#im covered in bruises

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

so the other day, i had to deal with transphobia at a hospital i was at and tbh it didnt really bother me that much apart from the way i had to react to it. and i cant stop thinking about that.

for context, i dont pass. im a trans dude, but i dont look like a dude so im used to being misgendered and i dont normally correct people.

so when the receptionist was confused, it was like routine bullshit. i was happy to deal with it, but my mom ended up having to because if i had stood up for much longer, id have collapsed because I'm ✨disabled✨.

and while my mom was trying to calmly explain it, the receptionist very loudly outed me to the entire waiting room. which you know, not fun. she was also not subtle about her finding me weird and a freak which you know, not fun.

but then she made the active choice to fuck up my name in the system. she could have just deadnamed me, but instead she decided to put my dead middle name (which is a feminine name) into my current name instead.

so thanks to that, i was then misgendered the whole time and deadnamed and it confused literally every member of staff. pretty sure it also confused the system which led to me having to wait longer which you know, not fun.

that wouldnt have bothered me if i hadnt been sent to the hospital as emergency because i have a condition that can lead to total vision loss, and also can be caused by or lead to a stroke. like death was on the table.

and then after that fiasco, my mom headed to the car to get a drink as we (me and my brother) waited to be called. and when we were, i got to interact with another transphobic receptionist which you know, not fun.

she called my name and when i went up, she made it very clear that she did not believe me that my name was kai. she was condescending to me and was clearly trying to catch me in a lie . it was incredibly uncomfortable and honestly it was scary.

and what i hate the most about it is that i couldnt react.

the minute i react negatively, im suddenly the crazed trans person who will call the police on you if you use the wrong pronouns.

i cant get angry; i cant firmly correct them; i cant show any excessive emotion. i had to stand there and calmly react to their microaggressions.

my mom and brother got angry on my behalf. they corrected people, they complained, they made it clear that they were not going to tolerate transphobia aimed toward me. and i love them for doing that for me, but i hate the fact that i cant do it.

they can be angry about it because theyre cis.

no one is going to look at them and say oh see all cis people are crazed and unstable.

but me? if I react negatively, i risk making the situation worse and confirming their bias and hence causing problems for other trans folks.

im the one being hate crimed, im the one being discriminated against, and im the one who has to be calm and diplomatic about it.

its such an insidious form of transphobia. i felt so powerless, it was terrifying. and i felt like my only choice was diplomacy because at the end of the day, im at a hospital for something that can kill me. i cant risk being kicked out or accused of faking it or anything like that. i was fucking trapped.

and i just cant stop thinking about it now.

[hinamie]

spiraling

[mishy-mashy]

Something I made in a post that I think'll be lost in the texts + expanded a bit more

These panels are chronological events following AFO's pursuit of Yoichi's Factor.

AFO could tell if people were related through a Quirk. AFO and OFA also are connected to each other. In Kamino, AFO could confidently tell All Might that OFA had been passed on, so all that All Might had left were leftover embers.

When AFO killed Kudo, he asked where Yoichi was. He knew Kudo wasn't the holder of Yoichi's Factor at that time. He also realized when looking at Yoichi's hand that Yoichi's natural Factor was so weak he hadn't registered its existence. This implies AFO could sense Factors since he was young, and Yoichi's natural Factor never stood out to him.

Below are three panels of Bruce (right to left). Bruce fought, AFO killed him, and looked away in disinterest.

When he beat down Bruce, he already had a sense that Bruce didn't hold the Factor anymore. That's why, rather than yell in his face to figure out where it is and interrogate for a long time, he pulled up his corpse to inspect him better.

Bruce's corpse isn't resisting anything. Look at his feet; AFO literally dragged him. Bruce is already dead. Yet he's looking for something from him.

Bruce doesn't have anything for him. Nothing AFO wants.

When he looks away, he's dismissing Bruce, because Bruce doesn't hold Yoichi. AFO is wondering where Yoichi is, because he knows now that he's out there somewhere. Thus the pensive look to the wind.

After Bruce is killed, AFO and Garaki meet for the first time. Shinomori has Yoichi at this time, and AFO never comes close to him, so AFO is lost. He doesn't have any leads, and Yoichi has vanished.

Now that he knows Yoichi can transfer, it's possible for Yoichi to be kept out of his reach for the rest of his life. So meeting Garaki and having access to Life Force gives AFO more time to search.

