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aliciamorov · 4 months
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if i see one more cod fic with romanticizing or normalizing rape, incest or any disgusting shit im gonna throw myself out of the window
(its my opinion but if you like that kind of shit dni)
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starlooove · 1 year
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Guys I understand the gatekeepers now like y’all didnt even know who spiderpunk was let alone his name till a few months ago STAY AWAY FROM HIM
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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months
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#its sort of funny. i think my medication is working pretty well. i feel stable in a way i never really have before#is it the dopamine stablizer or is it my ion channels? whos to say. it doesn't matter. but it also doesnt change some things#the ways i think and react negativly to change. but it makes it easier to deal with. i still experience this strange dispaire on the#weekends or anytime im not working. i think the oddest thing is thst i dont think ive ever been this consistenly sad#not in a depressed sort of way. just a passing thoughts make me tear up sort of way. it doesnt feel out of control. it just feels like a#prelude to grief i guess. bc my mum is still in the hospital and its so hard to kno what that means from halfway across the country#my sisters are both home right now. they both live within 3hrs of where we grew up. one sister lives in the city my mom goes to for#treatment. so they have the opportunity to see her more than me. i dunno if they do tho. we dont really talk. i dont kno if they're as sad#as i am. if im overreacting bc i cant physically see what's happening. what the feeling is in the room. not that she would probably complain#shes the suffer in silence type. my dad keeps texting us pics of our shitty lil sunroom that hes redoing#to make my mum a lil sanctuary. he must be sad too. its his wife. hes staying with her in the hospital rn. i dunno its so weird#when i talk to my counselor she assumes i find out info thru calls or talk to my sisters abt it and i gotta b like nah we dont really talk#i get my info thru text. i havent talked to my parents on the phone in like a month. i dunno we just dont talk. so i dont kno how to reach#out and be like yo so whats up? shoulf i plan on coming home this summer for a bit?? like???#this is the disadvantage of leaving thr place where you grew up. probably when i finish my phd i should move closer to home#somewhere in the Appalachian mountains maybe. somewere in the eastern deciduous forrest. somewhere with thunderstorms.#but thats years from now. who knows what ill b doing. for now im just sad and tired and i dont quite kno what to do in the short or long#term bc im feeling the weight of my mental limitations rather intensely. but maybe im just being self limiting#whatever. i dont have a dead mum yet. shes not even on hospice care. things are just uncertain and dont look so hot#i just dont see how it can get better from here when chemo gave her secondary blood cancer and shes still full of tumors#i dont think im being that dramatic. it just objectively seems not great for survival#unrelated
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space-mantis · 2 years
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reminder virused moon ain't mean or evil even in the slightest canonically, they're just as silly n sweet as sun is minus sun's temper. ya's really need to stop supporting and spreading those ableist stereotypes demonising ppl with mental illnesses like DID, schizophrenia etc regardless
i cant believe that this is still something that needs to be said bc as someone with schizophrenia ppl still referring to moon as a 'psycho' is incredibly fucking harmful and thats on top of everything else
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im-smart-i-swear · 2 years
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in my defense: i had fun drawing this
i know Nika is more mature than the other two but. shes still 15. of course she does dumb wacky shit sometimes!! 
