#mayhaps i’ll add more later

[novantinuum]

Pink Onyx AU- An Analysis and Theory Post, Part 4

[Part 1] | [Part 2] | [Part 3] | [Part 4- You are here!] | [Part 5]

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Woo we’re almost there! This is part 4 of my analysis series on the excellent @pink-onyx-au comic made by @ceephorsshitshow. If you haven’t already, please check out the first three parts- linked above- for more information on what these posts are all about. A lot of this analysis will build on what came previously.

And with that stated, bingo bongo, an interlude-! 

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Interlude: The analyst’s treasure is also in the tags

I’ve noticed a few little extra notes in the tumblr post tags before, but until I started this project I didn’t notice how decently common they were in the first few chapters. My jaw kinda fell to the goddamn ground when I realized the sheer wealth of vital information these tags give us about Onyx’s base personality before it even could fully surface in the comic.

There’s a few of these secret tag messages in Episode 3 while Jasper is taking Onyx on a fusion power spin as well, but I find the meaning of those tags to be a bit more tricky to summarize my take on, so I’ll just be focusing on the tags we can find peppered in Episodes 4 and 5.

Aight. So, Episode 4. We see secret tags start to crop up every few pages starting on page 11.

(Episode 4: Page 11)

Tags:  “i hear”

The meaning of this one is pretty straightforward. The budding personality of their fusion hears a name they really like. Next up…

(Episode 4: Page 13)

Tags: “why would i be nicer”

Here’s where we get to see a bit of that personality peeking through. The mostly Steven-fronting comment in the first frame is dappled with a bit of Onyx’s pink, so they seem to show some interest in the idea of identifying as an Onyx made for Earth. But also, does that mean they have to be nice? Do they even want to be “the nice Onyx?” 

Because, maybe instead… 

(Episode 4: Page 15)

Tags: “maybe i can do both”

Whatever kind of personality is developing here is one of rich contrasts. Via the tags and the speech bubbles, we can see that Onyx agrees with both suggestions that are given here simultaneously. A protector of all life on Earth, while also being a no-craps taken brute of a leader. Earth’s ultimate champion, mayhaps.

From now on, the tails of Onyx’s speech bubbles are tinted THEIR pink, even when Steven or Jasper are fronting. Onyx is slowly but surely coming more to the forefront.

(Episode 4: Page 20)

Tags: “would i be great?”

However, there’s a great bit of insecurity brimming within them. A lot of self-doubt. Would Onyx be great? It’s not hard to understand one of the reasons why they harbor these doubts. Just in this episode alone, Jasper referred to this fusion as “ugly” and was really pessimistic about their powers. I don’t think Steven is innocent when it comes to adding to Onyx’s whole little insecurity complex here, though…

Throughout this chapter, Steven’s got this leading goal of trying to heal all the damage he and Jasper caused to their surroundings the night before. Even though in later chapters he states that fusions are more than just tools, in this case, using Onyx as a tool to repair the woods is all he’s fused for. Thus, I think Onyx is innately aware of that, too… of the fact that if they don’t provide a useful “service” to the both of them, they won’t have any reason to fuse and let them exist.

Now, moving on to the two comments we see from them in the tags in Episode 5:

(Episode 5: Page 12)

Tags: “is that me?”

I don’t really have anything to add to this one, it’s just really fucking wholesome, lol. Look at that toothy little blep.

(Episode 5: Page 16)

Tags: “how do you want me to be?”

Aaaand then this one is just really sad. There’s another big ol’ chip on Onyx’s shoulder to add to the insecurity pile. One of their components thinks their “big, stupid body” is just absolutely useless? Well, how does Jasper want them to be, then? How can they prove that they’re worth her time? That they’re worth existing?

And in fact, this exact question is what plagues a lot of Onyx’s actions when they officially embark on their first long stint as themself.

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Question Six: What do we learn about Onyx from their first big day out?

When Steven and Jasper finally form Onyx again after the events of the episode “Stuck With You,” their fusion is wracked with feelings of inadequacy and a continual drive to prove their own worth to their components. 

(Episode 8: Page 14)

This manifests in that classic sort of “gifted child” type of way. Like… they’re the fusion of one of the strongest jaspers out there and a diamond, yeah? Shouldn’t they instantly know who they are and what they’re capable of? Shouldn’t everything be easy for them?

Alas, however, they’re the fusion of probably the most mentally unstable jasper and diamond there is. So while they eventually figure out how to combine their weapons into a sick set of clawed shields, the celebration is dampened by the realization that… there isn’t much point to their existence at all anymore, is there? The weapon they wield… the niche they’ve already carved out for themself within their mind… doesn’t serve much of any purpose in this peaceful Era 3.

(Episode 8: Page 16)

Thus, what purpose would Jasper and Steven have for fusing to allow them to exist? Everything is transactional to Onyx, at this point. If they can’t prove their usefulness to the two of them, then in their head, their components will never have a reason to fuse. 

And so Onyx gets right to work trying to make themself indispensable. 

(Episode 8: Page 18)

Hey, ow. That really hurt to read you say, Onyx. 

They’ve barely existed for more than a few minutes and they’re already falling into the same pitfalls as their components.

After spending some time cleaning up the campsite and finding food for the bunnies and “Jasper’s ugly plant” (this line always makes me giggle), Onyx moves to take a selfie on Steven’s phone… only to realize that the dink friggin’ forgot it at home. Which brings them to their driving cause for all of Episode 9: 

(Episode 8: Page 21)

Sneaking through Beach City without being caught so they can retrieve Steven’s phone.

What really fascinates me about this newfound purpose is that for the first time in their whole existence, it’s a completely self-serving mission. Steven does not need his phone at this moment, and if he desperately did, they could easily just unfuse to allow him to sprint back and grab it. No, no… the reason Onyx wants to grab Steven’s phone is exclusively because they want to take a picture of themself to leave in his camera roll as a way of cementing tangible proof of their existence in this world. Even if it’s just an incognito photo of themself on a single phone. 

It’s the silent cry of a fusion who- after many nights of existing as mere whispers of personality in the background of two individuals scrambling for control in the same body- desperately wants to be remembered as an individual.

And thus begins Episode 9, titled “Steven For a Day.”

(Episode 9: Page 8)

The most basic meaning of this title is obvious when Onyx shapeshifts into a silly lil Steven double (Onyx plays Steven Tag WHEN?), but there’s a deeper meaning, too.

(Episode 9: Page 14)

Throughout this whole section of the comic, Onyx progressively hides more and more of their natural features to try and “blend in” and hide their true identity from the Gems and humans around them. First it’s shapeshifting into Steven to begin with… then a failed attempt to hide their second set of arms… then it’s closing their lower set of eyes to obscure those… next, hiding the gem on their face by letting it sink deeper into their head… then, plastering a bandaid over it to mask it entirely.

With each and every corner they turn in Beach City, they’re erasing more and more of themself.

Because instinctively, a part of them already knows (or at least, thinks) that they would not be welcome here if people were to know who they actually are.

Like, geeze. They’ve barely existed as themself for a few hours and yet they’ve already perfected the art of internalized shame.

Does this basic scenario sound a little familiar?

Well, it should.

(He would not be welcome here if people were to know who he actually is.)

To me, this entire episode reads as a metaphoric little glimpse at how Steven feels about being in public after his “meltdown.”

(Episode 9: Page 17)

I found this moment with Dewey interesting. Here’s a transcription of the text in the above panel if it’s hard for some to read: 

“Resourceful as ever. I’m happy to see that you’re doing better after everything. When I hadn’t seen you for a few mornings, I got a bit worried! People were asking. Ah, but no worries knowing you’re okay. I’ll be happy to tell them all that you’re up and around.”

The townsfolk seem very supportive and understanding of Steven- even worried when they notice he’s not up and about on his usual routines- and meanwhile, this dialogue is juxtaposed by Onyx literally slapping a bandaid over the “problem,” over what they think is making them stand out like a sore thumb… over what they fear may bring them judgement.

That’s what Steven’s been doing for all of Steven Universe: Future. And it’s what he’s still falling into the habit of doing now, after his corruption incident. He’s still slapping a bandaid over his own problems and not allowing himself to be vulnerable in discussing them, and this is a source of self-inflicted emotional harm for him. It causes Onyx physical discomfort to hide away their features in the same way that it causes Steven intense inner discomfort to deny the truth of what he went through.

Onyx isn’t just experiencing what it’s like to be Steven for a day in the flesh, they’re experiencing what it’s like for him having to hide away every shameful part of himself he fears others won’t truly understand.

Now, a quick little aside. Let’s step back a few pages to see what else we learn about Onyx in this episode…

(Episode 9: Page 13)

There IS a moment where Onyx gets a photo taken of them by a nefarious little Onion. Given this is exactly what they wanted (to secure a photo of themself, some cemented proof of their existence), one might question why they respond to this in such an agitated way.

Well, after so many nights of existing in the background whilst their squabbling components literally “drove” their body around, I imagine that personal agency is a huge priority for Onyx. They did not consent to this particular image being taken, nor did they want this image to (as I imagine Onion might use it) be circulated around town against their wishes. Intent and circumstance matters.

(Episode 9: Page 19)

The other thing I find very interesting about Onyx that’s further highlighted in this episode is their association of loud, droning background sounds with the concept of “quiet.” An arcade is absolutely not “quiet” in the way most of us would define that word. 

(Episode 8: Page 13)

But remember, from Onyx’s perspective, existing in the background of all of Steven and Jasper’s cross-talk is all they knew for a long while. And now, without those personalities at the forefront of their mind, all they have to keep company with are their own thoughts and the sounds of their surroundings.

Thus, it makes sense to me that the subdued auditory chaos of an arcade would be a comfort to their ears.

(Episode 9: Page 22)

Tragically, for all of Onyx’s efforts this episode, they never manage to snap the picture they wanted. The Gems are just too hot on their trail.

And much like what happened with Steven himself, when all the frustrations and bitter feelings start boiling over, everything they’ve worked so hard to mask thus far just unravels. 

Now Onyx (and by extension, Jasper) can finally understand just how hard it is to be Steven.

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Look out for the final post in this series at 7am PST tomorrow. Farewell!

[argentisama]

fashion designer argenti x gn! reader [headcanons]

no one asked for this and no one knows who i am . i am okay with simply being an aspiring writing novice you will pass by

i love fashion (however i don’t actually know much about it) and i love argenti, i hope i do him justice (please call me out for mischaracterization …) ; cringe alert

𝜗𝜚 — would adore vintage designs. he totally has old magazines and cutouts and takes inspo from those sewing guides (yk the ones that are great for pose references??? does anyone know what i mean) , i think he’d love mixing and matching different textures and whatnot (this is not me expressing my hatred for that fugly modern stuff that’s impossible to function in with all the weird ass shapes)

𝜗𝜚 — your free tailor !!! not only does he design, but he creates, and that means he could totally help cinch that shirt that looks great but is just a bit too big on you. perhaps he’d even add a few of his own touches, with unique buttons and a ruffle here or there!

