#my oc stuff when i talk about it: oh my god this sounds so fucking dumb when i say it out loud

[ichorblossoms]

i should be more deranged on this blog

[cs300]

i will always be so pretentious and annoying about my character playlists/aesthetic boards like sorry i just cant help being better than everyone at making them

[bibiwrld]

Nerdy Loser Anakin Skywalker!—First meet!

Pairing: Nerdy loser Anakin! x Black fem oc!

Content: 18+ (Minors DNI!)

Author’s note: I’m super fixated on Anakin Skywalker/Hayden Christensen right now and @nymphomatique nerdy Miguel O’Hara works inspired this. You can send asks about Anakin in this college au 🫶🏾💋

Anakin Skywalker. That name sorta rang a bell to Sydnee, she wasn’t all that familiar with him. He was in one or two of her classes, but they’ve never interacted. He was a friend of a friend, of a friend, of a friend’s cousin— so he wasn’t exactly her friend, just knew of him. It’s not like he was popular around campus, he was more introverted, kept to himself, extremely intelligent, and he was a well known tutor to many. As introverted as he was, Sydnee would see him at parties, just sitting, whether it was a kitchen counter, couch, even the floor, and sometimes he’d have a book, just reading.

‘Why did he bring a book to a party?’ Sydnee would think to herself. ‘Who brought him to this party?’

Sometimes, that friend of a friend, of a friend, of a friend, who was Anakin’s cousin, would talk about Anakin.

“His mom, my aunt, wants him to make friends and stuff, so she makes me drag him to all the parties I go to.” His cousin, Chloe, said with rolled eyes, her words a bit slurred. “And my mom says she’ll stop sending me money if I don’t bring him along, so I really don’t have a choice.”

He’d rather be home reading his book and it was never the same book she’d see him reading every time she saw him.

‘He must be a fast reader.’ She thought to herself.

“He seems nice.” Sydnee said, downing her 3rd drink.

“Oh yeah, he is, total sweetheart.” Chloe smiled, glancing back at him. “Wouldn’t hurt a fly.”

He sat on an old couch, reading, not paying attention to his surroundings, pushing up his glasses every 10 minutes.

Sydnee leaned off the wall. “He’s pretty cute too.”

“Ew, seriously?” Her other friend of a friend, June, dragged out.

Sydnee screwed up her face at the comment.“What?”

“That nerdy loser? Really?” June laughed.

“Not too much on him.” Sydnee rose a brow and put a hand out in his defense.

“Right, he’s my cousin and he’s not ugly.” Chloe added.

“Dear God.” June mumbled to herself and drank to silence herself.

Sydnee looked to Chloe.“I’m gonna get him a drink, I assume he doesn’t drink alcohol.”

“Hates it.” Chloe nodded.

“Got it.” Sydnee said before walking to the kitchen.

There weren’t much options for sodas, it was between that nasty Ginger Ale bold or Coke, and she went with Coke. She began pouring the drink into a red plastic cup, the sounds of kissing and moaning getting louder behind her.

They were all over each other, messily kissing and licking each other, the guy put the girl on the kitchen counter, spilling the drinks in the red cups that people left there, making a complete mess of the place.

‘God, when was the last time I got laid?’

She sighed. She almost fucked the captain of the rugby team, but he was so insufferable, she couldn’t bare another second of him talking about how he’s never been with a black girl before and that he wasn’t racist because his best friend was black.

She didn’t even make another attempt with any other guy after that.

Sydnee ignored the two behind her and put the cover back on the Coke and picked up the cup, making her way to Anakin.

She sat beside him, leaving a small space between them. “I got you a drink.”

Anakin looked up from his book for the first time that night, pushing his glasses up the bridge of his nose. He bookmarked the page and looked curiously at the drink. “I don’t drink.”

His voice was so gentle, but deep. Smooth like silk.

“It’s Coke, I didn’t slip anything in it.” She told him, hoping he would actually take it.

He gave a small smile, taking the cup from her grasp. “Thank you.”

She smiled back. “You’re welcome, I’m Sy–”

“S-sydnee, I know.” He said, removing the cup from his lips.

“Oh? You know of me?”

“Ye-yes, you’re pretty…..popular!” He caught himself in the last second, he was getting lost in her deep brown orbs. “You’re friends with my cousin and people talk about you.”

She grew curious. “What do they say about me?”

Anakin cleared his throat, holding the cup with both hands. “Uh..well pretty inappropriate thi-things.” He glanced between her and his cup. “I rather not repeat them. I-I didn’t say anything inappropriate about you though!”

He fully turned his body towards her, hoping she would believe him.

She sighed, knowing it was guys talking about how bad they wanted her in their bed. “Yeah, I know you wouldn’t.”

He sighed in relief. “By the way, I’m Anak–”

“Anakin, I know.” She smirked. “Your cousin told me.”

It meant a lot to Anakin that she knew his name. “Oh.” Was all he could muster with a huge smile on his face. He could feel the heat rising in his face, taking a sip of the soda to hide his face from Sydnee.

“So what’re you reading?” She pointed to the book on his lap.

He perked up. He loved books, reading, talking about them, everything about books. “It’s—”

He was rudely interrupted by some guy who came from behind the couch, putting both hands on Sydnee’s shoulders. “Hey sexy, you haven’t answered my snaps, I promise a good time.”

Anakin grew uncomfortable at the sight before him, the way his disgusting hands pressed into her skin, and how close his lips were to her face. Anakin wanted to say something.

“Can you get your fucking hands off me?” She swatted his hands, turning around to face him. “Don’t snap me anymore, I clearly don’t answer. Now leave me alone.”

“Seriously?” The guy had the audacity to say as if he weren’t wrong.

“Sh-she said leave her alone.” Anakin suddenly said, standing up to face the guy, the couch being the only thing separating them. Anakin didn’t even he have the guts to do that, surprising himself with his own actions.

Sydnee look up at Anakin, she’s never seen him angry before, he was always reserved.

The guy scoffed. “You got this loser to protect you?”

“Fuck off, try me again and I’ll fucking cut you.” She stood beside Anakin. “That’s a fucking promise.”

The guy glared at the two before storming off.

“I’m so sorry you had to see that, Anakin.” She sighed, turning to Anakin. She didn’t realize how much taller he was than her, it almost caught her off guard.

Anakin picked up his book and placed his half empty cup on a nearby table. “It’s..uh– okay.”

“Thanks for standing up for me as well, really cool of you.” Her smile was so bright and so cute to Anakin.

How could a guy ever treat her less than what she’s worth?

“It-it was nothing, really.” He smiled shyly, playing with the loose strands of his hair.

She smiled, then frowned seeing that he was probably uncomfortable about the entire situation. “You probably want to go home now, huh?”

He nodded.

“I’ll look for Chloe—”

He grabbed her hand before she could walk away, then quickly let go. “Uh sorry..she usually gets a ride with some guy or a friend, she’ll be okay. Do you want a ride back to your..dorm?”

Sydnee’s eyes brightened up at his kind gesture. “Yes, thank you.”

He smiled at her answer, then walked out of this party with Sydnee by his side. They made small talk walking to his car, he kindly opened the car door for her, made sure she had on her seatbelt before he started driving, he even walked her to the door of her dorm. She thought that was so cute and kind of him.

She dug in her purse in search of her dorm key, while Anakin stood there waiting for her to go in safely.

“Shit.” She put her back against the wall and slowly slid down.

Anakin was now alert. “What’s wrong?” His voice laced with concern, crouching down to her. “Are you okay?”

She was beginning to feel a headache. Slowly rubbing her temples, she answered him. “I lost my damn key, and maintenance is closed for the night.”

“What time is your roommate coming back?” He looked at both sides of the empty hall.

“Monday.” She groaned into her hands. “She’s out of town for the weekend.”

He bit his bottom lip and pushed his glasses up. “W-would you like to stay at..my apartment for the night?”

She silently brought her head up to him.

“It’s..not that far from the campus, I-I promise!” He reassured her quickly.

She flashed a small smile and chuckled lightly. “I would love that, Anakin. You’re so kind.”

He smiled at her compliment. His heart was beating so fast at such simple words, he felt so pathetic.

They were at his apartment in no time, about a 10 minute drive from campus.

He must’ve been loaded, his apartment was huge.

Anakin locked the door behind Sydnee while she took off her shoes and looked around his insanely neat apartment. Then there was his massive bookshelf against the wall of his living room, with awards, pictures and books, lots and lots of books.

“Wow, you bring all the girls here?” She smirked, following behind him.

“N-no, just you…and sometimes Chloe when she’s too drunk to go home on her own or doesn’t have a ride .” He pulled off his hoodie, throwing it over the couch and revealing his muscular arms.

‘He’s fucking built.’ She stared at his biceps from behind.

That hoodie was hiding everything.

“Th-this is my room.” He opened the door to reveal his room. It was neat, just like every other part of his apartment, but there were books scattered across his bed.

He rushed to his bed, picking up all the books, clearly embarrassed. “I-I’m sorry!” He stacked them neatly on the floor, looking back at Sydnee with shame. “I wasn’t expecting guests.”

She stepped in and looked around. “It’s okay.”

“You can sit on the bed, do you still have a headache?”

She sat softly on his bed. “I do.”

“I’ll make you some tea.” He scratched his head, before walking out quickly.

Sydnee smiled to herself and pulled her phone to watch TikToks to pass the time.

In no time, Anakin came back with a cup of tea and aspirin.

After drinking some, Sydnee put the cup on his side table, not without a coaster of course. “You didn’t get to tell me about the book you were reading.”

He sat beside her on the edge of the bed. “Oh..you remembered.” He fixed his glasses and looked at her. “It’s called The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka. Do you want to hear about it?” His captivating blue orbs searched her face. “I don’t want to bore you.”

