#ill have WEEKENDS again in so happy bro

[greetingsfromuranus]

Man cartoons are making me self depreciating again I need to go draw my own characters for a bit oof

[sunrizef1]

Here We Go

Pairing: Dad!Kylian Mbappe x Mom!Leclerc!Reader

Warnings: Cursing, real Madrid, Fabrizio Romano sneak diss

Authors Note: Technically a part 2 to baby baby but could also be read on its own

Requested: Yes/No

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y/nmbappe

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y/nmbappe weekends 🤍

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user1 I love them

user2 my favorite wag

user3 white hearts = Madrid????

user4 he’s so pretty 😭

user5 where’s the inaugural Charles comment

charles_leclerc he plays piano???

y/nmbappe better than you, probably

charles_leclerc 😒🖕

user6 Ahhh I love kylian dad content 🥹

user7 lmao when are these pictures from???

kylianmbappe 🫶

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user8 she’s his own personal photographer

user9 🤩

arthur_leclerc is this your account or his

y/nmbappe my bad I’m in a happy marriage

arthur_leclerc I accept your apology

user10 y/n can’t catch a break with her brothers lmfao

user11 my favssss

user12 baby nmbappe 🥹🫶

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y/nmbappe

📍Italy

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y/nmbappe summer went away ☀️

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user12 SHES SO PRETTY 😭😭😭😭

user13 she posts kylian so much I forget she’s stunning

user14 I’m sensing a swimsuit-related breakdown from the Leclerc brothers

user15 oh my god it’s the rare post of herself, eating this up 🫶

user17 lmfao, Frankie de jong in the likes??? Ik he’s Barca but come on man 😭

champagnepapi 🤩

charles_leclerc boo 🍅🍅🍅

arthur_leclerc she’s married bro

lorenzotl no 👎

user18 LMAO YALL SEE THE DRAKE COMMENT??? 😭😭😭

user19 the leclerc replies in screaming 🤭

joeyb_9 😮‍💨

charles_leclerc 🫵🐅☠️

arthur_leclerc this is why you don't have a Superbowl

lorenzotl mahomes better

user20 Jesus these poor men 😭

user21 these comments are so entertaining 🤭

kylianmbappe belle fille 🤍

y/nmbappe mon amour 🤍

charles_leclerc anyways, put a shirt on

y/nmbappe im not gonna yell at you since you've been defending my honor under every comment

charles_leclerc you're welcome 🫡

y/nmbappe still not putting a shirt on though

arthur_leclerc 👎

lorenzotl where is your child

y/nmbappe with Charles

lorenzotl oh no

y/nmbappe dw, alex is there too

alexandrasaintmleux baby mbappe is lovely 🥹🫶

charles_leclerc baby leclerc*

user22 😭😭😭

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y/nnbappe happy euros 🐢🤕

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user23 VIVA LA FRANCE 🇫🇷

user24 poor kylian 😭

user25 the turtle in the caption????

kylianmbappe zizou??? 🤨

y/nmbappe you don't like zizou???

kylianmbappe you know I do, but you should be wearing out last name 😅

y/nmbappe i forgot the nmbappe one at home 🫶

kylianmbappe just wear one of mine 😗

y/nmbappe lol, ill wear urs tomorrow Ky 🤍

user26 lmao the zizou jersey

user27 kylian couldn't wear the France mask???

user28 thank god 🙏 that one was lowk ugly

charles_leclerc hows the face @|kylianmbappe

kylianmbappe still broken, thanks man

charles_leclerc 🫡

user29 my favourite brother-in-laws

lorenzotl at another international tournament without me 🤨

y/nmbappe get a job

user30 I love that kit

arthur_leclerc yay france 🇫🇷

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user31 awww the youngest leclerc are accepting the French nationality again 🫶

user32 did y'all see kylian with baby mbappe after the game?? 🥹

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y/nmbappe

liked by kylianmbappe lorenzotl and 4,888,997 others

y/nmbappe happy Father’s Day to the love of my life and the best husband and father anyone could ever ask for 🤍

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user33 AWWWWWW

user34 🥹🥹🥹

user35 BABY MBAPPE IS BACK ON THE FEED 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶

user36 wait this is so lovely 🥰

user37 how old is baby mbappe now???

user38 he's like 5 or 6 no one knows his exact birthday 🤷‍♀️

user39 they grow up so fast 😭

user40 🥰

charles_leclerc ill be nice to him just for today

kylianmbappe thanks man 🫡

charles_leclerc only because you're raising my nephew

y/nmbappe charles stop bullying my husband

charles_leclerc I'm not bullying him. If I was bullying him I wouldve used a turtle emoji by now

user41 happy fathers day!!!!

user42 my favourite football family

arthur_leclerc happy for you, sœur 🫶

y/nmbappe thank you Arthur, I appreciate the maturity

charles_leclerc this feels targeted

lorenzotl if the shoe fits bro

user43 🤍🤍🤍

kylianmbappe je t'aime mon coeur 🤍 im so grateful for you and our family 🤍🤍🤍

y/nmbappe ky 🥹🤍🤍

user44 awww this is so sweet I'm gonna melt 😭

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y/nmbappe

📍Circuit de Barcelona Catalunya

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y/nmbappe then and now 🤍

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user45 OH MY GOD LOOK AT YOUNG CHARLES 😭😭😭

user46 he looks like a child 😭

user47 kylian looks pretty much the same meanwhile Charles is not that person at all anymore 😅

user48 if I was Charles I would not let someone repost those pictures 😔

charles_leclerc DELETE THIS

charles_leclerc REMOVE THIS NOW PLEASE

charles_leclerc I NEED THIS SCRUBBED FROM THE INTERNET

charles_leclerc IM NOT THAT PERSON ANYMORE DELETE DELETE DELETE

charles_leclerc YOURE GONNA RUIN MY IMAGE

user49 Charles 😭😭

kylianmbappe oh wow

y/nmbappe yeah, dont worry baby, you look great

charles_leclerc PICK UP THE PHONE AND DELETE THIS

user50 leclerc/mbappe meet-up 🫶

user51 ik carlos is freaking out somewhere about being so close to kylian

alexandrasaintmleux can you send me that first picture pls love 🫶

charles_leclerc DO NOT SEND HER THAT

y/nmbappe i sent it 🫶

charles_leclerc GOD DAMN IT Y/N

user52 lmao kylian looks so bored next to Fred

user53 oh my god Charles is losing his mind

charles_leclerc this is why baby leclerc likes me better than you

y/nmbappe if you keep yelling at me i am going to put that child in full red bull gear

charles_leclerc 🖕

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y/nmbappe

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y/nmbappe karting with uncle Maxie 🤍

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user54 oh… oh no

user55 Charles is gonna kill someone

user56 hey, baby mbappe looks sick though

lorenzotl hahahahaha

user57 I'm glad someone in that family finds this funny 😭

user58 I'm so scared

charles_leclerc ...😑

charles_leclerc you're kidding me

charles_leclerc I am going to kill max

charles_leclerc why would you do this to me

charles_leclerc I can't believe you'd do this

y/nmbappe this is not that surprising pls be fr

user59 😭

kylianmbappe I don't care what team he wears 🤷🏾‍♂️ did baby mbappe have fun?

y/nmbappe lmao, yeah he did. He loves Max sooo 🤷‍♀️

kylianmbappe 🤷🏾‍♂️

user60 I fear for Max’s car next race

maxverstappen1 I’m glad he had fun 😅😅😅

charles_leclerc drive safe next race “uncle Maxie” 😒

maxverstappen1 oh okay, love u 2 man 🫶

charles_leclerc 😒😒😒

user61 😭 free my man max

arthur_leclerc not that I’m thrilled about the Red Bull suit but I do feel like Charles deserves this in some way

charles_leclerc I hate all of you so much

user62 pfttt they’re so funny 😭😭😭

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📍Monte Carlo, Monaco

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y/nmbappe does anyone know who this man is??? He crashed our family dinner 🤦‍♀️

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user63 CARLOSSSSSSSS

user64 VAMOSSSSSS

user65 my love 😍🫶

user66 lmao the Madrid jersey, this man has a quest he’s trying to fulfill

user67 and when kylian goes to Madrid, yall will be thanking Carlos. Mark my words.

arthur_leclerc idk who he is but can you tell him to help me with bringing the plates out

y/nmbappe I sent him inside 🫡

user68 I would love to know kylians reaction to the jersey

charles_leclerc I would like everyone to know that before he got here, this was just leclercs and their partners

lorenzotl and then, in rolls a large Spanish man

y/nmbappe he brought wine, leave him alone

carlossainz you only like me because I brought alcohol??? 🤨

y/nmbappe ofc not carlito, we all 🫶 you

carlossainz good, because I love your husband

user69 lmfao Carlos is just here for the madridistas

user70 I bet their dinners are fun asf

carlossainz HALA MADRID!!! 🤍🤍🤍

y/nmbappe yeah, yeah, thank you Carlos

y/nmbappe maman needs your help with dinner

lorenzotl no she doesn't 🧐

y/nmbappe shut up lorenzo

user71 ahh I love them 🥰

kylianmbappe I'm not sure I'm allowed to publicly interact with Carlos unless he takes the jersey off

carlossainz come to Madrid hermano 🇪🇸

y/nmbappe hes not allowed to reply to that comment, carlos 😐

carlossainz 😢

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📍 Santiago Bernabéu Stadium, Madrid, Spain

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y/nmbappe Hala Madrid 🤍

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user72 I can feel Carlos’ excitement through the screen

user73 wow I'm so glad that this transfer was revealed by the club yesterday!

user74 yeah! Isn't it so cool that none of the big journalists revealed this beforehand??! 🤩

user75 KYLIANNNNNNN 🇪🇸🇫🇷🇪🇸🇫🇷

kylianmbappe 🤍

y/nmbappe 🤍

user76 YAYYYY

charles_leclerc wait, come back to France, I'm gonna miss you and baby leclerc

carlossainz SHUT UP, ITS MY TURN NOW!!! VIVA LA ESPAÑA

charles_leclerc this is why Lewis is taking your seat

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charles_leclerc I'm in pr jail 😔

carlossainz as you should be 🤨

user77 wait I'm gonna miss y/n being a psg wag

user78 but now she's a Madrid wag 🤩

judebellingham welcome! 🙌 🤍

y/nmbappe thanks Jude 🫶

user79 JUDE & BABY MBAPPE??? JUDE UNCLE CONTENT??!

user80 gonna need bestie camavinga back tysm

arthur_leclerc glad to see baby leclerc repping the kit I bought him 😗

y/nmbappe 😐 thank you, Arthur

arthur_leclerc some enthusiasm would be appreciated

y/nmbappe no

arthur_leclerc fair enough

lorenzotl as long as you come back to Monaco sometimes I'll be okay

y/nmbappe even if I don't, I'm sure you’ll all continue to spam comments on my Instagram posts even if I refuse to reply

lorenzotl we dont do that

y/nmbappe 🤨 @/arthur_leclerc @/charles_leclerc

arthur_leclerc …shes definitely right

charles_leclerc yeah that seems pretty accurate

charles_leclerc I love you guys… even if you are abandoning me

y/nmbappe we love you too, especially baby mbappe 🤍🤍🤍

charles_leclerc baby leclerc*

y/nmbappe shut up 🥰

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[norrizzandpia]

Best Friends To Benefits To Lovers (OP81)

Summary: They’ve been dating for months after being the closest of friends for years. The question is, however, did they start out as best friends with benefits?

Warnings: NAH BRO WATCH YOUR TEETH FALL OUT FROM THIS SWEETNESS

Note: This is based off the idea for This Is About Oscar?! and Who Is Oscar Piastri? just not with the same exact plot line

ynnn it’s here!!! goodnight n go is something that took years to make because I was in that specific situation for so long until it shifted. It replicates a dilemma I thought I would have to die with, but, in the end, my deepest desires came to fruition. goodnight n go is all yours when it used to be just mine and Oscar’s and we wouldn’t have it any other way 💌

Comments:

oscarpiastri so proud of you my love ❤️

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mclarensgirly BYE IM CRYING AFTER LISTENING TO THAT

ln4andop81 I DIDNT KNOW WHAT GOODNIGHT N GO WOULD MEAN BUT NOW I DO AND ILL NEVER GO BACK

landonorris awww such a good song! (there were a few lines in there that i physically recoiled at)

- f1fan22 he heard “i got you, i got you dreamin, you close your eyes and you’re screamin,” and dug his grave

- mclarensgirlll i would love to see oscar screaming

- oscarpiastri you can just not in that sense but i would be happy to scream in your face!

- mclarensgirlll YOU COULD DO THAT TOO

- ynnn im gonna have to veto that one sorry

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f1fan2 SOO ARE WE GONNA TALK ABT YNS NEW SONG?? ITS THE WAY WE FINALLY GET CONFIRMATION THAT THEY WERE BEST FRIENDS AND THEN STARTED SLEEPING TOGETHER AND THEN JUST ABSOLUTELY FELL HEAD OVER HEELS FROM THERE

- mclarensgirly YEAH BC SHE SAID IT WAS A SPECIFIC SITUATION SHE WAS IN FOR YEARS BEFORE IT SHIFTED AND THE FACT THAT SHE BASICALLY CONFIRMED IT WAS ABT OSCAR WITH THE FACT THAT SHE SAID IT HAD BEEN THEIRS BUT NOW ITS OURS LIKE IM CRYING WE ALL WATCHED THEM BE IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER PAINFULLY FOR SO LONG

- ln4andop81 “one of these days you’ll miss your train and come stay with me” I CRIED SHE DREAMED OF THEIR LIFE TOGETHER WHEN SHE THOUGHT SHE WAS JUST A QUICK FUCK TO HIM BUT SHE. WASNT. 😭😭😭😭 SHE NEVER WAS

- mclarenfan22 ITS SO WIERD TOO BC ALL THE FANS AND MEDIA KNEW HE WAS IN LOVE WITH HER WITH THE WAY HE LOOKED AT HER BUT THE SONG TELLS US THAT SHE DIDNT “we’ll have drinks and talk about things and any excuse to stay awake with you” LIKE SHE JUST WANTED TO BE WITH HIM

- mclarensgirly AND SHE RESISTED HIM TOO BC SHE WAS AFRAID TO FALL IN LOVE “why’d you have to be so cute? It’s impossible to ignore you. Why must you make me laugh so much? It’s bad enough we get along so well. Just say goodnight and go.” GAHDAMN

- ln4andop81 i literally can see him leaving her on the weekends to go race and them both thinking the other doesnt want anything more BUT THEY DO “and you’d sleep here, i’d sleep there… we’d be good, we’d be great together” SHE ALWAYS WANTED HIM TO STAY 😭😭

- mclarensgirly im glad she sat on this one and got together with him before releasing it bc i dont think i couldve handled it if they werent together and THIS SONG came out

- mclarenfan22 real.

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oscarpiastri i’ll never again just say goodnight and go 💗

Comments:

mclarensgirly so im fully sobbing now.

ynnn you missed the train

- oscarpiastri i was always destined to miss that train baby

- f1fan2 THROWING UP CRYING OUT LOUD SOBBING BANGING MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL WTF

landonorris you always goodnight n go me.

- oscarpiastri do i really need to explain the difference to you?

- ynnn lando back off hes MINE.

- landonorris well we will see abt that.

- oscarpiastri im hers. end of discussion.

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ynnn WHY’D HE HAVE TO BE SO CUTE 🫨

Comments:

oscarpiastri natural talent?

- ynnn i would agree with that

mclarensgirly WHEN WILL I GET WHAT THEY HAVE FUCKING BEST FRIENDS TO BENEFITS TO FALLING IN LOVE I WANNA GOUGE MY EYES GOD WHERE ARE YOU

- ynnn should i be concerned for you?

- oscarpiastri i dont think you should… i mean shes just jealous of us which makes sense ‼️

- ynnn she said she wanted to gouge her eyes out osc 🤨

- oscarpiastri YEAH IT MAKES SENSE I WOULD WANNA GOUGE MY EYES OUT TOO IF I WASNT WITH YOU

- ynnn so i should be concerned for you too.

- oscarpiastri nah im just in love

- ynnn yeah i get it

[winterironevents]

June 10th - July 20th, 2023

It's been a minute!

Look under the cut for the amazing works made in the past month and a half-ish.

We will be returning to our normal Saturday schedule next week.

Thanks to @massivespacewren as always for the incredible fanart you see here.

Now let's get to some WinterIron goodies!

The Theory of Love, Electric by Halfpennybuddha

Rated: M

Tags: No archive warnings apply, Princess Diaries AU, Royal AU, High School AU, Gay Bucky Barnes, Bisexual Tony Stark, implied/referenced drug use, implied/referenced self-harm, Bucky Barnes Needs a Hug, Bullying, non-consentual kiss, no sex, but minor over clothes frottage and kissing, Tony & Bucky are both 18, dancer Bucky Barnes, Steve Rogers is a Good Bro, endless shopping, implied/referenced alcohol abuse, underage drinking (not main characters), mentions of cancer, mentions of serious illness (past), supportive family, family feels, Jewish Bucky Barnes, unplanned pregnancy, light angst

Summary: "“Even after his tragic death, it should not have changed much regarding succession. I…well, I was still in good health, though in mourning. But now…your grandfather’s death last year, and my testicular cancer, you see. The treatment…well, I am sterile, Iacob.”

