#ill be on my fanboy shit forever

[joe-jawzz]

Racist - Andrew Paul Woodworth

I bet you don't weigh more than a hundred pounds or so.

Aren't you the one they're talking about?

I bet you got that scar fighting in the squad car.

I heard you kicked the windows out.

So tell me if I am in your space,

'cause I'm not in love and not a racist.

I'd need to sell some things, and to get my teeth clean

but I know you'd be happy with me.

We'd love each other. We'd fight, but love each other.

Come get me, not to rescue me.

So tell me if I am in the way,

'cause I'm not a slut and not a racist,

and I gotta cut but I can't find it.

You're some kinda sweet like you are dyin'.

Maybe you'll keep dancing like you're killing things.

Maybe I'll keep staring at'cha nervously.

Maybe I'll control you 'til my fingers bleed,

thinking you could easily let go of me.

I don't care if you've been wrong on everything,

you can always thank me while you're blaming me.

So tell me if I am in your space,

'cause I'm not in love and not a racist,

and I gotta cut but I can't find it.

You're some kinda sweet like you are dyin'.

[ladyvesuvia]

sad post-series harry/you– because i write in 2nd person hnghgn:

they’re married ‘n and happy right? they’ve had james and albus*– im’a call him oliver, bare with my personal hc– and are about to have lily right? sure, except you had a sudden decline in your health in the last month of your pregnancy with oliver, nothing life-threatening, you were just more tired and nauseous, couldn’t move very much and barely had an appetite— you really only ate because you had to keep your baby healthy :’)

* i just ... hc him as oliver albus potter because harry needs at least one of his kids to not sound like he’s a fanboy, also oliver’s a nice name– i like it :) also ollie is a cute nickname you can give olivers lol

the delivery went relatively okay, and your illness faded after around three months after his birth. harry was a little hesitant with having another child, but you wanted to try for a girl and if he had to be honest, so did he. after seeing ron and hermione with rose, it just made him want a little girl even more– so he agreed. it luckily didn’t take too many attempts to get pregnant again (fertility off the charts yo), but as both of you feared, your sickness came back and this time almost immediately after finding out. (not going into details because i’m not a qualified doctor, don’t come for me, but let’s just agree that baby lily for the most part is okay, it’s just you that’s sick)

it wasn’t too hard at first, to get up and get a meal or take a stroll in the backyard or play with james and little ollie, but by the start month five you could barely get out of bed with help and could barely keep food down. harry would refuse to leave you alone, often asking molly or one of his friends if they were available to watch you. and by month seven he just left work completely to take care of you. he’d prepare meals, set up alarms, and made sure to be with you when you hurt. your days consisted of napping with james and staying in bed all day, typically with both of your kids at your side while a caretaker (friend/molly) came in every now and then.

james was overly protective of you and refused to leave your side, the two of you even had his lessons (for like math and spelling, five year old stuff) moved because he would throw a tantrum if they took him away from your room. in month eight, the real hard-hitting one for you, he was out of the room and overheard harry breaking down and crying, saying how he couldn’t lose you and begging for you to be alright while you spoke quietly— james couldn’t hear you, you spoke too softly— but it was enough for him to start sobbing and crying out for you. quickly getting over yourselves, you and harry had to spend the entire night consoling him and promising him (and harry..) that you weren’t going anywhere.

because harry’s lost too many people in his life and boy needs some happiness, you don’t die— though you’re free to imagine a different ending— though giving birth to lily was definitely awful and exhausting for you and had you passing out almost immediately afterwards, scaring harry and having the midwives calm him down. for the first year or so of lily’s life you had to stay on bedrest, and you definitely became weaker after her birth as well, but soon you got better and were back on your feet.

anyways, harry’s forever thankful that you’re alive and loves your family so much, he makes sure to never take you for granted again— and he’d never want to go through the complete depression and anguish he went through when you were sick again because he really doesn’t know what he’d do if you hadn’t made it. he can’t imagine a world with you.

DID YER LIKE THE ANGST— wasn’t death kinda angsty but it was “shit the love of my life might actually die and my sons might lose their mother” kinda angst, which i think is... pretty depressing as well. didn’t describe harry’s depression and hurt here that well, but just know, boy it would be painful.

oh god i feel honored you sent this to me, nonnie 😩 + I LOVE THE OLIVER BIT KAJDJDIWOW THE FANBOY COMMENT IS SENDING ME PLSSSS

an entire fic is needed babe yes the stock photo is mandatory

VIBES FROM THESE SONGS BABE HNGGGGG

JUST.... i cAN SMELL THE ANGST LIGHT YEARS AWAY STAWPPP + i could imagine the news breaking out and harry deadass lashing out when people start talking as if the reader was gonna die shdjdjskaooa agh

HIM LETTING HER HAVE THE BED ALL TO HERSEF BUT STAYING LITERALLY CLOSE BY N SHI AAAAAABSHUDDJIS IM SUCH A SLUT FOR ANGST IT’S CONCERNING

THEN THE FLUFF WHEN HE GETS SHOOKT ASF WHEN HE SEES JAMES ASSISTING HER OUT OF BED AND SHE LOOKS BETTER U GET WHAT I MEAN ANSNDBDHWOALA

BABE WRITE IT WRITE IT WRITE IT MAMA LIKEY AF

I DID I DID it could be a “we’ve made it this far don’t let go now” type of angst and i’m a hoe for that 🤧

[basketballandtextbooks]

Bat how do you feel after watching the special

There are multiple levels to my thoughts.

On a satire level, they bungled a lot of the information. They were trying to take an “all sides are stupid stance” on an issue where people are dying daily and there are actual medical reasons for one stance to be factually incorrect so taking an “all sides” stance is... fucking tone deaf. To be fair to them, I enjoyed the amount of meta that informed their episode about knowing that their episode was doing more harm than good and using Randy as a tool for that particular satire was a smart and effective mood. That said, it was a mixed message that promoted a lot of misinformation. While the meta parts were funny, lamp-shading how poor your satire is doesn’t actually make your satire good. It just means you’re lamp-shading the issue. It was disappointing because I had hoped for better as they frequently write good satire. Stan’s character journey was the only cohesive one throughout the episode and while it was a good one, there was so much of the episode that was tone deaf to the severity of this issue. While I think it’s valid to bring levity to the issue and I was hoping they would, they missed the mark by a long-shot. That said, they usually don’t do well with medical issues. The last time they bungled their satire this badly was the vaccination episode. And they infamously bungle literally every trans-related episode. There were aspects of the episode that were poignant, well thought out, and well executed, but the majority was an under-researched in-cohesive mess. Which to some extent I think that’s what they were aiming for because they view the pandemic as an in-cohesive mess. The issue is that one of the reasons that pandemic is such a pervasive issue (especially in the states) is the mass spread of misinformation so when they spread misinformation to criticize the spread of misinformation... it’s just stupid.

However on a character level I very much enjoyed the episode. It was yet another Randy focused episode and as I’ve expressed on a few occasions I just don’t find him funny. Oh no, he jizzed on the weed, that’s sooooo surprising. Honestly Randy is a very one-note character. He does something horrifying, people are horrified, he faces no consequences, rinse, repeat. That all established, I think it’s important character information that he cheated on Sharon twice in China with no guilt whatsoever. He only wanted to hide his crime because “my wife is a bitch”. Also considering he cheated with non-human entities, I think this is strong proof of Rowelie’s viability so take that as you will Rowelie shippers. Also the fact that people grow Randy mustache’s if they ingest his cum and Sharon had a mustache at the end... I sort of hate that Randy took that as proof that she smoked his weed. Now, even if she had smoked it his behavior still is completely and disgustingly inexcusable but also... everyone in South Park is openly smoking so she could have very easily gotten second hand Randy-stache. Or just given her husband a blow job. Also it’s interesting information that within universe Randy’s cum has mutagenic properties. Again for the Rowelie shippers: you could use this as an excuse as to how Towelie turns into a human, Randy’s cum mutated him. Also I think it’s likely that microwaving his balls could be what caused his radioactive jizz. Or one of the times he was experimented on by aliens. Or both. Altogether Randy was a repulsive bastard within the episode who I find boring at best BUT the amount of meta information that he introduced will be very useful to inform my theories. (Also again, the fact that he so easily and guilelessly cheats on Sharon tells me that he that he has done it a multitude of times. My theory is that after he gave Gerald a handy in the hot-tub and was forgiven he just never stopped, basically assuming the permission to do it once was broad permission to do it forever) (oh and second note: this is the second time within canon that Randy has poisoned people’s weed so uh... that’s fucked up)

Freaked out a lot about Jimbo dying, I’m really scared they’ll kill Jimbo but also since they already killed Ned I wonder if the two of them can be happy in the afterlife together because no one can convince me that Jimbo and Ned aren’t canon. Also Randy’s blatant racism and lack of empathy for Jimbo’s illness was really yikes. I dunno guys, I’ve always had a soft spot for Jimbo. He’s a stupid stereotypical red-neck but he had a sort of charm to him and I thought he was funny. I miss when him and Ned were regulars on the show.

CARTMAN DANCING AND SINGING WAS ACTUALLY THE CUTEST THING EVER ON THIS FUCKING EARTH, FIGHT ME I LOVE THIS STUPID SELFISH LITTLE CRETIN also it’s yet another episode to add to the list of “times Cartman shows he can grow into a better person” and list of “times Cartman seems to show a special soft spot for Stan”. Cartman does tend to listen more frequently when Stan asks and less frequently for literally anyone else. So the Stanman was strong in this one. Also really enjoyed the Stutters. While yes, Stan was completely using Butters as a tool to project his own feelings of unease I think it really says something that he chose Butters for that role. I think to some extent he felt that Butters might be feeling the same mortality-panic he was feeling (whether it was true or not) and that kinship he felt with Butters led him to feel that Butters was also feeling the way he did. He was panicked and he thought out of all his friends that Butters was the one who might share his feelings. I enjoy that sort of subtle connection between them and it’s been a consistent thread within the show that Butters and Stan just treat each other a little different than they do literally everyone else. It’s worth thinking about.

I think Stan was also at his limit because he was already suffering from isolation issues due to Tegridy Farms from before the pandemic. He’s always been a social boy and this brought him to the brink of what he could handle.

THEY SHOT TOKEN AND I SWEAR TO GOD YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW LOUD I WAS SCREAMING AT THE TV I THINK I PISSED OFF MY NEIGHBORS i fucking knew it was coming too. The fucking SECOND they shoved those fucking corrupt ass cops in the same room as Token.... I fucking feared for his life. They’ve killed off fairly major background characters before and killing Token would be... topical. I will make it my mission to personally destroy every fucking cop in South Park (Barbrady gets a pass... BARELY). I hate them all. I’ve hated them all for a long time but they murdered several children (including Kenny, the bastards) and they SHOT MY BOY TOKEN I WILL RIP OFF THEIR FUCKING ARMS SEE HOW WELL YOU CAN SHOOT THEN YOU TRASH BASTARDS

Nothing big Kenny happened this episode, insert sad fanboy noises

There were some strong Kyman moments. Cartman went to Kyle’s house for help at the beginning of the episode, obsessed over whether or not he’d be in the same room as Kyle, tried to vomit on Kyle, AND THEN KYLE FUCKING JUMPED HIM AND BEAT HIS ASS DOWN, FUCK ALL OF YOU WHO INCORRECTLY THINK DIFFERENT KYLE IS A FUCKING DOMINANT TOP, HE DOESN’T TAKE IT, HE GIVES IT

Adding that to my long list of “episodes where Kyle shows he isn’t a pushover, is very violent, and can easily kick Cartman’s bitch ass” because every so once in awhile I have to break out that list when someone insists upon how submissive Kyle is. Bitttttttccchhhhhh, you haven’t watched the show if you think that. My favorite kid doesn’t take your shit

Very interested in Red’s new canon last name (McArthur) but I’m also unsure about it because in the scene’s where it’s shown I couldn’t quite tell if it was actually Red or Powder. She kept being shown from odd angles and her hair looked a little shorter than normal. That said, I’m happy if it is her because I’ve been wanting a canon last name for Red for a long-ass time. Even presuming you go by the cousin’s headcanon for Craig and Red, there’s no guarantee they would have the same last name.

