#itd be nice to have examples on hand

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

oh it's Soliciting Book Rec Hours again:

has anybody read a NOVEL (preferably spec fic, like SFF/Weird/horror) where the major conflict centers around a Crisis of Faith? character driven, is what i'm looking for, specifically in long form genre fiction. upper YA or adult, please! bonus points if queer.

at this time i am NOT seeking religious fiction recs (no, not even religious spec fic like ted dekker or whoever is writing such things now)(is ted dekker still writing)(no shade on this market, it's just not what i need)

thanks!!

[infwctednyacifier]

hii!! if bah requests are open, could we request a minecraft steve or enderman alter? whichever would be more fun for you in your opinion! noticed youve been into minecraft and ive been playing rlcraft lately so thought itd be nice :)

🏗️⋆｡ 🏘️₊˚🧰ﾟ. SINGLE, MINECRAFT = STEVE – ALTER PACK

I actually already made an Enderman BAH pack from a request and due to a request from that same person because of a HC I have, I actually made a creeper partner so checking my BAH tag will quickly show you. Because of this, I chose Steve <3 also sorry this took a while, I had a psych eval ( for dat SSI >:3 )

Names – Steve „ Ryder „ Parker „ Kyle „ Brian „ Sebastian

Nicknames – Ryde „ Park „ big guy „ dad

Age – ageless / immortal

Pronouns – he / him „ it / it's „ hy / hym „ block / block’s „ play / play’s „ 🧩 / 🧩 „ 🎮 / 🎮 „ 👾 / 👾 „ 🏞️ / 🏞️ „ 🐾 / 🐾

Gender – cisboy „ pupgender „ Minecraftgender

Terms – masculine „ thing „ dog

Orientation – androsexual „ polyamorous

Personality – silly „ funny „ kind „ friendly „ caring „ creative

Role – physical caretaker „ mental caretaker „ father figure „ older brother figure

Species – human

Source – Minecraft

Emojis – 🏗️ „ 🧰 „ 🏘️ „ ⛏️ „ 🧫 „ 🌱

Extra – often wears a netherite helmet ( maybe sometimes a turtle helmet ) „ pants „ and boots with an elytra and a shield in his off hand . Around 6 ’ 5 „ 100% ALL NATURAL BEEFY & THICC . Expert builder and miner „ good at farming as well and redstone but prefers building most . Has an extremely large underground base that fits into the large cavern ( kinda egg shaped type cave ) . Y ’ know those ‘ building a [ BLANK ] museum ’ videos ? Yeah „ it loves those and makes a BUNCH of museums + hys bases entrance is a large circle with halves that imitate all natural Minecraft biomes . Father & older brother figure . Has a habit of putting block’s new sentence below the other and loves emojis, emoticons, and kaomojis . Lebanese – Egyptian but as white as play’s name.

Example message – Hi, I’m Steve :)

I’m just a casual guy trying to keep up my base & stuff,,,,nothing special :3

I use he/it/hy/block/play/🧩/🎮/👾/🏞️/🐾 and I’m really just here to chill, continue my stuff, and help the system whenever I can. Come check out my base n stuff, yk 👍🏼

Likes – building „ eating „ 🧩’s army of dogs „ 🎮’s partners „ Minecraft horror mods

Dislikes – jealousy „ aggression „ destruction „ cats „ mobs ( only if they’re mean )

Faceclaims –

[wooflesnoot]

Making a massive post about my experiences with being mentally fictionkin, since id love to ramble about it even though itll probably not be seen. itd just be nice to get my yapping about it out since ive not told anyone about it.

What is fictionkin to me? My personal experience is shifting into the mindset of a certain character, usually involuntarily. I can usually feel a shift coming on, but it still throws me off, especially when im in public. Sometimes i can force it down and revert to my main 'form', but other times it can be hard.

I have different shift stages im pretty sure, here's how id label them;

Stage 1. Feeling like im chatting with another version with myself, or one of the characters i shift into. Sometimes i have conversations with myself in my head for like making descisions n stuff, and it can take the form of characters i shift into. Ive actually had this since i was super young, it started with a wolf plush i had named Whitefang. Id already had a good bond with him, but one time he told me not to eat eggs we were served and i didn't; long story short my family got food poisoning but i didn't because of the eggs.

Stage 2. I get into the mindset of the character. My personality is more like them, and i have certain quirks that only happen when i go into that mindset. For example i hand stim lots when im Cyn, or when I'm my true form (spirit guider. past life etc) i think alot about religion and my past life of guiding spirits.

Stage 3. I fully feel like im that character. Not usually physically, but i literally just view myself as that specific character.

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Why do i do this?

I genuinely don't know. I feel like it might be a trauma response from dealing with very harsh bullying for years. I actually remember myself doing this same thing YEARS ago with other characters, around the time when the bullying was really bad. Like i remember it happening around my friends, id fully get into that mindset that im that character. It was really odd and it still feels really odd. Its something ive never truely gotten used to.

On the trauma response theory, i mindset into certain characters during certain situations. If i feel like i need to defend myself or snap, ill end up shifting into one of my more aggressive-in-nature kins like petra or v. If im in a stressful situation and need to calm myself down, i usually shift into Cyn because my brain tends to take in less during that time. Also i feel alot less embarrassed when stimming.

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Why do i specifically mention that im NOT a DID system? Im 17. According to doctors you won't know until you're in youre late 20s, so i don't want to start going oh yeah im a system when its such a serious disorder that i can't just claim without knowing much about it. If you're a system and think my experience sounds similar to DID do let me know though, im genuinely curious.

Thanks for reading :3

Also i might start tagging posts as i definitely write differently when im shifted.

[queenimmadolla]

https://www.tumblr.com/queenimmadolla/753659320673189888/dont-get-me-wrong-i-love-to-read-about-eddie?source=share

The only other time i see something that isnt hard core fucking is when its "we have junkfood, a movie and do nothing" which is good and nice and i understand but as someone who is depressed/disabled, do nothing but rot is all i do so itd be nice to see other stuff

I understand alot of people want an unwind fic after a hard day at work and im glad they have that. I will literally read every fic i can get my hands on but i would love fics that are like "a wacky day out" episode where all the x men go to the beach for ice cream or some shit so we see how they are when theyre not attached to the plot if you know what i mean

I wanna go to the mall with eddie, i wanna make bracelets or try to redecorate the trailer, go paintballing or something and so on.. terrible examples but you get the idea :/ :)

*Hides my work from like the past year that normally takes place in the Munson trailer and that’s it behind my back* You’re so right, dude.

lol, but no for real, you’re correct, they’re definitely comfort/sating fics (that I also eat tf up because I need a whole lot of comforting) probably more so for the writers themselves (as they should, pur 💅🏾) than their audience. and that was definitely what I needed, regarding my own writing and the settings/relaxed tone, but after starting Freak Like Me, I’ve been flipping from my comfort style to cracky and back again within the same works so I’m more often than not dissatisfied with everything I’m writing right now, hence the cold spell. Actually, imma vent.

I’m like scared to let the comfort go, because I do often run back to read my fics—especially the earlier ones, they hit different because they were like a good blend of comfort and cracky i dont know what happened after— and I’m afraid I’m suddenly gonna forget how to write like that, but the cracky fics are also comforting in their own way. It’s like I’m being torn and I need to find my ground. If this is why smut is popular, I get it! (And also, cause once I stopped writing smut on the reg, it’s so monotonous for me to write now even though I do enjoy writing it somewhat, especially if a connection is present—so the fear of forgetting how to write it is REAL and VALID).

And don’t get me started on my own fluff, I can’t seem to write a piece of it that doesn’t go over 10k words. I just can’t shut up and then I can’t cut it down because it NEEDS everything, but I don’t have the kind of time to dedicate to a 20k fic, not when I have a ton of WIPs, requests, and other oneshots/ideas I wanna get down. It’s a DISASTER. I’m a wreck, the poor emotions in my head fueling me must be losing it.

[sentientgopro]

My parents are currently trying to figure out a way for me to not have to share a bedroom with my brother, to the extent of considering a room in the garden. I said its probably just not worth it, Ive managed living in the room with him for many years, Im sure I can make do for another year and a half, and she said to me "You can't just put your life on hold like that for a year and a half until you move out". And she has no clue that had an entirely different meaning to me.

