#it's literally so sexy but then i look at myself and wonder why i can't feel that way about my own body

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Hello my wonderful fandom family :) Thanks for being so patient with me. I know I have till January but I am moving/slash road tripping at the end of Sept to a new state. Which is a HUGE change. Going two time zones ahead and everything. So wanting to get it out there before I move and have even less time LOL Also thank you for wanting to take this journey with me. S6 was hard on all of us.

Haven't had a show rock me this hard in a very long time. So I'm forever grateful for the love and comments these in depth reviews get. Never want to take that for granted. This was a ROUGH season to say the least. But I’m excited to dissect it with decompressed eyes and somewhat healed shipper heart. Be lying if I was saying it was fully healed. But was a much needed break for me. Let us begin shall we?

6x01 Strike Back.

Premiere starts off with a literal bang. They’re all trying to figure what is actually happening. The mastermind clearly not the man they just took down in Luke Moran. Also loving how scruffy Tim is in this first shot of the premiere. The stubble all over that gorgeous jawline of his. Mmm. Delicious dusting. Love to break me off a piece. Wouldn't be a review if Feral Caitlin didn't make an appearance would it? ha God he's beautiful I can't help myself. This is his fault really.

Anyway back to matter at hand.... Lucy points out Luke may have been a patsy for the real crime. Diverting all their resources to this this one spot instead of their real target. Our girl always being the brains and Tim being impressed by it. They go hand in hand. You know that man loves her brain. Her intelligence is just one of many reason's he fell in love with her. Fun to watch her flex it I have to say.

There’s so much to love about these shots in the shop with them. The Metro call sign being one of them. It does things to me. It’s just sexy. Also the automatic way she’s paired with him in this moment. Like anyone else would be in that car with him but still. Ever the packaged deal. Just the little things I always love so very much. They don’t share shops anymore. So this is a treat. Riding together, brainstorming, and just being the bad ass team they always are in the field. Makes my shipper heart happy to see it.

After the Federal Reserve mayhem we skip 6 weeks into the future. I always wondered what happened in those six weeks with our ship. Probably nothing massive tbh. But be fun to know what shippy goodness could’ve occurred. I imagine they had some time off after that. Spent it together and decompressed from the madness. Just a nice thought to think about is all. *cough fic writers cough.*

We start off our cuteness with Lucy in Tim’s office studying. There’s so much to love about this scene it’s unreal. Let’s start with Lucy taking residency in his office like it’s hers. Knowing it’s a quiet place for her to retreat to. Also I’m sure Tim offered it up long ago for her. Which makes me giddy to no end. He’s not the least shocked that she’s using it. Only that she’s not out on patrol. Married status continues to level up in this moment.

Lucy explains she’s fallen way behind in her studies. OT is killing her atm. I can’t imagine how stressed she feels. Lucy is our resident academic. Not having the time to nerd out on her studies has to be killing her. It’s why she reaches out to her man for help. To pivot this in a different direction. Something that worked for Tim when he needed studying time. Asking if she could ride with him today? Could quiz her between calls.

Getting flashbacks to 2x02 when she helped him study between calls for his exam. I always love the callbacks they do for them. Continuity is ship crack for me. I eat it up. He accepts and Lucy is beaming. Their smiles in this scene are so adorable. Couldn’t be more in love if they tried tbh. I remember thinking how much I missed our idiots in love so much. I'll be this way for S7 too. I miss them.

Tim looks excited for this challenge. You can see it in his face above. But he is also letting her know how hard it’s going to be if she wants him to do this. That it’s probably not going to solve her problem. But he’s willing to expand her knowledge base on wildcards. This way she can take any curve balls Primm has to throw. Lucy’s smile is everything when she thanks him. Relieved her man is gonna help her her out. I mean of course he would. Nothing he wouldn't do for her and she knows it.

I remember seeing the funniest post for this moment before it aired. How it was her basically asking ‘Babe, please be mean to me.’ LOL Lord knows this woman is well aware he wasn’t gonna take it easy on her. Just like the old days. It's where she learned the most. So it makes sense she would wanna dip her toe back in that pool.

Tim is ready to roll. Starting his ‘boot’ engines back up. Don’t tell me it's not a little bit of a kink for Tim. That man is too damn excited to be able to boss her around again. That being said says she learns best when she’s pissed off. I mean he’s not wrong…No one knows how to teach her better than he does. Lucy counters by saying does she? Or is this is just giving him permission to be an ass?

Tim letting her know if that’s really how she feels she doesn’t actually want his help. Lucy backtracks and is desperate for him to guide her with this. Saying she needs it. Tim is lighting up like a Christmas tree. You know that man LOVES her needing him professionally. It’s been awhile since she has. He’s excited. Lucy has been a self sufficient cop for long time now. Hasn’t needed his guidance for quite some time. So for her to come to him with this he is a happy camper.

Tim is thrilled to put his T.O. hat back on for her. They have such married energy through out this scene. Lucy telling him she doesn’t like his excited smile. Tim deflecting saying it's just his smile haha The absolute wifey look she gives him is hilarious. They just be flirting freely in the hallways. Like they aren’t completely married at this point. Even though he’s driving her insane she follows him out with an 'in love' smile. She loves her ass of a boyfriend haha

They hit the road and Lucy is still questioning her decision. Oh my girl. Saying maybe should’ve chosen Harper or Lopez instead…Tim makes a joke how Angela just got back. Her cop brain is just booting up. Which earns a smile out of Lucy. She loves this man sitting next to her so very much. Written all over her face. Doesn’t take long before Tim triggers a Lucy rant though.

Poor man is just trying to help the woman he loves get through this. Wasn't expecting the time bomb he received. He sets her off by saying no matter who teaches her they all have the same database. That there’s only a 8 percent difference between ranks. This is what ignites the Lucy meltdown above. That Primm is going to use that eight percent to trip her up. His face above when she starts is priceless. Tim is just bracing for impact at this point LMAO Ain't no stopping what's coming his way.

The flood gates have opened and phew lord what a meltdown it is LOL Holy hell. She is the queen of them. I adore how Melissa can shoot off so much dialogue in one breath. It’s impressive af if you ask me. Also makes me cackle so much cause I’ve been her. So many times when I’m under immense stress I do the same. You prattle on until you run out of steam. I can’t believe there isn’t a gif set of this rant so I made one. It’s too good not to have in this review.

It’s the look on Tim’s face that has me ROLLING. It’s been awhile since he’s had an epic Lucy rant thrown at him and it shows. Eric the King of facial expressions is at it again. I’m laughing so damn hard. I remember having to pause cause I was laughing so much at his expression. He most definitely wasn't expecting the rant that he got. If you can look at him above and not laugh you're made of stone. Hang in there Tim lmao Your girl Is worth this intense stress/anxiety vomit she just spewed all over you. It's like he doesn't even know where to begin after she's done. So he just doesn't....

The married energy continues once Lucy has wrapped up her meltdown. Tim being the smart man he is doesn’t say a word. He’s learned a thing or two from this relationship. Lucy though takes his silence as saying everything for him. With her ‘Please don’t.’ Tim trying not to start anything telling her he’s said nothing. He truly wasn’t expecting the explosion he got. Was happy to be a passenger princess today, while he quizzed her through out the day. And instead got an epic freak out right out the gate.

Tim can’t win for losing in this scene. (or this episode really) Lucy telling him she hear him thinking it. I remember there being a Chenford Bingo of some sort before the premiere. And exasperated husband was on there. This delivered that in spades. His reaction after her saying this is gold. Haha This is the woman you’ve chosen to love Timothy. LMAO You know he loves her to death neuroses and all but good lord ha.

Their banter never fails to hit and the marriage vibes on top of this is top tier. I am here for it all damn day. One of those 'When did they get married again?' moments. His look at the end is like he’s chanting to himself . ‘You love this woman…you love this woman...’ Lucy tops it off saying she just won’t sleep till the exam. Leaving Tim to shake his head more and not say a word. Only look out the window as he rolls his eyes. Primo banter and chemistry here. *chef kiss*

They roll up to their first wildcard. I adore the Metro call sign as they do. Tim assigning the crime scene to Lucy as he does. *fans self* I can’t explain why the call sign so sexy. Just is. Also them sharing it on the scene also gets me all in my feels. Tim is telling her that he is there as a resource for her. But she is the one in charge. Asking her what’s her first move?

The Plain Clothes Day vibes are all over this scene and it's fantastic. Another callback I am so happy they touched on. Lucy confidently strides onto the scene and explains her move. Tim tells her to call it in. Love the way she looks at him the entire time she does. Tim asks her what else? This is where Lucy’s confidence starts to wain sadly.

Where that panicked rookie from all those years ago begins to resurface. The way she is talking at Tim trying to figure it out oh my lord. The PCD vibes are so strong. Only this time Tim is helping her out a lot more. Unlike back in S1 he was there to watch her flop around, second guess herself and drown. It’s much different this time around. He truly wants her to succeed and let's her know as much in his responses. Lucy doesn’t see that in this moment though unfortunately.

Tim telling her the obvious boxes are checked but what’s her wildcard? The spiraling is so real for her in this moment. It hurts to watch the anxiety build in Lucy. Tim testing her knowing she can do this but her confidence is eroding in this moment rapidly. He is trying to get her there faster by saying she doesn’t have a minute. Which she really doesn’t when we know how this scene ends…

One of my fav parts of this scene is the line above. The kindness and gentleness Tim has. Because he wasn’t in love with her during PCD like he is now. Here he is trying to be supportive and gently guide her to the answer. Even give her an out for it. S1 Tim never would’ve said there’s no shame in not knowing the answer. Not this directly anyways. Doing his damn best to support her through this. But also help her get to the answer so she learns. Lucy takes it the wrong way though.

Reason being it has nothing to do with the man next to her. That man would die first before not supporting her. Level headed Lucy would know that. Sadly she is not here with us at this crime scene. Who she really is mad at is herself at this point. Because she should know the answer and her brain is stalling out in this moment. Tim told her he wasn’t gonna take it easy on her. But breaks a little with his kind reply. Giving her an out if she wants it. Lucy can’t handle it though...Because she is being far harder on herself for this than Tim could ever be. I can relate so hard to this it's unreal.

I do love the way she says ‘Sergeant Bradford, please.’ Lucy feels like she’s suffocating in her own thoughts. The panicked rush to get this right and hitting a wall. The anger building towards Tim at the same time. The confidence she has built since S3 just melting away the more she stresses. All the while taking it out on Tim. Why you ask? Because in this moment she is projecting that anxiety and stress onto him with her reply. Defense mechanism thy name is Lucy Chen.

Doesn’t take long after that line for the sprinklers to come on….The wildcard revealing itself on its own. We watch as the evidence literally gets washed away and the bullet down the drain….Lucy rushes to chase it and watches as it goes down a storm drain. A reflection for how she feels about her hopes of passing this test…It’s a rough scene to watch unfold for her. The devastation on her face when she realizes that bullet is gone is very rough.

They return to the station and Lucy is as defeated as she can be. Hoping no one knows about it as as she rubs her tattoo. They start to play clown music as she enters. SMH. Tim trying not to laugh. Aaron doesn’t help when he also laughs at her misfortune. Not a good day for our girl….Lucy gets distracted by Wesley being there with the baby.

We get a small sweet departure from her anxiety in this moment. While she has him she wants his legal opinion on her crime scene. He too laughs. These men in her life are the worst right now. Not helping her building anxiety and loss of confidence. Wes telling her she fatally ruined that scene. That she’s gonna need a straight up confession to convict someone. And that’s only if she finds the killer…oof.