She got closer to him, making him stiffen and his heart pang against his chest. “You’re not gonna bore me, Anakin.” She blinked slowly, her eyes scanning him. “I like hearing you talk, you have a nice voice.”

His lips parted, but no words left it. His dick began stiffening, he couldn’t control his body.

“Are you okay?” Her head tilted.

That head tilt, that fucking head tilt. Anakin’s brain was scrambling before this girl. She could probably see the gears in his head stop moving as he froze up. His dick strained against the fabric of his underwear and jeans.

“Uh..” He finally let out, pressing his thighs together. “You’re so pretty, I’m sorry.”

She blinked, then smiled at his innocent compliment. “Don’t be sorry, Anakin. I think you’re cute.”

He gulped, staring into her alluring eyes. “Th-thank you.”

“I should really repay you for tonight.” Her eyes glanced down at his erection that he so desperately tried to hide.

“Y-you don’t have to..honest.” His chest rose and fell dramatically. He knew where she was going with this and what a lie he was telling her.

“You sure?” She pouted and went on her knees in front of him.

Anakin blushed furiously, biting his pink and plump bottom lip and stared down at Sydnee. “N-no.”

“You’re so honest.” She put her hands on his thighs, slowly rubbing them.

“Ye-yeah.” He hummed.

“You ever got head before?” She pulled her braids into a ponytail.

“N-no.”

“Cute.” She murmured, unbuckling his pants. “Tell me about the book, Ani.”

He got dizzy at the sudden nickname, his face a new shade of red. “I– He..uh..”

“Breathe.” She commanded, as she started to pull his boxers and jeans down.

He tried regulating his breathing and raised his hips to help her with taking off his pants. They were now dangling at his ankles, his dick standing at attention, veiny, pre cum oozing out and running down his shaft.

Sydnee eyed his lower half. His balls were so big and full, then his pubic hairs were neatly trimmed, and his dick, oh how big it was, twitching under her seductive stare.

“The book, Ani.” She gave his balls a squeeze.

A pathetic moan ripped from his throat.

“Oh wow.” She cooed, rubbing his sticky tip with her finger. “Ani?”

His body twitched, answering with a moan.

“I wanna hear about the book.” She began stroking him slowly.

His hands gripped his sheets, head hanging low as he tried to gather words. “It’s…ah— it’s about a man.”

Her wet mouth made contact with his tip, gradually taking in more of him until she met with the base.

“Oh fuck—ngh!” He couldn’t believe how loud he was.

Her cheeks hollowed to make her mouth feel tighter, bobbing at slow pace for him. She hummed at the taste of his pre cum. One hand on his thigh, squeezing it—her nails sinking into his skin and her other hands massaged his balls.

“W-wait!” He pat the bed with both hands.

She pulled off his dick, wiping her mouth and wondered what she did wrong.

He turned around and grabbed a pillow, resting it on the floor. “H-here, for..your knees.”

In Sydnee’s eyes, that made him 10x more attractive. She put her knees on the soft surface and immediately got back to work. She got sloppy and fast, squeezing her thighs together– she was getting off on getting him off.

“Sydnee!” He cried out. His head was thrown back, a babbling mess before her. “Oh fuck, b-baby!”

That made me her go even faster. Gagging and throating him messily, tears formed at the corner of her eyes. She could feel her ponytail coming undone, but Anakin’s strong hands held it in one for her, as he began thrusting his hips upwards.

“S-Sydnee.” He moaned out, putting both hands on the side of her face and pulling her off to look her in the eyes.

She looked up at him in a daze, saliva running down her chin.

‘Fuck.’ Was all that ran through his hazy mind.

Anakin craned his neck down to her, his lips capturing hers desperately. He’s never kissed anyone in his life, he didn’t even know if he was doing this right, but he just wanted to taste her.

She moaned into his mouth, her hand slowly stroking him.

He pulled away, gritting his teeth and looking into her pretty doe eyes. “I– I think— I’m gonna cum!”

Her eyes brightened up at his words, her brows creasing with his as if she could feel everything he was feeling. “Yes Ani, you’re right there. Let it out for me!”

His legs began shaking, his voice went up and octave, releasing thick spurts of cum all over Sydnee’s clothes, but she kept stroking, using his cum as lube.

“Syd, please!” His hips thrusted into her fist, fucking himself so desperately. “F-fuck— ah!”

She praised him, wiping the sweat from his forehead. “You did so well.”

He breathed heavily, looking down at the mess he made on her. He stood to his feet immediately and pulled his pants up, almost tripping himself.

“Y-your clothes!”

Sydnee could only laugh.

“I-I’m so sorry.” He took his glasses off and wiped his face.

In that split second he took his glasses off, Sydnee’s flood gates broke loose.

“You should..uh.” His breathing was so shallow as he tried collecting himself. “You should take the first shower, I’ll wash your clothes, I’ll give you one of my shirts to wear for the night.” He helped her up.

She kissed his cheek. “Thanks Ani.”

Anakin swore fireworks went off in his head.

💋

[mopopshop]

Shattered Promises

part: 3

pairing: paige bueckers x oc

a/n: how are we feeling abt it so far?? tell me in my asks (i promise it gets more interesting than this 🙏🏾🙏🏾)

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The days since your last coffee date with Paige have flown by, filled with more study sessions and lighthearted conversations. Paige’s charm and humor have made each meeting more enjoyable than the last and you’ve found yourself looking forward to each one.

After one particular study session, Paige seems a bit more fidgety than usual. You’ve been working on the project in the cozy corner of the campus library, surrounded by textbooks and notebooks. Paige keeps bouncing her leg under the table and you can’t help but notice her nervous energy.

As you finish up the last few notes for the day, Paige clears her throat, trying to mask her anxiety. “So, uh, I was thinking...”

You look up from your notes, noticing her unusual hesitance. “Yeah? What’s up?”

Paige fiddles with her pen, her eyes darting around the room. “Well, we’ve been hanging out a lot, and it’s been really great. I was wondering if, maybe, you’d want to go out with me? Like, on a real date”

Your heart skips a beat at her words, a mixture of excitement and nerves bubbling up inside you and you can’t help but blush. In your moment of admiration you don’t realize you haven’t answered Paige’s question, just sitting there and staring.

Paige quickly tries to backpedal “But you really don’t have to, like I get you’re busy and shit so… you know what? Just- just forget about it- it’s fine don-“

You finally register her words, snapping out of your trance. “No, no, no! Paige, no, oh my god i’m sorry. Wait— I mean yes! Like no I’m not saying no, i’m saying yes! …My answers yes” your rush out your answer awkwardly. 

Paige finally meets your gaze, her cheeks flushed. “ Oh— cool, cool, I was thinking maybe a diner? There’s this really fuckin good place I know. We could just have dinner and talk. I’m not rushing you or anything, just thought it’d be nice.”

You feel a smile spread across your face. “No seriously, Paige. That sounds really nice. I’d love to.”

Paige’s face lights up with relief. “Great. Can I pick you up at seven?”

“Oh, um, sevens good!” you say, feeling a bit anxious, realizing that Paige picking you up means she’ll be at your apartment. Apartment = Rya and you can’t have Paige finding out about that yet. “But if you don’t mind, I’ll just meet you there? I have some— stuff to take care of before.”

Paige raises an eyebrow, a hint of disappointment crossing her face. “Are you sure? I can pick you up if you want.”

You give her a reassuring smile, trying to mask your worry. “No, it’s really okay. I’ll see you there.”

Paige nods, though she looks slightly puzzled. “Alright, see you at seven.”

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That evening, you arrive at the diner Paige mentioned. The place is charming, with its retro decor and cozy booths. As you walk in, you spot Paige already seated at a booth near the window, her face brightening when she sees you.

“Hey, Lara” Paige greets with a wide smile. “You- you look gorgeous, seriously.”

“Hi,” you reply, sliding into the booth across from her. “Thanks, you don’t look to bad yourself”

Paige smiles at the compliment and hands you a menu. “So, what do you feel like?”

You glance at the menu, taking in the array of options. “I’m thinking about the classic hamburger. What about you?”

Paige grins. “They have fire nacho’s, gonna grab those. You should try the bacon cheeseburger, shits better than sex”

You flush at the comment but continue to speak. “I’m.. not really a cheese fan”

“You don’t fuck with cheese?”

“No, never really resonated with it” you laugh.

Paige takes in a sharp breath. “Might be a deal breaker for me” she states sarcastically.

You feign disappointment. “Really? And we were just starting to get along”

You both laugh and proceed to place your orders, and as you wait for your food, the conversation flows easily. You talk about everything from your favorite movies to your funniest college experiences. The food arrives and Paige’s nervousness seems to melt away as she becomes more animated and playful.

As you both dive into your meals, the conversation continues to flow naturally. Paige’s humor and charm make the time fly by, and you find yourself feeling more and more comfortable around her.

“You been asking me hella questions about myself so,” you say between bites of your hamburger. “What about you? Talk about yourself a little bit”

Paige takes a sip of her drink, considering your question. “Well, I grew up in Minnesota. Moved here for basketball, obviously. Um.. I game and I like a mean shirly temple”

You smile, rollin your eyes. “That’s all you gonna tell me? Nothing else? Any siblings?”

Paige laughs, nodding. “Damn girl, I didn’t know what you wanted me to say but yeah, I have a younger brother. He’s in middle school, so I try to be a good role model for him. We’re pretty close.”

“That’s sweet,” you reply. “It must be nice to have a sibling you’re close to.”

Paige’s eyes light up as she talks about her family. “Yeah, it is. What about you? Any siblings?”

You hesitate, knowing the consequences of your actions the more you hold off telling her about Rya. “Um.. no, no siblings. It’s.. it’s just me and my mom. We’re really close, though.”

Paige’s expression softens. “That’s nice. Family’s important.”

