#it’s just one of those nights

[detentiontrack]

She didn’t even have a funeral. No one but me knows her name. It was a secret for years and now I don’t have any way to honor her memory.

[fellhellion]

Category five yearning for romantic intimacy moment 😔

[ssahotchnerr]

i miss aaron so bad ☹️

[corrodedcorpses]

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Feeling some very strong impostor syndrome when it comes to my writing tonight 🙃 very much feeling like i don’t deserve all the notes I’ve gotten and that when I release the next part of BOF everyone’s gonna be disappointed again and realise I’m actually so bad at writing

[youronlyjeanie]

me hiccuping slightly, tears leaking from my eyes, nose running as i wince and press play on ptolemaea by ethel cain once again

[that-one-guy-called-rey]

why does my brain think the way it does like sir please I’d rather not try to pick apart every little thing to convince myself that my friends only tolerate me and don’t actually care about me. that’s just untrue and unhelpful I am begging you to think about anything else so help me god I will beat you with a shovel

[chasing-rabbits]

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I really am going backwards funny how in so many ways you could say I’m better than I used to be. I don’t think you’d be wrong in saying so but maybe thats why this hurts so much more. I’m medicated for my Bipolar and it’s mostly working and when the odd mania comes through it’s so minor it’s not impacting my life significantly enough to matter. So I’m better. No major Bipolar shifts has led me to greater self awareness which has been painful with regards to my BPD but it’s probably also allowed me to better work on my BPD too. I’m in therapy I’m working on my trauma I’m working on my BPD and in a way when my Bipolar got better my BPD got ‘worse’ but as my therapist says its more likely its just I wasn’t so aware of all my symptoms before so for my Bipolar to get better it made me struggle more with my BPD. But I am still in therapy and there is some level of improvement or at least a greater understanding that has made a difference in some areas like splitting and control enough I haven’t attempted anything permanent in a while and I have control enough I believe that I wouldn’t. And yet I’ve been on a slow decline maybe not so slow anymore when it comes to the intense sadness & depression of BPD and yet somehow in all this progress I’ve managed to go straight back to hurting myself to cope. Everytime progress is made its undone in some way its undermined by another part of me devolving it’s hard to know if I’m ever truly getting better I traded my Bipolar for worse BPD I traded therapy for self harm. So I don’t deny I’ve made improvements but I can’t deny in doing so I’ve also just gone backwards too. So are the scales balanced? Am I winning? Or am I just treading water.

[tinkerbitch69]

Realising all those people you lay awake at night thinking about are people who probably haven’t thought about you since the last they saw of you is the SUCKIEST feeling, I swear to god…

[chloesimaginationthings]

FNAF Phone guy was wild for saying that to Michael..

[bluerosefox]

Always Favors You

Another Sibling Danny and Jason idea!!

"Are you Jason Peter Todd?!" demanded a deep and commanding tone from the strange glowing being in front of them.

All the Bats stiffened and tensed, no doubt gearing up for a fight against the being that somehow knew Red Hood's full name.

Jason, Red Hood, decided to put on a brave front despite no doubt cursing in his head and wondering how the heck did this thing know his full freaking name.

"Whose asking." he snarled out, his hands twitching for his gun when the huge glowing knight with purple flames coming out of his helmet and cape, who was riding on a nightmare looking horse while they all had been in the cave going over tonight's patrol.

The Knight didn't seemed bothered by his response nor did he even seem to care or flinch when Batman made his own demand on 'Why was he there and who was he' or when Damian unsheathed his sword and pointed it towards him. Instead the strange glowing Knight reached to it side and pulled out... A glowing scroll? Huh. (Also he completely unnerved everyone in the room when the Knight didn't even react when Batman had tossed a Baterang when he reached for his side)

The Knight opened the scroll and spoke clearly with purpose.

"Jason Peter Todd,

You are hereby invited as a special guest of honor to the crowning of our future King of the Infinite Realms.

Daniel Phantom, once Daniel Jackson Fenton, and once Daniel Austen Todd.

Prince of the Infinite Realms, the Keeper of Balance, The Peacekeeping Halfa, the Defeater of the Tyrant King Pariah Dark, The Great One, Youngest of the Ancients, Ancient of Space, The Bridge between Life and Death.

You, the half-brother of our King, have been given the highest of honors for your past actions and will be given housing and food in the Realms and Phantom's Keep, for the week long event. Personal servants and attendants will be at your disposable and a seamstress will be on hand to tailor make your attire for the Coronation.

Signed: Clockwork. Ancient of Time. Watcher of the Infinite Timeline. Kronos. Mentor and Adviser.

PS: I shall have Fright Knight ("Me" the Knight bluntly said for a second) leave this scroll along with a personal one for you from Daniel to read over and once you make up your mind sign the bottom of the scroll.

I do hope in time you will pick the right choice Jason Todd, we of the Infinite Realms would like to reward you for your actions. After all, if you hadn't gotten young Daniel away from your father that night all those years ago, we would never had gained our Prince nor be free from our once Tyrant King.

Ah, one more thing.

The Infinite Realms will always favor you Jason."

Jason felt like he couldn't breath as Fright Knight? Rolled up the scroll, pulled a letter from his side, and held out the two items for him to take.

[greensapphic]

He in in fact did not have a good explanation .

[hench-thyme]

im so comfortable and stoned but i literally can’t sleep because i’m thinking about gary

like look at him COME ONNN I NEED HIM TO HOLD ME i just REALLY need to draw my self insert with him guys

maybe tomorrow

[disloyalroyal]

Gonna dress up as a clown and lay in a dried up creek at 2 am

[of-the-true-autumn]

it’s always funny when people tell me the way i talk about rin is sweet and adorable. like do i really always come off as a love struck fool when i talk about her haha not that it’s bad if i did. it’s just amusing that people pick that up from me. it’s also interesting to hear someone say how when rin talks about me there’s an obvious warmth to it and that it’s easy to tell how much we mean to each other.

i’ve been largely absent because of a combination of my own health issues as well as worrying over rin and how she’s feeling. it’s been hard on me to feel so helpless. i’m doing what i can despite the distance to help her.but it’s hard on me too to see her hurting so much and knowing there so little i can do.

anyway i love rin so very much. and i wish i could help her more since i know she’s struggling a lot. but i love her and i always will love her. she’ll always be my dearest starshine.

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apartment shenanigans

from utilities included, ch. 9 (mind the tags and rating!)

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