Yes, I DO have to put my life on hold until I move out, in a much more severe and damaging way than she realises, because of her transphobic ass.

But regardless of the twat saying it and the irrelevant context, I've been dwelling on those words. Its already getting kinda difficult a month into cracking doing nothing. Ive still got about another 20 to go before I even START transitioning and thats far from an instant problem fix, isn't it.

And I already wanted to think more in detail about how it will go when they inevitably find out, but this has presented a nice opportunity to think about it a bit more. My Dad will be absolutely pissed, plain and simple, to the extent that I'd have to make sure he finds out from a long distance for my own safety. He's gotten very aggressive over alot less. My mother, on the other hand, is a much more complex question.

She's the only one I've really ever talked to about issues (particularly issues relating to Dad, as well as mental issues), shes a psychologist so she kinda has a bit of idea what shes talking about. and she has said, on many occasions, that she thinks I'm very emotionally intelligent. She thinks I know myself very well. So if I told her about something I know she fundamentally disagrees with, will she just forget all that?

The thing is, she's been locked into conservative beliefs, but she can be reasoned with. One example was of a general discussion over the existance of gender dysphoria and validity of trans people, and I convinced her that gender dysphoria is real, there are scientific explanations behind why trans people feel the way they do. And she cannot find an argument against me so she resorts to "Okay, people like that exist, but I think most just do it because they think its trendy" cool, an entirely unmeasurable, impossible to back up claim that I cant even outright disprove so it pretty much ends up as her being right because she just knows better apparently. But, up to outright convincing her to change her beliefs, she can be reasoned with.

And besides, if Im so emotionally intelligent, surely I should belong to the group of people who aren't faking it, by her logic?

Honestly, if she was just outright never going to accept me like him, itd be easier. But the fact that theres a genuine question here makes it so difficult. Like, her helping cover for me and keep it a secret from my Dad and Brother while I start HRT is a genuine, possible outcome. Its also very unlikely.

But, if I could convince her Im not making it up, which should work in theory, and if she holds the belief that I can't just put my life on hold, its a forseeable outcome. And I don't know how I feel about that.

(Short bit of context for the next bit) One of my Sixth Form teachers has gotten extremely ill, we don't know the details but basically, hes disappearing for a while and we dont know if hes ever coming back. He is the ONLY member of staff in the school capable of teaching the subject. So, my mother arranged a meeting with the head to ask what happens next, and raised concerns over my education. In return, the head tried to ignore it by pinning it on me, saying I'm struggling already, and basically turn it around on me as if our only teacher isnt disappearing.

So I tried defending myself in a few ways, one of them being, since the last round of tests, Ive been feeling like, ALOT better, better motivated, to an extent that is affecting me on a day to day basis and making it easier to get work done, so there should be a massive improvement since my last tests. So after the meeting, naturally, my mother wanted to know what it was exactly that changed, and I realised I fucked up. The thing that changed was realising I was trans and realising that, eventually, I could be happy, and I have something to look forward to and work towards. So now shes gonna keep asking and wanting to talk about what it was. She keeps asking to go on a walk and talk about it.

And it keeps making me imagine, far into the walk, after she keeps poking and prodding, just going, "Fuck it, leap of faith". Because the more I dont tell her, the more suspicious shes probably gonna become.

idk, theres no real end point to this. This is more of a vent than figuring out my feelings. Supportive relatives are great, unsupportive relatives suck, but questionable relatives are fucking anxiety provoking. This is nothing new Im discovering here, really, this is a trans experience thats older than time itself. But I've never been a big risk taker, so Ill probably just take the long route and make sure they find out as late as possible.

[thueenz]

🌲🌻🎵

🌲(spruce) what are some of your favourite blocks to build with? What blocks do you think should be added to Minecraft?

i like building with spruce because it's a good colour that goes with other things but i build with a lot of different blocks! i think i usually use birch for my flooring? and i use a lot of the terracotta blocks for nice muted colours. i like a sort of nature-pastel aesthetic in my personal builds. i use amethyst clusters a lot for decoration too! idk how to word it but heres an example from an old server

i think for blocks i think should be added... i think more textures for terracotta would be really nice, it would add a lot of variation and theres not a lot of textured coloured blocks like that!

🌻(sunflower) what are your favourite biomes? Furthermore which biome feels most like home to you (might not even be your fave!). If you could add new biomes to the game what would they be?

lush caves, dark forest, and any snowy biome i'd say are my favourite. i feel weirdly at home in mountain biomes ever since i was a kid, and snowy biomes too, but i never build in snow biomes, idk why, i really should honestly i love them! i usually just choose other biomes that have better access to resources. though i like snowy biomes less since they added powdered snow im gonna be honest. i find it annoying so maybe thats why IUHGUES

i would LOVE more fantasy type biomes tbh. nothing over the top but rare finds and stuff, maybe more biomes with huge trees, i think itd be fun!

🎵(note) what is your favourite music disc? What is your favourite Minecraft song (or songs) in general?

i think my favourite music disks would be mall and strad! as a kid it was blocks. i think pigstep is a liiittle overrated, i dont hate it, but its just fine to me but everyone else ADORES it so ??

im not sure my favourite song but i get super nostalgic hearing wet hands specifically it TUGS at my heart so!! it makes me feel so..waah i love minecraft

link to the ask game

[wioaase]

guess who drank again?

its me. i thought altered states of consciousness were supposed to unlock more creativity but i got nothing lmao. anyways i wanted to write something? not proofread cuz i cant think rn <3

i wanna write something kinda hard but i feel like all im capable of is soft? yn tired of being mistreated and gives up on relationships all together and the boys try to make them feel better / take them out to prove that relationships (specifically with them) would be worth something?

chan

hates seeing you upset like this

completely understands

doesnt want you to give up completely

takes you out to dinner as just friends

you go back to your place for a movie afterwards

he tells you that you deserve better

that the nice dinner you had together is what you should expect from a partner

what he'd do for you

you think his confession / admittance to this is kinda silly until you see hes serious

"please yn. let me show you"

how could you say no to your best friend?

acts like a bf for the rest of the night

ends with yall either falling asleep together or "falling asleep" together

miniho

makes fun of you until he realizes youre actually upset

then feels kinda bad about it

agrees that relationships are kinda dogshit

because both of you have come to the same conclusion you spend more time together

during this time he realizes he may have been wrong

doesnt know how to bring up that hes changed his mind about relationships / is scared of ruining the bond youve made so far

stays quiet for a while until you make a comment about wishing dating could be as easy as it was hanging out with him

mindlessly states that you could just date him and itd be easier for both of you

doesnt register as a serious statement until you see him kinda flustered

you give it a rest for a day before asking him about it

doesnt want to pressure you into anything, tells you youll still be best friends regardless of his comment

shut him up by kissing him

surely you can try relationships one more time

changbin

absolute princess

would do the most after you get rejected / decide that other people arent worth your energy

easily buys you ice cream / is always able to clear his schedule whenever youre having a bad day and really need him

would never admit to crushing on you

lets you hang out at the studio when you dont want to be alone but have no where else to be

admires your company

doesnt realize his feelings until you continuously complain about none of your dates working out and all the people you see being shitty

jealous binnie

during one of your visits to the studio its just him and theres a bouquet of flowers in a vase you dont think too much of

he cant take you not saying anything / asking about it anymore

shyly begs you not to go on any more bad dates with people you meet through apps and to let him take you out just once

you take him up on his offer thinking hes just being a good friend

isnt until the end of the night you realize that he means more than friendship

butterflies butterflies butterflies for both of you

maybe ends in hand holding walking you home and maybe maybe maybe a kiss on the cheek as he drops you off

thinks about this night while laying in bed and kicking his feet / blushing

hyunjin

doesnt understand how you could give up on love?

love is everywhere

how dont you see it?

