Lolly & Golly
Lulu: He’s mine
Dolly: What are you talking about?
Lulu: Oh please, you think I don’t know every thought that boy has, or could ever have, before it’s even close to being fully formed
Dolly: I’d hardly consider that something to brag about
Lulu: & yet here you are perfectly willing to accept his half-baked advances, so, I’m warning you
Dolly: How uncharacteristically considerate of you
Lulu: You don’t have the monopoly on out of character acts, charitable or otherwise
Dolly: He’s not yours, he never has been because we both had to go out with him, at your insistence
Dolly: You want to change that now, you know he won’t stick around
Lulu: You changed it, by walking away to fraternise with the teaching staff, bad luck, it was [him] who couldn’t get away fast enough
Dolly: It was a crime, Lulu
Lulu: Call it what you want with the benefit of hindsight, darling, I hope it helps spare your 😳💀 truly
Dolly: The only one 😳💀 is our mother, you wish I cared half as much as you do
Lulu: But what else is new?
Lulu: I only have one wish now as far as you’re concerned, stay away from Gabe
Dolly: Why would I do anything for you, when everything you do is actively against me?
Lulu: It isn’t for me, silly
Lulu: If the alleged trauma hasn’t left you with special needs, you’ll do it for your own sake
Lulu: because you may think yourself hard done by already, but you really don’t know the half of it, or want to put me to the test
Dolly: You’re so transparent, my God
Lulu: What a relief, I’m trying to make myself super clear 😊
Dolly: The panicked grasp for control is crystal
Lulu: Panic, no
Lulu: people get terribly calm before they do wicked things, ask mummy about her latest cry for help
Dolly: I try to avoid all contact, which they thankfully make very easy on the whole
Lulu: It’s fine, she’s not the right person to quiz anyway, she doesn’t have my resolve
Dolly: You can channel all that resolve into keeping him then, can’t you
Lulu: Absolutely, you abandoned him, I didn’t
Dolly: We got pulled out of [your old school]
Lulu: You cheated long before that
Dolly: I don’t know why you’re acting as if you’re in love with him now when I know you’re not and so does he
Lulu: It’s laughable you would even use the word
Dolly: I’m not the one pretending, badly
Dolly: We’re so obviously incapable, he didn’t need to come to our empty home to find that out
Lulu: Nor am I, he knows where he stands, not that it’s any of your business how I do or don’t act
Dolly: Unlike you, I really don’t care what you’re up to in the bedroom
Lulu: I’m entitled to care when you invite him into yours at grandma’s
Dolly: No, you’re not, not when it comes to me
Dolly: if you thought you were monogamous, bring it up with him, good luck when you’re the one who set everything up to be shared
Lulu: Sharing him with whichever girls on [his uni] campus he has a passing interest in is one thing, you trying to steal him from me is quite another
Dolly: Get a real boyfriend, it’s clearly what you need
Lulu: No, it clearly isn’t
Dolly: You haven’t shaped him into what you want yet, you’re not going to now
Lulu: The shape of him is irrelevant to this convo
Dolly: This convo is irrelevant
Dolly: What are you trying to achieve?
Lulu: I told you, if you leave me with nothing, well, of course, I’ll have nothing to lose
Dolly: Join the club
Lulu: I’m not welcome, it’s very much your entire point
Dolly: I’m the one who brought him over to make you feel unwelcome in your own home, oh wait, that was you
Lulu: You started this, don’t get that twisted
Dolly: It’s the one thing I can be proud of, breaking that chain
Dolly: You’re not ready to accept how wrong it all was, your part in it
Lulu: You can’t break it, that’s a fantasy, bordering on a delusion much like the rest of what you’re saying
Dolly: The fantasy is that our family is one, that anything healthy has grown from them
Dolly: It’s over, all of it
Lulu: Never, even if I die, or kill both of you for betraying me
Dolly: Betraying you
Lulu: Becoming a habit of yours
Dolly: You need deprogramming or something
Dolly: I don’t know how to talk to you, do you hear yourself?
Lulu: Do you hear me? It’s over how & when I decide, it isn’t up to you
Dolly: No one is playing your games anymore
Lulu: This isn’t a game anymore
Dolly: I’m not scared of you anymore, you’re just deeply disturbed, I’d feel sorry for you if I could bring myself to have that level of empathy
Lulu: I am? 😅 You’re emotionless, you should be studied
Dolly: I know that having our parents and you as a sister has fucked me up, am I not playing the victim and playing up, in your own words
Dolly: you need to deal with the reality of our situation instead of placating yourself with revenge fantasies
Lulu: The reality of the situation you caused & refuse to apologise for is something I’m having to deal with
Dolly: The reality of having parents that neglect us most of the time, then narcissistically abuse us when they aren’t, in her case
Dolly: You thinking it’s about anything else is the problem
Lulu: How exactly is that a problem for you, Dolly? You have grandma & grandpa, they’re so wrapped around your little finger it would be my fault somehow you slept with MY boyfriend under their roof
Lulu: I have nowhere but that empty house you mentioned, because guess what, I can’t even board at school now, thanks to you
Dolly: He’s not your boyfriend
Lulu: You would focus on the least important part of what I just said
Dolly: Because they’re your grandparents too, if you wanted a better relationship, you could have one
Lulu: They hate me, that relationship’s poisoned, you poisoned it
Dolly: They do not hate you, they’re not mum and dad
Lulu: They’ve been taken in by your lies & taken your side
Dolly: What lies?