Let’s see, I think I had some other thoughts but those were the main points

OH PAUSE THE SCREEN WHEN THE PARENTS ARE ON ZOOM it’s really cute/funny what the usernames are. For example Annie’s mom is totally just using Annie’s account so she’s probably not very tech savvy. There’s actually a lot of minor character detail that you can infer from those screen-names.

Yeah those are my major thoughts: Randy is trash, nothing new, Cartman was ADORABLE and also lots of good meta for him (I have some hcs that one of the reasons he adored the social distancing so much isn’t because he hates human contact because we know from previous seasons that he’s a bit of a lonely boy, but he likes the social distancing explicitly because it gives him an excuse to reject other people before they can reject him), good stutters moments, good kyman moments, good stanman moments, there were some style moments if you squint? Kyle was one of the people Stan consulted about his feelings of unease but since it wasn’t just Kyle that he consulted it didn’t really feel like that was a special personal part of their relationship, moreso that he wanted Kyle to kiss his booboo and make it better. Although further proof that Kyle is the dom in that relationship. Kyle was agitated over the situation but overall rational, Stan was flipping the fuck out. Stan came to him submissive, scared, and asking for Kyle to make him feel better. Kyle remained calm and logical. I swear to god if I read one more cutesy-innocent Kyle post I might flip a table. Literally Kyle’s canonical self is RIGHT THERE

OH YEAH MY BUTTERS THOUGHTS there’s nothing really new here but it continues the trend of Butters being a self centered prick. (I love him but he is) Instead of even trying to understand the number of people dying or the gravity of the situation, he’s just upset and throwing tantrums because he doesn’t get to play at Build a Bear. And it’s made explicit in the writing that unlike Stan he isn’t struggling with the nebulous fear of death (probably brought on by his uncle getting sick). Butters is just bitter that he doesn’t get to have special things. Also Stan was the only one who tried even a little to save Butters from getting taken by the guards. No one else tried to stop or warn Butters. So again, very cute Stutters moment where Stan is overtly worried for Butters’ well-being even when he’s throwing a bratty tantrum. (I don’t know how anyone perceives Butters as an altruistic person, he’s a selfish twat. he’s a lovable selfish twat, like Cartman, but he’s still a selfish twat. and none of his shitty behavior in this episode was even remotely related to Cartman so you can’t connect it to him. Butters, on his own and without anyone else’s influence, does and acts like a shit-head). There is the excuse that he’s only ten but literally everyone in that cafeteria is only ten. But Butters is the only one kicking other people’s food because he didn’t get his special prize.

This all sounds like I hate Butters. I love Butters, warts and all, I just get really annoyed when fandom ignores his warts because his warts are PART OF THE REASON I LOVE BUTTERS. Also it’s like... blatantly and observably canon that he’s selfish.

I’m going to happily ruminate on Stan feeling a strong pang of protectiveness towards Butters though. That was quite illuminating.

[nightcoremoon]

here's some controversy that has nothing to do with social issues.

a lot of people hate the band five finger death punch. saying those words provoked a visceral response in half the people reading this, and a "who?" in the other half. they're a groove metal band; similar to slipknot, mudvayne, disturbed, all that remains, system of a down, korn, and killswitch engage. they're one of those really controversial bands that are hated because they're ~not real metal~ by dumbshits who think that NWOBHM is the only valid metal genre. even though england ruined metal and punk but that's a conbfetsation for another day.

now, if you just don't like metal, that's fine. I don't expect everyone to like every genre. so obviously you won't like them, or any band in the genre. obviously. and these are not the people who are being targeted with this post. no, this goes to those who love metallica, ozzy, megadeth, slayer, pantera, testament, opeth, tool, manowar, meshuggah, children of bodom, cannibal corpse, fear factory, mercyful fate: this is to the people who love metal. now, I say this as one of us, but metalheads are one of the most judgmental groups of people in history. and frequently I find that metalheads make the same remarks in regards to their opinions on five finger death punch.

they do nothing but covers. they just yell and cuss. forty year old men with teenage angst. bad musicianship. they look stupid. they fuck their sisters and daughters. they sold out to the military. they're gay. they do too many ballads. they're redneck bait. they're toxic masculinity and macho personified. they rely on guest stars to carry their songs. they're talentless hacks.

these are all complaints I've heard multiple times from multiple people. and frankly I'm sick of it. I'm sick of hearing the bullshit complaints rather than the ACTUAL REASONS why they aren't the best band in the world. which I'll go through now.

they have an overreliance on breakdowns as if they were a post-hardcore band but they're not. breaking benjamin also skirts the line between post-grunge metal and post-hardcore and have many breakdowns, but the difference is that BB's breakdowns have math rock roots and use different patterns that syncopate well. five finger's breakdowns are... eighth notes. it's the difference between, say, black veil brides- who have excellent syncopated breakdowns- and as I lay dying, who have shitty and boring breakdowns. the only difference is that AILD has blast beats (and is fronted by an abusive asshole), and five finger has... ivan growling threats or whatever because they think that it sounds cool to have metal blaring while he says shit like "you wanna disrespect me? I will slap you so fucking hard you'll feel like you kissed a freight train, fuck you," or "if there was ever a time for you to back the fuck up it's right fuckin here and right fuckin now" or "it's not the size of the dog in the fight it's the size of the fight in the dog," or "in the end we're all just chalk lines on the concrete, drawn only to be washed away; in the time that I've been given, I am what I am", etc, all preceding screams. and no these are not exaggerations, these are literally exact quotes. there's also one that plays radio chatter from the military while he goes "hut hut oorah", which is different slightly. and in any case, they have done nearly a hundred different solos over their career, there is NO REASON for them to have such a ridiculous amount of breakdowns. they rival memphis may fire in that regard, but MMF actually has great breakdowns. churko is a metal producer, NOT a hardcore producer, and they sound empty when you strip out the vocals.

sometimes they will overuse a chorus, and hit the pop music pitfalls of having a song that's over half chorus. I'm sure they did this so the label would be happy with singles because the music industry is a commercialized garbage fire and holding it against the artists would be so fucking stupid especially since tool (the best metal band in existence) fucking said it best, "all you know about me is what I sold you, I sold out long before you ever knew my name, I sold my soul to make a record, dipshit, then you bought one; I've got some advice for you little buddy, before you point your finger you should know that I'm the man and if I'm the man then he's he man and you're the man as well so you can take that fucking finger and shove it up your ass". translation; the fact that you know a band at all means that they sold out to even exist in the first place because that's what selling out is. so even this complaint I have that sometimes they have repeated chorus is more of a complaint about a music industry which dumbs things down to sell radioplay to the lowest common denominator, which EVERY SINGLE ARTIST IS GUILTY OF. so moving on.

sometimes they'll have songs which are fairly simple from a harmonic/mechanical standpoint. opening verse chorus verse chorus solo bridge chorus chorus ending. verse goes some mix of eighth and quarter notes and rests in 4:4, solo is just the vocal line of the chorus, bass and drums are nonexistent and only serve to be a melodic backbone, and the music only exists to serve the lyrics... oh wait I can make the exact same arguments about metallica, rage against the machine, pantera, disturbed, and a hundred other bands. those guys aren't hated as much as five finger. hmm. wonder why.

the lyrics are often angsty. namely that they deal with honor, government corruption, mental illness, we live in a society, religious corruption, abandonment issues, recovering from toxic relationships, hey wait a minute these are all just insanely common topics for metal songs!

they usually play in the same key- wait shit every band has a favored key.

they do a lot of covers- wait shit they have literally more ALBUMS than covers.

(yeah that's weird to me too, but they only did a new level by pantera, from out of nowhere by faith no more, bad company by bad company, mama said knock you out by LL cool J, house of the rising sun by the animals, gone away by offspring, and blue on black by kenny wayne shepard... that's 7. they have 8 albums now.)

so shut the fuck up forever about the cover songs. metallica and the deftones and a perfect circle all had fucking cover ALBUMS, van halen only has a career because of the kinks, and every single rock band in the world is just ripping off the beatles, pink floyd, black sabbath, the who, led zeppelin, and cream. pick a legitimate reason to hate on a band, hypocrite.

alright what else...

"they're gay"

I'm not gonna dignify that with a response.

"they suck"

so does your favorite band. boom roasted.

"they're bad at music"

I'd like to see you do better then.

"they sold out to the military"

no they support the veterans and the troops; they fucking hate the military if you pay any attention at all. they believe in the good parts of the military that the government pays half our taxes to make us believe. you're not better than anyone else just because you see through one specific piece of propaganda because odds are you're blinded by another dozen. they write songs about how war is hell and how when vets come home they should be treated better. and anyway when you're in the dog eat dog world of the music industry hey guess what you need a market to sell to or else it's back to baskin robbins. I don't blame them for one second. if I had the option of endorsing cops to pay my bills you bet your ass I'll fly a blue lives matter flag and sell my soul to make money, and then donate shit to the black lives matter movement. flying a flag is worthless if I can do actual good with the money that those dumbasses send in. and name better irony than fighting to abolish a group that pays me to do it go on I'll wait.

"you're just a fanboy"

a) it's fangirl but metal elitists don't give a shit about the LGBTQ and b) just because I like a band doesn't in any way diminish the validity of my statements and any bias I might have is easily countered by whatever bias you might have and c) they're not even my favorite band you idiot I just think there's way worse out there just like I think it's unfair to say nickelback is the worst band in existence when drunk mom rock like hinder buckcherry savingabel and kidrock exists, and limp bizkit is standing right there, and d) they're not even the worst groove metal band, just look at fucking lamb of god, and e) if I was a fangirl I wouldn't have pointed out the flaws you fucking brainless troglodyte, and f) even if they were my favorite band in the world it doesn't matter if you think they suck because music taste is subjective anyway you goddamn moron. those guys write their own music, play their own music, perform their own music, and they love their fanbase more than most other bands. andrew biersack and kellin quinn and pepper keenan and glenn danzig and liam gallagher and axl rose and van halen and ted nugent and kurt cobain HATE their fans, or at least are huge fucking assholes. but not five finger. jeremy played until he literally broke his back; he's as devoted as phil collins, and if he made like atreyu and sang while drumming he'd be singing from a wheelchair, or like dave grohl when he broke his leg right in the middle of a concert, went to the hospital and got set and put in a cast, THEN CAME RIGHT BACK TO THE FUCKING SHOW AND PLAYED GUITAR AND SANG IN A CAST AND WHEELCHAIR. oh but wait, people say phil collins and dave grohl suck too, and turn around and suck mustaine's dick even though he's the biggest asshole in thrash metal behind tom araya and drunk james hetfield. point being, just because x doesn't like y doesn't diminish z's opinion.

"the singer fucked his daughter lol lol his grandchild is his son too lol lol his daughter is his wife lol lol it's funny because rednecks and incest lol lol" he's from colorado not alabama you dumb motherfuckers, and all the lol incest in georgia jokes are rooted in good ol yankee classism. also the guitarist is hungarian so the american redneck jokes don't even fuckin work. shut the hell up, you have all of the intellectual capacity of a common bog leech.

you can dislike the band. you can say you don't like it. you can say that you'd rather listen to different music. that's fine! that's okay! listen to justin bieber if you like him, listen to taylor swift if you like her, listen to new kids on the block if you want! I don't care! but stop expressing your opinions that you stole from someone else as fact. all you're doing is meme bandwagoning so you can find a community because you don't have the social skills necessary to meet people through the things you love so instead you try to pull serotonin out of making other people feel as miserable as you do.

with that being said, fuck all of the annoying dudebro douchebags who listen to the band and show 5FDP next to the confederate flag, blue lives matter flag, don't tread on me flag, punisher skull, trump sticker, and the crossed assault rifles on the back of your truck. you're all shit for reasons other than your music taste.

[thatgirlinskullz]

I was still half asleep, got a message from a friend saying “Wakanda Forever”. and I was like “?”.. and then I opened Instagram and saw the news... and my heart dropped. I don’t believe it. How?! Why?! When?! Why him?! This is just.. idk.. unbelievable.?

my friend who doesn’t really follow celebrities, doesn’t really geek out or “fanboy” out over anyone, said he never cried over any actor until today.. and it hurts me that he is so hurt.. 

the things that hit hardest in all this: 1. he was so young. 2. he was soo soo talented. but most of all 3. he suffered through his illness for so long, without anyone in the public knowing, while he filmed so many amazing movies that we will forever cherish. He did all that work, while going through chemo and surgeries and pain, and all the hardships that come with cancer.. it’s incredible. How can one man take so much shit from the world, but then give back so much love to it?! 

