#long tall short fat covid

[hag-o-hags]

[amporella]

BODY TYPE HEADCANONS:

Stan - Stocky! Is always a little heavy for his height (6′0); as a teen/young adult because of muscle, as an adult PC aged because of fat. Is especially broad around the chest and shoulders regardless of age. Develops muscle easily and hits the gym to cope... ends up very buff for a lot of his adult life. 

Kyle - The opposite; fairly short (5′6) and fairly light. Has trouble developing significant muscle mass due to diabetes complications, but is reasonably strong anyway. Body is triangle shaped; slender around the shoulders, retains the Fat Ass the girls liked about him. Is generally very grabbable and liftable. Has freckles ALL over.

Kenny - WIRY. Around average height (5′10) and always skinny - has very little fat on him. Has a little bit of muscle from working odd jobs, and it’s tightly packed; the way he looks while muscled is a lot different to the way Stan looks.  Tans very easily in the summer and has freckles too!

Cartman - Stays fat for pretty much his entire life; I cannot decide on a height for him for the life of me. Not very strong, but very hard to tip over; he’s built kind of like a brick wall in that way? Unathletic but good at sports with tackling because he can stop pretty much anyone.

Craig - VERY TALL (6′4). Nearly has to duck under doorframes. Body shape is pretty much the opposite of Kyle’s; broadest part of his body are his shoulders, with a thin waist. Is generally pretty light for his height. Has big hands and long legs; most of his height is made up with his legs, and he looks pretty disproportionate until he grows into it. Has a little muscle, but dodges athletics whenever he can.

Clyde - Remains the second fattest kid throughout his life, and is also athletic! Hefty; not super fast, but can LIFT. Is a little shorter than average height (5′8) and really just thinks he’s the hottest thing ever.

Tolkien - Tall (6′1) and is very athletic throughout his whole life; was able to kick ass in Post-Covid, and never loses that ability. Is very proportional muscle-wise; you can tell he’s got them, but he’s not super visibly buff. Has a specific workout regiment, and carries his weight very evenly throughout his whole body. 

Tweek - Shortish (5′7), very lean, and very tough; takes boxing classes throughout high school and is strong because of it. Could lift Craig. Has muscle from boxing, but it’s not super obvious; he’s still skinny and definitely looks it for most of his life.

Jimmy - I ALSO DON’T HAVE A HEIGHT FOR HIM. But regardless of his height, he has a very strong upper body and compensates very well for not being able to exercise his lower body. If you’ve ever been to a fair and seen one of those hang from x challenges for however long, he wins every time and gets banned from playing.

Wendy - Short (5′3) and petite. A little dainty looking from a distance, but gains extreme strength when angry; could and WOULD still throw down with Cartman. Doesn’t work out super often, but does it enough to keep up strength. Is a little picky and health food oriented, and always looks lean.

Bebe - Tall (5′9), very curvy, very athletic. Destroys Kenny in arm wrestling every single time. Is a gym rat, but not pretentious about it, and she hits the gym for her own personal gain, not because she feels the need to lose any weight.

Nichole - Average-ish height (5′5) and insanely clear skin. PD card Nymph Nichole destroys me and I always imagine her as a little fairy-esque; long fingers, long neck, very elegant looking. 

[thegirlwhowrites642]

Harry has a height complex? I’m so confused about this. Okay, so I read the books long time ago and then I watched the movies. I was convinced he was a short but then my friends said it was wrong and people only thought that because of Daniel Radcliffe’s height. I decided to reread the series during Covid and my interpretation was that he’s tall. Not as tall as Ron but average height 5’11 - 6’2. He’s at James height during DH but do wizards stop growing at 17? Or do they stop growing between 18-20? I know he was underfed at the Dursley’s but once he started Hogwarts he spent 10 months eating properly and spent a maximum of one month with them when he was there for the summer. I have 4 brothers (I know poor me) and they were shorter than my female cousins who were the same age as then until they hit the age of 13-14 and then they grew over 6’0. My uncle adopted my cousin when he was 15 and he was fairly short but then grew really tall. My question is: how tall is Harry James Potter?

Can I just say that I adore you? There's just something about how you wrote this that is absolutely adorable.

Don't fear, you are right, Harry is tall. And, from context clues, we can deduce he is somewhere between 180cm - 184cm (I refuse to use the imperial system).

Harry is short in the first four books.

He has a growth spurt in the summer before fifth year and then another in the summer before the sixth. Honestly, I think 15% of OotP!Harry's grumpiness can be attributed to growth pains.

By the end of the books, he is as tall as James who is described as tall.

I said that he has a height complex because, besides the fact that he pays a ridiculous amount of attention to how taller than him people are, he also says stuff like this:

As he said it, a vivid picture formed in Harry’s mind of Ginny in a white dress, marrying a tall, faceless, and unpleasant stranger. -Chapter 7, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, JK Rowling

There's annoyance in Harry at the idea that this man would be tall, like it's something that would make him better than Harry. And it's kind of hilarious obviously because Harry is tall too.

Considering that Harry spent the first fourteen years of his life being short, it's pretty normal. It's a bit like those people who were fat as children and then got skinny and keep having the fear of getting fat for the rest of their life.

If you want you could even use as proof of this the fact that Harry's preferred type of girl is significantly shorter than him, but I wouldn't because Harry is generally attracted to typically feminine aesthetic traits (like the long silky hair).

[teddybear-heart]

About Me

I thought it might be a good idea to make a self-introduction post for a little more context into who I am and how this eating disorder affects me.

Online, I go by TeddyBearHeart, or just “Teddy” for short. This is obviously not my real name, as I still wish to remain anonymous. However, I will share how I got this name: the love of my life was sharing a dream about how he had dreamt that we were in a scary situation and I had said “my little teddy bear heart can’t handle all this” and it was so on-par with how I talk that we adopted its use into our waking life.

I am 24 years old, as of writing this in January 2023, and I live in southeast Wisconsin. I work a 12 hour night shift job as a EMS dispatcher.

I grew up in Kansas with a big adoptive family that became a broken home. Shortly after graduating high school, I was kicked out by my adoptive mother and struggled with homelessness for months. My first jobs were in fast food before I landed a job in healthcare, and I had stayed in the spare room of a kind stranger (not recommended!) before meeting the love of my life and moving in with him.

Just before the COVID-19 pandemic struck, we we able to move up here to Wisconsin. I struggled to find work, but happened to meet an EMS manager through one of the odd jobs I had taken at a bakery who liked me so much she gave me a recommendation to get me hired.