Lulu: I’m not the villain
Dolly: I don’t talk about you
Lulu: Silence is a condemnation here, you don’t leap to my defence, you never have
Dolly: Grandma and Grandpa do not bitch about you, that’s an insanely paranoid thing to think
Lulu: I’ve literally heard them
Dolly: They worry about you, you conflate the two
Lulu: They think I’m a worse version of her
Dolly: It’s too late to help her
Lulu: It’s too late for me, they’ll be thrilled to be correct in mummy & I having something in common
Dolly: It isn’t
Lulu: You’ve given me no choice
Lulu: ruined my life, wrecked everything that mattered
Dolly: Look, if it wasn’t for them caring more about appearances, you could have stayed there
Dolly: that wasn’t my decision
Lulu: You decided I’m an albatross around your neck
Dolly: You harp on what I did to you, like that wasn’t a reaction to how you treated me for the first [however many] years of my life
Lulu: Like you didn’t love having me as a scapegoat, you didn’t once have to take any responsibility because you didn’t make a single decision, all of them were mine
Dolly: Which is what you wanted
Lulu: You needed me, if I hadn’t stepped in where do you suppose you’d be? Even stranger than we are
Dolly: I will literally never get to know, you didn’t give me the choice, the luxury
Dolly: There’s no way for us to be stranger
Lulu: I gave you every luxury, we ran that school, we had total freedom
Dolly: What an entirely meaningless thing for you to base your self-worth on
Dolly: We only had 2 years left anyway, then what, you still lose your whole personality when you enter the real world
Lulu: Then we would’ve had actual freedom, away from mummy & daddy
Dolly: That’s how it is now
Lulu: But it isn’t, there’s no we now, you’ve separated us
Lulu: & in your selfish desperation to do that, you’ve brought me back to her
Dolly: You want that, you always have, no one has made you react like this
Lulu: You broke my heart, I don’t know how else to react! I’m sorry I can’t tailor this suffering to become a perfectly executed fuck you to our mother, I haven’t quite reached that level of psychopathy, I’m afraid
Dolly: I can’t fake it anymore
Lulu: You shouldn’t have to, I’m your sister
Dolly: You made us cross boundaries that make that irrelevant now
Lulu: We’re twins, boundaries are for half & step
Dolly: You still don’t respect what anyone else wants
Dolly: I never wanted that, you forced closeness that wasn’t natural
Lulu: I didn’t force a single thing
Lulu: & you wanted Gabe, you obviously still want him
Dolly: You’re the one that met him
Lulu: Your enthusiastic consent filled the room, we all remember
Dolly: Because I knew you’d not let me strike out on my own, it had to be together
Lulu: Because you enjoyed it
Dolly: You shouldn’t have been there
Lulu: Convenient excuse now that neither of you want me to be
Dolly: How do you not feel sickened
Lulu: Okay, maybe you do need to get out more
Lulu: people are more intimate with complete strangers, no one is calling them out
Dolly: You wouldn’t know intimacy if it stared you in the face
Dolly: I blocked out the fact you were there, however hard you persisted
Lulu: How beastly of you
Lulu: what you mean is, you’re persisting in telling yourself you tried to, because you can’t accept what’s staring you in the face
Lulu: none of it happened against your will
Dolly: I wanted experiences, I wanted Gabe and I wanted [this teacher]
Dolly: I didn’t want you but you forced yourself into this as you did everything
Lulu: You want someone to blame
Dolly: If that were true, you’d have known about [the teacher]
Dolly: I didn’t want you, how many ways can I say and show it, you didn’t let me do a fucking thing by myself until I made it happen
Lulu: If that were true & you were devastatingly unhappy, what took you so long?