You both continue to chat, the conversation shifting effortlessly from one topic to another. Before you know it, the dinner is winding down, and you feel a small sense of nerves.

Paige glances at her phone. “It’s getting late. Ready to head out?”

You nod, feeling a flutter of anticipation. “Yeah, let’s go.”

Paige stands up and, to your surprise, walks over to your side of the booth and offers her hand to help you up. “Shall we?”

You smile and take her hand, appreciating her chivalrous gesture. “Thank you.”

As you walk out of the diner, Paige opens the door for you, earning another grateful smile from you. She leads you to her car, and you both get in, the comfortable silence filling the space as she drives you home.

When you arrive at your apartment complex, Paige parks the car and turns to you with a gentle smile. “I had a really great time tonight.”

“Me too,” you say softly, feeling your heart race.

Paige gets out of the car and rushes to open your door for you. You step out, giggling lightly at her actions.

“Thanks for walking me up,” you say, fiddling with your keys.

“Of course,” Paige replies, her voice a bit hushed. “So, um, can I see you again?”

You look up at her, meeting her eyes. “I’d like that.”

There’s a moment of silence, and then Paige steps a bit closer. “Alara, I… I really like you.”

Your breath catches, and you find yourself leaning in slightly. “I like you too, Paige.”

Before you can second-guess yourself, Paige gently cups your cheek and leans in, her lips brushing yours in a soft, tentative kiss. The world seems to fade away as you melt into the kiss, your heart pounding in your chest.

When you finally pull back, you’re both breathless, and Paige’s eyes are filled with warmth and affection. “Goodnight, Alara,” she whispers.

“Goodnight, Paige,” you reply, feeling a surge of happiness as you watch her walk away. You enter your apartment, a tentative smile playing on your lips

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[halevren]

FHJY Spoilers || my live thoughts as I watch episode 3

Had a rough week so far, I am looking forward to this episode ♡

HIIIIII INTREPID HEROES

NAT 20

please bring ayda back this episode (begging) (I know it won't happen. but I'm desperate)

ZELDA AND GORGUG BREAK UP CONFIRMED.....

I am experiencing so much gender envy from literally everyone at the table.

The art team really pulled out all the stops for this season. The dome backdrop is so good

THIRTY INVESTIGATION?!!!??!

"Of course you and Adaine, of course, are... Nerds."

"Not ideal for the bad kids" oh no.

Lone Wolf Bloodrush player. That's oc material fr

"I like getting friends cast on me so I willingly fail" fig becomes more and more relatable every episode

"IT'S 10 AND I GIVE YOU THE HELP ACTION"

LYDIA!!!!!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥

LYDIA MADE THEM LUNCH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

THE EMO SONG 😭😭😭

It just says "Hey Adaine" on the inside 😭😭

Cloaca.....

how many binders do the Thistlesprings have

"Can I Run From You?"

Just Breathe

CHLOE SHORT FOR CLOACA

I love the casual conversation they have

TWO GLASSES OF MILK

"I'll walk you to Bard class" fig probably won't be staying 😭

NEW LUNCH LAD!!!!!

I hope Fig's luck issue gets resolved soon 😭

MAZEY IS SO PRETTY

Grix...??

THE PARROTS.....

omg mazey x fabian?!!?!?!????!?!?!!?!

A SECRET CLOACA WITH A GUN??

Jawbone is so filled with dad lore

Kristen class president is something I need

21 passive investigation is insane

"What are you, like 4 different dogs?"

Passive Aggressive Kristen is so good.

Ghost steaks 🔥

FABIAN FLIRTING

"You're looking at a party boy" oh fabian....

I think Kristen working to be class president will convince her to. Go to school and work on getting better at it

Gilear 😢 I miss my pathetic wet cat of a man

fig writer's block so relatable

Stressed Riz

WANDA CHILDA

HEYYYYYY GIRLIE

I miss Ayda

Porter is kinda.... ♡

Why is everyone so attractive why must I be attracted to all the adults. im supposed to have a type

"I'm going into a worry, yeah"

Fig taking Fabian to the wizard class instead of bard class is so real

TERPSICHORE SKULLCLEAVER!!!!!! she looks like she bakes incredible cookies. I can't dance but I want to be in her class

THIRTY-ONE????????? PERFORMANCE

Dance bard class is so cool

From Jock to Arsty kid, I love Fabian's character development so much

"I'm going to do a lot less partying" a full lie from Fabian

I need more Riz and Jawbone one on ones

KRISTEN CHILLIS APPLEBEES 😭😭😭😭

oh no the Applebees fam are here oh no...

Ripped Kristen approaching her parents.....

oh no. oh no. oh no.

Not good what is going on with Cassandra

MAKE HER OWN PEOPLE TO TALK TO?!!!??!???!??!?? WHAT???????? WHAT WHAT WHAT????

ALLY IS SO CASUAL WITH NAT 20S 😭

HE'S A LITTLE PALADIN....

BYE GIRLIE

RIZ HAS A BACKUP TIE

why is sorcery so expensive

SHE'S NOT GOING TO TELL JAWBONE 😭

oh god Wanda Childa....

"what smell would be enticing to emo kids" 😭😭😭

"Did you just come from a room full of cigarettes and peach schnapps" "you mean breakfast?"

I wanda'd in

NOT ALL WHO WANDA ARE LOST

SITTING OUTSIDE AND LISTENING TO BARD CLASS

watching Kristen deal with school and stuff and deal with Cassandra makes me slightly uncomfortable. not in a bad way but in a way that I relate to it a bit too much and it's a bit too real. i too had extreme trouble with school and I also have issues with pushing important people away when trying to focus on myself and it ruins a lot of my relations. I relate to Kristen too much in the worst ways and that hits closer to home than I like. I love Kristen but man. Too close

"Things can be bad, and things can be good, but they all can be true."

I worry about Kristen going to Cassandra's realm. I am going into a worry. I have bad feeling.

the sound design is so good

GENTLE SOBBING.... OH NO. OH NO.

"I can't rely on you." OUCH.

she already found somebody????

KALINA!?!?!?! !!??!?!?!!!???!??!!??!!???!!???!?? HUHHHHH?!!??!!

IT'S LEAVING IT OFF WITH THAT?????? WHAT THE FUCK???????? WHAT THE FUCK???????????????????????? WHAT?????

[rovimrtheduck]

Stuff I've heard at school: Part 15

He didn't lose a braincell he lost the entire brain

So throughout the game he kept going 'you don't want my chunky dick?'

I do not care about your bowl movements

No one cares about your asshole

Strawberry twink

He would taste like strawberry mochi

It would look like someone exploded

P1: Those tasted like my gandmas house

P2: why are you eating your grandmas house

P1: "My grandpas not dead. The other one is, but this one isn't"

P2: "Give him time"

Teacher: yeah that's right! lower your head in shame! lower! lower!

Student, doing a walk of shame for overdue work: any lower than this and I'll be crawling!

Quebec French just, SOUNDS like they're cursing you out

This guy's hiding the fact that he, like, ties a kite to his phone

I was just going to say he has really child bearing hips

P1: "Debrah (a rifle gun) would be happy"

P2: "What's debrahs beef with me"

P1: "She doesn't like you because you've used her one too many times lol"

P2: "…is that a terrorist joke?"

P1: "yeah"

P2: "haha okay cool just checking hahaha"

Please lets refrain from calling teachers twinks

P1: "Guatamala"

P2: "That says Gujrat"

P1: "Guatamalaaa"

P2: "I guess I'm guatamalan now? lol"

P1: "Yeah you're guava"

P1, to P3: Yeah, well, I'm not Indian P2, distracted by his phone: You mean Indigenous P1, gesturing to P3, who is Indian: No I mean Indian P2, not looking up: Yeah, the proper term is Indigenous P1, aggressively gesturing to P3, who is waving awkwardly: No, I mean INDIAN P2, finally looking up: OHH! I thought you were talking about Indigenous 'Indian'! My bad, my bad.

what the hap just fuckened

P1: "Drank perfumes?"

P2: "What?"

P1: "All I heard was you went to bath and body works to drink perfume"

Do you know how balls deep I need to be in a story to be effectively begging my screen to kill off a character?

That is the sauciest look I've ever seen someone give me

Because when they're going out to no-mans land that what they're thinking, 'I want a really nice tank, very visually pleasing tank, I don't want that Mark One'

"Yo, FUCK him I'd smash his mom"

+ "Yeah and after we're done I'm going to look him dead in the eye and say 'I fucked your mom'"

P1: "Thank you for violating my (oc) characters"

P2, in an uncomfortably eager voice: "I can violate them even more if you want"

"It's the cummie water from school" sips "oh yeah, that is cum"

"Where did you get these genes from"

*looks down at his jeans* "Old Navy?"

"and he goes 'My body is my resume!' and takes his shirt off, and I showed it to my manager because I had no idea what to say"

They literally pickled a baby! (in reference to Ares mythology)

You can either be gay or funny, choose one

I identify as out of this-world

The G in LGBT stands for God

OoOoh, I don't know what I did, but I am learning SO MUCH.

Dionysus is his tumor then!

This is my tumor, he's a drunken little shit who we decided to banish to earth for a while

Blowjobs, for anyone who isn't a sex worker, should be called blowhobbies

What do you call two Jewish stoner in a car? A gas chamber

It's not because you're a rabbit, it's bc you're black!

I inhaled a piece of cheese and it won't get UNINHAILED *coughing*

Who needs their liver anyway

We're the testicles

Why did you give me that look? You look like a child seeing their father for the first time after getting the milk

UM NO. I think that's YOU little miss toe-socks

Even your writing looks dyslexic

Lycan we're both failing math, I don't need this right now.

