#i. JUST started. hrt again.

[lumalalu]

WOOHOO 2024 OFF TO A GREAT START!!!! YEAAAAAAAHHG!!!!!!!!!!!

[lazylittledragon]

!! QUICK PSA FOR TESTOSTERONE TAKERS !!

warning this is a bit gross so i'll put the photos under the cut but i think it's important because nobody told me about this before i started T

if you're taking testogel/any other T that you put on your skin, please for the love of god moisturise the skin you put it on

gel REALLY dries out your skin and as someone with dry skin anyway it caused my skin to flake and scab and break out more which has left a lot of scarring on my back/chest/shoulders

(yes, T causes acne anyway, but for me personally my skin didn't get that much worse after i started and it's improved since i've been moisturising more so that was the problem for me)

obviously there is absolutely NOTHING wrong with having acne or acne scarring or anything like that (it just makes me a bit insecure and means i have to put off getting tattoos there until it gets better), i just wish i'd started taking care of it earlier

also i would Never want to scare anyone off HRT if they want it because it's been a wonderful magical thing for me but there are some uncomfortable aspects of it and this is just one that i didn't know about

[burningcomputerpersona]

i just watched I Saw The Tv Glow and now i am in shambles

[breqvendaai]

I wish I could go back in time to 18 year-old me and tell them to try and stick it out in computer science, bc maybe if I had I wouldn’t be stuck in this hellhole with no way out bc the job market is shit and the only out-of-country applications I’ve heard back from were from two telling me they weren’t able to support someone coming from a different country

The worst part is there’s parts about living here that I don’t hate, like sometimes I forget and enjoy myself down here, and then [gestures at the government]

Edit: as an addendum I’m still going to keep trying to leave. Part of me just wishes I didn’t have to. And part of me is worried than even if I have to, I can’t. This isn’t a particularly coherent post.

[viorhysealberia]

hot take: not that it matters, but I truly don’t think lazy people actually exist. even if we DO run with the truly heartless idea that everyone has to be “useful” for the right to live, everyone wants to be “useful”. Everyone wants to do something. Nobody wants to completely waste away doing nothing, that’s just not the nature of living. They just don’t have the drive to go with the options the government has decided are worth having the right to live for. And they shouldn’t have to.

[fatsmyname]

boy toy at ur service ^_^!

he/him lesbian

[lionblaze03-2]

sometimes I think about writing and singing music not because I’m an incredible singer but because no one has my fucking voice, especially in popular music, and its disheartening to be born a girl, told you’ll only get girl roles or try to voice match other girls, or ‘sing with the girls’ and then only be able to match male voices because you’re a fuckin tenor and not anything higher. I can’t think of any girl Broadway roles I can hit all the notes on. Most songs I love I have to pitch down for myself or use falsetto for singing along to. It bothers me a lot less now because I’m an adult who’s more secure in myself but as a teen in kids musical theatre it FUCKED with me, BAD style. And I know for a fact that even now when I hear people with a voice like mine singing I get excited and immediately invested in their work because they’re like ME, finally, for once. A brother in this world of being afab and having the voice of a recently pubescent boy forever. Maybe I should be that brother too.

[guesswhosaninja]

do you ever hear the phrase "I was so scared of wasting a day that I nearly wasted my life" and have it haunt you for a month

there are so many times I've felt like I simply lost years, and you'll finally do something and realize you spent six months saying "I should do that soon" without doing anything or "I should get back to that" each day for months on end

[anotherqueersnailowner]

ngl it is getting harder and harder to wait to start hrt. I've known I'm trans for 4 years now, and I haven't even officially come out to my family. I'm out to (most of) my friends, I'm out at work, he'll my family basically knows but I haven't actually said it to any of them :/ I have 2 more years until I can start the process of medically transitioning and I'm honestly not sure I can wait that long!!! it I am THIS CLOSE to ordering t online, which I KNOW is probably a stupid idea, but I'm so fucking desperate, and this little voice in my head keeps telling me that if I take small enough doses that the changes will happen slow enough that my family won't even notice which is STUPID but I have shit object permanence (my friend got a haircut and I couldn't even remember what if looked like a day later), and so my brain keeps telling me that everyone else does to but they DON'T and my stupid fucking brain won't accept that bc it's dumb accepts hell and just AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[drakonovisny]

pride month is going by pretty mixed for me so far

[kuromi-hoemie]

i can hear the frogs ૮˶• ﻌ •˶ა ♡⁠ there's this fenced off area nearby with tall grass and a pond in the middle they have to themselves. there are so many of them!

u can hear them in the distance from my back patio but i followed the sound one night and found the source 😌 it's good to hear them again.

[peribirb]

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[leoxxii]

recently ive been having a lot of doubts over my transness and like. scared that if i do start transitioning ill regret it. but this morning i woke up and one the very first things i started thinking about was "god itd be so cool to have bottom growth. god im so excited for bottom growth." and it may have occured to me that. cis women probably dont wake up and think about that.

[tcocktalented]

ok it's pretty much confirmed. i wanna go back to sex work some time in the foreseeable future

[tkbrokkoli]

had my first hrt appointment today 🥳

[lokh]

bro i used to be so fucking cute....