Bucky dropped his sandwich.

AKA The Winteriron Princess Diaries AU that nobody asked for."

Takin’ What They’re Givin’ (‘Cause I’m Workin’ for a Livin’) - Chapter 8: Mission Six: Breaking All the Rules by @polizwrites

Rated: E

Tags: Identity Porn, camboy!Bucky, Iron Man Tony Stark/Modern Bucky Barnes, Cap!Steve/Modern Bucky Barnes, oral sex, anal sex, Sugar Daddy, Revelations, Happy Endings

Summary: Bucky's little camboy sidegig - where he plays 'Special Agent Jay' -- gets him attention from an unexpected quarter. Chapter 8 Bucky finally makes it to Seoul, and so do two people very important to him.

My Love is Vengeance - Chapter 4 by @polizwrites

Rated: T

Tags: Canon Divergence, young!Tony, bodyguard!Winter Soldier, recovering!Bucky, POV Bucky, Hydra, double agent

Summary: "[Part of Behind Blue Eyes Series] Still disguised as Jacob, the Soldier goes to a club with Tony. Tony runs into trouble and they both reveal their feelings just before the Soldier’s hand is forced. Chapter 4: The next day, Tony and Bucky are separated and learn more about what Hydra expects of them before reuniting again. "

Surprise Afternoon Shopping by @endlesstwanted

Rated: E

Tags: Sugar Daddy AU, Lingerie, Semi-Public Sex

Summary: With Bucky’s promotion’s party this weekend, Tony’s taken on a surprise afternoon shopping session in search of clothes for the occasion. They just may or may not have spent all of it at Bucky’s regular sex shop.

Home Again (Chapter 31) by @scottxlogan

Rated: E

Tags: Post-Avengers: Endgame (Movie), Canon Divergence - Avengers: Endgame (Movie), Supernatural Elements, Canon-Typical Violence, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, References to Depression, Bucky Barnes Has PTSD, Bucky Barnes & Sam Wilson Friendship, Pre-Relationship, Angst with a Happy Ending, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Tragedy, Angst and Romance, Blood Loss, Adult Content, Explicit Language, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Blood and Injury, Dreams and Nightmares, Slow Burn, Sexual Content

Summary: After a few surprising truths are revealed Bucky and Tony are reunited at the reservoir in Wakanda. Will it spell disaster or prove to be the happy ending they've both been searching for?

WinterIron Bingo - July 2023 Round Robin by AoifeLaufeyson, endlesstwanted, HadrianPeverellBlack, Politzania, scottxlogan, Sivan325

Rated: G

Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern: No Powers, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Love Confessions, Crushes, Mutual Pining

Summary: When Natasha talks Bucky into pretending to be her boyfriend so her nosy (but well-meaning) family will leave her alone -- the last thing Bucky expects is to run into his crush: Tony Stark.

Late-Night Requirements by @every-marveler-ever

Rated: G

Tags: Tony Stark is scared (but won’t admit it), Hydra

Summary: Hydra had always been a pain for them, but since dating Sam and Bucky, Hydra became a whole new level of scary to Tony. They said it would be easy, and simple, but Tony just couldn’t believe that.

Love You Doll by Aralia Tutela

Rated: T

Tags: Living Doll

Summary: Put me away like a doll when they didn't need me.' Tony's mind caught on that phrase, and suddenly he knew what he could do to help his lover relax.

And So It Goes by @purpleicedteas

Rated: M

Tags: Single Dad Tony, Recluse Bucky, Brief mention of Pepper's breast cancer and death; Silver Fox Bucky, Silver Fox Tony, Single Dad Tony, Engineer Tony, Former FBI Agent Bucky, Recluse Bucky, Alpine the Cat

Summary: Bucky Barnes was a retired FBI agent living as a recluse. Content with a solitary lifestyle, he lived for years with only the company of Alpine, his feline companion. When the empty home next to theirs is filled with new neighbors, Alpine and Bucky find their lives weaving with the handsome engineer and his daughter.

Never Have I Ever by @scottxlogan

Rated: E

Tags: Sexual Content, Jealousy, Implied/Referenced Cheating, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Not Steve Rogers Friendly, Past Steve Rogers/Tony Stark, Past Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers, Minor Sharon Carter/Steve Rogers, Light Bondage, Angst with a Happy Ending, Light Angst, Blindfolds, Restraints, Declarations Of Love, Established Relationship, Angst, Alcoholic Tony Stark, Past Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism

Summary: When the team gets together to spend a night under the stars playing a game of Never Have I Ever, it opens the door to a tense situation where Bucky and Tony are left facing an uncomfortable truth about the history they have with Steve. Will it prove to be the think that pulls their blossoming relationship apart or will it bring them closer together when everything is said and done?

Its Vital Heat by @halfpennybuddha

Rating: G

Tags: James "Bucky" Barnes/Tony Stark, Winifred Barnes/George Barnes, Meeting the Parents, Modern Art

Summary:

“You don’t recognize me, do you?” He couldn’t tell if her voice was teasing or reproachful, and it made him a bit nervous.

“Uh, no, ma’am. I’m sorry.” She laughed, then, the sound a bit like the tinkling of bells.

“Don’t fret so, child. My name is Maria Stark. My son has spoken of you often the past few weeks.” She informed him, taking a delicate sip of her drink.

Oh, God. Tony’s mother.

A Sugar-Coated Pill - Chapter 2 by @polizwrites

Rated: T

Tags: No Powers AU, A/B/O AU, Sugar Daddy AU, Political Campaigns, Amputee!Bucky, Alpha!Bucky, young!Tony, Omega!Tony, Slow Dancing

Summary: Now that they have a few events under their belts, Bucky and Tony start to get more comfortable around one another during a Fourth of July party.

Looking At You by @scottxlogan

Rated: M

Tags: 5+1 Things, Romance, Implied Sexual Content, Implied/Referenced Sex, Falling In Love, Jealousy, Yoga, Light Angst, Happy Ending, Digital Art, Prompt Fic

Summary: Bucky reflects on those five times he's seen Tony in his yoga pants and the way they made an impact on him. Later Tony reflects on the one time he saw Bucky in his.

The Upside by @otpcutie

Rated: E

Tags: body swap AU, found family, transguy Tony, flirting, teasing, mutual pining, boys in love, fluff, jerking off, smut

Summary: Tony and Bucky give each other permission to get off while body swapped.

[vtoriacore-rbs]

tw. ed + whatever the fuck is wrong w me in general. id actually advise against reading this but this helps get things off my chest.

me slipping back into old ed habits bc my intrusive thoughts actually ended up triggering me 💀💀💀 i went on a 2 day fast and only had mineral water and i feel both proud and horrified that ive allowed myself to do that so now im eating healthy things to kinda make up for it but anyways i weighed myself too even tho i said i wouldn't. like i know i shouldn't feel happy over the fact i starved and weakened my body on purpose but it feels nice to stick to something and actually have some discipline back in my life.

had a breakdown too earlier for no reason (altho im on my period so maybe that's why, fuck you uterus btw there is no us only u someone remove this thing PLEASE). like bro some bitch in college also was telling me how she was losing weight and she deadass told me that my ribcage sticking out was so aesthetic and it just enabled me, we only spoke 3 times before that and im pretty sure she has an ed too bc she kept trying to get my measurements??? she also said she'd sacrifice two of her ribs to get a waist like mine and i know she meant it as a compliment but i wanted to cry and felt low-key ashamed like i hate when people point out my physical appearance and i was stretching i didn't even mean for my shirt to go higher up it was so uncomfy. it's weird tho cause when i starve myself i feel happy abt it but when other people point it out and praise me for it i get really mad. maybe it's bc i discourage eds and im very pro-recovery but anyways that was a weird comment™ i think it played into the breakdown. she tried grabbing my wrist several times and i told her to stop trying to touch me but she wouldn't stop either and was like "just for a second please" like i felt so icky bc of that too like bitch hands off before i retaliate <3 so yeah now im trying to eat again but honestly i feel like im gonna throw up bc i didn't eat for 2 days lmao and the entire day today i felt so dizzy. like yesterday was fine but today ?? no. my muscles hurt so bad so im gonna have a 50g protein shake too ugh im so tired. gonna try get up to 1000 kcal at least and make the deficit up over the weekend bc my stomach physically hurts when i try to eat (but this strawberry yogurt bangs even tho im half full already).

ive been slipping back into an ed mindset over the last month tho even with my binges and i just wanna look ill enough for one of my doctors finally tell me im underweight enough they didn't even acknowledge i was severely underweight 3-4 years ago that felt so humiliating and now im thinking along the lines of "i need to be a better anorexic" even tho its fucked up and like im trying to just snap myself out of this mindset but it's not working so im gonna have to get a therapist potentially. bc i don't want my organs and bones failing but at the same time, i wanna make sure doctors take me seriously this time and maybe it'll be a fucking reminder to take eds seriously. it actually pisses me off hos insensitive some doctors are about eds and the fact they indirectly fucking allow it sometimes too like. just bc im not in a critical condition and only like 3/4kgs underweight doesn't mean i don't have an ed or that it isn't "severe enough" smh this annoys me so much.

if you read it up to here don't worry ill be fine, a bitch always pulls thru and these are just momentary lapses in judgement im not letting mental illness win im too fucking good for this (<- motivating myself kinda feel better after writing this NGL).

[coolcoelacanth]

i've been so fucking sad about my ex recently and i feel like a crazy person. it's deadass been 1 year since we last saw each other but it's all just hitting me right now. i was relieved for the first few months after we ended things, then i was sad, then i was doing just fine, now all of a sudden i have been fucking miserable about it for the past month. i really wish i could take my brain out of my head and run it under cold water. i feel like im short circuiting. ive just been overall depressed then ill randomly burst into tears about it for like 30 minutes. i've only been one one date since we ended things, and im starting to feel like ill never find someone i love like that again. he didn't treat me right, and i deserve better, but damn did we work together so well. if he hadn't been an idiot things could've worked out really well. now im back to square one, with all these people i genuinely have no interest in. and im pretty sure he started seeing someone shortly after we ended things and theyre still together. so i just feel even worse, like did all of that really mean that little to him? and why does he get to move on and have a happy ending? i feel like nothing is ever fair bro, i give my heart and soul to this shit and i get the short end of the stick every time. and i really, truly, deeply trusted him. i really really did. i dont know how to get over this horrible feeling of betrayal. it burns a hole in my stomach. it doesnt feel real. i dont want any of it to be real. its all just some kind of sick joke. and i keep playing back all the memories of all the things he did that hurt me, so im just hurting myself over and over again and just crying about it all. my brain is truly putting me thru my own personal hell, for why? who fucking knows. maybe bc i havent had a day off since august and im finally having a nervous breakdown, so my brain is just throwing everything its got at me. and i literally spent 8 hours studying today, then im working 8 hrs tmrw and studying afterward for my exam on monday. but it doesn't end there, it all just repeats on an endless cycle until my semester ends in december. i only have this semester and next semester left until i will only be doing rotations, but jesus christ if this doesnt kill me. and i used to have a reprieve on the weekends when my ex would come over for three days and we would just LOL and eat good food and i really felt like i could completely let all my walls down. now i never get to let my walls down because i dont trust anyone to be myself around. so im just constantly holding everything in all the time until i finally explode one day. this is literally so long but if you made it this far, im literally at my breaking point. and i dont even have time to have a break down, i get to cry about my life for a couple hours a day then i just keep going and going and going like a fucking lunatic. somebody please put me out of my misery for fucks sake

[ljsstories]

Chapter Fifteen: Jealousy Thy Name Is...

It had now been over a month since Jensen sent his brother away for some peace and quiet. So far Jonah had managed to write enough songs for two albums never mind half of one, he'd found himself a girlfriend and he had never sounded happier. Jensen would have been happy too if it wasn't for the fact that little brother had met Jane and her entire family, including her terminally ill mother, Eliza had him staying at the family home in Kilmarnock during the week and they would be together at the cottage in Millport at the weekends. Jonah was no longer interested in drinking or sleeping around, his whole focus was on Eliza and being with her, Jensen was envious. What he wouldn't give to have that with Jane, for her to lean on him the way Eliza leaned on Jonah. With his tour now over, he had time to himself and he wanted nothing more than to jump on a plane and be with Jane under the guise of visiting his younger brother. He wasn't going to do it, that would just be too obvious, of course he would be there to see Jane, she knew how estranged he and Jonah were! She wouldn't buy it for a second! Juliet hadn't spoken to Jonah since he left, he had tried to call her a couple of times when he first arrived in Scotland but she ghosted him and that was that. She was far too busy skulking in corners with Sweater Boy, their hushed voices as Jensen passed being a dead giveaway that they were talking about him. He just couldn't take to that pastel freak, he would sit down and have the obligatory half hour a week with him during the tour, but apart from that he would ignore him. Now that Jensen was home and had all this time on his hands, he was getting agitated, he needed something to do.

His agent had sent him a couple of scripts to look at but his heart wasn't in it, neither of them seemed to pique his interest so he declined them both. It was exactly what he needed right now, a movie role to sink his teeth into, but his mind was on one thing and one thing only...Jane! He'd already unpacked, his mother was doing his laundry and Juliet was out living her life again, all Jensen had were his thoughts and that was going to be dangerous. He wanted to call Eliza or Jonah because Jane's mother was hopefully getting home from the rehabilitation unit in the next week or so, she was walking well and eating better and she had even put on a little weight. He got all of this from Jonah, Eliza had stopped communicating with him since she started dating his brother which he found rather odd, Jonah also told him how Jane was preparing for her mother coming home and it made Jensen want to jump on a plane even more, "I'm getting thrown out when her mom gets home, Janey doesn't want me here. I don't think she likes me bro!" Oh so it was Janey now? Boy did he want to be there, his jealousy was overwhelming him, having Jonah on the inside passing on information was just too much!

"She just wants to take the best care of her mom, be nice to her, please?"

"Hey, I'm a fuckin' angel, don't you worry about me. It's to do with me dating Eliza, she doesn't approve of the age gap, but you know me bro, I'm a child in a man's body!" Jonah laughed quietly, he really was a happy guy these days, Eliza was good for him...the lucky son of a bitch!

"It might be your reputation too Jonah, you haven't always been an angel despite your recent personality transplant!" Jonah scoffed over the phone at his brother, it was true that Jane had a certain opinion of him and Jensen hadn't exactly helped with that. If he was being honest, he wasn't sure about Jonah dating Eliza either, not because of the ten year age difference but because Jonah had a lousy track record when it came to women.

"I know, I know but this is different bro! Eliza makes me feel...I dunno how to describe it, she makes me feel whole I guess. When I'm with her I'm...home!" Oh how Jensen hated him right now!

"So I'm guessing you're not coming home to L.A. any time soon?" There was a long pause on the other end, as if Jonah was unsure of what might happen in the future.

"I dunno, I...we'll see! I love being here, I'm having a blast with Eliza and her family, so far they don't think I'm a loser...except for Janey that is, nothing much gets past that one I'll tell ya!" Jonah chuckled as a female voice mumbled something next to him, Eliza? "Oh hey, I'm just talking to my big brother, you wanna say hi? Oh, okay no worries!" Why didn't she want to speak to him anymore? It was so weird!

"She not talking these days?" Jensen sighed over the phone as Jonah finished his brief conversation with Eliza.

"Did she ever? Isn't this like the norm for you guys?" What was he talking about? Before Jonah arrived in Scotland he and Eliza were talking all the time!

"No Jonah it's not, she used to call me and update me on her mom and Jane, then when you went over there she would tell me how you were doing..." Jensen trailed off as Jonah talked over him.

"Dude, that was Jane!" Jensen's breath caught in his throat, the pain in his chest was unbearable, that was Jane, talking to his brother, in the same room as his brother! He tried to take in slow, deep breaths as he closed his eyes and resisted yelling down the phone at Jonah who was oblivious to his anguish. This really was the last straw; how did this happen? How did Jonah get into the inner sanctum of the Thomson family within a month while Jensen had been trying for almost two fucking years? What was so special about him? Despite his sister's insistence that he was her favourite, Jonah still seemed to end up falling in the shit and coming up smelling of roses! He was exactly where Jensen wanted to be right this minute, every minute of every day in fact! "Hello? Jensen are you still there?" He could hear Jonah talking on the other end but he was so utterly consumed with hatred for him that his very voice made him want to smash his iPhone into a million pieces.

"Y-yeah, I'm here. How is Jane?" Trying not to sound as devastated as he felt, he pulled himself together and answered his brother.

"Oh y'know, busying around bein' the momma bear. It's a thing!" Another chuckle, but this time it was like a private joke that Jensen wasn't in on.

"Look Jonah, whatever she asks you to do, please do it?"

