#might be a hot take but idk it's just weird to click in to a fic expecting something and coming out of it like

[zhongrin]

i could've sworn i saved a post about this, but either i dreamt that up or tumblr fucked me up. anyway.

op talked about yandere character portrayals these days and how sometimes people just take out the love and obsession but still tag that term to a character, which is very misleading because that's just an abuser and not exactly a yandere.

and i too wish people would realize that these are two related but also different things; yanderes are (mostly) abusive, but not all abusers can be called yandere.

anyway, i really hope writers would tag their works properly because i, for one, aren't interested to read about straight-up abuse/toxic relationship without that obsession aspect playing in the picture. i mean, you do you, you can create whatever content you want. i can differentiate fiction and reality and i don't think people who like slasher movies secretly aspires to be a killer themselves. but if the character's not obsessively in love with reader (or any sort of projection/images/shadow/pedestal they have of the reader in that insane little head of theirs) then i'd like to at least be notified so i can scroll past it, thanks.

[sukiipjs]

✿ TRUTH OR DARE

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↳ matt sturniolo x fem reader

↳ words - 1397

↳ summary - a stupid game of truth or dare with your best friend turns into what you’ve always fantasized about…

↳ contains - smut, swearing, fingering, oral, sex, praise, pet names (baby), use of y/n, fluff at end, idk

↳ song - void by the neighborhood

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me and matt are best friends, ever since we met, we just clicked with each other but honestly, also ever since we met… i’ve liked him, wanted him… of course i never told him, or anyone but myself and i don’t act on anything, just think… think of all the things he could do to me, fuck.

currently, i’m over with matt and we just finished up a movie -that i’ve been clenching my thighs the whole time while watching it- and now we’re bored again, we sit on his bed, facing each other and decide to play truth or dare, sure it’s basic but who cares it’s something.

“okay truth or dare?” i ask matt as he answers, “dare” i try to think of a non boring dare to say, and then i remember this one video i saw… perfect chance to just get something to fuel the churning feeling in my stomach, “uhhh i dare you to do five push ups… and say my name in between them.”

he laughs a little, getting off the bed, “…weird but whatever, trying to make me work out or something?” i watch him as he gets on the floor, his hands and feet supporting his body as he starts to push down, “y/n” he says normally before going up and back down again, “y/n” his voice starts to get breathy.

i move one of my legs on top of the other, squeezing my thighs again to feel something… oh god, “y/n” my teeth hold my bottom lip hard as i try to subtly move my body, trying to get a little more friction, he’s so fucking hot, i wish he was moaning my name for real “y/n…” he grunts as he picks himself back up again, “shit- y/n” he shakily says one more time before he lays his body on the floor, breathing to catch his breath.

“okay maybe that was a good dare, could barley get to three,” he laughs a little, picking himself off the floor as he looks down at me, my cheeks flushed red and lip swollen from the bite. “jesus you okay? you look sick,” he bends down a little, letting his thumb graze over my lip, i stare at him, his face so… so close to mine. “no i’m fine, i just pick at my skin,” i try smiling a little, picking up my hand to swipe his away, my face still red with slight embarrassment now.

“whatever,” he rolls his eyes a little, sitting back down on the bed next to me, “okay my turn, truth or dare?” i play with my fingers a little, thinking of which one to choose. “truth” i look at matt as he thinks of a question until he asks, “do you have a crush?” i let out a slightly embarrassing laugh, being so caught off guard by that.

“that’s a stupid question!” i try hiding my face a little, still burning up, why would he choose that out of all thinks to ask. “you only say that cause you do!” he laughs out, “who?” i shake my head a little “i never said i had one!” he sighs a little, eyeing me, “look at you. who is it cmon?”

i shake my head again, hiding my face with my hands, “okay, i might but i am not telling you.” he pushes me playfully, my body rocking as i take my hands off my face and push him back, “rude.” he rolls his eyes again, “fine. but since you wont tell me, i’m telling you a dare and you can’t back out on this.”

i roll my eyes back, “fine, what?” he moves himself a little, sitting more comfortably as he stares into my eyes, a small smile coming to his face, “kiss me.” my smile drops slowly, my eyes widening a little, “what.” he moves his face closer to mine, “you heard me” is this real?

“you think i never notice how you stare at me, clenching those thighs? you think i didn’t know what you were doing when you asked me to basically moan out your name? kiss me. i dare you.” he sets a hand on my thigh, gently squeezing it as his nose almost touches mine now, whaaaat the fuck.

i quickly move my mouth to his not letting this opportunity go, our lips pressing against each other, his hands move to hold my face, not letting me go of the kiss. “fuck- you have no idea how long i’ve been dreaming of you,” he grins, staring at me, his hand still on my cheek until it starts to travel down my body as i move to lean on his headboard.

i keep my eyes on his hand as it goes lower and lower on my body, stopping at the waist of my pants as he looks up at me, “can i?” i nod my head vigorously as he gives me a smile, eyes going back to his hands that start pulling down my sweatpants and underwear off my ankles.

“so beautiful,” his hands make small movements up and down my thighs, he starts to gently move my legs apart as i bend my knees to prop them up. matt scoots closer, his hands keeping my legs apart as he starts to kiss at my inner thighs.

i stare down at matt between my legs, waiting for him to touch me more. he finally lands his lips onto mine, his stubble scratching slightly on my skin. “matt-“ my hands squeeze onto his sheets, my back arching slightly as i moan out his name. his tongue dancing around my clit, his warm breath being felt on my skin, his fingers creeping on my thighs, making sure i don’t close them.

my hand moves to grip onto his hair, pulling him gently onto me more, bucking my hips into him. “fuck!” i moan, my eyes shutting and jaw clenching. one of his hands leave my thigh and i suddenly feel two fingers plunge inside me, starting to pump in and out making me moan out more.

my grip on his hair tightens and i feel the knot in my stomach release over matt’s tongue. “fuck you taste so good baby,” he smiles, lifting his head out my legs, fingers out me and leaning to kiss the lips on my face.

he continues kissing me as he starts to yank off his pants, letting his dick spring free. he slowly pulls away from the kiss, throwing his pants to the side off the bed. he puts his hands on my waist and pulls me down to lay more as he holds his hardness, guiding it over my folds.

he grabs onto and moves one of my legs to rest above his shoulder before pushing inside me, finally. “fuck!” i moan out, feeling myself stretch around him. “oh shit…” he starts to thrust inside me, low groans and sighs coming from his mouth.

“fuck y/n…” i shut my eyes as i moan out, matt starting to lean down to kiss at my neck, leaving dark spots on my skin. “you like that? hearing me moan your name out? this what you wanted?” he smiles as he goes back to sucking at my skin. i wrap my arms around his back, scratching my nails into his fair skin. the vibration of his mumbles tickle my skin as i clench around him, “close-“ i moan out more, matt still marking my neck.

i let myself go, cumming around him as he makes a few last thrusts, leaning back up smiling at the spots he made on me. he pulls out, stroking himself to cum too. i lay back, catching my breath and replaying what just happen, fuck this is perfect.

matt flops over beside me, laying down and quickly wrapping his arms around me, letting his head rest on me. “you okay?” i nod, “i’m perfect” he smiles, “i know you are,” we laugh a little as i start to rest my hand on his back, my finger running circles on his back, “matt?”

“yeah?” he asks back, my stomach churning just from his voice. “i really like you…” i speak softly, kinda nervous even though we just did something way more. “me too,” i feel his smile grow on my skin as he holds me closer, tighter.

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[machveil]

Trying not to think about Simon 'Always Doing Acts of Service and Caring for Others Silently' Ghost Riley forgetting to care for himself as much, and how it would probably touch a part of his heart he thought wasn't there anymore if someone did the same for him. Something simple, like just a new jacket after his old one got wrecked from wear and tear, that's thick and durable but soft and comfortable, a nice weight on his shoulders but doesn't make him sweat, resting over his chair. Or after a long day of work where he's dragging himself along, finding a meal already made for him sitting in the fridge, something actually cooked and seasoned the way he likes so he doesn't have to think about cooking or go to bed on an empty stomach. Idk, this has been rattling around in my brain all day and I needed to get it out, sorry if this is weird! Also really like your art and writing, congrats on the 1k, you deserve it and so much more!

anon I’m smooching your big, beautiful brain (I wrote this in one sitting, hope it’s not terrible lol)