Yoichi is still missing for 18 years though, because Shinomori is in hiding. AFO couldn't find him during the Fourth's turn.

This is why, when he encounters Banjo, the Fifth and active wielder of OFA [Yoichi], AFO is smiling.

It's been a long time, but Yoichi's in reach again. He knows where he is now. And this is the first time he's encountered the current holder.

Thus his shock.

[Yet... you never behave as I wish.]

It was the first time a Quirk wouldn't let itself be stolen. This was AFO's first encounter with this wall: it doesn't transfer without the holder's consent, and requires willpower stronger than all the holders combined to override that.

The holder is never going to give him that consent. To override the collective willpower, he's going to need something greater.

Meanwhile, look at Banjo's arms. Shinomori is the catalyst to tip OFA over the edge, that an unprepared vessel will be destroyed by how strong the Quirk is.

Banjo's arms are both messed up below the shoulder, just like Midoriya used to be. And like Midoriya uses Blackwhip to reinforce himself and stay standing, Banjo uses Blackwhip to hold his fist / arm together. His hand is being wrapped to stay in a fist.

(What I think is) The reason the limbs turn red, and then purple, from breakage, is a matter of blood vessels. Small, itty bitty, fragile things.

Using OFA breaks the whole area, from bones to blood vessels, causing internal bleeding. Thus the redness. But breaking those vessels again in a second go turns the area purple, because it causes instantaneous internal bruising.

But En wasn't ripped apart by using OFA. There's a cut on his thumb that lines up with the path of destruction; AFO sliced him in half. Otherwise, he wouldn't have that cut if it were just OFA.

It's hidden by the text in [... you never behave as I wish], but depending on where you see this chapter, you can see he got cut on the thumb. It's clearer where we see Nana take his hair from him, in [I only want... to make you mine!]

I have a post in drafts about En being cut in half rather than it being because of OFA, but I also hit an image limit, so I'm gonna end here. Ta.

[steffyanie]

i just met falin and i relate to her on such an immense level........

[littleplantfreak]

i feel like endo’s the type to see a bruise on you and poke at it. Rubs it if it’s a larger one to see if you’ll whimper or wince a bit. The little bruises on your hips from him digging his fingers in? He’ll line each finger up in the same place the next time he fucks you to see if he can get them to stay longer. Does it with hickeys he gives you too and while he’s thumbing across one plays dumb and asks in the most innocent voice “who gave you that bruise baby? Looks like an animal mauled you?” and when you tell him obviously it was him he just says “shit doll, you’re right. Sorry about that” he’s anything but sorry as he puts more pressure on it

[emmetofthestars]

if u even care

[bucket-of-amethyst]

PURPLE PURPLE THE TEAM EVER!! 🐼💜🐼💜🐼💜🐼

I've been working on this for more than a week straight ILL NEVER BE NORMAL ABOUT THEM!!!

i have commissions open! :D

[stage1decomp]

the biting girlfriend thing going on online except i do it too much and now your shoulders are covered in little pink bitemarks

[pippeebottom]

i know i hafta work to survive and i do really really like my job, i dont want to be whiney but working full time takes so much energy 😭😭

[itsbrucey]

Darryl and Glenn sparring turned makeout session. Darryl and Glenn play fighting that looks like a bar brawl and ends with a big bear hug. Darryl pinning Glenn and Glenn still winning bc he flusters Darryl. Darryl swinging Glenn around like a sack of potatoes and sending him flying and Glenn is Into It.

[ckygetsjobs]

jackass giving you a blood kink is so silly man

[rouge-the-bat]

i want to gnaw on hiei like a chew toy

[thedisablednaturalist]

It's literally disability pride month can my body PLEASE give me a break

[dariadraws]

@flitwickslittlebrotha hello and happy holidays from your @aftgexchange buddy! all your prompts were super fun so it was genuinely hard to choose which one to make, but in the end i went for Andrew/Kevin slice of life, so please enjoy this little snapshot of a nice, relaxing post-game afternoon. sorry this is a little late but i hope you like it!!

[prestonmonterey]

love bite but its not a hickey its just a genuine actual bite mark from your silly (aspiring) vampire boyfriend

[soft-not-gentle]

i’m such a fucking sub but also last night while i was getting fucked my dom let me choke him just to try it out and fuck it kind of felt great actually

need a switch to fuck around and find out with