#kinda long

[arireynes]

Thinking about being an adventurer in a fantasy world. Mapping out all the places I've been, keeping track of all the creatures I've met. But some wonder why I've returned to several spots so many times.

It could be the Werewolf den hidden in the forest. I stumbled upon it by accident the first time, needing protection while being chased. Now they'll gladly help me, getting rid of whoever I need them to, so long as I spend a night with them. They'd tie my up, and everyone would get a turn using me, fucking me till I can't think, can't do anything more than beg for more. After, they'd spoil me, showering me in gifts and food.

Maybe it's the home of the Vampire. He lives alone for the most part, but is always delighted when I come visit. He treats me to a great meal, then invites me to join him in his room after we eat. He promises me gifts if he can bite me, and I let him, gladly. He spreads his legs for me after, gasping as I fuck him, letting him lick the blood off my neck when he's good.

Or maybe it's huge graveyard haunted by the Ghosts that have unfinished business. When I visit, asking for information, they'll tell me anything I wish. But after, they'll take me in a mausoleum, or bend me over a gravestones and solidify enough to fuck me till I'm screaming. Some suspect that the screams are from tortured souls, but I know better.

Maybe it's the island that belongs to the Seamonster who lives deep in the ocean. I hitch a ride on a pirate ship to get there, speaking to the monster, agreeing to trade my body for treasure. They let me choose what I want, and swear I'll have it once they've had their fill. They wrap me up in their thick tentacles, and fuck me in the air, with my face buried in the sand, or half in the water. Once they're satisfied, I bid them farewell and leave with my treasure.

Or it's the collection of Demons I come across in the fiery underworld. They all tower over me, thick horns, and spiked tails, and they always keep their word. I'll ask for something, and they'll say of course, if they can have me for the night. My favorite, she'll take me to bed, and kiss me all over, her lips intoxicating. When I'm needy and begging, she'll push my legs apart and let me grip her horns as she fucks me, making so everyone near can her my cries of pleasure.

Maybe it's one of the Angels that have been sent down to watch over someone. They're so pure and sweet, but there's always one I can coax to follow me to bed. Promising that it's okay, that they're only indulging in simple pleasures. That they don't have to fuck me if they don't want to, they can just watch me. But they never hold on long, and grab hold of me, finishing the job themselves, and they always fuck me so nicely. They tell me it can't happen again, and I agree, but leave knowing it will.

Maybe it's the den of the Dragon, where I go for gold when I need it, and sometimes when I don't. They can take a human form, but keep their sharp teeth, claws, and horns. Rough hands dragging down my body, pinning me against the wall, as they make me beg for the money. They'll fuck me where I can see what I want, press their claws to my throat, tell me that if I make it good for them, they'll give me anything I want.

Every creature would know of me, and I would have made a deal with most. Everywhere I'd go, there would always be someone for me to do.

[nocturne-nymph]

Gwen’s Hairstyle and Love in Across the Spider-verse:

Dunno if this has been said but I think it is so sweet how Gwen’s love for Miles is evident in her hairstyle.

In Into the Spider-verse, one of miles and gwen’s first interactions is miles’ hand stuck in gwen’s hair and ripping out a chunk in the shape of his hand. He literally left an impression on her. In the next scene gwen shaves that half of her hair off. Gwen shaving her hair removes miles mark, their relationship has a rocky start.

In Across the Spider-verse, miles and gwen have not seen each other in at least a year. Gwen’s hair has grown out on her left side but it is clear that she has continued to shave the other side that miles ripped in the first movie. This is no longer for the same reasons as the first movie, the opposite in fact, instead of removing miles mark left on her it is a reminder.

Although she may be alone in her universe having lost her dad, bandmates, and peter, she always has this little piece of miles with her.

She still thinks about miles, she cares about him, she does not want to lose this physical reminder- Gwen’s only connection to Miles that she is allowed.

