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youaremysunshine-court · 2 years

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Fuck I'm half asleep but like the thing I hate most about the lan clan is that they never try to make a change outside their own clan yk

They're so righteous, they can do no wrong, they don't gossip, they've got 5000 fucking rules that must be followed and most of those rules are things like running is forbidden excessive laughter is forbidden

But do you know what, they don't say murder is forbidden they say murder is forbidden in the cloud recesses. So hypothetically any lan clan member could walk outside the gates murder whomever they wanted and return to zero repercussions

When a sect is clearly abusing its power over the village it has power over, they're like oh don't interfere in politics, gossip is forbidden, do not slander other but they never actually go check to see if the rumours are true and if they should he helping instead of acting pious and sitting on aountain

It's ridiculous they have so many rules and yet when someone like jin huanshan is having temper tantrums and sexually assaulting maids and wives and god knows who else, they go to his stupid discussion conference and don't say a word and smile and drink his wine when they should stand up and say this is not an honourable way for a sect leader to behave please change yuor ways or step down

To sign off, the lan clan may have morals but they're all a bunch of lily livered cowards and its astonishing that lan zhan and sizhui made it so long without throwing a fit over the injustice and double faced-ness of it all

#untamed #mdzs #lan wangji #lan zhan #lan sizhui #lan yuan #lan clan #mo dao zu shi #chen qing ling #im wide awake now because i got progressively more angry as i wrote that #but honestly #you cannot call yourself righteous and morally upstanding unless you can also call out the evil you see in the world #you cannot call yourself good if youre standing by and watching while someone else does wrong #idk i have a lot of feelings about this #hi im jay and this has been a rant

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writerfae · 2 years

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You think Henry ever felt like an intruder because he wasn’t Milan’s son?

Like, of course Milan raised him like he’s his own and he loves him and Henry loves Milan but you think he ever looked at Aiden, who is son of both Milan and Ranva and is so loved by both of them and felt a little out of place?

#don’t touch me I’m emotional #but actually can I get a hug?#and Henry too #idk I have a lot of feelings about this #Henry being clearly aware that his brother was a sign of their mother’s love to Milan #while all she has ever felt for Henry’s father is dislike #and that little voice deep down that asks Hebry if maybe she is reminded of that dislike through him and is bothered by it #that little voice that gets drowned out by his family’s love for Henry #but years later after his mother’s death #the insecurities resurface #after all the man he called his father can’t even look at him anymore

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illusioncanthurtme--art · 4 days

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Physically? I am sitting in my bedroom. Mentally? Spiritually? I AM DEAD ON THE FLOOR!!!!! THESE TWO HAVE KILLED ME!!!!

(Another drawing! This was originally attempt #1 at drawing stan, and then fiddleford just showed up. Kinda feels like them five minutes after the above acting like nothing happened though, so it works sdjkgkjfshj)

#HEALED FIDDLEFORD HAS ME BOUNCING OFF THE FUCKING WALLS!!!!!!! GIVE THE MAN A BRIGHT HAPPY FUTURE!!! FUCK!!!!!#I don't know how i'm coming off right now #when i say that i've been super manic about them for the past week I really mean it #guys Idk but I think I might be fiddlestans number one fan #I liked this pairing before book of bill and after reading it it only solidified things #IT IS SO MUCH MORE THAN A CRACK SHIP TO ME!!!!!!!!#fiddlestan #gravity falls #anyway this is supposed to be them the next summer #stan is working the shack to tutor soos for tourist season #fiddleford has changed while the twins were on the stan o war #STAN DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL AT FIRST and they have a lot of shit to work through from their past before they can start making out dksjds #sketchbook #traditional art #pencil drawing #traditional drawing #stanley pines #fiddleford mcgucket #gravity falls fanart

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artkaninchenbau · 3 months

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People keep on asking for more Baby Robin and Papadile so here is more Baby Robin and Papadile. Now never ask anything from me ever again

