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#maybe im just being sensitive. idk
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just like.....the bizarre vitriolic hatred i see on here for autistic ppl who like "childish" things made for little kids is so frustrating and heartbreaking to me. allistics already hate us and infantilize us, so they see an autistic person who happen to like something "childish" and mock us for it.
but what really breaks my heart is seeing OTHER autistic ppl who think of themselves as being "better" than those who like "childish" things and make fun of them bc theyve been taught to hate by an ableist society. doesnt it get exhausting. doesnt it hurt inside to be full of the lies and hatred neurotypicals taught you. doesnt it hurt to take out that hatred on your fellow autistic ppl, to mock them for something that allistics already mock them for. why. why do you do this. who did this to you.
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otter-pup · 1 year
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The stream of the new liquid being pumped down your throat doesn't stop, even once you're pliant again. The tentacle in your mouth continues to pump it down your throat, the taste almost addicting with how sweet it is.
The new eggs are indeed equal to two normal ones. Each time on passes through your cervix, a stretches, but you've long grown used to it. Your stomach is so large now you can't even think of moving. With how large its gotten it would seem like even the tentacles would struggle with just getting you up on your legs. Not it'd ever happen, considering how willingly you are to sit amongst the tentacles.
When the time comes to lay the new, larger clutch, it'll take you more effort. These eggs are larger and they require more energy to push. A single egg takes you much longer to push than the smaller eggs. And the tentacles don't seem patient, having gotten used to you laying the eggs whilst they pump new eggs into you. So while you're only on laying the third egg, the tentacles opt to speed things up. The ones outside your body press down on your belly, applying pressure. Any noises of protest or trying to wiggle away is stopped as the aphrodisiac is near flooded down your throat by the tentacle in your mouth, forcing you to swallow and any thoughts of resisting melting away.
The tentacles continue to push down on your belly, forcing you to lay the larger eggs continously. When you cum its more intense and the slick allows the eggs to slip out of your cunt in a constant stream. Your cunt is stretched wide, not getting a single break as you continue to lay the eggs. The new larger eggs are pumped into you quickly, matching how quickly the eggs are coming out of you.
Once you're done laying, the tentacles finally move away from your belly, no longer pressing down on it. Oddly, another tentacle joins the old on in your mouth and begins to pump down the same liquid the other one is. More want, more need overtakes you. You need to be an incubator for these eggs. You need to be as big as possible. You need to heavier. You need more, more, more, more.
More tentacles join the others in your cunt, not swapping out. They begin to pump the larger eggs into you as well, making your belly swells even faster. The tentacles responsible for giving you the liquid that allows your skin to stretch and your womb to stretch are back as well. Pumping and moving in tandem with the eggs being laid in your stuffed womb, keeping you out of pain.
It seems your laying of the larger eggs got them excited, puppy. I hope you're ready for your largest clutch yet.
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i get used to the feeling of being constantly dazed from the liquid, to the point where I don’t even remember that it’s not normal. im so happy and comfortable like this, swollen so big, getting a little bigger with each passing minute.
the tentacles don’t seem to lay as fast when im not laying, so the growth is slower, but it’s so pleasing feeling my cervix stretch around each egg that I forget any fear I had about their size and just moan at each one popping into my womb, forcing the other eggs to shift to make room and my stomach to stretch even further. any thought of trying to leave is long gone, and any possibility of even walking to a different part of the cave or even just changing positions is gone too.
i don’t expect the struggle that comes with laying these new eggs. im groaning as i push twice as hard as id usually have to, just for one egg to make it halfway out of my cunt. the tentacles wait at first, but i feel the exact moment they decide im taking too long, the ones in my cunt moving to stretch it out more and the ones on my belly being joined by even more and pushing down.
i cry out, but I don’t even get to try to move before the tentacle in my mouth starts pouring its liquid down my throat full force, immediately making my head fuzzy, the only coherent thought the need to push and lay like a good incubator.