Dolly: Said as if you’re not still clinging to a devastatingly toxic relationship with our mother
Dolly: You know why
Lulu: I know you’re exhausting
Lulu: if I was the mastermind of some great plot to turn you & Gabe into my vision, you wouldn’t be this weak, you’d be my equal
Lulu: you clung to me & I had to protect you because one of us should get to stay soft
Dolly: You think you’re strong
Lulu: Needs must, she won’t break me, I’ll beat her
Lulu: in too many ways I already can
Dolly: And what an adversary
Dolly: you’re picking a life-long battle with the saddest woman who ever lived, get a grip
Lulu: I’m surviving the nonsense you sacrificed me to in order to feel like you’d won against her yourself for once with your pathetic teacher fucking shots fired
Lulu: your scandal was as sad as any stunt she’s pulled
Dolly: I wasn’t making a scandal happen
Dolly: I don’t think like you two, thinking you’re playing chess when you’re just playing yourselves
Lulu: You don’t think, period, you can leave the sentence there
Dolly: You’re jealous that you weren’t picked to be someone’s Lolita, that’s the sad truth we’re all meant to ignore
Dolly: You wish it was you so bad
Lulu: If I cared about having him at all, I could have
Lulu: my priority was [the name of their school], not a bland series of sexual encounters which poor sir has undoubtedly blocked out
Dolly: Sure, Lulu
Dolly: then you’ll have no trouble keeping Gabe all for yourself and we don’t even need to have this conversation
Lulu: The uncomfortable truth we’re all meant to ignore is you destroyed a man’s life for fun & then cried groomer when it wasn’t
Dolly: You would need to take that perspective
Lulu: It’s valid, you’ve admitted to wanting him, wanting to escape my suffocation, he’s hardly the predator, is he?
Dolly: He got caught, and faced no consequences
Dolly: the fantasy you have of me crying myself to sleep over it is because you’d rather I was traumatised than betray you, which is the real truth
Lulu: I’d rather you or I were dead, which can be arranged any time
Dolly: Grow up, for God’s sake
Dolly: We are to each other, that’s what matters
Lulu: What matters is, you left me
Lulu: I’m traumatised by that & you’re blatantly unphased
Dolly: We have nothing in common
Lulu: Because you’re obsessed with the idea of distancing yourself from me
Dolly: Because we’re nothing alike, no amount of forcing made it true
Lulu: Your determination to disregard whatever similarities exist doesn’t mean they aren’t there
Dolly: You’re traumatised by losing an extension of yourself, you don’t know me, you didn’t bother getting to know me as a person
Lulu: Don’t be ridiculous, I spent our whole childhoods with you doing that
Dolly: You decided everything she didn’t
Dolly: Neither of us had a personality not corrupted by her awful decisions
Dolly: then you micromanaged the shit too small for her to care about, our favourite colour, our favourite toys
Lulu: For god’s sake, I’m not an extension of her
Lulu: I’m sorry I cared about you when it’s apparently a huge sin or something
Dolly: No need to apologise for something you didn’t do
Lulu: Wow, okay
Dolly: Everyone in our house hates each other, there’s nothing about it worthy of saving
Lulu: I loved you
Lulu: I just wanted you to feel loved
Dolly: Jesus
Lulu: Our parents weren’t going to, who does that leave?
Dolly: You deserve to get better, to get help
Lulu: You can have him, even though you deserve way better
Dolly: He can make up his own mind, it isn’t up to either of us
Lulu: Hilarious, what mind? He’s an idiot
Dolly: He still gets to live his own life, we all do
Lulu: I’m done with mine, but you two go ahead
Lulu: live happily ever after
Dolly: Don’t be ridiculous
Lulu: I was being overly optimistic, on purpose, if anything, I give your summer fling a fortnight at most before you realise he’s a bore
Dolly: I know him as well as you do
Lulu: Best of luck & best wishes, naturally 😘
Dolly: You can save the condescension, this is exactly how I knew you’d react
Lulu: I’d work on my last words but there’s very little point, my reaction will speak for itself, you’re right
Dolly: If you want to threaten to kill yourself to keep a boy, that’s your business
Lulu: It isn’t a threat or about him but your continued misinterpretation of me is none of my business
Dolly: It’s entirely unoriginal, is what it is
Lulu: I’m aware of that, but there’s also very little point to carrying out a unique suicide, if such a thing exists
Dolly: You learnt every move from her and she’s the stupidest person we know
Dolly: and still alive, despite all her insistences otherwise, so
Lulu: Not every move, the final one will hopefully go differently
Dolly: Good luck with that
Lulu: Thanks 😊
Dolly: I’ll call the ambulance and you can explain why you’re wasting everybody’s time
Lulu: I’ve only wasted my own trying to talk to you
Dolly: Every threat you make is idle, you’re like a child
Dolly: do you want to be the sad middle-aged woman who’s never had a job and has a relationship that rivals a tween girl’s?