Chadwick Boseman was a one of a kind talent. And an incredible human being. Someone that millions looked up to. Not just because he was Black Panther, but because he was a strong, hopeful, vibrant young black man who showed everyone out there that things get better and that you can do whatever you set your mind to. That’s how I’ll remember him. 

Rest in peace Chadwick. We will miss you. But I hope you’re now free of the pain this horrible world has given you. 

ps. my heart goes out to his family and friends, and fans. Please know that it’s okay to cry it out. You’re not alone. And if you’re struggling, please reach out to someone. 

[incarnateirony]

S15 Spec/Discussion

So when the SPHT came out we all got to talking and I had some Thoughts(tm). Some of it is wildly speculatory but potential and interesting. I love the thinkie beans in my server. 

I love our little roundtable of speculation and meta that routinely crops up, sometimes I feel like we should record it and make a podcast.

Charlie BreadbutteryYesterday at 9:34 PM

IM YELLING SO MUCH YELLING “you cant do this to the fans!” “i can do anything. im a writer.” FUCKING CHILLS

Leaf is a kittyYesterday at 9:36 PM

Jared's evil smirk has murdered me

Charlie BreadbutteryYesterday at 9:38 PM

yesssss

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:38 PM

So we have Sam in a white suit MoC

Charlie BreadbutteryYesterday at 9:38 PM

btw chucks lame ending is hilarious

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:38 PM

The colt

CastielYesterday at 9:39 PM

THAT WAS A THIng

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:39 PM

G L O R I F I E D F A N B O Y

CastielYesterday at 9:39 PM

I came out of aladdin to that

Charlie BreadbutteryYesterday at 9:39 PM

IM SCREAMING

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:39 PM

Adam and most likely Michael taking in a diner Talking

CastielYesterday at 9:39 PM

Psfuck what anybody says the new aladdin is amazing

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:39 PM

Scruffy endverse Dean

CastielYesterday at 9:40 PM

I jave never Ever Seen such masterful seaming of cartoonverse cgi To real actorsHoly fuck me

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:40 PM

DO YOU REALLY WANT TO TALK ABOUT ALADDIN RIGHT NOW

Leaf is a kittyYesterday at 9:40 PM

LMAO

CastielYesterday at 9:40 PM

I CAN DO BOTH LOOK

Leaf is a kittyYesterday at 9:40 PM

I AGREE ABOUT ALADDIN

CastielYesterday at 9:40 PM

YOU DONT UNDERSTAND I WISH I WENT TO THAT SHIT HIGH

Leaf is a kittyYesterday at 9:41 PM

but JARED SMIRK IS MURDERING MEI CAN'T STOP LOOKING BACK AT THE VIDEO FOR IT

CastielYesterday at 9:41 PM

Yeah i intend to watch on pc when i canIm mobile rn

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:41 PM

And of course the crypt door being held shut with a screwdriver As direct14.10 parallel

CastielYesterday at 9:41 PM

Like we literally just left aladdin hence the yelling Yes yes Ive got him Im the cage Etc

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:42 PM

GlorifiedFanboy Is that not what I said friggin months ago?!

CastielYesterday at 9:42 PM

On brand a+ dean from whoever wrote that Ill guess Bobo or buckner For glorified fanboy line

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:43 PM

What? Do they read our tweets?

Charlie BreadbutteryYesterday at 9:43 PM

lol

CastielYesterday at 9:43 PM

Bobo reads mine a lot?

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:43 PM

I stg I heard that line and almost screamed

CastielYesterday at 9:43 PM

I never did upload his nerdy video to me in hindsight

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:44 PM

Interesting that they didn't use a single shot of Alex

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:44 PM

No AlexAt all

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:44 PM

So it's not gonna be just a hallucination with burnt out eyes No Billie either

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:45 PM

No empty

CastielYesterday at 9:45 PM

No its full on chuck villain framing its my sound of war vid with s15 footage dhdhdhd

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:46 PM

Yeah well it all blended into inky black at the end But that's hardly conclusive

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:46 PM

True

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:46 PM

Since that happens a lot in trailers

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:46 PM

Maybe that’s for later in the season Or Maybe it’s a big secret

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:46 PM

10 bucks says they abandoned the Cas deal And that's the hill I die on

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:47 PM

Bc that’s how they fight Chuck? They can’t abandon that already It’s too fresh

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:48 PM

To me it read as a gateway to the Empty getting Jack

CastielYesterday at 9:48 PM

Placing bets now. Ep 1-3 is deancas tension over mary and jack and feeling distanced from the winchesters leaves eps 4 and 5. We know he works with sam at least briefly in 6. Deancas reunion in 7 midseason scheduled for 8 or 9. Deancas resolution then

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:48 PM

Before they knew for sure

CastielYesterday at 9:48 PM

Midseason finale whatever theyre keeping in the door

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:48 PM

That it was their final season To possibly stretch the plot accordeon

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:49 PM

Maybe final battle is with the empty and not chuck

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:49 PM

But now they've lost the need for a middle man ie Cas Nah

CastielYesterday at 9:49 PM

Id need more than a promo trailer to figure out if resolving cas is midseason or endgame

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:49 PM

Is amara coming back?

CastielYesterday at 9:49 PM

Yes

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:50 PM

Dabb confirmed it's early

CastielYesterday at 9:50 PM

And deans weird old friend

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:50 PM

She wasn’t there either

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:50 PM

Yeah 15.02 I think Or 04? Very early

CastielYesterday at 9:50 PM

Its as much a mood piece as a trailer

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:50 PM

Was that Becky talking to Chuck?

CastielYesterday at 9:51 PM

Yes

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:51 PM

I think so

CastielYesterday at 9:51 PM

You cant do this to the fans

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 9:51 PM

ITS GLORIOUS

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:51 PM

It sounded like her

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 9:51 PM

It’s her

CastielYesterday at 9:51 PM

We knew she was coming back Well

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:51 PM

Yea

CastielYesterday at 9:51 PM

Speculated educatedly

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 9:51 PM

I’m so mad! I was just about to go to bed!

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:51 PM

When even the crazed fangirl looks sane by comparison

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 9:52 PM

And they dropped this

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:52 PM

Yeah I’ll never sleep now

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 9:52 PM

I HAVE TO

CastielYesterday at 9:52 PM

Like

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:52 PM

Nah I'll head to bed in a few

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:52 PM

No. No sleep

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 9:52 PM

I’ve gotten no sleep the past three days

CastielYesterday at 9:52 PM

Points if they still frame it for a swipe at the bronlies like all the other becky jokes

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:52 PM

I find the fixation on the fan angle a bit weird

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:52 PM

Yaaaaassssss

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 9:53 PM

It seemed framed that way to me Min

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:53 PM

All the bronly jokes pls

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 9:53 PM

But maybe I’m just reading it with my own bias

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 9:53 PM

But it's only 2 pieces of Chuck dialogue so

CastielYesterday at 9:53 PM

Yeah

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 9:54 PM

And he’s a melodramatic fuck

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:54 PM

I’ll forever want to refer to him as “glorified fanboy” Put it on a shirt

CastielYesterday at 9:55 PM

God imagine chuck bringing back kevin as his prophet to take down his word as the gospel of winchester is designed to end only in being felled, and only by the glory of god. He cant finish off his own book to print the new gospel

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:56 PM

Here to say fuck you chuck

CastielYesterday at 9:57 PM

What if we big bounce and he dubs adam the new michael since we saw jack. Can convert humans to angels

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:57 PM

Megalomaniacal Michael?

CastielYesterday at 9:58 PM

Kicking down the castles in his own sandbox as revelations told before, before men found the new gospel of the glory of god. Revelations might not be a prophecy. It may be history.

Lissa JoYesterday at 9:59 PM

Interesting

CastielYesterday at 9:59 PM

Wildly speculatory and just playing but

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 10:00 PM

Oh the adam Michael idea

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:01 PM

I'm very glad about Chuck being in early episodes Adam is 100% gonna be Michael Cause all the summaries made it sound Like they weren't utilizing him

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 10:03 PM

It does sound like OG Michael is gonna be a real issue and it makes sense for it to be Adam

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:03 PM

CastielYesterday at 10:09 PM

WHICH THEY MYSTERIOUSLY PLUGGED AT THE END OF THE SEASON

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:10 PM

Yeah but he'd still be Adam and not Michael Just

CastielYesterday at 10:10 PM

if michael is useless to chuck as is, which he may or may not have been lying about MAKEA NEW

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:10 PM

Archangel Adam

CastielYesterday at 10:10 PM

MICHAEL YES

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:10 PM

Oh Doesn't fit with the pic above tho

CastielYesterday at 10:10 PM

Find another Eve. Oh look universal big bounce and I have a new mythology jazz hands Or better a Lilith Also this is literally unstoppable force immovable object logic if chuck can't destroy the human soulzapping the winchesters to death is just a stall game of exhausting futility they've proven they will inevitably doorkick down every afterlife or wherever they're cycled to what if there's like a hilariously extreme mystery spot where you see mini adventures out of whatever afterlife but eventually justtruncated to ridiculous extremes Chuck: -_-

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:18 PM

Like that's a given with all the scattered bits. Either Lucifer Sam and MoC Dean etc become big plot points Or they're part of Redux Mystery Spot

CastielYesterday at 10:18 PM

side eyes hidden mytharc uh

CastielYesterday at 10:18 PM

I really hope we didn't get the MOC Dean thing too close rip

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:19 PM

Why did you have to connect those two promo subplots for meW h y

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:20 PM

Also Cas next to that burnt up body I hope it isn't just Victim Of The Week

CastielYesterday at 10:20 PM

I'm wondering about the "arrogant betrayal" promo line on ep... 3 is it?

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:21 PM

Yeah

CastielYesterday at 10:21 PM

Is it gonna be meaningful or is this like

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:21 PM

Nah

CastielYesterday at 10:21 PM

bringing back Sergei

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:21 PM

PR vagueblog

CastielYesterday at 10:21 PM

from his Byzantium bullshit

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:21 PM

The BL ep is 15.02 tho

CastielYesterday at 10:22 PM

authors sometimes soak up impact of -- oh no

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:22 PM

What

CastielYesterday at 10:23 PM

okay so let's pretend say, bobo or whoever wanted to finish up buckleming's plot point, or at least partially since it's the tie up season, but they knew they had to write misha out for a few episodes and with deancas tensions driving Cas away already, throwing out a Going For Revenge That Will Backfire spin before storming out for a few eps

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:24 PM

But then it would be Dean not being able to forgive the "betrayal"It's gotta be something else Watch it be like

CastielYesterday at 10:24 PM

the betrayal vague blog is about sergei in that thing

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:24 PM

Kevin working for Chuck

CastielYesterday at 10:24 PM

it's the phrasing "arrogant" that catches me

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:25 PM

Most vague summaries hardly fit the actual plot points anyway It's just to sound mysterious

CastielYesterday at 10:25 PM

no but it would be easier to simply not apply an adjective "Castiel deals with a betrayal" is still vague

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:25 PM

Yeah but adjectives give oomph

CastielYesterday at 10:26 PM

arrogant is an odd idea for even the vague bloggiest vague blogger to tilt towards after skimming the content so I really doubt it's like kevin being forced to betray them or something like thatso unless it's about chuck himself, unlikely just too early for that level of RAAA

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:28 PM

Oh right didn't Misha say Cas struggles with this new Chuck reveal

CastielYesterday at 10:28 PM

well yeah thats kinda a duh

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 10:28 PM

I think the arrogant betrayal is in reference to Chuck

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:29 PM

So maybe it's just oddly phrasing that Yea

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 10:29 PM

It’s a kinda weird phrasing imo

CastielYesterday at 10:29 PM

like on the one hand cas knows Chuck isn't father of the year so I think on a personal level it's not surprising, it's more the existential level for him previously chuck was a shit dad that was just trying his best in a world far too easy to do his worst, even as god, thinking he was generally trying to be inherently good

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:30 PM

I hope Megatron comes back :)