"Yeah, of course! Janey's cool, I understand why she wants me outta the way, it's in case the paps come calling and she doesn't want the stress for her mom. I get it, you think I'm stupid but I'm not! Eliza knows I'm not; she treats me like an equal, she's even started gaming, I'm teaching her the ropes on Janey's PlayStation!" If he called her Janey one more time, Jensen was going to scream!

"Right, well just...behave, okay? I have to go!" They said their goodbyes as Jensen fought the urge to offload onto Jonah, telling him how much he hated him right now, but that would just alienate him and he would have no way of finding out how Jane was without his brother now that Eliza had cut off all contact. Jensen did find it extremely odd, one minute he was getting phone calls on a regular basis and the next...absolutely nothing! Had he said something to offend her? Had Jane told her to stop calling him? His mind was racing as was his heart as Juliet came breezing into his home thinking that an emergency key was code for come in any time.

"Hey little brother, climbing the walls yet?" Jensen simply gave her a dirty look, "Oh it's like that then is it? So what's the next step? Are you planning another solo album or have you got any movies lined up..." Juliet stared down at him lying sprawled across his pristine white sofa trying to drown out her voice, "JENSEN!" She kneed him on the thigh still peering down at him with that disapproving look on her face, "I'm talking to you! Sit up, what is the matter with you these days?" If only she knew, but he'd promised Jonah that he'd keep his relationship with Eliza private from their sister, she always had to be front and centre of both her brothers' love lives.

"Jules I'm not feeling well, I think I picked something up on tour. Can you give me a few days to rest?" Juliet shook her head and looked up to the ceiling in frustration.

"Jensy, baby brother I am concerned!" What was new? She was always concerned; it came with the territory of being the only girl with two younger brothers.

"Well don't be, I've just overdone it a little that's all! I just need a recharge and I'll be good to go with whatever you have planned." She looked back down at him with a sheepish smile on her face.

"Well actually..." Now it had transformed into a fully blown grin, "...how do you feel about reforming the band...with me as your manager?" Her eyes widened with excitement as she waited for approval from him. He was speechless, he'd only just escaped from that whole situation, but this wouldn't be Bryan leading them anymore it would be Juliet! What did that matter? He still had to work around four other guys, he'd gotten used to doing his own thing on the solo tour, being able to sing whatever he wanted in whatever order he pleased. Was he really ready to go back to a five piece? He had missed Kris and TJ, but Bradley and Jonah dicking around like a pair of hormonal teenagers? No thanks! After all, he had been touring for the best part of a year, he needed to sit down and take stock of his life, especially now that Jane seemed even further away from him than ever before...like that was even possible! He thought he had a good thing going on with Eliza, but now that Jonah had totally ruined that for him, typical, he had to sit and listen to him blathering on like a lovestruck teenage boy gushing over how awesome Eliza was. Asshole! "Jensy? Are you gonna answer me or are you gonna stare some more with that weird glassy look on your face?" Shit, he'd forgotten Juliet was even there.

"Not now Jules, I'm sick!"

"Like hell you are, don't you lie to me! I've known you for thirty three years little brother, you can't fool me! Tell me what's up or I'll call Charlie!"

"Hey!" Jensen stood up and towered over his sister, "I thought that douche was fired now? The tour's over!"

"Well..." She blinked several times and looked at the ground, unable to make eye contact with him, what was this? "...Charlie and I..." Oh Charlie and I? So it was like that was it? Not that Jensen was surprised, he had an idea that the two of them were hot for each other, unable to tell if they were actually dating or not but now it appeared that he was going to get his answer, "...we're dating and...we thought that you would benefit from his services a little longer."

"Well you can benefit from his services all you want, but I'm out! So because you're fucking him now you think you owe it to him to keep him in a job?"

"Don't be so coarse Jensen, it doesn't suit you anymore!" Juliet screwed up her nose, still unable to look him in the eyes, "Yes Charlie and I are sleeping together, we have been for a couple of months but...that is not the issue here, the issue is you and your refusal to deal with your trauma. Charlie thinks..."

"I have no trauma Jules, I'm fine!"

"Jensen, people who are fine DO NOT TRY AND KILL THEMSELVES!!!" Why was she screaming at the top of her lungs? Wow that went right through his entire body, this was new, he was used to a Jonah headache but never a Juliet one!

"Jules what the fuck?" He covered his ears and scowled at her, "I have dealt with that, I don't need to talk to your Sweater Boy to do that! There is nothing he can say or do that will contribute to my wellbeing!"

"Jensy!" Hands on her hips and head cocked to the side in a condescending manner, Juliet wasn't finished with the lecture, "Charlie thinks that there's more to your obsession with this Jane girl than you're letting on. He's been worried about that for months and he's tried to talk to you about it but you cut him off at every turn. Please, for me? If you love me you'll sit down with him for three sessions a week and get to the bottom of whatever has rendered you almost unresponsive, because that's what you are! It's like you're devoid of any emotion, you function like a fleshy robot these days! It got worse towards the end of the tour and..." She stopped and squeezed her eyes shut, as if she was carefully choosing her words, "...I can't cope Jensy, I can't cope with you shutting off completely because I am terrified of you trying to end your life again! I really thought that we were turning a corner, me becoming your manager and taking control of your schedule, you writing and performing all by yourself on your own terms..." Another pause as she finally locked eyes with him, "...I love you Jensen, you're my little brother and I don't want to lose you...ever! It keeps me awake at night, it's not good for my mental health to be constantly on pins and needles worrying about you! You're a grown man Jensen! And yet I can't get on with my own life until I feel that you're okay, that you're free to get on with yours without contemplating leaving me behind!" Juliet began to cry, it made him feel like shit, he had done this! He had resisted Charlie at every opportunity, he had fought Juliet constantly when all she wanted was peace of mind for herself. This wasn't about Jensen; it was Juliet getting closure! For some reason him getting extensive therapy discussing his suicide attempt, was therapy for his sister who was so scared he'd do it again despite his assurance that he wouldn't. But he couldn't promise that, who knew what was going to happen in the future, he was feeling pretty crappy right now with the whole Jane situation and the fact that Jonah got to see her every day. It was too much for Jensen to take, so maybe he did need to speak with Charlie, maybe it was time to take down the barriers and have peace talks with his sister and her new boyfriend. Everybody had someone except Jensen, that hurt like hell, all he wanted was for Jane to hold him and tell him everything was going to be alright...but that was never going to happen. Putting his arms around his sister and embracing her in a brotherly hug, Jensen decided that it was time to do what she wanted for a change.

"Okay sis, whatever you want, I'll do it!" He felt her body sag with relief inside his arms, then she began to shake...her silent sobs broke his heart. "Jules I'm so sorry, I do love you...so I'll do it for you!" Secretly though Jensen was worried about talking to Charlie, what if he ended up spilling everything? That would endanger Jane and he had vowed never to do that; it would be terrible timing too with her mother dying. How the fuck was he going to keep his true involvement with her hidden from a shrink who had a knack for getting things out of people that they really didn't want coming out?

"Thank you!" Juliet finally mumbled as she squeezed his waist affectionately, "You're losing weight again little brother, go see mom and eat some cookies!" She let out a small laugh, at least this manager was being realistic about his body and not trying to make him look anorexic.

"I will, I'm on it! I have to pick up my laundry anyway!"

"Jensy do your own laundry, you're thirty three years of age for God's sake! Mom shouldn't be running around after you! Looking up at him impishly she added, "That's my job!"

"What would I do without my big sister?" Kissing her on the forehead, he thought about their younger brother over in Scotland living the life that Jensen had wanted for two whole years and how much he wanted to beat the shit out of him, just for falling in love and being the man that Jensen and Juliet had always wished that he would be. After all Jensen had sent him over there to sort him out, it worked and now he had forgotten all about his rock star lifestyle and was perfectly content playing house with Jane's little sister. He should have been happy for him, but really all he felt was a simmering rage!

***

Jane really hoped that as soon as her mother finally got a bed at Woodland View her mood would lift and she would see that her life was not yet over, but when they got there the day she arrived she was lying on her bed in her own private room sobbing. Jane's hopes disappeared and she too wanted to cry, thinking that she would find her mother sitting in her room looking forward to her new treatment and to getting home soon. The reason for Monica's unhappiness was due to her being in an ambulance with several other people, going through all the little towns in this hot vehicle had made her feel utterly uncomfortable. As Jane watched her cry, she tried to cheer her up by opening the blinds and showing her the lovely view outside of woodland, nothing seemed to help, not even the fact that she had her own bathroom and no longer had to share a ward with three other women. She was relieved to see that Eliza had opted to leave Jonah behind that day, this was a family affair that didn't require nosey outsiders. That was how she felt about Jensen Reed's younger brother, who was nothing like she had imagined him to be, he was hopelessly devoted to her younger sister and Eliza had him exactly where she wanted him...she just didn't know it! Watching this rock band bad boy trailing around after her was amusing, the guy was smitten, whatever Eliza said was fine by him, no arguments just dopey smiles and bashful giggles every time she spoke or sat beside him. It was sickeningly adorable, but Jane only had time for her mother right now, she'd already told Jonah that as soon as Monica got home he would have to either head back to the cottage or back to Los Angeles, he wasn't staying with them. Under normal circumstances, she would have needed time to process the fact that Jonah Reed of River Monster was Eliza's "friend" who was occupying the cottage over in Millport and that she'd kept it from her for two whole weeks, but all that mattered at the moment was her mother, she had no room for anything else in her head or heart...so Jensen was completely off the radar even though he was always around in the news and on social media, Jane put all of it to the back of her mind. Having his younger brother around was a constant reminder of his existence however, and if she was honest that was the real reason she wanted Jonah out of the house, to be completely free of anything Jensen related. Eliza had taken down her posters since she and the younger Reed were seeing each other, Jane thought that it might be a mood killer for him seeing big brother scantily clad on his girlfriend's bedroom wall. Not good for the old performance in there that was for sure, if they were even doing that, of course they were...this was Jonah Reed! Jane didn't like to think of her much younger sister having sexual relations with a man who was ten years old when she was born, twenty two when she was starting high school, it messed with her head so she tried not to spend much time on the subject. After all, Eliza was a smart girl, she didn't take shit from anyone so the drummer of her favourite band would be no different especially after she'd told Jane how their initial meeting was less than friendly. Jane laughed when Eliza sat her down and described what had been going on during the two weeks that this so-called friend had been over in Millport, she couldn't be angry with her, it was the best laugh she'd had in ages. Jonah was a sweet guy, she couldn't deny that, he backed up Eliza's story and it was even funnier coming from him, Jane didn't want to like him, that would mean a proposal and a wedding and a best man who would dance with the maid of honour...Jensen and Jane...dancing at their younger siblings' wedding...it didn't bear thinking about! So she didn't think about it, she concentrated on her mother and was cold with Jonah for fear of getting close to him, her future brother-in-law, because it looked as if it was going that way, Eliza was completely in love but only shared that with her sister. She needn't have worried though, Jane could see that Jonah felt exactly the same, he was forever gazing at her only Eliza didn't know that, she didn't notice but Jane did. His actions spoke louder than any words because he too was afraid to actually put into a sentence how he truly felt, being there for Eliza when she was struggling made Jane appreciate and respect him, that was true devotion. Jonah was constantly on the phone with his brother and asking her if she wanted to speak to him, of course the answer was always no, why would she speak to him? Because like Jonah had been with her sister, Jensen had been good to her when her mother had first been admitted, he flew all the way over there mid-tour to see her, be there for her during the worst time of her life. She repaid him with silence, she knew it was wrong but as always her mother came first! This had become her new mantra, replacing I'm not a monster, which had been a lie all along, at least this one wasn't because all that mattered was the wellbeing of her mother, who had mere months left to live.

Eliza had confided in Jane just how much Jonah meant to her, she seemed scared and excited all at the same time. This was her first serious boyfriend since high school, she'd devoted so much time to worshipping Jensen Reed that there was no room for a mere mortal man in her life when there was a God on her bedroom wall staring down at her with smouldering blue eyes. This mortal man she found herself with happened to be the brother of the God she had adored, now she saw that Jensen was just a man too and the shine had come off of him. Jane was relieved that her sister was no longer obsessed with him, but she did worry that her feelings for Jonah might become an obsession, perhaps it was just a case of the unattainable being that much more attractive and once she started talking to Jensen he was no longer unreachable. Jane really had to stop psychoanalysing everything, it was a habit of hers, psychology degrees had their downside too. When Eliza talked about Jonah she would often look off into the distance with her eyes glazed over and a silly grin on her face, what started out as disgust had transformed into something beautiful and Jane couldn't deny that it had been good for Eliza. On this particular day, she was playing with a necklace that Jonah had bought her, hanging round her neck she twiddled with it between her index and middle finger. It was half a heart, Jane assumed that Jonah had the other half somewhere, it was a sweet gesture she had to admit. Nothing that Jonah Reed had said or done made Jane think or feel that he was a bad person, he was so genuine and real with everyone in the family and he was extremely good with her mother who still was miserable despite her better accommodation, she would always manage a small smile for Jonah. She would get confused sometimes and call him Jensen but he took the slip well, he was very gracious and behaved like Jensen had behaved in Crosshouse, he never once acted like a self-entitled celebrity. Still Jane kept her distance, trying not to let it bother her that Jonah had started calling her Janey like Eliza and her dad, he obviously felt comfortable enough with her, if only she could relax and be comfortable around him...for Eliza's sake if nothing else. She couldn't afford to open the door even a crack or Jensen would get in and she simply had no room for him right now...if ever! Walking in on Jonah chatting away to him felt awkward, even more so when he once again handed his phone to her and asked if she wanted to speak to him, "He's struggling a little with his free time!" Jonah whispered, covering the phone so Jensen couldn't hear, "A word from you would really cheer him up Janey, go on!" Shoving the phone in her hand as she tried to step back didn't quite work out, as she held it she could hear Jensen's voice emanating ever so quietly as if he hadn't noticed that Jonah wasn't there anymore. Jonah nodded at the device in her hand and winked reassuringly, getting up from the couch and leaving the room. Jane looked at it as if she'd never seen a mobile phone before, like she had been handed a piece of alien technology. Hearing Jensen call for his brother gave her goose bumps as his voice became slightly raised, that voice, Madonna was right, it was like an angel sighing. What the hell was she thinking? She had to do something, what was she going to do?

"Hello, Jonah had to go. He'll call you back later okay? Bye!" Clicking off the phone, her heart was going crazy, so much so that she could feel her entire head pulsing and her cheeks burning with embarrassment. She couldn't do it, she couldn't speak, not to him...not now...not yet...maybe not ever! What must Jensen be thinking right now? Why did she care? There was no time, no room, no feasible sense for Jensen Reed to occupy her thoughts right now, he simply could not exist in her world! That was it, Jonah had to go now, forget leaving when her mum came home, he had to go right this very fucking minute...and take his stupid fucking phone with him!

***

Jensen stared at his phone sitting on the coffee table for a good half hour or more after the female voice cut him off abruptly from his brother, was it her? Was it Jane? It sounded like her, she and Eliza had similar voices but he could always tell the difference, after all it was him that had pointed out how nasal Eliza was, he felt bad about that now but at the time it amused and annoyed him. At least Jane had actually talked to him, unlike her sister who had gone completely silent on him lately. What had happened to Jonah? What was happening in general? Oh to hear her voice though, it was truly amazing, the last time he'd spoken to her was at her house the day he...the day he had kissed her and everything turned sour. That kiss, it was his fault that Jane hadn't spoken to him, it was his fault that she had retreated back into her shell that for him had a no entry sign emblazoned across it. When he eventually came out of his stunned daze, he picked up his phone and sent Jonah a text.

*What the fuck is going on Jonah? Why did you have to go? Are you okay???*

Yeah play dumb, even though he had a rough idea what happened, obviously Jonah had tried for the third time to get Jane to talk to him and she'd declined, so he found a way to make her talk. Had he just made things worse? Was that even possible? How could it get any worse than complete and utter silence and rejection from both of the Thomson sisters, his only avenue being his younger brother who liked to give him just the bare minimum of information just to fuck with him. Yeah Jonah was enjoying the position he was in no doubt, flipping the bird at big brother, this was his revenge for everything, revenge for taking Juliet away from him and revenge for being the front man of their band. Trying not to dwell on his negative thoughts, Jensen replayed Jane's voice over and over in his head; Hello, Jonah had to go. He'll call you back later okay? Bye! She didn't have to speak to him, she could have just hung up the phone and he would have been none the wiser, but she didn't. Did this mean that she cared? Even just a little bit? Was it fair for him to think or hope for that while her mother was so ill? It wasn't about him; he had to try and remember that. Jane had a lot going on right now and his feelings weren't important no matter how much it was killing him to be in the dark.

Sitting in his mother's kitchen waiting for her cookies to come out of the oven, he felt the urge to tell her about everything, after all she was the only one who knew some form of the truth about what had happened between him and Jane. Steph seemed quite happy that Jonah had found himself a nice little girlfriend as she liked to put it, Jensen had found himself one too but the only problem was that his little fishy wouldn't bite. He was impatient for these cookies, he wanted to just ram them all in his face and get fat, he didn't care. When his mother entered the kitchen with her phone in her hand, sighing happily, Jensen wondered what she was so chipper about. Didn't she know it was the end of the world? Jane didn't want to know him and Jonah was completely loved up with her sister, it was Armageddon! "What are you so happy about?" He whined at her while staring longingly at the tray of cookies she had finally brought out of the oven.