#My art #One Piece #Long post #Sir Crocodile #Nico Robin #Alternatively panel 5 would've been a close up of Crocodile's face from Robin's POV where he looks like he's giving her a death glare #Not intentionally he's just a big scary bastard with a Resting Murder Face and Robin is a small traumatized child #But I wanted to focus on the silliness of the moment so you get the goofy version instead #IDK man there's just something very funny to me about the idea of Robin just randomly info-dumping about a subject she's read about #And Crocodile being like ''?????????????????????? The fuck you talking about??''#Robin leaves the ship's kitchen and Crocodile just stares at the tomato like ''...It's a fruit? Forreal?''#(Meanwhile Robin is sweating bullets like ''I called his favorite vegetable a FRUIT right in his FACE he's going to KILL ME'')#Robin grew extra feet from the bottom of her feet to reach the counter and that actually isn't me trying to explain bad art away #In the original Papadile comic there was a panel of Robin doing the dishes with extra feet to reach the sink but I cut it out #(It was a stress relief comic I did not feel like drawing a complicated background in detail) (BUT YES I THOUGHT OF IT)#Nico Robin Age 11 is *more* than capable of cooking Crocodile just does not trust her with his food. At least not yet #She did start doing the dishes unprompted and continues to do so (mostly out of fear). Croc told her she didn't have to but allows it #IDK a lot of people seem to headcanon Crocodile as incapable of cooking and like. Surely Mr ''I don't trust people'' knows how to cook #Like he doesn't have to be a master chef or anything but and maybe he enjoys not HAVING to cook (pain in the ass with one hand + knife/hook #But surely he can cook decent enough. SURELY #Botanists don't @ me I know the ''tomato is a fruit'' thing isn't fully accurate this is just a silly little haha comic

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stuckinapril · 9 months

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friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !!#& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

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potassiumprincess · 5 months

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i think marinette is worse at resting when she's sick but adrien is worse at sitting things out if he's injured. i have no explanation, these are just the vibes

#ml #marinette dupain cheng #adrien agreste #okay i lied i do have justifications #adrien probably just. would love being taken care of if he's sick #it's maybe something his mom used to do but not ENOUGH #and marinette would absolutely spoil him #but marinette is all I AM FINE IT IS JUST A COLD I AM FINE meanwhile she nearly falls off a rooftop in a dizzy spell #but adrien hate being kept away from ppl he loves. hates not being able to protect them. and an injury is more long-term and isolating #meanwhile...idk marinette feels to me like an injurt would leave her more defeated. she'd feel like she failed somehow #like she is SUPPOSED to be ladybug she is SUPPOSED to keep herself together to keep the city safe #so i think that would take a lot of her energy she'd be frustrated about it yes but also sort of...admit defeat #adrien would find ways to cheer her up though 🥺

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lazylittledragon · 18 days

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ok someone please correct me if i'm wrong but am i weird for thinking those 'audiobooks don't count as reading' posts are ableist as fuck????

#ramble #my first thought was like: how is this even a debate what about blind people. not every book comes in braille but MOST have an audiobook #or dyslexic people #you still enjoyed the book!! you still absorbed it!!! you got EXACTLY the same thing as people who read the words!!!#how does it not count????#i guess you miss out on the 'learning new vocab' you get through seeing the words but also #i don't really do audiobooks but i do a lot of podcasts esp fiction podcasts #and i have ABSOLUTELY picked up new stuff from there that helps with my writing #someone please explain how this is even an argument of COURSE it counts????#idk in my opinion finishing a book means 'i put the words in my brain and i thought about them and i enjoyed a story'#not 'i held a stack of paper in my hands for a bit'#i'm v lucky that i do have time to sit and read. and whenever i commute anywhere it's public transport so i CAN bring a book with me #but if i didn't have the free time or had to drive for hours everywhere i would be STOKED to still get to enjoy books #it's been REALLY bothering me lmao idk why i feel so strongly #for some reason it's giving the same energy as like. being told you can't take a comic or manga from the library bc it's not a 'real' book #of course it's a real book it's a story somebody wrote down #i can see this spiralling into 'if you have a kindle you aren't reading'. you have to sniff the paper. feel the papercuts

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inkskinned · 1 year

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he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho)#healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage....#1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception''#3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.''#idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band''#edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry.#but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally.#i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet .#i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound.#but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too.#here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort)#choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

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mroddmod · 6 months

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little scrapped comic bc it felt a bit ooc to me in hindsight

