#like this is just SUCH a good example of going from :D recognition of the self in the other to oh.. would *I* be okay with killing a man ?

[guardian5tiger3]

Energy check in tarot reading & channeling - what's happening ?

*collectively I feel a cycle is being complete and things around this time are being shaken up and or metaphorically were experiencing some turbulence . Definitely a lot of soul and energy upgrade stuff happening . Star card energy ! Water and dolphins may be significant. Also cookies or biscuits I can see someone has those ?

Let's get it goin -

Pick a picture

1 (Kali). 2. 3.

Group 1

My first two cards say eat/drink , and relax so that's self explanatory but to get a bit deeper I'm seeing that this group specifically should focus on the present moment and taking things one by one and going day by day . So you all may get overwhelmed even just oh I have to do this that and shower and cook and clean and feed my pet and call this person or whatever right. and you get overwhelmed so try to focus on the next thing in front of you and if you have troubles figuring out what to do first to write a list on paper or your phone to help you organize that ok . I'm also getting you all need some encouragement and stuff or recognition also maybe. I'm seeing that you may have or are going through something that just seems like a situation where you're losing but as a matter of fact this is coming out as a situation that is somehow giving you an advantage ultimately and is best for your development and somehow , for some of you, even your safety. This could even be something along the lines of being temporarily homeless or anything. You could not get something you want because if you got it sooner it would be bad say you want to get food somewhere but somehow the store is closed so you have to wait but if you did happen to make it in time to the store and get the last order it would have gave you food poisoning, just for example, you never know. You guys are definitely going to win something whatever it might be you're going to be a or the winner. As a matter of fact. Peace. Divine timing is significant at this time especially.

Group 2

A lot of you feel really confused in some way or about something or someone . I'm just getting a lot of confusion and stuff . It could also be disorganization or being overwhelmed .you guys are very blessed the universe is trying to bless you in multiple ways or one big way and someone is wishing negatively on you and or sending negative energy towards you unintentionally or intentionally it depends on who you are here. The group message at the beginning definitely heavily is for y'all here . I'm seeing some person or group of people being mad about the energy youre in from an outside perspective once again you all are very much in star card energy I suggest looking up the meaning too. If you experience (d) a heart breaking ending it's actually cause whatever is being put to an end is very bad know it or not it's bad for you ok. ESPECIALLY if it's socially. For someone there is two people showing up who are very very manipulative and very horrible energy ok.if this message for you it could be frustrating, the whole situation. Lies always get exposed in the end by the way. Make sure you do not involve emotions into situations that it's not necessary too and look at any situation you can with logic , kind of business minded and without much emotion ok. Peace peace.

Group 3

*accidentally called y'all group 4 ?

I'm keeping this group short for good reason something is being balanced out and you are somehow someway winning big this is just cause it's part of the universe balancing things out . I'm getting patience would be good to practice right now. Some not all of you though are unenthusiastic about this possibly cause there's something else you want or you might not see what's coming in as a big deal possibly cause you're already in the energy where your energy is matching that of what blessings are going to or are hitting ya. Y'all really might not even notice this to where you give it thought!!! Maybe cuz it feels natural somehow I don't know. Make sure your heart is open and you're not chasing waterfalls ya know.focusing on things far away you might not appreciate what you have to the fullest.but you do deserve whatever, whoever this is ya know. :) one love.

[k-s-morgan]

Hey, I remember you doing this for Hannibal and Will, but I don't think you've weighed in about the sexual attractions Tom and Harry feel. I like to think Tom would love Harry at any gender. What do you think? BTW, loved the last chapter,, amazing job making me root for this pairing with the entirety of myself. I love it

Thank you so much, I'm happy you liked the last update!

Basing my answer on 7 books, we don't have much canon material to speculate about Tom's sexuality, but I always felt like he is either asexual, grey-sexual, or demisexual. If it’s the last two options, then he never met the person he'd feel desire for. I think he could have used sex to manipulate people and cultivate his connections, considering how good-looking and generally desirable he was, but I also think this was never his goal or wish. He was fully concentrated on getting power, knowledge, and recognition, and the rest either paled in comparison or simply didn’t exist, not for him. 

In my stories, Harry is definitely the person who stirs up attraction in Tom, and even if he had another gender/appearance, it wouldn't matter. I think they fit beautifully together. In WHGTB, Tom's physical desire mainly stemmed from his obsessive need to be close to Harry; I'm not sure how it's going to be in ATLWETD yet, but I feel like Tom is already experiencing a physical pull, even though it's too undefined for now.

Harry is bisexual, as I see it. He certainly pays attention to boys, though I think it was just JK inserting too much of a writer in him: for example, she probably wanted to underline how beautiful Tom Riddle is, but since Harry is the only narrator, it came across as Harry noticing his attractiveness. I have no complaints here, though :D

[uglynicc]

Listen, I avoided this movie for AGES thinking it fit into the Bro Movie Torture P0rn™️ genre which really isn't my thing, but after going down a rabbit hole of video esays and analysis, I decided to watch it.

And I actually loved it. There is SO MUCH commentary about this movie but I enjoyed it enough to dive into my own analysis of it lol, even if it's one that's been done before.

The book does sound like it's a bit too gruesome for me (plus the author's comments about "women can't make movies" definitely rubs me the wrong way), but only going off the movie I am blown away how some toxic trolls out there entirely miss the point and unironically idolize Bateman.

Firstly, I interpreted this as a comedy, a real dark satirical one, and I laughed a LOT.

Second, I do think the murders are in his head. I know there's room for commentary about The Rich And Elite Being Able to Literally Get Away With Murder, but I'm fairly certain someone would, at the very least, complain about a naked man running through an apartment complex with a chainsaw after a screaming woman. All the little hints that a lot of events didn't happen also lead me to think this.

I think he's still a D Bag who abuses sex workers, but that the killing was either a fantasy to give himself a sense of power, control, and greater agency in his life, or that it is a product of untreated and worsening mental state.

Ignoring his potential neurodivergency/mental illness here purely for the fact I think it's a separate interpretation from the one I have, and focusing on the idea that he's getting lost in the dark fantasy world he's constructed, my greatest takeaway from the movie:

Bateman is a loser.

Yes, he's wealthy and attractive, but what does he actually have going for him, even in his shallow little group of elite toxic fuckwads?

For his inflated sense of importance, no one gets his name right or even remembers who he is most times. His fiance doesn't respect or even like him, and he doesn't like her either. He pays women to be part of fantasies where he is awe inspiring, a rich, muscular sex god, and even they are bored and unimpressed, they can't even act like he's worthy of their admiration. His male peers don't think he's anything great either, and how could they when they're constantly wrapped up in meaningless pissing contests. He's so insecure in his masculinity he is close to tears when someone mistakes him as being homosexual. He can't even buy his way into Dorsia, can't use his good looks or cash, the only things he has going for him, to get a dinner reservation at his White Whale restaurant.

He's failing to achieve anything even in his shallow little world, so his Wall Street job (with a business card no one thinks is particularly great), fancy apartment (which he grudgingly admits isn't even as nice or as expensive as his rival's) and chiseled good looks mean nothing. He craves status and recognition, which he fails to achieve.

And yeah, he's a misogynist, racist, classist, homophobic dishrag too, can't forget that.

He's the archetype of toxic, impotent-with-misplaced-rage, insecure yet inflated male ego we see everywhere. If people don't perceive what Bateman feels is his inherent "greatness" or "importance," he lashes out, through mistreatment of those more vulnerable, and/or through dark fantasies which give him that sense of greatness and importance.

It's almost too real, because there are so many real world examples of this kind of privileged dickwad (which makes it even more baffling when these same real world dickwads put Bateman on a weird pedestal thinking he's actually great), but I loved the way the movie examined it. I don't think it's celebrating Bateman or men like him at all, I felt more compelled to laugh at him as a figure of jest, a ridiculous caricature of entitlement and failure. Hell, even his "confession" falls flat, he can't even get that right.

Anyway, just my musings after my first viewing, 20 some years late to the party lol.

[cameronthecryptid]

I used to be a part of a dnd group in a server filled with friends where one of our friends was the DM and we were redoing a game of Curse of Strahd where I was just a redone version of the character I did before with a slightly different character plan in regards to a potential madness spiral that Strahd and his spouses were meant to play on and getting him from the inside. But things happened and me and the group are no longer friends with the DM anymore but I always wonderwhere they were going with my character’s details.

See, my character, named Mac, was a knight of a now long since fallen kingdom that Strahd destroyed all the way backwhen. But the thing was that he was pining for one of the princes of the kingdom who he was good friends with (named Varis), and also a side thing were he was kind of seen as a omen that the kingdom would win in the fight/war against Strahd but through plot fell through. Mac ends up almost dying in an attack when Varis uses magic to not only save him but seal him into a sleep state so that Mac can’t run off and get himself killed again due to his personal burdens. However, because Strahd is trying to kill the who royal family, Varis flees leaving Mac hidden somewhere apparently vowing to return someday. But hundreds of years go by and Mac is awoken through other means but due to his injury being a head injury, he has amnesia and doesn’t know who he is, where he came from, or his origins, only recalling the name Mac and some blurry vivid memories na d just wandered around till the plot called for him and the party.

Through adventures and occasional things in game, Mac starts to feel a sense of familiarity and recognition with various things but doesn’t know why or how. For example in the Death House he finds a book about his since fallen home and recognizes the names of the kingdom and the royal family and Varis specifically, but he doesn’t know why. After leaving and destroying said Death House he wanders around a nearby town to try and think about why these names seem so familiar when he comes across a mysterious stranger who talks to him a little and upon finding that Mac is trying to recall the realm’s history gives him a large book full of the entire history and then disappears. And unfortunately for us all, that’s where it got cut off due to the break up.

