Love is gone..
Characters: Freelancer/ Gavin- Gavin/lasko
Tw: cheating, yelling, cursing, mentions of NSFW.
@badwolf52 freelancer angst?
I was driving home from school when this sinking feeling came to my stomach. I thought I might have been nerves or something like that but I guess not.
I felt disgusting, and the thing is I don’t even know why- I haven’t eaten in a while, yeah that’s probably it, I’ll eat something. But no matter how much I tried to convince myself I just needed to eat I couldn’t be settled on that answer alone. ‘What was wrong?’
I pulled up to maxes rustic pizza and sat in the car for a second. I needed to breathe. It will all be better if I just breathe…right?
5 minutes go by and I’m still in my car, I eventually get my wallet from the glove box- you sigh a picture of Gavin in it- I start to smile, It was a picture of us on our third date, smiling and giddy, gav, as handsome as ever
‘I really love him’ I thought to myself rethinking all of the time we’ve spent together
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“Hi welcome to maxes rustic pizza! What can I get you this fine day?” The Guy behind the counter asked. I wanted to get Gavin something as well though,
“Excuse me one minute I just need to text my boyfriend, so sorry.” He nodded with a smile and I pulled out my phone
I got distracted again, my lockscreen was Gavin. He was so cute I mused for a second-
I snapped back to reality. I clicked the text app icon and went to my pinned contacts first one there- Gavin💜
Freelancer: hey gav. I’m at maxes is there anything specific you want?
^ delivered
Why wasn’t he answering? That’s weird. Maybe he’s sleeping right? Okaayy but it’s Gavin. He wouldn’t go to bed by himself- unless he’s really tired, yeah that’s it he’s tired.
“Excuse me? Are you ready to order?” I was back from my long train of thought. “Oh right uhm, can I get, a small Hawaiian pizza?” I said as he punched some words into his register.
“That’ll be 7.89$” i reached into my wallet scrounging around to find my card, when allas I found it!
I handed him my card, there was an awkward two seconds while he was swiping my card, and it was registering.
“If you don’t mind going over into the waiting area?”
I nodded and walked over to the area that had a big sign that said,
‘WAITING’
I decided to try my luck with lasko. Maybe he’ll want to come over for dinner
Freelancer: hey lasko, are you busy tonight?
^ delivered
Why the fuck were neither of them answering?
That feeling was back. Were they okay?
“Order for (freelancer)?” The guy behind the counter yelled,I got up and quickly grabbed the pizza, said thank you and left.
I got in my car, gently placing the box of pizza on the passenger seat. I tightly gripped the wheel. Once again my stomach was turning every which way. It didn’t matter right now I’ll just drive home and everything will be just fine.
The drive home was awful. I kept adjusting my seat, I got cut off, honked at, flipped off, my phone wouldn’t even connect to Bluetooth/Aux.
it’ll all be better once I get home.
I pulled up to the house and there laskos car was. In my parking spot. That means I have to park on the side of the road and lasko and Gavin were ignoring me or something.
I walked past the windows all the lights were off. We’re they watching a movie? I scrounged through my bag to find my house key, when I finally found it.
I walked inside to see clothes scattered on the floor. As if they had been thrown carelessly. I took one whiff of the air and the stench of burning liquor was vivid.
I walked into the kitchen to set the pizza down to see three empty beer bottles and two unopened bottles
‘What is going on?’ I thought too myself. I reluctantly placed the pizza on the counter, and walked toward the hallway.
“Gav? Lasko?” I said in a assertive tone.
I heard a very faint
“shit.”
“You guys in there?” I said knocking on the bedroom door once and then opening it
The second I opened the door my heart sank. There Gavin, shirtless, no less and lasko was shirtless both rushing frantically to put their clothes on.
That hurt, the person I dedicated three years too, the person, who’s seen my vulnerability, my tears, my pain, my sadness, and happiness, everything, and he just threw it way like it was nothing..
Gavin looked guiltily at me, as if he was trying to say sorry with his eyes, didn’t work but he tried
“Deviant-“ he started, I didn’t want to hear any of “n-no Gavin, I don’t want to hear it.” I said not making eye contact, and ran out of the roon
“Freelancer wait!” Lasko yelled from the other room as I walked back to the kitchen to find my keys
A few silent tears fell from my eyes, making it blurry and hard to see anything, I just wanted to go, I want to leave, and never talk to him- or lasko ever again... Gavin grabbed my hand.
“Deviant,” I cut him off again
“That’s not my name.” I said quietly
“What?” He dropped my hand
“I said, that’s not my Fucking name.” I said about to explode, anger, Fury, and rage, but also pain, sadness, and confusion ‘am I not enough?’ I painfully thought to myself
Lasko ran out of the room with a shirt on buttons sloppily done hair frizzy, sweating, and flushed.
“I- I can’t believe you would, do this Gavin, what did I ever do to you!” I said crying, anger spilling out, I couldn’t hold it in anymore
“(Freelancer) I’m so sorry my love. I- was,”
“I told you to call me by my name. Don’t call me ‘my love’ . Because this,” I pointed at him and lasko ,” is not love. Not for me anyway.”
“Please give me another chance. We- we were drinking, next thing you know,” I stopped him a finger sharply pointed up signaling him to not talk anymore
“I don’t want to know what happened next. I already do.”
Lasko tried to say something but I shut him up
“Fuck off lasko. You too Gavin. We’re- we’re done.” I said that last part with that confidence I never had. Or never thought I could have, anyway.
“Freelancer.”
“I loved you, I gave you all I had, I poured my heart out to you, fuck Gavin I do love you. But I can’t do this anymore.” I grabbed my car keys and left, this hellhole- on my way out, Gavin clenched his chest- the emotion overwhelming him, but I don’t care, it’s not my fault.
Part 2? I dunno
@maplecrow and @essbi24 you guys said you wanted it so I thought you should read it first
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