CastielYesterday at 10:30 PM

that last scrap of faith is also kind of critically attached to his very existance because if god is evil and part of this cruel design what has his entire pre-winchester existence been, and even waxing and waning through it in his time with them

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 10:31 PM

Yeah I think deep down part of his core sense of self is the idea that he comes from the side of good

CastielYesterday at 10:31 PM

the fundamental loss of "god is good" is kinda quantifiably huger to him, whereas the humans more will have to grapple with "What is free will, did we ever have it"

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 10:31 PM

And this rips that away

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:32 PM

Unrelated but the promo sorta Nulls the early human Cas idea

CastielYesterday at 10:32 PM

yeah I noticed that, but it was odd

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 10:33 PM

Yeah I agree

CastielYesterday at 10:33 PM

i'm putting down at least foreshadowing then

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:33 PM

Unless they pulled all of the Misha footage From like ep 1 and 2

CastielYesterday at 10:33 PM

or chuck playing with the light switch for shits and giggles

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 10:33 PM

He does still have that shotgun

CastielYesterday at 10:33 PM

we know cas has his coat back in like

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:33 PM

Watch Cas come back from his sabbatical

CastielYesterday at 10:33 PM

idkwe've seen him with it back

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:33 PM

With his grace ripped out

CastielYesterday at 10:34 PM

put it in a karambit i mean what

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 10:34 PM

Snort

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:34 PM

NOT SURE MISHA CAN HANDLE THAT Like on a pure choreography level

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 10:34 PM

Are you suggesting Misha isnt grace itself?For shame

Dean WinchesterYesterday at 10:35 PM

Not at all COUGH He has a cat-like agility

Mary BADASS WinchesterYesterday at 10:35 PM

LIKE A CAT

CastielYesterday at 10:38 PM

KSJDFksjdf I think younger misha could have but knowing he's always at risk of blowing out his hip probably not so much now like I feel that limitation in my soul

GarthToday at 6:17 AM

Okay so I don't think Amara is a made up character. I think she is Chuck's sister for real (or whatever they claim as siblings) but he used his story to trap her. Help fuel his plot.

Dean WinchesterToday at 6:17 AM

Like to me personally the option of Amara being made up has the best potential for an IC Chuck plot twist Esp since I still hold the idea that he lied about the universe going splat with his death"Writers lie"/"I'm a writer, I can do anything"

GarthToday at 6:18 AM

Well he did admit he's a liar rubs hands together This is gonna be so much fun

Charlie BreadbutteryToday at 6:19 AM

GOD THAT LINE THO

Dean WinchesterToday at 6:19 AM

And that would be a Dabb level retroactive canon ramification Which is sorta his thing

GarthToday at 6:19 AM

Mwahahahaha and he said said to Becky while she went on about "you can't do this to the fans!"

Charlie BreadbutteryToday at 6:19 AM

they make sense at least

Dean WinchesterToday at 6:20 AM

But I'm not sure they wanna go the route of Stripping a female character of her entire agency for male pleasure But I don't see a whole lot of options on how they take Amara out of the playing field Unless Chuck deadass eats her for the joint Godhead

GarthToday at 6:21 AM

Honestly he just might

Dean WinchesterToday at 6:22 AM

But that's like DBZ power level bullshit

Dean WinchesterToday at 6:26 AM

AU!Dean who's a baddy pls

GarthToday at 6:26 AM

Damn trailer successfully tripping us up

Dean WinchesterToday at 6:27 AM

Deadass just have pull the jackass from the 5.04 reality Maybe that's why Lucifer Sam is tied to a chair as well Like Chuck just put him in white clothes to paint a big target for endverse!Dean And it's actually just Sam

Charlie BreadbutteryToday at 6:28 AM

yeah that was my thought too

Dean WinchesterToday at 6:28 AM

BUT THAT IS THE SORTA SPECC THAT'S USUALLY TOO VAGUE FOR ME ALREADY And was that Singer Salvage?

GarthToday at 6:28 AM

We're just throwing things out there and laughing It looked like it might be

Charlie BreadbutteryToday at 6:29 AM

BEN JUST LET LOOSE BUD ITS OK

GarthToday at 6:29 AM

But the new building is throwing it off

Charlie BreadbutteryToday at 6:29 AM

THE CRACKIEST SPEC THE BETTER

GarthToday at 6:29 AM

Something else could have been built thoIt's been yrs

Dean WinchesterToday at 6:29 AM

LOOK MY WHOLE THING IS DOING ANALYSES BY GATHERING EVIDENCE THAT SUPPORTS MY ARGUMENT IT'S SEARED INTO MY BRAIN More cage imagery

[watercolor-ribcage]

Are you up to answering all the pink questions?

Absolutely sweetheart~

Champagne pink - If you became famous, what would you want your fans to love most about you? That I am likely one of them. A fan, I mean, not of myself but I am the biggest fanboy. Pink lace - If you could ask one yes or no question and get a truthful answer, what would it be? Is all the pain, really, honestly worth it in the end? Piggy pink - Do you trust your intuition? Has your intuition ever guided you to make good decisions? Oh hell no w I've been taught through experience that its just not for me. At all. I'm sure in the past it really may have but I can't say with what w Pale pink - What’s a smart choice you made recently that you felt good about? Coming back here? Uh, really..I think getting out and being social again will prove to be okay. Baby pink - What advice would you give your 10 year old self? None of it is your fault, don't beat yourself up over it. It's not gonna be okay for a long time but its not your fault. Spanish pink - When was the last time you yelled at someone? Uh, this morning w I yell a fucking lot. Cameo pink - When do you think it is acceptable to lie? When you're protecting someone. or its like a holiday w Orchid pink - What is the biggest dealbreaker for you when it comes to relationships? Cheating! its the worst! Fairy Tale - What is your favourite mythical creature? Dragons. Though just because I haven't seen one doens't mean they're mythical w Cherry blossom pink - If you could pick any celebrity to be your guardian angel, who would it be? Celebrity? Uh. I think I know too many celebrities for my taste w so maybe ill just settle with having an angel w Cotton candy - What was your last dream about? It was about my job, uh the repair business w and the ceiling collapsed. it wasn't a good dream w Carnation pink - Congrats! You get to write direct and star in a film, about whatever you want! What’s the genre and what’s the soundtrack for the opening credits, the action or drama sequences, the climax of the film, and the closing credits? Oh shit w the genre is absolutely romantic, All of the music would be Bon Iver, because its just perfect for all situations. I can't pick which songs go with what, Id be stuck listening to the music all day w and lots of random classical background music. Because everything is better with classical. Tickle me pink - Do you believe in karma? If so, how do you think it manifests, if not, why? I do believe in karma, I think its the world righting its wrongs. Amaranth pink - Type the first 10 words that come to mind. That is anon’s fortune for next week! Bugs, laughter, tea, cerulean blue, blankets, shuffling, coins, white, brushes, shoes. Charm pink - If you were a celebrity, would you read fanfiction about yourself? Who do you think people would ship you with? Oh fuck yeah, I'm interested. I haven't a clue. It would probably be weird w China pink - What is your favourite fairytale or myth? I'm fond of the stories about mermaids to be honest w That they were females that snuck onto boats and were thrown over the edge and drowned. They became mermaids to get back at the men that wronged them. If that's not the ultimate power move, I dont know what is w I love me some man eating mermaids. Mimi Pink - If you could relive any moment in your past, what would it be and would you do anything different? Far too many to put here, I'm afraid. Tango pink - What is your favourite food from your culture? Miso soup! Congo pink - How are things better now than they were yesterday? Oh, yes. New York pink - Is there a book or film that’s your guilty pleasure? I'm never guilty about my pleasures. Queen pink - What advice would you give to yourself 8 years from now? Take more time for yourself and those around you, its not that important to always rely on yourself. There are others to help you, its okay to let go sometimes. Mountbatten pink - If you could get any tattoo, disregarding pain or cost, what would you get? I am covered in tattoos my friend. I want to get more. Mexican pink - What is your favourite lyric from your favourite album? 'no one fucks with my baby.' from Hozier. NFWMB. Barbie pink - If you could make one extravagant purchase for yourself, what would you buy? This one Chrome Hearts ring Ive always wanted. Fandango pink - What is the best lie you’ve ever pulled off? I'm fine. Paradise pink - Is there a subject you could talk for hours about? Write exactly 100 words about it! I could talk about music and art for years upon years. I absolutely love the expression that someone felt enough to put it down on paper. That and writing, though I dont do that as much as I feel I really would like to, its so nice to read.  Especially if they’re love letters or paintings inspired by love, or happiness. Its rare people create while happy, I’m trying to re-teach myself to create through the good times rather than the bad. It’s a hard lesson to learn and to teach, but hopefully Ill find a way. That is all. Brink pink - Did something odd or uncanny happen to you today? Uh. No, not today w French pink - Do you believe in intuition as your brain figuring things out quickly or as the universe guiding you? Brain function. Bright pink - What is your dream outfit/fashion aesthetic? I'm very whatever my job requires of me w I can't afford my aesthetic. Which is like Suits and Rick Owens and Chrome Hearts w I dont know. Persian pink - What quality in people do you gravitate towards? Ease of relatability. Rose Pink - Do you think it’s better to forgive and forget, or do you think holding onto anger is important? I think, it depends. if the person you're upset/angry with is still around, Stay Angry. fix it but stay angry until then. but then let it go. if they're not around, let it go. they clearly have. Ultra pink - How are things better now than they were six months ago? I don't look like I'm on my death bed? w Shocking pink - What pisses you off the most? I'm usually pretty reserved with my anger but I do tend to get pissed off when people threaten other people or things or animals near me. Rose Pompadour - What is your favourite name from your culture’s language? Arisa. She's also my favorite little goblin. I mean sister.

Thank you, good sir! That took me forever! 

[nadziejastar]

NO FEAR: IsaLea is still subtly canon (ill take what I’ll get) and Skuld comes and they become a platonic trio. No Isa/Skuld or Lea/Skuld (writers could try to flip it on us). FEAR: Skuld eats up all the attention in the trio. Isa and Lea’s characterization gets reduced to one dimensional fanboys. Skuld paired up with Isa or Lea. We stick in forced pairing hell and there will be ship wars.

NIGHTMARE: The writers make Skuld and either Isa or Lea get married and have a kid. I don’t think push it THAT far. I dunno if they’ll truly go through with a romantic pairing. But I’m gonna lose hope and interest if they do. 

Sora: Kairi, I’ll keep you safe.

Kairi: Let me keep you safe.

Well, if you ask me, Lea and Isa were already reduced to one-dimensional fanboys in KH3. Lea was more of a one-dimensional fanboy for different characters, though. And in future games, he’ll probably continue to be portrayed that way. I’ve already lost interest. The only hope I have left is the sick humor I’ll get watching all the characters get destroyed. Lea and Kairi’s role in the final battle was supposed to be saving Isa from Xehanort’s control. But since that idea was thrown in the trash, they had no real reason to be there anymore. Thus, they became totally irrelevant to the plot. Roxas conveniently arrived just in time to take Lea’s place, while Xion arrived to take Kairi’s place.

Saïx: You’re the fire that feeds Sora’s anger.

Kairi: No… Sora’s in danger because of me…

Kairi wanted to prove herself during her training. She wanted to keep Sora and the others safe for a change. And she does! She becomes a real hero instead of a damsel-in-distress. Psyche! She actually regresses to be an even MORE useless damsel than ever before! 

Her new friend Axel doesn’t even react when she’s kidnapped. Kairi, who? Who cares about her? Roxas Stu and Xion Sue are here! Time for a big snuggly hug! But wait. Now there’s more Guardians of Light than necessary. Kairi is superfluous. How can we make her important? Well, I guess she can motivate Sora again? A-hyuk! How does her fight with Saïx go? Exactly like it did before she could wield a Keyblade, of course! She is simply the fire to fuel Sora’s anger…again.

Kairi: I’m training to become a Keyblade wielder like you. That’s right. No more waiting for you to come back from your adventures.

It’s okay. She still has a happy ending! While everyone else celebrates, she gets to imagine Sora is with her while crying to herself. Sure, everyone starts to worry as she’s hallucinating. But it’s okay. Sora will be back. 

Donald: Kairi, you were great!

Kairi: Oh?

Sora: You are different, Kairi, but I’m just glad you’re here!

Kairi: You and Riku never came home, so I came looking for you.