I will mention that the plan was that one of Strahd’s spouses Escher looks a bit like Varis and though some shape shifting actually takes on the prince’s appearance because Strahd (somehow) knows about the Mac and Varis situationship and is trying to lure Mac into either madness or into a form of manipulation via having him think that the fake Varis is the real one so that Escher can make Mac do things because of his love for the real one. But also there would be a bit more drama because Escher, who’s grown battered through Strahd’s treatment and obsession with Tatiana, sees how much Mac cares for him under the idea that he IS Varis that he at some point actually falls in love with Mac and so has this whole dilemma of being in love with the “enemy” and feeling bad for having to play and betray him while also knowing that my character the love he is receiving is not actually for him but rather who he pretends to be. Meanwhile Mac is faced with not knowing who he is but knowing that this person before him means everything to him in some way that he can not remember and a sense of shame rooted in both his present amnesiac self not remembering and his subconscious believing that he’s failed the one he loves and swore to protect with his life.

All the while there is no answer as to what happened to or where the real Varis is.

Yes, I made tragic gothic gays^2, and yes, the DM let me do it. But I’ll never know what they were cooking up in terms of making it happen

[erinelliotc]

Why is everyone talking about Eddy's haters when he doesn't have any? No one draws fanart for him where he is being killed, on all sorts of rating sites he always ranks high, but in antitopes he ranks low, everyone feels sorry for him.

Uh, well, I don't know if you saw this post. I recommend reading it so you can get clarification on your question.

I'm certainly not the best person to talk about this because I only started interacting with the fandom 5 months ago. I haven't been here very long, so I can't tell you from experience what things were like, what the fans were like. But it seems Eddy used to be hated a lot by fans while Double D was deified, and these days, fortunately more people are defending Eddy from this unfair treatment (at least here on Tumblr). Maybe you think he has no haters because this happened. Possibly things have changed and today Eddy receives more recognition and appreciation, and it's good that it changed! I suggest you talk to other people who have been in the fandom for longer, as they will be able to clarify this in more detail.

"No one draws fanart for him where he is being killed"

Uh, first of all, there are many different ways to show hatred towards someone or something, this is just a very... specific example you gave. Your way of thinking seems to follow the same logic as those people who try to minimize and belittle the oppression that some letters in the LGBTQ+ community go through, saying things like "No one gets killed for being (insert some letter here)", or "This? This is nothing. You don't know what real oppression", as if the oppression they suffer is "less significant" or that it isn't even "real" oppression just because it doesn't go that far. Anyway, let's get back to the main topic. We also can't say for sure if there hasn't been any fanart of him being killed, maybe there is, who knows? But that's not the point here.

"Everyone feels sorry for him"

From the way you talk, you give me the impression that you yourself are someone who doesn't like Eddy very much. If that's the case: The show screams right in our faces that Eddy was secretly crying for help. He was abused by his brother and developed an extremely unhealthy emotional dependency and a toxic and abusive relationship with him, thinking the bad things, the scams that he did were cool, and seeing his own abuser as his role model and the person he most admires in the world, which is why he acted like a jerk this whole time. It may be hard for you to empathize with him, and that's okay, honestly, not everyone is able to forgive what someone, real or fictional, has done, even if the person had reason to do it and is genuinely regretful for their actions. But people have every right to feel sorry for him because he is a pitiful character, and I don't say that in a pejorative way. He really has a very sad backstory and is deeply hurt, in pain, suffering all the time trying to act like a confident, strong, cool guy, using a disguise of false confidence and acting as if he doesn't care what others think, but actually having destroyed self-esteem and failing every day of his life, and not only that, but also seeing others acting like him and succeeding where he didn't and not being punished like him (you have to agree that the other kids also act like jerks, maybe not as much as he does, but often, and nothing happens to them. They always remain friends and hang out together, even though they act badly to each other), or even him doing nothing wrong and taking the blame too. Life tries to bring Eddy down in all the most absurd ways possible and laughs in his face, he sees himself as a big failure, and yet, the guy always has the energy and the guts to keep moving forward and ignore all this shit, hoping that someday things will work out for him as well as they do for others. Personally, I don't understand how not to feel sorry for him.

Anyway, as I said, you have the right not to like Eddy if that's the case, no one will try to convince you to change your opinion, but I think it's important for you to understand that the fandom didn't simply decide to invent Eddy haters who don't exist, and that Eddy isn't just a simple jerk everyone decided to feel sorry for for no reason and treat him like someone wronged when he isn't. He is, or at least was, wronged, both on the show and by the fandom, that's a fact. It's also important that you understand and respect other people's right to feel sorry for him and defend him :)

[2d-dreams]

Computers in Flatland

A confused Square man watching his Pentagon son use a computer. [descriptive id soon i still cant figure out how to word this]

I'm going to say some very brief things about modern Flatland computers, because I don't even understand how Planiturth computers work. [I'm learning programming, NOT electronics]

The computer itself is a rectangle [in this case actually an irregular pentagon to fit with the screen] with some holes for additional devices' cables like printers, microphone, speakers and anglephones, and a square shaped pocket for storage devices like chips and peridisks [their equivalent of USBs, the chips are older and square shaped, and the peridisks are polygonal]

The computer has one or two antenna and a connection to electricity. And a good thing about artificial things is that they can have plenty of holes.

The interesting part of the computer is the screen. This is connected to the computer itself through wire attached to the screen chip.

[A: Screen chip]

This is the large rectangle at the back or north of the screen monitor. It reads the information that the computer sends to it [messages from the internet, for example] and releases the keys needed to write the message on the screen. It also reads the input given by the user [for example, writing a reply] translates it into computer-language and sends it to the computer to do whatever it needs to do with it.

[B: Screen keys]

These are the needles directly below/south of the chip. They have springs underneath. They write words and rudimentary images [example in first image where on the right side of the screen there seems to be a Square's angle] for the user to see, by extending the springs in such a way that the needles poke the screen [which is not completely rigid but a somewhat malleable material] creating a certain relief or bump along with a brightness depending on how hard the key presses against the screen [harder or more vertically expanded= brighter] or extends its tip [extends it horizontally, creating bigger angles the more it expands]

This is usually used as output only, but in some cases such as in a menu, the user may press the bumps to select an option.

The first computers had less thick screens because they didn't need keys. They were exclusively designed for Circles and employed only Brightness. It appears that this new model is not only more accessible for those who do not have Sight Recognition, but also cheaper.

[C: Stylus]

Also known as cursor. This is used to write on the screen. Some people with acute angles may be able to write with their own angle, but for the wider-angled this is easier to use.

The screen is able to pick up on the indentation made on it and read it as text.

[D: Enter and Delete]

These two buttons can have different functions depending on context. In reading mode they can be used as arrows to scroll through long text that doesn't fit on the screen. In newer computers that come with a Scroller, these can take different functions such as copying text. In writing mode they can be Enter [to signal you're done writing] or Delete [to erase the last letter]

[E: Mode button]

The mode button allows the computer screen to change modes- usually between Input or 'writing' mode [where you can use your stylus to write text or give orders to the computer] and Output or 'reading' mode [where the computer displays what you need].

Usually the change is immediate and automatic, like if you just ordered the computer to open tumblr it will switch into Reading mode instantly. But it can be useful if you're in a messaging app and want to switch between reading your friend's message and writing a new reply, etc.

[F: Scroller]

The Scroller is a new addition to Flatland computers, and similar to a computer mouse in Planiturth. It is connected to the screen by a cable and consists of a circle with more than half of it enclosed in a shell with 2 buttons. The circle can't pop out of its shell. The circle is the scroller itself, rolling it will scroll through the screen's output text if it's very long. It has the Enter and Delete buttons on it.

[bluepecanpie]

It’s interesting that the Dofalmingo Family provides the best and the worst examples of the Celestial Dragons/World Nobles. And that their unique personality traits mostly comes from their interaction with the world outside of Mariejois. Doflamingo is a no-brainer, he’s obviously a wrong’un, and he was initially corrupted by the society of Mariejois, but his descent into sociopathy truly began when he was granted something that the World Nobles only had when their authority was recognised: power. Real physical, hard power, and not from the recognition granted by the World Government. I actually think that he wanted to destroy the World Government, and that part of his motivation is not just that he wouldn’t be accepted among the World Nobles: Doflamingo is a true elitist in the sense that he would only recognise power from the strong dictating the affairs of the world. He sees his former kinsmen as a weak, indolent class who are only granted their power and lesiure through the authority of the World Government. Thanks to his upbringing among gangsters, Doflamingo follows a Social Darwinist philosophy where the destiny of the ‘natural elite’ is to rule the world - which of course includes himself, but also pirates like Kaido, Shanks, Crocodile, and so on. I think that his seemingly contradictory wish to become Pirate King, actually falls perfectly in line with this philosophy.

Then there’s Roshinante, who experienced the same hardships as his older brother, but had a sensitive disposition, and was adopted by the Marine officer Sengoku. Decent to a fault, and wants to uphold the world order and values that Doflamingo rejects. But his relationship with Law was very interesting. While Doflamingo was bound to antagonise someone from the D. clan based who they are, Roshinante - a former Celestial Dragon embraced Law despite his status, and became a surrogate parent to him,. producing the unlikeliest form of love.

Donquixote Mjosgard was a typical Celestial Dragon who was met with a similar situation to Doflamingo and Roshinante, but the mercy he received from an “inferior creature” the Mermaid Princess, started the process where he would regain the humanity that the culture of the Celestial Dragons deny themselves. He lived and died on a principle to respect all life, and was condemned by his kinsmen as a traitor and executed on those very principles, denounced as “lower than scum”.

I don’t know, I just thought that the worst and best of humanity comes from the Donquixote Family in One Piece, I’m sure that they must be more to it than that. But it’s also interesting that every “good” member of the Donquixote dies, and usually with the brutal death.