yeah shes pretty girly(not a bad thing!!!) but also she lives alone. so she can eat her cheap-ass hawaiian pizza any way she wants with no one to judge her for it
#this is my contribution to society.#my art#felix net i nika#fnin#shes a 15 year old with telekinesis. of course she would do this#i dont care if shes 'mature for her age' shes 15. shes allowed to be silly!!#i dont go to the fnin fandom but i heard they dont like her there#everyone is entitled to their own opinion and im not claiming to be objectively right here!!!#but shes so complex?? shes so intersting and good and kind and bucling under the weight of years of trauma and the stress of being#15 and having to fend for herself!!! yeah the fact in almost every book she gets a storyline about miraclously avoiding being put in an#orphanage gets a bit redundant after a while BUT its also beacuse yeah. that threat is always there. one mistake is all it would take#for her to lose her school and friends and her apartment#also the way kosik writes his female characters is sometimes.... weird?? or is that just me???#like the fact the narrator CONSTANTLY separates the trio's class into boys and girls when describing what theyre doing#and the way apparently its physically impossible for a girl to understand physics or how a car works#except if youre a ghost of a girl whose father was a engineer i guess#and how every boy(except maybe for gerald but hes. y'know. a dick) is incapable to understand complex 'girlish' emotions#*of understanding#I LOVE THESE BOOKS VERY MUCH but the portrayal of gender and gender roles gets a bit uncomfy for me sometimes......#maybe im just overreacting and overanalysing........#im just passionate about nika ok?#and AGAIN i really have no idea what the fandom is doing so maybe its not bad over there#but i like sitting here in the methaphorical mariana trench where someone checks in every few weeks and thats about it#feeding on the marine snow(i.e. the very off chance someone besides me posts something fnin here)#its great honestly
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sugardoodle · 2 years
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I have 2 days to decide whether or not to spay my accidental new cat before she has her babies. She's like, t-minus 7ish days until birth so I have no idea what I should do. Like they might be viable at this point so it feels more like euthanizing an entire litter than just terminating a pregnancy. Like you can feel them moving and kicking if you touch her belly. I've been dying the past 3 days over this decision but I'm almost out of time.
Also if anyone thinks to berate me for allowing her to get pregnant, you can go kick rocks, because I brought her in from outside over a month ago since she was a stray and it was almost winter. She came like that so it's not my fault, and they couldn't get me in for a spay any sooner because of the high demand for the low cost clinic. It was originally scheduled for December 1st but I wasn't sure if she'd still be pregnant at that point, so they were able to get me on the cancelation list. But not as soon as I wanted and now I'm in a pickle.
I dont regret bringing her inside at all, but I do wish I'd been able to just fork over the couple hundred extra it would have cost to have her spayed at my actual vet rather than waiting for the clinic to have a spot. But now if I decide to back out and let her raise the kittens, itll cost that much anyways to have them all fixed and chipped and vaxxed and whatnot. So it didn't matter much in the end, ig? Unless I can live with myself if I make the decision to have the babies aborted. Which in humans like, your body your choice. But this cat can't make any choices so it's on ME to decide FOR her and she would probs be fine either way since she's an animal. But I'm having a problem with it so UGH what do I DO now.
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thistlekiss · 2 months
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tearingdread · 7 months
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sick of this fuckass assignment
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sunriseovergotham · 7 months
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looked up the average weight for teens my age . Ummm
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bleh i've been postponing finally watching the (g4) mlp movie cuz my friend said he'd watch it with me and i wanna watch it with him but like it's been months since i first asked if he wanted to watch it together and like nothing has been planned yet like i get he's busy sometimes but still.. atp i'm getting tired of waiting, asked him again last month when he'd be able to watch it and he said when he was free like he said that last time too :o/ starting to think he never will
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cryptideye · 1 year
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you know i never really liked butch daisy (especially with how she has talked about her nickname in relation to herself, she doesnt seem like the kind of person to put forth a masculine *outward* appearance) but relistening to the podcast im just like "hmm yeah why DO people make the murdercop the most butch woman out of their entire lineup"
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agirlwithglam · 6 months
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conversation tips + how to be funny
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talk about the other person. i know, this is said basically everywhere so im not gonna go too deep into it. everybody likes talking about themselves, where they've been, experiences they've had, etc. so just keep asking questions about themselves!
another thing id like to mention is don't just let them talk the whole time, thats not how a conversation works. instead add in your own opinions, and experiences! make them laugh!
literally just find out things about the other person- linking back to the first point- be genuinely curious about the other person. be curious about them! how they think, how they are, find out stuff about them that you can use later- ex: if they mention they like star neckless, maybe one day you can buy a star neckless for them to show that you care!
absurd analogies.
share funny & embarrassing stories from your past! this makes you look more confident and people feel more comfortable around you bc you're able to laugh about a cringe moment in your past. but its best to do this when the laugh is at your expense, and not at others.
make people feel good about themselves. make them feel special.
watch how other people do it. take inspo from others! you can even look at celebrities interviews and see how they've made people laugh and have an interesting conversation. some rly good interviews that i'd recommend are: ryan gosling / the tv show percy jackson / Zendaya & Tom Holland /
finish other people's sentences with something funny and ridiculous. when someone's trying to remember what they were about to say, you can fill in with a ridiculously funny idea to end their sentence! dont overuse this tho, otherwise it can get pretty annoying.