eggs are being forced out of my womb one behind the other, my cervix barely getting a second between each stretch, my cunt not granted any of that same mercy as i push, each egg that pops out being followed by another right behind it. cumming only speeds it up, forcing more eggs out at once, so the tentacles start stimulating my tdick too as the tentacles finally start laying new eggs.
by the time im done, i can’t think at all. im not just pliant, im completely limp in the tentacles surrounding me. the new tentacle in my mouth doesn’t particularly change that, but it returns some thoughts to my head: insistent ones, telling me I’m not big enough, that I need to be a good incubator and take more eggs and get bigger.
i listen, whining and trying to plead through a full mouth for more. the tentacles listen, multiple others shoving into my cunt and through my cervix while the liquid one joins them, my belly being covered in more of the slime, eggs being pumped through my cervix multiple at a time, belly stretching faster than ever before.
if i wasn’t so dumbed down, id realize I’m far more egg than person by now, my womb swollen to overtake the rest of my body, my sole purpose to carry and lay the tentacles eggs. you could tell me that, but in my current state I think it would only make me want to stay like this, to keep getting bigger, to fulfill my purpose as well and as much as I can.
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slaygentford · 1 year
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I keep seeing that one poll going around saying wide Sargasso Sea is Jane eyre fanfiction and while I’m not opposed to saying soemthing is fanfiction I would strongly suggest that you think about that assertion for like. 1 or even .5 seconds or even like .3 or .003 seconds. Like I’m really really really really really. Really. I’m really. I’m really asking begging requesting that everyone take a step back on what we’re saying here
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oscill4te · 8 months
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i always wanna preface convos with new people im connecting with as "hi. warning that i can be very awkward." then proceed to yknow. Connecting and getting to know them.
but i feel like socially the "im awkward jsyk" just a bad idea like it sounds self depreciating??? but i know i am going to be awkward regardless and some ppl take offense which is why i wanna warn em... do you just not warn ppl and let em deal with any discomfort they may feel when you're going mute and silent? Or warn them. Lol.. dilemma that is always in my head
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hauntedtotem · 23 days
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I think the biggest red flag for me regarding the hopelesspeaches and lio convoy stuff, their entire group (especially lio) has near identical speech patterns and dynamics as my mom's online friend group. Which is less of a red flag and more of a raging wildfire tbh
#I listened to all the calls when they 'leaked' but I didn't know they were leaks I thought lio posted that stuff proudly#I didn't know that they weren't meant to be seen by the public until just now lol#Anyways I'm pleasantly surprised people are talking about how fucked up they were#Bc tbh when I was like 'oh this makes peaches (and everyone else) look like a bitch kinda' the first time I heard the calls-#I thought I was maybe being too judgey or sensitive or something?#But now everyone else is like 'yeah they are all being bitches actually' im like. Oh! So I understood right and wasn't just overreacting#Mostly bc lio was ranting about being a conservative Christian and weird 'nuclear family values' on one call and my immediate thought was#'oh gross Im too biased against this man to be able to look at this-#-discussion objectively. I'm gonna think he sucks regardless of the situation and therefore idk lf im a fair judge ?'#So it's cool to get confirmation from other ppl saying 'oh no ur right he sucks and here's why'#this is the 2nd time this week I got 'no youre not just overreacting. Other ppl are upset too' validation abt a topic. cool#//shade#I'm sure there's plenty of found family groups online that are great but so many of the ones i hear abt feel like a cult imo#My mom is in a group where this dude calls her and other women there his daughters like lio does to peaches and it feels gross to me idk#Ik everyone craves found family connections but. Idkk it feels weird to be taking that in a literal sense and calling them dad/my daughter#Feels like introducing unnecessary power dynamics.#Theres a difference between 'oh this person is like family to me because we're so close'#vs 'oh i am adopting this person and assuming a parental position over them'. that sounds unhealthy I think ?#Edit I just found out lio posted a response but it's midnight and I have a date tomorrow I'm not watching that rn lol#imo both him and peaches are bad and idc if one is worse than the other or whatever.#Peaches has been two faced for a while; lio might've taken advantage of her bc he's kinda creepy. They're both saying the other abused them#This is like jade and julian talking shit about each other to me. Idc guys I hate both of u srry <3#Iykyk
