#instead of venting all the time

[stormyweaver]

Damn it. Finally gave in and napped twice this weekend.

gonna put a cut for more personal details, 'cause I hate having my own dash clogged sometimes.

Details: I've been struggling with lethargy/sleepiness through out the day for the past... jesus, at LEAST over five years at this point. I was diagnosed with anemia when I was younger, and over the course of my adulthood I guess it's just gotten worse?

I had some bloodwork done recently and it came back that I'm still dealing with it now - but my psych. was like "Since this medicine makes you REALLY sleepy" and I told him it was affecting me getting up on time (sometimes I've slept THROUGH my alarm while taking it) he's scheduled me to see a nurse soon.

I also talked to my pharmacist, AND I've made an appointment to see my primary (which is like, a lot more difficult than it should be? I've been re-scheduled TWICE now and they just keep pushing the date back .-.) but I just decided to try taking B12 supplements again. Honestly that and my multi-vitamin, plus working again and generally being better about being active in a healthy way has helped a ton.

I'm just confused as to why this weekend I suddenly like... broke my schedule. 'Cause I haven't napped in weekends past, but this one my brain was just like "You're gonna suffer from the eepy".

Idk, I always feel like a failure whenever I "break" my good habits (going to the gym, cooking at home, working on stuff I enjoy for recreation, mindfullness) but then I remember something me and my therapist are working on: not beating myself up for every fucking mistake.

Which I'm working on big time now, bc I genuinely hate that I took a nap that took up a good chunk of my day.

But! It's okay! Not like it's gonna be the death of me, it won't. I'm okay. It's okay.

[kizzer55555]

The Vampire Aesthetic

Ok so Danny knows two billionaires personally and they really couldn’t be more different. Yet they had one thing in common. A vampire aesthetic. Sam is fully into goth. Spiderwebs, bats, the color black. She enjoys fangs and fake blood and the darkness of her soul. Meanwhile, Vlad is Vlad. If his name wasn’t enough, the dark clothing, pale skin, and flying around with a cape and fangs with coffins in his mansion really sells it.

Danny doesn’t know many rich people so he thinks this might be some kind of trend. (If Paulina is rich, her family likes the chupacabra) So he just thinks that all rich people have some kind of vampire thing going on.

Cue Danny somehow ending in the Wayne household. Maybe he was brought over as a friend of one of the bats, maybe rescued from a field trip/vacation gone wrong, maybe some other situation. But he is there in civilian form with civilian Waynes and Danny just takes a good long look around the inside of the mansion.

“So where’s the vampire aesthetic?

Everyone freezes.

Danny just starts looking around, checking behind paintings and feeling the walls for secret levers. Used to secret passages with Vlad and possibly Sam. The Fentons definitely had them when they were temporarily rich.

“Come on, I know you guys are hiding it.”

Cue the entire batfamily thinking that this is another Tim and that he is fully aware that these people are the batfamily. Danny hangs around the mansion more and the bats just start dropping their disguises and not even bothering to hide stuff around Danny because they assume he already knows. (Possibly even trying to recruit him to be a new bat) Meanwhile, Danny, who does not know these people are batman and his birds, just does not pick up on any of it.

He grew up in a health violation with a giant ballon observatory lab above his head and a portal to the afterlife in his basement. He is a half dead teenager who has tea with the god of time and his godfather is the other parent to his clone child. He’s used to death lazers being scattered across his home and mysterious stains on clothing.

People are weird! He doesn’t judge!

[wormsical]

highchoolers (and iori)

[cupidsncheerios]

jayvik au where viktor is the name of an ai automated lab assistant in jayce’s workplace that operates various precision tools like the hexclaw, and viktor slowly gains sentience as the researchers shift his role from mechanical aid to full on lab butler getting coffee for them and shit

eventually viktor falls in love with jayce because jayce is the only person in this lab of complete assholes that says thank you after viktor helps them

[sweet-peachie]

Thinking about a yandere with a depressed darling.

A yandere who's patient with you no matter how bad it gets. On easier days, when it's just the lingering inexplicable sadness that has you staring off into space every now and then between conversations, he's quick to jump to another topic to distract your mind. When he sees your gaze lower and your brows pinch in thought, he makes your favorite meal under the guise of having been craving it himself. When you're both sitting on the couch and he sees your leg bounce, your fingers trembling against your thighs - he feigns tiredness and leans against you to 'absentmindedly' take your hand in his.

