#im tired of life

[kilibaggins]

/ tw vent idk exactly triggers so just be careful and dont read just in case idk

[raptorjesus-mf]

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[461lightfire]

Helloo people 👋🏻

How are you? Im still alive somehow but currently I’m struggling with a lot in private (my grandpa’s dementia is getting worse, work has been on my ass, and more) which makes life very hard.

And currently nothing is fun or makes fun.. tomorrow i will be going to some stores to escape the stress.

Talk to you guys later 👋🏻

[sodding-snake-of-eden]

Well my last grandma passed away last night.

[hanasaku-shijin]

Waking up is like “awesome, another day being single cuz she dumped me for no fucking reason. another day day when no one i reached out to is going to respond back, and god forbid anyone else initiate and be the one to reach out to me first. another day where i will have no one to talk to or rely on, no one to have meaningful conversations with or make fun plans with or send funny texts to. another day of just being completely alone.” love it.

[jessiesjaded]

The compulsion to go missing and never speak to anyone again is so strong every december

[pigswithwings]

above all else a trans woman is a person. above all else a trans women is a woman who goes to the same grocery store as you and buys fruits in the same grocery cart as you and goes home and eats her dinner the same as you. above all else a trans woman is a woman who dresses like you do and talks the same way you do. above all else a trans woman is a woman who wants to be cared about the same way you want to be cared about and a trans woman is a woman who makes friends the same way you make friends. above all else you should care about trans women because they are people. treat her as such.

[kalmoneito]

Yelling into the void

[seemsaccurate]

Would be so nice to stop thinking about downing all the sleeping pills I have.

I should just get rid of them, but...

I'm not ready to part with my back up plan I suppose.

[ursiday]

Arnica might take out the throes that I threw in my head

[rapidhighway]

500 years late to the party i finally do the redraw thing just cause i needed rendering practice yipeee this was so hard vfddvffd

[ohposhers]

besties !!!

[visilepoem15192x]

[iiflywithmeii]

i just wanna cut everyone off and rot away in my bed

[hussyknee]

Your "non-confrontational" choices not to communicate hurt the people you don't confront btw. You're not a martyr for keeping everything inside and then running away when other people don't know what's going on with you. You just decided avoiding rejection and sparing your own feelings was easier than being honest and giving them the agency to respond and make their own decisions. You chose to hurt them so they didn't hurt you. You think your feelings are realer and more important than their own care and love for you. You were always just waiting for a sign to run.

"If they cared about me they would have–" did you tell them that? Did you let them know how you feel? How much importance you place on those requirements they don't know they have to meet? This secret criteria and secret signs for your secret feelings? Or are you making them play a game they don't know even exists?

Your choice not to communicate isn't cute. You didn't run because they didn't feel the same for you. You ran so you wouldn't have to risk rejection. You chose to prioritise your own self-protection over their trust in and love for you. At least own that.

[temeyes]

nibble (photo ref here!!)