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charmwasjess · 2 years ago
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Lightsaber Theory: Obi-Wan "Sith Lords are Our Specialty" Kenobi consistently loses duels to Dooku not for any reason of technical form mismatch or lack of ability, but because Dooku is not even pretending to try to kill him. Resultantly, Obi-Wan can’t figure out what the fuck is going on when they fight. 
Obi-Wan: (preparing to defend an expected lethal strike) You’ll answer for your enormities, Count!
Dooku: (giving him the lightest love tap on the leg) Don’t be so sure, my special good lineage baby boy, so perfect in my eyes. 
Obi-Wan: …What?
Dooku: What?
Which Dooku and Obi-Wan proud lineage moment is even the most unhinged? There are so many to choose from! Is it Dooku’s frequent inability, both in AotC and TCW, to keep from spontaneously gushing about Sidious’s plans and even his own dark secrets to Obi-Wan?? Is it the time in Labyrinth of Evil where Dooku drags a long-suffering, bored Grievous over to watch a holorecording of Anakin and Obi-Wan thwarting his plans yet again, to point out how beautifully they’re working together as a team and how much he likes watching their lightsaber work evolve? Is it in the recent Brotherhood novel, where Obi-Wan just has to casually namedrop Qui-Gon to get Dooku to do exactly what he wants?
Obi-Wan is a big problem for Sidious in his mission to destabilize and corrupt Anakin, and Sidious knows it. He needs him out of the picture to do the same isolating, evil bullshit that worked so well when ensnaring Dooku himself. But the war has been going on for years now, and guess who remains inconveniently alive? And whose job was that to take care of? Oh yeah. I remember. His useless, Padawan assassin-collecting apprentice: fucking Count Dooku. By the time of RotS, Sidious has specifically ordered Dooku to make fucking sure Obi-Wan is dead only for him to completely ignore the command about a half-dozen times.
Going by the Stover RotS novelization, in the same scene where Dooku also literally refers to Obi-Wan as his fucking grandson actually, add that to our earlier list, Sidious reiterates that KILL OBI-WAN is the plan (over the sound of Dooku’s loud complaining) moments before that final duel.  I kind of wish we’d gotten a shot of Sidious's incredulous, enraged expression as Dooku knocks Obi-Wan unconscious and pins him safely out of the way. He is, once again, going out of his way to not kill Obi-Wan in that duel, and this time directly disobeying his Master to his face after they just had a conversation about it. You just know exactly what Sidious must be thinking at that moment. Oh, Dooku. You are so fucking fired.
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hopecomesbacktolife · 2 months ago
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STAR WARS CELEBRATION 2027 IS IN L. A. OMG SLFJFJFKDLSKS
NO BECAUSE LIKE. ITS AOTC 25TH ANNIVERSARY AND ITS IN THE STATES
✨🌌 April 1-4 2027!! 🌌✨
I really really reallyyyy wanna go omg 😭🥹❣️✨ if any moots are also planning on going as it gets closer please lmk it would be amazinggg to meet up irl!!
anyways this is legit one of my bucket list places/ dream things to attend and. with joanns going out of business I got some cosplay fabrics on sale over the past few months and could like… in theory… have full homemade cosplays… to attend in… save up and go… maybe… (if life does not fall apart and money/living allows me to ofc) and like imagine… what a dream 🥹 anyways I’m sososo excited that this is announced and really really want to do everything I can to go. imagine 🥹❣️
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b-lossm · 8 months ago
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•*+Attack Of The Clones
[contxt: In which a Jedi falls in love with a Queen(metaphorically)]
Vi [Arcane] x reader [modern au]
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•Vi who always got into fights and arguments for “the good cause”
•Vi who pretends not to be entranced by the way you look and how you carry yourself as she sits in the hall of the school’s office, holding an icepack to her face
•Vi who rips out her hair [metaphorically] trying to figure out if you would like her [or any girl]due to your status of being an “angel”
•Vi who’s carabiner conveniently gets stuck to yours
•Vi who flirts the first time meeting you
•Vi who gets your insta and eventually gets to know you better
•Vi who after a few months takes you to a pop culture museum after finding out how much you know about it
•Vi who works up the courage to ask you to be her girlfriend after hearing you ramble, again
“— thats how the lightsabers worked in Star Wars” you say amused while looking at the prop in front of you, Vi on the other hand just admiring how you sound while excitedly explaining stuff only a movie nerd would know “thats awesome y/n” she says, chuckling. She then clears her breath “you know…I don’t mind dressing up as Anakin so you can be Padmé this halloween” Vi says while looking the other way “Violet are you asking me to be your super secret girlfriend?” you ask, trying to suppress your excitement “Nah, I want you to be my super super public girlfriend” she replies smoothly, somehow hiding her nervousness
•Vi who smiles softly at the kiss on her cheek and the shy “yes” she was given after a few seconds
•Vi who makes sure to bulk up before halloween
•Vi who makes the most perfect Anakin
•Vi who carries around a heavy ass lightsaber all day just to please you
•Vi who would do it over again a thousand times to make sure your halloween goes perfectly
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a/n: def ooc but idc, I might make more Vi content.. bcs I love her
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dem-obscure-imagines · 11 months ago
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I Know the End | Vol. 1
Poe Dameron x Reader
Fandom: Star Wars
Summary: You were one of the Rebellion’s greatest weapons in the Galactic Civil War, a Princess from a distant planet, a Jedi with wings. Now, you’ve found yourself in a new world, a new war, your old friends long gone.
When Poe Dameron was sent on a wild goose chase of a reconnaissance mission four systems out, he never expected to find the key to his heart…
Note: At long last, here it is. Thank you for your patience. I love you all. I honestly wrote this as a long-winded attempt to make Poe Dameron’s dumbest line “Somehow, Palpatine returned” into a gut-wrenching and emotional moment and it got way out of hand. I am no Star Wars expert, but I did a lot of research for this and consider myself waaaaaaay more of a SW nerd now than I was a mere two months ago. Could probably write a dissertation on it at this point (I say as I literally churned out a novel). It is my first time writing for the fandom, though, so, here goes nothing. I did make up a fair bit of stuff and a good handful of OCs for this. Let me know what you think!
I will also be uploading this to my Ao3 soon for easier navigation <3 If you see it there, don't panic.
Warnings: Canon-typical violence, lightsaber and blaster wounds, alcohol consumption, war and the implications of it, gets a little steamy but no smut, reader has nightmares, misuse of the Force, Rewriting the Rise of Skywalker a lil bit…
Word Count: 82.7k total (Split into four approximately 20k chunks)
Reader Is: 24, a Jedi, a Princess, has butterfly wings
Vol 1. | Vol 2. | Vol 3. | Vol 4.
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Prologue
Poe’s rain-soaked curls stuck to his forehead as he moved through the alleyway, steps brisk, shoulders straight. Poe Dameron, Commander of the infamous Resistance, and one of Leia’s best spies, which was why he was in a shady alleyway on a planet four systems out.
It had taken him a week of investigation, asking hard questions, chasing cold trails, translating outdated plaques and inscriptions, but finally, he had something real.
He checked the location on the holo again, then looked back up at the metal door in front of him, hesitating before knocking. Eventually, it slid open, and he stepped through, a hand on his blaster.
“Hello?” He called into the seemingly empty pawn shop. “I’m looking for Rhugo. I’m a friend of–”
“You’re Leia’s boy. The Commander.” The pawnbroker parted curtains in the doorway behind the counter, a long cigar poking out of his mouth, fingers long and green-tinted. “Got your message. Wait just a second.”
Poe watched as he reached on the counter, fingers still hovering above his blaster. If there was one thing he’d learned from his time with the Resistance, it was that almost no one could be trusted, to never let his guard down. But instead of a blaster, Rhugo pulled out a small wooden box and slid it across the glass counter. He motioned for Poe to open it.
He stepped forward, gently lifting the hinged lid. Inside, cradled in a bed of velvet, was a golden pendant, palm-sized, a shimmering pink and purple gem embedded in the metal. He stared at it for a long time, mesmerized. It didn’t seem to be a power source, but it had an energy to it he couldn’t quite place. Something powerful. Something all but forgotten.
“What is it?”
“You’ll have to ask your General that, I’m afraid. I’ve been looking for it for her for years. Hasn’t been easy to come by. The very last of its kind, it seems.”
“How much do I owe you?” Poe reached for his pockets.
Rhugo shook his head, batting a hand at the pilot. “Win the war, we can negotiate after.”
Poe grinned. “Thanks. That’s the plan.”
***
When Poe arrived back on the base, pendant in his pocket, the General was waiting for him, an expectant look on her face. He handed her the box, watching as she opened it, waiting for some hint as to what it was, why she had sent him so far to get it.
She stared at it for a long time, exhaling a sigh. Her eyes sparkled with tears. “You have no idea what you’ve just brought me.”
“What…is it?”
“This…this is our spark, Poe. The spark that will reignite the Resistance.” She touched it with gentle fingers, lingering on the cool metal. “This is hope.”
The Princess, the Jedi
You could hear the music from downstairs, all the way up in your chambers. The Mariposan palace was aglow with celebration, as it had often been since the fall of the Empire. The Battle of Endor had been only two years prior and since then, a great sense of peace had settled over the galaxy.
“You’re still doing your hair?” Leia laughed, striding into the room, draped in a long green gown.
“I can’t get it to sit right.” You laughed, redoing the braid nestled into your hair for what felt like the twelfth time.
“Just use The Force to do it.” Han teased, leaning in the doorway, Luke just behind him, wearing that gentle smile that so often accompanied him when he was looking at you.
“That’s not how The Force works.” You chuckled, Leia settling on the padded bench beside you. 
She pulled out the braid and redid it with her expert fingers, quick and agile. It was no wonder hers always looked so good.
“You look great, Princess.” Luke complimented, finally getting a good look at you.
“You clean up nice yourself, Skywalker.” You shot back, meeting his eyes in the mirror.
“There. You’re all done.” Leia walked over to Han.
You gave yourself a once-over and then stood, walking into the center of your spacious bedroom. By some miracle, your home planet, Mariposas, had been untouched by the Empire. And you, as the planet’s princess, did have some pretty nice quarters if you did say so yourself. It definitely beat the tiny, scrappy Rebel bases you’d spent so long in, although they definitely had their charm, too.
“We good up here? The king was wondering when his daughter was finally going to come down to the party.” Lando looked around with a grin. He met your eyes and let out a whistle. “Wow, Princess. You look great.”
“Ha. Thanks.” You replied, glancing at your saber before deciding to clip it to your belt. You and Luke were the only Jedi left. People expected you to have it on you, especially at events like this, where you were not only representing your home planet, but also the Rebellion as a whole. It was an anniversary of sorts, two years of peace across the galaxy.
“If I may?” Luke offered his arm.
“Always.” You slipped yours through his, smiling when he leaned in to press a kiss to your cheek.
He escorted you through the halls, down the staircase and into the banquet hall, where the party was in full swing. Your parents, the king and queen, mingled with guests from neighboring planets and systems.
Your older brother, Maddox, the first born and heir to the throne, was greeting guests as well, chest puffed, shoulders proud. Your little sister, Laesynda, though you called her Laecy, ran with the other kids. She was only ten, now. Still full of innocence, eyes glimmering with youth and more hope than you could imagine. With the war over, she had a bright, bright future ahead of her.
“You’re nervous.” Luke noted, voice soft. “Your wings are tense.”
You forced them to relax, pushing down that feeling. But since you had become a beacon of hope, it was hard to live with the pressure of it. Of all the eyes in the room flicking to you the second you entered a room. It had always been like that more or less. You were a princess after all, but it was decidedly worse now.
“I’m trying not to be.” You admitted, wings fluttering behind you like a cape. They were large, but folded neatly out of the way most of the time, their hue fading from a sunset orange at their base, through a gentle pink, to a regal lavender at their edges, shimmering the way all Mariposan wings did.
The ballroom itself was alive in every sense. The walls carved from wood, windows cradled in root-like veins along the walls. Flowers cascaded from the ceiling, orbs of light floating through the air like specks of pollen in the spring.
You stopped walking once you reached your parents, greeting each with a smile and a warm hug.
“Glad you finally joined us, (Y/N).” Your father said, that knowing glimmer in his eyes. “They’ve been asking about you.”
“Oh I’m sure they have been.” You looked at your mother, at the way she’d done her hair, the warm shade of red painted across her lips. “You look beautiful, mother.”
“I was going to say the same about you.” She ran a hand down your cheek. “Try to have fun tonight.”
You chuckled, memories of your Rebellion days flashing in your mind. “I’m good at that part.”
Luke took your arm again, walking towards the dance floor. You stole a moment away while you could, enjoying a few songs together before finally settling at a table. You could hardly sit down between guests introducing themselves to you and Luke, greeting you with those expectant eyes.
Even from across the room, you could feel your brother’s gaze, burning a hole through your forehead. He’d always been jealous, but the attention you got now was enough to crush him, you were sure. During the war, he’d remained painfully neutral, ready to jump ship to whichever side won. You, instead, aligned yourself with the Rebels at the first opportunity, abandoning your royal duties to help the cause however you could. And you were beloved for it.
Eventually, you got the opportunity to sit down. Han slid you a tall glass of Mariposan mead, which you took a few long sips from. You needed it.
“So, what now?” Lando asked, looking at Luke. “Have you figured out your grand plan yet, Master Skywalker?”
“Just about.” He smiled, reaching for your hand, which you gladly took. “We’re going to start up the Jedi Order again. Find the budding Jedi out there, train them up. Complete Leia’s training.”
“Bring back balance to the Force.” You said, warmth in your chest blossoming when you said it. It made sense. Always had. You and him, together, starting something great. It felt right.
“You’ll need more sabers.” Leia noted.
“You still need to build yours, Leia.” You reminded her.
She smiled. “I’m ready whenever you are.”
“Soon.” Luke promised. “We’ll have to get our hands on some more kyber crystals.”
“Joyride in the Falcon?” Han offered.
“If you and Chewie have any room in that busy schedule of yours.”
He winked. “I’m sure we could squeeze you in. Chewie loves you.”
“I’m rather fond of that Wookie myself.” You grinned, taking another long sip of mead. You looked around the table at your friends. These people you had risked everything with, these people who loved you. Your family in all meanings of the word. And now that the galaxy had settled, you had the opportunity to start fresh, build something new with them, wherever your lives took you.
Leia had already been talking about weddings.
And though you weren’t sure you were ready for that, you would gladly stand in hers, give a riveting speech about her love story with Han, their daring adventures together that always led them straight to each other.
Luke gave your hand a squeeze, those soulful blue eyes gazing into yours, flecks of green swimming in them. He brought your hand to his lips, pressing a tender kiss there. It seemed only inevitable from the moment that you met that the two of you would wind up together, and there you were, still side by side after all that time.
***
Hours later, the party began to dwindle, guests retreating to their ships or their lodging for the night. The lights dimmed and stars began to peek out beyond the sprawling stained glass windows. Han and Leia swayed on the dance floor. Lando and Chewie hovered at the bar, and you and Luke retreated back up the stairs for a quiet night after a few final goodbyes.
You’d both drifted off quickly, you quicker than Luke, pulled deep into dreams and memories that flashed in your mind. Murmurs of a voice.
“Maker, I’m so glad we found you…”
His lips captured yours again, breathing into it. They wandered, down your cheek, past your jaw, down to your neck again. You laced your fingers through his curls, the burn of his stubble against your skin–shocked you back awake.
Whoever that had been was not Luke Skywalker. And whoever they were, this was not the first time you’d dreamt of them, either. By this point, their lips were familiar. Their scent. Fresh Rain. Sandalwood. Leather. Ship Fuel.
You jolted awake, staring at the ceiling, Luke’s body splayed out on the mattress beside you. His breathing was slow, face towards the window. He turned, eyes opening ever so slightly.
“Nightmare?” He asked, creeping closer. An arm hooked around your waist, lips pressing against your cheek, then your lips.
“Something like that.” You said, but you knew he could feel otherwise. You were connected like that. He always seemed to know what you were feeling.
“You alright?”
You nodded. “I’m fine.”
“Good.” He smiled, nose pressed against yours.
Something in you melted at the look in those eyes. Maker, he loved you so much. You could feel it radiating off of him. And you loved him, too. Your space boy. Your thumb skimmed across his cheekbone as you pulled him in for another sleepy kiss, the sky still dark and spotted with stars.
You turned onto your other side and he slotted himself against you, arm fast around your waist, nose nuzzled against your skin as you fell back asleep, your love swirled with a healthy dose of guilt.
How the Jedi Die
Your eyes fluttered open again when the dawn was melting into the morning. Luke was already awake. You could feel it. But he was quiet, his movements careful, limbs still tucked against your own.
“Training awaits, Your Highness.”
“It always seems to.” You grinned, turning to kiss him before sitting up to start your day. You put on some robes, a solid beige, hints of brown. You had a few that were considered traditional. The rest of your wardrobe was more Mariposan in color scheme. That was, to say, lots of pinks and purples and blues, hints of green from time to time.
You chose your belts carefully, strapping your saber hilt on, slinging your bag over the other shoulder before lacing up your boots.
Luke pulled you in by the waist, both of his hands settling there as yours rose to his shoulders. What a dashing prince he would be, you thought fondly, a hand carding through his soft blond hair as you floated closer. You kissed him gently and he did not hesitate to kiss you back. He never did.
After a quick breakfast, the two of you walked out into the forests of Mariposas. Giant mushrooms marked forks in the paths, lush trees looming tall overhead. Flowers dotted every walkway with color, butterflies flitting from stalk to stalk.
There was a clearing up on the hill that you loved. It was the perfect spot for everything, sparring, meditating, whatever the day brought. You started with the first, taking your saber from your belt and activating it with a click, brilliant indigo light emerging from the end of it. It was one of a kind, your saber, the golden hilt made from your mother’s old bracelets, put together by your own hands with the help of Obi-Wan himself.
Your saber clashed against Luke’s as you moved through the motions, steps familiar. The Force guided you, the path clear as you took each leap and bound, up onto rocks, through the treetops, sabers swinging, clashing against each other, but never making contact with any of the branches. The two of you landed back in the clearing, indigo shimmering against green until he turned away, twirling out of range with grace and precision.
He held his saber extended, meeting your eyes with that smile of his. You both powered your sabers down, breathing heavy.
“That was a good move, the flip you did.” You complimented. “Almost had me there, for a second.”
“Thanks, I’ve been working on those. I liked that move with your wings.” He grinned. “You’re so much better when you use them to your advantage.”
“I’ve been working on that, too.” You chuckled. You’d barely used them growing up, modern technology nearly rendering them useless, but he was right. Mastering using them as a tool was something you needed to lean into. They were an advantage few others had, and they had served you well during the war.
After, you settled onto your favorite seats. Yours was a repurposed stump. One of the woodworkers down in the village had carved it into a stool of sorts, crystals embedded into the rounded edge.
You sat atop it, cross-legged, breaths long and even until the stool disappeared beneath you. You floated, hair cascading around you, robes jostled by the breeze. You cleared your mind, surrendering to the Force, to your path and wherever it took you.
To the Jedi.
At first, there was nothing. A long, dark expanse of comets and stars. Empty, but tingling.
And then you heard a voice.
“We didn’t cover much ground, actually. He was…hesitant to train me. Or anyone, really…”
She was far, that much was clear. A young woman, maybe a little bit younger than you by a few years, but she had a spark to her, that glow of rebellion across her features. Yellow flickering light danced across her cheeks, determination strong on her brows. And she had some training, apparently. You wouldn’t be working up from nothing. It was…reassuring.
You felt a wave of peace in the knowledge that you and Luke weren’t alone in this.
Slowly, you descended back down onto your stump, heart light with the knowledge that there was another Jedi. Not only that, but another woman with the Force.
You stared at Luke, still deep in his meditation. He looked so peaceful, eyes closed, breaths slow as he floated there midair.
Whirring and beeping sounded, closer and closer up the hill. You wondered how long it would be before they found you. The droids. First came R2, Luke’s beloved blue droid. Quickly behind him came your droid, a silver R4 unit with purple paneling and a dome top. They were beeping at each other, talking. Flirting.
“Artoo, you simply cannot say things like this in the presence of a princess!” Threepio scolded, following the two of them up the hill with his stiff movements. He met your eyes with his glowing, mechanical ones. “My apologies. I did not realize the two of you were up here.”
“That’s alright Threepio.” You chuckled. “We’re about done for the day. He’s finishing up.”
“Any leads?”
“I got one.”
“Oh how exciting! Before you know it, this place will be teeming with Jedi!” The droid congratulated you on your breakthrough and for a few moments, it was nice. Until Luke fell.
Your stomach sank and you walked over to him, sprawled in the dirt, looking up at you with a pained look in his eyes. You reached for his arm, but he withdrew, like your touch alone would burn him.
“Hey, it’s me. Talk to me.” You said, kneeling in the dirt in front of him.
The fear melted into something softer and he stared up at you, words budding on his tongue. He exhaled, hands shaking. “It’s bad.”
“What is?”
“There’s…” he shook his head. “Call the others. We don’t have time. R2, tell Han to warm up the Falcon.”
“Where are we going?”
“Pretty far from here.” Luke replied, standing as you did. He rested his hands on your arms, pressing a long kiss to your lips before saying, “go tell your family goodbye. Get ready for a fight. I’ll explain on the way.”
You gathered your things with haste, instructing your droid, who you lovingly called Radia due to her love of playing music over her audio processors, to get your family together so you could say goodbye to them.
Your parents asked where you were going, what was wrong and you didn’t have any answers for them, leaving them with the promises of your return.
“Not to worry, mother. She will spend her life saving the galaxy. The duties of a Jedi are never-ending.” Maddox parroted the words of Obi-Wan when he’d gone to get you to begin your training so many years before. Only you seemed to hear the malice in his tone.
“And after, can I braid your hair? I learned a new one.” Laesynda asked, eyes bright. You knelt down and pulled her into your arms.
You petted her head, exhaling a breath before pulling away to look at her little freckled face one last time. You poked her nose, earning a laugh. “Of course you can. I’ll be back before you even remember to miss me.”
***
It was with record speed that Luke was able to round up the team. You, Leia, Han, Chewie, Lando, and the droids all piled into the Falcon and headed out to a distant planet. Luke plugged the coordinates in at lightning speed, his fingers flying across the console before handing the controls off to Han, who gave that concerned, skeptical look he so often wore.
“You sure about this?”
“Positive.” Luke nodded. He took your hand and led you and the others to the booth around Chewie’s game table.
You searched his face. Usually, you could read him. This time, you could not. He was hiding it from you, shielding you from his thoughts, his feelings. “What is going on? Talk to me.”
“There’s a Sith cult. They’re trying to bring Palpatine back.” He whispered, eyes serious, locked on the checkers of the table between you. “They have a saber wielder. A woman. She…” He shook his head, tears glimmering in his eyes as he squeezed your hand. “We have to stop her.”
“We will.” You told him, but he didn’t seem convinced. Every time he looked at you, he was haunted. Whatever he had seen had been…bad.
You walked out to the cockpit and sat in the seat behind Chewie’s, watching the stars go by at lightspeed. It was kind of relaxing, always had been, like being in a fishtank.
“He’s in a mood, huh?” Han asked, glancing back at you.
“Something like that. Whatever he saw has him in a real funk.”
Chewie roared, reaching back towards you. You grabbed onto his fur-covered arm, giving it a grateful squeeze.
“Yeah, I’m sure he’s just stressed. We’ll get this figured out.”
Han reached forward, pulling the thruster back and stopping the flow of stars around you. The planet you found yourself on made it…easy to figure out the mood Luke was in. The planet was rocky, skies gloomy and overwhelmingly…red. Thunder crackled in the clouds, zaps of lightning zipping past. Something on the ship buckled, met with a shower of sparks.
“Woahhh!” You shielded your face.
“It’s fine, Your Highness, nothing to worry about.” Han shook off your concern. “She’s taken worse.”
“There. That cave there.” Luke instructed, peering into the cockpit. “Land on the south side. (Y/N) and I will go in first. We’ll need blaster support. The droids can keep the ship warm so we can get out of here as fast as we can.” He motioned to a volcano on the horizon, not yet erupted, but hot, heavy smoke billowing from its tower.
“I don’t like the look of that thing.” Lando murmured. “I’ve got a bad feeling about this…”
“That makes two of us.” Leia agreed, staring at it.
“That’s why they’re doing it now. No one else is going to come out here while it’s erupting. It’s now or never.” Luke said, turning towards the boarding ramp. You followed after him, walking out the ship as the ramp lowered.
He activated his Saber, green light clashing heavily with the red hue bleeding down from the sky. It was almost swallowed up by it, by the chaos and darkness. You lit yours beside him. They looked so right together. The green and indigo. Contrasting with each other.
You spun your saber and followed him into the shadows.
From within the cave, you heard chanting. As you emerged from the entryway, you could make out hooded cloaks. Dozens of them. Chills ran down your spine as you took in the sight of it. At the center of all of it, an altar with two halves of a body on it and a woman holding a glowing red lightsaber, its blade unstable.
“Insidia…” You whispered, her name finding your tongue just before her eyes met yours. She smiled at the sight of you and Luke.
“Just in time. Our sacrifices.” She said, face splitting into a grin, eyes glowing yellow. “Care to join us?”
“What you’re doing here will not stand, Insidia.” Luke said, voice even and cold. “We won’t allow you to raise him from the dead.”
“And you can’t stop us either.” She laughed, the other hooded figures joining in. “In fact, you are the missing piece in all of this. Your energy will give Lord Palpatine new life. Through your death, he will rise.”
“Not without a fight.” You told her, readying your saber in your grip, analyzing the figures gathered before you and praying to the Maker for luck. Luke pressed his back to yours, meeting your eyes one last time.
She laughed. “I was hoping you’d say that.”
The three of you launched into battle. Insidia unsheathed a second saber, just as red as the first, attacking with fiery passion. With hatred in every move. You dodged, using the force to toss obstacles in her way. Scraps of ship parts scattered throughout the cave, rocks, anything you could.
Luke’s saber clashed against both of hers and she threw him towards the rocky wall with a clawed grip. You used the Force to stop him, gently lowering him before his head hit the cracked surface.
Blasters fired as Leia, Han, Chewie, and Lando followed, diverting the attention of the rest of the cult. They had smaller weapons. Swords and knives and daggers, their edges twisted with wicked intent.
Insidia’s blade swung just beside you, but you used your wings to lift away, legs swinging behind you. You thrust a hand forward in an attempt to throw her back, but she met you with equal energy, a stalemate of sizzling power hidden in the air between you.
She jolted as a blast made contact with her shoulder, glancing in the direction of the shooter for just long enough to buy you the opportunity to hit one of her sabers out of her hand, across the floor, and down, down into a deep crevice in the makeshift temple.
The volcano rumbled in the distance, shaking the ground beneath you.
Luke leaped through the air, his saber clashing against Insidia’s once more. She wasted no time, dueling both of you at once, alternating between the two of you with one hand. Up, down, over and over. You swung your saber with skill and precision, crossing in front of you, then behind. You used your wings to cut through the air, flipping over her head. And just before you could deliver the final blow, she reached out to catch not her second saber, but a dagger, thrown by one of her followers.
You swung, but missed the end of it, the weapon just short enough to slip through your range. She plunged the twisted blade into your flesh, just above your hip bone. You gasped, breath stolen from your lungs as blood began to seep from the wound. Insidia twisted, pulling a yell from your throat as pain blossomed from the blade.
“This is how the Jedi die.” She seethed, voice rasping as she swung her saber, its molten glow slicing through your wings, the severed remains fluttering uselessly to the cave floor.
White-hot pain tore through your vision, through your body.
And the last thing you heard was Luke Skywalker’s tortured scream echoing off of the cave walls.
There are No Healers
The soft rumble of the Mariposan healing pods was something you were familiar with. You had rushed several allies there during the war under cover of night. Friends with grave wounds that you knew wouldn’t survive otherwise.
You’d sat beside them so many times that the sound was almost comforting. It meant that whoever was inside it was healing, somewhere safe, and that you would be there when they woke up.
You stirred as the rumble came to a stop, the gentle lulling replaced first with silence, the sound of empty air and daylight, and then, voices.
They were quiet at first, their words scrambled murmurs to your tired ears, but eventually, you made out a “Do you think it worked?” followed by a “I swear I just saw her move.”
You took a deeper breath, stretching your aching limbs. You dared to open your eyes, facing the silhouettes standing beside you.
It became clear then that you were the one in the healing pod, based on the angle you were tilted, upright but leaned backwards.
Han was standing to your left, given away by his leather jacket. On the right was Leia and someone else. Another former Rebel, maybe.
You glanced at Han. His hair was darker. Curlier. Coming into sharper focus, but still blurred by your bleary, sleepy eyes. You let out a yawn and said, “Did you do something with your hair? It looks really good.”
Han looked at Leia and the other guy.
“A-are you alright?” Leia spoke but it wasn’t her voice. Wasn’t even her accent.
Your eyebrows furrowed and you laughed softly. “Leia, what is that accent you’re doing?”
They looked at each other again. Not a good sign. Your friends would be joking. Bickering, even. Not staring at you in silence. Maybe something had happened to Luke. Maybe…you’d lost the fight.
“Is Luke okay?” You asked quietly.
“Y-your Highness…” The other voice said, a deeper voice. “What do we tell her?”
“Wait, it’s getting better.” You told them, blinking until your vision sharpened enough to finally see their faces. Your eyes fell on Han first and you realized immediately that you were wrong. Very wrong. “Oh. You’re not Han Solo.”
His mouth fell open, making eye contact with you. His eyebrows furrowed with intrigue. “Honored by the comparison, though, your Highness.”
You studied him for a moment, chiseled jaw dusted in stubble. Thick, dark curls, tan skin. Dark brows, determined features. He was familiar in a way you couldn’t place. Something about his face…Definitely not as tall as Han Solo, though.
On your other side was a young woman in Jedi garb. Well, something close to that. She had a staff strapped over her shoulder, a lightsaber hooked to her belt.
Luke’s saber.
And then there was the third, a man with dark skin and kind eyes. He smiled when you looked at him, trying to dispel the concern you could feel bubbling up in your chest.