Simon Riley is a man of action - Ghost, the most literal manifestation of serving. Ghost follows and gives orders to assure his team, his friends, make it home safe at the end of a deployment. as a Lieutenant, Simon wouldn’t say it out loud, but he cares so deeply for his team. Task Force 141 is a second home to him, more so the people, and thus makes it his job to protect them

but Simon Riley is also a man of action off duty - a civilian who’s heart rests in your hands. loyal as a dog, Simon would do anything for you. a man of action, he’ll insist you relax, you shouldn’t lift a finger for something small. anything Simon can do in your stead he will. because, while his team is a second home, his true home is you

but Simon, stubborn and strong as he is, gets tired. front door clicking shut, mask already being tugged off, his muscles are tense and sore after a long day. dirty blond hair messy and eyes half lidded with exhaustion, he’s still only got one thing on his mind - to serve you and make you happy. he already planned on trudging into the kitchen to make dinner, something simple but filling. he pauses when he smells food already though

kicking his boots off, worn and dirty, he makes his way to the little kitchen around the corner. cracking a small, barely there smile at the sight in front of him. you, moving about the kitchen. the lights a little dim - he’d change the lightbulb later, and there you are, cooking a meal. one step ahead of him, and he soaks in the domestic scene. a part of him wants to step in, tell you you’ve done enough and he’ll finish everything off… but he doesn’t have the heart to disrupt this cozy, intimate moment

it’s only when you see him does he approach, hands a touch too rough and calloused - he’s sure you’ll make him moisturize later. “Smells nice, lovie.”, he murmurs, pressing a kiss to your hairline. eyes fluttering shut as he holds your hands, a small grin tugs at his lips, “S‘pose the food smells good too.”. he relishes in the laugh that leaves you, the way you squeeze his hands. he moves to press a kiss to your jaw, slightly crooked nose nudging against you as his hands wander to your hips - touch featherlight, as if handling you any rougher might shatter you

there’s a reluctance in his heart as he lets go of you, scoffing when you tell him to go sit down. “Bossy little thing.”, he mumbles, voice lighthearted as he leans back against a counter. he stays there for just a moment, one last glance at you happily cooking - cooking for him. it melts his heart knowing that you’re just a loyal as him, that you’d both run to the ends of the Earth for each other

he’s content to finally relax, leaving the kitchen to slump against a chair in the small dining room. head tilted back a little as he rolls his shoulders, his hands move to idly take his belt off - he’d change later, a hot shower after dinner always made him feel better. maybe he’d convince you to join him, better yet— maybe he’d convince himself to indulge in a hot bath instead. and when you join him at the table, sitting down next to him with a full plate for him, Simon feels butterflies in his stomach

he loves eating with you, sharing a meal and letting his guard down. gaze smitten as he listens to you recount your day, breathing steady as he hums. and when everything is done, stubborn man, he’ll take the dishes to the kitchen. as much as he’d like to wash them straight away, he settles for leaving them in the sink tonight. soon enough he’s sweeping you up in his arms - no matter how roughed up and sore he is, he always finds the strength to carry you. he’ll ignore any protest that, “Simon! I can walk—“, a gruff chuckle rumbling in his chest, “Know that, love, but I can carry you just fine.”

and from then on, Simon feels like he’s floating. in a dreamlike state, he sets you down on the cool bathroom floor, feet making contact with tile. gently thumbing at your hips, he presses a soft kiss to your lips, “Thank you.”. soft spoken words contrasting his gravely voice, another kiss pressed to your cheek - lips a little chapped, but he’s never heard you complain about them

and when you help each other slowly strip, the bathroom filling with mist like steam, he feels the tension in his muscles give. he puts up a little fight, grumbled words, when you insist on sudsing him up. he’s all bark though, when he feels you rub his aching shoulders he feels like he could never muster up any bite ever agiain. comfortable and turning to putty in your hands, he’ll happily let you mould him into a soft, gentle man

he’ll lazily return the favor, rough hands lathered in your body wash. content. feeling you under his palms, warm skin dotted with beads of water and bubbles, Simon’s content. a warmth in his chest that he’s still not used to. the simple intimacy of washing away the sweat and filth from the day, it makes Simon feel like a new man - and to wash you? he’s happy you feel safe enough, that you trust him, to handle you so carefully

and at the end of the night, cleaned from the dirt of his daily life, Simon settles in bed with you. all gentle touches and soft, murmured praise - you did so good for him today. he fights the back of his mind off, you’ve taught him better than to believe those gnawing words. Simon Riley deserves this. a phrase you carved into his heart, long since settled at the forefront of his mind. and as he holds you to his chest, warm hand on the small of your back, he sighs deeply…

a man of action deserves rest

[xdeewolfx]

About rambling on about your day at trww screening, I would love to hear about it!

anon i love u ..... i'll put it under a cut cuz this might get long winded i love talking thank u

SO i went to the uh, august 12th ? the real will wood screening in new jersey last year. i think it was the last of 3 or so shows that day so it was taking place later in the evening. i got there uh Way Stupid Early because i wanted NOTHING to go wrong (i have chronic bad luck). the nice people at the movie theater were very kind, they let me sit inside and wait cuz it was hot out, they chatted with me a bit, and were just generally really cool people. i sat in the theater lobby for a bit, saw there was a merch table cleared and waiting to be set up. i didnt approach cuz im not That Kinda Person but i was like omg, thats gotta be for trww screening right. some people would come and go out of the direction of trww theater, mostly helpers. but THEN, im sitting there and i see tall guy in hat walk behind the table, rummage around in a bag, and start eating a lil snacky snack. the lobby was kinda dark and im blind as a bat anyway so it didnt click for me in the moment. i tried not to stare, only glanced up a few times. but eventually he looked up too and i was like wait that is THE real will wood. i stayed calm and casual, he waved at me, and i waved back with a sorta exasperated "oh my god, are you will wood?" and he just laughed and nodded. i told him i was there for the 7pm showing, and he (SO very shocked) was like "oh- oh my god? i thought you were here for the matinee!"

so that alone was super fucking cool. i didnt try to keep him or nerd out too much cuz at the end of the day he is just like, A Guy. yeah i really like his music but i didnt wanna be a freak or anything. he walked off and im like keysmashing in the discord group chat to my friends. chris appeared a few times too, walked outside for a smoke or to take a call or whatever. i smiled at him a few times but didnt have any one-on-ones and again didnt wanna be weird and pull him away from what he was doing or whatever.

after a bit, will walks out of the theater and approaches me. he leaned in and whispered "you can just... sneak in, if you want" with like the sneakiest smirk and im like UH ! UH ! UHHH!!!! because holy fucking shit no way will wood himself just offered to sneak me into the showing before the one i paid for? i just thanked him and he walked off, i didn't end up sneaking in cuz i had VIP for my actual showing and didnt wanna risk being kicked out of the theater. i mean, im sure will would have had my back but i just did NOT wanna risk it yfeel.

those were kinda the last interactions i had before one of the theater guys told me i probably wanna go stand outside to line up because people were starting to show up for the show i paid for. super cool of him. he walked me outside and i stood at the front, met some very awesome people, chatted for uh idk how long. time was moving so weird i was so excited.

before the line got too long, i noticed will and chris were sitting on a bench a ways down and i was like shit. h. okay. want to interact, i want to get them each to draw a little doodle in this sketchbook i brought. told myself i'd get will to draw a little black cat (had a black cat named jynx that i love and adore and miss so dearly) and chris to draw a little black dog (had a black lab named Q who i also love and adore and miss so dearly) and i knew this was my chance. sure i could do it at the meet-and-greet part of the vip experience i paid for but like. i knew there'd be a line of people and they'd want to expedite the process so i just went for it. i waited for a good window where nobody else was around so they wouldnt be overwhelmed. i, probably in the most sopping wet of a man way, shyly walked up and excused myself, asked if i could talk to them, to which they were both super cool and chill with it. i thanked them for their time, asked them if they could each draw what i was thinking of. will took the marker first while i explained why a black cat was so important and significant to me, and he listened with such genuineness.

i asked will if i could possibly get this tattoo'd one day, and he said “now i’m going to let you know. maybe some day i’ll strip down naked and run down the street saying slurs. so i might be CANCELLED some day. and if you have this on your body you will be called out on twitter. just so you know” which, funniest fucking response ever. what a fuckin king.

after that, i asked chris to draw a lil dawgie. he was much less enthused about having to draw but he DID it, he did like a step by step narration as he drew, ("how did I manage to make it look like a dick and a vagina at the same time") i told him he was doing great and got a very nervous "dont PATRONIZE me!" but it was all in fun and we all got a really good laugh out of that too i think. all in all both REALLY funny guys and good sports.

after that i thanked them both profusely and walked back to my spot in line. i met and chatted with even MORE people until the actual lineup for the show began. will opened the door and ushered us all in, this time in a different theater than the one he was in earlier in the day. this one was past the merch table, i kinda just walked straight past it to the theater because they werent even selling things yet, just getting things set up. everyone else behind me seemed to linger though, so i kinda just like. stood in the doorway of the theater nervously, not knowing what to do.

will walked up and asked me what was wrong, i told him i was nervous and didnt want to go in there by myself since nobody else was following. hes like, "awh, you're not alone! we'll go in there together" to which i knee-jerk replied with "omg we're besties." not the worst thing i could have said but i did feel quite silly, its alright tho he laughed so hopefully it wasnt like. too awkward LMAOOO.

