#lust hag

[mrtva-vrana]

Lust Hag | Lust Hag

April 2024

Bandcamp

[trvgbild]

Mistress in the Mirror - Lust Hag

[wolven-maw]

AND IT'S BURY THEM AND KEEP QUIET'S COVER OF ONLY TIME WITH THE STEEL CHAIR FOR BEST SONG OF THE FUCKING YEAR

[urfavmtlhdtgrl]

Listened to some black metal tapes today 😌

[teaktty]

Lust Hag! i love this

finding so many cool trans musicians and artists!

[gothimp]

if i had a copper for every time a hag wanted lorcan carnally id have two copper…

[deactivated-almonds]

Taking the satanism out of witchcraft really made it a whole lot less interesting

[thecupidwitch]

Elements And Their Correspondences

Earth

Direction: North

Time: Midnight

Season: Winter

Color: Green, brown

Zodiac: Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn

Ruling planets: Venus and Saturn

Tarot Cards: Pentacles, Coins

Tools: Pentacle, salt, stones, dirt, crystals, wood, flowers

Cystals: Emerald, Jet, tourmaline, quartz, onyx, azurite, amethyst, jasper, peridot, granite.

Animals: gopher, bear, wolf, ant, horse, stag, deer, dog, cow, bull, bison, snake, worms, moles, voles, grubs

Herbs: Oak, cedar, cypress, honeysuckle, ivy, primrose, sage, grains, patchouli, nuts, magnolia, comfrey, vetivert, moss, lilac, lichen, roots, barley, alfalfa, corn, rice.

Rules: Grounding, strength, healing, success, stability, sturdiness, steadfastness, foundations, empathy, fertility, death, rebirth, wisdom, nature, animals, plants, money, prosperity.

Water

Direction: West

Time: Dusk

Season: Fall

Color: Blue, Indigo, Sliver

Zodiac: Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces

Ruling planets: Moon, Neptune, Pluto

Tarot Cards: Cups

Tools: Ocean, sea glass, cup, bowl, seaweed, hag stones, cauldron

Cystals: Moonstone, pearl, silver, aquamarine, amethyst, blue tourmaline, lapis lazuli, fluorite, coral, blue topaz, beryl, opal, coral

Animals: fish, snake, frog, crab, lobster, eel, shark, dragonfly, seahorse, dolphin, sea otter, seal, whale, alligator, crocodile, beaver, octopus, penguin, salamander, turtle, starfish, koi, coral, barnacle, manta ray, manatee, jellyfish, nautilus, heron, duck, geese, crane, swan, water birds, ammonite, dragons, serpents

Herbs: seaweed, aloe, fern, water lily, lotus, moss, willow, gardenia, apple, catnip, chamomile, cattail, lettuce, kelp, birch, cabbage, coconut, cucumber, comfrey, eucalyptus, gourd, geranium, grape, licorice, lilac, pear, strawberry, tomato

Rules: emotion, intuition, psychic abilities, love, unconscious mind, fertility, self-healing, reflection, lunar energy, deep feelings, curses, death

Fire

Direction: South

Time: Noon

Season: Summer

Color: Red, Orange

Zodiac: Aries, Leo, Sagittarius

Ruling planets: Sun, Mars

Tarot Cards: Wands or Swords (depends on belief system)

Tools: Athame, candles, swords, wands, dagger, lamp, flame

Cystals: Carnelian, red jasper, bloodstone, garnet, ruby, agate, rhodochrosite, gold, pyrite, brass, fire opal, lavastone, tiger's eye

Animals: Lion, snake, coyote, fox, ladybug, bee, shark, scorpion, horse, mantis, tiger

Herbs: Cinnamon, cloves, ginger, allspice, basil, cacti, marigold, chilis, garlic, mustard, nettle, onion, heliotrope, hibiscus, juniper, lime, orange, red pepper, poppies, thistle, coffee, jalapenos, lemon, cumin, saffron, coriander

Rules: Energy, will, destruction, strength, courage, power, passion, lust, sexuality, anger, war, new beginnings, protection, loyalty, transformation, action, movement, achievement, creativity, desire, willpower

Air

Direction: East

Time: Down

Season: Spring

Color: Yellow, gold, white, light blue, pastels

Zodiac: Gemini, Libra, Aquarius

Ruling planets: Mercury, Jupiter, Uranus

Tarot Cards: Wands

Tools: Feather, wand, staff, incense, broom, bell, sword, pen

Cystals: Amber, topaz, citrine, jasper, agate, pumice, alexandrite, amethyst, fluorite, mica, clear quartz

