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[charliegyrth]

Liam's Sweet Tooth

A Weight Gain Story

Liam was lifting weights when I got home. His muscular body was coated in sweat and his face was scrunched up in determination and pain. He knew I was home but didn’t acknowledge me until he finished his set.

I was fine with that. Not every guy gets to come home to an absolute adonis pumping iron in his living room.

He dropped the weights and wiped the sweat from his brow. “Hey, honey. You’re early.”

“The cake orders for tomorrow got cancelled, so I didn’t need to be there. I let Manny finish up.”

“Hopefully he won’t eat all of your inventory.”

“Don’t say that.”

Liam was such a nice guy, but he always made snide little remarks about my employees. I owned a bakery, so of course my workers gained a bit of weight over the years. Manny had been with me from the beginning, so Liam had seen him grow from a svelte 22-year-old kid into a 350-pound 28-year-old man. He was a good worker because he believed in the product, but he never, ever ate anything that wasn’t going to be thrown away.

Plus, the customers loved him. I always sold more stuff when he was behind the counter because he constantly gave suggestions and raved about pretty much everything I made.

“Sorry,” Liam said. “So what did you bring for me?”

I’d forgotten that I had a box in my hands. I opened the lid, revealing a brand-new éclair that I was planning to introduce.

He took a big bite and whimpered. “Babe, this is incredible.”

“That’s what I wanted to hear.”

Liam had dubbed himself my official taste-tester. Every time I tried something new, I always gave him the first bite.

He wasn’t a particularly good taste-tester, though. Despite being ridiculously fit, he had the biggest sweet tooth of anyone I knew. Every dessert tasted “incredible” to him. One time, for a little experiment, I gave him a donut that I’d purposely made with way too much sugar. It was inedible. But he still ate the whole thing and gave me a big thumbs up.

“You just brought one?” he asked, licking his fingers.

“I always just bring one.”

“Yeah. ’Cause Manny eats the rest of ’em, huh?”

“Stop saying things like that!” I shouted.

Liam flinched. I never raised my voice, especially at him.

“Sorry. I’m a little upset. Manny put in his two weeks’ notice today. His bitchy wife got a job in Phoenix.” It really hurt to lose my oldest and most loyal employee. I knew this day would come. He’d been talking about moving for months now, but the news still stung.

“Well, shit,” Liam said, wrapping me in a sweaty hug. “That sucks.”

“It’ll be fine,” I said, both to him and to myself. “I’m sure I’ll find someone, though I doubt I’ll find anyone as enthusiastic.”

He pulled away. “I’ll do it!”

I let the words sink in, but I didn’t respond.

“Seriously! Think about it! No one appreciates your baking as much as I do! Plus, I’m superhot. Your stuff will be flying off the shelves like hotcakes!”

“I don’t make hotcakes,” I joked, mostly to avoid responding.

Liam was amazing. And I’m pretty sure he was a good worker. The only reason he was currently unemployed was because his previous employer had gone bankrupt. But…

“I don’t know if that would be healthy for us,” I said. “Mixing business with pleasure. You know.”

“Yeah. I get it.” He collapsed onto the sofa dramatically. For such a big, masculine guy, there were times when he reminded me of a six-year-old.

I hated to disappoint him like this. And if I took our marriage out of the equation, he would be an ideal candidate.

“Okay. How about this? I’ll hire you for a month, and we’ll see if it works without, you know, affecting our marriage.”

He jumped up. “Really?”

“But be aware. I’m a tough boss. I try to run a tight ship, so I’ll be treating you like an employee, not a husband.”

“Understood.” He kissed me.

“And you won’t freak out if you start gaining weight like all my other employees?”

He scoffed. “Look at me! I’m married to the city’s best baker and I still have a six pack. I think I’ll be fine.”

What he didn’t realize was that I chose to limit the amount of sweets I brought home. For Liam, they were an occasional treat, not a daily temptation. At work, I used the leftover baked goods as a reward to my employees. An incentive.

But he’d find out soon enough. I wouldn’t be surprised if he started gaining right away. Like Manny had. Knowing how vain Liam was, he’d gain ten pounds, get horrified, and quit. You mark my words.

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Two years later.

When I got home, Liam was sitting on our new, reinforced sofa, eating red velvet cake by the handful. His flabby body spread out in all directions, his pale side rolls hanging over the edge of the red sofa like the thick icing on his rapidly-disappearing cake. He knew I was home, but he didn’t acknowledge me until he had finished binging.

I was fine with that. Not every guy gets to come home to a such a luscious example of soft, jiggling hedonism.

“Hey, honey. You’re home early.”

“Yeah. Manny’s handling tomorrow’s orders again. Since he came back, he’s been absolutely killing it. I’ve been giving him more of my responsibilities, and he hasn’t disappointed me yet. Sales are finally up again.”

A look of embarrassment passed over Liam's icing-stained faced. “Well, you made the right choice, babe.” He tried to pull his shirt down to cover more of his bulging stomach, but the fabric immediately rolled back up. Plus, he spilled a bunch of crumbs onto the couch.

“We all have our talents,” I told him reassuringly as I grabbed the dustbuster from the table. I switched it on and cleaned up the sofa cushions. Then I got to work sucking up all the crumbs that were still on his stomach. The handheld vacuum pulled at his soft flesh, sending ripples through him in the most adorably hypnotic way. I loved cleaning my husband, and I think he loved it, too.

He just leaned back, moaning softly, enjoying the rhythmic wobble.

“And what’s my talent?” he asked me.

I picked up a hunk of cake that he’d left on the table and pushed it against his lips. He gobbled it up as fast as the dustbuster. “What do you think, Liam?”

His talent was eating. Obviously. A beautiful talent. An incredibly erotic talent.

And a talent that had almost put me out of business.

When Liam first started working for me, he was the ideal employee. He followed directions and used his muscle-god body to entice the customers into ordering more food. He had this line that he’d always use whenever a customer was second-guessing an order: “Treat yourself. An extra donut won’t hurt you. I eat ’em all the time, and look at me.”

That line became less and less effective as the weeks wore on. I thought Manny had gained weight fast, but nothing compared to Liam. It took him three weeks (I’m not kidding) to develop a droop over his belt. A month for his pecs to turn into moobs. Two months for an extremely noticeable double chin. Three months in, his stomach had morphed from abs into a full-on gut.

His whole “treat yourself” mantra had turned into a major turn-off to our customers. When they looked at Liam behind the counter, they saw proof of how dangerously fattening my treats were.

Back when Manny had been behind the counter, the customers took his large body as an endorsement of the products. With Liam, who was so red-faced and winded at the same size, they took it as a warning sign: "Don't eat here or you'll end up like him."

I lost customers. I lost money on all his new uniforms. And worst of all, I lost my inventory.

It took me a couple months to discover exactly why Liam was gaining so fast: He was stealing our food. It started out with a couple missing donuts or cake slices each day, but the longer he worked, the more he took. Once I caught him red-handed (well, chocolate-handed), I completely flipped out. He was putting my business in jeopardy. None of my other employees had ever done that.

He started crying and swore to me up and down that he’d stop.

For a while, he did. He started buying cheap (and terrible) baked goods from the supermarket just so he could have something to eat while he worked. Business was still down, but at least I wasn’t running out of food.

After a year and a half, Liam had ballooned to over 350 pounds. Manny had been that size (after six years), but he always had a ton of energy and enthusiasm. I think because Liam’s gains had happened so fast, and his muscles had so quickly atrophied under his extra layers, he’d become a much more sluggish, much less healthy-looking fat person. It took him way too long to do the simplest tasks, and he was really scaring off customers.

The ironic part is that, despite how bad he was for business, I found him hotter by the day. I loved him as a muscle stud, but I loved him so much more as the soft, weak blob that he’d become. I wanted to take care of him, to grow him, to serve his unending hunger.

When I caught him in the back of the bakery squeezing my expensive buttercream icing into his mouth, I was both furious and aroused. I fired him then and there, explaining that I loved what he’d done to himself but I couldn’t keep putting my business in jeopardy.

He understood.

Thankfully, that was around the time that Manny had moved back from Phoenix. (His marriage didn’t work out.) I hired him to be my co-manager, giving him free rein to try different strategies to turn the business back around.

And he did. Six months later and we were back on track. The business was in the black and Liam, free to eat all day at home, gained an additional 70 pounds. (I think. Our scale broke.)

I crawled onto the sofa next to my big, beautiful husband. He radiated warmth. One hand around his sloping shoulders and another rubbing his belly, I felt so deeply happy. We weren’t meant to work together, but in the short time that we had, our relationship (and his body) grew in ways that neither of us imagined.

He leaned closer, his belly shifting and sloshing, and whispered into my ear. I thought he was going to say something romantic. Instead, he whispered, “I’m thirsty.”