EXPRESSIONNNN!!!! laugh at their jokes, nod along, be sympathetic. just express and overreact in a way that makes them feel heard and special!!
playful teasing.
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pyr0cue · 2 years
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i need better friends :/
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stardustloserdoll · 9 months
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could you maybe do a jake smut where he’s pretty rough bc he got jealous but then the after care is all fluffy and sweet 🥹🫶
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"im going to get us some more drinks, i'll be back." jake said placing a kiss on my cheek, disappearing into the crowd. i played with my straw, swaying softly to the music. "y/n?" i looked up seeing it was an old friend i knew. "adam? holy shit its been so long!" i smiled hugging him. "how've you been? didn't expect to see you here."
"i'm good! i'm here with my boyfriend. you should totally meet him." i gasped looking around seeing if i could spot jake in the crowd. "oh there he is." i smiled waving him over. as jake approached us he handed me my drink "jake! this is my friend adam." i said turning to my old friend who sent jake a small smile. "nice to meet you." jake smiled wrapping his arm around my waist. "nice to meet you too.
as i continued talking with adam i noticed jake was quiet, staring at adam with a clenched jaw. when adam was about to say something jake cut him off, his grip tightening on my waist. "sorry adam, but y/n and i have to head home early. we have a busy day tomorrow, sorry." jake gently squeezed the side of my waist signaling me to say something "oh yeah i forgot. i'm sorry adam, i'll see you around. it was nice seeing you again." i waved a goodbye as jake dragged me away.
once inside, jake quickly started the car without saying a word. "what was that jake?" i asked breaking the silence. "did you see how he was looking at you?" he spoke through gritted teeth. "he kept eye fucking you and he kept at your lips like he wanted to kiss you." i rolled my eyes "you're overreacting! we were just catching up!" i said raising my voice, crossing my arms. jake scoffed as he kept his eyes on the road. "you're mine y/n. just wait when we get home."
"strip." jake ordered pushing me on the bed. doing so i took off my clothes, leaving myself in my bra and underwear. he slipped off his shirt revealing his abs and tattoos that i loved so much, almost making my mouth water. watching as he took off his pants and boxers quickly. climbing onto the bed, his hands gripping my thighs tightly. "you're wet already? i havent even touched you." he said smiling at the wet patch on my underwear, making me look away in embarrassment. he slowly pulled off my underwear, running his fingers along my slick folds, making me shiver under his touch.
he began rubbed his fingers on my clit in circles, making me let out a quiet moan. locking his eyes with mine, as he pushed two of his fingers into me. starting with slow pumps that gradually got faster. i threw my head back moaning his name, feeling myself clench down on his fingers, "gonna cum?" jake asked watching as his fingers moved in and out of me. i nodded my head unable to say any words. "too bad." he laughed taking his fingers out of me, making me whine. "i was so close jake."
"don't worry we're not done yet." he smirked looking up at me, rubbing his cock up and down on my folds. in one quick thrust he forced himself inside me, letting out a low moan, making me grip the sheets tightly. "i know you can take it babe." jake grunted as he snapped his hips into me roughly. thrusting deeply into me each thrust, making me wrap my legs around his waist. allowing him to thrust deeper into me. he leaned down biting onto my shoulder hard leaving his teeth marks on me, making me wince in pain. he leaned up quickly grabbing my face and leaned down to me, his lips brushing agaisnt mine. "whos pussy is this." jake growled stopped his movements.