Reverse racism, but not like, in a racist way

Wow, you even SOUND dyslexic

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pre relationship: 3, general: 3, 6, love: 10, 13, domestic life: 7 !!

hihihihihihi !!!! i cant wait to start s2 tonight i need to see my kittycat i need to see him !!!!! thank u for always sending asks my aaroman warrior o7 u should rb this ask game 2 so i can pelt u w waystarshipping and jermstone questions

Did any of their friends or family want them to get together?

absolutely fucking not!!!!!!

by the time any of the roys find out its too late, theyre already very much together. i think the fam knows abt aaron before 04x03 and like, willingly keeps him a secret (have 2 believe none of them would out a family member for personal gain. if not just to avoid the shitstorm for logan). some of them wuld obviously would prefer for roman to a) not be gay or b) at least not be dating a Fucking Weirdo. oh well!

aarons friends are also not. thrilled. for obvious reasons. reactions range from 'ok...u r gold digging, right? does this mean we can afford a hot tub :D' to 'morally/ethically what the Actual fuck is wrong with you bro???'

What was their first kiss like?

hmm the first time they kiss probably an impulsive. half-drunken thing. prolly after their first '''date''' (which roman insists is not a date despite calling him up and inviting him for dinner and drinks). it's rlly messy, roman is kind of an awful kisser at first (out of practice #nobitches) so aaron is kinda like...ok....but it's very endearing somehow.

What’s their relationship with each other’s families?

i could write a dissertation on. aaron and the roys. i think he's...polite? i mean, he knows roman is super close to them despite how fockin shitty they are to him all the time, so he's willing to grin and bear it. he doesnt like ken for Reasons (annoying on twitter, involvement in 'dog pound', annoying in real life)*, he's rightfully intimidated by shiv, he thinks connor is rlly fuckin funny, he has a weird psychosexual obsession w tom (as stated, would put tom in a saw trap), he thinks greg is cool and would like to talk about his record collection w him.

*authors footnote: i personally like kendall a lot i do love the fucked up brother dynamic between ken and rome BUT aaron is protective and an asshole and doesnt care abt nuance if youre mean to his boyfriend you go to the gulag for 1000 years ! aarons friends are hsi family! he lives w his childhood + college besties! they are all spectacular assholes as well so roman weirdly fits in! roman likes aarons bff because he is also a snarky asshole. one of aaron's college friends actually is from LA, so that's another person he can relate to somewhat. ovi he's a rich asshole tho and like, has to adapt to how normal people live and socialize (aaron and his friends arent even normal theyre like a weirdly codependent found family) but. they all kind come around to him! (will post extended oc universe lore someday on god)

Do they prefer verbal or physical affection?

i think they both are kinda stupid abt feelings and prefer physical affection, as sometimes its easier to manage than like, pouring your heart out. aaron is big on words of affirmation tho, once they r more comfy in their relationship/roman is more comfortable w receiving stuff like that.

Who remembers the little things?

aaron is def a romantic, he's big on anniversaries, quick to pick up little things like roman's coffee order, his favorite snacks, etc. roman is a little rusty but is surprisingly sensitive when he cares about someone. he's super in to aaron, so he makes sure to note all of aarons favorite movies and albums (so he can bring them up later and Totally sound like he knows what he's talking about).

[also they r a beautiful ocd (aaron) x adhd (roman) couple so in general aaron is Incredibly on top of things (or else he might die, who knows!) while roman is a fockin mess with remembering shit.]

Who kills the bugs in the house?

the real answer is gustav. he eats them. aaron will hold the cat up and he will take care of business.

[taegularities]

Oh I was entertained to the fullest and till the very last devoured the whole thing in one sitting like 🍗💋

Firstly I love it more than before everytime I read your recent works it's just gets better your writing is just getting better with every fic and the whole description just crunchiest shit 🫦🫦 which is so rare to get such quality in this fanfiction community and very few who just do it WE LOVE IT BABE the growth and hard work you put in these ffs so much love and appreciation for you and lots of respect

Personally love this inner monologue of jk's you did in this just OH MY FUCKIN GOD like for a good minute even after knowing he gonna be assy musty bitch I was rooting and feeling for this guy so much.

My thoughts were like okay it's just little insecure narcissistic eittiy bittiy baby boy we are dealing with who is about to get his shit wrecked up and down but DASH 💨 we got some other route I knew it exact the moment Chaos coming when oc mentioned the college and her friend like yes bitch ✨✨✨✨ you are fucked 🤭🤭 we are getting a HIT 🔥🥵 SHOW

And is it bad to say I feel little bad for the unreleased song unfortunate how poor song isn't getting released anytime soon #justicefortheunreleasedsong

WOW LIKE WOW scrumbley delicious smut gosh RID you really outdid yourself with this one just 👩🏻‍🍳🍳 I wanna know how you writing this good smuts lately so much better than some actual publishing authors 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

Now coming to the oc's friend I understand her and sympathize her and nor I wanna sound like some completely unsympathetic person BUT !!!! like C'MON GURL HE WAS A CLEAR CUT VISIBLE RED FLAG he put on display of himself and still you went in like your friend is able to see more into your whatever relationship than you at all we clearly DELUSIONALLY BLIND 🦯 too our own goodness but that was very dumb 😭😭 of her I'm sorry like we can't even blame her people even IRL be doing shit like that. I'm not victim Shaming at all like yes what the fucker character of jk did was absolutely disgusting and deserved Karma he got at the end

But how come she never thought of her friend who was constantly there for her like if you would have asked oc to commit murder I'm sure she would have gone all 🤺🤺 not that we support such stuffs 🙅🏻‍♀️ but some 🦨 nasty deserve

Being for real if not legal action she and oc could have pull some smart move revenge prank back on him if only she genuinely listened to oc I don't know I feel bad how she just didn't give much thought and went away so fast after that fuckers bullshit talk

Btw I Love that playlist thingyy you did cherry on top loved how similar taste we share (⁠´⁠ ⁠❥⁠ ⁠`)

And about jk's character dynamic I feel like he always prefer himself in way he chased himself in people from very childhood getting full on best treatment and praise from all side clearly made him little narcissistic and self obsessed with zero expectations of returning back anything to the point he thought of anyone but him and his Chase for more appreciation and undivided love in different people all the time till he get's bored from them when they start asking back for the some love YK which is what we get to see with jangmi like all he wanted was typical love me all you can without wanting back in return till I get board and toss you I'm sure even after all that he keep on doing same shit with others assholes like him never stop any lower

Untill he got faced with something to Chase more just like parallel to his career we can see it's like he wants to something to engage with on constant like a spoiled brat child who is more so anticipated of opening the gift rather than receiving or appreciation of others hope it's all making some sense ⊂⁠(⁠◉⁠‿⁠◉⁠)⁠つ

And I kinda I wish there was more of uglyness from oc's side yes I'm through and through satisfied but still I was wishing more of a femme fatale crazy havco taking place her making him all tangled up in love  and obsession full-on blinded by her to the point he can't still imagine her do something like this just swapping off floor from his feets like ⛽🔥📛👩🏻‍🚒🚒

Really love you appreciate you for putting this out here for us 💖🙏🏻

~🦴🔫 anon

32k in one sitting is insaneeee 😭 omg did i get better? thank you.. as someone with a creative hobby, this is all i could hope for :') gosh, i bet there are so many people out there who are amazing and do even better stuff than i do, but you're so sweet and i'll take the compliment 🥺

glad you liked the jk pov :P he's super secure and insecure about himself at once!! definitely is a narcissistic, whiny baby either way :') yes!! the world missed out on the song bc it was my time, one of the greatest tracks ever made, but what can we do 🤣 THANK YOU FOR LIKING THE SMUT. i am quite proud of it, if i say so myself, like i do think it was one of the better ones i've written so far :D how i'm writing such good smut lately? who'd know 👁 LOL

you right you right, the friend was certainly naive, but i guess that was just part of her personality, you know? like, jangmi was an extremely kind, extremely giving person. she trusted others and she believed in love, she just gave that trust to the wrong person. she hoped she could change him, or make him love her; just a very "oh a bad boy, i can fix him" kinda mistake. oc isn't like that – she sees through people fast.. and she tried to convince jangmi, but love is love and it does make you blind and you only really see the issues once the loved one is gone in one way or another. things would've turned out so differently if she'd listened to her best friend though sigh :') and oh, oc definitely wanted to take legal action! or hurt jk in some way, but jangmi, as someone who really really liked kook, did not want to go that far.. she was not the type of person to take revenge or pull a prank.

hehe okayyy, i put a lot of thought into the playlist!!!! so happy you enjoyed it!! any fav song on it?

yup yup, the top notch treatment he got from his family, and as the younger sibling too, certainly shaped him. made him selfish for sure; for him, nobody is good enough, and he def deffff doesn't expect anything from anyone!! except maybe attention and love, but he won't settle for long enough to actually give anything back. proceeds until he gets bored and then moves to someone else. chasing someone else was new for him, which is why oc intrigued him so much haha she didn't give a shit about his advances :P

yeahhhh, i think oc has a lot more in her than we know, but since the fic was already too long and we didn't see much of her thoughts or anything from her pov, it was a bit hard to go the full femme fatale route 🤣 not sure if he would've ever fallen in love with her, tbh.

i appreciate you so so much, babe!!!! thank you for dropping such a long fkn review??? i'm sorry i got to it so late, but i wanted to give a thought out response. literally, never stop and ily <33333

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Haiii this is my oc (Rene Petit / Daughter of God) origin storyyyy :)

All events, characters, and places are made the fuck up <3

CWS: weapons, physical abuse, torture, blood/gore (?), tragedy, the occult, christian extremism (basically not christian at all, just christian themes), death, suicide, all around very un-fun topics

please let me know if i left any out !!

As a secondary disclaimer, this may be a not very fun read!!

oki enjoy!!

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Daughter of God

The meeting hall is an imposing building, too such a degree that I feel it necessary to check the signage in the tinted window. Sure enough, it reads simply “Life After Occultism”. I found the advertisement on a local page. A whole group about cult trauma? Sign me the fuck up.