[cryptiduni]

…i just saw this poll and my unevolved brain gel wriggled inside my cranium like a feral fish:

idk how you look at his official art and call him conventionally attractive. my man looks like a wet dog and has eyebags for daysss. face full of pox scars, skin pale af, and those shaggy ass hair & a rugged beard hanging from his flat long face.

he is pretty *to me* but like dude???

—not exactly a heartthrob boy band material is he?

obv I wouldn’t call him “misunderstood baby uwu” if we are talking a little more seriously —but to be fair jean is having possibly the worst week of his life. the car? fucking sunk. case? unsolved. not to mention his close partner (who is also an ass mind you) doesn’t even remember him, already running around with a new one.

yeah he is absolutely foul and aggressive and degrading harry but like i said before (in my tag essay lol) judit also makes ableist comments and i don’t see people hating her because she’s outwardly nice—

and respects harry as her superior. her BOSS.

(also a friend with benefits? /nope, it’s just him harassing judit/ as well but not as a complicated relationship compared jean and harry’s brötherbund. only a few months of acquaintanceship.)

plus it’s highhlyyy likely that harry is not the only one substance abuse. —look at jean’s rudolf-looking-red-ass-nose. a drunkard’s sniffers. probably had few lines with him late at night… when your lifetime partner is an alcoholic it's hard to say no.

about the left for dead thing, they left because harry told them to fuck off. tbh harry is nightmare to work with esp pre-bender. (and am saying as a pathetic little unmedicated neurodivergent woman.)

but when the second time they left revachol was not jean’s fault, and it was judit’s suggestion anyway. the squad probably thought that since harry had someone a little more responsible looking after him. it will be fine when they come back. the tribunal was absolutely unaccounted for.

yet despite all of these things, he will try to come back to make sure he is ok and accommodate harrier to the best of his abilities which is wearing very thin. look at him trying to make up to our harry boy:

anyways am incapable of writing coherent thoughts (even though i want to talk about it for hours) that make sense so go look at sygneth’s jean psychological analysis instead. it is an excellent read. please go read.

[hells-greatest-performers]

Alastor, what’s her name? Also, Lucifer, how’s your situation?

Lucifer: **arrives at Rosie’s Emporium and barges in* HELLO?! ALASTOR?! ARE YOU HERE?!

Rosie: *comes down the stairs* Who’s there?

Lucifer: You must be Miss Rosie. I’m Lucifer. Is Alastor still here?

Rosie: Yes. Please follow me your Highness! *leads way to upstairs room* It’s an honor to meet you, Mr. Morningstar! Truly an honor! I just wish it was under better circumstances.

Lucifer: What happened to him?

Rosie: Alastor was in such a mess when he came to me. Though the pregnancy and labor did take a lot of him.

Lucifer: So he was pregnant…*realizes the last bit* Did you say labor?!

Rosie: He just gave birth. I must warn you, he’s not in the best conditions. *opens door to bedroom*

Lucifer: *follows Rosie inside and sees Alastor unconscious on the bed*

Alastor: *unconscious but is huddled against a baby*

[gokudara]

Does anyone know that one dad gojo x mom reader fic where the author used pics of killua as their son who acts innocent whenever the mom is around and takes place around the Kyoto Goodwill Event Arc?? It’s everyone’s minus megumi’s first time meeting them both (wife and son). idk if I should try and describe it more 😅

[galaxynajma]

Weird chosoyuki scene that I made up in my head

Set in a modern no curse au

*yuki “flirting “ with choso at the mall with yuuji with him

Yuki:"so you come to this mall often?"

Choso:" um sometimes with my younger brother"

Yuki: "really! You know I love a family man is this cutie with you your brother?"

*Yuuji siping on his boba tea *

Yuuji: " bro I think she’s trying to flirt with you "

Choso:"why would she flirt with me?"

