#ive already tricked one person so far

[twilleansparks]

Hey! You!

Are you, perhaps, a huntceda shipper, tired of all the sibling bs that gets thrown in your face?

Annoyed with the toxic lum1ty and huntl0w stans with their thinly veiled biphobic takes?

Done with TOH's braindead fandom in general?

Then come follow my sideblog, @hexsquad-siblings!

It's a blog to mock anti-lunter arguements, and reuse them to claim that their canon counterparts are "problematic" and "sibling coded".

It's an all in good faith, satirical blog that shouldn't be taken too seriously. I of course don't think that any of the hexsquad members are canonically siblings, or problematic ships in general.

Happy shipping!

[yuan4i]

10. practice

“lynette!!” you shouted, waving to her in the distance. you run up to her, noticing her brother; lyney, standing next to her. “yn! hi-” “hello, yn. how was your morning?” lynette asked, standing in between you and lyney. “i woke up before lumine did!” you said, grinning. 

the three of you guys chatted about the upcoming festival while walking to your school’s building. “oh! yn, you should totally visit lynette and i if you get the chance today!” lyney brought up, arriving at your destinations. “mhm. we’ll maybe even do a magic trick for you.” “oh yeah! i’ll definitely try to visit you guys. i’m gonna go to the music room now, okay? see you guys later!” you smiled, waving goodbye to your two friends. you made your way to the music room, hearing instruments play before opening the door.  

“scara?” 

“oh kuni, they’re here!” a boy with white hair and a red streak called for your boyfriend. kazuha. you knew him, but not to a personal extent. scaramouche would usually talk about him, and you’ve seen kazuha with him from time to time. 

“you must be yn! scara told us about you so much about you!” a short green-haired braided boy came up to you. “i’m venti! and this is kazuha! that’s xiao, that one’s heizou and i’m sure you already know aether! scaramouche is in the back storage room trying to tune the guitar you’ll be using!��� 

“oh yn! you’re here. come, sit down with me. i’ll teach you how to use the amplifier.” your boyfriend walks towards you, holding an electric guitar. “there’s not much of a big difference between the acoustic and electric guitar, but the stringers are definitely heavier. try not to press too hard when you slide.” 

you ended up spending around an hour or two practicing songs navia wrote for her new album until aether came up to you. “hey yn! how’s the electric guitar so far? having any problems with it?” 

“aether! hi! it’s fun but my fingers are getting sore haha… it’s really tiring.” you nervously chuckled, looking over to your boyfriend. he was with kazuha. “i totally understand! you’ve been playing for quite some time, feel free to take a break whenever you feel like it!” aether said, handing you a bottle of water. “thank you! um, do you mind if i take a break right now? i think i’m gonna go visit my friend in the auditorium if that’s okay?” you asked the blonde, then you look over to the other side of the room, seeing xiao with venti and heizou. “yes yes! of course, but before you go i think you should tell scara.” “yeah.” 

you walk over to him, telling him that you’re going to go visit your friends. “yeah sure. i’m going back home in after this song, so i may not be able to drive you home. is that good with you?” “mhm! i think i’ll walk home with lynette.” 

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lyney x reader SYNOPSIS you’re at a bar, drinking your heart out after another having a feud with your boyfriend of 2 years. you later stop at your friend’s house to stay the night but… the one who opens the door isn’t her but instead, her brother…?

notes : hii! i haevn't updaed in such a long time omg :( MB GUYS IVE BEEN REALLY BUSY WITH SCHOOL LMFAO i used play with electric guitar (i also used to play acoustic) but then i ended up stopping because my fingers were being cut really badly LOL this and the next chapter will be partially written shshsh happy reading <;3

[icypopz]

with a physically flexible s/o ♡

↬ from anon ; 👋 hello. i saw that you write for blue lock (thank u) and i was wondering if i could please request headcanons of meguru, hyoma and rin with a s/o who's physically flexible. it's ok if you don't write this, i hope you have a great day.

↬ notes ; bachira meguru, chigiri hyoma & itoshi rin x gn!reader

↬from ice ; had fun writing this bc ive always wanted to be flexible LOL living out my dreams in fiction

↬ warning(s) ; joking threats, spoilers for chigiri's backstory

please reblog ! it helps a lot :)

[ bachira meguru ! ]

bachira would be very impressed the first time he sees you showcase your flexibility. actually, scratch that. bachira is impressed every single time you do even the simplest tricks because he can't seem to wrap his head around how a human can be so... stretchy?

he's your #1 fan! every time you're stretching even before you start contorting, bachira will be cheering for you like "go y/n! yeahhhh! you're awesome!" he lowkey likes seeing how you get embarrassed because of his enthusiasm. (he thinks it's adorable.)

definitely wants you to teach him how to do the most extreme stunt ever, but you convince him to start off with something more beginner-friendly like splits. bachira is super focused while you're teaching him, and after a few days of stretching, he finally gets it! he's so proud of himself and he just does it All The Time for no reason until raichi threatens to break his legs.

he also may or may not make some jokes about you putting your flexibility to good use with him but will never go too far. he just likes teasing you and seeing your reaction. tells everyone else in blue lock that his s/o is the most flexible and coolest person on the planet, they've all heard so much about you by now that they swear they already know you.

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[ chigiri hyoma ! ]

chigiri, as we all know, is a prince who always manages to keep his cool. so even if you suddenly start performing crazy feats the most this man will react is probably just his eyes widening. don't worry, he's really impressed, he just doesn't show it on his features.

however, he makes up for it by asking you a million questions about your flexibility! nothing invasive, of course, just queries like "when did you start attempting stunts?" "why do you like it?" "how do you even do that?" it shows how invested and interested he is in your flexibility because it's something that makes you happy.

chigiri is also quite concerned about you though. he knows that contorting yourself into all these positions isn't going to be easy on your muscles and tendons, so he reminds you to warm up and cool down every time you start stunting. he just doesn't want you to experience the same pain he did of having his dream almost ripped from him when he tore his ACL. so he might come off as slightly overprotective, but he has good intentions at heart!

he likes stretching with you for sure. it's just a cute way for the two of you to spend more time together before he's rushing to football practice and you're heading to practice your stunts. you'll both look out for each other and wish each other luck during these little sessions, and it always has to end with you planting a soft kiss onto chigiri's cheek for luck. (he says it's for luck, but actually he just likes you kissing him.)

[ itoshi rin ! ]

rin acts like he couldn't care less about everyone else but you're the exception: you're his entire world and one of the few times itoshi rin has been stunned was when you showed him how flexible you were for the first time. no joke his jaw was on the floor.

he thinks it's an awesome skill, and will kinda gush about it to you at first. he gets shy if you tease him about how many compliments he's showering you with and then gets grumpy. the conversation after that is something along the lines of: "aww, rin, you're so cute!" "no. shut up. i'm never being nice again." "nooo, i was just messing with you!" "too much praise will inflate your ego." "aren't you the biggest egoist here?! hypocrite!!!"

to be honest, he's more impressed by the amount of work you've put in to become this limber. he knows how hard it can be to maintain a specific physique in terms of muscle and flexibility, so he genuinely admires your hard work and effort. rin also likes inviting you to the gym so he can work out/train while you stretch and do your own thing.

rin actually doesn't think about the fact that you're flexible that much. he just thinks it's an added bonus to how amazing you are as a whole already, though he'd never admit that to you for the life of him. (he loves you but he Cannot handle your playfulness.)

