#it kinda is

[finnoky]

> Even when you’ve disappeared I can’t get away from you

Honestly, this one (1) lyric makes me think of them so badly. I promise I love them

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[ruthlessness69]

((I have a weak spot for Ody looking like this......))

[yaoisquidbob]

awkward hugging

[stop-talking]

Mike trying not to laugh:

(someone just brought up the time he beat a guy senseless right in front of his kid)

[isatartdump]

Now the usual sketch dump

[atomicradiogirl]

fellas is it gay that the only consistent relationship raylan givens has on justified is boyd crowder aka his friend/arch nemesis because they dug coal together? like i’m not even exaggerating.

[thesmpisonfire]

Okay i need to say this (btw this aint a jab at the op of the recent post that said this, its just that I'm annoyed today and that post kinda triggered my reaction, sorry bestie)

I fucking HATE when they say "omg the pvpers team, the strategists team and the rp team 🤪🤪" when talking about Purgatory one, bECAUSE GUESS FUCKING WHAT. MOST OF THE OTHER TEAMS WERE ROLEPLAYING. SOULFIRE TEAM WAS CONSTANTLY RPING AND SO WAS GGN

ROIER WAS IN GGN. BAGI WAS IN GGN. >> EL QUACKITY<< WAS IN GGN. MAXO WAS IN GGN

BADBOYHALO WAS IN SOULFIRE. TUBBO WAS IN SOULFIRE. PAC WAS IN SOULFIRE. TINA WAS IN SOULFIRE. PIERRE WAS IN SOULFIRE

BESIDES EVERYONE ELSE THAT WAS RPING THEIR WAY OUT THERE

And if you go "oh but rping was their main strength" FUCK OFF THEY LITERALLY WON PURGATORY, WITH STRATEGIES AND PVP. THATS LITERALLY DIMINISHING THE TWO OTHER TEAMS RP ABILITIES AS IF THEY AREN'T "AS GOOD" AS BOLAS

Soulfire has SO MANY AMAZING rp moments during the entirety of Purgatory, there was Tina eating maggots, there was Tubbo constant panic, Pac having a panic attack and Bad calming him down, AyRobot taking over and killing Maxo. They literally DEVELOPED their characters in purgatory

Sorry. I got upset. Yall can move as normal

[decaying-spoon]

I yearn to be a clown.

I’m considering this world because I had to test out my new facepaint anyways

[raphaerolo]

he is beauty he is grace <3

[wewebaggit]

El hitting Angela parallels more to what she did to Max with her skateboard. These are rage issues and not really fight or flight responses.

She does it at the cabin too (s2) when she's just about had it with Hopper. She does it with the guy in forest too.

In season 1 at the lake/river or whatever even with lucas with the door locking and knocking him against the car. Or that that supermarket.

She was at no point in time under actual/perceived mortal danger. Henry in the lab however DEFINITELY was.

El was not happy with henry killing the lab kids - her bullies nor was she okay with outing them. She was merciful towards Kali's abuser because he has kids. Her fight or flight is fight. But her response to anger is also fight.

Also the what have you done flashback was triggered by the blood she saw on Angela's face. The dead lab kids having bled from their eyes and nose? Brenner too with a bloodied broken nose.

It triggers the hint of a memory. She's already feeling weird. And then mike just pulls the final trigger with his what did you do line.

El's violence is girlbossified in the show AS WELL AS in the fandom because women are powerful only if they act like men. This is NOT in isolation. Gunslinger Nancy. Joyce getting into fights. Max being into videogames like boys  ("girls don't play videogames") and skateboarding to show her as being totally tubular.

Erica and Robin are the only female characters who've been allowed to be escape this. They're instead quirky fast talking lesbian and sassy black girl and overall tertiary characters used to prop the male characters around them.

woMEN in stranger things

This is not to say women or men can only be/do/like one thing. However the show has a pattern alright.

