#its great to hear that my writing grabs you! i write this kind of stuff on the fly so its all impulses and no planning hehehe

[mokutone]

I love reading your thoughts so much, you have a captivating way of writing, especially your post on testosterone, i just. Am in love with it

Kissing u on the forehead, hope you have a lovely day❤️❤️❤️

hey, thank you! that's really sweet of you to say! i'm kissing you on the forehead too :) mwah mwah!! 💚

[authorhjk1]

Surviving NNN

Part Three: A star

You sit on the balcony of your apartment, letting the cold breeze brush your face. The cold shower you just took helped. Or at least it eased the pain. Yena's gorgeous body still wanders through your mind. The way the towel slowly slid up, revealing her legs. How it created a small cleavage over her small breasts.

You are saved by the sound of the door being opened. Hearing small footsteps, you do your best to concentrate on the task at hand.

"Oppa?"

You recognize Chaewon's voice.

"Yeah."

"Minju made breakfast. You coming?"

"Of course. Give me a second."

You feel a little guilty letting your guests cook, but the three girls can cook way better than you. Apart from some basic dishes you can't do very much.

"What are you doing?"

Chaewon steps closer, now standing right behind you, while looking over your shoulder as you sit in one of the comfortable chairs.

"I'm working on some lyrics." "Really?"

You hear the excitement in Chaewons's voice.

"I'm a huge star, you know?"

She grabs another chair and sits down next to you, looking at the ipad in your lap.

She referred to herself as a star, which is the name for your fandom. Your stage name is Jin-wol. It translates to moon or jewel in English. That's why the fandom name stars somewhat fit.

You are happy to hear that Chaewon is a star, she is a well known idol after all.

"Really?"

The young woman nods in excitement.

"I watched your recent MV like a million times."

You chuckle as Chaewon tries to glance at your ipad. Unfortunately, there is nothing much to look at so far.

"What's the new song about?"

"Read for yourself."

You offer her the ipad and Chaewon starts to read. It isn't much yet, but you can see her blushing harder and harder with every word.

"Th-This is gonna be your song?"

"Yeah. I can write and produce my own music, but usually the company decides on what theme we do for every album.

"Ah, I see."

Chaewon's cheeks are still a little red as she gives you the ipad back. It is hard work to write this stuff right now, beacuse of NNN. It's supposed to be a sexy concept. A combination of obvious hints about sex and some a little less obvious. It wouldn't have been a problem without NNN at all. You could just take more than enough "inspiration" from Karina. And even if someone would catch up on that, it's no big deal, since the two of you are together anyway.

You eat breqakfast in silence, while you listen to three girls chatting. With your mind still on the song and your mind capable of more than just vivid imagination, you keep your head down.

"Oppa."

You slowly raise your head, barely able to look at Minju. The things that went through your brain during your run make you feel bad. How could you think about her like that?

"Since its Saturday, the three of us wanted to go shopping. You wanna come with?"

You rather not. You need to keep writing. And you need some space to breath. Having these three girls constantly around you makes you anxious.

"I actually still have some work to do."

"Oh come on."

Yena looks at you.

"We will reward you afterwards."

She gives you a wink and your mind starts spinning again. What kind of reward?

"What kind of reward?"

Yena chuckles. Your voice may have sounded a little too desperate.

"I'm tot gonna tell you. But it has something to do with cream."

She smirks at you.

New pictures flood your mind.

Yena on her knees, holding a can of wipped cream. She pours some of it into her mouth, before looking up at you. Her hands work to take of your pants. You groan as you feel her warm lips part around your cock. The cold wipped cream is a great contrast to them. It slowly starts to melt in Yena's mouth. She pushes it around with her tongue, while looking up at you.

"Oppa?"

You slightly shake your head, trying to get rid of these thoughts.

"No."

"Why not?"

Yena pouts. You can't stop looking at her lips. Just a moment ago they were wrapped around your cock....

"Please, Jin-wol oppa."

Minju pouts as well.

"Karina unnie told us to take you. She said you hate shopping."

That's somewhat true. You never liked it. Which means Karina usually does it for you. She knows evry size, from shoes to shirt. She also has a better sense of style than you.

The person who breaks your last resistance is Chaewon.

"Like you wrote in your lyrics: 'I see donuts left and right, but I just want to glaze yours all night' you know?"

No. No way in hell she doesn't know what you meant by that. She must. Chaewon must know exactly what you meant. The other lines are even more explicit. She must have picked up on this.

And yet, she looks at you with an innocent face.

"We could get you some donuts."

Yena chips in.

"I like my donut glazed as well."

You almost have to take another shower as you hear her say that. You stuff your mouth with food, trying to avoid the pictures coming back.

"Chaewon? Are you coming?"

Yena shouts through the apartment, while the three of you wait for Chaewon. She is the last on to get dressed.

"Oppa, why don't you go and get her?"

"Me?"

"Yeah. She is a big fan of yours. I'm sure she will hurry up when she sees you.

"Fine."

You walk towards Yena's and Chaewon's shared room.

"Chaewon."

"Come in."

You hesitate for obvious reasons, but you eventually open the door. Bad decision. Not just because of the way Chaewon is dressed, but because the two of you are alone.

"What do you think?"

You think a lot. Way too much actually. The number of days you survived without cuming is increasing steadily. And Chaewons outfit makes you dizzy.

You just want to take her right there.

Push her against the wall, throwing that large bag aside. Open the zipper of her jeans, while she does the same with yours. Your lips dance along her skin on her shoulders, enjoying the smoothness. Without much forplay, you would just enter Chaewon. Her eyes shut tight as her petite body tries to accustom itself to your cock. A moan escapes her mouth while you push inside. Your hands resting on her tight midriff. Your thumb playfully grazes over her mole as you make Chaewon sigh with pleasure.

You start to fuck her hard into the wall. More and more. Faster and faster. Your body releasing all the build up tension.

"Oh god! Your cock!"

Chaewon moans loudly as you pound her hard. Your dick is deep inside her pussy. Your girlfriend's friend's pussy. Your fellow idol's pussy. Your fan's pussy.

Chaewon is all of that. And more. Your lips find hers, trying to muffle her moans as you take her body. The young woman gives herself to you, relishing in the pleasure you give her.

"Harder, please! Fuck me good!"

Her high pitched yelps make you pound her harder. You feel Chaewon's walls contract around you. Her body shakes even more.

"Oh my god! I'm gonna cum on your cock!"

And so she does. Chaewon orgasms in your arms as you keep fucking her. You chase your own orgasm which is building up as well. After almost three weeks of no cuming, you feel your cock almost bursting as you are about to climax.

"Give it to me. Give me your cum."

Chaewon asks for it. She looks into your eyes, her head slightly swaying back and forth as you pound her against the wall. You are surprised when she manages to undo the button of her jeans in a frenzy. She pulls down her jeans just enough for you to get a good look at her pussy.

The sight makes you orgasm right there. You manage to pull out. You start cuming all over her. Your cum lands mostly on her freshly fucked pussy. Some of it on her midriff. The two of you breath heavily after your short fuck.

Looking down, you realize that you mad your lyrics come true. You did glaze Chaewon's donut.

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Hi everyone!

I hope you enjoyed this. The lyrics might come of as a little cringe but I'm a writer not a composer , so please don't judge me to harshly.

Tomorrow will be the last day of round one for the Decmber speical, if i'm correct. You will be able to vote for the actual chapters as soon as this round ends

Have a great day!

[norrisleclercf1]

heyy, hope you're having a great day!! dunno if your requests are open but here we go

i lovee how u write lando so i wanted to ask for a angst like a lil toxic!lando and he kinda starts an argument w gf!reader after a bad race or smt. like an angst to fluff but dont let her be dumb and just say 5 min after "its ok".

totally get ot if you don't want to write this but if you do thank you very much :)

A/N: Nothing like a lil toxic Lando

"You had a great race." You smile, swinging your legs back and forth. Lando doesn't say anything as he slams his helmet and gloves into his cubby. "A great race?" He scuffs, shaking his head at your words.

"Yeah? It was." Apprehensive of the way Lando was tossing and slamming stuff. "It wasn't a great race, what are you blind?" Lando hisses. Your eyes harden when he fixes you with a harsh glare.

"Jesus, fine it was a shitty race and you're lucky you got 8th? Is that what you wanted to hear?" You sneer pushing off the ledge fixing your dress. "What the hell are you even wearing? You look ridiculous." That one stung, Lando always praised you when you wore this dress it was one of his favorites.

"Yeah? Well, you're a fucking dick!" You snap, unable to think of a better comeback. "Where the hell are you going?" He rolls his eyes as you grab your purse and other belongings. "To Carlos? Or maybe Oscar. They wouldn't act like an asshole." Walking out you slam the door the sound vibrating throughout the hospitality.

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"Honestly, I just want to break up with him." You whisper, Oscar nodding along as he packs. "As you should. What he did was uncalled for." Oscar was like a little brother, always kind with teasing thrown in there. "You know you're right; he always gets like this after a hard race. I shouldn't be the one to deal with that." Grabbing your phone you open up his contact name.

To: My Baby

We're done

You take a deep breath and hit send, watching as it immediately says read. Those 3 dots pop up and then disappear, you watch it with baited breaths, but nothing ever comes through.

"It's done." You whisper staring at your phone. You should feel relived but all you feel is sadness. "Good, let's get out of here." Oscar zips up his bag grabbing yours as you two leave.

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He doesn't know what he was thinking, for 3 months now he's been sending you small gifts and texts here and there. Lando wasn't going to accept the breakup. To him he never replied so it never happened. To end your relationship over such a small spat, was childish.

Lifting his hand he knocks twice, your voice muffled as you yell you're coming. Lando's foot taps as the anxiety inside him grows more and more with each minute. "Yes," You stop coming face to face with Lando.

"Go away." The door starts to close, Lando stops it with his foot which has you huffing in annoyance. "No, you broke up with me over a text. Honestly Y/n, it was just a stupid fight." Lando groans pushing the door open, but you block him from entering.