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[narwhalandchill]

a bit more serious/negative note on childes characterization and fandom perception, saw a post where the tone upset me quite a bit

i did do a whole vent/rant/cathartic 2.4k words of writeup on this yesterday which like did help clear my thoughts a lot but in hindsight is way too long to just release by itself so i suppose ill just summarize my thinking now

so i would really appreciate it if a certain subset of childe fans reading his character a specific way (the trauma, identity crisis, dark abyss experiences, etc. - you know the one) could stop acting as if its this like. superior canon proven hoyo intended most real and intellectual way to look at his character and interpret his narrative. as opposed to just one reading of the canon material among others. and im sure most people are civil but ive seen this tone enough to just need to get this off my chest rn.

like im not "missing" something or being "tricked" (what?) by childe or the narrative. its not some naive ignorance about this reading being a thing and the ways people argue for it. ive read his lore. p much memorized it rly. and i simply did not find the arguments that compelling or feel that inserting this additional layer of subjective interpretation atop my understanding of the canon text did much to enhance childes narrative potential or characterization for me.

simply put. applying this super strict irl psychology logic (bc yes a real 14 yo going thru some irl version of ajax' backstory would get severe psychological disturbances as p much given. i know what the DSM-V is) to fantasy game characters isnt how i enjoy engaging with childe or any character really.

genshin is a fantasy game and fantasy as a genre has always readily sidestepped things like realistic psychological consequences of various heavy experiences in favor of building a compelling narrative whenever necessary. i dont find arguments relating to irl psychology particularly relevant at all on the subject really. if you enjoy this approach, go on, have fun! but please understand that its an interpretation that people can disagree without being "wrong" or failing some arbitrary reading comprehension test.

like the dismissive tone i see from people who simply cannot comprehend that like no, this take isnt some universal truth of hoyos that every person will glean from reading up on childes lore and appearances if theyre big brain and intellectual enough is just... really fucking rude? and alienating.

im not going to go on a like whole ramble on all the things that i personally see very much as hinting towards childes characterization going quite a different direction than this popular heavy self-doubt, psychological angle would suggest. its my interpretation after all, and could be proven wrong the way any interpretation can. but for now ive read his lore for years and looked into every single tidbit that involves him and so far hoyos writing of him hasnt given me any convinving case for changing my view drastically anytime soon. and id just like to be allowed to exist in this fandom space without being randomly jumpscared by posts alleging im reducing his character to this or that just bc i see his greatest narrative potential elsewhere.

theres enough insane shit and incredibly interesting lore relating to his overall role in the story and the cosmic scale of teyvat as a whole to be invested in already. like taking childes character as depicted to us and how in-game content characterizes him at a relative face value as opposed to seeking an implied internal struggle of sth hidden and repressed is me simply finding that take the most unique, fascinating, horrifying, compelling and exciting way to see him instead. thats what i love about him and his character. like im sorry, in my eyes the dark past corrupting innocence and trauma angle has just been done to death already in media. childe can have something actually different and breaking those tropes is what makes him stand out for me!

anyway. this whole situation is not sth i wanna start flaming ppl for or make into some drama, i try my best to stay on my lane and let ppl live even if i disagree w these sorta takes on childe. and i just wish for that grace to be extended towards myself too.

[starythewriter]

KINKMAS 15 thor x you thor falls for a goddess.

TW:MINORS DNI

A/N: YALL BEFORE YOU READ, I AM HOLDING A VOTE ON 6 NEW CHARACTERS THAT I SHOULD WRITE FOR IF YOU WANNA VOTE, INBOX ME WITH THE CHARACTER OR PERSON YOU WANT ME TO WRITE FOR, IT CAN BE ANYONE, BRYCE PARKER, JACOB DAY, OR ROMAN REIGNS. ANYBODY!

you got up, feeling amazing, but somewhat nervous as you had a date with the god of thunder and storms. you had some nice pink classy heels. preparing for this date was nerve wrecking usually you didn't care or give much importance however, this was the god of thunder, he was handsome and so hot.

THOR's pov: I got ready to see the beautiful Y/N, I was excited but a little nervous the goddess was hot and known for seduction, tricks and leaving men in love with her for years.

your POV: you were anxious "I need to make a good impression" your friend alex came bursting in. "I already know how you are. everything will be ok…" you gave a nervous chuckle "how do you know?" "because, you've literally done this hundreds of times you do not need to worry what's so special about him anyways?"

"because alex… hes the god of thunder, and war. he's mighty hes not just a normal everyday person" you said as you put on some eyelinear. you stared at alex through the mirror. she smiled "really? you will be fine." if anything goes wrong I will be there" you were ready, you went to asgard, seeing thor.

"hey Y/N. how are you?" "im good how are you?" "im great here lets order some drinks" alex stayed back watching, she saw an amazing garden and went to check it out. you saw as thor snapped his fingers ordering a sex on the beach his buttoned up shirt tighted around his large biceps and his veiny wrists. you smiled ordering a martini. "you rule all of asgard?" "yes of course darling…" he gave you a bright smile that made your heart light up. he set his drink down explaining how much he loved his place. as he set his drink down you noticed his biceps, your eyes fluttered as he stared into your soul.

"I know you are well versed in glamour and seduction…" he said with curiosity. his eyes were searching deeply for a response. "yes I am, I dont rule much but Ive been known to seduce any man ive come into contact with. sometimes it depends, some men easily get sucked in, but some need some risk, like showing off my potions of posion."

"I see… I can see the intrigue… I wouldnt say thats totally fair tho as you are a ruler of all men in a way." he said finishing up his drink, giving you a glint within his eyes, you finished up your drink.

you both ordered a 2nd round. you were beyond attracted to thor… his blond hair, his perfect biceps the way that he dressed all of it. "tell me how has the progress with asgard been ever since its destruction" you saw a lump build in his throat. "pretty good…" he said stumbling on his words. "its been rough with architecture but the progress has been fast" he said a little shocked at the question. you saw alex, she had found some pumpkins and she kept looking at how beautiful things were. but they were also far apart, this place was far beyond what you imagined.

alex walked in, you didnt notice "hey, hey thor I am alex nice to meet you" alex said having a smile on her face being as welcoming as possible. "nice to meet you alex tell me a bit about yourself" "I am a archer, best one of my town along with a spice of witchyness."

"ha nice, heres a ticket to an archer event being hosted in asgard the both of you are invited" "oh thank you thor." "Y/N ill be over here with an old friend wave if you need me" "alright love ya" "love ya Y/N" thor asked "so.. are you gonna take me up on that offer" he said with a stern smirk, you noticed his jaw, it was perfect and beyond smooth" you licked your tongue thinking about how handsome he was. "I dont think so I would love to get a tour of your place."

"someones egar to see my palace huh?" he said with a grin "lets go" you said slapping his bicep, you got an eletric touch from skin to skin contact is felt amazing. you also noticied him shiver. you arrived to the palace it was big, just like him… you got your mind out of the gutter as he showed you all of the rooms. bathrooms everything was carefully placed.'their was no speck of dust. everything was protected, you noticed a large bubble around the palace. protecting it from any danger. to be fair this was your first date in awhile, not your first date ever but, the first one in a long time.

"wow this place is pretty thor.." "just like you my darling" he said with a grin. fuck you said to yourself you he was so hot, you noticed the way he was standing and how he would stare at you. he scratched his back nervously. he showed you his room, you found a gold necklace "whos is this?" "its a magic necklace… used for the seductress I have others one for poseidon, one for eros." "wow its so pretty" he got face to face. you saw his hot nose, his soft and sharp jawline, you squirmed, feeling a shock of bliss. you gave him a kiss. the first one in months. he shivered it was almost as the both of you had a shockwave of bliss sent through one anothers bodies.