Any minute now. She’ll just wait right here for him to come back.

Lea: Ah, I’ll catch up with ya in no time flat.

Sora: What? You wanna be a Keyblade Master?

Lea: Yeah. I mean, I came here to learn how to wield one.

Lea wanted to prove himself as a Keyblade wielder as well. He put himself at risk using the D.T.D just to find Mickey. All so he could become a wielder and find Isa. He believes that inside people’s memories, he can live forever. He spends the whole game training with Kairi in preparation for the final battle. Yeah…Lea was a pretty cool character. 

Xigbar: Axel!

Lea: Axel? Please. The name’s Lea. Got it memorized?

Xigbar: You’re not supposed to be here!

Xigbar was right. Lea, you aren’t supposed to be here.

Axel: You kidding? Do you know how popular I am? I got loads of people rootin’ for me. Sorry, boss. No one axes Axel. Got it memorized?

That’s better.

Sora & Riku: YOU!?

Lea: Hey, thanks for the vote of confidence. You know, I was gonna come swooping in, Keyblade in hand! But I just couldn’t get mine to materialize. Must be in the snap of the wrist or something.

For some reason, Lea stopped caring about Isa, and his sole purpose in life became…Roxas…again. A character who he has…no ability to bring back, actually. Not even with his snazzy new Keyblade. So, what now? How can he still be useful?

Lea: You had your perfect little script, but you kinda forgot to write the sequel. Now, let’s find out what happens!

Few people realize that Lea—excuse me, AXEL— was breaking the fourth wall all the way back in KH3D. He knew exactly what would happen!And instead of braving the darkness, rescuing his friend, and becoming a hero…Axel gets benched. Literally. He gets to watch from the bleacher seats.

Lea: Promises to keep. I’ll always be there to get my friends back. What, bad timing? 

Well, whaddaya know? It turns out that getting his ass handed to him was just the magic spark Roxas Stu needed to magically arrive and save the day. Axel fanboys over Roxas Stu’s sheer awesomeness! Roxas Stu smiles at Axel with a cool expression. Roxas Stu is back, so Axel has served his purpose. He tells Axel that his five minutes are up now. It’s HIS turn.

Xemnas: Ah, ever the rogue pawn. Knocked from the board early in the game. Utterly useless and forgotten.

Whoa, Xemnas can break the fourth wall, too? He sure called it ahead of time. But it’s okay. He is more than happy about it. He compliments Roxas Stu and Xion Sue for their amazing prowess with the Keyblade! Those two are old pros, unlike him, after all! A-hyuck!

Saïx: Do you know what happens to those who lose their true purpose? Inevitably, they destroy themselves.

This picture is a fairly decent representation of KH3′s Isa. He’s on his knees, alone, being looked down on by everyone. Lea is disgusted with him. He’s lost all sense of purpose…in the story, that is. If you think about Isa’s canon story, he and Lea try to rescue a girl that they barely know, and are not sure even exists. They become apprentices just for her, then get turned into Nobodies. They devote their lives to finding information about this girl, and they conspire to make Saïx Xemnas’ right-hand man. Saïx is so obsessed with this random girl, he drifts apart from Axel and becomes…a sociopath. Yep, that’s all folks. You were expecting a tragic backstory? Nope! There’s no intriguing human experiment plot! Just girl drama.

Maleficent: You see? It’s just as I told you. While you toiled away trying to find your dear friend, he quite simply replaced you with some new companions. Evidently, now he values them far more than he does you. You’re better off without that wretched boy. Now, think no more of him and come with me. I’ll help you find what you’re searching for…

Roxas Stu and Xion Sue observe with pity as Axel’s OLD best friend gets put in his place. As his NEW best friends, they are rewarded with brand-new DLC packs…starring them, of course. They were always special after all. The only Keyblade users in Days. But it wasn’t enough for them to simply steal Axel and Kairi’s first and only fight as wielders. Now they need MORE screen time so we can bask in their glory.

Axel: You let them reduce you to this?

Axel does break the fourth wall a lot in KH3. Well, he was actually doing it here, too. He’s not referring to Organization XIII when he asks this—he was talking about Square Enix and Disney. He’s asking Isa how he let himself get turned into such a pathetic character. And the answer is simple: Axel went off and made other friends. More POPULAR friends. So he got left in the dust. From a narrative standpoint, that’s exactly what happened.

Riku: Take care of her.

Somewhere along the way, Saïx became part-Xehanort. The implication in KH3 was that he willingly became a vessel, since he wasn’t being controlled like Terra was, and Lea was disgusted at how he let himself get reduced to his state. So, he basically sacrificed his humanity JUST to find this random girl. Totally believable actions from a complex and multi-dimensional character, right? Then he became obsessed with power…or something? Meanwhile, Axel makes other friends. Saïx gets jealous and becomes a giant asshole, and now he has to redeem himself by getting replicas for Lea’s NEW bestest friends. 

He then quietly fades away in the background, out of shame. It’s an utterly sad and pathetic story, really. One more fitting for a tragic villain than someone on the side of the good guys. I can’t decide which would be worse. Isa and Skuld actually getting together, and rewarding this horrible characterization…or Isa continuing to degrade himself for her while his feelings go unrequited. I remember how much I despised Riku’s character arc in KH1, and how pissed off I was during his ending scene. I was SO grateful that the future games stepped away from shit like this. But now, it’s back, I guess.

Roxas: You’re me, so you can feel what I felt.

Sora: No. Roxas, you’re you. We’re not the same. I wanted to tell you that. That you deserve as much as I do to be your own person.

Personally I doubt that Isa and Skuld will actually become a couple. I think Isa’s fate is to be the same as the Riku Replica. Naminé brainwashed him, and implanted false memories inside of him to make him think he was in love with her. He became obsessed with a phantom girl to the point where he wanted to kill his childhood friend, Sora. He finds out the truth about how their relationship was a fraud and never existed in the first place. Then he dies.

Then comes back! But…he sacrifices his only chance at having his own life. Like Isa, he did it “all for her”. In a narrative sense, he was sacrificed as a pawn in order to bring back Naminé. She needs the replica more (ie. is more popular) than him. And nobody needs him, since the REAL Riku is already around anyways. A faithful replica until the very end. Isa served the same purpose in KH3. His arc was sacrificed in order to concoct an excuse to bring Roxas and Xion back, and also to put the spotlight on Skuld from now on.

Riku Replica: So…it’s over. Hmph. Death doesn’t frighten me. Good riddance to a phony life. My heart was never real. I’m sure even what I’m feeling now is probably all fake.

Riku: What are you feeling?

Riku Replica: What happens when a fake dies—one like me? Where will my heart go? Does it disappear?

Riku: It’ll go somewhere. Maybe to the same place as mine.

Riku Replica: Tsk. A faithful replica until the very end. That’s…okay.

Riku Replica had a MUCH more dignified death in CoM. He rejected the fake memories he had. He resented the fact that he was a fake replica. He didn’t have to go to the Dark Realm or the afterlife. He was always a part of Riku. So ultimately, he went back to him. They had the same heart—they were the same person. I thought that was a fitting end, and his final words were quite compelling actually. KH3 plays up the fact that replicas are totally unique individuals, yet treats Riku Replica as being even more disposable than before. But it’s okay. He’s happy about it. A-hyuk!

[lovemesomesurveys]

What is your party trick? I don’t have any. What are you listening to currently? An ASMR video. Do you ever talk to yourself? I call it thinking out loud, but yeah. It helps sort out my thoughts and get a clearer picture. My brain is a jumbled mess.  Do you still have any old clothes that you used to wear when you were a kid? No. Do you prefer bright or muted colours? Muted. Can you roll your tongue? Nope.

Are you a light weight when it comes to alcohol? Yeah I was. Which accents can you emulate pretty well? None. How loud do you listen to music? Uhh I don’t know. Loud enough. Which song has the biggest play count on your computer? (How many plays?) I use Spotify on my phone to listen to music. Do people ever tell you to just loosen up? Yes. Or “chill out” and “calm down.” I actually really hate being told those things. Do you act like it’s the end of the world even if you’re just slightly ill? No. I have dealt with health issues all my life and just not feeling well a lot of the time. I feel really shitty a lot of the time. What was the longest time you’ve had the hiccups for? I’m not sure, but it feels like forever when I have them because they’re so annoying. Do you think you’re good at giving advice? I used to be the one people would come to for advice, but definitely not anymore. Are you more awkward talking to people in real life or online? In real life, definitely. I mean, I’m still awkward online, but at least I have time to think about what I want to say first. What’s worse: Ear ache or tooth ache? I’ve only experienced toothaches, and they’re horrible. What type of TV shows are your favourite? I have a few favorites. Do you think you’ll ever manage to do everything you want to? I don’t even know what I want to do. What do you fear most? Losing my loved ones,  never getting better/getting worse, never doing anything with my life... Do you wear shoes around the house? No. Name something you associate with someone / thing you hate. Uhh. Do you bruise easily? Yeah. Have you ever bought pre-ripped jeans? No.  Are you a good driver? If you can’t drive yet, do you think you’ll be good? I feel like I’d be too anxious and just probably shouldn’t drive. What is / was your favourite thing about school? (If anything. :P) I mean, I liked the learning part of it overall and some of the projects/assignments/reading that was of interest to me. High school had its ups and downs. I liked the pep rallies and assemblies that we had. In college I was apart of a psychology club, I served as a board member and it was a lot of fun. We took a lot of cool trips, too. Looking back now I can say there were parts I liked about school, but while going through it I was stressed and overwhelmed and I would get burnt out really easily. Many late nights, many tears. Dealt with big health stuff along the way. My last year of college was a real struggle, I just wanted to quit and be done. I managed to push through and I finished, but yeah it was rough. Funny that I can look back now a few years later and say there were parts that I liked haha. Oh, and there’s also the fact that at least I was doing something with my life and I felt productive at the time.  What are you most likely to spend money on? Clothes, particularly graphic Ts. Have you ever been a complete fangirl / fanboy over anything? Yep I’ve been like that since middle school. What’s the weirdest way you’ve ever heard somebody die of? Uhh. Do your nails need cut? Ha, no. I take care of that on the daily. They’re barely there. When was the last time you (dis)liked someone without really knowing them? Hmm.

Are there any movies coming out that you really want to see? It Chapter 2 was the most recent one I was excited about. I want to see it again! I don’t think there’s anything else that I’m really excited about until Rise of Skywalker in December. Do you think you’ll ever get married? No. How did you get one of your scars? Okay let’s go over all the scars I have doesn’t that sound fun? lol. I have a lot of scars, most of which are from surgeries, like the one down half my stomach and one all down my back. Some on my left side where they had to take some of my rib to use for something else. My left thigh has a few from past pressure sores and a big one from a surgical procedure called a “flap.” I have a few from spilling something hot on myself or placing a hot plate/hot cup on my lap/between my legs (I’m a paraplegic and I’ve done stuff like that in the past without thinking). The coffee incident was recent-ish, too. :/ I have a few little ones on my arms and hands from IV insertions, one on one of my right knuckles from burning myself with a straightener. I have a tiny scar on my nose from chicken pox. I have a little round one above both eyebrows from having to wear this thing called a “halo” after one of my spinal surgeries. My left leg has a lead mark from a pencil mark as a kid. My left knee has a round one on each side from a stint or something I had to have in my leg after a surgery. I’m sure there’s more I’m forgetting.  When was the last time you wore a mask? What did it look like? I’ve worn one for years.  What was the last thing you took a photograph of? My doggo. In childhood, were most of your friends male or female? Female. Have you ever been to a protest? No. Do you hate how, when the public like a celebrity, they overpublicise them? Eh. I admit to being into the celebrity and entertainment world stuff. If it’s a celebrity I don’t really like then yeah it’s annoying. haha. Are you afraid of the dark? I sleep with my TV on for some light and sound because of that. I can’t have it completely dark or silent. What time do you usually eat dinner at? 8ish. Where did you last stay overnight other than your house? A hotel. How often is your computer on mute? I don’t watch a lot of videos on my laptop, so I guess most of the time.  Do you name inanimate objects? Which ones? I have. Are you jealous of loved up couples when you’re single? I think people tend to confuse jealousy and envy. Anyway, I may feel a bit envious sometimes and I think that I’ll never experience that, but for now it’s best that I’m single. It works for me for now. What was your last dream about? Random shit as usual. If you have an iPod, what did you call it when you registered it? I probably called it Steph’s iPod or something. I haven’t used my iPod in yearssss. What do you do when you’re stressed out? Shut down? When was the last time you sneezed? I don’t remember. What comes up on your recommended list on YouTube? ASMR videos mostly. The shoes you wore today: What do they look like? I haven’t worn any today.