I was diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder on January 10, 2023 after being referred to a dietician to be put on a GERD diet for gastrointestinal issues. During the routine questioning about my eating habits, my dietician discovered a disturbing pattern that had been lying undetected since my childhood. Honestly, I can’t even say I was surprised when she told me, because I had known something had been wrong for a long time.

In addition to the eating disorder, I was at the highest weight I had ever been in my life. At only 5’3.5” tall, I was an entire 290.6 lbs with an estimated body fat percentage of 50% or higher. I did not feel healthy, I was not comfortable in my body, and the added weight exacerbated my pre-existing asthma.

Due to the “fat acceptance” movement and overwhelming diet culture, it was impossible to get anyone to take me seriously when I said I wanted to lose weight because I wasn’t feeling right. I feel like I had begged my PCP for resources and assistance in losing weight, but I had been told I “looked fine”.

Now that my eating disorder has been diagnosed and is being addressed, I feel much more confident that something is going to change.

[jakemcduck]

Ashely’s Comeuppance

“Shit, shit, shit.”

“Well, hello, Ashley,” said Paige, one of her clique’s hottest beauty queens and one of Ashley’s pre-covid friends.  She entered the elevator with the rest of their clique—it used to be their clique.  Now it was a clique without her since lockdown.

“Um, hi.”  Ashley replied, heart pounding, not daring to make eye contact.

“Haven’t seen you in a while.  Not since quarantine.”

Ashely swallowed hard.  “Um,” she chuckled, her nerves make it an awkward sound, “yeah. It’s been a . . . while.”

“Yeah, it has.  You look a little different from what I remember.  Change your hair?”

Ashley gulped, not only mortified but suddenly feeling short and stout like a teacup sitting squat among the tall, beautiful champagne flutes.  

Paige looked her over like she was judging a prize pig, smirking in sick satisfaction.  

“Um, yeah my hair is different . . . long now.” Ashley lacked the strength to meet Paige’s eyes.  In her weakness, her gaze went lower, lower, until they were on her shoelaces.

“Quite a bit different.  Wouldn’t you say, girls?”  They agreed.  Ashley’s shoulders sank.  “What else is different though?  Is it just your hair?”

“Oh,” Ashley chuckled, swallowed, “I . . . well,” her nerves caught her breath in her throat.  She gulped, fought the urge to use her hands to fan her hot face, “you know, um,” she tittered, “the quarantine, um, the you know, lock . . . lockdown and all . . . some um . . . some people . . . got . . . uh—bought new clothes!”

“Yeah, sure.  You got new clothes?”

“Yes.”

“That’s wonderful.”

Ashley shrank under the scrutiny of Paige’s stare.

“Why do you think some people needed new wardrobes?”

“Um . . . because . . .”  Ashley knew where this led but couldn’t stop her stupid mouth. “Uh . . . because some people . . . got . . .”

“Fat?”

Ashely sighed in defeat

“Yeah, some people got fat.  Didn’t they, Ashley?”

Ashley’s breath got stuck in her throat.  She couldn’t force herself to breathe, her eyes were wide in shock and she could do nothing to change that.

“Didn’t they, Ashley?  Why they just let those covid pounds add up and up and up. Didn’t they?”

Ashley nodded sadly.

“You know now that I look at you, it’s not just your hair, or your new clothing that’s different.  Is it, Ashley?”

Ashley closed her eyes, clasped her fingers tightly together hovering over her bellybutton as though somehow that action might hide months of carelessness, months of working in her sweats, months of sitting on her ass and not moving more than going to the refrigerator or to answer the door for food delivery.

“You know, Ashley, you look a little plump.”

Ashley winced, she fumbled her cold clammy fingers, twisting them until they turned white.  “I . . . I . . . I . . .”

“Let me guess.  You thought a little indulging was harmless?  That it would never affect anything?  But it did.  Didn’t it?”

The elevator swirled, the lights seemed to dim.

“You told yourself it wasn’t a problem, that you’d get back on track easily.  Didn’t you?”

Ashley clamped her eyelids together, biting her lip.

“It wasn’t as easy as you thought it would be, was it?  But you convinced yourself you had plenty of time to diet away all the evidence of your indulgences, right?  Time sure flies when you’re having fun.”

Ashley tried to laugh it off.  What came out of her gullet started as laugh but ended in something like a choke as her dread made her swallow it back down.  She cleared her throat, looked at the floor.

“Then you couldn’t stop it.  The weeks flew by as you realized you lost control.  You knew time was running out.  You got scared.  You tried desperately to lose weight in a hurry but it all failed quickly when you realized you didn’t have the discipline anymore.  You knew you were too far gone.  Then the call came.”

For someone who couldn’t breathe a moment ago, Ashley sure felt out of breath.  

Paige got so close she felt lost in her looming shadow.  She whispered in her ear, “Do you remember when I gained the freshman 15 in college?”

Ashley nodded.

“It wasn’t even 15.  It was only six.  But you wouldn’t let me live down, would you?  I lost it all before the end of the semester, but you wouldn’t let it go. Did you?”

Ashley shook her head, felt the heat radiate from her face.

Paige stood straight, her shadow disappeared, and before then hadn’t realized how much taller and more beautiful Paige was than her.

“This is a nice blouse by the way.”  Paige reached out to touch the fabric.  Ashley felt her strong fingers graze across her chub, she gasped, but Paige didn’t take her hand away.  Her fingers, though it was slight, sunk into the softness of her love handle.  She whimpered.  “Oh, I’m sorry.  That’s you. Well, I thought it was your blouse that was flaring out but I guess it’s your tummy under there bulging, isn’t it?”

Ashely trembled.

“My goodness.”  Paige was seemingly trying to adjust Ashley’s blouse but she was really feeling her side rolls.  “What has happened here?”

Ashley’s mouth was dry, her breath was shallow and uncooperative.  “You . . . you know, um . . . what happened?  Um, well, the g-gyms—”

“Oh, right.  The gyms were closed.”  Paige nodded.

“Right!”

“They were.”  Paige agreed.  “Yet . . . all of us managed to stay in perfect shape.  And you didn’t.  Did you, Ashley?”

Did she have to keep saying her name?  It only made her feel smaller, dumber, and fatter. But Ashley shook her head.  That was the truth.  She made no effort at all.

Paige sucked her teeth.  “Weird that you’d get so chunky and out of shape when you were so judgmental about everybody else before.  Weren’t you, Ashley?”