chris was already in the theater waiting, will told me to sit anywhere so i just kinda sat directly at the front (later i'd learn that i picked the seats directly behind chris and will, pretty neat). some announcements were made as people started filing in, then the VIP part started. i once again was first in line, i didnt really have anything more to say or do besides take a picture with them and get them to sign the drawings they'd done earlier. when i popped open the book for chris to sign his dog, he just "jesus i hate looking at this thing". jokes on you chris i love looking at it. its hanging on my wall riiight now. probably wont get it tattoo'd (sorry) but its okay he begged me not to anyway.

i felt kinda silly and im kicking myself for it a bit, but after this photo chris was like "thanks for comin out and supporting us," and then sorta paused like he expected me to fill in the blank and say my name (in hindsight i realized i. NEVER told them my name.) but i was too jittery and overwhelmed by all the people behind us so i just smiled and walked off. i know they probably wouldnt have remembered my name anyway cuz they met so many people that day but, its like damn ! what if !

i went and got popcorn after that and just watched as people filed in and got pics with will n chris, told nice stories and gave gifts, then it was time for the screening itself. before they shut off the lights, will ran down the isle giving everyone high fives, starting with me since i was right at the front. SO fuckin cool.

the rest of the show was just, ykno, watching The Real Will Wood and sometimes getting gags or commentary from chris and will. at one point, when the song 2012 started playing, a guy next to me shouted the loudest "FUCK!" in time with the song. this got will to sit up and slowly turn around with a puzzled look, then he just "nice man" and gave the dude a high five. there was also a funny gag where someone pulled out a lighter and waved it all slow concert-style to Bones, so naturally everyone else pulled out their phone flashlights and it lit up the entire fuckin theatre. will and chris both turned around and just “jesus fucking christ” because it was SO GODDAMN BRIGHT. theres actually a pic of me doing the flashlight thing from will's instagram story LMAOO, i was honestly in a decent amount of his story shots (im the one in the orange shirt). pretty neato.

i didnt get any videos or pictures during the show itself because 1. its a movie. duh. but also cuz my phone was like, RAPIDLY losing battery and i could not risk it dying in case of an emergency. thats alright tho, im okay with the memories of that being in my brain :]

after the show, chris and will thanked everyone and we all sloooowly filed out to the merch table. since i was at the front of the theater, i was one of the last ones out, but thankfully i got the merch i wanted. bought a tshirt and a few albums. met a few people in line that i still talk to every now and then. at the very end, again since i was one of the last ones to the merch line, chris and will were just hanging out thanking people and saying goodnight. since the picture from in the theater kiiinda sucked lighting wise and was a little blurry, i asked if i could take a selfie with them. they were both really cool about it, i thanked them yet again, and then i was off. i sat in a corner charging my phone while i waited for an uber, and that was the day done :]

thank you for letting me ramble, anon, i love thinking about this day. i have chronic bad luck but everything was going right for once and im so thankful for it. i'd love to meet chris and will again some day, they are such genuine and nice people

[meguemii]

Hardly Friends.

06. What it Could Have Been.

Pairings: Megumi x Reader, Nobara x Yuji (platonic)

Synopsis:

Word Count: 1.5k

Returning to your room hot and bothered you stripped yourself of your cold wet bathing suit. and changing into some more comfy clothes.

5 minutes later, Nobara walked into your shared room quietly rummaging through her stuff eventually glancing at you then doing a double take to look at your wet hair. “Did you and Megumi go swimming? Is THAT why you didn’t want Yuji and I coming back so soon!?” She erupted into laughter. Running over to shush her by putting a finger over her lips. “No. Well yes. SHUT UP!” You shouted. Still laughing at you “holy shit Y/N, did you guys fuck?”. Your face dropped and that was her hint, “Oh my god you did!” Shushing her again groaning “No! We were just getting along for once and I didn’t want either you you ruining the moment!” quickly explaining to her while leaving the more important half out. She didn’t need to know that.

“Well either way that’s good! Well actually maybe not either way. Might have been awkward as hell if you guys hooked up.” She said as she walked to her side of the room putting her shopping bags down and rummaging through her suit case most likely to get her own clothes. You stood there turned away from her view frowning, she was right. It would be awkward now, even though you guys didn’t hook up. Taking 10 steps forward and 100 steps backwards.

“Do you have my speaker?” Nobara asked snapping you out of your depressing thoughts, you turned to look at her with a half smile trying to cover up what you were previously thinking about. “Oh yeah, I was using it while I was swimming. I was gonna go have a bath to get rid of this chlorine out of my hair, can I borrow it again?” She hummed a yes in response. Quickly grabbing the speaker and your toiletries you made your way to the bathroom and started running hot water.

Looking in the full body mirror and hugging yourself for any sense of comfort. Trying to feel something other than embarrassed. Ding.. Ding..

Your phone going off twice, snapping out of your own world you picked up your phone to see who had messaged you. It was Yuta and Megumi. “Hey Y/N, sorry if that was weird, idk what came over me. Never meant for something like that to happen” frowning over the words he had sent, he didn’t mean for it to happen? Then redirecting your attention to Yuta’s message it read “really been missing you, can’t wait for you to come home. send a photo so i can remember you?😉” There was apart of you still itching for any sort of sexual attention.

Deciding to fill the void Megumi left, you took a provocative photo of yourself, although nothing showed it still showed everything. Opening your photos app to hit share you clicked the first contact that came up.

Smiling to yourself you set your phone down and listened to soft music as you relaxed in the bath. About 5 minutes had passed and your phone started buzzing. Quickly wiping your hand off you reached for your phone.

Gumi XD is calling…

Answer Decline

Why the fuck was he calling you? Hitting accept you heard heaving breathing “Y/-N, did you mean to send that to me?” Megumi’s voice was low and cracked when he said your name. Send what? What did you send?! Internal panic quickly set it. “What?” you said hoping to god you didn’t send what you thought you did. Opening yours and Megumi’s messages immediately being met with the photo you had meant to send to Yuta, you had actually sent it to Megumi. “holy shit holy shit holy shit. I am SO sorry!!” you screeched in pure horror and embarrassment.

A minute had passed and a shaky breath came through the phones speaker. “..Megumi?”saying his name quietly but more questioningly. “yes angel?” ANGEL?! Your stomach did a backflip and all you could feel was your whole body fluttering.

What did you do? Hang up. You hung the phone up. What the fuck. No shot that just happened. Your phone dinged again, horrified to check what the notification was you mustered up all the courage you had left and saw it was only Nobara. “Are you okay in there?” she texted. Quickly typing a “yeah i just saw a spider, everything’s good.” Sinking down into the water, hoping you’d drown.

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Maybe an hour had passed only deciding to get out when you started turning pruney . Getting out of the tub, shivering once met with the cold air. That and the fact that you had humiliated yourself twice tonight. Well this one was humiliating at least. Getting dressed back into the clothes you were previously wearing you took a good long look at yourself in the mirror once again and puffing out your chest in false confidence only deflating in shame seconds later with a sad huff.

You returned to the bedroom and saw Nobara laying on her bed on her phone. Ignoring your own bed you crawled up right beside her and sighed. She glanced at you and then went back to her phone. Sighing again a bit heavier this time she continued to ignore you. This process happened multiple times before you looked up at her dramatically “you ass. you’re supposed to ask what’s wrong! I literally crawled into your bed and cuddled up to you and started sighing dramatically!” now pouting at her. Nobara put her phone down and looked to you with a dead expression. “oh my dearest best friend, what is the matter? did something happen?” She asked sarcastically. “Yep that’s what I thought. Anyways, something did happen. And I hope my next breath is my last.” throwing your arms in the air flailing them around, resulting in an amused snort from the girl.

“Anyways so, something did happen..” you paused waiting for her to respond. “Well obviously?” she flatly said with a playfully eye roll. Scoffing in response and continuing your story. Basically recapping her on the pool story.

You guys were now sitting criss cross on the bed with face masks on. “Y/N, from the bottom of my heart, i’m so sorry for cock blocking.” She said as she crossed her heart with her hand making you laugh.

Calming down you continued your story “No but Nobara this is where it gets bad.” she looked at you waiting for the rest. “So Yuta messaged me saying he missed me and asked for a picture, right? okay. So I took a provocative picture and went into the photo app to send it to him and instead of clicking Yuta’s contact.” you paused taking a deep breath to catch it. “I ACCIDENTALLY SENT IT TO MEGUMI.” Nobara screeched “No you didn’t!”. You let out a cry “I DID. BUT GET THIS. He called me. Asking if it was meant for him but he said it in a low shaky voice. then he said my name but his voice cracked.” Nobara let out a “ouuu girlll” for the dramatic effect. “Okay now get this, I started apologizing like crazy and it was silent so I said “Megumi..?” AND HE SAID “yes angel?” WHICH THEN THE ONLY LOGICAL THING TO DO WAS HANG UP!” burying your face into your hands.