Lulu: Foreign as my desires are to you, I’m not surprised you’d ask
Dolly: No one deserves a drain on their life and savings more than our parents
Lulu: Unfortunately, those aren’t my intentions
Lulu: still, there’s always Mattie when she’s old enough for a mid-life crisis
Dolly: Why not
Lulu: Mummy & I aren’t the same shoe size & I’d loathe living in her skin it’s awfully stretched
Dolly: Room for you both
Lulu: She’d eat me, her appetite is uncontrollable
Dolly: You have that in common too
Lulu: Your list doesn’t give me anything to live for, please don’t consider a future career as a therapist
Dolly: As I said, I’m well aware you need professional help, there’s nothing I can do for you
Lulu: & therefore you’ve washed your hands for your own sanity, what a frightful cliché
Dolly: I’ll live
Lulu: As I said, one of us should
Dolly: Talk to him, I’m sure it’ll have the desired effect
Lulu: For who? You and your desire to be the bigger person
Dolly: Yours to keep him, which is why you’re here
Lulu: Mine has changed, you keep him
Dolly: Whatever
Lulu: Romantic, I understand why he’s smitten 😍🥰
Dolly: Clearly you don’t
Lulu: He believes you’re forbidden, that I forbid it, but no, I don’t
Dolly: He wants to sleep with someone who doesn’t just lie there, that’s all
Dolly: There’s no big secret
Lulu: He wants you again, there’s no big secret he had the time of his life before & now uni is a bore & he’s sulking
Dolly: There had to be incentive for him to do it
Lulu: You’re the carrot & I’m the stick, I’m sure he took all of a second to feed you that unoriginal narrative favoured by old married men globally 🙄
Dolly: You never liked him, I don’t know why you’d be offended now the feeling is more mutual
Lulu: I’m not, him walking out is the most thrilling thing he’s ever attempted, which isn’t saying much, but he doesn’t offer much by way of entertainment
Dolly: How sad for you
Lulu: Hence baby’s first suicide attempt, do keep up
Dolly: I’d rather not, this is boring
Lulu: Agreed 🥱
Dolly: Tell him he can come back over when you’ve stopped playing for time
Lulu: Tell him yourself
Dolly: Sure
Lulu: [goodbye in whatever weird made up twin language you used to have when you were children no doubt because she is unhinged and fully intends to do this unlike Chlo’s attention seeking ass, soz girl we’re not letting you succeed but I’m sure you almost did]
Dolly: [oh hun, what would you like to do next gal gal]
Gabe: Don’t shoot the messenger if you don’t want to
Gabe: but I thought you should know she’s in hospital
Dolly: Right
Dolly: I’m sorry you had to find her
Gabe: It’s a good thing someone did
Dolly: It shouldn’t have been you
Gabe: Your parents aren’t here, they couldn’t have
Dolly: No, I should have just called the damn ambulance like I said though
Gabe: Wait, you knew she was going to do this?
Dolly: Not exactly, she makes threats all the time
Gabe: Well, you could’ve warned me
Gabe: I had to call one, with the fucking language barrier
Dolly: I said sorry and I meant it
Dolly: you should’ve just called here
Gabe: I wasn’t exactly thinking straight
Dolly: it’s fine, she’s where she needs to be now
Gabe: It’s not fine, Dolly
Dolly: It’s not over you, if that’s what you’re worried about
Dolly: she said as much
Gabe: I’m worried about her, she tried to kill herself
Dolly: She’s not thinking clearly, they’ll section her now, she’ll get the help she needs
Gabe: Will she?
Dolly: It’s out of her hands now
Dolly: she’s underage so they’ll bring my parents back, that’s why she’s done it
Gabe: They’re in [the wrong place because why would you remember], right?
Dolly: Somewhere like that
Dolly: You can go home, you shouldn’t feel bad, none of this mess is yours
Gabe: I can’t without seeing her first
Dolly: I don’t know if they’ll let you, I’ve never visited anyone in hospital
Gabe: I don’t know either, what anyone in this fucking country is saying
Dolly: Now’s not the time to lecture you on practising your English
Dolly: whatever you saw, it’s fucked you up, I know
Gabe: It was horrible
Dolly: I know
Gabe: How could she do it to herself?
Dolly: She’s not well
Gabe: She wasn’t that unwell, I didn’t think so
Dolly: I mean, she was born that unwell
Dolly: she didn’t want you to see her like that, I’m sure
Gabe: & now I’ll never be able to unsee her like that
Dolly: It’s selfish
Gabe: She wasn’t thinking about me
Dolly: Or anyone but herself
Gabe: Yeah
Dolly: I’m just exhausted
Gabe: She must’ve felt the same
Dolly: Nah
Gabe: I just mean, in a desperate state to do what she did
Dolly: She lives in a desperate state
Dolly: she’ll get what she wants from it, attention and concern from our mother
Gabe: Can your mother do attention or concern?
Dolly: She can fake it when required, just like Lulu
Gabe: Won’t she be able to tell it’s fake?
Dolly: It’s all we’ve known, the difference doesn’t matter
Gabe: Damn, no big surprise she’s messed up
Dolly: How is that news to you?
