#idk if this is anything im tired and have work tomorrow so im not thinking about it after i post this

[spectral-honey]

Dick: come on, Jason. Just tell me what's wrong, I KNOW it's something.

Jason: oh yeah, how do you KNOW, huh?! Don't give me the older brother instinct crap.

Dick: Jason, you've been reading only Russian authors for a WEEK now

Jason:

Jason: that could mean anything. Maybe I just like Russian literature

Dick: Jason

Dick: yknow what. Okay. But you have to stop getting book recommendations from Tim, he has terrible taste in books--

Jason: *loud and dramatic gasp*

Jason: I can't believe you

Dick: jay--

Jason: No. don't you ever talk to me or Fyodor Dostoevsky ever again

[monsterbisexual]

,,

[pepprs]

it’s yom kippur now and im not supposed to eat anything until sunset tomorrow but ive had a headache all day and rn its fucking SPLITTING but im 5 hours into the fast and i don’t know what to do. eating something would probably make me feel better but it’s yom kippur and i don’t have a longstanding ailment that would prohibit me from fasting or whatever it’s just i woke up with a headache that has gotten worse throughout the day and now the fast has started but it’s the worst it’s been all day. idk what to do. i need to eat something but i can’t

[gaystardykeco]

not ready to go back to work tomorrow but luckily im so not ready that my brain isn't letting it fully process and so im just kind of numb except for little moments when the panic breaks through again

[britneyshakespeare]

why does scheduling my work days give me so much stress and anxiety

[pebblezone]

who’s up making sound effects ☝️☝️☝️

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[featherymainffins]

Binge-reading Dungeon Meshi because it's the only thing standing between me and suicide ngl.

[toastsnaffler]

ykw actually I am angry + disappointed w them. I've been pushing how I feel aside and trying to make it my own fault so it's all contained but I think theyve just been mean. and they really should know me better ik I try to pretend I don't expect more from them so I feel less hurt when they do things that upset me but we've been friends for years by this point. like come on.

[pizzapizzadickz]

I was tired and cold when I got home so I took a 2h nap.

[pepprs]

i do not want to get out of bed omfg. this week has been so fucking insane im exhausted but we have aprogram tonight until 7 and i have to facilitate and there are a million things to do today

[beebotea]

☁️ ˖⁺ lonely together — geto suguru

pairing: geto x gn!reader genre: fluff, a smidge of angst word count: 1.8k cw: post hidden inventory arc, reader is referred to as “darling”, morally gray reader, slightly suggestive joke at the end (idk geto insinuates u shower tgt), geto calls non-sorcerers monkeys i.e.: “i can fix him.” nah. he's perfect as he is

“so if youre lonely, no need to show me. if youre lonely, come be lonely with me.”

“suguru!”

you called out from the bottom of the hill, staring up at the entrance to the temple you had seen pictures of in yaga’s office. a board filled with pins and red rope connecting to other pictures related to geto suguru’s disappearance.

the man dressed in monk’s clothing with cascading raven hair done into a half-do stopped and turned towards you.

you noticed how his eyes widened upon seeing you. he looked healthier since you last saw him.

“suguru! did you sleep well last night?”

“it was enough. shouldnt you be preparing for your mission?”

“suguru! i got us some snacks from the bakery on the way home! do you want to try them with me and gojo?”

“no, it’s alright. im going to take a shower and rest in my room. you two go ahead without me.”

“suguru! i havent seen you in days, come out of your room, please? i miss you. everything’s been so boring lately…”

“im a bit tired. i have a mission tomorrow morning. goodnight.”

“suguru. tell me whats wrong… you havent hugged or kissed or even looked at me in weeks.”

“i dont really want to talk about it right now. i need to go soon, y/n.”

“be safe.”

“suguru? so it’s true?”

“it is.”

“youre leaving us?”

“i have to. dont you think we, those who are gifted, deserve more than the reality we live in?”

“what?”