𝜗𝜚 — would always end up drawing you as his model in his sketches ; none of those faceless baldies, just you, you, you. you’re beautiful and he makes sure you know that whenever he shows his latest design.

𝜗𝜚 — i think he’d dabble a little bit in either hair or makeup as well ; and again, you’re his model (even if he can’t do much with ur hair 4 any short haired homies)

🌹🌟 — sorry it’s so short, mayhaps i’ll add more later, i just wanted to post something :3 have a good day / noon / night !!!

[kolcheksluver]

Gif is mine but have some Marley and Frank hcs as a treat✨

- In a universe where he didn’t die, Marley and him try to rekindle their relationship. It doesn’t go too well at first she tries to sabotage it. A lot. And then when she stops tryna do that she doesn’t know where to start with fixing it so she just offers him some of her weed and they get stoned together. Joey comes home to find them like this and just takes it as a win, seeing as they aren’t arguing.

- In another universe where she went with him, he gives her a butterfly knife ( similar to the one Gretchen has in Cuckoo ) for her birthday for safety reasons, telling her only to use it for self defense, and it never leaves her jacket pocket.

- They’d watch bar rescue and he’d unintentionally get really into it despite telling Marley how fucking stupid it is.

- He taught her her first curse word ( it was fuck ).

- Frank influenced a lot of her music that she listens to today, but she still strays from her typical rock genre occasionally.

- The first time Marley called Frank “ dad ” again since they got back in contact was before a major solo show and she had a panic attack. She called him and had called him dad when he answered the phone. He picked her up and she didn’t end up playing for the show.

- He would take her on late night drives as a kid and she still does this, often inviting her friend May and Joey’s son Caleb, with her permission, to come along. She’ll invite him too, but Frank gets booted to the back seat with the excuse of “ My car, my rules. ”

- They actively smoke together after said car ride when Caleb’s inside.

- She invites him to her shows and gets immensely disappointed when he can’t make it.

Mayhaps I’ll add more later but for rn. Tis all.

[daitranscripts]

Wicked Eyes and Wicked Hearts Pt. 21

Liaison to the Inquisition

Wicked Eyes and Wicked Hearts Masterpost First: Gaining an Invitation Previous: Addressing the Court

Morrigan approaches the PC on the balcony.

Morrigan (Celene rules): The Orlesian nobility make drunken toasts to your victory, and yet you are not present to hear them? Do you tire so quickly of their congratulations, Inquisitor? ‘Tis most fickle, after all your efforts on their behalf.

Morrigan (Gaspard rules as Briala’s puppet): Here at last I find out absent hero, hidden away despite the efforts of all Orlais to find you. The elves raise glasses in your honor while the newly crowned emperor glowers. ‘Tis quite the spectacle.

Morrigan (Gaspard rules): Here at last I find out absent hero, hidden away despite the efforts of all Orlais to find you. Gaspard drunkenly toasts in your honor. “Deliverer from Darkness” and other titles complimentary and awkwardly phrased.

Dialogue options:

General: It’s good to see you. [1]

General (Celene rules): They ran out of punch. [2]

General (Gaspard rules): That’s me. I’m a helper. [3]

General: I needed some air. [4]

1 - General: It’s good to see you. PC: Everyone suddenly wants to talk to me. You, at least, I’m glad to see. Morrigan: (Chuckles.) Then I have happy news, as you shall be seeing a great deal more of me. [5]

2 - General: They ran out of punch. PC: I would have stayed, but the punch ran dry. Scandalous. Morrigan: (Laughs.) Indeed? Let us see if you take this piece of news as poorly. [5]

3 - General: That’s me. I’m a helper. PC: That’s what I do. Fall out of the sky, make bad decisions, and somehow everyone still follows me. Morrigan: So they do. It seems I am also to join that esteemed crowd. [5]

4 - General: I needed some air. PC: There’s plenty of opportunity for that later. I wanted some air. Morrigan: I had no wish to interrupt your breathing, only to bring news. [5]

5 - Scene continues.

Morrigan: By imperial decree, I have been named liaison to the Inquisition.

Morrigan (Celene rules): Celene wishes to offer you any and all aid–including mine. Congratulations. Morrigan (Gaspard rules): Gaspard wishes to offer any and all aid to the one who supported his ascent to the throne. So here I am.

6 - Dialogue options:

Investigate: You want to join us? [7] Investigate: What can you do? [8] General: Welcome aboard. [9] General: I don’t get a say? [10] General: I’ll be watching. [11]

7 - Investigate: You want to join us? PC: I had no idea you were interested in joining the Inquisition. Morrigan: The assignment has been given to me, regardless of my personal interest. Morrigan (Celene rules): Celene knows you face an opponent who wields great magical power, which is far more important than her own curiosity. You will require my knowledge if you are to defeat such magic. Morrigan (Gaspard rules): Gaspard never liked my attendance at court. He wishes me as far from here as possible. Mayhap he feels the Inquisitor a convenient repository for unwanted apostates? I cannot say. Morrigan: Regardless, Corypheus is a threat to Orlais… and to myself. Thus I am not opposed to the appointment.

8 - Investigate: What can you do? PC: What skills do you have that would benefit us? Morrigan: I have knowledge which falls… beyond the realm of most mages. I suspect this is also true of Corypheus. Thus it behooves you to add to your arcane arsenal, yes? Mundane knowledge will not bring the rift in the sky to a close, after all. [Back to 6]

Dialogue options:

Special: Are you a blood mage? [12]

[Back to 6]

12 - Special: Are you a blood mage? PC: When you say “knowledge beyond the realm of most mages,” do you mean blood magic? Morrigan: I know many obscure, forgotten, and forbidden arts. Some of it you might consider blood magic, yes. Morrigan (non-Mage PC): Should thought of that frighten you, allow me to offer reassurance. Morrigan (mage PC): But I suspect that you do not fear maleficarum as much as the common folk do. Morrigan: Knowledge alone does no harm. What I possess I place at your disposal, to make use of or ignore as you desire. [Back to 6]

9 - General: Welcome aboard. PC: Welcome to the Inquisition, Morrigan. Morrigan: A most gracious response. [12]

10 - General: I don’t get a say? PC: This is news to me. I don’t get a say in who joins us? Morrigan: I am not joining you. I am a liaison, advising on the throne’s behalf and helping when called upon to do so. If you find that objectionable, you may indeed spurn your new ally’s offer. Yet consider this: you battle a foe you scarce understand, with all Thedas hanging in the balance. You need all the help you can get, Inquisitor. [12]

11 - General: I’ll be watching. PC: First sign of trouble and you’re out. Morrigan: I am not joining you. I am a liaison, advising on the throne’s behalf and helping when called upon to do so. If you find that objectionable, you may indeed spurn your new ally’s offer. Yet consider this: you battle a foe you scarce understand, with all Thedas hanging in the balance. You need all the help you can get, Inquisitor. [12]

12 - Scene continues.

Morrigan: I shall meet you at Skyhold.

Morrigan leaves.

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[littleladymab]

Mab mab mab mab mAB i see "request a ship" and i IMMEDIATELY THINK thalias and samakro sooooooooo thalias and samakro with number 4 (forehead kisses) mayhaps? 👀

OH NO DID I USE THIS AN EXCUSE TO WRITE A PLANNED EXTENSION OF THE LAST THALAKRO I WROTE FOR YOU SIMPLY BECAUSE I ALREADY INTENDED FOR THERE TO BE A FOREHEAD KISS IN THAT?

maybe.

is that cheating?

probably.

The plan is to eventually clean up the transition between the two scenes then I'll post it to ao3 🤭 and when i write my Eli prequel to "far from the world that i made", this will feed into that

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After dinner, Mak’ro takes a shower to “rinse the last of the Family ties off” and Thalias carefully hangs up the Commodore uniform. (He doesn’t make a direct offer for her to join him, just a curious tilt of an eyebrow when he declares his intentions during their meal. Thalias declines by saying she’ll handle his uniform.) 

She calls a porter to pick it up and arranges to have it sent ahead to his new command so that he doesn’t have to worry about lugging his dress uniform around. He’s also left a duffle at the bell desk as he stopped by earlier that morning to add her name to the reservation and pre-check in, which she has brought up. She leaves that for him in the bathroom. 

After that, Thalias busies herself with tidying up from dinner. She fixes her makeup and hair curlers strewn across the vanity. She puts her dress away in the closet, resigned instead to never wearing it. Because what good will a formal dress do her all the way out on Ool? 

Thalias doesn’t even realize how lost in her own head she’s getting until a pair of warm arms wrap around her middle and hoist her off her feet. 

“I’m pretty sure there’s a saying about idle hands,” Mak’ro comments as he half carries her to the sitting area. 

“I couldn’t possibly know what you’re talking about,” Thalias replies as she gets her feet back under her. “I wouldn’t know what to do with an idle moment.” 

His hands remain at her waist, his grip loose enough that she can turn around to face him properly. He’s wearing one of the bathrobes and his damp hair is slicked away from his forehead. She loves seeing him like this and she gives in to the urge to run her fingers through his hair. “I’m sure I have a few ideas, if you’re wanting,” he offers, and his laugh is smothered by her kiss. “I meant like you could knit! I didn’t mean anything else.” 

“Of course not.” Thalias grips the open collar of his bathrobe and pulls him in to kiss him again for good measure, and again and again — drawing it out until she can feel the humor in his lips fade into simple contentment. “The girls are a handful at the best of times. I hardly have a chance to pick up a hobby.” 

“What?” Mak’ro does an expert job at faking surprised. “A bunch of children away from home are a handful? I don’t know what you mean; Sache was a perfect angel.” 

Thalias laughs despite herself. “You can say that because you were more preoccupied by me.” 

He hooks a finger beneath her chin and tilts her face up so he can meet her eyes. “You’re very distracting,” he comments.

“You say that with fondness now,” she teases. 

Mak’ro’s answering grin is crooked on his lips and he places a kiss on her forehead. “It’s been nearly twenty years. I’d have hoped you have forgiven me for that by now.” 

Her expression softens and she presses the palm of her hand against his cheek. “I can officially say I have now, Commodore Mak’ro.” 

His grin softens to match, and he turns his head to press a kiss to her palm. They linger like that for a moment, then two, before separating. “You want anything to drink?” he asks as he wanders over to the minibar. 

“I’ll have whatever you’re making,” Thalias says, moving to sit on the couch. Her questis is already on the cushions after she abandoned it there earlier in the day. She settles in against the arm of the couch and gives a languid stretch of her back. 

Mak’ro joins her a moment later, handing her both glasses so he can clamber onto the couch as well. 

“How are you supposed to drink yours?” she asks, amused, as he kicks his legs out and settles his head into her lap. 

“I haven’t figured that out yet,” he admits, taking his drink back and settling his hands over his chest. “This seemed more important.” 

