from me (and I hope I didn't overstep any boundaries with everything I've said here lol)

Oh, beloved, how I related to your predicament...

Well, for starters, a good and basic way to honor your parents is through obedience to them. Under their roof as a child to being an adult and visiting them, doing as you are asked or told by your parents is honoring them. There is also how you speak of them to others and truly in your heart; are they respected? Do you obey your mother at home but when you're with friends is she spoken of bitterly? I feel like I could go on, but overall the principle of honoring your parents has its roots in the supreme commandment of honoring God - for what are earthly parents if not a picture of God's character?

But as is often the case, parents are not perfect, and some of us are born to difficult fathers. I want to say right off the bat that despite of how sour, even miserable our relationship with our fathers may be, we are still called to honor them as well (though not above the authority and commandments of God, and not to where we don't reach out for help when we can as his sins are not justified by any obedience towards him).

Myself and all of my siblings can attest to the less than stellar relationships we had with our father; he too had anger issues - he'd walk into the room and everything would go silent, every now and then he'd explode about something or make a mountain out of an anthill - and right to the T with your father is how I'd continue to describe mine.

With this, we can look at your lack of love for him. The beautiful thing about love is that it's not a feeling, but it's actions. Love is deciding to repay anger with gentleness, bitterness with kindness, a rude comment with an "I love you", and praying for him - the more often, the better - for God commands us to love even our enemies and to pray for those who persecute us (Matthew 5:44), and unfortunately sometimes our fathers are our enemies.

My father was also a man who was very close with bible verses, and I personally look back upon his life and see an honest effort from a man with more pain than I think I ever got to know. My pop felt like a better father when he tried being my friend, if I'm being honest, but I know he cared in his own way (he made sure everyone was at church if you were under his roof, and I'm glad he did) and I'd very much like to give your father the benefit of the doubt; many of us don't like who or where we are, even as Christians, so it could be that is something he's dealing with, or he very well could be dealing with the sin of pride. Regardless, and in fact because of how unlovable he is to you, he needs you all the more, and that right there is one great way to honor you father: love him even when he is unlovable.

And, to be blunt, I would get to loving him ASAP, because tomorrow is not guaranteed.

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I am once again blessed that you would consider me for advice, and I thank you for I am coming from some personal evaluation of whether or not there are any works within or from me to justify my faith. By the good grace of God, here you are to demand my reliance upon Him with what couldn't have been a more tailor-suited question.

I'll be praying for you both, I sincerely hope you two will be reunited and get to reconcile and grow.

[roo-bastmoon]

"so in that kumbaya post u just openly admit ur a fat ugly single abused people pleasing jkker? not suprised. u all r. id kms if i were u."

Hmm.

Okay.

Quite a bit to unpack, there.

To answer your question: Yes, I'm a bit overweight right now--it's part the hormone blockers for the cancer and part my own emotional eating the last few months because, ya know, it's a bit stressful battling cancer. I plan to get back into working out after Yoongi's concert, though! And I'm not hideous, but I'm definitely not gorgeous. You're right, I'm single, have been for years, by choice. I do tend to people please a LOT (working on boundaries with a really sassy wonderful cognitive behavioral therapist--10/10, highly recommend CBT!). And I absolutely love and adore Jikook, for sure, as well as all of BTS.

So... guilty as charged.

But no, my "flaws" aren't a reason to DIE. I still have value, dear throw-away-account-in-my-inbox.

Despite my many shortcomings, I still have purpose. I still get pleasure. I can still do amazing things in the world and create some meaning in this life. All people are works in progress. Me, too. Who told you you had to always be exceptional to ever be worthy?

I'm not perfect. But I can try to be good.

In case you need a reminder, here's what "good" looks like:

I hope you heal from whatever wounds others gave you to make you calloused and aggressive toward total strangers.

I hope when you read this that you unclench your jaw and relax your shoulders, because you are safe and sheltered and you know there's no immediate threat.

I hope you can afford a nourishing meal and a long hot shower with amazing-smelling soap to restore some of your energy, which must be flagging, since you're spending it on Asks like this.

I hope you get a great night's sleep in a comfy bed, and wake up feeling refreshed and ready to face whatever challenges are a part of your days. Because I'm certain you have challenges just like everyone else.

I hope you have someone you trust, who you can talk to, who will listen to every word intently, and try to empathize and understand you and give you good counsel.