You looked up at the temple. Or, what was left of it. You let out a broken gasp at the sight of the shattered stained glass dome, daylight streaming into the room in bright rays. “W-what happened?” You pushed from the pod, wincing at the weight of it, but the woman was quick to support you, slinging your arm around her shoulders. The Not-Han-Solo reached out too, but stopped short of touching you once he saw his friend had it handled.
You stepped over a pile of things, foot brushing against them. Half-burned candles and…flowers, petals dried and scattered.
“I am so sorry. I don’t know how to explain but…you’ve been asleep, your Highness.” She explained, eyes meeting yours with sorrow and empathy. “You’ve been asleep for thirty years.”
You were stunned into silence, standing there for what felt like an eternity, staring up at that broken window. Never had you heard your home planet so quiet.
There are no healers. You finally noticed, taking stock of the empty room, completely abandoned aside from the four of you. There was no chatter from the palace halls, no roaming guards, nothing. You didn’t even hear any birds chirping.
You reached for the saber on your belt just to find it wasn’t there. Neither was your belt. Instead, you were wearing a silky robe, floor length, but thin, and some basic undergarments. Behind you, your wings, restored to their former glory, the only evidence they had ever been harmed in the first place being a thin golden line, right where the saber had sliced them off in a neat arch.
A droid beeping drew your attention as it rolled from behind another pod. Your eyes widened, looking at it. A ball-shaped droid. Orange and white. You’d never seen one like that before.
“Woah.”
“Yes, you can come out now, BB-8.” The man in the leather jacked chuckled. “That’s my droid. He’s curious about you. We…all are, your Highness.”
“I’ve never seen one like that before.” You murmured, looking at him. “Hello there.”
He beeped in greeting and you laughed softly. Technology had progressed. They weren’t lying. It had been…thirty years. You’d been asleep for…
You moved, finally taking a step away from the woman that was supporting you, testing out your legs. They worked, thankfully. “I…need to change out of this. There should be something more…suitable in my room���if this place hasn’t been completely ransacked.”
“Lead the way, your Highness. Take all the time you need,” said the guy in the leather jacket. The Not-Han-Solo.
You walked towards the entrance of the healers’ temple that led to the palace courtyard. Immediately, that was a mistake.
What should have been a giant, gorgeous, flowering tree with a thick trunk and sprawling branches was a husk. The Monarch Tree, the glowing crown jewel of the palace grounds, of the capitol, was gone. The branches had obviously been burned off, broken to splinters. The wreckage of a TIE fighter sat at its base.
Craters littered the lawn, deep dirt-filled holes that hadn’t filled. Beyond them, dozens of destroyed buildings. Hundreds, even.
A broken sob left your lips and your knees gave out from under you. You collapsed into the grass, a hand slapped over your mouth to stifle the yell that wanted to escape. Shaking, you wiped at the tears running down your cheeks.
“What happened?” You asked again, staring at the wreckage of what had once been your home.
“There was an attack. A few days after you went into your pod.” The woman explained, offering a hand that you gladly took as she knelt beside you in the grass. You laced your fingers through hers, her touch familiar despite the fact that you knew you had never met. She didn’t look much older than twenty. She hadn’t even been born when you’d gone to sleep.
“T-the Empire?” You asked, voice wobbling.
“What was left of it.” Leather Jacket Man explained, voice stable. “It was their last attack before going quiet.”
You nodded, listening but not really processing what he said. You blinked a few times, more tears falling.
“Are you going to be alright?” The woman asked, giving your hand another squeeze. Her voice was soft, eyes curious, but gentle.
“I need a minute. I’m sorry.”
“Don’t apologize.” The other man said, shaking his head. “I…I can’t imagine what you’re going through.”
So you took some time. Minutes of quiet, of staring, of thinking before you finally heard a voice in the back of your mind.
Luke’s.
It’s time to get up now, Princess. You’ve got work to do.
Tears of the Princess
You stood again after what felt like a century, leading the others up the winding path and into the rest of the palace. Shards of glass were scattered across the colorful tile floors, furniture overturned, blaster fire immortalized by scorch marks on the wall.
You stepped over broken plates and bottles, making your way through the hallway. Just yesterday you had been there. Yesterday. And now, it was…no, you couldn’t. You didn’t dare think it.
Finally, you led the others to the doors to your room, double doors with golden handles, the wood carved and painted to match your wing coloration. A deep slash had splintered away part of the paint, but otherwise, it seemed untouched. You tried the handle, but it was locked.
“I’ll look for a key.” Leather Jacket Man volunteered, scanning the floor with his eyes.
“No need.” You said, raising a hand and focusing on the lock’s innerworkings. The gentle hum of the Force thrummed heavy on the air and the door came open with a click. “I never used one.”
All three of them stared at you and then at each other, wearing matching expressions. They were impressed. Hopeful, even. You walked inside, looking around to find it…more or less the same. Aside from a thick layer of dust, that was. Some cobwebs.
You made a beeline for the wardrobe, shuffling through your options until you found something more solid than the flimsy healing robe you were in. Beige tunic, brown pants, a magenta wrap, a brown leather belt. You turned towards your private chamber and got changed as quickly as you could, taking stock of yourself in the mirror.
The stab wound in your lower abdomen had healed perfectly, the skin still shimmering from the pod. Other than that, you looked…exactly the same. You hadn’t aged a day. It almost brought you to tears again, the thought of it, but you swallowed them down. There were bigger fish to fry.
Once you were dressed, you returned to the bedroom, where the others were curiously poking around. They all froze, watching as you reentered the room.
“Sorry.” Leather Jacket Man blurted. His eyes scanned your new outfit, looking you up and down. “We’re just curious.”
“That’s alright. You can look around, I don’t care.” You pulled a bag from the bottom of the wardrobe, quickly packing some basics into it. Sleep wear, casual wear, undergarments and undershirts. You pulled a belt with a blaster holster on it and put it in as well. Based on the way the others were armed, you sensed the galaxy was not necessarily in peace times anymore.
You took a few pairs of shoes and then turned to your dresser, where the jewelry was. Somehow, but some act of the Maker, the most important piece of your collection was still in tact. A kyber crystal on a leather cord. You pulled it off of its display and quickly did the clasp behind your neck. In lieu of finding your missing saber, you wanted to keep the door open for building another one at some point, given you could assemble the pieces. Speaking of which, those thick gold cuff bracelets sitting beside it would do nicely. You slipped them on as well.
There was a dainty golden circlet that you let your fingers hover over for a moment before slipping it on over your head. It didn’t feel right, though, so you put it in a box and slipped it in your bag for later. Maybe someday you’d feel like a princess again.
There was another box, one filled with Rebellion pins, cufflinks, and other trinkets. You put that in the bag, too, before turning back to the closet, where the woman was lingering, staring at the colorful fabrics there.
“Do you want some?” You offered, walking over to stand next to her.
“Oh, I couldn’t possibly–”
“Yes you can. Otherwise, they’ll just sit here collecting dust.” You reasoned, flipping through them until finding one you thought would suit her. “You’re a Jedi?”
“I-I am. Training.” She said, meeting your eyes very tentatively. “Your Highness.”
“Then you need some robes.” You said with a soft smile, holding up a green one alongside a blue one. A yellow one, too. “They’re a little open-backed. I hope you don’t mind.”
“I don’t mind.” She said with a chuckle, packing them in another bag.
“Boys, are you in need of anything?”
“Us?” Asked the man with the kind eyes. “No, I don’t think…”
“My brother’s room is down the hall if you want to take a look around. His fashion sense left something to be desired, but if there’s anything there, feel free. As far as I’m concerned, anything still here after thirty years is fair game…”
“Thank you, your Highness.” Leather Jacket Man said with a nod. He put a hand on the other one’s arm. “Come on, Finn. Let’s give ‘em a minute.”
Finn. You memorized, watching as they left. One name down, two to go.
You and the Jedi continued to browse the room, looking for…anything, really.
“What’s your name?” You finally asked her.
“Rey.” She provided, a kind smile on her face.
“I’m (Y/N).” You introduced.
“It’s an honor to meet you, (Y/N).” She replied, and something in you melted. You could tell already that you’d be friends.
You found a few other things laying around, a small tool kit, a sewing kit, things you felt would probably come in handy. You added them to the bag as well.
“Nothing in there.” Leather Jacket Man reported with a shake of his head. “Must not have been locked as securely as your room.”
“Yeah, that checks out.” You nodded. “We’re about done in here anyway.”
“Let me carry that, your Highness.” he offered, reaching for the bag you’d packed. “It’s kind of a hike out to the ship.”
“Thank you.” You said, handing it to him.
He wasn’t lying. They’d parked on the other side of the castle. You took them through a shortcut, which led down past the kitchens. A shelf of pots had collapsed, but that was quickly handled with a flourish of the wrists, using the Force to set everything right again, clearing the way.
“How did you find me?” you asked as you passed the library, nearing their ship, supposedly. “Did someone send you?”
“General Organa–Leia sent us.” Finn told you, solidifying to you two things: one, your best friend was alive, but two, that the galaxy was indeed at war again. “Things are…kind of desperate. We took some heavy losses recently. We need all the help we can get.”
“What was that pod you were in?” Rey asked. “I’ve never seen one that looks like that.”
“Mariposan healing pod. We’re famous for them. They can heal nearly any injury if you get to one in time. Problem is, they can only be opened by the High Healers, locked with their medallions. It’s to protect the vulnerable injured population in the case of an attack. I guess they never thought about someone getting locked inside…”
It struck you then that whoever had attacked had known what they were doing. They must have taken out the Healers before they could let you out. Surely, you would have been of more use to them even injured than asleep.
You pushed past the exterior doors, stepping out into the sunlight again. Beyond the walls, at the outskirts of the palace, was the Millenium Falcon. A wave of relief set in, seeing it, aged though it was. That ship had been home to you on more occasions than you could count.
The ramp lowered and out came Chewbacca, still leagues taller than the rest of the group, covered in fur, bowcaster ready to eliminate a threat, but not finding one. His eyes fell on you and he let out a throaty, emotional roar.
Your face lit up. It was a good thing you weren’t carrying your bag because you would have certainly dropped it with the speed you ran to him. “Chewie!” 
He roared again, picking you up off of the ground in a bone-crushing hug.
“I missed you too!” You sobbed, head resting on his furry shoulder. The tears kept coming. You doubted they’d stop. The others very pointedly hadn’t mentioned Luke, Han, or Lando. You could only assume they were sparing you from getting too much bad news at once.
But Chewbacca being alive was nice. You would take the little victories, too.
He ran a paw down your head, setting you back on the ground and studying you. Another little roar.
You wiped your tears and chuckled. “You look great, Chewie. You haven’t changed a bit.”
“You ready to leave? Is there anything else you need?” Leather Jacket Man asked. He hesitated, but elaborated. “I’m not sure we’ll be able to come back.”
You glanced back at the ruined palace one last time, letting out a long sigh. “I think I’m ready. I could stay here forever picking through it all, but I’ve got everything I need.”
“Alright. Good.” He searched your face for a moment, words dying on his tongue before he turned towards the cockpit.
Finn followed after him, an amused smile on his face. “Never seen anyone do that to you.”
“Do what?”
“Steal the words right from that big mouth of yours.”
Leather jacket man let out a sheepish laugh. Chewie put a hand on your shoulder and let out a little roar.
“I know, buddy. I like them already.”
Legends and Fairytales
The entire camp stopped and stared when the Falcon landed at the resistance’s current base. Leia was right there, waiting, hoping, that the moment that ramp lowered, there would be a powerful new recruit on it.
You slung your bag over your shoulder, bracing yourself as the ship landed, the movement of it still familiar, even with a different pilot. That said, he was a rather good pilot, this man in the leather jacket, whoever he was.
The ramp lowered and you followed Rey off of the ship onto the lush planet, the rebel base spread through the trees. You let out a sigh at the sight. The more things changed, the more they stayed the same, you supposed. There were mechanics and comms operatives, bustling to and fro, pilots in their bright orange jumpsuits, prepping for reconnaissance flights.
And in the middle of them was Leia. She stared at you with those knowing eyes, that heartbroken smile. You approached her, wordless, dropping your bag on the ground and surrendering to her arms.
“Leia…”
Her hand cradled your head as she rocked you back and forth. “You have no idea how good it is to see you.”
“I could say the same about you. Tell me…everything.”
She released you from her hold and slipped her hand into yours, giving it a squeeze. She turned to the pilot, as he and Finn finally came off the Falcon. “Thank you, you two. Will you take her things to her quarters for me? We have some catching up to do.”
“On it, General.” The pilot said, scooping up your bag from where you’d dropped it. He reached forward and touched your arm, his hand warm, calloused. “It was great to meet you, your Highness. I’m sure I’ll see you around.”
“Nice to meet you, too.” You said with a smirk. “Thanks for the ride.”
Finn had that look on his face again and you could tell by the way he stood next to the pilot as they walked towards your quarters that he was once again on the verge of teasing him.
Leia led you somewhere private. An office. Her office, you realized, looking at the few scattered trinkets from your time in the war together. A holo on her shelf held a photo of your core group: You, her, Luke, Han, Chewie, and Lando, all together, smiling after the war. You sighed, staring at it. You wondered how many of you were left.
“I’m sorry about…everything.” She started. “I can’t imagine what’s going on in your head.”
“I’m still figuring that out myself.”
“Maker, you haven’t aged a single day.” She murmured, looking at you with those eyes, wizened, worried. The same could not be said for her. Streaks of gray ran through her braided bun, a few wrinkles crinkling her face.
She had lived. She had aged. But she was still your sister, you could feel that much. Nothing in the universe could change that.
“So…what’s it like out there? How bad is it this time?”
“Worse.” Leia sighed. “So much worse. They call themselves the First Order. The Empire but…bigger. Their weapons are more dangerous. And they’re led by my son. Ben. He calls himself Kylo Ren these days.”
“You have a son…” You murmured, arms wrapped around yourself. “With Han?”
“With Han.” She nodded, settling next to you. “He…he’s gone now. It was half a year ago now. And it was Kylo.”
“Luke?” You asked.
She shook her head, blinking away tears. “Gone, too. About a month ago.”
Something broke in you when she said it. You’d known it was coming, you could feel it the moment you woke up, that he wasn’t there anymore. Your space boy was gone, and some piece of your soul crumbled along with him. Still, you asked, “Lando?”
“Is out there. Not sure exactly where. He hasn’t been spotted in a few years. You know how he was. Good at disappearing. But I’m sure he’ll pop up when it matters.”
“He always did.” You stared at the floor, tears falling from your eyes as you mourned your fallen. “M-my family. Did they get out in time?”
“Your parents died in protection of their subjects, the few refugees that managed to escape. No one has seen your brother since the attack.” She took your hand. “But Laesynda has been one of my bravest Admirals. And her son is a budding warrior in his own right.”
“I have a nephew.” You said, joy bursting through the surmounting grief.
“Soren. He’s nineteen.” She said.
“Is he here? Is Laecy? I…I want to see them.”
“They’re offworld on a mission, but they should be back to base soon. Within the next few days. They knew I was sending Rey and the boys to get you today, but none of us knew if the medallion was any good. All we had was hope that you’d be on the Falcon with them when they got back.”
“And hope was all we ever needed, you know.” You grinned. “Where did you find it?”
“I sent Poe to get it, four systems out. Took him a week to track it down. It was a longshot. A friend of a friend of a friend got their hands on it after years of searching.” She pressed her lips together, eyes serious as her hand touched yours. “I never stopped looking, (Y/N). I’m only sorry I couldn’t find it sooner.”
“Thank you, Leia. Seriously, thank you.” You said, fingers curling around her hand. “Whatever you need, I’m here. We…well we did it once. We can do it again. And that Rey…I’ve already got a good feeling about her.”
“I was going to ask you about that, actually. I was hoping you’d train with her. Once you’re settled. She’s just starting her journey. Luke taught her some things but…”
“Of course.” You nodded. “I’m sure she and I can help each other.”
***
After one of the mechs gave you a quick tour, you settled in the canteen, eating a rice bowl with some seasoned meat and veggies, sipping some iced tea. And then you just kind of sat there, watching as people came and went. You heard their whispers, saw their not so subtle points. And then, eventually, people stopped coming, the sky outside dark, the lights around camp clicking on.
The thought of going back to your bunk and laying down to sleep made you sick. Mostly the sleeping part. You weren’t sure what was worse, the thought that all of this was a dream, or that you would drift off even further, to when the Empire–First Order, you supposed–got the upper hand and took over the galaxy.
So you sat, listening to the crickets chirp, the footsteps of the occasional crew member strolling by, first watch heading to their posts for the night. You scrolled through the holo you’d been given, catching up as best as you could.
“Did anyone show you where your quarters are? I can walk you there if you’d like.” It was the pilot from earlier, the one with the curly hair and the impossibly warm brown eyes. “They’re not far from mine.”
“They showed me.” You replied. “But I appreciate the offer.”
“Can’t sleep?”
“I’ve had enough sleep, I think.” You said with a tired chuckle.
“In that case…” He pulled out a chair. “Mind if I sit with you?”
“By all means.” You motioned him forward. “I never caught your name, flyboy.”
He grinned, meeting your eyes and offering his hand, which you shook. “Poe. Poe Dameron.”
Your face lit in recognition. “So I have you to thank for waking me up. Leia told me you’re the one that tracked down that pendant. I can’t imagine what you had to do to find it.”
He smiled. “It was tricky, but…definitely worth it.”
“I’m glad you think so. I’m (Y/N) by the way. (Y/N) (L/N).”
“Oh, everyone knows who you are, your Highness. Luke Skywalker was a legend, but…you were a fairytale.”
You felt heat rise to your cheeks, a smile tugging at the edge of your lip. “A fairytale, huh?”
“Right down to the tiara and magical powers.” He said, eyes soft as he admired you up close. You couldn’t imagine the stories he’d heard about you. “Anyway, I was wondering if you wanted this.” He reached into his pocket and set the pendant on the table in front of you, its pink and purple gem shimmering ever so faintly in the dim light.
Your hand glided across the table, fingers finding the metal token with ease. You lifted it closer so you could get a good look at it. One little metal trinket had made all the difference between whether you slept another thirty years or finally woke. Honestly, you wanted to chuck it deep into the woods, never think about it again, but mementos of your home planet were few and far between. Most of them had fit into one bag. So you accepted the gift, tucking it into one of the pouches on your belt.
“Thank you.”
“Of course.” He nodded. “I’m really sorry we plopped you into another war, but…I’m really glad we have you. We need you. We need your help. If even half of what they said about you is true, you could make a real difference here.”
You mulled it over for a long time. Another war. You’d just begun to settle into the peace after the last one, and already it had been wrenched away from you. It felt impossible. The dread that ate at you every time you thought about it was nearly too much to stomach.
Regardless, you met his gaze, determination knitted in your brow. “That’s the plan.”
Kindle the Spark
You meditated instead of sleeping, sitting on a stump at the edge of the woods as the sun rose. You reached out for him. For Luke. You knew he had to be out there, his spirit, at the very least. And yet, there was no answer. Your space boy had all but abandoned you, leaving you to fend for yourself in this new galaxy you’d woken up in.
You tried not to be bitter about it.
As the sun warmed your face, you felt Rey standing tentatively at the treeline, eyes watching you.
“May I join you?”
“I was hoping you would.” You motioned her over to another stump, a few feet from yours.
She crossed her legs, perching herself on the surface. She had good balance, you noticed.
“So, where did Luke…leave off?” You asked, still not quite knowing how to talk about him. The image of him in your head, you were sure, was quite different from the Luke Skywalker she had known, the one she had trained with.
“We didn’t cover much ground, actually. He was…hesitant to train me. Or anyone, really.”
Your eyebrows furrowed at that. It had been his dream. Your dream. Starting the Jedi again, training the next class. “Oh. Alright, well, then we’ve got a lot of ground to cover. We all start somewhere.”
“Something had happened with his class of Jedi. Kylo Ren was among them.” Her energy shifted the moment she brought him up. “It went very wrong. He blamed himself. Took that as a sign that it was time to end the Jedi.”
“Well it’s not. We both know that. I haven’t been here long, but I can tell. This Rebellion–sorry, Resistance needs us now more than ever.”
“It does.” She met your eyes. “So where do we start?”
Rey was a fast learner. Incredibly fast. You started with some basic drills. You didn’t have a saber, so you used a piece of a branch, playing a lethal game of keep-away through the treetops, where you kept the stick away from Rey’s saber as long as possible, encouraging her to not hit any of the other trees with it.
It was about intention, speed, aim, and of course, agility. And she was good at it.
After something like a ten minute chase, she finally sliced off the end of the branch, earning an impressed smile. You fluttered back down onto the grass, hands on your hips, breathing heavy.
“You’re good. Good reflexes.” You complimented. “You have a fighting background?”
She shook her head. “I grew up on Jakku. Desert planet. It was rough out there, but I don’t have any formal training.”
“We’ll take care of that.” You told her.
“Wow, that was…insane.” Finn complimented, accompanied by Poe, who met your eyes with a smile. “Think you could teach me next?”
You could tell he was joking, that he didn’t think there was any truth in it, but even just standing there, you could tell there was something about him, too. Some spark of potential. Your focus now was Rey, but maybe, in time, you could kindle his spark, too.
After all, you were barely in a position to have one Padawan, let alone two.
“Morning, ladies. Thinking about some breakfast, if you were interested.” Poe said, thumbs hooked through the loops of his trousers, button-up shirt unbuttoned just enough to get a good glimpse at his tanned chest, a silvery chain glimmering against his skin.
You forced your eyes away, meeting his instead. “Breakfast sounds good.”
“How’d you sleep?” He asked as the four of you started walking towards the canteen, where the breakfast trays had been rolled out. Eggs with diced peppers, ronto sausages, some assorted fruit.
“I didn’t.”
He sputtered. “I walked you to your quarters. I kind of assumed that meant you’d go to sleep.”
“Tried. Couldn’t do it. Meditated for a while.” You shrugged. “I’ll live.”
He didn’t look convinced.
You all walked through the breakfast line, taking your servings of food before walking over to an empty table to sit. Once again, the crew members surrounding you were full of whispers, eyes darting to and away from you. You wondered if your clothes were outdated, if you stood out that much, but in most spaces, the wings alone were enough to draw attention, even if you kept them folded down most of the time.
You dug in, the food flavors familiar. It was better than the rations you’d had in your Rebellion days, that was for sure.
“That necklace. What is it?” Rey eventually asked, eyes falling on the crystal hanging around your neck. Clear, and coming to a point.
“I was wondering if you’d notice it.” You chuckled. “This is a kyber crystal. It’s what gives a lightsaber its color and power. Luke didn’t know why I took an extra and…I didn’t either. But if we can’t solve the Mystery of the Missing Saber, I’ll have to try to make a new one. If I could find the parts, that is…”
“What was your saber like?”
“One of a kind.” You reminisced. “Gold hilt. It was made from my mother’s old bracelets. Cuffs like these that I welded into shape. Indigo blade. It was the coolest.”
“Sounds like it.” Poe said, eyes falling on you once again, searching you for something. You wondered if he was like that with everyone…
You spent the rest of your day wandering the base, reading through reports, familiarizing yourself with the war, with your enemies and allies.
Poe was a commander, apparently, according to his files. The best pilot in the Resistance, if not the galaxy. It suited him. And Finn had history with the First Order as a defected Storm Trooper. You were happy for him, finding himself. You wished more people in his position were able to do the same.
Prior to your arrival, there had been a battle on Crait. Heavy losses. The Resistance had reached out for help and…no one had come. You really did seem to be the last hope.
And that was the state of the Resistance. Supplies were running low, recruitment numbers were down…all of you had your work cut out for you.
You went to the hangar, where the pilots hung out. You looked around, introducing yourself to a handful of the other pilots. A guy named Temmin, who went by Snap, a girl named Tess. There was a mech hanging out, hair in long black braids, a pair of goggles strapped to her head. She introduced herself as Aspen. You could already tell she was trouble in the best way.
You met Rose, one of Finn’s friends, and some of her crewmates.
Everyone was nice, welcoming, grateful that you were there. You just hoped you’d live up to the expectations you could feel bubbling under their gazes.
You wandered for a long time, sleep calling to you now finally, the shock of the situation wearing off now that you were somewhat settled, but you ignored it. You still got nauseous at the thought of sleep.
A droid barreled towards you, full-speed. BB-8. Poe’s droid. He stopped at your feet, looking up at you.
“Oh. Hello again. Can I help you?”
He beeped a string of words and you laughed.
“You’re looking for me? Well, you found me.”
“Good work, Bee.” Poe chuckled, carrying a box under his arm, metal pieces clinking and sliding around. “There you are.”
“Whatcha got there?”
“Parts.” He replied, giving the box a noisy shake.
“Yeah, I see that. You building something?”
“No, you are.” He motioned towards the kyber crystal. “You built the first saber. I figured I’d see if it’s anything you can use, your Highness. Scraps, mostly, but…”
Your lip quirked up. “You don’t have to use titles with me, Commander. (Y/N) is fine.”
“(Y/N),” he repeated, voice soft. You liked the way it sounded when he said it. “You did some research, huh?”
“Of course I did. Had to get caught up. I had no idea the best pilot in the galaxy picked me up yesterday.”
He laughed, cheeks reddening. “Yeah, well, you should see me in an X-Wing.”
“I’d love to.” You took a step forward, looking into the box he’d brought you. “May I?”
“By all means. They are for you, after all.”
You poked around, looking through the pieces. With the kyber crystal and your bracelets thrown in the mix…there was definitely potential there. You looked up at him, impressed. “This is really sweet, Poe. Thank you.”
“Anything useful?”
“Definitely.” You nodded, continuing to did. Whoop, there it was. A power cell. Small and cylindrical. Looked like it would be about the right size. If it worked was another question entirely, but with that found, you had all you needed, more or less. “You ever built a lightsaber before?”
He laughed. “Can’t say I have. The only one I’ve ever seen is Rey’s.”
“Do you want to?” You met his eyes.
He laughed again before seeing the look on your face. “Oh, you’re serious. Look, I’m no Jedi.”
“You don’t have to be, but I could use an extra set of hands if you’ve got time. I’m sure you’re a busy guy.”
He pretended to think about it before saying, “Yeah, of course. I’ve got nowhere to be.”
“Is there a workshop around here?”
“This way.” He motioned, leading you through the base.
He pushed aside some curtains, leading to an empty workshop at the edge of camp. BB-8 rolled after the two of you, following at a steady pace. Poe set the box on a work table and you began taking out parts, organizing them, hands guided by what could only be the Force and your memories of building the first one.
You took off your bracelets, setting them on the table along with the kyber crystal, which you gently slid off of the leather cord you had been wearing it on.
Poe pulled up a stool for each of you and handed you a pair of goggles, which you gladly put on. He watched with eager eyes, curious to see what you’d do first.
You drilled holes in the corners of your cuffs so you could screw them into place later. The internal bits, you arranged mid-air, using the Force to line them up just so, following equal parts intuition and knowledge.
Poe stared at the floating pieces, watching as they fell into place. He offered his hands and you directed him where you needed him. He held the hilt in place while you wiggled wires, tightened components, nudging the kyber crystal just so, making sure it lined up with the power cell and the focusing crystals.
Your hands brushed against his, warm and calloused. He had a fighter’s hands. A pilot’s hands. They looked so right, cradling the beginnings of your saber.
You shivered.
“You still with me, (Y/N)?”
“Thinking.” You admitted. You chuckled, shaking your head. “I think I’ve got whiplash from how fast everything’s changed.”
“I can’t imagine.” He said, voice brimming with empathy. “You’re okay, though, right? If you need anything, we’re all right here. It’s gotta be a tough adjustment.”
“I’m okay. Part of me is still convinced this is an elaborate dream.” You shrugged. “I think once we get this thing built, it’ll ground me. Convince me that this is real. That…I’m here to stay.”
“Some sleep might not hurt either.” He suggested with a teasing smirk.
“Back to the sleep again.” You chuckled. “Seriously, I’m okay. And after this, I think you might convince me to finally get some. It’s been a…long couple of days.”
He grinned. “Good. We need you at your best. It’s been a quiet few days, but the quiet never lasts long around here.”
Poe held the hilt while you screwed it all together, double-checking everything, racking your brain for anything you might have forgotten, any piece that might have been missing. By some miracle, it seemed everything you’d needed had been in that box.
Then, finally, came the moment of truth. All that was left was to turn it on.
“Alright, you go stand over there. I’ll power it on.”
“Stand over there?” Poe asked, looking over at the doorway, where you had pointed.
“Yeah, if this thing blows up, I will not be responsible for killing the Resistance’s best pilot.”
He chuckled, walking across the room. “Fair enough.”
Once he was far enough, you pressed the activator and a brilliant magenta hue emerged from the hilt. You stared at the ray of light, the familiar hum of a lightsaber filling the room. You’d done it. You’d built a lightsaber.
BB-8 beeped in awe, his words mirroring the look on Poe’s face as he stared at the weapon in your hand.
“I’ve never seen one that color before.”
“Me either.” You murmured, powering it down and strapping the hilt to your belt, a movement that was just about second nature to you. “Feels right, though.”
“I can’t believe we just did that with a box of scraps!” Poe laughed triumphantly, finally walking further into the room again, standing in front of you. His hands settled on your arms, excitement on those handsome features of his, his touch warm and electrifying. “You built a lightsaber.”
“We built a lightsaber.” You replied, warmth blossoming in your chest, his face so close to yours that you were convinced he was going to kiss you. You could feel that he wanted to. Maybe not wanted to. But he definitely thought about it, about what it would be like to kiss a Jedi.
Instead, he let go, the smile on his face not fading. “We built a lightsaber.” He repeated, letting the words sink in. “We should go show Leia. She’ll be thrilled.”
So the two of you walked straight to Leia’s office and showed her. She was thrilled.
“What do you think the color means, (Y/N)?” Leia asked, staring at the light. She knew more than anyone else there the process of making a saber, the relationship you shared with a kyber crystal.
“New beginnings.” You replied, the answer easy as breathing. It was true. This new life, this new place, these new people. This saber would help you protect them. All of them.
Leia layered her hand over yours. “I think so too. This is good news. I’ll let the team know. If you’re up for it, we could really use you in battle.”
“I’m there.” You told her. “That’s what I’m here for, after all.”
“Good. Well, get some sleep,” she met your eyes. “Both of you.”
“I’ll try.” You promised her. This time, you were sure it was a promise you could keep. You could feel it coming already.
