#love yourself folks

[jobujabu]

I find it fascinating how I can learn so much about myself and yet know so little. For the longest time being swayed to believe I was merely the product of my parents and their problems, to later discover I had my own problems, and then to subsequently realize that I am the problem. The age old adage of I am my own worst enemy and critic, and no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself. I've spent my lifetime thus far as a doormat because other people and their happiness came first, I wanted others to like me, love me, and I was willing to go to any lengths in order for that to happen, yet it only ended up separating me from finding my own happiness, how I could find my own ways to make me happy. Well, now here I am on another side of my story where I have the opportunity and knowledge to begin making myself a better and brighter person, only to find setbacks in feeling guilty and shame for disregarding others' needs. I wasn't raised with confidence or self-esteem, I was given a voice and told to keep it quiet. How odd that I have found one yet continue to remain hushed and gentle, only for my emotions to bubble over and explode into screaming and rage when I can't keep them down or hide them any longer. The strangest part is... I'm so sad. I'm so sad over the death of a former sense of self, that reassuring feeling that that person got me to where I am today and survived through all of it, the torture coming from both outside and in. It's disheartening knowing I'm this completely whole ass new person who's walking around and interacting like some adult infant because this life on the other side is now so brand new, as I waddle around and try to taste and sense and feel things in such a brand new way. And I can feel that old part of me looking through in some spiritual looking glass afraid for when I stumble, and fearfully saying no no no- don't do that, you'll hurt yourself! No no no- you can't do that, it's not for you! I have to show that part of myself the love it deserves, but I also have to be strong for the person I've become today, but I keep on fucking everything up. I know that's fine, and I know that's normal, but why does it feel so bad? Maybe it feels bad because I haven't quite figured out yet that making other people happy does make me happy, but I have to do it in my own way that benefits the new me, the new baby adult version of me. I'm ranting and rambling at this point, the best part being I feel I can do this here because it's shouting into the void. Still, maybe just maybe some one can relate, if they can decipher my wingding words. All in all, I've suffered too much to continue suffering by my own hand, and there are people in this world that I love so much that I'd be willing to do anything for them and want to do just that- which means if I have that love for them, then within is the capacity to love myself so much that I'd be willing to do anything for me.

[blicketdabest33]

I’ve slowly come to love past me for all that she had to go through and all her little beauties

but at the same time, I absolutely adore who I am today and everything that they’ve done to get to this moment

even though past me is gone, she wasn’t bad. She was beautiful in her own way, and I respect that

so now I know to love both parts of me, not to disdain one

and I feel very happy

[phemiec]

It's good to do something outside your comfort zone now and again just to make you remember how massively fucking autistic you are lol

[uncanny-tranny]

I love you smile lines and worry lines and grey and white hair and wrinkles and purple spiderweb veins and the process of aging and living in a body that is standing the test of times. I love you experiences that make you wiser and stories that make you laugh, and every little process that happens to get to the point where you have so many memories because you have the fortune to be here and be so radiant

[fleetways]

response to this. chimera baby has her shounen moment

does she have what it takes? find out next time on dragon ball z @sonic-oc-showdown!

[wheatormeat]

Rereading old haikyuu chapters, here's a bunch of silly Akaashis

[yourlocalguardian]

Yknow I know lot of people think the young therians mainly on tiktok who make masks and do a lot of quadrobics and wear their gear in public are cringe but like. As a bit older kinnie I remember how strong my instincts were when I was that age, how often and how strongly I had mental shifts, and the mental torture I went through my whole young life before I found out that there were other people like me because I felt like I was some sort of freak and didnt understand why I couldn’t just stop feeling the ways I did

Even if you think it’s cringe I know if I had had that community and that ability to engage with my creature-self at that age I would have felt so much better in myself, I wouldn’t have had the deep set self hatred I did for many years, and I think that’s extremely important. It’s extremely important that we don’t let the young members of our community experience that same pain that I and I’m sure others like me have felt

Also friendly reminder too that cringe culture is fucking stupid, if you’re not hurting yourself or anyone else you shouldn’t be shunned for doing what makes you happy. And that means you, person reading this, shouldn’t be the one to make them feel like they should be ashamed. If you feel like it’s cringe keep that to yourself and maybe do some self reflection on why you would think people doing a harmless activity that makes them happy would somehow be wrong. Cringing is a reflex, but that doesn’t mean you have to act upon it.

