#ie EXCESSIVELY self-indulgent

[nythtak]

The worst day of Oliver's life is turned on its head when his mum tries to eat his best mate.

Turns out? Oliver had an extra layer of reasoning for lying about his family.

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Felix is absolutely positive about…three things. Yeah, let’s go with three. Good solid number, and he's always liked triangles best.

First, Oliver is a man-eating, variably shark-toothed ghoul. Second, there’s a part of him - and who fucking knows how potent that part might be on any given day - that wants to tear Felix to pieces and gobble up every last scrap (dick very much included). And third-

Felix is kinda into that.

[moth-yknowtheartist]

okay here you guys go here is the result of me putting my highest highest interests into a mixing pot for my own self indulgence and serving it as a meal to you. this is kinda just to get the concept out there but if you guys like it let me know I might make more content for it!! (if I did do anything with it I'd probably do ask blog format storytelling because y2kvr is one of my greatest inspirations and it informs a lot of my ideas for this au)

presenting:

myProfessor: Your new desktop pal!

myProfessor is ready to become your new virtual assistant, tutor, and friend!

-Use his essay-assistance features for help with spelling, punctuation, grammar, and avoiding plagiarism!

-Learn something new every day with his fun fact feature!

-Ask him to tell you a joke!

-Sit back and relax as he manages your emails and downloads and helps you navigate the web!

All of this FREE to download NOW!

At the expense of a few potentially unwanted programs, a bit of malware, and no peace ever again.

Premise: Ryan Bergara downloads myProfessor, a helpful virtual assistant... ish. This program is unfortunately a dropper for several PUPs (potentially unwanted programs) and malicious programs ranging from annoying to downright sinister. Also the programs are a little bit sentient like a little bit don't worry about it.

Attempts to get an antivirus and rid himself of these programs is... Unsuccessful. Hey who knew downloading supposed free antivirus programs from untrustworthy sources is how you get trojan horses and such on your computer hahaha ha.

Our major players:

myProfessor (aliases: Professor): Virtual Assistant, Potentially Unwanted Program (PUP), Trojan (Persistent Dropper)

(inspirations: Clippit, BonziBuddy)

myProfessor, while not actively malicious software, acts as both a dropper for other malware and is generally annoying on a user experience level. His daily "fun facts" are closer to lectures, detailing sometimes horrific historical events in excessive detail; he routinely blocks important parts of the screen at a rate that comes off as intentional; and while he CAN be helpful, he and the programs that come with him are a nightmare to remove, with files scattered across the system and self-healing capabilities.

DevSec AntiVirus (aliases: Devkit, Devware): Trojan (Persistent Dropper), Rootkit (Kernel-mode)

(inspirations: BakaSoftware, ZeroAccess)

Advertised as a free antivirus/antimalware, DevSec is unfortunately exactly what it claims to protect against. Upon installation and launch, DevSec buries and cloaks itself in the Windows kernel and infects the computer with other malicious software (particularly serving as a host/dropper for the Genie and Asmodeus viruses).

Asmodeus (aliases: DevHelper): Virus

As part of DevSec's payload, the Asmodeus virus is introduced to the system. It immediately begins infecting files on the computer, specifically targeting self-healing files associated with the myProfessor program (ie parts of the program or its associated programs meant to detect if parts of myProfessor is removed and reinstate them). Once it infects all known self-healing files, it triggers logic in the Genie virus for it to begin its payload.

Genie (aliases: ProfeSeek): Virus

(inspirations: Reaper)

As part of DevSec's payload, the Genie virus is introduced to the system, working seemingly in tandem with the Asmodeus virus. The Genie virus, as it infects files, will remove any files it recognizes as part of the myProfessor program or associated with it (ie, the malware it acts as a dropper for). Because of the earlier work of the Asmodeus virus, Genie is able to fully remove myProfessor and all associated programs, which seems to be its primary payload.

Also to be added in the au once I have the time to put more thought into them/we get the rest of puppet history season 5: All the puppet musical guests (ALL of them... pray for me), NotProfessor

The stuff above may also be subject to change depending on how the rest of s5 plays out and if I learn more computer stuff that happens to inspires changes! All content will be tagged with #puppetware including this post!

Feel free to ask any questions (either on this or shoot me an ask, inbox is open) and lmk if you like it!! If not don't feel bad I am content enough sharing this as an act of pure self indulgence this stuff makes me happy :]]

[ogdegenerate]

I'm writing a story where there's kingdoms that represents each of the deadly sins and I need help world building.

I know this post is different from what I usually put on here but I tried reddit and got little to nothing so I'm trying here.

so for some LORE.

the goddesses' little brother who is basically the devil™ from the bible™ made these seven cursed amulets that gives their user immense and fantastical power while slowly turning them into horrible people by enhancing it's respective sin. (for example: the amulet of lust grants the user supernatural charisma and enchantment skills but turns their vanilla kinks into downright horrid fetishes that would put you on a watchlist). the humans used these powerful items for worldly conquest and severing relations from the other races. that's until a hero from another world stepped up to appose the seven warriors and take the cursed amulets away from them. but for some bullshit reason and convoluted "I'm 5 parallels universes ahead of you" tomfuckery. the seven amulets are shot up into the air and then scattered across the world. landing on the laps of desperate souls and turning them into "princes" which is what you get if you mix elsa from frozen and the palace holders from persona 5. but instead the palaces are kingdoms and are VERY MUCH REAL and are is a huge magnet for fucked up people so the amulet can feed off the citizens down right evilness and grow bigger and stronger (ie: murderers and bigots makes the wrath kingdom bigger and stronger).

what this story is about is a comedy for making fun of weird (and down right unnecessary) tropes sub-plots, like incest, defending slavery, and relationship drama because you don't know how to write a healthy one. and the MC is pretty much like "this is stupid, why are y'all like this?" what i'm having trouble with is figuring out a society where one of the seven deadly sins is so magically ingrained in the area that you either have to be a shitty person or suffer.

here are some ideas I got for the seven kingdoms

Luxuria: unnecessary fanservice, oversexualization/fetishization of things that shouldn't be, indecency normalization, the writers barely-disguised fetish(es)

Gula: excessiveness, conspicuous consumption, making fun of fat people,

Avaricia: Basically vanity fair from the pilgrims progress, defending the rich, capitalism is good because I hate poor people

Acedia: characters not being interested in the plot, lazy writing, plot holes,

Ira: blatent bigotry, meaningless murder, "dark" humor,

Invidia: soulless power fantasies, yanderifications, bad rewrites,

superbia: badly written marry sue, "oh wow I'm so smart cant you tell because of how I'm writing this?"

what I'm going for is that the kingdoms are written by an author who heavily indulges in one of the sins while the MC beats up their self inserts while telling them that their vibe is rancid while also being a "please don't do THIS when writing a novel or making a manga".

hope this reaches out to alot of people

[potteresque-ire]

More ask answer about Word of Honour (山河令, WoH) and the so-called “Dangai 101 phenomenon” under the cut ~ with all the M/M relationships shown on screen, does it mean improved acceptance / safety for the c-queer community?