"y-yours jake." i mumbled looking up at him, feeling his cock twitch inside of me. "only i fuck you this good." jake mumbled against my lips, snapping his hips. "say it." i squeezed my eyes shut, tightening my grip on the bedsheets. "o-only you can fuck me this good." i groaned leaning up to kiss him. jake kissed back mumbling a 'good girl' against my lips, resuming his movements. "oh god, im gonna cum jake." i threw my arms around his shoulders pulling him close. "i know.. me too. fuck, cum on my cock babe." jake sighed throwing his head back. my climax washing over me "jake!" i cried out feeling myself release around him. jake releasing after, fucking his cum deep into me. he slowed down his movements watching as his cum leaked out of me.
he slipped out of me, and sighed collapsing on top of me, wrapping his arms around my waist. i ran my fingers through his hair, moving his hair from his face as we both lied there catching our breaths. "you okay?" he asked looking up at me kissing my neck. "im okay." i smiled kissing the top of his head. "you're even hotter when you're jealous." i laughed running my hands down his back. "i should get jealous more often then hm?" jake laughed tickling me.
he got up and ran to the bathroom to grab a towel. he came back and began wiping me down, placing a kiss on my forehead. "you look so pretty." he cooed pinching my cheeks. "i look gross, im all sweaty." i laughed sticking my tongue out. "you look hot though." i smiled admiring his features, as i played with his hair. "i know." he answered in a country accent making us both laugh. "wanna take a shower?" i asked. "i'd love to."
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httpsseli · 2 months
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𝗆𝗂𝗋𝗋𝗈𝗋𝗌 ✿; 𝗋𝗈𝖻𝗂𝗇 𝗅𝖾 𝗇𝗈𝗋𝗆𝖺𝗇𝖽
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;𝗉𝗅𝗈𝗍. in which you were gawking at the waitress when a possesive robin takes a different turn after dinner
;𝗐𝖺𝗋𝗇𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌. smut(18+), unprotected sex, hair pulling, ass spanking, squirting, pet names, bathroom sex. i believe this is not proofread, lmk if im missing anything!!
authors note// i love these dinner tropes sm😭😭.
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“seriously, what were you thinking?" robbing slapped your inner thigh, you whined. “i wasn't thinking about anything! what’s your fucking issue!” you retorted, sitting up as soon as he parked the car. “my issue? you and the waitress having a moment where you two clearly were eye fucking in front of me,” he grumbled, but you met his gaze head-on. “stop fucking overreacting.” you said annoyed as you quickly got out of the car, the sound of your heels echoing your confident stride. robin shook his head and followed behind you.
you walked into the bedroom and then into the bathroom, turning the lights on. robin leaned against the door and said, “pissed i caught you?” you glared at him. “can you just shut the hell up? it’s not a big deal for heaven's sake!” you threw your hands in the air, and he walked over to you. "what?” you gave him a disgusted look. he chuckled, "i see we're giving attitude tonight, huh?" he said, crossing his arms.
“yes! you keep assuming everything! i wasn't eye fucking him as you said!" you yelled. you walked past him, "idiot," you mumbled. he grabbed you by the front of your dress, yanking you to him. "the only idiot here is you. not me, or my perspective of what happened, because you just have no clue of what you put yourself in.” he said, dragging you to the bathroom.
you looked at him, he turned you around quickly. you gasped at the aggression, “since you want to, be a brat and not admit your mistake.” he said, untying the back of your dress, grabbing your sleeves and dropping them down. your breasts now out in display, cheeks flushed in a pink tint, “put your head down. don’t even look until i say anything.” he said, you nodded your head before he slapped your ass. “am i clear?” he said.
“y-yes..” you spoke, flustered as you felt the butterflies travel down south. the possesive and controling side of robin always had you in a sex trance, you would do anything but tonight was going to be even more different. he removed your dresss off, before ripping off your panties. you gasped, “what the fu—ah!” you lowered your head down with the loud and harsh spank to your ass that caused you to whimper. “shut up.” he said, undressing himself, he rubbed your folds, chuckling dryly.
“you’re already eager for this aren’t you?” he said, you bit your lip, looking at him through your reflection. “maybe not for you.” you smirked, he tugged on your hair causing you to grunt. “you won’t be talking in a moment of a few minutes.” he said, slamming himself in. you gasped with a moan, he begn to thrust at a intense and uncivil pace causing you to moan loudly.
you gripped onto the counter, nail digging into the marble material, he pulled on the back of your hair. you moaned repeatedly, looking up at him. he smirked at you, “care to add on more of your back talking?” he smiled, you stayed quiet not saying a single word as your moans did the talking now. your legs were starting to wobble from the stilettos you had on. “look at the mirror.” he said, you managed nod your head, yes. looking at the mirror, you cried out when he nearly hit the spongy spot in you.