(Homing’s wife didn’t but Oda has this ‘women are delicate’ thing going on that prevents him portraying anything like the gangster-style murders of Homing and Roshinante)

[mnikhowozu]

a frustrating fandom thing that’s really bothered me these last few years has definitely been this trend of “it guy” x reader fics that have infiltrated fandom.

like obviously i’m not against canon character x reader fics, i think they can be fun and engaging when written correctly— but what’s frustrating to me is how people will get into something on a surface level because they think a character/actor is attractive, but don’t bother learning about canon or actually consuming the source material, and don’t plan to. the end goal is just writing smut about some guy and a coquettish, small, delicate cisgender white girl.

so then you have this massive influx of fic with characters who are flanderized beyond recognition, completely out of character, or otherwise inserted into AUs that completely remove them of defining and important character traits (for example, maybe, “AU where eddie munson is a farmhand in the 1930s and your dad owns the farm”— which completely strips him of so much of his character. someone is not always their interests, but socially, eddie is very much defined by his love of D&D, nerdy fantasy stuff, and heavy metal, which i don’t have to tell you wasn’t much around during the great depression, and especially not available to a migrant farmer. and yes, this is based on a real example i’ve seen floating around in his tag).

in the end, it becomes such that in reading these fics, the only thing that defines one male character from another is physical description or some quirks of speech. the passion for the source material is completely lacking. this character could be any character, provided that you swap around the proper markers. he still behaves nearly the same from fic to fic, regardless of fandom, dominating and maybe cruel to everyone but the reader (who is nearly always a precious-yet-rebellious cis white girl, small, thin, delicate). there may be some plot to these fics, but the end goal is almost always exclusively sex-related.

it’s exhausting to see across fandom lines— especially with slashers, and especially with eddie munson specifically. i can understand wanting to write something smutty now and again, obviously! i love writing and reading a good spicy fix now and again. but i find myself missing the days where x reader fics were filled with edginess, because at least those were often filled with passion or creativity, something beyond this boring, beige blur of ostensibly “well written” fic full of flat characters and position and situation of the day that xyz character is going to fuck you in.

i’m tired

[cononeillbreastingboobily]

Hello pls (if you want to) elaborate on your paper comparing minimalism vs. maximalism vs. hedonism I would love to know more?? That sounds like such a cool contrast?

Um. Okay I didn't expect this honestly! Alright, I'll try to put it down as well as I can.

So, it was a paper for my philosophy class. Basically what I wanted to check in it, was which one of those three is the prescription for the hard times we happen to live in (for context I'll say that I live in Poland, and the war in Ukraine is one of the biggest factors that contribute to the "hard times").

And basically the conclusions I come to were that:

a) on one hand living a minimalist lifestyle would be very efficient if push comes to shove and you need to quickly pack the absolute essentials and leave your home, aware of the fact that the next time you see it, it could be destroyed beyond recognition, with all the things you left behind

b) on the other hand it's clear, given the experiences of 2020, that sometimes when we're going through a lot but can't see our friends and loved ones in person, can't leave our houses as much as we'd like to, we might gravitate towards surrounding ourselves with stuff. Which, it might be impractical, but I figure that if you're having a ✨ less than ideal time ✨ , and having this or that thing would brighten your day just a little bit, isn't it worth it?

c) yes, that would contribute to capitalism, which is not good. But I do think that sometimes? It is okay.

d) also, what I find important is how the boom of e-shopping and deliveries back then affected people's psyche. In a world that suddenly felt scary and hopeless, with any far-fetched plans turned to nothing, and a complete collapse of the everyday routine we all got used to, we had to completely re-evaluate our lives, what makes us happy, whether we can replace it with something else, and whether that would be enough for us. Getting a lil package in such a state of mind gave people many people something to look forward to. I can say so from my own experience. Every single day of lockdown was exactly the same. Wake up, brush my teeth, eat, sit on the sofa, read, eat, watch something, go to sleep, repeat. Getting a package was a nice little thing that broke the greying routine, and I think it's nice.

e) plus, I think that yeah, it might be super sentimental to take nonessential things with you when you're on the run for example, but I do also think that having something with you that reminds you of better times and brings you comfort is priceless.

f) if I had to choose between "having" or "being", I would easily choose both if given the choice. I truly don't think any of us were put on this Earth to do just one of those. If we're here and now, why should we limit our existence if we can... not? I was to live long AND prosper, dammit! We weren't put on this Earth to be born, fuck shit up and die. Where's the pleasure? Where's the joy? Where's the beauty?

g) sometimes things are mostly just nice to look at, and that's okay

h) if however, we're talking places, what's important is that it's functional first. Then accessible. THEN aesthetically pleasing.

i) I referenced Plato by quoting one of his works: "The divine is beauty, wisdom, goodness, and the like; and by these the wing of the soul is nourished, and grows apace; but when fed upon evil and foulness and the opposite of good, wastes and falls away." I figured that if an ancient philosopher came to the conclusion that beauty is among the things that nourish the soul, then why should we, in our times, limit our exposure to it? Only surrounding ourselves with bare essentials? It makes no damn sense to me.

j) I think it's important to learn to stop and appreciate what we have right now, and learning to rest when we need to. If you see it as an indulgence, then by god let yourself indulge. You deserve a break right now. Stop hanging onto the weekend, summer vacation, the holidays etc. Try to learn to enjoy yourself right. now. You never know when your life is going to get turned on it's head. Better try and enjoy yourself while you're at it, no?

k) that was the hedonism part of my paper btw. if you even care (jk)

l) fuck doom scrolling. Recent years showed better than anything before how important it is to be mindful in what you let into your space, what kind of stuff you let affect you. A bit of self-care in this regard is also important. It might lead to you getting rid of some stuff, unfollowing some pages or cutting contact with some people you know, but in the long run it will be good for you.

m) most of all: take it easy. Trust yourself, because at the end of the day you're alone with your decisions, as well as the decisions people made for you. Of course, it goes without saying that sometimes life simply happens, and we can't possibly control everything. So, give yourself the space to feel all of your emotions, as well as express them, remembering however that your freedom ends when somebody else's freedom begins, but nonetheless learning to express all of our emotions in a safe way that doesn't hurt others is a very important life skill.

n) of course, as you can probably tell, I can't possibly tell you whether it's minimalism, maximalism or hedonism that is best to turn to during hard times. Only you can figure it out for yourself. And you can get there by asking yourself: what makes me feel best? Surrounding myself with stuff, or keeping the amount of my belongings to a minimum? Remember that the answer to this question will change with time, as you do, since you're a part of nature, and the only constant part of nature is change itself.

Yeah that was... Yeah! That's all! It's a lot, isn't it? 😅😅😅😅😅😅 But anyways, I hope it uhh, gave you a general idea of what... It was about??? Idk. Let me know what you think!

[the-nysh]

I know this is just me, and it's a pretty harsh thing to say, but tbh I really hope that this event would haunt Saitama throughout the story post-fight. ONE has the annoying tendency to have his protagonists to be mostly peachy after harrowing, gruelling experiences (Mob was literally tortured for 6 months) esp when this is such an unprecedented thing for Saitama.

Garou would likely get mental scars after being literally fucking possessed against his will, but at least he can take comfort in the fact that the atrocities he committed in that state of mind was due to someone else. Saitama would get no such excuse. For someone who could move faster than speed of light, who is literally on a galaxy level strong, it was still his partly his fault. It may have been God's will, it may have Garou's fist that tore the core out, but it was Saitama's carelessness that got him killed. There was no excuse when he could've gotten there faster. There's no excuse that he got lost. This guy is a literal god, but his own flaws as a person allowed this to happen. Everything about this tragedy is preventable if he wasn't too complacent

Sure, it's likely that Genos and everyone else comes back. But the thing is, Genos never should have died to begin with if it weren't for him.

Ok wow I do sound like an asshat. Sorry this ask is kinda 60% sincere I just thought this is good dialogue idea for a fic but I sorta yes blame and not blame Saitama for this. Its kinda complicated

Whoa....I understand feelings certainly are complicated, messy, and unstable right now, that if post-arc Saitama shows no lasting mental change or shift towards how he more carefully approaches his heroism or how he treats Genos for example, then I too wouldn't like that. :O Cause while physically Saitama may be peerless, mentally and emotionally he's still imperfectly human. Who still has room to grow/improve as a person and to become a better, more ideal hero. To finally deserve/earn his proper title and recognition one day. But not as he currently is or carries himself, for nonchalantly approaching most disasters like an assured walk in the park - for him maybe, but not when others' lives aren't invincible, and they will suffer if he carelessly makes mistakes in either his heroic conduct or mishandling his power output for example. (That it's frustrating to think if his focus/consideration doesn't last OR if he reverts back to his old unaddressed habits post-arc...so hopefully there IS development here.)

But also whoaaa...you think Garou - the guy who internalizes feelings VERY strongly and already has issues in self-worth, will rest any easier or take 'comfort' in the fact a monstrous god directly violated and used him to eradicate humanity and hurt those he cares about - like Tareo - with his own hands?? Even if Tareo and Bang still accept/understand him afterwards, oh man Garou will probably never forgive himself for that. D: For being made to enact the things he never actually wanted and always hated - especially when he was partly conscious through it all, and has been struggling to assert his agency from within that it was 'all him.' You think he's going to believe 'god did it all' when Garou's own memories and words keep relaying him the actual horror? Whew, now this becomes a level of inescapable guilt and self-hatred he simply can't recover from. Both the original manga route and the wc had Garou become suicidal after this, so just imagine how much mentally worse he will feel - like he's too dangerous/unworthy to be around others anymore or doesn't even deserve to live. Unless he loses/disassociates his most traumatic memories, or Blast takes him to rehabilitate among his space friends as another god victim, or he perpetually lives in isolation as the most 'dangerous' fugitive on earth with a (scapegoat) target on his back slated for execution - when 'god' is still the actual Evil problem few know about. Life prospects to reintegrate into society virtually destroyed. D: No 'easy' future path or excuse for him at all, esp when he's likely alone, and perpetually trapped in the cycle of injustice he's always fought against and hated.

Meanwhile, Saitama will have none of those doomed aspects to worry about, esp if everyone he cares about revives to support him. Other than worrying about how to start over & rebuild his home at the HA's headquarters, how to live with the self-blaming horror/guilt/haunting image of what happened to Genos in his absence (including how to patch his relationship with him, if it changes at all - or if Genos is mentally 'ok' at all either), and learning how to reapproach his job (vs as a hobby) values more seriously with the increased weight & commitment to prioritize properly saving other's lives (over messing around and finding self-satisfying outlets for his boredom). He won't be able to afford living as detached or apathetic (or thinking he's not capable of more emotional engagement) as he had been coasting along before.

However, IF you want to fully explore the effects of Saitama's post-arc emotional + existential angst in a fic (when it's unknown how thoroughly canon will explore that, yes) then go for it!