Animals: Birds, flying insects, spiders, bats

Herbs: Bergamot, lavender, marjoram, peppermint, sage, dandelion, bluebell, clover, frankincense, primrose, lemongrass, pine, aspen, yarrow, violets, vervain, myrrh, dill, anise, aspen

Rules: Intelligence, wisdom, knowledge, logic, thought, communication, truth, inspiration, intuition, memory, creativity

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[mrtva-vrana]

Lust Hag | Mistress in the Mirror

April 2023

Bandcamp

[chaoticace2005]

Reasons the Mothman should die, collectively written by the residents of the Hazbin Hotel:

Coding for Characters: Vaggie, Charlie, Pentious, Alastor, Niffty, Husk, pretty much everyone

TW: References to abuse

He’s holding back Angel’s progress. (Vaggie, is killing really necessary?) (I am concerned about going after a Vee)

I’m hungry (ALASTOR!)

Ms. Angel gets nervous when on the phone with him.

His coat is tacky.

He’s a bug! And bugs must be DESTROYED!

So Angel stops feeling like he has to be so damn fake. This is getting on my fucking nerves.

HE LICKED CHARLIE!!! (Vaggie, wait it’s okay.)

Color scheme sucks. Purple AND red?!

He makes Angel sad, NOBODY should make Angel sad.

Those obnoxious glasses just make him look stupid.

He’s a manipulative, abusive prick.

ANGEL DIDN'T KNOW BOUNDARIES WERE A THING?!?!?!?!?!? (Honestly that explains a lot.)

NOBODY deserves to be in an abusive relationship.

Too many arms. Nobody needs that many. (...Angel has that many?) (Well maybe he shouldn't.)

Ms. Angel keeps coming home all messy!!

He’s ruining hearts for everyone. Me and Angel already have enough. At least those are on our bodies, what’s his excuse?

Hearts should not even be ASSOCIATED with Valentino, THIS IS NOT LOVE.

I can do without all the sexual depravity. While I am in Hell this is NOT one of the reasons.

If I have to hear that ringtone one more damn time-

The Eggies found some of his films. They should never be exposed to such horrors. Now I have to explain what “a sex” is.

Makes picture shows that are a disgrace to the idea of “entertainment.”

He’s making a bad name for Uncle Ozzie. This is NOT “lust.”

So we don’t have to listen to another one of Angel’s pornos. (Agreed, it’s quite horrifying!!)

So Ms. Angel isn’t tired when she gets home and can save the kinky stuff for then :) (Niff, really?)

So the kid stops coming home with bruises and cuts that I fix up at 3 am. (Husk, what the fuck?)

Because what the FUCK Valentino?

He keeps forcing Angel to do drugs. (HE WHAT?! Like crack??) (That but also I’m pretty sure whatever comes out of him is an aphrodisiac.)

I want to use his antenna as a backscratcher

Has that whole red color thing going on. Only I am allowed to wear red :) (Al, your text isn’t even red.) (My what?)

What is up with his red spit and smoke? Seriously disgusting.

The red stuff from him may be what allows Velvette to create her “Love Potions” which funds Vax’s stupid endeavors (Do you mean Vox?) (Who?)

FOR MY COLLECTION :D (…yeah okay.)

Really is making a bad name for Overlords. And not in the fun way.

Angel’s shown trauma signs of abuse in our meetings. Im pretty sure it’s Valentino.

Make a doll out of his fur so I have a main villain for roach puppet shows!!!

His only purpose is to keep Veks occupied but considering Vixen’s inane attempts to catch my attention it isn’t working.

So Angel can have his soul and he and Husk can run off into the sunset together like in a fanfiction!!! (Ah, yes that would be nice.) (WE WHAT?!) (Oh Husker, denial doesn’t suit you.)

So Angel can get a good boyfriend THAT’S NOT ME to stop these bullshit allegations.

So Angel can admit his feelings to Husker because our cat surely isn’t going to be the first to do it. (ALASTOR I SWEAR TO GOD!)

Who knows how many other people he’s abusing.

Seems to give Vicks confidence. He has enough of that as is. It much more fun to destroy him.

He makes Angel sad which makes Cherri sad!

HE HIT ANGEL!!!