he smirked thrusting deeper as he found your spongy spot causing you to moan uncontrollably. “r-robin!” you moaned out, he gripped onto your waist. pushing you forward, ass out now infront of him. he slapped your ass, “you’re mine. you understand me, mine.” he said, you nodded your head, another slap hit you on your ass cheek. “yes,yes! i-i’m yours!” you whined, your eyes shutting as you felt your orgasm peeking through.
he groaned, feeling you squeeze around him. “wait for me, i’m almost there.” he panted, you were a moaning mess with your brain all mushy and fogged up. “i-i want to c-um! pl-easee!” you moaned out, eyes rolling back. he kissed your neck.
“look in the mirror again.” he said, fondling with your ass giving it a few squeezes.
“h-hm?” you looked at him through the mirror, he kissed your neck, causing you to lean your head to the side. holding onto his wrist.
“look, hermosa.” he pulled your hair, forcefully making you look at your reflection of him corrupting himself into you. “see what mess you made yourself into?” he said, you moaned in response. his fingers crossed down to your labia and in between your clit causing you to gasp loudly at the sudden circular movement. “you’re moaning over me, precisely begging for more princesa.” he said, you moaned louder than before nodding your head at every single thing.
“he wouldn’t fuck you like this, your already too fucked to even answer, dumb little brain and mouth of yours.” he said slapping your ass, your eyes watering from his rough thrusts while he gutted you so perfectly. he twitched throughout his hard thrusts, you looked up at him from your tilted head. you wrapped your hands behind the back of his head head, “i-i’m gonna..” you moaned out, “go ahead.” he said.
you came all over him, squeezing him tightly as he came inside you. he pulled out, turning you around, watching his cum land on your breasts to tummy. you held onto the counter, “wouldve been better if you came in me..” you mumbled, he looked at you. “with your behavior, no.” he rested his head on your shoulder, you leaned your head closer to his shoulder, biting on his skin. his cock twitched when your lips began planting wet kisses, you looked at him giggling. “i love this aggressive side of you mi amor..” you said cupping his cheeks, he kissed your shoulder blade, lips immediately going down to your boobs. he grabbed them both, cupping them together with his hands. you moaned, feeling him suck on your hardened nipple.
“your making me wet againnnn..!” you whined out, head leaned back as you felt him play with your nipple, his finger twisting and pulling it while sucking on the other one. feeling hot enough already, your thighs started rubbing against each other for some type of relief and pleasure. he pecked both your nipples before kissing in between your boobs, moving up to kissing your neck causing you to arch your back. he kissed your lips, your hands tugging onto his hair as you kissed back sloppily. the two of you kissing so deeply and hungry for each other. “touch me please..” you said grabbing his hand, he slapped your hand off.
he gripped on your waist harshly and pressing deeply into your skin, causing you to cry out as he turned you around again. he slapped your ass, “just imagine how that guy would react seeing you like this.” he whispered against your ear, pushing himself into your pussy causing you to moan loudly with the hard thrust. he slammed himself harder into you, repeatedly causing you to blabber nonsense words.
“i know, i know. feels so good you just want more of me and not that prick huh?” he slapped your ass as you nodded your head in eager. robin sucked on your neck, leaving another mark on a very noticeable spot. you leaned your head against his shoulder, you felt him twitch again. you lowered your head, shutting your eyes wanting to come already from the pleasure. “c-close..u-ugh..” you cried out when he slapped your ass again, “oh fuck!” you screamed squirting all over, your walls being painted by his cum.
he turned you around, your eyes looking up at him. “now we know at the end of this.” he said chuckling, you rolled your eyes, slapping his arm. “shut up..” you mumbled, he turned you around one more time.
“do you see your makeup?” he said, hands resting on your waist.
“y-yeah.. what about it?” you said, looking at him through the mirror.
“its all ruined just because of me.” he slapped your ass causing you to giggle, “now you know not to flirt.” he said slapping your ass one more time, he walked over to turn the shower. you wiped your makeup off with a makeup wipe, throwing it in the trash. your legs shaking and sore as you walked over to him. “maybe you can fuck me however you want this time.” you whispered in his ear, touching his bicep.
he picked you up, you giggled. “i could go for another round..” he said, you giggled kissing his lips.