Due to its length (sorry!), I’ve divided the answer into 3 parts: 1) Background 2) Excerpts from the op-eds 3) Thoughts This post is PART 2 💛. As usual, please consider the opinions expressed as your local friendly fandomer sharing what they’ve learned, and should, in no ways, be viewed as necessarily true. :)

(TW: homophobic, hateful speech quoted)

The following are three opinion pieces published by state-controlled media re: Dangai and WoH:

O1) Published on 2021/03/04, in Shanghai Observer 上觀新聞

8.6分爆款武俠劇《山河令》背后，是90后愛看的江湖 Behind the 8.6-score Wuxia drama WoH is the Jianghu loved by those born after 1990

[Pie note: the 8.6 score refers to the score WoH got from the popular TV and film review site, Douban]

O2) Published on 2021/03/16, in China Comment 半月談:

國產電視劇掀起「耽改」熱：「腐文化」出圈，青少年入坑 The Rise of Dangai in C-dramas: “Rot Culture” exits Circle, Youth fell into the Ditch

and its related editorial:

「耽改劇」 盛行？警惕對「腐文化」進行無底線炒作和過度消費 Dangai Dramas Prevailing? Be alert to the Uncurbed Hyping and Excessive Consumption of “Rot Culture”

[Pie Note: “Exiting the Circle” (出圈) and “Falling into the Ditch” (入坑) are both fandom vocabularies. “Exiting the circle” refers to something being so famous that it is no longer contained within fandom (the circle) and instead, breaks into public consciousness, mainstream. “Falling into a Ditch” means to fall for a fandom so hard that one cannot crawl their way out it. For example, c-turtles commonly refers to their joining the YiZhan fandoms as ditch falling, followed by being “hammered to the bottom of the ditch” by Gg and Dd’s candies.

“Rot” 腐 refers to the same rot as in fujoshi 腐女 and “rot selling” 賣腐 described in PART 1.]

O3) Published on 2021/04/07, in 光明日報 Enlightenment Daily

耽美作品改编盛行带偏大众审美 Popularity of Dangai Dramas leads the Public’s Aesthetic Astray

To summarise first,

* Article O1 was very light on the characterisation of Danmei—the terms Danmei and Dangai never even appeared in the article. It focused, instead, on WoH’s Wuxia elements, including the beauty of its presentation—much like People Daily’s review of TU focused on the drama’s aesthetics, including its world view. The relationship between Zhou Zishu and Wen Kexing was never mentioned, not even garnering a description such as 摯友 (“close friend”) as LWJ and WWX did. The article did point out that the drama was catering to a women audience.

* Article O2a (the opinion piece) and O2b (the editorial) are about Danmei and Dangai, collectively as the subculture they named “Rot Culture” (腐文化). No drama names are mentioned (in reading Chinese news, it’s important to note whether the critiqued target is named or not; the former (點名批評) is considered significantly harsher). The article, as hinted by the word “rot” in its title, leaned heavily towards characterising Danmei and Dangai by the traditional BL characterisation. Article O2a was also the only article out of the four that explicitly addressed  homosexuality. Rather than addressing the queer elements in Danmei/Dangai as queer, however, the article argued the genres could turn their young audience queer.

* Article O3 is also about Danmei and Dangai as the “Rot Culture” subculture, without the naming of any dramas. This article is notable for its association of the genres and the state’s concern with the “feminisation” of Chinese men.

Based on these op-eds, the state is characterising Danmei and Dangai predominantly as characterisation 2 — traditional BL, women’s fantasy. They recognised the psychological need behind the popularity of the genres among their (het) women audience, and the tone, is overall, of understanding and approval:

One of the cores of Dangai is the pursuit of “beauty”. The “double male leads” in Dangai dramas score sufficiently high beauty points to become the party to be defined, to be gazed, to be consumed. It is a counterattack to the male gaze. In addition, such “double male leads” enjoying equal relationship, admiring each other and fighting together shoulder-to-shoulder, also reflects the ideals of women towards relationships.

In the visual world of Dangai, two beautiful men respecting and treasuring each other, progressing together shoulder-to-shoulder, not only fits with women’s ideal model of  relationships, but also also create wide, yet-to-be filled emotional spaces for women’s unstoppable imagination to flex. Such relationships have less considerations of reality and self-interest, and thus appear to be more pure.

However, these opinion pieces have also made clear that the state saw the queer elements surrounding the genre, and its opinion of them is much more … reserved, especially when they cross the fiction / reality line and become the focus of the promotion of the dramas via the actors, who straddle that fiction / reality line.

Due to the lengths of these articles, I’m only translating the notable “chunks” in each of them—the “chunks” that connect the genres with queerness. I’m deliberately keeping these passages as “chunks”—ie, without removing sentences in the middle—to highlight the state’s logic in making the connection.

From O2a: 國產電視劇掀起「耽改」熱：「腐文化」出圈，青少年入坑 The Rise of Dangai in C-dramas: “Rot Culture” exits Circle, Youth fell into the Ditch

“M/M CP”, “Beautiful Men Economy”, topics surrounding this market—today, nobody bets an eye anymore at “selling the rot” being the industrial phenomenon. “Sell the rot” is to sell “rot culture”, with “rot culture” being the subculture for the audience’s imagination, of M/M (ambiguous) love stories for major content.

Such subculture, if confined within its fandoms, may be harmless. However, if it is to be adapted into TV dramas in significant scale, if it is to break through the subculture circles and enter the realm of general public entertainment, then one must take caution of its bad influence, especially to inexperienced youths.

With the established review system for web and TV dramas, production teams often remove the “romantic plot line” between the two male leads in the original Danmei canon and display “brotherhood love” in the TV drama, while “playing edge ball” to provide their audience with room for imagination. In the subsequent promotion and marketing, however, the two male actors may have to “sell the rot” as well.

[Pie note: I’m translating 打擦边球 literally as “playing edge ball” as this is a very commonly used term in discussions of China’s censorship. It means to step as close to the forbidden line as possible without crossing it, to take advantage of loopholes.]

Author of the article “On the Danmei-ization of Chinese Dramas” believes that, in recent years, CPs “selling the rot” , the practice of which is rooted in Danmei culture, have become a hit in the Chinese TV industry. TV dramas with Danmei elements entice their audience to create CPs around the leads of the dramas; they make use of the fervour generated by the discussion topic to achieve high viewership.

In recent years, academics have already expressed concern and investigated the influence of Danmei culture on the youth’s gender awareness, their opinions of marriage etc. For example, the article “Sexual Orientation of Some Youths in Hunan Province and Analysis of their Potential Causes” investigated the sexual orientation of 1,260 youths in the province and discovered that: among males, 2.9% self-identified as homosexuals, 4.9% bi-sexuals, 12.4% unknown; among females, 2.4%, 12.4%, 14.3% respectively. 37.5% of the people knew about Danmei or Doujin (同人; fandom), among which 32.3% indicated they “liked” it. 11.9% indicated that they longed for the homosexual romance in such works.

The author of the article analysed that, students who knew about Danmei or Doujin were more likely to report bisexuality or unknown sexual orientation. This demonstrated the influence of such culture on the sexual orientation of youths.