Called my dear Rosie an "old hag" NOBODY CALLS ROSIE AN OLD HAG.

Angel is a good friend and deserves so much better.

I’ve forgotten what moths taste like.

He keeps trying to get Angel to move out :(

Told the kid he had to lose weight. What the actual FUCK. (Ill kill him.)

He’s annoying and looks quite stupid. How has this not been added yet?!

He’s making a bad name for Spanish speakers everywhere. (Yeah it’s embarrassing.) (Wait… what?)

He’s making a bad name for pansexuals everywhere.

He’s making a bad name for wing-holders everywhere. (HE HAS FUCKING WINGS?!) (Oh, yeah, I didn’t tell you?)

Too tall. This is ridiculous.

Won’t admit he’s blind so he’s become even more of a public safety hazard.

If I get one more transmission of him and Box commiting lascivious acts someone will be eaten. I don’t care who. What the purpose of these are I don’t know. Advertisement? (I think it’s to make you jealous boss.) (Ha! Jealous of what? Mediocre sex with a pathetic excuse for a businessman with a TV as a head?)

Because Angel deserves fucking better.

[kneelingshadowsalome]

The other day I was reading about the “mail-order brides” during the Gold Fever/Gold Rush in USA. Men ordered/purchased a wife via mail, and one of the many reasons some of them did that was because of loneliness, and I couldn’t help but think “yep, that would be König”. Just imagine him living alone in his farm or ranch, he only goes to town once a month to buy essential supplies, hides his face, and barely socializes with folks. But deep inside he is just a lonely man who desires a family, and a woman to call his (and one who can help him with his… needs) But he is socially inept, so he takes the easy route and orders himself a wife, that way he doesn’t have to bother with interacting with other people and gets himself a pretty wife

Oh my god 💞

König wanting to wed and bed her the minute she arrives by train... She thought he would court her for a while before they marry, she thought they would do this decently, that they would get to know each other first, she’d rent an apartment from the small town and then decide if she wanted to live with him…

But he says everything’s settled, he already took care of everything, they’re getting married today and spend their wedding night in the saloon before leaving for his settlement tomorrow.

She’s too bewildered to even speak, so it's no wonder she gets herded to the altar right away, a pretty, meek little bride is just what König ordered! Gets wed to this giant hulking gold digger while still wearing her traveling clothes, the priest only looks drunk and bored as she peeps her vows. The man she's now wed to looks down at her with unbridled affection and curiosity, but soon enough, she catches him eyeing her waistline, her bust, the corset she wears feeling tighter still by his indecent stare.

He's far from a gentleman, and dresses like a weather-worn cowboy, and she suspected as much from the way he wrote and how unpolished his handwriting was. But at least he seems kind. If anything, he's smitten that she’s not some old hag who deceived him by claiming to be an unmarried young lady, that she is everything and more he wished for based on the few letters they exchanged.

The wedding is over in a few minutes, and there’s no coffee and cake, no party under some big tree, no relatives or friends to congratulate her on her wedding day. There’s only this huge, intimidating man who looks at her like she just dropped down from heavens, his eyes slowly sparking aflame with both softness and lust.

He takes her to the saloon to eat, and then she finds herself in a greasy little room upstairs, changing into her white nightgown, getting ready to sleep and only sleep, but her nightmare of a day is not over yet. Her hand flies over her mouth, she nearly screams as she turns around and finds this horrible man of lowly European descent thoroughly naked behind her.

She’s in so much trouble, that much was certain from the minute he saw this man, but seeing his… equipment in the dim candle light of the old saloon is too much after everything she's gone through. She's verily about to faint.

It’s just her luck to dream of adventures and a happy, exciting new life and then find herself thrown into the arms of some barbaric, foreign giant... He said he’s looking for a companion in life and hinted at being a little lonely, but men who wish to court a lady don’t do it like this: by dragging them to the altar and then presenting their cocks to them before even two hours have passed!

The rowdy noise of cancan downstairs is a filthy backdrop to seeing a naked man for the first time in her life, and she never knew male parts could be so... big. Or jumpy. Or leaky... This man is clearly serious about this commitment, and thinks there’s no need to get to know each other, she’s his wife now and they need to consummate the marriage right away.