[cintax3rror]

You Need to Know About Urbano

I wanna start this by saying it’s in its demo phase right now but from the demo alone I can tell this game is going to be so much fun. I also wanna say stop looking if you want 100% total surprise for the game since this post will include screenshots and gameplay. As well as characters and traits and yadda yadda. But I won’t be spoiling major points in the plot.

If you're looking for a new game to play and you like rhythm games with cool art, story and characters then this is literally it. You're gonna have to bear with me bc I sound like an advertisement but hear me out please.

Alright, I first found Urbano on TikTok, they posted about their game and updates on it. Right away the art blew me away, it’s so unique in it’s style! Here are some example's I've got:

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I adore the art, but it's not only strong in presentation. The gameplay is extremely fun here's some of me going through the gameplay and here's the controls since I skipped past some of them on accident since I played this beforehand. U - hit W - Jump S - Crouch D - Advance towards the goal (this can be an enemy or a destination) (you can also use a to backtrack/dodge if you have to)

The game explains it but that's the short of it.

I am no expert at rhythm games but even then I'm starting to get the hang of it and the gameplay is extremely fun along with the visuals. I remember when playing I got reminded of Skull Girls. The gameplay is something I've never seen before and it has it's own formula on how you press buttons. The RPG aspect along with being a rhythm game is something that really stands out about this game. I love RPGs and I love music, this game is a love letter to video game lovers who love a good RPG and music. Even if you aren't skilled at rhythm games you get the hang of it, I did and I honestly can't wait to play more.

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Now, characters. I wanna start with HOW MUCH I LOVE RETALIATOR’S DESIGN. I love all the designs but his is just SO GOOD!!

HIS MASK IS SO COOL!! I also really want to applaud the unique weapon he has. He uses a belt, you don’t usually see belts as the weapon your RPG character uses but it’s a awesome idea when put into practice. He stands out among the rest of RPG main characters and that’s something I think a lot of people, including me, appreciate. Small spoiler ahead but you learn this fact about Retaliator almost immediately: his actual identity is a guy named Vailo, you play as him and with that you take on Retaliator’s job of hunting urban legends. It’s a really distinct concept with a character as witty, tired and sarcastic as Vailo. He’s definitely my favorite character. (Full body ref of him).

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Lofi is really fun too, she works at a store called Kittie’s Kit. She’s energetic, smug and likes spilling tea. Her dynamic with Vailo is really fun since they contrast in a lot of ways. She also has a really cute design.

LOOK AT HER!!! Anyways, yeah she’s neat, I would explain more on her but it would be spoilersssssss.

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Ok last character I’m going to talk about is Honor, if I don’t cut it here, we’ll be here forever. Honor is an entity in the Karma District which is where all of this is located. From my understanding entities seem to be ‘the higher-ups’ or just beings of a higher status. Also from my understanding, entities seem to embody a trait of some sort Honor is just what she seems like, honorable. She doesn’t get socializing at first but you can sure help her out a bit if you choose to hang out with her.

Her design is super cool and very fitting to what she embodies. She talks with confidence but gets flustered when she slips up and others notice.

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All of this but on your screen!!! The demo was such a fun experience and I’m eagerly waiting for the full release. I highly recommend this game, the project deserves so much more recognition! Here is some links if you want to keep up to date with it all!

Official Discord!

Official Kickstarter!

Official TikTok!

Official YouTube!

https://twitter.com/bar0sa

Official Twitter!

And finally…

WISHLIST/DOWNLOAD THE DEMO!!!

[a-queer-seminarian]

so ya wanna know about autism: masterpost

I give this google doc link out to individuals a lot, and realized it might be useful for a lot of people if i shared it more widely. It’s a masterpost of a whole bunch of Autistic Stuff -- here’s the link to the actual doc, but i’ll also post it all here on tumblr (under a readmore after the table of contents).

(edit: if the hyperlinks aren’t working for you, here’s the google doc url that you can copy and paste into an internet browser to access everything: https://docs.google.com/document/d/16BqhRv4IlZ6KcElGAEZOx8sFYwRs4W1jF-ddY_XKYnE/edit?usp=sharing )

Please spread it around (including sharing the google doc link outside of tumblr wherever you want). Feel free to comment with more resources, tumblr posts, articles, etc. that you find helpful! And if any links are broken, let me know.

It can be a major challenge for adult autistic folks to find content for us and by us, because so much “official” content is 1) ableist and harmful and 2) geared towards parents of autistic children. So I’ve compiled just about every resource I’ve got that discusses autism by and for #actuallyautistic folks.

TABLE OF CONTENTS

- ORGANIZATIONS AND SELF ADVOCATES

- DEFINING AND DESCRIBING AUTISM

misc.

Metaphors and images for autism

Disability models

Issues with Functioning Labels, ideas of “Mild” - “Severe” autism

- AUTISM AND INTERSECTIONALITY

misc.

Autism among women

Autism and race

Autism and LGBTQ

- STUFF ON SELF DIAGNOSIS

misc.

Is it ADHD or Autism??

Tests / checklists

- STUFF ON PROFESSIONAL DIAGNOSIS

- AUTISTIC PRIDE / CULTURE AND HISTORY!

misc.

Autism / disability history and culture

The Neurodiversity Movement

Person first vs. identity first language

Cureism

- AUSTITIC TRAITS (BEYOND THE ONES COMMONLY DISCUSSED!)

Misc. - samefoods, lists, needing to know what to expect, etc.

Stimming

Communication stuff - misc. - Verbal/nonverbal - Infodumping - echolalia - Prosopagnosia - Aphasia - Eye contact

Special interests / hyperfixations

Auditory Processing Disorder

Sensory issues / Sensory Processing Disorder

Meltdowns and Shutdowns and Burnout

Executive function

Emotion stuff

- MASKING / PASSING / SCRIPTING

- WHY AUTISM SPEAKS AND ABA ARE SO BAD

- MISCELLANEOUS

Suicide

Allyship / for allistics - For parents of autistic persons

More non-speaking autistic self-advocates

misc.

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SOME ORGANIZATIONS AND SELF ADVOCATES

ASAN!!

The Autistic Woman and Nonbinary Network

Amethyst Schaber’s “Ask and Autistic” YouTube full of videos on various autistic stuff

Lydia X.Z. Brown / Autistic Hoya 

Dr. Nick Walker

Mrs. Kerima Çevik

“Non-Speaking Autistic Speaking” - Amy Sequnzia’s blog

“The thinking person’s guide to autism”

The How-To Wiki for autism is actually really helpful! 

Ollibean blog .

DEFINING AND DESCRIBING AUTISM

Video: “What is autism?”

“About autism”

“What being autistic means to me”

Myths about autism .

Metaphors and images for autism - “Autism is a sundae bar” - “Autism is purple” - “Understanding the spectrum” comic - Another visual on the idea of a spectrum - And another visual on the spectrum - not an on-off switch .

Disability models - Understanding disability models - Video: models of disability discourse .

Functioning Labels, “Mild” or “Severe” autism - Article on functioning labels - “What’s wrong with functioning labels? A masterpost” - Another article on problems with functioning labels - “I don’t experience my autism mildly; you experience my autism mildly” - A non-speaking autistic who is labeled non-functioning discusses labels - “Most people would consider me low-functioning, but I hate that word” - Tweets from actual autistics on functioning labels - How the same person may be labeled low or high functioning at different times - “Mental Age Theory hurts people with disabilities” .

AUTISM AND INTERSECTIONALITY

Article on autism in communities of color + in the LGBTQ community

Autism, intersectionality, and STEM college outcomes

Articles on intersectionality on The Art of Autism .

Autism among women - A reminder about talking about differences in autism in “females” - “I thought I was lazy: the invisible struggle for autistic women” - “The women who don’t know they’re autistic” - “The gas-lighting of women and girls on the autism spectrum” .

Autism and race - “Being Autistic, Black, and Femme” - “Black and Autistic: Is there room at the advocacy table?” - “Autistic, Gifted, and Black” - “I, too, am Racialized” - Autistic Hoya on being Chinese & a transracial adoptee - Video: “Growing up BLACK in a neurotypical legal system” - The Autism Wars: Mrs. Kerima Çevik’s blog .

Autism and LGBTQ - “Autism and gender variance - is there a cause for the correlation?” - “The intersection of autism and gender” - Issues being transmasc and autistic - “Gendervague: At the intersection of Autistic and trans experiences” - “I’m an autistic lesbian and no, I don’t wish I were ‘normal’” .

STUFF ON SELF DIAGNOSIS:

A self-diagnosis masterpost!

Autistic self-dx is valid

“Reasons why self-dx is good from the pov of a professional” 

Some reasons why autism may go undiagnosed 

“Five reasons I am self identified as autistic”

“Beware of gatekeeping”

A masterpost of “resources for women who believe they might be autistic”

A therapist who’s never met an incorrect self-dx-er .

Is it ADHD or Autism?? - Links to information on the intersections between autism and ADHD - A list of things that are more ADHD, things that are more autism, and things that are both - Science: decoding the overlap between ADHD and autism - The concept of neurodivergent “cousins” .

Various tests / checklists: - ASD Checklist - List of inclusive autistic traits - Book: I Think I Might Be Autistic: A Guide to Autism Spectrum Disorder Diagnosis and Self-Discovery for Adults .

STUFF ON PROFESSIONAL DIAGNOSIS:

Privilege in being able to get a diagnosis

Pros and cons of getting one

Someone answers the question “Was it worth it for you to get diagnosed as an adult?”

Professional diagnosis can get some people deported :/

This person’s journey from self-dx to pro-dx .

AUTISTIC PRIDE / CULTURE AND HISTORY!

The wiki how-to on accepting your autism

The wiki how-to on autistic strengths 

“7 Cool Aspects of Autistic Culture”

“I’m autistic and proud of it”

“You are not a burden” 

“What is self advocacy?” .

Autism / disability history and culture - Video: “Is autism a disability?” - A google drive “disability library” full of amazing content - A tumblr tag full of posts with autistic history - Book - Loud Hands: Autistic People, Speaking includes essays that explore the history of autism and of autistic self-advocacy - Book - Neurotribes: The Legacy of Autism and the Future of Neurodiversity .