"A stupid fight? Lando you've been horrible to me each time a race doesn't go well. I'm not your punching bag." Dropping his head unaware of how to go about this.

"You're right, how I've been treating you isn't right. And I'm sorry, love. I really am." Stretching your neck you try to hold strong in your decision. "Please, can we start over? I'll be better, I promise. I can't lose you." He reaches out for you, cupping your cheeks as you lean in.

Damn him.

"Tomorrow, 6pm. Don't be late." This time he allows you to close the door.

[thejojosanctuary]

Hello there! Could I please request Jotaro, Kakyoin, and Caesar riding a large rollercoaster with an s/o? Like maybe cute little details, such as their reaction when s/o grabs onto them, whether or not they get scared/dizzy on rollercoasters, or how loud (if at all) they scream. I just discovered your page btw, and I love it so much! Thank you for all the hard work you've done, I really appreciate it! >w

Oh I am so in love with this idea! Got to go to a amusement park recently so all I could think about was this one horse rollercoaster-ish ride they had while I was writing this lmao.

I hope you like this hun thank you so much for the support and kind words they make my day!

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Jotaro

♡A roller coaster is a customary stop for any faire/amusement park trip, or at least, that’s what you tell him in order to convince Jotaro to get in line for the damn thing in the first place. He isn’t opposed to getting on the ride, but chances are the two of you have stopped at other places before this point making the rounds. Jotaro makes it a point to  stop at the games stalls dotted around the place, if only because he enjoys watching the flabbergasted looks on the staff as he plows through the rigged games and gets to walk away with the prizes. At least he shares the spoils with you, so you’re more than happy to go along with him.

♡Safe to say you’ve both got your fair share of stuff by the time you make it around to trying out the rollercoaster, and the poor ride attendant is left surrounded by a tiny mountain of stuffed toys and carnival goodies left for safe keeping as you take your seats on the ride and get settled in. It’s going to be a snug fit regardless of the ride because he is built like a brick house and most seater rides are notoriously small, but at least you won’t have to worry about lifting up out of your seat when you’re bundled into the space next to him and the safety bars are dropped down ready to go.

♡With a lurch the ride starts up, and if you cast a cautionary look over to your partner you may be a little disappointed to find that he’s stone faced the whole time, even as the ride starts to track up the steep incline and you have to tilt your head back just to avoid the familiar rush that makes your head spin a bit before it’s even got to the top. There’s a brief moment when the ride stops before the first drop, where the temperature drop nips at your nose as you take in the sight of the amusement park spanning before your eyes. Out of the corner of your eye you spot Jotaro’s hands moving to hold onto the bars, but you don’t have time to crack a joke about being scared of heights before the brakes release and just like that the ride’s in motion again. 

♡The wind whips at your face, and more than a few of the sharp turns have you slamming a hip or elbow into your partner’s side; so at one point you figure that it’s safer to just cling to him and spare his ribs any further bruising. He’s a great buffer against any kind of potential whiplash, so you’re able to crack open your eyes and enjoy the thrill of the world spiraling around as the ride twists and turns.

♡Doesn’t scream, but he’s got a white knuckled grip on the safety bars the whole time that the ride’s going. Eventually the ride comes to its final drop, tapering off into the final waves of tracks before chugging to a halt back at the starting line. You’re a little frazzled and dizzy from the loops and drops so you don’t think to let go of Jotaro’s arm even as you make a move to exit the ride. He lets you use his arm as a support, bringing a hand to rest on your shoulder to help steer you towards the exit; or maybe it's to steer you away from looking back at the ride, where the handle bars have little indents left behind from how hard he was holding on the entire time.

♡At the photo stand it’s impossible not to hear other people at the stand making marveling comments about the guy who was ‘able to keep his hat on the entire time’, wondering how it didn’t fly off even upside down. Of course none of them can see the semi-translucent purple hand barely peeking out from behind said hat, keeping it firmly pinned to the wearer's head. The knowing grin you flash at him once you spot the photo immediately has your arm support privileges revoked, and you have to wrestle with him and the booth counter just to get the clerk to actually print you a copy of the thing - a memento you should definitely send to Holly once you’re back home.

Kakyoin

♡ Kakyoin is the only one out of these three smart enough to buy a fast pass for all of the rides if the amusement park offers them. He is way too excited about going out with you and getting the chance to go to the park to not have planned the whole thing out in advance. He wants to make the most of the time the two of you have there, so being able to jump the queue was a must when getting the tickets to get in.

♡ Similarly to Jotaro, Kakyoin would have a lot of fun going around with you at the other attractions before finally rounding back towards the rollercoaster. The arcade didn’t know what hit it until the pair of you were walking out of there with enough spoils of war to leave the prize counter looking barren - and don’t even get me started on those claw machines, they never stood a chance. 

♡ It just so happens that your route around the park eventually leads you to the biggest rollercoaster the park has to offer, and you can see the gears turning in his head thinking how he’s going to convince you to get on there with him. Thankfully it doesn’t take much - the promise of getting to pick the next ride and the custody of one of his bigger wins from the arcade being enough to win you over. Of course you’d have done it even without the bribe, but keep that little bit to yourself as you amble over to where the line signals the entrance of the ride. 

♡ Kakyoin is at least polite enough to actually ask the ride operator if you can leave your things with them for safekeeping rather than just dumping them on the floor for them to deal with. You’d like to think that nets you some brownie points with the staff since you somehow manage to be the first ones on to pick whichever spot the two of you want to take. Before the ride even starts Kakyoin’s nudging at your hand with his, and when you cave and intertwine your fingers he straightens up a little more in his seat. 

♡ He’ll make idle conversation the whole way up the first incline, if only to kill the time between then and the actual drop. Asking you what ride you want to go on after this one; if there’s any places you wanted to go or things you wanted to try that you haven’t done yet. He goes quiet once the ride comes to a momentary halt at the top, only a few brief seconds before the drop you both know is going to come.

♡ It’s cute seeing how he looks over the park from such a high vantage point as though trying to commit it to memory, and you make a mental note to try the ferris wheel before you have to leave so he can enjoy the sight properly. But of course the moment ends the moment the ride crests over the incline and shoots straight down into a drop that feels like it's shot your stomach into your ribs. That sweet hand holding earlier is dropped for the death grip the pair of you have on each other's arms on the way down, and though you’re both screaming along with the other ride-goers it's lost to the wind that leaves your ears ringing from the sudden acceleration.

♡ His head is definitely spinning by the time it comes to a stop, though you aren’t faring too much better as you try to amble your way out of the cart and end up grabbing onto each other for support in trying not to go flying down the ramp exit. There’s a good few moments where the pair of you have to just find the nearest stable surface to lean against and spend a good few minutes clutching your knees trying to get back your bearings. And even then you’re both still grinning as Kak looks up at you, face still a bit flushed from the adrenaline of the ride and pulse beating in his ears but still looking like he’d had the time of his life.

♡ You make a stop by the photo stand hoping to get one of the rides - maybe a cute picture of you clutching onto one another on the way down. And it would have been exactly that, had it not been for that one curl of hair that ends up covering damn near half of his face in the photo. You end up getting it anyway, much to his chagrin, and though you make promises to go on it again later Kakyoin’s trying to subtly bribe you into giving up the photo with promises to get a better one next time.

Caesar

♡ Caesar admittedly wanted to start with something small when you first arrived at the amusement park to get geared up for the excitement. Maybe a chair swing ride or a scrambler, or even some overpriced but tasty park food to give you energy for all of the rides you’ll inevitably want to get in line for. Those ideas all but immediately go out of the window once you cast your eyes on the looming metal amusement ride that takes up the space far above your heads, tracks twisting this way and that way damn near spanning the length of half of the park. 

♡ He’s very glad for not going on that aforementioned food trip as he knows from the second you spotted the entrance to the rollercoaster ride that you’ve set your heart on trying it first, and he allows himself to be pulled along as you take his hand into your own and make a direct path for the queue to get in line. There’s no way he can say no to you when you ask him if he’ll get on the ride with you, and whilst you’re in line Caesar makes a show of reassuring you not to be scared about the ride. He promised to make sure that you have the most fun the whole time when he first took you out - he won’t let a little height scare you away from doing something you’d enjoy (a remark that comes to bite him back later).

♡ The wait is short and it isn’t long before the line has whittled down till it’s your turn. Caesar is eager to fill in the silence that’s left between getting into the cart and once it actually starts, teasing you about your first choice in ride being such a bold, adrenaline rush of a decision. He’s quickly sated when you tell him that you’ll be sure to let him pick the next one, and he’s already listing off some particularly calmer paced choices - the Ferris wheel, tunnel of love, the house of mirrors etc.

♡ Despite how he said he wouldn’t let you get scared, Caesar’s leg is rocking the entire way up the first incline. You have to gently coax him to tone it down since all it’s doing is making the cart rock even more, but he’s not one for sitting still. Holding his hand on the way up seems to ease some of it, and Caesar rubs his thumb over the top of your hand as a silent appreciation for the gesture.

♡ This man has proved that he’s got some pipes on him and this ride just proves it. He jokes all the time that Joseph’s such a loud mouth but you can’t help but feel like Caesar gives him a run for his money at some of the notes the Italian hits on the way down. That hold on your hand is notably tighter whenever a big twist or loop comes up. You’re just as loud, shouting and screaming as the wind whips up around the ride and your stomach feels like it’s dropping alongside every dip, leaning into Caesar’s side. He returns the gesture in kind, pressing up close against you till your shoulders are squished together and your hip’s digging into his in a way that can’t be comfortably but is easily forgotten in the rush.

♡ Caesar’s not immune to the dizziness of coming off of the ride, and while the hand he offers to help you out of your seat is a little shaky, the gesture is genuinely sweet nonetheless. His hair’s mussed and windswept from the ride, to be neatened up with run through fingers later in the absence of any kind of brush, and you’re sure that you’re just as unkempt when Caesar takes a moment to ease some of your hair back into place asking if you enjoyed yourself.