Gabe: It isn’t like she talks about your mother to me all the time
Dolly: No but
Dolly: you can’t have assumed we were normal
Gabe: More normal than this
Dolly: What an awkward surprise this has turned out to be
Gabe: Are your grandparents going to the hospital?
Dolly: Of course
Gabe: I’ll come over, you shouldn’t be there on your own
Dolly: You don’t have to for my sake
Dolly: I won’t hurt myself
Gabe: It’s for mine too, I don’t want to be alone
Dolly: Okay then
Gabe: Do you need anything?
Dolly: Just don’t expect me to cry or anything when you get here, yeah
Gabe: She’s your sister, I don’t expect you to feel any type of way
Dolly: I’m immune to it, numb
Dolly: it’s been a lifetime of manipulations, it’s her one move and it doesn’t work anymore
Gabe: So she’s out of moves
Dolly: The game is over but she won’t accept that because she didn’t ‘win’, whatever that means
Gabe: I felt like I won earlier
Dolly: Undoubtedly taking that away was a component if not a reason why
Gabe: You said she said it wasn’t over me
Dolly: [send him that specific message]
Dolly: She wasn’t at peace with the world and ready to leave
Gabe: Was this our fault?
Dolly: No
Dolly: She wants it to be mine for getting us thrown out of [the school]
Gabe: Maybe going home is a good idea
Dolly: I would if I had the choice
Dolly: further away than Switzerland
Gabe: You could go with me
Dolly: You’re only offering because you feel bad for me
Gabe: We both need to get away from here but that’s not it
Dolly: Now you know I’m as bad as her because I can’t bring myself to feel sorry for her
Dolly: and it’s ruined what we could’ve had, hasn’t it
Gabe: You’ve been through a lot, she’s put you through a lot
Dolly: I wasn’t even allowed to go to the bathroom without her as a kid
Gabe: Leave with me, you’re allowed space
Dolly: Where will we go?
Gabe: Your choice
Dolly: Say that you want me there, mean it
Gabe: It wasn’t goodbye, it still doesn’t have to be
Dolly: I don’t know what to tell my grandparents
Gabe: Tell them you can’t stay here, it’s too much & you need a break
Dolly: It’s not a lie
Dolly: the thought of having to be alone with just us in that house, I can’t do it
Gabe: The summer’s yours, you want to live not die
Dolly: I feel like I was only just born
Dolly: or like I was dead until [when this all came out and blew up]
Gabe: You’re a baby then
Dolly: Yeah
Dolly: take me somewhere I’ve never been, you basically have the whole world to choose from, I’m brand new
Gabe: I’ll take you lots of places, we have time for me to show you the world
Dolly: I feel happy, real excitement
Gabe: Me too
Dolly: You know how I felt earlier too, that it was real
Gabe: It doesn’t feel as real now, but we can get it back
Dolly: We have to
Dolly: she’s getting what she needs, we need to do this
Gabe: It doesn’t make me a bad person, when you put it like that
Dolly: How could you be, you were always my boyfriend too
Gabe: I was
Gabe: & she doesn’t need me, she has your parents & grandparents
Dolly: She wants to isolate me, she said you only wanted me because you thought you couldn’t
Gabe: She would say that, she doesn’t think I can do anything
Dolly: I haven’t stopped thinking about all the things you did, honestly
Dolly: I didn’t think I’d miss you
Gabe: Neither have I
Gabe: I missed you in the back garden, before I even really left
Dolly: I knew you’d be looking at your phone, that you’d see me deleting the messages, I didn’t want you to stop paying attention to me yet
Gabe: I want them back, say everything hot again
Dolly: I mean it all even more
Dolly: I need you so much more
Gabe: Good girl
Gabe: that’s a good start
Dolly: You have my virginity forever, I love that
Gabe: You’re mine
Dolly: I want you to be my daddy
Gabe: My baby, I like it
Dolly: You can smoke in bed in [giving the European countries where they dgaf]
Gabe: You haven’t moved from yours & you don’t want me to
Dolly: How did you know
Gabe: Because I haven’t stopped thinking about what you could be doing
Dolly: There’s nothing else I want to do, need to
Dolly: I’ll kiss you every time you exhale, until you want me as much as nicotine
Gabe: I’m not addicted, but to you, maybe
Dolly: Your lungs are welcome, I’m so much better for you
Gabe: Are you? You take my breath away
Dolly: 😏 You’ve got all the lines, huh
Gabe: You make it sound like I’m playing games & making moves too
Dolly: You are refreshingly straightforward
Gabe: Thanks? 😏
Dolly: No translation error, I mean it as the best compliment I can give
Gabe: She’d mean it like I’m stupid, but I know you don’t
Dolly: She has an inflated opinion of her own intelligence
Dolly: praise from teachers could be relied upon, I guess
Gabe: We don’t want to talk about her though
Dolly: I know I don’t
Gabe: I know what you want, you’ve been straightforward about it yourself
Dolly: It’s a newly found freedom but one I’m already liking a lot
Dolly: asking for what I want, not being told
Gabe: So ask me for something
Dolly: Bring [some kind of red wine that y’all would know the name of because you’re posh and European]
Gabe: Where am I going to find that?
