sifui

[noxtivagus]

classes done for the day 🫶🏼

[rootsbe4branches-trolls]

I see you're including the rest of the bros in your au. Is that just for fun or did you change your mind and they'll become a part of your story? :)

Omg I'm breaking my silence Okay /J

YES brozone is officially a 100% part of the AU, the reason because I didn't want to include brozone at first it's because This AU started back around 2020 on IG, and I wanted to keep it like it was back then because The RBB AU timeline has been written SINCE THEN💀 I just never posted the whole thing, and It didn't feel right to just change it because of band together.

(Also the first time I watched band together I wanted to strangle Brozone /j)

But ✨now✨ I rewrote it adding Brozone and Bam! The AU is fixed and we have an even more sad timeline that I can't wait to show you!!

(Also I'm totally going to use this question to say that Willow's and Rowan's ship name is Rillow because I never have an opportunity to say it)

Thank you for your question/gen because this helped me clarify so much😭

[jkvjimin]

is so hard to gif something that is really meaningful to you, right? like... it seems it will never be good enough

example: i can't make gifs of my time performance because in my head, my gifs would never makes it justice!!??!

[meowzfordayz]

stressed — zenitsu, kyojuro, sanemi

Author’s Note: you ARE enough❣️ You ARE loved❣️ You WILL be okay❣️

stressed — zenitsu, kyojuro, sanemi

Agatsuma Zenitsu x Reader, Rengoku Kyojuro x Reader, Shinazugawa Sanemi x Reader

Word Count: ~700

CW: none

Emergency Request Fulfilled: I started taking a lot harder classes this year and it’s killing me and my impostor syndrome because I’m so slow compared to everyone else. It’s making me depressed/stressed so I wanted to request a pick me up request.

stressed — enmu, genya, muichiro

~faqs~

Lowkey gets stressed too 🙃

Does his best to hide it, but Zenitsu’s an open book, so it doesn’t stay hidden for long

Sometimes he’ll even sense your stress before you do

“Are you okay Zeni? You seem stressed.”

“I’m fine!” ☺️

…

…

*realization hits*

Zenitsu: Are you stressed? 🥺

You: Nooo, you’re stressed! 😒

Zenitsu: But I’m not? 🥲

You: Well your stress is stressing me out! 😖

Zenitsu: But I’m not stressed?! 🫠

*insert Spiderman meme here*

Affirmations

Once you’ve determined that you’re both adequately stressed 💀😂

Zenitsu brings out ✨The Jar of Affirmation✨

Aka your equivalent of scrolling through cheesy, inspirational social media posts when you’re feeling low

Zenitsu: YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! 😍

You: YOU ARE CAPABLE! 😎

Zenitsu: YOU ARE SMART! 🤓

You: YOU ARE DETERMINED! 😤

It’s kinda cathartic to yell/be yelled at, y’know? 🥰😆

Lovingly, ofc

Your stress hits close to home for Kyojuro (imposter syndrome, inadequacy), but he’s unsure how to support you

Which is not to say that he doesn’t try

Bc he does try, a lot and often 🥺

But a pin pricking feeling that he isn’t quite cut out for comforting you frequently surfaces

“I can order takeout and build a pillow fort for us to watch a movie in together? Would that be okay?”

Your stress fades to a gentle, manageable pulse as Kyojuro’s tender doubt gnaws at your chest, your arms hugging him into your warmth as you murmur softly

“That would be absolutely perfect. Thank you for taking care of me.”

—

He still questions his ability to ease your burdens as you snuggle into his side, plastic containers and utensils spread out on the fluffy blanket beneath you, a thin canopy of cotton sheet and fairy lights billowing above

Could I have decorated better? 😕

Why did I make us sit on the floor?! 😞

But he allows himself a lingering, adoring smile when you begin making airplane noises, happily opening his mouth to accept your forkful of pad Thai

“I love you!” you grin, darting in to peck his nose

“I wuv y’u too!” he declares, the tips of his ears as red as his heart

He’s convinced that pad Thai’s never tasted so delicious

Knows your favorite snacks better than he knows himself, and won’t hesitate to walk to the corner store to buy you a lil snick snack

“Kyo, it’s almost midnight. I’m fine.” 😝

“Your stomach rumbled.” ☹️

“I can eat in the morning.”