“I’ll get you something sweet.”

The End.

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[raisedbythetv89]

I've been thinking about the invisible string of it all as it relates to spuffy for the last 48 hours and I'm still going INSANE about it 😹😭

So Liam/Angel/Angelus who uses young girls at best or abuses, psychologically torments and kills them at worst does the worst of the worst to Drusilla and once she's completely broken and hopelessly devoted to him and and only him he immediately loses interest which of course leads to the creation of Spike

Spike who is obsessed with slayers because instead of running from what is designed to destroy him he seeks it out and sees it as a fun and exciting challenge he learns from. Spike who killed two slayers, one who lost her weapon and the other who wished for death. Who's deaths are obviously instrumental in what brings about Buffy the Vampire Slayer being called (Spike also later both preventing the fulfillment of Buffy's death wish and helping her secure THE slayer weapon by giving her the strength she needs??? THE POETRY!!!!)

So Buffy is called when she's called because of all the slayer deaths that came before her and Angel's predatory selfishness and obsession with breaking young innocent girls leads to him eventually losing his soul. Which in combination with his need to constantly belittle Spike for genuinely loving for and caring for Dru aka being feminine and sensitive by taking Drusilla from him and constantly rubbing it in his face and making fun of him for being stuck in a wheelchair aka being weak and helpless (which only happened because he was trying to save Dru and heal her! Demonstrating how rooted in misogyny all of angel's behavior is soul or no soul) is what prompts the origins of Spuffy! Misogyny and cruelty at the hands of Angel combined with Spike and Buffy's determination to never give up no matter how hopeless the circumstances and never back down even if that means teaming up with your enemy is the birth of their relationship!!! They both would literally do anything for love!!! Be it an evil vampire saving the world or the Slayer teaming up with the Slayer of Slayers!!!! Which of course the truce is what causes Spike and Dru to break up which leads to Spike confronting Buffy with the reality about her relationship to angel and the true nature of it. Which of course angel is a manipulative monster who doesn't accept her breaking up with him and moving on so he threatens suicide and then they're back together and THEN once she's comfortable and secure around him, supported by joyce who both institutionalized and kicked buffy out for being the slayer - is like oop it's time to GO girl and breaks up with her in the dumbest most traumatic unresolved way possible and is what leads to her giving "normal" aka Riley a chance because Angel calls their relationship a freak-show and that she, the slayer.... should be normal.....

Which then in s4 Riley and the initiative try and tame and control both Spike and Buffy and when they can't they want them destroyed (the chip, the attempt on Buffy's life and her constantly feeling guilty for being stronger than him and being the slayer, Riley fake staking Spike for outing his betrayal to Buffy and literally blowing up their safe haven in s6) again pushing them together onto the same side, united against a common enemy in s4/5 or propelling them into growth in s6 when the goal was just destruction of Spike/Buffy's comfort in his presence and instead it starts the chain of events that leads to him getting his soul which allows Buffy to love him and let him back into her life and this time her own home without guilt or shame!!!

Then in season 7 both the chip (everything Riley represents) angel and even faith (with the most uncomfortable try hard flirting attempt I've ever seen the second hand embarrassment I get watching her try and hit on Spike is SO strong 🤢😭) try to come between them and pull them apart, create doubt or put them at odds, all fail as now they are an unshakable team that cannot be divided

Where before they were forced onto the same sides by outside forces they're now choosing each other again and again even in the face of outward hostility, disapproval and outright sabatoge from everyone in her life.

Spike and Buffy's relationship is the story of a young girl and a sensitive more feminine man turned vampire who were taught to hate their softness, their femininity, their big hearts, their otherness and were literally designed to destroy each other. Who when the universe kept forcing them together instead of destruction they alchemized the misogyny, abuse and homophobia (as the supernatural is used many times as a metaphor for queerness) they endured both individually and together into liberation for young girls (in the show but for the audience it's representative of liberation for all victims of abuse or oppression no matter your gender identity) everywhere while breaking all the ties that sought to control them and it was all started with Angel's destruction and subsequent abandonment of Drusilla! An abusive predatory man's actions unwittingly lead to the empowerment of THOUSANDS of super-powered young girls who are now able to fight back against monsters like him. Showcasing how abusers and tyrants always create their own downfall because of people like Spike and Buffy who in the face of adversity and pain grow better and stronger out of sheer determination.

There is also a fan theory that Dru was a potential who was about to be called and that's why she was plagued with visions so if all of this is like the ULTIMATE slayer's line revenge on both the council and the original cowardly men who used a young girl to fight their battles for them and on men like angel who lost his control over Buffy and had to watch her chose Spike over him both in s7 when she sends him away and in the comics that makes all of this even more iconic like the ultimate long game revenge but even if it's not and Dru wasn't a potential - an abusive monster who loves to target the weak and helpless tormenting and killing a young innocent girl starting the chain reaction of events that leads to the largest liberation of young girls who would have been exploited and controlled by the council and doomed to short lives full of nothing but fighting and isolation is just fucking incredible 😭 and that is what spuffy represents and what that relationship means to me and why no matter what shit joss tried to throw at us through the narrative or what the anti's say to this day - none of it ever sticks because spuffy is literally about dealing with abusive people just like him and overcoming the pain they cause and turning it into personal growth and healing.

[fallingforel]

Love your work!!, could you please do prompt 18 “I’ve got you.”

louis fluff - something happens to y/n and the 1D boys comfort her till lou gets there and then says that line and lovey stuff!! absolutely love for protective louis shots😭

request: could you do prompt 18 “I’ve got you.” with louis fluff please! like something happens to y/n and the other boys find her crying or scared and comfort her until louis shows up and he gets protective and just showers her in comfort words and gestures or something! i live for protective lou🥲 sorry if that’s all over the place i don’t word things great😭

A/N of course I can lovelys, this is probably gonna be one of my favourite requests to write so thank you

warnings: panic attack, mentions of death, mentions of cancer, hypochondria, mentions of shootings, parent death, PTSD attack, Mentions of claustrophobia, mentions of smoking (is that even one idk 😅😅)

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I always have been panic attack prone my whole life, well since my mum had been in a freak accident of being shot at in a supermarket here in the U.K I was with her but the shooter only shot at my mum and not me. it was very rare to be shot at in the U.K. She was just in the wrong place at the wrong time and you were very lucky to escape it my dad always tells me Though I think it's only to keep me from having anxiety attacks when I think back to it I was 10 when it happened so I was old enough to understand what had happened, even when I didn't want to. My dad had since then bought my brothers and me up. I had met Louis when we both worked in Toys R us and we hit it off instantly and I had signed him up for x-factor after our first date in a karaoke bar in leeds we made a whole day trip to leeds for our first date.

I could feel one coming on as soon as Harry, niall and I got back to the tour bus. We had all gone out for food. Zayn, Liam and Louis had stayed behind to smoke cigarettes so Niall Harry and I had opted to go back to the tour bus. Sometimes I smoke but I was too full and had a headache all day. I think the headache caused it, I also have hypochondria so this hightens my PTSD because I think I have cancer or something and then I panic and it leads into a full anxiety attack. They are never pretty but Louis' there through all of them and knows exactly how to calm me down when I'm going through them.

My breathing quickens "y/n/n are you okay? You look really pale." Niall asks but I barely hear it before I'm dropping to the floor and crying "shit. y/n, can you focus on my voice for me?" Harry says. But in amongst the ringing its very hard to make out My breathing quickens again and I start to shake. "shit, Ni call Louis tell him to come back. It's one of the worse ones" the ringing loudens before I'm squinting my eyes shut and saying "STOP MAKE IT STOP DONT SHOOT!"

A few minutes of ringing and my sobs fill the air before Louis taps on my chest "Hey darling, You're okay. Focus on the tapping can you do that for me?" he asks me which I nod to. "good darling keep doing that for me"

-LOUIS POV-

"Harry can you take her jumper off for me I need to keep tapping her chest I can't do it myself" He nods and is quick to do so "what now?" "get her pyjamas from my bunk shes gonna want to change, she's all sweaty. Niall can you get a cold glass of water and a cold wet flannel aswell, she's burning up she's stressed. After that can you all leave the room. Just leave everything In a pile next to me I'll sort it out, she needs space this is making everything worse, the cramped tour bus doesnt help. just all wait outside please." They are all quick to nod and do as I have said.

As soon as everyone is off the tour bus I'm stripping her out of her top and pulling mine off too and pulling her close to me so we can do skin to skin

"right, now darling focus on my breathing can you do that for me breathe with me In. two three four. Out, two three four. Good girl thats it keep doing that for me. I've got you" and she follows enough so that she's calm and her breath is back to normal.