I open the door, which obviously would have preferred I didn’t, given the grinding shriek its hinges released. It closes just as loudly, and the pristine white tile carries the sound down the hallway and back in what has to be my least favorite echo I’ve ever encountered. Unsurprisingly, the building is almost sterile. It did used to be a psychiatric institution, so I would expect no less in its glory days; but having been rented out sparingly for the last 30 or so years, I’d expected some level of dilapidation.

More laminated paper signs point arrows down the hallway, to an open set of double doors, not dissimilar to a high school gymnasium’s. As I approach, it’s already clear that the meeting started somewhat early. Several people are sat in chairs around the room, but most of the chairs are empty. Tables line the far back wall, dressed up in what appears to be birthday table cloths, held down by bins full of snacks and coolers of drinks.

“Hello,” I speak anxiously, finally catching the attention of the people in the chairs. “This, this is the… ex-cult thing?” I struggle to find the words among unfamiliar faces. A man in a brown suit nods affirmatively, a kind smile putting my nerves at rest, if only a little.

“Yes, it is. We start in,” He looks at his watch. “Oh!” He chirps. “Right now! If you’d like to take a seat…” He gestures widely, but gently, to the array of chairs. I thank him, and sit in a chair none too close to anyone else. A brief, awkward quiet falls over the group of what I have only just counted to be 8 people. 9 maybe, I’m not very reliable in terms of counting people. “Well, I, I suppose we start with you, miss.” He smiles warmly. “If that’s alright.” I nod nervously, and carefully and slowly remove an aged notebook from my bag.

“I have notes,” I chuckle nervously, and several others in the session return it with a sympathetic laugh. “Um, when I was growing up, my mom was in a cult, until I was 11, and she committed suicide. My dad was already dead by then, and my grandparents disowned her, so I basically got all of her stuff. Among that stuff was this notebook,” I drummed my fingers on it lightly, drawing the attention to the printed cover. “She liked faeries I guess. Before everything. Kind of hurts to look at.”

I hesitate a little here. I don’t talk about her often, and when I do, she’s a concept. Not a person. It feels strange to address her that way. I look up nervously, and make eye contact with the man in the brown suit again, then the blonde woman beside him. They share a similar complexion, and I wonder briefly if they’re related. She nods gently to me, affectionately.

“Um. The, the journal, has, a lot of weird stuff in it. It kind of goes off the deep end as soon as I’m born. Before that, it’s mostly just, teenager stuff I guess? Where teens will kinda revisit old journals every couple years.” I open it cautiously, and my stomach turns. Seeing her handwriting is almost sickening. A person, my mother, wrote these words with her hands. I get lost for a moment in the idea. I wonder if it was that dumb Dolphin pen that she was obsessed with, that never really worked, even when she replaced the ink cartridge.

“I could read it, if you like..?” The blonde woman offers gently, sympathy in her big brown eyes. “Only if you’re comfortable, I mean…” She trails off, looking away, then back to me. I grapple with the idea for a second, but give it to her, albeit holding on maybe a moment too long. She takes it gently, and doesn’t try to pull it away when I pause. She smiles at me again, and sits back slightly, holding the book up to read it.

“May 29th, 2003. It feels weird to hold this book now. My mom bought this when I was only 5, and now I’m writing in it on a desk attached to a hospital bed while my daughter sleeps just beside me! Rene Louise Holden, born May 28th, 2003 at 9:28PM, 8 pounds and 2 ounces. She’s the littlest thing I think I’ve ever seen! Her little feet are only as big as my pinkie! I was in labor for what had to be ages, I haven’t actually asked yet. For now, I think I’ll go back to sleep. It’s only 9am, and everyone’s saying to sleep when Rene does. So goodnight, Journal! I will see you soon!!”

The session livens up a little, with smiles and coos; none more genuine than the woman holding my mother’s journal in her aged, tan hands. This changes quickly.

“November 30th, 2003. I… I killed my baby today. I dropped her on the tile stairs. Her head hit right on the corner of one, and it collapsed in. I didn’t think that much blood could fit in a thing so little. It was everywhere. I could have identified her brain.” The woman paused a moment. “..I, I called an ambulance, and I opened the door for them. I knew she was dead, there was no use in trying to save her. But when we approached the stairs, there she sat at the bottom. She wasn’t happy about the strangers, but she looked just fine. The strangers weren’t happy about me. I’ll remember the judgement in their eyes as much as I’ll remember the blood in hers. It will kill me. They told me she’s fine, and checked her vital signs, but advised I take her to an urgent care soon. Soon. They said soon. I dropped my baby head first onto tile stairs, I slipped in her blood trying to reach my phone, and they said ‘Soon’. Like she scraped her knee. Journal, I worry about my mind. I don’t know if I’m cut out for motherhood. I feel like I haven’t been sleeping very well.” She turns the page with more urgency this time.

“February 3, 2005. It happened again. I was drinking, I know I shouldn’t. Rene was in the pool with us, in a pink flamingo pool float. We ran inside for only a minute, just to grab another drink. I thought someone stayed with her. It should have been me. She was upside-down when we came back out. And she was blue when we put her on the pavement.

“A miracle. That’s what they called it. They hardly touched her. They moved as though they would do CPR, but they never did. She just became pink again, and took a big breath. This time, they did take her to the hospital. No water in her lungs. No signs of hypoxia. Nothing. A miracle.”

She turns the page, and gently slides a news clipping from the paperclip.

“Uh… Oh.” She nods slightly, finding the relevance of the clipping, I guess. “Tragedy Strikes in Dosangels, Florida.

“This Monday, December 5th, local handyman David Holden fell from the roof of his home while putting up Christmas lights with his two year old daughter. His daughter had been strapped to his back, when he fell 26 feet on top of her, into their unused concrete swimming pool, which contained only 7 inches of water at its deepest. Miraculously, the infant survived the fall, but is in critical condition.”

She slips the paper back into its place under the paper clip.

“December 17th, 2005. The mortician says Dave was using again when he got on the roof. While Rene was in the hospital, Father Jaimes from the chapel visited us. I told him everything. He says Rene must be made for something great, and God will protect her. I told him I think Rene is cursed, and he didn’t make me feel evil for it in the slightest. He told me about Job, and how he was tormented by God to prove his devotion. He says I’m like Job, and must persevere. I feel like all I do anymore is persevere. I don’t know how to keep going. Dave is gone, and I won’t even be able to make rent. This was his house. His parents house. I cant afford it. I hope God does have a plan for us. Because I am lost.”

“November 7th, 2007. Jeremiah is moving in with us. His parents cut him off, and this is the first year he won’t even have Dave to help him. He and Dave were always close. He’s back on meth again, but he’s trying to get clean. He promised to get clean, and he goes to the detox place tomorrow. I could use the company.”

She turns the page, and is visibly disheartened as she pulls the news snippet from the paper clip.

“Miracle Baby Critically Wounded For A Second Time

“In 2005, she was crushed by her addict father when he fell off of the roof. This year, 4 year old Rene was shot by her uncle, Jeremiah Holden, who then shot himself. The murder suicide is…”

She turns the paper over, then turns it back over, and places it back under the paper clip. The mood in the room has soured considerably by now, but that’s what I’m here for, I guess.

“January 29th, 2008. Sepsis. Hospitalized.”

“January 14th, 2009. Father Jaimes has baptized Rene, after so many turns of her nearly going to Hell. My poor daughter, and her horrible mother. I will be baptized tomorrow, and God will save me too. I hope he can forgive me for my years of hubris and sacrilege, and my years of neglect to my daughter, my Rene. He let the holy water fill her lungs, and she breathed her first godly breath soon after. She looks to be glowing, she is a visage, the mother Mary surely felt as I do. Her eyes are blue, and reflect heaven unto us. May peace be with me, may she giveth as she taketh away, my Rene.”

“January 10th, 2010. Today was a day of great sacrifice and glory. God truly was with us, and with Rene. Lambs blood cleansed her holy skin, white as wool, and she breathed God’s child as He breathed Her. She first refused, and Satan had us in his grasp when She coughed and spit blood, but She was submerged and made whole nonetheless. My daughter, daughter of God and mine, His daughter and ours, my Rene.”

“May 27th, 2010. Today, before Rene becomes yet another year older, we try again tonight to send Her to sleep. In three days time, She will awake, and we will be saved. Her living blood will feed us, all of us, and Her internals will be laid bare to be judged. Our God, Her father, will guide us to ascension, and will save our miserable, undeserving souls. As Christ rose, so too will She, my Rene.”

“May 31st, 2010. God has abandoned us. All of us fell ill, with nothing to show a doctor nor a priest. We drained Her body wholly, from head to toe, of blood; and each organ was set separately of Her. She died only after we had removed Her heart, surely a sign. We drank the blood, as the disciples of Jesus once did, and it tasted of honey and vanilla. But we fell ill, and surely must have been poisoned. But doctors nor Father Jaimes found anything to be wrong. Her blood was taken from us, though She was not. Upon our return, She sat playing with the nativity dolls. She ordered them, mother Mary first, and baby Jesus Christ last. I wonder what this means for us. Rene, my Rene, please guide me.”

“December 5th, 2010. Father Jaimes laid bare to us his sins. He is a liar and a thief of the title ‘Father’, but I do not think of him this way. Anointed with holy blood collected from Rene’s own neck, Father Dresko beheaded Father Jaimes, and he was cremated promptly. May he follow us in our bodies, and be forgiven at Heaven’s gate. My Rene, show us how to proceed.”

“December 5th, 2014–“ The woman yelps and drops the book on her lap, the news clipping still in her hand. “Th..There’s blood, on.. On the page..”

“I can take it if—“

“No!” She cried sharply, then sighed shakily. “This is, it’s important. Right? It’s important…” She takes the notebook back in her hands, reading more quickly now.