He’s breathing heavily while grabbing that weeping weapon in his fist, telling her she’s more beautiful than he ever even imagined. He pleasures himself slowly while watching her try to cover herself in her thin, faintly translucent gown, and she still can't find any words – the man is behaving like a scoundrel or a highwayman, not at all like the sharp dressed, eloquent gentlemen she's grown used to in the city. The slick sounds of lewd fapping are accompanied by moans of how she’s the answer to all his prayers, and her hair stands on end, she feels like she’s walking on tar here in the distant frontier with nothing but greedy men and drunken brothel keepers around her, now face to face with a giant, throbbing cock out of all things...

She coldly orders him to sleep on the floor while she takes the bed – she’s not letting this nasty, hairy beast near her anytime soon, not when she still has her wits about her. Defeated when she won’t let him “consummate their love” tonight, the man withdraws to sleep on the floor with a sullen groan and a long sigh.

She never sleeps a wink that night in fear of finding him by her side, groping his way through her dress, but to her surprise this man only snores on the floor as if he's used to sleeping there.

Civilization is far away when he leads her to his shack the next day and shows her the first small specks of gold he has found, apologizing for the state of his abode so unkempt and unclean. She has to give it to him that he's indeed kind and doesn’t want to make her suffer unduly, because the table and the bench are wiped in a hurry before she sits down, as if she’s a queen visiting a humble subject. He makes her a bath next to the fire and washes in the water after her, giving her flirty, promising smiles throughout the whole splashy ordeal.

Before long, the giant cock is presented to her again as the man excitedly waits for permission to take her, telling her he has never seen anything like her, that she makes his heart run wild.

The only thing running wild in her sour opinion is his cock, bouncing up and down from the need to be inside her, nearly leaking seed on the floor she suspects she has to wash and scrub tomorrow anyhow as his wife. Evening after evening, she rejects his advances, but after a week or two, her will breaks.

She tells herself it’s only out of pity that she lets him finally crawl over her and lift her gown, that it’s only to stop the man from spiraling into madness that she allows him to test how nicely that thick, leaky cock glides through her folds.

“You’re wet, Sonnenschein,” he pants with happy excitement when she notices her swollen, sloppy state, then plunges his cock deep into his wet little prize with a filthy moan. He tells her she’s tight and hot, and takes her like she’s some kind of an angelic whore, falls panting all over her breasts when he’s sated and done, says that she’s his salvation and that he’ll do anything to make her feel at home here.

She feels exactly like a desperate mail order bride, lured here with the promise of a good life and gold, but when she starts to wait for him to come home instead of dreading the end of the day, that's when her hell truly begins.

It just won't do to start wanting him, to trick her heart to be content with whatever this is. To enjoy his "love" would be even more shameful than anything else so far. The truth of the matter is that she's tormented by a lustful, wild man who takes her on her knees or on her stomach like an animal while moaning about how tight she is, how soft she is, how he can’t concentrate at work because of her.

But when he groans that he loves her just before he cums, she feels a distant sting near her heart, a burst of a small bonfire somewhere in her gut from his words. Far from romantic, but so authentic and pure they’re ripped out of him with a pathetic, cry-like moan.

And just when her heart is about to turn and grow full with softness, he barges in and takes her standing, needy after work, deciding that she looks far too alluring while stirring the stew over the fire. His sunshine of a wife waiting for him with warm food and a soft little cunt, it's exactly like it was always meant to be in his dreams... He’s kind and attentive, but doesn’t know a thing about ladies and that they’re not supposed to be taken by the fire like this, but the dramatic pout on her lips turns into a helpless grimace before this animal has given her three full thrusts.

And it’s only by accident, she tells herself, that it happens. It’s only a coincidence that she finds herself short of breath and shivering, then crying with pleasure from the way his cock sails inside her, hasty and needy as if she’s nothing but a momentary relief for this man.

But she knows she’s far from that. He always stays after the hurried lovemaking – if you could call it that – swallows and tells her things that are supposed to be sweet, perhaps. He whispers loving nonsense in her ear with a stupid, quivering voice, tells her that she’s so tight he’s about to lose his mind. That she brightens up his life and makes this shack a home, a palace, even. That he wants to give her children and grow old together.

She prays the heavens to save her from such a future, but when she accidentally comes with his cock inside her, the man breaks down entirely. Repeats the awful, pathetic “I love you” until he comes, too, and sounds like a man who's getting his sould ripped apart from his bones. It’s sinful lunacy what he’s doing to her in that shack, and dares to sprinkle it with love out of all things, and she doesn’t know if she hates him, or if she loves him too.