We rejoin our beautiful duo staking out the crime scene. Lucy grasping at straws to fix what she so royally screwed up. Her heightened state of spiraling continues on in this scene. Lucy admits she wants to skip the exam. Her face breaks my damn heart. Killing me here Melissa. I do love the way he says her first name in response. Still gets me he can. After years of Officer Chen and ‘boot.’ Just hits differently and makes my shipper soul happy.

Tim tells her she is ready. That man would not tell her she was ready if she wasn’t. Relationship or not that man doesn’t hold back. Wouldn't send her head long into failure. If Lucy was in a better place emotionally she would’ve heard him. Heard the confidence in his tone. Seen the empathy he was exuding for her. This man has changed so much in his time with her.

It sky rocketed when they got together. Tim couldn’t have been more supportive if he tried in this scene. Hell this entire episode. But she is so very stuck in her head. A place Tim could normally shake her loose from. A specialty of his really. He can’t gain an inch of ground in this scenario. Lucy has dug her heels in so to speak that she’s gonna fail. Nothing he says is getting through.

Our girl is experiencing massive amounts of anxiety and self doubt. The panic attack is real. The fact that the one person she would’ve sold her soul for, in order to get his support back in the day, isn’t getting through is a problem. Lucy goes on to say she knows herself. That if she takes this test right now she will fail. Her confidence will die along with it. That it’s better to wait. Tim steps from one minefield to the next with this convo.

When he once again is just trying to be supportive and says ‘Then wait.’ Not only is he being in her corner he gives her something she can do in meantime. Something he hates the idea of. Her going UC while she waits this anxiety/doubt out. If that isn’t him supporting her idk what is. He is also still learning how to be there for her emotionally and she isn't giving him the grace for that. Sadly Lucy isn't in the right mind to see that though. She is just stuck in the mode she's been trapped in all ep.

I get it I really do and empathize with her. I’m the same way when my emotions are in a heightened state. Nothing gets through. I'm frozen in place emotionalIy. I get very doom and gloom as well. Lash out at anyone who isn’t going to be positive and reassuring. Which Tim is doing his best to be. But Lucy is in such a dark state of mind she doesn’t see it. All she sees right now is he doesn’t believe in her and is kicking her while she is down. She needs reassurances right now. To her he isn't delivering that the way she is wanting at this point. Him agreeing with her that she should wait is only making matters worse.

Anxiety is a cruel cruel master. It makes you believe things that aren’t true. Amplifies them to the point that you’re so wound up you’re lashing out at everyone. Even your person. Which is exactly what’s happening with Lucy in this moment. Her accusing him of making it worse with how bad she already feels. When Tim is professing words of encouragement all she hears is him saying she can’t do it.

Tim is desperate for her to know he’s in her corner after this display. Asking her if she heard him? Lucy is distracted by someone showing up to the crime scene. Tim asks her what? Lucy replying that woman was looking at the crime scene while crying. Tim is so sassy in his reply I’m proud of him. ‘Or maybe she just had a frustrating fight with her girlfriend’ heh love this. Calling her his GF always gives me the feels.

Lucy gets a last minute win with this case. Catching this lady trying to get her bracelet back after tossing the gun. Her cop gut serving her well. Sadly Lucy doesn’t see this win as such and it bleeds into this final scene unfortunately. Once again the music is absolute perfection. I’ll post some of my fav lyrics at the end of my analysis of this fight. But first let us witness the incredible chemistry that is Eric and Melissa in this final portion. You know your ship is amazing when even their angst is lightning in a bottle goodness.

This fight I will say when I watched it originally excited me. Because it just showed they’re human. Real. The both of them. They make mistakes and aren’t perfect. How healthy this was for them to get off their chest. Because honestly the UC/detective tension has been building for a long while. This was the boiling point for it IMO. This scene hurt so good to watch. I rewound it a few times before I could process it the first time.

Tim starts off with congratulating her on her 4th quarter win. He’s genuinely so proud of her for bouncing back. Felt like she NEEDED this win. So he makes sure she knows. But like I said earlier Lucy isn’t viewing it that way. Her perception is more than a little skewed atm. Her building anger at Tim has reached it's peak. She is cold to him and brisk as hell. Tim immediately picking up on her clipped ‘Thanks.’ Like she was going to be able to hide her anger and frustration from him. Girl no. Tim asks her what? Lucy shrugging him off once again.

Tim pulls on her arm gently and parrots her own damn words back at her from 5x21. That they’re not gonna work if she’s going to lie to him. Lucy conceding immediately to that. I mean they have a lot to work on communication wise, but they’ve also come really far in this aspect too. Don’t wanna disregard that. Look at Tim confronting this right away and communicating effectively. There are causes for excitement with that growth. That being said they have a ways to go. This fight is proof of that.

Lucy pulls zero punches when she asks if he undermined her today so she wouldn’t make detective? The absolute look of hurt painted across his beautiful face kills me. As you all know I relate with Tim so very much. He is so deeply loyal and loving. That any of his motives are to help those he loves around him. He truly thought he was helping her out today. Being supportive and helpful. So for her to come at him like this is leaving him stunned and extremely hurt.

His person the one person who knows him better than anyone, accusing him of something he would never even fathom doing. I was hurt for him watching this. Last thing he would ever do would be to hinder her intentionally. Loyalty to a fault is having someone else hurt you first before you’d ever do the same. That’s Tim. It’s why he is so defensive the rest of this scene. And rightfully so. I'm proud of him telling her it upset him she would even think that of him. Because IMO he did not undermine her. That man did what was asked of him.

All of Lucy’s pent up anxiety, anger, and frustration comes out full force at Tim in this scene. And my boy didn't deserve it. I was on his side the first time I watched it and I am now. I didn’t see that changing though lol. Do I understand what Lucy is going through? Yes. Good god yes. I've been her. I feel so much for what she's going though. I want to make that very clear. But Tim didn't deserve this barrage against him. Wanna also note i’m so proud of the writers for tackling mental health from the jump with this season. Both our babies got issues and this was the precursor to the season really. We just had no idea at the time....

Lucy assumed all day he was undermining her. Instead of just confronting that fact she sat in it. Stewed in it really. ALL. DAMN. DAY. Which isn’t like her. She is the type to face it right away and voice that to Tim. But didn’t this time. Giving us a little taste of their communication problems early on this season. There’s that saying. 'When you assume you make an ass out of you and me.’ And by the end of this convo Lucy is feeling like an ass. I guarantee you that .

Lucy continues to dig herself a hole when she bring up that maybe it was "unconscious". Not deliberate but also that he couldn’t help it. Which doesn’t make Tim feel any better. Nor would it make me feel any better either tbh….Basically saying he has no control over things he does. Which just insult to injury at this point for him. Then Lucy goes for her next punch below. One I still feel was unfairly delivered.

Does Tim still carry those issues? Of course he does. 100% that is still a weight on him. It’s reflected in the next ep when the subject of UC comes up. But does it belong in this fight with him? No. It has zero place in it. But like I said before she is feeling a loss of control and confidence in herself. So she is projecting her insecurities and feelings onto Tim. By bringing up his and using them to stabilize hers. It's a low blow she is dispatching to him.

She is running from her own feelings about this. She is also protecting herself by making it about Tim and his problems. (Which he has for sure) Because she isn’t ready to face the fact that she’s afraid of UC and all that will come with it. How being a detective on top of it is going to pull her from him even more.

She voiced these concerns in 5x19 when she was originally studying for her exam. It’s easier for her right now to hide in and blame Tim for his problems, than deal with her own right now. Tim’s reaction is so valid in this moment. Because to him all he did was have her back from the jump. He is feels sucker punched by this explosion and it's written all over his reaction.

Lucy asked him to help her. He did. Even told her it wouldn’t be easy and he wouldn’t be soft on her. She accepted the terms of this situation willingly. Tim supported her best he could through her meltdown. Did his damndest to not comment on it. He knows it’s her process to spiral a bit then right herself. Because he knows her so well. He had her back in trying to help figure out her wildcard. She rejected it and drowned.

Tim was calm and kind even if she didn’t recognize it about the exam. When she was doubting herself he built her up letting her know she can do it. Did his best to be in her corner if she truly felt she wasn’t ready. Then congratulated her when she got her case win. To Tim all that was him having her back.

It’s why he’s so blindsided and hurt by her words. Lucy is basically kicking him while he down in this moment and it hurt to watch. Because her anxiety and immense stress has blinded her. Making her act so very not like herself. She came at him with a one-two punch. First punch accusing him of undermining her and second being an unfair Isabel punch.

The K.O. punch really is him reading her face above. The way she looks at him when he says ‘But if you can’t see that then…’ Doesn’t even finish his sentence. He can read her just as well as she can read him. Lucy cannot see that right now. Too clouded by her extreme anxiety and stress to see him and his intentions clearly. So he ejects out of the convo. She has knocked him down for the count.

Tim can’t take the way she is looking at him right now. The way she is making him feel. Tim has always held how she viewed him in high regard. Nothing means more to him than what she thinks of him. So for her to level him with this is heartbreaking for him. So he reverts back to old Tim and clams up. Tells her he’s tired and for them to take the night off. Then walks away from her with no way for her to retort.

Lucy is a block of ice until this line of his. She was fully expecting him to apologize and go home with her. And he did not. He ejected out of the conversation to go lick his wounds. The look of shock on her face is everything. She wasn’t expecting that at all. You can see the panic on her face. That raw panic of her being left behind by him. Of Tim leaving her. The tears building in her eyes as he does this. Oh the painful foreshadowing that is this moment…..

The lyrics for this scene are so poignant and perfect. As is the entire musical lineup for this season. Perfectly encompasses Lucy in this episode and especially this scene. Here are some of my favs.

‘I think I’m losing my mind. I see you’re losing your light. Drowning out the decibels. Do you wanna find the antidote? Trying to watch my obstacles, see how fully I’ve been broke.’ Lucy is so broken in this episode and doesn’t reach out to the one person, her person to help fix her. She was drowning and went to him for the antidote and then refused it the entire time. Then gets consumed by it all.

Just a glaring look into how they both deal with being emotionally overwhelmed and vulnerable. And it’s not a good look for either of them this season tbh. But we start out with Lucy’s where I side with Tim before we go head long into Tim’s and I side with Lucy it's balanced at least lol. Damn good premiere though. I was buzzing with excitement after it.

As always thank you to anyone who read this. To all the likes, comments and or reblogs I may receive you are the best. I shall see you all in 6x02 :)

Side notes-Non Chenford

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Scruffy Tim in this ep has my ovaries in overdrive. Mmm just wanna nom on his jawline like corn on the cob.

Nyla Harper being a bad ass in a tense situation is primo. Can always count on her. The aftermath sucks for her though.

Angela being more excited to see a burrito than her husband is hilarious and so on brand haha

Main baddie gets eliminated at the end of the ep. Not sure I remember why tbh haha Things got hazy at the end of the season for me with the SL.

[bugs1nmybrain]

If possible may I request Tomura Shigaraki x chubby reader head cannons? Your writing is so wonderful and I can’t wait to read more!

Admittedly I want nothing more than to just cuddle Shigaraki into my chest and nuzzle my face into his hair. 💚

I've wanted to do this prompt for a while, actually! Just haven't gotten around to it. My chubby ass totally needs this as well. I hope this is good. I also hope you don't mind that I'm throwing some NSFW in here, I can't help myself (it's not actual sex, just Shigaraki being a lil horny)

Tomura x Chubby Reader Headcanons ♡☆♡☆

Warnings: NSFW (nothing extreme), chubby reader, fem-reader, Shigaraki calls you a fatass but it's out of love I swear

Minors Don't Interact

Oh you best BELIEVE he's a chubby chaser!