Choso: "um this is my baby brother yuuji"

Yuuji: " nice to meet you"

Yuki:" what a cutie say choso where do you work "

Choso: " I work as a nurse I mostly do blood tests or anything like that "

Yuki: " really I actually been wanting to do a blood test for a while maybe you could do it *winks*"

Choso: " sure I wouldn’t mind "

Yuki: " cool! I’m just going to give you my number * writing it down on a piece of paper * here you go how about we hang out somewhere sometime too "

Tengen:"YUKI ARE YOU FLIRTING WITH RANDOM MEN IN THE MALL AGAIN "

Tengen: * old lady gasp*" are you flirting with one of kenjaku’s boys especially in front of their youngest and favorite child I’m disappointed yuki"

Yuuji: " wait I’m the favorite child?"

Yuki: " wait I can explain "

Tengen: " that’s it we going home "

Riko in the background

Riko: " you get her! can you imagine how cringe that was "

Tengen dragging out yuki by her arm

Yuki:"CALL ME SOMETIME CHOSO"

Yuuji: " well she seems nice you should give her a chance big bro"

[powertaco]

Vol 9 Spoiler Rant (aka I have waited and thought on it and still dont’ like it/Ranting ahead

I hate Volume 9

I’ll start by saying that upfront so you aren’t shocked or surprised by a conclusion later down the line, and can leave if the notion of disliking it offends you.

I don’t doubt I’ll get many blocks or people who disagree with this take, which is fair since I’m putting the opinion out there and should be able to take it on the chin or stand by it. 

This will contain spoilers for V9, my thoughts on a lot of things, ships, and what not so if you want to turn back now the back button is over yonder.

If it’s disjointed I apologize but I’m not feeling my best, and the longer I think about it the more I dislike it and I’m sick of pretending and being toxically positive about it.

First off I’ll get a few things out of the way as things I approve of. 

The animation has largely grown phenomenally. There’s a few moments that are a little out of it (yo why you got a 3 foot neck Weiss?), but for the most part considering where we came from in the bass on the wall days of Volume 1. Big win here. 

The music. Good work Casey. Red Like Roses 3 is a banger, inside is great, and checkmate is…something. Overall good stuff. 

VA work. Good deal. Rob nails his ‘surprise’ villain as he always nails his roles but people seem to be putting their all into it. No hate here, and these guys clearly brought their A game. Good work!

This volume as a whole is very middling to me, bordering on bad depending on if or how V10 recontextualizes things that happened, which I will try to go into later. 

Essentially if you were a big fan of Bees this might be one of your favorites, but if you’re just kinda neutral to them like me then the volume didn’t have a lot to offer you and didn’t do much to really move the story forward.

Remember when Ambro said don’t fall in V8 like it was a big ominous thing, and remember how it ended up being almost entirely beneficial? Yeah so V9 was like that. Setting up stuff for an instant week to week payoff regardless of if it hurt the story or not cause we need that interest spiked to greenlight V10. 

For a Volume that took so long to make the entire thing is remarkably rushed. 

Why do Ruby and Weiss talk so little? Serious question. Even if you don’t ship them they’re supposed to be canon best friends, and yet they share almost as many lines together in the last few seasons as they do with Ren. In case you were wondering that’s not many. 

We had a reduced cast of characters and almost none of them can actually be bothered to interact meaningfully.

Why does Weiss and everyone keep ditching Ruby except Little? Ruby has a basically perfect assassin after her, and in the market everyone ditches her cause of nose hairs. 

But what can they do against Neo? Nothing, but they could maybe point her out, or talk and help distract her rather than leaving her to her own devices when she’s clearly not feeling well. 

Sometimes having someone there for you can help a lot, but instead we need to have Weiss backslide and the others abandon her so she can be alone to meet the smith. 

This is bad writing. I’m sorry but it is. Had this been Volume 1-3 Weiss? Sure I could buy this, but this is not that Weiss. If you need to have Ruby be alone to meet the smith, work harder. You had years for this. This would have gotten a C at best in a writing class with a see me after class/don’t keep using coincidences like this note attached to it. 