"you are beyond beautiful." said thor. your stomach has butterflies as he kissed your stomach, you took his shirt off and then his pants "careful darling" "love you in the color blue looking so sexy…"

"you know your biceps are amazing" you both had smirks but you were flushed beyond your comprehension. you were entranced by him. but thor was so handsome. you rubbed your hand across his biceps, he groaned as almost if he had gotten a massage. "what about you… I wanna see that beauty underneath the blue" your cheeks flushed.

"just relax handsome" he had a strong gaze you kissed his abs. slowly taking off your dress. you took off his boxers. you kissed him "are you comfortable darling" "yes thor, I just need you to fuck me up" you wished you didnt say that but your doubt quickly went away and you gripped onto his arms, you switched your position you were no longer ontop of him you were now laying on the bed. he kissed you as he slowly entered.

the feeling was crazy like never before, somehow you knew you were at the right place and at the right time you had never felt this. tingling sensation in your cunt but also all over his body. he let out moans groans "fuck darling… you… send… tingling through my entire body." his words flew out with a arrow of bliss you hand was gonna slip off the bed but thor didn't let that happening keeping you in a comfy position.

"fuck" you moaned, "someone's needy" you moaned as he went faster. "dont hold back thor" he went faster. now your legs were a puddle of wetness while thor was turning into a fireball.

"I guess a god like you has good taste" "of course I do especially with a respectful person like you Y/N" as he said that he kissed your cunt slowly licking it as if you were ice cream. you moaned titling your head back. almost as if his tongue gave you an orgasm. he went back to fucking you deeply. you both did not stop moaning as every movement was like an orgasm.

"fuck darling… I see why your the rightful ruler of men" that alone sent you off you both moaned loudly as you reached your peak. a burst of energy was sent out not only from you but from him as a storm and rain set in stronger then any other you've seen.

"I love you" you both hugged eachother tightly. planning to set off together into asgard as it rained. still feeling a tingling senstation of bliss.

THE END!

[goqmir]

i kind of like maybe just a little adore the new clue set cards like. the clue set itself is a weird and overpriced product and the physical cards themselves are definitely gonna be stupid overpriced because nobody wants to buy a board game to crack packs but like. the cards themselves? kind of fire?

i kind of adore that theyre not just all rares and we are getting clue set commons and stuff :3 its cute! and we're getting a new lonis too-- its not a super interesting card but i adore lonis and im very excited to play with more of her. and we get an interesting new land cycle in the cluelands too! the art for them kinda blows at the moment but at some point in the future i assume they'll be reprinted in a set that gives them fun and interesting art? maybe? please? im not exactly itching to play them but ill never turn down another cycle of duals teehee

id love to talk about some individual cards from the lineup so far that i adore! these are just my top picks but id recommend going and looking at the full list spoiled so far on scryfall :3

for starters, my favorite card from the whole spoiler season right now i think has to be scuttling sentinel. i dont think i want to play her in any commander deck, but in my opinion this is like one of the top cards for cubes in 2024 period-- like cankerbloom tier of cube card. she's awesome! a crab elf which is such an awesome creature type, playable with green or blue, puts 1/1 counters on things and its main draw is just being a decent body that offers protection :) she's great!!!! ive already slotted her into the cube ive been piecing together recently. i like her a lot.

resonance technician is such a cool spell copier <3 every part of it is kind of expensive so im not really sure where youd play it but it does a lot of cool things all at once on a single card which is fun! the flavor is cool-- we all love weirds here-- and the functionality is useful and cute. cool card. big fan

we also have portal manipulator who is like one of the weirdest and strongest combat tricks ive ever seen? this is like if aetherize also fucked your shit in. so i can absolutely see this seeing a lot of play honestly. but lets be real here this card just has amazing art. thheres portals around her skull !!! god shes so cool.

corporeal projection gets a shoutout because what a fun effect <3 it being izzet is awesome and on-flavor and the card itself is both an interesting choice to give your creature myriad for extra damage and a fun wincon :) im glad theres a simple and convenient way to give one creature myriad now that isn't a brick to run in my commander decks because it has a high-cost endgame mode. yay!

finally it wouldnt be a goqmir set review if i didnt shout out the new cards that work well in Naya Cast From Exile :3 Boros Strike-Captain seems kind of mid but it's important to remember that the card never goes away, and you can cast it any time after when you attack with at least 3 creatures even if BSC is off the battlefield. big fan of this one! im not sure if i can find the space to jam him in my Rocco Street Chef decklist but he's a very playable option.

Personally, i think Headliner Scarlett is the winner this set. She's a very good hit pretty much any time-- you're always gonna get a minimum of 4 free damage when she sticks, and if you play her early you get some pretty strong card advantage, which turns into very very strong card advantage in both Rocco and Prosper. if you pull her late, she can win you the game straight up by allowing you to swing out uninhibited-- though i can't speak for Prosper players, this will pretty much always be at minimum a knock out if you pull it lategame in Rocco. definitely making room for her in my decklist.

anyway thats just some cards i liked from the weird product thats coming out :3 i was and still am iffy on purchasing the product and expect the cards to be a little too expensive but as far as designs go they're pretty cool and im very happy that they exist! um sqrrk <3

[sapphicsaus]

regal ties (pt. 3) - wanda maximoff

a/n: this is my birthday post! hope you all enjoy!

i ii iii iv v vi

Wanda refused to admit she already missed your company.

Pietro wasn’t boring, and of course she missed him, but he knew her. He knew how desperately she wishes to push his buttons, but he wouldn’t allow it.

That’s why she enjoyed you. You seemed to do her bidding, a loyal soldier. She could do whatever she liked to you, and you’d just have to take it.

“I don’t trust her, brother.” Pietro sighs, holding the hilt of his sword as they walk along. “She is better than you assume. She is a fine soldier, a warrior. I trust her with my life.”

“That is phenomenal, really…but…if she cannot save me from drowning-“

“That was a stunt you pulled, Wanda. You tricked her.”

“Ah! Never mind that!” He shakes his in disappointment, chuckling as they continue to walk on the bridge. Her eyes drifted down, not far from the bridge. She saw the path to the dock, and noticed something.

Stopping as Pietro began to speak again, she saw you. Leaving that girl’s house. The one she saw you wave at before. You were both laughing as she pushed you out of her cottage, she shoved your jacket in your hands, before pulling you in for a passionate kiss.

Wanda almost gasped, but she held to herself. She watched as you separated, a goofy smile on your face she couldn’t quite see as you watched the redhead walk back in. When you turned around, you began walking up, but felt eyes on you.

You looked up to see no one there, frowning as you began your trek up the hill back to the stables to sleep due to how light it had become.

<>

When you made it back to the castle the next morning, you walked through the halls, searching for the prince and princess. After a minute or so, you recognized the man walking before you, regarding him with a smile.

“Commander Rogers!” The man chuckles, engulfing you in a hug. “Y/LN.” You two separate, not knowing that Wanda was listening in from behind the door next to you. “How is the princess?” The question makes you scoff as your jaw clenched.

“No comment.” The man laughs, patting you on your arm. “I could put in a word, maybe-“ You hold a hand up in refusal. “No, that is quite alright. I-“ The door creaks open, startling you as you see Wanda standing before you.

“Y/LN, Rogers.”

You look away from her with a clench of your jaw, your eyes on the floor. “My brother had to walk me to my cottage.” You frown. “I had the day off.”

“The day ends when the sun sets.” You can feel the glare, and the air becomes tense as Steve looks between you. “You are dismissed, Steven.” Steve gulps, bowing as he walks off. “Y/LN.”

You refused to acknowledge her. She was testing yo- “Y/N! Look at me when I speak to you, please!” You quickly gulp, looking at you. “Come inside, now.”

“I-I cannot, I need to find your brother.”

“Than I shall come with you.”