“I was very judgmental.”

“You used to say how fat people were always so full of excuses, right?  But now you’re the one who’s gotten fat, aren’t you?”

Ashley’s breath caught in her throat until she swallowed a few times.  “I did. Yes.”

“And now you’re the one full of excuses, aren’t you, Ashley?”

Ashley nodded.

Paige leaned close to her and smooshed her in a sorority hug.

Paige was so strong and compared to Ashley’s bloated soft jello body.  She predictably whimpered at the contrast, the strong grip on her fat, the way her chub molded around her, gave way to her former friend’s strength next to her pliable weakness.

Paige stayed close long enough for one last whisper. “You have powdered sugar on your cheeks.”

The elevator stopped on the clique’s floor. Paige broke the embrace.  She finally met her eyes to see her tall fit friend look her over and smiling.  She waved as she turned to leave.

“Bye, Ashley.  So nice to see you again.”

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[kurishiri]

heyoo! would it be okay to ask for a ikevamp, ikerev and twisted wonderland matchup please? i think romantic would be good :)

im a Capricorn sun and rising and a Virgo moon. i use they/them pronouns and im aroace, which might sound weird considering im asking for a romantic matchup but i do enjoy being in a partnership with someone i like, regardless of gender.

im fairly tall, typically slavic in appearance: blonde hair (very short), deep set green eyes, strong cheekbones, bushy eyebrows... basically. i also wear very big rimmed glasses. because im an athlete (competitive swimming and pole dancing) i also have very large shoulders and back and my body fat mainly goes to my tummy aka im completely flat chested oop. i also have very strong arms and core. my favourite features on me are my hands (vv smooth), my lips (small and plump) and my little tooth gap :3 dont forget the cheeks im packing 🍑

ive been described as a bit strange. could be because im neurodivergent 🥴🥴 it takes a long time for me to make friends, which sucks because im actually extroverted (ENTP) and need connections to feel happy. but, for those who are friends with me, they think of me as someone very bright and excitable, but intimidating in the right situations. ive been told multiple times that picking a fight with me seems like a very bad idea

im studying english literature at the moment and its something im very interested in. im quite creative so i enjoy doodling and painting with different mediums, but i can also play a couple of instruments, mainly the ukulele. i have a new hobby every week but rarely finish a project, which means im basically a jack of all trades but master of none. ive consistently been super into fashion for years now and im always complimented on my style. i mainly thrift so i have way more clothing than id logically need (counted my shoes the other day, and i have about 25 pairs and rising), but since i really like and cherish my items i sort of view them as my art materials. also, im a very very good cook and my friends and family beg me to make them food all the time lol. i love both cats and dogs and frankly all other animals, but if i could adopt a pet right now it would either be a cat or a ferret. another thing im known for is being very competitive and smart and i always win every board game i play, and dont think i dont brag about it.

things i like: collecting things (leaves, beads, flowers, dolls, buttons...), hanging out with my family, sleepovers, ghibli movies and anime, marzipan, the smell of fire, my best friend

things i dont like: bitter foods, most meats, people who gossip, deep dark waters (big scary), organising

turn ons: sense of humour, good listener, book smarts, independance, honesty, good communication

turn offs: bad hygiene, hates cats (rip theo ✌), disrespectful, bigotry and insensitivity, makes fun of my interests

extra info: im very severely mentally ill 🙃 im medicated so i function alright, but i have the occasional relapse and need reassurance. i have to be close to someone before i can consider a relationship beyond platonic with them

think thats it!! thank you so much! drink plenty and eat well and take care! lots of love 😙

— hi, zazax42! i'm sorry for this taking a while. school has been busy for me and i ended up testing positive for covid... anyway, i hope you can forgive a bit of shorter scenarios for the characters because of three fandoms. but i hope you enjoy the matchups, which is below the cut.

matchups request info !!

⇢ vincent is naturally a kind soul, so it's not very hard to feel a connection with him at all. he is definitely someone you can rely on when you're struggling. vincent is an introvert who prefers to have like a few very close friends whilst maintaining some friendly relations with everyone.

⇢ he likes your bright personality and finds it charming. he is the type to be the first to compliment the little things that highlight said traits - he most enjoys your smiles, which he would describe as something akin to the sun.

⇢ when it comes to romantic development, it is slow burn, as you need time to get to know him... and vice versa. you two can have a meal and simply talk to each other, where you could talk about things such as ghibli movies. in fact, i think this can spark you spending more time with him as you make a promise to talk about it more, draw it out, etc. even when getting together, it may feel a bit like testing the waters for a while before going deeper into a relationship.

⇢ i think a date with vincent would entail using both of your creative talents, especially for art. you two could go out to the forest, collect some leaves or butterflies, maybe some wild berries and whatnot. you could then go back, arrange what you two have collected, and collaborate on a painting together. (theo's a bit doubtful at first, but you two manage to knock it out of the ballpark!)

⇢ no matter what happens, vincent will always have your back. if there is anyone who hurts you, he will be the first to protect you, undoubtedly. he's very patient and makes an effort to be understanding of your struggles, even if he doesn't have the same problems. his humor may not be as strong as some of the other members of the residence, but he is probably one of the best listeners around. if you ever need to vent, he will lend you both his ears.

⇢ at first, ray comes off as a bit distant. he's not cold, by any means, but he is a leader and has a whole group he has to manage (along with sirius). at first, it can be a bit hard to approach him, but after a while, you find something to bond over. what is it? cats.

⇢ indeed, you decided to follow ray one day while he was out on a walk, including when he made a curious turn into the alleyway. when you followed him in the alley, you found a whole group of cats, and ray, smiling very openly, was playing with them. occasionally, he would pick one up and hold it to him. sometimes, the cats would lick him, causing him to laugh. you approach ray, and eventually you two play with the cats together.

⇢ ray really admires your resourcefulness, or your ability to see things "outside of the box" (like seeing things as art materials). he himself is not that great at drawing, but he likes your creativity and is curious to see what you do. another thing he respects is your competitive nature. he would definitely make time for you to play some games.

⇢ despite him being more so on the chill side, he can also sometimes be that person who asks in amusement about your projects and whether you've finished them. he harbors interest toward any new project you start, but at the same time he's not one to simply forget about previous projects.

⇢ he - and the whole army, for that matter - are pretty chill, so it also gives you plenty of space to sort of do whatever you want and fits your mood. ray is not very rigid; on the contrary, he's pretty relaxed around you. when work is starting to get overwhelming, even with sirius helping out, he sees spending time with someone as excitable and bright as yourself as a nice escape, even for a little while.