If you’re going to tell me I’m not a professional writer so I can’t critique then that’s asinine. I don’t drive trucks for a living but if I see one ramp off a cliff and into a pit I can tell you that, that guy/gal has messed up.

If Weiss wanted to help cheer on or try to get Bees together then that’s an even worse reason as the aforementioned ASSASSIN is after her partner.

“Oh but Neo wouldn’t attack in a busy market!” My guy do you know Neo “i live only to murder this woman’ AT ALL? There’s an amusing quote I can ascribe to her actions “i will kill as many people as I have to as long as you are one of them!” 

There was a reason the meme, ‘squads that would treat Ruby better’ was going around through volume 9 and even included pictures of villains. 

Blake and Ruby never talk outside of that one scene in V8, and Yang has focused way more on Blake and way less on being a sister. 

I’ve seen people defend her actions as being a target for her sister’s actions when she steps in front of Blake, but please note Yang just let her yell at Weiss and did nothing, until she starts yelling at Blake. 

Yeah, no I’m sorry she lets her have a go at Weiss and then when her girlfriend is getting her feefees hurt then she steps in. Her talking to her sister after the hound was nice (but again prob would have been a decent Weiss moment)

That’s bullshit. Had Yang stepped in or tried to when she was talking to Weiss then I could buy this, but as is it’s just another thing to hold against her. 

The bees eat a lot of screentime. If you’re a bee fan this is great. If you want story progression, this is not. 

The world bends and revolves around them very literally. We need to have a confession bridge show up so they can confess but we can’t get a ‘you have to talk about what’s bothering you’ camp you can’t leave until you talk things out for Ruby?

What are the rules of ever after? Basically w/e so the only reason Ruby can’t get that is cause well we want a breakdown. Again great writing. 

But let’s talk about it. Ruby has a breakdown. She complains there’s no time for her. It’s tragic because she’s put a lot of stuff on her own shoulders and internalized it. 

Good acting here, even from Jaune. 

Weiss puts out a hand and she flies away. 

When our heroes next see her she’s drank suicide tea. You can claim after the fact that ascension isn’t that (but i’m sorry that’s how it’s framed and the whole zooming into Yang’s eye thing is explicitly treated like it’s meant to be a big deal and get people talking)

Tragic truly, but you know what she believes in herself now, and now she’s all better. Her depression and desire to die are gone. I don’t know how it helps with Salem, as I’d be willing to bet Summer also believed in herself but it didn’t seem to help her much. If they go more into this in V10 I will retract this and accept it but I’m not in the mood to be forgiving to them atm.

Also again right after Ruby ‘kills’ herself they stop to help Jaune…just I’m sorry what?

Jaune still takes up too much time and serves a role that’s almost not needed and I don’t even hate or dislike him. His interesting development is stripped away at the end. 

By deaging Jaune now they can’t explain where they were with any real proof. A few scroll pics of a weird cat thing isn’t going to cut it. 

He has a few gray stripes and will likely go back to acting like he normally does and other than Nora ragging him about them once or twice will likely not be mentioned again. He may on occasion get to say something ‘wise’ but I’m doubting it since he went back to being the same almost right away. 

So rather than an aged, mature, and slightly damaged man going back and having to relate to his friends/people he knew he’s the same. Awesome development. 

Plus side is that now that deaging is canon DWR can still win! Anyway he takes entirely too much focus away. 

Ruby complains about how they have no time cause they have to help Jaune, and what do they do almost instantly after she ‘kills’ herself? Stop and help Jaune. It’s tonal whiplash. 

I get that JNPR are supposed to be deuteragonist but holy hell almost all the time goes to Jaune who is by far the least interesting of the bunch imo even with all the time dumped into him. 

Can we get more Ren and Nora? This could have been a good way for Nora to ‘learn’ who she is without Ren. 