“Fine.” 

…

…

“I shall wait until midnight, at which point it will be morning.” 😎

“What if I fall asleep before you get back?”

“Then I guess you will most certainly eat in the morning.” 😌

Doesn’t let you lift a finger, sometimes to the extent that your stress morphs to anger 🤪

“I said I was stressed, not incapable.” 😐

“Me helping you is a testament of my love, not a commentary on your ability.” 🤨

“You aren’t helping me! You’re infantilizing me!” 😖

“I in fact have not put you in a diaper nor made you suck on a pacifier.” 😃

“I will dye your hair while you’re asleep.” 😒

“Would a spa day reduce your stress?”

“No, but watching your reaction to waking up with green hair would.” 😌

“If you somehow manage to dye my hair without waking me up, then I guess I deserve it.” 🙃

“Could you at least let me wash my dishes? Or put toothpaste on my own toothbrush?” 😕

“No and Yes. Okay?”

“I want to tie my shoelaces too.”

“You can do one shoe.” 😉

“Whatever.” 🙄🥰

Gets you out and about

Whether it’s joining him on a grocery run or just walking around the block

Sanemi knows a change of scenery can refresh and remove the monotony of stress

He’ll even coax you into photoshoots

“Stop. You need a picture underneath that tree.”

“Wait, the sunlight is framing your face so beautifully.”

“Let’s take a selfie together.”

Not bc he loves being your personal photographer 🥴, but bc he sees how much you brighten at his softness 🥺

Sees how happy his explicit (albeit occasionally disgruntled) affection makes you

… maybe selfies aren’t so bad after all 

[violethursday]

I genuinely think I may have impostor syndrome 💀

[theresa-of-liechtenstein]

I’m glad you’re being more normal (read: less impostor syndrome-y) about being principal second but I actually think you should be LESS normal about that older woman. You deserve both <3

I—EXCUSE MEEE????? HELP 😭😭😭💀💀💀

[pseudowho]

hi haitch!! hope you'll recover from your sickness soon :< those darn virus (or bacteria >:( i hope its not that bad)

ummm this is a pretty random ask but i see u as the older sis of tumblr (hehe) so this is kind of like a "looking for advice" ask 😶‍🌫️

[This ask is also open to anyone that can see this, i'll take any wisdom i can get 🙏🙏]

Ok so umm have you been a leader of a group? If so, how did u manage to do it? What kinds of values or strategies you used when dealing with (older) members of your group and figuring out how to work with your coworkers?

(Im asking this as i got assigned in a pretty BIG position in our org in college and im so not prepared for it, i thought i was doing it alone but im not 😱 i actually have to lead and stuff and im so scared of doing the wrong thing----cuz i dont have any prior leadership experience (of a serious group at least) 😭 and most of my members that i recruited are OLDER than me 💀 so the impostor syndrome is raging so hard rn)

I thought i was just gonna assist the org...not work for them.... *wipes tears*

anyways, im virtually sending you a warm soup to your house, haitch >:3 you're gonna need it >:3

🏠🍲🏃‍♀️

Hello, hi! I am good at the big sis business, and your problem is something I've dealt with too.

I was promoted to a high position at a very young age in my job. I had to lead large groups of individuals, most of whom were older than me, and many of whom were: 1. Unhappy that I got the job, because they felt someone older was 'owed' it purely for having done the job longer, and 2. Vocally bemoaning my assumed inability to do the job, and 3. Actively trying to put me down or ignore me because of it.

My advice:

Kill with kindness: please not, I do not mean roll over and show your belly; what I mean is, assume an air of sincere interest and feigned misunderstanding of someone tries to belittle you. "I'm sorry, I think I must have misunderstood; can you please explain?" and "Can you rephrase that?" -- it's funny how people stop being snide and subversive little cunts, when they're faced with someone reasonable who doesn't take the bait, and they're forced to explain how they're being a little cunt.