♡ Caesar's headband is lost at some point on the ride. Neither of you knows when, or where it’s gone, but safe to say it’s chalked up to a loss when a cursory look over the ride and the stand leaves you with no leads. You don’t leave the ride empty handed however, as unlike the others Caesar will gladly buy the coaster picks from the stand despite how funny he looks in the shot; a welcome memento for the beginning of your trip in the park (and the only pic of the coaster unless you can somehow convince him to get on again with you in the future.)

[strawbs-screaming]

☆ how the boxers sleep + what they wear ☆

i made this for ref to future references to any writing i might make + it was fun thinking about this, enjoy my less propaganda filled screaming

Glass Joe

- a sleepcap with the robe thingy

- seriously, look at him and tell me he wouldnt wear the honkmimimi fit

- doesnt snore thankfully, makes up for that by speaking in his sleep and spinning around the bed like hell

- he'll go to sleep on his back and end up waking up using the blanket as a pillow while on the edge of the bed, facedown

- if you're asleep next to him, expect suprisingly strong kicks that makes dragon chan jealous

Disco Kid

- random pajamas, if its comfy, he shall wear it

- still as a corpse in his sleep + facedown

- sometimes sings in his sleep and its both terrifying and hilarious

-imagine trying to sleep and you just hear the intro to bad romance

Von Kaiser

- white T-shirt + black shorts, bland ass fit

- snores but not THAT much

- has severe insomnia so if you see him asleep, dont wake him up because 90% of the time its because he passed out

- doesnt spin like Joe but doesnt stay still either, just some slight turning

Piston Hondo

- has a whole lot of pajamas, ends up with pajama pants + some bland shirt of any kind

- no snoring, silent

- sleeps facedown, still alive somehow

- so still you might think hes dead

- mumbles in his sleep because holy shit we cant have one normal person who sleeps normally

King Hippo

- shorts, thats it

- snores like a broken car engine

- also spins like hell

- random mumbling 90% of the time

- probably ends up crushing someone in his sleep

Great Tiger

- sleeping mask with any kinds of pants + shirts

-slight snoring, not a AGHHHHHGHHNNBGGG but not complete silence either

- sometimes clones himself in his sleep, especially when hes worried about something he forgot to do/needs to do, its his version of sleepwalking, makes said clones do work

- laying in bed but he forgot to turn off the kettle? No worries, he'll send a clone for that

- also spins like a rotisserie chicken in his sleep

- has weird ass dreams every night, he woke up in a cold sweat because he had a dream about his clones refusing to work for him & overthrowing him somehow

- pillow stealer, enjoy your neck pain, fucker

Don Flamenco

- fancy robe + sleep mask

- quiet sleeper

- can and will grab onto anything when hes asleep & hug it and hold on for dear life

- you sleep with your arms stretched? Enjoy having your arm used as a personal pillow

- carmen hates sleeping next to him for that (and totally nothing else)

Bear Hugger

- some t shirt from Facebook with those auto generated quotes like "NEVER MESS WITH A LUMBERJACK WHO LIKES SEA SHANTIES & RAW FISH AND WAS BORN IN NOVEMBER!!" plus some pants he doesnt use anymore, this includes jeans of any kind

- snores like hell also, so loud you might need earplugs

- speaks in his sleep,he sometimes sleepwalks with his eyes open and it terrifies everyone

- its really random stuff too, usually related to whatever weird dream hes having

- it feels like when youre in a sleep over and someone keeps whispering weird shit thats so funny for some reason

- the "i like raw fish" quote comes from his sleeptalking too

Aran Ryan

- weirdest pajamas ever, nothing is matching, nothing fits together, his pajamas takes years off your lifespan

- speaks in his sleep, its always terrifying

- some of his fabulous speak talking quotes includes "the fog is coming" and "war"

- he wake up in the weirdest positions ever, he'll go to sleep on his side and when he wakes up hes on the floor

- spins in his sleep, both the y axis and x axis this time

Bald Bull

- tank top + pajama pants, classic dad fit

- loudest snorer ever, sounds like a nuclear siren

- sleeps with all his limbs stretched out, looks oddly similiar to family guy death pose

- sometimes ends up slightly headbutting people in his sleep, especially when hes having a dream that personally pisses him off, Just a slight nudge thankfully unlike joes organ-breaker combo meal over here

- ends up hugging his pillow when hes asleep

Soda Popinski

- any random combo of everything mentioned above, can and will wear jeans in his sleep

- suprisingly still when hes asleep

- no snoring too somehow

- sleepwalks a LOT, causing him to wake up in odd places, either on the floor or in a bathtub

- needs someone to check up on him whenever hes sleepwalking

Super Macho Man

- his own merch, no contest

- snorts in his sleep instead of snoring somehow??

- also stretched out like a starfish

- laughs in his sleep and its TERRIFYING.

- Blanket hog

Mr Sandman

- bland ass fit, either a tank top & shorts or anything with pajama pants, no jeans because hes sane like that

-oddly quiet, cant even hear him breathing

-sleeps face down & still

- is he dead or just asleep? Find out in the morning!

- no extra movement, at all

- literal statue

[asurix]

'' Attention seeker ''

Genre: Fluff + angst

content warning: swearing,childish ranpo,childhood trauma ranpo,sad,fluff,angst with a happy ending,hugging,comfort, violence( a hard slap thats all!)

Synopisis: Ranpo was complaining about how you dont give him enough attention, and basically you got ticked off by that so you lashed on him and thats how he ended up crying and you had to comfort him! ^ ^

SO i wanted to make one where childish ranpo aka the one we saw with fukuzawa kinda ranpo where he was childish and cried when fukuzawa slapped him, (i almost cried :C ) BUT i really really wanted to make it since i really like adorable childish ranpo and didnt feel like making smut with him :D! (theres never a time i DONT want that man deep inside me ;D) ANYWHO i wanted to make this so sit back and start take some paper because for my sensetive people out there this will be sad (unless youre really really sensetive you'll actually tear its really not that deep unless you have a big heart lol...)

𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪RANPO

You and Ranpo were great partners! infact very close, but Ranpo could sometimes go a bit overboard when it comes to apprection, Ranpo is kind of a stubborn guy, and as much as you like Ranpo he can sometimes be really annoying, like once when you and Ranpo were going to the store, you had to buy everything, you had to write the list and you had to carry the stuff to the building, you had to take the stairs and you had to store them, but still Ranpo got all the apprection from fukuzawa and you got nothing, even tho you did all the dirty work, but that didnt stop you from liking Ranpo, it couldn't be his fault right?

-Time skip-

-4 PM AT THE ADA DEPARTMENT-

You and Ranpo were assigned to do a case, you weren't really happy to hear that because you knew what was going to happened while you both were solving the case, Ranpo didn't need you at the case you knew it and he knew it but he really wanted you to be with him while he was solving the case, you gave in and decided to just help him just a little.

You guys came back from the agency after solving the case, or rather that ranpo solved the case, you knew what was going to happened as usual, Ranpo got attention and you always left empty handed, you packed you're belongings like laptop, papper works and stationaries just as you were about to leave to go to you're apartment, Ranpo stopped you, ''hey were you going!'' Ranpo questioned with a lolipop in his mouth( as usual lol) ''i uh...im heading home, why?'' you said with a titled head, ''aren't you going to stay to listen to everybody praise me?'' he said jokingly, obviously you didn't think it was funny but just akwardly laughed, ''haha...yeah ill pass on that'' you gave him akward laughed and reached to the door knob to leave the department, but Ranpo stopped you, he stood infront of the door his arms spread out preventing you from leaving, ''Ranpo..? w-what are you doing?'' you said a little annoyed, ''dont leave! im not going to let you'' he yelled grabbing the others attention a bit, ''R-Ranpo i need to go home i have work to do!'' you raised y-youre voice a bit, ''well, im not going to let you, you can just wait a bit were having fun stop being such a bum Y/N!'' Ranpo whinged

''well everything isn't about you, stop craving my attention so much and leave me alone! '' you yelled pushing Ranpo to the floor, opened the door and slammed it behinde you, Ranpo came running right after you '' how is everything about me!'' Ranpo choked out, in the verge of crying, '' you're so naive Ranpo its seriously starting to piss me off'' you said walking away from him taking the stairs instead of the elevator, Ranpo following you down the stairs, you both stopped at the exit of the building, you were holding youreself from exploding, Ranpos complaining reaching you're limit, ''would you stop being like this! you're kind of being a baby!'' Ranpo vacillated, ''youre kind of getting a little we-'' got caught off by you're hand connecting to his cheek, a loud slap echoing the building, making Ranpo stumble a bit,he's glasses flunged to the floor cenimeters away from Ranpo

''theres no baby like you, you attention seeker'' you fumed, you're eyebrows furrying, you're eyes burning into Ranpo's eyes, you were so mad thats until you saw tears flowing down Ranpos cheek, he ran to you hugging you're lower body like a little kid

''im s-sorry im sorry! i-i im really s-sorry!'' ranpo cried out, emotions flowing thru you're head, from anger to guilt, ''R-Ranpo-'' you stuttered, not a single thing comming to you're mind than.

''im sorry...''

You stroked he's black spiky hair,''p-please dont cry...'' you hugged Ranpo back, finally accepting the fact that you deeply hurt the person you adored the most at the agency, ranpo being like a little brother to you ( IN THIS AU PLEASE OMG 😭) You both collapsed to the floor, you comforting Ranpo and Ranpo crying into you're chest like he just broke up with the person he loved. ''Ranpo i didn't mean to hurt you..'' you said you're voice breaking, ''i-im really sorry im sorry'' Ranpo kept apologizing, you both held eachother dearly not letting eachother go, because you both...

''loved eachother truly''

[lemontreefantasy]

Uhh, you said requests are open. Yay!

Can I please requests reader experiencing their 'first time' with San? I feel like he would make an amazing 'first ever' bf.

