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soggypotatoes · 2 years

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ugh ok so like

I dissociate a lot, have my whole life, but a few days ago I experienced a complete switch over for the first time and it's still ongoing

like. I had therapy that day and I walked in and was like. acting very normal, because I can do that, and she pretty quickly asked '...have we met before?' and I've seen her every day since then so we're trying to work it out

I honestly thought at first that I'd died and been reincarnated into a living body by accident... but after seeing her a few times and trying to figure out who I am I see what's happening. it was scary but I'm adapting. I don't think this will last much longer. apparently something extremely triggering happened on Sunday and I actually passed out and woke up like this. I'm ok though. this is happening to keep me ok. like I'm totally fine, not really stressed about things, except for the fact that I'm dealing with a lot of fatigue.

still not sure who I am or why this is happening. but there ya go.

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#she said im acting completely different lol #i thought i was doing great #at pretending #my friend noticed too and i didnt even see them in person #i messaged them that something weirds going on thats it #and they asked if id dissociated into a different part #like . howd they know that I've only messaged them like 3 times??#blue speaks #im afraid people will not understand or think im doing this to avoid accountability #for what? i dont know #its strange though i know exactly who everyone is but everyone feels like strangers #like im a substitute teacher whos been given a briefing #except i havent actually been a teacher before #im getting the hang of it though #ive been tagging things and posting like normal #practicing being the person im meant to be #i dont think this will last much longer thoufh #hopefully...#also i use he/him pronouns exclusively #also i dont reeeeally remember what happened but i remember passing out!#just blackness taking over me #not like falling asleep #though i did sleep for a while #i dunno man. im new here #my names not really blue btw i havent figured that out yet #i just like blue the colour #ALSO i dont like any of the clothes here looool #im going to kmart tomorrow to get different clothes #ah and if you see me irl i will be acting normal ive gotten better at it #and this might be over any day now we'll see

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ashoss · 4 months

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this idea wont leave my brain please help me !! YIPPEE HADES BATKIDS !!!

without the bg and text under the cut :))

asdhj probably gonna post like,, two at a time because thats ,, a lot,,,, of drawing ,,,,,,, so heres tim and jason! i think i got the hang of it more with jason lol

ALSO ALSO!!!

thank you to those who helped me with the titles for the batkids!! they were all really good :D (all on insta lol)

timothy: the tenured - thomson_at

#yeah jasons hair gave me ... a lot of trouble until i landed on this #i was debating doign a long hairstyle but i dont think it looked too good with the wreath lol #tims clothing actually gave me sooo much trouble #i really wanted to incorperate more of his red robin elements in it and so i really wanted to do the yellow bandoliers #but thats why he has the upper arm wraps #maybe ill redo him later #once i get the hang of jen zee's style more lolol #jason was fun though #askj commentary over #jason todd #red hood #robin #tim drake #dc fanart #dc comics #batfam #batman #ash's doodlings #hades game #hades supergiant #wait more commentary #i used apollo artemis and hermes for tim because i wanted more of that slimmer vibe #and zag i mostly used for jason #yeah im not super happy with tim but for like.. a second attempt im fine with it #btw if this were an actual game #id like to think that the protagonist would be damian #trying to find his father (bruce) and coming across all of his fathers kids and pseudo kids lol

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factual-fantasy · 6 months

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Pokemon Scarlet has been a comforting distraction for me lately. 🥹 Fightin those baddies. Collectin them shiny things and catchin them all's. Amongst other things-

But what's been the most fun about it is imagining my Haunter and Sylveon being extremely stupid and also being bestest friends forever and ever XDD

#do not tag as ship #just in case-#pokemon scarlet and violet #haunter #Sylveon #its gonna be challenging to get Grimace's perspective right once he evolves-#but thats ok :)#that wont stop me from drawing him abd Sylvester #also i think im really getting the hang of traditional drawing again! :D #though i cant wait until i can get back to my desk and draw digitally.. :(

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dancefail · 5 months

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sever all ties to that which is my ‘self’

#dreamtale #utmv #nightmare sans #dreamtale nightmare #passive nightmare sans #passive nm #passive nightmare #uuuuugh idk how 2 tag this guy >>;!!!#my art #i thiiiiink im getting the hang of digital art now though ^^!#art

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termiken · 6 months

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they should not have left him alone

#dungeon meshi #laios touden #delicious in dungeon #im getting the hang of drawing him i thinks #i still think about this part a lot for whatever reason though #i think about how it felt #anyways #my doodles #dungeon meshi spoilers

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arachnerd-8-legs · 10 months

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the baddest brows in revachol

#disco elysium #de #de fanart #kim kitsuragi #harry du bois #harrier du bois #you know what #harrykim #kimharry #it's the warrior's bond #artists on tumblr #art #arachart #i took more liberties with kim this time though i still needed refs for both #but im proud of it still considering its my first time drawing harry #he's a tricky one to get a hang of