"Hmm? Oh, your brother wants to bring Eliza over to meet us at some point, well...she's already met you but the rest of us! I think she could be the one, finally!" Jensen grabbed a hot cookie, slightly burning his hand as his mother smacked it away and it fell back onto the tray. "No cookies for Mister Moody Pants, talk to your momma!"

"I..." He needed to talk to someone, Charlie was only interested in his missing ten days so far and all Juliet wanted to do was go out on dates with Charlie so he had no one else to confide in, "...I'm fucking jealous of Jonah, okay?"

"Language young man! Why are you jealous of your brother?"

"He gets to spend every day with Jane..."

"You mean Eliza! He's spending every day with his girlfriend sweetheart; he's not doing any of this to hurt you!" Wasn't he? How did she know? Jensen had his suspicions but deep down he knew that Jonah had never felt this way about any girl in his life before, this was real to him there was no denying it. "Look, she just happens to be there, they are sisters after all dear! Why don't you go over there? I'm sure Jonah would love some company while he's relegated back to that little island you loved so much. You're at a loose end anyway, isn't summer the best time to visit Scotland? Is there ever a best time weather wise to visit Scotland though?" She laughed softly, obviously she'd looked into the country since both of her boys had fallen for natives.

"Can I have a cookie now?" Jensen leaned over the kitchen counter and stretched out his arms, why was she torturing him? He needed sugar!

"I told you, no cookies for grumpy boys!" He had every right to be grumpy, Jonah had everything he had worked so hard for, what part of that didn't give him the right to be mad?

"I'm not grumpy mom I'm...devastated!" Then the sadness overwhelmed him, he could no longer hide just how much this whole thing had hurt him, "I want that, what he has, with Jane and..."

"Honey I told you before, you can't make the girl love you! I would love for her to feel the same but...it doesn't always work that way. Your father..."

"Was a cheating scum bag but you won't admit it! I'm not stupid, I may have been only seven when you threw him out but I know what really happened, I heard all of it mom!" Steph looked down guiltily, this was something she never really talked about, but if Jensen was going to bear his soul then so was she, it was only fair.

"First of all, he left of his own accord after I found him out. Second, your father was a good man once, he loved all of you and in some way he loved me too, but he wasn't happy here! He felt that I'd trapped him when I got pregnant with your sister, we weren't even married then, he felt obligated to do the right thing. He was never really in love with me, he loved me but not the way a husband loves a wife. There were faults on both sides, I told him if he walked out that door...that we were all dead to him, not just me, but the three of you too! That's why he wasn't present when you were growing up, I made it hard for him to come around with my jealousy. I told him not to attend the football games and the graduations because I didn't want to see him with her!" Jensen looked at his mother with surprise, she had never told any of them this, ever. Why was he just hearing this for the first time that the reason he had an absentee father was because of his mother's jealousy?

"Did...did he...want to be there for us?" Steph let out a long, guilty sigh and nodded.

"He did, he would call up the night before and ask permission and I shot him down every time. I told him that none of you wanted him there with her when all along it was me! You get your jealous streak from me kiddo, and if you're not careful it'll come and bite you in the ass the way it did to me!"

"Mom..." She grabbed hold of his hands and looked pleadingly into his eyes, he noticed a streak of flour across her chin, he focused on that as his mother's voice went on.

"Jensen, baby, it's not Jonah's fault that he found love! You will too someday, maybe you need to just accept that it won't be with this Jane? You're such a beautiful boy, you can have any woman you want...so go out and find her!" Jensen pulled from her gentle grip roughly, how dare she say these things!

"No! I don't want anyone else, if I can't have her then I...I'll be alone!"

"Honey it's not healthy, when did you last have sex?" Jensen felt his cheeks glow red with embarrassment when Steph said that word.

"MOM!" He shouted and ran both his hands through his brown hair nervously.

"Oh come on, grow up! A young man like yourself needs sexual connection, you need some sort of relief, no wonder you're wound so tight you must be frustrated..."

"Mom this is not okay!" Jensen replied shrilly, what had gotten into her talking like this? "I don't...I'm not frustrated I have...ways...of...oh fuck this shit! Do you ever talk to Jonah like this?" Steph blinked in surprise as if the question was absurd.

"Well no because he acts upon his primal male instinctual needs. You...oh Jensen baby I wish you would just try and get over..."

"NO!" Jensen raised a hand to silence his mother, "I will NOT forget Jane! Don't ever ask me that! You can ask anything of me...but not...THAT!" Hot tears stung his cheeks as he backed out of the kitchen, ready to walk out on his mother completely.

"Darling I...can't you see what she's done to you? She's emasculated you! You're...different! At first it was a good thing but lately..." She shook her head and approached him as he backed further out the door, "...you need to talk to someone!" Oh not her too!

"Mom I am fine, I don't need Charlie and his quack therapy, I'm...fine!"

"No you're not, oh I wish I'd listened to your sister! You need Charlie's help baby, you're not well!" What the fuck was this? Another intervention? Only this time she was in on it, was this the plan all along? Get him here to ambush him? Was Juliet hiding in a closet somewhere waiting to come out and wrap him in a straitjacket? "I wish I'd told her about...the thing you told me but I made you a promise. Your mental health is far more important than a promise honey, I think we should tell her and Charlie exactly what happened. Jane may have put a band aid on your gaping wound but it will never heal, what you really needed were stitches and you never really got that. Jensen you need to get this out of your system, suicide is not something to just move on from without any kind of therapy! This is not good for you or the rest of us..."

"I already agreed to three sessions a week with that dick, what more do you fucking people want from me, huh?" His tears were flooding down now, how could his family do this to him? Make him out to be broken and crazy? He'd just made a multi-million dollar album, gone on a sold out tour and managed to get his brother to sort out his life. How could they possibly think he was crazy and dysfunctional? This was all bullshit, he wasn't taking any more of it, fuck them all! As he marched out into the hallway, making his way to the front door, he could hear his mother's voice following him.

"Jensen, we care about you!" No, no they did not! Jonah was allowed to behave any way he wanted and that was just Jonah, but Jensen wasn't allowed to even breathe the wrong way! They were down on him in seconds, he needed help, he needed to forget Jane...fuck them and their twisted ideas! If Jonah could have Eliza, then he could have Jane...someday! He was so furious that he hadn't even noticed that he was already in his car and driving away, how dare they treat him like a child! Like someone who was incapable of functioning as an adult, well he was going to take a leaf out of his mother's playbook, like mother like son? Fine, they were all dead to him!

***

Monica was coming home in a couple of days, the occupational therapist had already been out to the house and sent the required bed, chair and bathroom aids that she would need when she got there. Jane was finding it all just a little too much to handle, she was feeling overwhelmed and the only one she could turn to was Louise. Eliza was happy in a sad situation, Jonah had given her back her smile and Jane couldn't take that away from her by offloading her fears onto her, after all she was the big sister who had to at least appear to have it all together. Louise was there every day, either visiting when needed or phoning to check on everyone, every time she did Jane made out that she was fine but secretly Louise knew better, she knew Jane better! As they sat upstairs in Jane's room away from everyone, that was when she felt comfortable enough to confess the truth...she was drowning and had to pretend she was swimming for the sake of her family. "I can't cope Lou!" Louise nodded knowingly as Jane finally told her exactly how she was feeling.

"Why do you think I'm around all the time? I know you're not coping with this and that's okay! You're not a failure just because it's overwhelming you. Not to mention the extra addition to your family?" Louise nodded towards the floor, she was of course referring to Jonah Reed who had become part of the fixtures and fittings around the house lately.

"Oh yes I know but he makes Liza happy. He seems like a genuinely nice guy!"

"I've heard his brother is even nicer!" Jane wished that she would drop that, ever since Louise found out about her acquaintance with Jensen Reed she would not let it go. She believed that Jane deserved someone rich and successful and beautiful like him, "Also the word going around Hollywood is that he's got a big...you know!" This time Louise was nodding down towards what she and Jane jokingly called the bathing suit area.

"Oh my God Lou, that's enough!"

"You should ask Eliza if it runs in the family!" Jane felt guilty about laughing while her mother was terminally ill, but sometimes a person just needed a bit of humour in their life to get through the dark times.

"Stop, I won't be able to look Jonah in the eye now!"

"It's not his eye you should be worried about!" As the best friends cackled away talking nonsense, Jane realised that this was just what she needed. A break from all the sadness, just to feel normal again, even if it was for just a few moments. "Unless we're talking the one eyed trouser snake, now that is a whole different conversation!" The laughter grew even louder as Jane's tummy hurt, but in a good way.

"Oh I needed this Lou, thanks!" Jane wiped her damp eyes; she really had needed a good laugh and an escape from everything that was going on in her life right now. Louise always had the knack to do that, every time!

"So how is Jensen Reed?" The question caught her off guard, she didn't know, she was avoiding him. Well that wasn't technically true, she was focusing on one thing and that was her mum and her return home.

"I don't have room for anything but mum, he's a stranger who doesn't concern me!" Who was she trying to convince, Louise or herself? Of course Jensen concerned her, she did care but he was thousands of miles away and he had a mother who loved him, not to mention his solid relationship with his older sister that he had told Jane he yearned for, now he had it. He didn't need her, and she certainly didn't need him to distract her even though her best friend, her mother, her sister and his brother were all encouraging her to contact him and talk. Jane couldn't do that, her brain and heart were in overload as it was, she couldn't cope with anything else. She was hanging by a thread as it was.

"Oh Janey, keep trying to convince yourself that, but methinks you doth protest too much!"

"The actual phrase is the lady doth protest too much, methinks!" Louise gave her the finger and stuck out her tongue.

"Alright smart ass! I forgot you were a Shakespeare geek! Anyway I know what I meant, you like the guy and you're not going to convince me, your bestest friend in the entire universe, otherwise!" She was right, nothing much got past Louise! She was indeed the best friend a girl could ever have; her loyalty was admirable because Jane really was a piece of work. She did care about Jensen, she knew the darkest corners of his mind, she knew what made him happy and she knew what made him sad. During those ten days she paid attention to everything he said, she would sit and listen to him when he just rambled on about his brother and sister, his entire family and what frustrated him. At the time they shared common ground, but since then both their siblings had grown into better people and found each other. Jonah and Eliza were good together, she wished that Jensen could see it, maybe he would realise that his brother was actually not dissimilar to himself, he was a good guy who struggled with demons like everyone else. "So what do you think about going to the cinema on Friday night?"

"I can't Lou, Liza and Jonah go to Millport on a Friday night, I have to be around..."

"Ach bollocks! You can spare a couple of hours for your friend, surely?" She gave Jane those puppy eyes that made it impossible for her to say no, and this time was no different as she easily gave in.

"Fine, but I'm keeping my phone with me in case!"

"Yeah yeah!" Louise waved a hand and blew a raspberry at her, this felt like old times; before Will, before Nancy, before Jensen and before her mother got ill. If only she could go back to that carefree young girl she used to be. She was going to be twenty nine in a couple of months but she couldn't think about that right now, although maybe she should.

"I do think about him, but I have no right!" Louise gave her a curious look; how could she possibly understand without all of the facts? Oh how close she had got to telling her that she'd abducted him and now he was suffering from Stockholm Syndrome and like everyone with that syndrome he was in complete denial that Jane had done anything wrong. If only he would wake up to the fact that she committed a crime, she held him against his will chained up and unable to leave. That wasn't technically true, if he'd wanted to go he would have escaped, there were so many chances for him to go and he didn't take them. There was no way that she could tell Louise, it had been a running joke between them ever since Jane overheard Eliza and her former friends plotting the very same thing, to actually do it was absolutely bonkers.

"Well clearly he thinks otherwise, he's done everything to get your attention and you just swat him away like an inconvenient little bug. He's a superstar girl, have some respect! He can have any girl he wants and he wants you! Sometimes you make me so mad, if it was me I'd be right in there!" Of course she wouldn't have kidnapped him, not like Jane who was a complete and utter moron who made the worst decisions. Louise would never have done what she did because Louise was a good person, Jane was a bad person and karma was catching up on her. She was bad through and through and her punishment was for her world to completely fall apart and she truly believed that.

"Lou, I think that I'm a bad person. Do you think I'm a bad person?"

"Certainly not! What makes you think that? All you ever did was help people; you're still helping people! You put everyone before yourself, where are you getting this shite?" Louise seemed annoyed by this, as if it was impossible for her best friend to be an awful human being. "Do you honestly think that I'd be your friend if that were true? Do you honestly think that a global superstar like Jensen Reed would be moving heaven and earth to get your attention if that were the case? I can answer that for you, it's a no!" Jane wished that she could believe that, she wished that she had the same faith in herself as Louise had in her. As they were debating whether or not Jane was the worst person in the world, a loud knock on her bedroom door made them both jump, it was Eliza and she looked anxious.

"Liza? Is everything...oh God is it mum?" Eliza shook her head.

"Janey, please come downstairs, it's Jensen!" Jensen? Was he here? What was happening? Jane followed her sister down the stairs where Jonah stood talking on his mobile phone looking stressed.

"Jensen, where's mom? Where are you? Jensen focus!"

"What's happening?" Jane mumbled as Jonah looked relieved to see her.

"Oh thank the Lord...Jensen? Jensen!" He covered the phone with his hand and addressed Jane, "Janey please will you talk to him? I have to call my mom or my sister or...someone!" Jane began to panic as Louise appeared at the bottom of the stairs next to Eliza.

"What's wrong? Will someone tell me what is going on?" Jane demanded shrilly as Jonah handed her the phone and headed out to the hall.

"He's been drinking I...I think! I don't know what to do! He's slipped, fuck!" Jonah grabbed a fistful of his hair and clenched his eyes shut. Jane put the phone to her ear and heard that beautiful voice, slurring!

"Jensen?" Jane's voice was so tiny she barely recognised it herself, "Jensen it's me, Jane!" There was a short pause on the line, then he finally spoke.

"Oh, Janey! Goooooood! I jush wanted taaa sayyyyyy...goodbye!" Goodbye? Where was he going? What was happening? How could he touch a drink after everything, he knew better than that! "I'm gonna goooooo...shuffle off dis mortal coil! I've had enough baby girl..." He let out a sad sigh, "...haaaaad enough! Sooooo...sayonara!" Before she could respond the line suddenly went dead, Jane's heart felt as if it had stopped as she turned to Eliza and Louise trying to control her breathing. What the hell had he done?

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[heyitsyn]

MANAGER!SEIJOH AU

a/n: this is kind of an au like what if you were

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anon:

- 🥺👉🏻👈🏻 i would like to request a seijoh!manager reader who’s a first year and is siblings with ushi and the team’s reaction to finding out that she was supposed to go to shiratorizawa with ushi and their reaction with her getting along with the shiratorizawa volleyball team and maybe the manager is a small cute soft little energetic ball of sunshine 🥺🥺 also hewwo, hope youre doing well! ☺️ -🎷🐛

- Ir seijoh manager series is so gooood. Can we get something where by some weird reason yn-chan is close to ushijima and tendou and the seijoh boys dont know about it and how they'd react to her being so affectionate w them ahahwindkdn

EVERYONE SHUT UP AND LOOK AT HOW FREAKING PRETTY TENDOU IS LIKE AKLFDJLASKFJDLSKFJDSFLKD

okayokayokay

so this is a what if thing

like what if ushijima was your older brother

SLKFDJADFLIJSDKLDF I CAN ALREADY IMAGINE OIKAWA SCREAMING

you didnt exactly have the best relationship with your mom

you remember when you were younger that she used to yell at your brother for using his left hand and you got angry a lot because you were fiercely protective of your brother

this caused her to yell at you too for being nosy and being involved in something you shouldnt be in

duh we know that ushi’s dad takashi actually supported him for this and protected him too and you were also a papa’s girl so you always ran to him

he understood you both better and while your mother worked, he was at home taking care of you two

then when they mentioned wanting to separate, you were very sad but somewhat relieved

mostly because you hated hearing your parents arguing and you felt bad for your brother as he constantly did whatever to get you out of the house

thats what brought on your love for volleyball

you werent exactly the best player but you were interested in it and often watched matches with him

but you also liked volleyball because your brother liked it

you liked whatever your brother liked

he adored you too and he was a boy who didnt talk much due to your mother but he was always a talker with you

especially when you couldnt sleep, he would sneak you out of your room and you both would run to the kitchen and eat ice cream

even with just a 2 year age difference, he looked as if he was older than you due to his massive height

‘just wait nii-chan! i will drink enough milk to reach your height!’