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tragedykery · 1 year
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I hate. complicated friendships
#I love her but also.#I feel like such a bad friend for complaining about her but she’s just so. incredibly inconsiderate#like we planned to hang out ish at 1 pm today. suddenly she texts me like ‘hey I’m coming around 14:30 instead’#she knows I’m autistic too she knows how important having a schedule is for me and she pulls sth like that??#maybe it’s the fact that she’s an only child but ​she just expects the world and everyone else to accommodate for her#one time we were on a school trip and I was nauseous and I mentioned that to her and she just. made it all about herself???#like I get she’s got emetophobia but turning the conversation into a fifteen-minute-long rant about if I vomited to please not do it#anywhere she could see bc if I did she would cry and feel absolutely terrible for the rest of the day and etc etc etc#like bestie IM the one who’s sick here???#and like 50% of our conversations are just her venting at me (even more if you count the ones over text) and it’s. I don’t mind it when it’s#a normal amoun but she just treats me like an object for her to vent at and I Understand there’s stuff she can’t tell her therapist/coach bc#he knows her parents and she’s afraid he’ll tell on her if she talks about gender stuff (she’s not out) and I’m the closest trans friend she#has so I’m the person who understands it the best but it’s just. SO much#(but the moment I vent for once I just feel like she. doesn’t listen and that she thinks I’m just being too sensitive)#and that’s definitely my fault too bc idk how to communicate when she makes me uncomfortable with stuff like that#and she’s autistic too and doesn’t understand hints at all so I’d need to just State it and that feels so incredibly mean but.#there’s more instances I’m not typing out but just. ugh. I love her I really do and I feel like such a child for complaining about her on#tumblr dot com and I know I’m at fault too for not communicating when she makes me uncomfortable I’m not pretending I’m not to blame at all#but she’s self-centred and inconsiderate and. ugh#vent#elli rambles
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quietwingsinthesky · 2 months
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most frustrating part of writing a doctor who oc is that the doctor and the master will both sometimes just fuck off and do their own thing for a hundred years and be unfazed by it because they are functionally immortal. and i can’t stick my oc with them because they’ll just. die. so what, do i just put them in a pen until those guys get back? spruce up their enclosure while they’re waiting to get picked up to go on adventures again?
#yes yes the mortality of a companion against the doctor’s long life is part of the point its part of the tragedy but consider: i want them#to also be there so they can get into shenanigans. and not die of old age before im done letting them do shenanigans#look either i kick even out of the tardis every time these guys go do immortal shit or i find a was to Fix this problem and i dont really#know how to do either of these yet. ill figure it out#i *do* know that they’re not with missy while she’s setting up the cybermen plan over hundreds of years. maybe for brief moments when missy#wants an extra hand or eye candy or something else but mostly even’s stuck at the end feeling nauseous as missy goes about rewriting time to#make cyberzombies. not nauseous because of the cyberzombies. to be clear. they’ve just spent enough time fucking around with tardises and#time wars and the like that they’re a little sensitive to shit getting messed around with. tummyaches :(#id think a lot of companions get this eventually. i think the ponds definitely did. to me anyway. they should.#background tardis time vortex radiation idk how science works. but it gives even tummyaches.#i got distracted i was talking about mortality and how to prevent them dying too soon.#mostly even’s there to run the ‘business’ while missy’s away. they’re very good at being given a Job.#and this job is supposed to fix everything forever once they get the doctor onboard. it doesn’t. but even thinks it will. which is what#matters in the end.#dw oc
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regina-cordium · 4 months
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Customer: [walks in]
Me: hello!