( Cartoon from O2a, titled “Learning to be “cool” 學酷 )

From O2b:「耽改劇」 盛行？警惕對「腐文化」進行無底線炒作和過度消 Dangai Dramas Prevailing? Be alert to the Uncurbed Hyping and Excessive Consumption of “Rot Culture”

Not to be overlooked is this: the severe reality of “Rot culture” exiting the circle and becoming immensely popular is urgently awaiting the entire society’s alert and attention. Objectively speaking, many Dangai works are not aspiring to positively, proactively guide and display Danmei culture, but only to set up attention-grabbing gimmicks, the purpose of which is solely to “sell the rot”. Not a small number of Dangai’s plots are illogical. Worse, in order to attract attention and satisfy the “taste” of fans, some production companies are forcibly selling “M/M CPs”,  conducting “bound” promotion [Pie note: as in bound by CP pairing] and embarrassing interactions [Pie note: as in, getting the actors to interact in a suggestively romantic way] , “playing the edge ball” [Pie note: as explained above] to generate personalities, consuming “Rot Culture” without a bottom line. These poor marketing tactics not only hurt the interest of Danmei audience, but interfere with the online environment and its order. The indulgence of radical language, moreover, challenges and affects mainstream values. These bad influences must be paid attention to and supervised.

From O3) 耽美作品改编盛行带偏大众审美 Popularity of Dangai Dramas leads the Public’s Aesthetic Astray

In addition to the explosion of the number of Dangai dramas, many dramas that are not originally Dangai are attaching themselves to the Dangai genre, by setting up double male leads, by playing up the suggestive atmosphere between male characters in their plot lay out. Some variety shows make use of the plot setup, the post-editing, the promotion of topics etc, to forcibly pair up their male guests for the purpose of hype and attention. This vulgar custom of “playing edge ball” as a means to tempt, to lead the audience into indulging in fantasies [Pie note: sexual fantasies implied by the idiom 想入非非] have spread from visual media production to the areas of promotion and marketing. Some interviews, magazine photoshots, short video production have also joined the bandwagon of borrowing the popularity of Danmei culture. They use all sorts of sensitive topics to tease and excite the public, tirelessly, happily guiding the fans to overanalyse Dangai dramas and even, the relationship between the actors of Dangai dramas. With the push of such gimmicks, Danmei is reaching the public through multiple channels, gathering popularity and turning into a phenomenon.

From O3) 耽美作品改编盛行带偏大众审美 Popularity of Dangai Dramas leads the Public’s Aesthetic Astray

Men with delicate looks, with traditionally feminine (soft and reserved) quality, are often sought after by the rot women (fujoshis). There has been a recent, popular saying in the industry: to find out if a male star is popular or not, find out if there are fans calling him “wife”. Artists with a tough image often do not make it big, but explode in popularity once they switch to a soft beauty style. Netizens have teased “Ten years as a tough man known by none; one day as a beauty known by all”. This take on aesthetics is influencing visual media creation and entertainment production to a certain extent. Watching from a distance, more and more traffic-generating stars look like “cream young men” [Pie note: 奶油小生, from 奶油 “cream” + 小生, “the role of young men in traditional Chinese opera”, is an old-fashioned term traditionally used to describe young, good-looking actors who often presented as pale, mild-mannered, scholarly]. Some entertainment venture capital picks “flower men” as their choice for leads regardless of the TV dramas/films’ subject matter, follows the young (male) idol path. Commercial products and ads extend their offers to “little fresh meat” [Pie note: 小鲜肉 is the nickname for young (male) idols]. Even cosmetics, which have conventionally been thought of as women-only products, are no longer asking only women stars to be their spokespeople. Feminine beauty can exist, but all things shouldn’t be taken to the extreme. As “flower men” overflow on screen, masculine, tough men are reducing in numbers. This may counter the basic rules of art creation, and disrupt the development of diverse social aesthetics.

Any product produced by the mind, in the process of production, is also producing minds that will accept it, consume it. Audience of Dangai include not only adults, but also not-too-mature youths who pursue “Rot Culture” as a fashionable trend. In particular, as the aesthetics of men in the eyes of young women turn even more feminine, such change can indirectly influence the cognition of young men, cause the young men to subconsciously shift their own gender expression closer to the feminine beauty anticipated by women. Most Dangai stories are far removed from reality; some young audience nonetheless mix them up with real life, develop biased understanding such as “only love that doesn’t treat matrimony and reproduction as destinations is true love”. Although Daigai is often made “Danmei-less”, in that the romantic relationship between the two male leads are re-written as brothers and zhiji (confidants), the canon and the Rot Culture behind it still hides large amounts of pornographic, violent content, including biased, unhealthy perspectives on gender, and un-scientific, even wrong biological knowledge. If such content isn’t given restrictions, it will seriously mislead the values and self-fulfilment of the young.

PART 1 PART 2 <-- YOU ARE HERE PART 3

[sam-roulette]

💍 j jonmartin ? 🥺

oh let’s goooooo lads

where they get married oh god uuhhh Definitely not in a church lmaooooo probably just like. in a park tbh.

when they get married ( ie what time of day, what month and season etc. ) i feel like they get married in the spring bc martin Loves flowers (and jon Secretly Loves flowers) and also bc being cold probably reminds martin of the lonely, so despite the ~aesthetic~ of fall, Absolutely Not (also for my self-indulgent reason: jon in a floral backless dress)

what traditions they include ( do they get married under a chuppah and crush a glass, garter toss, ‘something borrowed, something blue,’ etc. ) ‘something borrowed, something blue’ except everything is borrowed lmao

what their wedding cake looks like it absolutely has the admiral’s face on it

….who smashes cake into whose face martin smashes cake into his own face and then puts a tiny dollop of frosting on jon’s nose

who proposed to who first i feel like they have a cute scene where they both pull rings out at the same time, but jon absolutely proposes first

who walks down the aisle and who waits at the altar ( or neither ) jon walks down the aisle

what their wedding dresses / suits / other look like jon is 100% in a backless floral dress and martin’s in the cutest like peach-colored suit in the whole world

what their wedding colour scheme is and what sort of decor they have flowers flowers flowers!!! flowers everywhere!! martin really likes soft blue and peach!! 

what flowers are in the bouquet ( if applicable. bonus: what do the flowers mean?) idk anything about what flowers mean but martin absolutely chooses all the flowers and they all mean like. ‘undying love’ n sh*t, but then jon surprises martin by putting flowers in his own bouquet (and one behind martin’s ear) that means ‘together’

what their vows are (eg poetry, traditional, improvised etc.) little freak theatre boy jon improvises his and martin surprises everyone by improvising his too

if anyone’s late to the wedding honestly i don’t think so?? 

who’s in the bridal parties / groomsmen / other martin got too flustered to choose anyone so literally daisy and georgie are the only ones up there with them adlkjf

what their bridal party / groomsmen / other are wearing absolutely whatever they want. jon and martin do not care.

who gives speeches at the reception ( bonus: what do they say? recount a sweet memory or two between them? tell an embarrassing story?) georgie Absolutely tells embarrassing college stories about jon and melanie makes jokes about not thinking they could ever do it. daisy’s the only one who gives a heartfelt speech of any kind.

who catches the bouquet(s) probably simon tbh

what their wedding photos are like ( are they sweet, with the couple holding hands or kissing or ~gazing into each others eyes~? are they silly, with a snapshot of the ‘cake-smash’ moment? or are they artistic, with one of them facing the sunset or holding their bouquets? ) if it’s post-avatar jon i don’t think they’d take pictures? wouldn’t wanna feed the beholding with em y’know?