If Nora had fallen(say off her hammer into the void at the start from Cinder during the scuffle with Penny in the air) and they met a wizened Nora who tried to act chipper but was clearly putting up a front it would be a great foil/combo with Ruby. 

It would also make her reuniting with Ren and being ready for a relationship in the next volume all the sweeter. 

We spend an episode on the red prince. Neat. You know what would have been better for it? Almost anything else, say perhaps after Ruby’s ‘suicide’ they spend a few frantic minutes trying to get to the tree until they see the reincarnated paper pleasers and then are like oh, ok so she’ll prob come back/be alright instead of just ‘we did what we can’. 

Girl I love you Weiss but you all did jack shit. You made one half hearted effort and stopped, and then every time Ruby might have gotten to talk they needed to help Jaune or something interrupted. 

Good work being the best partner ever by the way especially when Ruby spends a large portion of the volume helping you with all your problems and rushing to your side without a bit of hesitation and in return you muster up…about nothing. 

They did it in genlock and did it twice in this volume and arguably with Penny/Vine last volume. “Suicide is great!” Please stop doing this. 

Speaking of Penny if you like her you might want to get CRWBY to be pallbearers at your funeral so they can let you down one last time. 

If you liked Nuts’ and Dolts even more condolences. They’d have many chances to imply deeper feelings than friendship between them and take none of them. Her farewell song is called Friend where she talks about being friends with Ruby. 

During the fight with her clones, the Penny clone never once says she loves her. This is Neo, mouse killer and person with the largest hateboner for Ruby in the show. 

She is twisting the knife as much as she can so you can bet if she thought there was even an inkling there was more than friendly feelings between them she’d have had the clone say she loved her just to do that little bit more mental damage, but she didn’t. 

If there was ever a time to bring it up to put her off balance it was now. Neo is under no pressure and has no reason to not do so, so it basically sinks the ship. Well more than her being dead already does. 

I swear to god if they go to Vacuo and Pietro is in a coma or dead and there’s a new Penny I’m going to call Akira Toriyama and tell him RWBY is aping Dragon Ball because there’s no stakes in life or death anymore. 

Oh right, speaking of Neo she’s pretty ok until the end where she decides she’s cool with Ruby, gets to get the kill on the cat and then just bows out and leaves, and everyone is…strangely cool with that. 

Ascension or not I’m just struggling to think that any of them should just want her to essentially get away scot free. This woman tried to kill Ruby or get her to commit suicide and killed Little and we’re cool with letting her go because she killed the cat who was no longer a threat to them and did a hat doff? Um…yeah sure. I bet Yang is ok with people almost killing her sister, Weiss her best friend, etc. Then again maybe these versions of the characters are. 

I don’t care much about how ascension will change her; she's paid for nothing she’s done. “Get your revenge and you’ll get it and still get away scoTt free’. Ok last of us two. 

I can not overstate how pointless the suicide feels. 

It feels like they wanted her to do it, but have it not ‘take’ or have consequences because they’re in ever after and can say ‘hey the ascension thing fixes it’. 

Look, I'm glad the bees got together. Really I’m happy for you, but if you take out the Bee stuff, and the pining you’re left with a threadbare story that is only barely there since it’s all resolved in about five minutes. 

We all deserve better than that. The characters deserve better than that. 

I could keep going as this just scratches the surface level but it’s pissing me off to keep thinking about it. 