“I’ll make sure she does, General.” Poe said, motioning towards the door, a guiding hand settling between your shoulder blades. “Come on, your Highness.”
You tilted your head, giving him an annoyed smile as he ushered you towards your quarters. “Alright, alright…”
The walk there wasn’t all that long. You opened the door with a flourish of fingers across your keypad, lingering in the doorway. You turned back to look at him, his eyes soft in the dim hallway. It was late. Most of the camp was asleep.
“Thank you, for everything. I…didn’t expect this place to feel so familiar yet, but…It’s like I never left.”
He tilted his head, something bittersweet tugging his lip into a pout. “I wish we’d gone to find you sooner.”
“We’ll just have to make up for lost time.” You said. “Kindle that spark again, make people believe, show them that they can fight for what they love. That…that it’s worth fighting for.”
He nodded. “Took the words right out of my mouth. Well, (Y/N), please get some sleep tonight.”
“I don’t think I could fight it if I tried, at this point.” You grinned, meeting his eyes. “Don’t let me sleep for thirty years this time, alright?”
“I’ll wake you up myself tomorrow morning, if it’d make you feel better.”
“It would, actually. I think that would help a lot.”
“Well then. Tomorrow morning it is. We’ll grab some breakfast. I’ll bring you some caf.”
You smiled softly, chest swirling and warm. “It’s a date, Dameron.”
Wake-Up Call
Sleep cradled you like a lover that night, encasing you in total darkness. You didn’t even dream, just rested. You’d needed it.
There were a few minutes of quiet, sunlight streaming through your narrow bedroom window, where you just laid there, reminisced. It was different than your quarters had been in the Rebellion, but constructed from the same materials, made of the same parts.
Outside, you could hear cadets on their morning jog, loud mechanical noises from the various workshops, people moving parts and packages.
You wondered what time it was.
There was a knock on the door. “Wake-up call! Rise and shine!”
Poe. You smiled. He was true to his word after all.
“Coming,” you replied, rolling out of bed and walking to the door, still in a tank top and a pair of Resistance-grade sweatpants. They slid open with a whir, the pilot standing in front of you with a steaming cup of caf in each hand.
“Morning, your Highness. I trust you actually slept last night?”
“I did indeed sleep last night, thank you for your concern, Commander.”
He grinned, handing you a cup of caf, which you took gladly. If there was anything to be said about a Rebellion, it was best fueled by caffeine. “Good, I’m glad.”
“How did you sleep?”
He shrugged. “I slept alright. My roommate snores, so…”
“I don’t snore half as loud as him, for the record.” Finn chimed, walking over with Rey. He lowered his voice, whispering excitedly. “We heard you two built a lightsaber last night?!”
“Almost forgot about that.” You chuckled, picking it up off of your nightstand. “Give me a second to change out of these sweatpants and I can show you outside.”
The boys and Rey stood out in the hall for a second while you changed into your robes, wrapping a few belts snug around your body, slotting the saber into its holster, where your other one used to sit. It was a little different, the shape of it, the feel, but you would get used to it.
You did a quick once-over of your hair and outfit before opening the door again and facing them.
“Alright, let’s go.” You motioned, taking a long sip of caf and leading them out into the open air, unclipping your saber from your belt, activating it for them to see.
“I’ve never seen one that color before!” Rey marveled. “The two of you built that?”
“I gave her a box of scraps and she built that with it.”
“It was exactly the right scraps, to be fair.” You shrugged, deactivating it and putting it back on your belt.
Finn and Rey started wandering towards the canteen for breakfast, but Poe put a hand on your shoulder.
“Hey, there’s some guys I want to introduce you to.”
“Alright.” You nodded, following him towards the hangar, where a few pilots were milling around, chatting and working on ship repairs. BB-8 rolled over, brushing against your leg on his way to Poe.
“Morning, buddy. Staying out of trouble?”
He beeped in response, earning a laugh.
“Morning, Poe.” Snap said, looking up at the two of you as you walked in together. “Your Highness.”
“Hello again. Good to see you.”
“You already met Snap?” Poe asked.
“I did some rounds yesterday, trying to learn names.”
“Everyone here is talking about it.” He chuckled. “A real life Jedi of legend, walking among us.”
“Oh I don’t know about that.” You shook your head.
“(Y/N), this is Jessika and Karé. The other two members of Black Squadron. Ladies, this is (Y/N).”
“Honored to meet you.” Jessika shook your hand. “I hope our Commander has been accommodating while you’re adjusting.”
“More than.” You chuckled.
“If you ever run into any trouble, we’ve got your back. Glad to have you on board.” Karé said, shaking your hand next.
“Glad to be here, ladies. Thanks for all you do.”
“Alright. Great. Breakfast?” Poe asked.
“Breakfast.” You followed after him, stopped in your tracks by the sound of something breaching the atmosphere.
A ship, engulfed in flame, coming in hot for what was shaping up to be a really rough landing. People started shouting, trying to brace for impact, but it became clear to you that this was a Resistance ship and there was someone important on it.
You jumped into action, sprinting, hands out in front of you, using the Force to slow its momentum, bringing it down to the ground gently, where a team of mechs and emergency response was waiting to put out the flames.
You let out a breath, heart racing as you watched the ramp lower. A woman came out, dressed in Mariposan garb, golden cuff bracelets shining on her wrists. A pair of wings fluttered behind her like a cape, their coloring similar to your own. Time stopped when she met your eyes. Her look of concern, of fear, melted immediately and she ran straight to you, arms wrapping around you tightly.
For a long moment, you just stood there in her embrace, sobs caught in your throat. You held her, letting the familiarity sink in slowly.
This was your sister. Your baby sister, Laesynda. And she was older than you now.
“Laecy?” You asked, voice thick with tears.
“Leia told me they were trying to wake you.” She said, pulling away so she could cup your face with both hands, looking you over. “I’m sorry I didn’t get here sooner. They…they took Soren.”
“The First Order?” You asked.
She nodded. “They intercepted us. I tried to stop them, but…Kylo…”
“We’ll find him, your Majesty.” Poe promised. He put a hand on your arm. “Leia’s calling an emergency meeting. Come with me.”
The two of you followed Poe towards the conference room. There were chairs on risers, arranged in a circle, at the center of it, a console. The higher-ups assembled with haste, Laesynda putting a hand on your shoulder before joining Leia with the Admirals and Generals. Poe sat with the pilots and Rey took the seat beside you.
Once everyone was accounted for, Leia started.
“The First Order has taken Soren prisoner. I vote we stage a rescue mission as soon as possible. Small rescue team. In and out. No more than two ships.” Leia said, weaving the pieces together with ease and precision. Your best friend, the princess of Alderaan had become a General, and a good one, too. It was awe-inspiring to watch. Her eyes fell on you. “(Y/N), do you think you’re ready?”
“More than ready, General.” You replied, sitting up straighter. “Whatever you need, I’ll do it.”
“She can take my X-Wing. They’ll never be expecting her. I doubt they even know she’s awake.” Poe said, determination in his brows. “We have the element of surprise, we should use it while we can.”
“I appreciate the offer, but I can’t fly an X-Wing. I’m not a pilot.” You said.
Leia thought for a moment. “Well, there was that one time.”
You almost laughed. “Okay, I have ridden in an X-Wing, but uh…it was a tight fit. We were in a pinch.”
Poe’s eyes lit up, a shocked grin pulling at his lips. “You and Skywalker crammed into one of those things?”
“We didn’t have much choice.”
“Well, I’ll try anything once.” Poe looked to Leia. “She and I can break in, find Soren, open a gate. Finn and Rey can follow in the Falcon.”
Chewbacca roared, volunteering himself as well.
“Then that’s settled. Laesynda, give them the coordinates. You’re dismissed.”
“I gotta suit up. Meet me in the hangar in ten.” Poe said, touching your shoulder before jogging off.
Laesynda walked over, taking both of your hands. “Thank you for doing this.”
“You’d do the same for me.” You replied, giving her hands a squeeze. “Besides, it’s about time I met him, right?”
“May the Force be with you, always.” She said, voice strong and true.
“And with us all.” You replied, giving her one last, quick hug before taking off towards the hangar.
Poe was there, loading up BB-8 in the back of his X-Wing, dressed in the iconic orange jumpsuit so associated with the Rebel pilots you had fought alongside. It suited him. Really, really suited him.
“Ready, your Highness?” He asked, motioning to the X-Wing. “Your chariot awaits.”
“Ready.” You looked him up and down, unable to fight the smile on your face. “You look good.”
He smirked, cheeks flushing. “What, this old thing?”
“Brings back memories, what can I say?”
Poe climbed up the ladder first, settling into his seat, pushing it as far back as he could manage. He reached up, offering you his hand as you climbed inside. You sat in the smidge of space between Poe’s thighs, wings tucked away as neatly as possible. Ever the gentleman, Poe let you lead, hands hovering.
“Can you reach everything? Am I in your way?”
“No, I’m good. I just…are you comfortable?”
“As comfortable as I can be, squished between you and the dash.” You chuckled, adjusting carefully.
“Hey, this was your idea.”
“Technically, it was Leia’s idea.” You defended.
“Here, could you…” He hesitated. “permission to touch you, your Highness?”
“Permission granted.” You said.
Poe pulled your back flush against his chest, scooting the seat up the tiniest bit so he could reach better. He tilted you slightly so your face was out of his way and he could see out the windshield. “There, that’s better.” He turned, face suddenly inches from yours, breath warm across your cheek. His cologne was sharp. Sandalwood. He gazed at you though those stupidly thick eyelashes. It was almost unfair, the way he looked at you. “You still good?”
Oh yeah, it was definitely bringing back memories now. That look in his eyes, the tugging in your chest.
“Yep. Yeah. I’m good.” You nodded, nose nearly brushing against his helmet. That inch between you felt like a mile.
“Good. Rey, Finn, how are we doing on your end?”
“Ready when you are, Poe.”
“Great. Ball’s in your court, (Y/N). You ready?”
You took a moment, clearing your mind, reaching out, preparing yourself for the journey to come. You touched the hilt of your new saber, as if to remind yourself that it was there. “I’m ready. Let’s go bring him home.”
Something Old and Borrowed
Poe rolled his X-Wing out of the hangar and onto the landing strip. You were seated comfortably in his lap. Well, as comfortably as you could be with the limited space.
“Alright, I need you to hit that switch.” Poe pointed, flipping three others in the meantime.
You reached up and flipped the metal switch with a satisfying click. Something whirred to life. You weren’t sure what.
He reached around you, arm wrapped tight around your waist so he could take the control rod. “This still good?”
“Yep. Feel free to push me around as necessary.”
“Wouldn’t dream of it, Princess.” He smirked. “Alright, Bee, punch it.”
BB-8 let out a string of beeps and then you took off into the air. It was definitely faster than Luke’s X-Wing. New gen tech, you deduced. It only made sense that space ships would get better in the thirty years you’d been sleeping.
You took a long breath, the rush exhilarating, especially when you were out of orbit and Poe shifted it into hyperdrive, the Resistance base fading to a mere blip miles and miles behind you. You let out a thrilled little laugh, bracing against the impact of that initial thrust.
“So he really never taught you how to fly, huh?” Poe asked, still obviously hung up on it.
“We were busy.” You shrugged. “I knew some of the stuff in the Falcon cockpit, and my aim is pretty decent with a blaster, but they never had me up here in one of these. I was better suited on the ground. I was really good at drawing fire so everyone else could do the important stuff. Jedi are excellent distractions.”
“I would argue the stuff you were doing was important, too.” Poe said, shifting the control rod just so, arm digging into your side ever so slightly.
“Yeah?”
“I’ve read the reports. Seen some of the archive footage.” He confessed. “There’s a reason everyone on base looks at you like that.”
“Like what?” You asked, looking back at him, coy smirk on your face.
“Like this, I’d imagine.” He whispered, eyes full of warmth, even through his tinted visor.
Your breath hitched, heart caught in your throat. “Poe…”
He cleared his throat, eyes flicking back to the windshield. “Sorry.”
“Don’t be.” You shook your head, eyes scanning his features one last time before shifting forward again.
“What’s your ETA, Commander Dameron?” Leia asked over the comms.
“About an hour out from the coordinates, General. Any tips as to what we’re flying into here?”
“Star Destroyer. They��re out in the Shade system.”
Something in you sank, heart racing as you remembered the last time you had been there. How could you forget? After all, that was where you’d died thirty years ago.
“Do we know what they were doing out there, General?” You asked, voice strained.
“Retrieving something of utmost importance.” Leia replied. “We can discuss it when you return.”
“Alright.” You said, deflating.
“What’s up with the Shade system?” Poe asked, watching your expression. “What are we flying into?”
“It’s where I died. And it was where they were trying to…revive Palpatine.” You explained, your shimmering scar seeming to burn as you did, memories of Insidia’s words, the malice in her tone, her blade buried in your hip.
Poe muted himself with a press of a button on the wall, muted you with another, giving you a moment of privacy. “You okay with this? I didn’t realize that was where we were headed.”
You nodded. “We’re not turning around. They’ve got my nephew on that ship. Never met the kid, but…”
Poe nodded. “We’re gonna get him back, don’t you worry about that.”
“What’s he like?”
“Soren? He’s great. Been on base since he was seventeen. Your sister just started bringing him on missions recently. He’s got a great shot. Good at repairs and maintenance. The mechs started teaching him how to fix ships.” He grinned. “He’s a good kid. He’s got the spark like the rest of us, wants to make a real difference out here.”
“I can’t wait to meet him.”
“He couldn’t wait to meet you, either. Grew up on stories about you.” Poe said. He smiled softly. “We all did.”
There was some comfortable quiet between the two of you. BB-8 piped up every so often with status updates.
“So how do you…fly this thing?” You asked, earning a smirk, Poe’s arm adjusting around you, hand still wrapped around the control rod.
“Thought you’d never ask. So, this controls movement mostly, pitch and yaw, affects my–our trajectory. Speed is this lever over here. That one is hyperdrive. The buttons on the control rod are our blasters. This one to aim, trigger to fire. Different adjustments for stationary and moving targets.”
“And what’s the one you had me flip earlier?”
“The air conditioning.”
You laughed. “Ah, yes, important.”
“Well, you know, I figured it might get a little muggy in here, two of us and all. I’m not used to sharing this cockpit with such a beautiful copilot. Or any copilot, really.”
BB-8 chirped in annoyance.
“I said in the cockpit, Bee, you’ve got your own compartment.” Poe retorted, sharing a look with you. “Droids.”
“Droids.” You agreed with a laugh.
It was more comfortable after that, the two of you chatting a bit until Finn, Rey, and Chewie finally came over the headset. You were getting closer to the Star Destroyer. You’d arrive about seven minutes before the others, try to get them a way in as quickly as you could, as well as a speedy escape route.
“We’re gettin’ close. You ready for action?”
“Always.” You replied. “You got your blaster?”
“‘Course I do. It’s gonna get ugly out there. Always does where Stormtroopers are involved.”
“As long as their aim hasn’t improved too much, I should be all set.” You chuckled.
“It’s never been great, in my experience.”
“Oh, never. I think there’s something wrong with their helmets. They’re not custom-fitted so a lot of them genuinely can’t see.”
“She’s right about that.” Finn said with a laugh. He was speaking from experience. “Can’t believe they haven’t found a solution for that after thirty years.”
“Tell me about it.”
“You got a plan?” Poe asked, trying to plot out his approach.
“Get me in there, pop the lid of this thing, and I’ll handle the rest.” You assured him. “I’m good at making an entrance.”
“Alright, works for me.” Poe pulled up on the hyperdrive and the stream of stars came to a halt, the Star Destroyer seemingly appearing before you. “We’re here. See you three on the other side.”
“Roger that, Commander.” Finn said.
Chewbacca roared some encouragement and then Poe maneuvered expertly past blasts from the surface canons, shifting every which way, doing a barrel roll, his other arm wrapping tightly around you to prevent you from falling up into the dash. After all, you weren’t wearing a seatbelt.
His speed alone was remarkable, but his skill was unmatched. You’d never seen someone fly like that before.
He whipped into the hangar, landing the X-Wing and popping the cockpit open. You put a hand on your saber, using the Force and your wings to propel up and out of the X-Wing, deflecting incoming blaster fires in a flurry of light. You spun down to the ground, skilled movements dispatching Stormtroopers as they approached.
You slashed your saber in a figure-8, returning any enemy fire right back to the senders, knocking them on their asses with a chorus of groaning.
In moments, there was a pile of Stormtroopers at your feet, a very impressed pilot climbing out of the cockpit. He unloaded BB-8, who rolled ahead of you down one of the hallways, following some kind of signal from Soren.
You felt a similar pull, but this one, you could tell, was the Force. It came from your chest, like a tether stretched down the endless hallways, leading you towards him, your nephew. Your family.
Poe gripped his blaster, a hand on your arm. “Bee says he’s this way.”
“He’s right.” You nodded, lightsaber still aglow in your hand. “I can feel it.”
You ran down stark white and black corridors. Maker, did it bring back memories…They were still using all the same designs, color scheme unchanged.
“Landing in four minutes. How are we looking, Poe?” Rey asked.
“We are looking great. She took out twenty Stormtroopers before I even got out of the cockpit.” Poe relayed. “They know we’re here, but we’re on the way to Soren now. Shouldn’t be long before we find him.”
BB-8 stopped suddenly in front of a door, letting you know that this was the one.
You reached forward, focusing on the control panel. It was a biometric lock, only meant for very specific people to get through. They obviously knew who they had their hands on, that this captive was an important one. You felt the mechanical pieces inside, feeling for the one tiny chip, and used the Force to trigger it.
The light turned green, door sliding open. You powered down your saber and hooked it to your belt once you saw the room was empty aside from Soren, strapped onto what you could only assume was a torture rack.
There he was, your nephew. His youthful features were weighed down by exhaustion and pain, blood trailing down from his temple.
“Brings back…memories.” Poe said with a shiver.
“Same here.” You said, walking straight over to him and undoing the restraints with a flourish of your hand.
You stood over him, waiting for him to wake. “Soren?”
Poe gave his shoulder a shake, his other hand on his blaster, eyes locked on the door. “Come on, buddy, we’ve gotta go.”
He stirred, eyes meeting yours through a thick layer of exhaustion. “That was fast.”
“Not fast enough, apparently. Sorry, kid.”
“‘M alright.” He insisted, struggling from the hold of the table. You helped pull him out. “Who are…?”
“I’m (Y/N). Your…mother’s sister.”
“Aunt (Y/N)?” He asked, eyes shooting open. “They…they found you.”
“Did you ever doubt us?” Poe asked with a chuckle.
“Didn’t expect you to be so…young.” Soren noted.
“Yeah, well, I didn’t expect you to be so old.” You replied, the boy standing in front of you only younger than you by roughly five years. It was odd, to say the very least, given that he hadn’t existed as of a week ago. “Or to…exist at all, really…”
“Mum and I were on a mission, looking for your–”
There was sounds of struggle down the hall. You watched as a Stormtrooper flew past the open door, thrown, very obviously, by the Force. Rey and Finn ran past after.
“In here!” You called.
They turned and joined you in the interrogation room. Rey held out another saber, gold hilt. For a moment, you thought you had dropped yours, but no, it was a different saber. As soon as your hand touched the metal, you could tell it was yours, your old one. What had happened to it in the meantime was a mystery, but it still fit so well in your hand.
You pressed the switch, its indigo glow stretching outwards, familiar to you. You’d missed it. Somewhere in your soul, you could tell it had been a long time since you’d held it.
“Your saber.” Soren said, completing his sentiment from earlier. “We figured you’d need it if you were going to help us take down the First Order, but it seems like you got your hands on another one…”
You powered it down, offering it to him. “Are you trained?”
He stared at it, flabbergasted. “What?”
“Can you use this?”
“I’m not a Jedi.” Soren said, shaking his head.
You felt it in him, Force sensitivity. But maybe he’d been too preoccupied with his budding membership in the Resistance to notice it just yet.
BB-8 let out a string of agitated beeps.
“Company.” Poe announced, blaster poised at the ready.
“We’ll talk about this later, then.” You assured him, powering up both sabers, the pink and purple filling the cold room with a warm glow. It was like both of you were standing there, your old self and your new self. You’d fought the Empire for years, it was time to give the First Order a taste of what they’d been missing in your absence. “I’ve never dual-wielded before, but…there’s a first time for everything.”
Poe laughed, triumphant, face lit in an excited smile. “I like the sound of that!”
Rey and Finn led the charge back towards the Falcon, where Chewie was keeping it warm. The rest of you followed, Poe blasting, ducking for cover behind pillars you passed, Soren right behind him.
You covered them, deflecting most of the blaster fire sent their way.
The hangar was flooded with Storm troopers. Chewie tried to shake as many as he could, but there were a few on top of the hood, trying to crack into it with a variety of weapons.
Rey handled the ones on the ground, hundreds of troopers doing their damndest to prevent your escape. Bless their hearts.
Your wings fluttered and you spun up onto the top of the Falcon, the five Stormtroopers there stopping to stare at you before redirecting their fire. You spun both sabers with ease, deflecting their shots down onto the troopers on the ground, taking out two dozen or so before they got the hint and stopped shooting.
One came at you with a large, electrified melee weapon. He swung at your feet, but you jumped over it, slicing through the shaft of the weapon before turning and slicing through his armor on the backswing.
You threw a saber at another, using the Force to draw it back in an elongated spin through the air, and then finished off the other three in a few quick moments.
“We’re all inside, (Y/N), ready when you are.”
“Tell Chewie to open the sunroof.” You said, deactivating your sabers and clipping them to your belt. You ran, dropping into a slide just as said sunroof opened beneath you. You dropped into the ship, pressing the button on the wall to close it again.
You strode into the cockpit, where Poe was hovering over the controls, his jaw dropping open when he saw you standing there, already inside. He shook it off, refocusing on the task at hand: escape.
“What about the X-Wing?” You asked before noticing it in flames at the edge of the hangar. Figured. “Nevermind.”
“And with that, we are outta here.” Poe settled into the driver’s seat, Chewie as his copilot.
They sped out of the hangar, weaving through blaster fire until finally, you were all out of range.
“Wanna kick it into hyperdrive for me?” Poe asked, motioning to the lever.
You leaned over him, hand wrapping around the metal handle. “When, now?”
He wrapped his hand around yours, shifting it backwards. “Now.”
The pilot lingered for a moment before taking his hand off of yours, eyes searching your face, as if to make sure you were real, that you weren’t really just a fairytale, especially after watching you in action, leaping around like the famed warrior Leia had always claimed you to be.
He’d believed it before, but he’d just seen it with his own eyes. To say he was starstruck did not even begin to cover what he was feeling.
And somehow, despite it all, you were so normal with him, still bantering, flirting even. Maker, he was in it deep, now.
He pushed it down, that bubbling, boiling, burning feeling, focusing instead on the expanse of space in front of him. He looked at you, forcing a casual smile. Any more than that, and he felt his heart might explode. “You were great out there, Princess.”
“So were you, flyboy.” You complimented. You put a hand on his shoulder, sending his heart racing. “I’m gonna go talk to Soren.”
“Yeah, of course. We’ve got it handled up here, right Chewie?”
Chewie roared, reaching out for a hug that you granted him, all laughs and smiles. “It is, buddy. Just like old times.”
***
The Millenium Falcon pulled into the Resistance base to cheers and applause, the team rallying down on the ground at a rather successful mission. Soren had been rescued, and there had been no casualties, aside from Poe’s latest X-Wing, but that was nothing that couldn’t be replaced.
You walked out of the Falcon alongside your nephew. You had spent the hour back to base getting to know him. He was a bright young man, funny with a dazzling wit and a kind heart. Laesynda had raised him well.
And, of course, she was standing there just outside the ship, pulling both of you into her arms as soon as you reached her.
It was so strange. From an outsider’s perspective, you could have almost been her child, his older sister. Instead, your family tree had been twisted. But in that moment, it was just nice, the three of you all together. Your little family.
Your sister, cupped your cheek with her hand, staring at you for the first time, really taking in the sister that had come back to her after all this time, her older sister that had become her younger sister.
“Thank you, for bringing him back to me.”
“Of course, Laecy. I’d do anything for you.” It had always been the truth.
“I see you’ve met your aunt.”
“She really is something, Mum. Used two lightsabers at once, took out nearly four dozen stormtroopers in five minutes! I’ve never seen anything like it.”
“I don’t think it was four dozen.” You replied, chuckling.
“Damn near that many.” Poe said, approaching. He was fiddling with his gloves, still wearing his flight suit, the bright orange causing him to stand out. Not that he didn’t already. His mere existence was enough to turn your head. “Admiral, is there anything else you need before I go change out of this?”
“You’re all set, Commander. Thank you.”
“All in a day’s work.” He grinned, eyes lingering on you as he walked back towards the pilot locker rooms.
“Seems the Commander’s taken a liking to you.” Laecy said with a girlish grin.
“I would say so, yeah. Unexpected, but…I’m warming up to it.” Your hands rested on your belt, where both sabers were strapped. It reminded you of your thought earlier. “Soren, would you want to come to training with Rey and I from here on out? It’s okay if I’m wrong, but…I just have this feeling that you could benefit from some Force work. I feel like there’s something there.”
He looked at his mother, as though asking for permission. She nodded, that knowing sparkle in her eye.
“I thought so, but I wasn’t sure. It’s always been hard for me to tell, since you left.” Laesynda admitted.
“You think I’m…a Jedi too?”
“I think you could be, if it’s something you want to work on. It runs in the family, after all.”
“Then I’ll be there. I’d like to try. Help the Resistance however I can.” He said, eyes sparkling with an impossible amount of hope. No wonder Leia had prioritized his rescue so highly. That, and you were sure she wanted to send you on a test run. Make sure you hadn’t lost your touch.
He walked off towards the canteen for dinner, where the rest of the crew was beginning to wander, murmurings of a victory party beginning to spread.
“So, (Y/N), you promised when you came back you’d let me braid your hair.” Laesynda proposed, a certain shyness in her voice, like she was afraid you’d say no. Or maybe she was afraid you’d forgotten her final proposition to you all those years ago.
You smiled, reaching for her hand, which she gladly gave you. “I’d love that.”
So Long, Space Boy
You sat in your sister’s quarters, in a hall with the rest of the Admirals. She had a full-sized bed, quite a few things from home. In a small cooling unit, she had several glass bottles of sweet drinks. She offered you one with a smile and you took it gladly, enjoying the warm buzz of it.
She plucked a brush from the dresser along with some clips and an elastic to tie your hair off and set to work, parting off pieces and carefully weaving them into intricate strands.
“I missed you.” She spoke, breaching the quiet that had settled.
“I missed you, too.” You told her, and it was true. Despite the fact that it had only been a few days since you’d seen her, it still made your heart ache to know that she was offworld, not only alive, but older.
Older than you.
She’d been ten when you’d left with Luke and the others. And you’d blinked and now she was a woman, a few strands of silver mixed into the gentle waves of her hair, wrinkles beside her eyes. She had a son. She’d had a life. It hurt indescribably that you hadn’t been there for any of it.
“Tell me everything. Tell me about your life.” You told her, meeting her eyes in the mirror as she gently worked through your hair.
“Well, I was raised by the few surviving elders of Mariposas on a small settlement of us on Yavin 4. Not a lot of us survived, but…there were enough. I lived there for several years, met a man, got married, and had Soren not long after. Everything was…perfect for a while. Then, things with the First Order started getting worse. Leia touched base. At first, I thought I could stay out of it, but…that just was not an option. The First Order tried to recruit Soren at every turn. I couldn’t keep him safe anymore, so we found Leia, joined up with the Resistance.”
“What happened to your husband?”
“He’s undercover. Doing work underground. Last I heard, he’s safe. We hear from him every few months.”
“I’d love to meet him.”
“He’d love to meet you.” She replied, tying off the braid at the end, laying it over your shoulder. “Leia told me her plan years ago, to track down the last Healers’ Pendant, to wake you. I thought it was too good to be true, but…then she put Poe Dameron on the case. That boy doesn’t know how to give up. He’s one of the best.”
“Seems like it.” You agreed, chest buzzing at the thought. Poe had saved you. You knew that much. “I’m glad you’re here.”
“I was going to say the same.” She laughed. You turned to look at her, facing her on the bed, just like when you were girls. You’d always had quite the age gap, but you tried to involve yourself as much as you could while she was young, unlike your brother, who couldn’t be bothered with bonding with either of you.
“Now, it seems you’re ready for that party the mechs were buzzing about.”
“Party? I don’t know about all that. Was this your scheme from the beginning?”
“You’re still young.” She said with a soft, bittersweet laugh. “You should enjoy it. Besides, a certain pilot could very well be in attendance. You never know.”
“Is he usually at those things?”
“On several occasions, he has been known to make an appearance or two.”
“I don’t have anything to wear.” You lied.
“Banthashit. Let’s go.” She stood, ushering you towards your room.
You unlocked it and led her inside, where you went through the clothes you had brought. Admittedly, there was not a lot you were working with. You’d packed light. But she pulled one dress, a long, flowing thing that looked like it had been hand-dipped in a sunset.
“This one. You always looked so beautiful in it.”
“It’s not…outdated?”
“It may be a little old-fashioned, but…I think that’s what they need right now. A little old-fashioned Rebel moxie.”
You laughed, holding the dress up to your frame, thinking about it for a long few moments before committing and changing into it, abandoning your Jedi robes for the summery gown instead. It wasn’t all that long, had some off-the-shoulder sleeves, and of course, the open back for your wings. It had been custom-made for you, a birthday or something, before you’d left to join up with the Rebellion.
You were glad you’d brought it with you.
Laecy plucked your delicate golden circlet from your assorted jewelry and gently set it on your head, her hand lingering against your face. Her lips pressed into a pout and tears welled in her eyes as she looked at you. “This is how I remember you.”
You choked on a sob, pulling her into your arms, gently stroking through her hair like you had done when she was a child. You may have looked the way she remembered you, but the Laecy you remembered was gone now, living on only in your memory.
She had grown up and you would never see her again.
***
Laecy retired to her room to work on reports, giving you one last shove towards the party you were still thinking of avoiding.
You could hear it long before you could see it, talking and music and laughter echoing over the hill. Poe was standing outside the canteen, pacing, nursing a cup of what you could only assume was Jet Juice, if that was still something they made for parties on these Resistance bases.