what sort of food they have at the reception jon forget that that’s even a thing and martin’s too busy planning other parts of the wedding to notice so they all just end up ordering takeout

who cries first during the ceremony martin 100% cries first

how wild their reception gets (who dances the best, who gets drunk first, etc.) melanie is Absolutely the best dancer of all of them. jon learns how to do like. the cha cha slide. 

what their rings are like they both have really delicate rings with tiny little gems in them and embossed ivy curling around 

what sort of favours they have (heart shaped sparklers, mini champagne bottles, personalised candy etc.) tiny little highland cow figurines!! and little woven crowns made from the excess wedding flowers

where they go for their honeymoon daisy lets them stay in the scottish safe house and they actually get ;; domestic safe house time

something memorable that happens during the party/ceremony (do they run out of ice and someone goes to get it in full formal wear on foot, does anyone fall asleep in the middle of the party, etc.) the admiral starts knocking decorations off every table one by one probably adflkjf

who officiates the ceremony if tim were alive he Absolutely Would, and they’re honestly not willing to find anyone to replace him, so jon guides them through the ceremony himself

what song their first dance is to drowned by tim minchin

who gives who away as they walk down the aisle daisy Absolutely gives jon away

[funkymbtifiction]

I came across a post where you said people frequently overestimate how strong their tertiary is. What’s a good way to check if that’s the case? I assumed I was some type of SP (probably ESTP) since I identify so much with Se/Ni, have all the markers and pitfalls of a Thinker and care a lot about making an impression (3w4). But I went over your profiles for the types on your blog, and a lot of the ETJ page hit home, verbatim. More than any other page. I’m lost since I never considered Te dom due to my weak discipline and strong hedonism. 

But the more posts on the thinking functions I read (mostly written by TJs bloggers) the more confused I am because I understand and agree 100% with their arguments, criteria, standards, thinking process and even ethical stances. I don’t know whether they are biased, but whenever they describe how Ti users think or tell anecdotes about them I’m left wondering how anyone could think that way. 

How can I tell whether my Se is tertiary or dominant?

I get and agree with Te-dom arguments also because of my strong tert-Te (the facts are the facts and you can’t argue with them) but my daily experiences are not Te-dom in that excessively needing to organize factual information and the environment to orient myself toward tangible results can be exhausting after a few hours. That’s how you know if a function is higher or lower -- how quickly and easily and competently you can do it (effortless) for long periods of time, vs. how you have to work harder at it and it can become cumbersome and irritating after awhile and cause you to want to go back to your dominant function. (IE, it’s easier for me to philosophize about abstract topics for hours than it is to alphabetize the Funky character list and keep it updated.)

Being a 3, it’s possible you have strong Te development because you are highly motivated to make your mark and succeed and know that to do that, you have to be hardworking, have good follow through, and be rational. It’s also possible that you are identifying with the positive traits of the ETJ out of a desire to cultivate the most impressive image, so be ware of that. As for deciding now if you are an ENTJ or an ESFP -- self-observation is good. Look at where your effort goes and what you can do easily and what is harder for you. Ni-auxes are very good at predicting future trends and looking beyond the surface of things, but ESPs are often very resistant to this inward focus, because Ni is inferior. It’s a sore spot for them so they may avoid doing it, shut down conversations that probe into it too deeply, or not indulge them. They may resist philosophical or existential depth and steer the conversation away from it.

- ENFP Mod

[mzashleypie]

When My Brother Was an Aztec (2012)— Natalie Diaz

106 pages

Natalie’s poetry will draw a deeper connection to those with Hispanic or Mojave roots, her language shifting with the mood and place, something anyone who is multilingual can relate to. Part one largely focuses on the pain of racism and sacrifice that she experiences throughout her childhood. It depicts her struggle with guilt and the self-doubt as a child that is put down by the world and its structures around her. It moves towards her difficulty to see her parents who have dealt with these pressures and have sacrificed for her and her brother makes it all the more heartbreaking to see how not only she has resorted to ignoring her brother’s addiction, but how her parents have recoiled from the world and any connection to their son as he exists now. The structure makes the final section of personal connection and chosen love all the more powerful. It feels like a relief not only for the reader but for the speaker and her family’s constant cycle of being hurt and hurting. There is a violence to her love and a power in taking another life into her hands and having something that is hers that can’t be hurt by her family trauma. It shows love as shelter and release.

Favorite Poems:

Cloud Watching

As a Consequence of My Brother Stealing All the Lightbulbs

Soirée Fantastique

I Lean Out the Window and She Nods Off in Bed, the Needle Gently Rocking on the Bedside Table

Why I Don’t Mention Flowers When Conversations with My Brother Reach Uncomfortable Silences

Night Sky With Exit Wounds (2016) — Ocean Vuong

85 pages

Ocean will take you through rain and sea and snow and through vast landscapes of memory in the eyes of himself and his ancestors. Like Natalie, he blends his Vietnamese culture with his American upbringing and the struggles of being in love and queer. The first section largely details the history of his family and the constant reminder of what their sacrifices have meant; how he would never have been without them. The second section is a depiction of love and the struggles for it to exist with the eyes of the world on it. Its poems are intimate and take you under the breath of a lover and the bite of their actions. It is filled with longing and loss and mistakes that follow no matter how many showers you take and how many winters pass. The final section is a reflection on identity and history and trying to reconcile the two, without excluding either. Ocean knows that much of what happens to us and how we get here is out of our hands and ponders the what could-have-been, before accepting what is. The intimacy of the collection only takes you further into the body with its finale and brings bodies together through violence and bliss.

Favorite Poems:

Headfirst

Anaphora as Coping Mechanism

Ode to Masturbation

Notebook Fragments

Hereditary (2018)

2 hours & 7 minutes

Hereditary definitely falls in line with the current trend of the modern horror/thriller genre and explores the problems with humanity as the true horror. This is not a film that will shock you with jump scares as much as it will terrify you with the consequences of human error and the effects of generational trauma. The bigger plot of the film comes together through the fine details and makes for a crazy third act tinged with that real-world terror. I found that this film unsettled me in the best ways and had so many beautifully shot and gruesome scenes that contribute to the dollhouse dreamscape that turns puppeteering nightmare. Without giving too much away, I would recommend if you’ve been a fan of the horror/thriller genre in recent years and its deviation from the typical slasher formula.

Mother! (2017)

2 hours & 1 minute

Mother! presents both a negative and overwhelmingly positive view of God. Through all sin, he is forgiving of man and is willing to accept the destruction of earth for the sake of man to live freely. The film presents an indulgent view of humanity and the sins flowing like the Hebrews after fleeing Egypt. It shows excess and the worship of gods with no appreciation for the ones who provide for us (Mother Nature). While God is the one who created the house, Mother is the one who maintains it, repairs it, puts her heart and soul and suffering into it. The earth did not expect man to become what it did. Mother! is very much a spectacle and descends into greater chaos in an anxiety-inducing chain of events, the feeling of claustrophobia building until it is unbearable and Mother snaps. Would recommend for fans of different tellings of biblical stories that don’t mind a bit of gore to watch at least once for the chaotic experience (ie. Paradise Lost, Supernatural and Constantine).