Annulling this marriage is nearly impossible, and the sooner he gets her pregnant, the sooner she’s even more trapped, just like the poor rabbits this man lures into the snares placed around the shack. He spends every little speck of gold to buy her silks, satins and gowns, proper woolen scarves and soft little leather shoes, gives her a gentle kiss every morning before he leaves to wash gold. Every evening after meal, he praises her cooking skills and then takes her on the creaking old bed like she's a common whore. The silly, girlish dreams of being whisked away by a mysterious, romantic gentleman are somewhere far away when this giant spills his seed inside her with a thick, arduous groan, then proceeds to cover her in kisses too sweaty and hot.

“I know you don’t love me,” he whispers between the one-sided sucking and nibbling that’s about to make her cry. “But I will make you happy... I swear it, on my life.”

She can only stare at the ceiling, filled with the dancing flames of the fire as he falls asleep with his cock still inside her, the soft snore on her breasts both happy and sad.

[wolven-maw]

YO IF YOU WANT BLACK METAL MADE BY TRANS WOMEN CHECK OUT:

Feminazgul

Winter Lantern

Karnstein

Bury Them and Keep Quiet

Feminizer

Everson Poe

Ophelia Drowning

Agriculture

Lust Hag

Sanguine Wounds

Underdark

Ashenheart

Wolven Daughter (me)

[transfemme-shelterdog]

List of small, lesser known queer metal bands:

Sonja – Loud Arriver (Trans woman lead singer) [Gothic metal]

Crossspitter – Dry and Grinding Mouth (Trans woman) [Death Metal]

Pupil Slicer – Blossom (Trans woman lead singer) [Mathcore/Post-Grindcore]

Sunrot – The Unfailing Rope (Enby lead singer) [Sludge/Doom/Drone Metal]

Victory Over the Sun (formerly Cichy Duch) – Dance you Monster to my Soft Song(Trans woman solo project) [Blackened Sludge Metal/Avant-garde Black Metal]

Rage of Devils – Life of Horror (Trans woman solo project) [Raw Black Metal]

Antecantamentum - Saturnine December (trans woman solo project) [Symphonic Black Metal]

A Constant Knowledge of Death - DISSECTING A ONE-WINGED BIRD (trans woman vocalist/guitarist/drummer) [Progressive Sludge/Post-Metal]

Thou – Ceremonies of Humiliation (enby guitarist) [Sludge/Drone/Doom Metal]

Body Void – Atrocity Machine (enby lead singer) [Sludge/Drone/Doom Metal]

SEED – Dun Pageant (mixed trans band) [Doom Metal]

Astral Ruin - Envisaging Extradimensional Encounters (trans woman solo project) [Black Metal]

Agriculture – Living is Easy (trans woman lead singer) [Black Metal]

Underdark – Our Bodies Burned Bright on Re-Entry (trans woman lead singer) [Post Black Metal]

Winter Lantern – Hexen Lied (fully trans woman band) [Black Metal]

Vile Creature - Glory, Glory! Apathy Took Helm! (enby vocalist) [Sludge/Drone/Doom Metal]

Project: Roenwolfe - Project: Roenwolfe (trans woman guitarist and trans woman bassist) [Power Metal]

Transgressive – Extreme Transgression (trans woman vocalist/guitarist and bassist [Same as [Roenwolfe]) [Thrash Metal]

Saahrg – Anagram (trans masc solo project)[Black Metal]

Feminizer – Feminizer (trans woman solo project)[DSBM]

Daughter – Silhouettes (trans woman solo project)[DSBM]

Anna Pest – Forlorn (trans woman singer)[Atmospheric/Depressive/Melodic Black Metal]

Biesy – Transsatanizm (drag queen solo project)[Industrial Black Metal]

Awenden – Golden Hour (enby vocalists)[Atmospheric Black Metal]

A Feast for Lampreys – Graveyard Abyss (trans woman solo project)[Melodic Black Metal]

Dzö-nga – Thunder in the Mountains (trans woman, same vocalist from Feast for Lampreys)[Ambient Folk Black Metal]

Everson Poe – Grief (trans woman solo project)[Post-Black/Doom/Sludge Metal]

Xegren – Black Spell Congregation (trans woman solo project)[Black Metal]

BALLISTA – TRANS DAY OF VIOLENCE (trans woman singer)[Death Metal]

The Hallowed Catharsis – Solar Cremation (trans woman singer)[Progressive Death Metal]