"What even happened babe?" I say "Headache, you know my hypochondria aggrivates the PTSD I think that I've got cancer then I'm going to die and then I think of death then my mum then the day it all went down"

"I see, I see. I knew I should've gone with you, knew something bad would happen the moment you left my side."

"No, don't be so silly. It would've happened either way. I would've calmed down eventually whether you were here or not"

"No you wouldn't have"

"Lou, Babe. don't blame yourself you nor I can control when they happen you know that. Dont be so silly. I know you'll always be there when they stop You've got me always."

" i know, I've got you, always darling"

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bryce Hfj Nd Headcanons u Say... ? Share them Pretty Pleas? wuld Love 2 Hear ur Thoughts Bout that Guy..

i see him having anxiety, clinical depression, c-ptsd and autism

the depression part is kinda obvious as to why if you pay attention to his character but ill elaborate later

the anxiety part is actually technically canon, since he has thalassophobia, which is an anxiety disorder (plus the fact i dont think airy would just randomly add a fun fact to their extra sections - a phobia caused by an actual disorder differs from just an irrational fear so yeah (also caney has epilepsy listed in his extra sections which is a disorder)) i'd like to incorporate that along with the cptsd part since it causes anxiety obviously

as for autism its more of a headcanon for fun rather than with factual basis but ill elaborate on it also

my reasoning for him having c-ptsd is not because of the competition but his childhood, his mom's behavior was so bad that stella had to out of her way to keep bryce away from her

i say complex ptsd specifically because of how he asks if she's having "another one" so we can assume it happened consistently. he also didn't have any way to escape (aside from stella distracting him) considering it was domestic. i dont really think his mom abused him in some way ? but the consequences had to be destructive enough for stella to assume their own home was unsafe for a small child. we don't see much about bryce's relationship with his mom (or his parents in general) but that 100% carried on to his adult self - especially if it happened frequently, and it was super early too because i dont think he was any older than like 7 in that flashback

another factor for this is stella's death ofc, we know how much their relationship mattered to him and how losing her affected him so i dont think i need to overexplain it

as for the way its shown in the show: compared to everyone else, his startled response feels more severe for me, like he always goes on fight or flight mode rather than just freaking out a little. i want to point out one 10 specially

liam shows up at bryces door after 7 months and just stays there for an entire night, during all that time liam just rambles about one and his mere presence is a reminder of one for bryce. one was a traumatizing experience for everyone, but bryce processes it differently, being reminded of that just sents him into shock:

he can't think of how to react until 10 hours later. the way liam reacts at first suggest he thinks bryce is just being rude and purposefully ignoring him, he thinks bryce shouldn't avoid talking to him because he thinks he didn't go through the same amount of pain he [liam] did on the plane and he shouldn't act like he did; but he isn't aware of how anything that remotely reminds him of a bad experience can send him spiraling back to that place, he may not have stayed as long and not have suffered as much (or worse) as liam, but he's been living with this mindset for so long that it's just an automatic reaction. he can panic at anything:

(and i wanna point out how on the first one the shot focuses specifically on him)

and that may seem obvious like, yeah of course he would panic in one 10 of course he was trying to process seeing liam out of nowhere after almost a year but i only went on this tangent and brought that up bc i wanna link it to another thing ....

in one 13 bryce says how "his life was miserable before the competition" and "now that its over he has an incentive to do something with his life". kylie also says that after bryce came back she feels like "he's taking his job more seriously". what i wanna touch on is how the way they put it seems like bryce is trying to like find a purpose in his life, but not exactly find peace ? i don't know exactly how to put it. like he says he was pretty miserable and demotivated he had a stupid chungus life whatever. it feels like he was trying to get his life in order and get more done, rather than facing what was holding him back in the first place and try to make peace with that. he felt unproductive when that's not really the main cause of his misery. which brings me to..

his whole thing with the waiting room. he didn't have any panic reaction, but he was definitely clinging to the past, in this case his childhood and the moments he got to feel safe with stella

now i know the waiting room is designed to make you want to go to whatever's calling you no matter what, but metaphors exist ok . so im gonna consider it a metaphor for his cptsd in bryce's case

he spends the entire episode clinging to the manifestation of stella, but liam stops him from actually going w her because he wants them to solve the whole airy thing first. by the end of it, bryce stops seeing the suburbs as well as stella. when liam and bryce finally get to rest, he says:

he didn't realize that his tendency to ignore his suffering in the past doesn't prepare him for when it pops up again. it send him into terror, he can't help but go back to reliving it, this cycle just kept making him feel worse but he insisted in doing better instead of reconciling with himself

his childhood and one were two different traumatic experiences, but accepting he can't just live what he went through in that competition behind makes him realize he doesn't need to be scared of his past so often. he had to realize he can't just constantly try to repress what happened and move on without reflecting on the way what happened scarred him and continues to affect him; even if he supresses it, it will come back one point and make him go through all that all over again (which is another reason for me to think that people saying bryce dislikes liam is stupid but thats not the point !🙄)

as for his depression season 1 implies it a lot, specially with the flashback sequence in one 7 i can see him having executive dysfunction and it being one of the reasons as to why he tried changing so much after one he also has problems with sleep, and the irritability that comes with experiencing depression in general. also stella's death once again contributes to it

i see him being autistic mainly because he's this trope basically:

(sorry this image is the only way i could put it . you have to understand . ) kylie says how he's not very expressive, and we see how he really isn't. monotonicity is very characteristic of asd, in his case it feels specially like a symptom considering how, in most cases, people don't mean to be as monotone as they are. we know bryce isn't exactly the most chill person in the world he just has a hard time managing and expressing his emotions

bringing up executive dysfunction again, its also a common trait in asd

another thing is his hypersensitivity (which i already talked about a lot), overstimulation can lead to panic attacks you get what i mean. i think he fits as being sensory avoidant

the way he handles most social situations in the show (specially on the plane and with liam on season 2) i can see him being oblivious to social cues

not exactly factual basis just a little analysis, i interpret him being low empathy but high compassion. i think the low empathy would be more related to his irritability

[i-am-church-the-cat]

Okay so sorry for this ask. I just had this random thought blurb and wanted to share with someone. But like imagine:

Lando decides to suggest to Oscar that it would be funny if they get married in Vegas. Cause like that would be hilarious. Except Oscar looks him dead in the eye and says “I can’t, I’m already married” before walking away.

So of course Lando has a major freak out trying to figure out who he married and ropes the whole grid in the search. There is a strong rumor it’s Daniel (which Daniel started cause it’s funny). There is also the rumor that is Taylor Swift (that’s Este trying to annoy Nando). And of course there are suggestions of Fred, Liam, and even Arthur (which Pierre and Charles’s shut down right away because they would have to kill him).

And everyone keeps asking Logan if he knows and he just keeps laughing it off. But he’s also it’s a sad laugh because he’s a little sad to thing that nobody thinks he could be worthy of Oscar, even if he agrees.

And of course this pisses Oscar off. Because his husband is the sweetest man around. Because who the fuck cares if he is having a bad season when he is always there to make sure Oscar does things like eat breakfast or makes sure he isn’t too hard on himself.

So when the grid decides to do a group breakfast the morning after in Vegas (to compare horror stories). Oscar marks the shit out of Logan as they show up with their wedding rings.

Anon, never apologize for being the smartest motherfucker in the room. As a secretly married loscar truther, I am in love with this. And you’re always welcome to come in my messages or my ask box with stuff like this.

I can imagine Oscar being so smug at that breakfast. It’s his ring around Logan’s finger, it’s his marks on Logan’s body, it’s him who gets to keep bringing waffles for Logan to devour in record speed.

And I think the reason no one suspected it could be Logan Oscar was married to is because they would’ve known, right? Surely they wouldn’t have been able to keep it a secret for 9 months?

(Well, Alex and George had known pretty quickly who it was but they weren’t going to spoil the surprise.)

But even now with them both declaring themselves to each other for all of them to see, they barely act any different. Small touches, leaned in whispers, pressed as close together as two people could in opposite chairs, but still completely level-headed.

And finally Lando snaps and is like “How? How are you two so calm around each other? If I had a partner on the grid, I wouldn’t be able to keep my hands off of them.”

Oscar shrugs and Logan laughs awkwardly and even now they’re like twin planets - always together but never crashing.

“We’ve been together for a long time,” Oscar answers which, they would hope so for the youngest married couple on the grid. “And most of that time it’s had to be a secret. I guess we’re just used to it.”

“Plus, neither of us are big on PDA.” A rather ironic thing for Logan to say while covered in bite marks and red-purple hickies. “We like to keep our private life private.”

And suddenly Lando feels bad because maybe they had never planned on coming out to them, or at least not so soon, but Lando had practically forced their hand because of his little goose hunt. But Logan smiles understandingly at him and is quick to reassure.