[moodboardinthecloud]

To indulge, from Latin indulge, originally: to give free rein to. >> To treat with excessive kindness. (Also, to concede, allow, grant, permit, bestow. To take pleasure in. To devote oneself to an activity. To be tender to.) (Was this contaminated by the Holy Roman Church’s practice of selling “indulgences” to “reduce the amount of punishment one has to undergo for sins”, ie a kind of permission to feel slightly less guilty, by acknowledging your inherent guilt and sinfulness. It’s the packaging up of indulgence with guilt/sin that I think is the problem here. Time for me to unpack it. I don’t believe in original sin, so I can liberate indulgence from that weird shackling.) RECLAMATION: Permission to give free rein (reign!) to our radiant selves, to our imaginations, to our expression, to allow Life to express itself through me, to meet it with excessive kindness and hospitality (wow, LIFE, thank you for moving through me as a poem, as an experiment of wearing one dress every day, as a meal, as a groovy dance move…) and also to meet my self with kindness. 

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This is such a strange question, but Ive been thinking about mental illnesses and how it translate to cybertronians. So then I thought: how would a Cybertronian deal with an eating disorder? :S

For the sake of consistency, this is going to be specifically about bots in @tfmatrix and TF: The End/CRPH - two of my own settings. The fact is, we know jack goddamn shit about the actual biology/psychology of cybertronians in most settings, and what we do know is inconsistent as hell and depends on the writer, artist, and fandom interpretation, and I’m not gonna just slap anthropomorphism on them willy-nilly. So instead, we’re going to use my own worldbuilding, bc I actually have concrete answers for those!

Answers under the cut for WAY TOO MUCH length and Disordered Eating talk. This got…really wordy, in no small part because there’s a planned thing about this in Matrix After Dark.

The first thing that needs to be determined and maybe explained at least a little is Cybertronian physiology and psychology, particularly when it comes to food, fueling, digestion, all that fun stuff I love so much! One of the biggest differences is that food intake has, effectively, no baring on actual frame-weight for virtually all cybertronians. Except small individuals, such as mini-cons, may actually have a more obvious difference, but this is readily adjusted via their gravity field. Visual weight is also unaffected by fuel intake, except in a few very particular situations (which we’ll go into later.)

This means that some of the human drives that trigger certain eating disorders- namely weight and weight-specific cultural aspects, don’t have an actual equivalency among Cybertronians. There are weight-and-visual-weight related issues but these are expressed through bodily modification, and thus won’t be included here. In fact, an overfed bot will often weigh “less” after a certain point because their spark may be burning excess fuel by increasing their gravity field.

Cybertronian digestive systems vary a lot, between frametype and build groups, but they all tend to consist of the same basic bits: The intake, IE the mouth, proboscis, mandibles, input port in the throat or guts, where the fuel goes in. The fuel tank. Where fuel is stored and starts being processed- fuel tanks are typically divided and different forms of fuel are shunted into different portions to be broken down individually. The Spark is actually not just the ‘soul’, and where memory is stored, but it also functions as a vital part of the digestive system- through it’s own process, the Spark actually generates energon- converting other fuel sources to energon. There’s also more specialized organs, and also waste processes, but these three are gonna be the ones we focus on here.

There’s also a very muddy, gray-area divide between bots who have disordered eating as a result of social or mental pressure- versus those who have developed disordered eating as a result of the war itself: Most of the population has been in a state of frequent starvation ever since Cybertron’s fall started, and for much of the population the transition to requiring energon made other ways (which is quite a drain on resources, and does not produce perfectly equivalent energon as occurred naturally on Cybertron) was a rough one.

First off: Dysphoric Eating:

Many bots who were meant to live only on the purified, charged energon of Cybertron or of certain natures, or who had crystal-heavy diets, suddenly found that they had to find new sources of fuel and, frequently, they had to undergo physical modification in order to do so efficiently. This means that particularly during-and-post-war you have many bots with what I’m going to call dysphoric eating- individuals whose mental process of eating doesn’t match up with what their frame does or needs to do. This in particular results in self-starvation or ingesting otherwise inedible or unpalatable substances/objects, as fueling and digestion creates bodily dysphoria. Tastes may be registered continually as “wrong” or the actual sensation of different digestive components, such as modified tanks or the spark working differently, can cause discomfort or even perceived pain. Bots with dysphoric eating often either self-treat by finding unusual or particular fuel sources or fuel additives to ease symptoms, or may undergo medical adjustments or therapy to become more comfortable with the process.

(Two individuals who display symptoms of dysphoric eating in TF: Matrix would be Starscream and Arcee- Starscream will often try to refuse refueling with earthly fuels even when energon is scarce, and had developed an unusual taste for saltwater that can cause problems if he gives in to drinking it in excess. Arcee is very picky and often adds odd items she can’t actually digest properly to her fuel, in order to alter the taste or texture of it, and she also is oddly attracted to certain biofuels even though her frame cannot process them very efficiently. She particularly enjoys cooking oil, but Ratchet has to prevent her from indulging in it too much or else she’ll become ill.)

Binge Eating:

 As a disclaimer, the disordered eating I have the most experience with is binge eating, particularly in conjunction with comfort eating and craving-based binge eating. Binge eating, like others, can be seen as being somewhat divided by bots who have a natural inclination towards it, and those who develop it as a defense mechanism during the war. This division is, like all others, more of a spectrum than anything else, but it can help us determine a few things. This also requires some extrapolation between bots who have frametypes designed to handle large amounts of fuel all at once, versus those who aren’t.

Insecticons, Predacons, and many larger frametypes are “designed” so to speak, to have binge eating as their natural behavior, and thus they suffer no ill effects from it. Their healthy behavior involves eating basically anything and everything they can at once, followed by longer periods of non-fueling or even of digesting fuel into certain specific forms of energon to be shared with others or stored externally (honey, effectively.) As such, actual binge eating disorders are rare amongst them and often times much be particularly extreme- such as eating until one is physically damaged or cannot physically intake any more repeatedly, or waiting until damage begins to set in by going too long between binge periods. Insecticons and Predacons and those with particularly adept digestive systems may see a lack of physical injury from these practices, as they can often digest…well, virtually anything.

In other bots, this manifests much as it does in humans- either with or without periods of starvation between binges. It can involve simply intaking any and all fuel available, energon or non, or even binging upon otherwise unnecessary substances- such as additives, metals, treats, minerals, etc etc.

Binge eating is also commonly associated with becoming overcharged/intoxicated, as the state of having too much energy to safely burn off, even with otherwise harmless fuels, can have a drug-like effect on Cybertronians. They may become antsy- overly friendly and affectionate or overly irritable, suffer from mood swings and will often go through a period of manic behavior, followed by depressive, fatigued “crash” states as their digestive systems try to take a desperate break from processing so much.

Behavioral adjustments and regular reminders or guidance to adhere to a healthy eating schedule is generally used to treat these, either through therapy or other means. Binge eating is, however, often seen as rather common in both short and long term post-war- there’s always the risk that there will be another period of starvation overhead, and overfueling whenever possible has the advantage of getting a bot through a potential starvation period, so there’s a fairly logical reason why it becomes a compulsion to many.