Thick ladies turn him on so much it's not even funny

Watch it because he'll grab and poke and pinch at you whenever he feels like it

He kind of makes fun of you for your weight, but I swear he's not doing it because he thinks you're ugly or anything. It's the exact opposite. It's more of an endearing insult when he does it

When he wants your attention he'll just drop the bomb, "hey fatass, come here."

Pisses you off to no end, but make no mistake he loves you to death

He absolutely adores it when you're around while he's playing video games so he can just wrap his arms around your soft tummy with his controller in his hands

He'll force you to snuggle with him because he loves how your plushy flesh feels on his fingers and pressed up against his body

Will absolutely show you off. You're his pride and joy! He'll encourage you to wear clothes that show off how thick you are because he loves the eye candy (but will get pissed whenever someone looks at you, it's a complex)

He'd never be ashamed of you, either. If someone has an issue with you, they can shove it. You're his girlfriend after all, and you're hot

If anyone ever insults you for how you look he's beating them the fuck up, no questions and no hesitation. He's the only one who's allowed to call you a fatass.

He loves pinching your fatty areas to get your attention. His favorite areas are your thighs, ass, and upper arms.

SIT! IN! HIS! LAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He needs it so bad

For real though because he'll pull you down to sit on him whenever Dabi or the other guys are around because he needs them to know how lucky he is to have such a cutie like you for a girlfriend

He'll brag about you, too.

"You think your girlfriend's hot, you should see mine. Ass for days."

You're probably the only person who could mellow him out. Sure, when you're around others he's going to abuse the PDA, but when it's you two by yourselves, he's actually kind of a sweetheart.

He'll spend all day just holding you close and squishing your tummy because you're his favorite person

He holds on for dear life because he's so afraid of losing you. He's scared shitless that one day you're going to just up and leave him so he savors those moments

Will smack your ass or thighs whenever he wants because he thinks it's hilarious to see your reaction. He's actually not very rough. Usually, they're playful little slaps. He'll only hit enough to see a red mark if you're having sex and in the mood for something a little rougher

Because honestly, that's so hot to him, too. Seeing the print of his hand on your thick ass makes him leak

He loves seeing your flesh bulge between his fingers it makes him so flustered!

He turns into a giggly little girl around you sometimes because you're so cute

If you get insecure about your body he'll literally tell you to shut the fuck up. He gets it, he truly does. He even feels a little sorry because he doesn't want to see you hurting like that. But you're so sexy, he doesn't know why you insist on doubting yourself

He'll tell you how hot you are very frequently, especially if you're insecure. He wants you to know how attractive you are to him. You'll get absolutely all the praise in the world, though the comments he makes are kind of rude. It's his way of showing you he loves you

He loves his chubby princess so much, he'd destroy the world in your honor (not as if he isn't already trying to do that)

[miharuki]

🌟I have perfect request for you… I would like a Fierce Deity Link! BEN Drowned with Hylia! Goddess! Female Y/N🌟 (I love this so much, have a wonderful day/night!💜)

For this request, let's do a few things. Let's say that you are not Zelda, or a reincarnation of Hylia or Zelda (who is a reincarnation of Hylia), but the Hylia herself. Here are some headcanons and a mini story (if you like it, I might be able to turn it into a series).

Remembering that my English is not perfect, I feel a lot :v Also, I only did the fierce deity link one because I missed the Ben drowned one, so I'm sorry too

Your wish is an order!

𝕱𝖎𝖊𝖗𝖈𝖊 𝕯𝖊𝖎𝖙𝖞 𝕷𝖎𝖓𝖐 𝖂𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝕳𝖞𝖑𝖎𝖆! 𝕲𝖔𝖉𝖉𝖊𝖘𝖘! 𝕽𝖊𝖆𝖉𝖊𝖗

Fierce Deity Link:

—being the deity himself, Fierce would have a greater respect for you, let's say he respects you more than any other deity.

—I believe Fierce would be somewhat doubtful if you wanted to have a relationship with him. He would be questioning why, like, "She is literally a goddess, one of the creators of this land I'm standing on!! And she simply wants to go out with me?!"

—but let's say Fierce is also a deity, he would also be wondering why you would be dating someone like him when there are better options (it's not insecurity, just doubt). Something like, "She is the freaking creator of this land and she wants to go out with me, me? I'm not even at the feet of a goddess like her."

—A softie, I believe he would be as affectionate as possible, trying to make you feel comfortable in some way. He would also prioritize your safety, even if you know how to fight (let's say you do), he would still protect you and be concerned, even if you are stronger than him (because you're a goddess XD).

—The type of attentive person, for sure. Let's say you're telling a story about something that happened, he'll be listening to every detail. If you ask if you're talking too much, he'll say something like, "Your voice is too precious, I'd feel like trash if I didn't adore listening to you every second you speak," all with that sexy look and a gentle smile.

—Speaking of sexy... I believe Fierce is the kind of person who would take things slow, if you know what I mean. He doesn't want to hurt you, he just wants you to feel good. He finds your body stunning, in his words, "There's nothing to fear, angel, your body is a paradise to look at," all with a husky voice.

—I believe he's a waist man, so at any moment, he might come up from behind and grab you by the waist, just to rest his chin on your head.

—In terms of height, I believe he's quite tall, and when I say tall, I mean really tall. So, he kind of loves that you're smaller compared to him, of course, with the respect that you're practically a goddess, but he just finds your height adorable and won't accept any complaints about it.

—I imagine him picking you up by the waist and lifting you to his head, for you to sit and for him to feel his head between your thighs, nothing sexual, just adorable.

"You had me worried!" said the armored man as he held your shoulders, shaking them in despair. "I told you I'd be fine, you don't need to worry," you replied."But your safety is so important to me, what would I do if I lost you?" he says, sighing as he stood up and removed his hands from your shoulders, looking down. "You know I can very well protect you," you reply.

"Yes, I know, but you also know I'm strong enough to protect myself, that was nothing," you say as you approach the boy.

"Even so, I still don't like knowing that you could get hurt at any moment... it's just..." He can't finish the sentence, hugging you as he puts his head on your neck, taking a deep breath.

"Just be careful next time, please," he says, letting go, making you smile as you run your hand down his back, returning the hug.

"I will."

"I love you," he says as he steps back, looking into your eyes while placing a hand on your cheek, smiling as his cheeks turn pink.

"I love you too, Fierce," you reply.

[quietbooklion]

What happened to Kings of Paradise?

Lately, I've been having some thoughts about Kings of Paradise mainly because how it just stopped updating for years. Aside from the manga adaptations and the NSFW stories that were recently released in the EN app, there hasn't been any kind of update in regards to the main stories for each of the characters.

When KoP was first released, I was honestly surprised by how very mature and sexy it was. Voltage really went above and beyond to deliver a story about an MC getting divorced and finding love again. Kiyohito stole my heart and of all the guys he's my favorite with Kaisei coming in second.

I stopped reading KoP stories after a while because I lost interest and when I found out the later season stories had this love triangle thing going on, I really couldn't find myself wanting to continue the title. Fun fact about me: I don't like love triangles. In the end, I haven't played the title in a LONG time. Not even Kiyohito could get me to replay it.

Even so, I was very much looking forward to the new love interests. Kaisei really was interesting and fun since he's so eccentric compared to the others. The one I was looking forward to the most was the doctor, Tsubaki. That man is so fine. I was eagerly anticipating his story thinking it could get me back into playing the title again.

And so I waited... and waited... and waited... and waited... and waited...

After literal years of no updates I started to wonder if it was dropped. My suspicions were confirmed when I looked at the JP app and saw that Tsubaki and Blood Moon were removed from the line up. Yes, you heard me, removed.

I was beyond disappointed when I saw that in the JP app. More so because this isn't the first time Voltage has dropped a title without giving it a proper conclusion, like how it was with Rose in the Embers.

KoP was fairly popular if my memory is correct, so I can't see why Voltage would all of a sudden just drop it and not give any kind of update. Now, I know that first and formost, Voltage is a company and if one of their titles isn't bringing in the money, it'll get dropped. That's just how it is even though I don't like it. Still, why KoP of all the titles if it was fairly popular to the point where Kaisei was added to the VIP room. It got a manga adaptation for christ's sake. Why drop it??

Also why put a lot of side stories inside the VIP room gacha? Now that really makes me mad that those stories are locked behind a gacha.

After seeing Tsubaki and Blood Moon getting removed and years of no updates, I think it's fair to say Voltage dropped it and has no plans to go back to it unless they announce something. Which is a shame because I know lots of people loved that game and the characters.

[gavisuntiedboot]

You are Everything (Gavi x reader)

28 day writing prompt challenge - prompts are linked here

Day 3: "I love you."

"Amor, turn the lights off and come to bed."

You and Gavi had been dating for several months now. Given the nature of his job, you didn't get to see him often if you weren't at his house. So this evening, like many others, you were at Pablo's apartment to spend the night so that you could have some quality time together. Unfortunately, you were also a university student, which meant that nights at Pablo's were never free from studying or homework. Tonight was no exception. You were sitting on the couch, laptop open in front of you with notes scattered as you tried to figure out your problem set.

"I can't right now, Pablo. I need to finish this."

"Amor, you can finish in the morning. Tomorrow is Sunday. Just get some sleep, and it might be easier to do when you're well rested."

You turned to look at Gavi, eyes tired and body aching. You pulled your glasses off your face. Before you could make a smart comment at him, your eyes began to water, and then you were crying. Gavi's concern was obvious. He got out of bed and came over to you, hugging your form that was shaking with sobs.

"Baby what happened?" He said, softly rubbing circles into your back. You couldn't speak. Sobs wracked your body. You used your remaining strength to stand, and Gavi took the opportunity to wrap his arms around you, embracing you tightly. You continued to cry into his shoulder. He switched off the light, leading both of you to the bed. He laid down with you, keeping you close to his chest. He rubbed circles into your back, placing gentle kisses on your forehead.

"I won't be able to do it Pablo. Not tonight, not tomorrow, not ever. I'm stupid. I don't know why I convinced myself I could do this degree. I'm an idiot and I should drop out." You said softly sniffling against his chest. He separated the two of you slightly, moving one hand up to caress your face.

"Amor don't ever say that about yourself. You are incredibly intelligent and hard working, and you are more than capable of finishing this degree with excellence. I see how much effort you put in. I see the dedication. I see the lack of sleep and sacrificing meals so you can keep studying. I see how you haul your books here every night so I can see you and you can get work done. I'm always in awe of how smart you are. My girl is wonderful and intelligent and sexy. Please don't allow yourself to think anything different. You're amazing."

Your eyes welled up with tears again.

"Why are you being so nice to me?"

"Because I love you. You're my girl."

Your breath caught in your throat. This was the first time either of you had said it. You stared deeply into his eyes, trying to decipher if he meant it in a romantic way or not.

"Pablo you don't even know what love is."

"Yes I do. Love is that feeling I get after every kiss, where my heart swells and I feel like I'm on another planet. It's the way that sometimes I look at you in the morning, with the sun hitting your face, and you're so beautiful it hurts to breathe. Everything in this world reminds me of you: the blue of the sky, the smell of the rain, the feeling of the sun on my skin. Everything makes me think of you, and you're all I want to think of. You are everything. I love you."

You looked up at him with wet eyes.

"Say it again."

"I," he kissed your forehead, "love," another kiss to the cheek, "you." He punctuated the statement with a deep and passionate kiss.

"I love you. I think I will continue loving you till I'm no longer on this Earth. I love you I love you I love you."

"Pablito... I love you too."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~A/N: a little short, but hope y'all enjoyed! I am literally falling asleep while typing. On a more personal note, I submitted my application for Grad school today. Clap for me pls. Part 3 of "Just Pretend" taking longer than I thought - sorry for the delay!