A yandere that on harder days, ones where you can't even muster up the energy to get up from your shared bed, stays there with you for hours on end. Arms wrapped around your waist and his face buried in your hair. If you're lying down, he'll let you rest against his chest and listen to the sound of his heartbeat - the soft sound lulling you into a state of calm. If you're sitting up, he'll keep his arms around you and gently rock the both of you back and forth, keeping his weight pressed against you to keep you grounded. You enjoy silence? No problem, he finds the quiet peaceful too. You need background noise to distract yourself from your thoughts? He's going on and on about anything and everything he can think of.

He tries his best to only leave your side for absolute necessities at the start of these periods. He knows that taking care of you when you're down makes you feel guilty, so he never makes it seem like he's only doing something just for you (even if he knows he is).

He's feeling pretty hungry. No worries though, he'll just go ahead and order some food from that restaurant you both (read: you) like. No, you don't have to get up from the bed to get it from the door, he needed to use the bathroom anyway so he'll just grab it on his way back!

(He was never really hungry. Hell, he could survive off of the smell of you alone if he could. But he'd be damned if you didn't get at least one full meal in today.)

A yandere that never judges you for your lack of motivation to take care of yourself sometimes. You don't feel like you can take a shower today? That's perfectly fine, a missed shower or two never hurt anyone! You felt too drained to brush your teeth before you went to sleep? That's alright, he's feeling pretty tired too so you're both in the same boat! Even if you're someone who prefers to eat in bed because you don't have the energy to eat at the dining table, he doesn't mind one bit. Crumbs aren't an issue for him, and having to wash the sheets is only a small sacrifice to make sure you're comfortable. Hell, if you didn't feel so iffy about it he'd even feed you if you asked.

A yandere that never in his wildest dreams would ever shame you for something you can't control. But, he does care about your health, of course, so he wouldn't allow you to skip too many days of hygiene without stepping in. One of his favorite things to do with you is shared self-care. If you don't take a shower that day, you can both just take one together the following day. He takes great care in washing you off, lathering your hair in your favorite scented shampoo and conditioner before turning around and letting you do the same to him. If you don't feel like brushing your teeth or washing your face that night, that's perfectly fine, he's already setting up a playlist for you two to dance to in front of the mirror when you both get it done tomorrow instead.

A yandere that, although he makes sure you're comfortable during your more difficult days, still wants to help you gradually recover. If your lack of motivation and tiredness spans over a few days or more, he'll slowly but surely coax you out of bed. First it starts out small, like using the restroom or grabbing something from the other side of the room. And then it moves on to leaving the room entirely, getting you to stay outside for longer and longer intervals until the emptiness is finally pushed to the back of your mind once again - dormant until the next time it rears its ugly head. But that's okay. Progress is slow, and it's far from perfect. And he'll tell you just how proud he is that you've taken a step further, no matter how small it may seem.

A yandere that doesn't consider you a burden for the way you feel. Who doesn't ask what caused your mood, even if the shift was sudden. Who doesn't judge you when you fall back into old habits (now, with larger intervals in between) - your hair getting tangled, your skin oily and your clothes stained. Because no matter what he'll be there with you every step of the way, and he'll happily help you up again and again.

[dykedvonte]

I think it says something that you got to see everyone’s dead body and were forced to be a participant to Curly’s torture at the hands of Jimmy but we don’t get to see him dead.

You don’t get to see the satisfaction of seeing the true cause of all the pain everyone went through get a single consequence and it’s so hollow. You don’t get a panning shot of his body, you don’t get splatter to show you it was messy. It just happens and then you’re just left there with all the remnants of what happened and unable to do anything because it’s over. It’s done and you don’t get to do anything about. It’s how Curly feels about what he didn’t do. It’s how you feel as you pilot Jimmy and can do nothing to stop him.

It’s how those affected by people like Jimmy feel after it’s all done. Seen some sort of due process or justice after every painful little thing. It doesn’t feel like enough after every, cause maybe it wasn’t enough. Or rather, it wasn’t done soon enough.