(As a point of difference, in matrix, we can use the characters Barricade and Bumblebee. Barricade is prone to bouts of binge fueling, during which he also often deliberately uses other intoxicants. As a result, his behavior during these periods is erratic and his health can suffer for it- versus Bumblebee, who seems to engage in binge eating behaviors- to the point of doing things like eating rocks and wood or other seemingly indigestible materials. Bumblebee, however, is insecticon in build, and thus not only can he digest many things a typical cybertronian cannot (even if it may take longer at times) he also tends to fall into a regular cycle of hunger/disinterest in fueling that doesn’t otherwise affect his health or behavior. If prompted, he will even process his excess fuel intake into other forms of energon that he can regurgitate for other bots.)

Anorexia Equivalent / Self-Starvation:

Less common among Cybertronians is the act of self-starvation or otherwise obsessive control over fuel intake. Admittedly, I have the least experience with this, and it’s one I haven’t gone into much, so it’ll be relatively brief, but mechanisms can and do deny themselves appropriate amounts of fueling. This is often done as an expression of control, or self-punishment- or as a response to having previously gone long periods without proper fuel- the need to store fuel for some later date stronger than the desire to not starve right now. I’m afraid I don’t have much information yet on this particular form of disordered eating, but that may change in the future!

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Asteroids + Meanings

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AESCULAPIA: (Asclepius and Askalaphus) [Full number 88, root 7] ‘success’ Contact with physicians; health generally symptoms and medical conditions; self healing regarding belief-systems. A number of good judgment and common sense. A master executive number; Agreement, excellence, exercise, pleasant, vision.

AMOR: [full number 47, root 11] ‘inner wisdom reflected through organisation’ The “conditions” of unconditional love; understanding love; what interferes or blocks love and acceptance; figuring out “boundaries” or limits on what happens in the name of “love”; Conditions on whatever occurs in aspect. Words; authority, incentive, inspector, preacher, training. Impossible, probation.

APOLLO: [full no.60] ‘need to be heard’ “Banging your head against a brick wall”; going against the odds; provocation; repeated lessons ;Slow to learn A family vibration, words; communication, performance, psychoanalysis, understanding, investigator.

ARACHNE: [full no 50] ‘intellectual freedom’ Contact with weaving; creation of intrigue and entanglement; entrapment ;Intricate detail; knitting; layered complications/meanings; macramé, network; spider webs; woven fabric/thread. Fearless ‘intrepid’=50, ‘diversity’=50 joy=50 Words; engineer, explorer, investigate, professor, prophesy, technician. Endangered, ignorance, intolerable revolting.

ASTRAEA: [full no 65], ‘the group learning by experience’ an inability to read beginnings and endings or to “let go” of things; staying to “the end” bitter end ; believing that “its not finished yet” even if it already is; blocked closure; people or events; the witnessing of events. Thoughtless interference.

ATLANTIS: [full no 96] 15/6 ‘inappropriate, unappreciated ‘body’ needing to be voiced’ Abuse of resources; access to inside or confidential information; an impending doom; belief in deserved punishment ; invasions of privacy; importance of confidentiality/use of knowledge; talents or information; warnings; water disasters. The need for responsible caring.

ATROPOS: [full no 104] 5 ‘freedom’ 10-completed 4-form Completion; conditions at the finish, Endings; what is needed to conclude.

BACCHUS: [full no.57] 12/3 ‘making negative conditions better’ Addiction; attempts to manage feelings; contact with orchards; excess; intoxication; people and situations through substitution or avoidance; pine and fir trees; vineyards. Words; cooperation, prevention, perfection. Negatively its negligent.

CERES:[full no 50] ‘of the senses’ Food ; growths/cysts; herbs and grains. mothering as in taking care of, nurturing need; the relationship between mother & child; plants and animals; Deals with indulgence and balance of stimulation, irresponsibility, adaptation and perversion.

CHILD:[full number 36] ‘creativity’ Attitude to children, childish reactions, own childhood events, innocence and maturity Kindness/responsibility and honesty. Fortunate in money, overcoming problems with faith and patience. Negatively, argument, despised, dogmatic and problem.

CHIRON: [full no 67] 13/4 ‘well thought of’ Accentuation of differences from categories; adolescent crisis; effecting turning points or changes in status; expression of unique or individualistic views and behaviours; refusal to conform with parental or societal expectations and standard norms; exceptions/exemptions to the rule(s). Note that Chiron has been classified a comet, not an asteroid. Administration, distinguished, practitioner.

CIRCE: [full no 38] 11 ‘ a gift of vision’ Acting as a facilitator; being of assistance & coming to the rescue; helping, understanding the motives for help. Bringing enlightenment; healing. Negatively; cowardly, narcotic, traitor.

CUPIDO-A: [full no 69] 15/6 ‘attracting attention’ 1-self 5-charming, 69-unfulfilled needs appreciation. Art and beauty interests; attraction; concern about appearances; “for the sake of appearances” “keeping up appearances”; relationship concerns; the face or complexion; the “look” of something; Vanity;

DAEDALUS:[full no 67] 13/4 ‘ abstract made real’ Affinity with metals; Architecture; cleverness; creative; design; leaving the consequences to others; instances of feeling like an honored slave; jealousy; “The artful dodger;” The engineer, mechanic, mathematician, musician, teacher.

DEMETER: [full no 70] care-taking relationships; food, growing things; diet, Mother-Child relationship; nutrition & meals.

DIANA: [full no 29] ‘spiritual power’ Attunement to animals and nature; being hunted; feeling “chased;” elusive, hard-to-find or difficult-to-pin-down behaviours and reactions.

EROS: [full no. 57] eroticism; reproductive organs; sexuality; the heart & cardiac system; the history, the Will to Live; what “turns you on;”

EURYDIKE (Eurydices) [full no 98] Dependence on people, issues or behaviors of aspects feels like a matter of life and death; drama of dependence & reliance through aspect pattern.

HEBE: [full no 20] Codependency, service attitudes; service industry ie waitresses, secretaries, receptionists, bartenders, etc; putting up with the egocentric, emotionally immature or demanding behaviors of others;. waiting-on others;

HEKATE: [full no 50] Crone; dreams; knowing; intuitive wisdom; protective mother; Hekate is sometimes important at or in connection with childbirth, and can show what wisdom is gained at other life passages.

HEPHAISTOS: [full no 120] contact with metals; cripple; lameness; parental abandonment (mother) “an issue” between the parents; tendency for an unlikely match in relationship (i.e., variations on The Beauty and the Beast! .

HERA: [full no. 32] Events through partners & partnership; Issues of “rights” between people; jealousy; relationship dynamic and parental model; maintaining fairness in dealing with others;

HIDALGO: [full no. 56] Contact with Latin American, Mexican or Spanish peoples; foods and cultures; revolutionary governments; standing on principle & saying what's on your mind (but challenging aspects can = secrecy & expedient disclosure); watching what you say; (or those based on an ideology).

HOPI: [full no. 48] Attack or ambush; contact with knives/cutting; corn-based foods; culture; deep-seated defense feathers; indigenous peoples; memories and behavioral inclinations; minority groups; Native American peoples; perceptions; snakes and ambushes (inc. psychological); territorial claims and disputes;

HOUSE: [full no 68] When “place” is important in predictive work; residence and “at home.”