makes an effort to point out the nonromantic examples of love whenever youre together

you more or less roll your eyes because he knows what you really meant

he knows too but doesnt know how to show you without directly asking you to give him a chance

during one of your hangouts you make another joke about being alone forever

he hates seeing you hurting and cant do it anymore

cups your face in his hands

"please"

he almost looks like crying

you dont understand why but you make an effort to try and be more positive about relationships in your life

seeing you smile at an older couple as they go about their daily routine has him thinking about what life would look like if you two were together

thinks its a phase and tries to get over it but starts to paint you (oops)

eventually you find some paintings and ask him about it and he has to confess

youre scared of change but he promises you wont lose him even if things dont work out

puts a ton of effort into your first official date and is such a gentlemen it gives you butterflies

maybe you were wrong about relationships being hopeless

han

i love this man sm

would wholeheartedly agree when you rant to him about your most recent shitty date and tell you that all men are trash

your declaration that youve officially given up on relationships gives him the idea that he can freely flirt with you now

it started as a joke but the more he said it the more he genuinely believed it

didnt realize that he had caught feelings until you brought up maybe trying dating again

makes him sick to his stomach

after you go out on another date you want to meet up and talk about it but he makes up an excuse not to see you so you have to share the evening over text

hes terrified that youre going to replace him and hates himself for feeling that way but at the same time wants to be the only person that you need to depend on

you think his excuse is weird but text him regardless rather than telling him everything in person

hes secretly relieved when you say that you dont intend to see them agian

even more relieved that you told him over text cuz hes grinning like an idiot rn

decides to do something before you want to go on another date with someone thatll just leave you broken

does something omega cheesy like invite you over for your usual movie night

rose petals and candles and a card inside a bouquet

card defo has some shitty pickup line in it but it makes you laugh

baby boy is nervous but you just hug him and say sure

he thinks hes dreaming at this point and looks at you with heart eyes for the rest of the night

felix

would encourage you not to give up

offer to look through peoples dating profiles with you in an attempt to vet the shitty ones

the more he was helping you build your profile and look at potential candidates the more he wanted to say no to every potential match you had

makes a joke about dating you instead of going through the hassle of trying to find someone to date

what begins as a joke ends up weighing heavily on his mind and keeps him up at night

what if you two went out?

what would you say if he asked? would he be rejected? laughed at? ruin the friendship completely?

after this would be relatively quiet when you asked for help with dating

just tells you to trust your gut

youd have to physically go over to his place and confront him about it before hed tell you anything about it

would still be hella nervous

you find it cute though and tell him yes

he starts planning the next cafe date asap

seungmin

tells you youre unlovable

youre used to his tough love and accept it

delete any dating apps you had and officially give up on trying to meet other people

youre content for a while until it finally gets under your skin that everyone around you keeps nagging about finding you a relationship

you ask him to pretend to be your boyfriend to try and get everyone to stop asking questions about your personal life

he spends the entire night flirting with you and genuinely acting like boyfriend material

it fills the void in your heart momentarily

he considered it just helping out a friend but since that night hes seen you differently

have you always been that pretty?

eases off the harsh teasing and tries to compliment you more often

you notice eventually and make a comment

he brushes it off as nothing

youd have to instigate anything if you want things to go any further but some of that playful flirting has carried over since you asked him to pretend

jeongin

doesnt really understand why you care so much about being in a relationship in the first place?

like it genuinely doesnt make sense to him

if you have friends that treat you well why would you need anything more?

starts to worry that maybe he isnt doing enough as a friend

ups the game while unknowingly fulfilling boyfriend criteria

spends all his free time with you. texts you on breaks. finds himself thinking about you whenever hes not allowed to contact you for extended periods of time

performs better when hes able to hear your voice / see your face the day before a big event

would need someone else to point out that his feelings are growing past platonic

probably freaks out a little bit and ignores you for a day or two

plays it off as being sick even though you knew he was busy with other schedules

eventually confront him on it

isnt able to tell you exactly what hes feeling but does tell you that he doesnt like being apart from you

you think hes over exaggerating until you go out on another date with someone you dont know and one of the other boys texts you saying that jeongin is sad and youre the only one who can make him better

you try and joke with him to lift his mood but nothing helps

you fall asleep on video call with one another and when he thinks youre asleep he confesses

"sleeping angel.. i love you.."

you have to pretend to still be asleep despite hearing him or else hed never acknowledge it

when youre ready you can approach him and ask about it

until then though you can expect him to keep protecting you from a distance

[brainmoss]

i dont know much about islam so im sorry if i say anything wrong, but im a huge nerd for history and culture and religion and just wanted to let some thoughts out.

I once heard about there being rules for regular hand washing, and thats super fucking cool. religion in general is used as a means of union and dissemination of guidelines without borders, and a rule like this for sure saved the health of so many people throughout the centuries and also food safety. European customs varied throughout the centuries but it was needed illuminism and microbiology for eventually good hand washing and hygiene habits to be common. my country was invaded by a lot of diferent people (before we then did that to half the world, sigh) and one of our invaders were muslim caliphates, and in history lesson something that is always highlighted is that this population had a great number of scientists and doctors with great knowledge. What I mean is when someone or a population learns or notices something like regular hand washing is beneficial to health for example, it can be hard to promote this habit with the general population, but if it is a religious practice, it can make so many people across borders pay attention, and then in this case their health and consenquently quality of life improves! Thats super fucking cool!

now, another thing. since a kid ive always had a lot of respect for nature and what provides our food. ive developed some personal morals/opinions/personal guidelines about meat in particular. Im writing a fanfic and a character grew up muslim so i went to research some halal food habits to make sure i didnt get anything wrong and wow!!! the rules for the handling of cattle and meat is almost a 1 to 1 match to what i personally think!! (since im not religious, i just dont have a personal rule about needing to say anything specific, but i think thats a good gesture anyway). Thats so cool I was so happy to read that. I love that at least somewhere, some people have been treating animals with respect, giving them a good quality of life, and at the moment of slaughter making it as quick and painless as possible, and show respect and care for the animal, the life it had, the death happening, their sacrifice and the sustenance and materials theyre providing. thats really nice, it made me very happy.

also curious the traditional way of slaughtering and draining the blood of the animals is exactly the same here in portugal, but we do use the blood for sausages and rice and other things instead of just not using it. but like same guidelines!! quick and as painless as possible.

Then that also made me think of something else. Nowadays we have laws and i think its illegal in my country to kill an animal outside of a slaughterhouse, im not sure, but thats awfull in my opinion. yes it makes sense for health regulation and i wouldnt want unsupervised meat being sold, but thats an extremely stressfull environment both for the workers and the animals. if the meat industry could take a step back, a deep breath, and make the process slower, cleaner and more confortable for the animal itd be great

[ajdrawshq]

@ your tags on my post, i am shaking you like a maraca and yelling "YESSSSS"

i wanna see how kh3 tackles that whole thing because it's so eerily similar to what happens in the manga. and in the manga, he is in so much pain and agony, AND HE'S STILL FIGHTING. ROXAS IS THERE WITH HIM, HIS ONLY COMPANION, and then kh3 just tripped and fell on the glass table.

also, i think about this constantly, i want them to do something with it so bad.

YEA i cant wait to see the rest of kh3 manga chapters and how they handle everything, i especially loved the manga versions for days and kh2 and the way their stories were told - even tho kh3 has a Lot going on that might be hard to show well.. amano's been good at it so far tho so i have faith :]

but yeah that whole thing with Roxas is just . oughh. im not gonna lie even i forgot that Roxas was like. still there with Sora when he perishes until i thought abt it writing those tags but now that ive realized that. why the hell did they not take advantage of that!!!! like ok i get that it was more focused on the destiny trio in the ways i talked abt in the tags but yknow. what happened to "he makes up the difference"?? that wouldve been a great moment for it to shine!! ik they already make an example of it during the Xemnas n Saïx fight but still!!

part of me wishes Roxas couldve have more outward influence on Sora the way Ven did. granted, he arguably had an affect on Sora back in kh2, and while i dont remember if it was canon or even intended, that could be applied to both his appearance (his lighter hair, mostly) and his behavior (his hostility towards the organization members; ive seen this argued both as smth Roxas had influence over and purely based on Soras experiences thus far, and i believe in both personally) but Ven in kh3 was literally able to speak and somewhat act through him. im pretty sure this was meant to show that Ven was fully ready to awaken or smth like that, and that wasnt sonething that was needed for Roxas; hes alright, just needed a body/vessel for himself. but i still think itd be a cool way to express the earlier sentiment. and it wouldnt necessarily have to be Roxas "taking over" either, the manga shows very well how Roxas gives Sora strength from within and that he definitely does make a difference

to be fair tho...... whether that wouldve helped Sora in the moment that he gives in to his despair, im not sure. in kh2, both manga and game, hes in a very different mindset than kh3. in that part of the manga especially, despite thinking everyone (except Roxas) is gone for good, he still has the belief that they can live on within him. and that, plus the literal strength hes getting from Roxas, is keeping him going despite it all. in kh3 his self confidence is beyond fucked, and he truly believes in that moment that hes lost Everything, not just his friends. thats hard to come back from

i wonder if he were to remember that Roxas were still there, if that wouldve helped. whether for comfort in the way that hes not really alone then, or for motive to keep living bc if he dies then Roxas is gone too, or whatever reason, i think it couldve changed something, even if its just a little bit. hell, itd have been great if something like that happened afterwards in the final world. id like to think Roxas had a hand in Sora surviving ..... not sure how but its a nice thought. either way i do wish Sora n Roxas' connection and that moment they have in san fransokyo had more....... More. in kh3. it was a great opportunity that they didnt use/forgot about n im now sad abt it forever

[spanishskulduggery]

@trussy-kween replied:  Can you explain the verbs? I know i could look them up individually but itd be nice to have them all together with an explanation

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So this is in reference to some of the weirder irregularities in verbs.