You approached slowly, second-guessing every step until his eyes finally fell on you and that face broke out into that infamous smile that had the girls on comms giggling and kicking their feet. You couldn’t say you blamed them.
“Didn’t think you’d come down here, your Highness.” He said, eyes raking down your body from the circlet perched in your hair to the dress you were wearing. He bit his lip. “I was hoping you would, though.”
“I’ve never been known to shy from a party.” You said with a chuckle. “Had quite the reputation in my day.”
He smirked. “Oh, I know. Shall we?”
Poe offered his hand and you considered for a moment before taking it, arm tucked behind his as he led you into the canteen. Cadets bobbed along to music one of the droids was playing. One of the other pilots was bartending, mechs crowded around a table playing Space Pong.
Another round of introductions broke out. You sipped Jet Juice from a cup as Poe bragged about your mission, recounting your acts of bravery, the way you made lightsaber wielding look as easy as breathing.
“You’re one to talk, flyboy. I’ve never seen a pilot fly like you.” You told him, eyes meeting his.
“You mean that?”
“Every word.”
Rose held up a box of what appeared to be a drinking game of some kind. Finn stood beside her, Rey with them, all of them unwinding. “Want to play?”
“Yeah, deal us in.” You said, giving Poe a tug over towards them. They had two couches on either side of a small, illuminated coffee table. You sat on the end, Poe in the seat next to you, his leg touching yours and his arm settling on the couch behind you.
“So how was it?” Snap asked, sitting on a chair he’d pulled up. “Cramming another person into an X-Wing?”
“Cozy.” Poe replied, taking a sip of his drink, arm hovering dangerously close to your shoulders. “Didn’t expect it to work so well, honestly.”
“Could have used another seatbelt, though.” You added. “I almost got a face full of windshield when this guy did a barrel roll. Good thing he’s got quick reflexes.”
“Oh so you got cozy cozy.” Finn laughed, eyebrow quirking at the look on Poe’s face when he said it.
“Had to reach the control rod somehow.” He shrugged, glancing over at you. “(Y/N) didn’t seem to mind.”
“Wow, you’re on a first name basis with the Princess of Mariposas?” Snap teased. “Must be nice.”
“After today, I think he’d have to be.” You said with a grin, tucking your legs up against Poe’s thigh.
Poe’s arm finally drifted from the back of the chair, settling around your shoulders as soon as you made a move closer to him. It was like he couldn’t stop himself. And when you met his eyes, you could tell that was the case. His gaze softened, eyes scanning over your face, down the intricate braid that sat on your shoulder. Somehow, you felt closer than you had been earlier, despite the fact that you weren’t literally perched on his lap this time.
His eyes flicked down to your lips and you thought he might actually kiss you, in front of your budding friend group. Part of you wanted him to. Instead, his eyes drifted out the window and his eyebrows furrowed.
“Ummm…”
“What?” You turned to look. Standing at the edge of the woods was a blue, glowing figure.
Luke. It had to be.
Your heart flickered with something between elation and rage. He finally decided to make an appearance. How convenient for him.
“Maker. Alright. Great. I’ll, uh, be right back.” You said, unfurling yourself and brushing yourself off, suddenly self-conscious.
“You want us to wait for you?” Rose asked as a few more stragglers joined their circle.
“You can start without me. Just save me a seat.” You replied, giving the others one final look before turning and walking towards the woods.
From a distance, he looked like Obi-Wan, in a way, shrouded in a phantom hood, his blue glow eerie and awe-inspiring. When you got closer, it was clear. This was Luke, under that beard and long grayed hair. Your space boy had grown into an old man.
“You don’t look thrilled to see me, Princess.” He said, voice echoing at the edges, another reminder of the plane of existence that stood between the two of you now.
“I reached out for you three days ago. Might have been more thrilled to talk to you then.”
He chuckled to himself, sounding bitter. “I’m sorry.”
“Are you?” You asked, heart racing, a searing rush of adrenaline coursing through your veins. “I…I’ve had the time to do the math, you know. It took Poe Dameron a week to find that pendant. You had thirty years. Pardon me for feeling like maybe you didn’t want me to wake up.”
“Walk with me.” He reached out, offering his arm.
You stared at it for a long moment, anger still bubbling beneath the surface. But you relented, taking his arm as best you could, and walking deeper into the woods.
Fireflies floated from tree to tree, illuminating the darkened moon. You remembered the glowing butterflies of your home planet. You wondered if they’d survived the attack, if any of the fauna had. You hadn’t really stuck around there long enough to find out.
“I wanted to. You have to know I wanted to.” He said, face shifting from his wizened older form to your space boy, eyes clear when they met yours, features identical to the way he’d looked the day you’d left.
“No. Don’t do that.”
“Don’t do what?”
“Don’t use his face against me.” You said, staring straight at him. Your heart ached. You motioned to him vaguely. “This Luke loved me. He wouldn’t have let me rot in a healing pod for three decades.”
With a sigh, he aged himself again, long silver beard replacing his smooth, youthful face. “I tried, but I couldn’t.”
“Tried to find it or tried to wake me?” You asked, jaw set on edge as you braced yourself against his words.
“Both, I…I searched the wreckage for days. Couldn’t even find one with the Force. I tracked down the elders after they’d scattered, I searched markets and spoke to smugglers and…every night, I dreamt of your life here. This was your destiny. This Resistance needed you and I knew I couldn’t stand in the way of it. So…I stopped looking.”
“It should have been my choice.” You said, words dripping with venom. “My whole life is gone! Don’t you realize that? You’re dead. Han’s dead. Lando is Maker knows where and Leia has been here alone, knee-deep in a Resistance that you were too stubborn to join! I could have been here! I could have helped train Rey so long ago. So many people died. So many.”
“I know…”
“I don’t think you do! You made one measly attempt to fulfill our dream and then hid in a cave for years!” You took a shaking breath. “My little sister is older than me now, Luke. She had to live her whole life without me. I should have been there for her. I should have been the one raising her. She should have had someone. Her whole family died and you left me there to sleep.”
He nodded, letting you vent for the first time since you’d awoken. “Anything else?”
“No, I think that about covers it.” Your wings flared behind you. You faced him, arms crossed, brows furrowed. “I wish things had been different is all.”
“I do too.” He agreed, eyes wandering back to camp. “And I’m sorry. Maybe someday, you’ll realize why it had to be like this. If I could have taken your place, I would have in a heartbeat, but…I knew you had to be here. They need you. They need you like this. It was always supposed to be you.”
A tear slipped down your cheek. “Maybe someday, I’ll understand.”
“You already do.” He said, tilting his head. “I loved you, (Y/N), with all my heart, but part of me always knew our destinies weren’t intertwined the way I wanted them to be. That you were supposed to be here…with them, with…”
“With who?”
He didn’t answer. “And I’ll always be here with you. Always. I’ll be here to guide you as best as I can. I lived my life. Now it’s time to live yours. Live our dream, bring up the next class of Jedi, just like we always wanted to.”
Another tear fell down your face. “I just wish I didn’t have to carry it alone. I was supposed to carry it with you.”
“I know, Princess. I…I won’t blame you if you don’t forgive me. But I need you to be strong for them. For Leia. She needs you, they all do.”
You nodded, but didn’t say much else, your opinions on the matter still swirling before they settled. Maybe someday, you’d come to terms with it once the whiplash healed.
He walked you back to the edge of the woods, hand held in yours as best as it could be. You hugged him tightly, his phantom form manifesting physically for just a moment, just so you could say goodbye.
“Goodbye, Princess.”
You pressed a kiss to his bearded cheek, and then he faded, leaving you alone at the edge of the woods to think over everything he’d said. Your destiny was here, with the Resistance. You wiped away the tear trickling down your cheek, and turned back to the party, more than ready to finish your drink and take your mind off things.
The group around the table was laughing and talking, shuffling through the metal cards in the box, different challenges etched on each. Poe was sitting, deep in thought, the spot beside him saved by BB-8, who looked so silly up on the couch. As soon as Poe saw you approach, his focus jumped to you, searching you like you were a ship’s console, reading the flashing signals to figure out what was wrong.
He left the group for a moment, walking over to you instead, to give you a moment of privacy if you needed it. “How did it go?”
“Fine. Good. I…” you chuckled in advance at how ridiculous it was going to sound, but said it anyway, “I think I just broke up with Luke Skywalker. Or…he broke up with me. Kind of…unclear, actually.”
His eyebrows furrowed, mouth opening and then closing as he tried to find his words. “Are you…okay?”
You nodded, managing a hopeful smile. “I am. Help take my mind off of it?”
“Oh, I’m good at that.” He offered his hand, palm up, fingers splayed.
You took it, his palm rough against yours. Warm. “I know you are.”
You walked back over the couch together, where instead of whatever game Rose had pulled out, the group was now playing a very intense game of Never Have I Ever.
“Oh, right. If you’ve ever pet a bantha, worn a Stormtrooper helmet, been drunk on Coruscant, or snuggled with a Wookie, you have to take a sip.” Poe filled you in.
You reached for your cup and took a long sip from it. “I have indeed snuggled with a Wookie. Chewie gives very good cuddles.”
“Snap, your turn.”
“Alright.” He eyed up Poe and said. “Never have I ever kissed a Jedi.”
Poe shook his head. “Haven’t had the pleasure, myself.”
“Okay that feels very targeted. There were only two of us. Three if you count Yoda.” You laughed, taking another sip. “And we kissed each other back then, so…very limited pool you’re pulling from here.”
“Oh!” Snap laughed. You could tell he had been fishing for something else. “You and Skywalker.”
“Yeah.” You nodded, finally letting the burden of it go. It didn’t need to be a secret anymore, especially now, since it was over. Since he was gone. “Me and Skywalker. Worst-kept secret in the galaxy.” You looked at Poe, testing the waters a little bit. “Besides, what happens in the X-Wing stays in the X-Wing.”
He let out a laugh, shoulders shaking. “What she said. My turn? Never have I ever wielded a lightsaber. There. That’s at least three of you.”
“Three?” You asked, taking yet another sip of your drink. “Who’s the third?”
“Finn has some lightsaber history.” Rose said, swirling the liquid around in her cup.
“Really, that is interesting. We’ll have to get you back on that.”
“You’ve spent like a week here and you’re converting us all to Jedi.” Finn chuckled, reaching for his drink.
“Well someone’s gotta.” You shrugged, curling up against Poe again. His arm rested on the back of the couch, but you could feel him thinking about wrapping it around you instead. You kind of wished he would. You leaned closer to him, face inches from his, liquid confidence finally kicking in. 
His eyes found you, intrigued, watching your every move.
“You can hold mine if you want, you know. All you’ve gotta do is ask.”
His thick eyelashes brushed against his tan cheekbones. His voice dropped to a whisper. “Hold what, your Highness?”
“My lightsaber.” You raised your eyebrows, heart racing under his intense brown gaze. “What did you think I was gonna say, Dameron?”
He smiled, tongue jutting over his bottom lip. You imagined them pressed to yours, and you weren’t sure if it was a vision or just a fantasy, the way they’d feel, the way he’d sound. You swore you could feel his stubble tickling across your skin, his fluffy curls threaded through your fingers, warm warm skin on yours.
You snapped out of it with a start. This was why the Force and alcohol didn’t mix.
He didn’t answer. “Your turn.”
“Right. Well, there’s a lot of things I have done.” You turned your attention to the rest of the group that was still sitting there, watching. “Never have I ever been inside a TIE fighter.”
A few people in the circle took sips, laughing and chatting amongst each other. You watched them all. This crew, this Resistance. Maybe Luke was right. Maybe this was where you belonged.
You glanced over at Poe, at the lovesick look that was already set deep in those warm brown eyes of his. You could feel it, stirring around in his heart. Had been since that first night in the canteen. Maybe even since the moment he saw you.
Yeah, maybe Luke was right about other things, too…
The Heirloom
You had something of a headache the next morning. It shouldn’t have been a surprise, given the sheer amount of Jet Juice you’d consumed the night before. You got some breakfast before training, sliding familiarly into your seat between Poe and Rey.
He quirked up an eyebrow at your sheer exhaustion. “You feeling alright, your Highness? Looking a little worse for wear.”
“Thanks. Right back at ya, flyboy.” You groaned, reaching for the cup of caf he’d gotten for you and drinking, not bothering to let it cool. The heat definitely woke you up.
“Some party last night, huh?” Finn asked, unable to keep the smile off of his face.
“You should have seen the afterparty on Endor.” You chuckled. “I was hungover for four days after that.”
“I’ve heard.” Poe chuckled. “That party lives in infamy among former Rebels, you know.”
“Oh I’m sure it does.” You grinned into the mug nursed between your hands. 
You tried to ignore the way he looked at you, that absolute warmth in his eyes, but you feared it wasn’t going away any time soon.
After breakfast, you and Rey walked out into the clearing, where Soren was waiting, trying to meditate on one of the stumps up there. He opened his eyes when you stepped on a twig.
“Aunt (Y/N). Good morning. I didn’t know when you wanted to start.”
“How long have you been out here?” You asked with a gentle laugh.
His cheeks flushed. “Probably too long, to be honest.”
“How’s the meditating going?” You asked.
“It’s hard to get my mind to be quiet.”
“It was hard for me at first, too. They used to tell me to just quiet my mind and listen, but sometimes it’s easier to just count.” You told him, sitting on the stump beside him, legs crossed, back straight. “Deep breaths. Close your eyes. Listen to the leaves rustle in the trees. You don’t have to feel anything right away. It’s not something you can push, anyway. All you can do is listen, and if your mind won’t be quiet, just count.”
“Count to what?”
“Up from zero. As high as you need.” You told him, closing your eyes and taking a deep breath, listening to the rustling branches.
“What are we listening for today, Master?” Rey asked, voice smooth and even as she sat on the third stump.
“Just listening. Seeing what the Force has to say.” You replied, colors blossoming across the back of your eyelids. You listened, breaths long and even. Your focus was drawn to your heartbeat, steadfast in your chest.
You felt Rey and Soren beside you. You took another breath and felt your sister in her room, working on reports, Leia strategizing her next move in the war that had consumed her life.
You gently searched the others. The pilots, the mechs. Watched as Poe worked on a dilapidated X-Wing, sweat on his brow. BB-8 rolled past his feet. He glanced up the hill, where you were and suddenly, you disconnected, feeling like you were encroaching on his privacy. Some people didn’t take kindly to that kind of thing. You didn’t know the details, but you knew Poe had some experience with Force torture. Not that this was that, but you were sure he might feel a little weird about it, still.
You checked in on the rest of the camp, gently, and when you were done, you opened your eyes, the other two looking at you, ready and eager to learn.
You ran some basic drills, starting Soren with a stick and making him fence with you, also using a stick, both sabers still strapped to your belt. You did an agility course, testing his balance, his precision. He had a lot to learn, but it was clear you were right. He was meant to this. He was meant to follow your path.
***
A week passed. Then two.
Soren was progressing quickly, Rey even quicker. She was already moving bigger objects, but with Soren, you knew you’d have to start small.
You hauled a table out into the trees, along with a handful of trinkets, some rocks and other assorted parts no one would miss. You spread them on the surface of the table and encouraged Soren to stand at the end of it. You guided his hand to the surface of the table.
“Just what, move them?”
“Move one.”
“Which one?”
“Any of them will do.” You replied. “Don’t overthink it. This is the biggest hurdle. Once you can do this, you can do anything.”
“And what if I can’t?”
“Then we keep working on the other stuff and come back to this later,” you encouraged, all positivity. Right now, you had the luxury of training him with gentleness. There was no pressure for you to have a third Jedi. Two was already double what the Resistance had a few weeks earlier.
Soren nodded, concentration furrowing his brows. He pushed and you could feel the effort behind his muscles.
Finn and Poe were standing at the edge of the field, watching somewhat curiously while you and Rey worked with your nephew.
There was a faint buzz on the air and then nothing. The rocks didn’t move an inch. Soren looked to you for help.
“You’re pushing.” You said, noting the discovery, not scolding him in the slightest. “And sometimes you do have to push, but…try pulling.”
“Pulling?”
You held out a hand, and instead of forcing the rock to move, you let it rise, gently pulling it up into the air, where it floated around a few times before you set it back down.
“Pulling.” Soren repeated, and you could tell he got it. He reached a hand out, movements more deliberate, less desperate. He took a breath, let it out, and then, slowly, the rock rose into the air, lifted only by his concentration.
He gasped and the rock fell back onto the table.
“Yes!” You pumped your fist, jumping, wings fluttering at the small victory. “Yes! You did it!”
“I did it.” He breathed, still in disbelief. “I’m a Jedi…”
“We’re getting you there.” You assured him, a hand on his shoulder. “We’ll need to get you fitted for some robes before you know it.”
“On that happy note, lunch?” Poe suggested, motioning back towards the canteen.
“Lunch.” You agreed. “They probably need this table back, huh?”
“I’ll take it back.” Rey assured, using the Force to lift it into the air.
“I was gonna do that.” Poe chuckled, hands on his hips.
“With the Force?” You raised an eyebrow.
“Obviously.” He laughed, offering his hand, but you thought for a moment.
“I’ll be right down. Just need a second with my nephew.”
“Alright.” Poe nodded, taking a few steps away, but lingering not too far.
Soren was all smiles, still in disbelief at what he’d just done. You hugged him, beaming with pride not only in him, but in yourself. You had done it. You’d trained him. You’d helped get him to this point.
“I have something for you. I think you’re ready for it now.” You told him, stepping away and pulling one of your sabers off of your belt, the older one, forged from your mother’s bracelets and a whole lot of love.
His eyes fell on it and his jaw dropped. He shook his head. “No, I couldn’t possibly…we got that saber for you. It’s yours.”
“It was.” You agreed. “It’s made from your grandmother’s bracelets. This saber…it represents family, legacy. You are my family. And someday, you’ll be my legacy. ” You chuckled to yourself. “I think that statement would hold a lot more weight if I wasn’t literally five years older than you, but you get what I’m saying. This saber is meant for you. Someday, we’ll find you a crystal of your own and you can make your own saber like the Jedi of old, but for now, I would be honored if you’d wield this for me.”
You handed it to him, wrapping both of his hands around it to ensure he’d actually take it and he did, staring at the gift and taking a long, shaking breath. Tears welled in his eyes.
“Thank you,” he said, biting on the end of a sob.
You pulled him back into your arms, comforting him until he was well enough to join the rest of you for lunch. When you turned to walk back to the canteen, Poe was there, that soft, impressed smile on his face.
He touched your shoulder, eyes saying more than words ever could. His hand slid to the middle of your back, just above your wings, gently guiding you as you walked together towards the rest of your friends.
Stained Glass Silk
You shot up in the middle of the night, sweat beaded on your forehead, heart racing from a particularly bad nightmare, the kind that made your wings burn and the scar above your hip tingle.
Insidia.
All signs pointed to her being dead, but that sure didn’t stop you from dreaming about her.
You stared at the ceiling for a while before slipping out of bed, putting on some slippers and walking through the dim hallways to the canteen. There were a few people milling around, but that was it in the dead of night, just a few patrols and custodians, holding the place together while everyone else was fast asleep.
In the kitchens, there was a pile of clean dishes waiting to be put away. So, seeing as there was no one else around, you set to work, putting silverware in their allotted slots in the drawers, unbending a few fork prongs and scrubbing at particularly stubborn spots on spoons, putting them back in the washer to run again in the morning.
“Never thought I’d catch a princess doing the dishes, but stranger things have happened, I suppose.” Poe said, leaning in the doorway, a smirk on that handsome face. “Can’t sleep?”
“Never can, these days.” You shrugged, tucking a few more forks away in their drawer. “And I used to do the dishes a lot, for your information.”
“Why’s that?”
“Chores are chores. Everyone’s gotta do them at some point. Used to help me focus. I liked making sure all the little stuff was done so people could focus on the big stuff instead.”
“My mom used to say that.” He smiled softly, taking a few steps further into the room and reaching for some of the smaller dishes, making sure they were all dry before moving them to the overhead cupboard they belonged in.
The two of you worked in quiet, the sounds of clinking dishes accompanied by the occasional brush of his hands on yours when you reached for the same piece.
“Nightmares?” He asked. “Or is it still…hard for you to go to sleep?”
“Nightmares, mostly.” You confessed. “Sometimes Palpatine. His voice, his…laugh.” You shivered even thinking about it. “Most of the time, it’s Insidia. I know she’s dead. They both are, but…sometimes that doesn’t help all that much.”
He nodded. “What happened? Before you…you know. They say you got stabbed with a saber.”
“I would have died if that was the case.” You chuckled, shaking your head. “No wonder I was such a legend, with info like that going around. No, I…” You moved the fabric of your sleep tank, revealing the scar that still sparkled against your skin, just above your hip bone. “She stabbed me here. Twisted metal dagger. The sparkling is from the healing pod. It’ll go away eventually. And then she…cut off my wings with her saber. You can kind of see where, that shiny gold line there.” You pulled your wings under one arm, closer so he could see.
He stared at it, gaze hardening when he realized just what you’d been through. “Did it hurt?”
You nodded. “Worst pain I’ve ever felt in my life. Just absolutely…white-hot. I blacked out and…well, you were standing there when I woke up. I guess I’m lucky, more or less. Most Mariposans don’t ever grow theirs back after an injury like that. I think the sheer time I spent in that pod alone is what forced them to grow back.”
He reached a hand out, as if to touch one, but drew it back quickly, suppressing his curiosity for fear of stepping over one of those unspoken lines between you.
Surely, he didn’t know what a statement that was, what it would mean for him to touch them. It meant…something more to Mariposans.
Still, you took his hand, meeting his eyes before gently pulling his palm against the surface of your wings. You let him adjust to the feeling before guiding his hand across them, watching the emotions flicker across his face, tingles running down your spine at his featherlight touch.
“Maker, they’re so…they feel like silk. I thought…well, they look like glass, so…” He whispered. “Can you fly with them?”
“Short distances.” You nodded, gazing up at him through your lashes. “You’ve seen the extent of it by now, I’m sure. They’re not meant for travel, more like branch to branch. We used to live up in trees.”
Poe nodded, listening to every word. His free hand rose to your cheek, calloused thumb skimming across your cheekbone and causing your breath to hitch.
One hand on your wings, the other on your heart, or so the saying went.
“They’re beautiful.” He said finally, but he wasn’t looking at your wings anymore. He took a step closer, the hand on your wing floating down to your hip, pulling you closer, chest nearly flush with his. “Your Highness–”
“There you are, Princess. I was wondering where you had gone. BB-8 said he saw you wander down the hall, so I took it upon myself to make sure you were alright, especially being out and about at this time of night.” Threepio explained, his sudden appearance sending your heart racing. Sure enough, BB-8 was there, too, rolling into the doorframe. “Although, I do admit, I did not expect to find you here as well, Commander Dameron.”
His head swiveled from you, to Poe, and back. BB-8 beeped out an apology.
“Thanks, Threepio.” You chuckled. “I don’t know what I’d do without you, buddy. I’m alright. Just getting some dishes put away. I’ll head back to bed soon. And I’ll make sure Poe here gets to his bunk, too.”
“Oh, it is my pleasure! Have a good rest of your night. I’ll see you tomorrow, I’m sure.”
With him gone, you looked back up at Poe, whose thumb was still anchored to your cheek. He shook his head, chuckling before letting it hang down towards the floor, shame brewing in his chest.
You lifted his face with a gentle hand, your feelings unspoken, but hanging there in the air, in your eyes. You knew he felt it, too.
“You know…if the nightmares ever get too bad, my room is right down the hall. We could sit for a while. Talk about it.”
“I appreciate it.” You nodded, leaning forward and pressing a kiss to his stubble-covered cheek, just beneath the scar on his cheekbone. “Goodnight, Poe.”
He smiled, frozen by the simple gesture. His eyes sparkled in the dim kitchen as he watched you leave, your wings drifting like a cape behind you. “Night.”
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infinityinakiss · 5 months ago
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arcane incorrect quotes: dysfunctional sisters edition (+ cait, the number one sister-in-law)
vi: go to hell!
jinx: where do you think i come from?
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jinx: my assistance will be an act of beneviolence.
vi: ...don’t you mean benevolence?
jinx: no.
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caitlyn: don’t go picking a fight with me. i could make your life difficult.
jinx, sarcastically: wow. i wonder what it’d be like to have a difficult life.
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jinx: i'm gonna nickname my child "lil bitch". vi: i see you're passing on your name.
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jinx: i typed "bitch" into my gps and guess what? i'm in your driveway.
caitlyn:
jinx: vroom vroom, come out already.
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jinx: hey, caitlyn?
caitlyn: yeah?
jinx: can a person breathe inside a washing machine while it’s on?
caitlyn:
caitlyn: where’s vi?
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vi: advice of the day kids, if you ever meet someone who calls gatorade flavors the actual name of the flavor instead of just the color then they are a certified nerd.
jinx: yeah but you have to specify, frost glacier or cool blue? you can’t just say blue because there’s more than one blue.
vi: blue and light blue, nice try nerd.
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jinx: people tell me i have a unique way of lighting up a room.
caitlyn: it’s called arson and those people are called witnesses.
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jinx: i never understood why people cared so much about their dumb friends until i got a dumb friend myself.
jinx: *picks up isha*
jinx: i've only befriended isha for a day and a half, but if anything happened to them i would kill everyone in this room and then myself.
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vi: ...i'm pretty sure that place is fire-proof, or something.
jinx, grenade in hand: alright, but is it explosion-proof?
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vi: why am i not the protagonist of an amazing story…?
jinx: you are, though - it’s called “your life.”
vi: shut the fuck up, i wanna struggle fighting demons not struggle with getting out of bed every day.
jinx: but those are your demons.
vi: …
vi: i am hereby naming you as the antagonist and now it is my sole job to find you and hit you in the face with a chair for that bitch-ass comment you just made.
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vi: why would you think any of this was a good idea?
jinx: probably because i’m a dangerous sociopath with a long history of violence.
vi:
jinx: i don’t know how you keep forgetting this.
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vi: you’re alive.
jinx: no need to sound so disappointed.
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vi: can you be serious for five minutes?
jinx: my record is four, but i think i can do it.
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cait: tell jinx off, vi! assert yourself!
vi: that's my ice cream!
cait: good! now let them have it!!
vi, handing jinx the ice cream: here, you can have it!
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jinx: you know, pinocchio could tell us so much about the universe! he could randomly claim stuff like “the big bang happened” and his nose would confirm or deny our theory.
cait: pinocchio’s not omniscient, you dumb fuck! his nose only grows when he’s intentionally being dishonest!
vi: things are heating up in the pinocchio fandom…
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jinx: look, i'm glad everyone’s on the same page.
jinx: but it’s the last page in a book titled “we’re all going to die”.
cait: that’s not even clever.
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jinx: FIGHT ME, YOU NERD ASS SLUT!
cait: at least try to sound slightly more sophisticated when you threaten someone.
jinx: oh, i'm sorry. i should ask; dost thou want to engage in a duel, my good bitch?
cait: somehow that's worse.
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vi: i don’t think we can mansplain, manipulate, or malewife our way out of it this time.
jinx: *cracks knuckles* manslaughter it is!
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jinx, holding a toy lightsaber: i’m darth vader!
vi: i'm done with everyone’s bullshit.
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fandomforg · 2 years ago
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ok, so, mcu peter parker somehow gets sent to the star wars universe
we’re all familiar with the trope of ‘earth girl who’s a big star wars fan goes to star wars galaxy and tries to save everyone there with her knowledge of the Plot’ but now think about if peter parker, resident star wars nerd/super genius/superhero, gets sent there
first things first, he would lose his marbles seeing all the cool aliens and technology (even though he’s already seen plenty of aliens/tech just from being on earth) but like!! it’s not just any aliens!!! it’s star wars aliens!!! woah!!!!
he wouldn’t really even have to worry about hiding his enhancements bc he could just go ‘uh, i’m not baseline human?’ and everyone there would just go ‘oh, ok’
as soon as peter got his bearings tho, he would absolutely immediately start scheming on how to stop palpatine/prevent the clone wars or whatever. like full on murder cork board with red string as he thinks. whatever poor soul has offered to let this lost child stay with them is very concerned because every time they bring him a snack it looks a little bit more like this kid is trying to overthrow the government (he kind of is planning to overthrow the government)
peter has gotten in enough debates online to know that most of the groups that might be able to help him (the jedi, the mandalorians) are a little too wrapped up in their own stuff (connections with the senate, civil war) to stop palpatine with any sort of efficiency, so he just goes ‘huh, guess i’m gonna be a vigilante again’ now he’s spiderman again!!! but this time in star wars!!!!!
webslinging on corusant would go so crazy though
so by day, peter is working part time at some little corusant shop where the owner lets him use the spare room (and the owner is also constantly so concerned over this insane child that just showed up one day without knowing the date, but knowing many random historical facts that they space-google and find out are absolutely correct)
and by night, spiderman is swinging between the levels of corucant, stopping petty crimes avoiding the jedi who keep trying to figure out who this spiderguy is. they think must be force sensitive (‘just look at how fast he’s running! and he’s sensing hits before he sees them!’)
eventually, peter finally makes his move and goes after palpatine. it’s uhhhh, actually easier then he expected. peter may have had a few too many backup plans. palpatine was not expecting his sixth lightning to be absorbed by a brightly-colored suit (‘thanks, mr. stark!’) nor was he expecting to be covered??? in spider?? webs???? it’s very hard to cut yourself free from webs when you can’t move an inch to even ignite your lightsaber
the next day, palpatine’s guards find him still stuck to the wall of his office and spitting mad, while the jedi find security footage of the chancellor attacking that one vigilante with force lightning and pages and pages of evidence of palpatine’s crimes (sith-related and not) just sitting in their inbox. the arrest goes pretty smoothly after that.
once this all finally hits the news, the shop owner that peter’s been staying with (read: slowly being adopted by) just kinda shouts out a ‘kid! what did you even do?!’
well now that that’s handled, the next thing on peter’s to do list is, uhhh, getting home. yikes.