[ourghoststories]

Mission Bucky Pt 2

"I want to do this" i whispered softly and those words were all he needed.

He pressed his lips against me again, this time harder, with more force "I can't say I was expecting this but you're my type on paper, so I can't say I'm surprised, he said softly, his breath tickling the side of my neck.

I let out a moan, whispering his name out softly, crooking my neck to the side so he could gain access more readily.

"You're dangerously good at this" he quipped, continuing in a fiery passion.

He started kissing my neck, peppering kisses tenderly, not wasting any time before our lips locked once more, like we were starved of touch and we needed the remedy, the remedy being each other's affection.

Our tongues fought for dominance in a blissful fury, it felt nice to have those soft lips on mine.

"I want to do this" i whispered softly and those words were all he needed.

He started kissing my neck, peppering kisses tenderly, not wasting any time before our lips locked once more, like we were starved of touch and we needed the remedy, the remedy being each other's affection.

Our tongues fought for dominance in a blissful fury, it felt nice to have those soft lips on mine.

He motioned for me to jump up, so I hooked my legs around his waist and did just that, we couldn't stop ourselves, we were ravenous.

I kissed his neck, swirling my tongue and sucking lightly, just enough to drive him even wilder for me, he let out a growl as he took my button up off furiously, almost tearing it in the process.

Then I helped him take his blue, now ripped shirt off from where I previously cut him with the knife, he chuckled as I literally tore it off him, it was already ripped so I figured it'd make little difference.

"Y/n I need you" he exclaimed huskily.

He was carved like someone out of a movie with a six pack, I wasn't surprised, after all he was a super soldier, but his chest was adorned with scars from all of the battles he'd fought; his battle scars.

I traced them with my fingers and he almost winced but put on a brave face, I knew that he was looking at the scars I had on my body, doing the same thing I was.

It sounded so sexy when he said what the both of you were thinking, I had no idea who was more desperate, yourself or him; I had been starved of touch for far too long and my sex or love life was something you neglected far too often, as did he presumptuously.

"Bucky you aren't making this easy for me either" you moaned as he worked his way down to your collar bone, kissing more rapidly now, as he took of my bra skillfully.

He used his cold metal hand to play with my nipples and i couldn't contain myself, goosebumps travelled down my spine, it was almost excruciating how much he turned me on.

He pressed me up against the wall and whispered sweet nothing's into my ear as I removed anything else that would get in the way.

Bucky did the same thing as he pressed into me a loud moan escaped both of us, he started to pick up the pace, using the super soldier speed he was accustomed to.

"Y/n, you're so beautiful doll" he said softly, moving a strand of hair to the side of my face delicately, as we kept going.

A bead of sweat dripped down his face as he grunted, changing the pace he was going intermittently to make a great moment even better, and in turn making me moan his name even louder.

"I like hearing my name from your lips, so lovely" he murmured, placing a kiss on your chest and moving his lips further and further down until he reached my bossom, pleasuring me in a way that only he could.

His now short hair was moving as he was, I raked my hand through his dark brown hair, stopping just before I reached the back of his head and grabbed a tuft before slightly pulling on it, he closed his eyes in delight, before letting out a hum.

My mind wondered about the man he was, he never let anyone into his mind, or his life, so why has he let me.

Unlike his PTSD he was letting me in, which from my observation he hadn't done, he struggled so much and yet this felt so easy, like a hot knife through butter, I wanted to pry more but didn't allow myself as i were happily and willingly, consumed by the moment.

Our bodies melded into one and fit almost as if we belonged together, like we were both meant to be, in unison.

His eyes stared into mine, the light blue hue, taking me aback as they pierced into my e/c ones, i took a breath and I could tell from looking into his eyes that everything bad had melted away, he wasn't on guard; not like he usually was.

He tugged on my hair lightly, making sure not to hurt me but still enough to feed into the arousal that was now overwhelming.

We both hit our peak at the same time, touching every spot on each other and making up for the lack of human contact as i begged him for my release.

He wasn't too far behind and not so secretly reveled in the passion and intensity of the moment, as he held onto me closely.

"I'm so glad I didn't kill you" I laughed, biting my lip.

"Me too, we wouldn't have had such marvellous time then, would we darlin'" he chuckled, placing a kiss on my forehead.

I put my head on his bare chest, over his heart so i could hear it beating rapidly, after the physical exertion we had both commenced.

Suddenly a grim thought crossed your mind, that you couldn't get rid of.

"Bucky I need your help" you said urgently, remembering the situation at hand and getting anxious again.

He motioned for me to jump up, so I hooked my legs around his waist and did just that, we couldn't stop ourselves, we were ravenous.

I kissed his neck, swirling my tongue and sucking lightly, just enough to drive him even wilder for me, he let out a growl as he took my button up off furiously, almost tearing it in the process.

Then I helped him take his blue, now ripped shirt off from where I cut his with the knife, he chuckled as I literally tore it off him, it was already ripped so I figured it'd make little difference.

"Y/n I need you" he exclaimed huskily.

He was carved like someone out of a movie with a six pack, I wasn't surprised, after all he was a super soldier, but his chest was adorned with scars from all of the battles he'd fought; his battle scars.

I traced them with my fingers and he almost winced but put on a brave face, I knew that he was looking at the scars I had on my body, doing the same thing I was.

It sounded so sexy when he said what the both of you were thinking, I had no idea who was more desperate, yourself or him; I had been starved of touch for far too long and my sex or love life was something you neglected far too often, as did he presumptuously.

"Bucky you aren't making this easy for me either" you moaned as he worked his way down to your collar bone, kissing more rapidly now, as he took of my bra skillfully.

He used his cold metal hand to play with my nipples and i couldn't contain myself, goosebumps travelled down my spine, it was almost excruciating how much he turned me on.

He pressed me up against the wall and whispered sweet nothing's into my ear as I removed anything else that would get in the way.

Bucky did the same thing as he pressed into me a loud moan escaped both of us, he started to pick up the pace, using the super soldier speed he was accustomed to.

"Y/n, you're so beautiful doll" he said softly, moving a strand of hair to the side of my face delicately, as we kept going.

A bead of sweat dripped down his face as he grunted, changing the pace he was going intermittently to make a great moment even better, and in turn making me moan his name even louder.

"I like hearing my name from your lips, so lovely" he murmured, placing a kiss on your chest and moving his lips further and further down until he reached my bossom, pleasuring me in a way that only he could.

His now short hair was moving as he was, I raked my hand through his dark brown hair, stopping just before I reached the back of his head and grabbed a tuft before slightly pulling on it, he closed his eyes in delight, before letting out a hum.

My mind wondered about the man he was, he never let anyone into his mind, or his life, so why has he let me.

Unlike his PTSD he was letting me in, which from my observation he hadn't done, he struggled so much and yet this felt so easy, like a hot knife through butter, I wanted to pry more but didn't allow myself as i were happily and willingly, consumed by the moment.

Our bodies melded into one and fit almost as if we belonged together, like we were both meant to be, in unison.

His eyes stared into mine, the light blue hue, taking me aback as they pierced into my e/c ones, i took a breath and I could tell from looking into his eyes that everything bad had melted away, he wasn't on guard; not like he usually was.

He tugged on my hair lightly, making sure not to hurt me but still enough to feed into the arousal that was now overwhelming.

We both hit our peak at the same time, touching every spot on each other and making up for the lack of human contact as i begged him for my release.

He wasn't too far behind and not so secretly reveled in the passion and intensity of the moment, as he held onto me closely.

"I'm so glad I didn't kill you" I laughed, biting my lip.

"Me too, we wouldn't have had such marvellous time then, would we darlin'" he chuckled, placing a kiss on my forehead.

I put my head on his bare chest, over his heart so i could hear it beating rapidly, after the physical exertion we had both commenced.

Suddenly a grim thought crossed your mind, that you couldn't get rid of.

"Bucky I need your help" you said urgently, remembering the situation at hand and getting anxious again.

A/N--

Darcy here, haven't posted in a while, nor written but I think I'm gonna get back into it, let me know what you guys think! I haven't really written smut before so I hope this is good enough.

It's been a bit hard to write since my bipolar diagnosis and changes in meds so any encouragement would be great :)

[beanghostprincess]

Ohhhh dark princess beanghost deliverer of all that good good Sanuso, deliver upon us your forbidden and darkest knowledge of transfem!Usopp!Sanuso. Is she in lesbians with transfem Sanji? Are they T4T transfemxtransmasc? Did cis, Bi guy Sanji manage to find the only woman in the OP universe who finds him charming (and it just happens to be the first one that he truly and honestly actually falls in love so deeply with in a way none of his crushes ever even compared to because of course Usopp is beautiful and sexy but she’s also silly and KIND and smart and his best friend and he cannot shut up about her? ) Please please tell us what you think I want some more transfem Usopp in my life

You ask, I deliver and share my knowledge. Don't use this fantastic and dark, magical information for the evil.

Okay, so I absolutely love all of these ideas for Transfem!Usopp and Sanuso. My favorite probably is them being lesbians and dating because if you can make a ship sapphic, do it. Always. It's the best thing you can do to a ship. Turn them into women. Makes it 100% better. Probably saying this because I am a lesbian myself and I love sapphic couples. But yes.

So, I actually love the whole Cis guy Sanji falling for Transfem!Usopp, but I'm gonna mix both ideas because I am a genius and I just had a revelation.

Usopp comes out as a trans girl to the crew when they find each other at Sabaody after two years. Everyone accepts her, of course, and Nami couldn't be happier to have her in the girls' room now (they're so best friends I love them). Sanji, after his time at Momoiro Island, takes it well. As well as he can take it, of course, having in mind that he still doesn't understand the whole concept of being trans yet (he feels such fury and hatred towards it... Why would that be, I wonder). He still feels weird around it, but when it's Usopp the one to say she's a girl... It's different, now. Sanji starts to understand everything better.

It's not like Usopp changes that much, after that. Her hair is longer and she still keeps it messy or in a low ponytail. Her clothes are basically the same, but now with a bit more of femininity to them. Sanji doesn't know how to put it, but the way she moves and speaks and dresses now is a bit different, yet completely the same. Perhaps it's just him. Perhaps seeing her as a woman has changed him, even if Usopp hasn't changed much. Whatever- Sanji has everything under control (or so he says) because, even if Usopp is a girl, she's still his best friend. They're best friends. They established that two years ago and it still remains a true fact.

Usopp does get the gentleman treatment from Sanji, of course. She might be his best friend but she's still a girl (a very, very beautiful girl with a wonderful brain and looks and voice and-) and the cook can't hold back from literally throwing up hearts and bleeding everywhere whenever he sees her. The sniper (who may or may not have the hugest crush on Sanji) appreciates this gesture, thinking at first that it's just Sanji's way of telling her that she accepts her. She thinks that he's faking all of this. At first, of course. Because then it becomes genuine and constant and she kind of understands how Nami feels, because damn the guy is annoying most of the time. But also, well- Usopp loves being loved by him, even if it's in the same way for every other girl he meets.

The things is... Sanji doesn't feel like he's the same with other girls. He acts like that with them because that's how a man should treat a woman (worshipping her completely), but he does all of this for Usopp because, well, that's his best friend. His sniper. And the way she makes him feel is something he has never actually experienced before. Sanji realizes, then, while their relationship keeps growing (holding hands, stargazing together, hidden smiles, obvious blushes, nervous laughter, all their moments alone...) that it's not only the fact that he's probably in love with Usopp (wow, surprising, right?) but... He kind of wants to be like her?