Thank you, can't wait to see what you write.

Bye xx

First Timer (c.s)

pairing: san x f!reader

genre: boyfriend san, smut, fluff if you squint

wc: 2.4k

warnings: explicit sexual content, oral, nicknames, minors DNI.

summary: one night, a cheeky surprise from your boyfriend leads to your first time with him while on a cabin trip with his other friends.

Winter was slowly approaching; the trees slowly lost their browning leaves and the grass became less green as the days went by. This was usually the time where hongjoong would invite everyone to his cabin in the woods to spend a few days away from reality, however this would be your first time going with your boyfriend, San.

Yeosang and Jongho hauled the suitcases out the minivan while hongjoong helped wooyoung prepare everyone's dinner. Meanwhile, mingi and yunho set up the fireplace and wooyoung showed you and san to your room. You couldn't lie, even though this was your first time in a wooden cabin, it was pretty huge. The varnished wooden floors, plush bedding and dimmed lights made the room feel quite cozy.

"Well, this is your room, try not to keep us up at night" and with a cheeky smile and a wink, wooyoung left the two of you alone.  That was until you could hear a faint noise coming from the corridor.

"Hey y/n did you pack your entire apartment in here? holy shit." There came jongho dragging your stuff into the room.

"Oh my god I'm so sorry," you whined "you should have let me take it out!"

"Too late" yunho smiled.

After settling in, everyone gathered to have dinner. You have to say, the boys did not cheap out. They grilled meat, made all kinds of stews, popped many bottles of soju and still had enough room for ramen. After which, it was wooyoung's great idea to watch horror movies.

"Please wooyoung, literally anything besides horror"

"Ah but why not? It'll be fun y/n! Alright, rock paper scissors. If i win, we watch horror movies but if I lose, you have to buy me meat when we go back home. Deal?"

"Ughh, okay fine, deal."

"Rock, paper, scissors!" the both of you chant.

"YESSSS!! Hahaaaa,"

What do you see? To your demise, you wince as you realise you've lost, with you choosing paper and wooyoung choosing scissors. You know you're in for a rough time as horror movies give you nightmares, especially the paranormal ones. However, being the good sport that you are, you decided to stay in the living room instead of hiding in your room, and luckily for you, you can hide in San's chest until its all over. Crawling over to him on the sofa, you grab a blanket and climb to his side. You hug him tightly and bury your face in his shoulder when he quietly whispers to you so no one else can hear,

"Don't worry princess, I'm right here. You don't have to watch if you don't want to," he wraps an arm around you pulling you close. He’s all too familiar with having to take your phonecalls at 3am just because you had a bad dream. He knew just how to take care of you, to soothe you, to comfort you. This is why you loved him so much.

The night passes by with you peeking out from the blanket ever so often. San can't help but chuckle when he notices. You feel a bit embarrassed as you jump for almost every jumpscare but he tries his best to comfort you by keeping his grip on your waist as tight as possible, just to make you feel safe. He’s never had you this close to him for such a long period of time. San tries his utmost best to keep his composure next to you but he couldn’t help but get turned on by how you clung to him when you were scared shitless. He felt an instant rush of blood when you unconsciously brought your knee between his legs and almost stiffened at the movement.

"It's okay don't worry" he smiles down at you.

But something's off.

You notice San's chest heaving a bit and his breathing is bit heavier. ‘Is he scared too? Is he stifled from you being all up on him all night?’ you think to yourself.

"Hey baby, are you okay?"

"Yeah, I am, why?

"No, I mean... I just... you seem a bit, uncomfortable?"

Under the blanket, he takes your hand from his chest and slowly drags it downwards, not to draw much attention to the both of you. That's when you feel something hard near his legs. Trying to keep your composure, you look him in his eyes,

"Does that answer your question?"

Your eyes widen but you dare not look him in the face. With the other boys now halfway into dreamland or even snoring at this point, san tilts his head towards you and places a sweet peck on your cheek.

“I’m sorry, I couldn’t help myself.”

You carefully lift yourself from the sofa, trying not to wake anyone else up and motioned to san to follow you to your room.

~

There was dead silence in the room. San knew that you were a virgin so he never made many advances towards you unless you did first. Out of respect, he told you that he would wait until you were ready, no matter how long it was. You told him how scared you were because you heard so many stories of other people having painful first-times and it honestly deterred you from having sex. But you loved san. You loved how he cared for you, how he respected you and how he was not afraid of expressing his emotions towards you… and most of all, how gentle he was with you, your emotions and your body.  Many of your past dates were too rough and extreme and often times you couldn’t handle it and felt like giving up dating for good. You were never the person to enjoy one-night stands or blind dates and nothing ever blossomed from such things. You knew san was a gem, your gem, and you wanted to give him everything tonight.

You walked over to a blue, velvet slipper chair to the corner of the room. With san’s wrist in your hand, you pulled him to sit and seated yourself in his lap and immediately felt his bulge rubbing against your heat through your shorts.

“Baby, you get me so worked up. You know that right?” he whispers to you, grasping your chin in his fingers.

You nod your head and exchanged a few wet, sloppy kisses before moving to his neck. San took this as his cue to break contact with you and pull hist shirt off. Continuing your ministrations down his chest, you lower yourself to the foot of the chair and grabbed his shorts, slowly pulling them off with a bit of help.

Even though you were a virgin, that didn’t stop you from sucking the sweet cum out of his cock every now and again.

As it sprung free from his briefs, it was almost as if you were now the huntress and he was your prey.

You took his length into your hands pumped it a few times, smiling at him before you gave him little kitten licks to his head. You feel his cock twitch and he leans against the back of the chair, eyes fluttering closed as he assumes his position. With legs spread and one arm in your hair, you lower your mouth on his cock, slowly taking him in your throat inch by inch.

“F- fuck baby, that feels so fucking good”

His moans were like music to your ears and only fueled you more. You bob your head up and down his shaft, occasionally twisting your head to the side and sometimes licking stripes from his balls up to the underside of his shaft. By now your lips were slick and messy with your spit. You loved being his little cock slut and him guiding your head to get him off only turned you on more. Pulling away from his member, strings of saliva still connected to it, San grips your chin and sticks his thumb in your mouth.

“Look at you, my princess getting all messy for just for me. Now it’s my turn to please you baby,” and with that he pulls you from the floor.

Soon enough you’re lying on the bed with a hungry, lustful san hovering above you. Although he couldn’t wait to touch you, he paced himself as he was in no rush. There was nobody to disturb the both of you so tonight was solely to take his time with you.

You both exchanged wet kisses, with san seemingly taking charge this time. Almost as if it was a reward for sucking him off. You felt his hand dive into your pajama shorts, rubbing slow circles over your clothed heat.

“I want it”

“Tell me what you want my love”

“I want you. I want everything.”

His expressions change and he asks you with all seriousness, “Are you sure you want to go all the way?”

“Yes, please I need you, san”

“Okay, but I need you to take this off for me first darling,” he grips your top, slowly pushing it over your head. Your shorts follow soon after and you’re left in a pink set of lacy underwear and bra.

“So pretty, I didn’t know you could look this cute princess”

He doesn’t bother to take your bra off, but pulls it down to reveal your chest. You shy away at first but san swoops in for another kiss while he moves your hands above your head. You breathe a sigh of pleasure as san latches onto your nipple, licking and sucking like your newborn child. He makes his way down and kisses between your legs and your heat before sliding off your panties. You were now completely bare in front of san. Diving into your core, he licked a slit up to your clit which made you cry out. He parted your legs further with either hand holding your knees open, spread like a buffet for one. You let out a moan as he sucked on your sweet bud, sending you into a daze. He made sure to lick, kiss and suck every inch of your folds before sneaking a finger into your core, and then another as you began opening up to him. Your patience wore thin and you needed to feel him deep inside you.

“Come on baby, I need you”

“If you want to stop, just let me know, okay? I don’t want to hurt you” he whispered before placing a kiss on your lips.

He lined himself up to your entrance and slowly pressed himself into you. With ease, you let him in and you both let out a groan.

“Fucking hell baby, you’re so tight around me”

It took you a few seconds well to process this new feeling inside of you, literally. As soon as you were comfortable, you shifted your hips for san to move. With a few slow thrusts, he found that golden angle that hit the right spot that almost made you wake up the entire household.

“Fuck yes baby, right there!” you cried softly “that’s it.”

You wrap your legs around san as he thrusted into you, pounding that sweet spot of yours. Your moans egged him on and he quickened his pace. You feel the knot in your stomach coming undone as your grab onto his shoulders for support

“I think I’m close”

“Wait for me”

But you couldn’t hold it any longer. Your walls clenched around his cock and it instantly sent him into oblivion. Stifled moans and cries filled the air as you both reach your high; toes curled and eyes shut tight, you were sure to leave a few scratches on san’s back. San leans back and shoots his sweet release at your entrance, rubbing himself against your clit. You couldn’t help but notice how hot he looked. His broad shoulders towered over you as his head tilted back while he continued to stroke himself slowly. Seeing him like this gave you a gratification that nothing else could bring. After coming down from his high, he pushed himself off the bed to get a towel to clean you up and some water to rehydrate.

“Are you okay? Was it too much?” he asks.

“It felt a bit different at first, but then it just kept getting better,” you give him a shy smile, almost embarrassed by your own comment.

“Okay okay, I was a bit worried but that’s good” he smiled and looked up at you.

Soon enough you both find yourselves in each other’s arms. Taking a sharp inhale, you playfully breathed in San’s scent as he gently swiped his hand back and forth over the curve of your hip. In that moment you felt yourself drifting off to dreamland.

“Sleepy?”

“Mhm” you nod into his shoulder as you feel your body coming down from the adrenaline high.

“Sleep baby” he whispers in your ear while caressing your hair.

~

The next morning you find yourself up before san. You walked down the hallway and met the rest of the guys downstairs at the breakfast table but for some reason, they all seemed to steal awkward glances at you ever so often. When it came to your realization, you decided to address the elephant in the room.