Coven of the Pestilent One - Corrosion (enby solo project)[Black Metal]

Rosa Faenskap - Jeg Blir Til Deg (Gender Queer/Enby guitarist/backing and supporting vocals)[Blackgaze]

Feminazgûl - No Dawn for Men (trans guitarist)[Atmospheric Black Metal]

Soulmass - Despairing Fates (enby lead singer) [Death/Doom Metal]

Tombseeker- MMXXIII (trans woman guitarist)[Death Metal]

Lust Hag - Lust Hag (trans woman solo project)[Black Metal]

Ocean of Ghosts - I am Awake and my Body is on Fire (trans woman solo project)[Doom/Blackgaze]

Lacrimorta - Lacrimorta (trans woman solo project)[Symphonic Metal]

Maru - The Last (trans femme solo project)[Progressive Black Metal]

Wraithstorm - Unseen and Unfound (trans bassist and vocalist)[Funeral Doom]

NOCTORAN - 2023 | NOCTORAN I​-​III (trans woman solo project)[USBM]

Distend - IX (enby solo project)[Post Black Metal]

Desire Line - Lustful Witch (trans woman solo project)[Raw Black Metal]

Lascaille's Shroud - The Gold Flesh of the Sun (queer solo project)[Progressive Doom Metal]

HOLY GRINDER - 10 DESECRATIONS (queer/trans band)[Grindcore]

BATH - Attys (queer band)[Sludge Doom Metal]

Mar - Everything is Alive (queer band)[Sludge Doom Metal]

Unending Grief - Unending Grief (queer band)[DSBM]

Adrianne - Night Songs (queer solo project)[Folk Black Metal]

buriedbutstillbreathing - EXHUMATION (queer band)[Deathcore]

Profundae Libidines - Ce n'est pas un choix (trans solo project)[Avant Garde Black Metal]

Hotel Homicide - Hotel Homicide (gay lead singer/queer band)[Melodic Metal]

DYSPHORIKA - NEKROFIEND (trans solo project)[Bestial Black Metal]

The Andrew Hussie Boogaloo - the only good thing roger ailes ever did was die (queer solo project)[Mathcore]

Ghosts Of Catharsis - Consume the Sky (queer solo project)[Mathcore]

Milkman (cincinnati) - Tape #1 (queer band)[Depressive Post Black Metal]

Sadness - The most beautiful girl in the world (enby solo project) [Blackgaze/DSBM]

Vokonis - The Sunken Djinn (trans woman lead singer)[Doom/Sludge]

bimb0nicplague - Bimbo Torture (trans women band)[Goregrind]

Bury Them and Keep Quiet - Eternal Transience Of Being (trans woman solo project)[Black Metal]

Sleeping Peonies - Ghosts, and Other Things (trans woman band)[Blackgaze]

Dysphorectomy - Demo 2024 (trans woman solo project)[BSDM]

Hectic Polarity - Death in Crimson (trans solo project)[Sludge/Industrial]

Diva Karr - Hardly Still Walking, Not Yet Flying (MtF/Enby vox and noise) [Black/Noise]

GROOMER - GROOMER (trans woman solo project)[Blackened Grindcore]

THMPRSS - Glaive of Hodir / Cloaked Matriarch (Enby solo project)[Black Metal]

Nameless Mist - Lifeless (trans woman solo project)[DSBM]

Colossal Death God - despite everything, we're all still here (trans woman solo project)[Math/Deathcore]

Wolven Daughter - Gospel of the Claw (trans woman solo project)[Raw Black Metal]

Greyfleshthered - The Dark Being (trans woman solo project)[Industrial/Electronic/Atmospheric Black Metal]

The Sun Came Up Upon The Left - Sounds We Make Through Wind (trans woman solo project)[Doom/Black Metal]

Leper Angel - Pest (trans female fronted band)[Atmospheric Black Metal]

Bull of Apis Bull of Bronze - The Fractal Ouroboros (trans femme guitarist)[Ambient Black Metal]

Cold July - Maybe it's for the Best (trans woman solo project)[Romantic DSBM]

Sorry... - Drowned in Misery (trans woman vocalist)[DSBM]

Shroud of Blight - Years of Failure (trans woman solo project)[Ambient DSBM]

Shallow Existence - Be Happy, Life is Worth Living (trans woman solo project)[DSBM]

Necroplanet - Negative Space (trans woman lead singer)[Blackened Funeral Doom Metal]

Yagrum Bagarn - In the Corprusarium (trans woman lead singer)[Blackgaze]

Jisei - POSITIVE AFFIRMATIONS (trans woman solo project)[Deathcore/Slam]

Thotcrime - Connection Anxiety (trans woman band)[Cybergrind]

(Many have extensive discographies, and these albums recs are often just starting points, if you enjoy one album from an artist, check out the rest!)