[fullmetal-scar-simping]

Average fma fan talking about 03 positively: Man, it's such a miracle that the 2003 anime is written even halfway decently! After all, the writers who, as we know, have never written anything in their lives before [citation needed], they had to work while locked in individual underground cells [citation needed], only fed scraps of fma lore by Arakawa herself [citation needed] while her story was actually fully formed by the first printing of her manga in Monthly Shonen Gangan [citation needed] but they were adapting the initial first volume of manga and oopsy-daisy shot past it [citation needed], so they made up every plot beat, character arc, storyboard, and lore change completely on the fly and very randomly [citation needed]. Even though they tried to 1:1 adapt her story [citation needed, contradicted by existing sources], they fumbled the job and butchered her story, characters, and lore. Arakawa sagely forgave them [citation needed]. But somehow it's a cohesive story?! Wow! Even though the story is sad, dark, scares me, makes me cry, violent, gorey, and my fave ships aren't endgame, so -50 demerits. Still, good job team! A treat! A treat for the monkeys working the typewriters at Studio Bones circa 2002-2004! #fullmetal alchemist brotherhood

[goosehadfood]

Wanted to make a piece celebrating the completion of the pigeon pot but uhgggg I hate this I loved the sketch but i was too unfamiliar with colored pencils and messed it up arrrrrg chromatic blacks are so hard to make my hand hurts. If anyone wants to see the finished pigeon pot then you can comment and I’ll post it but ugh I feel so unmotivated now.

[genericpuff]

vent post

[stunie]

it’s so easy to forget that you can literally write whatever you want

[murdocs-sweetheart]

With regards to the last anon who I’m sure was all the same person.

What was that, FIVE separate asks (tbh I didn’t actually count, but for everyone else, it was a lot, trust 😭) sending me hardcore M/acGyver x M//urdoc smut ?

I did not read more than like the first few words of each of those, just to check they weren’t anything I give a fuck about but like… damn, way to waste my time. I got a calculus exam in a little over two hours. I don’t have time for this shit lil bro 😂😂😂

[afrenomes]

I really can’t stand seeing other Jews on here spreading misinformation about the “protesters” (honestly we should start calling them rioters or even militants—it’s what they call themselves), and their posts getting 9k+ notes, meanwhile Jewish students and NYC Jews are screaming into the void about who these people ACTUALLY are and our posts hardly even break 100 notes, with even half of Jumblr ignoring us, saying we’re exaggerating when we say what’s happening on campuses is THAT BAD, or saying that our civil rights (which are required to be protected under the law!) matter less than a person who’s violating their green card agreement facing the same legal consequences based on the same law that Biden used against violent West Bank settlers back when he was president

[kedreeva]

Different person, but how talkative should one be to join your farm discord? It takes me a while to build up enough courage to talk in discords; but I’m really interested in birds and am thinking about getting quail down the line instead of getting more chickens.

You don't need to talk at all if you prefer to just hang out, and you can talk as much as you please if you're chatty. There's no rules about having to talk.

To help you out before you go in so you know what to expect, there are two main sets of channels- the farm set and the off the farm set; the farm set is mostly for talking about longfeather lane updates, BUT I'm perfectly happy to discuss relevant topics in those channels. I'd just like for those channels to stay, you know, relevant to their topics, since there are people there just for updates and information on specific topics.

The off the farm channels are set up for folks to chat and hang out about non-longfeather-lane stuff (general chat, posting pets, fandom, gaming, writing, that kind of thing). I have it set up so that photos from others can only be posted in these channels, to avoid any confusion about longfeather lane animals/happenings. I some of these channels muted so they don't constantly go off since people do get chatty in those, but I'm happy to be pinged to come chat!

Both of these sets you can opt into or out of, so if you JUST want to hang out in the farm updates for a bit before accessing the general chat channels, you can (or you never have to if you prefer), or vice versa.

There are only a few rules that amount to "be civil and PG-13" and "take your bitching/gloom-and-doom and elsewhere."

[sieglinde-freud]

oh im obsessed with this actually… who ever wrote this one i am kissing u on the forehead and hugging you real tight… inigo is such a loverboy im kkkhhhhhhijnsdnfng

[ciderjacks]

therapy

[brudiza-spudnik]

this is the worst week of math homework since 7th grade