The Neurodiversity movement - The neurodiversity paradigm - Video: basic terms and definitions - Video: what is neurodiversity? - Liberating ourselves from the pathology paradigm .

Person first vs. identity first language (“person with autism” vs. “autistic person”) - ASAN on identity first language - Why it matters - Video: Autism ACTUALLY Speaking - Science: a study on what labels actual autistic persons prefer - An image showing the difference between person first and identity first language .

Cureism & seeking causes of autism - Video: “Autism and the disability community: the politics of neurodiversity, causation, and cure” - Video: Self advocacy in a culture of cure - An analogy against cureism - It’s okay that some autistics do want a cure - Quotes on Truth Is by Julia Bascom about not needing a cure - Cureism is eugenics - “If a cure is found, no one will force you to take it” .

AUTISTIC TRAITS (BEYOND THE ONES COMMONLY DISCUSSED!)

“Thinking about patterns of opposite extremes among autistic people” (e.g. how we tend to be sensory avoidant or sensory seeking, extremely gender conforming or extremely gender nonconforming, hyper-empathetic or hypo-empathetic)

An essay on inclusive autistic traits

This tumblr is dedicated to answering people asking about whether various things are autistic traits!

This person lists the reasons they think (know) they’re autistic; the list includes a lot of traits that often aren’t talked about 

“Some autism things” .

“What are samefoods?” - “Why do autistic people tend to samefood?”

It’s okay if you don’t like certain things / avoid certain things because of your autism

Wanting/needing to know how long something will last, what to expect .

Stimming! - Video: what is stimming? - Video on self-injurious stims - Video: autobiographical look at stimming and its role - More than a coping mechanism - A masterpost of examples of various types of stimming - Video on vocal / verbal stimming - Examples of vocal stimming as communication - A tumblr blog with a tag full of examples of body stims .

Communication stuff - Trouble with volume modulation; repetition; inconsistent talking habits - Autistic idiolects - Autistic dialect? - Autistics communicate differently amongst each other! . - Verbal/nonverbal - - Selective mutism - - Semiverbal communication - - Different amounts of access to speech - - A person on being non-verbal and using AAC - - People who are nonverbal still deserve to be listened to .

Infodumping - What is infodumping?

Echolalia - “Autism and Echolalia: what you need to know” - What is echolalia? - A tumblr blog’s tag featuring examples of echolalia

Aphasia and autism

Prosopagnosia (Face blindness) - Science: a study confirming that some 67% of autistic persons have some degree of facial recognition difficulties - Science: a study offering theories for why this is!

Video: Autistics and eye contact - Science: Researchers explore why autistic people avoid eye contact

Tendency to overexplain .

Special interests / hyperfixations - Some info on hyperfixations - Video on special interests - Emphasizing the intensity of these things - “What’s so special about a special interest?” - “Why we love what we love and why it should matter to you” - Not every autistic person knows everything there is to know about their special interest - “Interest hopping” - Dividing our life into “eras” of special interests .

Auditory Processing Disorder - Examples of APD - “You might struggle with auditory processing if…” .

Sensory Processing Disorder - Video: What is sensory processing disorder? - Video: a virtual experience of what it’s like to be at a party as someone with SPD - A post about some of the weird sensory stuff that many autistics experience (such as feeling nauseated when your real issue is a headache) - Many sensory issues aren’t just annoying, but physically painful - Difficulty in explaining autistic hypersensitivities - Auditory sensory musings - Trying to describe sensory overload - Not noticing when we’re hungry - Weird tolerance for big pain, intolerance for small pain - Science: “Unseen Agony: Dismantling Autism’s house of pain” - Tumblr blog with a tag of other posts about sensory issues .

Meltdowns and Shutdowns and burnout: - Meltdowns vs. shutdowns - Video: “What are autistic meltdowns?” - Video: “What are autistic shutdowns?” - A description of meltdowns - Signs of a shutdown in autistic people - How to support someone having a shutdown - Science: “Autistic shutdown alters brain function” - How to avoid meltdowns - “Dealing with meltdowns” - “The protective gift of meltdowns” - Video on autistic burnout - Article on burnout - Science: Autistic burnout described by a researcher - An article on autistic regression (burnout) - “Help! I seem to be getting more autistic” - talks about how things like burnout, aging, new environment, being around other autistics, and more can cause this .

Executive function - Video: “What is executive functioning?” - A chart describing the different aspects of executive function - “Executive functioning problems - a frustrating aspect of being autistic” - Autistic inertia .

Emotion stuff (including empathy) - Our emotional regulation is different - Article: (some) people with autism can read emotions, feel empathy - Video on misconceptions around autism and empathy - “Double standards: The irony of empathy and autism” - Science on the “double empathy problem” involving relationships between autistics and non-autistics - Not a bad person for not having empathy - More musings on autism and empathy - “Autistic grief is not like neurotypical grief” .

Alexithymia: - Science: Overlap between autism and alexithymia - Video: what is alexithymia? - “I don’t know how I feel”

MASKING / PASSING 

Video on passing

An infographic on autistic masking

Another video on masking / “hiding” in a neurotypical world

We are not obligated to mask or “act less autistic”

When you mask less and get told “you’ve been acting more autistic”

Getting called high-functioning because you mask/pass well

Scripting: - Video: what is scripting? 

WHY AUTISM SPEAKS AND ABA ARE SO BAD

A guide to identifying good autism organizations (and how they can improve!)

Autism Speaks:

Some facts and statistics 

An AS masterpost

Another AS masterpost

Video: What’s wrong with AS?

Video: a non-speaking autistic’s response to discussions between Autism Speaks and GRASP

“Enough with the puzzle pieces”

“I resign my roles at Autism Speaks”

“Responding to Autism Speaks” .

ABA:

Video: what’s ABA? 

“Studies find thin evidence for early autism therapies” 

Masterpost of why ABA is harmful

More on how ABA is abusive even if a kid “seems to like it”

An autistic describes ABA’s “quiet hands” method

And another post on how ABA is harmful

Trauma and autism

Alternatives to ABA

MISCELLANEOUS 

Suicide - Video: Speaking to suicidal autistics - Science linking autism and increased suicidality - Video: “diagnosis saved my life” .

Allyship / for allistics - Video: How to be an ally - Resources for supporting autistics during Autism Acceptance month and year-round! - Autistic accessibility needs - “How to be a friend to autistic people” - 15 things you never say to an autistic person - What to say / not to say to an autistic adult - Video: what shouldn’t I say to autistic people? - Video: Things not to say to an autistic person - Video: “Isn’t everyone a bit autistic?” - Don’t talk about “mental age” - “To those who tell autistic persons ‘everyone experiences that’” - Why it’s not helpful to say “well I don’t think of you as disabled / as autistic” - How to support a loved one who’s gone temporarily nonverbal - How to support someone having a shutdown - Help reduce meltdowns in a loved one - Don’t restrain an autistic person having a meltdown - Understanding why autistics seem “so picky” - Making communication easier for your autistic friend - Avoiding ableism against AAC users - How to protect your autistic employees from ‘no script found’ situations” .

For parents of autistic persons - “Don’t Mourn for Us” - “You don’t ‘lose a child to autism’” - Advice from autistic adults on treating your autistic children with respect - A masterpost of advice for “autism parents” - It’s okay if your kid doesn’t hug you or say “I love you” - “They keep publishing these violent articles” - “When you’re autistic, abuse is considered love” - You don’t have to tell everyone who comes across you and your kid in public that your kid is autistic / you don’t have to constantly apologize for your kid! - Your kid isn’t bad / uncooperative just because they have certain differences - Don’t tell autistic adults we are “nothing like your child” - A tag full of more tumblr posts about / for “autism parents”

More non-speaking autistic self-advocates - Video: “In My Language” by Mel Baggs - Mel Baggs: “Don’t ever assume autism researchers know what they’re doing” - Lysik’an: “You don’t speak for low-functioning autistics” - Film: Deej

Autistics and the idea of “getting out of your comfort zone”

Autistics accommodate allistics far more than the other way around 

It is icky when autistic persons are only valued when we’re “productive” 

Parents who are themselves autistic

Autism as genetic? - Science: “Autism Genetics, Explained”

Science: links to some studies on autism and gastro-intestinal issues, autism and caffeine, autism and sleep, autism and stimming, autism and queerness, autistic strengths, and more

[blueprint-han]

[Image ID: A black picture with the title “HOW TO SUPPORT FANFICTION AUTHORS” written in bold caps lock, colored with a winter forest picture. End ID.]

Well, this post has been made countless times, but I’m making one too because I’ve seen a lot of people say they’re new to tumblr and don’t know the whole “reblogging is better than liking” rule and other stuff. So without any further ado, here are ways YOU can support the fanfiction authors. Now keep in mind this applies to almost every author out there, not just the stayblr fandom, so if you’re a silent reader (or even if you aren’t), I advise you go through this post. Warning, this is a fairly long post going into detail, so yeah. I still expect you, the readers to read this, and if you’re a writer, feel free to lmk if i’ve written smth wrong or if you want me to add something! ^^

In this post I’ll go into thorough analysis of the pros and cons of each of the methods listed here and how YOU as a reader can show the authors whose fics you read more love and motivate them to produce content.

WARNING; LONG POST! GOES INTO A DECENT AMOUNT OF DETAIL. NOT EDITED, EXCUSE ANY TYPOS.

#1 : LIKING !

I think this is basic common knowledge, and a lot of people tend to do this. When you like the post, the author sees it, you see it, and if the author has their liked posts accessible (which majority of the time they don’t), and if someone deliberately goes to check it, then they see it. See why so many authors say just liking does nothing? Only liking says “Hey, I’m gonna tell you your story is not that good by simply liking it and not sharing it with other people. :D”

♯ PROS:

You’re telling the author that you've read their fic, and either you’ve enjoyed it to a certain extent, or you’re just saving it to read for later.

Likes are seen by you, the author and anyone who has access to your likes (which, most people don’t).

♯ CONS:

If you ONLY like, you’re not really helping the author’s work reach a wide audience because this site isn’t Instagram. Reblogging is the only way people can SEE our works. I’ll cover more on that in the next section.