[wannawrite]

bite

who?: Wanna One’s Lai Guanlin 

genre: 🌸 

type: scenario 

word count: 2.9K

TW: blood the ‘W1’ clan 

BJY | HMH 

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vamp! AU 

Guanlin was dead even before you met him but maybe you brought him to life 

resurrecting this series so yAY! long after Halloween but I wrote this before Halloween and it’s still Autumn so…..technically…. thank you for requesting this anon! 💖

- Admin L

“Are you sure you really, REALLY, can’t come? Please?” You begged, perching on the edge of your best friend’s bed, all dressed up in your Halloween costume. It was unusual for you to be so adamant about something, especially when it compromised on your friends’ health. Your actions sickened you to your stomach but the desperation was overpowering it. Yoo Seonho brushed his ruffed up hair out of his eyes, he was wrapped up in about twenty blankets yet he was still shivering - the fever was really eating him alive. His tired eyes met your own and you knew your answer. “I’m sorry Y/N. I’ll have to miss,” he croaked, throat sore from all the coughing. You nodded understandingly, sighing at your own stupidity. Seonho was already so sick yet you were being so insistent. The guilt washed over you like the way models washed their faces in facial cleansing commercials. “I’m sorry,” you apologised with sincerity. “I shouldn’t have pressured you so much.” Luckily, your best friend was a kind and forgiving type of guy. He brushed it off with a wave of his weak arm while muttering, “I know I know. You must feel outcasted now. I’m sorry about that. Never worry, my sickness will clear in a few days.” “How did you even get sick? I thought the supernatural never succumb to ‘minor illnesses you mortals suffer from’?” You teased, clasping his hand and running your thumb over it calmingly. Seonho was a vampire. A young vampire to be more specific. He was part of the 101, and a vampire who held a high rank and command despite being a juvenile - it scared some elders at times, really. Growing up with him, you had no qualms hanging out with a supernatural. In fact, you enjoyed basking in his presence more than some other humans. He kept you safe, cared for you and always made you feel warm. There were bound to be times when his powers were much more prominent. Like when a couple of families went on a ‘neighbourhood trip’ to the beach and he was the only kid sweating in his hoodie. At the time, he was too young to take potions of any sort, unlike his family who blended in like any other mortal. Regardless, you loved your best friend to death and beyond. Back to the present, you glanced at the clock and groaned when it read 6.26pm, it was nearly time for you to go. “Hey,” Seonho said, forcing a smile and showing off his gleaming fangs. “I guess some of us vampires do get affected but I’m sure this is something more -“ he paused to let out coughs. You quickly brought a glass of warm water sitting on his bedside table to his lips. “Thanks. Don’t worry bestie, I’ll be fine but I have to miss W1’s party, I’m sorry. You go have fun, okay? I’ll make sure my hyungs take good care of you.” Inhaling deeply, you let go of Seonho’s hand and stepped away from his bed. “Oh! By the way, I left your care pack over here.” You gestured to the bag that was packed with a pot of homemade soup, a bunch of cute sticky-notes which you hand wrote cute messages and you could never forget the packs of plasma juice in there. You did attempt to head to The Middleman - a popular blood bank among 101 members - but it was just too nauseating for a mere human, even if you grew up surrounded by vampires. Your ears picked up the sounds of the doorbell and the voice of a few people, mellow and low. “I’ll see you soon, Y/N. That must be Kenta hyung and Sanggyun hyung. My chick costume can wait another year,” Seonho whispered before his eyes fluttered shut. “Rest well. I’ll be back.” 

Takada Kenta and Kim Sanggyun seemed to be cheerful, lively friends of Seonho. You learned were in a subunit of 101 called JBJ, comprising of six members, the seventh was in discussion. “So, Y/N, what’s your costume for tonight?” Sanggyun asked, giving you a once over. He seemed to be dressed as…well, a stereotypical vampire, the kind you would see in movies Completed with a necktie and even dyed hair, your look for the night was inspired by BTS’ V from ‘Boy In Luv’. It was not the most obvious look though. Donghan scoffed teasingly. “Can’t you see. I’m sure it’s BTS Boy In Luv music video concept kind of thing,” he said, fanboy instincts kicking in. Donghan seemed to be rocking a half-face themed costume, there was a part of his face made up to look like muscular tissues. Hyunbin, who was seated in the front seat of the car looked up from his phone sulkily. “Donghan stole my costume idea.” “Yeah, you’re dressed as Joker and Taehyun hyung is Batman, be grateful. Uh, Yongguk is…a cat,” Kenta spoke up. “I guess I’m back to Teentop’s fanboy.” Kim Yongguk rearranged his cat ears hairband, frowning slightly. “Hyung, you never changed.” “Yah, guys, did you hear? Lai Guanlin flew in from Taiwan just for this party. I’m excited to see him again,” Noh Taehyun mentioned, turning the car around a corner and stopping outside a huge house. Correction: a mansion. 101 headquarters were no joke, you gaped in awe of the building that was filling up with guests and bursting with life. “Wanna One, the highest ranked members and pretty much the ones that get our shit together live here,” Hyunbin stated, sipping from a box of plasma fruit juice. “Take care of Y/N, guys. We need to look out for them.” “Lai Guanlin’s back, I’m sure everyone must be rejoicing. I need to get my Supreme hoodie back from him,” Sanggyun piped up, tossing his plasma juice box into the trash can as the seven of you stepped into the driveway. Lai Guanlin? “Oh! Y/N, Guanlin performed Boy In Luv at his high school showcase in Taiwan. He would know your costume for sure.” Yongguk led the way to the main door, pushing it open. You gulped, feeling the beads of sweat already starting to form in eagerness to meet whoever your new friends were talking about, partially the anxiety of entering your first Halloween party without Seonho. 

Lai Guanlin was not someone to blend into the crowd and his own party was no exception. He stuck out from the sea of faces like a model, like a handsome prince among common folk. He was the youngest of the Wanna One clique, however, he was definitely not one you would want to overlook. Guanlin looked menacing, eyes burning with flames deep within but in reality, he was probably one of the nicest vampires to ever live. Also one of the most powerful. It radiated from him, he was surrounded by an aura that made you want to hang your head, it was just too domineering. You tried to smile as you greeted him, just like the JBJ vamps, but they were his friends and you were a complete stranger. Better still, there was no vampire genetics coursing through your veins. Great, you thought anxiously. I stick out like a sore thumb. “Guanlin, please introduce yourself to new guests too,” Jisung instructed in a caring, motherly tone. His costume looked like an official Superman outfit he probably spent an arm and leg on. Guanlin held out a hand for you to shake, showing off his polished fangs and blood-red lips. “Hello, I’m Guanlin.” The deepness of his raspy voice sent shivers down your spine. Despite how scary he seemed, the fire that lined his eyes was one that only aimed to provide warmth on a cold day. You wanted to hold onto his soft palms forever even if they read a temperature much lower than your own - though, you had gotten used to the colder skin after the many years of clinging onto Seonho - and even if his longer, sharper nails did dig into your thin skin a little. Speaking of thin skin, Guanlin’s heightened sense of smell plucked out your scent from the hundreds of different fragrances, meaning he could also identify the sweet blood of yours. It was a real pain to prevent his eyes from glowing lucid red. “Here,” Jihoon hissed, slipping him a packet of plasma fruit. “Control yourself.” Guanlin nodded, although it was hard to take his hyung seriously when Jihoon was dressed in a pink sausage costume. He was the one who decided the duo needed to take their friendship to the next level. Guanlin was unsure as to whether Woojin and Jihoon were strengthening their bond or tearing it apart. “We’ll see you guys around. I think I see Jonghyun hyung over there.” Hyunbin started in the direction of the older boy whom he was very fond of. The rest of his friends began to head the same way, spotting some of their friends. “Hey V,” Guanlin called out just before you followed your group. “I like your costume.” His lips curved into a smirk as he brought the straw of the juice box closer to them. They seemed plush and velvety, almost beckoning for you to kiss them. But under it’s welcoming exterior disguised a set of lethal fangs you knew you needed to watch out for. 

Illuminated jack-o-lanterns lined the edge of the deserted balcony in a more quiet area of the Wanna One mansion. Chirps of crickets filled the silence, it sounded like a melody to you, to keep you in check, to make sure you were not drunk on soda. The whole evening, you had felt like extra baggage accompanying the boys, like an unneeded third-wheel. You introduced yourself to a handful of their friends but it was awkward being one of the only humans in that space. A human with few supernatural connections, unlike the rest. Sure, Kim Chungha and Choi Yoojung did their best to make you feel more welcomed but the fish out of the water feeling stuck to you like glue. So, finding the most believable excuse you could muster, you slipped off to the balcony to enjoy the night view peacefully, sipping ‘eyeball punch’ from your solo cup. Guess tonight really is a solo night. It’s so different without Seonho around. I hope he’s feeling better. Seonho was not the only person who plagued your mind in that moment, a Wanna One vampire by the name of Guanlin also occupied a significant amount of your thoughts. He was just so handsome, so charming, so intriguing. You desired to learn more about the mysterious vampire yet you were too afraid. Oh goodness, cue eye roll at your ridiculous thoughts. You were just sharing drinks with I.O.I vampires and you’re worried about others? Get yourself together, they’re all the same, no one can harm you. Autumn winds brushed by your sensitive skin, the cold cutting through even the fabric of your long sleeved button down. Yes, you were shuddering slightly but it was not enough to blow you back to the party scene. “The moon’s out tonight.” whatagoodconversationstarter A husky voice muttered, it’s owner moving to stand beside you, pressing his hands on the railings. Your heart began to beat faster, pumping more blood around your circulatory system - probably a bad idea around supernatural creatures. However, Guanlin was more in control than you thought, he had an array of powers mastered. “Um, yeah. It is,” your reply was barely audible to human ears but Guanlin heard your words crystal clear.  [ stan CLC you will never regret ] “You’re friends with Yoo Seonho, aren’t you?” He shifted in his spot, still looking up to the pitch black night sky. “Yeah, best friends.” You fought hard to keep your cool, ignoring the redness that filtered to your face and the irregular thumping of your heart. Guanlin let out a chuckle, bringing his cup to his lips for a sip of whatever his choice drink was. “Ahh, his heart is like a reed but we have a blood brother bond.” A smile appeared on your face just thinking about Seonho’s hobby of collecting hyungs. “I heard he’s targeting Hwang Minhyun now. He clings to me in school but right after, I know he’s bugging Minhyun,” you tell Guanlin and the two of you have a good laugh over it. After, a comforting silence fills the gap between both your figures. “Here,” Guanlin says as he shrugs off his suit jacket and drapes it over your shoulders. When you meet his eyes, mouth agape, he flushes pink. “I uh, noticed you were shivering quite a bit.” It was true. You could not tell if your face was coloured from the cold or if it was just you acting up around him. “No! Wouldn’t you be freezing?” You blurt out without giving it much thought. Your words elicit an amused laugh from the supernaturally handsome boy. “You’re so cute you know.” Ah yes, my embarrassment must be pretty freaking adorable. “Don’t worry about me. I thrive in the cold, it’s fine,” Guanlin assured, taking a step closer to you. “What’s your costume anyway?” His outfit was one that posed difficulty to decipher. It looked like he lived in suits, he should, he carried them well. “I’m dressed as Wooseok hyung from Pentagon,” he declared proudly, beaming like a true fanboy. “Why are you out here? The party is downstairs.” “Needed some air. It isn’t easy being one of the few without supernatural traits down there,” you revealed the simple reason. “Oh.” He took a step away from you, exhaling sharply while squeezing his eyes shut. “Sorry then.” “No! I-It’s fine! I’m okay!” You added urgently, a dreadful feeling bubbling in the pit of your stomach. “That’s not what I meant! I-I-“ To your surprise, the vampire just laughed and slipped closer, elbows nearly brushing. “I know, I know. It isn’t easy being around us but if you can put up with Seonho, I’m sure you can deal with me,” he joked, pointing out Seonho’s unquenchable thirst. “Oh come on, give him a break he’s just a child. But, he does finish an entire carton comprising of 24 boxes of plasma fruit juice whenever I’m around.” It was fun teasing your best friend with his blood bonded brother when he was absent. You just prayed he would not find out. Guanlin nearly doubled over in laughter, it was clearly his first time of hearing the extent of Seonho’s habits, they probably came as a shock as one box of plasma fruit juice was enough to keep a vampire full for at least a few hours “I don’t blame him though,” he mused, almost cautiously. You reached to tuck a stray lock of your hair behind your ear, exposing more of your prominent collarbones - again, probably a terrible idea in front of a creature that feasted on the substance flowing under your paper-thin skin. You did not realise Guanlin’s eyes starting to tint red, how he gripped the railing until his knuckles paled, or how he swallowed hard and tried not to allow his gaze to linger on your neck. He cleared his throat and took another swig of his drink. To him, you were a gift delivered right to his doorstep, especially with his jacket on you. You were sweet, funny and accepting, he was really drawn to you, as a person and not just because you had something he depended on for survival. Guanlin’s tongue swiped over his bottom lip, he was sick of plasma fruit juice but he would never drink from his friends. Besides, he liked the colour coordinated straws that blood bags from The Middleman came with. “Oh? Why don’t you?” Your honey-coated voice drew him out of whatever trance he was in. He hummed in response, changing his posture to lean his back against the railing such that your eyes had to lock. The vivid supernatural glow that bore into your eyes caused your breath to catch in your throat. “Because, sweetheart.” Every syllable that fell from his lips made butterflies roar to life inside of you. Sweetheart - such a loving term - was no exception. Additionally, there was no escaping his alluring scrutiny, redness underlying his orbs but you knew he had himself in check. “You,” he paused to draw closer, such that only your ears could hear his whispers. “are absolutely delicious.” With a smug smile tugging at his lips, Guanlin spun away, raising his glass for a toast before slipping back into the room. You were stunned that he left you so abruptly and so flustered, the feeling of his mouth pressed to your earlobes still very fresh. His pointy fangs hardly caressed them but they were very real, and very close to you indeed. It annoyed you that Guanlin had just disappeared like that but unbeknownst to you, if he stayed just a couple of seconds longer, you would have become his next snack. After that ‘incident’, that particular Pentagon fan was on your mind. You also really had to return his suit jacket, the material most likely cost your entire life savings. He wouldn’t have really bit me? Would he? Thoughts like those raced through your mind as you scoured the mansion for Guanlin. There was no way you were leaving the party without knowing if he would. You figured like any other vampire, instinct would probably overpower them and they would dip their fingers to have a taste, a nibble. Rumour has it that he has a lethal pair of fangs, one of the keenest. What if he actually did feed on me? Would it sting like hell? No worries though, if it was you, Guanlin would not hesitate if he got consent. He would bite, but for you, very gently, painless like a minuscule needle prick.