There are many weird irregularities especially in present tense. They’re very important especially the yo form - because the yo form is how you conjugate present subjunctive

Quick example: irregular verb decir turns to digo “I say” in present tense... this affects subjunctive; diga, digas, diga, digan, digamos

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As for the other ones I mentioned - this is mostly in reference to verbs that have irregularities but aren’t always “irregular” the way ser or ir might be

It’s usually for the sake of phonetics or spelling, but some are real curveballs. I mention them as verbs that are minor categories of assorted weird ones, much less dramatic than the stem-changing verbs but still important

My examples were distinguir, prohibir, vencer, argüir, asir, reír, huir, and fingir as less talked about weird ones [but don’t worry about argüir or asir]

distinguir “to distinguish” is mostly regular but in present tense yo it's distingo but it’s otherwise regular 

prohibir “to prohibit” takes an accent mark in its conjugations for the most part like reunir or continuar but it's unexpected to have to write prohíbo; though I get it, it's to keep the O and I sounds distinct. I will say I have seen it conjugated without the accent mark, it’s not technically correct, but it’s there

vencer “to vanquish” or said of things like warranties it means “to run out/expire”; but in present tense yo it’s venzo which throws people off (me. I’m people.) In general verbs ending in -cir or -cer tend to go to -zco... like conducir to conduzco or conocer to conozco. 

However, a handful of verbs like that go to -zo instead... primarily vencer, convencer “to convince”, and sometimes useful in specific contexts is fruncir where it’s normally “to pull together” or “to gather/draw together”... in sewing or tailoring it means “to gather fabric”. 

BUT the main use of fruncir in common Spanish is fruncir el ceño “to furrow one’s brows”. If you read a lot of first person fiction or fanfiction, you see a lot of frunzo el ceño “I furrow my brow”

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As for argüir which is mostly legalese and situational as “to contend” or “to make an argument”, it’s arguyo. In regular Spanish, you’re going to say things like opino “I am of the opinion”, or creo “I believe”, or pienso “I think”. If it has to be more formal or a stance you usually see afirmar “to claim”, aseguar “to claim/affirm”, or more formally argumentar “to argue / to make an argument”

asir you never use. It’s obsolete but it means “to grab” or “to seize”, and it’s a -go verb; that’s how I came across it with it being asgo but no one has ever used it around me. Honestly I think if I said it people might think I said asco “disgust”

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Now, reír “to laugh”, sonreír “to smile” and freír “to fry” are E=>I verbs, but to keep the I sound they take accent marks

It’s because IO is a diphthong and comes out as yo. To make sure you know it’s a verb conjugation and keep the I stressed it’s río, sonrío, frío etc.

(Not to confuse frío “I fry” with frío “cold”)

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huir is an odd but expected case. Rather than have you write “huo” which would sound odd in Spanish it’s huyo, huyes, huye, huyen, huimos. 

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fingir is finjo, finges, finge, fingen, fingimos

This one makes sense phonetically; GI and GE have a sort of H sound, and to preserve that they change it to finjo. It’s basically regular; but to make sure you’re having that H sound instead of a hard G sound of “fingo”, they make it finjo

This happens with most -gir or -ger verbs... exigir “to demand/exact” for yo form is exijo, and proteger “to protect” turns to protejo in the yo form

Spanish is an extremely regular language in its spelling and pronunciation. It goes out of its way to make the letters match the phonemes/sounds, sometimes at the confusion of people learning, but it does really help standardize expected pronunciation... mostly

There are many verbs that change spellings in certain tenses to preserve the right sound

[inland--empire]

hi hello!! asking about the designs of your willwood based hlvrai au :o))) i hope its not too much to ask since it is a lot but i like specifics and being accurate so {EoDDD i may not get all that much detail in when drawin em (when i get round to it) but the info is nice to have on hand

gman: is his face blank/neutral or an uncanny smile? where is the crack in his mouth? (along the side, upper ip, inside his mouth?) does his shirt also have the missing texture? i like to assume hes made of porcelain but yea, what material?

coomer: constantly spinning? do you mean like.. (drawn example below) im a lil confused by the head cracking open (egg..) but itd be something id need a diagram thing of unfortunately what is he made of?

benrey: maybe descriptions of each characters strings if they should be represented as more than just simple lines or who has em cause they arent mentioned with the others also, just assume with each of them ill need to know what theyre made of from now onwards if that could be provided (other than that, benreys all fine)

bubby: i am under the impression that only his third eye is that bright blue n the others are just a standard blue i like to imagine he still wears his lab coat, but are the sleeves burnt (or other) off to just above his elbows, up to his shoulders, or other?

tommy: his left or his right? like… if you were looking through tommys eye(s) which would be gone? (im terrible with my lefts n rights is why i specify that) skeleton being visible, so like.. wounds so bad they go that deep? or weird glitches of his skeleton showing?

"gordon": his right.. so if i was "gordon" itd be my right.. i assume.. ok :o))) how is it mangled? is it torn to shreds? glitched to fuck? really shittily sewn together? etc any extra details are appreciated :o))))

Alright! And don't worry, specifics are totally fine! For Gman: Yes to the uncanny smile, he's made of wood but it's polished, the crack is from the right side of his mouth to about an inch into his mouth, and yes his shirt has the missing texture. Kinda this kinda vibe for the face? For Coomer I was thinking that his eye rotated in place, but since they are ovals you can see the spin. He's also made of wood, trying to go for an early marionette vibe for him.

Here's what I was thinking for his head! I hope it makes sense, I can't draw too well. His strings would just be simple lines For Benrey: The strings glow as well, so they appear golden, but other then that they are just lines. Benrey's also wood, but like everyone else it's polished. For Bubby: You are right about the eyes, and the sleeves are burnt off up to the elbow! He's plastic. For Tommy: Looking through his eyes it would be your left. Also, it would be more like a glitch that shows his bones! I also think that he'd be like those baby dolls with plastic head, arms, and feet, and a cloth body. For Gordon: The arm is ripped to shit, like a dog had been at it.

I really hope this is helpful!