“Princess-“ Your voice cracked. “Princess, it is a personal matter.” Then she starts to laugh.

“You’ve conceded.”

“I do not understand?”

“You are like a pussy cat. I have pushed you to your limit in two days, and I intend to continue.” She smiles.

Your eyes widen in fear. You begin to stammer on your words, and she continues to smile. “You evil-“

“Who was that girl?” The question stopped your voice and you frowned again. “What?”

“Who’s the girl, Y/N? From our walk, and the one you spent your day with? Does the king know his first in command is involved with lowly common folk?”

“I don’t have time for this, princess.” You shake your head, walking in the direction opposite of her. Groaning as you can hear her footsteps moving towards you. “Listen, I apologize for my hostility.” At that you scoff.

“Are you mad?! You grill me like a hog, and then immediately say “I apologize.”, insanity this is.”

<>

The days after that interaction hadn’t gotten easier. Despite the convoy being ready, the king made no move. Steve and Pietro had updated you, saying it could truly be weeks or months until they made some treaty so the fighting wouldn’t happen.

You escorted Wanda everywhere. Dances, tea parties, dinners. You kept silent, obedient. She kept you so busy, you barely had time to see Natasha.

So thankfully one day, she called you and Anna into her room one morning. Not thankfully, but still.

She was sick.

“Do you want me to notify the doctors to come and take a look at you.” It was a stupid question to ask, but she was a stubborn one, you’d heard. She nodded, so it must’ve been bad.

You raced your horse to the city where the royal service lived, running up into the doctors small office, before riding him to the princess. Word spread, and commoners began to whisper.

And in her daze, so did Wanda.

When she saw you there, patting her forehead with a cold compress, she looked into your y/ec eyes in awe. If no one was there, she’d kiss you just to taste what that girl had. She assumed it would taste like strawberries, you love those she noticed.

Or heard…from Pietro of course.

“You’re alright, my Princess.” Your voice so soft and smooth, and she was your Princess. Forget Sokovia. She didn’t want you to go, but the king had gotten there, Pietro by his side.

The king had dismissed everyone but Doctor Banner and the Prince from leaving. Their mother was out of the kingdom discussing dowries, and possible arrangements for her daughter’s marriage. God, Wanda didn’t want that.

She didn’t want to have to look at you and whomever that girl was, fawning over one another. It’s all she saw. when you got out there. The girl stood with a tall burly man whom Wanda recognized as the butcher from when she was young.

There was a smaller but older woman, next to a shorter blond, and you stood with them in the street, conversing. “CLEAR THE STREETS” The soldiers yelled, and you did, disappearing from sight completely.

<>

The next day, you came in to check on her.

“You look slightly less flushed.”

“Mm.”

You sat with her all day, not against your will. You were actually advised to stay clear, but Pietro sent you to read her a favorite that she got for her 16th. “Leave it up to you to save 30 Shakespeare sonnets.”

“You know I’ve met him twice.”

“Oh! Wow, that is amazing.” Conversation seemed to be friendly, and you both forgot that you loathed one another.

You read them, and the romantic ones hit her harder as your smooth as silk voice vibrates off of the wood. She fell asleep soon after, and you admired her in all her pale beauty.

“Goodnight, my Princess.”

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@sadpiscesheart

[beesmygod]

I'm glad you watched another playthrough of the devil in me bc sgfs run made it look so bad I wondered if he had missed some absolutely crucial game choice but no I guess it really is just like that

the shit makes no sense. im going to "spoil" it rn but like. you can't spoil this game. theres no twist theres just a fucked up guy who walks at you. the killer was killerman. you win prize money.

like lets do a quick list of what was good ("good") and what wasnt. most of these are just going to be moments or isolated plot elements

THE BAD:

it wasnt as accidentally funny as their previous games. accidentally funny i mean.

it had the audacity to end with someone picking up the h.h. holmes mask (not a thing that exists btw. no one is making these except like custom on etsy. its so fucking suspicious) like "oooh hes going to do it agaiiiin!" but he got chopped up by a boat propeller. no he isnt

the areas and parts where certain players were "supposed" to die were REALLY telegraphed and detrimental to the pacing of an already artificially bloated plot

why was there a dog that hated the murderer living on the island waiting to bite the shit out of him. whose dog was that. why was there dog. cheap emotional fodder tossed in at the end.

the opening kill is legitimately unpleasant to watch. they forgot that the kills are supposed to be gruesome and not stomach churningly sadistic or remind me of holocaust movies

the characters are genuinely awful and boring people who hate each other. not a single lifeline to be had. even the dog shows up too late for you to establish any kind of friendship

the reason why no one has cell phones is because a guy who is tricking them into taking his place as the murder victims just takes them as part of the "experience". they're a fucking film crew lol. theres no way

i legit thought it was going to end up being a team of people bc he was somehow everywhere at once doing the slow jason walk

instead it's one man, an ex-FBI agent who was abused by his mom and gets talked into doing serial murder by the single lamest serial killer monologue ive ever heard in my life. its just a guy who decided to try something different one day. and then i guess he built a murder hotel after faking his death so he could do more murder. this sucks. i dont care about this.

the plot elements are completely random. the animatronics made out of PEOPLE (they apparently did not get the news that they were beat to this idea by a solid near decade) have nothing to do with anything at all. not h.h. holmes, not murder hotel. they're just there for no reason. they barely even get used.

and they had the audacity to show him MAKING animatronics OF THE 5 FILM CREW MEMBERS after they arrived on the island. this game takes place over the course of one day. he did not do this. there is no way. this game stretches the player's suspension of disbelief too far.

the writing on the mom and the serial killer is pathetic lol. its rough to see evil attempted by people who can only conceptualize it in terms of physical violence

oh great another taxidermy guy. thanks

it was just some guy

THE "GOOD"

the ending is so bad that its ballsy. it cuts to a news reporter talking about how they are still finding bodies in the hotel where 5 person groups were tricked into staying so that they could be murdered. the ppl watching the report are interrupted by their friend who tells them her viral video won a contest (dog its 2022 lol) and the prize is that 5 of them get to stay in a mysterious hotel owned by a man with the same name as the guy they were just talking about.

then it zooms into the email the girl got telling her that she won and that one image of h.h. holmes is just in the window

did he make the little graphic announcing she has won? did he deliberately include himself? did he not notice somehow that he was in the picture. did he set up a timer and run up to the top floor so he could be very spooky and mysterious

HOW could he POSSIBLY afford another murder house. the invoice for the first one on the private island is IN THE GAME and its an eye popping amount. he does NOT have another house like where is he getting the money? or getting it zoned? or tricking ANOTHER construction team into building death traps that are suspiciously like the ones on the news

theres a part where a woman is stuck in a closet having an anxiety/asthma attack and the scary murder man gives her her inhaler. for some reason. this is never explained

why did he have ultra specific recordings of his mom commenting on what time he arrives and what page of his baby book he looks at. or what time it is.

theres phonographs and creepy music playing everywhere and no one turns them off like "what the fuck!!!" they're just like ooooh no im being menaced SSOOOO much

why was one of the crew members friends with someone who was strangled by "the campus strangler". as far as i can tell this adds nothing to the story, it just freaks her. as the player i dont care bc the the killerman just finds this out somehow and finds a copy of the paper where they used a photo taken of her, her friend and the strangler. guess which one is the strangler:

how could they identify his fake dead body from "dental records". they explicit say this. did he fucking glue a set of teeth into the guys mouth. is he toothless throughout the whole game. is he wearing fake teeth. im laughing just typing this up. what the fuck

he pulled an hh holmes on the construction crew after they built a hh holmes themed murder hotel for him.

the murder counter. why does it exist. how does it know to update.

im now thinking about how funny it is that he put in a 4th digit. get real dude! no WAY

the director being baited into an obvious trap with cigarettes like he was being hunted by wiley e. coyote was insane. my dude you are being murdered. you know you are at this point. why did you go into the room with only one entrance!!

this:

it was just some guy

[fortheloveofdeaddove]

Gathering Fiki Trick or Treat 2023 10/24 prompt submission

"Tech gone dark, AKA there really IS a Ghost in the Shell."