Sanji puts the thought aside, though. Love is more important. Love. Whatever he feels for Usopp. He has never, ever experienced this before, unlike what most people might think. And it's driving him crazy. Because what is he supposed to do when the love he feels is too much to not show it and too scary to make Usopp know? So burying his feelings deep down with the hope they'll disappear soon is the answer to everything! (Don't do this, Sanji is just stupid).

But of course, the feelings don't go away. He just falls even more and more and more for her. From the way she laughs to the way she talks excitedly about her new creations. And she's the same Usopp he used to know, just a bit different and, well, happier. More confident. Way sexier now that she acts more freely. Sanji can't handle this. Especially when it comes hand in hand with the poisonous sensation that he tries hard to keep at bay. The envy. The longing. The wanting to be free, like that. Sanji dreams a lot about the dress he used to wear back at Momoiro. It felt good on his skin. Something felt good on his skin for once.

Whatever. It doesn't have to mean antyhing. He's just in love with Usopp, that can accept it. And wanting to be like the girls he constantly cherishes isn't that weird. He had his moment in Punk Hazard with Nami's body, right? It isn't- It isn't weird.

Then Whole Cake Island happens, and everything starts crumbling down around him. First of all because he's gonna end up getting married to a girl he doesn't even know, leaving the real love of his life behind. And second, because he's starting to realize some stuff he didn't want to admit before- But being so close to men. To the men who hurt him. Thinking so much about the way he loved his mom... How much Reiju says he looks like her and how little bothered he is by that, in fact wanting to look more and more like her. Long hair. Long eyelashes. Beautiful, beautiful woman.

He thinks about Usopp a lot, there, when he feels trapped. About her smile and her eyes and her voice and her outfits that are not feminine at all and yet still feel meant to be worn by a woman. He thinks about the way he loves her, so deeply and unconditionally and both physically and emotionally. He thinks about wanting to share that experience of freedom with her, and thinks that- Well. Sometimes- Sometimes he thinks about dresses. And make up. And how being called a princess would still hurt but would hurt only because of the meaning behind of the word and not because of the word itself. And Reiju tells him about it. About their mom and that the way he acts isn't because of being weak, but human. And then she mentions that well, of course she has empathy, she's a girl. And Sanji wonders if it's, maybe and just maybe, the same for him.

Her.

Yeah. That feels good enough.

She realizes suddenly, everything she had been bottling up, making her heart explode into a million pieces. Then the pieces are all put together by Luffy, who's the first to know. Sanji tells him about wanting- About maybe being a woman. Luffy only smiles and says that he likes the way Sanji smiles when she pronounces the word. That those are great news, even, because Sanji would never hurt a woman, and all of this (running away and forcing Luffy to leave her alone) is hurting her. So she has to come back to the crew for a woman to be happy. It doesn't make any sense, but Sanji cries anyway.

So, stuff happens. Sanji has a lot of time to think. And then they get to Wano. It's not the best time to come out, honestly, but she has to do it or else they will probably end up burnt to death by a big ass dragon before she can actually be herself fully. She doesn't have the guts to tell Usopp privately, even if she wants her to be at least the second one to know, so she tells the whole crew (and Torao, for some reason, because he's always there). She doesn't stop looking at Usopp's eyes, though. For something like... Acceptance? Support? Understanding? Love? Sanji isn't sure, but it makes talking about this easier.

Once again, everyone accepts it, of course. Zoro makes a joke about her just wanting to be in the girls room, and she doesn't even have to kick her because Robin is the one to smack him in the head without her extra arm being noticed right away. It's not a huge change because they can't do much now, but Kinemon gives her a proper kimono for her. She feels... So pretty.

Usopp tells her she looks pretty, so happy and joyful and proud of Sanji it makes the cook melt under her gaze. She notices a bit of blush, too, on her best friend's face, so she takes her to a private place to talk things out. To actually talk things out.

Sanji confesses that her new self is basically thanks to Usopp, and so she thanks her with a shy smile and a laugh. And Usopp hugs her. Tight. It almost makes them both cry. And Sanji doesn't really know why it happens or how it happens or- Or even when, but Usopp kisses her. And she moves away as quickly as she leaned in, starting to mutter anxious words under her breath and apologizing for using this moment to confess, but she just couldn't go into such dangerous adventure without making Sanji know first.

The weight on Sanji's shoulders disappears, and the urge to kiss Usopp back becomes stronger than anything else.

Long story short, because it's nighttime and I work tomorrow morning: Sanji and Usopp move to the girls' room, which means work for Franky to make it wider. Sanji is more femme fatale while Usopp goes more for a nerdy, messy vibe. And they start dating, of course, and become the most annoying sapphic couple in this ship. Also, Sanji grows her hair long for her mom and Usopp loves to help her taking care of it. If they call Ivankov or not for a lil bit of help with her bodies, that's up to you, but I like the thought of Sanji wanting to change her whole body (except her killer thighs grrr) and Usopp like, wanting boobs but not too big and also still keeping the lower parts bc, and I quote: "Why would you want something that's harder to pee with?" and even Nami would agree.

They're the cheesiest and clingiest most beautiful couple ever. Live laugh love transfem Sanuso.

[capcavan]

I love media analysis and I saw your discussion questions so...yea sorry about the length. (I'm open to discussion)

Look, I'm new here (been here for about a month) so I wasn't aware people don't like Riko? I personally quite like him as a character and didn't know that's not a particularly popular opinion? But I'm of the firm belief that not all villains are meant to be "redeemable". You can understand or sympathize with their motivations and character, but that's not the same as having redeeming qualities. And I think Riko is one of those characters who doesn't have redeeming qualities. He's supposed to be a hated villain. Heck, his first appearance in the series is literally him swooping in on stage to dark ominous music, dressed in black like a bloody supervillain. He gets all the "classic abusive ex" lines, an obscene amount of power, and some really bizarre unhinged moments (ex. handcuffing Neil to a bed and spitting in his mouth).

We're told right at the top, "Hey, this guy is a villain and he's not going to stop being a villain." So he's pretty easy to hate if you are just trying to get through the story. The last character in a novel I really hated was Professor Lovell in Babel by R.F. Kuang. He's another one of those characters you are meant to hate but you're also meant to comes to hate him slowly. You see him from the eyes of the person he abused so you get to see what it's like for the main character to slowly realize that this man who starts off by saving him and giving him a home is and has always been, a terrible person.

Riko doesn't get that treatment. We see him first from the perspective of someone who has never met him but already hates him (Neil) and second, from the perspective of someone who's suffered him and hated him for a long time and is already done with him (Jean).

If he ever had any good sides, the reader doesn't see them so it's easy to hate him. But I would argue, that's the point. We're supposed to see Riko as the insane abusive ex and we're supposed to wonder along with Neil and Andrew why the fuck Kevin can't let him go. Like, what's so good about this ludicrous supervillain that you can't even shit-talk him behind his back?

But Riko's not actually a one-dimensional supervillain. Neil says it straight up and gets it exactly right (he's kind of just spit-balling but Riko reacts to it like he's been read to filth) -- that Riko was brought up as a commodity and not as a human, that his delusions of grandeur were encouraged and that no one ever wanted him as a human (not his uncle, not his brother, certainly not his father). TSC does a lot to confirm it with descriptions of how he was treated by his uncle and how he obsessed over the letter about Kevin's father along with Kevin.

But ultimately, I think the reason why Riko doesn't get as nuanced a treatment as one might like is because the main conflicts the characters overcome have nothing actually to do with Riko. Neil overcomes fear and mistrust in others, Andrew overcomes his fear of letting himself have anything good. Even Kevin's conflict is more about asserting himself than about fighting Riko. (And Jean has so much trauma, Riko's barely a drop in the bucket.)

Anyway, I like Riko because I think properly sadistic villains are fun and because I think he's an interesting character.

This ask read like very sexy Riko fanfic anon drop your ao3 so I can check something for myself ty, if not let me commission you for some riko writtign after I get cash

[invisiblegarters]

Only Friends Character Rankings - Ep 6

Well this was an episode, wasn't it? Finally the mess really begins and now the mettle of every single person who says that what they were looking forward to was messiness is about to be tested. Because every single one of these characters is gonna bring the mess, even the one we like best. Maybe especially the one we like best. Here comes the point when they really start to tear strips off each other. Can we handle it?

For myself, I can't definitively answer that (temptation compels me to say yes but also you just never know and I refuse to pretend otherwise) but I can say I can't WAIT to find out.

Character Rankings (Fave to Least Fave atm)

SAND. Sand my darling my shit stirrer my passive aggressive asshole. I've already made a whole post about how calculated he was in his manipulation this episode - he wound Ray up and watched him go, and literally only interfered when the result flared out at Nick. Which shows me exactly how little he cares about any of these people and desperately makes me need his ex to be alive and to show up real time because Sand has some very complicated, very unresolved issues there and frankly, caring about Ray or not I think he's still in love with them.

If they are dead though that would make a lot of sense, mostly because now Sand is sort of frozen in that place of betrayal and anger and yeah, love, thwarted as it was. It would also explain his need to destroy Top at the cost of everything else.

I still wonder if it was a woman. I want it to be Mix but we keep referencing that San likes both and he's yet to be seen with a woman, so.

And nope, did not miss his passive aggressive digs at Ray either. "I see why you like him." "He's lucky he has someone like you looking out for him." Especially that first one. Lbr that was entirely a dig and while I get it - he's smarting from everything that happened with Boston before (regardless of how hard he pushes it down it's still obvious) and he figures why the hell not, no one else gives a shit so why should I, I know exactly what I am to this person and it's practically nothing so what does it matter if I use him? Tit for tat - I'm not so far up his ass (yet, there's always next week) that I can't see how fucked up it is. I just also kind of love it. I'm impressed, tbh. I was fully expecting Sand to reveal the tape to Ray out of some stupid "I just want you happy wah" thing and to have him do it this way floored me. I have said before that what I want from his storyline with Ray is mutual destruction and if things keep going along on these lines I will be very pleased. That second fight still worries me though.

I will also say that I bet I'm angrier about Ray calling him a whore (twice! In less than ten minutes!) than Sand will probably be. Sand did this, he wound Ray up as I already said, and if there's one thing that has been entirely consistent with his character thus far it's that he takes responsibility (perhaps takes it when things aren't even really his fault). He takes responsibility for his own feelings and he takes responsibility when he fucks up. I can definitely see him deciding he earned what he got, even if Ray went straight for what he knew would hurt the most - hasn't Sand told him over and over that he's not going to be bought? - he also went straight for Ray's weakest spot to get what he wanted out of him. Tit for tat.

That said, I can very much also see him internalizing that that's what Ray thinks about him. Especially if that turns into Ray's go-to insult when they fight (as I guess it might just).

I'd say he's the episode MVP, but actually he's tied with

MEW. Oh, Mew. I keep saying that it's always the reserved ones that go the most nuts when crossed and neither Sand nor Mew has proven me wrong this episode. Also the man just has a delicious sense of drama and who doesn't love that? The way he lulled Top into thinking all was well and then lured him into believing that there would be sexy times, followed up by that fucking line. I screamed and then started cackling (very quietly, it was early here and people were sleeping). MEW YOU ABSOLUTE LEGEND. I had clocked that he wasn't having fun and that he was extremely subdued about Top's showoff gift but him punching Ray really convinced me that he was gonna ignore everything Ray had been trying to say.

That said, they better not reveal that they cooked this up together because then why did Ray go full scorched earth? If it was a plan they could have executed it in pretty much any other way.