Be consistent and meticulous; complete everything you need to do to an arseholeish level of perfection and detail, within all if your abilities. Sometimes the older ones in the group are looking for faults. If you do make an error...

Admit to your faults and reflect on them: put aside the hurt and embarrassment you feel; they are not productive. Analyse what led to the fault, what happened because of the fault, and how it may be prevented in the future. This is called "Root Cause Analysis" and there are various reflective models to help you to be a more introspective version of yourself.

Recognise your relative youth as a superpower: you areore likely to be tolerant, flexible and amenable to change than your older counterparts. Experience is something you can gain; fight the gerontocracy!

Ask someone you trust for advice; not everyone is out to get you. If you have a chance to talk to a predecessor and ask them what they would do in a certain situation, do. Arrogance is no ample replacement for true humility.

Remain the version of yourself who got this job: you got it for a reason. You have traits which will make you a good leader. Sometimes people will try to break you down for this, but knowing yourself is vital to putting your foot down and knowing your limits for mistreatment.

Enjoy yourself. I hope you love doing the job you've been given. If you power through, in a year you will undoubtedly be experienced and be much more comfortable in the role. Nobody feels like they fit the role as soon as they take it. Be a cat being poured into any container, and allow yourself to mould into shape.

Feel free to Inbox me again. You can do this, small. I believe in you!

Good luck little one,

Love,

-- Haitch xxx

[nouearth]

Okay, nou! I’ve been on anon for over two months but I think I’m finally ready to stand up and give myself an emoji (or two!)

Firstly, I’ll say my favorite of the 3 request ideas is definitely the bar one, but you’re gonna need a better title than what I gave you 💀

Secondly, I know these gays are gonna be pissed off if someone gives you another fic before tmhas 2 (we’re gonna start getting the “we got blank before gta vi?” but for nou fics and replace gta vi with tmhas 2) so absolutely positively no rush whatsoever even if you never write it idgaf

Thirdly, I just wanna say you’re my favorite writer EVER! and every time I think it can’t get better it does, so don’t have impostor syndrome or whatever (idk if you have that or not but I deal with it so I like to make other people feel confident in themselves too! although you probably don’t need a random anon’s opinion about anything.

And fourthly, I need to shut my mouth because I just keep rambling so I’ll be your 🥥 🌴 anon (if you’ll allow it, otherwise I’ll just be the 🥥 anon)

💌 : listen... i'm already working on tmhas 2, so no worries! i made my promise, okay.

BUT HELLO! YOU'RE THE SWEETEST. i think it's normal for everyone to have imposter syndrome, especially since i'm also... a graphic designer. 💀 imagine the struggle of having it two times for writing and then designing, lmao. it's so funny (and ironic) how easily we can comfort others when it comes to this topic, but when it comes to our own selves, we end up feeling inferior despite being very aware of our own advice. all in all, what matters is that we're not letting our insecurities stop us from creating what we find enjoyment out of. i'm always thankful that i have so many supporters like you motivating me, i don't think i would still be writing on this blog had it not been for you guys!

not the coconut tree. 😭 I'LL GIVE IT TO YOU.

[nokaru]

ooh 5, 8 and 31 for the ask game? theres a right answer for the last one /j

cheers and thank you imma drop a ball with this one <3

5. Character with the best design

I can't choose just one so imma do boys and girls categories

Girlies: Super torn between Shirayuki and Kageya. Everything about Shirayuki is straight up gorgeous and I absolutely LOVE all her outfits and hairstyles, esp the harem pants Sensei started drawing her in + I think her earrings are an amazing addition. Okay, so Kageya. There is just smt about Kageya's subtle beauty, is it the hair? maybe. The soft yet sussy look? probably. She just sticks out to me for some reason.

Babygirls Boys: Obi takes the cake cause he is just my fav type of anime guy. Dark hair, cat eyes and stylish. His color pallete is very nice too! Honorary mentions: Zen and Hisame. Zen is so eye catching and you can really tell he IS the Prince. And Hisame looks like noble-fied Obi. 10/10 smash.