HYBRIS: [full no 81] Expectation, glass-ceilings, future expected, their lot in life; expectation of others; what others, parents, you see as “your fate;” conditioned limitations.

HYGIEA: [full no 55] Medical concerns and health (especially issues related to FITNESS “hygiene” and cleanliness.

ICARUS: [full no 71] Careless escapes without thought of consequences; desire to “leave” the fast break impulse; attraction to speed, danger or risk; desire to get away from restrictions (of aspecting points).

INDUSTRIA: [full no. 115] Facilitates identification of career and work interests, abilities, and matters.

ISIS: [full no 56] Sibling relationships; issues involving “scattered” locations, ideas, people and things; fragmentation; sense of needing to “get or put it together;” desire to make things whole.

JUNO: [full no 60] Partners; marriage/relationship; maintenance of one's rights or position with other; question of “rights” and fairness/compromise; enforcement of fairness; potential for score-keeping, jealousy, fears of abandonment & infidelity; tallying (£££ & fairness).

KASSANDRA:[full no 71] Wasted breath! Advise & consent roles—offering advice or prophecies; questions about whether to believe what others say (whether to follow advice); offering counsel; broadcasting ideas; lecturing; auditory sensitivity; hearing difficulties.

KLOTHO: [full no 81] Conditions (fate and expectations) at the beginning; initial understanding, what is apparent at the start, origins/beginnings in general. [See also, Lachesis for the middle and Atropos for the denouement or ending]

LACHESIS: [full no 76] Intervention, assessment mid-way into a sequence, what “interrupts” an evolving sequence from going as one would have expected (from the way it began or is underway.)

LILITH:[full no 70] Triangulation; competing; selection & rejection; decisions (regarding angle or aspects divided loyalties; favouritism; gender stereotypes; use of sex or rejection for dominance.

MINERVA: [full no 82] Broad perceptual skills; strategies to deal with situations and people; “calculations” (whether dealing with math or public relations); figuring things & people out. [See also Pallas Athena]

NEMESIS: [full no. 84] The Undoing, the Achilles Heel, seeking to place BLAME; “scapegoating;” finger-pointing; identification of “the enemy,” fault, or source of a problem.

NIOBE:[full no 45] Humbling lessons through excess pride in one's children, fertility, virility or creativity (including creative products).

ODYSSEUS:[full no 127] Exile, extended trip or absence, long journey, ex-patriate, to feel rootless or homeless—a stranger in a strange land, to be sent away from “home.”

OPHELIA:[full no 66] A point of over-reaction and counterproductive reactions (linked to mistrust of one’s value to others and concern about deception.)

ORPHEUS: [full no 102] Sad, sweet or haunting music, lyrics or poetry; dirges; sense of mourning and loss; grief (for what you don't have—what has gone out of your life¼what “might have been” or what was); contact with death.

PALLAS ATHENA:[full no 110] Approval-seeking; strategies of relating; perceptual skill; whether one is willing and/or able to do those things that will please another. [See also Minerva]

PANACEA*:[full no 41] What you believe it takes to find solutions, cures or remedies for problems (and not only those related to the health.)

PANDORA: [full no 69] Encountering unexpected consequences; getting “more than you bargained for;” being enticed by a curiosity, new idea, person or situation—and finding that it has set you on a whole new path; agitation.

PERSEPHONE: [full no 121] Attitude toward “leaving” or “being taken or sent away from¼home, family or familiar conditions;” memories of what separated you from mother/family (even emotionally); how you handle transitions and the rites of passage in your life (going to school; the adolescent crisis; separation for marriage or career; mid-life, etc.,). [See also Proserpina]

PHAETHON:[full no 96] Instances that involve cars, transport, driving; other forms of recklessness—feeling out of control—as though you’ve taken on more than you can handle; having trouble keeping to the middle of the road!

PHOTOGRAPHICA: [full no 115] While useful for showing the importance of photography and visual images, Photographic also relates to the brain’s ability to retain and interpret visual imagery.

PROSERPINA:[full no 131] Separation anxiety; leaving; going away; what you believe will happen if “mother's not there to take care of you;” the conditions you attract as you approach a transition or separation.

PSYCHE: [full no 61] Recognition of childhood trauma; raw wounds psychologically; vulnerability; memories; insight; psychic impressionability; psychological recovery; the state of your “mental health;” head wounds; brain states.

REQUIEM: [full no 79] As well as a connection to the ceremonies of death (and the formalization of grief,) Requiem stands for a place of acceptance, a cessation of struggle. Whether one should be AT PEACE with the people, actions and events shown by aspecting points is the issue!

SAPPHO: [full no 67] Friendship; bonding; feeling close to or the same as others; kindred spirits; having things in common; artistic interests; shops/galleries. Sappho as “pairs” assumes another importance in medical astrology.

SISYPHUS: [full no 136] Starting over; the “uphill climb;” feeling like you're running' against the wind! It’s having to “go back to the beginning;” getting the rug pulled out from under you just as you thought you were getting somewhere; dogged rejection of defeat.

SIVA: [full no 51, 52] also SIWA*: Episodic, catabolic (breakdown/through) process that precedes insight; destruction of density/fixated beliefs (relative to aspects); crisis of death (stagnation) or regeneration; The Far East (inc. Vietnam, India, China, Malaysia, Japan periodic occurrence; ascetic; attention to sound.

SPHINX: [full no 90] “Unsolved Mysteries!” Enigma, paradox, questions, missing information, lack of answers and understanding (about points in axis or aspect.)

TANTALUS: [full no 108] Teasing; temptation; times when what is wanted is just out of reach; excessive hunger or thirst; failures of gratitude; problems with giving the right thing to the right person; feeling as though one is “tested on whether they know” about aspecting or axis factors.

TERPSICHORE: [full no 136] Dance, aerobics, exercise that increases flexibility; coordination, agility, grace and mobility; flexion muscles; body image/ego; gestures; body language.

TISIPHONE: [full no 115] Seek justice for "crimes against kinship, family;" dose of one's own medicine; fairness; just desserts; how and where and if one gets “what they deserve.”

TORO: [full no 68] Machismo; bullying; intimidation; doing hard, physical work; strength (muscular); muscle flexing—psychologically or physically; challenging others; rough treatment; competitive; football; prizefighting; toughness.

URANIA: [full no 64] Astrology; astronomy; handling theoretical, hypothetical or abstract principles and information; logic and rationality; ability to “see the big picture” and not be dissuaded by instant details; an intellectual framework; apperception—intellectual “context.” Bias and distortions to rationality and conceptual ability.

VESTA: [full no 67] Commitment to work; using work as a compensation; dedication to accomplishment or goals; emotional distancing; hard work and career demands; impersonal; sublimation of other interests into the career or vocation; sacrifice/denial of self (by others/self) for a “greater goal.”

