reading Letters to a Writer of Color edited by Deepa Anappara and Taymour Soomro, a collection of essays from writers of color about their experiences writing and how they've navigated spaces dominated by people unlike them to improve their craft and tell their stories their way, and it's fucking great so far, a little too relatable, especially the sections and anecdotes in this first essay, of being queer in one place, and desi in another because of The Family, but this section on page 14 just fucking killed me. like, yeah, that's honestly kind of what i think my experience with Being Gendered for the first time (consciously) was.
gendering is largely a process external to me, that's honestly why i've started describing myself as "genderfree". idrc about gender the way Some People do, and i particularly hate when they project those expectations onto me but like. this just really hit hard.
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truly my last relationship taught me so much. it also instilled in me some things i’m still unlearning. like, how most people won’t get mad if you accidentally fall asleep without saying goodnight (and not replying to messages, because i’m literally asleep), or freak out if you stop replying for like five minutes. like, i couldn’t do anything i enjoyed bc she’d be like ‘um, what fuck are you doing? why aren’t you answering me?!!!’ like relax, i’m literally just showering. it was truly a case of sitting still unless i wanted to upset her. and then i STILL somehow upset her and i never really knew why. but, hey, that relationship ended a long time ago, i should be fine now, right? 😐
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i must look like a game of among us, the way ppl keep venting to me with no warning
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minding my own business on tweeter then this comes up
i sure hope this is a coincidence and the two terms have nothing to do with each other :) or else :))) i will lose my mind on sunday :)))))
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if ur upset dont worry s7 exists..... it's called 86 years by jmcgools on ao3 and its genuinely so well written it could be professionally canon.... so don't cry
i have that bookmarked already to read!!! tysm for sending this tho :') like i get the ending (especially the more i think about it) and it's not like i have any criticism for it but i think i went into bcs Not expecting a painful romance, if that makes sense! i knew it would flash forward to post brba but i rlly thought it was just gonna be a crazy wild prequel abt saul goodman so now im like. WOAH
anyway idk why it's impacting me so much but i literally made myself dehydrated from crying LMFADSOFJDSO i need to get a grip
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