[lesbiancarat]

Lolol the number one complaint and we weren't allowed a question on the survey lolol oddly understandable but let's see if they make good work on that! Maybe they will? Dalcom I know did similar things but it wasn't that in depth questions like this so very curious

Tbh the entire comeback is interesting to me! Like I know to some fans they say svt is "predictable" with concept pics or how it plays out like some still say it with this one but imo it feels different? Like the concept photos are interesting how they seem to follow a story but then boom, fast and furious with the last one lol. But oh Gosh the topic about the more producers *sigh* but like can some fans take a chill pill on this topic? I feel like everytime we see more producers, some fans get a tad bit too worried on this and I do get it but also let's just wait? We haven't heard ANY of the songs yet and everyone is already acting like it is going to sound like a certain hybe artist English song that came out that asks about permissions to dance lol. Again, I do get the slight worry but imo as long as we still see a heavy involvement of the usual people of svt music (bumzu and woozi) we shouldn't worry too much. Now if they were seen less and less, yeah we should get worried but their names are ontop. They are still hands on and I doubt either of them would allow a song to not have their svt touch that makes svt music well, their music and I know some fans are going to be itching to correct me about how post bighit it isn't BUT as you answered another ask about this exact topic, everyone has their own opinion on this and I can confirm this was happening BEFORE bighit move. I have seen it happen during fear era myself how everyone was saying "omg fear is not seventeen!!" Or how everyone was saying seventeen needs to go back to "making good music like in boys be era" and I simply just think its a matter of preference on what you like to listen to? Sure you can sometimes see the decline for some artists but if anything for svt imo it is consistent just there are changes. Its normal and common. To me they haven't changed in quality musical wise, it still is something you can connect to svt even post bighit. I agree with many of your points on this topic that is constantly brought up like how this is out of our control, at the end of the day we have no idea what happens behind the scenes so who knows how those music sessions actually happened. Producers will work with artists regardless of they are fans or not, as long as I don't see a questionable producer on a svt song? I'm good imo. Sometimes it works i mean rwy is a good example because why it felt very punk rock for some like myself and that might be because one of the people behind the song is the person behind the band, the ready set! So fellow emo carats you can rejoice lol it is cool to see that sometimes. It was a nice blend of western but it has that svt touch. But of course some would argue back and say no it isn't and we are going in circles lol. Always will be sadly for every comeback you cannot please fans at all because as you mentioned, they worked with outside producers before being in bighit so now I bring the question to some fans is, would we see some of the producers that did work with popular kpop groups still work with svt if they were not in bighit? My answer is yeah because svt is a pretty popular group that is growing still. They are well loved and respected so I'm sure we would have seen those names pop up. Maybe it would be less but I don't think we should all be saying itd bighit to blame when again as you said, svt worked with other producers before.

Which is why finally what you said with how really arguing about this isn't going to get us anywhere, like I even said I have seen this topic before so it isn't going away but it is pointless to argue (note not saying you cannot discus but I hope you know what I mean here) Wait until you hear the songs? Because then you can decide is it really a decline or is it you just not liking the song? Idk again like I said I don't want to sound mean or anything and I do apologize, maybe its because of the recent events in my life that got me more annoyed at how some fans are taking this seriously when my lovely carats ndjajdjsjs don't sweat too much over this really. We won't get a satisfying answer to this and nothing constructive comes from this as you also mentioned, instead we just get fans pointing fingers and thats not what should happen, we should be all in this together hsm style and getting excited to hear the songs ya know? I mean those post bighit songs have to still be svt because its getting them new fans so is it really going bad in where svt loose their brand? I have seen some new fans admit they listened to their older songs but it wasn't until rtl, l&r or rwy they were like ok time to be a fan so something still has to be working right? Lol idk you have every right to not post this ask, especially with how I may come off than usual so you can smack me off to Pluto. I mean it is also ok to not like all songs svt make and considering how long they are a group, it makes sense. For Pete sakes boomboom is still somehow seen as the song many carats don't like xD like i love boomboom but hey, you are allowed to not like that song!

yeah, ultimately i think everything you said comes down to compassion and respecting other's opinions and tastes. like, everyone's going to have a different threshold for when they get worried about the production credits. personally i get somewhat worried seeing 15 names i don't recognize on a tracklist, there are some people who don't pay attention or give to shits about the producers, there are others like you who would get worried if woozi and the other members weren't the first names on the list. and there are others who would worry seeing one new name they don't recognize

and like, i don't think there's anything wrong with any of those points of view. but i think we should understand where other people are coming from. ultimately i think every fan wants good music from svt, we just have different opinions on what that looks like. and at the end of the day, as fans, none of us have control over any of that so it's pointless to argue. i think it's fine to be able to say "this isn't important to me, but i get why you would be worried about it" or "this is something i worry a lot about, but just because you don't also worry about it doesn't mean you don't care at all"

and the same goes for the songs themselves, regardless of who produced it. i said this in the last ask i answered but i really wish people would recognize that just because they don't like a song doesn't mean it's bad or that it's not svt, bc if svt are involved in producing a song, isn't it inherently svt?

but on the other hand i think there needs to be a balance between recognizing that it's fine if some fans don't like a given comeback, and also recognizing that it is possible for certain releases to alienate a lot of fans. i think fear is a good example of this, because it was very divisive and the reason for that is it WAS a lot different from the music svt had released before. and i don't think there's anything wrong with liking or disliking the song. but it's important for for both fans of fear (as well svt and pledis themselves) to recognize that it's expected for a lot of carats to not like it given that svt up til that point had largely built their career and fanbase on brighter songs, which fear was very much not

and i think the balance of that is that, again, it's okay for any individual to like or dislike any song. and if you're someone who likes a divisive song, you need to think about why others may not like it and recognize that that's okay. and if you're someone who's on the other side of things, recognize that it's okay to like an artist and not like every song. and if you're not liking a lot of the new music, you may be happier moving on rather than getting your expectations let down over and over again waiting for an old sound. it can be disappointing when it happens, but artists are allowed to change their sound and try new things

the last thing i would like to challenge though, is that i don't think that just because a change in concept or new songs are bringing in more fans necessarily means that "something's still working". i get that this is a defense against fans who are the type to be stuck in the past and hate on every new release. which i agree can be frustrating, but it's a line of thinking i would caution against. the reason for this is because it's essentially saying that, as long as we get numbers (whether it's views or sales), it doesn't matter whether we drive away old fans. and that it not a good formula for a healthy or stable fanbase, because it prioritizes numbers over keeping the loyalty of fans. it's possible to stay popular with that approach, but if you continue to follow whatever the current trend is just to get views, then you're going to have a lot of turnover in your fandom which can be an issue for a lot of reasons

and like, i'm not mad at you or anything for saying that. i think it's sort of a non-issue for carats at the moment anyway because despite svt having a few controversial releases (namely fear and rtl, and possibly rwy) and concerns over producers, i really don't think there's like a mass exodus of old fans who hate the new sound lol. and while i do think svt's sound has changed since debut (they haven't stayed freshteen for 7 years straight), i do think they're aware of their fanbase and they try to make music they think carats (and they themselves) will like. and they've said that they don't just make music to follow the trend either. and even if this was a problem, it's not like it's something we as fans have direct control over anyway, because we don't decide what music svt releases

but it is something i wanted to flesh out a bit because i think it's a statement that carries a lot of implications and can be dismissive to any old fans who are having trouble liking newer releases. because whether you relate to it or not, it's very valid to feel upset if a group you really like has moved toward a sound you don't like. and some people can definitely be annoying about it, but at the end of the day i think the best way for it to be handled is for those people to recognize on their own if they need to move on from the fandom if they're really enjoying it that little

again, it all comes down to compassion. it's okay to like a song or not, but be compassionate to those who are struggling with not liking new songs, and be compassionate to those who are enjoying music, even if it's music you personally don't like

[obsessive-ego]

Beetlejuice cant tie a tie

I got a little off topic, but we get to it eventually

Musical beetlejuice x reader

Nsft mentions and bonus

A day off like any other, your phone buzzes to life at 11am, you groan at the sound, but you cant sleep all day, even though you really want to. As you shift to turn off your phone, you feel the familiar dead weight, you huff.

"Beetlejuice"

Ever since you let the ghoul into your home he has made it a habbit to sneak into your bed with you, at first he would leave before you woke, but now? He just makes himself at home, claiming that your bed is so comfy and warm, and way more lovely then the couch, honestly you didnt mind, his pajamas were clean, and he kept his hands relatively to himself, and lets be real even if you protested he'd still do it, just something you got used to over time, and enjoyed, as much as you wouldnt admit it, sleeping with another person did help you sleep at night, but you weren't exactly ready to open that can of worms.

You nudge the demon

"Beetlejuice let go"

The ghoul had you trapped in his arms, wrapped tightly around your waist, as his face was buried in your hair, his legs tangled with yours, the demon was spooning.

You squirm again, this time a tad more aggressive.

"Keep wiggling like that sugar and you'll give me a boner" he groans, more mockingly then anything else.

"Let go so I can turn off my alarm and start my day" you huff

Beetlejuice tightens his grip around your waist.

"No can do sweets"

"Beej please, I need to be an adult today"

"Oh babes, you can EASILY be an adult in bed~ but fine, if you must" be dramatically let's you go fawning hurt, you simply roll your eyes as you take your new freedom and leave the bed to reach your beeping phone on the table across the room.

Following your example, beetlejuice gets up too, and with a simple snap of his fingers his black and white pajamas were replaced with his trademark suit, the ghoul straightens him self out, adjusting the jacket and tie as if he had somewhere important to be.