“December 5th, 2014. My Rene, my God. Be with me in my final moments. My heart aches for you, for the trials you will face. I will see you at Heaven’s gate, and take you into my arms. You will be safe. But you must first save. Until we meet again, my Rene.”

The woman’s press-on nails scratch across the paper as she frantically places the news clipping where it belongs, giving the book back to me. The silence that fills the room is palpable, and it threatens to fill my lungs.

“Are you Rene..?” An older man asks me gently, his pale hand on my shoulder.

“Yeah, um. I just, didn’t actually die. I got lucky a lot, in a lot of situations I shouldn’t have been in.”

“Can I ask,” The man in the brown suit hesitates. “Can I ask where you went? After your mother..”

“Father Dresko adopted me. I wasn’t with him for really long, probably half a year, and he spent a week torturing me, held me hostage, and got shot by a police officer.”

“How could someone… I’m sorry, it isn’t my place. But.. How could someone do something like that, and not kill you…? If that was the intention, I mean.”

“He sucks at killing people, evidently.”

“Where did you go, after him?” The blonde woman rubs her arms in an effort to comfort herself.

“Karine Grienwilo. She was a saint, if anyone ever was. The type of woman who calls an anxious cashier ‘baby’ and fixes everything. Then I fucked everything up by going back. I made friends, Cameron Diniero tried to drown me and went to jail; Melina Fresno, Brady Harmin, and Jade Cabernaki threw me out of a car and almost under someone else’s car on the interstate and went to jail; Peter Ande and Jude Paton poisoned the church, Peter killed himself and Jude went to jail; and Sonia Wes committed suicide. Father Julio planned the poisoning and made it out easy, killed Jayla Barnes’ baby and she took the blame for it, then killed Karine in front of me.”

“Why would he do something like that?”

“To piss me off enough to get me to kill him. He thought it was the only way he’d go to heaven.”

A tense silence filled the room, but it felt more so that it was filled with unasked questions.

“Did you ever die?” A brunette woman asked. I hardly noticed her.

“Once. I got in a car accident. Semi slid on ice and cause a pile-up. I was the only one who lived.”

“How?” She asked tentatively, pulling at her sleeve.

“Luck, I guess.”

The man in the brown suit chuckled awkwardly.

“If anything, I’d call that a miracle.” I stared at him, and hoped he caught the message that the joke was in poor taste. He didn’t seem to. All at once, the fire alarms went off. As the group scattered, looking for the source of the fire, I stared out a narrow window in the emergency exit. Fire was already lapping at it. But just beyond it, the Sheriff’s van.

I waited until the only sound echoing in the tile and wood-paneled halls was the crackling and roaring of fire, and prepared for the worst walk of my life. The room I was in was full of smoke, but the openness of it ensured that only the walls and roof had caught.

I wake up in the car, taking a deep breath, and coughing. The cough is agonizing, and rips at my throat with all the ease of a sanding belt. Sheriff Petit sighed in relief, and I heard his head thump back on the headrest.

“Scared the hell out of me, rainy.”

“Sorry,” I croaked, but he cut me off with shushes, as he gave me an open bottle of water. I couldn’t help but gasp when the cold plastic touched my hands, searing pain shredding my palms.

“Right, shit,” He cursed under his breath, holding the bottle to my lips and pouring the water into my mouth. It was almost alien, I felt like my mouth was filled with sand, and it burned going down my throat. “How long does it take to clear up?”

“Um,” I sigh, my throat already beginning to heal. “It’s starting now, but it’ll take a few hours.”

We sit in silence, and I finally start to tune in enough to realize he’s driving.

“Hey Don?”

“Yeah, Ren?”

“How the fuck did you just give me water if you’re driving?” He laughed, loud and hearty.

“I stopped the car for a damn second,” He chuckled. “There’s a pedal for it—“

“Alright alright I get it.” My vision started coming back as my face healed, feeling less scaly by the second. I looked over at him, and could tell he’d been crying. “What’s up?”

He took a long moment to respond. I looked out the windshield, at the snowy landscape around us.

“I’m gonna miss you, rainy.”

“Cmon, I’ll visit! You’re basically my dad at this point. ..Like, my father figure, I’m not comparing you to—“

“I gotcha.” He paused again, but it was comfortable. Sad, sure, but comfortable. “It’s hard for me to just, drop you off someplace.”

“I’ll never get away from them if I stay here. They’ll always just bring someone new in.”

“I know. I just… I wish things were easier, I suppose.”

“Me too.”

The car slowed to a stop at a secluded, but obviously still functional, bus stop. We sat there for a while. There wasn’t much else to say.

“You’ll visit?”

“I swear to visit at least once a year.” He chuckles quietly, and pulls me uncomfortably over the console to hug me tightly. I squeeze him back as tight as I’m able.

“You better. I love you rainy. Stay safe out there.”

“I love you too, dad.” Before he got the chance to change his mind, I got out of the car and went to the bus stop, waving gently to him. He mouthed something that I could only guess was confirming I had my bus pass, and I held it up so he could see it. He nodded, and pulled off.

He was due to head to Texas.

And I’m due to get the fuck out of here.

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Thoughts on Holostars Tempus (New Members)

Gavis Bettel

First Impressions: honestly his design doesn’t really appeal to me. my friend said he looked like a TWST chara but honestly i can’t see it based off what I know about that game. also his name makes me think of betel nuts. that said i like the little skits he did for his pre-debut vids.

Debut: he has a very… “bro-ish” voice lol. also he’s talking really fast. idk if it’s bc of the nerves or not. pulling out the slide out of his hat was very creative ngl. betel nut man confirmed. idk what to make of his comedy, it’s good but not really to my taste. he’s really loud so i probably wont watch him much or my ears may explode. mascot is cute tho ig. purple likers based. also… this guy laughs at his own jokes? at least he loves himself so good ig? actually nvm he doesn’t RIP. fuck cockroaches tho. he plans to do drinking streams? oh god i can’t imagine how chaotic he’ll be on alcohol. also he can’t cook?! dear lord. omg that catwalk is pretty af. also his design has grown on me, bro jumped out of an otome LMAO.

Machina X Flayon

First Impressions: he looks like a tiny little apple 🍎. baby boy, baby (or is he? i didn’t follow these guys on twt so i wouldn’t know). but lmao at that edgy-ass name 🖤🥀⛓. then again one of my oshis also has a chuuni name (but its in japanese so my monolingual ass can ignore it kek) so i can’t really judge. it seems the name was chosen to fit with the design as it is more overt abt the sci-fi stuff than all the others. friend said he looked like an edgy und3rt4le oc and while i get the edgy oc part i don’t get the und3rt4le part. his skits were frankly amazing and i don’t think anyone can top them.

Debut: that intro screen is so cute oml. also the logo bounces around like a tv on standby thats really neat! music is cool too! omg he did a “behhh” i like him alr! his lore video was nice and funny too. if im not mistaken he’s the first tempus member to have a dedicated lore vid right? now that i’m hearing his natural voice it sounds really pleasant! must protecc. i may be shorter but im calling him short anyways for lols. he looks cute when he’s angry www. his layouts are pr creative i love this man. he screams loud but its okay he is babi. vegetable dislikers are based and no one can tell me otherwise. if this is him at low energy, how would he be at high energy? headpats tskr. outro is cool.

Banzoin Hakka

First Impressions: pretty boy. purple is my favorite color + most of my oshis are associated with blue so his indigo color just makes me mesmerized. and because of that it would be funny if his voice was deep as hell. my friend said he looked like a jenshin chara and while i do understand that bc jenshin is many people’s first exposure to this kind of fashion… okay yeah he kinda does look like a jenshin chara. instant roll lmao.

Debut: his intro is pretty dope, especially with the music. omg he can do metal screams?!? his voice isn’t deep as hell but its still not what i expected. weirdly enough it still fits. i really like his sense of humor the most so far. he talks at an average speed to me but ppl have said i talk fast so im probably not the best judge i retract my statement he actually does talk fast. OMG A VOCALOID FAN B A S E D. i think i can hear an accent, a pretty thick one at that. yknow what, shinri has competition when it comes to who’ll get demonetized first. my boy drawing with ms paint lmao. probably gonna become my oshi for this wave (?).

Josuji Shinri

First Impressions: the boing boings are on full display. pec nation has won. now we must prepare for the ultimate battle, the battle against demonetization. jokes aside his design is kinda generic imo but if it works it works. also he actually looks slightly older than everyone else so thats a plus. friend said he looked like a himbo and tbh i get that. but from what ik he doesn’t seem like one so far? he’s giving off more “father figure” vibes to me.

Debut: the intro bgm is chill which makes me hope he’ll be chill too. holy shit his voice is really deep, like probably the deepest out of the vtubers i’ve seen so far. i think his laugh is cute. so far the chillest of them all, which admittedly isn’t a hard bar to clear. i do appreciate the simpler debut this time, the other guys production values and ideas were good but this one will definitely age gracefully. daddy (platonic). mans has his priorities in order. the little JRPG section was neat, my friend called it when they said “jrpg vibes”. yet another league player, nobody is perfect. probably won’t watch him much if he goes ahead with the horror stuff bc its not my genre but i appreciate him carving out a little niche for himself.

OVERALL:

I like most of them, but I’m worried the group dynamic may be a bit unbalanced this time around. We got three loud guys and one chill dude, which will be an… interesting combo. These guys seem to have lots of cool ideas and potential, so I would be interested in seeing how they could improve. 8/10 stars, mostly enjoyed the relay.

[katyspersonal]

I think I didn't send you an ask yet so here !