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savannahsdeath · 1 year
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hiii I love your work! could you pretty please do some toxic ellie? :)
TOXIC!ELLIE WILLIAMS X READER
mdni please<3
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summary: a miserable attempt to leave your toxic girlfriend
warnings: preferably 18+, just lots of toxic shit, manipulating, reader is crying
writers note: probably the only toxic post you'll see on my profile. honestly, i dont even know why i wrote this and im posting it just for the anon. i dont support any toxic behavior, cuz even a simple fanfic can bring some harm. dont read it if youre sensitive to such topics and if you decide to read it, dont romanticize it and dont blame me for any bad feelings you felt while reading - youre responsible for your own media consumption, im not forcing anyone to read. as i said, i just post it for the anon and also because i dont want it to just sit in my drafts (i dont have the guts to delete it). ugh its kinda long but i just want to make sure everyones safe, please take care🩷
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you were sitting in your bed with your head buried between your knees for half an hour now, ignoring the buzzing of your phone. you caught her with another girl. you should cry and feel miserable, and all you could think of was; 'finally! finally a reason to leave her!!'. all you could feel was happiness.
but leaving her wasn't easy. you tried a few times before.
'maybe it'll be different this time', you hoped. but the way you kept receiving notifications from her said otherwise. 'maybe if i ignore her for a few more minutes, she'll let me go.'
you tried to put your phone down, but your hands won't let you. your thumbs kept reaching for the screen in a desperate, involuntary action. you were powerless to stop it. you knew you shouldn't respond. you know you should walk away, but you couldn't. every time she messaged you, your heart beated faster and your breathing quickened. you knew this isn't the best thing for you, but a part of you was still clinging to hope.
'enough, stop it.' you ordered to yourself.
you picked up your phone, deciding to call your friend. she'll make you remember all the cruel things ellie did and leaving her will be easier.
your hands were shaking and you were truly scared of what's going to happen. you hestitated for too long before clicking on your friend's profile and.. lost your chance.
ellie was calling you. she wasn't giving up and she was probably pissed off by now.
you sighed and whispered; 'sorry' to your future self, before answering the call.
"why aren't you answering to my texts, huh?" she asked in an accusatory tone, as if you were the one who did something wrong.
your breath hitched as you heard her voice. there's no going back now. "i'm sorry, ellie, it's over." you mumbled and shook your head in disbelief. 'i'm sorry'?? for what? where was your confidence?
she took it from you, just like she's going to take anything she wants.
"i'll pick you up in a few minutes." she announced and you felt tears starting to well up in your eyes.
great. so she's on her way here.
you took a deep breath to stop your voice from quivering. "i'm not going anywhere- not with you."
ellie laughed, thinking it's all a joke. "you're funny, honey. you know you come crawling back to me everytime." she replies calmly. "so get ready. i'm coming to pick you up, and then we can talk about this. like grown-ups."
ellie was good at controlling you. she'll say she's coming to pick you up, and you'll be waiting on your porch when she arrives. she had a firm grip on you and she knew it.
not this time.
"like grown-ups?" you nervously laughed. "you cheated on me. again."
ellie didn't get angry. she wasn't even surprised.
"don't overreact, babe." she replied in an irritated tone. "it's not like it was anything serious. it's just some random girl. i'm still with you. you should know that."
you were stunned by her cavalier attitude. she really thought it's no big deal.
"leave me alone." if there was even a little bit of toughness in your voice before, it all left. now, you were just simply begging her to stop. "please."
ellie's confidence and her nonchalant attitude was getting to you. you felt angry, but at the same time, you were starting to doubt yourself.
you wanted to hang up, but you couldn't. you just waited for her reaction, praying this'll be the end. but you knew everything depended on what ellie wants, and for her, only her own good mattered.
ellie chuckled. "oh, sweetheart. you think you can just break up with me over the phone? we're not even having a fight here. come on, be reasonable. let's just talk this through. i'll be there soon."
you proudly raised your chin, even though she couldn't see that. the tears ruined your confident facade anyway. "i locked the door."
she stayed silent for a moment, not expecting that from you. but she always had a plan b, and you realised that as soon as you heard her laugh. "i'll check that myself."
you heard her car arrive outside your house, and an instant wave of regret washed over you.
she knocked on the front door. "i'm here, love. open up." her voice was gentle, with an apologetic tone.
you knew it was all a ploy to get you to open the door. you knew this was just another manipulative tactic she was using, but it was starting to work.