8. Character that is most like you

Girl, when I tell you I've been thinking about this the WHOLE DAY and still didn't have a proper answer....sheesh. I came to a conclusion that maybe I'm like Obi? Not in an edgy way but in i-dont-understand-my-feelings-and-emotions-but-i-know-i-love-these-people orsmtlikethatidontfuckingknow I would also say I'm pretty funny?? and I would rather joke than discuss my emotions? I like to keep pretty tightknit group of friends, just vibe and go with the flow (my corpse in the river mentality). Also impostor syndrom.💀 On the other hand I got Hisame in Tomo's quiz and I trust Tomo's judgement so ig hes like me fr

31. Which one is better: manga or anime?

Vi. Viol. Listen here. Come closer. I can't believe you would anime better even ask me something anime better like that when you anime better know damn well I can't anime better simply just choose. Both are equality good and have their pros and cons.

but srs I think both are great and well made and I can't judge them on the same basis as anime is more aesthetically pleasing and has a soundtrack and amazing voiceacting while the manga is WAY more detailed, elaborate and impactful with the panel placement. PLUS U HAVENT WATCHED THE ANIME U CANT JUDGE-

[mentoskova]

Reading your reply about art and motivation: WHAT. It’s so interesting to hear cause I hear that from my art buddies all the time and my mind gets blown. How do you guys have so. much. talent. and still feel that way? 💀 When I first saw your works reblogged by others, my initial thought was “oh yea, this looks like concept art” and I was so stoked to see you are in the industry!

Anyways here to drop all the love. I’ve probably said this in a sneaky anon post: I really love your renders. Your intricate line art in combination with your color choices never ceases to blow my mind! I can’t get over the values you use and how effective they are. There’s just something so aesthetically pleasing about the level of detail you use in combination with your line work that looks so effortless. Seriously: those three color palettes, how do you do eeeet. Show us your ways. ✨

Aww. Glad to hear it and thank you so much as I always love to hear what people like about my art!

And yeah regarding motivation and things around it... I don't think feeling like this goes ever away. Maybe it rly does at some point if you work on your mental health, but I've not met such person yet. It's not about talent, skill lvl or following you see. You can have thousands of followers, an incredible skillset, big portfolio and career and still feel low, barely motivated because of the impostor syndrome, stress and what not. Talked once with a friend who worked for hollywood films which for me is mind-blowing and he was so withdrawn and anxious about posting personal things online. Especially since ppl can be sometimes very... unpleasant and use the adv of being anonymous online. So I cherish every positive interaction, dm, and comment I get, because sometimes I do have problems with motivation or I feel anxious. And it may sound funny but a personal message/comment can sometimes give me 1000x more boost than thousands likes.

So thank you again!!!

[vhstown]

maybe this is a little venty so like just ignore if yer not in the mood (it's a bit long too 💀) just needed to get it out me brain innit

but i have a period of time after i write a fic or create something or indulge in my hobbies where i desperately hate myself no matter how nice and lovely and amazing people are about it like i appreciate you so much thank you for encouraging me to do what i love to do just because I do it but my brain is just not normal lmfaoo

does anyone else experience this im 99% sure for me at least it's toxic shame (though for otjers it might be something like impostor syndrome which i also feel too but its this specific feeling of shame that's been bugging me since forever)

and i could fix it but idk i dont have the enrrgy most days and being lazy is comforting and sometimes i wrte to procrastinate but even doing my hobbies takes energy so it kind of sucks that i feel guilty after it as well lmao

im fixing it very slowly but surely it was much worse before my brain just didn't have the opportunity to develop properly so i am just fixing it and trying to be kind to myself cause it's not my fault and that yo shout out to everyone with kind of not very nurtured (or not very typical!) brains y'all work harder than anyone else

[writeblrsvoid]

hello void! just stopping by to shout about stuff

so I'm working on a fic whose storyline involves a purposefully unhealthy romance. however, I have two problems: 1. I've never been in a situation vaguely like what they've got going on and am feeling very impostor syndrome about trying to write it. 2. My fandom is very drama prone, the unhealthy romance involves a character who is simultaneously very popular and very controversial, and I don't want people to hate me💀(granted, my fic has never been very broadly read, but still) anyway, if any void dwellers want to say anything, i'm all ears - just needed to tell someone and get this out of my system 💜

I hope it doesn't turn out that way, but frankly, if people hate you over a piece of writing... like... are those the kinds of people you want to be friends with? 🤷🏽‍♀️

I say go for it! Write that thing, post that thing if you want to. No one can tell you what to and what not to write. Writing about toxic relationships is as important to fighting them as writing healthy ones ^_^

Have a great day/night. I hope you go with what you want and don't let fear dictate what you do.