[jestbee]

June 30: Ships that pass in the night (Chapter Ten)

[teamnouis]

leonie @pinkislouder and amber @loveloveolivia tagged me to do this, i’m also in a mood for oversharing so here we go

Rules: Once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to tag!

THE LAST… 1. Drink: water

2. Phone call: my boy, he’s a tour de france fanboy and told me everything that happened today 

3. Text message: i texted a friend abt a wedding present we organize

4. Song you listened to: i haven’t listened to music since i drove to work this morning and spotify says my last played song is wincent weiss - mittendrin

5. Time you cried: on saturday cause my anxiety made it impossible to go out for dinner with my mum and i felt so guilty for ruining her evening (i didn’t, but that’s how i felt that night)

HAVE YOU EVER… 6. Dated someone twice: no

7. Been cheated on: idk, kind of? 

8. Kissed someone and regretted it: yes

9. Lost someone special: yes

10. Been depressed: no

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: yes

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS:

12. rosé

13. white (it’s a colour, fight me)

14. the softest blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… 

15. Made new friends: yes

16. Fallen out of love:  no (not to be sappy but) i fall more in love every single day

17. Laughed until you cried: yes

18. Found out someone was talking about you: yeah

19. Met someone who changed you: yes, definitely. there are a lot of people i met who taught me that the most important thing in life is to love and accept myself the way i am and even though i’m still not at this point, i’m learning and working every day to get there one day and i’m forever thankful 

20. Found out who your true friends are: yes

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: i mean, yes 

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: the majority, like 95%?

23. Do you have any pets: no, sadly not. i’d love a dog and i’m thinking abt it every day of my life, but at the moment it wouldn’t be right and fair as i wouldn’t have as much time as the little doggo deserves 

24. Do you want to change your name: no

25. What did you do for your last birthday: it was super chilled, celebrated it at home with my family (that’s easily 25+ ppl) and good food, football and drinks

26. What time did you wake up: 4:45 am 

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: snoring, probably 28. Name something you cannot wait for: for j and me to move in together

29. When was the last time you saw your mother: like five minutes ago

30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: even though i do like my job, if i could change one thing i’d change my career and open my own café.. i don’t think i’ll ever be brave enough to do it

31. What are you listening to right now: a blast from the past: fritz & paul kalkbrenner - sky & sand 

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nope

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: that i’m so damn low on energy 

34. Most visited website: tumblr and youtube

35. Elementary: yeah? good

36. High School: most of the time it was good and a lot fun 

37. College/university: probably the best time of my life so far 38. Hair colour: a dark blonde 

39. Long or short hair: long

40. Do you have a crush on someone: yes, i’m always crushing on j 

41. What do you like about yourself: u know what i don’t like abt myself? that every time this question comes i have to think so hard and can’t think of anything or feel like i shouldn’t be saying this abt myself and then get mad. dshifsfl.. anyway.. someone else has to answer this for me

42. Piercings: no

43. Blood type: absolutely no idea

44. Nickname: thery, resi 

45. Relationship status: in a relationship

46. Zodiac sign: pisces

47. Pronouns: she/her

48. Favourite TV show: gilmore girls, scrubs, gossip girl, modern family, new girl, grey’s anatomy, pretty little liars (fuck them, tbh)

49. Tattoos: nope 50. Right or left hand: right

FIRST… 51. Surgery: i fell off a horse and broke my arm, it was traumatic

52. Piercing: my ears

54. Sport: football was the first i did and the only sport i did for a longer time.. but i’ve tried basically everything as a kid, from athletics to swimming and horse riding and golf and everything else you can think of

55. Vacation: i think it was mallorca or tenerife, my mum nearly lost me on the beach 

56. Pair of trainers: i have absolutely no idea, probably one of those buffalo monsters

57. Eating: fruit

58. Drinking: water

59. I’m about to: watch modern family

60. Listening to: it’s still sky & sand 

61. Waiting for: idk.. that i finally get my ass up and work for the shit i want to achieve and cry over?

62. Want: to cuddle j and meet the little mix squad again and all the people i haven’t met yet?

63. Get married: yeah, definitely

64. Career: i work in human resources at a charity for mentally ill people

YOUR TYPE… 65. Hugs or kisses: bruhhhh... i love kissing, but also. hugging makes me feel so safe, so i’d say hugs

66. Lips or eyes: eyes

67. Shorter or taller: i do not care

68. Older or younger: i don’t know, older?

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: i have never thought abt this and i have no idea what to answer cause it doesn’t matter to me 

71. Sensitive or loud:  a good mixture of both

72. Hook up or relationship: relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: a good mixture of both again, sorry i’m boring 

HAVE YOU EVER… 74. Kissed a stranger?: yes

75. Drank hard liquor?: yes

76. Lost glasses contact/lenses: no, just sunglasses

77. Turned someone down: yes

78. Sex on first date: not sex

79. Broken someone’s heart: i actually don’t think so

80. Had your heart broken: yes

81. Been arrested: i mean.. nearly, twice?

82. Cried when someone died: yes

83. Fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… 84. Yourself: i’m working on it lads

85. Miracles: actually, yes

86. Love at first sight: no

87. Santa Claus: yes, just because i want to

88. Kiss on the first date: yes

89. Angels: yes again, because i want to

OTHER… 90. Current best friend’s name: i don’t have one particular best friend

91. Eye colour: green/brown

92. Favourite movie: i’m not a movie person really, so it’s gotta be harry potter. every now and then i go to the cinema and really enjoy the movies but it’s not like i’d call them my favourite movie? u know..

alright, there we go, if anyone has actually read every single thing congratulations i’m v sorry. also 25 people are a lot to tag so i’m not gonna do that:

@wereamanbandnow, @fuckinghatekissingyou, @floralfeast, @florelikeaflower, @reinventlou, @justlookatthehearteyes, @kingsbesideyou, @iamnotbeingsarcastic, @harrysgaytour

i don’t know who’s been tagged already so just ignore this if you did it already, and no pressure as always. love u. <3 

[toomanyskeletons]

long post i am so fuckin sorry lmao

alright mdude so like. i guess i'll talk about the plot of My Thing or whatever so as you may or may not know the current universe timeline i'm in rn is called the spectraverse 3b oH i actually thought of something i kinda want to talk about now i actually have no fuckin clue where the plot was before the 3- oh fuck wait i'll get to that so, HONESTLY, the whole third universe was started when i started reading this demonstuck fanfiction? it was Good Shit and i was Inspired by these two fanfictions which i can barely remember the names of (but i know the tumblr url of one fanfic's author. i am NOT going to tag them that is too embarassing and i dont want to seem like a loser fanboy) so like, universe 3 has got this whole demons and angel thing going on in 3a it was a sort of demons vs angels vs hunters thing with some awkward reluctant friendships going on OH i should also add that after the universe was created i started watching supernatural so some parts of it were inspired by that but ngl it was like formed of 90% homestuck fanfic ideas anyway in this one it was about this angel guy who sold his soul to get rid of his dysphoria. basically it's wish fulfilment? like. i wish /i/ could sell my soul and get a dick one of the reasons this universe ended/i stopped it was because i couldnt fucking project my dysphoria onto the MC and like. sometimes i NEED to do that so i at least have SOMEONE to relate to anyway. this guy sells his soul, gets a dick, and then lucifer becomes his legal guardian. so like. in this universe lucifer is just this really chill genderfluid person (fuck you it's my writing) and has been living in the human world for a pretty fuckin long time. on the other hand the mc (his name's taylor) has not and he is Confused As Hell About Many Things. and also he's like 15 at this stage so lucifer's like. "fuck it. you're MY son now" and then that's a thing for like. another seven or so years until taylor gets a boyfriend and moves out that whole part there is actually told in backstory, tho. the main part of the story starts when taylor's not-yet-boyfriend is moping in a pub and some demons are planning to kill him? so taylor, being the nice friendly loser he is, even though he's a demon (did i mention that?) drags mystic out of the place. and then taylor makes him go home. and then the REAL ACTUAL PLOT starts about a week later when taylor has a run-in with some asshole hunters and gets his magic all fucked up with some spell thing the hunters use called 'seals' which are never even mentioned again in the story god damn it. anyway he's like. sitting slightly out of the way when mystic sees him and after some snarky discussion, mystic, despite being a hunter (did i mention that?), takes him home and helps him out. and then their whole relationship starts off with 'repaying' the other which is basically just a bunch of excuses to keep seeing the other, it's p gay. and also? at this stage taylor hasn't even realised he's gay yet bc he hasnt even fuckin thought about it and then he has a whole fuckin identity crisis and then discovers he IS gay and then he has a few more awkward interactions with mystic and then mystic tells taylor he's bi when they are having a Late Night Bro Hangout at like 2am in the morning and it's got all weird and personal and then they go on an awkward date, and they go on more awkward dates until the dates STOP being awkward and they get confortable with each other then taylor quits his job at the convenience store and helps mystic to hunt demons, because actually taylor is pretty in with the Hell Crowd and he also hunts demons for a living except he doesnt get paid, and also he only hunts the demons which kill humans - killing humans is a Very Bad Thing and it is Illegal in hell now so and then taylor has a run in with some archangels who are looking for lucifer - long story short the archangels are a group of 7 (well actually 8 its a long story) angels who are all pretty weird to the outside world (five of them are mentally ill, two of them are developmentally disabled, there's one guy who is physically disabled as well as having ptsd and adhd and the last guy has basically isolated himself from the other archangels and the rest of society for about 500 years) ANYWAY these archangels are advocates for heaven basically and they want to talk to lucifer because sOMEONE has just stolen the world's most powerful magic book which i will get to in a second. anyway in the process of this taylor gets shot like 3 times and then he is on a case with mystic who is now his boyfriend of like 2 years (time is fake and i dont know how it works) and he hears a song which has mildly creepy lyrics and also the guy who he hears singing sounds familiar. this will be relevant later. MEANWHILE there's this chick called Amelia who is trying to kill lucifer/close the gates of hell forever/blow up the world. so she steals this book called the blair's codex which i may have spoken about before, and also i mentioned a few paragraphs previously. so this book is the most magically powerful book IN EXISTENCE created by the RIGHT HAND PERSON OF GOD THEMSELF. except this person is like. the world's biggest asshole and makes these really weird, strangely specific spells. so to cast this spell, amelia needs to have 5.45 pounds of catnip and a birchwood staff with a lapis lazuli orb blessed in the northernmost point of afarity, which is a place. anyway amelia gets lazy and cant find 5.45 pound of catnip, settles for 5 pounds and a birch staff with a lapiz orb NOT blessed in the northermost part of afarity. anyway she casts the spell sometime and taylor and lucifer are trying to stop hwr and none of it works. nothing works as its supposed to, she doesnt kill lucifer but also they dont stop her. instead she destroys a small part of reality and then they all get sent to purgatory. i'll just skip over that but she has the blair's codex and also taylor and lucifer are there and they end up becoming best friends and then they get out of purgatory ....and that's the first book there's a whole section here which i'm gonna skip because of ~indirect spoilers for my latest book~ which i have to be careful or i will just Give Everything Away for my beta readers so after that taylor and mystic are reunited and they become hunters again and then ONE DAY taylor is LISTENING TO THE RADIO and DISCOVERS that THE GUY HE HEARD SINGING A WEIRD CREEPY SONG IS AN ANGEL. and then he goes to confront the guy and discovers it's his childhood best friend who is called ryan and also he is amelia's half brother. also their dad is an archangel. and BASICALLY that is where i stopped writing 3A and started on 3B with a bunch of shitty short bits in between. so this is getting long af and i should PROBABLY take a break and i know there are things i havent addressed but i might sometime anyway i WILL do another infodump later, here are some possible subjects that you can request: -the plot of universe 3b -the archangels -the archangels in universe 3b -blair's codex -the First Generation, eight gods created by the One God of the universe who is called Spectra, giving the universe its name -Spectra and Blair -other minor characters anyway this was super fun thank you at @bailheart for asking for this and for anyone else i apologise