“Y/N.. this could either be so bad or so good. You have to admit Megumi is pretty hot” she smirked and you playfully hit her. “Yeah but did you forget he messaged me he never meant for anything at the pool to happen? Maybe he’s super uncomfortable now!” Nobara stopped you and countered with a comment that made your face heat up bright red, even with a cooling face mask. “Only reason he’d be uncomfortable right now is because you probably gave him a raging hard on.” earning another punch to her shoulder which she laughed off.

“Nobara I’m serious, this is so bad! I have to see him everyday for the next two weeks!” you cried elongating the word ‘bad’. Her demeanour changed and she gave you a soft reassuring smile, “Y/N, everything is going to be okay. I swear.”

That was that for the rest of the night, you fell asleep in Nobara’s bed. The only problem is was that you didn’t fall asleep. Nobara had fallen asleep so long ago, it felt like ages. Leaving you wide awake staring at the ceiling, you had no idea what time it was. Nothing or no one to keep you company besides your thoughts that you desperately needed to figure out.

Did Megumi really not mean anything he did? If so why would he call you like that, the shaky breathes seemed so.. sensual. Now with a clear mind you could only think about how they made you feel. Like you needed him. Like you wanted to be there in person to hear those shaky breathes.

You didn’t know what changed but suddenly you were enamoured with Megumi, head spinning at the thought of him. But doubts still flooded your mind. This is the first time he’d ever acted like that. First time he’s acted like that with you at least. All you knew was that you wanted more.

You wanted to know what could have happened, where it would have led. You needed to know. You needed to know what it would have felt like to let him continue what he started. To feel more of him on a deeper and even more of an intimate level.

Megumi Fushiguro what are you doing to me?

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[aspecpplarebeautiful]

So, I've been questioning myself, I thought I was pan/bi because my feelings toward other people were the same, like, "Everyone is pretty, but I feel no attraction for anyone so that prolly means am pan", I came out to my friends as pan, but talking to one of my friends I realized that maybe there's a difference between how I see people and how she sees people. (I also realized that I have never had a crush on someone at all)

Like, she sees someone attractive and thinks about them more sexually (?) Like, is not a joke, she feels like that. I thought those comments were jokes and I did them too! I feel weird, maybe I am in the ace spectrum, but I'm not sure because sometimes my body feels like, the need (idk?)

Sorry, I just needed to vent, I have none to talk about this, I feel like they don't understand

These definitely could be signs of being ace and/or aro. I've known more than a few people who thought they were pan first before realising they were ace/aro (reasonable deduction if you feel the same about every gender), or before figuring out they were ace thought that people were joking or exaggerating when talking about things like finding people hot or sexy.

Another common misconception is that aces aren't sexual at all, but actually aces can vary a lot in how sexual they are. Some aces do still have a sex drive, do feel arousal, do still masturbate, etc. So that alone doesn't exclude someone from identifying as ace or on the ace spectrum.

It sounds like this is something you've only just started to explore, so right now what would probably help you most is resources and being able to find other aces/aros talking about their experiences. For questioning if you're ace I always recommend The Asexuality Archive's website, especially the Ace 101 section. And Carnival of Aces , a monthly blogging for aces event by topic, is a great resource for finding aces talking directly about their experiences being asexual. But I'd also say anywhere you can find aces talking about being ace will probably be helpful for questioning.

If you want to explore aromanticism I'd recommend Arocalypse (a forum for aros) who also has a good FAQ, and Carnival of Aros (similar to Carnival of Aces, but for Aros.)

You can also check out the FAQ for this blog for some basics.

So this might feel like a lot all at once, don't feel like you have to read through all of this, or tackle everything all at once. Start with what's interesting or what you feel would be helpful. Also feel free to start with just ace stuff or just aro stuff if that feels easier for you.

Sometimes when you question things click into place and you know right away, other times it can be a process of exploring and figuring out what label fits you best. So take however long you need and go at whatever pace fits you best.

If you have more questions either now or at some point down the road, feel free to send in another ask.

All the best, Anon! Good luck!

[zinnynia]

give ur opinions on every half life cast member go into details i want to see how ur brain functions

My opinion on the Half Life cast? I don’t have any/many opinions about most of them, so I’ll just not talk about those characters.

I’ll be going from least - most thoughts and opinions, starting with Lamarr.

Though, not really about Lamarr, but headcrabs in general. Out of every alien and enemy in Half Life, Headcrabs and Headcrab Zombies are the scariest to me. Idk man, they’re terrifying, and the concept itself is depressing.

D0g + Eli and Russell are all three very cute characters. I always love seeing them interact with Alyx, and their relationship with her is very sweet. D0g was made by Eli, and Alyx kinda just continued to add more to him, making him the D0g we all know and love. I haven’t completed my Half Life: Alyx run yet, but so far, Russell and Eli seem like really nice parental figures for her. Russell is funny, and has genuinely made me smile and enjoy his company in stressful situations, and Eli just seems like an overall great father. I think I have daddy issues.

I don’t really like Adrian. It’s not that I hate him, or like him at all. I mean, the art of him is kinda cute tbh, and maybe the angst and shit, but he doesn’t really hit the spot like Alyx, Gordon and Barney. I mean, his concept is kind of cool, I guess, but I really wish we could see more of him. Maybe in Half Life 3 (if it comes out), the G-Man could possibly use Adrian against Gordon, as sort of a way to “distract” the gang and make Adrian join the Combine ranks. ..I could be cooking some fanfic ideas for y’all, so PLEASEEE cook up some Combine Adrian AU fr fr. Make him hot too (I might have a thing for the Combine Ngl).

Alyx is girliepop. She ate, slayed, and left no crumbs. What I really like about her is that she doesn’t really idolize Gordon, like what most of the Resistance does. She treats Gordon like a normal human being, and has shown from time to time that she genuinely cares about him. I think she’s well written, but what I don’t really like is that she’s the “love interest” of Half Life. I don’t really think there needs to be romance, because the story is already pretty good. I also find Freemance kind of… iffy. Gordon kind of knew her when she was a baby, and I can’t imagine popping out 20 years later and some kid I knew started crushing heavily on me, or their dad starts shipping us together. But that’s controversial, and if you ship it, you do you. Not my business, and it’s all fictional. Plus, they’re both consenting adults, just the idea is kinda weird.

The G-Man’s concept really intrigues me, and I feel like a lot could be built off of him in Half Life 3 (if it ever comes out). I’ve written a Half Life OC kind of based around it, actually! Basically, the G-Man manipulates and uses resistance members to distract the gang, taking and stealing them, along with Alyx. This causes the gang to feel stressed and discouraged, hopeless even. Barney is nowhere to be found (he’s safe and untouched), so it’s just Gordon and Eli. I feel like a lot could be done with this, and builds more on the G-Man’s manipulative and antagonistic character. It would also be cool if the Combine joins forces with the gang, and defeat the G-Man, then agree on a truce, leaving Earth or co-exist together. I also just feel like I’m intrigued by the G-Man so much, mostly because I’ve written my story’s main antagonist similarity to the G-Man coincidentally.. and that’ll be a story for another post.

Last, but not least… Gordon and Barney omggg!!! Barney and Gordon are both my most favorite characters of Half Life, Barney especially. About a year ago, when I laid eyes on Barney, something inside of me literally just…. Clicked. I was like “I like this man. He’s my favorite character now.”

^^^ Pieces of artwork I made when I first got into Half Life))

I didn’t really understand it, until I really started to look into the fandom, realizing him and Gordon were best friends, and how he practically missed Gordon for 20 years, holding onto crowbars and thinking about the beer he owed Gordon. This REALLY hit me, as I’m in an oddly similar situation.

^^^ The him))

My childhood best friend and I were pretty close, despite knowing each other for only 2 years. We got split up, but met again, but never got the chance to reconnect and actually chat. But throughout the years, I always bought lockets, and sometimes items with sunflowers. Lockets, because he and I were BIG Undertale fans back then (also FNaF and Pokemon), and our parting gifts were paper heart lockets. Sunflowers, because of flower symbolism (wishful thinking, happiness, etc etc) and the idea of “Summer.” We always did everything together, like paper crafts. Another funny thing is that, after finding him again recently, our dynamic is somewhat similar to Freehoun in a way. Me being the more chatty one, while he’s a little more silent. My problem is that I'd rather hear him talk, because he’s really everything I’d want to talk about (no homo 4 him pls I swear). It’s also funnier that he’s a science guy and works out, and is taller than me. It’s giving……. Gordon to Barney.

It’s also funny that a lot of the fanfics I’ve read and liked remind me a lot of us. One fanfic had Gordon and Barney have a conversation, talking about how they can’t “resume” where things left off. That reminds me about a thing he told me one night, about how we weren’t the same people we were in 2nd and 3rd grade, but truthfully I didn’t love him (platonically) for who we were, but for who he is. On the topic of fanfics, I’ve written my fair share (2), and they’re all vents about him in the form of Freehoun! Though, they aren’t technically romantic, they could be interpreted as romantic.