Thalias smiles and runs her hand back through his hair. It sticks up at odd angles and refuses to settle. “I’ll catch it if you start to fall asleep with it.” 

“Lifesaver.” Mak’ro already has his eyes closed, a small and self-satisfied smile playing at the corners of his lips. He’s never this relaxed unless its in the privacy of either of their quarters, and these days they see each other so rarely that she hates to imagine how much pent up stress he’s been harboring. 

She glances at her questis for a moment in consideration. “Darling?” 

He opens one eye, suspicious. “Yes?” 

“Was Ar’alani at your promotion ceremony? I heard the Steadfast is in for repairs.” She hesitates a beat as he stares at her, waiting for the shoe to drop. “After their whole adventure in Lesser Space.” 

“She was there,” he says slowly. “She didn’t stay long but she did want to offer her congratulations.” Mak’ro sets his glass down on the nearby table and props himself up on one elbow so he can get a better look at her. “Why?” 

Thalias plays with her questis hoping her shrug comes off as dismissive. “I read the publically available version of her and her officers’ reports of the event. I was just hoping I could get a copy without all the redactions.” 

His face does something complicated before settling into an expression she remembers from her time aboard the Springhawk at Sache’s side. “You are not asking me to send you a combat report that is strictly limited to flag rank officers the day I am promoted to Commodore.” 

“You don’t have to send it to me,” she says innocently, though they’re both at an age where that doesn’t quite work. “I can read it on your questis—” 

He looks so tired as he runs a hand over his face and she wonders just when the gray at his temples started to look so pronounced. “You know what I mean, Thalias,” he says on a sigh but doesn’t push her hand away when she reaches up to brush the hair just above his ears. It’s the tone of voice that highlights the old animosity of Ufsa versus Mitth, even if it has been nearly twenty years for them. Even if he cut ties with his Family. It’s an old habit to fall back onto. “Ask anything else of me, but not that.” 

She hates that this was exactly what she was setting him up for. Ask for the impossible first and then the slightly more outlandish but completely possible. So she braces herself and says in a rush, “I want to meet him.” 

This catches Mak’ro completely off guard and the exhaustion immediately fades into confusion. “Meet who?” 

“Eli’van’to. The human.” She almost says Thrawn’s human but stops herself. “Was he there too?” 

“No. What? Hold on—” He pinches the bridge of his nose, then rolls back over so he can get his drink and take a fortifying gulp of it. “Okay, back up. Why do you want to meet Commander Ivant?” 

Thalias props her chin in her hand, leaning against the arm of the couch. “You know why.” 

He frowns. “Alright that was a stupid question. I don’t know how much he knows about…” Mak’ro gestures at her. “All of it.” 

“That’s why I want to read the report.” She holds up a hand when he gets that look on his face again. “I know, I know. I’ll have to go through official channels to requisition the data from proper channels…” Thalias doesn’t know what her expression does next because Mak’ro reaches up for her, letting his fingers tangle in her hair and his hand anchor at the back of her neck. Keeping her there in that moment. “They found a sky-walker, didn’t they?” 

His silence is answer enough. 

“She’ll need to undergo evaluation and proper training and—” 

“I can’t help with that,” he says, cutting her off. “Officially, I can’t tell you anything. I won’t confirm or deny any guesses you make, but my hands are tied.” 

Thalias sighs and presses her thumb to his lips, smearing a bead of liquid against them. “Alright.” Then, after another sigh, she repeats, “Alright.” 

“Are you?” 

“Am I what?” 

“Alright?” 

She laughs despite herself, nudging him upright so she can curl up against him. His arm drapes around her shoulders, warm and comfortable, and she presses her hand to the exposed skin of his chest where his robe is open. “Are any of us?” 

Mak’ro gives a disgruntled huff but places a kiss to the top of her head all the same. “What a good fucking question,” he grumbles, and she smiles at the familiarity of his frustration. 

[lawmane-enthusiast]

do you have any more confession scenarios mayhaps? 👀

I’ll make a list, my guy.

Some of these are jokes-. Most.

They reenact the Oscars!! Light does something shitty to Misa and L and Light reenact the Oscars!! And then Light storms off and L confesses his love to Misa and wins Best Actor 45 minutes later and gives an 18 minute long award acceptance speech.

Last one was fake crap. But… Light does something shitty to Misa, L kinda snaps because he’s so tired of Light being a horrible boyfriend, and he gets Light and Misa to break up so he can finally date the emo gworl of his dreams. Maybe a kiss. No, not that, L is a coward. They hold hands. Yeah.

Truth or dare oneshot confession scene. ‼️

Misa confesses to L right after they had spent some time dancing. The sun was down and they were standing in a largely grassy and undisturbed plain under a tree. The stars were shining and the moon was bright… And all that was left in the air was the sound of two lovebirds making ou- I’ll stop my monologue now.

High school AU confession scene consists solely of events that happen during the night of the big school dance. Misa had spent hours getting ready to attend the dance with Light, but then he broke up with her over text, so she ran to L’s house to go cry about it, and after subtly hinting for the past four months, L was just tired of Misa’s obliviousness, and confessed his feelings for her. Then they go to the dance together instead ‼️ And kiss under the moonlight outside ‼️ You’re welcome.

Titanic AU confession scene would probably happen while the ship began to sink, and L was pretty sure he was going to drown along with the ship. He’d be cuffed to the wall on one of the lowest floors, just how Jack had been, and he’d tell Misa everything, about how he loved her, he explained everything. And then he got out of the handcuffs anyway and they had to race up to the top of the ship, hang on to the top bit until it sank, and then SHARE THE DOOR because the door IN FACT HAD ENOUGH SPACE FOR TWO.

Hanahaki AU confession scene would probably start with Misa confessing, actually. Like the progression of the disease would be so bad she’d just tell him what had been happening. And then he’d feel guilty and REALIZE HE HAD BEEN SUPPRESSING FEELINGS THIS WHOLE TIMES AND THEY WOULD KISS AND ALL WOULD BE WELL IN THE WORLD.

I haven’t got any more, sorry!! If I think of more, I’ll add them. Anyway.. Notice how most of these start with L confessing 😤 he’s so gosh dang awkward I can’t really see it, but mostly. The Titanic AU and the High school AU are my LIFE rn.

Thank you for allowing me to ramble.

[lilacivories]

Okay some cbs ghosts hcs bc I’m fully invested

Thorfinn: easily the all-star tickle monster of the group. he’s a big beefy himbo who is friends with everyone, so if he goes around poking everyone he sees and laughing at them for jumping you just can’t be mad at him. honestly just wants everyone to be happy.

Flower: bubbly switch. very ticklish. she and Thorfinn are always tickling each other back and forth. an unfairly gifted tease when she wants to be.

Hetty: she’s the one who stands a few feet away and gives away the lee’s worst spots to whoever is tickling them at the time.

Isaac: same role as Hetty, but he’ll try to encourage the lee to fight back with outdated military tactics. the two of them will then argue about the turnout like gossipy football announcers doing a play-by-play.

Pete: does the dad thing where he only uses his powers for good to try and cheer someone up.

Alberta: you touch her you die (…again). but if she walks through while someone’s being tickled she will always without fail remark on how cute the lee is. secretly super ticklish.

Sasappis: he’s so dry and snarky that I just have to hc him as the most ticklish in the group. I think he’d have a super cute laugh but one that’s kind of embarrassing y’know? he blushes like hell when he laughs bc he’s always snorting or something. he and Thorfinn were the only two ghosts for a few hundred years so Thor knows just how to get him good. he’s also great as a ler and loves seeing his friends happy. his deadpan teasing is deadly.

Trevor: the no pants thing makes it all kind of awkward but this man is so touchy-feely. he’s like a golden retriever. loves loves loves tickle fights. he and Flower have been trying to prove that the other is more ticklish for over a decade. so far there has been no victor, mostly because they get distracted by joining forces and ganging up on the others together.

[phantasmagoric-acquaintance]

oops another one because I have no self control <3

your friend has been pranking you all day, scaring you when you least expect it. when you go to pick up some food, somebody jumps out from behind you. thinking it's your friend, you turn around and slap them, only to find it's not your friend and taakitz mayhaps?

Taako watches in horror as the prettiest dude he’s ever fucking seen covers his left cheek with his hand.

The cheek which Taako just fucking slapped with all his might, mind you.

“Um, ow,” the handsome stranger says, gaping at Taako, bewildered. “What the hell?”

“Holy shit, dude, s-sorry. I, uh, thought you were sneaking up on me.”.

“I just stumbled a little.”

“Right, yeah, I get that now, but, uh,” Taako scratches the back of his neck. “I thought you were my bud.”

The man blinks. “Do you… hit your friends, usually?”

“Wh- no, not, uh, not normally.” Taako can feel his ears heating up, which is even more humiliating for him. “I have this pal who likes to jump out and scare his friends, right? He’ll be all, ‘Rah, gotcha! I’m Magnus!’ and it’s kinda fuckin’ annoying, and I heard you stumble, and I thought it was my buddy Magnus trying to jump at me, and I thought this time I’d get the drop on him this time. He’s, uh, he’s this big tough guy, he can handle a smack to the face.”

The guy nods slowly, as though none of that made sense to him. “Okay, well, I’m… sorry I frightened you, I guess?”

“No, no, that one was, uh, all my b.” Under most circumstances, Taako hates admitting guilt, but there’s no getting around the fact that he slapped a complete stranger. He hates this so much. “I, uh, I’ll go get you some ice,” Taako offers, mostly to have an excuse to get away from this moment.

He turns on his heel and speed-walks to the drink fountain before the stranger can say anything. He’s not normally one for takeout, and, as he picks up a small stack of shitty restaurant napkins and holds them under the ice dispenser, he thinks for a second that maybe he should’ve just cooked something instead. Not that he could’ve known this would happen, and anyway, takeout and trash television nights with his twin are sacred.

He's thinking of this when he returns to hand off the napkin-wrapped ice to the stranger he had bitch-slapped, and maybe that’s why he fills the awkward silence that follows by asking, “So… what are you doing later?”

“…Pardon?”

“M-my sister and I are gonna watch garbage tv, uh, what are you doing?”

The man blinks again. “You… you’re not inviting me over, are you?”

“I was just making small talk, my guy.” It’s the truth, but the man is really handsome. In a moment of bravery, Taako adds, “Do you… want me to be?”

The man appraises Taako. “I… I can’t believe I’m saying this, but maybe? Not— not tonight, but I… wouldn’t be opposed…”

15 minutes later, Taako leaves the restaurant with an armful of food, a new number in his phone, and one hell of a story to tell when he gets home.

[ikefool]

Can I request headcanons of the MC comforting the suitors (Leonardo, Theo, Jean and Mozart) because they had a terrible nightmare?

Sorry this took me so long but I was in school and also depressed lmao. Anyway all is good now and I hope you like these angsty boyes, now I really wanna hug me some vamps -𓆏

Leonardo:

* You’ve been sleeping in Leonardo’s room for only a short while now. You had fallen asleep while watching him work by candlelight at his desk. He had shushed you gently about an hour later when you stirred as he got into bed, and you hadn’t woken up again until well into the night.