Nah, feels wrong to me. What I think is that Mew punched Ray because he was ruining Mew's on the spot plans to confront Top himself, but also because wow bestie how about we don't humiliate me in front of all our friends? Plus he knows that if he apologizes Ray will forgive him anything. It's a benefit of the whole BFF being in love with you business.

Loved the bath smile in the preview. My guess is he's gonna revenge fuck Ray, but only after Top thinks that he's forgiven him and they get back together. It'll be very messy. Why can't he fuck Sand instead that would be the ultimate revenge for both really.

Boston. Yeah, Boston. He read Ray to filth in this ep while ALSO trying to lead him into thinking that telling Mew about him and Top fucking behind his back would be just as bad as fucking Top behind his back. Like it's genius and fucked up and eighteen levels of wrong and it ultimately didn't work but jesus.

And then at the end of the whole mess he is the only one who got to go home with a dude that still wants him. And I have to appreciate that that's because Nick already knew. Sure it wasn't fun to hear I bet but it's not like it's not something Boston hasn't been clear about.

He got a reprieve this week but I suspect he knows that. He's gonna go gunning for Nick too because he's not a dumb man and he can put two and two together and get four (even though sometimes it suits his purposes to make five instead) and it's gonna dawn on him sooner than later that he has someone very very close to him who has access to all kinds of fun spy equipment, doesn't he? Why yes he does.

Looking forward to watching Mew yeet him into the pool next ep though.

Ray. I love mess, and boy howdy did Ray bring it this ep. I'm incredibly unsure why he decided to burn all his bridges so spectacularly, but well, he's drunk and maybe high definitely feeling sorry for himself and we don't always make the best decisions in those situations. Seen speculation that he fully intends on hurting himself by getting behind the wheel and yeah, that also rings true.

He also knows just where to hit everyone where it hurts and he didn't hold back, did he? If I can't blame or hate Boston for what he did last ep then the same must be said for Ray - he wasn't spewing anything that wasn't true...until he got to Sand. There it was entire untruths but I don't like Ray enough to try to unpack that, especially since my less than rosy view of Ray means that I am inclined to think the worst. Frankly what I want to say is that all Sand is to Ray, whether he's actually paying for it or not, but even I know that's uncharitable. See, growth (mine, not Ray's - I think we've got at least three episodes before we see growth from Ray).

And frankly I don't think Boston was entirely wrong that he hopes that Mew finding out about Top and Boston will send him to Ray's arms - it's not the whole reason he needs Mew to know, but yeah. it's there in the back of his mind. I still don't blame him for telling him.

But also I'm with Sand - getting in a car the way he is isn't entirely about him, he could seriously hurt someone else and that pisses me the fuck off. I have a real bug bear about drunk driving. No excuse is a good excuse for that shit and that's why he's lower than Boston this week. Fuck him for that honestly.

Top. This might be controversial, but I feel kind of bad for Top this ep. I mean, not horribly bad, I was having a great time watching everything fall apart around him, but a little bad.

And here's the reason why: I don't think that he is entirely playing a part with Mew. I do think he likes him - not sure if I buy love but he does like him, perhaps a lot. The man is a nasty piece of work who slips into cocky assholery way too easily for my tastes, but I also think that he's kind of put in that role and so goes with it. He did try to be cordial with Sand this ep - kind of insane when you think about the fact that Sand hates him, Top knows Sand hates him, and he also knows why - but he didn't switch to assholery until he took his cue from Sand. Same when he ran into Sand with his car - he was sorry and worried but then Sand wouldn't follow that script so he followed. He does the same thing with Boston when they interact.

I think he enjoys being with Mew because Mew lets him be the best version of himself. But of course the asshole is still there underneath, he can't run from it, so it all falls apart around his ears. I do think he holds genuine affection for Mew, but what does that matter when he's screwed over so many people in the past? I think he also likes the novelty of doing love and sex Mew's way, but I also believe that he'll only play the penitent for so long before he loses patience. I'm curious to see if I'm right, and how things will go if so.

Chuem. Every time this woman opened her mouth it was to be a dick. Like, damn. I knew she wasn't some sweet angel but I get the impression the only one of her friends she really likes is Mew. Curious why, because she seemed to at least like Ray well enough two years ago. At the very least Mew is the only one that she's not casually cruel to.

Nick. Babe. You're pretty but I'm gonna need you to do something okay? Yes, even if your revenge hits Sand at least it'll hit SOMEONE. Because right now you're just a succession of "oh shit" faces and I need more.

Relationships (Most to Least Fave atm)

TopMew. Yep. They finally got really interesting and beat out BostonNick. I am so curious what Mew is gonna do to Top. I already said that my top guess is making Top work for it, making him think he's forgiven him...and then fucking Ray and making sure he finds out about it. This suspicion will turn into a certainty if he finds out that Top fucked Boston because he thought there something happened with him and Ray.

Nick and Sand. I want them to hash it out and make up. I said I'd be okay if Nick's revenge hit Sand but I really won't be haha, I want them to end the show still friends. They are usually really good at talking to each other so I have some hope. Don't let these men you probably won't even know anymore in a year screw up a friendship that might actually last beyond college, guys. Also you should make out.

Sand and Top and the ex. The way I am being teased about this is not nice. GIMME. I want answers, don't care how I want them now. Make it messy please. Please please please please please I want the ex to show up like a wrecking ball and for Sand to utterly lose all his shit over it.

BostonNick. Still think these two deserve each other. Am READY for Boston to put two and two together and get Nick fucking bugged his car, though. And maybe he can get Nick to play the recording from him since at this point he and Chuem are the only two who haven't heard it. I am curious to see what if anything Nick does when it all falls apart. I kind of want him to ascend to unhinged lengths as yet unseen.

SandRay. I guess the mask is off now (even though I kinda think it was always off, lol). I do not ship this. They are bad for each other and Ray especially needs to just not be anywhere near a romantic relationship, but especially not with Sand who has a serious caretaking complex that is going to foster some really nasty codependence, as well as a far too patient streak which will only encourage Ray to keep lashing out at him whenever he wants (yes this ep he did what he did but I cannot stress enough that it wasn't really about Ray. Oh, he took his shots but at it's heart this was all about getting at Top. Top is a special case for Sand, he's a dude who riles him up just by existing. Ray might get there eventually but currently he's nowhere near on Top's level for Sand, he'll put up with perhaps a LOT more before he finally gets to that point).

Every week I worry that Sand is gonna enter his doormat era, and every week they've neatly dodged it happening. But oh, we still have six weeks to go and the worst fight is yet to come so that worry ain't fading anytime soon.

As I've said, mutual destruction is more fun for me so this ep wasn't half bad on that front. If things stay in this vein I might actually work around to enjoying it as a disaster ship.

In Conclusion

I'm gonna need everyone to stop it with the slut shaming, please. Boston's an ass, but he's not an ass because he likes to sleep around and I'm kind of tired of the conflation of the two.

[the-06]

'Mac the Knifed

First off, don't call the schmaltz police on me but I want to thank everyone who's liked/reblogged etc. my silly MK1 posts. They were a catharsis of sorts during last month that was the absolute shits for me. After giving the finger to the trainwreck that was MK11 (and my account having been inactive for a long time with also so many of my Tumblr buddies leaving), I've liked most of the bits and pieces of the MK1 story I've seen so far. The game's been out for almost a month now and we all naturally have opinions galore on how our beloved character(s) were treated (Rep fans, raise a glass). The last time I've actually played an MK game was 1999, so for me it's all about the story.

On to the topic at hand. Discussion of our Man of the Hour is under the cut.

For me the biggest revelation, naturally, was the surprising role that Ermac played in the story mode. Yes, he's still suppressed by NRS Brand Plot Armor™, but after nearly two entire decades Boon and company FINALLY got the damn message that fans still fondly remember his Deception storyline to this day.

And did they throw us a bone. The connection again with Kenshi and the resulting TK Bros moment with the rockslide, him again taking out five characters without breaking a sweat (including hand-to-hand combat; yes!!), and him again fighting Ashrah.

Most of all, he was actually important to the plot this time around, FINALLY making Jerrod frickin' relevant and — call it guilt by association if you will — made characters that I've never really cared for like Sindel and Mileena actually likable (and Ms. Useless herself, Tanya, a bit more tolerable), and this is coming from someone who was never a fan of his MK9 ending. I did have an issue with the large gap between chapters in which he appears, which in turn made his revelation as Jerrod seem somewhat rushed, but it's — to use a favorite expression of mine — complaining about the color of the couch in the mansion. Definitely a 9/10.

And despite all this...it's gone relatively ignored so far because people still won't quit bitching about his design.

Well, get the hell over it. His MK11 look is not happening. He's not a ninja anymore. And it's now clear as crystal why he's not masked. (I guess I'll be pedantic myself and say maybe he should've been masked after his creation and then taken it off when Jerrod took over.) It's already been three months since it was revealed, it was ONE shot in a trailer, and it looks far better in action. The same people constantly griping about Ermac looking like a mummy back in MKX are now going completely apeshit because more of his skin is showing this time around. Pick one or the other, folks. Can't we just put this crap aside and focus on his having a strong role in an NRS-era MK story mode for the first time?

Veering off topic a bit, but I've realized something else recently. Ermac went from a nonexistent glitch to having a badass distinctive symbol (his Deception chest design that's a mainstay to this day) and an iconic catchphrase. Other than Scorpion, who the hell else in MK can boast that? Maybe one or the other, but not both. (Plus, the telekinesis will never not be sexy.)

That's so much marketing potential for NRS but since Ermac is not either of The Big Two, they've elected to sit on their hands. What a damn shame. Hell, a spinoff game featuring the Outworld Six based on Kotal Kahn's ending (the best in MKX), with them squaring off against a maniacal Raiden to reclaim their realm, would've done wonders for their characters and been the GREATEST thing ever. It of course had a snowball's chance of happening but just as a fan of these guys it literally hurts thinking about the wasted potential.

Thank you for listening. The collection plate will now be passed around.

[tired-reader-writer]

For the Fanfic Writer Ask Game: ✨ 💘 🔥

Here's the ask game in question if y'all wanna participate

✨️ Out of the comments you’ve received on your fics, what are two or three of your favorites?

“asdhsfh I don't know where to start, I feel like I'm gonna have a lot to say! This was a great read, full of feeling, and it was so excited to see more of the characters you've been telling me about, and here they have such life in them, they really feel real! Shapur's first meeting with Ayunnen literally felt magical somehow. and Shapur's attraction to Ayunnen could almost be read as romantic, but it doesn't seem to be, it's just... full on fascination for him as a person, and I felt the depth of that longing to know him better, to see him again, to repay his kindness... so much that Shapur kept on looking for almost two years until he could see him again! Young Kazai was so delightful! A fantastic surprise, and he has so much energy. I feel like I know a secret, knowing that eventually he and Shapur will end up together. Anyway, Ayunnen... I feel like his presence just exudes calm somehow, like you can't help but feel reassured being around him. So many little details! Kashi's wolves have names (and I love them; they have a beautiful sound). Did she carve that wooden bowl herself? That little mention of Gieve and how he came to be with them! I'm actually digging the mood change in Kashi's section, it counteracts the wishful idealism that Shapur clings to in the beginning. Also it feels so very in character that Shapur would insist he can manage it, he can provide for and protect them all, all on his own... because he so desperately wants it to be true, it'd be really hard for him to admit that it's not. I really wonder about Kashi's backstory, too.”

—for this ficlet (yes I counted it all as one comment bc it'd have been one comment if the ficlet was on AO3 and we didn't have to deal with word limits in the replies but alas)

And

“I wanna eat this drabble”

For this drabble. But I love any and all types of comments thrown my way, they all spark so much joy!

💘 Is it easier to write angst or fluff?