⇢ jamil is a pretty chill, non-judgmental and patient person overall. sure, he may get a little easily annoyed (like about kalim), but he knows how to be independent and dedicate value time to you.

⇢ his specific hobbies are a bit different from your own; for example, he really enjoys dancing, but i think you also respect his art equally as he respect yours. you guys are both creative people. you two could fuel each others' creativity, in all honesty. he's impressed you can play multiple instruments too!

⇢ you two would probably meet when he's dancing on his own time. you sort of run into him by chance while walking by and, curious, you see him dancing. you were struggling with a bit of a block that was starting to frustrate you, but seeing him sparked at least a little something in you. it probably didn't completely get rid of the block, but it definitely left a notable impression on you.

⇢ i think he's a relatively more so a cat person and that cats naturally like him. if you guys find any stray cats, you two could play together with it.

⇢ naturally holds a more competitive spirit, so i think you guys have some spark there. honestly, some onlookers may end up misunderstanding the situation a bit and think you two don't like each other - which is not really the case. it's more like you two feel comfortable with each other and want to be competitive with each other with neither of you backing down from a challenge.

i hope you enjoyed!

[hypnofur1]

Out For Delivery in Dallas

By Hypnofur

Mid February 2021

The irony was, none of the three beings in this tale had lived in Dallas for more than a month. Brittany and Timothy Cosgrove had just purchased their expensive condo on the North side of Dallas in January. Carlos Torres had been living in El Paso Texas for a very long time, and had just recently come to the Dallas area.

None of them, actually no one in all of Texas, expected the winter blast they got in mid February. The entire state was a disaster. Texans just didn’t know how to handle winter weather. Brittany and Timothy had just moved here from Indianapolis, so to them, this wasn’t even that bad a winter storm. However, agreeing to the purchase of matching his and her’s Corvettes was part of the Brittany’s compromise to get her husband to agree to move to Dallas. Brittany had just gotten a job with one of the DFW area’s top hospitals as their chief nutritionist. More importantly, she had struck a deal with the ABC affiliate to be their on air Nutrition expert. Brittany’s ultimate goal was to parlay her beauty, and nutrition expertise, into a gig on the national scene. Good Morning America or something.

Timothy knew this, and he loved Brittany very much. He would have moved to Dallas without the Corvette deal, as he knew it was a much bigger media market than Indy. However, he was an attorney, and it was in his DNA to negotiate. Thus, the two corvettes. He of course didn’t know it was going to snow here in Texas, thus, he didn’t really care much that his luxury condo was on one of the few hills in Dallas. Corvettes did not go up hill in the snow very well.

It was about 6:00 when Brittany forced Timothy to watch the #freebrittany documentary with her on FX. She was always fascinated with Brittany Spears, due to them having the same name and being about the same age. Timothy agreed to watch it, as he had been hogging the TV with sports for a few days now. By the time the show was over, it was like 7:30, and both were starving.

Each of the young urban professionals scanned their phones for some place that would deliver. But between the weather and power outages all around, there were no good restaurants that were options. The only place open was a McDonalds two blocks away.

“No way!” Brittany laughed. “Tim, I haven’t been to a McDonalds in like 11 years. I’m not starting tonight. I’ll starve first thanks.”

“OK, but I don’t want to. Come with me, you can at least get a salad. They have those.” Tim negotiated.

“Do you know what is in those???” Brittany said, then stopped herself. She had learned a while ago that people didn’t like when she annoyingly listed all of the bad ingredients in food. “Argh, ok. I’ll take a walk with you there.” She relented with a smile.

Once there, she remembered how much she loved Orange Soda. Tim smiled, but didn’t tease her about it. She appreciated that. She actually hated being teased. She snuggled up to him as they walked out of the McDonalds and headed back to their condo through the snowy mess.

Carlos was also very hungry on this winter night. He was miserable, he absolutely hated the cold. Born in Mexico, and then spending a tremendous amount of time in El Paso, he had never had to deal with cold and snow like this. He wished he was back in Mexico this evening. Carlos’ move to Dallas wasn’t based on career advancement though, it was based on Covid-19 vaccinations. More specifically, the blood of humans who had been vaccinated.

This past year had been the worst of Carlos’ 209 on this earth. The last 150 in El Paso had been wonderful. Feeding on the blood of Mexican immigrants who crossed the border with little identification. Knowing that the secretive nature of the illegal immigrant community would stop any real deep inquisitions into mysterious deaths. It was also nice and warm. It was the perfect place for the vampire.

However, Covid-19 changed all that. Feasting on the blood of a human with Covid made him incredibly sick, for weeks at a time. Over and over everytime he bit someone with the disease. He eventually learned how to smell Covid, but only in humans that had it bad. He, like everyone else, couldn’t detect it in the asymptomatic. Therefore, also like everyone else, he was very pleased when the vaccines started coming out. Much to his pleasure, he could smell the chemicals in vaccinated humans’ blood. He could detect who was vaccinated, and who was not.

That’s why he migrated up to Dallas. People in El Paso were getting the vaccine, but it was largely the elderly. Elderly blood didn’t taste nearly as good as the blood of those in their prime. The large medical community in Dallas meant lots of people in their 20’s and 30’s who had gotten the vaccine as part of the “first responder” roll out.

Brittany and Timothy had both received their shots (both doses) in Indianapolis. Brittany got it because she worked for a hospital, and she was able to get Timothy in because of her connections. As he approached the young urban couple, Carlos could smell the Moderna in them. He had quickly come to love that scent. His mood, which had been quite dour due to the snow and ice and cold, was quickly improving. He thought he’d have a very hard time finding food tonight, but here it was being delivered right to him.

Brittany and Timothy saw the short, somewhat rotund Mexican man approaching them as they were still laughing about McDonalds. Brittany had actually gotten a refill of Orange Soda before they left. They laughed as they joked about cameras seeing them and her soda getting reported to ABC. Carlos was really caught off guard by this weather, and was wearing what would be considered “summer clothes”.

“Look at this poor guy” Timothy said to his wife. While he was a very aggressive, very greedy corporate attorney, he was also very kind and generous. That is one of the reasons Brittany loved him with her whole heart and soul.

“Are you ok my friend?” Timothy asked the man as he and his wife slowly came to a stop on the icy hill to greet the stranger who was coming up it.