* At first you don’t know why you’re awake, but then Leonardo groans again. It’s a long, drawn out groan of pain, and he’s panting like he’s just ran a marathon. The laces of his shirt are open to reveal his heaving chest and his hair clings to his forehead, his expression drawn.

* You shift anxiously into a seating position and try to wake him gently. “Leonardo?” He shakes his head and groans as he slaps your hand away, rolling himself into a tangle of sheets. “Leo?” You ask, now wide awake as you shake him more firmly. He nearly smacks his forehead right into your face whe he sits up with a start.

* At first you just sit there, half on his lap while you wait for him to come back into himself properly. You brush his sweat-soaked bangs from his face, smooth out his skewed cotton shirt while he pants gently and grips your shoulders firmly, eyes slowly focusing on you. You’ve never seen him so tense and worried, and as you gently caress his face and search his golden eyes he relaxes into your touch and heaves a great, shaking sigh.

* “Cara...” he murmurs, swallowing harshly, then chuckles self-depricatingly “Sorry for waking you.” You shake your head with a frown and he leans heavily into you until you both thump genly back onto the bed. “You alright?” he murmurs into your hair, head held close to his chest where you can hear his heart rate slowing down. “I should be asking you that” you chide. He chuckles again, more sincerely this time “Nah, you’re here, no? I’m alright now.” You press your lips against his collarbone and gently trace patterns on his back until he falls asleep once more.

Theo:

* He doesn’t move much in his sleep, so when you wake suddenly from the sharp pain of an elbow to the ribs you spring wide awake in an instant. Theo is jerking like he’s fighting his sheets in his sleep, and you barely have time to be concerned before he wakes himself up with a gasp of your name.

* “Theo?” You ask, unsure, holding your side absently. His eyes flit all over the room, taking his surroundings in frantically and then finally landing on you. His brows are set into a deep frown, and you hover anxiously next to him, not knowing if you should approach him just yet.

* “You’re hurt.” he finally rasps. He extends an arm and you exhale as you go willingly into his embrace. His hands are strong and firm as he checks your face, your arms, scanning his eyes over you to make sure you’re alright. “No, Theo. That was just a dream, see?” You try to pull away to show him you’re alright but he instantly tightens his hold on you, you give up with a soft grunt and smile up at him reassuringly. “I’m whole, I’m fine.”

* He eyes you, suspicious. Then rubs a thumb gently over your ribs. “Oh, that?” you chuckle “Theo, you know I’ve ran into the counter harder than that.” That pulls a half smile from him, and you lean in to kiss his cheek reassuringly, reveling in the pouting blush that results from it.

* “Clumsy little Hondje” He mutters, raising a hand to gently ruffle your hair and then trail it back down against your neck and shoulders in a soft caress. His breathing is evening out, and you pull him back down to the bed close to you. “There, if you hug me close like this you won’t have any room to elbow me” He glares down at you, but the effect is dampened by the sweet kiss he gives you in apology before tucking you close to his side.

Jean:

* You run into the room, heart pounding wildly. You had been just outside in the hallway when Jean had started screaming. A rasping, pained howl that sent you into immediate panic. You had burst into his room, running to his bed and calling his name in worry.

* Before you even know what is happening, Jean is awake and grasping your arms roughly in his strong hands. His eyes instantly rage with cold fury, but his expression morphs from hatred to terror in a second. “Mademoiselle?” His eyes widen and he quickly turns his head to hide his scar. “I told you not to come in here.” His tone is sharp, but his voice tremors slightly “I could have hurt you”.

* He seems to be preparing to either lecture you or kick you out, but stops and swallows his next words when you expression crumples into a teary frown. He seems at a loss as you step forward and hold onto his shoulders, looking at him for a moment before practically falling onto him. 

* He accepts the hug, willing to let you hold him but confused as to why you would want to. “Mademoiselle?” he whispers again. “Oh Jean, it sounded like you were in so much pain.” He winces, embarrassed, but still raises his hands to rub your back tenderly. “Oh, just look at me” you huff suddenly, rubbing your eyes pointedly as you step away from the embrace “I should be the one comforting you, not crying into your shoulder like a weak little child.” 

* “It was only a dream” Jean frowns, clenching his shaking hands onto the sheets “I’ve had them before, I can deal with them on my own.” It was the wrong thing to say, because your gaze turns sad again. Ignoring the painful pounding of his heart, he reaches out for your hand, taking comfort in the soft skin under his calloused fingers. “And I don’t think you weak.” He adds. You smile at him brigtly, and he forgets the burn of fire on his skin when you reach up to trace the line of his jaw.

Mozart:

* You stir gently awake, feeling Mozart’s gaze on you even before you open your eyes. “Sorry to wake you.” he murmurs “I just had to...” He trails off, long fingers trailing from your ribs, down over your waist and settling on your leg, where he rubs back and forth with his thumb for a quiet moment.

* “Are you okay?” you yawn, shifting closer so you can cuddle into his side. He holds you tighter and nuzzles into your neck, nodding against your skin. “Bad dream?” You ask, he nods again. “Shh” You soothe, gently and sleepily threading your fingers into his soft hair as he heaves out a relieved sigh.

* “We’re in the mansion, I’m safe, you’re safe... I won’t let you get hurt, even while you’re asleep.” He huffs against you, indignant. “I’m the one that’s supposed to protect you.” You smile and scratch his scalp gently, despite his tone, you can feel him relax around you. “There’s nothing wrong with being taken care of once in a while, Wolf. ‘Sides, we protect each other, right?”

* He scoffs, apparently almost back to his usual self. “What will you protect me from, huh? With those weak arms of yours.” “Wah-?!” You stare up at his mischievous smirk, he’s teasing you again. You pout “Well, see if I dust your room again.” You ignore his grumble of ‘I manage dusting just fine’ “-or bugs! I protect you from bugs all the time. Also, for someone so protective of his sheet music you sure do leave it lying around a lot, half of your notes would have flown out to the garden by now if I- hmp!” 

* You deflate against him as he takes your chin in his hand and pulls you into a deep kiss. “Never leave me.” He murmurs, surprisingly vulnerable. Ah- so that’s what this was about. “Never” you whisper against his lips. “I’ll love you until you tire of me.” Instead of chuckling like you expect him to. he inhales sharply and pulls you into a kiss once more, his eyebrows furrowing as he melts into you. “You’ll just have to love me forever, then.” You have no problem with that at all.

~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.

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[ddarker-dreams]

Your Johan fic oh my god...Im so happy I got to live the day to witness you actually writing it. My week is made fr. The way you wrote the monologue is one thing but the actions after is a whole different thing. Not only where you able to completely craft the dialogue between Johan and reader but also the impact those words do. they're terrifying strong and you managed to pitray it perfectly. Actually while reading what he said to reader it made me feel similar and very sad to the point I started tearing up mid way through the story 😭 but I genuinely think reader response is so beautiful, it's something that I relate to and you managed to convert such a crisis and long term pain with it's conflict into one fanfic that is just beautiful beautiful beautiful work. I honestly don't know how you do it. I have been following you for maybe 3 or more years and the way your writing has drastically improved makes me feel so proud even tho I am beginning to get scared on how well you depict these kind of characters lol. You have changed and became something so much bigger in such a short span of time it's beautiful. I am so proud of you and this recent fanfic reminded me of it honestly. this genuinely is one of my favourite stories now I'll have to mark it down and add it to my list and I hope one day you'll realise some books that I can add more to

i think i need to like ,, lay down because WOW what a message. my heart is genuinely touched by this and i’m struggling to figure out how to put that into words (any ability to write just flew out of my body). writing this story was surprisingly therapeutic for the reasons that you mentioned. i knew that to write an effective johan story, there’d need to be some of him verbally digging into the reader. i decided to pick a topic i’m extremely sensitive about to be able to capture that psychic damage he’s capable of inflicting (aka why i made this post). i was worried whether or not the warning “manipulation” could fully cover everything, because if you can even slightly relate to the way johan was coming for reader, it’d be ouch ouch. but i was hoping reader’s response would somewhat mitigate that. 

carl jung’s discussion about the shadow is what i was mostly basing johan off of in the story, specifically the discussion of it in this quote: 

"The shadow is a moral problem that challenges the whole ego-personality, for no one can become conscious of the shadow without considerable moral effort. To become conscious of it involves recognizing the dark aspects of the personality as present and real. This act is the essential condition for any kind of self-knowledge.” 

i think it’s imperative to come to terms with the more unsightly aspects of yourself, since without acknowledging them, they remain permanent blind spots. i was plagued pretty intensely with social anxiety disorder (along with GAD) in my teenage years, and something that came from that was like. this visceral want to be needed by others. the equation in my mind was people need me = i’m not annoying and it’s justifiable for me to be around. 

it took some later reflection to realize my obsession with self-martyrdom to solidify my place with others is Not in fact good, but at the same time, an urge i shouldn’t beat myself up over. of course we long to be wanted! who doesn’t? so long as we can check our motivations and keep this part of ourselves in line as much as possible, i don’t think it’s an ugly thing. i hope that anyone who struggles/has struggled with something similar can read the story and come to a similar conclusion. 

man maybe i’m gonna cry now 😭😭 thank you for supporting me over three years, that’s actually insane to think about?? it really has been that long hasn’t it... my understanding of evil has definitely improved from writing all these dark stories, i wonder if that’ll ever come in handy . mayhaps mayhaps. probably not. sometimes we need useless skills. i’ll keep working to improve my writing, i feel like the biggest help has been how often i do it and the fact i’m actually reading published books now JKGEMR i don’t know why i avoided doing it for so long. i’ve been so pretentious in thinking they had nothing to offer me omg. 

ANYWAY i am beyond grateful that you sent this in, thank you so so so so much!!!!!! 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

[roses-and-grimoires]

Prompt #15: Row

Characters: Idristan

“So what exactly are ye anyway?”

Idristan blinks, the words of the roegadyn cutting through the revere that the slapping of the waves against the hull and the rhythmic splashing of the oars had lulled him into.

“Excuse me?” It’s the best that he can manage under short circumstances. Especially since he has no idea what the other man is on about.

“Well, ye must have a decent amount of coin, considerin’ you’re buyin’ a bloody island, of all things,” he points out, which was a point that Idristan, admittedly, had trouble arguing against. “And ye don’t really look like a business person or the like...” The roegadyn is eyeing him critically as he says this, a fact that causes Idristan to reach out to carefully smooth down his ornate shirt with the large sleeves that billow in the wind.

“No, I’m not,” he agrees, in a tone that suggests he might even be a bit offended by the sheer notion. “I’m a...” He pauses here, clearly debating. There were a lot of things that he was, a lot of various roles and titles that he wore, some with more pride than others. But for this particular one, he had a feeling he knew which one might get the sailor off his back sooner rather than later. “A blitzball player,” he declares, to a disappointingly blank look. He exhales a soft sigh. “You know... the sport? Played in a water dome?”