*insert lenny face*

AKLDJFSLDKFJDF I HATE MYSELF

CAN I PLEASE DIE

however

when they divorced, you thought your father would take both you and ushi

like the lady at the court even asked you where you wanted to go and not a breath of hesitation you chose your father

you weren’t very concerned because you knew your brother was going to choose your dad as you both were closer to him

so imagine your surprise when he said he didnt care and naturally, the mother would get the child

lowkey you felt hella betrayed and when your dad whisked you away overseas, there was this grudge you held against toshi

yall youre like 5

i would be hella mad too if my brother chose the person who yells at him all the time

in california, your father made sure you still remembered your brother and you tried to detach from the japanese lifestyle to your new one but you just couldnt

maybe around 6 years you were already fed up with the hot california heat and you wanted to go back to japan to see toshi again

you got over that grudge years ago but your mother refused to have any contact or anything to do with your father and so that included you too

she refused to let you both video chat and any type of connection

your dad obviously noticed your sad expressions and your obvious longing to go back to your brother again and so he arranged something

you shut the door gently before taking off your shoes by the doorway

the large house was often quiet except for the constant typing of a keyboard in your father’s study

‘tadaima’

you meekly mumbled but his sense of hearing never wavered so he heard your voice

‘oh? y/n?’

his voice echoed through the hallways and you heard his chair squeak as it was moved back so he could stand

your sock-cladded feet padded against the hard wood floor and you walked towards his study where indeed he was standing there

your father has definitely aged yet his job as a coach made him as fit as he was decades ago

as much as it disgusted you, you could tell what your friends meant when they said your dad was good-looking

they actually said your dad was hot but you refuse to acknowledge that

you and your friends are like 12 tf

you closed the door and sat down on the loveseat at the corner of the room as it was your designated spot

‘hey, papa’

you greeted with a smile and he gave you the same grin

‘i ordered f/f (favorite food) for dinner tonight so try and listen for the bell to ring, okay?’

you nodded

there was bit of small talk and you asked about his team while he asked about school and you both arranged to hang out over the weekend at some ice cream shop

the conversation dragged on until you heard the doorbell and you ran to the door to answer the delivery man

your dad put out the plates on the table and you excitedly dug in

‘also, you remember your grandmother? and her terrible back?’

oh god of course you did

they lived about 30 minutes away from your house in japan and she constantly worried your father bc the woman was approaching 90 and was still picking peppers!

with old coach ukai

‘what did she do now?’

your father chuckled at the exasperation in your voice

‘she misses you. says something about the family’s princess needing to go back to her country or something’

there was a smile in your face

your grandmother was your favorite and she always said you were the princess

she hated your mother because of how insensitive she was so she only acknowledged you as the only other female in the family

obviously your brother was also liked but there was just a special bond between you and your grandmother

‘so when are we going back?’

you asked and it was clear that you were excited at the thought of going back to japan as you havent been back since you moved due to your father’s busy job and your school

takashi swallowed his food before revealing the news

‘actually, if you want, you could finish your schooling there. but only until college first though because your old man needs you over here too’

nah bro you didnt even care about the last part

literally your fork fell to the table and you shrieked 

‘WHAT?! SERIOUSLY?!’

and thus brought you back to japan

you stayed with your grandmother on your dad’s side and you quickly got accustomed back to japan life

OH

your BROTHER!

okay

so waka-chan def heard you coming back

your mother was grumbling about it the other day and he was sure he heard your name in there

‘sdkfjkdslfjdkslfj y/n dkfjlsdkfjldkf’

LMAO THATS ME TRYING TO SAY THAT WAKA COULDNT UNDERSTAND WHAT SHE SAID SINCE SHE WAS MUMBLING SHE WASNT KEYBOARD SMASHING LMAO

there was a mutual giddiness in there too and he was excited to see you again after many years without contact

however

there was a bit of fear in there that thought back to when you were younger and his choice of not really having a specific parent despite your pleads to stay together with him

but he was going to make sure your bond was still intact!

he would do anything in his power to do so!

when you arrived

your dad accompanied you back to japan and you both were walking out to the exit of the airport when you saw your grandmother excitedly waving a sign around

in bold sparkly letters, it said ‘USHIJIMA’

okay wait i love grandma usui 

you quickly ran over to her and she grasped you into her arms

‘nana’

you sobbed and she hugged you tightly

‘im so happy youre back home’

your father shook hands with the friend she brought to help drive you guys back home

old man ukai was basically the chauffeur but hes really good friends with your nana so it was okay

the entire ride you guys basically caught up with each other and you couldnt help but laugh whenever your dad would go on a rant about your grandma being too reckless and your nana defending herself

‘oh stop it, takashi. i was only given one life and if it’s over, it’s over. for now, ill live it how i see fit!’

your old family home was exactly as you remember it but you didnt expect the 6′2 boy in the living room

‘nii-chan’

you meekly whispered and he let out a soft smile before opening his big arms

you ran into them and he held you tightly

‘i missed you. so much’

he whispered and you nodded 

it was def such a nice thing to have your brother again

oooo your dad been knew that you would be sticking to waka like you did when you were itty bitty young

so when you practically begged waka to stay at your nana’s house the entire summer, he couldnt refuse you

duh your mom went to see you but you just quietly sat there and smiled at her

polite but distant

due to being around waka so much, you naturally went to his volleyball practices and their training camp

there

you met his friends and you guys quickly got acquainted especially with tendo bc he was just so fun

and he was your brother’s boyfriend best friend

the others were still kinda distant with you ahem ahem im looking at you shirabu

but they were mostly amazed at how powerful the genetics played in your appearances because wowza you were beautiful

lmao dont let waka hear them say that bc they would be benched all season in a single snap

during training camp, you usually sat at the sides or you would be their stand-in manager

goshiki absolutely LOVES you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOSHIKI MY SON MY BABY

him and you were the same age so there was an easier way of being friends and your energies just matched so well

he would run up to you whenever he got a play right and you would ruffle his hair affectionately

LADKSJFLDSKFS FLASHBACK TO TENDO!SISTER X GOSHIKI

‘y/n-chan!’

‘y/n-chan!’

‘y/n-chan!’

hell even ushi was getting annoyed at goshiki’s constant need for you

tendo would steal you away and he would be giggling to you about how adorable you were and you just giggled along bc wow this beautiful man is really talking to me right now

ALKSDJFLKSF CAN YOU TELL IM ALSO A TENDOODOO SIMP?

‘cmere, y/n-chan. i taught toshi this the other day and he was very impressed and wanted me to do it again. okay so it goes in a rhyme, ya ready?’

you nodded along and he shot you a close-eyed smile before starting to draw on the dirt with a stick

‘there once was a man with-’

lets just say

you were definitely your brother’s sister

sometimes though

you would try and go towards the calmer players to get away from the rowdiness from baby daddy tendo and baby goshiki

you would find them at the gym just doing drills and at the sight of you, they would turn red but continue playing

they didnt really mind seeing you there bc youve always been such a positive energy and cheered them on which gave them strength

‘NICE ONE OHIRA-SAN!’

‘WAHHH SO COOL YAMAYAMA-SAN!’

you were like a cute ball of serotonin >o<

‘wah, of course its expected for you guys to be the top in the prefecture. youre like,,,,, silent but deadly~!’

duh a compliment from a girl?

dead

shirabu’s bangs would get in the way of his vision sometimes yall i will never stop making fun of that ridiculously adorable haircut so you would use a clip and tuck it away for him

this big babie is so awkward that he turns red when you whisper in his ear that you were done

semisemi baby and you got along bc you guys had a similar taste in music and because you lived in california, he was fascinated that you were in the music capital of america

‘did you see celebrities down the street?’

he asked you excitedly one day during lunch

you stopped then smiled softly

‘semisemi-kun, i didnt live at that part of california’

nah to him, america is just filled with celebrities

OH DEAR BABY BOY KAWANISHI

taichi is a generally quiet guy

like you thought he was actually selectively mute when you first met him

but you gradually got him to talk and you would help him whenever he would want to practice

usually it was during the ungodly hours of the morning

you woke up and went to grab a drink from the common room but you noticed his large build exiting the door so you followed him into the gym

‘kawanishi-san?’

you called out and felt guilty when he jumped 

‘oh, hey’

he aknowledged

‘wha-’

you stopped to yawn causing your eyes to close making you miss the brief second of softness that flashed in his eyes

‘what are you doing?’

you tiredly asked

taichi dusted off his trackpants after kneeling down to rummage through his bag and you couldnt help but gawk at his height

‘im training early’

he answered

‘why? is it because you want to keep up with the others?’

you mumbled and he was surprised for a second but reverted back to his stoic expression

‘i have to make sure i am able to reach my seniors level for next year’

taichi turned away to grab a stray ball and you moved to go to the storage room for the ball cart

‘oi, what are you doing? go back to bed’

he said from the other side of the gym but you just looked back at him with a tired grin

‘meh, i want to spend time with you, senpai’

you reasoned

he shook his head before walking over to you then ruffled your hair

‘no wonder youre so tiny. you dont sleep enough and let your body grow’

yep that was the closest youve gotten to taichi joking with you

usually, hes training and when hes in the zone, nothing else has his attention but the ball

maybe thats why the others ahem goshiki has said that he was very scary

his game face was practically a mean face

basically you spent the entire training camp with them and then soon, you were going back to school

duh everyone hmm maybe not shirabu bc he most definitely read the school book of rules thought you would be going to shiratorizawa with them 

but you broke the news to them one afternoon and imagine the tears from both tendo and goshiki

‘WHHYYYY!!!!’

‘NOOO!!!!!’

‘why can’t you?’

semi asked and you were about to answer when shirabu beat you to it

‘the school doesnt allow late transfers’

oh right

the american school system was set in a different schedule than a japanese school system

it was considered the summer for them yet school already started a few months ago

since shiratorizawa was a very academically and physically prestigious school, they refused anyone who would potentially be late or behind their curriculum

‘so where ya headed to then, chibi?’

tendou pouted and you leaned against his arm

‘hmm some school named aoba johsai? i dont know its near my grannie’s so that’s all that mattered’

oh dear

USHIJIMA NO Y/N WILL NOT ASK TOORU TO GO TO SHIRATORIZAWA

they consider seijoh a rival bc theyve played against them practically in every prefecture tournament and they were worried for that infamous setter

‘ne, y/n-chan, promise us that you won’t be swept away by them! especially a guy named oikawa tooru!’

uhhh

well

tendou’s warning was kinda ignored bc you ended up being seijoh’s manager

hehe

surprise?

but they weren’t really really shocked tho bc they knew you liked volleyball so you would naturally be in the volleyball team

even as a manager

meanwhile in seijohhh

OooOOOoOoOooooo sEiJOOhHHHH~~~~~~

okay so you were actually registered under your father’s last name usui rather than the ushijima last name

therefore you werent exactly immediately known as HEY! USHIJIMA’S SISTER!

you still became the manager the way you did as mentioned in part 1 

and you still are their adorable baby manager

you were aware of their oikawa’s hatred for wakawaka so you try not to talk about him even though youre literally the closest person to him

was it traitorous? 

maybe

but you actually even help them when they practice

duh the boys are like eyebrow raise emoji 

‘wow youre really into volleyball, huh, manager-chan?’

matsukawa commented and you just smiled

‘hmm, my family likes it so ive picked up a thing or two’

LMAO

little do they know your brother is literally the best volleyball player around and is a member of the under 19 team and your father is a volleyball coach in america and would someday be someone iwaizumi hajime (19) would apprentice under

there was a lot of times you thought you would slip up like your home screen was of you and waka but youve been careful to cover it up

BUT

you cant always be sneaky

it was during the first day of the tournament and you were filling up their water bottles I SWEAR WHY IS MANAGER-CHAN ALWAYS FILLING UP WATER BOTTLES when you found a familiar bunch of boys at the end of the hallway just chatting

you havent seen tendou and the boys in so long so you placed the bottles down and rushed over there so quickly

‘TOMUTOMU!’

you shouted and the oddly-haired boy turned and he gasped before grabbing you into a large hug

this grabbed tendou’s attention and he cheered then hugged you too

your giggles and happy cheers were so infectous and they just absolutely missed you so much 

these tall boys were at a advantage so someone scooped you up and you were just affectionately being talked to and hugged and LKDSJFSLDFJ SO LUCKY SO LOVED

meanwhile

the plant babies were wondering where the heck you went to 

‘y/n-chan?! where is she?!’

oikawa panicked quickly while iwaizumi hit him to shut up

‘be quiet! you won’t find her if you’re too busy freaking out!’

‘ill find her’

matsukawa volunteered and they nodded, feeling at ease of him being capable to find you if you were in trouble

but when he returned empty-handed and with large eyes, they knew something was up

they ran behind mattsun to stop and copy his shocked expression at the sight in front of them

is that

you?

with

shi

ra

to

ri

za

wa

oh my god

‘y/n-chan!’

oikawa shouted, being the first to speak

you jumped and your own eyes widened

‘oh. oh no’

you mumbled

the others were so stunned and seijoh itself was so hard to make speechless but they were just shocked

period

‘what is happening’

iwaizumi mumbled

yea the others were just shocked period

‘hey guys’

you waved and you motioned them closer

‘uhh,,, well,,, um they are my friends’

you smiled uneasily and they could see that

‘aaand?’

oikawa signalled you to say everything bc he knew it wasnt the whole story

you sighed

‘ushi,,, jima is my brother’

you mumbled the last part

but they heard you

‘HAH?!’

you cringed and the shira boys were about to move to protect you but they saw you glare at them

‘what? what about it? hes my brother? and?’

you babbled

‘but,, why are you,, in seijoh? dont get me wrong! its just,, youd naturally go to shiratorizawa right?’

mattsun waved his hands around and asked the question thats bugging the team

‘i came to the country late’

‘THE COUNTRY?!’

well,,

turns out you havent exactly told them everything about you yet :/

even when youve cleared the air and introduced waka as your brother, seijoh still didnt say anything

they were stuck in this shocked and surprised moment even at the end of the day and when you went straight to the shiratorizawa team,

they watched with wide eyes as you laughed with goshiki and was jumping around with tendou

‘AH! TOMU! MY HAIR!’

‘TORI-SAN! SATORI-SAN! TAKE THAT!’

wow you were actually really beautiful when youre happy

‘i dont think ive seen her this happy with this much energy’

makki said and they nodded

it was true

you were usually calm and collected and was the perfect balance to this chaotic team

so seeing you so free and loose with them was so refreshing, even if it was with damn ushiwaka

you finally went back to the seijoh boys and they all sent glares to the violet team before sending you a smile

‘you ready to go, manager-chan?’

watari ruffled your hair before handing you your bag to start walking to the bus

‘yea. lets go home’

as you all walked, oikawa was already starting his tantrum

‘y/n-chan~! why aren’t you that happy around us? are we not enough for you?’

oikawa whined and pouted

but you just turned to smiled at him and stopped walking to pat his head

‘im not their manager, therefore im not pressured to act like anyone except as a friend and a spectator. but i try to be as professional as i can with you guys to make sure you dont appear bad to others. and you guys are perfectly chaotic enough, adding me into the mix will just about kill coach’

oikawa didnt seem satisfied though

‘but! thats not fair! they get to see you smile and i dont!’

iwaizumi growled at him to be quiet but you beat him to it

well

you smiled at tooru but your eyes shone maliciously

‘i knew you would act like this, oikawa-san. as punishment, i gave nii-chan your phone number. good luck avoiding him now’

oikawa screamed

a/n: AAWWWWW LETS NOT KILL COACH IRIHATA OKAY? HES LIKE OUR GRANPAPA AND PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LEAVE OIKAWA ALONE WAKAWAKA-KUN!

[istherewifiinhell]

reading process: chapter 177 (I have been putting off this post cause i can tell im in the good shit and its all so thematic and delightful but if i dont make it now i never will and it will be a super segment next time)

Reading highlights (i cant read my own writing edition!)

157 now in a dad spotting mood. kdj encouraging sys about her grades

yoo mia(!!!) teasing yjh about kdj. yjh facial expression truther (looking happy when speaking about kdj)

the 3 fates use big data?

kdj WILL be killed by the person he loves most!!! (mostly wrote that down to indicate my gleeful cackling)

158 LGY baby boy baby. kids and breaks!

Kdj and Jhw are such bitches to each other i love them

reinheit.... von lohengramm yeah okay got it buddy

oh ur 800 years old it would be some bullshit like that

rvd is sooo handsome. at least 2 yjh

a permanent institution cannot exist. yes kdj i love u kdj

161 kdj doesnt date. fateful meetings ONLY. okayyyyy

jhw emotional sword moments. kdj famed peptalks

LGY: dad ABANDONED US LJH: uh. okay -> sibling mischief ensues

162 ACAB

Hankim girls trip weekend

(this note is atemporally placed) KIM DOKJA LOVE

164 the absolute good constellations are cowards

kdj peptalks Always come in clutch

165 oh to be carried by ysh as she descends like a beautiful woman

167 The kids!!! stay strong!

breaking the sky sword this was the road of the sword that broke the sky -> kuzcos poison

168 crying at this wounded monster and also themes and metaphors

yjh and kdj are the same with there cryptic plans (this was nearly illegible)

168 kdj moral rethinking disease (yjh has it)

AH! AH! Double identity stuff. name sharing. doing something nice for the guy that has scrambled your brains.