You couldnt help but feel a tad jealous at that, to be able to get ready for the day in a second, something like that could shave a good amount of time off your mornings before work routine.

You usher the demon out of your room stating you needed to get dressed, though he did plead to stay and help, as always, you only replyed that youd take a rain check.

Reemerging from your room, dressed and ready to enjoy your day off, you head to the kitchen to make some coffee, your morning routine was simple, normally beetlejuice would chit chat with you as you made breakfast for the two of you, but it was strangely quiet, you havent seen the ghoul since you ushered him out of your bedroom, normally this ment he was hiding and getting ready to scare you, a regular occurrence.

Now something as simple as making toast and coffee now had you filled with anxiety, why did he always do this? You know why, he thinks it's funny. Your anxiety was short lived when a little note flutters down from the ceiling in front if your face, instinctively you grab it

'Babes, off scaring, saw you got new neighbors, be back soon~ xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo'

You sigh in relief knowing that bastard wasnt gonna mess with you today, yet you couldnt help but smile at all the xs and os, corny, but that was him wasnt it.

Like any other day off you try to catch up on house hold chores, and with beetlejuice out and about you can actually get stuff done, nothing against the ghoul, hell you loved having him around, it was just hard to be productive with someone so chaotic under foot.

...

Your day off went by pretty productive, you here you were, enjoying the peace and quiet, with a cup of hot tea and a book you've been meaning to read.

"HONEY I'M HOME"

Beetlejuice appears from literally nowhere in the center of the room you were currently residing.

you nearly jump out of your skin at the sudden outburst, no matter how many times the ghoul burst into your home that way, it always startled you.

You regain yourself, and with a small laugh you sigh "welcome home B"

The tips of the demon's hair turn a soft pink, something as soft as 'welcome home' from your lips sent him, how lame, a big bad demon from hell, getting all warm and soft from just a little breathers kindness, yet, he wouldnt want it any other way.

The ghoul is quick to slide next to you on the couch "ya miss me toots?~" he cooed leaning in and making an exaggerated kissing face, you snorted out a laugh and gave him a shove.

"Knock it off B, and yes I missed you, but I was more productive without you, so~" you laugh

"OH Y/N you are so mean, you would rather me be away so you can do boring breather stuff, then have fun with the sexiest dead guy you know? How cruel" the ghoul pretends to be hurt.

You laugh again "Beetlejuice, you're the ONLY dead guy I know-"

"Therefore the sexiest" he countered giving you a wide toothy grin

"You got me there I guess" you laugh and give beetlejuice a shrug.

As the laughter dies down you notice how roughed up your friend really was, more so then usual, more dirty, shirt slightly untucked, new holes in his jacket and pants, his tie undone, loosely hanging around his neck. Yes the ghoul was messy, but it looks like he lost a fight, and hell with his powers he could clean up in a second, maybe he hasnt noticed?

"Beej? What were you up to today?" You ask shyly, you didnt exactly like to butt into what the demon did in his spare time, mostly because if he wanted to share it with you he did it with gusto.

Beetlejuice freezes for a second, the shrugs

"The usual, messing with your neighbors, why?"

You gesture to his messed up clothes

"OH,  yeah, new guy down the hall fought back, you should have seen it babes-"

You sigh, not that you needed too, but you worried about beetlejuice, what if he got into a jam he couldnt get out of.

"What's up sugar?"

You flinch, beetlejuice must have caught in to your expression.

"Do you need a hand straightening up?" You mentally slap yourself at that suggestion, he can magic himself back together why would he need your help?

Glancing back up to the demon's face you swallow hard, plaster across his mug was a love sick dopey grin, his most and beard now sprouted pink patches.

"Please~" he purred, a word you rarely herd from the ghost.

You nod, slowly you start with the tie, grabbing on to the two pieces, you swear you saw the demon flinch, slowly but surely, you tie a simple tie, years of doing it for yourself for forced formal occasions, guess the info stuck.

You gently strengthen the knot, paying more attention to what you were doing, rather then who you were doing it for, if you were paying attention to beetlejuice you would have saw his wide eyes staring so intently on you, both hair and scruff completely pink, a soft smile plastered across his face.

"You know babycakes I would just LOVE to have you yank on my tie more often~" he purred

You flinch at the comment, being brought to reality by that delightful gravely voice of his, you stutter out a soft noise, unsure how to respond in your frazzled embarrassed state.

The demon continues "have ya drag me around, mmmhmmm, have my sweet little breather in charge"

You unable to think of a response, just sit in front of the demon, hands still gripping his tie, staring back at his face.

"I have to say I've thought of it often"

You DID yank the ghoul by the tie alot, to make a point and or get him to your level, him being taller then you.

"My little y/n riding me, using my tie as a leash, you being fully naked, while I'd be full clothed, sounds like fun maybe we should- urk"

That was a step too far for you, as hot as the idea way, it was till too much and too embarrassing, with a quick movement of your hand you tighten the ties knot around the ghoul's throat, as if to strangle him, not that he needed to breath, it did shut him up though.

"Harder baby" he croaked

At least you thought itd shut him up.

You let go of the tie and get off the couch, taking a step back.

Beetlejuice laughs, his soft pink hue shifting back to his default green.

"Oh sugar we done already? Not only are you kinky, you're also quick to finish" he snorts out a loud laugh.

"Cant we have one nice moment?"

"No"

You sigh, little frustrated with the ghoul's ability to ruin just about any moment, as if the ghoul sensed your mood, he was quick to jump to his feet and pull you into a side hug, you huff, still being a tad annoyed with him.

"Alright sugar, ya twisted my arm, not more dirty stuff tonight, I appreciate your help with the tie, how bout I return the favor?"

You quirk a brow, return the favour without saying something dirty? You didnt think the demon COULD do such a thing.

"Heres what I'm thinking doll, me, you, and the new neighbor down the hall, I'm gonna show you how I got messed up to start with, and play your cards right babes and I'll let ya tie me up again~" the ghoul winks at that last line, regardless of the innuendo you smile.

"Alright BJ I'm game"

The ghouls gives you a wide toothy grin

"Its showtime".

Nsft bonus

Later that night when you were dead asleep beetlejuice couldnt help but dream of you sitting on him wearing nothing but a coy smile as you rode him, he being fully dressed with his cock freed from it prison and being buried in your warmth.

You bounced up and down, yanking his tie, half for balance half cuz of the sound he made.

With a delightful dream like that, the ghoul did not last very long,

[pinktatertots99]

PLEASE WRITE KANKRI HITTING ON RUFIOH THROUGH AN ELABORATE THESIS ITD BE SO FUNNY

nonnie...i would be so honored. THIS ONES FOR YOU and all my like, five rufkri shippers out there.

basically kinda sorta more a love confession but ey its kinda flirty with wha he talks about.

also for some who need the helps: rufioh uses 1′s for i’s, kankri uses 6′s for B’s, and he uses 9′s for O’s -ye i’m adding this just incase, we all need reminders cause kankri’s can be a fucking headache of a quirk-

-COUGHS- my archiveofourown link to this fic -COUGHS-

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your name is rufioh nitram and your taking a breath for yourself for once. you find yourself in a dream bubble you re-imagined as your old lost boy's location: tall blue and pink tree's with red cherry colored petals on them and littered at their tops various treehives connected via bridge's, stair cases, the gist.

you lay back on one of them that was your's, a big blocky one that has a couple windmills on top of it laying on the ledge that covered the top of your front door. kicking your leg absentmindedly as ol nostalgia rings through you, you barely get this kinda alone time but talk bout the advantage's of dream bubbles and damara's nice descendant escorting you.

until you hear the grass crunch from under you. you could just ignore it, finally steal some time for yourself but that’s not how your gears work; damn rogue bullcrap. you open your colorless eyes and move to look over your left where your sitting and spot a blob of red and feel a weird sense of relief.

its none other then your groupies lead spokesman kankri vantas walkin around trying to find you from how he keeps looking to his sides. kankri’s...something alright. sure everyone complains bout how much he babbles on bout half baked facts, preachy, pushy, an angry lil firecracker; actually maybe that’s why he’s so angry.

oddly though your not around alot for those, you’ll eyeroll at somethings but otherwise he’s pretty chill around you. bonus he’s celibate so you finally have someone who won’t try hitting on you every time you breathe in their direction. also your a mutant like him so mutant bro’s unite you’d think, it was cool finding you weren’t the only ‘cullbait’ of the gang honestly.

you go to get up and stretch your wings and back a bit. you may aswell make a sick entrance. you go run two steps and jump, your falling for a few seconds and it has your adrenaline pump before your wings pick up their flapping and have you flying downward slowly.

you saw kankri see you with near panic but pretty neutral look, dude barely had any sorta reactions but that was alright if it meant you could spot the teeniest moment he’d be thrown off as you land on the grass softly five steps away from him.