“i want to thank you for worrying about me all this time and trying to make me feel better. i’ll miss you, goodbye, y/n.”

you remember returning to your dorm that day in a daze, tears long dried during your walk home, pondering his last words to you. apparently he’d been a lot more harsh on satoru than with you or shoko in his parting words.

you wanted to hate him for leaving you and everyone behind as if none of it ever mattered. as if everything he’d said to you in the past few years was a lie.

it had always been the four of you. but now, more than ever, you felt alone. you, satoru, and shoko all had a void that no amount of cigarettes or alcohol could fill. nothing could make you forget how warm the world used to be. how beautifully the moon used to glow. how bright the stars used to shine. now, all you could see was the vast darkness in between.

although your time was spent with two others as often as you could make possible, you felt inexplicably lonely.

we deserve more?

for the first few months, you were convinced he’d gone crazy, lost his mind, didn’t know what he was thinking.

but the more missions you took and the more casualties you witnessed, you started to understand what he meant. jujutsu sorcerers walk on a thin sheet of ice separating them from life and death. all the work they do and all the sacrifices they make for nothing more than monetary compensation.

we must protect those who cant protect themselves, satoru had said. but who was there to protect us? you thought in rebuttal.

haibara yu was only 17 when he passed. amanai riko was 14 when she was assassinated. gojo and geto were 18 when they were hunted and barely survived.

was it really all that worth it?

you remembered walking through the next few months of your last year in high school barely responding—as if it all went by in a blur.

nanami dropping out of jujutsu high, gojo mastering his domain expansion, shoko getting into medical school, you receiving your sorcerer’s license. did any of that mean anything if you all just died soon after?

the only thing you could recall clearly from your last year was bejng called to yaga’s office and offered a job as a teacher at the school.

you remember getting a glimpse of his board, filled with intel and pictures noting geto suguru’s activities. you recognized the temple and the trees surrounding it in a picture.

it was near your childhood home in the mountains where an old religious took base.

“i’ll have to decline, principal yaga.”

“dont get me wrong, you’ll still be sent on missions, you wont be cooped up here all the time. you’re a first-grade sorcerer after all—“

“really, principal yaga. i dont want to be a teacher here.”

“y/n?” suguru didnt take his eyes off of you as you bolted up the staircase, wrapping your arms around his shocked body.

“i missed you.” you smiled at him, feeling him instinctively wrap his arms around your waist as you pulled away.

“how did you find me?”

“i have my ways.”

he let out a gentle chuckle, one that youve been wanting to hear so badly for the last 14 months. “of course you do.” he tucked a strand if hair behind your ear, reminding you of the sweet and gentle young man you fell for in the beginning of high school. he took a moment to take in your appearance. he hadn’t seen you in so long and would be lying if he said he didnt miss you as well.

“i missed you too, y/n. why are you here?”

“well—”

“if youre here to convince me to come back. its not going to work.”

“wasnt really planning to.” you shrugged.

“oh?” he raised his brow, taken aback by your response. it was almost as if a weight was taken off his shoulders. it was hard enough to push you away once, a second time would probably break him entirely.

suguru couldnt help but let out a relived sigh, showing you the smile youve been dreaming of since he left. “so if youre not here for that, then i take it youre still sooo in love with me then arent you.”

“hey! im still mad at you, dont act all normal with me just yet.” you rolled your eyes, playfully swatting him on the shoulder. in all honesty you should be a lot more upset, livid perhaps, by the way he left it all behind. leaving your life without so much as saying ‘i love you’ or even sharing a kiss in the 3 weeks before his sudden rampage driven departure. but the thing was, your mind couldnt seem to care anymore. your tears and anger had long run out the first three months. your grieving had come to an end almost a year ago and now, you couldnt help but just be happy to see him again.

“right. im sorry.” he never took his eyes off of you as he spoke. “i didnt want to leave so abruptly like that. its just— i dont think i could stay in that world and continue to be happy.”

“i don’t completely understand what happened, suguru, but i know how you feel…” he nodded at your reply and began to guide you into the building.

“i wouldnt change anything even if i went back. except, maybe wait for you to come to the same realization. but believe me when i say this, ive always loved you. it just didnt feel right to say anything when i couldnt even love myself.” he said, holding your hand as the two of you walked through the traditional temple halls.

“was it lonely?”

“a little at first. but not so much anymore. ive found a new family and now with you by my side, i think i can finally call it complete.” he smiled at you, stopping by two large doors at the end of the hallway. “i want you to meet them.”

“theyre in there?” he nodded.

two months had passed since you arrived on the doorstep of his temple. two months for you to feel at home and with purpose beside your new family. two months was all it took for you to be completely by his side at all times, not that it was difficult. sure he was a bit more cruel and less kind to non-sorcerers than he had been in the past. but really, who was to blame him?

in any case, you knew that you fell in love with how he treated you and how he made you feel. him being relentlessly kind to others back then had only been a bonus, really. you couldnt care less about how he treated those ungrateful animals anymore anyways.

“y/n-san! geto-san said he’s too busy to take us to the shopping district right now! we really wanted to buy new shoes this weekend.” mimiko pouted at you, bursting into your room without knocking, barreling straight into your arms and sending the brush out of your grasp.