169 jhw describing ysh beauty -> smth you would like to share ma'am?

lgy the good child he is being like. hey. non het romance love exists. hell yeah little dude. poggers as they say

-> (crying because he cant think of a reason kdj should love him) NOOO his emotions are too big for his little body

yjh: i do not want to find out the answer to this question GOODBYE

ah. the speed run dress. i see

170 if you read it again. it will definitely be a different story. god. okay. okay. jesus. okay

hsy power: you cannot create the semblance of a human without it in some way. being human

ah. his mom again. it just could be that way

"its the most complicated relationship in the world" cheers bitch

172 just rolling in kdj and his mom fight

i could have sworn you used up that sky disk 100 chs ago but whatever

173 Gasp. garlic eating

"i let u die to save ur dick bro!!!"

20 years. jesus

OH FUCK MEET THE PARENT TIME. oh my god

yjh: kdj will be my compainion mom: arent you like a horrible person? Yjh: why is your family like this

double whose gonna kill our guy twist

175 yjh: i guess you mother doesnt like me. -> is that a JOKE. are you cracking a (gay tinged) joke to cope buddy?

176 "It was a distance that could be crossed, but I could never reach her. It was the same in prison and even now. this had become our distance"

guh. hes gonna listen. even if it hurts. even if it changes him

IM GOING TO ATTACK AND DETHRONE GOD

dohyuk moments against a backdrop of cthulu ass boss fight

kdj can look cool as hell when he wants to i guess damn

Cheok Jungyeong: Solidarity Forever 🎶

"i wont let you die" AHHHHHHHHH

rotating: oh god i specifically was trying to group this segment for parental vibes and themes and now my brain is mush. i need a second notebook maybe... (rereading a bit) okay something like. obviously. goes without saying. kdj is the most unreliable narrator in the world. and clearly there is more to the story, she was literally about to say it before... god stuff. but ill just note out the things i was grabbing so far. the question of how to raise a child in the apocalypse. clear with lgy and sys (like extra extremely so). and lesser with ljh. often kinda. throwing them into the fire. (or a hole. with no explanation. thanks yjh). but also supporting them (literally the incarnation stuff. cant remember where line about 'one persons gaze can mean live or death' but yes. yeah). contrast. kdj mom with the childhood environment and the tone. i think its like. kdj is almost mad about the wrong thing. but its the hurt he has. not the one he may about to have. even if hes wrong about what his mother did (i literally dont know!!) well. it has to be said.

oh also the mother constellation! theres a fun parallel there. i mean. this is of course the novel of fun parallels but still. its um. weird ctuhul twitch stream version of making a deal with the devil (in the pale moonlight -> star trek ep that also has a guy get a guy to kill someone for the good of a state. huh)

also there was dokkaebi preschool. that just seems worth mentioning. and even dokkaebi egg sys

[lesbean-zelda]

introducing, Keeping Up With the Links AU

ok it’s probably not exactly as you think but I made a fun modern/family AU with some Links and stuff!! mostly because modern AUs are fun and I’m always craving the Links being happy and having families!! now there are some Links I haven’t done yet, mainly Skyward Sword Link and his fiancée Zelda (and their baby Fi!) and some that I just don’t know how to place into the AU... the Zeldas and stuff are kinda separate so I’ll think about that later....

anyway, here’s what I call the ranch household!

I’ll introduce them in order from left to right!

Palon, Twilight Princess Link, 15 years old: (yes, I know his name means big stick in Spanish, yes it is intentional) Named in the according to the naming scheme used for his grandfather Talon and his mother Malon, he hates his real name and prefers to be called Twilight instead (Twi for short). He’s the generic angsty teen at 15 years old, even though his parents support him unconditionally he believes that nobody, except for one of the ranch’s horses truly understands him. Even though he does enjoy hard music and dresses in an edgy way, he’s really a country boy at heart. He is Timeos’ and Malon’s biological child, and their firstborn

Timeos, Ocarina of Time Link, 40 years old: Timeos is the father of the family, he loves his kids more than anything. He says he used to be quite adventurous in his teenage years, but ended up settling down quite soon after with Malon. His childhood wasn’t the kindest to him, so he is determined to give his kids the best he can do, though he sometimes has a hard time understanding their emotions. He mostly works around on the ranch, and in his free time he enjoys fishing and grilling, you know, the generic dad stuff.

Malon, Ocarina of Time Malon, 40 years old: Malon was born on the ranch her family now lives on, and she’s a kindhearted mother. She loves horses and singing, and is a wonderful cook! she is always there to listen to her kids, but when it comes to work on the ranch she can be quite lazy. Malon was friends with Ilmar’ and Aryll’s parents before their death, so when their grandmother could no longer take care of them, she happily took them in as her own. On the weekends, she offers horse riding lessons!

Ilmar, Wind Waker Link, 7 years old: Ilmar is the adopted son of the family. His and Aryll’s parents died when they both were too young to fully understand what had happened. They were taken care of by their grandmother until she got ill due to her age and could no longer take care of the two. Ilmar is an adventurous boy who loves the ocean, having lived by the beach before moving to the ranch. He dreams of being a pirate when he grows up, and loves reading stories about them.

Aryll, Wind Waker Aryll (duh), 5 years old: Aryll is the adopted daughter of the family, and Ilmar’s biological sister. She follows her older brother everywhere and tries to mimic everything he does. Like Ilmar, Aryll loves the sea, but more than that she loves birds! Malon always has to have seeds or breadcrumbs in her purse when going out anywhere, just so Aryll can feed the birds they pass by. Because of this, the birds around town have grown to know her and fly around her begging for food when she’s around. She’s even gotten to hug the birds, which Malon wasn’t too happy about not knowing where they’ve been..

Valon, Breath of the Wild Link, 2 years old: Timeos’ and Malon’s second biological child. Valon, too was named in the same vein as his eldest brother. Valon is still a toddler, so not much can be said about him yet, other than that he will put anything and everything in his mouth and that he heavily dislikes wearing pants. Even though he is already 2 years old, he has not said his first words yet. Doctors told Timeos and Malon that he will likely remain non-verbal, but will find other ways to communicate.

then..! a not very canon (in AU) name to call them, but I call them the downfall bros!

again, I will introduce them from left to right!

Ravio, a Link Between Worlds Ravio (again, duh), 14 years old: Ravio is the twin brother of Arthur and the younger brother of Reid. He is very talkative and always thinking of sneaky ways to earn a bit of money. He really enjoys cute stuff like bunnies! He and Arthur are identical twins, so to differentiate himself more from his brother, he dyed his hair a dark colour with the help of Reid. Ravio tends to steal Reid’s old CDs, and sell them to Twi. He doesn’t listen to them himself though, because he is scared of the screaming in death metal.

Arthur, a Link Between Worlds Link, 14 years old: Arthur, is short for Art, which is the nickname he most often goes by because of his love for drawing. he is a quiet kid, quite the opposite to his twin brother. He has no idea how to dress himself, which Reid often picks on him for. He enjoys drawing, and is very interested in street art and graffiti. Though, he is too scared to try it out for himself as usually that requires doing something that isn’t allowed.

Reid, a Link to the Past, Link’s Awakening, Oracle games Link, 20 years old: Reid is the older brother of Ravio and Arthur. Their parents are often away on work related trips, so the twins get dumped on him to babysit. Reid enjoys exploring abandoned and scary places, such as caves and “haunted” houses. He says he doesn’t take his brothers with him on these adventures because they’d be too scared because they’re such wussies, which is partially true, but really he just worries for their safety, as these places can be unstable. Reid has a large social media following, but not for the content of him exploring scary places. His following is mostly there due to his alternative style and a few one-off videos of him lip-syncing to music he likes. Reid often changes his hair-colour between pink, his natural colour, and his natural colour with pink stripes. His constant teasing of the twins aside, he truly loves his brothers. 

[jaysbestie]

ahshshdhsh this is my first time using the ask function in this app and i might as well take this as an opportunity. can you please write about jakey being a hopeless romantic (kinda like f2l thing) wherein they're also classmates and y/n is oblivious af? it would be very much appreciated, thank you~

hi this is a vERY late, I don't know if this is similarto what you wanted, I'm so sorry, but I hope you like it!!

Hoops and Love Letters

pairing ; f2l! basketball player! jake x gn reader

genre ; fluff

warnings ; food

summary ; jake, your best friend since you were children has started making your heart beat fast, little do you know, his is beating just as fast...

"yo jake!"

you were sitting on one of the park's benches with your best friend while eating strawberry flavored ice cream he got for you, when you heard someone call your best friend's name.

"jake!"

it was louder this time, meaning the person calling him was coming closer. Suddenly one of jake's friends, sunghoon, came into view trying to catch his breath while he sat down on the bench between you.

well now that was awkward.

he looked between you two, clueless to the situation you were in and asked,

"did I interrupt anything?"

he asked and to that question, your cheeks reddened as you turned to look at jake, noticing how his cheeks were also light crimson as he opened his mouth to answer his friend's question

"n-no you sure didn't" jake stammered. but jake never stammers?? and you just stood there, a little sad that jake answered sunghoon's question negatively and you just stood there, taken aback by jake's answer and by his stammering.

"it doesn't seem like it tho, anyways, heesung needs you in practice, jay was late and he almost got yelled at" sunghoon started talking without getting a breath, almost as if he was rapping.

you searched jake's face for a reaction and he didn't even look surprised by ths situation going on at the school's gym.

"well, y/n, I'll have to go, sadly, however, ill try to return you your book on saturday on our picnic!" he told you while he got his school bag, from the bench you sat on every day after school, and started walking behind sunghoon to the gym.

"I'll be waiting for my book!" you yelled and screamed, happy that he remembered the poetry book he borrowed from you, two weeks ago. you see, your and jake's bond was something unbreakable, being friends and classmates from a very young age and being lucky enough to be able to continue this friendship till now. you started packing your bag and put the cup from the ice cream in the park's trashcan while going to your house. there really wasn't anyone at home however you prepared your table fully and made yourself lunch. you sat down trying to find a boring enough movie so that you'll be motivated to stop watching it and study or catch a nap.

————————♡timeskip♡———————

it was now 7pm on a friday afternoon and you were currently doing your homework so that you didn't have to do them during the weekend, when your computer started alarming you that there was an incoming skype call by jake. it made you instantly smile and you answered his call watching his face brighten once he saw you had picked up.

"hey"

"hi"

"are you doing homework on a friday night?" he asked, while he looked at me as if I was a weird creature.

"yeah, I don't understand your opposition on me doing my homework on a friday night" you said, the fake offended look on your face made jake laugh and that moment it was like you heard an angel laugh.

"have you prepared anything for our picnic tomorrow?"

oh shIT

you panicked

"I swear to god, y/n y/l/n, did you forget about one of the most important days of the month?" it was his turn to act offended now taking a dramatic pose acting as if he was crying.

you were about to start crying because, hoW. COULD. YOU. FORGET. YOUR PICNIC?!?!

"oH HELL NOH, how could I forget our picnic?!" you stated nervously hoping that he didn't notice the panic on your face when he mentioned the picnic.

"great, I was hoping you remembered about it because, well,,, tomorrow's picnic will be extra special, than just a day on the calendar" he said, he seemed nervous and by his sentence you became nervous too, hoping that something joyful will be behind this "extra special picnic"

"YO Y/N YOU THERE?" he yelled and then proceeded to slap his laptop's screen, just to make sure his computer wasn't the problematical one.

"yeah sorry, my laptop started glitching, see you tomorrow at the park!" you yelled at him and ended the call in a hurry.

you sat up from your desk's chair and walked in front of your mirror

"I now have to go down and prepare for tomorrow's picnic" you said to try and convince yourself to go down and prepare however your plan was interrupted when your phone rang, the name of your other best friend lighting up the screen.

"YANG JUNGWON YOU LITTLE MONSTER" you screamed as you picked up the phone.

" yo y/n what is your proBLEM?!"

"YOU OBVIOUSLY"

"what did I do this time bestie, explain to me please"

"well I was about to go prepare for my monthly picnic with jake but you decided that it was a good idea to call me".

"oooh, jake, the guy that likes you but doesn't know how to tell you"

"plEASE, he doesn't like me, we've been friends for a couple years and he sees me as a good friend"

"ok but like, since yOU like him, why don't you speak to him about it?"

at this point you are heading to the kitchen in order to get ready for tomorrow, since hanging up on jungwon wouldn't happen soon.

"if I tell him I might ruin our friendship, won"

"he likes you too tho, even sunghoon noticed!"

"since when do you hang out with sunghoon?"

"since you were too busy going on dates with jake"

"please, we had study meetings"

"yeah call it whatever you want love"

you tried to respond to jungwon but nothing came out of your mouth so jungwon continued,

"anyways, I'm hanging up so you can prepare for your picnic, by the way, wear those brown corduroy pants I got you for your birthday!!"

"yeah fine, I'll make sure to fill you in on what happened won, good night!"

"night y/n!"

with that you went to prepare some quick snacks for tomorrow and also got some of your favorite jellies from a seven eleven nearby, all because they were also jake's favorite jellies.

———————♡timeskip #2♡———————

you woke up by the sudden sound of your alarm, you didn't even remember setting an alarm but you find have time to worry about stuff like this as you wanted to get up and get ready quickly for the picnic.

your phone rang and jake's number lit up your phone's screen.

"yo jake, bro, homie, fella, how you doin" that was the weirdest thing you've ever, like eVER, said in your life.

"Y/N Y/L/N ARE YOU DRUNK THIS EARLY IN THE MORNING?!"

"of course no jakey, it's 11:29 am, the picnic is in two hours "

" uh uh uh- special picnic" jake emphasized special once again.

" oh well, guess I'll take more time to get ready since its spEcial" you said, mimicking the way he said special.

" I swear to our friendship, y/n, if you're not ready by the time I come to pick you up, consider yourself not my friend" he said sarcastically, adding a laugh at the middle of his sentence.

"oh well, it's your lucky day because I have just started getting ready!" you lied, you walked to your dresser and started searching for that one pair of brown corduroy pants jungwon suggested you wear.

"I'm hanging up jake, gotta go get ready, see you at 1 outside my house!" you hung up without giving him a chance to reply.

bingo

you finally found the pants, searching for a shirt now. you found a white blouse you had got last Halloween for a pirate costume but never wore it. It didn't look like a costume shirt anyway, you shrugged and got into the bathroom to take a shower and get ready afterwards.

You were done with your shower now, the time was 12 pm and you had an hour left before jake got to your place to pick you up.

You put on your clothes and matched a pearl necklace (which was, indeed, a gift by jake) with your outfit, you opted for some classic black converse high tops as for the shoe choice, and with that, your outfit was complete.

You headed downstairs to prepare your basket, full with snacks and fizzy drinks, also getting a light blanket with you, just in case.

You heard a car honk from outside and checked the time, it was 12 : 40, twenty minutes before jake should be here to pick you up. The same honking sound was heard again and you headed to the door to see if it was jake by any chance. It was jake indeed, you got your basket, your keys, sprayed some perfume on and left the house, not forgetting to lock the door behind you.

"well hello there, y/n"

you were ready to tell general kenobi literally at his face, the pun must've been intended as you had a star wars movie marathon some days ago.

"hello to you too, jakey"

You both got in the car and jake turned the music up, a song unknown to you playing on the radio. Jake seemed different today, he seemed nervous, something unusual to him.

"is everything okay jake?"

"yeah why?" he responded while he let out a small laugh.

"oh, nothing!"

The drive went by quickly, however jake had taken you to a place you thought you'd never see again, it was the place where you and jake had first met. A park filled with bushes and sunflowers, huge trees and benches along with wooden tables. You were on the verge of tears, left speechless, you opened the car's door, taking your basket and started running around the park laughing loudly. You were feeling truly happy.

Jake was watching from inside the car, deciding to open his door too, taking his own basket, locking the car and started running towards you.

After running around for some good minutes, you sat on bench and left your baskets on a wooden table, starting to set your food in order for your picnic to start.

You had started eating your second sandwich when jake interrupted you, making you put your sandwich down and turning your attention to him.

"yo y/n, do you remember those love letters you kept on receiving last year?"

"of course I do! I've been searching till this day! but what does that have to with our special picnic?"

"well, I'm the one who sent those letters" jake said, lowering his head and starting to fiddle with his hands.

"well, that was a good one!" you started laughing. Noticing the situation jake was in right now, it only meant one thing, "WAit, you're not joking?"

"not really" he said giggling sadly, lifting his stare and watching into your eyes. You extended your arms and reached out to hug him.

"why didn't you tell me?"

"wait, you really didn't know I liked you? The boys kept on telling that my crush on you was too obvious!" he said, looking annoyed by his friends that moment.

"I mean, you did throw a basket ball at me once that had, "let me take you out" all over it but I didn't think you meant thAT TAKING OUT" you said, laughing at the old memory you had remembered.

well, y/n, would you officially allow me to take you out?" he asked, a glowing happy slice on his face when he noticed your emotionless face, "on A DATE, I mean, not with a basket ball!" he added. With that, you burst into laughter and looked at him, showing him your brightest smile.