[magicalink]

Dang I just realized that I didn't post anything in the entirety of May 💀 To think that at the beginning of the year I was planning to post once a week 💀 Then I lowered it down to once a month and was doing it fine and then this month I flopped 💀

It had to do with uni and with a family trip I had, but what kept me away from writing the most were intrusive thoughts and anxiety 😥

My hands start sweating and I feel convinced that it's not worth it, that I'll never find the right words to convey what goes through my mind.

The worst part of it is when I read my old unfinished works and I find them so good, I love them and my mind just tells me "you'll never do something this good ever again" and "If you try to write an ending to finish this you will just ruin it, you don't have that level of writing anymore and you will never reach it again" 💀

I hate intrusive thoughts. They've kept me from doing the things I love all my life, so I'm determined to not lose this battle. I won lots of battles against them in the past so there is no excuse to keep postponing this one. They've kept me from doing something I really wanted this whole month, and I'm not gonna let them win anymore.

I wanna do it. I really wanna do it. And even if the endings are not good enough, then I'll just delete them and write them again. But I'm not gonna stop anymore. Because that's the only way of dealing with intrusive thoughts, impostor syndrome and similar things: To keep going no matter how loud they scream, until their sound gets insignificant.

I really wanna write, so that's what I'll do, no matter how hard it is.

[caotica-e-quieta]

Today I taught my first full class on my own!!! Last week my mentor offered me to do this and while I panicked and short circuited, I also didn't want to disappoint him and went "yeah yeah totally I can do it yup it's gonna be GREAT" all the while I was shaking and my hands stayed cold for like 20 minutes 💀 I've been working on this classroom for a couple of months now but I'm never alone, it's always the two of us or me assisting the students.

Basically I've been losing my mind and questioning myself the entire week, impostors syndrome at its finest, just wanting to scream into a void, not knowing if I could actually do this. And that's insane because I WANT to be a teacher, but when the opportunity came up I just couldn't believe myself enough I guess? Anyway. I've been planning this class the whole week, it was all I could think about, I actually had to go for runs to blow off steam because it was driving me insane. Today I was literally shaking when I opened the classroom and started setting things up, the students started filling in - AND my mentor sat on the back of the class to watch the whole thing.

I thought that maybe he actually needed a cover up but as it turns out he just wanted to give me the chance which is actually really nice I guess? I love him he's an angel. I've adopted him as my dad already. I really thought that I couldn't do it, that I wasn't capable, that I would fuck up, but as soon as I started everything just sort of fell in place. It was SO FUCKING AWESOME. I LOVED IT. I remember accidentally checking the time on the notebook and being shocked that 2 hours had gone by and I was still there. I didn't realize that I actually had this in me even though, tecnically, I know that all I do is study art, so I have information™ about art stored in my mind.

Anyway. My epiphany for the month is: you don't really have to trust your gut because sometimes your gut has some pretty mean things to say about yourself. We gotta gaslight ourselves to make it through things, that's it. It's been some hours and I still feel like I'm floating. It's like... Now I know that I CAN do this. Teaching art for a living isn't just a dream, it's an actually pretty palpable thing that I can achieve if I just keep on working harder. I haven't felt this kind of HOPE in FOREVER. UGH. I am so happy that I don't even know how to put it into words.