That seems to do it, for the roegadyn’s eyes light up. “Oh, aye, aye. I saw that  gettin’ set up last year. Didn’t really see what the fuss was about meself.’ He eyes the rather fancy stranger sitting in the boat across from him once more. “So tha’ pays well then?”

Idristan hums softly at the question, one of his shoulders lifting in a small shrug. “Well enough that you’re being paid to take me to look at a private island,” he points out. Which was definitely not entirely honest about his other streams of income, but still.

Either way, the sailor laughs. “Fair, fair!” he concedes. “It really that simple though?” he inquires, sounding curious.

“Well, I suspect that the owner was also rather fond of the idea of the idea of their island going to someone famous. I mayhaps had to throw in some Eyes merchandise, an autograph or two...” His jade eyes narrow slightly as he notes the roegadyn looking suddenly thoughtful.

“Think ye could give me some of tha’? At least, an autograph? Me kid might like it.”

“If you can get us to the shore within the next five minutes, yes.”

Another laugh booms from the roegadyn’s deep chest. “Well, aye, aye captain,” he says, sounding more than a little cheeky as he does so. But sure enough, the tiny rowboat does seem to pick up speed as they had towards the golden sand of the beach.

“Well here ye are, mister not-a-businessman,” the roegadyn declares as the hull of the boat scrapes up against the land. “I assume yer goin’ to go take a look ‘round?”

“Indeed,” the Ishgardian says smoothly as he rises to his feet, then jumps out of the boat with a small splash. “Thank you for the... scintillating conversation.” There is definitely a hint of dryness in his words.

“Aye, of course. I’ll just wait ‘round here, shall I? Just remember that the main ship’s got a schedule; they’ll set out in three bells whether yer on it or not.”

“I’m aware,” Idristan calls over his shoulder with a rather unconcerned air as he starts up the rough path leading up the cliff and deeper onto the island proper. He doesn’t bother to add anything more than that. For he had many things to explore and even more to think about.

[tzipporahssong]

Hello MK,

I've been following you and your partner for quite some time and learnt + learn very awesome things from both of you, it is VERY cool!

However, I still have a question I struggle a lot with - I'm goy, but mayhaps you as a convert might/could share your thoughts?

It's about, well, praying. When in synagogue, I noticed that a lot of the service contains praise to g-d. As in: "the greatest, admired be you, may everyone realize your greatness" (<-- some...thoughts of what I remember). Thing is: how do you/does one deal with it? Because what I appreciate so much about Judaism is how it questions g-d, looks Them in the eye and says: let us talk about it. It is about doing good.

And it does feel very much good and right - but as someone who's just...goyisch, I just. Don't get that. It reminds me of the blind worship of xtians. Which Judaism obviously isn't, so I just...idk, I sat in synagogue, held the text book and thought a lot about it. What does that mean? How does this come together with Jewish texts, which I have - so far - learnt to be as tolerant and proposing growth and supportive and full of love?

I mean, I'd love to convert one day. Far away still. But maybe you could and would share a light on how to...idk, reconcile? The idea of admiring g-d as "the greatest" (+ all the...um. worshipping words? if that makes sense?) and the ideas of Judaism in general?

Like, I'd be very grateful for your answer. And I'm very sorry if this is a silly/insensitive question. I'd like to understand more.

Anyways: thank you.

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Hi there

First of all, there are no bad questions. I’ll admit this is one I’ve had to mull over for quite some time today, but it’s still a great question. In fact, it’s one that really has a different answer for everyone (and I heartily encourage others to add their input to this post).

Essentially, for me, what it boils down to is this: wrestling with Hashem is, indeed, something inherently holy and something we are called to do as Jews. However, to me at least, it feels incredibly private and personal. If there is something weighing on my heart and I need to work through it, I’ll do so on my own or with some trusted people (i.e. my partner, my friends, my rabbi, or my Torah study circle). Whereas with the liturgy, that’s a much more public form of prayer meant to unite a community. And when a community is United, it feels good and wonderful to celebrate the Creator who has made us, kept us safe, and brought us together for this opportunity to pray together. The purpose of prayers during a service, especially on Shabbat, is to celebrate each other and to be grateful for the opportunity to rest and spend time together every week. To me it doesn’t feel like blind worship, it feels like acknowledging the greatness of Hashem, His people, and His sabbath, and later we can go back into our private spaces and worship in a different way: by questioning what He has given us and what is best to do with it.

I really hope that makes sense, and I really do hope others bring their perspectives to this. Remember that my inbox and DMs are always open. 💙💙

[ready-to-obeyme]

[OM!] Domestic Ship Meme: Lucifer/MC

[Domestic Ship Meme]

Notes: GN! ‘you’, fluff!!!! Lucifer really b living in my head rent free

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who reaches out to new neighbors

Between the two of you, it’s gonna have to be you. Unless Lucifer somehow has something to gain from being friendly with the neighbors, he’s not that motivated to make an impression. And if you aren’t really up for it, he doesn’t mind either. The two of you can be content with just an occasional wave and small talk with the neighbor when you chance upon meeting them. If you’re really eager to reach out to the neighbors… cool. He’ll come with and greet them if you want him to. 

who remembers to buy healthy food

Lucifer cares a lot about the fact you get your proper nutrients, especially when you don’t. 

“MC, you can’t persist on cup noodles every night when I come home late.” Insists on buying vegetables so you can at least put them in your ramen to get vitamins to live if you don’t want to cook. He makes it a habit to have a balanced meal every time. 

If you’re as health conscious as he is, you make sure to pack lunch for the both of you before you go about your day. :)

who remembers to buy junk food

YOU DO, BABY! 

Every time you go shopping for groceries with him, you both pick out produce and everything you need for meal preps, but you always backtrack to grab bags of chips or candy that catches your attention. He watches you with mild exasperation as you scrutinize whether to grab the salsa or the guacamole for the chips and end up just getting both. 

He grumbles a little less if you slip in a bag of his favorite snack though. (A bag of licorice mayhaps?) 

who fixes the oven when it breaks

Both of you are capable of learning how to fix the oven when it breaks. It probably does end up being a joint effort regardless. As to whoever BROKE the oven, it’s probably Lucifer. Baking is his weakness; he doesn’t understand why. 

who waters the plants/feeds their pet(s)

You water the plants and Lucifer feeds the pet(s). You will always have Cerberus-- always. Whether you have more is really up to your and his discretion, but he’s pretty on top of making sure Cerberus has his food every morning before he leaves. He could water the plants too, if you wanted him to, but he thinks it’s cute to come home to you watering the hydrangeas at the front door or the succulents at the windowsill. It gives you a very nurturing vibe, even if you don’t mean to, and it makes him feel a little soft every time. 

who wakes up earlier

Lucifer does. This really depends on what job/occupation you currently have, but for the most part, he wakes up at the crack of dawn naturally anyways. Doesn’t matter when he sleeps, his internal clock is set for ‘when the sun rises’ (which is funny, considering how the Devildom doesn’t have a sun). 

You think it’s horrible until you realize he can choose to sleep in when he wants to, but Lucifer honestly doesn’t mind. He likes waking up early so he can press kisses onto your forehead, careful not to wake you up but laughing under his breath if you stir and mumble in your sleep. He’s absolutely besotted with you, and it really shows in the way he holds you in the moments before he starts the day. 

who makes the bed

You do, mostly because you wake up later than he does… and because he doesn’t like it when the bed isn’t made. 

“Why make the bed when we’re going to end up sleeping in it anyways?”

“Yes, why wash Cerberus if he’s going to get dirty again.”

“3:” 

Just make the bed. He’s ridiculously pleased when he comes back home to a neat bed, especially if you were not in the habit to do so before. If you weren’t really happy to do it before, he says “please~?” in a way you swear you fucking see sparkles in the background and you give up. (you are weak for the man)

who makes the coffee

(flashback to Hell’s Coffee chat)

Lucifer lives off of coffee, so more often than not, he ends up making the coffee. He also tends to wake up a LOT earlier than you, so the duty usually falls to him anyhow. If you drink coffee, always makes a cup for you before he leaves with the right amount of sugar and cream. 

On the day you’re both off, you tend to both sleep in, and therein the coffee making responsibility goes to you, because Lucifer certainly isn’t going to get out of bed any time soon. You tried making coffee for him on a work day, which basically meant you tried to wake up EARLIER than him. Not the best idea you had, but when he found you asleep on the dining table with the coffee made hot, best believe he pressed a kiss onto your forehead and said ‘thank you’ before sending you back to bed. 

who burns breakfast

Assuming both of you are decent at cooking, you’re more likely to burn the breakfast mainly because Lucifer doesn’t eat breakfast to begin with. 

“What happened to three balanced meals a day?”

“I never said ‘three,’ I just said they had to be balanced.” 

“>:(“ 

It’s his fault though. Every time you make breakfast, he distracts you by coming into the kitchen and wrapping his arms around you and pressing a kiss on the back of your neck. Or, if it’s on a weekend, he tugs you back into bed and you forget about the bacon on the stove until it’s basically charcoal. 

how do they let each other know they’re leaving the house

Lucifer tries not to wake you up before you need to, so he’s usually silent when leaving the house. When you do stir awake and sleepily ask him if he’s heading off to work, he never fails to press a kiss to your cheek and say, “I’ll see you soon.” He’s always the most tender with you in the early light of the day, willing to indulge you a little if you tug him back into bed for a snuggle or press kisses onto your lips until you’re satiated. 

If the both of you are awake, he’ll say something along the lines of “I’m heading out to do something. I’ll be back in an hour,” and if you’re not busy, kisses you and leaves. 

how do they greet each other when one of them gets home

“I’m home,” Lucifer says quietly, just in case you’re already asleep-- but you never are. He finds the kitchen light on with you sitting at the dining table with a book in hand, and you smile up at him when he walks through the door and places down his keys. 

“Welcome back,” you tell him, like every night. You tug off his jacket and press a kiss onto his lips as he tiredly gives you a smile. 

--

Rarely, you come home later than he does, but it happens. 

“Did you eat dinner yet?” Lucifer asks, once you set down the keys and shrug off your coat. “Or would you prefer a bath first?” 

“Did you learn that phrase from Levi?” You tease, watching him roll his eyes good naturedly as he stands from his chair and makes his way to you. “I don’t know,” you respond, as he snakes his hands around your waist. “Maybe a bath if you want to join me.”

His hands dip further down. “If you insist,” he says, dropping his head until he trails his lips along your neck. 

The both of you pause at the sound of your stomach growling. 

You look sheepishly at him as he gives you an amused quip of his lips. “Maybe…” You suggest hopefully, “Dinner in the bath?” 