Angst, definitely. It's easier to lose myself in the character's anguish, their internal monologue, their spiralling— than it is for me to lean onto fluffy emotions. I do want to be better at comedy and fluff, though.

Funny thing is that anything I write in my mother language (Burmese) turns out to be comedic, enough to be read in front of the entire class bc it's just so wacky and weird I guess, but I can't write any other emotion at all— a complete opposite to how I roll in English where I can't seem to master comedy at any measure. Why.

🔥 Have you included any sexy scenes in your fics? If yes, do you find them easy or difficult to write?

Nope! I have alluded to and implied sexy acts, but it's unlikely I'll ever get to explicitly portraying them bc I find it very difficult and intimidating. Mad respect to the smut writers.

[mceefrankee]

Renfield Review.

A cacophony of horror that might be too much for some audiences but just enough for die hard Dracula fans

Renfield was good, it was basically the movie kick ass with dracula elements in it. I didn't watch any trailers so I was pleasantly surprised. I wish Nic Cage came out more but when he was on screen it was fangtastic lol He was definitely the right choice for the role. He brings all the eccentric and weirdo vibes an immortal blood sucker should have. Sexy and creepy, perfect casting. It's almost a shame because he completely overshadows everyone else. Nicholas hoult did a good job carrying the film, he definitely has that everyman energy who you wouldn't expect to fuck shit up. Reminiscent of films like kick ass, and upgrade, I actually got zombieland vibes from this. Similar humor and tone. I thought he fit the role well but I think any other British dude would've worked. Andrew Garfield would've been amazing at this actually. Awkafina, I love you girl but literally anyone could have been in this role too. She is spunky, she's got moxy, she's funny but shes just fine. Not a very memorable performance which is not really her fault, I didn't walk into this expecting any Oscar winning performances. Overall the acting was adequate, you won't get bored watching any of these guys I promise. Maybe I'm being a little dramatic but that's how I felt.

I feel like if this came out right after Kick-Ass it would've enjoyed a far greater audience and more people would be into the tone it has to offer. However, today I could see why this movie is a little polarizing. Some of the writing feels outdated, like that Jennifer Lawrence film that's coming out or that hangover 3 film but with women. A lot of people are gonna like it, like myself, but I think a lot of people might walk out feeling confused about what exactly this movie was trying to be. It's funny but not haha funny, it's scary but not heart attack scary. It has a romance but it doesn't compel me. It's an action film but it doesn't compete with the monster known as John Wick which is currently dominating the box office. Again, I liked this movie but it wants to do too much at once. A longer run time might have helped that but then you risk boring the audience. It's tricky, I feel it barely held together as it is and quite frankly can't think of too many ways to change this film, aside from more Dracula.

I thought an interesting idea was Dracula as a mob boss which barley gets explored but it was cool nonetheless. Very gorey, but it fit the tone. Renfield needed more development, I would've liked to see a bit more of his back story and more of him being a pathetic freak but it was fiiiinnnne. At 1 and a half hours I would've appreciated a longer run time, I was down for 2 hours of this but I can see why it was kept short. Very snappy pacing, very light hearted, the sentimental bits just didn't land at all lol but I understand that it just didn't fit the tone. Wonderful practical effects, CGI was ok, get ready for mortal Kombat levels of violence. Pretty cool cinematography, the colors and overall aesthetic, wardrobe, OMG I was in love, this is the kinda stuff I wanna draw. Neon lighting, fashionable clothing, the creepy production design. I don't want to say this film is all style and no substance. The story works fine, the heartless dracula gets a servant, the servant grows a heart, shenanigans ensue. It's serviceable, no glaring plot holes, i barley cared for the titular character or the main cast, Dracula really steals the show and that's forgivable, I mean it's Nicholas fucking Cage lol the rest of the performances are perfectly fiinnne.

TLDR: Renfield is an enjoyable movie, really cool fight scenes, humor that borders on immature and edgy, nice aesthetic if you're into goth stuff and neon lighting. Very violent. Not a very compelling character study but it is worth experiencing all the bloody horror on a big screen. If you're looking for a Dracula movie this will scratch the itch but simultaneously make you want to seek out other vampire flicks. I was left wanting more but considering this movie is named after the servant and not the dark lord himself, I suppose I was a little at fault for not tempering my expectations.

I would say check it out while it's in theaters if you like Dracula but definitely throw it on for this Halloween when it's available at home.

I know my followers aren't used to this kinda post, but fuck it we ball.

[keanureevesisbae]

And also for the ship ask: Syverson and you! 😏

This is why we're friends - you ask the right questions!!! Allow myself to envision me in a wonderful relationship with Sy 💜

Who asks the other on dates: Sy - because I am literally afraid of rejection (even in a relationship lol)

Who is the bigger cuddler: Both - like I would seek him for comfort cuddles and he would just cuddle you because he can

Who initiates holding hands more often: Sy - I'd like to think he is that type of boyfriend to me hihi

Who remembers anniversaries: Me - I trust my brain

Who is more possessive: Sy - What can I say? I'm a sucker for men who mark their territory lsdjfaklsdfj

Who gets more jealous: Both - who hides their jealousy? Me. Who is unable to hide it? Him.

Who is more protective: Sy - I feel like I don't need to expound on that HAHA

Who is more likely to cheat: None - because my mom didn't raise a cheater (I can't even get one boyfriend, let alone get two men at the same time like me ldsfjalsdkfj) and Sy can't cheat on me, because... I hate cheaters and he probably knows that (I will castrate you if you cheat on me, without sedation xoxo)

Who initiates sexy times the most: Sy - I retook the kink test and it turns out I am a 97% sub 🤷🏽‍♀️ - i'm sorry I don't make the rules hehe

Who dislikes PDA the most: None - we both love that. I have been single for 24 years and I've looked at other people's PDA. I will make it my mission to make others sick (okay,jk, i'm too shy for that lol)

Who kills the spider: Sy - I once nearly broke my neck and called my mom when I saw a spider. Enough said

Who asks the the other to marry them: Sy - I mean... pretty please 🥺

Who buys the other flowers or gifts: Sy - he loves to spoil me hehe

Who would bring up possibly having kids: Sy - and you know what? I would just ditch my 'I don't want kids'-idea and have kids with him.

Who is more nervous to meet the parents: Me - have you seen me? The nervous wreck

Who sleeps on the couch when the other is angry: Sy - he's a gentleman like that

Who tries to make up first after arguments: Both? - my stubborn ass can literally go on for days without talking to someone, but a real argument as a couple? I'd probably cry and he'll feel bad

Who tells the other they love them more often: Me - I will also ask for confirmation from him, so he'll tell me a lot too

[mrsphork]

Hello. My name is Melly. I'm a twenty six year old girl who was thrown into the weirdest day of my life a couple years ago. They always tell you of that instinct where you either fight or flight and you only know when it happens which way you go. Well, turns out, I don't fly away. This is my story of August 22, 2019 a Thursday I'll never forget.

My morning started typical. I worked for Chipotle as I went to school learning nursing. My mother was such a bitch and forced me to go to college. As dumb as it sounds, I wanted to become an architect and design futuristic houses. I guess it was a dumb dream and being a local Ohioan with no money community college had nursing courses that I was able to take without loans. So this Thursday started off as any particular day. I wake up at 7:30AM and get my shower. I have a look I have to attend to. I'm not skinny, but I'm definitely not a hippopotamus by any metric. I was myself, shave my legs, my lady bits, and wash my hair. My hair is curly so that takes a majority of my mornings if I want to be able to strut my look. 9:45 rolls around and my phone alarm rings saying, "Time to leave for work in 10 minutes". I dreaded going into work today. We just had two guys quit and

honestly; I don't want the extra load. I have two exams coming up Monday and I only have three days to cram my head full of information to hopefully pass them. I only have 9 months left and I'll be out. I put on my bra and panty set that my boyfriend had bought me as a gift, more for him but damn if I don't feel sexy in strappy stuff. I pull up my black leggings and button my shirt that says "Melony" and "Chipotle" on it. I get into my car, my 2009 Toyota Camry, and off to work I go on my long 5 minute drive. Six red lights.. six... Why does it take so long?

I pull into work, I notice my manager isn't there and only two co-workers showed up. Luke and John. They are decent enough but with only three of us? Are we going to have to close the place until someone else comes in? We open at 10:45.. This is going to be miserable. Eight hours with a short staff again for a measly $9.00 an hour. It's no wonder I have to sell pictures of my ass on reddit, maybe I should just do that full time. My boyfriend supports me but that also seems a bit demeaning. I do love the attention though but the amount of creepy assholes makes it not worth it. "Hi Luke, John! Where's Nicky?" "She called off says John, she can't come in." "Fuck me" I sigh as Luke gives me that creepy stare. I'm pretty sure he imagines me at night, he's a bit weird and I do my best to stay away from him. I get some serious rapey vibes from that guy, at least I know John would

kick his ass if he ever tried anything. "Well, are we going to try to do this with only three of us or should we put the sign up guys"? All I hear was silence. I'm the youngest here, only been here for a few months, why do they always have to be so god damn indecisive. "Fine, let's put the sign up and I'll call to see if we can get someone else in here. I guess we should at least prepare incase we find someone".

So the morning goes absolutely terrible. I'm calling everyone and only Amanda picks up and she, in a very short in sweet way say, "Yeah, fuck no I'm not coming in". So At 11:00AM I gave the call to my area manager that we were just simply under staffed completely. Nobody would come in and even my manager had called out. She told me to basically pack it up, leave the sign on the window and we'd open up tomorrow at our normal time. I guess I'm getting out of a full day of work. That'll give me more time to study for my exams and maybe I can see my boyfriend tonight. That would be awesome! So we basically have to toss anything we can't use tomorrow and in true employee fashion we make ourselves lunch before doing so. I was wiping down the front assembly line when I heard the glass break. I looked up and there's a very large man holding what seems to be a gun in his hand. I

immediately froze. Speechless the man walked toward me and yelled, "OPEN THE REGISTER NOW, GIVE ME THE MONEY". Well, I'm not going to fight this, just do what he says.. it's on camera. I literally feel myself pee a little in fear. I open the register and mutter the words, "There's only $50 in here, we aren't open today and that's all we have." The man proceeds to walk towards me, very dark complected wearing a very thick north face jacket. I hand him the money as he grabs my arm and pulls me almost over the counter. I feel the cold steel against my head as he says, "Give me your phone". I mutter, "It's back there" as I point to the shelf behind me. He lets go and I turn to get it only to see Luke's face in the window of the back room door just off to the side. He just nods and I don't know what came over me. I grabbed my phone and turned around. As I handed it to the man

he had one hand on the gun and I just... went for it. The following moments seemed like a decade. My hands pushed the gun into the air as Luke dove out of the doorway to tackle the man. Before Luke made contact the handle of the gun struck me in the head and everything immediately went black. The next thing I remember I woke up to the sound of police sirens. I look up and there's Luke, only the "creepy" look on his face is gone. He's genuinely holding me and I'm laying on the floor with my head in his arms. "Are you ok Melly? He got you in the head". "My head hurts pretty bad". "Don't move, I think you've got a concussion. We're laying behind the assembly counter, I remember staring at the sour cream fridge when everything just went dark. The sound of the sirens slowly silenced and all I hear is Luke telling me to stay awake.