“Don’t worry, we were planning to tell people on the grid sooner rather than later, probably when my contract extension was announced, if it’s ever decided.”

Oscar makes a face at that but doesn’t interrupt.

“We just chose now because…” And suddenly Logan gets this look on his face, something pained and almost embarrassed. Oscar tangles their left hands together to stop him in his tracks, proudly displaying their matching rings before continuing.

“None of you thought I could have the honor of being married to Logan - hurtful, by the way, I’m obviously a catch - so I wanted to show everyone who I belonged to.”

Logan blushes a light pink, but he’s smiling. Oscar feels a bit of relief as Logan lays his head on his shoulder, allowing him to turn his nose into the gel-less waves of his blond hair.

The rest of their drivers start to clamor their excuses - you’re too good at hiding it, we thought Logan was dating that Instagram model, actually you’re right you aren’t good enough for my junior Williams driver but you make him happy so I guess it’s okay (this one is of course from George who is met with a lot of boos and biscuit throwing) - but it doesn’t really matter.

Who cares what any of them thought? At the end of the day, Oscar is the one sitting here with Logan Sargeant’s hand intertwined with his, he’s the one that will get to go back with him to their shared apartment, bundle his Florida boy up against the cruel English winter, and indulge in the domestic bliss of being with someone he truly loved.

When one had that, who cared about anything else?

[your-enby-antihero]

🪞🔴🪞🕯️✉️🕯️🪞🔴🪞

Y’all don’t understand Aimee Carrero always walks into the CR studio and fucking eats every time. She is so woman and no one gets it she is just the most ever and no one gets it. This chapter has to tie for one of my favourite (it’s hard they all tie for my favourite but maybe this one a itty bitty bit more) like the cast, the costumes, the set, Liam freaking O’Brien. The second half of the episode truly was crazy, like the second hand trippyness was crazy. Dr Edgar Lycoris love of my life you funky handprint motherfucker the way Alexander Ward show up want this man to die gets his wish and I’m still fucking shaking regardless of the signposting telling me for sure Edgar was dead. Imari Williams sir sir sir the amount of shit this man pulled that just fucked Liam over was beautiful, I cannot wait to see Imari back at the table eventually because he was truly a delight, Malcolm Trills what a fucking guy just a true protecter until the end. As said before Aimee Carrero is just always so phenomenal at this table always brewing up something so heartbreaking especially with the ties between Opal and Grimoria like just two fresh eyed girls haunted by ghosts of the past just getting their shit rocked and every time I eat it up! Taliesin Jaffe and his stupid traumatized little gay man, dude Leo owes me money cause sir wait to steal all my tear out of my eyes with that letter to Grimoria at the end, like please I can’t it’s so late at night. And of course the infallible Liam O'Brien what a story what a story, so terribly heartbreaking and so terribly on brand for him. His portrayal of all those women in grief were all so beautiful. Cannot wait for the session zero on this!

[thelazyhermits]

If the kids accidently time travelled to Yuu and the boys school years, it'll be a total disaster. Especially a specific flamehead that is dying in the background after meeting a child the looks like him who calls him papa and Yuu mama. Kinda want to see Jack and Sebek's reaction too when their future kids call them Dad/Father. The amount of chaos that the kids will cause would be so much fun to read.

Oh man, the amount of chaos this sorta scenario would cause would be off the charts. The overblots are nothing compared to this lol 😂

All of Yuu's friends are utterly dumbfounded when these kids suddenly show up, calling Yuu Mom/Mama/Mother especially when some of the guys themselves get called Dad/Daddy/Papa/Father,

Yuu handles it rather well cause she immediately realizes that there's no way she's the biological mother of these kids due to her being firm in her decision to never have biological children since she would never risk her child's well-being by taking chances with her alien DNA/dangerous Quirk, etc.

Plus, it's obvious from Liam's pointed ears that he's a fae, so it's impossible for him to be Yuu & Sebek's biological son lol

As you said, Idia is freaking the hell out about Orion and just on the verging of the ultimate Game Over. The poor dude is barely hanging onto life cause the embarrassment is just too great for him to bear lol The only thing that saves him is the fact that Orion is so sweet/cheerful like Ortho, and having another Ortho-like person around is very good for his mental health.

Malleus is super surprised when Tsuki starts calling him Daddy, but he quickly rolls with it cause it makes him happy how she's not the least bit afraid of him and clearly adores him. This man melts like butter so damn fast; he's wrapped around her little finger like his future self in no time lol

Malleus, Leona, and Sebek are like Yuu in that they quickly take notice of things that prove these kids aren't theirs biologically since Tsuki has no fae traits and Sora is a cat Beastman not a lion Beastman. That's why they don't jump to the wrong conclusion like Idia.

In the case of Jack, it's a little harder cause there are physical traits that he and Theo share, but considering Theo doesn't share any physical characteristics with Yuu and the fact that, while Jack does love Yuu very much platonically, Jack is confident that he and Yuu wouldn't end up having a child together since Jack is the type who would only have a kid with the person he one day marries cause that's how wolf Beastmen are.

Of course, Jack still gets flustered initially when Theo calls him Dad and Yuu Mom, just like Sebek whose face turns scarlet when he gets the news lol

They're both so surprised and embarrassed since they really never imagined themselves to be in a situation like this with Yuu, who definitely playfully teases them and says how happy she is that her future children will have such wonderful fathers.

Like Malleus, Leona is really caught off guard by this turn of events, and of course, he's not too thrilled about all these children showing up out of nowhere cause he's not fond of kids.

However, it doesn't take long for Leona to soften up around Sora who so happily calls him Papa. There's just something about seeing someone so delighted to see him and be close to him that really has a large impact on him.

Leona never imagined himself being in this sorta scenario. He likely thought he'd always be alone cause who wants the second prince? But obviously that's not the case, and that has a profound effect on him.

Leona doesn't get the least bit embarrassed about this scenario. On the contrary, he teases Yuu about loving him so much that she got one of her kids this attached to him. He also has fun messing with Ruggie and the others who aren't too thrilled about Yuu having a kid with someone like him lol

Regarding everyone else, Lilia is ecstatic about all these grandkids, and Kalim is so happy to be an uncle. Kalim immediately wants to start buying stuff for the kids, but thankfully, Jamil stops him from going crazy.

Rook, Cater, and Ortho would also be super excited about this turn of events, Ortho especially, cause his OTP will end up raising a child together in the future lol 😂

Meanwhile, everyone else is just trying to wrap their minds around this crazy situation. The Tweels, of course, are thoroughly amused and loving every second of this chaos lol

There really would be a lot of chaos cause, while the kids are well-behaved overall, they'd be so eager to see NRC for themselves and hang out with the younger versions of their parents/uncles/grandpa/big brothers. They'd be all over the place if they weren't closely monitored.

While I don't plan on writing something for this prompt at the moment, I might do it eventually just because it's such a hilarious scenario haha

[mybigmouthh]

more of the SH prompt. I think it sorta has to end by the time noel starts being a roadie when he’s what? 23? and liam’s 18. noel getting involved in the club scene and work he’s distracted himself enough where he isn’t cutting as frequently as he was when he was teen. liam comes to his bed some nights to see if noel’s made new cuts and noel lashes out out saying he’s a creep pervert acting like he didn’t build this habit onto his brother :( so sad.

Noel’s been clean for a few months till he has a bad day noel and cuts his thighs real bad. maybe it’s like a fucked up verison of loch londmond where he feels like he’s losing liam? maybe it’s the night before noel leaves to tour with inspiral. he wakes liam up. and liam’s mad cause noel can’t call him a sick freak and then expect him to be his lil lick boy. he then starts calling noel the freak. what he does isn’t normal. he’s only doing to get a rise out of him. that he needs to be put in some hospital (he says it like it’s an insult but he actually wants noel to get help :(( ) and argument starts. maybe liam complies by the end after he tackles noel and stares at his cut up thighs and it’s been built into him to be aroused by his wounds so cue dead dove activities including blood

WARNING, DEAD DOVE (SH)‼️

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WOWWWW YOU'RE REACHING MINDBREAKING POINTS WITH THIS. It's a whole melodrama and I'm here for it. And I see Noel is projecting onto Liam huh?

The last part is what keeps me like 👀👀👀 cuz "it's been built into him to be aroused by his wounds" it's absolutely twisted. You mean Liam developed a blood kink??? Omg, he should lick Noel's thighs anyways, gathering blood on his tongue until he only tastes iron. Then of course a little blowjob would help them to say their last goodbyes before Noel leaves. Yes, Liam should drink the mix of cum and blood from his brother, like a whole ritualistic sacrament.