Content Warnings: Spooky, Durincest, requited-unrequited Sibling Incest, short fic (sorry if I missed anything, feel free to let me know)

Author's note: Not edited or beta'd. Sorry for any mistakes. Thanks @gatheringfiki and @linane-art for organizing this!

Stay safe and well! Happy spooks!

Read under the cut or check it out on Ao3!

The One Where Grandpa Thrain's Ghost Possesses A Computer

“Go.”

“What?” Fili strained to hear Kili over the blaring alarm system.

“I said go! You’re the future of this family, we won’t be able to go on without you!”

“So?” Fili shouted angrily. “It wants me, Grandpa - the computers that his soul is trapped in - whatever - now that we’ve saved uncle, it wants me!”

“So?” Kili roared back. “It doesn’t matter what it wants, we’ve already proven that by saving Thorin! We only need one person to go in there and flip the kill switch, and it isn’t going to be you!”

“Like hell it isn’t!” The lights of the bunker hall exploded over their heads at the same time the fire sprinklers went off, and Fili rushed across the distance between them to hurl his brother to safety. They came crashing down to the hard pavement, glassy debris flying all around them. Fili covered Kili to try and protect him from the worst of the onslaught.

“We don’t have time for this,” Fili panted. He pushed Kili to his back and rolled atop him and cupped his face. “You’re wrong, about all of it. About me. I’m not the golden heir, I’m a freak who will not survive if you don’t, so it doesn’t matter anyway. I’m not the future of anything without you. I’m just some creep who’s in love with his little brother, and I am not letting you die for me.”

Fili then stabbed the syringe he’d had stashed since they escaped the med lab and delivered enough sedative to his brother’s neck to knock him out for the next 48 hours.

***

When Kili awoke in the hospital, it was to a bright, sunny day and a room filled with flowers. His uncle sat reading a newspaper in a chair in the corner. That was funny to Kili, and he didn’t know why. Hearing him snort, his uncle looked up from his paper and quickly stood and rushed to his side.

“Kili?”

Then the awareness of why the newspaper was funny slammed into him. After everything that had happened, Thorin would probably never use  smart phone again, so of course he would be reading a newspaper. Because of what had happened.

Because of what had happened.

“Fili?!” Kili sat up and cried.

“Kili, shhh, it’s okay, look, look —”

His uncle detoured immediately from approaching Kili to pulling back a curtain on the other side of his bed to his left. There was another bed behind it, and in that bed lay his sleeping brother, covered in bandages.

“Oh my god —” Kili pulled back his covers and tried to heave himself out of the bed, but his uncle had his hands on his shoulders before he could put one toe over the side.

“No, you’re injured and hooked up, and you can’t tear out your IV. If you calm down I’ll explain. Your brother is going to be fine.”

Upon hearing that Kili immediately relented and laid back down, his eyes to his brother’s chest to confirm that indeed it was moving.

His uncle pulled up a chair to sit between the two beds and placed a hand on Kili’s knee with a sigh.

“A nurse will be in any minute, but from what Nori tells me, he found Fili carrying you out of the bunker and he handed you over to Nori to get to safety. Nori tried to stop him, but of course your brother didn’t give him the chance. He ran back to the control room and flipped the kill switch. There is no explanation for how he survived. The building and the bunker are flattened-earth after the explosion. Nori barely made it far enough with you.”

A nurse did indeed come in shortly after that, followed by a doctor, to check Kili’s vitals. He’d been out for approximately 36 hours. Unfortunately it became clear quickly that Kili was in mental shock, and became lethargic to the point that he would not answer the nurse’s questions. They administered valium and Thorin was ordered to let his nephew rest.

The incident had taken its toll on the whole family, but none more so than Fili and Kili. Kili barely spoke and maintained a deep depression while his brother’s body healed, but he still did not wake up. Dis had to resort to nutritional IV’s for Kili by the fifth week after the incident because her son refused to eat, and likewise if he did, was unable to keep anything down.

On the sixth week, on a day Kili had forced himself to bathe and wear clean clothes and ordered the driver to take him to the hospital to visit his brother, Fili awoke.

It was hours before they were left alone. First the doctors and neurosurgeons had come, followed immediately by their family, which eventually turned into the extended family. Kili just sat quietly next to his brother the entire time, either holding his hand or getting him water or whatever else he needed. 

When their mother finally agreed to go get a few hours of rest for the night, they were finally left alone.

“Took your sweet time,” Kili said, squeezing Fili’s hand. “Did you see anything? Visions? Heaven? Hell?”

Fili snorted tiredly. There were bags under his eyes, but Kili could only be grateful his eyes were even open. 

“Nah. Lots of wild dreams, and I guess I’m still actually experiencing auditory and visual hallucinations from the coma meds. Uh, like, Paul Hollywood in the corner over there? The nurse tells me he’s not really here. He keeps saying I’ve got a soggy bottom.”

Kili chuckled softly because he’d heard all this already, but his brother had poor short term memory for the moment. Fili would be in an off and on state of delirium for up to a few weeks the neurosurgeons had said. At one point during the coma, they had had to drain fluid off of his brain. There were all sorts of anesthesia drugs pumping through his system, not to mention the pain killers. Kili was reminded again of how touch-and-go it had been for a while.

“Yeah, that’s pretty weird, and rude. I plan to write all this down and record as much as I can so we can watch it later, because the doctors also said as time goes by, you’re not really going to remember any of this.”

Fili smiled dopily at him and nodded. “That’s good.”

Kili wanted to talk about what his brother had said, but Fili wasn’t in any state to hold himself accountable for his words or actions. He wouldn’t be for a while. Kili was going to have to wait, and be patient. Because he needed his brother to know that he never had to be afraid that Kili was going to leave him. He was never going to be alone. He wasn’t a freak, or if he wasn’t, he wasn’t the only one. He couldn’t believe it had taken this incident to finally understand each other, but he wasn’t going to let this chance pass him by. He didn’t know how it was going to work or what it would take, but he knew he would do whatever it took.

“Yeah, it’s scary, actually, if you think about it,” Fili sighed as his eyes began to get heavy with sleep.

Kili had no idea what his muddled brother meant by that, but he nonetheless carefully crawled into the hospital bed next to him, and cuddled up under the arm that his brother automatically lifted for him.

“What’s scary?”

“Oh… it’s just…” Fili almost slipped off to sleep, then startled back awake and blinked at Kili dumbly. It was cute. “The, uh, the whats it called…. Grandpa! Yeah. He got out n’ all that… I didn’t stop him…” His rambling was interrupted by a big yawn. “Aaaah haaaa gosh, sorry. Got the yawns. Yeah, he got out. Of the computer. He doesn’t need it anymore. Something about my blood and bone and… yeah. He’s not a fan of Paul Hollywood.”

Kili froze as fear flooded him once he realized what his brother was saying. 

Soon, Fili’s soft snores filled the silence.

[lilysmiles11223345]

AAAAA

OKAY IVE BEEN SPENDING S O LONG ON THIS-

It’s worth it tho,, I love this au- even if I don’t know everything about it yet >:D

IVE ONLY MANAGED TO DO MUTE AND ANTHEA SO FAR BUT HERE WE GO @xbeih I MADE!! OCS OF MINE INTO YOUR MUSIC AU!!