Dolly: There might be some there
Dolly: check the cellar, [point him in the general direction, it’s more like a cabinet ‘cos your parents are living off their parents so you’re not crazy rich living]
Gabe: [take some pics of their terrible taste in wine/all drinks undoubtedly when you do find said cabinet haha because they suck]
Dolly: 🙄
Dolly: Okay, there’s a shop at the end of [giving this road y’all live along, you get the vibe, it’s London, it won’t be far]
Gabe: Take off your clothes, after this I’m not going to waste any more time
Dolly: Oh, I see 😳
Gabe: Let me see you’ve done what I told you to
Dolly: I’m not used to taking those kind of pictures but I’ll try
Dolly: [and do, being cutely awkward about it]
Gabe: You’re a natural
Dolly: I’ll get better at it
Gabe: While you’re waiting for me, it’ll give you something to do
Dolly: When you first met me, what did you think?
Gabe: You were sexy
Gabe: & I wasn’t wrong
Dolly: You make me laugh
Gabe: No joke
Dolly: I was so nervous, I can’t believe I was sexy
Gabe: I couldn’t tell
Dolly: You were nice, you made it good for me
Gabe: It wouldn’t have been for me if it wasn’t for you, I’d be able to tell that
Dolly: You don’t play games
Gabe: I try not to
Dolly: Me too, now I get to decide
Gabe: What did you think?
Dolly: I’d been told all about you beforehand, obviously
Dolly: it was exciting to have someone to talk to, someone to be close to, especially a boy
Gabe: We were close, I’ve missed that so much
Dolly: It was hard, wanting to be closer
Dolly: but there were no secrets, couldn’t be
Dolly: you understand why I did what I did, don’t you?
Gabe: Of course I do
Dolly: Now, we can be as close as we want
Dolly: as close as earlier
Gabe: Closer, we’ll be in a different country soon
Dolly: Alone
Gabe: Me & [her pet name]
Dolly: Better than my name 😍
Dolly: by far
Gabe: You don’t like it when I call you by your name?
Dolly: Hmm
Dolly: We might have to test that out
Gabe: [voice note her saying her name in as many different tones as you can think of]
Dolly: Oh
Dolly: I’ve never liked my name before, what have you done
Gabe: Nothing yet, compared to what I’m going to
Dolly: Please
Gabe: First, [the name of this wine he is buying rn]
Dolly: Thought it would help us destress but I just need you for that
Gabe: You’re like my own private stress ball, yeah
Dolly: You can touch me all over, I won’t move or anything, promise
Gabe: You’ll move, you can’t help it
Dolly: Maybe but I’d try very hard to be good before I did
Gabe: That’s very true & I don’t mind when you have to
Dolly: It’ll be against you only
Gabe: Into me, to get us closer
Dolly: You don’t need to pin me, it’s exactly where I want to be
Gabe: For all of summer
Dolly: School will be so dull
Gabe: Uni too
Dolly: What’s your plan when you’re done?
Gabe: Plans change, why would I make one yet?
Dolly: Fair point
Gabe: In my head I’ve dropped out 100s of times
Gabe: made 100s of other decisions
Dolly: You’re taking it as it comes
Dolly: nothing is guaranteed
Gabe: You’re an insanely intelligent newborn
Gabe: What am I going to do with you?
Dolly: Have the best summer ever?
Gabe: The best because you are
Dolly: I’m not
Dolly: but I’m going to be good for you
Gabe: Are you calling me a liar?
Dolly: Your crush is making you biased
Gabe: And now you’re calling this a crush
Dolly: Are you saying you don’t have a crush on me?
Gabe: I did, it’s turned into more than that
Dolly: Stay with me tonight
Gabe: I won’t even go to the back garden without you
Dolly: Your lap is the perfect place to be, inside and outside
Gabe: Inside you or not
Dolly: Always inside me, I’m missing you badly
Gabe: Let me see how badly
Dolly: [send him a pic of your boobs that are covered in lovebites from him]
Dolly: See?
Gabe: Look what you made me do
Dolly: You should do more, I think
Gabe: What else are you thinking?
Dolly: How loud you made me
Gabe: There’s no one to hear you scream, you can be louder
Dolly: Shit
Dolly: You could do anything you wanted to me
Gabe: In any room
Dolly: Every room, you have to
Gabe: & outside
Dolly: The neighbours can know who I belong to, who’s looking after me
Gabe: Who your daddy is
Dolly: No one else has ever cum in my pussy
Gabe: Why didn’t he?