Every single artist here has their music available to stream for free on Bandcamp and/or YouTube, and if you really enjoy it, please give their work a purchase if you can afford it, and enjoy it. <3

Disclaimer: Although I personally know quite a few of these artists through meeting them at shows they attended, or through online conversation, I don't get any kickbacks from sales. Every single artist here is one I genuinely enjoy and have supported on my own.

[chimivx]

love triangles. the blurriest lines. broken hearts. pure, raw, lust fueled passion.

↠ listen to the playlist! ↠ taehyun ↠ beomgyu ↠ soobin

'i know i love you. say you love me, say you love me...'

no matter what i do ↠ 2023 ↠ Two years after an end-all argument with Taehyun, you’re forced to spend Christmas weekend together at your mother’s, and his father’s. Once upon a time he meant the world to you. Now that you’re both married with kids, things are getting messy, and a little blurry. The longer you stick around in the home you both grew up in, the more secrets come out… It’s always been messy, it was always blurry. All you want, all you truly yearn for, is to get back on good terms with Taehyun.

cruel summer [ 1 ] ↠ 2011 ↠ It’s the summer of 2011! You and your boys are twenty years old with zero responsibilities, free to enjoy the summer. The summer you realized you fell in love twice, and almost died. HAGS!!

sleepovers ↠ 2011 ↠ Sleepovers at Jungkooks are the best. But, what happens the night you stay after your weekend away with the boys? Not what you think.

cruel summer [ 2 ] ↠ 2011 ↠ Taehyun won't give it up. Beomgyu won't give in.

ghosting [ 1 ] ↠ 2015/2019 ↠ Life with Soobin. How could anyone leave this behind?

ghosting [ 2 ] ↠ 2020 ↠ Consequences.

ghosting [ 3 ] ↠ 2020/2021 ↠ 2 + 2 = 5...

ghosting [ 4 ] ↠ 2017/2022 ↠ Unlawfully loved.

ghosting [ 5 ] ↠ 2023/2024 ↠ The last letter. The final straw.

ghosting [ 6 ] ↠ 2024 ↠ Do what it takes.

Hyunjin and his family appear in the Haven & Taste series... Find out about their past and where they've come from in the dual POV series!

read it on AO3 ☼ talk to me ☼ scroll the tag [nmwid]

[notbecauseofvictories]

I think I saw you shared a list of books you’d read a couple years ago and was it you who read something like 350+ books in a single year? If so that’s absolutely remarkable and I’d love to see a list of top ten (or twenty or whatever number) of books you’ve read this year that you recommend

Don't be ridiculous, I only read 303 books in 2021! That's much more reasonable than 350. And I've read fewer and fewer each year since---this year I don't think I'm going to crack 50, though I still have a couple days.

Still, always happy to talk about what I enjoyed. Books are listed in vaguely chronological order, though I make no promises.

Patricia Wants to Cuddle, Samantha Allen

I've mentioned this book before, but essentially I put in the library request solely for the improbability of the premise---The Bachelor heads to the PNW and encounters Bigfoot? Fortunately, it delivered on that promise magnificently. A breezy and delightfully gruesome little novel with a bodycount.

Are You My Mother?, Alison Bechdel

I didn't viscerally connect with this one as much as "Fun Home" but I think it might be because it's…closer to the bone for me. When Bechdel writes about the longing for a mother that can't be answered, pulling back, pleasing, an anger that becomes unspeakable, re-routed to anxiety…it's uh. well it's churned up the silt, let's put it that way.