(Warning!: LONG POST!!! there’s like one dirty joke, swearing, some sad topics and also I ship characters already I’m sorry -w-)

~alt!mute~

This is mute in the au!! I turned them emo pfft-

They would be pretty much just like how normal mute is, but maybe a liittle meaner- and also emo/goth, obviously.

So- similar to normal mute too- they don’t have a voice! In their childhood- they had an accident, that caused them to not be able to speak. but this time they have a little voice box/speaker thingy given to them by mrs.Neapolitan and they can use to speak and sing ! Which normal mute does not have ^^

I actually think they would have angst due to that, because in this version of the story instead of theatre being their complete passion, they used to love to sing.. and yeah, they can use a synthetic voice now - but.. they still can’t actually do it anymore.

depending on if noise and or noisette are still their childhood friends too- they would’ve known that too.. they probably know how horrible it is for mute- though they have another chance to speak they’ll never be able to have their normal voice back again.. and that’s all because of the accident.

Otherwise to lighten the mood alt!mute is much more gay than normal mute just because they prefer he/them instead of just they/them. And I love that.

Since I am actually bad at labelling genre’s, They were mainly inspired by artists like Jhariah, panic at the disco(minus bad person thing), some set it off songs, and also some songs from IDKHOW. :D

~lofi!Anthea~

Moving onto the sweet childhood friend of peppino! Her genre would be lofi!! <3 thought to do the whole “opposites attract” thing with peppy and Thea in this au!

I like to think she’s still peppys childhood friend in this, and pep would probably still be as oblivious as ever she crushes on him lmao.

Just like normal Anthea, she’s peppino’s biggest fan!! And she’s more than willing to do anything just to help him out! That includes being there when the story is going on- even if she doesn’t really want to be known much as an artist herself. and simular to how Dessert Dungeon starts she’ll probably get tricked by mrs.Neapolitan into suffering! :D

In this au, I thought it was fitting to keep two things normal Anthea had but as major plot points this time- one being her piano/keyboard. (As a child, Anthea would play piano. In this au- she never grew out of it really!) and her fear of drowning/suffocation.

The instrument that Anthea would have with her at all times would be a keyboard! Since playing piano comforted her as a child, she likes to play comforting and sweet songs for others- or duet to others songs to show support.

And since metal!peppino has the fear of fire— I thought it would be okay to keep anthea’s little traumatic event with water the same! <3 though I’m unsure if it would play out differently in this au.. if not, peppino would definitely know about her fear- I wonder if she’d know of his? 👀

She mainly keeps her singing voice quiet, but she *can* sing- and it’s very pretty, she just doesn’t like to have others hear her singing voice because of - THATS RIGHT FOLKS- the guy in her normal backstory still existing in this au! I’m tweaking things, and figuring out how peppino wouldn’t have found out about him in this au.. but Anthea still has lots of trauma! <3

Anthea in this au was inspired by well— lofi songs (think of like,, songs you’d hear on Spotify to sleep or whilst watching the lofi girl stream) But also some other songs that I think would fit/inspired me were:

Sofia- clairo

Pretty girl- clairo

Rises the moon - egg cover

Can’t help falling in love with you- the or3o cover!

Morning coffee, bubble version- Chevy, nalba, luxid

That’s all I have on her right now!

I have more ideas for my other ocs! Like strawbetty (since she was inspired by sayu already) being a sentient ai! And the twincakes could be a capella duo!! But for now I’ll keep it to these two <3

Sorry if the art seems rushed also!! I wanted to get this out ASAP cause I really wanted to talk about them both!! But, my motivation to draw anything has been dwindling for some reason hhh QwQ’ Hopefully I can do the others soon if ur okay with it!! If any of you have anyone you wanna see next am happy to try to do them! :D

[6of575]

my goal is to try and make at least a post a day on here, even if its nothin very interesting to anybody else

i feel like,,, if i can finally successfully make it a habit to post and engage, it might just trick my brain from task avoidance

so! post done and heres the part for me thats fun:

(under a cut since its ramblin long)

the books im currently reading concurrently are some conlang construct books mr am got me that have been on my wishlist for ages, along with a very cool book about black holes and theories surrounding them, which mr am loaned to me from his collection

one of the things we share is a love of science and space, and more specifically, stars and time travel and all the things about our known universe that black holes straight up break

i have a lot of fun chatting with him; i really cant overstate the value of a friend so genuine, who i am never too much of, and i can talk about all my interests without the reflexive dread creeping on in

all that bullshit i learned growing up, yanno the kind: "im boring, im dumb, who could possibly enjoy swapping rock facts, much less listen to hours of it even when it our interests DONT align"

like, theres so much else about my friendship with him thats meaningful, but thats top tier right there

and lately? ive gotten a few others in my corner, who when i share, im starting to feel like that with them, too

its so weird! to have gone from one person to a tiny community of folks (and i mean little! its like,, five? six? of us max usually) that thrive on a love of the weird and the cringe and the stubborn hope

plenny others have waxed more eloquent than me about this sorta thing--how fandom spaces come sorta pre-fab with common, shared interests that its fans bring, and they build their fort and theres rules already laid out, and it becomes a second (sometimes first) home, of sorts

but when its starting from scratch, when its about stuff and is made by people that others just wouldnt ordinarily invest in or look at without outside prompting, thats not the same! its not a bad thing, more neutral, but its stressful, its really such a lonely feeling

except--when you finally find it, that person, and thats a community of its own, and it can grow, and suddenly you swappin stories, throwing jokes! and memes and links and hey inevitably, theres also those what ifs about your little guys

and everything is srs and sacred and everything is hilarious and "i cant believe this is real life" levels of stupid

you get to learn habits and quirks and whole personalities

"hey this reminded me of you" "hey, check out this view" "oh, thats right, yer the possum dude" "you love medieval lore--and i read this, and what do you think about it, too"

its suddenly kind of a fandom space after all, and its like, still work of course, reaching for and keeping more and being a person with, it aint that neat or pretty

but its got warmth and joy and expansion, after a lifetime of making yourself small enough to try and fit

you end up fans of your friends, fans of their life, hyping each other up and up and up about the most mundane shit and it starts to look like not even the skys the limit

planning things to do together, spending long hours into the night to parallel play with vidgames or watchin movies like time aint nothin thisll last forever, right? (it doesnt, always, but thats also part of this, and the ones that stay, the ones that work with you

those are the ones waking up to backread your chats like its the morning newspaper

and your life matters

like its better than the best hot goss, its saturday morning cartoons and their favour ice cream flavours

only now we adults and its also commiseratin over breakups and bills, and cross-country moves, and its celebrating that i saw chickens in the yard today and you finally got your boygirlthemsomethin gender fuckery juice)

idk idk idk

i feel some kinda way about all that

i never thought id make it so far that im nearly forty

never thought id get to ask "okay, well, now what? what do i wanna do, and try, and be?"

im... starting small i think, and im for reals happy, happier than i have been in years; i learned how to be alla my friends biggest fans, and im starting to finally believe

other people can feel that way about me

i just really think thats kinda neat

[jlilycorbie]

Didn't See Any of This Coming

Late at night on Thursday, October 19, I drove myself to the emergency room. I fully expected to be treated and released, and after I saw triage just barely after midnight, it looked like exactly what would happen.

Instead, my entire life changed.

I went in for an abscess in an embarrassing location, which shouldn't have stopped me from seeking treatment earlier, but absolutely did. I figured they'd open and drain it, put me on some IV antibiotics, then send me on my way with a prescription for oral antibiotics. And for a while, that looked like exactly what would happen.