^^^ Old artwork I made based off of my fanfic "Never Again."))

And speaking about Freehoun, I’m actually not much of a “Freehouner.” Sure, it’s cute, but I think they’re just really cute friends. The things they’d do in Black Mesa, and the beer. The way Barney looks at Gordon, and how upset his face was when he had to part ways in Episode 1. Anyways, it took me 7 years to finally have him back (technically 2 + 5, but we didn’t get time to really chat, so I add the 2 years), and I told him “I’d wait another 7 years if it means I’d get to talk to you again” and I also did kinda write him a 2 page (platonic) Valentines Letter that he DID kinda print out cus it was a google doc. Letters are kind of our thing, because I always gave him letters back then when I had a way to send them (via people/connections).

Plus, Gordon is kinda fine...... And Barney's really cute. Like??? PLEASEEEE who decided to make two good looking best friends like tf? And can we PLEASE TALK about how sad Barney looked at the end of Episode 1???? Shit still has be crying.

[hourcat]

i just think girl charles would have pierre so 🤩😍🤩😍 you know? like she’s just so perfect 2 him. i mean she’s so insanely gorgeous like her face should be on every billboard and everyone should worship her but also… she’s “one of the boys” (feel like pierre would just be mind blown that pretty girl likes the things he likes?? on a deeper level??). she did karting. she likes football (soccer kind) (she doesn’t understand it but she likes to watch! and attempt to play! she’s just happy to be there!). her friend group is that group of like… frat guys that charles hangs out around. she wrestles with him (let’s ignore the stiffness in his jeans every time that happens… he uh… he carries rocks around? he’s working on his excuse he’ll get there). so yeah… she’s “one of the guys” but she wears a sundress and pierre just 😍😍😍 cartoonishly. just love them. idk. so many possibilities with them. my babies.

also yes 🐱hound is all over that i fear. charles is wondering why tf he takes 3 showers a day every time they hang out but somehow they still always have hot water left… 🤨

HELLO! YES! ALL OF THE ABOVE

reading this is giving me ideas...a "growing up together" esque fic where charles is a (pascale-described) tomboy and pierre is, you know, pierre. charles is the only girl of the group but for a while that doesn't matter, bc they ARE all just The Guys Together. she thinks the idea of kissing is gross and getting married is weird bc guys have cooties. but maybe one afternoon they're playing together and she's just like, "hm. i think i'll marry you one day, pierre" and pierre, who thinks GIRLS are gross except for charles, raises an eyebrow and charles is like "you're my best friend, who else would i marry?" and pierre just agrees bc like always, charles is right.

of course, though, they get older. they end up in different schools, and they start to grow apart a little - still friends, but falling into their separate social circles etc etc. they lose touch a little. maybe they still follow each other on twitter or something, so pierre doesn't really SEE her for a while but he sees her thoughts/jokes/bits and always chuckles bc that's charles, consistent as ever. they go to hs and then college, in the same region bc narratively it's required, and maybe they run into each other at a party one night and it's...nothing like pierre ever remembered. (charles either.) it's awkward at first bc charles has like, gorgeous tits and perfect hair and her makeup is so hot, and pierre is broad and muscled and he's starting to grow some delicious facial hair, and they just stare at each other for a long moment before realizing that...that's still my childhood best friend, we can hit it off no problem.

and they do. they reunite, platonically hang out even though theyre both lowkey incredibly attracted to one another. best friends and one of the guys right up until the dam BREAKS when they get invited to one of their friends' baby showers (which is crazy because he is younger than them) and charles shows up in this gorgeous sundress, and her bra is so thin that she might as well not even be wearing one, and they sit together to gossip quietly but then pierre's hand bumps her knee and it's fucking warm and charles shivers unconsciously, leans into it just for a second, and it Clicks.

cue the hookup. they try the fwb thing for a while but they catch feelings mutually and figure it out.

[ashleybenlove]

Complex number of questions time!

If the Dragon Riders + Dagur, Heather, Viggo and anyone else you think might be interesting to add had to suddenly deal with The Muppets, how do you think they'd react?

Also! If they were actors, would they be good at working with The Muppets, and if so would they be the 'treat The Muppets like fellow actors' type or 'treat themselves as a Muppet' type?

I love this kinda question dude. It's got everything! The Muppets! The Dragon Riders! This got long so clicky click for more.

I feel like Tuffnut is the one most likely to totally be into it. He's not like, oh their just puppets whatever. He's taking it super seriously. He'd have so much fun chatting with Gonzo (though, he'd probably hide Chicken from him lol) and Fozzie and Animal. He's basically them, after all. Tuffnut also would vibe with the rest of Animal's band. Also, Tuffnut would do both, at the same time, he'd treat the Muppets like a fellow actor, and also treat himself like a Muppet. He's great.

Viggo, as an actor, would go the Michael Caine route, and treat them like fellow actors and treat it super seriously. He'd be good at it. Viggo also, would have to be dealing with One Miss Piggy being SUPER hot for him. I'm not sure how he feels about this? I think he'd humor her, for sure. (Kermit and Hiccup are like facepalming lol) Maybe she'd karate chop him? (That'd be kinda great lol) I don't think Viggo can handle any of the other Muppets.

I think Fishlegs would be so nervous at first because like, The Muppets are ChaoticTM but so are the twins he knows. He'd definitely make that noise he makes when he's nervous. I think he'd get along well with Bunsen and Beaker for obvious reasons. And Scooter. As an actor, I think he'd be good at it and he seems like he'd take it seriously, so he's the first one.

Astrid is debatable. I mean, if Miss Piggy is into Hiccup and they aren't poly, then Astrid and Miss Piggy might get into blows. Hard to say who wins there. Though Kermit would try to get involved I'm sure lol. Maybe she'd find Kermit calming. Astrid in general would be like, this is so weird, what do I even DO. Idk why but I picture like, them wearing the same outfit lol. Like, there's a magazine image from 30 Rock where Miss Piggy is wearing the same dress as a character and she's wearing it better. I'm sure she'd find Pepe to be a pest. Her and Rizzo would be interesting. As an actor, Astrid definitely does not seem like the act like a Muppet type, but I also don't think she'd be very good at acting with them. That's okay, though!

Hiccup. I mean, Hiccup's Kermit, is he not? Am I wrong? He's basically Kermit. He'd definitely get along with Kermit. Miss Piggy would likely be super into him. I mean, who isn't, right? Hiccup would like Uncle Deadly, because well... he's a dragon. I think Hiccup would just... roll with it. He knows the twins, he's already been at the front end of changing society, he can roll with changes. He's not Sam Eagle lol. He'd handle it and probably enjoy it. He gets along well with Bunsen, Beaker, and Gonzo. As an actor, he'd do well, and I'm leaning towards the Tim Curry end of the spectrum.

Ruffnut. Tim Curry end of the spectrum. She vibes so hard with the band. She and Janice GET ALONG SO WELL!!!!!!!!! She'd flirt with Kermit knowing it'll piss Miss Piggy off. She does not care. She's vibing. She'd also vibe with Rizzo and Pepe. She'd probably make out with Pepe if she could. Gonzo too.

Snotlout. Kinda want him to interact with Fozzie the most mostly because of his association with bears. But also, him and Pepe and Rizzo would get along pretty well lol. I could see it. As for acting... I was gonna with bad, but then I remembered Sir Ulgerthorpe. Michael Caine end of the spectrum.

Heather. Not good at acting. I don't think she'd be thrilled with having to deal with the Muppets. She's too serious. Kermit needs to sing Rainbow Connection at her.

Dagur. He would have SO MUCH FUN. Both as actor (he'd be the treats himself as a Muppet end of the spectrum) and just whatever. He's so into it. He's basically Animal. Wikipedia has this sentence: "Author Christopher Finch calls Animal "the ultimate representation of a long line of Muppets who personify unbridled appetite",[9]: 103  both "carnivorous beast" and "physical manifestation of pure libido." Enough said.

I did think about Stoick and Gobber but I don't really have a lot of thoughts. Stoick is probably awkward about it, Gobber vibes. Gobber is Tim Curry end of the spectrum on the actor side. Debatable what Miss Piggy thinks of Stoick lol.

Swedish Chef probably would fit right in on Berk. That's all.

[batsarebetterthanpeople]

Hey do you have any advice for using Grindr/other dating apps as a trans guy? I really wanna get laid but my friends keep telling me that it's a waste of time :(

Ok so if you want to get laid and you fuck men I would go with Grindr if you want dates I would look elsewhere.

Secondly. I may be benefiting from a certain level of pretty privilege when I say this but I've been open with my body count on here. Idk what it is but I stopped counting at 40 and that was over a year ago. If I can do that I'm certain you can bag at least one guy.