Customer: [makes eye contact with me before walking away]
Me: ……okay I’ll just go fuck my self I guess
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opens-up-4-nobody · 4 months
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#hello darkness my old friend. I have insomnia again#it seems i wont get back to sleep. making this the 4th night in a row of 4 to 5hrs sleep. woof#is it insomnia or am i on the bleeding edge of hyp0mania? idk its weird. i can feel the strain in my head#my thoughts dont connect as well. its like im being pulled in two directions. my brain becoming spaghettified. growing thin around the#middle. but im not as tired as one might expect. ive been pretty productive and optimistic but anxiety and internal restlessness are up#like im tired but also i need to get up and pace around. maybe jump up and down. maybe run in circles.#the energy comes in waves. sitting in lectures or sitting for the extended addition of l0tr has been somewhat unbearable#bc im so contained. i would not ever get up and walk around while those things were happening but i desperately wanted to#ugh. whats my problem? who's to say. could also b the medication. i see the psychiatrist next week and i think ill beg to b put back on#lam1ctal. just bc when i was taking it on a super low does i had a week or feeling the most normal i think i ever have in my life#anxiety and evil thoughts were so small and i felt happy in a way im not sure i ever have been#like i think under normal circumstances i just have a low capacity for joy. at most i feel neutral. like i was telling my friends how i#might do some field work in winter and they were enthusiastic abt it and i kno y bc it sounds cool but idk i just dont feel anything abt it#i cant see past the pain it will take to get there. and i mean mood wise i feel alright on 4bilify like in a nutral way but stable isnt#the same as feeling happy. but maybe its all just in my head. 25mg lam1ctal shouldnt b enough to b effective#but idk i think im just sensitive to the chemicals in my body. including hormone fluctuations. idk. i hope she lets me switch.#itll b a pain in the ass to readjust in terms of going off what im on now and it might not work#but theres literature on retrying lamicta1 and they say to avoid inflammatory reactions in the first 2 months. which i did not do. oops#not that i was trying. i didnt think abt it until id had a million holes poked in my skin and was experiencing a mild tatt00 allergy#ugh. anyway. tbh id prefer this being hyp0mania vs insomnia bc then at least i can continue to function a bit during the day#ive never done anything that wild while hyp0manic aside from injure myself from over exercising and make bad choices in how i spend time#ie become insane abt something and not b able to think abt anything else. ugh. and i guess at this point ive tentatively accepted the idea#of being bip0lar. so i swear to christ if i was misdiagnosed ill b so mad. its just that if i fill out an 4dhd and bip0lar checklist. i#get a way heavy positive with bip0lar and the 4dhd is meh. so i think i just have overlap in symptoms due to dyslex1a and 4utism#ugh. me and my collection of diagnoses. so it goes#unrelated
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firelord-boomerang · 9 months
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who said mean things D: i’m un-meaning their means actually ✨🪄✨ i’m liking your posts twice as hard now to even it out
very sweet of you anon! i was talking about people who would say "this is so stupid! lol!" or "lmao i hate this!" as a jokey comment to one of my posts or fic. i know that to them it is being silly but actually they are strangers to me, we do not have rapport, so these comments just come off as mean even when i assume there was no ill intention behind it
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red-elric · 2 years
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just finished s3 of miraculous ladybug and i can see why everyone was shipping lukanette when it was coming out now <3
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homiro · 8 months
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Here's tonight's picture of me. I tried to smile for this one after the pharmacy lady said I looked ill which is not wrong but yeah. Just a random gpoy or gpom because I don't really care anymore. This could be the last picture of me so. Sorry about the off vibes. I'm just not feeling well. I don't feel well, I don't look well, I'm not good looking and I don't look like anything even though I'm technically not non-binary gender wise. And that's eating me alive.