In a nutshell, liking is good! But you should most likely use it in a combination with the other stuff I’ve listed below, because just the like itself doesn’t really do much in giving the author any feedback or interaction on their fics.

To clear shit up; I’m not talking about those people who don’t read the story or appreciate it in the first place. I’m talking about those who appreciate the fic, like it, but don’t leave any sort of feedback to show that.

#2 : REBLOGGING !

This is SO, SO important. I cannot stress on this enough. Let me explain WHY so many writers stress on reblogging content: 

Tumblr’s tag system is inherently fucked up, and has grown more so over the year. I’m not kidding, at first, the fic either used to show up in the tags or it didn’t, but now, sometimes your fic can be REMOVED from the tags because of,,, idk tumblr tag shit. Anyways, as you can see, it’s very demotivating for authors at that point, because the major way for people to find their content and expand their blogs has been blocked.  

Due to this reason, tumblr authors need to RELY on you, their followers to help spread their works to a wider audience. Now again, before you get me wrong, I’m not saying you ae forced to rb our works regardless of whether you like them or not. BUT, that being said, if you DO infact like the story, there’s no harm in reblogging, right? By doing this you’re indirectly telling the author — “hey! :D I liked your fic! Which is why I am gonna share it to my followers so they can read it too :D” Trust me, you’re doing nothing but helping the people who produce content for you to read. Seems like a worthy cause to hit the reblog button, right? It’s only a one, or maximum two step procedure.

Leave tags in your reblogs! Trust me, as an author myself and as much as I know from all my author friends, we oft check the tags of your reblogs to see if you found any part amazing or even if you have anything to say about the writing we put so much hard work into. Even a key smash or a “This was so [insert adjective] 🥺” is enough to leave a smile on your authors face. 

♯ PROS :

You’re !! Sharing !! Your authors !! Works !! This leads to them getting more recognition, so for the content they’re so graciously providing for free, you’re promoting their blog and helping them expand it.

If the tags are being a shit, which majority of the time they are, then you’re literally making an author’s day by reblogging! You’re showing them that you, a follower and appreciator of their works are willingly sharing their content because it deserves to be seen by more people. Again before any dumb people decide to attack me, i am talking about people who like the fic but don't bother reblogging and are silent/ghost readers. I am not forcing anyone to read anybody’s work.

YOU’RE MAKING YOUR AUTHOR SO HAPPY WHAT MORE REASONS COULD YOU POSSIBLY WANT !! 🥺

♯ CONS :

Literally none, because as far as I remember no author is against reblogging of their works. It’s quite literally the way this platform functions. Reblogging is IMPORTANT.

#3 : COMMENTING/SENDING FEEDBACK !

This kind of overlaps with the previous section, but THIS IS SUCH AN IMPORTANT STEP !! When you leave feedback, you are directly giving the author something so much more valuable to them than high follower/note counts or money. Your feedback is literally our serotonin. I kid you not the number of times I’ve received a positive comment and smiled and it has made my day. There’s a reason youtubers (though not the best example, bear with me here because it was the only one I could think of) ask people to subscribe, like and COMMENT. The subscription is like a follow, the like is ofc like a heart, and the comment is equivalent to an rb with comments in the tags. 

You might argue and tell me that a comment is basically like an ask so the reblogging step isn’t necessary, but I’m sure 99% of you use YouTube and you know that more comments leads to people’s videos boosted in the stream/trending charts. This is what reblogging does. Reblogging shares the piece with other people like minded, which leads to a boost in reads. You are literally helping your author grow.

It’s quite literally the same thing as youtubers. Youtubers NEED validation to keep their content creation going, so do writers, so do other ccs on this site. This post is however, focused on WRITERS, so keep that in mind.

♯ PROS :

By doing this, you’re giving author valuable feedback! It’s similar to what you do in rbing with tags. Interactivity with their fics boosts their note counts and helps expand their audience, so srsly, now think of it: your one comment is playing such a massive role to help ccs create more content.

Imagine how much of a difference the note counts will be in when every person who simply likes after reading the fic, reblogs, leaves a comment and sends an ask. the note counts would be high on each and every fic, which is validation in itself, but your comments would inspire the writer so much more! Please, don’t skip the commenting part. Even a simple one like: “this is so cute!” is wonderful. 

♯ CONS :

Remember, if you’re gonna give constructive criticism (which I’m sure you all are smart enough to know if different from hate), make sure the author is okay with it. Authors need to be in a specific mindset and must be ready to accept criticism, so if you’re gonna give constructive criticism to them when they’re at a low point, it may demotivate them.

Just commenting, instead of reblogging and commenting in the tags/ reblogging and then leaving an ask in their inbox, while it gives validation in plenty, will not lead to the author’s work being spread. Therefore I suggest either reblogging and commenting in the tags or reblog and then leave an ask, or comment under the fic!

!! reminder; I am not saying that if you don’t rb and just leave feedback, your feedback has no value. We authors truly appreciate every bit of feedback, but this post is aimed to help you learn how to interact with and support authors, and make them feel more motivated, because the current scenario of liking and scrolling is taking a toll on their creative abilities. Take it from a person who’s been writing for a year.

#4 : COMMSIONING VIA THEIR KO-FI/OTHER APPS !

Before any of you attack me, let me tell you that this is not a step that is 100% necessary to do. ONLY donate if you can and if you genuinely want to, and if anyone is forcing you to pay for something against your will, you need to get yourself out of there.

Regardless, if an author has a kofi and you’re able to and you want to donate, you definitely should! It’s also a valid form of support.

#5 : ADDING THEM ON REC LISTS/ RECOMMENDING THEM TO REC BLOGS

This is such an underrated option, to be honest. I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve seen my fic was recommended onto some rec list and it’s made me smile so hard. If you like some fics, create a rec list! They’re oft very popular amongst the fans too. Making rec posts is such a great way to share your favorite stories with others. 

Rec blogs! I’ve seen a couple going around, and needless to say they are a great way to get someone else to read your favorite author’s work whilst also giving them your own feedback. These blogs oft accept recs via a form or ask box, and they leave your feedback along with their own, or else they’ll oft tag the author in the feedback post, so look! You’re basically helping your author share their fic to many more people, because you’ve given them feedback and a reblog.

♯ PROS :

Validation! Feedback! Reblogs! More exposure! Helping a blog grow! Spreading love! basically a run down of the stuff I’ve said before!

♯ CONS :

Literally no con of this. Unless, a one in a million case, this author says they don’t like receiving feedback/being tagged, and I’m sure NO person has said this before, at least none that I’ve heard of.

#6 : FINAL COMMENTS; MISC !

When an author points out about how the interactivity is drastically reducing, don’t just give them blind apologies. Yes, you feel sorry for not interacting as much, we understand, but rather show that you’ll become a better content consumer through your actions. We need to see that we’re not just throwing words into a void and that people are actually trying to be better content consumers. 

Understand the fact that authors don’t get paid for this, and 99% of the time, these authors don’t take commissions either. They’re giving you novel worthy writings for free. Take Percy Jackson: You think the author would have felt motivated to write the subsequent parts, let alone two whole series based off of it if literally no one showed that they were interested? Rick Riordan has sales, he is being paid, there are millions of people and big agencies who provide him feedback. Now take that huge amount and simmer it down to an audience of maybe 10000 people This is what fanfic authors want. They don’t want your money, nor are they telling you to risk your lives for them. All they want is, a reblog, some tags, some feedback, some INTERACTIVITY.  A sign that they aren’t throwing fics into the void and that people actually like them, some motivation to continue. Seems fairly easy to throw an rb with some tags, right?

Don’t bother to tell me that we do this for ourselves and we shouldn’t ask for likes and reblogs and feedback, because 1) you are consuming the content that we “write for ourselves” and 2) writers post their content here for interactivity and feedback. We could just not post and write and save our fics in our dungeon drafts for years. But we choose to post to entertain the readers, the consumers. And we aren’t even asking that much in return.

Don’t give me the whole “I’m scared that authors feel that comments are annoying” excuse either because seriously this has been DEBUNKED SO MANY TIMES. Istg, in the nicest way possible, if you still think writers are annoyed by interaction and feedback, after so many posts, long rants have been posted as to how we’re not, then you must truly be living under a rock. There, I said it. Please stop thinking this way, I’ll say it again, AUTHORS ARE NOT ANNOYED OF FEEDBACK, COMMENTS, TAGS, REBLOGS. WE LOVE IT. Saying this is like saying that the audience in a theatre play shouldn’t clap when the play ends because the actors would find it noisy. 🤡

I’ve seen some people saying they have anxiety issues and such, so pls note that I’m not invalidating your condition. If you’re trying to be more interactive, I really appreciate it! If you can’t, that’s fine too. You’re trying.

But for the people who have no reason other than feeling lazy to rb and comment, your lack of interactiveness is not excused. Please. Tumblr is a reblogging site. If you’re gonna consume content like authors are some sort of machines, I encourage you to go get some more perspective.

This site is not Instagram or the satan bird app. Your likes are appreciated but frankly speaking, they do nothing to the author except tell them “Hey i read ur fic but i'm not gonna support u :D” and honestly, that is detrimental to their creative capabilities and mental health. 

DON’T FOLLOW AN ACC JUST TO MINDLESS RB THEIR SIGNAL BOOST POSTS AND THEIR REBLOGS OF GIFS AND NOT INTERACT WITH THEIR WRITING AT ALL ! Trust me, authors prefer a lower amount of interactive followers than a high count that doesn’t even give them any feedback. Again your follows are appreciated, but when you’re following, you know the type of content the author creates, so the author expects that the more followers, the more interactivity. These days, this is just becoming the opposite. So don’t do it! If you’re gonna follow to read, interact with their works. I promise, this will make both you and the author happy. A win-win situation.

In conclusion: SUPPORT YOUR FUCKING AUTHORS! THEY ARE NOT MACHINES THAT HAVE NO FEELINGS TO PRODUCE CONTENT FOR YOU! FICS TAKE DAYS AND DAYS OF PLANNING, PLOTTING, OUTLINING, WRITING, EDITING, MAKING TEASERS. SO JUST SHOW THEM YOU APPRECIATE THEM WITH AN RB. IT’S THE L E A S T YOU CAN DO.