"of course I'll let you take me out, on a date, jake"

[oikawaplssteponme]

can i request bakugou fluff where the reader who is usually like sweet joins in on bakugou, kirishima and kaminari's "boys night" and plays video games with kiri and kami and is SO competitive and yells and stuff and beats them and bakugou is just like ... woah and its all fluffy 👉👈 sorry if this is messy, i hope you are taking care of yourself ! <3

hi love!! omg this is such a cute request, i love☺️💕hope you have a great day b!

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Boys Night

pairing: Katsuki Bakugou x reader

warnings: swearing

genre: fluff!

a/n: mmmmm more bakugou fluff 🤩 theyre playing Mario Kart btw(for the sake of this blurb let’s pretend they don’t live in dorms for their third year 😁)

~

“What are you guys doing this weekend?” You asked.

“I’m going out of town with my parents,” groaned Mina.

“I’m on house arrest because I flunked that chemistry exam,” sighed Sero. You chuckled.

“What are you doing Bakugou?”

Bakugou looked over at you, crossing his arms.

“Hanging out with Dunce Face and Shitty Hair.”

“Yeah were having a guys night! It’s gonna be super manly,” smiled Kirishima.

“WAIT Y/N, you should like, totally join us,” smirked Denki. Your face grew warm.

“Oh are you sure? I don’t wanna intrude on your plans...”

“No you should totally come! It’ll be super fun!” insisted Kirishima. You looked over at Bakugou, whose face seemed to be turning as red as Kirishima’s hair.

“Uh do you mind if I join you guys this weekend?” You asked Bakugou. He shrugged.

“I don’t care dumbass.”

“Then it’s settled! Y/N, were meeting at my place at 8 o’clock on Saturday,” explained Denki. You smiled.

“Sounds good.”

You walked up to the front door of the Kaminari household. You were a bit nervous but excited to hang out with your friends. More so nervous to be hanging with Bakugou outside of of school.

You knocked on the door and it opened immediately.

“Y/N IS HERE!” shouted Denki behind himself, “hey Y/N, you look great!”

You chuckled.

“Thanks my sweatpants and I are happy to make an appearance.”

Denki led you downstairs to his basement. The LED lights and smell of energy drinks made it clear that this certainly was a ‘guys night’.

Bakugou and Kirishima sat on some bean bags while they taunted each other as they gamed.

“SHITTY HAIR I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU SEND THAT DAMN BLUE SHELL MY WAY ILL KILL YOU!”

“I HAD TO!”

“Uh hi guys...” you waved shyly. Kirishima paused the game.

“Oh hey Y/N! Here we’ll add you in after Bakugou and I finish,” said Kiri. You nodded. You took a seat next to Bakugou on the open bean bag.

“Hi dumbass...” he whispered.

“Hi...”

“Damn it Bakugou! Beat me at the last second!” laughed Kirishima.

“Alright new round. Here’s a controller Y/N.” Kaminari handed you a remote and switched the game settings to four players. You all picked your characters and waited for the game to load.

“Hey now go easy on them,” joked Kaminari. You chuckled.

“I think I’ll be okay...”

The screen flashed and all your characters appeared.

3...

2...

1...

GO!

You immediately pressed onto the gas button and off your character went, surpassing the rest of the boys.

“WAIT A DAMN MINUTE-”

You drove through every turn and jump with ease as Bakugou, Kiri, and Denki attempted to catch up.

“What the hell!? You some secret video game addict or something?” huffed Kaminari. You chuckled.

“Maybe you boys just suck.”

“Oh they’ve got comebacks now!” laughed Kiri.

“I think you guys should be worrying about making a comeback, not me. I’m about to lap Bakugou.”

“HELL NO!”

Bakugou playfully nudged your elbow in hopes of you losing control of your remote. You repeated the action back to him.

“Aw is someone a sore loser?! It’s okay Katsuki I’ll give you some tips after I beat you,” you teased.

“Quiet!”

Bakugou nudged you once again. This time a little too hard, causing him to fall off of his bean bag and onto you.

“SHIT-”

“BAKUGOU-”

“Bro how did you still win?” questioned Kaminari. He pointed to the screen where your character was next to the first place symbol. Bakugou looked down at you. He had his arms on each side of your face holding himself up.

“I’ll beat you next time dumbass.”

You smirked.

“We’ll see about that. Round two?”

~

After about 15 rounds of video games, you all were exhausted. You had once each round, causing the boys’ competitive natures to pop out even more. They couldn’t believe that their sweet school friend was ruthless when it came to video games. One person found it especially attractive.

You found yourself on the bean bags once more. More specifically, you found yourself resting your head on Bakugou’s leg as the two of you laid across the span of bean bags.

“You cheated,” groaned Kiri.

“I did not!” You laughed.

“Honestly I like this competitive side of Y/N,” said Kaminari.

“It’s hot,” blurted out Bakugou. Your eyes grew and you looked up at him. He eyed you, keeping a cheeky smile on his face.

“Well I’ve gotta get home,” you explained. You sat up and grabbed your things.

“Okay next weekend we are playing again and I am determined to beat Y/N!” proposed Denki. You laughed.

“I doubt that Kaminari. Well thanks again guys, I’ll see you Monday.” You began to walk up the stairs.

“Hold up. I’ll-uh-I’ll walk you out.” Bakugou ran after you. The basement filled with “ooooo’s” from Kaminari and Kirishima.

“Thanks Katsuki.”

Bakugou led you to the front door and opened it for you.

“So listen, um, maybe next weekend we game at my place. Just the two of us? If you’d like to...” said Bakugou. Your face grew hot but you nodded happily.

“I’d love that.”

“Cool...so I’ll see you later then...” said Bakugou nervously. You smiled. You took a small step towards Bakugou, kissing his cheek. He blushed intensely.

“I’ll see you later Katsuki. Maybe next time you’ll actually win.”

“Oh I plan to.”

•

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[kaaytea]

Yaku Morisuke x reader

Summary: Yaku insisted that he didn't need your help, but the sound of glass breaking over the phone said otherwise.

Warnings: none

A/n: Yaku canonically has 2 little brothers now🥰 this is basically a gift for bug anon and @hikari-writes​ anyways enjoy mwah!!💖

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"Hi baby!" You happily chirped into the phone, "I'm excited for our date! It's been a while since we've gone on one."

There was a pause on the other end, you could hear shuffling and a few muffled giggles.

"Stop it you two! I'm sorry (y/n) but we're gonna have to postpone our date, my Aunt fell ill so my parents asked me to watch Yuji and Shiori While they go look after her. I'm really sorry I know how excited you were"

You let out a small laugh and shifted your phone to your other ear as you went to pick up your bag, "It's ok Mori, we can just reschedule for next weekend. How about I come over anyway? It sounds like you'll need the help."

"Ah you don't have to do that, I can usually handle them and I don't want you to-"

Yaku was cut off by the sound of a glass breaking followed by two voices

"ooooo Oniisan is gonna kill yooooou"

"No! He's gonna kill you because I didn't do it!"

Mori let out a tired sigh, "On second thought some help would be greatly appreciated."

"I'll be over in ten minutes, sit tight sweetie!"

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The Yaku family home wasn't too far from yours, being only a little over an eight-minute walk away. You'd been there plenty of times throughout the years after befriending Morisuke in junior high; your younger self would probably explode if they knew you'd end up dating that cute boy with pretty eyes and wavy, toffee hair who walked home the same way you did. The Yaku's basically became your second home at this point so helping Mori watch his little brothers wasn't that rare of an event.

You hopped up the steps to the humble house and knocked on the door, which swang open a few seconds after revealing a flustered Yaku Morisuke.

"Thank you for helping (y/n), I’m sorry.. this isn't exactly what I had in mind for us today," he said as you walked in, pressing a kiss to your cheek in the process.

"I don't mind helping you out Mori, sure it's not the same as a dinner date but we always have fun when watching the boys," you offered him a smile, which he returned, and followed him into the main room where you were immediately tackled by his brothers.

"(Y/n)-chan!" Yuji jumped up from his seat, abandoning the gaming controller he was holding leaving Shiori to win the game they were currently playing, and bounced over to you to hug your waist. Shiori followed closely behind his older brother and latched on to your waist as well.

"Hey you two!" You wrapped an arm around both boys and hugged them back, both of them looked up at you with big smiles.

They were looking more and more like Morisuke each time you saw them -which was understandable seeing as they're all brothers.

Yuji, the older of the two, shared the same toffee hair as his elder brother but Shiori's, while similar, was a few shades darker than Mori's. All three of them had the same chocolate-colored eyes and delicate freckles dusted on their cheeks though.

"Alright get off them, this might surprise you two but they need to do this thing called breathing," Yaku said from where he was leaning against the couch.

Both boys pulled away, Shiori lingering a little longer, and then dragged you over to the couch to play videogames with you.

Videogames were the most popular form of entertainment whenever you came to watch them. Yuji was scary good at games and almost always won when the four of you played; he could honestly rival Kenma's abilities.

Because there were only three controllers Shiori always sat on your lap so the both of you could take turns, but you had a sneaking suspicion it was because he was a little more attached to you and liked to be near you.

"Are you sure you don't want to play (y/n)-chan?" Shiori looked up at you from his spot on your lap with an innocent look.

"I'm sure Shi, I'm having much more fun watching you play," you leaned closer to him and whispered," Plus, I can help you beat your brothers this way."

He grinned at you and looked forward again to the tv. It seemed as though today's game of choice was Smash Bros Ultimate.

The three brothers started the game with Yuji instantly knocking Mori off the map resulting in him to yell out in frustration. Yaku could be very petty when he wanted so he spent most of the game targeting Yuji, leaving Shiori to sit safely on the sidelines. The game was coming to a close with Mori and Yuji both having one life left. Mori took a wild chance and ended up hitting Yuji off the map making the younger boy cry out in shock. That's when you guided Shiori over to Mori's character and won the match.

"No fair! (y/n)-chan helped you Shiori!" Yuji whined.

"I have no idea what you mean Yuji," you gave him a smile as he pouted at you; he took gaming very seriously.

"Ok ok, stop attacking (y/n) and Shi, why don't we go outside for a bit? The both of you have been in here playing games all day," Yaku got up and turned off the gaming console and tv then turned back to look at the two boys.

"Oooook," they both said before racing to the door. They pushed at each other in attempts to sabotage the other causing you to laugh at their antics. You were so engrossed in the younger boys race that you didn't notice Yaku standing in front of you until he flicked your head.

"You totally helped him win, didn't you" Mori stated with a playful glare.

You got up and pressed a kiss to his nose, "Maybe I did maybe I didn't. Why? Do you want me to help you win next time?" Mori blushed at your response then teasingly hit your shoulder.

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You and Yaku sat on the wooden porch together watching the younger boys kick around a soccer ball. Mori's arm was around your waist, his thumb occasionally rubbing soft circles into your hip.

"Niisan?" Shiori had diverged from Yuji and now stood in front of Mori and you, nervously fiddling with the hem of his shirt.

"What's up bud?"

"Can...can you teach me how to play volleyball?"

Mori honestly looked like he could cry when the words 'teach me to play volleyball' left his little brother’s mouth. He'd been hoping that at least one of his brothers would become interested in the sport and it seemed quiet Shiori would be the one.

Mori stood up with a grin on his face, "Sure Shi! Come on, we'll teach you how to receive first."

You smiled watching Shiori run after Morisuke; Yuji and Shiori really looked up to him, it's like they think he hung the stars in the sky himself.

"Yuji!" You called out. The boy looked up from where he was kicking around the soccer ball, "Wanna come help me make dinner?"

"Yeah!"

Yuji happily trailed after you to the kitchen, hopping around from foot to foot as he blabbered on about a Tv show.

You honestly didn't know where he got all his energy from, everyone else in his family was significantly less hyper; though, his cheery attitude was one of your favorite things about him.

"Alright Yuji, what should we make?"

He stopped his bouncing and brought a hand to his chin, his face scrunching up as he pondered his options.

"Ramen!"

You gave him a nod and searched through the cabinets for the noodle packets you were, oh so familiar with. You pulled out enough for four people, placing them on the counter. You then moved to the refrigerator -just eating the packaged noodles wouldn't be the healthiest, so you decided to put your own spin on it. After a quick once over of the fridge you pulled out some carrots, spinach, and a few eggs.

"Ok Kiddo, I'm giving you a really important job. I want you to wash the carrots and spinach, think you can do that for me?"

"Yep!" Yuji gathered the vegetables in his arms and brought them over to the sink to start his job. Once you were sure he was safe, you started looking around for a pot and cutting board. You'd been to this house so many times but if there was one room you weren't familiar with it was the kitchen. Yaku's mother always insisted that she had everything handled and for you to go enjoy your time with Morisuke.

"(y/n)-chan I'm done!" Yuji called over his shoulder. He had perfect timing as you had just found a pot big enough to cook the noodles in.

You walked over to the sink, pot in hand, and gave Yuji a pat on the head -he was absolutely beaming at your approval.

"looks good, I'm gonna start cutting the carrots, fill this pot a little over halfway and then we can start making the noodles," Yuji nodded up at you and started filled the pot while you started cutting the veggies.

You were fully concentrated on your task, you didn't even hear the backdoor open.

"Careful!" You looked over your shoulder to find Mori taking the filled pot from Yuji, the latter had a slight pout spread over his face.

Yaku placed the pot on the stove top and turned back to the younger boy, "Don't do that next time, alright? You could have gotten hurt...it's ok to ask for help when you need it."

Yuji nodded pitifully, he's eyes down casted on the floor in a mix of shame and embarrassment. Mori huffed and ruffled Yuji's hair making him perk up a bit, "I think (y/n) and I've get it handled from here buddy. Go play with Shi, we'll call you both when the foods done."

"Ok!" All previous sadness had left Yuji as he instantly reverted back to his happy self, he bounced out of the kitchen and in the direction of he and Shiori's shared room.

"Thank you for helping Yuji!" You called out. His head popped out from the side of the doorway with a large smile on his face.

"you're welcome (y/n)-chan!"

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After dinner and a few more rounds of Smash, Mori and you had tucked both boys into bed for the night.

You stretched your arms high into the air with a hum, "I should probably start walking home."

You felt Yaku latch onto your back, his chin resting on your shoulder and his strong arms pulling you into his chest.

"Nope you're staying here, I don't want you walking home this late."

You chuckled at him and leaned into his hold, he's always looking out for you.

"Ok...that means we're gonna go cuddle in your room, right?"

"Duh"

Being curled up with Mori was one of the best things on earth. Everything about the action was soft and warm; the embodiment of comfort.

"I love your brothers but they really are a handful."

"Try living with them," Yaku responded dryly.

You slapped his shoulder lightly causing him to chuckle at you.

You sighed, enjoying the feeling of Mori tracing random shapes on your back, and nuzzled further into his chest.

"How did Volleyball with Shiori go?"

"It was fun. He's not that bad of a receiver, though I think he'd make a better setter than a libero."

You hummed and placed a kiss on his jaw, "He does have the aspects of a good setter in him, liberos need to be a bit aggressive and crazy to throw themselves around and receive."

"Wow thanks babe," he deadpanned causing you to giggle at him.

"I loooove you~"

"Yeah, whatever you say," Yaku rolled his eyes then tickled your sides changing your giggles to full-on laughter. You shifted and twitch in feeble attempts to escape Yaku's grasp.

"OK OK IM SORRY, Y-YOU MADE YOUR POINT!!"

He stopped his attack and watched you with a soft look as you calmed down. That's when a sliver of light cut through the room like a knife making both You and Mori look towards the door.

"Oniisan...we heard a scary noise outside," Yuji stood in the doorway with Shiori behind him clinging to the back of his shirt.

Mori sat up, he may complain that his baby brothers were annoying but he still loved them with all his heart and couldn't stand to see them upset.

"Do you guys wanna stay with us tonight? (Y/n)-chan and I will make sure nothing scary comes to snatch you away"

Both boys nodded and rushed over to Yaku's bed; their brother was like a beacon of light and the bed a safe house, the childlike fear of standing in the dark room unprotected lapped at their minds.

You all had to squeeze to fit onto the bed but eventually, everyone got situated and relaxed. Both kids laid between you and Mori; Shiori was clinging to your waist with his face pressed into your stomach and Yuji was facing Mori hugging his arm.

Both Yuji and Shiori fell asleep instantly once in the comfort of You and Yaku.

You ran a hand through Shiori's wavy hair, you looked up to find Yaku watching you; he looked starstruck, an almost loopy smile on his face and a warm glow in his eyes. He reached over Yuji and Shiori and grabbed onto your free hand, his thumb ran up and down the back of it prompting you to close your eyes and start to drift off.

Everything was warm and cozy, nothing but the distant chirps of crickets and the soft breathing of the two sleeping boys filled your senses; the feeling of safety and protection evident in the air.

This single moment in time was better than any date Yaku could take you on.

[ruhrohimrorny]

What Subjects I Think LOK Characters Would Teach:

Lin: PE, obviously. Dating Kya and all the kids are happy cause there’s a noticeable shift in Lin’s mood once they start dating. She no longer forces kids to run a mile every day and instead does it once a week now, so the kids are hoping her and Kya stay together. She also coaches Golf and Lacrosse.