Lucifer throws his head back and laughs.

who brings home little gifts like flowers/chocolates more often

With Lucifer, romance is never dead. If something catches his eye on the way back from work, he has no problems taking a quick stop and buying a bouquet from the florist so you can decorate the house with it or add another succulent to your collection. His gifts always mean he thought of you-- would you like this necklace? Didn’t you say you needed another pen the other day? How much chocolate is too much for a gift? (it’s never too much luci)

However, you refuse to be beat. You throw him a reverse uno card and buy him small gifts or trinkets that catch your eye and think he’d enjoy it. There’s not a lot he actually wants, so your gifts are more fun, something to make him laugh throughout the day or remind him of you. He brings a lot of the trinkets to work with him and look at them

who picks the movie for movie night

Both of you switch off on choosing a movie. He’s not that picky with movies. If it’s horror movies you want to watch, he’ll be there for you to hide behind. If it’s a rom-com you want to watch, expect a few chuckles from him. 

their favorite kind of movie to watch

Lucifer likes watching the classics and prefers new movies that are thought-provoking. Thrillers or psychological movies like Black Mirror or Annihilation are very fascinating to him. He’s impartial to most genres, though, unless it’s completely and utterly inane. He prefers movies with some thought or some emotion-evoking aspect to it-- SUBSTANCE. 

who first suggests a pillow fort + who builds the pillow fort

You suggest it and drag Lucifer into building the pillow fort with you. He thinks he enables you too much; you agree with him.

“Who did you get this idea from? Mammon?”

“No, of course not! I got it from my six-year old niece.”

“...”

Still, you end up in the pillow fort, covering it with a blanket and end up eating snacks and napping together in it. 

You don’t see him complaining about it afterwards. 

who tries to distract the other during the move

Lucifer allllll the way. The man loves to tease you whenever he has the chance, so if he’s in the mood, would definitely try to distract you by placing his hand on your thigh and just subtly tracing his hands over them. Acts innocent when you scold him, but continues to do lingering touches on your thighs, waist, neck until you either give in and be completely distracted by him. He knows when to stop though, like if you’re actually very interested in the movie or aren’t in the mood.  

who falls asleep first

Lucifer does if the both of you go to bed at the same time. Tired during the day, he knocks out pretty much immediately if he lets himself relax in your arms and in your presence. Which is fine by you. If Lucifer had a ritual to take a moment to cherish you in the early hours of the day, you take the time in the moments before you sleep to kiss his brow and sweep his hair from his eyes, whispering ‘I love you’s’ against his temple in the quiet hours of the night. 

who is big spoon/little spoon

Lucifer likes being a big spoon, of course, but you ALSO like being HIS big spoon, so it’s a trade-off. You enjoy being in his arms and being the little spoon: you feel protected, his arms around you, his head either on top of your or his nose buried in your hair. Being a big spoon lets YOU do that to him! 

Usually, you sleep on his shoulder, or you sleep facing each other. You really let the night decide whether you end up big or small spoon, but you tend to end up small spoon naturally. Sometimes, when you wake up in the middle of night, you turn to make him big spoon, and he gets a little embarrassed when he wakes up like this (but again, no complaints here! <3).

[sxcret-garden-archive]

Jinyoung ✧ In Time

✧ Got7 Jinyoung x reader ✧ words: ~900 ✧ genre: fluff, (comfort)

Desc.: You’re in a long-distance relationship with Jinyoung, and sometimes being apart gets tough for the both of you, so you’re happy to have him by your side to always cheer you up.

“Y/N! How are you?” you can hear Jinyoung’s voice clearly as soon as he picks up your call. His face that’s displayed on the screen of your phone looks happy, and a certain softness lies in his eyes. 

“I’m fine, everything’s a bit stressful these days, but other than that I’m getting by,” you answer, trying not to sound too depressing. However, it wouldn’t be Jinyoung if he didn’t immediately notice that there’s something going on with you.

“What is it? You can tell me anything, you know?” he assures and you silently thank him for it. It’s been a few months since you started dating, but within all that time you haven’t seen each other a lot since he’s an idol and so you’re both very conscious about hiding your relationship. At the same time not living in the same country as the person you love has never been easy for anyone, and now the two of you as well get to experience that first-hand.

“Just…” you sigh, debating whether or not you should share your feelings. You were looking forward to this call so much, because you just wanted to see his face and hear his voice again, but somehow a certain sadness stays. However, as you’re still pondering on what to say, he tears you out of those thoughts.

“Baby?” he calls out to you from the other end of the line. “I know it’s hard. Long distance relationships suck, for me as well… it’s about that, isn’t it?” You nod and you bite your lower lip, tightening the grip around your phone, as if that would bring you closer to him. “We’ll be able to see each other again in a month or so,” he keeps talking. “I know that might seem like a long time…” Jinyoung looks to the side, searching for the right words. That habit of always thinking thoroughly and choosing his words thoughtfully is one of the many things you adore so much about him. “But if you split it up into weeks it suddenly won’t seem so far away anymore. Four weeks go by in a blink, especially when you keep busy. And it’s not like you can’t always text me or call me whenever you miss me too much,” he adds with a tender smile on his lips. Though his words reassure you somewhat, the warmth he sparks in your chest makes you want to be right next to him, so that you could hug him and have him hold you tightly in his arms. You feel your eyes getting watery at the thought.

“Hey, look here,” you hear his voice from the speakers of your phone. You do as he said and focus on his face and his handsome features, when he lifts his hand and pats the top of his screen. The gesture makes you feel shy and your cheeks take on a shade of pink. “It’ll be alright. We can make it through this together, okay?”

“Okay,” you answer, trying to be strong for him.

“I have something I wanted to show you,” he continues talking, mayhaps to distract from the sad topic.

“What is it?” you ask.

“I made a new song,” he announces and then puts his index finger over his mouth, adding to the gesture, “As always, okay?”

“Who would I tell?” you chuckle.

“I don’t know who of your friends you let in on all your secrets,” Jinyoung jokes, and then turns a bit more serious again. “It’s not done yet, but I’ll sing a bit for you, if you want.”

“Of course I want to hear it!” you answer. And without letting you wait, he closes his eyes and you do the same, listening to just his voice for a little while. It’s a soft melody, and the lyrics are somewhat sad, but it’s incredibly nice to listen to. He finishes and you hope your mind would remember the song, so that you could sing it to yourself later on when you feel lonely and want to be reminded of him.

“What do you think?” he asks.

“It’s lovely,” you answer. “I really like it. Will it be on your next album?” Your boyfriend laughs softly at your question.

“We’ll see about that… you know how it is,” he explains, “only the best of the best gets released.”

“But your songs are all good!” you protest, as if he could change anything about his company’s decisions.

“Thank you,” he says, lowering his head a bit as if he suddenly felt shy about receiving a compliment from you. At the same time you can unmistakably see the spark in his eyes that your words caused, and you know he’s happy you approve of his new song. But how could you not? You genuinely love everything this man does. “But,” he changes the topic, “what about you? What have you been up to these past few days? Any news on what you told me last time?” You smile and think about what to tell him first, as you’re happy to have someone like him to talk to. The evening spent together on the phone passes in the blink of an eye, and though that makes you a bit sad when it’s time to hang up, Jinyoung sees another opportunity to cheer you up.

“See? Time passes faster than we think,” he says. “So if the last few hours went by quickly, then so will the next few days. And before you know it, it’ll already be a month later and we can see each other again.”

[yaz-the-spaz]

But I want to know your theory. :(

ok ok i guess i’ll spill…i was kinda hesitant to share just cause i’m still not all that solid in my belief in it myself but basically it seems like maybe ziam has made it a tradition to have some kind of couples trip most years (if not every year) in february ever since 2014…

(btw for future reference this ask is a continuation of this ask re ziam both being publicly in vegas earlier this year)

ugh sorry guys! hit enter by accident and posted this wayyyy before i was anywhere near finished lol…this will be updated within the hour (if it doesn’t take me too long to get my thoughts out)

narrator: she did not finish it within the hour.

…

ok so part of the reason i’ve been hesitant to share this is because a good portion of it is VERY speculative and just based on a lot of guesswork and assumptions, but also there’s the fact that it feels like this is something major that more people in the fandom (or at least someone, other than little ass me lol) would have noticed before now and it kind of freaks me out that maybe no one else has?? (unless ofc i just haven’t happened to see any other posts there are about it idk)… 

also fyi a lot of what i propose throughout this is heavily based on info from this post just to make sure i remember to site my sources before we get into it lol

alright now onto the actual theory…

SO. all this started with me scrolling through old posts from late 2013/early 2014 and being reminded of the fuckery that was zayn’s bday that year (with the douche canoe crew and everyone pretending like liam was barely there as seemingly some sort of weird over-the-top cover-up)…the same party that seemed kinda like liam’s possible “introduction” to the malik family as more than just zayn’s friend/as his possible significant other. which was also only a month after that suspicious engagement-looking ring first showed up on zayn’s ring finger in december 2013 from bts midnight memories mv footage (and which stayed around as a necklace throughout january 2014 and early febuary 2014 right before the first appearance/debut of the mandala tat in mid feb). 

bts midnight memories mv with the ring in view - dec 2013:

(suspicious?) malik family outing/celebration with the ring in view - dec (or possibly late nov?) 2013:

[putting the rest under the cut cause as per usual with me this got insanely long]

liam and aunt zileh at zayn’s bday party - jan 2014:

liam and one of the little cousins at zayn’s bday party - jan 2014:

then sometime in between late jan and early feb 2014 liam went on a trip to barbados with his whole family (and supposedly also sophia lol more on that later*) while zayn was SUPPOSEDLY still home and steadily “posting” pics of himself at home with various members of his family (with the ring on a necklace clearly visible in the pics lol), anddd as some have also pointed out his hair was suspiciously unchanged in these pics despite his claim of getting a haircut BEFORE most of the pics were posted lol

zayn in family pics with the ring on a necklace - late jan/early feb 2014 (sorry i’m not the one who cropped his fam out lol):

but yet we’re supposed to believe zayn - who had just gotten awarded the asian ambassadorship for the VERY FIRST time - mysteriously (and willingly) MISSED the ceremony on feb. 5th with absolutely no explanation. which…we all know how big a deal that was to him from the way he talked about it and how honored he was when he went in 2015…which begs the question if he was really just home not doing much of anything at the time in 2014 why in the world would he just pass/bail on that HUGE HONOR with no explanation??? mayhaps because he was actually already an ocean away with liam and fam in barbados celebrating his engagement (and getting his own “introduction” to the payne family) and literally COULD NOT ATTEND?

anyway so then, we have him getting the mandala tat around feb 18th 2014 - or at least this is the day he debuted it on his old ig, so the date may be a few days off from when he actually got it - but this still would’ve been shortly after they got back from the barbados trip when he debuted this particular tat (aka another solidification of the engagement??) 