So a lot of my advice is gonna be for trans guys who are hot because that is my experience so what works for me might not work for you but honestly I would use trial and error to figure out your method. Also all of this advice is Grindr specific because I like to talk to guys before I decide so the matching apps never really worked for me.

So my methods is I have a face pic and I have a very slutty bio and I just wait for people to message me. Occasionally if I really think a guys hot I tap him and if I really think a guys hot and he has trans friendly in his bio I message him. Grindr doesn't make you swipe through anyone can message anyone. This has benefits and drawbacks. I've gotten a few rather mean transphobic messages and I just block the guy and move on it's not really that big of a deal to me.

Anyway one thing I would recommend is using tags and tribes. I'm not crazy about that terminology of "tribes" but I'll show you what I mean

Tags have a million options, tribes only have a few are your options. People filter for them. I would really recommend clicking the trans one and putting the FTM tag in your tags because it'll make it easier for people looking for trans partners to find you.

Honestly people filter for all the information so I would fill it out. depending on what they're looking for but the trans tribe is the one that is trans specific

Now my next piece of advice: get used to unsolicited dick pics. People open with cock pics all the time that's just how it is on there. If you're not into it it's better just to go to another app.

There's a lot of blank profiles on there. Unlike on here those guys are not spam they're DL. Your milage might vary on them because there's a million reasons a guy might be DL. He could be a cheater but equally he could be a professor at the local college who doesn't want his students to find him. I know a drag queen who has a blank profile because she preforms at one of the biggest clubs in the city and if she has a face pic up people ask her if she's that little Latin boy who does JLO and are weird to about it. So not having a PFP doesn't say much about someone. I demand a face pic but I don't block for being blank

Finally don't take any shit from people. There's always another guy. People on there will do anything to get you to fuck them. They feel very entitled to hole you need to be entitled back. They'll ask you for unreciprocated head, they'll try to get you to host even when you say you can't, theyll text you come over when you are fully 100 miles away. You're gonna have to tell a lot of people no repeatedly.

Oh and one last thing: for some reason putting no cops no military in your profile gets you falsely reported. No Republicans appears not to have the same effect and a lot of guys will use the military tag so if you're not down with them just block they're open about it

[away-ward]

Thank you for your reply, KO! This is the anon from #asked and answered 176.

1 yes i like your fics, i like no apologies the most because we had insights to emmy's career and life in sf. Emmy might find herself boring, but ive always been a busy body reader so i would eat up everything about her personal and professional life in sf. I still hated will there, but thanks to you i hated him 5% less

2 "Ummm. I do think it’s a little weird that you’ve read multiple PD books, and even finished the DN series… especially since you were looking forward to Will. Because I hated Will for the first three books and if I weren’t curious about Emory, I wouldn’t have finished the series at all."

KO, you've underestimated a loyal hate reader's journey of hate reading 😂 i love pd's writing and i love some of their books that were not DN because of the chemistry of the main lovers (theyre not bad as many have said actually), but i still hated the ongoing misogynistic dynamic that they always had in their books. Its like having an author that you majorly like what they do, but their side mistakes were big enough to irritate you so you remember them, kinda thing. Do you have these kinds of author that feel like this towards? To answer this simply: pd's books are like worms for brain for me. Like when i read books by Colleen hoover, or hd carlton, sophie lark, lauren asher, or susanne valnti &peckham. It's the kind of toxicity you need from time to time but still get mad and disappointed by your low expectation at their shit ass plot and mfcs and fmcs anyway, yk. 

KO, i cant lie, im just a hater first, a hate reader second and a reader third 🤣 once i stop, i cnat quit. Like damon torrance, that punk ass devils night philosopher said, sometimes you just want to feel everything including the ugly ones you know, and like michael crist the logician, you just gotta own it, before it owns you, GOD HAHAHAH i cant believe im using them as my metaphors right now!! Please bare with me here.

3 "I also find it equally weird that your first impulse after finishing a series you hate is to go to the tag of the character you hated the most? I mean, I’ve definitely clicked on hot-takes I know I’m going to disagree with and hate-read things, but it’s not my go-to."

hmm? KO, i think... youre just not as toxic of a reader than me, ohmygod, im so sorry! 🤣☠️ im really of those people that will immideately look up one and two star ratings on goodreads so that i know my feelings and thoughts were validated by other haters, lmao! Do not mind me, its not a good thing, but like damon torrance said, live, love, laugh, and hate, you know 🤩

4 thank you so much for your recs, i also actually grew up watching hana yori dongo! I watched the kdrama version too but idk if i'll watch the thai version. I have less patient for dramas now unfortunately, and the last drama i watched was "celebrity" on netflix, and i still havent finished it, even after 3 month ☠️ I used to love kdramas and lee minho was so popular back then, so i also watched him in "the heirs" too. Ohmygod his hairsyles in both dramas (boys over flowers and the heirs) were so funny, but i remember enjoying these stories a lot. I believe these two kdramas were released during the time where kdramas were having a lot more angsty romantic relationship than platonic ones and they both stood out among many others, not only because of lee minho, park shinhye and bunch of k-idols acting there, but also because of the friendships and platonic relationships shown that were fun to watch. It's a break from other dramas like moon embracing the sun, or my love from another star that were romance-heavy, yk. But tbh, i prefer my love from another star and moon embracing the sun more than bof/hyd and the heirs. If there are two recs i'd like to give you, they would be "hotel del luna" and "sky castle". God damn, i cried in every single episode watching these two dramas. They really touched my soul, everything was so good!

5 i havent scrolled through your blog and notice your recs for sempre, but from your recs, i checked and saw its goodreads rating and it's pretty high! Maybe i'll check it out if im interested. Seems like a mafia gang story? I need to be in the mood to be reading mafia stories because my first ones were from reading kpop mafia fanfics from years ago and the latest and the last one were the made series by danielle lori. The made series were entertaining but i noticed that i didnt care much about mafias? Hahahahah idk, and idc much about vampires, and wolf stories either, but i like faes. Not Sarah j maas type of faes, but holly black's and cassandra clare's. The ones that are beautiful, creepy, complicated and loves/have to lie but cant. So yeah, thanks for recommending sempre!

6 as for alex, im tired of her, and honestly i dont want to think about her anymore. I'll pretend nightfall alex never existed, and nightfall will grayson fucking died a gruesome death, becoming of two stupid selfish best friends who think theyre the only suffering in this world. You know this reminded me of a quote by madeline miller's Circe that really fits will's selfish behaviour especially in blackchurch: “He showed me his scars, and in return he let me pretend that I had none.” thats exctly how i felt throughout blackchurch. Because emmy always had to heavylift whatever bullshit that alexwillaydin put out to her. And as someone who was so used to just move forward and not caring about her small losses because she had suffered worse, emmy just had to act like she was okay with all the little hurts and cruelty cause by people, just because she loved them/will and wanted to not give up on him and give him a second chance, because he was hurting and she understood that he cared then (🙄). Good thing, she admitted she was at fault partly too, but god, i hated when she felt like she need to go above and beyond for a man who admitted didnt care enough about her. Gods, these mf men need therapy frfr.

7 "I truly am sorry that it was such a bad experience for you. You’re welcome to stick around, but I’m sure since you hated so much, you’re ready to move on after unloading like that. But it’s all good either way. I hope you’re on to better and better things." 

No need to be sorry, but you're right, i'm starting some new reads right now, and idk why, but kandi steiner, liz tomforde and laura pavlov really do be hitting with their releases!! Like their stories are not dark romance so tat cleansed me from devils night series a bit, and they are so fun to read! They gave me melanie harlow's vibes. If anyone's interested, i suggest checking out Blindside by Kandi Steiner, Right Move by Liz Tomforde, and all of these four authors backlogs tbh. Kandi Steiner even have like a college frat series? Which i havent checked out but it sounds fun, and its called Palm South University series.

I dont have anything else to add as well, thank you for reading my rants, have a nice day! I think this will be my last one, so goodbye!

KO, you've underestimated a loyal hate reader's journey of hate reading

Hey!! Okay. This is very helpful! Thank you for the insight. I’m not a stranger to hate watching/reading and (used to) do it frequently. And I would complain to all my friends about all the horrible stuff that was happening, but they knew I was having a good time.

It’s harder when I don’t really know who I’m talking to, to tell if I should take it seriously or if they’re enjoying the trash like me. We’re completely on the same page in that case so ignore very thing I said about not getting it. If you’re having a good time hating it, I got you!

i think... youre just not as toxic of a reader than me, ohmygod, im so sorry!

I might not be anymore but I definitely used to be, ngl. And I don’t know if you can end up running a DN blog without having some toxicity left in you??? I mean. We’re not here because this work was a masterpiece, am I right?