#tbb #the bad batch #the bad batch season 2 #the bad batch season 3 #tbb tech #tbb omega #i was worried that this wouldn’t really come across as i intended #i’ve heard a lot of people complain about the characterization of tech in fanon #they make him a lot less capable than he is in canon just because he is the ‘nerd’ of the team #which i totally agree with #so i didn’t want it to seem like i was doing the same #i just think that tech would have a difficultly expressing some of his vulnerability around his brothers because they are so often stoic #(and frequently make fun of one another)#and omega might be the first person he feels comfortable in letting that side of him show #idk #just a sweet idea to me #anyway i decided i wasn’t going to finish this because of my fear of being misinterpreted but i did like how these sketches turned out #so here :)#a little treat #mods art #my art #mods draws #star wars #sw tbb #star wars the bad batch

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magnapanther · 1 month

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drew hallownest's crown in its prime, before any stray wyrms decided to move in and create some random kingdom :3

surely the moths who built this fine statue would never turn their backs upon the being it represents, causing it to be forgotten and grow spiteful, seeding death and sickness in the interest of revenge!!

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ANYWAYS, i know it's not super complex, but i'm pretty happy with it. been trying to figure out how to draw rock/stone and clouds in a sketchier/looser style, so here's my attempt at that, if anyone has some tips/tricks for that it'd be super greatly appreciated!! :3

also felt like i'd been drawing a lot of super gloomy dark environments and was kinda stuck in a rut/art blocked, so i wanted to step outside my comfort zone :)

seriously though imagine some beautiful sunny day with multicoloured clouds and sunbeams shining down through the crystal peaks, refracting off crystals and stuff.... i'd love to see that in-game somehow dude

#hollow knight #art #artists on tumblr #my art #original art #the radiance #crystal peak #hk radiance #hk the radiance #radiance #hallownest #hallownest's crown #ok enough of these descriptive tags it is wall of text time #so yeah i have returned once again after over half a year lol #i promise i've been doing stuff it's just that a lot of it is practice and not the sort of thing i'm super proud of :)#switching up a lil with this piece and using a lot of watercolour brushes and halftones and less hatching #idk how i feel about it just yet but i wanna eventually blend both extremes if i can figure out how to make it good :3 #so uhhhhh if you're reading this and you have an idea for how to accomplish that lmk #it'd be super super appreciated :3

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bookalicent · 16 days

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yeah so this was insane

#i feel like too many people reduce this interaction to jason being like ‘lol same’#but idk :/#this chapter is from jason’s pov #and leading up to it he’s like ‘people keep walking on eggshells around me bc of the the michael varus stab wound’#and he hates it so when he goes on deck to help out with the storm #everyone’s like wtf except for percy #and jason states how much he appreciated percy not treating him like a sick kid #and i feel like it’s echoed in this sentiment where jason could say so many things like #‘you should never feel that way’ ‘im here if you need anything’#but he doesn’t make percy feel alone in his desire to just…. end it all #which ik for some people that doesn’t work but you’re not a character in hoo and percy is dealing with so much guilt #and he can’t tell annabeth bc she’s a main aspect of that guilt #and he doesn’t wanna guilt her more and he feels ashamed and when he describes this he feels weird for feeling it #so having jason this tough guy be like ‘yo i understand it bc i felt the same way #that’s gotta mean a lot to percy #also insane how jason who also struggles to display vulnerability #allows it in one of few times in this moment just so percy this guy he’s supposed to be jealous about #feels comforted and not alone in his guilt and shame #and also it’s just insane how jason’s wanting to kay em ess does not get talked about AT ALL #and just seeing his mom and the pressure of new rome getting to him #like this scene is insane and i’ll never shut up about it #also ignore me i’m just finishing my reread of hoo that took all summer #jason grace #percy jackson #pjo #ashla.txt

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rystiel · 5 days

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idk what we’re all calling the concept of fiddlestan working together but i’m calling my version the portal partners AU 🙏🏼