Afterwards, Liam takes care of Noel's wounds properly, but they stay in absolute silence until the next morning, lying awake and processing what they just did, what they have built up. When Noel finally leaves, he actually stays clean for a longer time, cuz the wounds healing are his last reminiscent of Liam ♥️

Ooooh that was sick, I loved it!!! Thanks for coming to me with this amazing idea <3

[she-karev]

The Doppelganger (Maya x Carina Funny/Sweet Imagine)

Previous Part Here

Age Rating: 12+

Chapters: Four of Four

Fandom: Station 19

Ship: Maya Bishop x Carina DeLuca

AN: Hey guys I hope you all are having a great Pride Month and I hope you enjoyed my story so far, comment down below and tell me what you think.

One Shot Requests: If you guys have any requests for more Maya x Carina content please share.

Summary: Maya and Carina are in bed and talk about Mia.

Words: 1005

June 6th, 2023

Maya is sitting on the floor of the living room playing with Liam. She holds up a Bluey doll and speaks in high pitched Australian voice.

“Now fly Chunky!” Liam giggles at the voice causing Maya to join in, “You’re an alright mate Liam, everybody knows it especially your mama’s.” The front door opens, and Carina enters the house in her casual clothes. She enters the living room smiling at her family who look back at her with smiles, “Hey babe how did it go? Did Mia have her baby?”

Carina kneels down on the floor and kisses Liam’s head, “She did, she and Spencer are with their new baby boy right now. Five pounds, 14 ounces and they already named him David after Spencer’s father. Their sons were debating which one is gonna teach him to play baseball when I was leaving.”

Maya chuckles and pulls Liam to her lap, “Wow three boys can you imagine?”

“Well, I can I already love our little boy so much and I am just fine with you teaching our sons how to throw a football while I make lemonade for you.” Carina smiles at the thought, “Of course I will teach them the different surgical specialties they should consider.”

Maya chuckles, “Wow you’re determined at keeping the doctor family tradition alive. Not that I wouldn’t mind, if at least one of our kids is a surgeon we’ll be set for after retirement.”

Carina chuckles, “That is very positive thinking bambina, now that we’re both home how about we get Liam ready for bed?” Maya nods and puts Liam in her arms before standing up and following Carina to the bathroom. They give Liam a very playful bath where he plays with rubber duckies while his mom’s shampoo and wash him. He gets slightly fussy when they drain the tub, but he calms down as Carina puts him in his pajamas while Maya gets his crib ready. Carina sings to him in Italian and gently rocks him, this lasts for a few minutes until Liam starts to fall asleep. Maya smiles at the sight of her pregnant wife singing to their son before she puts him inside the crib. Maya covers him with a blue blanket and kisses his cheek, Carina kisses him too and Maya turns on the nightlight that projects blue light and stars all over the room. They stand by the door and whisper good night to Liam before closing the door.

After showering and putting on their PJ’s the wives get in bed ready to fall asleep. Maya is lying in bed staring at the ceiling with Carina next to her closing her eyes. The day that they had where she saw a version of herself married to someone else and having three kids has her mind running scenarios. It’s not something she would consider doing ever but it has her innocently asking herself what if? She turns to her wife and asks her this question.

“Can I ask you something?” Carina groans lightly but opens one eye indicating yes, “Did you really not see a resemblance between me and Mia? Because I saw some, but I didn’t think we were the exact same like the others did. How did you not freak out when you met her?”

Carina grins and props one hand up on an elbow smiling down at her, “I saw a similarity, I’m not blind but I know that no matter how much you look alike there will never be another Maya Bishop in this world. The woman I love and married and have children with, she is one of a kind. She is the same tough, beautiful, determined woman who made my world turn upside down the moment I asked her if I would buy her a drink while she tells me the story of how she carried a discarded nose into an ER. There is no one who would give me that experience.”

Maya grins smugly, “Yeah I am pretty unique, aren’t I?”

“You are and that is why I didn’t see you when I was treating Mia. What she has on you is appearance and that is it.”

Maya props her hand up on an elbow, “Yeah but it makes me wonder what if? Like what if Mia decided to join the fire department here and suddenly met this gorgeous Italian woman in a bar one night? Would things be exactly the same and you two would be married and pregnant raising a baby? And what if I went to UCLA on a track scholarship instead of competing in the Olympics right after high school? Would I have met this geeky and cute physics major on the field one day and ask him for coffee? Would I be married to him and having three boys after a gorgeous OB examines me? Would things be the same as they are now if me and Mia made different decisions?”

Carina inhales and thinks for a moment, “I think life goes the way it’s meant to, and we’re meant to be led to our fate. We’re meant to live the life we’re supposed to live. And the life I have with you right now, I wouldn’t want that with anyone but you bambina.”

Maya grins at her wife, “Me too, there’s no one who would give me this family and the love I didn’t even know existed. You did that for me, and I am so thankful I wouldn’t change a single thing in my life if it meant I didn’t meet you.”

Carina smiles, “Ti amo.”

Maya squeezes her wife’s shoulder thankful she knows Italian, “I love you too, come here.” They kiss so tenderly it feels like their souls are physically touching. After they kiss Carina cuddles up against Maya who wraps her arm around Carina’s back pulling her toward her. Maya and Carina cuddle up to each other as they let the night take them in a blissful sleep wrapped in each other’s arms.

[utilitycaster]

I saw a thread on Twitter about how FCG and Orym are the two people that would intentionally murder a party member. They even connected that to them being friends of the gods.

(Which is a whole other thing because canon Orym has been more critical of the gods than CR Twitter finds it convenient to admit - “the gods show up when they want”)

Meanwhile, Laudna *literally* trying to feed Delilah FCG’s soul vía Hunger of the Shadow. Of course when that was pointed out to the OP by someone else on Twitter they refused to engage at all.

I know im preaching to the choir but it’s so blatant and infuriating

It really is, and I think the one-two punch of freaking out over FCG and then, when that did not receive a single millisecond of acknowledgment in-game, freaking out over Orym from, again, an episode that aired quite literally three months ago, made a lot of people realize how fucking tired they are of the blatant and infuriating nonsense, week after week.

The gods argument is honestly just a backdrop at this point; per the latest 4SD Imogen is actually leaning towards "hmm, maybe having the structures in place that prevented demon incursion was a good thing", which is actually 100% in line with Keyleth's position of "I don't personally worship the gods and I even have my issues with them, but I recognize they are pretty fundamental to our cosmology and would prefer that the world not fucking fall apart because of an evil wizard." Like, if Laudna were to hypothetically get freed from Delilah by a god? I promise you like half the people would, as they have on so many other things, rapidly flip flop to continue being on the side of Black Heart and/or Purple Heart.

I do actually think Orym would, if necessary, kill someone in the party to save the world. I don't think he'd revel in it, but I think he would. I also think that fucking slaps. Fjord is my favorite Campaign 2 character, and he was famously the character whom Caleb asked to kill him quickly as a called in favor. Like Fjord, Orym doesn't want to die, but I think he will kill or die for the cause, and I think that's great, because this is fiction and that's fucking fun to watch in fiction! Like, *Liam voice* THIS IS A GAME! I have one last ask in my inbox and I think I'll call it a night after that because I have things to do, and I'll elaborate here, but so many bad takes seem to treat characters as real people, and it's like of course I don't wish death on real people for being boring, of course I don't want real people to kill or die for a cause, but sometimes? In fiction? Where the people are pretend? Yeah! I fucking do! Where are these people on Twitter from? Focus on the Found Family?

[hemlocksandfoxgloves]

Theo hasn’t celebrated his birthday since he was 8 and Liam makes him cry for celebrating it. Thing is, he doesn’t make a big deal out of it. He doesn’t throw him a big party. It’s just the two of them. And it’s the best birthday he’s had in a long time.

Of course Jenna does make a nice meal and gives Theo a vegan muffin with a candle, which makes him laugh.

Later, after everyone has gone to bed, Liam and Theo are watching a movie on the couch when Liam brings out one more surprise for him.

“Liam, I dont need any gifts. This is perfect right here.”

“Well, I’m not taking it back, so you might as well just take it.”

Theo doesn’t say anything as Liam quickly runs to the closet and retrieves something. It’s kind of big, but Liam tries to hide it behind his back. Theo looks at the wrapped case as Liam holds it in front of him. The wrapping paper had squirrels all over it and was quite hideous, but was totally all Liam. Theo stared at the package with wide eyes. He glances at Liam, who’s giving him his best puppy dog eyes. He can’t look at him or he’ll break. 

“Are you… going to open it?”

“No,” he says tightly.

“Theo,” Liam whines.

“No, I can’t take it, Liam.”