Additionally if you’re one of those people that’s against them because “they’re making us look bad”/“people won’t take us seriously because of them”. If people won’t accept us in the full extent of who we are then they would never be accepting of us in the first place. Acception when only in a watered down form is not true acception at all. 

[kingthunder]

When I say The Amazing Devil is my favorite band I don't mean it's my top band among many I mean it's the only band I listen to at all. They ruined me for other music. I want everything I listen to to be just as dramatic and vocally emotive and narratively focused and lyrically intricate, but I can't find anything else that scratches the itch and believe me I've tried. 😩Want to know what comes the closest for me, weirdly enough? Tenacious D.

[sainz100]

Fernando Alonso arriving on Media Day ahead of the 2024 Singapore GP | 📸 by Denzyl KY

[thatsbelievable]

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

Hey, hey, I just wanna pop in here real fast and say that I've just discovered the funniest fucking trans head canons/aus, and that's the Teenaged Mutant Ninja Turtles trans head canons/aus where they have no fucking clue that they're trans because Splinter doesn't know turtle anatomy.

It's the best. Holy shit. It's hilarious dog. They're so fucking stupid, it's great. This is my new favorite thing. They just find out one day that they've actually been trans this whole time because their Dad just assumed all of them were male. But surprise bitch! One/all/whatever of your sons actually had XX chromosomes the whole time!!

This is like... assigned cis at birth lmao

This is fantastic

[citnamora]

Growing up is realizing you don't hate shipping, you just really wish the execution of it was less amatonormative

[uncanny-tranny]

If you truly want to do what's best for mentally ill people, you have to learn that you often won't be able to separate the "salvageable" parts of ourselves with our illnesses, and you can't pretend like we are sane people underneath the façade of insanity, like we can flip a switch and magically erase the differences that make us "disordered"

[wild-flowerhoney]

scrolling through the percico tag only to find ppl talking about my fics was an Experience

screamed silently at my phone for like 5 minutes

[r4v3nr0s3]

YOURE ALLOWED TO HAVE EMOTIONS EVERYONE LABELS TOXIC STOP SAYING YOU SHOULDNT EVER HAVE EMOTIONS LIKE ANGER JEALOUSY DISGUST POSESSIVENESS.

THE FEELINGS HAVE ALWAYS EXISTED AND ITS FINE BUT ACTING LIKE AN ASSHOLE FUELED BY THEM IS NOT. THATS IT. STOP ACTING LIKE HEALING MEANS YOUVE TRANSCENDED EMOTION. YOU’RE LOCKED IN SHUT DOWN AND TOXIC POSITIVITY. GET A FUCKING GRIP.

[destiny-islanders]

Do you have any sideblogs?

Yeah-- @destiny-islanders is actually a sideblog which drives me NUTS because I use it like my main blog and there are certain things I can't do with it because of its sideblog status lmaoooo

@dapandabanda is my main from my Batfam days, but I haven't touched it in a while since I've long since hopped to other fandoms. :S

I also have @legendary-defenders from my Voltron phase. Again I haven't posted on it in years but I did make quite a lot of content for that fandom back in the day.

lol I also had a P5 blog that I played around with for two seconds. @traitorsandpancakes

And since I've been on a bit of a Star Wars kick lately thanks to Fallen Order and Survivor I made @beedeewun which will actually probably maybe be somewhat active because omg I'm actually really excited for the new game lmao