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nxrthh · 10 months ago
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2024 jesse!!! he gets his own solo post cause he's special. aka the token straight friend and the only one not paired with another member.
since 4*town's disbanding, jesse has been working as mostly a music producer but of course a solo artist. he'd do indie rock and experimental stuff. in my book, he's with a girl named rebecca/beck, who he's married to and has kids with, the kids are in their late 20s by now. but i think they'd have more kids somewhere along the way. jesse would probably be a judge/coach on x factor or the voice at some point. jesse has like 15 albums, all the cover art is either photography or random things he's drawn. cause of course i didn't forget that he's an artist. jesse is not only an art nerd but an all around nerd. the man still loves star wars and has a lightsaber collection. of course he goes to d23 every year.
basically jesse hasn't changed a bit. keeping it very demure and cutesy.
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castlebyersafterdark · 3 months ago
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“the duffers knew that people who weren't nerds would be endeared to a bunch of nerd kids cos theyre harmless, good, cute, and also rarer to see in stories. so its rep for nerds, and endearing to non nerds (like me!)”
that’s interesting that you point out that nerds like the party are rarer to see in stories, cause that’s def true, but what’s interesting is that when I was first watching stranger things I didn’t see it that way at all because I had grown up watching old movies like the goonies and stand by me and watching newer movies with nerdy young characters like super 8. and I myself was obsessed with nerdy properties like star wars as a kid, casually playing lightsaber games and all that. so that was by bread and butter: just kinda gravitating towards whatever I liked without necessarily thinking about whether it was “cool” in a larger sense.
To me things like the goonies were the coolest thing in the world, even though looking back on it now it’s clear it was a little dorky lol. but I def saw stranger things and the party as being a homage to nostalgic media - which it is, obviously. but it’s interesting how different audiences connect to and understand the same material based on their background. one person’s “they’re in their own little world, aren’t they?” is another person’s, “hell yeah! el is like e.t. in this laz-y boy scene! hopper is like lando! the party is so COOL!”
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I think the first part of the first ask is quoted from another anon - this is the problem with me falling behind with asks, I forget the context and I look at quoted parts and forget - did I write that or is this a response to another anon? LOL
Anyway! I definitely see what you mean - and I think I loved the same sort of media for the same sort of reasons - these characters just seemed entertaining and fun and so much more engaging than a lot of other characters. Stuff resonated since it was inviting and comfortable and I think that's the big grip with nostalgia, rather than references and homages. It's the feeling. And there's so much more earnestness is these stories with these nerdy kids? Personality appeal. It all depends on what people are taking away from what they're watching.
We can watch the exact same thing and have completely different reactions. Random example but on the topic of the 80s - think about the Breakfast Club. I generally enjoy that movie. But have a visceral upset at what happens to Allison at the end. It's such an 80s movie moment but that was not something someone like me found engaging or comforting. Some are elated and happy for her getting a sense of belonging, and I'm sad her quirky weirdness was changed. It depends on what you value!! What did you relate to, what do you think is lame or cool? Perspective shifts.
And then, "nerd culture" becoming "mainstream" - what even is nerd culture these days? Because so much is merchandising rather than true nerd culture. It's consumption over passion. Like, Star Wars and even Star Trek were popular movies to go see in their time, but not everyone who enjoyed the movies were nerds - they were always popular. It's how someone engages with the media. Are you casually going out to the movies on date night and catching episodes of Trek on TV because it's an interesting show - or are you sitting home writing fanfiction and crafting a zine or pouring over Enterprise blueprints? Maybe the person in the former never misses an episode, but in no world would they be considered a nerd like the latter.
And run of the mill person (and the Steves of the world fall here) go see Star Wars now or buy a lego set to put together and stick on a shelf or wear a T-shirt from a television show - not nerdy. Normie. You know it when you see it. And that brings us to viewing the show through different lenses - might certainly be part of the reason people miss the point entirely. To them, it's accessible and common and surface level. To them, it's not deep or making them think. To them, it's just a fun show.
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tinyravenfeathers · 8 months ago
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"And some dude named Jeff" Season 4 episode 10
The Jenkins Episode. LOVE IT.
Full disclosure: I am a lifelong DnD nerd. I started with 3.5 back in the 90s. I am this label, this label is me.
It's kind of sad that Dolores gives the cats a sunny upstairs room and Jeff lives in the basement.
...now that I think about it, why does the woman have like 12 cats in one room, that's gotta suck for the cats and everyone involved.
Especially if Desi has pink-eye and Otto needs suppositories. Ew!
I love how the only inaccurate thing about the DnD nerds first scene is that they're rolling the dice rather haphazardly. Jenkins throws a d20 and a d12 (I think) at the same time...different sided dice throws are not a thing. Multiples of the same kind of dice, yes, especially to calculate the damage of a hit.
And Jenkins tosses the dice AT the figures on the map/table. Yeah, no. A dice tower would probably be employed with that small a table, but I get how that would be less visually exciting/take up too much screen time.
The DnD nerds were DEFINITELY in on Jeff's switcheroo plan. We hear them talking about it when Jenkins comes down the stairs. They were totally expecting a different person inside Jeff. The way they set Jenkins up to reveal himself shows some LARPing skill in my opinion. I've LARPed, it's just costumed improve with stricter rules lol.
I'm less sure Dolores/Jeff's mother knew about the switcheroo. (I called her Gloria in one of my stories, I need to fix that.)
The Jeff buttslapping Jacob scene. And the awkward aftermath. *Chef Kiss*
Oh look, they've all got costumes. Shocked, I'm shocked. Definitely LARPers. But...why would they wear that stuff to break into the Library? How did Jenkins present this to them? "Think of it as a live dungeon crawl"? Okay, then I'mma gonna concentrate on supplies and some kind of knife, a first aid kit, a shield, maybe some rope...not a cape, a head dress, and fishnet stockings.
I would have loved to see a version of this with the actors switched--John Larroquette acting like Jeff-inside-Jenkins ("how about we...make some magic..."), Andrew Caldwell playing Jenkins-inside-Jeff ("would you please stop setting off booby traps!")
It's really sad how few lines Ezekiel has.
Personal head canon: Ezekiel did some of the stuff Jeff is doing. Only, you know, he hid it better and was a bit cooler about it. We've seen Ezekiel use Munchausen's Top, the Spinning Wheel of Clothos, and have the attitude that 'rubbing up against anything magicky' can be a solution to rescuing Eve and Flynn in that one movie episode so yes. This carefree attitude towards power is why Jenkins worries about him.
The "gimme that boom" scene. C'mon Jenkins get more into it lol.
The Library teaching Jenkins about the best aspects of himself through the analogs of the new librarians. Cleverness from Schmidt/Ezekiel, Joy from Aurora/Cassandra, Persistence from Dennis/Jacob.
The knighting. Beautiful. Also getting the innocents out of the way before something truly dangerous?
"You think that was bad?! Wait 'til I get hold of you!!"
The little speech Jenkins gives to Jeff "what's the point of having a life if one does not live it fully," was so incredibly pertinent and needed when I was in a low place that I named my long-form fic after it. I should get back to writing that.
Jenkins' potion needs a jolt of magic to make it work. Noted!
"Bye Mom!"
What the heck were Dolores and Asmodeus doing while Jenkins and Jeff were scuttling down the stairs and making their way to the basement? Damn, I hope she locked herself in a bathroom or something.
The lightsaber in Jenkins' hands wasn't cut to shreds right away. More Galahad magic?
Ringpop FTW
How did they not see each other had changed? so weird.
Back at the Library--the carnage of Jeff is hilarious.
Eve's kiss (instead of Cassie) on Jenkins came out of left field but okay.
Awesome ending. If Jenkins cares for you, he spends time with you.
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Beauty.
So many ideas for my fic came out of this episode.
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demonfox38 · 10 months ago
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Completed - Costume Quest
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…Dad?
I was worried that my generation would ruin Halloween like my grandparents ruined Christmas. You know what I mean? In the love of the holiday, Christmas became an overblown mess, with family mandates and stress over gift-giving sapping the quiet affection one could experience on a dark winter’s night with their family. I thought Millennials would go too far with Halloween, put up one too many giant skeletons, spend hundreds of dollars on candy and booze and get blasted into oblivion all in the name of having a good time.
I can’t say that I saw a worldwide pandemic burying it. Could have seen Stranger Danger doing it in, though. Maybe it would help if my neighbors ever participated in handing candy out. Or, if a bag of good candy cost less than $20.00 a pop. Or, if it was ever over the freezing threshold here on Halloween.
The point is, Halloween in Iowa has become a raw deal. You should probably pray for all of the Iowa City college girls with their butts hanging out the bottom of their costumes. At least, if you are the praying type.
Is it too early to think about Halloween? Wal-Mart doesn’t think so. Neither does “Costume Quest.” As I was cycling through my Steam library, trying to pick what to work on next, it managed to boot itself up and go, “LMAO, loading drivers, idiot.” Which, fine, whatever. I’m behind on my quota of games to beat in a year. Might as well knock an eager one out.
“Costume Quest” is a turn-based, button-prompt style RPG set on a nostalgic Halloween night. Ya know, the kind of magical night where simple pieces of junk turn a child into a gigantic missile-launching robot or a vampire or a unicorn or whatever this sentient fry monster thing is.
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Using the power of imagination and their smart mouths, protagonists Wren and/or Reynold (whichever you pick) sets off on a mini-journey around their suburban hellscape while their sibling (dressed as a candy corn, of all the indignities) is kidnapped by goblin-esque creatures. They pick up two additional teammates who also manage to get into trouble by their own personalities (being too brave and being a little science nerd, respectively.) Along their way, they discover how and why these monsters invaded their little town, as well as the motivation for all of their candy thievery. You know. When the adults aren't just freely handing it out, mindless of who is at the door.
In addition to the main game, a DLC bonus story called "Grubbins on Ice" is included with the game. This takes place a few months after the original adventure, following up on the twitterpation of Wren/Reynold's party members and the homeland/culture of aforementioned monsters. It mostly serves as a teaser for "Costume Quest 2" (and an ad for "Stacking", if you find it), but it does tack on a couple more hours of gameplay, for what that is worth.
Am I glossing over a bit with the writing? Probably. "Costume Quest" isn't on par with something like "Psychonauts", in terms of depth or ingenuity. It's not to say the game is entirely without charm or a few chuckles. It's just exactly what you'd predict for a story like this. Some Halloween nostalgia, lots of modern era cracks at mid-century suburban living, adults being unobservant dingdongs. That kind of stuff.
The gameplay systems are relatively standard as well. Most of your exploration boils down to knocking on doors, seeing if you are going to get treated (receive candy) or tricked (get into a monster fight.) Equipped costumes affect what attack styles and special abilities a character has in combat, to mostly predictable consequences. Except for the fry monster. That's definitely unique! Additionally, some costumes allow you to take special actions while exploring, like using a plastic lightsaber to light up dark areas, skating over ramps with roller blades, or luring people to new destinations using the scent of…french fries.
Look, the fry thing was really creative, okay? Maybe it's not the most impressive costume, but it is super unique. I'm trying to give credit where it's due. That, and using the power of liberty to restore health.
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The nearest thing I can ballpark that to is "Parasite Eve"'s Liberation mode, and even that is in name only. (Although, someone should really have a deeper talk with these kids about the underlying and disturbing implications of "Manifest Destiny"…)
In terms of input style and numbers, this is very much a "Paper Mario" / "Mario & Luigi" style of RPG. Your health and levels will seem low-capped, although that is not without some humor as well. (Your max level is 10 in the main game and 14 in the DLC, which corresponds well to ages that kids often stop going out for Halloween. At least, that seems like the joke to me, at the risk of ruining it via dissection.) You will also have to time button presses, tap madly, or wiggle sticks to maximize both your offense and defense.
One to three hits are enough to take out members on either side of the field. So, don't be too surprised if your kids drop like flies early on. You can always bolt on a battle (even final ones), if you don't feel prepared to tackle it. Any time you exit a battle, you will fully restore everyone's health. So, get aggressive. Get cowardly. Do whatever works with your flow!
“Costume Quest” isn't the most complex of games. Like, I completed the game and its DLC within 8 hours, and that was including leaving the game idle while taking dogs out. The reason for this may be… not shocking at all, if you hang around the same circles of gaming journalism that I do. To make a short story shorter: AAA publishers suck; Double Fine needed some fallback game ideas for when their more lucrative deal fell through; an idea jam session resulted in the creation of a couple of games (including "Costume Quest.") So, this game didn’t have the kind of budget more renowned Double Fine games might have had. It was more born out of a need to do something small to keep the lights on. Which, hey. Understandable. Respectable, even.
Having said that, a little polish on the game’s levels could have been helpful. I’m not running the most cutting-edge gaming machine known to man, but it’s more than strong enough to handle games from over a decade ago. There feels like several spots where the game is lagging due to what I’m assuming is bad level occlusion or excessive detail rendering (I’m thinking tree leaves.) Additionally, some of the side quests are redundant, particularly the apple/eyeball bobbing mini game. I can’t say I was enraptured by the music at any point either, but that’s a matter of taste. The battle victory/defeat music could have wrapped up a little faster though. Like, chop chop. We’re out of that mode. Let’s go.
As of writing this evaluation, the Steam price for this game is hanging around $9.99 USD, which…Sure? Am I gonna be that picky on the price? If you catch it under $7.99, that’s probably a little fairer to you, but I’m not the person to tell you how to spend your allowance. I guess it’s at least cheaper than actual Halloween candy. And it’s coconut free! That’s a point in its favor!
Sometimes, friendship and/or civilization is all about finding the people that like coconut and hate almonds so that you can trade with them and make both of your lives better.
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charmwasjess · 1 year ago
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Something striking to me about how Christopher Lee portrayed Dooku was how well he pulls off his tick for smiling during duels. We don't really see any other character do that in the movies, especially not the constant, huge shit-eating grin the whole time. I love that detail. Whatever else, he's having the time of his life. The duels are fun for him, probably in a way that very little else is during that era.
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mariacallous · 2 months ago
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I'm a huge fan of Star Wars. The first movie (no, not Episode 1) came out when I was young, so I grew up thinking about the Millennium Falcon and lightsabers. Perhaps it sparked my interest in science—even if it's not exactly science fiction. Oh, there's a nice way to start a nerd fight: Is Star Wars “science fiction” or is it “space fantasy”?
Either way, you have to admit there are things in there that look like science. I mean, anytime you deal with stuff in space, it’s an opportunity to talk about science. That's exactly what I'm going to do, since today is Star Wars Day. May the 4th be with you!
What scientific things in Star Wars are just not scientific? I'm going to go over some of the more interesting ideas, but don’t get me wrong. I'm using these errors as a way to talk about science, but I don't think they need to be fixed. A more realistic Star Wars would probably be boring. Read on, you’ll see what I mean.
Sound in Space
The opening scene in Star Wars shows a massive Star Destroyer pursuing a smaller rebel ship. You hear the rumble of the engines, and it gives you the impression of a powerful vessel. Unfortunately, it’s just not possible.
Let's think about sound for a moment. Suppose you tap a coffee mug on the side with a spoon. You hear a nice little plink. That’s because the tap caused the ceramic material to oscillate back and forth, which pushes on the air around it, compressing it. This compressed air then pushes on other nearby air as it expands. The whole process produces a pressure wave, and this pressure wave is what we call sound.
Is it possible to have a sound wave without air? Sure. You don't need air, but you need something for the pressure wave to travel through. This could be a solid or water or really anything that lets a higher pressure push on parts with lower pressure. Sound waves need some kind of medium to “wave” in. In space there's … nothing.
Well, that isn’t totally true. There are charged particles like protons and electrons moving through space—remnants of solar wind or debris from exploding stars. In a solar system there's also some dust. Still, the density of this “gas” would be so tiny, you could hardly measure it. Much too low to transmit sound.
So why do moviemakers put sound out there in the void? Well, most of us have never been in space, and when things collide silently it just seems wrong. The sound of that massive Star Destroyer reminds us of a big ocean vessel passing close by—something we can relate to.
How Do You Steer This Thing?
One of the big ideas in physics is that forces change the motion of an object. If you apply a constant, continuous force to an object—and there is no counterforce like wind drag—that object will speed up and continue to speed up forever.
We call this Newton's second law, and it works for multiple forces on an object by replacing them with a single force called the net force, as shown below. Here m is the mass of the starship and a is its acceleration.
So if a starship is running its engines, it won’t travel at a constant speed. The only way you could do that is by turning the engines off. Instead, you’re rushing faster and faster toward what appears to be a moon … Wait, that’s no moon! Too late.
There's another problem with the motion of starships: How do you turn? There are two things to think about here. First, both the acceleration and the velocity of the ship are represented by vectors (the symbols with the arrow on top). That means direction matters. Moving to the left is different than moving to the right.
The second thing to consider is the definition of acceleration. It's the rate of change for velocity, and we can write it as the following:
Since velocity is a vector, changing direction means it’s accelerating, even if the speed is constant. But wait, we just saw that Newton's second law says you can’t accelerate without a force. So in order to turn your cool starfighter, you need a force that pushes perpendicular to the direction of travel—a sideways force.
Take a look at the X-wing fighter. Does it have any thrusters on its side to help it turn? Nope. Instead, it turns to the left by rolling a little to the left and performing a banked turn. This is exactly how an airplane on Earth flies.
But what does an airplane have that an X-wing doesn’t? Right, the answer once again is air. For an airplane, there is this external force due to the interaction between the air and the wing, which we call lift. If a plane tilts to the side a little bit, this lift force can be used as a sideways force to make it change direction. That's how things fly down here.
So, there's your problem. The X-wing and other spacecraft use this same banking move to turn in space, even though there's no lift on the wings. If you watch the battle over the Death Star, those TIE fighters and X-wings are zipping around like it’s a WW II dogfight. Again, it’s wrong, but I’m fine with it.
You Can’t See a Laser Shot
Star Wars isn't very explicit about what is shot out of a handheld blaster or from the cannons on an X-wing. They sure look like laser beams, and I think that’s what most people imagine. But they can’t be lasers. Why not? Two reasons.
First, a laser beam is light, and we know the speed of light: 3 x 108 meters per second. If an X-wing shot a laser at a TIE fighter that was 1 kilometer away, it would take just 3 millionths of a second to hit the target. If you have a film (like the real movie) that plays at 30 frames per second, each frame lasts 0.03 seconds. That means the laser would be so fast you wouldn't see it. It would be like it’s instantaneous. That's not good for movies. You want to see the shot.
Second, even if it was slower, the beam would be invisible in space. Remember, we see things when light enters our eye. That means there are two kinds of things you can see: things that produce light, like your phone screen, and things that reflect light. Your hand doesn’t give off visible light, but the sunlight bounces off your hand and hits your retina.
Now, a laser produces “collimated” light that all goes in the same direction. So the only way you can see it is if there’s something in the path of the beam that reflects light into your eye. On Earth there is something: air. And not just air, but dust and stuff. I took this picture below, and I amped it up even more by spraying fake fog into the beam.
But you know what you don't have in space? Yep, air. So the only way you could see a laser beam is if it hits you right in the eye. That would be bad. Bottom line: Laser beams are invisible in space.
Faster-Than-Light Communication
When you call a friend, your phone transmits electromagnetic waves to the nearest cell tower. That tower sends a signal (through a wire) to another tower, which then sends an EM wave to your friend's phone. None of these signals can move faster than the speed of light, so if you’re calling from New York to London, your words would take 0.02 seconds to get there. No big deal, they can wait two-hundredths of a second.
Now imagine you want to communicate with another friend on the surface of Mars. Well, Mars is much farther away, so information traveling at the speed of light can take up to 20 minutes to arrive, depending on the positions of the planets. It's still not a big issue, but it is annoying.
OK, one more example. You have just one more friend, and they recently took a new job near the star Alpha Centauri—one of the closest stars to Earth. How long would it take to send a phone call to that star? The answer is 4.4 YEARS. No one has time for that.
You see the problem. In Star Wars: Attack of the Clones, Obi-wan sends a transmission from the planet Geonosis to Coruscant. If these planets are in different star systems, the signal could easily take 10 years to arrive. That really makes for a complicated plot. It's much simpler to just make communications instantaneous.
But really, maybe Star Wars isn't even wrong here. I mean, it is in a whole different galaxy, and they have special powers like The Force. Perhaps they figured out a way to send information faster than the speed of light. One thing is certain: Ignoring the science makes for great entertainment. But understanding the science sure makes you appreciate our home on Earth. Go outside right now and listen to all the sounds!
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childlikegoblinqueen · 2 years ago
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Huntlow Week Day 3: Prompt Nerds/Nature.
Willow liked Cosmic Frontier enough. At least that's what she'd told Hunter. She'd sat through all the movies and the TV series with Gus and Hunter.
She'd been happy enough to get him a bootleg version of the Cosmic Frontier Holiday Special that the creator had wanted buried forever as a gift for Bleeding Hearts Day.
But when it was announced that there would be a convention in the middle of Bonesborough that celebrated Human Realm pop-culture, Hunter was surprised when Willow suggested the two wear a "couple's costume."
"It shouldn't be a surprise, man!" Gus chuckled. "You two have been joined at the pinkies since that time at the Archives! You can go as O'Bailey and Willow can go as Hanako."
Hunter had considered it. But when it came right to it he wasn't sure it was right. After all, Willow liked Cosmic Frontier enough, but not as much as he did.
"Here's the thing." Hunter told Willow. "I wanna go with you! I wanna do the ... you know... couple's costume and stuff? B-but I know I like Cosmic Frontier more than you do?"
"Hmmmmmm. Astute as always, O'Bailey" Willow tapped Hunter's temple playfully. "So here we have a bit of a dilemma. We are both nerds. But what we need to find is that sweet spot where our nerdoms meet in that perfect intersection that the costume would work for both of us."
"Understood." Hunter nodded tersely. He pulled out a notebook and a pen. "Okay. I was thinking we could be Leia Organa and Han Solo..."
On the notebook, Hunter scratched out the words "Leia and Han."
"Oh! That's a good one." Willow cooed. "But one problem. Which one of us is Leia and which one is Han."
"That's a tough one." Hunter mused. "I mean, we're both badasses. And they're both badasses. And we could both rock those costumes."
"True." Willow nodded. "Our dual badassets transcend gender norms."
"But if we're gonna do a Star Wars costume, I kinda wana have a lightsaber, and Leia and Han don't use one in the Original Trilogy... and I don't wanna get into an argument with Jerbo about EU and Legends canon again, so maybe we should hold off on that." Hunter let out a grunt.
"Fair." Willow nodded. "We don't need you and Jerbo to go down that road again."
"We could do Chat Noir and ... you know..." Hunter offered.
"Even though she's not an actual Ladybug, I don't think I've got it in me." Willow bit her lip. "Sorry."
Hunter wrote down "Lady Bug and Chat Noir" and then promptly crossed it out.
"How about Rory Williams and Amy Pond?" Willow smiled. She extended a gentle finger to his nose and gave him a soft boop.
Hunter laughed, just a bit -- then his eyes grew real serious. Too serious. Silly serious. Running his fingers through his hair Hunter gave wink and something that Willow called "Duck Lips".
"You dork!" Willow snorted. "What are you doing!"
"I'm imagining the costume." Hunter raised his chin with confidence and gave double finger guns. "Yeah. I could totally rock a Roman Centurion look"
"Yeah you could." Willow giggled. She returned his wink and his finger guns, and flexed her bicep which made Hunter's smirk falter slightly. "But you know," Willow said hotly, "I'd be the one waiting for centuries to protect you."
With a moment Hunter's mask of confidence slipped. He felt his eyes grow soft. His ears heated up and he couldn't help but reach out to cup Willow's round face as if she was made of the very porcelain of a teacup. "I would protect you too." He murmured. "We could protect each other."
"Oooooohhhhhh." Willow gasped.
"Speechless, captain?" Hunter's smirk was back. "Because you know I would."
Willow released a breath. Fanning herself dramatically she took Hunter's arm and dropped a kiss right in the middle of his wrist. Right on that awful sigil -- and for a moment it almost felt as if his former life had dissolved under the soft brush of her lips.
"Who's speechless now?" Willow lilted.
In spite of the heat in his stomach, Hunter felt a bit of ice track down his spine. "Maaaaaaaybe we're not ready for those costumes just yet!" He laughed. "B-but we can put it on a list for a future con?"
Willow nodded slowly. "Sound's perfect." She agreed.
"So, we know what we're not gonna do." Hunter mused, "But we still need a costume. We all know Luz and Amity are -"
"Gonna be Azura and Hecate." Willow agreed.
"Classic." Hunter nodded. "But what's classic us?"
They looked at their hands. Fingers intertwined like lace. Like a tiny flame between them. And then? A small smile played upon Hunter's lips.
"Do you trust me?" He asked gently.
"Pfft. Yeah." Willow nodded. "With my everything, guy!"
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Willow slipped into the long sea green dress. The sleeves were perfectly puffed at the top. Her neck fastened with smart buttons. Her boots tapped on the ground as she slipped out from behind the changing screen. Placing the round woven hat with a red ribbon on her head she strode out to meet her match.
And Hunter? He looked nothing less than pure magic. Leaning against Willow's dresser in long black slacks, a white gauze shirt and a pink and blue checkered cloak with a red lining. He wore a concealment stone on a rope on his neck that made his hair appear just a bit longer.
And when he rose to meet his witch? Hunter greeted her appropriately. He said, "There you are, sweetheart, sorry I'm late. I was looking everywhere for you."
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dem-obscure-imagines · 11 months ago
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I Know the End | Vol. 4
Poe Dameron x Reader
Fandom: Star Wars
Summary: You were one of the Rebellion’s greatest weapons in the Galactic Civil War, a Princess from a distant planet, a Jedi with wings. Now, you’ve found yourself in a new world, a new war, your old friends long gone.
When Poe Dameron was sent on a wild goose chase of a reconnaissance mission four systems out, he never expected to find the key to his heart…
Note: At long last, here it is. Thank you for your patience. I love you all. I honestly wrote this as a long-winded attempt to make Poe Dameron’s dumbest line “Somehow, Palpatine returned” into a gut-wrenching and emotional moment and it got way out of hand. I am no Star Wars expert, but I did a lot of research for this and consider myself waaaaaaay more of a SW nerd now than I was a mere two months ago. Could probably write a dissertation on it at this point (I say as I literally churned out a novel). It is my first time writing for the fandom, though, so, here goes nothing. I did make up a fair bit of stuff and a good handful of OCs for this. Let me know what you think!
Warnings: Canon-typical violence, lightsaber and blaster wounds, alcohol consumption, war and the implications of it, gets a little steamy but no smut, reader has nightmares, misuse of the Force, Rewriting the Rise of Skywalker a lil bit…
Word Count: 82.7k total (Split into four approximately 20k chunks)
Reader Is: 24, a Jedi, a Princess, has butterfly wings
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Somehow…
You walked up the hill to your favorite spot, chest heavy with emotion. You set your bag against a rock, Rey and Soren running the course out in the trees. You should have been there with them. Or, at the very least, out there with Poe. But there was nothing you could do about that now.
BB-8 rolled over, beeping up at you inquisitively.
“He leave you here to check on me?” You asked.
He nodded his little head adorably.
“Well that was sweet of him.” You said, kneeling down to pat the top of his head. “Thank you for checking in. I’m gonna meditate up here for a while, if you want to go shadow Soren or Rey.”
He beeped, nodding, telling you he’d go follow Rey for a bit. You watched as he rolled along, his orange and white little head ducking through a patch of brush.
You sat on the rock, legs crossed. You closed your eyes, the Force’s call loud this time. All-consuming. The sounds of Ajan Kloss swept quickly away, and silence swallowing you instead. Darkness.
You breathed, forcing your lungs to take in the air, to let it out. You listened. You waited.
First, you saw Kylo, searching for something. His energy was frazzled. Desperate. He was conflicted, that much was clear. Maybe Rey was right. Maybe he wasn’t completely gone. For Leia’s sake, you hoped that was true.
You let the breath out, taking another, pushing your mind elsewhere. Deeper. You carefully skirted around Maddox, but landed in the First Order, in the mind of one of the Generals, thinking about their new fleet. He was talking to some of the other officers, arranging things, moving this fleet, starting their operation. You got chills and pulled away, slipping out unnoticed before he could catch a whiff of you poking around.
Moving to something lighter, you watched Rey and Soren, running the training course, BB-8 rolling along behind her. Soren deflected hits with ease, jumping from tree to tree. Rey was…having some difficulty, though. She’d been in her head a lot lately, like you, but it was different for her. She and Kylo were still connected. You couldn’t imagine what it would be like, to be linked to someone like him, through the Force no less. No matter where she went, she took him with her, whether she liked it or not.
You exhaled, breath leaving your mouth in what felt like puffs of steam, fogging up like it had on Hoth. You heard a wicked laugh. A familiar one. Utter darkness. Dark enough to swallow you whole. The hairs on your arms stood straight, goosebumps pricking up. It pulled you. It called. Like a lullaby, but…wrong.
No. No, not that.
You shook your head, trying to rid yourself of the feeling, the ice water trickling down your spine. It was empty for a long time, flashes of things fleeting across your mind, but not staying long.
A battle. Lightsabers clashing. Blasters firing. Stormtroopers. A fleet of Star Destroyers against a storming sky. The Millenium Falcon. A desert. A knife. A kiss.
Your heart raced, mind guided forcibly by the hand until you emerged from the trees in your mind. Poe and Finn had landed, Poe walking quickly out of the Falcon, which was engulfed in flames.
“It’s on fire. Whole thing’s on fire! All of it–! Fire!” He waved a hand behind him, focusing on Rey. “Really could have…used your help out there!” 
“How’d it go?”
“Really bad, actually! Really bad!”
“Han’s ship!”
“What did you do to the droid?”
“What’d you do to the Falcon?”
“Falcon’s in a lot better shape than he is!”
“BB-8’s not on fire!”
“What’s left of him isn’t on fire!”
“You know what you are?”
Poe grinned, annoyed. “What?”
“You’re difficult. You’re a difficult man.”
“You…you are…” He grunted.
“They’re back, Aunt (Y/N).” Soren said, stirring you from your vision. It occurred to you then that it wasn’t a vision. You’d caught up to the present. How…how long had you been meditating.
The sun was definitely lower in the sky when you opened your eyes. It had been hours. It had only felt like minutes. Something about that place you’d been, that dark, cold void, had just sucked the time away.
“Oh. Shit. Alright.” You touched down, feet making contact with the ground once more. You walked with Soren through the trees, to where Poe and Rey were arguing, through the dialogue you’d just heard. You glanced down at BB-8. Sure enough, something had happened while you were near-unconscious, floating in the air. One of Bee’s panels had been knocked clean off.