“Actually, I’m very hungry and I hate the cold.” the man answered back. Neither Brittany or Timothy immediately noticed that unlike them, when he spoke, there was no steam coming from his mouth on this frigid evening.

“Here, why don’t you take my scarf and some money. There is a McDonalds two blocks North. They are open, we just came from there.” Timothy said, handing the man both his expensive scarf, and $50. Brittany had never loved him more. As she watched with love and admiration as her tall, athletic, handsome husband committed a random act of kindness for a hungry, short, poor, sexy Mexican man.

Wait, why do I find that little guy sexy? Brittany suddenly asked herself. What was it about him? She studied him a little more, and as she did, she felt her pussy actually tingle a bit. God, he was hot. She had never been attracted to Hispanic guys before, especially little short fat ones. What the hell was going on? Why was he so fucking sexy? Brittany was suddenly very glad she had put a cute outfit on and decided to look good going to McDonalds.

“Do you live around here?” Carlos asked Timothy.

“Y-yes” Timothy answered, also oddly affected by the stranger as well.

“Do you own your home?” Carlos asked.

“yes” Timothy confirmed again.

Now Carlos’ mood really improved. Humans knew a lot about Vampire lore, but there were some things that they didn’t truly understand. This was very true surrounding some of the rules of being invited into a home. It could only be done by the true owner of the home. Therefore, renters could not invite a vampire in. Also, another little known fact was that a vampire could hypnotically compel his victim to invite him into their home, but only if the victim was not currently in the home. So, that meant while he couldn’t just knock on a door and get someone to invite him in, these two humans that were “out for delivery” fit the bill just perfect.

“Soy tu Maestra” Carlos said to Timothy, who understood perfectly as he stared back deep into the vampire’s eyes. “Invitame a tu casa”

“Please, won’t you come inside?” Timothy asked.

This was enough to wake Brittany from the light sexual trance she was in. She suddenly felt the coolness of her now damp panties. Wait, Tim shouldn’t invite a stranger into their home… “Tim, hold on…” she said.

“Mirame a los ojos” Carlos said to the Irish Scotish Italian American beauty who took French in high school and did not speak a lick of Spanish. Yet, her eyes immediately darted to his. She could almost feel her thoughts being unavoidably pushed aside. Even her concern over this odd situation was fading away, replaced by a growing sexual attraction, and a need to submit… to obey as he said to her, “Soy tu Maestra”

“Lead the way” Carlos directed Timothy. The husband took his wife’s hand and lead the stranger the rest of the way down the snow covered street back to their condo. Brittany continued to look back at Carlos, she couldn’t help it. He was so fascinating, so sexual. She tried to stop herself. She knew she was married, and she had truly never wanted anyone other than Timothy since they met a decade ago. But Carlos, the short, pudgy little Mexican man, was absolutely irresistible.

Carlos asked Timothy to formally invite him in once more as they reached the condo. He of course obliged. Carlos looked around as he stepped inside. First of all, it felt nice to be warm again. He was also glad he had found these two out and about in a neighborhood that actually had power. So much of Texas was in the dark. The condo was very tastefully decorated, and Carlos could quickly tell that the couple had money.

He politely asked Brittany to lock all the doors and close all the blinds, which she did immediately. She was so turned on by him that she didn’t even wonder why he was doing that. When the last of the drapes were pulled closed, he thanked her. They locked eyes. She felt her heart jump and her nipples harden. Her pussy was already soaked. She seductively walked over to him as he embraced her in a long sensual kiss. Carlos was all that mattered to her. Timothy had been forgotten.

However, Timothy had not forgotten her. The sight of his beautiful, beloved wife passionately making out with another man was enough to snap him out of his trance.

“Brittany, stop! Something is fucked up here!” Timothy shouted.

Carlos stopped kissing and glared over at Timothy. Brittany however was still kissing his face as he looked away, lovingly stroking his hair, completely in his thrall. Timothy felt a cold chill as Carlos cast his eyes upon him.

The vampire gently took Brittany’s arms and placed them down by her side as she continued to stare down Timothy, to stare down his prey. Timothy knew his life was in danger. Fight or flight kicked in, but with his wife also in trouble, he couldn’t escape. He had no choice but to fight. He lunged at the much smaller Carlos.

With supernatural quickness and strength, Carlos caught the pouncing Timothy by the neck with his hand. He then lifted him up with one arm, rising his shoes about two feet off the ground. Timothy’s eyes widened at shock as he realized the might of this beast. Carlos angrily threw Timothy over the granite kitchen island, causing him to smash the stools on the other side. With equal quickness, Carlos leapt over the island and feasted on Timothy’s neck. Quickly and efficiently, he drained the attorney of blood and life force. The vampire felt his own strength grow with each ounce.

Brittany’s kiss with Carlos had exchanged some bodily fluids between them. Even some of Carlos’ saliva in her mouth was enough to keep her much deeper under his spell than Timothy had been. However, this was her beloved husband on the ground, being attacked by this stranger. She slowly moved over to the counter and peered over to see what was happening.

“Timothy?” she said quietly, causing Carlos to stop feeding and turn his attention to her.

His mouth showing only trickles of blood (he had spent years learning how to eat cleanly), he rose from his victim. Brittany’s eyes were stuck on her lifeless husband on the kitchen floor. Carlos looked at her as he moved slowly to her. He heard her breathing get quicker as he got closer. She had a look on her, like she was asking him to fuck her right now but did not have the courage to say anything. He had seen that look many times. Slowly, Carlos circled her, getting behind her, grinding his hard cock in his pants along her ass. "He was your husband, but he wasn’t your Master, was he?"

"No." Brittany said softly and immediately Carlos dropped his pants. Brittany was in heat and followed, pulling her skirt down along her knees. Instantly, she was bent over the counter and getting rammed by his vampiric cock in her tight pussy.

"Harder! Fuck me Harder!" Brittany begged him, speaking in a way she never had. "Oh! My! God!" she repeated with every thrust he pushed. Her hands knocking over things on the counter as he thrusted.

"Yesss my slave!" Carlos said, fucking her with all his might, grunting like a wild animal,. Brittany wrapped her arms around his waist encouraging him go even harder.

Carlos turned the married nutritionist around and she quickly stepped out her skirt. He picked her up like she was a feather, Brittany let out a loud yelp, and sat her on his rigid cock as he really started fucking her. Brittany was bouncing on his cock up and down, her shirt pulled up to reveal her tits. Their chests sliding along each other as she rose and fell on his cock.