At least, until someone came into the room to ask me, "Are you diabetic?"

"Not as far as I know," I said.

"Did you know your blood sugar is 330?"

I've known for a long time things weren't great with my health, but I didn't see that one coming. Honestly, I was hoping whatever was wrong would kill me, preferably painlessly and in my sleep, within the next five to ten years.

That was already my first trip to the ER as an adult. What followed were a lot more firsts.

First IV.

First person who has seen my butt as an adult (a number that unfortunately kept climbing).

First CT scan.

First minor surgery (lidocaine is weak, I felt almost all of it).

First admission to a hospital.

First time taking insulin.

First major surgery under general anesthesia.

First time receiving fentanyl (or any opioid). After all the hype on the news, I thought that should be good, and instead it did absolutely nothing. Found out afterward that my dad and grandfather both got morphine a few times after surgery or in the ER for injuries and it did nothing for either of them. Just my luck to come up with chronic pain and a resistance to opioids.

I've suspected for a while that I have an autoimmune disorder, though I don't know which one. And a collagen disorder, probably EDS, but not sure which one. I've heard all the nightmare stories about fighting for diagnosis, so it was a little unsettling to mention autoimmune disorders and have every single medical professional say, "Yeah, that sounds right." Or to do my stupid human tricks (bending fingers and moving my trachea only, I never got far) and have people immediately go, "Yup, that's a collagen disorder."

Also, surprise! I have a heart murmur.

Shout out to my liver and kidneys, apparently the only organs in my body quietly doing their jobs without any drama.

The following days were frustrating. Everyone was eager to explain what diabetes is to me, but not what I needed to do. People kept mentioning that I had a sliding scale for my insulin, but no one would tell me what that meant. A diabetes educator would be coming to my room to explain it to me, so they didn't need to tell me anything.

After surgery, I never saw the surgeon again. No followup of any kind. Also absolutely no pain management. Before surgery, someone would occasionally offer me Tylenol. Afterward, I didn't even get that. It's apparently acceptable to leave a patient in so much pain she doesn't sleep for more than 36 hours, and after the 24 hour mark, you can offer melatonin.

Honestly, I don't think Tylenol would have helped, but a few throat lozenges would have made a huge difference in my world.

No one ever really explained or showed me how to care for the open wound left after surgery. The wound is located somewhere that is very difficult for me to see or reach, especially both at once. One person told me, "Just take a corner of gauze and poke, poke, poke it into the hole, but not too far, because you don't want to make the wound worse." When a nurse pointed out the difficulty of seeing the location, wound care sent a hand mirror smaller than my palm.

The doctor gave discharge orders, but the nurse at the time didn't want to let me go because the diabetes educator still hadn't come. I didn't know exactly when to take my blood sugar or insulin or how much to take. Because no one would tell me. So the nurse talked me into staying an extra night.

The doctor and several nurses also said someone with the hospital's social services would come talk to me about handling the bill and about getting a primary care physician because after 12 years without one, I can't keep not going to a doctor.

Neither the diabetes educator nor anyone from social services ever came to my room. I finally got a frustrated nurse to explain the sliding scale for insulin to me and when I should take my blood sugar and when I should take insulin. The next nurse diligently avoided me at all times until she announced I was getting discharged, better get ready. I stayed an extra night for literally no reason, for help that never came.

A pharmacist called me to tell me the doctor had ordered a glucometer and some other supplies for me, but my insurance had a really high copay on them, and she wanted me to know that I could buy them way cheaper on my own if I'd like to do that. When she found out that no one had explained most things to me, she was outraged. She spent a long time on the phone with me, explaining everything that she could. Bless that woman. I've told everyone who would listen her name and that she was so helpful when I was desperate and alone.

I got discharged just like that. I didn't get any written aftercare instructions from my surgery. I still don't know if I'm caring appropriately for my wound. I have a followup scheduled for three weeks after my discharge. I have since reached out, and people will apologize, but no one will give me the information I need.

I left the hospital terrified and confused. I'm used to figuring things out on my own, but the repeated promises of help that never came almost broke me completely.

I got two different types of insulin in reusable pens. No one had shown me that type of pen or how to use them. I had to figure it out by myself after I was home.

After I got home, someone from social services did call me. I had an appointment for the next day with a diabetes educator...who heard about me for the very first time after I was discharged, when social services called him and he immediately arranged an appointment for me.

Also, no one ever told social services they needed to talk to me about anything. They arranged an appointment with a primary care physician. It was written in my discharge paperwork, but no one told me.

The diabetes educator was actually pretty helpful. Turns out I'd gotten about half the information I needed about when and how to take my insulin. Since he gave me a different sliding scale and more instructions, I've actually kept my blood sugar consistently under 150, and mostly between 110 and 135.

I did tell him that the last time I saw a doctor, he dismissed all of my concerns to pressure me to join his high intensity weight loss program. At the time, I weighed around 300 lbs. I figured before I could get real help, I needed to wait until I was old enough, thin enough, or sick enough for people to take me seriously, and in the 12 years since then, I've done my best to take care of myself. When I arrived in the ER, I weighed 208 lbs. I was the sickest and most miserable I've ever been.

He told me he expects me to lose at least 20 lbs by the next time I see him.

[girlfriendsofthegalaxy]

tuesday again 11/22/22

yes of COURSE there is a cat update

listening

this portion sponsored once again by my sister, who keeps sending me tiktoks with good background music. this is Tezeta (Nostalgia) by Mulatu Astatke off the 1998 release Ethiopiques, Vol. 4 : Ethio Jazz & Musique Instrumentale (1969-1974). super mellow and comforting, very closely tied with the other one i’ll drop below for my favorite off this album.

there are thirty of these volumes btw. very good to listen to while i work. the lead track off this fourth album, Yèkèrmo Sèw (A Man of Experience and Wisdom) sounds very like much, much later group The Black Keys for the first few seconds. in the cool-toned guitar and the reverb. in the production i guess? like sure there’s a discussion to be had about where jazz and blues and rock overlap and how much, but it did startle my brain. i don’t have music words in my brain, just some math words

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reading

fallow week. have some mack: right on the fucking tit/fruit bat hours.

she's started doing this thing where she rubs BOTH sides of her gums along my hand when i drape it off the couch. i would like to think this is the cat version of a kiss on both cheeks

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watching

look i tried really hard to rewatch Goncharov (1973, dir. Scorsese) but my cat wouldn't let me. like of COURSE ive seen it before, i have a dad who was home on federal holidays and watched scorsese marathons on spike tv. fun fact i didn't know there was a bisexual threesome or cucking involved until i watched it for a college film class on villains, bc of course that was not shown on american daytime marathon television!

anyway. my cat. we have watched so many spaghetti westerns together. much gunfire. several gatling guns. i don't know what it is about the Guncharov that woke her up out of a deep sleep and had her fleeing from the room. like okay, it was a partially handmade (the stock is from the actor's mother's wedding chest) AK-47 made specially for this film, further underscoring how time has passed goncharov by and the gas operation subtly foreshadowing the later flashback of the mustard gas in the tunnel attack, but i don't think that should have affected the relative loudness of the Guncharov, and i think the gatling gun in A Bullet For The General (which we rewatched last week) was MUCH louder. my cat is too interested in headphone cords, and i'm trying to teach her that cords are boring and uninteresting and extremely not for cats, and i didn't really have the heart to finish the movie on mute with subtitles still up. the lovely score is so integral to all the sofya scenes.