[leftysage]

when i say i prefer specter of torment music over shovel of hope music, this is what i mean. a lot of peo- wait what's that black line on the left? did i draw that?

huh

[onelittlefoxen]

So I got caves of qud recently

It was like a third off for the steam summer sale and it was an impulse buy alright

But holy SHIT this game is good

I died really fast on my first playthrough, watched a couple YouTube videos, survived for 2 hours on my next, and now I am 17!!! hours on my third playthrough and oh my god everything feels so good

The exploration and the interactivity and the COMBAT and the difficulty of everything

I got a book a couple of days ago out of an option of a couple of stuff and at first I kinda regretted choosing the book but!! It turns out that it was actually a really good idea. Because that book contains information about all the diseases my character could get. And at first I was like “well that’s kinda useless, if I really wanted to look of the cures for these things I could use the wiki” but IT TURNS OUT THE CURES ARE RANDOMLY GENERATED?? (Also I’ve been trying my hardest to not use the wiki to spoil myself, get to get information about stuff that I need to know)

And I hadn’t used that book until today when I contracted Ironshank! And I spent some time gathering the stuff I needed and using locations I had marked down on my map and pouring sap from one water skin into my purified gel water skin. And then I drank it and IT WORKED! It was such an incredible feeling because it was actually difficult to collect the stuff I needed and it felt SO GOOD when my cure actually worked

God this game is so cool. I get to play as an epic furry with superpowers. I can launch ICE BEAMS from my HANDS and PHOTOSYNTHESIZE. I am constantly GOOEY and SLIMY and GRUNGY. I met a bear underground who gave me a really good gun so now I can shoot everything that moves. I have 79 jars of jam that I carry around for no reason. Water is both money and you need it to live which is really cool design, actually. The soundtrack is so so weird but it fits so well. I have collected so many things and gotten so far and the fact that I could die at any moment and have to restart completely makes my accomplishments feel so much better.

Anyways caves of qud is really cool and I think anybody who likes roguelikes will like it

[nezu-mi]

Thank you for the tag @thalamussy -`♡´- i miss friendship books omfg

Are you named after anyone?

Technically yes, I'm named after Holy Mary cause my dad was manic and thought she asked him to have another child so here I am

2. When was the last time you cried?

Yesterday lol

3. Do you have kids?

Noooo and I don't want any

4. What sports do you/have you played?

Competitive couch rotting or sth, I never played sports, sweating makes me wanna rip my skin off

5. Do you use sarcasm?

(𓁹 𓁹)

6. What is the first thing you notice about people?

Honestly not sure, I guess clothes

7. What's your eye colour?

Brown

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

b-rated horror [pls no conjuring universe i'll explode]

9. Any talents?

Idk man I draw but that's a skill i've cultivated through the years I wouldn't call it a talent [hi pls take a look at my stuff <3]. I'd say I'm good at visual analysis of images and writing essays based on bullshit

10. Where were you born?

Kinda small city in greece

11. What are your hobbies?

Reading, writing, games

12. Do you have any pets?

yes i have a cat

13. How tall are you?

158 cm

14. Favourite subject in school?

Literature and philosophy

15. Dream job?

Hermit/alchemist of the village, that lives alone in a tower and only comes out once a year to sell potions and collect first borns or sth

I tag: @cutecapybarapics @helianthus-xi @pvtaaaa @requiemz @blog-de-segunda (no pressure ofc)

[vivifriend]

9 Aesthetic Albums

Was tagged by @thequeenofthewinter. Thank you. ^^ it was an interesting way to procrastinate this morning. And following your example, I'll also note my favorite songs, though not necessarily from the listed album. ^_^

Rules: Display my 9 favorite album covers for art reasons not content.

I'll tag @rainpebble3, @sixylicious and @raine-kai cause I'm curious but also Zero pressure. 💖 (if anyone else sees it, feel free to contribute).

Without further ado:

1 - SJ Tucker -Mischief. First album of hers I ever bought and looking at it still makes me smile. She has other album covers that are pretty but I adore the whimsy here. (If you're unfamiliar with her music, I highly recommend: Playing D&D and Cheshire Kitten)

2- Amaranthe -Manifest. I like most of Amaranthe's cover designs. They always include a futuristic/fantasy feeling but I really like the contrasting colors in this one. (If you haven't listened to Amaranthe, I recommend Crystalline or Amaranthine).