Poe knelt down beside him, face in his hands. He looked unharmed. A wave of relief washed over you, the sight of him melting away your stress. He hadn’t noticed you standing there yet.
Chewie roared, arms in the air. Poe had lightspeed skipped the Falcon.
“You lightspeed skipped?!” Rey asked.
“Yeah, well, it got us back here, didn’t it?”
“Poe, the compressor’s down!”
“Oh, I know! I was there!”
“You can’t lightspeed skip the Falcon!”
“Actually, turns out, you can!” Poe shouted.
“Alright, guys, we just landed, okay?” Finn said, trying to to keep the peace.
They went back and forth for a little longer. Poe and Finn confirmed there had been a spy that they got information from, a First Order operative who was now feeding the Resistance information.
BB-8 told Poe what had happened. “You dropped a tree on him?”
“You blew both sub-alternators?!”
They bickered back and forth some more and Poe finally caught your eyes. “Yeah, but you’re not. You’re here training. For what?! You’re the best fighters we have. We need you. Out there, not here.”
“Poe…” Your heart raced, a lump in your throat. It was your fault. You should have gone with him when he asked.
“Baby…” He shook his head, waving his hands as though he could dispel his anger with a single flourish. He exhaled, looking tired. “Maybe you were right. We could have used a Jedi out there…” Poe bit his lip, thinking before he spoke, before he made that sad look in your eyes worse. “I’m gonna hit the fresher. We’ll talk after.”
“Alright.” You nodded, watching as he went, firing some orders on the way there, making sure the files got properly decoded in the meantime.
BB-8 looked up at you, beeping sadly.
“No, it’s okay. Poe and I are fine.” You reassured him. “Let’s get you fixed up, alright?”
He nodded his head, following you along to the workshop. You hauled him up onto one of the empty stations near the entrance, pulling out the necessary tools, a spare panel to replace the one that had fallen off, and you set to work, fixing him up with a screwdriver, using the Force to make sure everything was tight, fit in place. You had a pair of goggles on your face, to help with the smaller details, giving you the zoom you needed to see them.
You pulled out the paint next, the shade of orange that matched the rest of him, and gingerly began painting the panel until it matched.
“How do you know how to do that?” Poe’s voice was low, rolling at the back of his throat. You turned to find him standing in the workshop’s doorway, leaning against the doorframe.
“I had a droid. Did repairs on her when the mechs were too busy.” You replied, brush strokes gently filling in the color, careful not to deviate from the crisp lines.
His eyebrows furrowed. “Didn’t know that.”
“Mmhmm.” You shrugged, finishing up and tucking the tools back into their places. You used a small fan to dry the top coat faster. You knew BB-8, knew he’d be racing as soon as you set him down, smearing the fresh paint throughout base.
“What happened to her?”
“I’m…I don’t know. It’s been thirty years and I haven’t seen her roaming around. Artoo never mentioned her, and I haven’t brought it up. She…might have gotten scrapped or destroyed…”
BB-8 asked if it was dry yet, sounding impatient.
You laughed, reaching out a tentative finger to check, and sure enough, it was. “Looks like you’re good to go. Here, let’s get you back on the ground.” You picked up the heavy droid, Poe helping to lower him to the ground. “How do you feel? Everything fit right? Everything’s in the right spot?”
He gave a cursory roll around the workshop, whirring excitedly, complimenting your work.
You sat back on the workbench, looking up at Poe, his hair still damp from the fresher. He looked clean, but still tired. You could feel how he was frayed at the edges. You reached up to touch his cheek, dark and dusted with more stubble than usual. It made him look older.
“You’re giving me that look.”
“What look?” You asked, eyes sparkling innocently.
“That look you get when you’re thinking too much.”
“Yeah, well, excuse me for being worried about my boyfriend.” You chuckled as he took a step closer, slotting himself between your legs and pressing his face into the crook of your neck. “He is a pilot, after all, it’s a pretty dangerous gig.”
He wrapped his arms around your figure, exhaling deeply. You inhaled the scent of him. That soap that smelled like fresh rain. You could have drowned in it, you were sure. In him.
“You smell good.” You murmured, smiling when he chuckled against you.
“You like that, huh?”
“Mmhmm.” You pulled him closer, tears welling in your eyes, that lump returning to your throat “I should have been there, Poe. I’m sorry.”
He shook his head. “I’m fine. We all are. I just…It’s hard for me to wrap my head around sometimes, this Jedi stuff. But it’s important, too.”
You pressed a long kiss to his cheek. He turned his head, catching your lips instead, arms holding you close. You stayed like that for a long moment until you heard someone clear their throat in the doorway.
“Hey, uh, they just about got those files decrypted. Leia’s calling a meeting in an hour. Wants to talk to both of you first.” Snap said.
“Thanks, buddy. We’ll head that way.” Poe said with a smile. He offered his hand and you took it gladly, fingers threaded together. He gave your hand a squeeze. You walked through base together, drawing a few pairs of eyes, but you didn’t care anymore. BB-8 rolled on ahead, greeting the other droids as everyone gathered.
Your heart raced, stomach sinking when you saw the look on Leia’s face. You couldn’t place it yet, what was wrong. But the feeling alone was enough to tell you it was bad. Nearly unspeakable. Like that deep, dark void you had seen, icewater chilling in your veins. 
You tensed, wings flaring, eyes widening as you realized.
“Hey.” Poe squeezed your hand, sensing the way you froze. “What’s…?”
She didn’t even have to say it. You already knew.
“Palpatine.”
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“Artoo decrypted the files from the First Order spy and…it confirms the worst.” Poe began, the entire Resistance packed into the hangar, circled up to listen. 
You sat on a crate at the edge of the circle, shoulders hunched, wings drooping, pain etched deep into your eyes. It was like your soul had been crushed to a fine powder, sprinkled across the galaxy. Thirty years earlier, you’d given your life to stop Insidia from reviving Palpatine. And it was all for nothing. The attack on Mariposas, your decades in cryosleep. It was meaningless now. You’d given up your life, your friends, all of it to protect a future that hadn’t come to pass. He’d been there, pulling the strings the whole time, manipulating Kylo, creating the First Order…
Poe let out a broken sigh, eyes lingering on your hunched figure before delivering the news. “Somehow, Palpatine returned.”
The Resistance murmured, trying to figure out exactly how it had happened. Was it dark cloning? Sith magic? You wanted to pipe up, tell them exactly how. Cultists, led by Insidia, then your own brother, feeding him Force users until he’d reached his full strength again. Or, full enough. You doubted he was already at his full strength. If he was…it would be worse.
No wonder the Jedi were no more. They’d all been drained to nothing to revive the man who’d ruined your life and nearly destroyed the galaxy.
Poe continued to explain the situation, the fleet forming on Exegol, the Sith planet. The Final Order.
You wanted to collapse. Wanted to lay down, wanted to scream, wanted to let it all out in a blinding wave of Force energy, but you couldn’t. Couldn’t move. Paralyzed by the encroaching sense of doom. Dark and all-consuming.
“Princess, are you alright?” One of the guys in intel asked once the meeting was disbanded. Beaumont. He was nice, had kind eyes, a gentle smile. He’d been a teacher before he left for the Resistance.
You nodded, forcing yourself to perk up, straightening out your posture. Right. There were people watching. Always were. And if you didn’t have hope, how were they expected to? “Fine. I’m fine. Just…thinking. Trying to…wrap my head around all of this.”
Rey came walking back towards the group with one of Luke’s journals, one you hadn’t touched yet. She flipped through the pages, holding it up to show you. “Luke was trying to find Exegol. After the attack on Mariposas. Nearly found it, too, but his trail went cold on Pasaana tracking down a Sith Wayfinder. We could go. The two of us. Finish this.”
She meant it. You could see it in her eyes. That spark. Just you and her, leaving to finish what you and Luke had started. To put an end to the madness once and for all. Poe and Finn could stay behind, make a plan for the final fight, figure out how to destroy the fleet before they set out on their attack of the galaxy.
And no matter what happened, the fate of the Jedi would be safe in Soren’s hands. In Finn’s.
It seemed dangerous, but…it had to be done. The clock was already ticking, and you were running out of time.
You grabbed a bag, heading towards the Falcon with Rey.
“What, were you even going to say goodbye?” Poe asked, causing you to freeze in place, turning to face him. “Or were you just gonna pull outta here with the compressor still smoking?”
“I had a feeling you might not take it so well.”
“Yeah, well you were right. We’re coming with you.” Poe said, touching your arm on the way into the Falcon with Chewie. Finn was right behind him.
“It’s too dangerous. We’re meant to do this.” Rey said, trying to reason with them, but you could tell they were set on it.
“And we’re meant to go with you.” Finn said. “You’re not going without us. But I’ll let you argue with him about it if you want.” He motioned to Poe.
You couldn’t help but chuckle. That wasn’t an argument you would win.
“Repairs will be done tomorrow morning. We’re going with you.” Poe said, coming back out of the ship. He brushed the hair out of your face, eyes full of love and determination. “End of story.”
“What if they need you here?”
“What if you need me there?” He countered, quirking an eyebrow. “It’s been a while since we’ve been on a mission together. I can’t wait to see what you can do now, with all that training, your Highness.”
“Poe.”
“(Y/N).”
You let out a sigh, closing your eyes. “What if something happens to you?”
“What if something happens to you and I’m not there?” He asked. It had been weighing on him. He tilted his head, sincerity in his voice. “I’d rather die, with you, helping you, knowing I made a difference, then letting you face this alone. We’re finishing this. Together. Whether I make it to the end or not.”
“Poe–”
“You told me you didn’t expect to survive the Rebellion. You were willing to die for the cause. Isn’t this the same?”
You stared at him for a long moment, searching his eyes, his feelings, that warmth in his chest steadfast and strong. It wasn’t the same. Not anymore. Not for you. You were willing to die, sure, but…that little life you’d seen, his graying hair, his wizened face, his reading glasses…
The wedding ring…
In all your visions of it, you’d never seen yourself there. Just him. You didn’t want to risk that. His future, whether or not you were in it.
“Baby, you can fight with me all night about it, alright? I’m going. So’s Finn.” He said, tone still tense. Still…fighting. He was always a fighter, you’d known that from the start. You just never expected him to be fighting you.
***
The crew had a bonfire that night. Word had spread. Your top secret mission wasn’t so secret anymore. People were scrambling to figure out what they’d do with all of you gone. And with three of the four Jedi leaving, Soren made it his mission to stay. To help around the base. To be the resident Jedi in your stead.
Your legacy.
You and Laesynda had one last, final talk. She wished you all the luck in the galaxy, prayed you’d come back this time. That it wouldn’t be another thirty years before she got to see her sister again.
You stared into the flames, arms crossed, thinking about all of it. The gathering was devoid of its usual chatter, joking banter between the Resistance fighters. Things were bleak. If it didn’t go well, if Palpatine couldn’t be stopped…this night could very well be one of your last. All of you. The First Order would snuff out the Resistance like a birthday candle.
Poe sat beside you, quiet. He didn’t want to argue any more, but couldn’t stomach the look in your eye. The worry. He wondered what all you’d seen, the things you weren’t sharing with him. He ran a hand down his face, letting out a long sigh.
Why did dating a Jedi have to be so kriffin’ complicated…
Budding in his chest, he felt something, a somewhat familiar sensation. He’d felt it only once before. And when he looked up, sure enough, Luke Skywalker’s Force Ghost was standing at the edge of the woods, meeting his eyes this time.
Poe blinked, staring at him. He pointed at his chest, as if to ask “who, me?” The Jedi of legend shook his head, motioning to you. Ah, right. That made sense. Obviously he was there to see you.
Poe nudged you, pulling you from your thoughts, hand tight around yours as the light of the fire danced around your face. “Hey, uhhh…”
You looked over at him, anxious to hear what he had to say now that he was finally ready to talk. Instead, he tilted his head towards Luke, who stood there, a sullen look in his eyes.
You chuckled softly. “Oh. Okay. I’ll be back soon.” You squeezed his hand, pressing a long kiss to his cheek, as if to reassure him of something. You knew it had to be weird for him, the ghost of your dead ex-boyfriend coming around for a chat.
Poe nodded, watching as you walked off with him. He took a long sip of his beer.
“I was wondering if you’d show up to see me off.” You murmured, meeting him face to face once more. It felt right, seeing him before the end.
“Leia said I should give this to you myself. I heard you’d been looking for one, Jedi Master.” Luke held up a saber, his second. The green one. You’d wondered what had happened to it, but had never had the time to investigate that yourself. You didn’t even know where to start looking, to be honest.
You nodded. “For Finn. Thank you.”
“Three Padawans. They’re all doing well under your instruction. I…well, I’m really proud of you, you know. You’re really doing it. You’re fostering a new generation of Jedi.”
“Trying to. It would be…well, it would be easier with you here.” You said softly, daring to meet his eyes, to imagine the life where you got to stay. Where you and Luke started the Jedi again, together. Where Kylo never turned to the dark side and the First Order never rose to power.
It would have been nice. Growing old with him. Living that dream. But it was only ever that. A dream. Never had it ever been real to you, even when you begged the Force for it to be so.
“I know. I’m sorry, Princess. But, for what it’s worth, I think it’s gonna work out.”
“You do?”
“I do. You and that pilot of yours are good together. He’s…determined. A fighter. One hell of a pilot. And you can tell him I said that. He’s pretending not to look over here right now, looking out of the corner of his eye. Checking on you.”
“Sounds like Poe.” You chuckled. “Did you know about…him? Us?”
“It might have crossed my mind a few times.” Luke admitted, rubbing at his ghostly beard. “I knew you’d be okay, regardless. That you had someone like him to help you pick up the pieces.”
You nodded, reminiscing softly on your relationship. On both relationships.
Luke met your eyes. He closed them, and his form shifted, back to his younger self. The Luke Skywalker you had loved. The Luke you had fought alongside, who’d been your everything. Your partner, your fellow Jedi, your best friend. You didn’t fight him this time, let him keep the form. You knew you needed to hear these words from your Luke.
“We started this path. You and I. Together. You and Rey are going to finish it. I can’t see how it ends, no one can, but the Force will guide you. And I’ll be right there, by your side.” He reached for you and you stepped forward, hugging him, his form solidifying in your hold, arms tight around you.
You closed your eyes, letting out a long breath.
“I always loved you, you know.” Luke confessed.
“I know. I loved you, too.” You replied, pulling away to look at that youthful face one last time. Your former lover. Your friend. “Thank you. For everything, Luke.”
And then he was gone, fading right before your eyes until you were left there with the open air, a cold lightsaber hilt in your hand.
You turned back to the bonfire, making a beeline for Finn, who was leaned against a tree, trying to convince Rose to go with you guys the following day. She wasn’t having it.
“Finn, I, uh, got you a present.” You said.
“For me?” He asked, curiosity glimmering in his warm gaze. His smile dropped when he saw it, though, gripped in your hand. Luke Skywalker’s missing saber. His heart raced. “That’s not…”
“It is.”
“I can’t.”
“You can. You’re ready for it. If you’re coming with us tomorrow, you’re taking this saber.” You insisted, handing it to him and curling his fingers around it, forcing him to take it. “That’s my one condition.”
“What’s your condition for Poe?”
You grinned, rolling your eyes. “His rugged good looks are getting him on that mission, I’m afraid. I couldn’t say no to that face.”
Finn laughed at that. “So it’s really happening. We’re going.”
“We’re going. I…I’m kind of glad, actually. It’ll be nice to have you two along for the ride. One…last adventure. All of us together.”
Finn opened his arms, hugging you tightly. You rested your face against his strong chest, relishing the warmth, the moment between you. Teacher and student, but more importantly, friends. “Thank you. For this. For believing in me.”
“No, thank you. We’re gonna need all the Jedi we can get…”
You returned to Poe after, his eyes watching you for a long moment. You sat down on the log, side pressed to his. He wrapped an arm around you, resting his head against yours.
“Are we still not talking?” He dared to ask.
You chuckled a little. “I’m coming around on the idea.”
“Of what, talking to your boyfriend, or letting him come on your dangerous, galaxy-saving mission tomorrow?”
“Perhaps both.” You let out a breath. “Just had a conversation with my ex. He said he thinks we’re good together. He gave me his saber, to give to Finn.”
“The green one.”
“The green one.” You agreed.
“Mmm.” Poe nodded, turning his head to press a long kiss to your hairline, a hand ghosting over the crest of your wings. “Well, he and I will have to agree on that. I also think we’re pretty good together.”
You laughed. “Well, I’d hope so, at this point. He also said you’re one hell of a pilot. So there’s that.”
His eyes widened. “Luke Skywalker just told you he thinks I’m a good pilot.”
“He did, yeah.” You chuckled, kissing his cheek. “Anyone with eyes knows that, Poe. I happen to think you’re the best, but…I might be a little biased.”
You could feel it then, sitting right at the tip of his tongue. The L word. You knew he wanted to say it. Knew he’d practiced. Knew he was holding onto it for just the right moment. You could feel it there, lingering, hovering unsaid. Like all those times he’d dreamed of kissing you before you finally collided.
You turned your face, pulling him in for a long, sweet kiss, meeting his gaze, peering straight into his soul, he was sure. Sometimes, when you looked at him like that, it was like you were looking straight through him, at every thought floating around his mind.
You nodded, thumb grazing over the spot just beneath that little scar on his cheekbone. “I know.”
Your Dying Decree
In the morning, you woke in Poe’s arms. He was still sleeping, head tucked into the crook of your neck, curls tousled, tickling your skin. His breaths were long and slow, eyes closed, thick eyelashes resting against those pretty cheekbones.
He was so handsome, your pilot.
And yet, looking at him, you couldn’t stop thinking about how easy it would be to slip out now, leave him where it was safe. Well, relatively safer. There was no safe place in the galaxy for members of the Resistance now.
His arms curled tighter around you and he hummed, those warm brown eyes opening.
He chuckled, searching your face. “I kinda thought you’d be gone by now.”
“I thought about it.” You admitted, voice no more than a whisper.
“I know you did.” He smirked, peppering kisses up your neck, trailing to your lips, where he hovered for a moment, eyes soft, like he was memorizing every detail, just like this. “Just can’t get enough of me, huh?”
You giggled, rolling your eyes before pulling him into a kiss. “That and I knew you’d never forgive me if I left without you.”
Poe nuzzled his nose to yours, kissing your lips one last time before sitting up out of the bed, getting dressed. Your fingers hovered over the options at your disposal before settling on a black tunic, black pants. You were pulling a page from Luke’s book.
You carefully slipped your wings through the opening, securing everything in place and then pulling on your belts, equipping your saber. You braided the front of your hair back, out of the way, and then turned to find Poe staring, eyes raking down your form. He smiled to himself, then met your gaze, stepping forward to collect you in his arms.
“Looking very regal today, Princess.”
“Looking very…piratey today, pilot.” You said, smoothing your hands over the fabric of that shirt of his. Your fingers trailed down the buttons, or lack thereof. “So did it come like this or did you take them off yourself?”
He laughed loudly, cheeks reddening. “What, you don’t like it?”
“No, I never said that.” You said, a hand raising to his cheek. “You’re avoiding the question, Dameron.”
“They might have fallen off at some point, yeah.”
“Was a pair of scissors involved?”
He chuckled. “Alright, I can throw on a scarf if you’re so worried about it.”
“You might need one anyway, we are headed to the desert.” You told him, tucking a curl behind his ear.
The two of you gathered your things and walked out of the room, meeting Rey and Finn in the hallway, all dressed as well. You gave the two of them a nervous smile. The four of you met with Chewie, Threepio, and BB-8 in the hangar. Leia was standing there, a wistful look on her face. She could tell it was coming, the end. You were sure it brought back memories, sending the four of you off like this.
You walked over her, hugging her one last time. Her arms wrapped around you tight, a hand cradling your head. Your best friend. Your sister. Your General.
“May the Force be with You, Princess.” She said, eyes twinkling.
“And with us all.” You replied, tears pricking in your eyes. 
You turned, joining the others in the Falcon. You walked into the cockpit. Chewie and Poe were hovering over the controls. Finn sitting behind Chewie. You settled into the seat behind Poe, putting a hand on his shoulder. He reached up to touch it, acknowledging your presence with warmth before getting back to the controls. Rey stood in the doorway, reaching for your hand. You gave it to her.
Chewie looked at you, roaring softly, melancholy on his voice.
“You’re right, Chewie. Just like old times.”
***
You landed on Pasaana hours later, Poe putting the Falcon down at the edge of a settlement. No, you realized. A festival. Threepio confirmed this as the six of you rounded the corner. 
“Isn’t this lucky?” Threepio asked.
“Incredibly lucky.” Poe replied, voice dry. “Keep your heads down. Chewie. First Order is always running random patrols. Let’s split up. See what the locals know.”
The group split, speaking with some of the locals who were gathered for the festival of ancestors, wearing bright, silken garments. Rey stopped to talk to a little girl, aided by Threepio to translate. After, you saw her go stiff, standing straight, eyes glazed over. You knew what that meant. Kylo was in her head.
“You find anything?” Poe asked, touching your arm.
You shook your head, motioning to Rey. “That’s not good.”
“Mmm, alright. Let’s–”
“I found the fugitives! They’re here!” A Stormtrooper announced, words warbled through a helmet.
Poe reached for his blaster. He looked to Chewie and Finn. “We gotta go.”
You grabbed Rey and the group moved quickly through the crowd, tailed by the Stormtrooper until a man in a large helmet shot him straight through the eye, ushering you into a small transport. You eyed him up, his energy familiar, but it didn’t quite click until you were all inside just who he was.
“How did you find us?” Finn asked, looking at him.
He took off his helmet and you grinned. You should have known. He always had a habit of popping up right when you needed him most. It was Lando. “Wookies stand out in a crowd.”
Chewie roared happily and hugged him.
“It’s good to see you too, pal.” He nodded at you. “Your Highness. Back in the field?”
“It’s like I never left. What are you doing here?”
“Thought you might need some help. I traveled here with Luke, trying to find Exegol. Trying to find other things, too…” Lando’s eyes wandered to the gleaming medallion around Poe’s neck.
Oh. Figured.
Lando told you about Ochi, how he and Luke had tailed his ship to Pasaana. On the horizon, you could hear that fateful sound. TIE fighters. A lot of them.
“I’ve got a bad feeling about this…” Lando said, peeking through the blinds. “Ochi’s ship is out past Lurch Canyon. Go.”
“Thank you, General.” Poe said, Chewie bidding him goodbye after.
“Thank you, Lando.” You said, touching his arm, meeting his eyes.
“Don’t thank me yet.”
You all stepped out of the ship, running through the sand. Poe led the way to some speeders, looking a little worse for wear. You watched as he popped a panel off, reaching into the wires, twisting them with skill, precision. 
Hot-wiring, you realized. Your boyfriend was hot-wiring a speeder.
“I didn’t know you knew how to do that.” You noted.
“There’s a lot you don’t know about me, Princess.” He glanced up, a few scout troopers rounding the corner. “We gotta go!”
You flitted your wings, hopping up onto one of the speeders, settling in beside Poe and Finn, Rey and Chewie on the other. Poe steered with grace, guiding it across the desert planet as a pair of Trooper speeders trailed.
You used your saber to deflect their shots. Two of the troopers launched into the air, flying on jetpacks.
“They fly now?!” Finn asked.
Poe turned his attention ahead, determination on his brow. “They fly now!” Poe steered into a narrow valley, losing sight of them behind you. “We lose ‘em?!”
“I don’t think so.” You shook your head. Soon enough, one of them pulled ahead of you, cutting you off.
“Time to use that training, baby.”
“Thought you’d never ask.” You reached out, using the force to push hurl the Stormtrooper speeder straight into the rock in front of it, where it exploded in a burst of flame.
Finn and Poe cheered and you pulled out of the valley, meeting back up with Rey and hers. One of the troopers in the sky reemerged, shooting the engine of Rey’s speeder, causing it to explode, sending her and Chewie and BB-8 into the air. The speeder the rest of you were on went next, throwing all of you into the sand. You used the Force to cushion the landing as best as you could and you all shot at the trooper until you took out his jetpack, sending him crashing down into one of the jagged mountains.
It was only after that you seemed to notice you were slipping into a pool of pebbles. Perfectly round. A sinking field.
Poe had landed flat on his back, struggling in them, trying to swim out. “The hell is this?”
“Sinking fields! Grab onto something!”
You were up to your hips in it. You reached for Poe, watching in horror as he slipped lower and lower. “Poe? Poe!”
“(Y/N)! I love–!” His curls slipped beneath the pebbles, words swallowed up as he went under.
“Rey! Rey, I never told you–” Finn shouted, slipping under next.
You let out a cry, struggling for a few moments before surrendering to the pull, and descending down with the rest of them.
It was dark, the pebbles shifting around your body, encasing every bit of you until your legs found open air beneath you. You kicked, struggling as your body moved through, head still enveloped in total darkness. You could hear Poe’s voice beneath you, then felt his hand on your leg, arms wrapping around you as you fell into what seemed to be a cave.
He met your eyes, brushing dirt out of your face. “You alright?”
“Fine. Where are the others?”
Chewie fell beside you. Finn walked out from a cavern, and Rey walked from another, everyone accounted for, even the droids.
You shook out your wings, pebbles cascading onto the stone floors. You touched your saber, making sure it was still there, hadn’t been lost on the way down.
“Where are we?”
“In a cave of some kind.” Threepio explained.
“I thought we were goners.” Finn said, voice filled with relief.
“Me too,” Poe confessed, giving you a very loaded look, eyes searching yours, as if asking if you’d heard what he’d said before going under. 
You had. His last words to you would have been a confession of his love. Your heart broke even thinking about it. You reached for his hand, squeezing it. He squeezed back, letting out a long breath. You were okay. You both were.
“What is this place?” Rey asked. The group started poking around. Rey ignited her saber, you, yours. Poe lit his flashlight, which paled in comparison. Eventually, you found Ochi’s speeder, a bad sign. With it, Ochi’s remains.
He’d never gotten out of the cave. He’d died there, and Luke’s quest for Exegol with him.
On the ground, you spotted a knife. The energy from it was…horrible. Dark. 
You held your saber out to Poe. “Can you hold this?”
“Uhhhh, sure.” He replied, bathed in the pink light of its blade. He gingerly took the hilt of it, not daring to move it a single inch. He’d never touched a lightsaber before. Well, aside from helping you build it, of course. But holding it while it was activated was different. It felt…forbidden, almost.
You bent down and picked up the dagger, studying it. Sith Runes. Figured. It…felt like it was burning your hand. The longer you held it, the worse you felt. You tried to read it, tried to garner where it was from, what it would do, but it hurt. Badly.
You let out a pained yell and dropped it, clutching your hand like you’d been physically burned.
“Are you okay?” Rey asked with concern.
“That thing…” You pointed to the dagger. “Is made of evil. It…wow, holy fuck.”
Poe stared at you, watching as you recovered, still holding your lightsaber like it was a bomb. 
You chuckled a little, reaching for it. “Thank you. Give me that, flyboy.” You powered it down, clipping it to your belt.
He reached out and touched your arm, eyes searching your face for any signs of damage. You gave him a warm look, touching his hand.
“They are Sith Runes. I believe they are directions to the location of the Sith Wayfinder.” Threepio reported.
“Great. Where is it?” Poe asked.
“I am forbidden from translating it, I’m afraid. The Republic outlawed all Sith languages nearly a century ago. To do so would be against my programming.”
“So you know where it is, you just can’t tell us?” Finn repeated, sounding as annoyed as you all felt.
“Precisely. My apologies, Master Finn.”
“Well that’s just great.” Poe sighed, hands on his hips. “What now?”
“We need to take it with us. Find somewhere to have it translated. Maybe the answer is on Ochi’s ship.” Rey reasoned.
You nodded, but didn’t reach for the dagger. Instead, Chewie picked it up, putting it in his messenger bag. He put a hand on your shoulder, a wordless message. He would carry it for you. Your loyal Wookie. Sometimes, you weren’t sure what you would do without him.
The group continued moving, trying to find a way out of the cave. Eventually, you came across a pile of rocks, layered in front of what appeared to be an opening. Focusing, you and Rey moved the pile out of the way, sunlight streaming through the hole you created. Once you were out, you headed up onto the bluff to Ochi’s ship. Poe managed to crack it open and led the rest of you inside.
It was very clearly abandoned. There were cobwebs clinging to nearly every surface, a thick layer of dust on every shelf, panel, and surface. You each picked a corner and started looking around for anything that could be of use. BB-8 made a discovery of his own, a small droid with a large wheel and a cone-shaped face, who, once booted up, started rolling around curiously. Rey reached out for him, but he backed away, seemingly traumatized by whoever had owned him before. Probably Ochi.
“What were you going to say before?” Rey asked Finn finally. You could tell it had been eating at her.
“What?”
“In the sinking fields. You said you’d never told me something.” She pushed, looking through the shelf beside him. “What was it?”
“We can talk later.” Finn said, dropping his voice, eyes serious and vulnerable.
“When we’re not here?” Poe asked with a chuckle.
“What, you wanna finish your dying decree right here, Poe?” Finn fired back.
“Not particularly.” He muttered, deflated.
You walked over and touched his arm, slotting beside him, searching for…well, anything, really. Anything you could use. He looked at you, eyes searching once more, looking for…well, anything. A reaction to what you’d heard.
You wanted to say it. Wanted him to, but you’d known from your conversations with the other pilots, the other ladies on base, that Poe Dameron didn’t say that word. Ever. He’d never said it to someone. Not like that, at least.He’d had his share of conquests, sure, but what the two of you had was decidedly different. It would have been his last dying breath, and you respected that. You didn’t want to force him out of it just because you hadn’t all died in that sinking field. But the fact that it was on the tip of his tongue, always seemed to be, meant that what you had between the two of you was real.
But then again, the only confirmation you needed of that was the band of braided leather around your wrist, the healer’s pendant from your home planet hanging from his neck.
Instead, you wrapped an arm around his waist, thumb rubbing a circle on his hip. You gave him a loving squeeze before refocusing on the task at hand.
Rey peered out the window, her eyes widening as she spotted Kylo’s TIE fighter, speeding across the sand. “He’s here.”
