#live of my actual goddamn life

[howlinchickhowl]

I haven't been on tumblr for days, and that includes today, so I don't know if y'all know but today is the day upon which we celebrate the birth and life of my most beloved, most precious, highest rated creature ON THIS EARTH...@metalheadmickey

Let me tell you about this sublime being.

They are cool as hell. They are totally wicked smart. And also really fuckin dumb. They make me laugh every single day. They write incredible works of fiction for us, some filthy, some just pure loving domesticity. They never fail to make me feel special and I hope that they know that they are so freaking special and wonderful and truly a prince among men.

Jess. My beloved. It's been an absolutely wild and unpredictable three years of being obsessed with you. Look at us! Who'd've thought, huh? Happy birthday i love you 💜💛💙

[coquelicoq]

i support Yoo Joonghyuk Wrongs because i'd be so pissed if i was severely suicidal and some asshole convinced me to Give Life A Chance and gave me hope and then fucked off for three years letting me think he was dead??? leaving me to watch all of our friends do stupidly risky shit like the stuff i used to do before he made me Care about my and their lives?? NOT warning me and NOT telling me what he was doing like okay fuck that guy actually!!!!

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i hope i die soon

[seventh-district]

OCD will literally remove your brain's ability to register when a task is Complete and then create 10,000 incredibly ridiculous and extremely specific rules for you to follow in every single aspect of your life (to keep you safe, of course, it tells you.) and then tells you that if you don’t do them Correctly and Completely every single time it tells you to (it tells you countless times per day) then the Entire Fucking World Will End and then it’ll do this fucked up thing where it makes you believe that nonsense.

and then people that don’t have it will make silly little jokes about being soooooo OCD and make t-shirts with fun little acronyms on them like Obsessive Coffee Disorder and tell you how much they like it when things are organized and clean, too!!

and then you’re supposed to just. laugh. like you haven’t been robbed of your entire being and potential and been taken over by a mind and life altering disability

[notbecauseofvictories]

I never want to read about people having healthy, loving relationships in fiction. Not for any particularly noble or logical reason, I just hate it.

[kavehater]

I support girls but NAH THIS IS REACHING “if you look carefully LIKE REALLY CAREFULLY 🤓☝️”

[softavasilva]

im gonna take my leave now🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️

[tearlessrain]

seriously can catastrophes stop happening for five minutes my brain is already fried from the ones we're already experiencing

[homosexualslug]

breaking bad season 5 out of context

[chromotps]

sorry definitely not thinking, again, about portgas d. "for his whole life simply wanted to be loved" ace, dying in an embrace

[kyuala]

SOOOOOO hard to go through everyday life trying to ignore the never-ending feeling that im just irreparably fucked up and therefore should just give up on everything

[possiblytracker]

feeling normal (birthday in like 3 days that im not ready for) feeling normal (too artblocked and preoccupied to even think about finishing artfight and wrestling with guilt about it) feeling normal (-£600 in bank account) feeling normal (realised breaking my foot last year led to Lasting Consequences but cant see a physio abt my fucked up legs til january) feeling normal (has to learn to drive stick and the instructor is scary) feeling normal (stlil has no idea how to un-fuck social life after the great mental breakdown of april 2023) feeling normal (gross sobbing)

[astralazuli]

So there's that D&D class quiz going around, & I took it & was so deeply offended I got Paladin.

& so I have had conversations with both Bestie & Birdfriend about this grave insult & they both were like, "Well... They have a point?" & informed me that my desire to absorb hits meant for others & deep drive to help whenever I actually can & strong convictions make me a bit Paladin-coded.

& I am just so... Idk. It's just interesting to get glimpses of yourself from other people's POVs. To be told that my defining characteristics are protecting & healing others & being incredibly fighty about the things I care about... Especially as someone whose brain specifically fixates on whether I care enough, do enough, give enough... Yeah. It's just kinda wild.

Anyway, I'm now adjusting my self-perception to include the fact that if I were a D&D character, I would be an Oath of the Ancients Paladin & not a wizard & that actually that's okay.

[thepinkseashell]

<3

[love-songs-for-emma]

am i going to single-handedly create a fandom about jay holt from the video game "as dusk falls"? i just fuckin might

[faerie-goddess]

god theyre gonna start requiring doctors notes for call-outs at my job. i have had chronic migraine since age 9. when i call out it is usually because i have a migraine on the pain scale of 8 out of 10 or 9 out of 10 or 10 out of 10, and all three leave me completely immobilised, like i should not be operating heavy machinery (driving) im usually puking my guts out from the pain, and i literally visibly look like im having a stroke and have numbing in my left limbs. i do NOT go to the doctor bc i have lived through all these years where they dont do shit for you, they literally tell you to take NSAIDS and go to bed, and if i DO make it to any doctor or urgent care, theyre def not giving me a doctors note bc when i HAVE asked for one bc i had a migraine along with strep throat, or the flu, or a stomach bug, they think i am LYING and suddenly making it all up. so that leaves me with: i cant wait to collect unemployment in 6 months time after all my write ups for not having a doctors note.