“What’s the matter?” you asked, glancing the other cabin-mates.

Shooting each other some quick glances, wooyoung stepped forward to speak,

“Ah well, you see y/n, we heard some pretty strange noises from your room last night” he explained with a cheeky smile, “hopefully the poltergeist didn’t get you last night, right?” he chuckled.

“Or did he?” mingi asked, cocking an eyebrow and flashing a grin.

"Fuck, was it that loud?”

“I don’t know, you tell me. I heard the bedpost banging against my bedhead while I took a nap” seonghwa chimed in.

You totally forgot that not only had seonghwa gone to sleep early but him and hongjoong’s room was right next to yours and san’s. Mentally cursing yourself, you humbly apologized to your house mates, although they didn’t seem to mind. Sometimes they wondered how the both of you even got together as you and san seemed so shy around each other at first, but last night that perspective completely changed for them.

Soon enough, san greets you the boys and gives you a good morning kiss. He quietly asks in your ear if you’re okay to which you nod and smile.

“So how did you sleep last night, mister?” wooyoung asks, almost as if he’s somewhat jealous.

“It was great actually, why? Did you want to come check on me?” san teases wooyoung.

“I- uh, no” he rolls his eyes, “why would I do that.”

“You seem a bit concerned” san smiles while pouring himself a glass of orange juice, “from the looks of it you all seem concerned,” he glanced around, gulped his drink to completion and addressed everyone.

“Yes, we fucked last night. Any problems? Questions? Feel free to ask them now or forever hold thy peace”

The room erupts in chaos as they all begin hurling questions and comments at each other, and you begin to wonder if you have eight boyfriends or one. The fact that they all knew didn't bother you much, but let's be honest, you would do it all over again if you could.

~

a/n: i'm so sorry i took so long with this, i had an original idea and scrapped it but i hope y'all like my first post! please let me know what you think <3

[plasmasimagination]

Hello, I'm here for the matchups!

The fandom I chose for is Danganronpa (V3), and I don't wish to be matched with Korekiyo and Tsumugi (sorry, personal vendettas)

Im 5"1 - 5"2, short black hair, brown eyes, and I'm basically fem representing (nonbinary). I have a little bit of chub but I hate it when people comment on it, since its something I have a sensitive spot on. Other than my appearance, I'm basically a victim of rbf (resting bitch face) syndrome and drive people away from it, alongside with looking scary appearance wise.

Despite this, I'm a kind person and very empathetic to those that I meet and am close to. I am loyal to my friends to a fault and if someone harms them, I end up standing by them in their stead to protect them. Although I have a bad temper and am extremely stubborn, which could lead to my misfortune at times when the situation calls for it.

I'm an Aries, and I enjoy a lot of hobbies— mostly writing, drawing, and even playing horror games! I have a knack with old horror RPG games because they are fun to solve with, even if I do get a little scared at times when it gets intense. I also enjoy VNs, my favorite being horror ones than romance (especially those with mysteries).

In my friend group, I'm the therapist friend and I accept that role wholeheartedly. I tend to be the one to give people advice, hear them out, and comfort them when needed be. Of course, it does lead to me burning out, but I shrug it off because it's something I can do on my own.

My favorites are definitely eating sweets, and being with my companions. I enjoy a good mystery as well, even if it wracks my brain. I don't enjoy riddles because I'm... Not too big brained for it (oops), and I don't enjoy blaming others for their mistakes.

I hope this is coherent orz, have a lovely day and keep up the good work!

— 🌸🍒

CUTIEEEPIEEE HAI HAI, this was easy to match hihi you didn't really mention if you want to get matched up with a guy or a gal for I'll just give you both ;D

Your match up is

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SHUICHI

Everyone needs a shuichi in their life, even you

I think shuichi would fit you very well, it's like that meme "he asked for no pickles" YKWIM?

It's like you're hot tempered type of person and he'll just follow you around standing behind you to support you no metter what ToT

And if you get in any trouble for it, don't worry shuichi is there to save you

As you said you tend to be the therapist friend I think that shuichi would actually enjoy having someone wise / someone that can get him on the right path from time to time

But ofcourse you won't have to be alone either, he's a great listener and will always try to offer help and comfort when you're feeling down or burnt out

Shuichi will also, after some time of being together, get into the type of games and stuff you like and find great interest in it, so for your next game session dont forget to invite him so you can solve those mysteries together >:)

KAEDE

Two cuties omg

It's honestly giving that dark goth girlfriend X pink aestethic girlfriend

I think of you guys as like kuromi and my melody (personality wise idk how you dress lmao 🥹)

While shuichi is the one who's there to need comfort sometimes from you, kaede will be the one comforting you🫵

Like she's gonna grab into your soul and take out all the problems you have and sort them one by one-

That sounds weird but I would say kaede wouldn't be exhausting to be around for y'all and that she would lift your spirit a bit

Also you don't like riddles? Don't worry take a kaede, kaede can help you solve it, or not ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

[hergan416]

Further feeling like my initial thoughts about fandom culture and especially the pro/anti debate were not unfounded.

Haven't even gotten to the uncensored manuscript and I'm already seeing parallels.

This is one of the critical responses quoted in the forward to the published version of the book:

Why go grabbing in muck-heaps? The world is fair, and the proportion of healthy-minded men and women to those that are foul, fallen, or unnatural is great. Mr. Oscar Wilde has again been writing stuff that were better unwritten; and while The Picture of Dorian Gray, which he contributes to Lippincott's, is ingenious, interesting, full of cleverness, plainly the work of a man of letters, it is false art--for its interest is medico-legal; it is false to human nature--for its hero is a devil; it is false to morality--for it is not made sufficiently clear that the writer does not prefer a course of unnatural iniquity to a life of cleanliness, health, and sanity. The story--which deals with matters only fitted for the Criminal Investigation Department or a hearing in camera [out of public scrutiny]--is discreditable alike to author and editor. Mr. Wilde has brains, and art, and style; but if he can write for none but outlawed noblemen and perverted telegraph boys, the sooner he takes to tailoring (or some other decent trade) the better for his own reputation and the public morals.

-Unsigned notice of The Picture of Dorian Gray, Scots Observer, July 5, 1890; rpt. in Oscar Wilde: The Critical Heritage, ed. Beckson, pp. 68-69.

Why do people, then and now, lack so much nuance?

Dorian Gray starts out relatable. But Wilde ensures that by the end he has done worse than what most readers would imagine themselves capable. Even if we were to live in a society in which it was ok to simply do whatever we wanted with no consequences, most of us would not want to kill, or to cheat, or to lie, or drive another to suicide with our words, or descend into the kind of self-destructive paranoia that consumes Dorian Gray.

Can we not read this book like a tragedy? Why must we assume the protagonist is a hero? Why is it we expect morality to be spoonfed to us in literature? Why must a book contain a moral lesson at all? Why can't a book exist for the artistry? The way it makes you think? The way it makes you reexamine yourself and your place in the world?

I'm sad we haven't changed in hundreds of years. But, I suppose, I'm not surprised.

[distort-opia]

Windows on higher floors letting in harsh, scorching, bright light, the kind where you see every single pore on someone's face, and its burning Bruce's face( his fear of being seen, being judged). And he actually runs from it to the darker parts. And then in the cave it is not only dark but freezing cold, and he needs to find something warm, anything warm in there to survive, and he grabs something that gives him comfort and warmth and holds it... but when the lights flicker on he gets horrified because the object he grabbed should have never given him such a warm, secure feeling. His parents stuff rotting away and him trying to save it in panic, but when it all finally turns to dust he feels a bit of a relief too, more room to breathe so to speak, and that short lived peace when all of it is gone is and he is surrounded with mountains of dust is what cuts him like a knife. There could be rooms as a personification of a specific person from his life( Alfred, Jason, Selina, Joker) on different levels of ( un)conscious, and all the desires and fears they entail for him. Vines of subconsciousness crawling up against the walls in hallways like synapses, and grabbing him. Bruce cutting them to free himself but then the emotions and thoughts they hold would start leaking and surrounding him. Him being outside and hearing screaming from insise the house and trying to get to the door but it keeps moving away from him. Seeing dark twisted fantasies in the warped reflections in the mirrors around the house but only from his periphery vision and never when directly looking at them. And I keep thinking about Giovanni Piranesi's illustrations for the foyer. Sorry I got carried away shsksj 😅 I hope some talented writer would do it one day.

Oh my God... Amazing imagery, anon, I love everything about this. (Follow-up to this post and this other ask, which are also great.)

I had to look up Giovanni Piranesi, but wow, really cool art. Imagining the Manor doing something like this is so cool; twisting itself and rearranging itself, spawning staircases that lead to nowhere and creating pillars that withstand nothing:

With the outside looking like the mansion from Crimson Peak (2015). I'm even loving the idea that the Manor would be bleeding while under this curse that links it to Bruce's heart and mind...

God someone should write this for Halloween!! It's the perfect season for it. And no apologizing, thank you for the great ask, you're clearly talented (if you write it yourself you are legally obliged to drop it in my inbox, just saying).

[aubzikins]

Attempting to write a fanfic so here goes nothing...

I have always wanted to write but usually end up getting frustrated and delete my stuff. This time, I'm following through. I apologize in advance if its not the best! This is also going to be a little bit of a slow burn... Please be patient <3

Also this work is COMPLETELY Fictional. It is completely made up. I am working on my writing skills lol

Chapter 1: The Beginning

I’ve always been a clumsy person. Its been a running joke for years with anyone who has ever met me. "Put her in bubble wrap!, The hospital must give you VIP Parking, Do you have a punch card at the ER? 5 visits and your 6th visit is free?" It was kind of funny at first, but then it gets frustrating to hear time and time again. I'll never let it show though. I laugh it off, add it a "yup" or "mmhmm" and then go about my day. I’ve always dealt with this and always thought it was just shitty luck. I must’ve done something terrible in a past life and now this is my penance. I never thought it would be the reason for one of the most amazing times of my life.