Dolly: He was paranoid in every way, funny considering how easily we got caught in the end
Dolly: how I know all about deleting messages
Gabe: He’s made what we’ve got more special
Dolly: It ruins the moment, having to stop so you can put a condom on
Dolly: you trust that I’m not stupid like that
Gabe: You don’t need to trap me, I want to be here
Dolly: 😁
Gabe: Do it for real
Dolly: [do because like your sister you do be smiling like that]
Gabe: Your teeth can’t be English, no wonder I forget you are
Dolly: Charmer 😆
Dolly: do I sound different to the [whatever nationality the girls at his uni would likely be] when I moan?
Gabe: I can’t remember how they sound, only how you do
Dolly: Get used to it, it’s the soundtrack of your summer now
Gabe: Getting used to that will take me the whole summer
Dolly: Good
Dolly: I can’t get used to having you all to myself yet
Gabe: I keep expecting her to appear, think I see her out the corner of my eye
Dolly: Me too
Gabe: But that’ll stop, it didn’t happen earlier
Dolly: You had my full attention, anyone could have appeared and I wouldn't give a shit
Gabe: Your grandparents could’ve, I wouldn’t have known
Dolly: 🥺 Now I NEED proof you like me that much
Gabe: More proof?
Dolly: You making me cum in front of an audience we don’t know is there, yes, desperately
Gabe: What size audience?
Dolly: Will depend where we are, what we’re meant to be doing instead
Dolly: You’re showing me the world
Gabe: What if I was meant to be playing a sold out stadium, would I still have your full attention?
Dolly: Fuck
Dolly: You know the answer
Gabe: I need to hear you say it
Dolly: I’d be more focused on you than I have ever been
Gabe: Because of you I’m the horniest I’ve ever been
Dolly: Unashamedly proud 😁😁😁😁
Gabe: Don’t smile at my suffering
Dolly: Poor Gabe
Gabe: Poor you too if it takes me 2x longer to come back
Gabe: there’s no way you could stand right now
Dolly: No, you have to be quick, I don’t want to be alone now
Dolly: You can make me, fair is fair
Gabe: I already know I can make you do whatever I like
Dolly: I want you to know, have that power
Dolly: it’s yours now, use it
Gabe: I’m about to use you, slut
Dolly: Your slut
Dolly: do you like that too?
Gabe: A lot
Dolly: As much as I like being used by you
Gabe: No, you like it way more
Dolly: You know exactly how much I like that
Gabe: You love it, don’t you?
Dolly: There’s so much that I should be worrying about in my life right now but it’s all I can think about
Dolly: Nothing else has touched the sides, stopped me feeling numbed out
Gabe: You’re going to feel something when I get there
Dolly: Save me from the worst summer ever
Dolly: Or we’d both end up dead, I’m sure of it
Gabe: Only I can, of course I will
Dolly: Them leaving us alone after all this, it was the final final straw
Dolly: It’s not safe, you are
Gabe: Yeah, I’ll take good care of you
Dolly: You kid but where’s the lie 😏
Dolly: it’s exactly what I need
Gabe: I’m not kidding
Gabe: we’ll both get what we need, there’s no reason why not
Dolly: Yeah but
Dolly: you know I’m not going to do anything crazy like her, I don’t need taking care of like that
Gabe: I know how you need it
Dolly: Having a relationship with a teacher has made me paranoid too, just a tad
Dolly: everyone at that school had parental issues, it’s not like I was special for it
Gabe: You’re special to me, it isn’t like that
Dolly: You don’t have to say I am
Gabe: It’s true, I’m saying it because I mean it
Dolly: I’m not trying to be clingy, freak you out
Gabe: Neither am I
Dolly: We’re on the same page and I’m making it weird, aren’t I?
Dolly: You can make me shut up
Gabe: You didn’t turn things weird, she did
Gabe: they started out off & we’re trying to navigate all that
Dolly: It was a misstep, on her part
Dolly: you could’ve told everyone, still could
Gabe: I told you before, I made mistakes too
Gabe: I’m not blameless
Dolly: Neither am I, obviously
Dolly: It was gradual, after all, at first she was alright with just letting me report back, say what it was like kissing you, then she’d ‘accidentally’ walk in… we both know how it ended
Gabe: By the end we were both in too deep
Dolly: Saying no didn’t occur, some fucking how
Gabe: She’s hard to say no to
Dolly: I would’ve been punished, the end goal was to both lose our virginities to you, I knew that, if it was all for nothing she would’ve been unbearable
Gabe: I can’t regret us
Dolly: I don’t, Gabe
Gabe: Whatever else happened, we still did that & I’m never going to feel sorry
Dolly: You were perfect
Dolly: my grades plummeted for a while there, I couldn’t stop daydreaming
Gabe: It felt like I had to have imagined it
Dolly: Do you believe in me now?