I don’t currently have any authors I must read/hate-read. Like I’ve said, I haven’t had the time to get into a lot of new stuff lately, and my tastes have changed. They could always change back, since reading is a mood-based activity. For now, though, I’ve left the dark and toxic behind for something that makes me feel good about the world.

i also actually grew up watching hana yori dongo! I watched the kdrama version too but idk if i'll watch the thai version. I have less patient for dramas now unfortunately

Oh my god the Kdrama! It was my first Kdrama. Fond memories. And no worries, I haven’t touched any drama in years. Truthfully, I think the only reason I can get into the Thai version is because of the familiarity.

but from your recs, i checked and saw its goodreads rating and it's pretty high! Maybe i'll check it out if im interested. Seems like a mafia gang story?  

It is, kinda? But it’s really layered, with a good plot and great characters. I could ramble about it for a while, but I don’t think anyone is interested currently, so I won’t burden you with it 😂

holly black's and cassandra clare's

I did really like the folk of the air series, and I read the spiderwick chronicles in middle school, but I haven’t gone back to holly black in a long time. I did want to read the new one but haven’t had the chance.

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Oof Alex. Now that I know where you’re coming from, I can completely agree. I’ve been re-reading and analyzing her intro in Nightfall and how weird it was; how it derailed everything in the worse way. Sometimes, when writers are stuck on where to go with a scene or plot, there’s a tactic that’s recommended: have someone walk in with a gun. It causes enough of a upheaval to keep the plot moving. I’m not sure if that was what Alex was supposed to do, but it really didn’t work for me for a lot of reasons.

Because emmy always had to heavylift whatever bullshit that alexwillaydin put out to her. And as someone who was so used to just move forward and not caring about her small losses because she had suffered worse, emmy just had to act like she was okay with all the little hurts and cruelty cause by people,

Yes! She had to work so hard just for a little, and what killed me the most is reading her scenes where she agrees with them.

She has the moments of clarity, where it seems she remembers why she did what she did, and she's not sorry, and that she wasn’t to blame for what happened to Will. Then next minute… she’s back to blaming herself for no reason? I’ve said many times before that Emory’s guilt is misplaced, and at certain times, it can’t be ignored that it was really PD pushing this “Emory deserves this” narrative, but I just can’t jive with it at all. There's a question on her good reads page where she says that she thinks Will is the most justified in his hatred.

And just... no. He's not. Literally none of them were justified in their hatred. They had the right to feel wronged. Sometimes we feel wronged, even if we carry some of the blame for what happened. But to say they were justified is just over the line. I really wish PD had more balance when it come to assigning blame. I think this series would have benefitted if one of the themes of the story was that everyone makes decisions, and right or wrong, we have to living with them. These are the consequences.

Like their stories are not dark romance so tat cleansed me from devils night series a bit, and they are so fun to read!

Yeah, it’s always nice to find something new that works! Thanks for the recs. I hope if anyone is looking, they’ll look them up. Sorry I didn’t have more strong female friendships, but they can be tough to find in todays romance climate.

I totally get you not coming back. It was absolutely a blast talking to you and thanks for the clarification! It always helps.

Have a great one, KO

[rainyfestivalsweets]

11/22/22 wt 248.4

OK what do I want to say about yesterday.

I went to the fellowship dinner, it was good.

I wore an outfit I was not super comfortable with as it shows my shape.

I had invited lots of people to this thing, but no one showed up.

There was a wide variety of food (which I did not take a picture of)(social weird).

I visited with a couple of ladies that I might be becoming friends with now? 🫨 They really seemed awesome. Intelligent women!

My self evaluation is: mostly good WITH TWEAKS NEEDED FOR FUTURE.

I had one plate of the meal. Heavy on the protein, avoided the fried chicken, took the broccoli. Initially took 1 little mini cake.

The tweaks needed:

To quote Alan Roberts, I just need to quit eating so fucking much.

I was socially uncomfortable, and I think I kept going back for this or that to keep busy while I was visiting with new people.

Someone mentioned there was pecan pie, and I realized that I had missed the whole dessert table. I grabbed a piece of pie and 2 cookies.

And eventually went back for more little cakes.

So that is my note to myself. Have the pie, but next time, have a smaller slice. No cookies. No extra cakes. One and done, bitch.

Also, take the nomorbidity before dinner. Am thinking of actually moving it to earlier in the day.

Other note: stop MF shopping. No fucking more. Gawd. The debt you accrue is in fucking sane.

Posting a pic on here is terrifying to me, as I want to stay anonymous. But it is pushing outside my social comfort zone, which I am working on.

I had one where I edited out my face and a bunch of detrius in the background, but idk what happened. I clicked save, and it disappeared, like it just doesn't show up when I try to add pics. I did feel super hot. Even if people could see my shape and my giant insecurity of my giant belly. I think this shirt had a flattering fit, tho. So! wth, here is a closer pick of the top, too.

Yes, I mixed a print and a plaid. And I think this is my first time wearing those boots. I wore a white leather jacket and a teal crossbody purse.

Only 1 half hour workout yesterday, the fit class at work, low impact cardio. But I was a holy terror with cleaning, especially for such a busy day, which actually needed to be done. My legs are still tender from Saturdays workout, so I am not going to chide myself.

The Thesis blend of the day was: Confidence.

I remarked to my sister that I was confident I was getting shit done!

It was an incredibly good feeling to have energy and motivation to do *anything*

[incarnateirony]

I'm at an interesting point in everything right now. It's a weird quasi form of creative burnout. And more, I've been a free content generator for so many years that part of laying back and retiring feels like doing so with content, or at least only making things when they tickle me.

At the same time, I've got half a rebuilt meta bible on one hand to finish sorting back out. I've been clearing out the bot commands in the server to fix broken ones and replace outdated memes with current and of course that'll come with a command list.

And then I stare at it and make the suburban sasquatch sound and walk away.

IDK I might actually bother with patreon exclusive content. Anyone wants the master mythic key to supernatural updated can deal with it or sort out the free chaos copy themselves, because damn, I truly am realizing how much work i put into this place and even working to remaster my work is exhausting. [gestures at Lateralus Project]

idk man someone give me a simple dumb edit idea to do between busting my ass. As it is, as a small creator I'm lucky to get a comment on a video or a few hundred views cuz ain't nobody reblog SHIT anymore unless it's a reel of the same 20 deancas clips to the newest hot pop song flipping around.

/cranky creative

No I'm serious guys, and this even goes to my more adamant supporters. Video comments and likes go a LONG fucking way in the algorithm, even just a few of them. It encourages youtube to let other people see my shit. Just clicking and rolling by means nobody else fucking sees it. And I can get a million supportive server people telling me how awesome and insightful my videos are but it still sucks to see it sit at 100 views because nobody can be assed to comment, like, sub, share, the basics without being fucking nagged.

Videos take days, weeks, or depending on the project scale, months to make. And then I get told, good job, very helpful, in a note somewhere and then it sits there at 100 views for 4 years. Yeah, thanks.

Sorry, I'm just tired and bitter and yeah, feeling a bit taken for granted around here lately. I was about to dive headlong into more labor and was like. but. why.

[castlebyersafterdark]

Do you think how one perceived the characters in relation to you plays a role in whether you have cuteness aggression toward will or not and just what you think of byler in general? Just in terms of whether you saw The Party and Will specifically as peers to journey WITH or as someone way younger than you to protect and WATCH grow up. The latter seems to instinctively activate that maternal (or paternal) instinct that the first doesn’t necessarily offer. I never saw him as a “baby.”

I’m not sure if this makes sense. Like personally I’m a few years older than finn and noah, so I’m not in the same exact age bracket as the Party. But I’m def in the same overall generation as the actors. So for me, when I was watching ST in real time for the first time, idk if I ever developed the “cuteness aggression” or anything like that. And I wonder if it’s because I perceived the characters as being my peers rather than being way younger than me, just based on where I was in my self-concept.

Which is not the case for everyone in my age bracket- I know lots of people related more to the older teens, and obviously those way older than me probably related more to Winona and David H! But that’s just how I experienced the show. Now that I revisit the early seasons, yeah it’s obvious how young and innocent and smol Will was, and it puts everything into a new perspective. I don’t know if I feel the cuteness aggression you describe, but I do understand the concept more.

It does create a weird disconnect tho when you see how grown up and hot Finn and Noah are now, in contrast with their “baby roots,” even as they’re still playing characters who haven’t aged much. What are your thoughts?

I think I understand what you're getting at. When I watched the show the first season I was just starting college, but I connected with the party immediately because they reminded me of myself and kids I grew up with when I was their age? So more so than the teens or adults in the show, clearly the heart of the show did hit for me. Childhood innocence. So no, not peers, but they reminded me personally of peers from a certain time in my life that I very much tend to romanticize (and even wish might have gone differently, but that's another story). I'm not saying media HAS to be relatable to everyone, but your take-away does influence how you view and interpret things. So others may have taken away something similar or it could be something else entirely. I can only speak to how I felt.