#gave it a name bc i was kinda tired of calling it the Fidds and Stan Work Together on the Portal AU #it’s called portal partners bc they’re partners in fixing the portal partners in running the shack AND partners in life #ik i’m not the only one to think of an au where they start working together after ford goes missing #but i don’t see a lot of people really showing the older version of them ? i don’t think ?#like i’ve seen canon older fiddlestan but not older fiddlestan after working together for 30 years ? idk #also figured fidds would look different in a world where he doesn’t lose his mind in his 30s #🤷🏻‍♂️#gay old men #yay #stan looks and acts the same btw he just happens to also have a very longterm bf to be gay with #gravity falls took place before gay marriage was legal (jesus christ that’s crazy to think about) so that’s why i say very longterm bf #(this means ford would be back in time to attend their wedding tho so. best man ford real. fidd & ford may be sort-of-exes but it’s fine)#gravity falls #gravity falls au #fiddlestan #also… petition to start calling fiddlestan fiddley #bc fiddle(ford) + (stan)ley …. fiddley… u see the vision????#fiddley #🙂‍↕️🙏🏼#stanley pines #fiddleford mcgucket #gravity falls fanart #idk man i’m gonna tag the au too ig #portal partners au #gravity falls portal partners au #???#my art #(i guess? used a fidds base then redrew it with my changes so idk)#rystiart #sorry if someone’s done smthn similar bc i feel like this idea of them working together is pretty popular maybe 😭

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jvnart · 3 months

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Kakagai Week!

Hero

Kks: gai? GAI: In here!

Kks: feeling nostalgic? Gai: ha, I suppose.

Gai: I was just wondering-

Kks: -he knows gai: .. thank you, kakashi

#when youre married forever and you already know what he's worrying about #ive got a lot of gai and dai feelings #i think dai is both of their hero #anywaaaaay #kakagai #gaikaka #kakagaiweek2024 #kakagai week 2024 #maito gai #might guy #hatake kakashi #kakashi hatake #nart #jvart #naruto #naruto fanart #idk why i got stuck on the 4 panels for this week but #whatever!#i usually add too much to everythjng so these have forced me to be direct lmao

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thebarrows · 2 months

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put them in a room together and no one will come out alive (●'◡'●)

#tma #the magnus archives #elias bouchard #gertrude robinson #jonathan sims #jonah magnus #jon's shirt says i love cats and cat picture #maybe i should one day post my shitpost like 2-month old tma pinterest meme redraws but idk if i have to find original memes that i refernc #cause some people include original memes in the posts and some don't #i loved drawing this #but oh my gosh how many troubles i've came through with this one #my disk said let's go let's be silly and boom! look! randomly 100% usage without a reason #and my windows crashed when i like 1/3 done with drawing #and i was saving drawing at that exact moment so file got fucking corrupted #file repairs apps didn't help but i managed to open file with krita #IT WAS THE ONLY APP THAT OPENED THE FILE ARE ITS DEVS MAGICIAN?#at the end it was a windows problem not disk's i fixed usage problem by reseting? system #also it was gertrude's sketch layer that was corrupted #fighting demons in my pc was feeling a little bit colin-coded #a lot of tags but i needed to complain about this situation

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raiiny-bay · 2 months

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Love, Dhes

Parker,

It's unfair how time with you feels so short. How the last 10 years have felt like no time at all. I like to think there are other versions of us out there, somewhere. Maybe in another timeline, another universe. I like to think we find each other no matter where we are or what we're doing. That we're together and happy and I get to love you in a dozen different lifetimes. That's what I hope, anyway. And I hope when this lifetime ends, we get to start over and do it all again. Because once just isn't enough. Not for me. Not with you.

I hope the next 10 years pass slower.

Love, Dhes

#ts4 #simblr #ts4 edit #ts4 render #sims 4 #myedits #sue #dhestyn #kelly #bow #stella #duder the cat #marky #jax #i'm not fucking recovering from this #critical damage has been dealt to me #GODDDDDD this edit took me so LONG.#the GOOD news is there ARE other versions of them & they DO in fact find each other in every universe !!#whether or not they are happy though. well. that's a different story #cough monster boyz. cough slaughter house.#:-)#ngl a lot of the time i was working on this edit all i could think about was how much dhes has grown as a character #like baby dhes genuinely was such a punk. wouldn't be caught DEAD writing a love letter #let alone to kelly of all people #idk i'm just proud of him. seeing him so comfortable with himself... how he's able to show that to others & not feel afraid or ashamed...#it's really sweet!!!#like ik y'all don't know a whole lot about the boys as kids (bc i'm v protective of them so i don't share a lot lol) but trust me.#dhes has come a long way.#genuinely feel like i have watched him grow & learn & change & it does. give me feelings.#n e way. that's it.

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tero-ga · 4 months

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My first contribution to dungeon meshi 👍

#laios touden #nakamoto toshiro #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #laishuro #<- i think it belongs here dhbs #I have a lot of feelings about this two and idk if it's good or bad feeling

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