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casualavocados · 3 months

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#he doesn't want to fight with you ai di, he wants to Kiss🙄💘🥺

Nat Chen as CHEN YI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)

#kiseki: dear to me #kisekiedit #kdtm #kiseki dear to me #chen yi x ai di #ai di x chen yi #nat chen #chen bowen #louis chiang #chiang tien #jiang dian #userspring #uservid #userrain #userspicy #userjjessi #*cajedit #*gif #okay i made this specifically for the 3rd gif bc chen yi's expressions are making me giggle nonstop i was doubled over in tears last night #HE JUST WANTS TO KISS!! AI DI HE LOVES YOU LET HIM HIT IJDKSKG #okay real talk though the fact that he actually gives ai di space 90% of the time. lets him hang out at the bar #like he isnt following him around or constantly dogging him about giving him an answer not does he ever rly ACCUSE ai di of anything #he uses the zhang teng excuse to keep ai di from avoiding him but he doesnt try to keep him where he can see him constantly.#he lets ai di do his own thing and just spends time connecting the dots during the moments ai di comes back of his OWN VOLITION #& he slowly puts together what ai di is refusing to admit and makes his own intentions known without putting them in words either #besides stating his observations (& watching ai di react). Every interaction between them when ai di gets out of prison is like that #gifs 1&2 vs 4&5... letting ai di pull away because he doesnt know whats going on vs pulling him back both to say hey we arent done-#& say im still here FOR YOU - to see how ai di reacts being so close to chen yi after finding him hugging his jacket in his sleep #and then once hes Figured It Out he still keeps the space!! sends gifts... he only Acts when ai di comes back to him himself!!!!#and this time he's READY. and a simp. like. PLS the last 2 gifs..........dude. he wants to kiss so bad

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puppyeared · 2 months

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learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way

#experiencing some BIG FEELINGS OVER THIS REVELATION #listen i have never ever been bothered abt not seeing someone in a while or making time to talk to them bc in my mind its like not thst muc #time has passed. i mean it with every fibre of my being that when im like 'oh its ok even though we havent talked in a while and have our #own things going on it doesnt mean we're not friends anymore since we left things on a good note 8 months ago' i sincerely believe that #and for the longest time i just thought everybody makes peace with it at some point and not automatically assuming the other person doesnt #wanna talk to me anymore or smth. my longest lasting friendships are with ppl who work the same way i just thouhght that was normal #whatever organ everybody has that makes them reach out to their friends and plan hang outs i probably dont have it #i was already hesitant to ask out Alex bc i spend almost every waking hour doing smth that isnt talking to ppl unless they happen to be in #the vicinity. and at first it was bc i planned on making sure i had everything set up so i dont get stressed out and do it one at a time #but then i find out theres a friendship decay mechanic? and after dating and marrying someone you lose -10 friendship points for every #day u dont talk to them?? actually ive probably been losing friendship points this whole time without knowing bc of this?????#and i notice a lot of my own habits are also reflected in how i play bc ive been avoiding getting close to pierre and marnie since its more #of a professional relationship. like i know theyre npcs but im approaching it the way i would in real life its fucking nuts #i think its a little relieving im playing /as/ a character than myself bc as im playing im just making up little interactions in my head #than approaching things the way i would myself so it takes a bit of the stress off trying to put myself in there as a spectator. but well #being in a relationship demands a certain amount of energy even more so when theyre things that already take up energy on its own #like making time to talk to your partner and make sure they know theyre loved. i dont always have energy to put all my mental focus into it #and this is true for real life so im not really bothered by not dating anyone. but when its a game and i want my character to be with someo #and i know its fully optional and i know i could just apply the same logic to this i dont /want/ to. sometimes i want to experience #the same things other people do at least to a certain degree without the same emotional andmental stakes #no offense krobus #yapping #stardew #stardew valley #puppy plays sdv #sdv #this game has me by the ankles man

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mierulii · 9 months

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❝ ―Really, Higgsbury? ❞

omake/extra:

#dst #don't starve #don't starve together #dst wilson #dst maxwell #mie art #mie gif #had too much fun making these /// though admittedly a little shy about posting since im still trying to get the hang of drawing them aaaaaa

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activatebutterflyshield · 5 months

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I was compelled last night and I’m quite honestly scared of whatever 11:59 PM me intended for those middle sections. At least I still know my colors when sleep deprived, and I’m sure someone else on here can fill the blank spots out better than I can on a full eight hours of shut-eye.