“cant you two wait a little bit longer? then all four of us can go to town together.” you opened your arm to welcome nanako as she dejectedly followed behind her sister.

“y/n’s right you two,” you looked up to see suguru standing at the doorway, fondly smiling at the spectacle before him. “i have maybe three more clients, a shower, and then i can take us all there, alright?”

the girls perked up at his voice, cheering and running over to him.

he took a step back from the running children and held his hands up to stop their advances. “no, no, dont get too close. i still have the monkey smell on me. i cant get you two dirty, now can i?” he looked back up to where you were sitting at the vanity. “y/n, dear.”

“yes, suguru?”

“would you like to help me with my last few clients? its awfully boring without you, you know.”

“do i have to?”

“well, if youre there then i mught be able to finish even earlier than expected and we’ll get to leave sooner too. right girls?” he winked at mimiko and nanako.

they excitedly nodded and begged for you to go with him. “yeah! please, y/n-san! we’ll be good while you’re helping out!”

“alright, alright, fine. i’ll go. but no playing on my phone alright? i bought you two plenty of nice books the last time we went out.”

“we promise!” they pushed you out of your own room and towards geto before slamming the door behind you.

suguru let out a soft chuckle as you walked towards his extended arm and linked your arm with his.

“hmph. using the girls against me. you play so dirty, suguru.”

“well how else would i get what i want darling? and besides, that just means you’ll have to rid of the monkey smell by taking a shower with me.”

“perv.”

the world you lived in had started to feel lonely. those worthy of suguru’s new world were few and far between compared to the vast population of animals surrounding you. but right now, your heart feels full. even if the world outside your paradise is bleak and lonely, the least it could do was to let you stay with your perfect family and be lonely together.

a/n: yeah best reality is when geto is happy and gojo is happy and everyone is happy because no one turned evil… but if evil why pretty? our boy can do no wrong!!

[bizlybebo]

HELLO VIXEN 👹👹👹

Have two exams tomorrow, but i won’t fail because im that guy.

Anyways don’t think about how Dakota had to grow up so fast despite being perceived as the more childlike member of PD. About how his aunt probably worked a few jobs to keep food on the table, so she was always coming home tired and sluggish. Don’t think about how he probably had to learn to cook shitty microwave food so he and his aunt didn’t go hungry. Don’t think about him curling up next to her still frame, gently placing a plastic plate with more care and attention than he had ever given anything in his life. Don’t think about the glare of the tv straining his eyes in the dimly lit apartment as he pretends he’s not alone. Pretends he’s surrounded by his mother, father, and the little dog they had just adopted a few weeks before the resurgence. Don’t think about him clutching that soggy, half heated pizza to his chest like a lifeline.

(Sorry dude, I’m an angst fiend and while thinking about anything other than stupid fucking DNA and RNA I got thinking about Dakota.)

HEAD IN HANDS.SORRY I TOOK SO LONG TO ANSWER THIS IM SURE YOU DID GREAT ON YOUR EXAMS BUT HEAD IN HANDSSS DUDEEE.

idk man there's something so. gutwrenching about dakota damascus vs dakota cole and the way he presents himself to be this carefree, strong, heroic guy. like auggh. he's a lot gentler than he takes himself to be, because he did sort of fabricate dakota cole, so that no ties existed between him and his aunt. he never seems to think he's entirely achieved being a hero, it's always something he says he's gonna be.

and i just oughhh. the first person he wanted to save but felt like he couldn't was his aunt.

and also GAHHHHEJTFMHTNE THE SMALL DOG THEY ADOPTED A FEW WEEKS BEFORE THE RESURGENCEIM GONNA KILL SOMETHING

aoagueorhjegtwtr.gthr this is. man.

[werebutch]

