#look... we all have problems right?

[forestshadow-wolf]

Ok this might just be a me thing, but since soap is my projection baby it's also a him thing now.

So you know how sometimes there's just this person what could make like everything better no matter what. Like you could be haven't the worst day ever, someone spit on your hotdog kinda day, right? And then this one person comes along and just says hi, and immediately your bouncing up and down and smiling and giggling. But it's weird in a way that, after they leave you feel even more drained and worse than before they where there.

What if ghost is that person for soap. Like one day he's just having a terrible day. Just nothing going right, his hair was bothering him, he dropped his food at breakfast and lunch so he didn't eat, the recruits were being annoying, someone inventoried the demo. Supplies wrong and they actually had a lot less that was counted and now he's in trouble for it, and a million other little things, right? But whatever, you know? It's fine.

It's fine because then suddenly ghost is there, in the private 141 kitchen, grabbing himself a tea. Soap attaches right to him, bouncing along as ghost leaves. Suddenly it's a good day... until he gets back to his room that day.

He all but collapses on his bed as soon at the door closes. He can't muster up the courage to go take a shower, or even change out of his clothes. He just curls up on his bed, pulling the opposite end of the covers over him.

The next morning he just barely manages to call price and tell him he's not working the recruits that day. Doesn't give the reason, just that he's not coming in.

He's barely moved and he already feels worse than he did yesterday. Somehow.

Ghost comes by an hour later. Soap doesn't acknowledge him, almost hopes that if he acts like he isn't there than ghost will go away. God, look at him, can't even muster the energy to look at his favorite person.

He hears the door click shut, and it's a long moment before he hears anything else. Ghost doesn't say anything, doesn't touch him, hardly acknowledges him as he goes to sit at the desk. It's like he knows.

They stay like that for a long time, the only sound between them is their breathing. Mostly ghost's, even breathing feels like it takes work today. But still it's like ghost understands. It doesn't even feel like he's looking at the lump on the bed that is soap, maybe he isn't.

It's an even longer time before soap forces himself to throw the covers off. He knows the point of socially acceptable time has long long since past, but a for effort, right? It takes literally all of him to do that, and it leaves him feeling exposed, he wants to go back. He forces himself not to. Ghost still doesn't say anything, and soap finds that he was right in thinking that ghost wasn't looking at him, but he definitely knows that soap was up and moving.

He tries to force himself to say something, anything, play normal, but he can't. Ghost turns to him, and he freezes. A tray of food is silently pushed towards him. Even thinking about grabbing something from the tray takes work. Ghost picks something up, a grape, holds it to his lips. He takes it, chewing also takes work, and for some reason he feels awkward eating in front of him.

He pushed the rest of it away, somehow that was easier than pushing his covers off. It looks like ghost almost offers soap a drink of water, but stops himself. Ghost lets out a heavy breath, and goes back to not looking at him. Which somehow feels different from just a moment ago when ghost gave him the grape, not looking at him.

Ghost spends the rest of the day in his room, not acknowledging him. It's easy and hard at the same time.

The next day soap forces himself to take on his morning responsibilities, then leaves to his room again. And again ghost comes into his room an hour later. Food and drink in hand, he looks at soap.

He does manage more than a couple bites this time, and a small swig if water. Still ghost doesn't say anything, but he looks.

Today wasn't better. Or easier. But it was... less exhausting. And that's something. Sure he hadn't managed to shower, or do his hair, or change his clothes. But he pulled his covers off, he got out of bed, walked fown the hall, trained the recruits, ate some food, had a sip of water. Managed to be perceived. And that was something. And ghost didn't say anything, but it seemed like he understood. And that was something.

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*not so eagerly waits for the psycho-analysis :(*

[egophiliac]

queen of diamonds, upright + reversed 💎

I've redone this like eighty times, I have to just be done with it now and stop staring at all my mistakes oh no 🫠

[themisterhip]

I'm still down bad for him, that'll never change.