THEN we get the very first ig ziam likes from the famous and beloved aunt zileh (!!!) in this same month (still feb for reference, but she continues steadily and heavily liking stuff all the way through april when she seems to cool down again). fast forward to the 2014 brits at the end of february where we have the infamous moment with 1) ziam giddy as fucking ever, 2) zayn whispering into and practically mawling liam’s neck in public, 3) liam talking about how it was great to “fill each other in” on what they were up to during their break while zayn’s just steady standing there smiling like a loon and then 4) liam still later being like ‘you don’t wanna know’ when asked what he got up to (and zayn still grinning like a fool)

ziam being gross at brits 2014:

so to sum up so far: 1) one of them possibly proposed around nov/dec 2013 (or that’s my best guess anyway based on the evidence lol), 2) then zayn shows up with a suspiciously-engagement-looking ring in dec 2013, 3) then all the weirdness with liam’s attendance at zayn’s bday party a month later (possibly also liam’s formal intro to the malik family), 4) then liam takes his barbados trip with his fam (and supposedly sophia lol*) just a couple weeks later while “zayn” stays home and posts family pics (but is very likely secretly on the trip with liam lol which is also possibly zayn’s formal intro the payne family and a belated celebration of their engagement), 5) and then we get the beginning of aunt zileh’s likes, 6) the debut of zayn’s mandala tat, 7) and the 2014 brits wildness…all in the space of like 3 months. and most of it happening in FEBRUARY. what a wild fucking journey right?

*side note/fun fact: liam and his fam were posting stuff regularly throughout the duration of the barbados vacay but there were literally zero pics of sophia posted from this trip until like dec 2014 or sometime around then when like ONE random pic suddenly surfaced/was posted and lots of ppl had already speculated that sophia was never there in the first place so once this one pic came up that idea got upgraded to people theorizing that they maybe had some of the fam go back a second time later in the year just to stage take photos to retroactively prove/authenticate the narrative that sophia was there lol

but anyway so back to the actual matter at hand - most of that shit happened in february right? specifically the barbados trip (aka the possible engagement celebration trip)…and when i was talking about all this to a friend we realized ZIAMI WAS ALSO IN FEBRUARY. AND SO WAS THIS YEAR’S VEGAS SHIT. AND THEN. AND THEN. My friend did some research and there was apparently this little known/barely talked about article (or at least barely talked about that i’m aware of) about liam taking a TRIP TO THE MALDIVES IN FEBRUARY 2016… which coincidentally (or not lol considering these shady ass hoes) is also around the same time he got his 4 tattoo (I believe this was the first article, or at least one of the first articles, that mentioned the tat’s debut) 

BUT WAIT. 

THE INSANE SHIT DOES NOT END THERE FOLKS.

GUESS WHICH MONTH THE CARTIER BRACELET FIRST DEBUTED?

FUCKING FEBRUARY 2016.

specifically on liam’s wrist in preparation for the 2016 brits (photo posted to his brits stylist’s ig on feb 23rd). and he didn’t take it off till like june.

so. quick timeline:

february 2016 - maldives trip and debut of liam’s 4 tattoo (around feb 21st); debut of cartier bracelet via liam (feb 23rd); (there was also that valentine’s day roses pic liam posted feb 14th of this year which was quite interesting considering he and c hadn’t even been officially announced as a “thing” yet…ofc we know it still got retroactively attributed to her anyway but whatever, we all know who it was really for lol 😏)

february 2017 - i don’t have anything on this year, partly cause i stopped paying as close attention due to heavy ramping up of stunts, although if anyone has more concrete info on this period that hints at anything please do hit me up and i will add it in, but anyway just based on a little light research there does appear to be a good period of inactivity from both of them during this time (as in both of them had quite a bit of time in february where they were pretty inactive on sm, not being papped, and essentially mia and would have potentially had time to go on a private trip) - UPDATE: HOLY SHIT I CANNOT BELIEVE I FORGOT ABOUT THIS BUT THIS IS THE YEAR LIAM SHOWED UP AT THE BRITS WITH THE MOTHERFUCKING 25 ON HIS JACKET AND FUCKED SIMON ALL THE WAY UP BY SWERVING ON HIS UGLY BITCH ASS SPEECH IN FRONT OF GOD AND ENTIRE WORLD (and i think also thanked zayn in his speech if i’m not mixing that up with another year??) - all on feb 23rd to be specific.

february 2018 - ZIAMI OBVIOUSLY (which specifically started feb 22nd, or at least that’s the day i’m counting it as ‘started’ cause it’s the day liam joined zayn in miami, can’t recall the exact day zayn arrived but pretty sure it was only a couple days before that)

february 2019 - zayn starts wearing this distinctive fishhook earring in all his ig pics, which on the surface seems like a pretty small thing, but quite possibly commemorates their famous august 2014 fishing trip (directly after which he also started wearing a fish hook pendant on a necklace back in 2014); this was also another period they were pretty quiet/mia as far as i can recall, although again if anybody has more concrete info from this time that could point to something please let me know, but anyway point being they again would have had a good chunk of time to possibly go on a private trip together

february 2020 - VEGAS BABY

ofc i’m sure you all will notice one year was left out - february 2015 they were on tour with no breaks coming anytime soon so they obviously weren’t able to go on a trip that year. BUT. february 14th 2015 (aka valentine’s day lol) is also the day liam was famously papped with some small shopping bags that looked suspiciously but precisely like the type that usually come from a jewelry store, and then later that same night they had a performance (for otra tour) where we have zayn pictured wearing a new gold bracelet (as in he hadn’t been seen wearing it ever before on tour or anywhere else) - btw the op of this linked post actually marks this day as the debut of the cartier bracelet but there’s a lot of counter speculation that it’s not and given that it doesn’t quite look like the cartier bracelet looked in later pics (it’s more round and more gold than the cartier bracelet which imo looks more angular and more kind of a two-tone/silvery-gold than this vday bracelet) i’m inclined to lean more towards it just being a regular but still very sweet vday-gifted bracelet. but anyway back to more important stuff. now considering this was literally just a little over a month before zayn left - and one of my theories for zayn leaving was that it was possible he felt it was the only way to save his relationship with liam…i mean if they were still giving each other vday presents they were clearly still VERY in love at this point. like that’s not the kind of thing you’d expect from a couple that was on the rocks and on the verge of breaking up and i know a lot of ppl (myself included for a brief minute) speculated that zayn leaving the band meant he maybe left liam too/or things weren’t working out b/t them or whatever, but given this context of the vday gifts just a few weeks before him leaving that doesn’t really line up…what does line up though is him being so in love and so sick of the bs that he might be driven to just be done with it all (as far as the stress of the band and mgmt bs is concerned at least). and ofc liam did say that zayn is the most emotionally impulsive/emotionally driven out of all them so when you think about it it really shouldn’t come as that much of a surprise…

anyway, in conclusion: 

it appears quite possible ziam has made it a couples tradition (ever since that first honeymoonish vacay in 2014) to go on some sort of trip/getaway together around the end of every february (or at least do something special together/for each other when they can’t) and in further conclusion I AM NOT OKAY AND WILL NEVER BE OVER THIS REALIZATION OKAY THANKS BYE 😭😭😭😭😭🌈🌈🌈 

[jksofficialwifey]

Kiss me, Heal me. 3

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Summary: When Jungkook gets injured just before an important game, he sets out to find his soulmate to heal him. In a world where soulmates can heal all kinds of illnesses by kissing, he’s desperate to find his, even if he doesn’t know you yet. What happens if he does find you? Will you kiss a stranger who claims to be your soulmate?

WC: 3k+

Warnings: Smut but it's not who you think it is, Infidelity- but jk has a shitty gf n it's mutual lol, snarky oc at the end.

tags: idiots and enemies to lovers, a lil slowburn, a bit of angst, soulmate culture, smut in the future.

A/N: this is unedited as always so sowee 👅💋 hope ya still like it tho! enjoy loves. :)

pls don’t repost my fic anywhere, if i ever find out you stole my fic idea you’ll regret it. thanks :)

You still couldn't stop thinking about the kiss. Though it was a week ago, and you've been avoiding Jungkook like he had the plague. Also, he went home awkwardly last week after that happened. You wondered if it meant something to him? To you? Of course it meant something to you, you were in-like with him. No matter how hard you tried to deny it, mayhaps you liked him. It really didn't help that you felt like heaven when he kissed you. It kinda makes you think if you were just meant to be healing soulmates and not romantic soulmates. And then there's his girlfriend too, they haven't broken up yet and what if she finds out you kissed his boyfriend? Would that make you a slut? Are you really a slut now? Ugh, maybe you are for Jungkook that is. But no. You should just forget about it, Jungkook doesn't seem like he'll leave his girlfriend for someone like you anyway. Even though you heard they were almost fighting everyday. Your best friend Charlie told you so, of course she asked how last week went and of course you cursed her for making Jungkook scheme with her against you.

But, you also told her about the kiss which she happily squealed when she found out, shipping you both. And then she proceeded to tell you about Jungkook's chaos in paradise. Why did he even kiss you? He's just making you overthink stuff, and it isn't even nighttime yet. Did he just want to help and heal you? Or was it something more? It doesn't matter you kept saying, but maybe you were just trying to convince yourself otherwise.

You went to the library to distract yourself and read some books, and of course like every cliché romance novel- (tho the romance part isn't really true) the person you were avoiding was there. Jungkook and his long curly hair that you hate. Why did he have to be so damn godlike all the time? He was in a casual polo shirt tucked in inside his pants, maybe he didn't have soccer practice today. And he looked so good you were trying not to get wet just staring at him. Maybe he noticed you were ogling him so he decided to stare at you back. But you were still embarrassed and you didn't know how to act around him now, so you went to the back aisle of the library. Not acknowledging that he was calling your name. He didn't let you go though, as he went after you to make your suffering even worse.

"Y/N, hey are you avoiding me?" he suddenly asked. You pretended to be busy reading the book you were holding, just so you didn't have to stare at his handsome face. "Oh. Hey Jungkook, of course I'm not. I'm just busy trying to catch up with school and stuff. Why'd you think so?" you replied indifferently. "You didn't listen to me when I called your name awhile ago, and I haven't seen you around campus so I thought maybe you were avoiding me. Aren't you really?" He said as he moved towards you, making you feel queasy.

"I really am not. I just didn't hear you awhile ago, and besides the whole campus is pretty big maybe we just didn't notice each other." you simply fibbed. "Okay, whatever you say. I just wanted to know how are you feeling btw? Are you feeling better now after we… kissed?" you can't believe his cocky ass would really bring up the kiss. Fck him. "I'm spectacular if you must know. And can we not bring that up ever again please? It doesn't matter anyway." you retorted sarcastically.