Also want to kill myself a little cause my rabbit won’t stop peeing everywhere and I know she can’t help it I think she’s older than the shelter told me but it’s all over my new carpet and I don’t have tools to help me clean so I have to sit down for an hour or two every couple days combing through every inch of carpet to get the piss and shir and hay up by hand so I’m kind of going insane doing this. I also think it’s my lack of vitamin D I’m depressed as fuck and finally sincerely want to kill myswlf again for the first time in years so yea I haven’t been going outside besides for work. Even though that’s my favorite thing to do. This all sounds really dumb milo why does your rabbit make you think so severely well it’s like the last straw kind of. You know. I really do love her but it’s the last straw idk. And I’m so scared that I won’t be able to get my testosterone again for weeks like the first time I’m tired of jumping through hoops I’ve been trying to do this for 2 years and so many times things go wrong that aren’t even explained. I don’t know why I’m so tested like this. All my problems nowadays are so minuscule compared to what I went through as a child or young teenager but I haven’t had time to recover from that anyway so all of that shit from the past still feels like pressing issues. Like fragments of it are still in me. So I know it all sounds stupid I’m just I think I’m being driven insane by my own mind I’m like at a point of no return I am very good at acting like I’m ok and I do convince myself most of the time I am but the truth is I’m hanging by a thread here from the pressure from my family and my own self to progress in life in general (also I’m really bad at it I am very stupid and a coward with no motivation to do anything) and also the loneliness of course. Im very convinced that I’m a hideous freak completely unlovable with no redeeming qualities I have nothing going for me in life nothing. I don’t care if you have a little internet crush on me this doesn’t mean anything. You don’t see me in real life. Nothing about me looks right. I am not trying to get attention I know I rant like this a lot but I’m so serious I’m at a loss of what to do with myself I feel so horrible all the time. But it’s ok I’m plagued by visions basically and tomorrow will come anyway so who cares🙏

[beeben]

Wish the day ( the twilight/night time part) lasted longer ( i mean extra hours not get dark sooner) so i could have more time to myself.

I don't get an ounce of privacy until everyone is asleep and I cant stay up as late as i used to bc i start work so early. I really cannot stand it here lol this is turning into it vent post cus ive been having a really bad time lately and when i try talking about it everyone just goes "well i feel the same way but i just put up with it" i dont want to put up with it anymore i hate most of my family i hate my house i hate my life no i dont feel spoiled im always out of money because i have to pay for everyone's shit because my dad is an idiot whos been chasing a spot in football hall of fame since he was 12 even though now hes 50 and 300 pounds and cant hold a job more then than a year because he picks fights with people and is a bigot trying to work with mostly black people. Like it's fucking ridiculous i live in a fucking fantasy world where people think im crazy for saying things aren't okay. Maybe I am suicidal what then? I get an eye roll i get "everyone is suicidal im suicidal too" like? And we're supposed to be okay with that? Ive had such a shit month man idk i have to meet up with the hr people at work tomorrow idk if im traumatized or something im like terrified they're gonna spin some shit around and get me fired man im literally so sick and tired of people walking all over me i honestly don't care if i come off as an asshole anymore i deserve a little self importance idk why its such a shocking thing. I stayed over at my boyfriend's house the other night and people acted like i burnt a building down saying how out of character it was for me cus hes a man what the fuck ever. I don't even give a shit at this point he could've assaulted me and i would've come back just to spite them. Idk where im going with this im pissed off and i dont have anybody to tell because they either heard it already or would leave if i said anything. Nobody gives a shit and i don't mean shit and if i do mean shit to somebody they assume im normal like them and im not i feel like such a piece of garbage and i live with a bunch of idiot slobs who keep me on a leash so they have an extra wallet to use when getting school supplies or whatever else my dad refuses to pay for or as a fucking unpaid therapist when he abuses them and they feel sad about it :'(. Im really worthless lol i kinda just wish someone was honest and said it to my face instead of acting like its fine and everyone feels this way cus i know it's not and i know its not normal. I was born to be an accessory in my dads life to make him look more virtuous in the eyes of the church. My mom would've been better off if she had miscarried and he divorced her for being infertile or something at least then shed have a fucking life to live. This is ridiculous.

[zipperrants]

ZIPPER ITS VIVIAN HERE

i would ask literally anyone else but i feel pretty comfortable w you already cuz we just reblog and talk about a lotta shit so yk

okay so basically i have no idea whats going on bc all my attempts to shift get me REALLY close but i just can't seem to get there and it feels like im missing something?? i know that TECHNICALLY I'm not missing anything but i can't get that in my head and idk everytime i try i get to a similar stage, like SOOO CLOSE but i still wake up here

idk what to do, basically

sorry its just that you're one of the few people i know more or less personally who have shifted so yeah

thanks <33 (@vivian-shiftss)

First Hi vivi second sorry i thought i answered this but aparently I didn't so what I think is maybe youre possibly getting into your head a little? When I shifted i was getting really close and then wouldn't be able to get there because I was scared and excited so id talk myself out of shifting without realizing it. I think the best way for me personally idk if it will work for you but for me what worked was deciding "okay even if it is just a mini shift it is still a shift and we can work from there. i know this may not help but i am tired and i have to be up early tomorrow but I will try to be better at answering asks (no promises though)