Kya: Waffled between MILF Math teacher, MILF Science teacher, and hippy/chill Music teacher, but decided on MILF Science Teacher. Getting strong Biology vibes. Very fun labs and not strict at all. Her and Zhu-Li are super passionate about leading the Science Bowl team. Seeing these young people be so passionate about STEM and helping their fellow teammates makes her hopeful for this young generation.

Tenzin: He kinda gives math teacher vibes, but a large part of his character in the show is about him keeping his history alive, and teaching others abut learning and respecting history, so I feel like he’s a History teacher. His class is a lot of notetaking but he plays quiet music and does a five minute meditation in the middle of class to encourage kids to relax, so students really like him and actually listen to him. Also, he’s kind of gullible so they make up fake trends to tell him. He once spent a week addressing people as “brony” cause students told him thats what people say now instead of bro. Kids got a good laugh out of that one. Him and Pema are another favorite teacher couple.

Bumi II: Def gives off eccentric/unhinged English teacher vibes. Very interesting and informative conversations in his class, but things get off topic very quickly. Whenever kids ask about Bum-Ju, he gets distracted and will talk the entire rest of the period about what to dress Bum-Ju up as for Halloween. Probably plays a lot of videos. And students don’t worry about if they read the books Bumi II assigns cause they don’t think he’s even read the books he assigns. When having discussions about the books in class, sometimes kids will make up stuff and say it’s in the book and for the most part, Bumi II goes along with it cause he doesn’t know what actually happens in the books.

Varrick: Also gives off eccentric/unhinged English teacher vibes, but because he’s a businessman/war profiteer, I’m gonna have to say he teaches Econ and gives students lots of unsolicited financial advice. Also supervises the Engineering and Robotics Club.

Zhu-Li: Science teacher, probably Chemistry. She’s very good at explaining and getting kids to follow her instructions. Not only is she a co-supervisor for the Science Bowl team, she helps Varrick run Engineering and Robotics Club, cause if it were only Varrick running it, no kids would come. His intensity and eccentricity scares them.

Iroh II: He’s definitely the young Math teacher everyone has a crush on. Very chill and doesn’t give a lot of homework. Kids love when he shows pictures of his dog to the class and eventually he brings in the dog cause admin think the dog is too cute to say no to.

Tonraq: Resident DILF History teacher. Kind of a hardass but also a nice dude so most everyone passes his class. Probably that History teacher that is also a football coach, so during fall he doesn’t give a FUCK about whether anyone actually turns anything in. Him and Senna is the teacher couple that seems like opposites but actually are pretty similar and balance each other out.

Senna: That English teacher that every mentally ill student becomes emotionally attached to. You know what I’m talking about. She’s so sweet, funny, and chill so all the kids love her class. Tries to include memes in her presentations to seem “with it” but they’re like, doge memes from 2014. But the kids appreciate the effort.

Pema: Definitely the sweet English teacher that occasionally has a mental breakdown when the students test her patience. Otherwise very chill. Also teaches the Childhood Education and Development class. Her, Senna, and Bumi II run the school newspaper.

Bataar: Drafting. Pretty chill, very skilled, and def smokes on the weekend. Also, him and Suyin are that teacher couple that everyone likes.

Suyin: Dance. Super nice and always has like to of those smelly plug in things going so her room smells good and has a “good vibe that evokes emotion”. Always plays EDM or weird 80s rock to get the kids moving. She runs the school dance team. When Bataar has prep period, he sometimes drops in to see Su dance, cause she’s mesmerizing to watch. All the kids think that, coupled with the fact that they eat lunch together every day, makes them the cutest couple ever.

Amon: Drama. He loves directing kids on how to totally live a role. If you can imagine, he sometimes gets a little overdramatic about drama, forgetting that these are just highschool kids, not Oscar winners, but his passion makes the class more enjoyable. Runs Drama Club with Tarrlok.

Tarrlok: Probably Physics. A difficult class, but he’s pretty good at explaining so most kids don’t struggle too much. His main focus is running student government, which he takes pretty seriously. Sometimes too seriously.

Unalaq: Teaches Psychology. The most pretentious teacher on campus. It’s literally so bad, that even other teachers avoid him. Amon abandoned his coffee still being brewed in the machine in the staff room cause Unalaq walked in and he didn’t want to be in a room with Unalaq again after he said that Amon’s outfit “looked like something stolen from the lost and found of a funeral home”. Unalaq sees it as “telling it like it is”.

Zaheer: Government and Politics. Tries to teach the class very well but also injects his own opinion into teaching a lot. The students find him scary but some also kinda think he’s hot. Also does Yearbook. Him and Senna run Mock Trial. Replaced the old Government and Politics teacher Hou-Ting after she retired. She was that one old teacher that made it a hobby to harrass students and constantly reminisced about when you could smack students.

P’Li: Math teacher. Much scarier than Zaheer. Plays her trash ass music very loudly while the kids work. Def yells at kids. She’s kind of funny when she’s in a good mood tho, and when she roasts kids it’s really funny cause it’s usually dead on. Her and Zaheer are those teachers that flirt a lot and you know they’re sleeping together.

Ming-Hua: Art. Loves drawing and, you guessed it, watercolor painting. Very chill and plays soft music but lets you listen to your own music. Super sarcastic and all the students eat it up. Literally a universal favorite. She runs Art Club and Fashion Club.

Ghazan: Guitar. Pretty cool teacher that definitely has some weird stories. All the students know he has a crush on Ming-Hua cause they flirt constantly, but he denies it. Runs E-Sports Club. Idk why I think that, it just feels right. Him and Ming-Hua are also the kinds of teachers kids become emotionally attached to.

Kuvira: Government and Politics also. Seems calm and reasonable, but is a total ass. Makes kids give up their phones, allows almost no talking, gives out more detentions a week than most teachers do in one year, and doesn’t allow for much discussion. Everyone wants her class cause she’s hot but most drop within the first week, to the point that counselors have to say no to some kids so they don’t have to get rid of the class altogether.

Bataar Jr.: Computer Lit teacher. None of the students respect him so they’ll play Minecraft the whole time or play inappropriate videos really loud. Doesn’t really put much effort into teaching, which for some kids is a dream, but for others is an annoyance. Him and Kuvira are the teacher couple that makes everyone say “wtf”. Literally no one knows why they’re together.

Izumi: Secretary/Attendance. Pretty much remembers everything and is super organized. She is the glue that holds the school together. Most students don’t know her name though cause she’s super quiet and works mostly behind the scenes. Whenever Zuko sends anyone her way though he reminds them of her name and to say thank you cause he recognizes how hard his daughter works to keep everything running smoothly. Izumi catches on to this and always manages to thank her dad with a nice tea and a hug.

Toph: Vice Principal. Scary as fuck. Doesn’t ever call kids’ parents cause she efficiently scares the shit out of every kid, so they never do whatever bad thing they were doing again. When she has to work dances, Katara always tries to get her to dance with her. She resists every time, but she always gives eventually. She’s happy to though, cause although she’ll never say it out loud, seeing Katara this happy at her old age warms her heart.

Katara: Health Clerk. Very sweet and everybody loves her. Sometimes kids pretend to feel sick just to talk to her. She doesn’t mind though cause a kid that has a tummy ache and a kid that needs to talk are both kids that need help, and she’s happy to offer whatever support she can. She also always offers to supervise dances when the school has them and always manages to bust a move.

Zuko: Counselor. Wants to be to students what his uncle was to him. Aang and Sokka were counselors too, some years ago. And while they could give some good nuggets of advice and offered the kids amazing support, they also would totally fuck up student’s schedules by accident cause those numbskulls were exactly that- numbskulls. So usually Zuko would have to fix that. He misses fixing their messes and, more importantly, he misses them (they aren’t dead, just retired). He hopes to retire soon too, cause he’s getting too old for this, but he secretly doesn’t want to retire just yet cause working at school allows him to see and spend time with Izumi. Since they’re both working, it’s not like they have too much time together, but even just her popping into his office to bring him tea or check in on how he’s doing that day brings a smile to his face that doesn’t leave for the rest of the day.

Raiko: Principal. After Toph stepped down cause she’s “too old for this shit” (her words), Raiko stepped in. The students aren’t a fan of him but he’s not terrible. And since Toph is still Vice Principal, she keeps him in check.

[torque-witch]

I don’t know if even like 4 people see my posts anymore

But ya know like being chronically ill and attempting to sell art and run an Instagram, having to use TikTok to make videos because instagrams algorithm says u have to post videos plus managing auctions every weekend and trying to post everywhere in order to make money and trying to appear normal and functional and not like u maybe showered MAYBE twice in a week plus eating??? Pushing through fatigue and sore joints and nausea and

Some nights u just feel like tomorrow it ends. I’m all done. It’s too much I’m gonna go back to retail and work myself into physical and mental deterioration

But then someone is like

Bitch your work is exquisite. I’ve got this giant ass Mother Mary framed BITCH i want you to murder out and I’m gonna tell all my pagan friends and while you’re at it?! I want you to paint Baba Yaga for me too you’re amazing

And I remember that I have value.

Is it value in a capitalist sense? I mean no. People have told me many times that art is not financially sustainable and do you want this job? I have this job for you. No it doesn’t accommodate disabled people, but!!! You’ll have a real job!

But I can bring people joy and people believe in me simply because I create and they get excited about my work and that! That’s what I need right now after living in the hell that is right-wing central: PA automotive shops - for six years!!! Interacting only with cis straight white republican god-fearing males as my superiors! My peers! My customers! Who laugh openly about my beliefs and my identity and who actively wish me death or illness by medical negligence and say that being disabled is shameful!!!

And to pay my bills off of literal sacrilegious art??? And my MOM compliments me??

Bro just tell your artists. Your musicians. Your barista. Your fav person. That they make u happy.

Idk if I can do this forever but it is healing. I don’t physically feel good and I’m not perfect or fast or super popular but it is healing. I can start to believe in me and reframe my worth and explore talent.

Is this a privileged post? Perhaps. Is this also a pandemic in which I chose to prioritize my health and not my financial status? Yes. Except for that capitalism still exists and I have to participate in it in order to not lose all of my property!!!! Otherwise yes. I would be sleeping all day.

Anyways do I feel like a failure? Yes. Do I also feel vindicated in so many ways this year? Yes. I’m doing what I can and it means something to other people and that! Makes it worth getting up again tomorrow.

[sourwolfstories]

Hey! Do you have long fic recommendations? Can you involve some soulmate fics but AU are welcome too Long like 50k, 100k+ but really ill read anything

Soulmate fics (at least 50K)

When the Universe Comes Knocking (It’s Polite to Open the Door) by isthatbloodonhisshirt (wasterella)

It was like a door he’d nailed shut in his brain suddenly exploded open, all of his past confusion and anger and hurt and adoration flooding out at once. Stiles? Was it actually Stiles?!

Stiles, the guy he’d had a crush on for fucking years growing up. The guy who’d been an absolute dick to him their whole last year of high school.

The guy who’d told him he loved him in a dirty men’s bathroom on prom night while drunk and upset because he thought Kira was Derek’s girlfriend.

That Stiles? But it couldn’t be!

Marks and Mics by DLanaDHZ

Hale siblings Derek and Laura have been hired to run security for Stiles Stilinski's music tour. Business as usual, except someone is trying really hard to prove they're incapable and hurt Stiles. Derek finds himself curious about Stiles' bitter attitude and a strange illness that plagues the singer. And on top of that, Derek's soulmate remains elusive.

Written Can’t Be Denied by lookslikenico, winglesswarrior

Since time immemorial the story of ‘soulmates’ has persisted. In short, the idea that somewhere out there is your perfect match, the one person who can complete you and with whom you can find total happiness.

The story goes that, the first time you meet your ‘soulmate’, the universe will give you a sign in what should be the most obvious way - somewhere in your immediate vicinity the word ‘soulmate’ will appear. If reports of ‘soulmates’ are to be believed, rather than being written of as hopeful delusions, then this ‘obvious’ signal is anything but, fleeting as it is. The word seemingly only appears for a matter of moments and only when two people first meet. There is no guarantee that they will be looking in the correct direction to see it, nor that they will have any idea who their supposed ‘soulmate’ actually is.

A fact that causes havoc the day that up and coming actor, Stiles Stilinski holds up a bottle emblazoned with the word 'soulmate' in the middle of a press conference where Derek Hale is working as a photographer, in the middle of the worst day of his life...

Connected by readridinghood

After the death of his wife, Stiles finds himself left alone with their three children, struggling to keep from being sucked into a void of grief and despair that her death left him with. Knowing his children are safe in the pack's arms under Derek's watchful eyes, he struggles to regain his footing. What do you do when the world keeps tumbling over you and what you've thought of as fact no longer holds true? As the world comes back into focus, so does the love for Derek he thought he'd long since conquered and now with his eyes open, what he thought was the end of him, is only a new beginning. A decade after he fell in love with Stiles, countless days of keeping himself restrained while building a friendship with him, Derek finds out with absolute certainty that Stiles is his mate. You only mate once in your life, so how is it that Stiles was mated to Sophia, his wife and mother of his three children, the woman he is grieving the loss of at the same moment that Derek makes his discovery.

Three Marks by sanam

"And then there was pain again, but this time it was in only three places—his arm, below his clavicle, and next to his heart, all on the left side. It felt like the skin was being sliced apart, ripped open, flayed off— And suddenly it was done. Derek looked across the room and saw the boy on the floor, looking about as bad as Derek felt."

Derek and Stiles learn that bonding is probably best done with ridiculous amounts of video games and maybe a little bit of time.

Other fics (at least 50K)

Rich Man, Poor Man by TyReed

During a first date gone horribly wrong, Stiles Stilinksi realizes that the snarky guy he's been asked out by is actually Derek Hale, an heir to Hale Industries, one of the most profitable companies in the entire world. Who is, for whatever reason, interested in the son of a teacher and a cop, a loser who spends all weekend watching movies in his pajamas, and who is also possibly one of the biggest dorks on the Internet.

At the same time, after screwing up their first date horribly, Derek Hale realizes that the funny guy he's asked out is Stiles Stilinksi, the warmest and kindest individual he's ever met in his life, with a family just a loving and caring. Who is, for whatever reason, interested in a guy who screws up everything he does, lacks any semblance of a backbone, and who is possibly one of the biggest history dorks in all of the United States.

These rich and poor men will come to experience a taste of each other's lives, and learn where the real blessings in the world can be found.

Feel it like a fever, burning through the night by LunaCanisLupus_22

“That was my favourite fern,” Deaton declares and Stiles glances at Scott for clarification that such a ridiculous statement just came out of his boss’ mouth.

“You could have just told me not to touch it,” Stiles points out sensibly, squirming inside with something he refuses to believe might be guilt.

Not about the dumb plant, but the instant devastation he’s currently overwhelmingly and inescapably capable of. He can destroy with one touch now.

This is going to complicate things so much.

Or the one where Stiles tries to do the noble self-sacrificing thing: gains a new power, a spectral skin colour and basically ruins his own life. 0/10 would not recommend.

It’s (Not) a Cult by lhr111

“Well Stiles, you told me a few weeks ago that you thought Derek was leading a cult.”

At that Derek whipped his head toward Stiles in shock. “You thought I was a cult leader?”

Stiles will not be shamed. “Well, either you or Peter. Peter made more sense, but since he deferred to you that one time I was a little unsure. I mean, what else could I think with all the weird shit going on. You, hanging out with random high school seniors, doing secret things, ordering them around like you are their parent, them actually doing what you tell them. It’s really weird, okay?”

“Are you familiar with Harry Potter?” Derek asks.

Talk about a non sequitur. “What? What does that have to do with anything? And, of course I know Harry Potter!”

“Well to quote Sirius Black, ‘Once again you’ve put your keen and penetrating mind to the task and as usual come to the wrong conclusion.’"

The Sheriff starts snickering, and Stiles is both insulted and also a little in love.

Call Me (Cliché) by SomewheresSword

When the sheriff's sister ends up in a wheelchair for the duration of summer, Stiles' dreams of three months full of pack bonding, late-night video games and bro-time with Scott come crashing down. He's temporarily relocated to Redford, a three hour drive away, and he can already tell he won't be getting many visitors.

Sure the pack will forget about him while he's gone, Stiles is determined to make the most of his summer of isolation, training his body and mind - and his magic - so he can come back with a bang, and maybe catch a certain Sourwolf's eye.

Then Derek shows up at his window one night with a flimsy excuse about needing research done. Suddenly, his summer away is looking a whole lot more interesting.

There’s No Escape for the Potato Man by isthatbloodonhisshirt (wasterella)

“Who is this? Where’s Erica?”

“Wrong number, asshole!”

“Stop calling me an asshole,” the man on the other end snapped aggressively.

Stiles could understand. He’d be pretty aggressive too if he’d murdered someone and texted a wrong number to ask for help burying the body. This guy obviously failed How To Be a Serial Killer 101.

“What kind of idiot thinks I murdered someone?”

“The kind of idiot who got your text messages, you fucking dumbass!” he retorted hotly. “Maybe double check your contacts before sending a random stranger details on your nefarious plans to dispose of a freshly cut up body!”

“What?!” the guy on the other end demanded, crossed between horrendously confused and livid.

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