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playing

i have never played a pokemon. i have been bullied into horking up sixty three american dollars, or just barely under three hours of post-tax work. i am having an all right time so far but my best friend and her husband are so fucking thrilled we finally have 1) a game in common and 2) a game we can play together. sixty three american dollars is a pretty small friendship maintenance price in the grand scheme of things and it's not like it's really going to make an impact in my overall debt HA HA.

this game has also given me personally a great many gifts in the form of SO many buff women just floating about.

why are so many pokemon Just Guys? a worrying number of bipedal twinks i can keep in a box. anyway look how cute i look!!! yes i named my starter after my cat. i am legally obliged to do so.

i wanted red hair to go with the school uniform bc at my heart i am a weak and vain woman. where the fuck does a bitch get new shirts and pants instead of just new accessories tho

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making

now when i flipped this frame over to the right side at goodwill, i fully expected there to be a pic of jfk. instead it was jesus, and now it has thigh high johnny cash. ty @dvar-trek for the excellent suggestion.

this is the worst framing and matting job i’ve ever done using my favorite trick of “flip the art already in there around for a double mat" but it just needed to stay together long enough for a gif. every time I moved the cord the light flickered on and off independently of the switch in the cord so we will be replacing that. probably repainting it too.

[calvatier]

Sircis redesign, I might change his name too cus i don't think it fits him very much now,,,he's so cute and so pretty 🥹🥹 ive also rethought on his lore and story while drawing this

I still rmb when he was low-key based off my first BG3 Tav ,,, 😭

Ramble:

So originally I made Sircis an assassin then now a warlock but I had trouble figuring out his story cus it was kinda weird and overly complicated and his whole reason for joining the party was cus he wanted to find a place to belong to after years of being raised and kept by his patron which is kinda too cliche friendship trope to me

I've rethought his story and maybe decided that his patron sent him out on a mission for the first time and has tricked him into thinking that he's doing good,,,his patron basically wants to have Lues to be under his pact as well,,,the thing with Lues is that he's gotten pretty popular with ppl of power, specifically those with more sinister motives,,,Sircis' patron being one of them

most ppl of power that heard of Lues know what he's up to but these people don't stay in the same realm as him so they can't just steal his power or intervene. Sircis is a warlock who is originally from this realm but was given leeway to stay in his patron's realm because he was taken in and personally trained and indoctrinated by his patron,,,,now his patron sends him back to his original realm to finally make him do something.

His patron wants Lues following and he knows Lues isn't stupid enough to give it up randomly so his patron wants to make a deal with Lues. Sircis' job is to find Lues and try to persuade him and his patron tells him that if all else fails, they want Sircis to kill Lues and him to steal his following and convince them to worship his patron instead. The reason why is that when a powerful being gains enough support, sacrifice, offering and influence, they are actually capable of performing an ascension ritual to become a deity but no more than that. (I'll have to write on the difference between, immortal, deity and gods next time.) Still being a deity grants them significant power and the ability to actually access more realms.

But the thing is that Sircis has no fucking clue who Lues is and his patron also doesn't want to tell him because his patron wants Sircis to go through the trouble, in their eyes, this is a sort of rite of passage for Sircis and a proof of his loyalty and how far he's willing to go to complete the mission. This mission isn't too important to his patron, sure it can make them a deity but they are already so fulfilled with themselves that they don't find being a deity a need. They are genuinely expecting Sircis to not complete the mission because they know he's weak now but they'll use that as an opportunity to make a tighter pact with Sircis, one that makes Sircis absolutely reliant on them. They want to put Sircis in a situation where he will call out to his patron for help, a situation where his patron would feel like a savour so Sircis can finally put his full trust into him. The patron knows that Sircis is only obliging now out of fear for his own life but they want Sircis to oblige out of respect and loyalty. (There's a reason why specifically they want Sircis to be under their influence but I'll have to think of that first.)

Sircis, having been raised and cared for by his patron, would obviously go ahead and carry this out but some part of him knows that his patron isn't a good person,,,but Sircis feels like and literally owes them his life and has no idea how to break out of a pact, he's stuck in this situation and is forced to do his mission. He just hopes that maybe he's wrong about his patron,,, he closes one eye and feigns ignorance to deeds he's seen his patron make other warlocks do and just hopes that maybe, just maybe, his patron isn't that bad,,,,Sircis probably copes with the fact that he's doing a bad thing by pretending that he's doing good, and he does this so well that he can sometimes fully convince himself that nothing is wrong.

Deep down what he's hoping for is someone to come and save him from his situation,,,he doesn't hope that for himself to do this because he's been raised to think that he cant do anything without the help of someone, so he fears taking charge and doing things alone

[crippleprophet]

Re: explaining to strangers, the person i knew with movement issues that manifested similarly always just said, it's a disability, i have a disability (people mistook him for someone on drugs) and it always worked great at diffusing things as far as i saw, theyd always back off or try to be helpful for it. For meals he used big, family salad size bowls that were large and had high walls, along with adaptive utensils. Rugs make dishes break less, maybe lots of small ones so you can machine wash if they get soiled with food. Ive know someone else who used a rocker knife bc it was safer than a regular knife with her movement issues but that may not apply here. Not sure if this applies to others often or ever, but someone i know just held an object at all times (unless he was actively using both hands for something) and it almost totally cleared up grabbing or smacking at random things, he'd do a lot of motions with "his" thing but not involuntarily manipulate other things around when he had something in his hands. It was usually something innocuous like a wallet or water bottle. My understanding of fall risks personally is that someone who is at that much of a risk of falling in a totally out of control way ideally just should not be walking at all while that's happening :(

thank you, i appreciate this a lot!! talking with my partner about trying the rugs thing & will look into those other suggestions as well :) the thing about holding an object sounds like what’s called a sensory trick - some people benefit from touching or massaging the area that’s moving, splashing water on themselves, etc. i’ve yet to find something that works for me but it’s worth a shot!

idk what to do about the giant neon sign over my head that says FALL RISK lol, like i’ve worked on intensive balance research so i’m very familiar with the risks i just. can’t not walk ever. like i have a mobility scooter already for my chronic pain but we don’t have the space in our apartment to use it indoors (it’s a stretch being able to use my forearm rollator) and i can’t just not go to the bathroom so idk what to do lol

thank you again for your input i really really appreciate it + you taking the time 💓🖤💓

[layton-heritage-posts]

Oh yeah, was there anything else in the direct that interested you besides the new Layton game?

Of course, overall this was probably one of the bests directs in a while for me.

Professor Layton was, of course, my personal highlight. But some other stuff I was excited about is:

- Metroid Prime remaster

So far I only played Super Metroid, Metroid Samus Returns and Metroid Dread. I always loved the series but I never found the time to really get into it, so finally getting the chance to play a Metroid Prime game are great news for me.

- Splatoon 3 DLC

Always been a Splatoon fan, and Octo Expansion was one of the best DLC experiences I had. The Trailer for Side Order looks incredible promising and I can't wait to play through it. Inkopolis is cool too I guess.

- Octopath Traveler 2 Demo

Octopath Traveler is one of my favorite Videogames of all time. I'm a sucker for a good JRPG and it ticked off all the correct boxes for me. Played through the Demo and I can already say it's even better than the first one.

- Kirbys Return to Dreamland Deluxe

At first I was a bit hesitant towards this game, but by now ive warmed up to it. Unfortunately a bunch of stuff from the Magolor epilogue already got spoiled for me, so I'm still not as excited as I should be about it, but you know what I'm still glad it's coming

- Ghost Trick

I follow a few people who love this game, so I might try it out myself. I heard from multiple sources that it's good, so it's probably worth my time.

- The Legend Of Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom

I don't think this one needs any explanation. Ive been hyped for this since the very first trailer, and every small news for it just amplified it. Probably going to be my game of the year, but it's way too soon to say that.

There were some other things I was happy to see, but these are the main ones I can think of right now.