[ianxfalcon]

“Why is Harley Quinn immune to Johnny Sorrow’s face?” - A nerd rants forever about comics

I know the editor for Justice League vs. Suicide Squad said that anyone who doesn’t understand how Harley could survive looking at Johnny Sorrow’s face is a “n00b”. Just to get it out of the way: firstly, nobody says “n00b” anymore, and secondly, no “you just don’t get it” is not a legitimate defense against criticism, just saying. But hey, maybe it’s true. Maybe I really don’t know what I’m talking about. I haven’t read Harley’s solo series and I haven’t been following the New 52/Rebirth Suicide Squad simply because I don’t really care unless Ostrander is involved. I guess I could be completely wrong, but I don’t think I am.

Warning: this is a long, somewhat rambling post, and it uses the word “insane” a lot.

 So, according to the comic, Harley is immune to Johnny Sorrow’s true face because she’s “insane”. But here’s the thing: Harley is, in fact, not “insane”. Insanity actually has a legal definition, and that definition is that the person is not capable of understanding what is wrong or what is right, or telling reality from delusions or hallucinations. In a legal sense, mental illness and insanity are two different things: you can be mentally ill and still culpable, etc. I would argue that Harley isn’t really mentally ill, either, or at least she doesn’t fit any real life criteria or diagnosis (of course, I’m far from an expert on either mental illness or Harley Quinn, so don’t quote me on this).

 The way Johnny Sorrow works is that his true visage is so alien and horrific that the human brain simply cannot comprehend it and shuts down., at least to my understanding on how it works. With that, I can certainly accept that a person suffering from clinical insanity might be immune to it, since their view on what is real and “normal” is different from most people.

 But Harley, as we’ve established, is not clinically or legally insane. She knows that she’s crazy; she’s aware that her view on the world is slightly skewed. Since she can tell what’s real and what’s not, and what’s normal and not normal, she should not be immune to Johnny Sorrow’s face. Otherwise a lot of people would be.

 She explains that “Once you’ve looked into one abyss, you’ve seen them all.” The “staring into the abyss” thing originates from Nietzsche, and while its meaning is a little more complicated, nowadays it usually refers to a traumatic moment that fundamentally changes the victim. I’m not saying that Harley’s experience with the Joker wasn’t traumatic; it definitely was. But there are plenty of characters in the DCU who’ve stared into the abyss. Are all of them immune to Johnny Sorrow too? Take Obsidian, for example. He did not just stare into the abyss, he practically lived in it for periods of time. His mind was corrupted and swallowed by it. Does that mean he’s immune? What about Batman? (Actually, never mind. I’m sure some writer will at some point have Batman look directly into Johnny Sorrow’s face and survive it, handwaving it with “He’s Batman”, and the fanboys will eat it up.) Hell, what about Johnny Sorrow himself? If what he went through to become what he is now doesn’t qualify as “staring into the abyss”, then nothing does. But he’s not immune, as evidenced by how Wonder Woman defeated him by making him look at his own reflection.

 But maybe you have to have both the abyss thing and the insanity thing down? Well, once again, Harley doesn’t fit those criteria. I mean, even setting aside that DCU’s definition of “insane” seems to be “putting on a silly costume and commit crime” since that’s the only way someone like Killer Moth, who’s really just kind of a weirdo, keeps getting thrown into Arkham. (In fact, if we use real-life definitions, most of the denizens of Arkham do not belong there, including both Harley and the Joker.) There actually are characters in DCU who are legitimately insane. They’re few, but they exist. Take Dr. Polaris, for example, who is in this comic. The Rebirth version of him appears to be slightly less unhinged than the pre-Flashpoint one, but both the narrative and the characters keep referring to him as “insane” (by the way, and I realize it might come off as hypocritical considering this post, maybe stop using that word?) and Green Lanterns establishes that he suffers from both delusions and hallucinations and seems to have a hard time separating what’s real from what’s not. And that’s just in the Rebirth universe. If we get the pre-Flashpoint Polaris into account, he once believed himself to be two different people at the same time, of which one was trying to kill the other, and even in his most lucid moments he was barely functional. Or how about Zoom? He genuinely believes that he’s a good guy who is making the world a better place and exists in a reality all of his own most of the time. And if you think Zoom hasn’t been “staring into the abyss”, you're probably just not aware of his backstory. If having his back snapped by Grodd and getting ripped out of time itself isn’t enough, then being trapped in a time loop and forced to watch your worst memory over and over again certainly is. And what about Two-Face? His mind is completely broken. If being “insane” is a protection against Johnny Sorrow, shouldn’t these people be immune too? I mean, maybe they are and it just never has come up. It’s possible. But that just reinforces my point, honestly.

 I could buy that Harley is immune to Johnny Sorrow not because she’s “insane” but because she has a weird fetish for creepy shit (she used to be in love with the Joker, after all). All I’m saying is that if Harley’ is immune, a lot of other people would be as well, and then the menace of Johnny Sorrow loses a bit of its impact.

 But what do I know? I’m just a “n00b”, after all.

[kokoruu]

tagged by @missmellifluous​ !! procrastinating getting ready for the day zzz

1. Coke or Pepsi: I hate both and if i really had to have a soda i’d prefer sprite or root beer....coke and pepsi taste the same to me

2. Disney or Dreamworks: i guess dreamworks since i just realized i only like about 3 disney movies??

3. Coffee or Tea: Tea is amazing and the best, I’ve loved every tea I’ve tried but im partial to sweet tea in a mason jar

4. Books or Movies: movies are hard for me to pay attention to lol so books

5. Windows or Mac: windows

6. DC or Marvel: i...dont know the difference

7. X-box or Playstation: ive been a sony fanboy forever, i own an xbox but i hate those gd controllers so much

8. Dragon Age or Mass Effect: i like both a lot but i like the characters in the dragon age games more, also im more into fantasy than sci-fi

9. Night Owl or Early Riser: my sleep schedule has gone to shit but i generally like staying up until 4am then sleeping until the afternoon

10. Cards or Chess: i have no idea how to play chess but i can play blackjack, so.

11. Chocolate or Vanilla: i wanna say chocolate but im very picky about it because the wrong kind dries my mouth out, so i usually stick to vanilla

12. Vans or Converse: i have both!! but i have more pairs of chucks so lets go with that one

13. Lavallan, Trevelyan, Cadash, or Adaar:

lavellan im always a slut for elves

14. Fluff or Angst: fluff pls

15. Beach or Forest: if were talking about actually enjoying being there, then beach, but i like forests like...aesthetically more

16. Dogs or Cats: i generally like cats more but every animal is good

17. Clear Skies or Rain: rain unless its raining here because rain in vegas smells like wet dog and its the worst

18. Cooking or Eating Out: i like cooking and hate spending money

19. Spicy Food or Mild: im drinking a glass of tabasco as im typing this

20. Halloween/Samhin or Solistice/Yule/Christmas: halloween is the only holiday i celebrate/care about lol

21. Little too cold or little too hot: i would rather be cold cuz i feel like its easier to heat up than cool down

22. Superpower: u know i havent thought about this much but i guess flying would be neat

23. Animation or Live Action: animation generally

24. Paragon or Renegade: paragon i cant be mean

25. Bath or Showers: showers unless its really hot or really cold and i have time to lounge in a bath

26. Team Cap or Team Ironman: uhhhhhhhhhhhhh sure

27. Fantasy or Sci-Fi: fantasy!!!

28. Fav Quotes: i dont really have any off the top of my head

29. Youtube or Netflix: usually use netflix

30. Harry Potter or Percy Jackson: i like both a lot but i think i like pj a bit more

31. When I Feel Accomplished: being productive in any way lmao

32. Star Wars or Star Trek: i dont have an opinion on either, never watched em, star wars memes are funny tho

33. Paperback Books or Hardback: hard cover but they expensiiiive

34. A world without literature or music: oh man...i guess id rather have books than music but id be super bummed

35. Who was the last person to make me laugh: i dont actually remember?

36. Sour or Sweet Candy: hate candy hate both these flavors 

37. Believe in aliens?: i just dont think its possible with our universe being as big as it is, and thats just the parts we know about, that we’re the only living beings, sentient or not

38. Dawn or Dusk: dawn

39. Piercings or Tattoos: im a baby i have neither lmao

40. Girls? Hot?: i love the way this question is worded lol the rumor come out: does girls is hot? yes.

41. Snow or Fog: me binch let the silent hill fog come kill me

42. Sleep facing the wall or room: i like to sleep with my face smashed into my pillow when possible

43. TRC of AFTG: those sure are some letters

44. Horror or Drama: horror

45. Orcarina of Time or Majora’s Mask: oh no....my childhood favs....i guess id pick mm because i feel like it has more of a sense of..identity than oot? if that makes sense lmao

46. Living in nature or city: fuck trees

47. Any addictions: im addicted to this jar of raw honey i got for 10 dollars im gonna be featured in the upcoming ep of my strange addiction where i just stare at the camera and eat spoonfuls of honey

48. Languages: english, very basic and bad japanese, currently learning spanish

49. What music do I listen too: ill listen to anything thats not some white dude singing about boobs beer and his truck and thats a fact

50. Fav mythical creature: dragonsssss

51. Safe zone:  frozen custard shop down the street, if you clip inside you’re invulnerable to all enemies

52. First fandom: uhh the first thing i ever consumed fancontent for was inuyasha 

53. Cartoons or Adult Shows: i like both but ill watch cartoons more 

54. Current music: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8RhOnTC5yxQ

55. Favorite starter?: bulbasaur, also my fav pokemon #001 baby

56.  What would your witch’s familiar be? im gonna be boring and say a black cat lol

im half asleep anyone who wants to do this can aha