A random April Saturday...

I don’t know what made me think going exploring around the hot springs was such a great idea. I’ve never been an outdoorsy person because it came at a risk. There is no way I would come out of it unscathed. For some reason I decided to go on a whim.

Everything was fine until I was saying hello to a random stranger and tripped, falling into someone. I apologized profusely but when I looked up, I nearly died. In front of me was the LEGENDARY leader of Stray Kids. CHRISTOPHER BANG CHAN. I thought my heart was going to explode. "I'm so sorry sir! So sorry!" Chan looked at me and realized I recognized him. His hat had fallen into a puddle but he still had his mask on. I took off my hat and hurriedly put it on his head and whispered to him "Sorry about your hat, here take mine. You’re recognizable just by your eyes but with your hair showing, you’re way more recognizable..." I handed him his hat, apologized again and went to walk away... that’s when he grabbed my hand. "Hit and Run?" He asked with a smile showing in his eyes.

"Oh... um... I didn’t want to intrude anymore than I already have." I said avoiding eye contact.

"It’s okay really, things happen. Can you write down your number so I can get your hat back to you?"

"Um, no worries. You can keep it or toss it. I promise my hair is clean!"

He looked at me and started giggling a little, "I am sure it is, but I really would like to return it to its rightful owner."

I handed him my business card with my cell on the back. "It really is not a big deal, but if it will make you feel better, here..."

"I didn’t think id ever meet a stay so reluctant to have more contact with one of us." He was eyeing me amusingly.

"Shh!... Before you announce that you are… well you, and get bum rushed. You are on a different level that most people, so it's a bit of a shock to even be able to have a conversation with you. Also id prefer to talk to you like a normal person and not as a massive celebrity" I look up at him and smile slightly.

"It’s very much appreciated. Thank you for the hat to use, I will send you a text when I can get it back to you. I have to head out now, thanks again. Would you be okay with a hug?" He opened his arms slightly.

I stepped in and gave him a hug and smiled. "You really are a sweetheart. Happy to know that that is the same." I smiled, bowed a little and walked away before he could say anything else. When I got to my car, I sat there in disbelief. "Holy hell..." I started my car and headed home. That whole interaction was a LOT to process and of course, I didn’t have anyone else to talk to about it...

A couple hours later, my phone goes off;

Unknown: Hey thanks again for earlier. By the way I didn’t get your name... also I like this hat, it's comfy. Mind if I take you up on your offer to keep it?

Me: Oh! My name is Nia. Yes of course you can keep the hat. I know it's not a beanie like you normally wear but you still made it look good. *I figured it was Chan so I saved his number as Chris so it wouldn’t ever be easily figured out*

Chris: Nia, it was nice bumping into you... 🤣 I appreciate the hat, it did help with my escape out of there. Looks like you were the only one who recognized me. Thanks for not blowing my cover!

Me: No problem, you deserve a bit of peace.

Chris: I want to thank you properly, have you eaten yet?

Me: You don’t have to do that. I am happy you didn’t get recognized lol

Chris: I want to, do you want to come over to the BnB we are staying at? I’ll have a driver come get you.

Me: Are you sure? You don’t even know me…

Chris: We have security, so we are safe. You’ll have to get a pat down before you come in but yeah…

Me: I have a feeling that you aren’t gonna change your mind about this dinner are ya?

Chris: Nope! What’s your addy?

Me: *sends address*

Chris: Driver will be there in about 20 minutes. See you soon

The driver showed up exactly 20 minutes later, so I sent a text to Chan telling him I was on my way. 20 minutes later, we were pulling up to a beautiful Air BnB. The driver didn’t even give me a chance to open the door before he was there opening it. When I walked up to the door, I was greeted by Chan and security. He tried telling them he wasn’t concerned but I insisted on security doing the necessary checks.

Chan laughed a little, “I told the guys about you, and they would like to meet you as well.” I looked at Chan with a little bit of worry, “I am going to meet all of them? That’s a tad overwhelming.”

“They wont bite I promise and if you want to leave at any point, our driver will take you back immediately.” He said smiling.

“Okay, ill meet them. But it was just a hat ya know? Basic common courtesy.” Security finished patting me down and going through my purse. The one guard gestured that I was free to go and then looked at Chan “She has nothing dangerous sir, would you like us to hold on to her phone?” Chan shook his head no, “I don’t think that we need to do that. If she was the type to forego privacy, she would have exposed me earlier today. Nia, there are some slippers right there if you would like to switch to those.” I took off my shoes and put on the little slippers that were left out for me and then followed him into the living area.

Chan walked over to the stairs and yelled up “Guys, Nia is here. Please do not rush her!” Then chaos erupted. Felix peeked out from the kitchen “Channie, we are almost done making dinner, can you set the table??” Felix turns towards me and smiles, “Hello Nia, I’ll come properly introduce myself in a few moments. Lee Know as well.” “Hello Felix, hello Lee Know!” I waved a little to Felix.

Chan walked into the kitchen to get the plates and silverware to set the table. I stood there feeling a bit out of place when Hyunjin walked up to me and held out his hand. “Hello, I’m Hyunjin. Nice to meet you Nia. Thank you for keeping Channie safe earlier today!” I shook his hand and smiled, “Hello Hyunjin, nice to meet you as well. I honestly didn’t do anything but lend him my hat and basically run off from embarrassment.” Hyunjin giggled and gave me a huge smile.

Next came the younger two of the eight, IN and Seungmin. Both smiled, shook my hand and said hello. After shaking my hand, they went to sit down. Changbin and Han came down from upstairs and also shook hands with me and said hello. Han then pulled out a chair next to the head of the table and motioned for me to come sit down. Chan had just finished setting the table.

“Thank you Han.” I sat and looked around. Everyone was chatting and then Lee Know and Felix started bringing food out, Chicken and Seafood Alfredo. “I didn’t know if you ate seafood or not, so I made both. And if you are not good with dairy, Lee Know made Beef Bulgogi” Felix said as he put the serving bowls down. “I don’t eat seafood, so thank you. I appreciate it!”

Everyone sat down and Chan looks at me while everyone starts grabbing their servings of food. “What would you like? Lets get you some food before its all gone okay?”

“Id rather y’all get your fill and I’ll grab some then.” I replied.

Chan smirked “that’s not going to work for me.” He picked up my plate and put some chicken alfredo and some bulgogi on the plate. “Here ya go, you don’t have to eat it if you don’t like it, just wanted to make sure you were able to get some food.”

“Thank you.” I take a bite of the chicken and it’s delicious. I also try the Bulgogi and it’s so good. “Felix and Lee Know, these are both very delicious. Thank you so much.”

Lee know smiles and Felix starts doing a happy clap “Awesome, I was worried since Channie told me last minute that he invited you over. I’m glad you like them!”

“Sorry about that!” I look down.

“Hey now, no worries, nothing to be sorry about. He was just wanting to figure out a way to thank you. He kind of went out without security and if people would have recognized him, I’m sure it would have been chaos.” Felix looks disappointingly at Chan.

“To be fair, it was my fault to begin with, if I hadn’t tripped and knocked into him. His hat wouldn’t have gotten knocked off and he wouldn’t have been at risk of being recognized… which again I’m truly sorry. I’m a bit clumsy and should have been more careful” I looked down at the table.

“Nia its truly okay. Everything is all good.” Chan smiled at me. “Plus, I like your hat. Its my favorite color and the hoops and chains on it look amazing.”

I giggled, “Black is my favorite color as well and the best part about that hat, it was only 3 dollars online for it.”

Han looked shocked “Can you show me the website? I want to order one!” As he hands me his phone. I typed in the website and brought up the listing. When I gave it back to Han, he smiled and started typing. “I ordered one in every color!” The guys started laughing.

“So Nia, what do you do for work?” Seungmin asked.

“I am an accountant, so I work on financials for businesses across the United States, currently working remotely.” I say as all 8 men are watching me.

“Are you able to travel while working?” IN asked.

“As long as I have internet access or cell phone data, yes.”

“Noted.” IN said smiling

After everyone finished eating, I went to help take dishes to the kitchen and these men acted like I kicked Seungmin. Han grabbed the dishes so quickly that I stood there in a bit of shock. “You are a guest Nia, we can handle this.” Han stated when he saw my shocked face.

I watched the guys clean everything up and do the dishes. My offers to help were denied every time I offered. When everything was cleaned up, I had fully intended to ask if Chan could have the driver take me home, but before I could ask, Felix walked up to me with a plate of Brownies. “Brownies?” I nodded and grabbed a small brownie while telling him thank you.

“Now that dinner is over, would you want to stay and watch a movie with us?” Felix's eyes sparkled as he asked.

“Um… sure?” I said a bit hesitantly. “I don’t have any work tomorrow so I guess a movie wont hurt. Are y’all sure you want me to stick around?” Worried I may be a bit overstaying my welcome.

Lee Know walked up next to Felix, “If we didn’t want you to stick around, we would have already had the driver here to escort you home.”

“Do y’all normally invite people to dinner and a movie?” I was half joking and half serious. Hard to believe these 8 amazing men would impulsively invite some random person into their personal space.

Chan looked up at me from the couch, “Not normally, but you helped me without asking for anything in return. Also… I may have looked you up online since you gave me your business card. So, we had a general idea of who you are based off of your social media.”

“You really should lock your social media a bit more, just for safety reasons.” Changbin interjected. “We found out a LOT about you in a very short time.”

“Oh, well I normally don’t meet many people, and definitely don’t usually meet international celebrities.” I said with a laugh.

“Well can you do us a favor and make sure you protect yourself a bit more? Don’t want to have to worry about people stalking you or anything.” Changbin smiled. I pulled out my phone, then pulled up my Instagram and Twitter and started messing with the settings. “Now try to look at my stuff then Mr. Safety” I smirked. Changbin searched for my username, and everything came up private.

“Good Girl” he said while showing the rest of the guys. My face pinked a bit at the words ‘good girl’ and I tried to hide my face. Changbin saw though because when I looked at him, he had a smirk on his face and winked.