“You want me with you?” You asked, reaching for the hilt of your saber.
Rey nodded and you followed her out of the ship without another hesitation. You readied your blade, watching as Rey launched herself into the air, flipping as she sliced off one wing of his TIE, sending him into a death spiral, straight into the jagged rocks.
He climbed out of the ship’s wreckage and launched himself into a duel. He slashed at Rey with hatred. With rage. With…longing. Confusion, even. He was still conflicted, that much was clear. 
You joined the fight, covering Rey’s back. Red, Blue, and Pink clashed, sabers whumming, singing as they swung through the air, colliding again and again. Kylo started his usual banter, trying to get in Rey’s head. But then he turned to you, venom on his tongue, fire in his eyes.
“And you, the so-called princess of a long-gone planet. You slept through the destruction of your home planet, gave your life for a lost cause. Who are you to come here, acting to be the authority on this war, the state of the galaxy?”
“I’m nobody. I’m just a girl. But I know right from wrong. I can feel it, like she can. You know it, too. You’re fighting it so hard. Why? To prove yourself? You’re just like my brother and it’s pathetic.” You said, saber sparking against the unstable red of his. “You have a family who loves you. A mother who would die for you. She shouldn’t still believe in you, but she does.”
Something faltered in his gaze. He opened his mouth to fire back, “Luke Skywalker–”
“Failed me, too. He left me to sleep in a fucking pod for thirty years. You don’t see me picking up with the First Order to get revenge on the galaxy for it.” You thrust your saber forward, throwing him to the ground. 
Rey used the Force to push him back, through the sand.
“REY! They got Chewie!” Finn called, motioning frantically to a transport, taking off into the air. Rey reached forward, trying to stop the transport. You reached up to help her, but the two of you still weren’t enough.
“Finn, we need you!” You called, encouraging him to help.
Nodding, Finn reached for the transport, too, his power combining with the two of yours and bringing the transport down onto the ground, its engines bursting into flames, the metal crunching with a deafening screech.
You took off at a run, wings carrying you across the desert winds, towards the transport. The ramp lowered and a cluster of Stormtroopers and Scouttroopers came out, blasters blazing. You handled them quickly, learning almost instantly that Chewie was not there. In fact, the transport was empty.
“He’s not here!” You called, flying back up to Ochi’s ship as Rey and Finn ran up into the ramp. “There must have been another transport. He’s not here.” You reported, catching your breath, wings flicking a few times before folding down again.
“Fuck. Well, what now?” Poe asked, a hand trailing down his face.
“He had the knife.” Finn added, hands on his hips, deep in thought.
“He had the knife…” Poe repeated. “And they have the Falcon.”
“Well then we’re just gonna have to go get all three.” You said, the plan unrolling itself in your mind. “Get onto that Star Destroyer and get them all back.”
Poe nodded, mulling it over himself. “Alright. I’ll plot a course. Hang onto something.”
The Legacy of Your Downfall
Poe pulled Ochi’s ship into the hangar of the Star Destroyer, parking it with precision and skill, lowering the ramp. The four of you raced out, blasters pulled, shooting at the handful of Stormtroopers that approached.
“Where do we start?” Poe asked.
“This way.” You and Rey pointed at the same time, tuning into the things you were looking for with what could only be the force.
Rey turned back to look at the droids. “You three stay here.”
“You don’t have to ask me twice.” Threepio said, sounding relieved. You ran ahead with the others, blasting your way through halls, sneaking past droves of patrolling troopers until finally, you felt like you were being pulled in different directions. The knife was one way, Chewie was the other.
“What’s that look for?” Poe asked, searching your expression.
You pointed both ways. “The knife is down this hall. Chewie is back that way.”
“Divide and conquer?” Finn suggested. “We’ll go get Chewie, you two go get the knife and our gear.”
You nodded, giving Poe one last lingering look. His hand ran down the length of your arm, touching you until the very last second as you went your separate ways. You and Rey raced down the hall, turning a corner and finding a stockroom, where they were keeping the knife, as well as all the gear and weapons they’d found on Chewie and any other prisoners they had.
Rey slung Chewie’s bandolier across her shoulder, tucked the knife into her belt. You gave the room one final sweep before leaving, heading back towards where you’d sent the boys. Rey lingered in the hall, her eyes landing on one door in particular. You knew it couldn’t be good.
“What?”
“There’s…something else.” She said, voice soft. She took a step closer to it, then another. The door slid open and inside was a stark white room. Kylo’s you realized, when your eyes fell on something you hadn’t seen in thirty years. Vader’s helmet. Or, what was left of it, rather.
A chill ran down your spine.
“Go meet with the others. I’ll find you.”
“Rey…I don’t know if that’s such a good idea.”
“Trust me. I…I know what I’m doing.” She said, desperation at the edge of her words. “I’ll keep him distracted. Buy us time.”
You weighed the odds for a moment before nodding. “Alright. But hurry.”
She handed you Chewie’s bandolier, the knife. You hissed, tucking it away before you felt those feelings again. You ran down the hall, stopped by the scorching shock of an electrified melee weapon. At first everything hurt, and then, all at once, everything went black.
***
You came to, leaned back horizontal, arms held in the thick metal bounds of an Imperial Interrogation Chair. You groaned. It wasn’t your first time in one. But you’d been hoping the last time would be the last time you ever had the pleasure.
“Perfect timing, Your Highness.” Maddox’s voice dripped with venom as another prisoner, this one conscious. “I’ve brought another guest to join us.”
“You fuckin’ monster, I’ll kill ya!” Poe threatened, yelling out in pain when one of the Stormtroopers escorting him zapped him again. They threw him onto a second chair, both of you strung up side by side.
“Should have known it would be you. Couldn’t finish the job on Hoth, huh? Had to have a Stormtrooper fetch me for you?” You chuckled, voice deep and rolling in the back of your throat, eyes half-lidded as you stared up at your husk of an older brother.
The darkness inside Maddox had been eating at him, literally. He looked awful. Eyes yellow and ringed with dark purple bags, deep wrinkles in his sagging skin. The tips of his fingers were inky black, and behind him were the tatters of his wings, the ones you had cut off with your saber.
He slapped you. “Quiet!”
“Don’t you dare–” Poe started, quieted by another jolt of electricity.
“You thought you could hide your precious pilot from me, didn’t you, Princess? Thought you could keep him tucked away in the corners of your mind where I couldn’t see?” Maddox chided, shaking his head. “It figures that the most important person in your life would be someone so weak. So vulnerable. So…human. I will show you precisely what I felt. I will rip your wings from your back with my bare hands. But first…”
Maddox leaned forward, eyes set on Poe, concentration gleaming in those wicked eyes. Poe stirred, eyes widening as he realized what was happening. He’d been through this once before. Force Torture. And he hadn’t been a fan.
You steeled yourself against the chair, taking a deep breath and focusing. You built a shield around Poe’s mind, around yours, imagined them hovering right in front of your foreheads, blocking out the mind probe that Maddox was using, attempting to break you. To…to kill Poe.
Maddox chuckled, amusement brimming behind his frustration. “You can’t possibly shield the two of you forever. Your resolve will weaken.”
You strained, shaking your head, jaw set on edge. “Nope. I can.”
He kept pushing. You kept blocking, an invisible duel between the two of you. Literally a mind game. Why he didn’t shock you then and there and force your hand, you weren’t sure. You could tell he wanted to win. He wanted the pride that came with beating you. He wanted the reassurance that he was stronger than you. That was what it had always been about to him.
“You’re…stronger than I thought, I will give you that.” He admitted, pushing harder.
You rose to meet him. “Trained by the best, unlike you. Even with me strapped to a fucking chair, you’re still second-best.”
A bubble of rage surged and you flinched, head thrown back against the chair. You let out a pained groan, struggling to keep up your wall.
“Baby…baby, it’s okay. I’m…I’m okay. You can let me go.” Poe said, watching as Maddox dug deeper, trying to break you.
You couldn’t talk anymore, the focus it required too much to allow even the tiniest slip. You shook your head, holding up your wall despite the way it grew heavier and heavier, like pushing a snowball up a hill.
“Kill me. Let her go.” Poe begged. “Please, just…”
You shook your head, letting out a broken, “NO!”
Maddox grimaced at the force of your yell, some pain forcing its way from you to him. He recovered quickly, continuing to push until finally, the door burst open. A blaster fired directly into Maddox’s stomach, catching him off guard. He collapsed to the floor and then slid, Finn using the Force to push him back, away from the two of you.
The weight was lifted and you let out a breath, head leaning back against the chair. Poe reached for your hand, fingertips coming just short of yours.
Finn raced over, unlocking them. As soon as you were upright, you just about collapsed into Poe’s arms, tears running down your cheeks. “Don’t you ever offer your life for mine again! Ever.”
“I’m sorry.” He murmured, head tucked into your neck, voice breaking at the ends. “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. I thought he was gonna kill you, baby. I…I couldn’t…”
“No, he was going to kill you. Make me watch. Then he was going to kill me.” You told him, reaching up to touch his face. You pulled him in for a tearful kiss. “I…Poe…”
“I know.” He nodded, nose resting against yours. “Are you okay? We gotta get out of here.”
“I have to do something first.” You said, rising to your feet. Your wings rose up behind you, emerging from their folded form, spread to their full wingspan, proud. You used the Force to pull your saber from the pedestal on the wall, where it had been placed by the troopers that apprehended you. You ignited it, walking towards Maddox’s collapsed form.
Blood ran from the corner of his mouth and he stared up at you with a wicked gleam in his eye. “Come to finish the job?”
“Something like that.” You said, staring at him with disdain. With mourning. Mourning the brother he could have been. The bond you could have shared. The person he could have grown to be. Instead, it was a monster at your feet. Cruel, wicked, heartless and hollow.
“You killed me thirty years ago, (Y/N), when you killed the love of my life.”
“Insidia?!” You asked, incredulous. “I knew you were power-hungry, I didn’t know you were insane.”
He laughed. “You’re one to talk. You could have anyone in the galaxy. Any number of powerful Force users with which to start a powerful legacy and you settle for the likes of a human pilot. Pathetic.”
“You think power is everything. You always have. You’ve never understood love. Insidia didn’t love you. She didn’t love anyone. She wanted power, just like you. Maybe you two really were a match made in hell.” You laughed bitterly, shaking your head and spinning your saber menacingly. “You killed our parents. You killed our healers. You destroyed our home. You tried to kill me. So many times. It’s over, Maddox, Mothim, whatever name it is you want etched into the legacy of your downfall.”
“It will never be over. Not for you, not for the Resistance, not for–” You plunged your saber into his chest, watching the light leave his eyes.
You deactivated the blade, clipping it to your belt. Your wings fell once more, folded down and out of the way. You felt Poe’s hand on your shoulder, all the eyes in the room on you.
“Let’s get the fuck out of here.” You said.
They nodded, all of you headed towards the hangar.
“How’d you guys get out of there?” Poe asked Finn and Chewbacca.
Chewbacca roared, informing him that General Hux had been the First Order spy all along, that he’d let them go.
“What?!” Poe replied with a laugh of disbelief, shooting at a few Stormtroopers as you passed them. “I knew it!”
“No you did not!” Finn replied.
You rounded the corner into the hangar, where the Millenium Falcon was waiting in all her glory. The droids had switched ships and you all ran up the ramp and inside as Stormtroopers began to gather. Soon you knew why. Kylo Ren was standing in the hangar, saber drawn.
“Rey?”
“I need to do this. Him and me. Go with the others.” Rey said, eyes meeting yours. “Go with Poe.”
“I’m not leaving you here.”
“I’m not asking you to.” She assured.
You felt that tug of war again. Between what she said and what you felt was right. You could feel the light in him, however faint it was. Maybe this was finally the time she could pull the light through. Save Ben Solo.
Finally, you surrendered, following Poe and Finn into the ship, buckling into the cockpit as Poe and Chewie piloted the thing, using the exhaust to blow back Stormtroopers while Finn operated the blaster cannon.
Through the window, you used the Force to collapse a few pillars onto the gathering army of troopers, watching carefully as Rey and Kylo dueled. 
A duel of the fates.
Finally, Rey got the upper hand. Poe swung the Falcon around and you ran down the ramp, reaching a hand out to her. She latched on, swinging around the ramp’s support beam and following you onto the ship.
Poe pulled the ship out of the planet’s atmosphere and into space, jumping through hyperdrive to a safe place where you all could regroup.
“What now? We don’t know where to go.” Finn said.
Your eyes wandered to Chewie, who once again was carrying the knife in his bag. You reached for him, for it. “Let me see it.”
“(Y/N), are you sure…” Poe said, hesitant to let you touch it after the way you’d reacted the last time, the pain it had put you in. It had already been a long, traumatic day. He didn’t want to push it.
“I’m fine.” You replied, exhaustion eating at every piece of you. “I almost had it last time, I think I can get there this time. Some of my…problems just got resolved.”
He relented, watching with guarded brown eyes as you took the knife from Chewbacca. You sat on a box, wings shifting out of the way, hand wrapped around the hilt of the misshapen dagger. You closed your eyes, taking a breath, focusing on what it was, where it had come from, where it was leading you…
You were running through the trees on Endor, wings tucked under a green poncho. Leia on one side, Han and the pathfinders ahead. Kes motioned you forward and you followed, running down the route. Ewoks ran alongside. You took out Scouttroopers as you ran.
Finally, you came up on a hill, looking overhead. In the sky, the shadow of a large moon. Not a moon, no, the Death Star, silver in the daylit sky. You stared at it for a long moment.
You took a shuddering breath, finding yourself back in the cargo hold of the Falcon, surrounded by your friends. You handed Chewie the knife back.
“It’s near Endor. Deathstar wreckage.” You said. “Get in contact with the intel guys and see if they can get us a more concrete answer, but…that wayfinder is definitely there.”
“I’ll send a message.” Finn nodded, walking towards your communications console.
“You good?” Poe asked, eyes not leaving you. He sat on the box beside you and you reached for his hand as Chewie and Rey wandered off to tend to their tasks. He took your hand, fingers curling around yours and squeezing.
“Better now.”
Poe let go of your hand, pulling you into his arms instead. He held you tight, but so, so carefully, strong arms curling around your waist, his head resting on your shoulder, pressing kisses to your neck.
“I saw your dad.” You confessed, hands tracing patterns onto his back.
“My dad?”
“My vision. I was on Endor. It was brief, but…” You chuckled at the irony of it all. Of knowing his parents, of loving him. 
Poe was your anchor to this time, the one redeeming thing your thirty-year skip had given you, the only thing that began to outweigh all of the things you had lost. This love, that look in his eye, the warmth that swirled between you every time you looked at each other, every time he held you in his arms…
Poe was worth it. And he never would have been yours if you’d stayed.
“What was he doing?”
“Pathfinding,” you said through a smile.
He pulled away to meet your eyes, a hand brushing down the side of your face, carefully touching the braid there before settling on your cheek. He pulled you in for a kiss, long and tender, lips moving in rhythm with your own.
Poe rested his forehead against yours, letting out a breath before confessing. “I still forget sometimes, that you’re older than me.”
“I’ve been told I look pretty good for fifty-four.” You laughed softly.
“Very good.” He agreed, kissing you again, hands slipping lower, to your hips, pulling you a little closer. “Very, very good.”
Poe readjusted, deepening the kiss before Finn cleared his throat in the doorway, staring at the two of you, still somewhat in shock that you were together, had been for a while, that you were familiar with each other like this. The two of you hastily pulled apart to look at him.
“Beaumont got a hit. (Y/N) was right. Moon in the Endor system, big chunks of Death Star scattered on its surface.” Finn reported, the two of you listening intently, Poe’s arm still hovering around your waist. “Oh, and Chewbacca said the landing gear is kinda fucked up.”
Poe stood from the box, helping you up after him. “How fucked up?”
Hold Your Fire
The landing had been rough, to say the least. You and Rey broke the fall as best you could, but using the Force on a ship was…much more difficult when you were inside said ship, headed down, down, down onto the surface of a moon in the Endor system.
The Falcon came to a skidding crash, sliding through the grass until finally, it stopped.
“Everyone okay?” Poe called, looking around, making sure no one had gotten thrown around too much. BB-8 gave him a thumbs-up with his lighter attachment.
The group started moving around the cabin, checking things. Poe read meters, checked controls. You and Rey managed to get the ramp down and you all started the hike up the hill, cresting over the top of it, towards the raging sea.
There it was, the Death Star. Or what remained of it, at the very least. You stared for a long moment, a feeling of darkness washing over you. Your eyes traced over the shape of the wreck and goosebumps pricked up all down your arms, though you weren’t sure if it was from the sight or the cold winds.
“Wow…” Rey murmured, looking up at it. “Were you ever…?”
“On it, no. Not that one. The first one, yeah. I was boots on the ground on Endor, so Luke and I could communicate with each other through the Force. Him up there, me down here.” You said.
Rey stared at the shape of the wreck, taking the dagger from her belt and sliding it along the silhouette. It lined up perfectly, a sliding gold ruler pointing to the exact spot. That was it. The spot where the wayfinder was hidden.
Horses galloped in the distance behind you. You all turned, weapons drawn. Poe held out his blaster as a group of scavengers rode their steeds towards you, stopping a safe distance away.
“Rough landing.” The woman leading the pack said. She had a head of gorgeous curls, a pair of goggles tucked along the top of her face, dressed all in silken green. Almost…Mariposan. Almost.
“I’ve seen worse.” Poe countered, a hand extended in front of you, protective, weapon still drawn.
“I’ve seen better.” She said. “Are you Resistance?”
“That depends.” Poe answered, untrusting.
Her eyes fell on you, gaze sliding down the length of your wings, and something in her gaze softened. “Princess…”
“You…know me?”
“Know of you. We received a transmission from some Resistance Scouts, that you were looking for this place. That you’re the last hope.”
“We need to get out to that wreck. There’s something inside there we need.” Rey told her.
“I can take you there by water.”
“You seen the water?” Finn asked.
“Not now. Too dangerous. We can go first light tomorrow.” The woman said.
“We need to go now. We don’t have the time.” Rey insisted.
“Or the choice.” Poe said, turning towards her and the rest of her crew. “Let’s get that ship fixed. Do you have any parts?”
“Some. I’m Jannah.”
“I’m Poe.” He introduced, leading the rest of you back towards the Falcon’s resting place.
Rey stared back at the wreckage, lingering.
You put a hand on her arm. “They’re right. We’re gonna need a way off this rock.”
She nodded, following reluctantly.
Once you got back inside the ship, Poe and the others started repairs, pulling open panels and reaching inside. He had a screwdriver held in his mouth while he worked. You noticed then, finally, that there was a wrap around his bicep. He stopped, holding his arm and hissing in pain.
“When did this happen?” You asked, eyes wide, pulling him away from his work.
“Got shot on the Star Destroyer. It’s fine. I’ve had worse.”
“I know you have. Let me see.”
“We don’t have time.”
“Poe.” You said sternly. “It’ll only take me a second.”
He exhaled a breath, letting you pull him from the panel, passing the screwdriver to Chewie. You stepped into a hallway, pushing him onto a box, forcing him to sit. With careful fingers, you untied the scrap of fabric.
He winced, eyes locked on you and your gentle movements. “You should save your strength, Princess. You’ll need it.”
You shook your head, meeting his eyes as you rolled up his sleeve, the blaster hole singed into the fabric. “I need you at your best too, flyboy. I can tell it hurts.”
“You can feel it?”
“Mmhmm.” You nodded, hand hovering over the injury. “We’re connected, you and I. When you hurt, I hurt.”
“Through the Force? But I’m not…”
“You don’t have to be for me to…tune in. I’m always tuned into you, more or less. Have been for…” You chuckled. “A lot longer than we’ve been seeing each other, even.”
He smiled softly at that, eyes glimmering in the dim light. A teasing smirk took up residence on his soft lips, eyebrow quirked up at your admission. “Youuuu~ had a crush on me.”
“I did. I do, actually. Is that alright with you, Commander Dameron?”
“Yeah, I think I’ll let it slide, Your Highness,” he said, watching as you zoned out, taking a deep breath before pushing life energy from yourself to the blaster wound on his arm. The pain ebbed instantly, the wound fading away, replaced with new skin. He sighed, reaching for your hand, playing with your fingers in his. “You are…somethin’ else, you know that?”
“So you’ve said.” You grinned, pressing a kiss to his lips, a quick one. He leaned in after you pulled away, lips chasing yours. You smirked at him. “Who has the crush now?”
“Oh, Princess, I’ve always had a crush on you…” He murmured. Poe touched his arm, squeezing the spot clinically, but there was no pain there, just smooth skin in place of the gaping wound that had been causing him so much pain for the last few hours.
“Back to work?”
“Yeah.” Poe nodded, walking back over to the panel he’d been working on, where Chewie had all but wrapped it up.
BB-8 rolled up the ramp and into the ship, beeping at Poe, telling him he couldn’t find Rey.
“What do you mean you haven’t seen her?”
You knew immediately what that meant. You raced down the ramp, out into the grass, using your wings to flit up the hill, watching as Rey took a skimmer onto the raging waters, struggling to get past each wave.
“REY!” You called out to her, but your words were swallowed up by the winds. “Fuck.”
“We have to go after her.” Finn said once he and Poe caught up, Jannah just behind them on her horse. “Can you fly across?”
“On wind like this, no way, pal.” Poe said, arms crossed, hand grabbing your hip like he was afraid you’d try. “Her wings aren’t made for a gap like this.”
“I’d be a fly on a windshield. Or…sharp rocks, in this case.” You said, looking down at the jagged shore beneath you.
“I need to get over there.” Finn said, determined.
You shook your head. “No, we can’t.” You watched as Kylo’s TIE Fighter landed on the wreckage, your stomach sinking. “Oh, that’s just great.”
“We have to go help her!” Finn said again.
“We can’t! Whatever she’s meant to do out there…” You reached, the Force calling to you. This was it. Her final stand against him. Whatever was going to happen out there, she needed to do it alone. “This is her fight. Her and Kylo.”
Finn let out a frustrated sigh, meeting your eyes. You knew he could feel it, too. You were right. They needed to get through this themselves. There was no way for you to get across the gap anyway.
And so, you waited.
You watched as red and blue clashed, watching, feeling, reaching through the Force, trying to feel exactly what was going on out there.
The TIE fighter took off. Then, the skimmer came back. You reached for your saber when you saw who it was coming out of it. It wasn’t Rey in the skimmer. It was Kylo.
Poe raised his blaster as soon as he saw him, Finn reaching for his saber as well. 
Kylo approached slowly. He…didn’t have his saber, you realized. You stared at him with wide eyes as he pulled himself up the cliff, looking at all of you with vulnerable eyes, a saber hole in his black tunic.
Rey had healed him, you realized, eyebrows furrowing.
You looked him over, eyes sweeping and critical, and put a hand on Poe’s blaster, lowering it.
“Hold your fire.” You said, voice quiet, eyes still locked on Kylo’s dark, looming figure.
“Hold my–Baby, that’s Kylo Ren!”
You looked back at Poe, daring to take your eyes off of the former Sith for a few moments. His expression softened once he saw yours. You weren’t worried at all. Not a hint of fear in those eyes. He trusted you, and if you thought it was okay, then maybe…
“Ben, right?” You asked, turning back to look at him.
He smiled, tentative and unsure, eyes searching each of you for malice, for distrust. There was none. At least, not in your eyes. Finn and Poe looked like they still needed to be convinced. “Ben. Ben…Solo.”
You searched him for the heavy darkness that had burdened his soul for so long, but came up empty. Whatever had happened out there, with Rey, had left him changed. Had healed him in more ways than one.
“Is Rey okay?” Finn asked, gaze hardened.
Ben nodded. “Took my TIE Fighter. Intends to go to Exegol alone. I can help you get in touch with her, breach its communications.”
You nodded. “Alright. You…you can come with us, but…don’t be surprised if some of the folks on base don’t take too kindly to the sight of you. We’ll have to warn them you’re coming so they don’t…shoot you on sight.”
He scoffed, nodding in agreement. “I don’t think I could blame them for that after everything. But…I owe you all. I want to help, before it’s too late.”
March of the Resistance
The trip back to Ajan Kloss was…tense. Ben sat at the sabacc table, staring at the checkered tiles. Poe and Chewbacca were in the cockpit, piloting you all back to safety. Finn stood with you against the wall, watching Ben, waiting for him to say something.
You’d already spoken to Leia, warned her. She’d felt it, though. She knew you were bringing her son back to her.
He searched you, you could felt him poking around your energy with the Force, bristling slightly.
“Sorry. Force of habit.” He retracted immediately, staring at his hands, shaking with worry.
“It’s…alright. You can ask if you have questions.”
“You knew my father.” He blurted, eyes meeting yours. “My mother. You’re…they took me to your grave when I was young. Your…pod.”
“My pod…” You agreed, nodding slowly. “I did know them. I was good friends with them. Your mother was my best friend. Basically a sister to me. In another life, I would have been your aunt.”
He nodded, listening. He swallowed the lump in his throat, eyes glossy. “I’m sorry.”
“I know.” You told him, voice gentle and sincere. You let out a sigh. “But I’m not the only one you’re going to need to apologize to.”
Ben nodded, solemn. He didn’t reply after that.
Finn watched the interaction with guarded eyes. You couldn’t imagine how he was feeling now, a former Stormtrooper standing in front of Kylo Ren. Redeemed or not, there had to be a lot going on in his head. You put a hand on Finn’s arm, heading towards the cockpit.
“How is he…?” Poe murmured, looking back to meet your eyes.
“Not hellbent on murderous destruction anymore. Any hits from Rey?”
“Yeah, she’s headed back, too. She’ll beat us there by a handful of minutes.” Poe said. 
He reached for your hand and you gave it to him, letting him squeeze it for comfort. You were both okay, for now. But the final fight was coming. Like a tidal wave headed straight for the beach.
***
You landed in pandemonium, people rushing every which way around the base. Rey had beat you there, and was waiting when the Falcon landed, a little worse for wear, but fine otherwise.
Finn walked out of the ship first, hugging Rey tightly, the two of them talking to each other about something. You and Poe walked out next. The gathered Resistance members waiting in bated breath until, finally, Ben walked out, dressed all in black, saber-less. They all murmured, watching his every move.
As odd as it was, it was kind of nice to have them whisper about someone else for a change.
Leia stepped forward, slow, tentative. She hadn’t seen him in person in…years. From a distance, sure, but not face to face like this. The tension was palpable, the Force hanging between them nearly enough to throw you from your feet.
Poe put a hand on your arm, watching as Kylo Ren himself fell to his knees in front of his mother, tears streaming from his eyes. She knelt beside him, the two of them murmuring to each other, reconciling. It felt wrong to watch, so you stepped away, helping the others round up equipment.
Not long after, a meeting was called in the hangar, the whole Resistance gathered around to listen to the intel from Ben. He had been on Exegol, talked to the Emperor. He knew what was waiting for you there, where you all had to go, what had to be done to stop Palpatine once and for all.
You felt that sinking feeling in your chest, the one you’d gotten before the fight with Insidia. You tried to shake it off, but you knew what it meant. You…might not make it out of this one.
Poe and Finn pitched their plan to the others, discussing the ground attack on the Star Destroyers, the plot to block their communications, prevent them from taking off.
“We have friends out there. They’ll come if they know there’s hope.” Poe insisted, fire in his eyes, a hand resting on his belt. “The First Order wins by making us think we’re alone.” He met your eyes. “But we’re not alone. Good people will fight if we lead them.”
You nodded, listening to the rest of their speech, Finn and Poe, calling the shots. It was nice. Your boys. Following in the footsteps of those before you. Poe caught your gaze, tilting his head as if to say ‘your turn.’
You took a breath, gathering your thoughts. You had many. You squeezed Rey’s hand, which had been in yours for the last several minutes, Soren standing on your other side, Laesynda beside him. Your family. Your growing pack of Jedi.
“I didn’t expect to survive the first war. A lot of us didn’t. Good people gave their lives for this cause. Thirty years ago, mere months ago…We have been fighting this battle for a generation. I only got a taste of that peace. Two years of it. I’ve seen it and…I know the end. I didn’t expect to disappear, to come back in the midst of another war. But…I am honored to stand among you, my brothers and sisters, my nephew…to call you my family and fight by your side. I am with you to the bitter end. We will end this war, bring peace to the galaxy, destroy Palpatine, permanently this time. I want each and every single one of you to live in that peace, to plant the seeds of your new lives, and watch them grow in a world free of the First Order’s tyranny. May the Force be with each of you today.”
“And with us all.” Laesynda finished, her hand on your shoulder, a proud look in her eye. The group dismissed, heading their separate directions, running and working in tandem to prepare for the fight ahead.
You turned to your Jedi. Your team. Rey, Finn, Soren…Ben.
“I’m going with ground support.” Finn said. “They need me.”
“I know they do. And they’re lucky to have you.” You said, nodding. “Soren?”
“Stay here?” He asked, expecting the same answer from his Jedi Master, but instead, you shook your head.
“Nope. You’re coming with us. You’re ready now. I know you are. You’ve got us with you. We need you now more than ever.” You smiled, gently. “My Padawan.”
He nodded, determined, eyes sparkling with that Rebel moxie. He was your blood after all.
“I’ll meet you all at the Falcon. We’re wheels-up in thirty.”
Rey and Ben nodded, looking at each other, at your nephew. You left them for a moment, looking for Laesynda, who was face to face with a man around her age, maybe a hair older. He had Soren’s nose. Ah, your brother-in-law. He’d finally come around, right when you all needed him most.
You’d meet up with her in a few minutes, then.
You watched as the pilots ran around, dusting off their ships, tossing helmets to each other, mechanics rushing to get everything set for takeoff. You watched as Aspen ran past, her black hair in a braid. Snap, Jessika, Karé, running past, towards the hangar where Black Squadron’s X-Wings were.
BB-8 bumped into your leg, bobbling slightly as he looked up at you, telling you Poe was in the hangar, getting ready for take-off.
“How soon?”
He replied that it would be about fifteen minutes. You nodded, thinking.
“Can you record something for me, Bee? Something important?”
He nodded, rolling off somewhere private with you. 