Liam sighs. “Here,” he says as he tears the wrapping a little, splitting down a squirrel. He imagines it’s the same way his coyote tears through a small animal. Theo can see the top of the guitar case and the start of the company store name where Liam got the guitar and, no doubt, the leather case with it. Strings and Things, the musical shop off the corner by Sinema. Theo has been in there countless times, always wanting but never able to afford a new guitar. So he’s seen the price tags, and he knows there’s no way Liam could’ve afforded something like this. “I know you lost your old one when your dad…” Theo looks at Liam with slightly watery eyes. “Anyway, I just… I know how you loved to play, and it’s my fault you lost it anyway, so here.” Liam pushes it closer to Theo and Theo pushes it back. “Theo,” Liam exasperates. Huffing harshly, he pulls the wrapping off the rest of the way. He tears through the badly wrapped present and opens the case. The tears that had been so steadily collecting in Theo’s eyes fall and he sucks in a breath as he sees the guitar in plain view. The very guitar that he has stopped to look at every day at work.

Liam is freaking out. He thought this would make him happy, but all he was doing was making him cry.

“Do you not like it? I know it’s not like your old guitar, but the guy at the shop said it was one of a kind and that no other guitar plays like this one—” Liam stops rambling as he suddenly has his arms full of his coyote boyfriend. Theo sobs softly into his shoulder, his arms tight around him. “Theo im sorry. I thought you would like it. Ill take it back, okay?”

Theo shakes his head and looks at Liam. “Dont take it back.”

“But it made you cry.”

“Cause I'm happy you dumbass. I love you so goddamn much.”

Liam smiles, suddenly getting it. “I love you too.” He says before kissing Theo. The guitar lies forgotten till the next morning. Which is the best night of Liam Dunbar’s life. November 23rd is now his favorite day of the year.

[eadanga]

Royal Love Part 19

Summary: Now 18 Eleanor heads to her first year of college and falls for a handsome musician. Can she keep her royal secret be with her true love?

A/N: This series is for @kingliam2019 one of my 500 followers giveaway winners

Eleanor takes a stands in her dorm room lost in thought she sighs after recounting her father’s words He’s right I gotta see if he’ll accept me who I am but how can I tell him? She scratches her head I can’t tell him in a way that’ll freak him out She sighs then squares her shoulders I’ll wait for the right moment then tell him I can’t just blurt it out She nods Yeah that sounds good

Melissa pops her head in “Hey girl how was the lunch with your dad?”

“Good he gave me some real good advice he said I should tell Cole who I am if he feels the same way I feel about him he’ll accept me”

“He’s right I don’t believe Cole would be a jerk to dump you cause of who you are if he does I’ll kick his ass for you so when are you gonna tell him?”

Eleanor sighs “That’s the problem I can’t just blurt it out and it’s not something you can bring up in a conversation I just need the right moment”

“I’ve got your back no matter what”

Eleanor smiles “Thanks for now let’s get ready for class”

Melissa groans “Booooo”

Eleanor laughs “Oh quiet you”

****

Liam walks back into the palace and Alex runs to greet him “Hi dad!”

Liam grins as he hugs him “How are you my prince”

“Good dad how’s Eleanor? And why couldn’t I got with you?”

Liam chuckles “I just needed to talk to her that’s all buddy”

Alex smiles “Oh ok dad I wish you had told me though I wanted to give her a gift”

Liam smiles “Well why don’t we send her that?”

Alex eyes light up “We can send her things at school?”

“Of course”

“But why can’t we do that at my school?”

“Because Eleanor is living at the school till she graduates you don’t live at your school”

Alex nods “Ok dad I get it”

“Good now you go get all the things you want to send her and I’ll go find mom and we’ll put it together”

“Yay! Eleanor will love everything I send her!” Alex runs off as Liam watches him go smiling

Liam heads up to their palace apartment and finds MC warming a bottle he wraps his arms around her “Hello my love”

MC smiles as she leans into him “Hi there how was your talk with Eleanor”

“Went well I gave her some good advice that she loved”

“Well good” She holds up the bottle “Now you wanna feed your daughter?”

Liam beams “I’ll be delighted to” He takes the bottle and heads to the bassinet where Bella looks at him reaching out with her hands Liam feels his heart swelling as he picks her up “Hi my little princess it’s time for dinner” He puts the bottle in her mouth and smiles as she feeds MC comes over looking at them “Imagine this was Eleanor 18 years ago”

“I know now our little girl is growing up soon Bella will”

“Oh not yet MC I’m not ready”

MC laughs “Ok but can you believe our Eleanor is falling in love already?”

“Hard to believe I honesty hope it works out for them and then find love like we did”

Liam smiles “Me too”

MC stands “I’m also gonna take care of the brat that’s been bothering Eleanor”

“Oh she mentioned that to you has it gotten bad?”

“If you mean trying to fight her multiple times yes it’s gotten bad”

Liam’s eyes go wide “What? She assaulted a member of the royal family that’s an offense”

“I know but we can’t put her in jail just yet I’m gonna dig into this girl and I’m gonna send it to Eleanor and”

“Let her decide what to do with it?” Liam laughs “I can’t wait to see her reaction to that”

MC laughs “I hope she films it for it us”

****

Eleanor and Melissa walks out of class “College so stressful”

“I know ugh I can’t wait till it’s over”

Melissa giggles “I bet we said the said the same thing about high school”

Eleanor laughs “Yeah and here we are saying the same about college” Eleanor phone buzzes in her pocket and she pulls it out and sees a text message from her mom

“Who texted?”

“Mom and…” Eleanor trails off then grins

“What is it? Come on share the deets!”

“My mom just thought of the perfect way to get revenge on queen bitch”

“Oh let me in on this plan I’ve been waiting for that for months”

Tags: @indiacater @mfackenthal @choicesgodfanatic @gkittylove99 @iaminlovewithtrr @twinkleallnight @the-soot-sprite @princess-geek

[picturethoughts]

** Iron Flame SPOILERS might come ahead **

It's been roughly two weeks since I finished the book. As it always happens when I finish some story I love the hangover is real, so I've been back and forth between fanfiction and fourth wing and Instagram reels before actually going for a second read of Iron Flame. I've been trying to avoid theories in general cause as much as I want to know what people think, I'm also scared to know what those theories actually are. But I guess after stumbling upon contrasting opinions about the actual book (and not where the story might go from here) I am really curious to know the fandoms general opinion about the story. The expectations vs reality kind of thing. Because I'm thorn. I've been thorn and I can't make up my mind. A friend of mine asked me before finishing her read if I was disappointed, and I said no, not really. And now I don't know anymore if that's true.

I started Iron Flame as, I'm guessing, the majority if not all of the readers who love this world and this characters from the beginning, with my expectations on the roof and that nervous, anxious feeling in my stomach. Part one was fourth wing all over again. The built tentions were good, great even, I was at the edge of the seat so to speak, there was a good pacing, kinda similar to FW in my opinion. But the Violet butting heads with Xaden over and over and over again over the same issue was beginning to be a bit much. Kinda disappointing even. Because I was expecting mature Violet, as she was before, and open Xaden as he promised, so I was a bit confused about the sudden change in direction. Yes she felt betrayed and hurt, but she understood his choices and the why... I wasn't expecting her to fall right back but I expected her to reason and figure out in her head the best plan to go forward, and I feel like she got stuck. And we can say Liam's death affected her more deeply maybe but the thing is she never dives into those feelings does she? She never truly speaks of it. She saw one of her closest friends die in her arms and she does not talk about it. I expected a conversation or more, an emotional growth specially with Xaden. The same thing could be said about finding her freaking brother alive. I don't think they really truly had the conversations needed to evolve from that kind of information, I don't think she processed it in her core. And that was so confusing to me.

And then we end part 1. Violet hallucinates about Liam, that she doesn't mention to anyone, which, again, I expected her to confront that situation at some point with someone, to mention it to Xaden at least. She also gets separated for god's know how many days from Tairn, he didn't have access to her mind and seeing how absolutely out of his mind he was when she was dying at the end of FW, I expected him to be breaking the fucking school in search for her, and when Xaden finally came to rescue her, the dragons were relieved of course but I didn't get that same emotion, that powerful feeling that Tairn evoques when speaking of their bond. I thought we were going to have kinda of a reunion, an explanation, a confrontation, a virtual hug and cry and she's fine and she's right there with them again, in beginning of part two. So I was expecting and waiting, and one more page, one more subject, one more step moving on from that, and no one talks about it. It's kind of mind blowing really, when she experienced not one but two traumatic experiences and it's swept under the rug just like that. And I. Don't. Get. It. It doesn't make sense to me and it frustrates me and please someone explain it to me.

I won't get into details of part two cause the pacing was a lot more slow-ish, I still felt there was not enough real bonding between the dragons and Violet, her relationship with Xaden felt stagnant and that final battle was underwhelming, tbh. Less confusing to follow than in FW, so kudos to the author, but still really underwhelming. Superficial and yeah, I guess disappointing.