10, 13, and 24 for now !! :D

(Asks from this ( x ) meme)

10. Your favorite ost?

Oh, this is definitely Living Failures! It was the very first Bloodborne OC I've ever heard though. A friend that played From's games shared it with me and back then I didn't pick instant interest in the game (unlike how when I've heard Micolash's theme...), but the music was AMAZING. It was the coolest videogame soundtrack I've heard in years, and I sat until 5 AM that night listening to that track on repeat. Because it got me so hyped I've lost all sleep, that's why!!! Still remains my favorite track, just... absolutely unrivaled buildup, beautiful instruments, and of course, AAAAAAAVEEEEE AAAAVEEEEE STEEEEELAAAAAAR. When I was obsessed with that track back then I of course could not appreciate the lore significance and how well in conveyed the absolute reverence, anguish, yearning and desperation for salvation from the 'stars', so now I love it even more. It is one of the best tracks in the game, it didn't need to be attached to an epic battle to be epic.

13. A cut content you would have wanted in the game?

God, how this is even a question? Of course, OF COURSE, what else it can be other than...... ARCHIBALD'S [EXAGERRATED LIP-LICKING]-

sdfhfhsghfsd okay okay but seriously now xD There is... a lot of stuff. Almost all cut content of Bloodborne is removed in such an elegant fashion that you can sort of still discover how probable it is it upon vague clues... as if it wasn't removed, but hidden (Rom gurl what you doin THIS time). The perfect example is Annalise's unborn baby whose mention was patched out very early after launch, but you can still conclude it from how both Annalise and Arianna lose melanin in their hair and from that bloody trail leading to Annalise's under skirt area.

(patched out and only saved via screenshots)

However, it is for THIS reason why a lot of cut content of Bloodborne is BETTER stay cut - because it creates a more challenging lore riddle! Isn't it more fun to deduce a lore bit using your own observation and analytical skills, instead of just being told what happened exactly? From Annalise's unborn baby to 'if there is Flora would not there be a counterpart named Fauna?', things better stay untouched and create a mystery!

But there is a different kind of cut content as well, and I am talking about…

( x )

I owe this discovery to @val-of-the-north , and also I believe @nymerias-wrath confirmed this detail (she tends to know absolutely EVERYTHING about cut or patched out content so I'd recommend asking her for any clarification you ever need). It sounds like such a good idea! I presume the lake refers to the one Rom is guarding, and again, a bird chirped to me that you'd end up in the upside-down Byrgenwerth. (I really need to gather more solid sources now that I am talking about it...) I still adopt it in my ideas and make it so that Moonside Lake used to be the portal into the rest of Byrgenwerth (and that's how Edgar found Micolash), but Micolash 'closed' it when Edgar had dick brain moment and spilled him the truth just because he was a simp -_- And sent some of the Shadows he had serving him as Mergo's "dad" as a bonus loool.

Not to mention I fucking L O V E Micolash's cut dialogue soooooOOOOOOO fucking MUCH. Just… everything about it. I am, in fact, not all too happy about how we only meet him in the "end" of his way, already fully insane and gone, when cut dialogue suggests he STILL has a struggle left within him, between his human side and 'madman that only cares for higher plane' side (Adeline moment). It was just… so tragic. Like… I get that after everything player been through, meeting him SHOULD have been a comic relief moment so the player recharges and still has emotional energy to care about plot's culmination… There was just no room for the 'betrayal sequence' I suppose? …except there was, and I think the devs could have elaborated Nightmare of Mensis more, make us see Micolash as a friend NPC that we go back to during Nightmare questlines, someone that grows on us to the point we see him as Doll v.2 (maybe he could even level us up too, or give us special benefits in exchange of Insight). So, instead of recharging player emotionally with hilarity (or annoyance, depends on how you feel towards Micolash's "battle"), we could have been recharged by the fake sense of peace and comfort, see him as someone interested in freeing Mergo just as much… and then HAHA LOOSER GOTCHAAAAAA. The only good thing about the decision to make him more plain is that 'traitor' is the fact that betrayal sequence is THE ultimate imba of Tumblr sexymen, and if he did betray us, he'd have even STRONGER grasp on the simps. o_o hoooo boy… There'd be NO survivors....

24. Share a fond memories.

I presume this must refer to fandomry? Because every single moment of playing Bloodborne is already a good memory. xD Hmmm... I already mentioned that time when I got an anon ask on my 'formal' blog, saying 'can we get random alfred hcs'? I felt extremely honoured that someone wanted ME to share the ideas about a character they liked, especially when back then I was just an awkward asocial lore person in the fandom and didn't pose myself as a writer upon request, or just a writer. It is because I cherish that moment of trust so much I avoid saying unflattering things about Alfred despite having grievances with the character. x) It was just such a good memory that I never get tired of bringing it back!

I also have a very good memory of a certain day. That day I was able to catch my coworker stealing money from the cash register (!) and attempting to frame me (!!!), using nothing but my amazing detective skills, so I was already pretty hyped. I was ranting to Val about it in a VC over phone on my way home. And imagine how much more joy and unhinged happiness I felt, when during VC I opened Tumblr and saw the ask celebrating that 'finally good Doll takes are picking up and people are giving her a justice instead of seeing her as gross sexual object and then claiming to love her'. I am paraphrasing but you must recall that one because you clearly got an ask from the same person xD Just... one "victory" layered upon another, and I've felt such intense mania and CHEER, that the raw power of emotions made that day a blinding, bright spot somewhere in the record of my life. This is what happens to a mf when they barely ever feel real happiness and just pretend to look alive. Maybe it was not a big deal in retrospective, but it made me feel DRUNK in happiness. ...so drunk that my response was not very nice and more like 'HAHAHAHA MFKING LOOOOOSERS WHO IS THE BEST LORE PERSON NOW HUH FUCK YOU ALL I AM FUCKIN BALLIN'' that I still feel a bit guilty about ^^"" But it was one of my best memories nonetheless.

Out of a bit more personal stuff, I'd say that you and @heraldofcrow are a very fond memory, and also @jarognieva . You guys sticked with me through everything, even when I started to genuinely spiral to my worst and fully embraced the prospect of you all being sick of me, you still chose to stay mutuals. Seeing you grow from a shy user to someone with very elaborate ideas and a lot of passion was an absolute delight. And I've got to see how much your art improved over time, and how Crow started to draw. I am just glad that I got to at least see you guys get better and make more friends and improve your skills.... (and seeing how much I rotted Crow's brain with overly specific lore bits when I saw her insane theory ramblings about Vilebloods AHAHAHAHAHA.) Like... just watching you guys was a great experience, getting to talk with you and to exchange the ideas is even more than I could have asked for, but I am very thankful.

Also, of course, my version of Rom getting FANART. I cried pathetic unloved kid happy tears all three times I received it. Two drawings were done by Saintmic and another one was done by someone else who is, eh, a NOT fond memory now, really.

Though honestly, Saintmic was a very good fandom memory as well. I once posted a very creepy, weird remark on Micolash as a character and how he'd corrupt people with his cultist brainwashing..... and after some time I got a reblog from him with even WORSE (/pos) take. I was so surprised to see someone having an idea more disturbing than mine. And it happened later too, when I proposed the idea of Micolash not harming fertile females specifically because of his gross obsession with women and birth, and he added that in fact it was more likely that he just used women for rituals (especially their menstrual blood) when men were just cattle. I am dead serious. The creativity and lore just... increased so much as we were exchanging ideas, my lore got so much better, I actually owe my ultra super fantastic and elaborate portrayal of Micolash to him as inspiration and someone giving ideas and honestly knowing Micolash's very soul. Honestly, you can play a game of 'guess how much of my Micolash lore I owe that guy' and you will lose because you probably not estimate big enough. Ya'll just don't know what it feels like to be a weirdo, to feel avoided and shunned even by fellow Micolash simps for "disturbing" and "not sexy" ideas, to question whether I am just spoiling a beloved character with my monkey brain and then meet someone who just hits a blunt and goes all: 'I smell weakness'.

Basically I've found my Stitch yeah. When you get 'the creepy kid' side-effect in the autism drawbacks fortune wheel, you learn to cherish such things </3

Thank you for the ask!!!

[yourlocalqreator]

💕🌹Pink Roses🌹💕

Song Inspo: The moon and back by JVKE

Paring: Simon “Ghost” Riley X Hailey “Rose” Quinn (OC)

For this For valentines day, Ghost puts roses for Rose in her locker after he yells at her.

Warning: FLUFF, During school, LIL ANGST

AN: YES I DID IT And Happy Valentines Day to all of you

“GOSH ROSIE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO FUCKING ANNOYING” Simon yells at Hailey. Rose, Who was just in front of Ghost and soap started to fucking cry He never acted like this in her experience. “Oh Shit Rose I didn't-” Simon then said, begging Rose to forgive her.

“Simon, please don't” She cried as she ran back to her room, tears streaming down her cheeks.

. “Gosh Simon look what you did,” Soap said “Johnny Please I didn't mean to go that harsh,” Simon said “Simon, Ghost, Riley”

Captain Price overheard the argument.

“You have an explanation to wander on what the hell happened,” he asked.

Simon then sighed “She started to annoy me and I just became harsh and just yelled at her I never knew she was sensitive, I'm sorry” Ghost Apologized “Well we forgive you but you need to apologize to her and not us,” Soap said. “I Know” All three boys were thinking until the ghost looked at his phone.

February, Tuesday,14

2023

“Isn’t today Valentine's day?” asked Simon to turn his phone off and putting it in his pocket. He never wanted to celebrate Valentine's cause it was just a normal day for him but something in his mind called him.

“Oh yea I forgot, what about it?” asked Soap “Oh yeah, I'll tell you what, we buy some gifts for her and put it in her locker,” Soap thinks. “Oh my god yes we can do that,” Price said. “Oh Yeah that sounds cool”

Ghost knew she would love it but he was guilty that he would lose her just for yelling about how annoying she is. His head was filled with regret about what he said. “Fuck” Simon thought as he then was thinking about adding the present, just then ghost then prove got an idea “Simon buys the gifts while Soap, Gaz, and I try to cheer her up how does that sound?” asked price.