I will be liking this post here written by the lovely @chaninfused​ and @scriptura-delirus​ . Please take time to read it because if you weren’t convinced by my arguments, you will see how much frustration we as writers face on a daily basis. Please, just show support. Here is the post by @stayndays​ about how to get more people to read your work, because it also has a note on reblogging. Please educate yourself, and put an end to this mindless consuming culutre and bring up some interactivity.

If you’ve read this far, I want you to go to two of your favorite authors and leave some feedback in their inbox, and tag me in it (either tag me yourself or ask the author to do so, they won’t mind). Show your writers that our words are taking effect and you are becoming better consumers. I mean it. I’m serious. I want every single one who reads this post to do this. besides valid reasons, if you’re lazy to do this, you’re a part of the problem. PLEASE get more perspective.

Also, feel free to add to this post! I’d love to read your thoughts too, remember to be kind though. And, if I think your rb is somehow contradicting my points and is bringing down the reason I made this post, I will politely ask you to delete your comment, because this post is about being truthful about the harsh reality of tumblr consumers and how we can change it. I’m sure none of you will let it get to that point, though. <3 love you guys. 💓

And, just a reminder, don’t just blindly like this too. Do what I said before, and while I am not forcing you, I’d appreciate your reblog, because seriously, it took me 3 whole days to write this, plus, I’m sure this will help more of your followers understand the fault in consumer culture. haha, that’s it! This post was way too long uff.

also, this is ur cue to not be stupid in my inbox. You have something to say? Think I worded smth wrongly? I’m sure it wasn’t my intention to do so, point it out with manners. 

[nevadawasnottaken]

love languages

the love language of dream smp members :) (platonic for minors! romantic for others) im doing them all bc they all deserve recognition! :D keep in mind i dont know all of their personalities well! (hbomb, antfrost, ponk, lazarbeam, etc) these are all c!dsmp (in game) those marked with * are ones im uncertain about/unfamiliar with! -- dream: gift giving or acts of service with a twinge of physical touch. mans will get anything for you, no lie. you want it? hes got it. dream xd: acts of service or gift giving. possibly touch, but i dont see him being keen on it unless its in private. i see him as someone who tries to spoil his s/o a lot. if youre a worthy lover of a god, you should be treated like one. george: probably acts of service, quality time and touch. man would probably cuddle with you while watching some movie that neither of you pay attention to. sapnap: touch or words of affirmation. he does like giving gifts on occasion though! probably something thatll remind you of him. but overall, he prefers hand holding or something. he likes knowing youre there. callahan*: quality time. i imagine he likes going places all over the smp. it makes him happy to take you places that he finds beautiful. even better when you find them beautiful too! sam: acts of service for sure. he would make you tea (or your preferred drink) on a bad day and wrap you in blankets and cuddle as much as youd like. or, he would leave you alone if you need it. hes very caring, warden persona aside. sam nook: gift giving seems his thing! or acts of service! he seems as if he would get you things to cheer you up, or just simply do things like tuck you in. if you want, he gladly will let you pet his lil ears. (yes i hc that sam nook has lil ears :) ) alyssa*: even if we dont see her much, she strikes me as the type to enjoy physical touch. hand holding or something simple. she prefers to stay out of the thick of things and chill, thanks. ponk*: touch or words of affirmation i think are very fitting. he seems the type to always have an arm around you or holding your hand. he definitely would be good at comforting, i think. badboyhalo: i think we can all agree that hes a mix of everything. i think hes most oriented with words of affirmation and quality time. he likes spending time with you, just telling you all the things he loves about you. tommy: more than likely quality time. i dont see him as one to like holding hands (”me? hold hands? grOSS! step away and leave some space for the holy spirit!”) or anything. hes not good with words of affirmation (he needs them, really) and hes a bit awkward with things like hand holding. so spending time with him is his thing. listening to his discs and joking around with you and tubbo is what makes him happy. tubbo: gift giving, touch and quality time. he likes spending time with those he cares for, as well as giving them gifts. little trinkets, mostly. for example, he gave ghostbur a bracelet woven from friends wool, and hes given tommy a ruby! :) fundy: probably gifts. fox man will find you shiny things. emeralds, diamonds, gold, you name it. even if you dont need/want it, he gets you things. rings and necklaces and bracelets. it makes him happy to see you wear them. not all at once, of course, but wear them nonetheless. punz*: acts of service and touch. hes the type to arrange your things to suprise you or leave you flowers on a bad day. he also would probably cuddle and ramble about how perfect you are to him. purpled*: quality time. i think he would gladly spend time with you if you asked him to :) wilbur: a little bit of everything, i think. but one thing i think he would definitely do is write songs, so basically making playlists, but he sings for you instead! but for one of the main ones, i think he mostly is one for touch and affirmations. he likes being comforted/comforting you. ghostbur: gift giving or touch. quality time, too! i think he likes giving you things (like blue!) in general. he also seems very clingy (which is adorable <3 anyone who says its not can fight me rn) and would gladly hold your hand! he often will just take it anyways. :) (”i like holding your hand! your hands are nice to hold because theyre warm!”) schlatt: quality time. like tommy, i think he isnt one for touch. maybe he will give you gifts, but spending time with him is enough of a gift for him. skeppy*: gift giving. he would probably get you big gifts, like stuffed animals or something. or photos. seems like a skeppy type thing to me. :) eret: a little of everything, i think. but i see his thing being touch and quality time. i think they would very gladly cuddle if you asked them to! but shes big spoon, no doubt about it. only little spoon if you ask. jack manifold*: acts of service or touch. he would make you food if you wanted it, i think, or hold your hand. maybe not the best with comfort or cooking, but he tries. (”look i- i know the cookies arent good, but its the thought that counds, right?”) niki: words of affirmation, quality time and touch would all be nikis thing! :) she would spend time with you, probably cuddling and providing comfort if needed. she would remind you every day that youre loved and youre worth it. quackity: definitely touch and quality time. when hes not busy, he takes you places. often to watch the sunset. he also strikes me as one for pda! a bit shy at first, but relaxes into it. hes definitely one to say “gotta show off my partner! >:)” mexican dream*: words of affirmation but in spanish dont @ me karl: do we need to even question this? (spoiler alert: quality time and touch) hbomb*: strikes me as the type for quality time and some touch :) techno: probably acts of service, gift giving and quality time. he likes holidays like christmas and your birthday because he can give you things. he likes shiny things! and he likes you, so he gives them to you! antfrost*: quality time and touch seem fitting. just the peace of being together. philza: quality time and gift giving with a bit of touch. he likes when you touch his wings, running your fingertips over the smooth feathers, or fixing any ruffled spots. he also likes spending quiet time together. he can give words of affirmation and comfort if you need them. connor*: probably touch! i see him as the type to want to hold your hand a lot. so def one for pda :) puffy: probably quality time and words of affirmation. goat mom would def be able to encourage and comfort you. vikkstar*: i think touch is fitting :) pda really, and acts of service lazarbeam*: acts of service seem most fitting! he seems the type to do things for you, especially on bad days. ranboo: gift giving and quality time! he is definitely the type to get you little things! or grass blocks. he gets sad if you rid of a grass block, so you kinda have to store em. or kindly explain that you dont want dirt inside, so you can put the grass blocks outside. foolish: the type for acts of service, i think! and maybe some touch. i think he gladly will do things for you, no questions asked. (unless it seems harmful ofc!) hannah*: seems the type to like words of affirmation (giving and receiving!) especially on your/her bad days. slimecicle: gift giving. he probably picks you flowers and does nice things whilst being sarcastic. he will comfort you on bad days, though. -- as usual, lmk if i should change tags! requests are open! 

[midnight-in-town]

I was re-reading berserk and I noticed a lot of small details I overlooked before, I don’t think Guts get enough recognition for how caring he is deep down, like when Casca was sick & fainted he took the time to make her medicine even after she lashed out & punched him in the face or after the ToC arc when he’s traveling w/ jus Casca & puck he washes her clothes after she soils them with no complaints I was hoping to see this side of him more in the future but then he got possessed & strangled her sooo… but not just towards Casca he’s caring towards his friends emotionally like when he comforted Shireke on the beach. People tend to glorify Guts when he’s being ruthless and cold but he doesn’t get enough praise for being kind or soft hearted….

Hello Anon! Ah, you must have had a different fandom experience than I did then, because I find that readers actually tend to agree that Guts is totally the dad in the group [x][x], even more since he got some friends to help him reach Skellig Island. :)) 

For example:

or

In fact, aside from his Black Swordsman days when he was losing himself in mad fury, he always was quite considerate of others.... or so I say, but he also saved Theresia and Jill during those days, although Puck’s presence was part of the reason he managed to remain a shadow of his former self, as Rickert pointed out afterwards. 

Anyway, even back when he was a kid, he held his adoptive mom’s hand as she was dying from the plague, despite being a three year old kid, which shows bravery and the thought to be there for others when they need him.

So yeah, I think it’s a trait that he always had. He’s definitely got a big caring heart beneath that armor, which in my opinion weighs a lot in the symbolic imagery of the white vs dark knights that he’s got going on with Griffith.

I mean, usually the white knight is the symbol of Good™ against the dark beast representing Evil™, but in Berserk that imagery is reversed, with Guts being the caring one, despite wearing the armor and despite the beast of darkness which represents all the hatred that dwells within Guts ever since his Blackswordsman’s days. 

TL;DR my dude is a big softie, pass it on. :D

Have a nice day Anon!