(he/him)
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idk if the op of that last post MEANT to forget him and I don’t wanna be rude by commenting on their post but 😭 when u talk about how the bg3 characters are all part of unbalanced power structures that they’re recovering from Gale SHOULD be included. maybe it’s not as obvious as the others, but a relationship with a goddess like Mystra also does not leave u normal. he can’t even ask her to help save his life, but she can ask him out of nowhere, after years of silence, to blow himself up or deliver an unspeakably power magical artifact to her. all to earn her forgiveness for his very human, very understandable mistakes. and they were supposed to be romantically involved??? you cannot convince me that was a healthy, equal relationship in which Gale had any power whatsoever
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fruit-teeth · 6 months
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I don't know how else to articulate this but...being a lesbian who dealt with comphet feels very isolating, especially on here. It feels like so many people on here just worship attraction to men, everything has to include men in some capacity, there's tons and tons of positivity posts for people whose sexuality is fluid, and these posts get so many notes every single time. Meanwhile, it feels like...I dunno, it feels like no one ever wants to talk about comphet. I used to think I was bi up until a few years ago when I suddenly realized I had actually never been attracted to men at all and while that was a very freeing experience, I couldn't help but notice that when I posted about it, I lost a few followers. Now the people who quietly unfollowed could have done so for an unrelated reason and maybe I'm reading too deeply into it, but to me, it made me a little self-conscious because it made me start to wonder if people liked me better when they thought I was bi, like maybe they found me more palatable or something. Again, I'm probably wrong, but seeing the way people on here say shit like "oh you don't think men are hot?? get well soon lol" or, the post I saw that made me have a really bad shame spiral one night: "lesbians saying they're not attracted to men is a radfem dog-whistle" (granted this post didn't have a lot of notes and the person who made it was like 15 but still, really really bad thing to see and read).
I dunno, I'm sorry if this is really rambly and weird, but I just feel like I'm really isolated from other queer people. I feel like they would like me better if I liked men, which I'm aware of how stupid that sounds but I constantly see men being put up on a pedestal on here and attraction to men as a whole feels like it's constantly loved and praised. Maybe I'm just not in the right circles or something, but I consistently feel as though I don't fit in no matter what I do or how I present.
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vitiateoriginator · 9 months
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Birthday keroppi time B)
#screams#my birthday is next Friday holy shit I'm gonna be 25#can't believe its that time of year again#and not me blanking about what I want to get and do for my birthday#wtf could I ask for that I can't get or go do myself#anything I would want is out of the question because of expense (like a new pc. I still haven't gotten one)#I guess I could ask for pokemon legends arceus. I've been meaning to buy it but haven't been able to justify spending $60#on a game I might take my seeet ass time playing thru cause I hate using my switch lite (the screen is so fucking small its annoying)#but its an idea at least#as for what I want to do? man idk#we'll probably go to olive garden like most years which Im cool with#although nowadays my datemate and I go there often for dates (we were just there yesterday for instance)#but I love olive garden so I won't say no to going#maybe to that historical township thats a half hour drive away?#datemate and I were supposed to go today as part of my vacation#but he talked me out of it (like he does with most big trip plans I make 😒)#the reason he did so it because its hot as balls today and sunny with a hogh uv index#we'd be outside for most of the trip and her reckons being in the heat will make him miserable and a killjoy#because he's heat sensitive. I am too so I can't really argue with him on that#so maybe it'll be cooler on the 15th so we can go#if not I don't really mind waiting til October because that township is better in the fall#but anyways those are the ideas I have rn#I'll probably ask for a pokemon plushie as a gift#I'd kill to get a new stufful plushie but those are rare and expensive thanks to scalpers#I'd be down to get another Vaporeon like my datemate bought me last year. or another of my favorites#Im not gonna be too picky this year even tho its a big birthday (my brain is fully developed)#because a lot of my birthdays turn out to be shit. last year was really nice tho#but I don't want to get my hopes up for anything and then be depressed that day like what often happens#so I will just be grateful to get some good tasting cake. that's literally the bare minimum of what I want without question#sam's rants about life
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bylerphobic · 2 years
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okay listen, anyone can headcanon mike as whatever you want, really!! but can we please stop saying that one sexuality would be “easier” to explain/understand than the other… i know what you’re trying to say but it really rubs me the wrong way implying that one sexuality would ‘make more sense’ when they can all be explained perfectly fine — that’s exactly why people headcanon him differently.
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