So I guess after all that I do feel disappointed in the work but mostly because I don't think it did the characters and that amazing world justice. I'm one of those readers who gets really immersed into the story, the characters become my people, and I feel like they didn't have enough of anything to be more than they were last book. And that's really really sad. And it pisses me off, but mostly sad, and frustrating.

*sigh* well that's it. I'd really be grateful if someone could share their pov when they closed the last chapter. The hangover is really real and it's here to stay.

[kitkatwinchester]

THIS SHOW I SWEAR TO GOD!!

THE PUZZLE PIECES!!!

THE RELATIONSHIPS!!!

THE LINES!!!!

THE RELATIONSHIPS!!!

THE MESSAGES!!!

THE RELATIONSHIPS!!!

I LOVE IT ALL!!!

I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT!!!

Okay okay, I let it finish out without reacting, so we have a LOT to unpack now, but let's go.

This is kind of gonna be in order of events, but the show jumped between perspectives a lot and I'm just gonna talk about each perspective all at once lol.

Okay, so at first, Lydia's random little soundproof room in the lake-house was freaking me the f*ck out, but it wound up working in our favor, so that's good (also as an aside, are she and her family having money problems?? Because she sounded so stressed about the stains (Mason never came back to help clean it up, btw...), and for a girl as extravagant as she is, I wouldn't have anticipated money problems, but I guess that's always the point, right? You never know what's going on behind closed doors.). That said, it does make me wonder if her mom is also a Banshee or something like it? Like, her powers had to come from somewhere, right? Because why would a lake-house, owned by her family, have a random soundproof room with a single record player in it? Sounds like a Banshee room to me...

All of that said, I am very glad that she managed to figure out the code (it's super interesting that Allison's name was the key...maybe because she's the only major pack member already dead?), but I am very not glad that there is a dead pool that has our entire pack (except for Stiles, of course lol) on the list, 'cause...that's not super comforting. Don't love that for us. That'll be fun to fight against. Our list of 117 million problems (to quote Stiles) gets longer and longer by the minute, doesn't it...

However, that was a nice little Lydia and Kira moment, with Kira immediately recognizing that Lydia was Banshee-ing, and her focus shifting from Scott to Lydia very quickly as a result.

Speaking of Kira...

THAT SCIRA SCENE OMG THAT WAS THE CUTEST THING I LOVE THEM SO MUCH I CANNOT!!! <3 <3

Scott and Kira's love is seriously just so wholesome and flirty and heartwarming and adorable and I love relationships like that so much.

The fact that Scott's immediate reaction to Kira mentioning slow dancing is to get up and have her slow dance with him (as an aside, what lunatic only has, like, NINE APPS on their phone Scott what is wrong with you?! XD), and by the BEAUTIFUL reflection on the lake, no less (that shot was GORGEOUS, dude).

The fact that they got all goofily flirty with Scott's beautifully comedic response to Kira's question ("He can slow dance with me another time." XD).

The fact that Scott told Kira he was indistractable, and she immediately made it her goal to get him as distracted as possible (their little smiles at each other the whole time I cannot <3 <3).

The fact that Scott mostly manages to contain himself, but she FINALLY gets him, JUST slightly, because of course she does. ("Nothing." "Then why are your eyes glowing?" *adorable little head shake and smile* “Cheater.")

And then, like, obviously the real distraction came when Liam broke out of the chains, which, as an aside, they did not handle very well at all, but I'll allow it, because they were SO cute, and just holding each other SO sweetly and just SO into each other and I just...

I LOVE SCIRA SO MUCH AHHHHH!!!! MY OTP FOR SCOTT FOREVER AND ALWAYS!! THEY'RE JUST SO PERFECT FOR EACH OTHER!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

And then there's STALIA!!

DUDE!!! THAT SCENE!!! OMG!!! This show makes me love Stalia more and more BY THE MINUTE AHHHH!!! <3 <3 <3 <3

EVERYTHING ABOUT THAT SCENE I SWEAR!!

The fact that Stiles just has such utter confidence and trust in Malia, even as she's trying to come after him.

The fact that Malia is just drowning in pain over the fear of hurting another person that she deeply cares about.

The fact that Stiles refuses to let her fear and anger eat her up the way it is, staying calm and collected and determined to help her anchor herself and not let her be afraid of herself.

The fact that, even as Malia fights the chains, she's so sincerely and closely listening to Stiles, because she loves him, and she trusts him.

The fact that Stiles says he GETS it, because he DOES, because he understands the guilt that comes from hurting someone you care about. He understands what it's like to have been the cause of a loved one's death, and to hate the fact that, no matter how much you try to deny it, a part of you enjoyed that power and control, even in that moment.

The fact that Malia is locking eyes with him, even as her wolf instincts are desperately trying to take over, taking in every word he says.

The fact that Stiles says, with so much confidence and power, that "control is overrated" (because WHAT A F*CKING LINE, DUDE!), and then lets her go.

The fact that Malia lunges for him, but immediately shifts back, and masters that control, because control isn't about power and being fearless--it's about feeling your fear and anger, but also feeling your love, and using that to fuel control.

The fact that Stiles is so proud of her, and so softly moves her hair out of her face, and they just embrace each other with everything they have.

The fact that, even though you can see the small hint of relief that crosses Stiles's face, proving that there was a small part of him that wasn't sure if it would work, he powered through and trusted her, because he really believed he could, and it WORKED.

IT F*CKING WORKED!!

LOVE CONQUERS ALL, DUDE, I SWEAR TO GOD!!!

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE THAT!!!

AND I FREAKING LOVE STALIA SO MUCH!!! THEY SERIOUSLY LOVE AND CARE FOR EACH OTHER SO MUCH AND PUT SO MUCH OF THEIR HEARTS ON THE LINE FOR EACH OTHER AND THEY TRUST EACH OTHER WITH THEIR VERY LIVES AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!! <3 <3 <3 <3

Okay okay, with the romantic relationships out of the way, let's get to the platonic ones, shall we?

Freaking Derek and Noah, dude!! This team-up is seriously incredible.

I absolutely love how much they trust each other, and I love that they have each other's backs. Like, I appreciate how much Noah trusts Derek's suspicions and instincts ("You nervous makes me nervous."), and I really appreciate how much Derek trusts Noah's input about what they're dealing with (oh boy...this is giving me even more reasons to ship Sterek lol). Also, I absolutely LOVE how many times Derek saved Noah's life in that school (his suspicion about the pool of blood, warning Noah about the axe, and knocking him out of the way when Peter came barreling over), and how well they worked together to take down Mouthless Creepo. Plus, you really have to appreciate the fact that Derek, despite being a f*cking werewolf, did not do what Peter wound up doing, and instead, was willing to have Stilinski arrest him, because, as he so brilliantly said, "We've learned a better way." (also, I kind of appreciate that Noah didn't shoot Peter, probably because he knew Derek would be less than pleased, despite what Peter just did).

That duo has seriously been so great all episode and I really hope we get to see more of them.

And then FREAKING CHRIS ARGENT'S RETURN!! LET'S F*CKING GO!!!

That whole scene with Scott, albeit small, was SOOOO AMAZING OMG!

WHEN I TELL YOU I WAS SO EXCITED WHEN THAT ARROW CAME FLYING IN LIKE--

"How did you know?" "I got your text."

*SCREAMS*

Can we just talk about how freaking AMAZING it is that Chris and Scott are still on such good terms after everything? Like, they started off on the WORST of terms, as we all know, and then Chris's wife’s and eventually daughter's deaths were both indirectly caused by their respective relationships to Scott (I don't blame Scott, just so we're clear, but you know what I mean), but he knows and understands that Scott is struggling just as much as the rest of them, if not moreso, and he's STILL HERE FOR HIM and STILL HELPING HIM, and he was RIGHT THERE TO SAVE THE DAY and he's STILL ON OUR TEAM!

AND THEN THE FACT THAT CHRIS IS SO ACCEPTING OF THIS AND SO HELPFUL I JUST!

"What are you gonna do?" "He's your Beta, Scott. The better question is what are you gonna do?"

CHARACTER GROWTH!! WE LOVE TO SEE IT!!

And THEN, the fact that he says EXACTLY what I was trying to say earlier.

"He doesn't listen to me." "He will if you start using your own words."

LITERALLY!! You EARNED that True Alpha status, Scott, and you earned it by BEING YOU. So BE YOU, because that's all you need to be.

And then just like...

The fatherly affection and support that was present in that whole conversation. That was so soft and so beautiful and OH MY GOD I LOVED THAT WHAT A GREAT WAY TO BRING CHRIS ARGENT BACK INTO THE SEASON!!