“9h.” he replies as you snicker. “pretty s1ck r1ght?” “in y9ur ling9 yes 6ut i advice y9u t9 please try n9t t9 use it s9 l99sely especially ar9und th9se in medically unwell situati9ns.”

you rub behind your neck. “sorry. anyways wha’ up? pass1n by?” you notice a pile of papers in his arms, maybe he’s gonna go preaching to some of those new human ghosts maybe? your betting the dude with the pointy glasses will be a conflict to him if he does.

“9h n9 actually i came t9 find y9u.” he states and you perk up a bit. find you? “megid9′s descendant was kind en9ugh t9 esc9rt me here.” ah her, you really should’ve figured. you take a step or two closer lookin down to see him cause dude’s fuckin short. “yeah? uhhh alr1ght, well what’s up?”

he looks back to his papers almost, hesitant? kankri vantas nervous? tarnish the thought till he looks back up clearing his throat. “genetical uniqueness.” ...what? “what?” you ask as he continues. “genetical uniqueness in 9ne’s self is a kn9wn fact9r 9ne sees in an9ther that is a small step to a gr9wing infatuati9n in said individual whether it 6e aesthetical, physical or pers9nality wise.”

...you...you don’t know what’s going on. is he giving a lecture? seminar? on genetics? oh gog messiah’s dangit kankri may be your boy as you’ve called him before (not around him you know better) but man there’s only so much of him you can chill with until it starts getting to well, this point. you don’t stop him though cause kankri vantas never stops until he’s finished.

“s9me f9rms 9f genetical uniqueness c9uld c9me fr9m all 9f th9se and m9re. f9r example, an unc9mm9n s9cietal genetic that while n9t unc9mm9n can 6e seen as a f9rm of interest to s9me9ne and unique. whether freckles, hatchmarks or, wings perhaps.” your wings flap at that.

“9f c9urse t9 t9uch 9n the first three f9rms 9f attraction i mentioned if y9u d9n’t mind my reference 6ack t9 the su6jects at hand, an aesthetical attracti9n t9 certain f9rms 9f attire and style that differ’s fr9m 9ne’s 9wn can 6e an9ther. 9f c9urse this is entirely su6jective as n9 indivudals are the same 9n this manner h9wever 9pp9site’s attract seem t9 have m9re likelih99d t9 find 69nds in a multitude 9f ways. examples 9f this kind 9f su6ject is perhaps a rebel-esque design that c9rrelates t9 s9me a resistance t9 a c9nf9rma6le s9ciety with it’s 9wn strict regulati9ns and laws. s9mething like rigid and ripped attire 9r sharp disc9l9red hair c9uld 6e examples that 9ne wh9 while n9t p9ssibly sharing th9se designs with them finds inspiring t9 l99k t9.”

you look at your ripped jeans and vest. you...kinda still dont know what he’s going on about, but you keep listening.

“the sec9nd aspect, physical is 9n a similar subjectivity as while 9ne finds a physical aspect 9f s9me9ne attractive an9ther will n9t. h9wever physical attracti9n inv9lves s9me f9rm 9f the 9ther individuals 69dy they deem as p9tentiality t9 perhaps engage in a quadranted arrangement with said individual whether h9rns, fangs, a smile that gives a pleasant crease to their facial structure, their 69dy language when shy 9r excited, perhaps even height as acc9unta6le as studies sh9w a pred9minant interest in a taller partner for feelings of pr9tecti9n, sta6ility, 9r an9ther f9rm 9f 9pp9site’s attracting if the 9ther party isn’t their perceived interest’s 9wn height.”

you rub the back of your neck...nervously. your not dumb your getting some serious implications. you don’t wanna believe them, nah no way kankri’s celibate maybe he’s talking bout someone else? alotta their team has nice smiles and taller then him or dress ‘rebelistic’ as he calls it.

“lastly there’s attraction to pers9nality. m9st w9uld like a pers9nality they find in s9me f9rm similar t9 their 9wn t9 gain n9t 9nly m9re in c9mm9n t9 create a 69nd 6ut als9 as a starting part f9r c9mm9nality t9 make it easier t9 take the necessary steps. s9me h9wever may find attracti9n t9 a pers9nality that differs fr9m their 9wn. why is dependa6le 9n certain pers9nal aspects but m9st are 9ut of jeal9usy f9r seeing s9me9ne they are n9t, 9r perhaps admirati9n t9 have what they have 6ut cann9t 9r are una6le t9 yet due t9 their 9wn pers9nal reas9ns and s9 they try finding a partner wh9 has s9me 9f th9se aspects they cann9t harness. n9t in a c9ntr9lling way mind y9u n9r t9 use them 6ut due t9 a f9rm 9f admirati9n and interest.”

you nod as he perks up. “ah, ap9l9gies h9wever menti9ning quadrants earlier. they have a varying r9le in these f9rms 9f attracti9n 6ut i failed t9 reitterate this 6eing m9re 9pen t9 interpretati9n 9n any f9rm 9f quadrants i’m referring t9 as many 9f these examples in this thesis can 6e f9r any quadrant. als9 ap9l9gies f9r the menti9n 9f this su6ject due t9 y9ur recent 6reak fr9m y9ur matesprit i didn’t mean f9r any kind 9f harm t9 y9u 9n it.” “nah 1t’s okay 1 get 1t. 1′m f1ne.”

he nods going back to his papers, least it looks like he’s almost done. “thank y9u. n9w where was i? right. n9w many examples 9f pers9nality attracti9n vary fr9m pers9n t9 pers9n 6ut i shall use a hyp9thetical and keep in mind it’s 9nly hyp9thetical. perhaps s9me9ne is rather una6le to s9cialize with any f9rm 9f 9ther parties due t9 varying 9pp9site interests or 9stracizati9n fr9m said gr9up. perhaps they meet s9me9ne wh9, perhaps shares s9me f9rm 9f genetical uniqueness t9 them, perhaps als9 having similar experiences t9 what their shared s9ciety 9r even different s9cieties share similarities t9. b9th gr9w and act very differently due t9 h9w they react and are raised in said s9ciatal climate. while the first hyp9thetical partner gr9ws t9 6e m9re f9refr9nt and 9pen t9 their 9wn th9ughts that s9me find c9ntr9versial the sec9nd partner is pers9nally flexible with an exteri9r design and m9re positive pers9nality s9me find m9re likely t9 fl9ck t9 them m9re.”

he’s hiding behind his papers but you swear you saw those cheeks turning a tint of red. your blushing too but you don’t know if its the same as his. your pumpbiscuit is beating hard but you don’t know if its infatuation or anxiety.