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[Traditional Enneagram] The Instinctual Type Bias in Enneagram Descriptions

Enneagram descriptions often lean heavily towards a particular instinctual subtype, and they can even lean towards one wing (even when it discusses the wings & their impact on the core type). This is some of the bias I've detected so far... 1s - self-pres, 9 wing Presented as austere and nitpicky. 2 wingers can seem downright warm and the other subtypes may not be as picky about little details. 2s - social, 1 wing The helper portrait is this specific subtype and rather misleading for other 2s. I don't even think this is the most common 2, so I don't know how it became the most common description out there. 3s - social, 2 wing The plastic achiever who is all about impressing people & gaining status. The sexual 3 with a 4 wing is often very arty and can come across as highly individual (ie think David Bowie). Self-pres 3s are all about autonomy and not needing others, being counter vanity on the surface. Their sense of values comes from being self-sufficient. This may make them seem like 8s (more raw & less concerned with opinions of others) or 6s (may seem earthier or security seeking) or 1s (being "model" people but not showy). 4s - social / sexual, 3 wing The melodramatic whiny 4 is a so/sx 4, and the excessively dramatic variety has a 3 wing. The sp is counter type - suffering in silence, especially if a 5 wing type; more burdened by shame but with a veneer of cool indifference that drives away what they want. I'm an sp 4 and still identify pretty easily with 4 though. Supposedly many sx 4s struggle to see their type in 4 profiles, but the profiles emphasize competitiveness and dramatic outbursts quite a bit, perhaps too much if you are not an sx 4. 5s - self-pres, 6 wing Described as hermitic and excessively scientific or technical in the most dry way, the 5 is usually painted as a self-pres type with a 6 wing. This can confuse 5s who are artier or more abstract people and not the stereotype of a basement dwelling nerd. 6s - self-pres / social, 7 wing This is a common type for, say, an SFJ. Will leave many confused if they are not the dutiful, warm skeptic who cozies up to people out of fear. There may be emphasis on social 6s as rather uptight, paranoid people who sound like they enjoy paperwork. Occasionally it's offset with a bit about cp 6s, which usually sounds like a daredevil ISTP or something. Obviously much too narrow... 7s - self-pres / sexual, 6 wing The hedonistic 7 is spoken of most. This is someone who pursue concrete indulgence. The more ideal-oriented social 7 is spoken of very little, and the sexual 7 is maybe hinted at with pictures of 7s pursuing projects/people and then abandoning them once the shine wears off (very Ne, IMO). The 8 wing is often left out, which contrasts with upbeat, friendly 7w6s as much cooler, IMO. Most 7 descriptions sound like ESFPs. 8s - self-pres, 9 wing Your basic playground bully; may grow up to be a PE teacher. Or sometimes described is the sx 8w7 who sounds they are on a cocaine binge. Some social 8 descriptions sound more like 3s (see self-pres 3) and they probably are. The social 8 shows more connection to 2 - more selfless protector than an independent leader. 9s - self-pres, social 1 wing Sometimes we hear about sp 9w8s who sound like they flitter life away in a semi-comatose state of not caring + eating. The sexual 9 with all their whimsy & spiritual insight is spoken of very little, and hence, they tend to mistype as 4s. The 1 wing is often emphasized in the 9s diplomatic leanings or penchant for evil/good dichotomies. Thoughts? Additions? Disagreements? http://www.typologycentral.com/forums/enneagram/90130-instinctual-type-bias-enneagram-descriptions-new-post.html?utm_source=dlvr.it&utm_medium=tumblr

[tounan]

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Sex & romance headcanons  ||  accepting.            ↪  @hostofthering​

👎 Would my muse ever cheat on their partner?

I’ll be answering this for post-canon verse, (ie: Zorc is vanquished and Bakura returns with just his human soul, no longer affected by Zorc), as I cannot see him ever committing to a relationship in any other time frame.

This is a hard one.  I’ve actually thought a good deal about this question before, as Bakura is very self-indulgent in addition to being restless and easily bored.  Not only that, he is not one that fancies commitments either, especially not to other people.  I think that, in the end, whether or not he’d cheat on his partner is dependent on how satisfied he is with his current relationship and who it is that’s come into his life and managed to interest him to the point of being disloyal.  Overall, I think it is unlikely, but not entirely impossible, and there’s a few reasons why I feel this way.

Firstly, for Bakura to commit to a relationship at all, he’d need to feel very strongly about a person, in addition to being certain about his own feelings towards that person.  Committing to accepting another as his partner would take a very long time, because, again, he does not like to bind himself to commitments where he feels its not needed.  Thus, by the time he’s come to the point of being wiling to commit to a relationship with someone, he would already have to have strong enough feelings that his distaste for commitment isn’t as pressing as his feelings towards the other person. 

Secondly, it is once in a blue moon that Bakura finds himself drawn to another person.  My own headcanon is that he is attracted to others primarily based on personality, and is extremely picky about those with whom he spends time.  There are so few people that he can even stand to spend time with, let alone find himself attracted to, and by that reasoning alone, it’s already somewhat unlikely.

Thirdly, I believe that Bakura is actually quite loyal when it suits him.  Although his quest for revenge was not an entirely selfless act, I believe that it was partly his loyalty to both his people and his own ideas of justice that pushed him through the centuries, tirelessly pursuing his mission to bring them the justice he felt they deserved, in addition to the more self-indulgent goal of exacting his revenge and finding pleasure in the suffering of those who he feels are responsible for their brutal massacre.  I believe that, if Bakura felt strong enough about a person to commit himself to them, there would be a kind of loyalty and devotion to that person that would begin to cultivate with that commitment.  He may not express these in the most typical of ways, but in the ways he knows how, which are more subtle and perhaps harder for him to state outright. 

Looking at the reasons he might end up cheating on his significant other, I think it would have to be because the relationship he’s in isn’t satisfying him anymore, or there’s very significant conflict in his relationship, but also because he’s found enough interest in another person at the same time, the latter of which isn’t terribly likely considering his distaste for almost everyone he meets.  There’s a chance he might sleep with a stranger in the case of severe conflict in his relationship, perhaps out of resentment should he find himself angered to an excessive extent by something the other has done, but again, I don’t think it’s likely unless he were both drunk and very sexually frustrated.  The reason for this being that Bakura feels he’s above most people and harbors a lot of distaste and/or disgust towards others, and I don’t believe he’d think to engage in a sexual act with anyone he felt wasn’t worthy of him.  If there was a lot of tension and conflict in his relationship, he would be likely to act recklessly, but I think there’s a higher chance that he would end up in a fistfight with someone than end up going home with them.  Again, this is all assuming he had already been casually seeing the other person for years before ever considering making it official, and even then, Bakura would never commit himself to just anyone.  Only if he was certain of his feelings, which would have to be very strong for this to ever happen, in addition to being certain that he'd be willing to become committed to that person, would he ever put himself into that position, and so long as Bakura is not committed, he is free to do as he wishes with whomever he wishes.  

Overall, my point is that the chances of him entering a committed relationship are not likely in the first place.  If he’s developed a bond with someone to the point of deciding to commit to them, it would have to take severe conflict in the relationship, a growing lack of satisfaction with his partner, and another person who’s managed to catch his interest to such an extent, the latter of which is unlikely considering he very rarely cares for most people.  He might cheat as a drunken mistake, or out of drunken resentment, perhaps if his partner had cheated on him, but it’s more likely he’d do something even more destructive and wind up in a brutal fight, doing something reckless, etc, than lash out by sleeping with a stranger.  I do think that he would be more likely to cheat in AUs, as he might harbor significantly less distaste for humankind and would be a lot less withdrawn from others having grown up integrated among people, but as for post-canon verse, I think its unlikely, but not impossible.