Brittany looked him dead in the eyes and move in for a passionate sloppy kiss, not noticing or caring about the bits of Timothy’s blood. Carlos kept his fast fucking motion as he returned her kiss. They tongues were dancing and exploring each other's mouths.

Brittany pulled away and kept screaming, "Yassss!! Give it to me! FUCK ME MASTER!"

Carlos pulled her into his cock as he thrusted in, as he lets out some powerful grunts, BAM! Brittany let out whimper and moan as she bounced off his hips, before she could escape the full length of his cock, Carlos pulled her back in again and with even more force. BAM! BAM! BAM

Brittany was beyond her limits, she was dead weight barely able to keep herself on him as she flopped around, obsessively thanking and begging creature who had just killed her husband.

Finally Carlos lifted her off his cock and set her down on her knees. Then aggressively grabbed her head and plunged his cock into her mouth. Brittany had never sucked a cock before, but she quickly got up to speed as she was getting used to her new Master’s cock. It began to slide inside her mouth easily as she began gulping it in with each thrust. Saliva was running down chin and onto her chest.

"Yes my pet!" Carlos screamed, as pulled his glistening cock out her mouth. He held his cock by the base slapping Brittany side to side until...

"Uhhhhnnnggg!" Carlos's wailed, as he shot several thick stream of creamy white cum onto Brittany's face.

Carlos brought Brittany's face back in and immediately, she knew what to do. Her succulent lips instantly wrapped around his cock’s head and began sucking the remaining juices out and around his cock. Carlos knew full well that his essence was going to give him full and utter control of this beautiful woman.

When she was finally finished, he looked down at her. “What do you do for work?” he asked. He noticed his English was much better after consuming Timothy’s blood. Little things like that always intrigued him, even after 150 or more years of being a vampire.

“I’m a nutritionist” she answered him as she lovingly caressed his leg, still on her knees.

Carlos laughed, as he briefly wondered what the nutritional value of a vampire’s cum was. “Where do you work?”

“Baylor Specialty Hospital, here in North Dallas” she answered. Her heart jumped as her Master nodded approvingly.

“Can you get me to the coroner?” he asked, as he began the plan to dispose of Timothy without alerting the authorities. The coroner would become his human slave, just as Brittany would. There was some work ahead of him, but for what began as a cold hungry night, this unexpected delivery had drastically improved Carlos’ outlook here in North Dallas.

[todoroki-waifu]

It’s really hard to love yourself when people just point out your insecurities.

Someone at work called me “fat” and that literally shattered me. It was extra embarassung because it was in front of other people. I’m pretty sensitive about my physical appearance (started with people pointing out my acne and acne scars. I’ve been told they were “ugly things on my face”)

Every body type is different, unique, lovely, and special. Doesn’t matter if a person is skinny, fat, fit, short, tall...etc. Everyone is beauitful. (I know I kind of sound like a hypocryite but please keep reading before anyone bashes on me) I wouldn’t care how you looked as long as you’re respectful and nice.

It’s just that I’ve been negatively commented on and had my belly poked at in public pretty frequently so that it started to affect my view of myself. I was comfortable with myself until people started saying that I needed to do this and that to look better.

I started to be more self concious when I eat around people and I really hate that. I love to eat! I love food! I just want to enjoy myself peacefully.

I do accept and realize that during quarantine/COVID lockdown, I definitely didn’t make any healthy choices which resulted in some weight gain, but the “fat” comment was totally unnecessary.

I’m trying to not think so much about it, but ughhh. :/

[strugglingclassicist]

15 questions// tagged by @fluentisonus

Named after someone?

Yes! I’m named after my great grandmother who died not long before my mother found out she was pregnant with me! 

Last time you cried?

Idk sometime the past few weeks

Do you have any kids?

ofc not 

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

yes i do, but mostly i try to make sure it’s not done in ways where people can feel stupid or bad

What is the first thing you notice about people? idk what the first thing is, but the most important thing I notice is if it feels like they’re genuinly kind/well meaning or not. If i’m not able to place someone it usually makes me a bit uneasy or tense around them, especially if i haven’t been able to place them after several encounters (tho it can take me some time to realise this is why i might avoid spending too much time with someone)

Eye colour

Blue, but with a yelow circle around the pupil

Scary movie or happy ending?

Definitely not scary movie but also i don’t feel like i necessarily need any happy ending. I love the bittersweet, but in general i’m happy if the ending feels like it makes sense as opposed to be very sad or very good just for the sake of it

Any special talents

i can sort of write with both hands at the same time, either the same message but mirroring each other, or the same message double over, or two separate things. As a kid i managed to play a small piece by Grieg on the piano using both feet or a combo of foot and hand, I’m not sure if this is still a talent of mine now that my legs are longer and i’m less flexible and i don’t want to wake up the house by testing it out. I also recently found out that i can do that thing ridiculously buff men show off with where they like, make their pecs bounce/dance. I can do both at once or one at the time and i find it very funny bc i’m not really fit at all

What country were you born in?

Norway

What are your hobbies?

Knitting, painting/drawing (though not as often as I’d wish), also baking and cooking

Do you have any pets?

Not personally but my dearest has a cat still back with the family whom I have adopted in my heart although I’ve never met her. I get regular updates in form of pictures and anecdotes on how my very fat and evil step daughter is doing and I’m very proud of her

What sports do you play/have played

I’ve had some unsuccessful tries with football and aikido as a kid, and krav maga as a teen. all short encounters. More successful was my time with historical fencing with german longsword which I really enjoyed!! but then i was abroad for a semester and then now it’s covid so I haven’t been training it for over a year and I miss it:(

How tall are you?

some annoying millimeters short of 170

Favourite subject in school?

throughout most of my schooling it was maths:’) tho by the end history took over. I always liked it very much but at the end of my schooling i had some really wonderful history teachers!

Dream job?

once i’d answer professor rip now I’ve grown as a person tho and know my personal needs and desires better. In the long run I really want to be a teacher, or at least work with communication of knowledge in one way or another. But like,, I don’t want to be a teacher by 25 and I’d like to experience and try out some other stuff first. right now i think it would be cool if i could follow my interest in palaeography and interest in text transmission/text criticism a bit and perhaps work at a library or archive or collection where they deal with really old texts!

Tagging// @languages-and-else and @catilinas if you wish!