I really hope we get to see more of those two!!

And last, but CERTAINLY not least, we get our Alpha and our Beta.

LET'S!

F*CKING!

GO!

THAT'S what I'm talking about Scott.

You listen, and you coach, and you stay kind and supportive and empathetic, and then you lead by example, because THAT'S what you're all about.

The way that Liam just starts breaking down, because he's scared, and he's hurting, and he feels guilty, and he doesn't want to let his parents down again, and he feels like he's a monster, not even just from the bite, but because of who he is.

The way that Scott just GETS it, because he's BEEN there, and he knows what Liam's going through, but Stiles didn't let him go through it alone, and Scott's not gonna let Liam go through it alone, either.

AND THE LINES!

AND THE SWELLING MUSIC!

AND THE CAMERA WORK!

The way that Scott just stands up with all the confidence in the world, because this is how he knows how to lead.

The way Chris watches on, a small little proud smile making it's way onto his face, because THAT'S the Scott he knows (and loves).

"You're not a monster."

The way that Liam turns to look at him, fear and guilt turning into something more awed and determined.

"You're a werewolf. Like me."

AND THEN WE GET THE EYE GLOW!

AND WE GET THAT LITTLE LIAM SMIRK!!

AND OUR ALPHA AND BETA PAIRING IS BORN AND THIS IS GONNA BE AMAZING AHHH!!!

GOD that was amazing!!

WHAT an episode!!

I seriously feel like the relationships in this show are just so special and truly something else, and that entire sequence of events just proved my point.

I LOVE THIS SHOW SO FREAKING MUCH I SWEAR!! <3 <3

I have no idea what plans my family has tonight, but I'm sure I'll find the time to watch at least one more episode, and if not, I definitely will be later this week, fear not. XD <3

I LOVE ALL OF THESE AMAZING ROMANCES AND FRIENDSHIPS AND FAMILIAL RELATIONSHIPS SO MUCH!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

(Yeah that about covers it. I LOVE ALL OF THESE CHARACTERS AND THEIR RELATIONSHIPS TO EACH OTHER SO MUUUUCH!! <3)

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The Boy Who Sneaks in my Bedroom Window chapters 1 & 2

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Chapter 1

He was a cute kid, with blond hair and grey eyes with brown flecks in them. He was my big brother, and as big brothers went, he was the best.

It seems kind of odd that she’d describe her older brother as being “a cute kid”. 

 Jake was ten, and was two years older than me, so he always helped with my school work

There is waaaaay too much telling going on right now. 

Also, I didn’t forget to copy the period… There was none in that sentence. Joy. I can feel the headache coming on already. 

“What are you doing here, Liam?” I whispered, wiping my face, but the tears continued to fall.

[...]

“I saw you through the window. I just wanted to come and make sure you were alright,” he whispered back, still hugging me tightly. 

Okay, so the reviews warned that this story suffers from Absent Parent Syndrome©, so IDK why I even bother asking this, but…

So this literal ten year old boy sees Amber crying up in her room, climbs up to knock on the window, and comes in… Yet he himself can’t be assed to tell his parents? Or a teacher? Or literally any grown-up in his life?

 I shuddered at the thought of what my father would do if he had walked in here to find Liam in the house at night-time.

Chapter 1 summary: We’re introduced to 8 year old Amber, who has been living under the tyrannical thumb of her abusive father for the past three years. Although she says that they have a large house in the nicer part of town, she wishes that they could go back to how things used to be, before her father accepted a terrible job. 

Over dinner, Amber accidentally knocks over her drink, which causes her father to lose his cool. He starts yelling at her and hitting her, but when her older brother, Jake, tries to step in and protect her, dad takes his frustration out on him instead.

Later, Amber is in her room when a neighbour boy randomly climbs up to Amber’s window and holds her as she cries. He ends up spending the night with her, which freaks her out. Not because of Liam, but because what daddy-dearest might have done if he’d found Liam in Amber’s bed. 

Chapter 2

[image description: A screenshot of the first page of the second chapter of the book. It has two different fonts that switch back and forth every couple of paragraphs. End description.]

Okay, so I need to highlight this. And I seriously don’t know if this is the PDF, or if this book is seriously like this. 

But does everybody else see this? The fact that there are two different fonts on this page? What the hell is going on? 

Of course I looked harassed, I had half an hour to get showered and dressed.

Okay, so first off, she actively CHOOSES to wake up and only have 30 minutes to get ready for school. So I don’t exactly have a lot of sympathy for her.

Also… Harassed? Are you sure that’s the correct word to use right here? ARE YOU SURE?!

Well, I say left, but in reality Jake and Liam came home early from hockey one day to see that my father had beaten me senseless, and was trying to rape me. Jake had finally snapped, and he and Liam had beaten the crap out of him, almost killing him in the process. They had thrown him out of the house and told him that if he ever came back, they would kill him. He never came back though, that was three years ago. 

Calling the police? Lol what’s that?!

I also love how casually she talks about this. Like it was simply another day. “What did I do today? I went to the store, and then the park. Then my dad tried to rape me, but it was okay because Jake and Liam beat him up. Then I went to the movies.” 

They had thrown him out of the house and told him that if he ever came back, they would kill him. He never came back though, that was three years ago. 

A little while after that, my mom got a job with a huge electronics firm, she was the PA to the director and so she travelled a lot. She was gone twice as much as she was here, so we only saw her for about one week a month, if that. Jake was my only supervision, although at times it was more like I was the one taking care of him. 

As I said, Absent Parent Syndrome©. 

Liam was also very protective of me, but we still didn’t get on - even though he had literally spent every single night wrapped around me in my bed for the last eight years.

Uh-huh. Right. 

 She had dated Liam for a little while, well, if by dating you mean having sex a few times, and then getting dropped. She still wasn’t over it and wanted him back, much to his disgust. 

I have been warned that this is the majority of this book. Joy, I can’t wait. 

 “How the hell can you be unaffected by how freaking hot they are? I mean, you’re so lucky to live with Jake! I would love to watch his hot ass walk around all day,” she purred, fanning her face.

It’s bad enough that we have to have a book in which Amber was almost raped by her father. Do we also have to have weird implications that Amber should be lusting after her own brother?

… so I knew that my brother and his friends were arriving in the canteen. 

Canteen? Yes, it’s technically correct, but I seriously don’t know of a single person who would call a school cafeteria a “canteen”. 

Great, just great! [Liam] was driving me home. Fantastic. He always made the drive home as long as possible just to annoy the life out of me. Then, he insisted on waiting at my house until my brother came home, which meant that I had to cook for him too. Damn it, he is so annoying!

Or you could… Not make him food. 

I’m not quite convinced that Amber’s life improved all that much when her father left. Not if she’s still expected to be subservient to a man who pushes himself onto her 24/7. 

“Hey, where you going?” the other guy asked, grabbing my hand. 

My heart started to race as I looked around, frantically. “I’m looking for my boyfriend,” I lied, trying to sound confident. 

“Boyfriend? I don’t see a boyfriend[...]”

Yes, that’s why she’s LOOKING FOR HIM, dipshit. 

“I hate rushing around; I’ve looked and felt like shit all day,” I cried acidly. 

I… I simply feel like the author thinks that she’s picking the correct adjective, but in actuality, every single one she selects comes off as clunky and awkward. 

THERE IS LITERALLY NOT ONE SINGLE THING WRONG WITH “SAID”. FUCKING USE IT. 

“Goodnight, Angel,” he replied, kissing the back of my head.

Chapter 2 summary: 8 years later, and now Amber is 16, which puts Liam and Jake at 18. He’s been spending literally every goddamned night with her. 

As mentioned, almost in passing, Amber’s and Jake’s dad tried to rape her one day. Liam and Jake happened to come home at that time, so they beat him up and kicked him out of the house. They haven’t heard from him for the past three years. Also, mummy-dearest is absent, which allows for a lot of… well. Stuff that she probably wouldn’t allow if she was actually there. Like Liam spending every goddamned night with Amber. 

The three of them go to school, where some random girl tries to hook up with Liam, but Amber slut-shames her. Then she hangs out with her friends, who ask why she hasn’t tapped either of the boys. Amber is more horrified over the thought of them suggesting she should hook up with her own brother. But she also tells the readers that despite everything, she and Liam are barely friends. Which seems like an odd choice to make, but sure. 

I would also like the record to state that every second I spent being forced to read the interactions of Amber and her friends, I could literally feel my IQ dropping. 

After school, Liam gives some excuse as to what Jake is doing, but it’s literally not important. He and Amber go to the store, where Amber is sexually harassed by some random boys. Liam has to rescue her. 

She later gives him dinner, and they watch a movie together. Liam leaves for a bit, but comes back so that he can spend his night with her once again.