3- Lyriel -Leverage. Pretty Steampunk vibes here. What's not to like? ^^ (The named song from this album is a good intro to their music. But Paranoid Circus is one of my favorites (and their most popular from what I've seen. For good reason, it's enthralling)).

4- Within Temptation -The Silent Force. There are a few Within Temptation album covers I love but there's something about the contrast of the blue and black on this one that always draws me in. It's just very aesthetically pleasing. XD (If you don't know Within Temptation: Bittersweet is one of my favorite songs though it can be hard to track down. But you can't go wrong with Memories or Stand My Ground).

5- Panic! At the Disco -Pray for the Wicked. I really like the paint blending contrasted with the harsher lines of the buildings. (If you somehow haven't heard any of their songs, you can't really go wrong with High Hopes. But I gotta say... I do quite enjoy their version of Into the Unknown from Frozen 2 (still haven't seen that movie).

6- Trans-Siberian Orchestra -Night Castle. It's a castle. Can't really go wrong there. ^_^ (If you're only familiar with their holiday music I recommend: The Safest Way Into tomorrow or Night Castle).

7- Kansas -Point of Know Return. If it's not obvious by now, I enjoy whimsy. And Peter Lloyd's work here is lovely. (I'd be surprised if you don't know Kansas. But on the outside chance; Carry on Wayward Son and Dust in the Wind are well known, and fantastic. ^_^ )

8- Blind Guardian -A Twist of Myth. Now my favorite song by Blind Guardian is The Bard's Song but that's not on this album and this album cover has a Dragon, so obviously it's the better cover, lol. (Blind Guardian is well worth a listen imo. Skalds and Shadows, and the aforementioned Bard's Song are my favorites and a good intro to their style).

9- Kamelot -Silverthorn. The cover art is so pretty! The icicles, the Corvids, the dress! Just love it. (If you don't know Kamelot, I'd think that you should listen to three songs: Under Grey Skies, Silverthorn (Instrumental version) and Nothing Ever Dies to get an idea of the range their music can span).

[arireynes]

Thinking about secretly harboring a werewolf, and they're so desperate to mark me up, to let everyone know I'm taken, but I keep insisting that they can't, that we can't risk it, but it drives them crazy.

They leave marks everywhere else though. Between my legs, on my hips, at my chest, anywhere on my shoulders that they can get away with. But it's not enough. I'd have to leave them to keep my job, and I can't afford to look a mess leaving my house every day.

But one day they just have to have me. They pin me down, and beg and beg, saying they can't go on not claiming me as theirs. And I feel so bad for teasing them with it for so long, that I agree, tell them that I'll have a week to get away, and they can do anything they want.

They're sated as the week approaches, eager for the promise of finally having what they want, and I'd get nervous, wondering just what they're going to do. People are noticing how distracted I am, but I can't stop thinking about them in my room, waiting for me.

I'd manage to sneak them out with me, and we'd spend the week alone in a vacation home. As soon as we'd get there, they'd shove my things to the ground, and pin me to the wall.

They'd murmur that they were going to have me in every room of the house, that they were going to fuck me till I couldn't feel my legs, until I couldn't think of anything but them. That they were going to mark me up, to claim me, and make me theirs.

And I'd be so happy to finally give them what they want that I'd just spread my legs and tell them they can do anything they'd like.

[scrumptiousfoxglitter]

The relationship between Twitter and Tumblr is an excellent example of competition, a symbiotic relationship in which one or both parties are harmed. Twitter depends on Tumblr for a fair amount of the content found on there via reposted screenshots or stolen jokes, and Tumblr also depends on Twitter for a fair amount of content found on it via screenshots or stolen jokes, thus actively keeping users engaged. However, Twitter's inevitable downfall has led to its environment becoming too unstable for its users, forcing them to relocate to Tumblr. This, in turn, throws off the ecosystem that Tumblr had, as some of Twitter's userbase switches to Tumblr, so does some of its toxicity. This then makes the changes in the environment unfavorable to some users, on top of a lot of pointless updates it seems like nobody particularly cares for. Though, many still choose to stay, whether it be out of stubbornness, apathy, or just really, *really* not liking Twitter, though that doesn't change the fact that Tumblr has issues, and the downfall of Twitter could lead to Tumblr's downfall if the situation is treated without caution. In the meantime, the two apps are essentially competing for a userbase with no true end to it all.