While I'm not really like Will much - I did connect to his character immediately in season 1 and 2 just as this kid who gets taken into this terrible scenario. You put yourself in his shoes. You want him to be saved and come out on the other side of the situation loved and alright, the darling of his mother and adored by his friends. He was just so small and sweet in contrast to the horrors. And more in season 2 it really popped off, it had already clicked for me that he was this young gay kid going through a really hard time and that just made it even more apparent? And then once he fell into the love interest role in a pairing I decided I was into, I think that early relatability and viewpoint is just how me, and many others it seems, are talking about him and characterizing him. Sweet Will!! Cute angel Will!! That's just so him to me.

And in regarding the actors, I can look at a photo online and say some guy is hot but it's not like I'm ever going to meet them so, sure!! What's the harm haha. It's who they are now so that's what I'm going to look at and focus on as time moves forward. Everyone was a child at one point, and hopefully grows up. The progression of lives for both character and actor alike...

[kiwibirb1]

Okay, I was thinking about Witches earlier today so I came up with a new amphibia au. But, plot twist, not witches like magic and shit, but witches as in The Witches by Roald Dahl. Yknow that one where they hate children, can smell them when they're clean, and turn them into mice? Yeah that one. Haven't read the book in a hot minute, but like whatever.

It got really long so details under the cut

Basically, Anne runs into a creepy lady in the woods who gives her this potion and says it idk does something cool. Anne drinks it (bad idea kiddos don't drink random potions made by creepy ladies with way to long nails), and all of a sudden, the ground seems very close and the trees very tall. She shouts in confusion, but all that comes out is a very small squeak. She glances down at her hands but instead finds two paws. Anne looks around for the weird lady who gave her the potion, but she is gone. Sooo yeah, Anne's a mouse now. She spends a very scary night in the woods (giant bugs when your human don't pay much attention to a little mouse, but the smaller ones sure do) and is found by Sprig in the morning, as he went out looking for her when she didn't come back the previous night. She can speak, don't think too hard about it it's for conviences sake. Her voice is really tiny tho because she's tiny. They get Maddie to brew a counter potion, and Anne is back to normal! Anne, exhausted and dirty from sleeping in the woods, takes a nice long soak in the bathtub. Halfway through, just when she started to feel clean, the room is suddenly too big, and she is paddling on four legs. Her squeaks are loud enough for Sprig to hear, and he rushes her back to Maddie. Maddie gives them another potion, but is just as confused as they are as to why Anne turned back. She quizzes Anne on what she was doing when she changed, and the best they can come up with as a group is that Anne somehow washed the effects of the cpunterpotion off. So, Anne waits until the next morning to clean, only to be rushed to Maddie again as a tiny little mouse. They eventually figure out that for some reason Anne being clean triggers the curse (Maddie is losing her mind trying to figure out how someone put a curse in a potion), but not knowing what the curse is exactly Maddie can't undo it. So yeah, Anne is extra grungy and will just chill around the Plantar house as a mouse sometimes because she showered and didn't feel like taking a potion.

That's just what I have so far for this idk might figure out how to draw rodents just for this. Marcy is very interested like Anne kinda hides it from her in Newtopia but when Marcy comes to Wartwood Anne forgets and is currently moused up so like skitters out the door to greet marcy (idk if that's how it goes but like is now) and Marcy is like "Oh! A [mouse species]! I didn't know these existed here! Oh hey little buddy wow you are just climbing up me huh." And right as she goes to pull out her journal Anne shouts in her ear "Marbles!" And like hugs the side of her face all cute bc she's tiny and a mouse and marcy is so confused but then it clicks and she snatches Anne who just remembered that she hadn't told marcy- "Anne!? Oh my Forg you're so cute!!! You need to tell me how this happened oh wait is this bad do we need to find a cure I don't know I kinda like you like this your so small and cute-" and Sprig has to save Anne from being squeezed and then explanations and junk.

[sarah-dipitous]

Hellsite Nostalgia Tour 2023 Day 192

Heaven Can’t Wait/The Bells of Saint John

“Heaven Can’t Wait”

Plot Description: Dean and Castiel investigate a series of spontaneous human combustions, while Crowley helps Sam and Kevin translate an ancient tablet

Would I Survive the First Five Minutes??: idk what that dude’s whole thing is, but…I don’t think I could stop him if he wanted to explode me

Cas studying and imitating human behavior is adorable. You are CORRECT, miss manager lady, he IS special!! 💖

GWORL. I know you got a crush but holy shit. Wait…no. She…might not? The kiss was confusing but I think she actually wants Cas to babysit for a date she’s going on

Why are the splattered remains Barbie pink??

GWORL (Dean), you didn’t just wanna bail on research. You wanted to see your boyfriend

Well, damn, if an angel came and exploded me any time I exaggeratedly said I wanna die?? Yikes.

I’m sorry. Dean. You don’t get to be like this about Cas’s situation when you kicked him out of the bunker…

I can’t believe Sam is actively manipulating Crowley….yeah.

Dean, you get NO SAY in what Castiel is going through unless you take him back to the bunker. He is doing his best with what little people skills he has. He is content right now

Yeah. He’s being called in to babysit

He has responsibilities, DEAN. Like cleaning the restroom

Can you spit out why it’s so bad BEFORE what would be a commercial break? No? Cool.

Omg…Dean telling Cas how to dress for this (not-a-)date

It’s gonna hurt to watch Cas get shut down……..at least Dean won’t be there to watch exactly…

Don’t worry, Cas, it WAS a confusing proposition. I get she was excited for her date, but she shouldn’t have kissed you.

It’s sick and twisted that Crowley wants to use Kevin’s blood to call Abaddon. He should not have to go through this…

Castiel is adorably bad with this baby. He’s TRYING but like………oh. No. He’s not bad with her, she really likes him. I…this is so cute. He can weirdly relate so much to being new to being a human.

No no nonononoooooo. The angel who’s been exploding people found Cas by the amount of emotional pain he’s in

Omg Abaddon is so hot

Literally could not care less if everything she does gets labeled wrong by the story. Don’t care that Crowley gets mad that she’s invalidating his contracts and that she’s screwing up hell. She can do whatever she wants

Bets on whether Metatron’s spell being permanent:

1) actually IS permanent, and

2) is a thing Dean tells Cas RIGHT NOW instead of keeping it a secret?

Do you have a crush on him NOW, miss manager lady???

Yeah. Kinda knew Dean wasn’t gonna be the MOST upfront

Hmmm…I’m betting this isn’t a “I want to FEEL human again” blood injection. It’s probably a “if I’m human again I can escape this bunker” one

“The Bells of Saint John”

Plot Description: The Doctor’s search for Clara Oswald brings him to modern day London

(There’s a lot to hate about the Big Bang Theory but I will never fault the show for pointing out that, though the Doctor has access to all of space and time, he sure does like modern day London (or sometimes Wales) a whole lot)

Oh yOuR sOuL’s BeEn UpLoAdEd To ThE iNtErNeT?? Kay…what else is new?? And why are you clicking on weird wifi networks? Did no one teach you anything?? And like…SO MANY people did that

This episode is making me so angry…just as someone who spent most of their day with our IT department trying to get them to take me seriously about my persistent internet issues. Yes, the internet SHOULD JUST BE THERE. I wish I knew why it isn’t but I am also not an IT specialist. (I could spend the next hour ranting about how I cried on the phone because I couldn’t get them to do anything beyond basic troubleshooting and then the second it was back for even a moment they were like ‘well, now I can’t escalate it because it’s back. If it happens again, call back’ even though that WAS a call back because I’d had the same issue the night before…..but I do need to actually watch this episode)

Ah, damn, Clara, you clicked the wrong WiFi……

Ugh…they’re doing it again. They’re too much alike. Not to rush Matt’s time but I need it to be Peter Capaldi now.

These people remind me too much of Naomi and her reign over heaven in spn

Bestie, RUN.

Maybe if the Doctor had gotten a tonsure, he’d think monks are cool

I do like the little flair the bottom of the Doctor’s jacket has now. It’s a twirly jacket

Ohhhhhh there really isn’t anything like a freshly opened package of jammy dodgers though

This is framed in a way that’s supposed to be cute and because it’s the Doctor, WE know she’s actually safe but if a strange man broke into my home after something happened to me, carried me to my bed, laid out snacks, took all my messages for me (including interacting with people close to me), and then told me NOW I was safe…I would not think I was safe. Also, the music is rather romcom-y and that’s weird because he’s several hundred years older than her

“I can’t tell the future, I just work there” is a really good line though

Ok no. This is creepy af. People should not be hackable

Is…the great intelligence behind this?? The bad guy from the last episode?

Oh these people are going to regret taking the Doctor’s likeness to get to Clara

I miss when the Doctor was a little less of an action hero. He shouldn’t be allowed to ride a motorcycle up the side of a building

I was RIGHT?? The Great Intelligence was behind it?? HOW LONG WAS HE KEEPING THAT WOMAN HOSTAGE?? HOW LONG HAD SHE BEEN HACKED?? She sounded like a little kid when she came to