[hag-o-hags]

hold the fuckin phone here lads

i had a consult with rheumatology/immunology re: long tall short fat covid, and i went to a PA who was .... let's call it distracted? by the fact that I have prediabetes markers

which, frankly, duh, my mom's entire family are diabetic or prediabetic, my father's (v small) family was Skinny Diabetics -- my genes mean it's a matter of if not when (ETA: "not if BUT when" and/or "when not if". cripes. it took three goes to get this right. see below re: 65% rate of braining good.)

(and like sidebar if everyone in my family got breast cancer nobody would be sitting there like ooooooohhh make sure you're getting enough CARDIO whilst RECOVERING FROM A LIFE ALTERING FATIGUE DISORDER)

anyway there were a couple ..... blood orange flags? things that I wouldn't appreciate from my PCP, but from a specialist? sure whatever, maybe you have really solid evidence that this particular supplement is worth a try. I was coping with Robitussin for a while there.

but!!!!!!

she also gave me some studies to look through, which, hah, thank you, my brain works 65% of the time, but hey, sure, the musculoskeletal effects of diabetes mellitus might be helpful.

Bitch it's chiropractic!!!!!

the principle author is from the TEXAS CHIROPRACTIC COLLEGE

it's published by the JOURNAL OF THE CANADIAN CHIROPRACTIC ASSOCIATION

putting aside the teeny tiny minor issue that I do not at present actually have diabetes mellitus whY are you giving me chiropractic advice

when I took some of what she said back to my pcp (who remains, as ever, the fucking best), she was like "Um. No. No that doesn't track." At the time I was willing to accept that okay, we've taken a rheum/immun tactic off our list, we can go back to Neuro. But now I'm sort of thinking that hi. Hello. Maybe we really didn't spend enough time on the Immediate Family History of Bonkers Rheumatological Issues.

I'm tired. And my hands won't stop being tingly.

[islandpcosjourney]

Hindsight

29th December 2020

3 years ago, after a lovely family Christmas and a crazy few weeks beforehand redecorating the kitchen & dining room, I was enjoying some down-time. Facebook reminded me today that we were removing my fireplace in town – a big job involving big hammers and lots of sweat, on hubby’s part anyway ;) I had also just said goodbye to my Dad for the last time, although I didn’t know that. My final words to him were “Please go see a doctor” as we had noticed that he wasn’t himself while he was with us Christmas week. If I’d known in hindsight that I’d never see or speak to him again, I’d have never let him go. For the last 3 years I’ve punished myself for that. But in all honesty, I’m glad I didn’t know, despite the shock of his untimely passing, as I spent no time trying to cling onto something I wouldn’t have. He was just my Dad, it was just an ordinary Christmas, we were just hammering concrete out of a fireplace, as per usual and it was his time to go.

This year. The year of COVID. The year of cancellations. The year of worry. The year of unknowns. The year of excess screen time. The year of FOOD! This was the year of a fresh start. A chance to really sit down and think, quietly about anything and everything. In a year where our health has been debated so much in the press and in the community, I chose this year to sort it out, head on. Or rather, this was the year that my body chose, to WANT to sort itself out.

Many of you will have read before of the trials and tribulations that my PCOS gives me daily. It’s a vicious circle of physical and mental symptoms caused by external and internal factors. But before this year, although I’d done tons of research and I knew everything I could about my difficulties, I still couldn’t solve them. Something was always stopping me and that was indeed me.

We are what we eat. I truly believe this and always did but mentally I was always being drawn to the wrong foods. I still am, I am human after all but while most people had a kill switch to stop themselves from eating junk, my switch was broken, or so I thought. I understood the theory behind what foods would be good for me but putting it into practice is always the hard part and I’m sure many of you will have faced this before yourselves!

During lockdown, like many others, I was forced online to work. It wasn’t long after that I started noticing daily headaches, getting worse and worse. After a while, it was debilitating, and I was at the point (when in normal circumstances) where I’d have run to the GP for some stronger pills! But this wasn’t really an option this time and it forced me to think alternatively. I was convinced it was screen time to blame so I took a wee break and combined my teaching days/hours to make sure I had a long weekend away from the computer to recover each week. Around the same time, I was also experiencing buzzing in my ears – one Sunday thinking I was going insane hearing somebody strimming in their garden, when of course nobody would do that up here on a Sunday! Kevin definitely thought I’d gone mad and I was certainly believing I was! We figured out it was tinnitus or something similar and deduced I’d just have to ignore it, along-with my headaches. Fast forward to June when I finally decided to move a huge pile of recipe books from the landing upstairs. I can’t remember why they ended up there in the first place but rather than putting them back downstairs again, they’d just sat there in a tall pile for months. It was at this stage that I came across Jason Vale’s Turbo Charge Your Life in 14 Days book. A book I’d had at college and had used to lose weight before my degree’s final recital in 2009. I remembered losing 7lbs in 7 days. I sifted through all the pages and got swept back through memory lane and my tastebuds started to remember the taste of some of the juices. Mmmmmmmm yummy. Especially the Turbo charge smoothie – Pineapple, apple, lime, spinach, cucumber, celery & avocado. The ONLY form of avocado I would eat as I hated its taste but seemed to love its creaminess in a smoothie! Avocado being an essential fat that I KNEW I should be eating with my PCOS…… So, the next shopping trip I decided the buy the ingredients, dig out my juicer and before I knew it, while planning a week away to see my Mum & brother, I also planned a detox! AND it timed in perfectly with Jason’s BIG juice challenge between 6th – 12th July! Perfect, all meant to be.