“perhaps, when the first pers9n sees this they find themselves just as infatuated to make themself kn9wn t9 this pers9n due t9 their 9pen relia6ility. perhaps they als9 feel a f9rm 9f jeal9usy that they are unable t9 have the same people-friendly exteri9r t9 them and, wish they had that ability t9 d9 s9. may6e the 9ther seems, at least t9 the first individual, 9pen t9 them and what they have t9 say 9r are fine with spending time with them that has the first individual to sl9wly c9me t9 terms with their 9wn feelings 9n this pers9n. even, s9 far as t9 admit even with their 9wn pers9nal views 9f themselves and their 9wn 6eliefs, they may find them, expenda6le t9wards this individual.”

okay no the beating is anxiety now, this is WAY too much you see it all now and your...scared. your really scared now. he sighs and clears his throat again. “in c9nclusi9n i 6elieve these f9ur fact9r’s are likely c9mp9nants t9 6uild a f9rm 9f r9mantic attracti9n 9ne may find in an9ther. s9, what did y9u think 9f it?”

your horrified, your rubbing your arm nervously and trying to put on a smile for him. “1t’s...pretty good yeah. real conv1nc1ng.” you feel like such a douchebag right now getting nervous. your recent break with horrus was, okay shitty to say, but it was nice having a break from romance.

you know you know that’s really shitty, but you feel the need to put all you can in it and you get drained and can’t keep going sometimes. its like the break charges you up so then your back to giving him your all and it repeats. it sucks, but he loves you and you feel even more douchy at the idea of telling him you can’t do it anymore, ever, after yanking his chain for this long.

you...don’t want that for kankri. your at a 50% charge right now on romancing least flushed wise, you never tried the other quad’s before. what if he wants flushed? you can’t do that you’d lose him if you pulled what you do to horrus on him cause you really kinda, don’t know how to stop or talk about it. 

even then you don’t even know if your both broken up for good or what, you could end up with him again and then it’d be a damara situation and you don’t want kankri to be your next damara he keeps grudges way longer then her (which your surprised she tolerates you enough even with her grudge but you digress).

even then all he talked about felt, surface level. like everyone’s crush’s on you; except meenah which guess this means she’s the only one never to flirt with you now. damn it. still though he doesn’t even really know you, sure he could learn but, do you really want him to? learn about how much of a fraud you are? how all this is an act and you honestly have no fucking clue why anyone likes you? how you can’t be your own troll? gog he’d be so disappointed he goes on about trolls equalizing and needing their own rights to be their own troll but you can’t do that; not even for him probably.

point is: your shit at flushed and you don’t want kankri involved. you wanna give him those free feelings your classpect is supposed to do. hard part is, how’re you gonna let him down?

before you can think further he speaks up. “i’m glad y9u think s9. y9ur an excellent listener rufi9h i d9 genuinely appreciate it.” you see a twitch at the end of his lip and it pains you the fact he almost smiled. “perhaps we can have m9re 9f these meetups next time?” he asks taking a step to leave.

your surprised but kinda relieved too, least he’s not asking you out, but then again he’s also coming back sometime. meaning he might get more and more confident to actually pop the question your not ready to burst his bubble with your response with yet.

you smile though and wave at him. “ahah, sure sure 1′ll be here for 1t. or, we can meetup here?” he nods moving to look away as he walks off. “i will make n9te 9f that f9r 9ur next c9nversati9n. take care nitram.” he states, you watch as he gets more distant and vanishes in the forest.

you sigh long and relieved and go to fly back to your spot, moving to lay down on it though as you let it all soak in. your rufioh nitram and you just got flirted with by the kankri celibate vantas himself.

[sneakydraws]

so ive been vaguely pondering a sort of hs/general human au and now yall have to listen to me ramble abt it

in my mind ro & bul are like… a couple where it seems like they wouldn’t work together but after some thought it makes perfect sense somehow?? anyway they’ve known each other for a long time and they had some drama before getting together - bul is hung up on his public image and deep in denial about being gay for a long time (probably dated a girl before, or at least made up a crush. probably on natalya since she’s so unavailable lmao). he’s a serious tryhard when it comes to fitting in which ofc backfires because he comes off as awkward and dishonest. ro on the other hand enjoys nonconformity and makes friends with other mild weirdos easily (magic club for example)

ro is definitely the one to realise his feelings first but he doesn’t say anything because he thinks it’s unreciprocated, (i can see ro as kind of oblivious to others’ feelings but also bul is deep in denial so) anyway eventually bul’s desire to fit in makes him snap at ro and they end up splitting up for a while and it makes bul reassess how he hasn’t been treating ro well - their friendship had been a bit strained for a while because bul doesn’t really want to associate himself with the weird kid - and he feels terrible about it and realises he’s in love and he apologises and confesses and ro is like of COURSE i forgive u dumbass, i’ve been in love with u for ages and 🥺🥺🥺 

i really like the idea of a relationship where bul WANTS to be a better person when he’s with ro because ro is so open and devoid of pretenses and unconcerned with others’ opinion of him so bul consciously makes an effort to shed some of his cynicism around ro and allows himself to be a bit softer n relax… and it’s not completely one way, ro benefits from bul’s more pragmatic and assertive viewpoint to balance his own downsides… idk man i just think itd be nice 🥺*projects my own desires onto hetalia characters like a pro*

[magic-number-3]

omg pls give us the finn inspiring a storm trooper rebellion speech my body is ready for some good takes 👀

oh iz! oh dear. I’m so flattered but I’m afraid I’ve misled you! I know I referenced in the tags of this post about a story I was drumming up regarding force-sensitive finn. However, what I was referring to was a separate, non star wars affiliated story that (i hope) fulfills the force-sensitive finn storyline many of us were looking for. Cause then itd be cool to actually make it someday! haha. I will be posting some moodboard stuff for that sometime this week or next week. In the meantime, there’s this great post about a force-sensitive finn that matches a lot of the same energy (not to mention just excellent writing)!

And also some force-sensitive finn takes anyway;

a) First of all, JJ or whoever did confirm after TROS that what finn was trying to tell rey was that he was force-sensitive, but that he never got the opportunity, and this PISSES ME OFF for a number of reasons. don't try and retcon something like that and make it canon. same energy as jkr saying Dumbledore was gay for the diversity points. obviously its a little different here cause it wasn't for diversity, but my point still stands. its lazy and if that's what it was supposed to mean it should've been explicitly in the text. I, and as far as I’m aware many others, wanted force-sensitive finn and ASSUMED we’d be getting him and tros failed to give that to us. ESPECIALLY when JJ was signed back on for 9 and he gave us finn with a lightsaber in 7 which was abandoned in 8. anyway I obviously have lots of feelings about this trilogy. And I don’t want to go too hard on JJ here specifically because i’ve heard there was lots of behind-the-scenes stuff going on with the writing of this movie, but I'm still upset about it. either put it in explicitly or don't bother to tease it all. that whole back and forth of finn trying and failing to tell rey came off more disappointing than anything else because it didn't amount to anything; all of that suspense of that just deflated when the movie gave the ending it did for me

b) If you know that's what he was going to say, just put it in there! for all the craziness that was tros it would've been so easy to slip that in there and tie up the storyline in a simple conversation. (lit rally have not watched this movie since I saw it in the theatre but) doesn't he try to tell rey but she stops him and goes ‘i know’? WTF??? Just tell the audience then And make it clear!! just add ‘i know you're force senstive’ or something!!! or she goes ‘i know’ and poe is like ‘am i missing something??’ and then finn tells him!!!! there's a whole storyline about how it creates a rift between poe and finn for petes sake!!! you need to tie that up!! it would've been so much cooler to have poe trying to tell rey the entire film and then in the final battle there could be an AMAZING REVEAL when he saves her or just anyone using the force when they thought they were done for that helps renew peoples sense of hope and turns the tide of the battle. imagine that energy!!! the audience would be in uproar!! it would be MAGIC!!! but rey had to have her showdown with Palpatine to give ben a moment to redeem himself, so whatever. I'm still ENRAGED

c) speaking of things that make me enraged lets talk about my man john finn boyega. my heart! did you SEE his excitement for tfa??? gigantic billboards of him holding a lightsaber!!! he could not shut up about his excitement! we all know the iconic Instagram caption! they told him he was the next star of star wars!! and then that was COMPLETELY SIDELINED in tlj with very little more done in tros! i want to see john finn boyega SCREAMING that heartfelt speech to a sea of stormtroopers to show them they can be their own people and make their own decisions, because that speech exists out there somewhere. not that its been written by anyone professionally involved with star wars, but that idea exists in the world and its a damn shame it never came to fruition

d) also lets just think about the power of a force sensitive finn storyline would have at all. you cant discuss his character without discussing ex-stormtrooper. So you have finn, who in tfa and tlj is largely just a bug the first order was trying to squash because he had the audacity to betray them and they needed to set an example in case anyone else got ideas. but he isn't just a bug, as a force sensitive he becomes one of the key players on the board and just like!!! isn't that the biggest fuck you!!! like hell yeah!!! finn spent his entire life putting his life on the line for an organization that removed him from whatever his home and family looked like in his youth and actively oppressed him and told him he was nothing and now he gets to tear it apart with his own force sensitive hands!!! LIKE?????

anyways I’m sure i have many more thoughts on this but I'm very busy today and this is all i came up with. hope this is in the realm of what you were looking for have a nice day ❤️