[quitjobtofocusonsummer]

POST 6

Haven't posted in a while, but I want to write more. I was very very busy because I got a freelance project (yay) and in the same time it was ADE 💀 meaning I was partying till 6 AM and was working from 9 AM. Reflecting back to last week I feel like I am trying to be in a good place and life just keep throwing drama in front of me waiting for my patient to run out. I was having a horribly hard 5 hours conversation with someone I used to love (maybe I still do idk) about how he fucked up all his chances and how it is not possible to fix anymore. It was very hard but the whole time I felt he could change, he could be in a good place I want nothing from him anymore in the future, because probably he would still keep hurting me. And as hard it was saying goodbye, I made sure this is "goodbye". Don't call me, don't text me don't show up at my house, because all these things just hurt. We hugged (very tight) while he was saying "I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry for everything". Until this point, I kept it together, but on my way home I was crying and was sad, but in the same time relieved in some kind of way. And then what happens next day? He texts - i don't reply, he texts again - i don't reply, he calls - i don't reply, he calls in the morning until I pick up. We have a conversation on the phone, long story short he asks "so I leave you alone?" I say "Yes, please" ok bye. And then next day he texts the biggest bullshit ever and this shit just piss me off, because I was in peace and letting him go and now he keeps contacting me with his drama. So he say "Want to cook something today? Not like friends or anything just hang out" EXCUSE ME????? Then he deletes like I haven't fucking saw his stupid text already. I don't even say anything anymore. The mentor guy actually asked me out in text yesterday and I said no. And then he dared to say that I keep giving him signs. THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU MEN? Why all these men being so fucking dramatic? And now that he made me feel I'm the one sending mixed signs it just made me keep thinking if he only just helping me and got me the project because he wants to sleep with me and not because he thinks I am actually qualified. Thank you for strengthening my impostor syndrome.

I am not even a slightly bit looking for drama and this shit keeps happening. All these men with all their shit. GROW THE FUCK UP.

Cheers, Love

[1d1195]

Bestie boo, I need your advice.

I have so many story ideas, but in terms of posting, I wanted to start with something safe. I’m a sucker for a good tutor y/n and student Harry, but I was thinking something less traditional (no pun intended) than the plots I’ve seen for them. The ones I’ve read have all been sunshine/shy/innocent y/n, which is CUTE AS HELL, just not relatable enough for me to be 100% comfortable going for right off the bat.

I was thinking something along the lines of y/n struggling hard with imposter syndrome and gifted kid burnout™ . In the way that some former gifted kids resent being smart (🙋🏻‍♀️) because of all the stress and pressure put on them, by the adults in their lives and themselves because of it.

BUT, I feel like that’s a kind of specific audience it would interest? I personally can enjoy stories even though I don’t relate to them, but I know that not everyone feels that way. But that’s what I mean by safe, because, ya know…that’s characteristic STEM shit that I know a lot about💀

IDK THOUGH CAUSE I KNOW I SHOULDN’T NECESSARILY WRITE SOLELY TO PLEASE OTHER PEOPLE

-👩🏻‍🔬

HOW EXCITING! I think you're right, tutor and student is a popular trope for sure and def with the sunshine element. BUT! I think your spin on it would be really fun/original and I don't think you need to necessarily worry about people not liking it.

For example, what you're describing is almost identical to how I wrote Traditional in a sense--I love the CEO/sugar daddy trope but I'm not that good at writing smut so I wanted to make it a little easier for me to get my point across so I just forwent the smut part all together until I needed it--but it wasn't the main focus lol

I strongly believe you should do/write what makes you happy! So write the impostor syndrome and burnout. I think people like tutor/student trope and I'm sure you'll get a bunch of feedback of how your story is a different spin on it! Not to mention, I would absolutely love to read it when it comes time!

I've found that when I write the stories I want to write for myself like Tulips or Tuesday (or any of them really) that a lot of people like it anyway (and don't get me wrong I'm VERY lucky--I'm not forgetting nor negating that). But regardless it's really nerve-wracking posting something new. It's like a piece of my personality and heart on full display for everyone to judge. Honestly, I usually post it and then don't touch tumblr for like 2 hours because I'm so nervous it will get no notes/interaction or that everyone will hate it.

But truly, you just gotta write it and post it. I think it will be really wonderful 💕 Hope everything is going well!

xoxo