[thelesbianthespianposts]

I would like to thank the 22 blogs that started following me after I published the poll even though most of you voted ray-diator

shoutout: @the-divine-ape, @seaglass-skies, @thehatthatsings, @swimmingnachopanda, @winnie-the-poo, @bubbling-frogs, @avidrambling, @penrose78, @flowrfemme, @voidrockbottom, @kaizies, @katiebug417, @ishipallthings, @kiwisoup, @mathemon, @cd-painting, @av0cad0-at-law, @kratie, @witches-ink, @neptunescunt, @jaune-arc-505, and @ingrid-hot

[artsyriv]

It’s taken a long time to get where I am.

But, as is often the case, all of the hardship and pain has led to this moment. And yeah, it’s really different than I thought it would be.

I’m not skinny, which my ED would hate and does still hate from the back of my mind. I’m disabled, which would be a shock to every iteration of myself prior to 2021. But most of all, I’m stable.

I get up in the morning, exhausted as I’m going through a med change on top of the regular fatigue, and I put on clothes. They weren’t the clothes I wore two years ago, when I entered treatment. They aren’t smaller. But I’m ok with that.

I put on long compression socks and then my braces, trying to keep my joints in line. This ritual is so normal to me now, but it’s also new. A part of me grieves my health. But I keep moving forward.

I eat breakfast, take my pile of pills, sit in front of a sunlamp, hoping that today will be a better day than most.

When I get to the place I’ve been visiting since August 2021, I banter with the receptionist. I don’t mention how I took the stairs for the first time in months, how I was able to speak after doing so. These reminders of improvement, reminders of recovery, give me something to strive for as I continue.

And I’m done. Yesterday I had my last IOP day, today it was the last of my screening, but I’m done.

I’m having a small party to celebrate.

I buy myself a coffee, the kind I used to like before my ED took control of my life. It’s as good as I remember it.

I go grocery shopping with some friends, and I buy things that look good. I don’t look at the calories, because I don’t need to. I am fueled by nutrients regardless.

I wear headphones most of the time. My room is dark, and I take salt pills and use a cane sometimes. I have learned that these aids are here for a reason, and I use them.

I talk to friends. I hold conversations, and I seek community. My disorder thrives in secrecy, so I talk about the book I’m reading and special effects. I laugh and nobody needs me to make eye contact.

I don’t spiral. Not like I used to. I’m cutting off my family, and I don’t spiral about it. I don’t spiral when a conservative account sends hate my way, I don’t spiral with a new diagnosis, I don’t spiral when I get a haircut I don’t immediately love. I’m stable (thanks DBT) and it’s so much nicer here.

It’s been a long journey, but my kitchen is an embarrassment of riches and my room is a haven. I’m going to play board games and it’s going to be fun.

My recovery was, and will always be, worth it. I promise there’s a light on the other side.

[blueywritespoetry]

I think I've changed for the better.

I put on natural makeup now

And I always swore that this

Was the moment makeup stopped

Being fun, and started being

For good looks or vanity

But it's not. I was a child

Judging others through a window

Before I ever opened the curtains

I put on natural makeup now

Not because I want to kill myself

And dress up nicely for my execution

But because I want to practice for prom

I want to put in effort, I want

To look nice and be nice.

I think I've changed for the better

Stopped hating my femininity

Stopped hating blush and eyeliner

Stopped avoiding perfume brands

I think I'm changed for the better.