really love how my school forces me to do a class that makes me want to off myself because I can't understand any of it and any time I tell them "hey this is really stressing me out I can't do any of this" they say "just ask for help" even though it literally NEVER GOT ME HELP
all of my math classes are like this. im going to get yelled at. I'm going to get grounded. I'm gonna get punished. I'm gonna get everything that keeps me sane taken away. because I can't do this fucking class. I just know it my family is going to be so disappointed that their "smart little child" is fucking breaking down from this bullshit class. I can't keep a C+ forever.
I love how my school treats students who need more support!! they just said "fucking deal with it not everyone is having the same problems" when they literally are. it does not help that I've always been used to one style of teaching: the teacher.. guess what
ACTUALLY TEACHING US!!! I love you last grade math teacher Mrs. N I love you so much Ms. I is a BITCH
I know I'm gonna end up in a ditch before I finish schooling.
The twins keeps doing the switcheroo thing 30% because it's funny 70% because their laundry is always mixed together and they can't bother finding their own. They're the same height and build and sometimes Lark likes putting on Sparrow's flowy pants and skirts and crop tops when it's hot. Sparrow uses Lark's joggers and tanks and running shoes when he goes to the gym. At one point the guys enforced a name tag system because the twins kept playing into it.
Having demand avoidance in a medical setting is literally hell. Like, patient autonomy is already absolute ass. It's only made worse when doctors CONSISTENTLY tell you what to do and act like you HAVE to do it instead of consulting with you first like normal fucking people.
i can never take nickel and balloon's conflict fully seriously even if they make up and apologize to each other etc because the whole time im just imagining that comic of baseball and suitcase going back to hotel oj after season 2 and seeing that nickel and balloon are #besties now meanwhile suitcase had a psychotic break over their bullshit 😭😭
As time goes by I'm becoming more and more sure that I just can't survive on my own. I can take basic care of myself, but the second I have to go to a doctor or do some formal stuff I get paralyzed. I just can't. Fuck, I can barely even talk to strangers in general. Or even not strangers, I can't fucking text someone back if I'm not close to them, it's just so scary and exhausting. I'm becoming emotionally tired more easily and sometimes even talking with my mom about anything is too much for me and I love my mom. And I really need her, I can't do basic stuff without her pretty much holding my hand all the time. I can't get a normal job. We went to this blueberry plantation a few times but I just couldn't go there without her, and now the job is over and we can't go there at all. If I wasn't such a fucking baby I'd go there a few more times alone and get some money. I can't make calls, there's literally like two people I feel comfortable talking on the phone with. People used to say I was mature for my age when I was younger but I never grew up and now I'm almost 21 and can't do anything with my life. I'm scared of everything, I'm constantly exhausted physically and mentally. I'm like a fucking child. I'm scared that I'm gonna have to live with my mom my whole life. I can't see a future for myself, I'm just not able to survive without help and at some point I won't be able to get help, I don't want to be a parasite living off of my mom's money but I don't see anything else I could do. I hate my brain so much. I hate the way it refuses to work. I hate myself for being such a child.
i know im not alone on this but i also know this statement is like waving a stick at a hornets nest. my overall memories and nostalgia related to hetalia are generally not bad and i think it may have saved a depression-riddled middle school aged me from being lured towards way darker and more mentally damaging content or online groups
been rolling around the idea for a few months of a fusion mechanic for interstitial that isnt amalgam-based (pure self-indulgence for when me and my friends do a campaign) which is not... too entirely far off from what about pacrim would be interesting to me as interstitial-based mechanics (read: the drift)
K but DinLuke was/is such a hilariously delicious pairing. Like nothing will be more funny than the potential of force ghost Anakin meeting Din ''has civil conversation with Tusken Raiders regularly and has a fucking old ass, fucking ancient! Naboo ship FIVE YEARS AFTER THE END REIGN OF THE EMPIRE" Djarin.