You knelt down to his level and sighed, preparing yet another speech. “Hey, flyboy. It’s uh, it’s me. If you’re seeing this…something bad happened to me on Exegol. And I’m…really sorry. For everything. For all of it. For leaving you. I know you don’t go throwing the L word around, and that’s okay, but…I love you, too, for the record. I heard what you said on Pasaana. I’ve felt it at the edges of your mind. I love you, too. I have for…a long time. You’re leaving soon, so I’m going to go say goodbye to you for real. But…I wanted you to have this, too, just in case. Every…every moment I’ve been by your side has been a moment well spent, and I wouldn’t trade a single one for all the credits in the galaxy. I hope you’re…safe and happy and well. I hope you live to be super, super old, all wrinkly and gray, and reminisce on the good old days, when you used to hang out with a princess. And if I don’t make it, I want you to fall in love again. To find someone else to give your heart to. I could never be mad at you for that.”
You paused, closing your eyes as you gazed into BB-8’s camera. “I love you, Poe Dameron. I hope you have a really great, peaceful life with this little droid by your side.”
BB-8 beeped at you, telling you that he was not, in fact, little, and you laughed a little, standing up and brusing yourself off.
“I know, I know. Now let’s go find him. I gotta say goodbye.”
You walked to the hangar beside BB-8 as he rolled along. Poe was looking around, somewhat frantic until he saw his little droid, you accompanying him, your strides long and graceful, wings drifting behind you magnificently.
“Mmmm, I do love that flight suit, flyboy.” You said, eyes roaming his figure in the orange fabric.
“There you are, Princess, I was getting ready for wheels-up in here and I couldn’t find my girl or my droid.” He put his hands on your arms, looking you over. “You okay? How you feeling?”
You nodded, meeting his eyes, bravery blossoming in your chest. “Good. I’m good. How are you, Commander?”
“Ready to get this shit over with.” He let out a tired breath, hands wandering from your arms to your hips, pulling you into his chest. “We’re gonna be okay, alright? You and I? I’ll see you after. Right here. Don’t be late.”
“Wouldn’t dream of it.” You said, voice soft, so much hidden in your words. “You be careful out there. Come back to me in one piece.”
He pulled away to look at you, smirking as his lips flicked down to your lips. “Of course, your Highness.”
He surged forward and kissed you, a long, passionate, earth-shattering kiss, tongue rolling over yours, arms tight around your waist. And then he pulled away, meeting your eyes again.
You stood there for a long moment, his arms around you. Your fingers drifted down to the healer’s pendant, glimmering in the dim light. He grabbed your hand, eyes searching yours, eyebrows knitted together, the heat palpable. The tension. The fear.
You pressed one last, quick kiss to his lips and turned to leave, glancing back at him. “See you later, Poe.”
As you took a few steps towards the edge of the hangar, he called out for you. “Hey, wait! I…”
You met his eyes, heart racing. You could feel it again, at the edge of his mind, the tip of his tongue.
He licked his lips. Swallowed. Then said, “I love you.”
Your jaw dropped, hand rising to your face as you let out a gasp. He’d said it. He’d actually kriffin’ said it.
“P-Poe…”
“I love you, (Y/N). I’m sorry I didn’t say it sooner.”
You ran back into his arms with new fervor, kissing his lips like it was the last thing you’d ever do. He laughed into your mouth, tears welling in his eyes as he looked you over, searching your face, your eyes, almost wondering if he’d actually said it out loud this time.
You smiled, reaching up to readjust his curls. “I love you, too.”
He couldn’t keep the grin off of his face as he asked, “You’re not just sayin’ that?”
“No, I mean it. I…I love you, Poe Dameron. Don’t get yourself blown up out there.”
He chuckled, kissing you one last time. “I’ll try, sweetheart.”
Eyes on the Jedi
You stood in the Falcon, watching as Chewie and Lando piloted. Like old times. You shook with every movement, watching out the windshield, dread growing in your stomach. First, you all would go distract Palpatine. Then, the fleet would come, taking on the army of Star Destroyers.
You had an earpiece in your ear, listening as the pilots spoke to each other. Listening to Poe’s voice as much as you could stomach to.
“Black Leader to Falcon, how are we looking, General Calrissian?”
“Smooth and steady, Black Leader. The Jedi are ready.”
“How’s the Princess?”
Lando glanced back at you, chuckling softly. “Princess is good.”
“Good, good, glad to hear it. Let us know once you drop them off.” Poe said, voice walking that line between professional and concerned.
“Will do, Commander.”
You looked to the others, putting a hand on Soren’s arm, wings tensing. He looked nervous, sure, but…he also looked determined. Brave. Ready for the fight that lied ahead, no matter how terrifying.
Finally, Lando pulled the Falcon up to the mouth of the cave. A strange swirl of nostalgia fluttered around your heart as you looked at it, a sinking, bitter feeling in your core. Insidia’s laugh echoed across your mind one last time. Luke’s voice pushed it out.
I’m with you, Princess. Then and now. You’re not alone.
You nodded, eyes closing. You weren’t alone. You had Rey. Soren. Ben. Finn was out there, too. Poe. Lando and Chewie. Leia. You had friends and allies, new and old, standing with you as you stepped off of the Falcon and into immediate danger, saber igniting, lighting the dark with magenta.
Soren lit his saber as well, standing by your side, an extension of yourself in more ways than one. Your Padawan, your nephew, wielding your original saber, the one you had been wielding on your last day of your old life. The one he and mother had journeyed so far to find.
Rey and Ben led the way, Ben more familiar with this place since he had been there. You could feel the energy already, dark and all-consuming. A cacophonous choir of voices echoing off the walls, chanting. Cultists, you realized. Perhaps some of the same souls Insidia had rallied with the first time.
Among them, the Knights of Ren.
You shivered, finally getting a good look at them. You’d never seen them all face to face, or…face to mask, but they were here, looming like shadows, weapons giving off an eerie, unsettling red light.
You looked to Rey and Ben, telling them silently to move forward, that you and Soren would handle these guys. They nodded, running off while you and Soren launched into battle, swinging your sabers against the onslaught of weapons. There were six of them, two of you, but you’d trained him well, and had been training yourself. Your movements were graceful and precise, quick and fluid, using your wings in tandem with your body, using them to get leverage.
You rotated around Soren, working together, defending each other, attacking the knights as a unit. Nephew and Aunt. Pawadan and Jedi, like all those who had come before you.
You leaped over Soren, tucking your legs in for more momentum as you crashed down onto the last knight, slashing through his armor with one final blow.
Breathing heavy, you looked to Soren, searching him for any sign of injury. There was none. He was fine. He gave you a soft, reassuring smile and you nodded, leading him back to the chamber where Palpatine was, a cult of hooded figures around the edge of the large room.
He had Ben and Rey in a chokehold of Force energy, sapping them with his withered hands, draining the very life from them.
“NO!” You roared, hands thrown forward. A wave of invisible energy crashed into him, shocking him long enough to drop them onto the cold stone ground.
“Ah…I was wondering when you’d show up, Princess. How kind of you to join us…your original, let’s say…sacrifice, was enough to revive me in the first place. Insidia gave her life. You gave yours. Two lives to restore the one, true Emperor.”
“She tried, but she couldn’t kill me.” You said, helping Rey to her feet, Ben.
“Which is why it is a half-life I live. But not for long…”
He reached forward, trying to drain the life from you next, but you stood strong, blocking him. You heard the sounds of ships overhead, out above the cave’s opening. Explosions. The sound of X-Wings crashing, ships being destroyed. Star Destroyers blasting.
“Your love makes you weak.” Palpatine scolded, energy scathing the edges of yours, finally reaching. Taking. You dropped to your knees as the power flowed from you, a horrible numbness eating at the ends of your limbs, tingling in your fingers and toes.
“(Y/N)!” Rey called out as you sprawled to the floor.
Palpatine stopped, his withered flesh repairing itself from your energy. He let out a triumphant laugh, reaching up towards the sky, lightning flying from his fingertips, up at the Resistance ships.
At Poe.
Everything ached, chest burning. You had to get up. You knew you had to. But you just didn’t have the strength. Ben and Soren swung at Palpatine, but he threw them back as though they were weightless.
“(Y/N), please. I can’t…” Rey said, broken. “I can’t do this alone.”
“You’re not alone.” Luke’s voice said as his Force Ghost appeared beside the both of you.
“Help you, we will.” Yoda added, appearing beside Luke. Then Obi-Wan, who met your eyes with a wink. Anakin…All the great Jedi of old, gathered around you. The light rising to meet the dark.
“Get up, Princess. That’s not a request.” Luke goaded, lending you his strength. His face shifted to his younger form, the way he’d looked the last time you’d fought side by side.
“You sound like Han.” You grumbled, scraping yourself off of the cold, hard ground, warmth returning to your fingers. You ignited your saber, Soren and Ben returning to the fight alongside the army of spirits summoned by the Force. The light of the Jedi, the dark of the Sith, colliding one last time as Palpatine’s cultists flooded the arena.
It was all out war. Sabers slinging every which way, light bouncing off of the walls, Palpatine’s lightning coming to a stop as he was rushed by an onslaught of Jedi, his cultists dropping off one by one, dispatched quickly. It seemed he had sapped their strength, too, using their loyalty to make himself stronger. He hadn’t changed in the slightest.
Palpatine shot lightning at you, but Soren locked sabers with you, both of you pushing the lightning back onto him, weakening him just enough.
Rey and Ben united, using their combined power to drain the Emperor, dispersing the energy back into the Force, to restore balance.
“It’s…impossible…” He groaned, thrashing about as they took it back from him, every last ounce of stolen power.
“No. It’s not.” You said, standing with the two of them, helping them finish the job, draining and draining and draining until there was nothing left. Not even a body. Dissolved entirely into the Force.
There was a great rush of power after, an explosion of it, rushing out of the cave. You looked up to find Star Destroyers nose-diving out of the sky. The four of you shared a moment of relief, the rush of victory, as the Force Ghosts dissipated around you once more.
You met Luke’s eyes, a promise. You didn’t need him anymore. But someday, if you ever did, you knew he’d be there for you. Then, he vanished, too.
Rey called for Lando, hoping the Falcon was okay, but all you could think about was Poe. At some point, your earpiece had fallen out. You had no way to check on him, other than looking up, reaching with the Force. You were nearly too frazzled to find his energy up there, but…it was. You breathed in relief. He was okay.
The Falcon swept down to get you as the cave started to rumble, unstable from the blast of energy. You all climbed on board, the rest of the ground crew was there. Rey rushed to Finn, hugging him tightly. You met up with Jannah, nodding at her and acknowledging the rest of them before sliding into the cockpit, putting on a headset just in time to catch:
“Do we have any eyes on the Jedi? That cave is gonna blow.” Poe said, voice a little pitchy over the comms.
“Just Finn, Commander.” One of the other pilots said before you could interject. “He’s on board the Falcon.”
Poe swallowed, voice getting thicker. “This is Black Leader. I repeat, do we have any eyes on the Princess and the rest of the Jedi?”
You lowered the microphone, tapping into the comms. “Reading you loud and clear, Black Leader. The Princess and the rest of the Jedi are on board the Falcon, headed home.”
You heard the way his voice hitched, the relieved little sob that left his mouth. He cleared his throat, trying to sound professional as he replied, “G-Glad to hear it. We’ll see you at home, Princess.”
Lando smiled at you, steering the Falcon away from the cave and into hyperspace, into safety. “You two remind me a whole lot of people we know.”
“I know.” You chuckled. “A pilot and a princess, who would have thought?”
“You’re good together. When I saw you at the gala together that night, I thought you were definitely already together. That look in his eye…watching you use that Princess super-power of yours up close.” Lando confessed, eyes glimmering. “He’s good for you. Enjoy it.”
“Oh, I will. This time…I’m not going anywhere.”
The Pilot, the Prince
The Falcon came down smoothly at the edge of camp. Vehicles touched down left and right, Resistance members rushing out of them and into each other’s arms, celebrating a victory hard-won. You counted heads, looked for faces.
Aspen. Beaumont. Some of the rookies. No Black Squadron yet.
You kept searching faces, counting heads. Soren ran to Laesynda and the man you assumed was her husband. Beside him, your droid. Radia. She’d…been with him all along.
You looked for Poe’s X-Wing, but didn’t see it yet, so while the others on the Falcon dispersed, you ran to your sister, holding her in your arms, burying your face in her shoulder. She laughed, smiling brightly, pulling away to look at you and Soren. Both had returned to her. Both were fine. You could feel her settle as the weight of the galaxy eased off of her shoulders.
“(Y/N)...this is my husband. Marc. Marc, this is my sister.”
He offered his hand. He had dark brown hair, a dark beard, kind eyes. He was wearing a leather jacket and gloves, a blaster holstered to his belt. “Pleasure to finally meet you, Princess. Thank you for taking care of our son.”
“Of course. It’s nice to meet you, too. I…you…” You glanced down at Radia, who was beeping and whirring excitedly.
“I borrowed her. Hope you don’t mind. She’s a great companion.”
You knelt down, wrapping your arms around your old friend, resting your head against the cool metal of her panels. She had been painted a little, it seemed, but kept up well.
“Thank you. For taking care of her.” You told Laesynda, meeting her eyes, then Marc’s. “I thought I’d never see her again.”
“I’d never let anything happen to her.” Laesynda promised. “She carries all our memories with her. All of my memories of you. I could never part with those.”
“Well, now,” you smiled, “we get to make new ones.”
The X-Wings finally arrived, the people on the ground erupting into cheers. You locked eyes on Poe’s X-Wing, on BB-8 in his compartment in the back, wobbling as he looked around, took it all in. The top of the cockpit popped open and Poe began to climb out.
“I gotta go.”
“Go get him, Princess.” Laesynda encouraged, warmth in her eyes.
You took off, fluttering your wings before flying right over, past the celebrating Rebels, straight into Poe’s waiting arms, the force of it nearly enough to tackle him to the grass.
He laughed, spinning you around and around, peppering kisses all over your face before finally setting you in front of him, eyes softening as he took you in. His Jedi. His Princess. Alive and unharmed.
Your hand rose to his cheek, thumb smoothing over his skin, the other adjusting his curls, mussed up from his helmet.
“Hey.” He murmured.
“Hey yourself.” You replied, leaning up to press a tender kiss to his lips. He reciprocated immediately, hands securing themselves around your waist, tugging you closer to him as he deepened the kiss, tongue rolling into your mouth. You melted against him, breath hitching at his touch.
“Thought I lost you there for a second…” He confessed, nose brushing yours as he tucked a piece of hair behind your ear. “That lightning…I thought…I felt…”
“I know.” You nodded, kissing him again, featherlight. “But I’m okay. We all are.”
“I love you.” He said again, breaths ragged, holding you close, a hand cradling your head. “I love you so much, baby.”
“I love you, too.” You whispered, kissing his cheek, just in front of his ear. “My daring pilot.”
“Your trigger-happy flyboy.”
“Wouldn’t have him any other way.” You said, finally pulling away enough to let Rey and Finn into your circle. The four of you held each other, heads leaning together, arms around each other as you let the peace settle. The weight of the galaxy finally easing up off of your shoulders.
***
It only made sense that after a victory like that would come a party.
Poe mingled with just about every person on the base, congratulating people, shaking hands, flashing that prettyboy smile. He glanced back at you every handful of minutes, monitoring. You were sitting with Leia and Lando and Chewie, the last remaining members of your original group, enjoying the sounds of celebration.
“You were hungover for four days after the last war.” Leia recalled, laughing as she sipped from her glass.
“Oh I remember. Or…don’t remember. I guess that’s the whole point.” You chuckled. “Those little teddy bears knew how to party.”
Lando laughed at that. “So did you, Princess.”
“Alright, alright.” You chuckled. “I had a reputation for a reason.”
A few people came up to you, offering congratulations and well-wishes. You spoke with them, wishing them the best of luck, wherever they were headed.
Eventually, Poe wandered back to you, sitting on the log beside you. He took your hand in his, intertwining your fingers. Gently, he pulled your hand to his lips, kissing the back of it, the fire twinkling in his warm eyes.
“Can I talk to you about something? Alone?”
You smiled, following him away from the heat and noise of the party and out into the cool night air. Your clearing. Your meditating spot. It was…lit with strings of lights, glowing and warm. Someone had come out there and decorated it.
“What’s all this…?”
“Called in some favors.” Poe admitted, letting out a nervous chuckle. “I hope you don’t mind. I guess I should have asked first…”
“No, it’s…beautiful, Poe.” You reassured him, giving his hand a squeeze.
“I, uh…guess we’ve never really talked about what happens now. Between…us. What are your plans, now that it’s all over?”
“Plans?” You thought, eyes drifting over the lights. “Laesynda and I have discussed going back to Mariposas. Rebuilding. There are a lot of folks displaced from this war, I’d like to give them a place where they can be safe. Besides, I think Rey and I should probably start up a Jedi Temple. There are a few spots there that would be perfect for one. That’s…those are my plans. What are yours?”
“So, actually, about that…I was wondering if, uh…” He took a breath, those dark eyelashes fluttering shut, brows furrowing.
You waited, head tilting as he found his words. “If…?”
“It’s okay if you say no.” He prefaced, a hand out in warning, the other in his pocket.
“Can’t say no if you never ask, flyboy.”
Poe stared at you. He took a step closer, a hand settling on your hip, met your eyes… “I…was wondering if…you’d marry me, (Y/N).”
Your jaw dropped, heart pounding, searching his eyes for the edges of the joke, but…it wasn’t. It wasn’t a joke to him. He was serious.
His hand emerged from his pocket, his mother’s ring taken off the chain he’d worn it on for so long, pinched carefully between his fingers as he waited. After a long moment, he hesitated, eyes falling to the ground, doubt swirling. “It’s too soon, isn’t it? It’s okay, I just–”
“Poe.” You said, drawing his attention back to you, eyes watering. “You’d…you’d be a prince, you know. There’s a lot of responsibility that comes with that. Rebuilding a planet.”
“Yeah, well…my schedule just cleared up, so…” He said, still tense, but that humor of his starting to peek through again.
“You’re serious.”
“Never been more serious about anything in my life.”
You let out a shudder of a sigh, reaching forward and taking his face in your hands. Kissing him passionately, a hand buried in his curls, the other fondly caressing the scar on his cheekbone.
“Is that a yes?”
“Yes, Poe Dameron. I…Yes.”
He took your hand in his, gingerly sliding the ring onto your finger, pretending to be surprised that it fit perfectly, like he hadn’t been putting it on you while you were sleeping. “Perfect fit.”
“Yeah, it is.” You nodded, pulling him by the collar of his shirt into another kiss, the ring gleaming on your finger under the warm lights. This time, he kissed back, hungrily, mouth devouring your own, hands firm on your tips, pulling you against him. You melted against his touch, letting a quiet moan into his mouth as his fingertips skimmed the smooth tissue of your wing.
He pulled away, resting his forehead against yours, breaths ragged, eyes searching your face. “I, uh…Bee showed me your video. When it was bad out there. The lightning…”
“Oh. Poe. I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be. He thought I was gonna die, so…I just…you meant it, huh? You thought you wouldn’t…”
“Yeah.” You admitted. “Being a Jedi isn’t exactly a stable gig. Neither is being a pilot. Just wanted to…cover my bases.”
He nodded, hands on your waist, thumbs rubbing circles into your hipbones. “I do disagree with you on one thing.”
“Oh, do you?”
“Yeah. I…I’m never gonna fall in love again after you. You’re it for me. I’m gonna love you until the day I die. Ideally, with you by my side, but…”
You closed your eyes, smiling gently, a bittersweet kind of love settling over your soul. “I just want you to be happy.”
“And I will be. With you.” He tugged you closer, pressing a long kiss to your cheek. “I had him put a little something together for you, too. If you wanna watch it now, or…later?”
“Now works.”
BB-8 rolled out of the bushes, whirring in congratulations.
You laughed. “Thank you!”
He rolled back a little, leaning up to project a video above him. What unfolded was a series of memories.
Poe and the others arriving on Mariposas to get you, Poe turning the medallion over in his hand.
“What if it doesn’t work?” Finn wondered.
“It’ll work. She’s…waited long enough.” Poe knelt down, pressing the medallion into the compartment of the healing pod. “I didn’t expect her to be so…”
“Beautiful…” Rey murmured, nodding.
“And young…” Poe said, watching as the amulet began to glow, the glass of the pod retracting shakily. They all waited in bated breath for you to wake up.
Eventually, the projection of you opened her eyes and you watched how you’d met them all, tired and confused, mistaking them for your old friends. Little had you known then just how much they would all mean to you.
After, BB-8 played a medley of each of the moments he’d captured, borrowed from other droids. The two of you building your lightsaber, him touching your wings for the first time, the way you reunited after battles and missions, the way you flirted around eachother, dancing circles around each other until finally colliding that fateful night at the gala. The way you flew over the base to get to him when he was injured. All the loving touches and gazes that came after, playfully hiding your relationship from your colleagues. Your victory kiss.
A montage of your love, all laid out for you nicely.
Fireworks boomed in the distance, the rebels out by the base finally getting into supplies you wouldn’t need now that the war was over.
You curled against his chest, swaying in the night, beneath the glittering lights.
“I can’t wait to make a million more, baby.” He murmured, pressing his lips to your forehead. “I love you so goddamn much. Feels like it’s killing me sometimes.”
“I think that’s how it’s supposed to feel.” You kissed his cheek, then his lips. “I would know. I’ve loved you for a good, long time, Poe Dameron and…I’m gonna love you for the rest of my life.”
“Don’t you forget it.”
Epilogue
Months had passed. You had been boots on the ground on Mariposas, helping rebuild the tatters of your broken home. You started with the palace, a nice centralized building so everyone could be housed close together, but as more refugees arrived, you were sure you’d have the help you’d need to build the nearest village back up.
Rey and Finn had taken a journey to round up more Force Sensitives, the return of the Jedi, as it were. When they found them, everything would be ready. The Force would finally find balance again.
“Hey, baby, Laesynda found this in your father’s room. Said to bring it to you.” Poe said, stepping over some rubble on his way over to you, a small wooden box in his calloused hands. You weren’t married yet, still engaged and taking it one day at a time. There was a lot of work to be done before you’d feel settled enough for a wedding.
“Let me see…” You held it, brushing thirty years of dust from the lid before opening it slowly. Inside was one of your father’s rings. A gold band, a strip of purple gemstones through the center. On the inside was engraved a butterfly, the symbol of your people. “Oh…”
“It’s beautiful.” Poe said softly.
“It was Dad’s.” You confirmed, plucking it from its velvet casing. “Told her I was looking for it.”
“For what, your Highness?” He asked, voice featherlight as you took his hand, spreading his fingers.
“This.” You slid it onto his ring finger, searching his eyes. “I know we still have a lot to do before the wedding but…when all of the people get here, I…want them to know you’re mine.”
“Possessive little Princess, aren’t you? Don’t want your new subjects to get too carried away?”
“Not with my pilot.” You murmured, pressing a kiss to his lips. “Besides, it’s a Mariposan thing. I was supposed to propose to you, not the other way around.”
“See, I did know that, I just…couldn’t help myself.” He grinned, hand resting on your waist as he kissed you, the ring gleaming against his finger. “I’m a little impulsive.”
“I know.”
You heard a ship landing outside and rushed out with him to find the Millennium Falcon landing. Chewie emerged with Finn, Rey, and…Jannah? One of the defected Stormtroopers who had helped you all on the moon in the Endor system.
“Jannah! Hey!” You waved excitedly, rushing over to meet them, Poe following close behind.
“Your Highness…” She said, looking at you with a sparkle of insecurity in her eyes. “I’d be honored to train with you, if you’d have me.”
“Welcome aboard.” You replied, putting a hand on her arm, warmth in your eyes. “It’s not much yet, we’re still rebuilding, but, we’re getting there.”
“Day by day.” Finn said, smiling proudly. He was still wielding Luke’s green saber, and wielding it well.
In the months that had passed, however, Rey and Soren had crafted their own sabers. Rey’s was a dual blade. It made sense for her, with her experience with a staff, a brilliant yellow color. One you had never seen in a saber. Soren’s had taken on a lighter color, cyan, somewhere between green and blue. It suited him. Fresh, just like your nephew.
This left your legacy saber wielderless. You kept it with you, in case danger arose. Two sabers readily at your disposal, but…you had a feeling Jannah wouldn’t look so bad holding it. Maybe this was how it was meant to be. Time would tell.
The pieces hadn’t magically fallen into place the minute the war had ended. Nor had you expected them to. Healing took time, lots of it. But you had a growing family there. People you could count on. People looking for a home, for a leader. A leader you hoped they would find in Laesynda, in yourself. Your brother had shattered the kingdom at his feet, but together, you hoped, you would find a way to recover. A way to more forward. To heal the past as you marched towards the future.
“We’ll get there.” Poe said, confident. Sure of it. You loved that about him.
“We will. All of us. Together.”
In the distance, Soren and Ben trained, flitting from branch to branch of the healing Monarch Tree, the crowned jewel of your home planet.
And for the first time in thirty years, it was finally beginning to bloom.
THE END.
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klerothesnowman · 11 months ago
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The Acolyte was really good but I'm kind of exhausted by it
This one's more about The High Republic than it is about The Acolyte.
In a previous ramble I talked about how the Jedi being what they were supposed to be didn't make for a good movie. But you know what it was REALLY good for? Making a massively successful franchise with a billion entries for nerds to buy up obsessively. The New Republic and Luke's Jedi Order was an absolute narrative gold mine, there was so many stories that were told in that era that people remember fondly. Sure there's a lot that were total trash too but you could forgive one book being Not Great when it was fairly disposable and you had another book next to it which was a really good adventure.
There was just so much room to tell stories in a post Galactic Civil War setting. Political dramas about the New Republic, Luke struggling to find his feet as the new grandmaster of the Jedi Order, skirmishes with the remnant of the Empire, people just trying to live their life in a whacky galaxy, new Jedi finding themselves. It was hopeful, it was exciting, it was a setting that sparked your imagination and let anything be possible.
But it didn't make for good movies, so when Disney decided they wanted to make more movies they threw out all of it and made a new post Galactic Civil War galaxy. This time it's one without a new Jedi Order, the New Republic is wiped out in the first movie and the Imperial Remnant is defeated in the backstory.
I don't think it is at all a coincidence that there just isn't really any expanded universe material set in that era, there's a lot set before The Force Awakens, where this stuff still kind of exists, but there's significantly less freedom to do anything with it as it's all going to end with The Resistance and The First Order doing the original trilogy again.
Since Disney took over expanded materials pretty much solely concern themselves with times between movies, where everything has an inherent time limit attached to it and concepts can't be too big.
And I think LucasFilms really recognized that, because they made The High Republic.
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I have a few problems with The High Republic. It seems a little hyper focused on Jedi, I think dividing everything into "Phases" is MCU brainrot that just sets yourself up for failure and having a single threat for an entire "Phase" kind of narrows the scope of what you can do. More importantly by shying away from having Dark Jedi there's significantly less opportunity for swashbuckling sword fights, which is what Star Wars is all about when you think about it.
But it's still a great idea. give all the Star Wars writers a playground where they can do whatever they want. Even better, set it when the Jedi are at their peak, show everyone what an Average Jedi Adventure really is, without being dragged down by the metanarrative context of the Clone Wars or Galactic Civil War.
It was just classic, Star Wars pulp. Adventure, and fun. It had a teenage Jedi Knight who had a cool lightsaber whip!
And what a breath of fresh air it is, right? Because is it just me or has Star Wars just been really grim lately? Everything always seems to be about how the Jedi suck, or the unfortunate reality of existing within a tyrannical fascist dictatorship, and don't get me wrong I enjoy it, but I would kill for some good old fashioned pulp adventure, which is why it frustrated me a little extra that I wasn't vibing with The High Republic as much as I wanted to.
And now we've got the Acolyte, which is really good. But, man... it's really grim isn't it?
And I get it, I get that the idea is that this is the "End" of the High Republic. I get that one day the upbeat and hopeful Jedi Order needs to get bogged down with institution and lose its way and then get manipulated into self collapse.
I really want to know what Justina Ireland, the writer who created Vernestra, thinks of the direction they took her character. I understand the thematic weight of taking one of the central focuses of The High Republic and showing how even she compromises and becomes part of the problem with the Order, but... Again, it's just really grim isn't it?
I guess I'm just kind of bummed out that the first Jedi focused media we get in so long is about how the Jedi suck.
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sabrinasopposite · 7 months ago
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things you need to know about me; 💌
hi pookies! i am bored so that‘s why i am telling you some facts about me !!!!!
(if you guys read it- you are genuinely so cool)
1. my nickname is nellie
2. i can speak english, polish and german
3. i have a really unhealthy obsession with superheroes and nerd stuff- i really love marvel, star wars, dc and more.
4. i have a crush on peter parker since i am 3 years old
5. i am a cancer!!!!!!! an emotional bitch!!!!
6. i am a filmbro and love to spend my time on letterboxd
7. my biggest dream is to be an film director but i am studying social pedagogy
8. a lot of people are saying that i look like sabrina carpenter (it‘s feeding my delusions.)
9. i start writing when i was 15 :) but i prefer writing poetries and tragedies (i love romeo & juliet)
10. i have a thing for the first- love trope in super hero stories- i literally forget every time that mj watson is endgame and not gwen stacy
11. speaking of gwen stacy- gwen stacy is my favorite character of all the time. (the ORIGINAL gwen stacy- not spider-gwen)
12. i own a lot of comics
13. my favorite food is pierogi (polish dish)
14. i am 20!!!!!!!
15. i love classic book
16. as u can see in my account- i love sabrina carpenter
17. i met rooney mara!!!!!!!!
18. i am very active on twitter- and then i remember how toxic it is
19. my celebrity crush is tom holland- but i have way too many. i could write a list of it.
20. i love clark kent!!! who would have thought
21. my favorite movie is la la land because i love musicals
22. i have never been in a relationship and i think its for the better
23. my favorite city is london but i really want to visit NYC one day to fullfill my spider-man dream and broadway
24. i have a lot of phobias but the most ironic one is my arachnophobia
25. people call me that i am a sunshine and that i have a gentle and friendly appearance
26. i am a collector- i collect a lot of things which makes my mom mad lol
27. i own a lightsaber of ahsoka tano 😎
28. i really love the 60s fashion and i wish i could wear them more
29. i used to study product design but my teacher sucked so bad that i stopped it immediately
30. if i would be a rom-com then its how you lose a guy in 10 days
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