[shoichee]

okok hc or fic: reader was teiko’s “head” manager(?) and her talent was being a medic (if someone gets injured they’re back on the court in under a minute type thing) and training plans. suddenly momoi’s talent blooms, she starts working w/ everyone in the team (+ reader’s crush akashi) and people think she’s a better manager than reader. because of this, she overworks + collapses in front of her best friends kuroko + kise (don’t let akashi know yet i have plans for that 👀)

HELLO? YES OFFICER? I JUST FOUND A BANGER REQUEST RIGHT HERE? YOUR BRAIN IS SO BIG AND SEXY IVE BEEN DYING TO WRITE THIS🏃🏻‍♀️💨 part 2 here and part 3 here AND update: part 4 here

Akashi x Reader

[Teiko!manager Headcanons]

you had a knack of being a natural chiropractor in loosening up tense muscles instantly (for more fluid play) or easily putting in back dislocated joints

basically you have crackhands

in your free time as a hobby and a job as the “head manager” (that Akashi announced to the team himself), you’d often bury yourself in anatomy studies and gym plans on the internet and databases to review over Akashi’s team training routines to see if they were effective and safe; oftentimes, you’d return back with improved plans, and as time went on, Akashi entrusted you with creating the plans yourself completely

you took on the job so eagerly to impress the Teiko captain, if you were being honest to yourself

your enthusiasm even inspires Momoi, Teiko’s other manager, to work harder

no one in Teiko knows physiology better than you, and as expected, it was also your best subject along with health

Kise often looks at you in horror and respect at how you don’t cringe/flinch at the loud cracks resonating across the room or court when players come to you for instant relief (the origin story of how he came to call you (y/n)-cchi was the very fact that you manage to put back his dislocated shoulder in 3 seconds flat one game)

when Kuroko first joined the 1st-string, he was a walking magnet for injuries, and you ended up being there for him every single time… nosebleeds? check. sprained ankle? check. nausea from over exhaustion? check.

both you and Kuroko relish in the fact that everyone in the team can never understand how the both of you do some incredible things with your hands

both of you being quite dexterous, you both often teach each other your specialties for fun; it’s almost shocking to see Kuroko effortlessly loosening up a stress knot and you pulling off a well-done palm pass

you admit, you do juggle a lot of responsibilities… from being a makeshift nurse, to a chiropractor, to a budget gym coach, and even to being moral support

Momoi often reminds you to take breaks being the caring person that she is

you often showed her the ropes and tricks of being a manager, on top of your duties, and you find it really endearing that she’s so earnest in learning from you

even if you enjoyed doing what you do, part of the massive workload is to try to get into Akashi’s good graces

talking to him about basketball duties is easier to achieve than talking to him outside of the extracurricular

you might be a tad bit insecure about it; after all, what middle schooler is already so accomplished in academics, sports, and everything you could think of? wasn’t he also studying to take over his father’s company??

to you, who only starred as Teiko’s humble manager, it felt hard trying to establish common ground for conversation outside of basketball

so you stuck to working hard at your position, hoping that your work ethic would get his attention one day; you were a firm believer of actions over words, so you hoped your actions would come off as genuine

picture you and Momoi running across campus with stacks of papers for the team… it makes most of the teammates’ hearts melt at the sight

your work certainly got you praises from other teammates, but out of all players, Kise was the one who figured out your motive

you felt absolutely morbid; to think that Kise, of all people, would figure you out like the back of his hand

Kise being sweet as he is, offers to help you get with the captain but you merely prompted to threaten to break his arm if he spilled your crush to anyone else

“(y/n)-cchi… I’ve been thinking.”

“Yes, Kise?”

“It’s really cool that you’re working so tirelessly for the team, but I can’t help but wonder if there’s a reason why you work so hard.”

“O-Of course I do! I want to see you guys all succeed!”

“Then I’m curious as to why you always look at Akashicchi—o-ow, ow, ow!! (y/n)-cchi, I’m sorry! So can you please let go of my—ow!”

“H-How did you know?!”

“I-It was as obvious as day, (y/n)-cchi! I’m pretty sure even Kurokocchi found out about this before I did!”

“N-No way!!”

“Tell you what, I’m super duper knowledgeable in this stuff! You can count on me for this sort of advice—OW!”

spoiler alert: Kise was right in that Kuroko definitely noticed your attraction to Akashi before anyone else… he just never brought it up to you

one day, Kuroko comes up to you to whisper:

“(y/n)-san, have you realized that Akashi-kun has been observing you recently during practice?”

“W-Wait! Is he looking over here right now?”

“Not that I think. He’s occupied with the coach right now.”

“D-Do you think this is a good sign?”

Kuroko gives you a small smile before he replies, “I would like to think so. Keep working hard, (y/n)-san.”

and you do, you’re constantly on top of your game for the next season until Momoi suddenly gets more recognition for her “precognitive defense” skills

her newfound talent was extraordinary and never-before-seen, and her ability became more critical to Teiko’s victories than your own skills

you were happy and proud for her, because after all, her achievements were extremely deserving to be praised

it’s only when some 1st-string players started making offhand comments about how you weren’t really needed in the 1st-string and was more suited to the lower strings that placed seeds of doubt into you

these people would often compare you to Momoi in how she improved much more despite you being in the team for longer

there’s also talk about how your skills are more useful for 2nd-string and 3rd-string players because Momoi’s ability is already sufficient enough for Teiko’s starters

after all, how would a player even be injured if they can predict their opponents’ moves to avoid such incidents?

there’s also the fact that Akashi has been calling Momoi more frequently to research on upcoming teams for analytical data because her talent has become very useful to ensuring victory

the same peers and adults who gave you praise were the same people who began to ignore you or dismiss you; that being said, the collective change in attitude is definitely subtle enough that it would fly under most people’s radars

Kuroko was the first to notice and defend you against a small group of players who were bold enough to badmouth you in the gym

Kise would find out a little later about the somewhat unpleasant gossip about you and would pull the “no you” reverse card, returning back with MEANER underhanded comments that would send these shit talkers CRYING HOME (manga Kise strikes here unexpectedly eh?)

Murasakibara is someone who would be slightly uncomfortable with the gossip about you, especially since you’ve always been so helpful and kind to the team and himself; he’d either leave the room himself or easily scare them away with his looming height and presence without saying a single word when he enters the room “minding his own business”

Midorima is a bystander judging from how he’s reacted to the Teiko dynamic changes in the actual show // he, of course, wouldn’t like the nasty talk about you but would actually mind his own business, choosing to focus on himself and what he has to do to contribute to his team; he assumes that you would work hard the same way he is and let your contributions do the talking

now Akashi surprisingly wouldn’t hear much of the gossip, since his presence alone SHUTS them up and commit to their practices like normal; after all, it’s very clear that Akashi doesn’t tolerate this type of behavior in the team (example: Haizaki), and it’s more apparent that he wouldn’t hesitate to drop kick them out especially since he has a soft spot for you (which Kise never fails to bring this up to you, but you think he’s reaching too much into it) // TLDR; the teammates mostly have the common sense to not utter anything bad about you… maybe one kid would slip out and get punished for “bad sportsmanship,” but Akashi merely assumes that it’s just one bad apple and not necessarily… the many others as well

Aomine???? bro he ain’t even at practice wdym (HELPPP LMAOO) // jokes aside, if he catches wind of players shit-talking outside of the gym… say at the convenience store or when he’s walking home or something, well… they wouldn’t have a good time…

Momoi simply chastises the gossipers when they try to talk shit on you to make Momoi herself look good, and it leaves? such? a? horrible? taste? like, she wants to believe that they’re just really poor jokes and not what they really believe in, and the teammates merely reassure her that they’re just bad jokes and that they “wouldn’t do it again;” poor Momoi wholeheartedly believes them

the weird talks about Momoi being “the better manager” just signalled to you that you haven’t contributed enough to the team yet, and it motivated you to work even harder

oddly, you weren’t jealous of the fact that Momoi was receiving more positive attention than you

you were more afraid of the fact that you were going to get left behind, and this fear only tightened its hold on you when more teammates (who used to talk to you a lot) have changed their tunes when they speak with you now, compared to them talking to Momoi

and you felt that the Generation of Miracles would do the same too… including Akashi

it wasn’t an irrational fear for you because he’s already been calling Momoi a lot more frequently for help than you recently

so you even offered to mop the gym floors after practice, offered to stay later than usual to be the one to lock up the gym for anyone (cough, Kuroko) who wanted to practice whenever they wanted

at one point, you even tried to do what Momoi does: researching on upcoming teams and making your own predictions (that didn’t really work, and that cost you a few nights’ worth of sleep every single time)

not to mention that you still had regular school like any other student? you were the epitome of a mess

Kuroko was with you in the empty gym, you putting away the extra basketballs in the storage closet while he practiced his dribbling, until he heard a crash in there and a few basketballs rolled out the door

you collapsed right when you rolled in the basketball cart

POOR KUROKO HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO // he just tries to give you a piggyback ride as he abandons his plans of practice and tries to jog to the nearest local clinic

that’s where he bumped into Kise, who was heading home after an evening shoot when he saw the two of you

chaos ensue as Kise freaks out and Kuroko had to calm him down himself after answering the never-ending questions

at least the doctor there gave relieving news that you only collapsed from over-exhaustion and that the bruises from the fall were very faint

Kise makes a joke to Kuroko about, “What’s with you and (y/n)-cchi falling to the floor and fainting? You guys can’t be that alike.”

when you shortly regain consciousness, you were met with a… very stern Kuroko and Kise, who were both ready to hear your explanation and to scold you to oblivion

to your surprise, they were understanding; Kuroko understands the feeling of not being enough and working hard to meet other people’s expectations, and Kise understands the struggle of juggling multiple things in his schedule (come on, student, athlete, and model?)

they still scolded your ears off:

“(y/n)-san, you idiot. Why didn’t you ask anyone to help out?”

“That’s…”

“(y/n)-cchi, do you think we’re undependable?!”

“Er, no, that’s…”

you were still dizzy from the fall and the lack of proper sleep (and maybe nutrition if we’re being honest), and you were just a ball of stress

you kind of begged your best friends not to tell a SOUL to anyone about this incident, especially to Akashi… you didn’t want to look even more incapable in his eyes than you already were

they do agree on one condition: for you to take AT LEAST a day or two off school to completely recover and rest up (you reluctantly agree; besides how were you going to explain the bruises that can’t be covered to your peers?)

HELP WHY ARE KISE AND KUROKO THE BEST LIARS TOGETHER ON CAMPUS LITERALLY NO ONE SUSPECTS A THING… except Akashi, the ever sharp captain, felt something was amiss

especially since some Teiko players emanated a feeling of relief at the news of you not being here that day, or the next

Akashi would play detective sleuth and find out what’s really going on sooner or later

End Note: gonna cut this off here b/c I KNOW this anon got a juicy part two i FEEL IT