I hope at the end of your day, when all the work and chores are done, you get to read a really engrossing story, or listen to a thought-provoking podcast, or check out some amazing music that makes you feel alive and excited to be so.

I hope you remember yourself--your true self--the kind of person who can be kind.

Because the universe returns your energy back to you. I promise you, eventually, it does.

So here's some kindness from a random overweight absolutely flawed single Jikook fan on Tumblr, who genuinely wants you to be healthy and whole as soon as possible. We all will be better off when you start to heal.

Now, to get us both back into a place of calm and gratitude, you inspired me to make a donation to NAMI. If you ever need mental health help (and who doesn't?) they have some great free resources that you can check out HERE. Please never seriously consider killing yourself, or even joking about it, for any reason. Every day, every moment, is a new chance to start from scratch and make your life into something you prefer.

And if you're not open to talking to a therapist right now, there's a free app called Insight Timer with tons of great meditations, calming exercises, insightful podcasts, and mood-resetting music.

So, this is as much of my time and energy as I can give to you. I wouldn't have even answered you, except the K-pop community just suffered a loss from suicide this week and I felt it important to address what you said. But now I've got some streaming and voting to do in between my real-life responsibilities. So this is the last we will interact under your sock puppet account. But I hope you see this post, and I hope you know I really mean it. I really mean that you deserve to heal from this toxic anger you're taking out on others. I know you can be better.

"Who says a dream must be something grand?

Just become anybody.

We deserve a life.

Whatever, big or small, you are you after all."

--Paradise, Love Yourself: Tear, BTS

For everyone else, if I keep getting Asks from sock puppets like this, I'll turn off the option to message me unless we follow each other. I already turned off anons ages ago because of these types of messages. I will limit access to me, not as a punishment, but just because it's important to protect my (and my friends') energy against negativity. I am here for BTS, not drama.

This fandom needs to work harder to reflect BTS' values, or else what are we all doing here?? You don't have to agree with anyone about anything, but you do have to at least be civil.

If you're looking for a fight, you won't get it from me. My tongue is ruled by the law of kindness.

With sincerest respect,

Roo

P.S. Jimin and Yoongi are close to record-breaking milestones. Please don't waste any time or energy on this sort of thing--keep streaming!

[bohnsky]

I've been a f1 fan for a little over two weeks now (which is not a lot, ik) and I thought it would be fun to keep track of my favorite drivers over time.

The first drivers I got to know were obviously my first favorites:

1. Charles Leclerc

The clip of Charles signing his own gloves was basically what got me into f1 in the first place. It's a dumb reason but now I actually enjoy everything that comes with f1 and not only the pretty drivers.

2. Daniel Ricciardo

Danny Ric, my love, I still consider him one of the best people that have ever happened to f1. He is just such a sweetheart and I'm a sucker for simley boys.

3. Max Verstappen

I honestly have mixed feelings about Maxy. I love him for who he is but there are several things that he does or says that I personally consider not okay. I respect him a lot and I think he has a good heart but there are situations that make me think about that twice. But honestly his proud grin when someone laughs about one of his jokes is the best thing on this planet <3

My favorite drivers one week into liking f1:

1. Daniel Ricciardo

I really believe he makes the world a better place by simply existing. I don't think I have to elaborate.

2. Charles Leclerc

My crush slowly fading into the background while I'm starting to get to know the other drivers. Charles will always have a special place in my heart as the reason I got into f1. He is also probably the driver that I'm rooting for the most even though there are so many drivers that I want to see winning.

3. Pierre Gasly

Pierre being Charles best racing friend made me want to learn more about him and suddenly I fell in love. He probably has the most infectious laugh ever and the way he interacts with Yuki makes me melt.

My favorite drivers two weeks into liking f1:

1. Pierre Gasly

Pierre has officially taken my heart. I love him. Portect him at all cost.

2. Alex Albon

This one took me by surprise actually. I was watching stream highlight (because of Charles) a lot lately so I naturally got confronted with the sweetheart that is Alex Albon. I honestly can see him taking P1 from Pierre soon. But it somehow makes so much sense. Alex is definetly the kind of person I would want in my life, while Pierre and Charles are more like a casual celebrety crush ig. Idk, I can't explain it, but Alex Albon yall.

3. Charles Leclerc

Charles is definetly being a constant here. And I really hope he stays in the top three. My love. Always being the one I'm rooting for.