[lady-raziel]

hilarious that with each new day that passes a new bit of dirt from JD Vance's past gets discovered and plastered over the internet...it's almost as if this is why presidential campaigns have always announced their running mates well before the convention...so that if glaring issues with a candidate came to light quickly there would be time to replace them on the ticket before they were officially locked in...it's almost as if certain things in political campaigns were done for a reason, donald...because the very same critical failures had happened before...but no i'm sure you and your guys attempt to recreate a fantasy version of history while ignoring all the reasons that history was a disaster will work this time...because you are built different and the 10000th time trying fascism will work like a charm...

[vanlegion]

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

assorted scribbles and Love Bites!!!!

[bumblydumbly]

insane how people act like charles is ‘the jealous one’ like edwin didnt spend the whole first episode screaming crying throwing up every time charles looked at crystal and not him

[chiropteracupola]

How does he stand, how does he speak? / How does he say these words to me? / Devil go and let me be!

[one last gawain for @mortiscausa’s ’march to camelot,’ for the prompt ‘grudge’]

[stevieharringtonwifeguy]

i love a/b/o steddie where they get started like so young that if it was someone i knew irl i'd have a panic attack. like,, mated right out of high school, baby pops out a year later, they've got like five kids by the time they're 25

thinking about an au where they were already together pre- start of s4 and steve goes through the whole thing like three months pregnant. like he's stressed about the baby and eddie and eddie's SUPER stressed about the baby and steve, like eddie's trying to get steve to sit this one out for the baby and steve has to yell at him to stop bc yeah, he's worried about losing their first child, but if he sat at home while everyone else dealt with the upside down and someone didn't come back??? he'd never be able to live with himself

and when the bats get eddie and steve tries to use the mating bond to share some of eddie's pain, help him hold on until they get to the hospital, eddie weakly tries to tell him not to, to think of the baby. and steve's just. not having it. and once eddie wakes up from his medically induced coma he's like :(( why'd you do that and steve is just. so mad. he says yeah, if i had lost the baby (he doesn't, she's fine) that would have been the most terrible pain i'd ever felt. but it would have been worse if i lost you. and eddie's like. oh. bc maybe part of him has always been thinking that steve's only stuck with him bc he's the father of their kid. but no, steve loves him.

so eddie's crying, and steve's crying, and then steve shows eddie the ultrasound they did during eddie's coma to check the baby hadn't been hurt by the week of stress and danger and pain-sharing, and it's the first time they've been able to actually see the shape of a baby in all the weird white noise of an ultrasound, and now they're both crying even harder

[guardian-angle22]

TK/Carlos + Looks

↳ 1.10 Austin, We Have a Problem

[rhysie]

a hard pill to swallow ... rhys not telling feyre during her pregnancy is not as ooc as u think it is

[daisywords]

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[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[bmpmp3]

character designers when they need to design a mascot for a masculine vocal synthesizer: and i will put a mole. under his LEFT eye

[feral-radfem]

All of y'all pretending like heterosexual women are the only ones who experience misogyny, or experience the most misogyny, are not (just) being homophobic, you're being misogynistic.

You're denying women's sex based oppression is real or it's severity. So maybe sit down and shut up and realize that we are still women despite the fact that we are not sleeping with men. You have the ability to make the choice not to sleep with men too. It's not an inaction unique to homosexuals.

I will spread any feminist praxis I want, and if it's insulting for me to reiterate the ideals we preach in these spaces because I'm a homosexual then you can go ahead and be insulted. SSA women have just as much claim to these spaces as you do because we are women and these spaces are for fighting misogyny, which we all experience. It's not just for tackling the misogyny y'all are uncomfortable with, it's for tackling all of it. Get with the program, ladies.

[gibbearish]

kinda frustrating how we've spent the last few months acknowledging how a lot of well intentioned but guilt trippy social justice posts are like specifically designed to worm into ocd ppls brains and then now every single post abt palestine is "i dont care how bad your mental health is, i dont care how bad looking at all this makes you feel, if you don't read every single post you see on this topic in full you are a horrible person and directly contributing to their deaths. 'waaaah my mental health' well at least youre not being bombed, did you think about that??" and its like. i absolutely get where youre coming from but you dont get to complain that guilt tripping is bad then turn around and use it anyways because you think the cause youre using it for is worthwhile. like. everyone thinks the cause theyre using it for is worthwhile, thats why theyre using it. but its still a shit way to do it