Greener Pastures, Michael Wehunt

I love short stories, but finding those authors who hit the right notes unerringly, in such a brief space, can be tricky sometimes. Wehunt is the rare exception, strange and unique as a writer, dream-like in his descriptions and images. "October Film Haunt: Under the House" was my favorite, though I can't say for sure whether it's because I recognized the framing device or it was just fun to read…

Running with Scissors, A Wolf at the Table, Lust & Wonder, Augusten Burroughs

I read these out of order (Lust & Wonder first, then the other two) but even so, I was wildly impressed. Lust & Wonder was a revelation; I stumbled on it in the library and walked out with it the same day. No wonder people tell you to read his books, he's got such a clear-eyed meanness, an interesting sort of canniness to his depiction of himself, the people in his life…it really does demonstrate that there is no such thing as a boring life, just a boring narrator. But if Lust & Wonder is Burroughs at the height of his power, Running with Scissors and Wolf at the Table are the necessary steps up to it. More unfinished, more raw---a litany of horrors, not even leavened by that same canny, mean humor that flashes through L&W. It's just horrifically sad to watch every person around this kid fail him, leave, or both; terrifying and unexpectedly funny and yet tender as a sucking wound.

The Princess Bride, William Goldman

I picked this up entirely by chance and ended up being deeply charmed. I don't know what I was expecting---well, no, that's not true, I was expecting the film. But what I got instead was something almost real, pleasantly rough around the edges as Goldman's caustic narration winds its way from Florin to the machinations of S. Morgenstern's lawyers, to his struggles with raising his son. (One of the funniest scenes was when he goes to meet S. Morgenstern's lawyer, and the ravishingly beautiful attorney becomes a horrible old hag the more she talks about how he won't be granted a license.) I was afraid the book would be twee, but at the center of it is a pure (if slightly embarrassing, but truth generally is outside of Florin) love of stories, and wanting stories told.

In the Woods, The Likeness, Broken Harbor, Tana French

As I've said before, I started reading this series because I was traveling to Ireland and thought it seemed appropriate. I didn't go too deep into French's oeuvre, mostly because I couldn't shake wanting the books to be urban fantasy rather than gripping psychological portraits with a decidedly noir sensibility. Still, the books themselves are taut and fascinating, the portraits they paint of the Dublin Murder Squad (all of whom are staggering, wounded in their own ways) and the blighted, post-Celtic Tiger Ireland, are deeply compelling. Also, I do still think The Likeness is a perfect answer to The Secret History.

Lesser Known Monsters of the 21st Century, Kim Fu

There's something truly powerful in a short story that doesn't answer any questions or provide you with any sort of guidance---just walks in and rearranges your photographs so they're slightly off-kilter, leaves you with that destabilization. It's almost spiritual, that sense. In particular, there's a story in the collection about the world's sense of taste disappearing; a woman begins crafting art installations to try and recreate the experience of eating a pear, what your favorite family meal tasted like. Short stories are like that.

Perilous Times, Thomas D. Lee

I was surprised by this one. I know that's how I've described half the books above, but truly, this surprised me---not so much the rising action or plot (there's a sleeping king, knights around a table, a dragon) but I loved the setting so much. The depiction of a slightly-futuristic UK as drowning land sold off for parts; figures like immortal spymaster Marlowe coexisting with reborn Lancelot and Kay; the fay hovering around the edges; and then just….all the factions, the Welsh royalists and men's rights group propped up by military contractors; environmental activists, the references to the hodgepodge that existed in the 4th century AD too. More than anything, the novel conveyed how Britain's always been a place of change, the movement of people and permeable barriers, and that more than anything worked for me. (Also, it's a small thing but I loved how the Camelot crew translated modern concepts and objects into their language and knowledge of the world. It was always shown as hesitation rather than total shock, and I found it both moving and persuasive.)

A Cup of Salt Tears, Isabel Yap

I read this in a series of speculative novellas, which impressed on me yet again how hard it must be to write novellas. (Last year, one of my least favorite books was a novella; I still think about it with joyful hate.) However, Yap takes care to focus on single, brief narrative, concerns herself solely with the very small yet very significant issue of a woman, her husband, who and how she loves, wrapped up together with a kappa. Excellent, haunting.

Books of 2020 | Books of 2021 | Books of 2022

[ichimakesart]

You give her your answer.

The Hag looks at all of you with her piercing eye.

As if Estimating.

Or counting...

"You have Chosen"

"The ones that share."

"Your tongues are now borrowed posessions."

"Your thoughts are side by side with my own."

"Your secrets are my secrets, your lust, anger, envy all laid bare in front of me."

The Hag has entered the minds of part of your community. Taking place in their hearts forever. A truly strenuous burden for the chosen.

But what is the most important for the rest of you.

They are in the minority.

The Hag will not meddle your plans....much.

"The Deal is paid."

Finally it is time for the Hag's part of the deal.

You listen.