I was playing f1 2020 today and felt like cheating when I even considered driving for anything else than Ferrari. Thanks for that Charles xD

Honerable mentions:

Lewis, of course

Carlos, this man is a mood, plus I've been a fan of Carlos Senior years before I even considered watchin f1 (you see I'm usually more the rally kind of person)

Lando, my brothers favorite

Yuki, honestly the best

And then I realised that I have been lying to myself this whole time because the one and only best is my love Seb Vettel. He is just god tier. The best person to ever wander this world.

And now welcome to my favorite ships in f1:

platonic

Pierre & Charles and Max & Daniel are the perfect best friends to me. This and only this please.

romantic

Charles × Max, Lestappen all the way. I love a good rivals to lovers and these two are just perfect for that. Also I could almost believe that Max actually has a little crush on Charles.

Lewis × Seb, somehow Sewis has gotton hold of my heart, they are both just so soft and I need that in my life.

Carlos × Lando, love, just love, there's nothing else I can say about that. Plus the have the best shipping name. Just Carlando, it's perfect.

Alex × George, this came with my new found love for Alex. I could totally see them as only platonic but I want them to be lovers, because cute.

Pierre × Yuki, I am not like totally shipping them (as in platonic is great too) but they are just the cutest. The way they interact with each other is everything. I want a friendship like this please.

Now let me know if you agree with any of this or if I should check something out that I might like, based on this post :)

[lazzarella]

Me: I'm going to start posting reviews of BLs as I watch/re-watch them!

Also me: forgets after posting a grand total of one

Anyway, here's one that was in my drafts since I re-watched Cupid's Last Wish, despite having only first watched it a couple of months before XD While it's easily the weakest of EarthMix's series for me, I enjoyed the heck out of it both times regardless! Shout out to the hair and costume departments btw

The cons first: The weakest part is probably the subplot with Win's aunt and uncle, which fizzles out into nothing and feels like it was only there to pad out time, and I may have skipped some of it this time around. It also felt a little sexist with how they kept making a point of how weak Lin's body is and so on. I think it's meant to show how she's more of a princess/mama's girl, but it felt more like women are inherently weaker at times. But it wasn't as egregious as the sexism in some things I've seen and I'm a sucker for both road trips and body swap and this did both of those really well imho. Plus, I loved the romance! (We’re onto the pros now) Before watching, I saw a few comments saying body swap is overdone (though I can't seem to find many other BLs with body swap?? Maybe it's just dramas in general?), but I'll never get enough body swap and, like I said, I think it was particularly well done here. Mix and Jan did an incredible job of portraying the same character and I thought the transitions between showing Mix and Jan as Win were very smooth and edited nicely.

I liked that for all the tender moments between Win and Korn we see Mix, and that, while it's clear that Korn only ever 'sees' Win, too, it's fairly believable that Win would think Korn was being sweet because he's in Lin's body. 

Of course, he's also a little bit of an idiot because we see in all the flashbacks it's clearly Win he has feelings for, but I don't entirely blame Win. Plus, it makes for all the things I love: misunderstandings, miscommunication and angst! (Sidenote: some days, I feel like I'm the only person who still loves misunderstandings and miscommunication. Ah well!)

Korn is the biggest sweetheart. Like, he is just so lovely! The scene where he's trying to distract Win when he has cramps is the cutest.

Win is also largely a fun character (and his constant need to be eating is a mood). Of course, he IS a major dickhead at the start, and borderline (or just plain old) abusive with his sister, which is another sour point—I think they could've set him up as impetuous and stubborn without that, or I would have preferred it, anyway. So, I can definitely understand why it was a deal breaker for a lot of people! But I pushed through and I'm glad I did, because it had so many things I loved

And the chemistry between Earth and Mix is as palpable as always: they really have something special onscreen (and, as I've said before, I love their offscreen interactions, too) and there are so many gorgeous moments in this show!

The hand holding while falling asleep, Korn trying to distract and cheer Win up, covering his eyes because he's afraid of ghosts (and then covering the hole in the tent in that one flashback), the confession, the kissing... The romance is really lovely and that's what I'm here for.

Oh, and the cowboy hats don’t hurt either lol (they sadly only made a brief appearance)

So, yeah, just some more rambling thoughts from a relative BL newbie XD I gave this an 8.5 on MDL, which didn't change after re-watching. I can easily see myself returning to this again too

(Oh and I also enjoyed the little follow up Zero Supporter, which was basically an extended ad for that iced tea! It was really fun seeing Earth and Mix play each other’s roles, particularly Earth.)