"Why not? Are you mad at me because I kissed you? Or are you mad because you loved it?" he said as he moved closer to you trapping you within the shelves. You couldn't breathe but it was also like you didn't care, you wanted him close to you even if you felt like dying inside too. When you finally looked at him in the eye, you weren't surprised that he was staring at you with that playful but concerned look you kinda liked. "Don't be so full of yourself, I only liked it because it healed me. There's no other reason." You tried to shove him off and get away, but he held unto you and placed his hands on your hips. "If that's true, then why can't you look at me more than a minute longer and why are you running away baby?" he whispered into your ear seductively. He then moved to look at your face, and then at your lips. Seemingly wanting to taste them again. And you wanted to taste his too, you remembered how you got almost addicted to his lips the first time you kissed. He leaned in closer and you suddenly remembered you didn't even answer his question yet. But you think you did now as you were kissing him. The kiss didn't last long as you remembered his girlfriend Chaeyoung. It was unfair to her and what if she caught you? You were almost making out with her boyfriend again. The thought was enough to make you pull away from Jungkook, leaving him a little confused.

"Why did you pull away? You can't lie to me, I know you liked kissing me too."

"Yes, maybe I did Jungkook. But it's wrong. You have a girlfriend Jungkook, what are you thinking? What about chaeyoung? Don't you care about what she'd feel?" you reasoned. "I know that, you don't have to remind me. But you're my soulmate Y/N, she's just my girlfriend. And I don't even know what I feel about her anymore, but when I kiss you I don't think about anything or anyone else."

"But we can't do this Jungkook. I can't allow you to cheat on her with me, and I can't allow you to use me while you figure out what you really feel about her. It isn't healthy for the both of us."

"I know baby, I'm sorry. I'm not using you to figure out my feelings for her or forget her, I don't know what it is yet but I feel so good when I'm with you. Can't we just forget about everything for a little while and just let it be?" he said as he cupped your cheeks with his hands. "I don't know Kook, I don't think I can forget that you're with someone else and fool around with you. If things aren't working out for the both of you, why don't you talk it out or break up?"

"It's not that easy to just talk it out with her… and I can't break up with her…" (just yet) Jungkook wanted to add.

"Well what are you planning to do? And what do you want me to do Kook? I don't wanna be the other woman. You surely don't think we'll just mess around while you're still with her?"

"I can't let her go just yet Y/N. I need to think more. But I can't let you go too. You're my soulmate, pls don't give up on me. I just need time to figure things out." Jungkook said dejectedly. "I'll wait for you Kook, I just hope you can make the right decision. Also, It's not like I can avoid you forever. But, maybe it's best if we just stay friends for now. Like friends with no funny business or benefits." You said meaning it seriously but the last part jokingly. Trying to make the mood a little better.

"That's okay with me I guess. Well friend, promise you won't avoid me now?" He looked at you with hopeful eyes.

"Promise. Just don't try to do illegal things to me." You joked. "Okay! Hmm, so you wanna go eat icecream with me at my fave ice cream shop this time?"

"Are you paying for mine? If you are then who am I to say no."

💜💋

"Babe, you feel so good inside me."

"Of course I do, I have the best pussy and you know that."

"Not to ruin the mood, but what about your boyfriend? What if he catches us here? I heard he's built, I'm not saying I'm scared but you know I hate confrontation." The guy said balls deep inside her. "What about him? He doesn't care about me, he's probably fucking someone else too. But I can't break up with him you know? We've gone through a lot, and even if he neglects me I still want & need him. And you can't blame me for wanting someone to fulfill my needs, when he doesn’t anymore. Don't worry about him catching us, he never comes here unless I tell him to. Jungkook is so obedient, but a lousy boyfriend."

After you both finished your ice creams,( you learned his fave was the cookies and cream flavor,) Jungkook didn't want to go home yet. He suggested to go to the bowling alley at the mall, to teach you how to play bowling, because you mentioned you've never played it before.

"You have to hold it like this. Place your middle and ring finger in the top 2 holes and place your thumb into the bottom hole." he instructed, after a while you were almost getting the hang of it, though Jungkook was still the best because he'd made a 'turkey' already. You found out he loved going bowling with his dad, before they fought about his goals and dreams. It's amazing how athletic he is. He's an amazing soccer player, he's good at bowling, he's an exercise muscle pig, he can probably do anything if he puts his mind to it. Maybe the only thing he can't do is leave his girlfriend for you, or like you. But it's not time for your pity party right now.

After a taxing hell week, Jungkook invited you to have a movie marathon with him as a friend at his place, to relax after the horrid week and hangout.

"What movies are we watching this time Kook?" you asked sitting on his bed comfortably, holding a bag of chips to munch on later as you watched movies. "Hmm, I was thinking we could watch all the Iron man movies, and maybe spiderman after."

"Wow you really like Iron man huh?" you teased smirking a little. "Well yeah, only uncultured swines don't." he retorted.

"I really like how pepper stayed by his side through everything. She's a brilliant woman." Jungkook says sometime during the movie. "Yeah, I haven't really seen all the iron man movies till now but I can say they suit each other well. Pun unintended." you laughed at your silly thought, making Jungkook smile too.

You were focusing on the movie when you realized Jungkook's attention wasn't fully on the movie, instead it was at you. He was staring at you and he wasn't even being subtle about it. "Hey creep, why are you staring? You're not planning to murder me are you?" You joked. "I'm not a creep and I'm not planning to murder you, I was just admiring the view." You felt a blush forming in your cheeks at his words. Did he mean he was admiring you? That you were the view? The view isn't even that beautiful though, you thought insecure.

"Stop joking around Kook." you told him shrugging him off. "I'm not though, but I'll stop. Wouldn't want you falling for me even more." He cockily remarked. You knew he was joking but you couldn't help but get pissed a little by his joke. It was like he was trying to rile you up and for what? You couldn't do anything with him. You shouldn't, besides you already had an agreement. "As if Kook, keep dreaming."

"I'll keep dreaming of you then."

"Shut up or I'm really gonna get mad now."

"Okay, okay. I was just teasing babe don't be mad, I'm sorry."

"Let's just continue watching the movie okay?"

"Yeah, of course." he said awkwardly.

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You were out buying something at the store when you saw someone familiar passing by. Was that Chaeyoung? Jungkook's girlfriend? After taking the items you bought you followed her, as you were curious if Jungkook was with her at the mall too. But to your surprise she entered a resto, and the guy waiting for her wasn't Jungkook. It was some guy you didn't know but they looked kinda close if you must say. Thinking he was just a friend, you were about to go on your way when you saw at the corner of your eye that they were a little too close to be just friends. She fed him some food and they were sweet with each other. An ugly thought geared in your head. She wasn't cheating on Jungkook wasn't she? But if she were then it would be so unfair to him.

You had the sudden urge to ask her what she was doing when you realized it wasn't your place and your business to butt in. You also remembered that you kissed his boyfriend so you were conflicted. Isn't it hypocritical to hate her for possibly cheating on Jungkook, when Jungkook kinda did the same? Their relationship is kinda fucked up if you think about it, and you don't want to be a part of it. But how can you not be affected when you've already sinned with your soulmate. You decided to go home instead of snitching her to Jungkook, as you thought it wasn't the right time yet. Also, you needed more proof and to know the truth if she really was doing it.

You were back again at Jungkook's place to do a project for school, as the universe decided to make you partners for this class project. Maybe it's the soulmate effect, ew. You should stop being delulu, you thought. You weren't gonna lie and say you don't enjoy spending time with Jungkook though, He was always so adorable and kind. Except for times when his cockiness gets the best of him, he was enjoyable to be around with. "So, which part do you wanna do first?" you asked. "Hmm, maybe the easy one first?" you laughed a little, of course he'd choose the easy part to do. "Okay. You'll do the vocabulary part and I'll do the introduction summary for now." You stated. He agreed and you both proceeded to do the project, chatting occasionally to ask some questions about it. You just finished your tasks for today, when Jungkook decided to make a dad joke and it was actually a good one- or maybe you're just lame that's why you found it so funny that you had tears in the corner of your eyes from laughing so much. Someone decided to knock on his door interrupting your crack fiasco, and you remembered to get yourself together and stop giggling like a crackhead.

"Chaeyoung? Why are you here?" Jungkook said as soon as he opened his door, his girlfriend appearing in front of him. "Because you weren't answering your phone Kook, and now I see why." She retorted, looking at you accusingly. She had put weird extensions on her hair, making her look quite ratchet. But her outfit was kinda nice, it was slutty like her. "Well Y/N's here because we're doing a school project, it's not what you're thinking Chae."

"And what am I thinking Kook? Care to tell me how you know what's on my mind?" she said sarcastically. "I'm just saying the stupid things you're thinking aren't real, babe." Chaeyoung got angry at his statement. "Are you saying I'm stupid Jungkook? How dare you!" she screamed.

"I never said that, you're the one who said it. Are we really gonna fight right now again? Because I don't have the time or energy for it. So can we do it some other time? Not right now when Y/N's here." Instead of being ashamed, the things Jungkook said just seemed to rile up his girlfriend more. "And so fcking what if she's here Kook? I don't care about her, and you shouldn't too. Your business with her is done! You shouldn't be meeting up with her anymore, but look at you hoeing around behind my back." You wanted to defend Jungkook, but you remembered that you did kiss him and that made you feel a little guilty. Though, you agreed to be just friends right now. "I'm not hoeing around Chaeyoung! Stop accusing me of doing things I'm not doing. I care about Y/N because she's my soulmate, and you should respect her as a person if you can't respect us being connected in each other's lives." Jungkook retorted right back at her. "If you're not playing around then why do I feel like you are Kook? A woman's instincts are never wrong. You've been cold to me. And whenever we talk, we just fight. Is it really crazy for me to think that it's because you want something or someone new?" she cried crocodile tears.

"I'm sorry if you feel that way, but It's not wholly my fault. You always seem to find mistakes in me and accuse me of stupid shit I didn't do, that's why we're always fighting. You say I never communicate, but when I try to- you're the one who doesn't listen to me. I don't even know what to do with you anymore Chae. I don't know what to do with us." Jungkook sighed, quite exhausted with the whole conversation they're having. It was so awkward for you to witness them fighting, that you wanted to get out of the room already. So you told Jungkook you were leaving.

"Kook, I'm sorry to butt-in but maybe I should leave now? We're almost done with the project anyway." Jungkook was about to reply and escort you out, but his girlfriend chimed in. "You really only thought to leave now? When you could've done that ages ago? Come to think of it, it's your fault why we're fighting again. You're an annoying little slut." Jungkook was embarrassed and bummed at his girlfriend for insulting you like that, she was being paranoid and a bitch. You decided not to mind her and say anything, even though her bitch ass was really getting into your nerves. "Chaeyoung shut up!" he told her.

"No. Why should I shut up when it's true? It's her fcking fault for being such a flirty whore trying to steal you away from me! You're not even gonna deny it are you?" You couldn't help but answer her as you couldn't take the bullshit she was spouting anymore. "I don't usually respond to background noise and nonsense people, but since you wanted my attention so badly- I'm gonna tell you this. I'm not trying to steal your boyfriend, so please get out of your imagination now, It's not healthy." You retorted snarkily. You were about to get out of the door, but you couldn't help but tell her one last thing before you go,

"And before you call me a whore, make sure you're not one."

And you coolly went out of the door and walked away from them, leaving poor slutty Chaeyoung stunned.

TBC. 💜

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