It's not so much women hating or male worshipping (I hope so, but also it REALLY isn't). It's just that their (writers') ideas of cool and uncool (not good or bad) are very stereotypically gendered.

[lab-trash]

Me: *Watching Supernatural*

My sister: Is that man door hand hook car door?

Me: ... yes.

[just-venting-about-him]

Well what to say. Its been about a week since we've been together. And today is the first time I'll not see him. But I'll meet him tommorow.

Its really nice. I am enjoying it so much. Things are just good. The way he looks at me and holds me close to him makes me feel so loved. He truly looks at me like I am the best thing that heppened to him. And I feel the same.

People still dont know and it still makes me nervous. Especially my parents. But I'll just give it time and see. Right now I am just concentrating on enjoing his company.

We also have real proper date on thursday. Cinema and meal. And he will stay overnight at my place. I am really excited and tiny bit nervous.

[awlwgeneraldinosaur]

Finally going to bed having only eaten half a box of cheerios and some crisps since 7am. Rip.

[clatterbane]

Quite a haul from the gastroenterology appointment this afternoon!

We've now got quite a supply of disinfectant stuff and "glideslime", plus a fistful of gauze swabs to use with them.

Plus that (useless for me) box of individual packs of lidocaine goop.

They also threw in about half a pack they had handy of hospital barf bags. Can't forget the barf bags, apparently! 🙃

Not to mention the centerpiece, looking like the world's crappiest hose to beat people with.

Which I am intended to snake down my throat on a regular basis, with the tape line as a guide of how far to go. Which I did in office already, a couple of times. That was fun. At least I did show the foresight to skip lunch beforehand, is all I can say.

They pulled out what looked for all the world like some particularly large pool cue case, but full of a graduated set of tapers rather than cues. (Small blessings? 🥴) I halfway expected to get sent home with that, but no today they decided to just cram that smallish one in a plastic bag.

I am actually trying this shit voluntarily, btw.

Home self-torture was mentioned as a possible option not that long after we got here--I think partly to hopefully cut down on how often I needed the gastroscopy treatments while we were still having to pay completely out of pocket before I was covered by the local system. Then it didn't come up again. I actually brought it up myself pretty recently, after they decided to switch me over onto the much more involved (and totally fucking miserable) full outpatient day surgery under general anesthesia plan for the procedures.

I would really like to continue being able to swallow and, like, live. But, I truly do not know how much longer I can force myself to do that on a monthly basis. So yeah, I will gladly snake out my own damn throat like a balky drain if it might hopefully mean that I can keep going without the standing appointments in Medical Trauma Hell* which are also physically much harder on me than the previous arrangement.

Anyway, they were really not sure about this, especially since the worst of the damage to the esophagus is way down the pipe, almost to my stomach. These drain snake hoses are apparently what they were relying on themselves for dilation treatments before endoscopes were a thing, so it (thankfully) wasn't necessarily a question of how effective that approach might be. More how well the person might be able to tolerate reaming out their own throat that far.

Their department has evidently only had two other patients taking the DIY approach, both of them with strictures much higher up. (Though I was reassured that both of them did manage to go at least several years between needing further professional help.)

But yeah, I am highly motivated and pretty damned stubborn. I do appreciate that they are actually willing to talk to me, and seeming to consider comfort as a somewhat important consideration. All of which is one hell of a lot better than I could say for the clowns in London during actual procedures.

I did try the next size up in the office too, but that was enough trickier today with several people watching me deepthroat plastic plumbing snakes that for now they just sent me home with the small 5mm hose. I am scheduled to go back next week for another round in Day Surgery Hell anyway, and they might give me more then. It should also be easier to manage with bigger ones once they've reamed the esophagus out again.

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* They have been treating me like an actual person at that hospital, consistently. But, PTSD just being stuck in a situation like that for most of a day. No wonder medical professionals keep not being happy at what my blood pressure is doing.

[the-baymen-real]

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