"come on, be a smart girl." she continued in a sweet voice. "or we'll do this the hard way."
you cursed yourself for how weak you felt, even though it wasn't your fault.
"ellie, please..." you begged, with as much authority as you could muster, but your pleads still sounded weak.
"what's that, babe? are you crying?" she responded in a mocking tone.
you felt powerless to resist her. your stomach twisted in knots, but your fingers reached for the knob. your other hand quickly wiped away your tears, though there were some visible smudges left. you stared at the doorknob in your hand, fighting every instinct in your body to open it and let her in. but you knew she'll get her way, sooner or later. you just wanted to get this over with.
with a shaking hand, you opened the door. you saw that ellie was holding a set of keys - there was definitely one to your house too. she could just unlock the door, but she wanted to check if you'll listen to her. you didn't even want to think about what would happen if you didn't give up.
she walked inside like she owned the place, and she didn't even look at you. she knew she's got you wrapped around her finger.
"good girl." she said, with the same mocking tone.
ellie's eyes darted around the room, and she walked over to take a closer look at a framed photo of the two of you on your shelf. she smirked, letting out a sarcastic 'hmph, so cute'.
you stood there, defeated, as she walked past you and paced around your home. she made herself comfortable, as if she belongs there. you tried to keep a brave face, but she could see right through it.
she sat down and turned to you. "tell me, why we ended up here?" she asked, her voice was cold and unforgiving, but it also sounded curious. "why are you trying to leave me? aren't you happy?"
you felt your lips tremble, as you parted them to speak. "you know damn well what you did."
she stood up and walked up to you, standing right in your face and leaning a little to match your eye level. "fucked another girl? huh? is that it?" she stroked your cheek with the back of her fingers, mocking your pout.
you flinched away from her touch, but she grabbed your face with both hands and pulled you towards her.
"i just had some fun." she said calmly. "besides, you can't blame me for wanting something different. just trying to make up for what you lack." she caressed your face, tracing your lips. it was almost gentle, as if she wasn't even trying to hurt you. but her words cut deep. "now, stop acting like a baby." she let go of your face. "i'm trying to have a mature conversation with you."
the obedient, scared side of you wiped your tears away and straightened up without thinking, but everytime you closed your eyes - everytime you blinked - another wave of salty liquid streamed down your cheeks.
you sniffled and tried to keep it together, but your body was shaking and feeling dizzy. still, you stood your ground.
"please, ellie... i can't do this anymore." you begged in a shaky voice.
"sh, shhh..." ellie wrapped her hands around you, rubbing your hair in a soothing motion. "don't say dumb things. i already know you can't live without me. you know that too." she grabbed you by the shoulders and forced you to look at her for a second. "don't you?"
her embrace felt somehow comforting, not matching the poisoning effect of her words. you clinged onto her, hoping to get as much from this rare moment as possible.
but you knew, deep down, that this is just another manipulation tactic. you shouldn't fall for her games.
"there, there." she whispered to you. she held you even tighter, as if she was trying to absorb every ounce of energy you had left.
she pulled back and looked you straight in the eyes. "do you see what happens when you try to leave me, babe?"
"i am leaving you." you said with as much conviction as you could muster. "i'm serious this time."
but ellie just smiled, treating your words like a joke. "that's funny, honey. this is just another one of your little tantrums. you're just upset because you haven't gotten enough attention these days. but you don't want to lose me." she ran her hands along your cheeks and caressed your hair. "you'll come back to me. you'll come crawling back, just like always. because you can't live without me."
you instantly buried your face in her chest, as she started stroking your back.
she sighed. "are you finished?"
you felt ashamed. you failed, once again. you let her win.
you lifted your head up so you could see her expression. her smile was even more mocking and cruel now that you've given in to her.
"that's more like it, babe." she said with that same condescending tone. she pulled you in for another hug, as if nothing happened. "now, let's forget all about today, okay?" she whispered in your ear. "my pretty girl."
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