Gabe: This is too real now
Dolly: Just right
Dolly: being with you, being your [the pet name he calls her], feels like exactly what I should be doing
Gabe: A summer you can daydream about when it’s over
Dolly: I’ll need the memories to cope
Gabe: They’ll get me through too, we’re in this together
Dolly: Are we really going, you swear
Gabe: Book somewhere or start to pack, we’ll be leaving whenever you’re ready to
Dolly: You lasted longer in my house than any person should have to
Gabe: Those props are yours, I was hardly there in comparison
Dolly: She needs someone new to share the cell with
Dolly: My release date is in sight
Gabe: Your grandparents’ house is in sight again
Dolly: I’ll stop packing to let you in, perhaps
Gabe: I’m no longer just a guest, I’ll let myself in
Dolly: Wow, very bold
Dolly: what are you now then?
Gabe: Who, I’m [whatever she called him during their hookup that was giving pet name turned !!]
Dolly: That’s right 😳
Gabe: & your daddy
Dolly: Just mine
Gabe: No more sharing
Dolly: No one else is invited
Gabe: Except to watch, as our audience
Dolly: What are hotels for
Gabe: Balconies are built for the purpose
Dolly: I’m built for that
Gabe: You truly are
Dolly: I can feel you picturing my body right now
Gabe: You have the hottest body
Dolly: It’s hot for you
Gabe: I remember
Dolly: Remembering what you did to me has me so close
Gabe: Get closer
Gabe: be touching yourself when I come in
Dolly: Yes, daddy
Gabe: Good girl
Dolly: Where do you want me?
Dolly: This whole place is begging to be used
Gabe: How far do you think you’ll be able to get from your bed?
Dolly: You bending me over the stove is VERY good motivation but you’re right
Dolly: if I fall down the stairs now I’ll end up locked up too
Gabe: It doesn’t matter, you’ll be so wet I’ll be able to hear it from downstairs, stay where you are
Dolly: Am I loud?
Gabe: The loudest
Dolly: Is that okay?
Gabe: How could I be anything but into you wanting me that much?
Dolly: I don’t know, I don’t want to give you potential reasons why when I’d rather keep being this blatant
Gabe: Be bold with me
Dolly: There’s nothing or no one to stop us being here
Gabe: Or anywhere else
Dolly: No teachers, other jealous girls
Dolly: you can treat me how I need you to
Gabe: No interruptions
Dolly: I don’t know how we ever got away with it
Gabe: We did what we had to
Gabe: & now what we have to do is fuck 24/7
Dolly: I’ll be so sore by the time I come back here
Gabe: Something to remember me by
Dolly: 🥺 Don’t make me think about that yet
Gabe: Stop thinking
Dolly: All I’m allowed to think about is all the ways I can make you cum
Gabe: You can try
Dolly: Keeping count is keeping me from it myself
Gabe: There’s only a short countdown left until nothing will keep you from it
Dolly: I’m so exposed, if anyone else walked in, I’d be dead
Gabe: You’d be caught & called a naughty girl instead
Dolly: Heaven forbid
Gabe: I know, you just want to be good
Dolly: I’m trying so hard
Gabe: My poor baby
Dolly: You’re teasing
Gabe: I’ve kept you waiting for such a long time, haven’t I?
Dolly: What do I need to do to make you want me again?
Gabe: Remind me what’s waiting for me
Dolly: [send him a boomerang-length video so how much more !! you are is obvious]
Gabe: I’m [very nearby] but I can’t hear you
Dolly: [voicenote where you’ve purposefully put the phone just that bit too far away so it’s only catching sounds here and there]
Gabe: [actually do show up because you aren’t slay enough to prolong this any further, just know that for this ensuing hookup I’m fully picturing the vibe of Queenie and Guy’s first one aka thinking he’s so daddy and dom but kinda flopping, including thinking he’s going down on her iconically but it lasts literally for a sec before he stops to initiate said hookup and he’s lowkey in the wrong place haha]
Dolly: [when you try your best but you don’t succeed, lmao, too real, good thing you were close because of the insanity of the situation and you’re too sold on this idea of running away for all the reasons that you can’t back out now lol, gotta do the most you can with this]
Gabe: [soz girl but mediocre sex aside he will actually offer you the escape you need rn however long we let that last, soz again hun because obvs I fully imagine y’all running away and it eventually going tits up like mine and Trace’s euro trip ngl cos y’all are not it for each other and there is only so long you can both pretend and ignore the fact]
Dolly: [it’s clearly not last/barely making the whole hols and then that’s that on that, so I shall post this and we can decide what we wanna do next, go us]
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