So now, let’s cut a long story very short. I returned a week later totally rejuvenated, hadn’t eaten a single morsel of chewable food in 8 days and I’d lost 8lbs – here, something was working! I felt amazing, my headaches had gone, my skin was glowing, my teeth were whiter, I had tons of energy and I no longer had any ringing in my ears – all after just one week. Ok, so let’s continue! Nearly 6 months later incorporating juicing into my daily diet and I’m 30lbs down (It was at 33lbs, but Christmas was far too good hahahaha). I’ve set myself a target of 100lbs but the biggest reason for this dietary change is not to lose all the excess weight I’m carrying, although of course that will help, its to always put my health first and live the healthiest life I can. In a year where health has never been more important, I am finally on top of mine. I have finally found a way to control my symptoms and my cravings, naturally. I know it probably all sounds ridiculously obvious, but we are what we eat. My body was consuming junk therefore I was junk – I was overweight, chronically fatigued, had oily/acne skin, excess hair, moody, depressive, stressed, dull, no fun – the list is endless. I will now consume, in an average juicy week: 7 pineapples, 56 apples, 7 limes, 28 celery sticks, 28 asparagus spears, 7 courgettes, 2 bags of spinach, 1.5 bags of kale, 3.5 cucumbers, 3 broccoli stems, a few bananas, massive handfuls of mixed berries, beetroot, 7 pears, 7 avocados. Safe to say I am now bright, bubbly, happy, positive, glowing, full of energy, no back pain or headaches, smooth skin everywhere and best of all, I am reducing my PCOS symptoms massively. I’ve been at this weight before; I remember how I felt at this weight before. My weight has nothing to do with this feeling. The food I am eating is directly responsible. Finally, an answer to all my troubles. I know it sounds obvious but how many of us will turn to medications or look for other factors to blame for our chronic conditions? I did! As soon as I was diagnosed, I continuously went running back to the GP/consultant for more and more pills. One to sort that, one to sort this, another one to counteract the last one etc etc. I KNOW categorically that the medications were intoxicating me and that the fuel I put into my body causes the relevant energy output whether strong or weak. I know that if I wake up in the morning and feel tired, a juice will sort me out, not caffeine. I know that if I’m tired at night it is because of the incorrect fuel I’ve put into my body earlier that day, for whatever reason I decided to consume it. I am seeing a direct long-term result of it all too.

From previous blogs, you will know that I DID NOT have a menstrual cycle without medical intervention. As of Boxing Day this year, that is no longer true. It may have taken since July to regulate my hormones naturally, but it has worked. Obviously, time will tell if I’m going to restore any kind of regularity to it but in all honesty, that’s not a concern right now as I can’t remember having a regular cycle since I was a teenager, so we’re talking around 20 years of hormonal disruption to be reversed and Rome wasn’t built in a day! Interestingly the last “natural” cycle I had after stopping years of medication also appeared on Boxing Day, in 2016 ;) In August this year, I was convinced “mother nature” had come to visit but she only said a very brief hello in a socially distanced way for a day so this time with the COVID restrictions lifted a little she was able to come to stay with gifts of stomach cramps, carb cravings & headaches as a way of getting us reacquainted again. Needless to say, she was made very welcome and I’ve never been happier, especially by hugging a hot water bottle.

Not everything is quite sorted but as you can imagine, its well on track! I now choose my food wisely, looking for naturally wholesome options as is humanly possible and just being more conscious of what I am eating (of course I eat treats ocassionally but I’m doing it consciously). Would you put dirty fuel in a car? Of course not. Would you put dirty oil in during an oil change? Of course not. That’s what I believe medications do to chronic conditions – they throw dirty oil into an already dirty engine. Our cars need servicing each year where they get an oil change, where the filters are cleaned, where essential maintenance is done, so why don’t we do that when we’re chronically sick? Why do we turn to pills to sort a condition we’ve developed rather than look to what we’re fuelling our body with and give it a good clean out? Of course we need medicines for acute conditions but chronic ones can be reversed if we clean out the “filter” and do an “oil change”. I’ve seen tons of documentaries recently where I’ve learned of people curing their Asthma, Eczema, Psoriasis, Diabetes etc I’ve even seen a documentary where cancers have gone into remission for dozens of years through eating raw food alone. I know it’ll sound very “out there” for some people and it would’ve done for me too had I not gone looking for Functional Medicine (using food to heal) research after years of understanding the theory behind it but not finding the right way to put it into practice. But, never in my whole life and in spite of a worldwide Pandemic, have I felt more alive or healthier than I do right now. I may have turned the clock back 3 years on my weight but energy-wise I feel about 15 years younger which is far more important than any number on the bathroom scales.

In hindsight, do I wish that I’d reached these dietary conclusions earlier? Not at all. It wasn’t the right time. In hindsight, I can see that all of the information that I have been armed with over the years, are the tools that have set me up for the success I now have. Like a fine wine, I needed time to breathe, time to mature to become the best I can be. No point in opening it early, you’ll just be disappointed. A good teacher is somebody who’s struggled themselves and I’m a better, stronger person for having had my major struggles. There’s probably many still to come. Life is never boring!

Now that I’ve written this, I logged into Tumblr to copy this blog across and to see when I last posted and to my amazement it was Boxing day last year! I love coincidences of dates & Boxing Day seems to have cropped up a number of times. I said that my goal was to increase my energy levels as I really struggled this time last year. I had said regarding Christmas day:

“I want to be able to, one day, wake up early to make the breakfast, open stocking presents, get dressed inc. make up, cook a Christmas dinner, watch a bit of Christmas TV, play some board games, do the washing up and still feel like a proper woman – not some shadow of one who can only do one or two tasks a day.”

Well I did all those things! I’d totally forgotten that I’d even set that goal (for one day!) but I reached it a year later and more. I never thought I’d be sizes smaller than a previous year as my pattern has always been to be one size bigger each year ;) I recently ordered a few jumpers for the harsh winter, one a size 16-18 and one a size 14 for the future. Well, although a stretchy material, I’m in the size 14 jumper and had to send back the other as it just hung off me! Considering I was a size 20 last year, ballooned to a size 22 by the middle of the year and now I’m back to the size I was 3 years ago, I’m delighted. I also don’t get the violently ill episodes when I eat gluten/dairy now that I did before when I religiously followed a PCOS diet and ocassionally slipped up. I honestly think fruit & veg is healing my gut, my hormones, my skin, every organ in my body! There’s a lot to say for eating a plant-based diet, not only for my health but also the purse-strings but there’s also lots to say for eating balanced nutrition and listening to one’s body for what it really needs. My ears are wide open now.

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mother absolute fucker the universe has decided to honor One Year Since Getting The Plague with the return of the spinning dizzies

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fuck man take this for exactly what you will but I forgot my meds (i.e. do not have any of them on me) and god damn the onset of Symptoms Disease symptoms is p fuckin immediate

like a) really glad I have drugs that are working for me and b) that Symptoms Disease is still no joke

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i want to be a brain in a jar

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got my therona shot, FINALLY, after being stymied and waylaid SO. MANY. TIMES.

For the record, 1) this is the first one I've had since getting the plague. 2), boosters two and three were absolutely no big thing. But 3), the first shot left me in a feverish, sweating heap praying for a merciful death for the 12 sickest hours of my LIFE. Which leads me to 4), the flu shot absolutely kicked my ass this year in a way it never has before, and at 9 hours out from getting stabbed I think I should prepare my last will and testament.

So anyway I have an appointment with Rheumatology next week.