"She was dead, I had to do what I had to do" Luke spoke up. She passed out in my lap and I thought she was dead. The police came in right as she passed out and checked the scene. The man was dead on the floor, me and Melly behind the counter, and I have no clue where that pain in the ass John ran to. They pulled their guns on me and I said we're innocent and that the big man was the attacker. "I need an ambulance, she's dying!". They told me to sit tight and made calls on the radio. Everything was a blur. I could tell something was wrong with Melly as she wasn't breathing right. I took my boots off and laid her head on them. I knew this was it, she's either going to die or I'm going to save her. I always knew she thought I was some weird creep. The amount of money I spent on her pictures on a website called reddit; if she only knew it was me. I laid her head on my boots and

put my hands together. I took me hand and slowly put it on her chest between her very supple breasts. I couldn't think about that, I had to save her life. The training I was taking to become an EMT was her only hope. There was a sharp object between my palms and her chest and my own moral compass fought me hard. I reached under her uniform and felt and her bra had a metal clip where what felt like a bunch of straps met. I lifted the shirt and saw a clip and unbuckled it. I resumed with my hands pushing into her chest. Down and up, thirty times... "Training Luke, training you got this" I repeated to myself. She was out and not breathing. On the thirtieth compression I knew I had to do it. Something I'd only had imagined in my own head but for a completely different purpose. I closed her nose and pressed my lips against hers and breathed into her. I felt her chest rise

and fall as I repeated this twice. "Training Luke, training". I resumed compressing her chest as my eyes began to water. "I'm losing her" I said to myself as there was nobody to hear me. It seemed the police had found John in the back room. What a fucking coward, I'm going to have his hide. Down and up.. Thirty times, just like the dummy in class. "She's so beautiful, please don't let her leave me god". "Thirty... Training Luke, training." I pressed my lips against hers and breathed into her just like training. I felt her chest rise and fall. I didn't know what else to do. She still wasn't breathing. I grab her wrist, no pulse. Again I push into her chest up and down repeating to myself, "training Luke, training". I can't lose this woman, I never took my shot and it can't end this way. "Training Luke, training" as my arms locked together push into her chest and out

again. "Training". Our lips create a seal as I breathe into her again. There's droplets on her face, why does she have droplets on her face?" I go back to compressions repeating in my head, "Training Luke, training". I feel a hand grab my shoulder and say "Let us help her!". The EMT's are there and that's when I notice, the droplets are from my face. I'm crying as I'm giving her CPR. I look down and her eyes are open as I stand up and one EMT is walking me away. "Mel" is all I get out under the face of tears which are now just happiness and sadness all at once.

Fast forward to Friday morning. I'm sitting in my bed, I've woken in what seems to be... a hospital? Oh.. that's right... We got robbed at work, my fucking head hurts.. what the fuck happened. "HELP!" I scream and the beeping of a monitor goes off. "Mel???" I hear a familiar voice but... wait.. "Luke?? What are you doing here? Where is Mark? Where's my mom or my dad? Why are you here?!?!" I instantly became afraid. Why is creepy Luke in my room. Then he spoke up. He told me what had happened with Marlon (the would be robber or possibly killer). Luke lunged at the man as he swung and hit my head. I fell and hit my head on the shelf on the way down. He wrestled the man and the gun went off. "Look" he said as he extended his arm. The one bullet that was fired grazed his arm and struck the man in the chest instantly killing them. "I'm sorry if I startled you like this

but.. well.. I had to see you again". "I'm sorry about what happened and I had to give you CPR, you stopped breathing and I thought I lost my only chance to tell you..." He stopped, turned red, and went to walk away. "What?!" I said, just say it! "I thought I lost you there, in my arms. I think... I think... I think I love you Melly".

The utter amount of emotions that went over me were innumerable. I was in shock. My head hurt, my chest hurt, and I was confused. Luke continued. He told me all about finding me on Reddit, buying over $2000 in content that I made without ever messaging me. I was stunned. "Why didn't you tell me Luke?" "I was embarrassed, you had a boyfriend, and I just wanted to help you". "You bought naked pictures of me to help me?" "Well, I never even really looked at them. I got them in my email and just never bothered, I just knew it was helping you with school and knew you wouldn't accept if I offered it. Look, I know it's dumb, but I've always been shy around you because I don't know what to say. My stomach turns into butterflies and I don't want to scare you off. I'm sorry Mel, but that's how I feel." "I need some time to think but please, don't be embarrassed Luke. First, you

saved my life when you didn't have to. Second I always thought you were staring at me being creepy. I never realized and should have talked with you. Thank you for being there and here. Where are my friends and family?" Luke hands me my phone. I see messages from my mom and dad because I didn't call them. Nothing from my boyfriend Mark who was even supposed to meet me last night. Needless to say we're going to have a conversation about that Mark. I look at Luke, "I need time to think, but I need a hug. Please?" He embraces me and I can hear the tremble in his voice, "Thank you for not leaving, I thought I lost you".

Fast forward to today (pointing at a small child in a car seat carrier), that's little Luke. His dad is at work and still every bit of the hero to me and his son as he was that fateful Thursday. Mark had been cheating on me and my mother had no clue what had happened until I called that following morning. I owe Luke my life, and now that man is out there saving lives every day. He is a hero to all, especially his family.

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enha and whether they'd listen to chapel roan (jk, but i bet you're wondering too, hm)

I saw someone do this and I thought hm, they might just be inspecting my brains cause I had literally just been reminded of it from a separate Twitter post but here it is:

Enha's ranking from most proximity to homie(O) -- least (based from pure vibes) (this isn't meant to be taken seriously but I saw the post (that i saw, DUH) and I felt very seen because it honestly baffles me that this group has to be one of the bro-y-ish groups in existence and yet at least 1 out of 7 people are gay so that's sus and very backwards in the best way possible) (like either they're so gay they out-straight the straights) (if that makes sense) (or they're just...not-- which is no fun because straight people can be so boring) (like so many gay people who just don't care to showcase it or can't, ig, tend to be so norm looking that they go under the radar.) (but not by me, tho-- no I see those hoes for who they truly are :)

Kim Sunoo

Are you shitting my dik rn. Be serious when you tell me that that guy isn't a little fruit basket matured to perfection. He's so beautiful and has a current of exuding confidence unmatched. Like, I don't really know how to explain it but it's the kind of self assurance in one's mannerism and appearance that I only ever see more flamboyant gay guys have. And I do NOT mean the walking pride parades who buy Target pride and obsessively listen to Lady Gaga. No, I mean the (mostly non-white) flavor of gay that is very feminine, very chic, very sassy, but run their persona like a ruler-- they may have started off insecure but they know what they want, and they don't care how they appear to others just being themselves.

2. Park Sunghoon

Now don't misinterpret this please, I'm not putting him here for some sick Sunsun delusion. Pure. Vibes. He's the kind of queer to be so ravishingly attractive and normal looking that it's deceiving, but that just means that they know exactly who they are. Tbh, I could just be flaking myself and Sunghoon might just be one of the most regular-degular guys ever but idk, something in the back of my mind tells me that if he were in an American drama, he would be the super preppy Football captain: very charming, very sexy, super masculine and close with his bro friends-- but he'd never have a girlfriend. Why? Cause he's a confident closet gay in-disguise. He's not keeping it a secret because he's ashamed, no. He just doesn't see it as something important enough to share.

3. Nishimura Ri Ki

Similar enough to Sunghoon, this is either the queerest stranger or the worst deception and he's in fact, the most normal of them all. (I'm less doubtful of him than Hoon but his ranking stays where it is.) Ni ki was probably VERY influenced by his sisters and female family members growing up (as per the pre-debut videos and whatnot), and while I do think that that can influence perception (which it might-- obviously), I still think that in some way or another, Ni ki's just a fruity guy. There's a sense of mystery that surrounds him, and it's really hard to peg down as something inherently queer-- 'cause it isn't, but the way he just kind of accepts the culture around him, whether it be flamboyant and feminine, or closed-off and masculine, makes me wonder if he's really just a Sister's Guy, or if he's just open to anything and everything.

4. Park Jay

Controversial opinion, Jay seems like he'd be way more than open to ally-ship than engene give him head cannon credit for. I really don't get any queerness vibes from him-- even beyond his very average, preppy style, he just kinda seems like he'd be the close friend of a gay guy THAN BEING the gay guy. I would honestly be surprised if he were, not that it's anyone's business or that it matters, cause it doesn't, but say in a hypothetical situation where HIS world was more accepting and it was a plausible thing for him to come out with a relationship...say it were a guy, I would tell myself, "well damn, I wouldn't have clocked that one." He's so supportive and very comforting, which tells me that in my heart, I'd love to be certain that he'd be very accepting and open. (I honest to God don't think he'd tolerate homophobia or prejudice like that, I just feel like it's not in his nature.)

5. Yang Jungwon

He's an interesting case because there's nothing straight about him (not really, anyway) but there's nothing gay about him either. He just kind of exists. Honestly, it's harder for me to peg him as anything mostly because Jungwon is a very complicated person to try and understand past what has been spoon fed to us from content and business-pushed personas. He's soft and innocent, but also professional and sly in a sort of sexy way. He can get what he wants but it's the want that feels lacking. I mean this in the most bestest way possible, but there's nothing incredibly unique about Jungwon's presence. (I don't want people coming at me for this, dp he's literally my bias wrecker. Like that's my boyfriend right there, I don't wanna here anything about not appreciating YANG JUNGWON, okay?) I just mean that he has no distinctive quality that's easily classified as queer or not queer or straight as a pencil...if that makes sense. I believe he'd be an ally, definitely. But I can also believe that he might see it as an insignificant identity. If he were really queer, I could believe it. But if queerness was something that he didn't even have registered in his perception of society-- or his life-- I could believe that, too.

6. Sim Jake

Hate me or love me, I think this guy's just about every dude-bro with a gay bestie. And I mean this so genuinely. He's charismatic and masculine, he's loud and goofy. There's nothing easily identified about him that screams queerness. He just appears to be so typical that it's hard to believe in a version of Jake that has that kind of energy, you know? I really think that if the topic came up, he'd be quite supportive of it. I can imagine one of those fancalls where an Engene implies queerness, or the mention of a gay relationship (in some correlation to enha), and he'd be over the moon. But as a person, Jake comes off as the typical straight charmer.

7. Lee Heeseung

Something in my nuggets tells me that his view of real queerness is a little more than stereotyped. He's very cool, very classically chill and nonchalant. He's got great style and good taste-- all this to say, it was probably influenced BY queerness. He reminds me of a current American-male prototype (especially seen in trendy fashion), where the guy can pull off femininity well and is easily accepting of nonconforming styles/media/art/(even)people, BUT they have a hard time conceptualizing queerness as an entity of its own and not just an identifier or aura if you will. These guys tend to be the least open to any real physical expression of gay (by means of intimacy or the more vulnerable aspects of queerness). And I hate to paint Heesung in this light because he seems really vibe-y, but I can't help but think that this guy has little to no real perception of romantic or sexual queer interest.

This was just a little think-a-rooney. I can't say that I haven't thought about this before because I have-- I think it's very interesting to think deeper about an industry that uses queer influence and fan service as means to create a selling image of regular artists (that are muses, in some way or another). Especially considering the very known fact that it all takes place in one of the most traditionally conservative countries in the world, enforced by (most likely) conservatives, made for a (ideologically conservative) target market. The way style is used and the way interactions between these idols are made to pander to the fans makes wanting to know more about an UNFILTERED "them" so much more intriguing. I don't mean for this to exist as valid speculation, but purely, speculation from an observant fan, who exists in a world where queerness is a lot easier to detect, even beyond the filters and walls meant to deceive and stay hidden. Of course, it's something that isn't meant to be public information, however, as queerness has become a more social identity-- with culture and unique experience surrounding it (as more than just a commodity or kink exploit), there's something to the speculation that feels a lot like humanization. Even if it's wrong. Ig. Idk that low-key sounds like a horrible thing to say. But I'm speaking my truth. Sue me.