I sat down on the couch next to Chan while Han put a movie on, “Free Guy”. I knew they loved Ryan Reynolds so it wasn’t a shocking pick. It was lighthearted and fun. Once the movie was over, I asked Chan to call the driver.

“That was fun, thank you very much for dinner and the movie. It’s been awhile since I got to hang out and enjoy company.” I didn’t realize how much I was smiling. It had genuinely been a blessing to have spent some time out of my house and with other people.

“It was definitely fun, we should do it again sometime!” Felix said excitedly.

Each member gave me a hug and Chan walked me to the door. “We enjoyed having you over, and text me when you get back to your place so I know you got home safe”

“I will, y’all have a great visit and a smooth tour. Hopefully I’ll make it one of your concerts soon.” Chan closed the car door and the driver started to pull away. This was one of the best nights of my life and the start of something I could have never imagined…

[substituted-shinigami]

“Quick” Blog/Writing/Art Update: May/June 2023

Hello everyone! Thank you for your patience! Sorry, it’s been awhile, but I do hope to be back soon! I’ve had a good long rest from the stresses of social media (I wish I could also say life as well, but I’ve learned it does what it wants!), and I hope to be at least semi active again by the time Bleach is back in early July! Thanks again for your patience! 🥰

Now unfortunately when I say semi-active, I really do mean semi-active. I won’t go into detail about my real life stuff, but it causes me enough stress that I’ve realized I can’t deal with it and social media stress at the same time. So I probably won’t be on here as often, and will be posting even less, but I want you all to know that I still love all y’alls stuff and will look at it when I can! I took a peek just recently to try and get back into the groove (the app has really changed in the last few months, huh?) and saw you all were talking about Soul Society Trains awhile back, and I’m so sorry I missed it because OMIGOSH DO I WANT IT TO BE CANON! Like can you imagine if Squad 12 designed one?! It would be a horror show, with a bunch of little feet and eyes and horns and UGH! Or maybe, due to how Soul Society is layed out, it’s a subway instead! Maybe it's an immortal mole creature that travels underground on some well known migratory route, and if you’re knowledgeable and crazy enough, you can just grab its fur and hold on tight to get where you need to go faster! Where was I going with this? Oh, right! You all are great, and I hope to read more of your ideas, and headcanons, and other stuff whenever I’m able!

What else…oh yes, posting content. So you know how I was talking about social media stress? Yeah, posting causes a lot of that. Creating though, causes less of that though, sometimes even decreases it. Like I literally sleep better if I write fanfiction before bed (sad, I know, but hear me out). So what’s the solution? Well, I could just never post, but I like sharing with others too! So what I’ve decided to do instead is post in seasons kind of like a tv show! I’ll work on fanfiction/fanart throughout the year, and then once October hits, I’ll post whatever I finish on a sort of schedule, like every Saturday or something. That way, I won’t feel stressed to get something out every month and I can work on multiple stories at the same time (which is my preferred way to write)! That said, since I won’t be online as much, I may be pretty slow in answering messages/questions/comments/etc, so I want to apologize in advance. Know that I still love and appreciate all of you, and will get back when I can! 

Hmmm…Any last details? Oh yes, fanart and Bloodlines. I’m gonna be honest, y’all, fanart has been slow coming. I wanted to do more fan comics, but I haven’t had a lot of inspiration or motivation lately. I unfortunately might have to save that idea for next year, but if I do, I do have a back up plan that I think you all will like, so hopefully that works out. But for now, we’ll just have to wait and see!

Bloodlines…will be out…this year…or so help me, I’ll- *cough* Anyway, work on it has been going steadily, which should make me happy, but for some reason has got me extremely nervous. Like, is it going steadily because it’s close to finishing? Or is it going steadily because I missed a major flaw? Like will I be about to post it and realize I need to REWRITE THE ENTIRE THING! These thoughts plague me. Current improvements! I’ve learned what chapter hooks are and have implemented them to make the beginnings more interesting! Also, while I think Bloodlines is still a good “series” title, it is no longer a good title for the piece. The new working title is “Learning to Breathe”. I think that better encapsulates the story I’m trying to tell! Current worries! Is the climax “climaxy” enough? Does the build up pay off in the end? Do the dramatic moments make sense? DO I NEED TO REWRITE THE ENTIRE THING??? 

Anyway, I think that is finally, actually it! If you made it to the end, that’s pretty amazing of you! One day, I’ll learn to summarize my thoughts better, but today is not that day! See you all in July when Bleach comes back! I’m so hyped!

[mejomonster]

I decided I'd write bulletpoint summaries to figure out how to write the next few chapters. So like "x happens, you happens" etc.

But the thing is... when I do that, it helps me get ideas (yay) so then I flesh the bullet point out into 1-20 paragraphs but its STILL in note format so there's some actual lines that are DONE done (like dialogue and some particularly impactful moments of description).

then there's some in a format I HAVE to rewrite later (like "he absolutely loses his shit, tries to rip X limb from limb" I will have to reword ALL the stuff like this which is like 70% of the "fleshed out" summarized notes I write... and its always annoying because it's like... those parts are Basically done conceptually, they have all the details I Needed to include, it's just I worded them like notes and not in nice literary wording so they're NOT fucking usable yet).

And of course, there's the priginal summary bits where I'm just like "They flee the city, go to x. He says never talk to me again, he cant bear it, and goes off to the mountains." Which I'll have to fully flesh out of course. But at least it's all malleable stuff I can word however.

The 2nd kind of summary notes are my best/worst friend ToT on the one hand it's great, the whole scene is fleshed out! On the other hand it's awful cause I know Exactly Every detail I have to write but I have to translate it from "he fucking smashes his head in, seeing red" to like "he crushes his skull under his heel, watching the blood spread across the wooden floor. It's finally over." And like.... ;-; I have to do that shit with every single line, except the occasional blessing where I wrote Full Finished lines in between the 70% note-taking descriptions.

Like. Here's my summary notes I wrote for chapter 11 of what makes monsters stop devouring:

Scenes of Kunlun LEAVING the alliance, and Ye Zun so desperate to help his bro that he marches out there to go confront Kunlun and army ALONE, and ends up telling him off and telling him hes no hero compared to shen wei if he LEAVES, and then Kunlun grabs him and intimidates him just enough for Ye Zun to panicked grab back and absorb a little energy threateningly, then YZ stops cause he wants to make this negotiation work and appear acquiescing no matter how scared he was. Kunlun thinks that’s very brave of him, and proves he’s also very loyal to the thing he came here for and thinks that proves Ye Zun really believes his Black Cloak Envoy is noble and worth all this, and then lets him into his tent to discuss returning. Then the scene of them riding horses ahead back to alliance camp, shen wei immediately seeing them (with mask on) and coming to meet them, and Kunlun inexplicably apologizing for having left without discussing with the chiefs and hearing them out first, and promising he will hear them out if they allow him. Meanwhile SW is just BAFFLED his brother isn’t in danger and that Kunlun isn’t angry and SW is SO confused over what’s going on, but very floored, cause he admires and respects Kunlun at least rep/status wise so he doesn’t know how to handle someone ‘higher’ than him bowing to him and pleading forgiveness and acting submissive to him. What the FUCK did his brother go do???

And in a later arc I wrote a mess of dialogue notes:

At some point after, YZ confronts Kunlun over and over about WHY he got so mad when YZ was trying to help, and finally gets the answer ‘ i already told u i dont’ want you hurt, i don’t want you hurt because of me’ and YZ doesn’t get it, so Kunlun threatens to LEAVE. So YZ tries to get a brainwashed minion to read kunlun’s mind for the answer to avoid a problem for SW, and then Kunlun knocks out the guy before it can happen and goes and finds YZ to privately chat. YZ goes wild and desperate n tries to provoke KL into either telling the truth or injuring him so at least shen wei doesn’t feel like there was any choice BUT for KL to leave or die. Because despite yelling n threatening YZ, to keep YZ away and to keep him from touching his energy, KL still hasn’t actually hurt him. Again, KL says he doesn’t want YZ hurt he wants to keep him safe - and YZ has NO idea how leaving YZ helps

And its like wow I turned that into a 10k chapter but also ;-; is that some people's first drafts? Just the word jumble coming out of your brain trying to summarize? I assume not, I assume a first draft has to actually Be finished sentences lmao. But yeah I write this kind of stuff for long stories and they're a fucking mess because 1 yes I'm grateful cool I know what the plot outline is but 2 dear god its frustrating taking so many Half Written pieces of description and turning them into proper pretty 5 paragraph prose. Anyway yeah some behind the scenes on writing process! ToT

[awigglycultist]

Tcb htgcc miracle/finale kickstarter livestream notes!

Gabe brought on his dog

Brian's pet is the Yeasty Boys bagle he was eating

B: "people have different theories on ya know eating different uhm-" J: "what do you mean? What kind of theories??" B: "just about eating on livestreams. You know like some people are for it or against it" J: "what's a theory about it?" L: "I say go for it!!" J: "yeah!" B: "it's- okay, great"

Lauren brought on Diane and Ashley Skidmore's dog Pickles

B: "so, big news y'all, uhm, we started writing the show! We started writing this show!"

A: "am I in it?" L: "no" B: "you're in it and you're gonna be singing!" J: "we made some cuts. We made some big cuts"

L: "I will say one of the benefits, maybe the only benefit of live with Joey *laughs* just kidding" J:??? A: "you live with Joey?"

The entire bit where they talk about different auditions they've been through omg. Like Gabe being told for a FedEx ad to film grabbing a package and putting it in his car and driving and delivering it wtf

Joey will sometimes have Lauren get up on a stepping stool so she can see what's its like to be tall djdbdhd

Brian once paid to get a premium seat on a plane and when he got on they were like "actually no we need this" and stuck him in the back in a middle seat?? He got refunded but WHAT

B: "should we just 20 mins in say why we're here?"