#oh god on high what do i tag this with #the crane wives #the paper kites #cosmo sheldrake #fish in a birdcage #the arcadian wild #the oh hellos #dirt poor robins #the amazing devil #venn diagram #me running my mouth #im pretty sure you could put all the text boxes in this file in a jar shake it to hell and back and pour it over the diagram #and itd still make some degree of sense #says a lot about my music taste eh mates?#anyone who sees this and relates to any degree please o please say so #i have essays worth of analysis i can spit out about most of these musicians #not on command though i need to get kinda existential first #theres three paragraphs about the eurus ep hanging out in my drafts and i think my motivation for that is somewhere behind the couch #with the spiders and my childhood nail clippings

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ganondoodle · 3 months

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(elden ring DLC spoilers)

i fucking love Radahn so much, what i wouldnt give to meet ACTUAL him, he just gets toyed with and exploited so cruelly, you never really get to know him or what he wants im hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so normal :)

like i know theres little to go by with typical fromsoft lore and stuff but agreeing to marry miquelly feels so ... not radahn like, why would he have fought malenia and then even after gettign the rot refuse to die if he wanted that .... also didnt he believe in the golden order?? miquella wanted to replace it basically????-

even his 'new' design feels like some idealized version of him that miquella dreamed up, theres significant differences in whats left of radahn in the main game and i feel like even that is an important detail (the braids ... i braids are IMPORTANT IM TELLING YOU-) like it .... to some degrees looks ..almost cheap, like an action figure (what the hell are all those sword things on his belt?? he has his two giant blades that dont go in that??? he would never use a different one?? whats it doing here??) (also the fact that leonard is missing .... like sure we like to over emphasize some character quirks but i also feel like thats and important thing- leonard clearly meant alot to him and he had him still with him when he was fighting malenia and stayed together even after rotting away)

what really REALLY makes me so very "normal" about everything is that radahn remains voiceless and has no say in anythign the entire time we meet him, hes either a zombie or a literally flesh puppet constructed by his own half brother (out of another family member, which clearly shows bc hes using blood magic and got horns growing)- aside from very few quotes on some items we never get to know him, we dont know what he wanted, he gets dragged into this and is then like some animated statue, theres no emotion in his face, even less sound he makes when fighting, even, in my opinion, his animation in the final DLC fight seem OFF to me- it looks stiff how hes moving whenever hes not actively attacking

(also miquella and what he wants is constantly talked about, but while its all about radahn in a way . we never hear anything from radahns side, its never even questioned. as far as i know, like !!!!! argh!!!)

(edit: also also the fact that in this puppet version of the design changes arent just the armor, his skin is different color too, even in the trailer when he fights malenia- BEFORE the rot- he seemed sort of ashy- greyish dark, even if hard to tell with color tint- his hair much longer in og now much shorter and in braids, his armor less practical and more show offy, he doesnt have a bow, even his swords look different, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY his weird anatomy he seems to have in og that i think is from renalla is gone too- AND yes i know his body is constructed from moghs there- which makes this all so much worse bc almost all that was him is stripped away and twisted into what miquella wants from him, second phase its almost all light attacks tooo- ok im stopping this now)

i know it might seem like im just making excuses bc i cant handle my favorite character agreeing to marry his own half brother- BUT I DONT CARE- HE DIDNT WANT IT- WE DONT KNOW WHAT HE WANTS- WE NEVER GET TO ASK HIM- HE NEVER GETS TO SPEAK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASDJKBHKFJBGSKBVGFHDKBFKABKBA

#ganondoodles talks #elden ring #elden ring spoilers #elden ring DLC spoilers #the remix of his OST im going NUTS #my eyes are unblinkly glued to the screen #watchign a stream of the final fight #and i feel like a teen watching their crush perform at sports #(or how i imagine it)#and at the same time filled with grief an hate bc hes done so DIRTY #get your grabby little hands off him miquella #how hes hanging around him im AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH #like an actual puppet master its creepy and possesive if you know the context #im less upset with the DLC btw #if anything it has strenghtend my love for radahn but in SPITE of it #i got my wish to see him less zombie like BUT AT WHAT COST #im gonna CRY #im so normal normal normal #how can a stupid video game character do this to me #FUCK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #..................i would like to be hugged by radahn though #i want to see him in his prime BUT HIM THE REAL ONE #with leonard- with his own will and wits #i want to chew through concrete

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fantaorange · 2 years

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hello dhmis likers.... welcome to mine and my friends silly whiteboard

(the yellows from the sleeping/dreaming and the drinks drawings are by @silliebones and the ducks from the same ones are by @lulu-draws-stuff )

[PLEASE dont like without reblogging]

#dhmis #im still getting the hang of drawing them soooooo sorry if they look silly #i hope u like it though haha..#fluffybird #red guy #yellow guy #duck dhmis #the top one the 'meanwhile bedtime like' goes with a drawing in silliebones post #can u tell my favorite is red guy?#alcohol tw

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moeblob · 4 months

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Look, I just think it's VERY funny and on brand that I thought of an entire premise of colorful characters for half the cast and immediately drew the only one void of color.