G: "my [tiktok] algorithm is stunts, dogs, D&d stuff and everyone in the world being like 'I'm bisexual!'" A: "maybe your tiktok is trying to tell you something"

*Joey and Lauren do a gingerbread house competition every day* A: "Has Joey ever won the gingerbread competition?" J: "no" C: "that's okay, one day Joe"

A: "is Michigan spefically maize yellow?" C: "maize and blue" A: "not gold?" J: "maize like corn" A: "yeah no I understand what maize is. But I've never hear anyone describe-" J: "no like corn Ashely, like a corn maize" A: "oh like oh! Like a corn maize when they grow the corn tall and they cut a path through it!?"

Yale's colors are white and Yale blue.

TCB has several spefic colors: Billy Black which is not quite a pure black and is named after a cat that belonged to their neighbors at their old place. Railroad Gray. Liam White which is an off white. And the tin can yellow is Piss In A Can

They might do a real toy drive!

They think that the reason Kickstarter took so long getting htgcc is bc of the toy drive and charity being mentioned which are things your not supposed to do kickstarters for

Gabe's never done a cast recording before

A: "what if we hit and we have to suddenly come up with another stretch goal" B: "we already know what it is, Corey's gonna dye his hair galaxy" C: "I don't what your talking- sorry I can't- are you muted Brian? I can't hear you"

They mentioned it early but I forget to say it: they hit 35k and 40k! So that means we get it a cast recording and solve it squad back in biz goes on youtube!

*talking about sisbib* A: "and there are a few mistakes!" B: "no" C: "no" J: "none"

Meg Lloyd aka @thirdchildart did the animatic for the opening and Nick Gage did the theme song!

God its so good

Everyone's just talking about their favs bits of the song and the animatic, as they should its great

They have a little trailer for sisbib!!

B: "we look like maniacs"

Joey has a bad back

Ah yes that scene for solve it squad returns, the new york run spefically, where Joey is holding one person on each of his arms and then juggles them, I remember

*Brian explaining how their gonna do the backer shoutouts this time* "Uh remember when Corey was the uh Butcherous Baker in the case of the uh gilded lily, I don't fucking know" A: "wow okay, shout out to shipwrecked!" G: "shout put to shipwrecked!" B: "headless coming soon!"

They showed what all the pins look like and they're so cute

C: "you'll be able to figure that all out later so... Add now think later" A: "money now thoughts.. Another time"

Omfg them trying to get it so everyone knows the ppl who backed and the order to go is an absolute mess

A: "you'll of course remember Tanya the wayward werewolf from the case of the weird podcast"

The way Lauren starts so dramatic "AND WHO COULD FORGET" djdkdbdk

They hit 45k! Which means the squad is gonna do a commentary on a holiday movie!

B: ".... What do you guys wanna do for the next half hour?"

For Back In Biz they came up with the ideas together, wrote one script together and then each of them wrote the other three on their own and then they cam back together to streamline them and revise/edit it

They were talking about how fun it'll be to be live in front of an audience again and Brian asked Ashley when the last she was live on stage was and then some asked "Gabe, when was the last time you did anything?" sjdjdjdjdjjdjd

Gabe has no career

Gabe's dad (Jason Alexander if you didn't know) is totally the one that gave all the money to the campaign

*They were having Gabe, Ashley and Lauren talk about like other projects they're doing and such and they made each of their screens bigger when they were talking* L: "... Why?" G: "get big!" B: "get big Lauren, tell us about that wall!" G: "Lauren get big!"

If Lauren had to describe her patreon in one word it'd be "santatic"

Diane hates Gabe's dancing

Everyone counting out of sync bdjdhd

I'm so hyped to be able to see the squad again and that tcb gets be in person again!!! Can't wait for the holidays to come around

[gamerswift13]

Aria and Tabitha! (Also I went to a trans rights rally!)

Kia ora, friendos!

If you follow me on social media, you might have seen that I went to a trans rights rally this past weekend and it was so cool! It was the first thing of its kind that I had ever been to, and admittedly I was nervous about it because I knew ahead of time that there would be cops and other agitators there, but it turned out great in the end. I went with my friend from twitter, Kimberley, and a friend of hers who’s name I have forgotten (sorry Kimberley’s friend!) because I wanted to not be there on my own in case I didn’t see anyone I knew, and so that was really cool. We were there for about an hour or so and we saw so many great signs, and all kinds of different folks from all across the LGBTQIA+ spectrum. I came away from it all thinking I really should start trying to engage more with the local communities IRL because I think I would probably feel more at home than I had previously sort of expected.

With that stuff out of the way, I wanted to give you all a little peek at some more “Tabitha’s Story” stuff coming down the pipe! I haven’t been as active on my computer writing stuff as I want to be for, let’s just say a number of reasons, and I apologise for that but as a side-note, I will be beginning therapy this week! So hopefully some of my brain worms blocking me from working will loosen their grip soon. But in the mean time, I wanted to share this rough draft of a really important early moment in this story - Aria coming out to Tabitha. This is a thing that I really want to get right, so it will probably go through a few iterations before it goes into the final thing, but I’m really happy with what I have so far and I think this scene, or set of scenes, is super cute. I would love to see more representation like this in media, particularly on the big and small screens. So without further ado, here you go: Aria comes out to Tabitha as trans.

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Music thumping in her headphones, Aria stared blankly at her phone home screen. Her eyes traced the edges of the icons, the xbox app, the weather widget, but not really taking any of it in. She had a crush and she was doing her best not to think about it. “God!” she suddenly sputtered, throwing her phone down on the bed. She stood up and began pacing back and forward in her bedroom, trying desperately to grab a thread of some other train of thought so she could stop thinking about… her. “Fuuuuck!” Two days earlier, Aria hadn’t even heard of anyone named Tabitha before, and now, suddenly, it was the only name that her mind could conjure. The only name she wanted to speak out loud. The only name she ever wanted to hear again. And it was torture. Aria had fallen for girls before, but never this hard, and never this fast. And she was terrified of the idea that Tabitha didn’t even remotely feel the same way. A million questions and disaster scenarios spiralled around in her brain. Tabitha would be here soon, and Aria had for some reason told her she ‘needed to talk’, and she knew Tabitha would never let it go now. ‘Maybe I can think of something else to talk about?’ she had wondered, but couldn’t come up with anything that she was sure Tabitha wouldn’t immediately see through. Aria looked at the clock on her phone, it said ten-minutes-to-one, almost time to go meet Tabitha. ‘Maybe if I don’t bring it up, she won’t bring it up.”

Upon arriving at the park where the girls had agreed to meet, Aria immediately brought it up. “Tabitha, I have to tell you something,” Aria face-palmed. “What’s up? Jeeze, you look like you’re about to tell me my cat died.” Tabitha joked. “Wait, my cat didn’t die, right?” “N-no-” Aria stuttered. “Okay cool, so what is it? Spit it out, woman!” Tabitha poked Aria in the ribs, playfully. “I’m trans!” Aria shouted a little more loudly than she had intended. Tabitha looked at her wide-eyed for a second, startled by the outburst. “I’m trans…” Aria repeated, quieter and calmly, looking at her feet rather than meeting Tabitha’s gaze. Tabitha’s expression returned to normal, and with a small smirk on her face she reached out to Aria and gently touched her chin, gesturing for her to look up. Aria’s gaze met Tabitha’s, and with that tiny little smirk still on her face she replied, “I know. And I think that’s very, very cool.” Aria appeared to deflate like an air mattress freshly punctured, slumping to her knees on the ground. “Whoa, you okay??” Tabitha was again startled. Aria began to cry softly, and Tabitha was quick to join her on the grass to comfort her.

“Hey, you don’t need to cry, okay? I’m here.” “I’m crying because you’re here.” “What do you mean?” “I mean… you’re so cool, but I was so worried you wouldn’t like me anymore…” “Because you’re trans?” “Yeah…” “That is bonkers, my dude.” “Why is that… bonkers?” Aria let out a small giggle from behind her tears. “I am possibly the gayest little bitch in the universe, that’s why. And honestly, I’m a little offended…” “Oh, I’m sorry…” Aria cut her off. “Shut uppp. I’m a little offended that you wouldn’t think that I’d be gay for you no matter what.” “Gay… for me?” “What… did I just say that?” “You definitely said the words ‘gay for you’.” Aria perked up a little. “Uhh, hm, uhm…” Tabitha stuttered and stumbled over her words just long enough for Aria to make a decision. She wasn’t sure how the decision would play out, but she didn’t think about it long enough to play out any negative scenarios, just one big positive one. While Tabitha was still attempting to formulate her next words, Aria reached out to take Tabitha’s face in her hands and she kissed her. For about a third of a second, Tabitha wasn’t sure what had just happened. One moment she was fumbling for a correction, and in the next moment the girl she had had a deep, intense crush on for the last two days was kissing her – so she kissed back. To both girls, it felt both as though the kiss lasted for 1000 years and still somehow over in a second. As the kiss came to its natural conclusion and they separated slightly, looking into each other’s eyes, Tabitha was still searching for words and finally settled on two. “Holy fuck,” she whispered. Aria just smiled and averted her eyes for half a second before looking back with a small giggle. Tabitha’s eyes searched Aria’s face for a clue about what she should say next, but the longer she continued to search, the more she found herself lingering specifically on Aria’s eyes. More words came to Tabitha. “We should… do that again.” Aria smiled and said nothing but a simple “Yes, definitely.”

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I hope you liked this little insight to this story, and of course as always I welcome any thoughts, comments, or questions! You can hit me up at the social links or email address at the bottom of the page.

For now, I’m going to head back into the Microsoft Word mines while I feel like I still have some writing to get down on… paper? Analogies! Thanks for taking the time to read, and if you liked this, please consider sharing it or telling a friend? You can also subscribe over on Substack to get these posts in your inbox every Monday at 8am NZST.

Thanks so much for hanging out and enabling this little project of mine! I’ll talk to y’all again really soon. Ka kite anō au i a koe. 💚

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