As they all nodded. Although Simon never really lived the romantic spirit of Valentine's he just wanted to make her feel better and to see her smile.

. “Simon good luck buddy” Price said as Simon nodded and went outside.

“Now, We just need to get her to talk to us,” Gaz said as he looked at Rose's room. They walked to the door and Soap started to knock. “What do you want?” she asked in her room she just lay there. “Hailey, It's me Soap, Captain Price wants to talk to you,” He said.

Then the door opened and Hailey looked normal but a little shakey. “Hailey, You're not in trouble, Simon is out getting Gifts for the whole team but the three of us just want to cheer you up” Soap smiled as Hailey looked confused “Look, Ghost is sorry for being too harsh on you okay, he was just having a rough night about stuff okay?”

Price assured her She never said anything. All she had on her face was a frown. “Ghost is going to be back soon okay Rose?” Gaz asked as she nodded “I'll tell you a funny story Rose just to cheer you up”

Kyle said, walking in front of Hailey. “One time I had a hard time on my basic training, I slipped through the mud outside and got my pants all because of a roach on the other hand. “Oh yeah, I remember,” Soap said. Hailey then started to smile a little. “Well, a cookie here we made you smile” She was a little confused about what soap said as she was clustered by his cringe. “Well, what now?” Asked rose.

Meanwhile, Simon Riley is outside. He was in a flower shop looking for roses.

There it was

He saw the pink roses knowing pink was Hailey’s favorite color. He picked it up and then he paid for the flowers and went to the grocery store.

Once we went in there were a lot of Valentine's treats.

He walked up to the aisles and started to grab the heart of chocolate and candy. He then grabbed a Big fluffy bear. saying

LOVE in pink colorful letters

He went to the cashier. And went out.

When Simon went back Soap went to him.

“You got the stuff Ghost?” Asked Soap

“I do Johnny,” Simon said

Soap has a sharpie. “Okay, all write our names on the card okay?” He said as all the boys nodded.

It passed From Simon, Then To Soap, then to Price, and lastly to Gaz then ghost wrote something before closing the card and stuffing it between the heart and bear. “Well, I hope this works” Price sighed as he gave the stuff to Simon as walked to her locker. “What's the locker code?” Asked him. “Well here” Johnny moved him away as he moved the knob.

06.02.09

“And Wabam” Soap started to arrange the gifts In her locker, even the big pink roses before closing the locker door. “Hey Hailey, Simon needs to talk to you” Soap yelled. “Coming”

She answered as she opened the door and saw Simon and Johnny at the door. “What's going on?” Hailey asked “Hailey, Can you open your locker, Simon said you stole his guises” she looked confused

“When did I-”

“Just open it”

“Okay okay I will-” She opened it and then she saw the presents. She was so confused as she looked at the valentines. She grabbed the chocolates and the teddy bear, She was starting to get happy. “Aww thank you, but who sent me-” She looked at the card and sees simons name. “S..Simon?” She started to blush to look at him “Happy Valentine's day Hailey, Rose Quinn” Simon chuckled. “Is this like a surprise and an apology?” She asked as he nodded Hailey began to feel happy and started to jump and hug him so tight. Simon put arms all over her.

“I Love You, Rosie”

“I love you too dummy”

She smiled

Idk why I'm doing this but @onlycodcanjudgeme

BONOUS

[simpjaes]

no i didn’t misread the infidelity part ik the fic is gonna include yn/oc doing the cheating but i meant that i generally don’t mind if the guy cheats on reader because at the end of the day it’s fiction and the angst i’m looking for. however, the guy in the story just has to grovel like crazy and make it up to her somehow if it’s gonna be a happy ending. and if the cheating happens far along into their relationship, it’s hard to recover. but like i said before, irl it’s different. love love love that you emphasize that this is all fantasy and also have hard limits because at the end it’s ok to indulge in some toxic/taboo themes with a limit. some writers don’t understand that 😭😭😭 ik it’s better to mind my own business because at the end of the day it’s just tumblr.com but there are some writers i gotta block because the stuff they’ve put out is genuinely…ermmm.

but yes!!! i love the idea of multiple hot men wanting me so love triangles and stuff like that always gets me. idk why some ppl are against them so much, let’s have a little fun. jayke love triangle is so yummy sounding considering they just seem so typical guy friendship/brothers to me. the bickering and making fun of each other 24/7…yeah they’re men. the type to say bros before hoes. so the idea of yn coming in and messing up that bond because she’s so fine neither of them can resist. ugh 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

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oh okay cool! I felt the need to make it clear that I like infidelity in fics specifically when reader gets not just...the boy, but like, all the boys. i've never written about reader being cheated on without it just being like, a back story or a point of angst in her love life but man, you talking about dudes groveling? i could maybe be into it. kind of like a loveless relationship thing where reader is entirely numb and emotionally detached to the relationship since he cheated, so she lets him grovel and gets super turned on. ultimately fucking him in ways only she likes, making him try the kinks she's always wanted to try out.....man, yeah, i could do that.

as for you saying it's ok to dabble in some taboo/toxic themes, i can agree, i'm gonna fucking judge if someone is out here writing underage smut, but im still gonna indulge in icks that other people hate (like stepcest lol)

anyway, bros before hoes screams jayke, but i also know they'd both fuckin' break that rule INSTANTLY and start swinging. bros before hoes but god, they better fight over me

[temporalreplicsimile]

beep boop the OC-tober prompt is redesign, so I'm going to talk about some changes I made to my oc world from its original iteration

I made the world when I was a teenager, so it was very Cringe™️. Vampires, werewolves, witches, the oldest person was like 30....

When I got older I wanted to make it LESS cringe, and spent a lot of time and energy trying to change things. The funny part is, once I got even older I thought to myself "Why the fuck SHOULDNT there be all this stuff in it?" and basically changed it back.

Vampires can go out into sunlight. Made vampires don't age, but making one takes time and effort and isn't done so easily. There's telepathy involved, and venom. Sexy sexy venom

Werewolves became just Weres, which in still Eh about, but it's whatever. They're a variation of Shifters, which I added because why not, that can only turn into one animal. Shifters can turn into several, or sometimes any animal from the same family

Witches are one of the high magic races, and I expanded the element list to compensate. The four primary elements are still the most common, but there are 4 layers of subelements and a whole category for Special Elements, like the ability to magically manipulate life and death or even the feeling of hope

I made Spirits, which were originally just ghosts but then I decided to make them Weird and more or less intangible. A variation of them is Elementals, who are beings made of the element they control, and subrace of both of them is Summons, which are spirits that control elements and can be used as weapons, basically. Yes, it's that way on purpose and is just as fraught as it sounds.

Dragons are a thing, which I originally made just sexy scaley people and decided that wasn't enough, so now there are a bunch of different kinds. From sexy scaley people to dragonborns to straight up Dragons. They reproduce with eggs because I discovered something about myself at one point

Quasi and Chimera came around because I'm was a mixed race kid sick of being left out of stories, so I made two whole races for that. Basically: all Chimera are Quasi, but not all Quasi are Chimera. It mostly comes down to if the person has traits from their bloodlines. Cat boys are common.

What else.........oh, Shades. I'll get into them later, but they're made of darkness.

And to have an excuse for everyone to speak English, I made the Engl Islands, later changed to the Ingl Isles, where a tribe of powerful healers lived that were coveted by everyone, and the (at first) kidnapping and slavers and (later on) immigration of the tribe spread the language. It's a high society thing right now but I'm sure that'll change with time

Oh my god how could I forget Angels and Demons. They're called that because humans came to this world with their Christianity and saw them as what their art depicted, with wings and horns and all that. They're not holy or evil though, they're basically just bird people and horned people, with Angels being known for their physical prowess and Demons being another high magic race, using their horns as magical anchors and catalysts.

Okay this got long let's slap on a read more and be on our way

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#5

IS HE FINALLY DEAD?! DID HE SERIOUSLY DELETE HIS ACCOUNTS?! OH MY FUCKING GOD! No this isn’t true! @duran301 just informed me!

@chromaslip

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Please tell me this is true folks! That redmix is gone!!!

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#4

Well @duran301 and I are a couple. Love this dorky kirin :3 pssst don’t tell nox or chroma oh shit too late

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ITS HERE!!!!!

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#2

Coming out of music retirement????

Yes I know. 7 years! I have been not been making music under this name since my denature from making music under this name and yes it’s been a long one. But under my new name Cyberhound I’ve mature in a big way when it comes to producing and making music. But as of recent I miss making music under this name, well ever since @oroichonno asked me how life has been after I left and it’s been fun. Been able to get my life sort of back together as some of you saw that one post of me falling off the wagon yet again. But I’m fine now.  But even talking about it in Discord with @nox-lunarwing . It makes me miss it even more but I have to let everyone new that I’ve met only for the past couple years....My music had a short life. 2 Years. No budget. Half the time I was drunk or bored making the music I made under this name. But Now under my plan for my distributor, DistroKid. I can release music for Two artists name so I don’t know. Is it time? Will anyone actually listen?  If I do choose to upload my old music I want to let you all know right off the back so I don’t need to as Nox put, ‘Let them beforehand, so you don’t have to tap the sign’. I will not be releasing new music under this name. This is just my whole Discography for everyone to listen to on every platform.  I will be also remastering all the songs so you can hear it as I wanted you to hear it. I did have an idea for one last heavy metal/hard rock album (The only genre I make now) that revolved around old MLP horror blogs (i.e. Lil Miss Rarity ((Yes, i know that blog is still active)), Ask Murdershy, Ask Pinkamena, you know the blogs MindlessGonzo did dubs for 10 years ago on his channel when I was a teenager and we were all obsessed with lol) called ‘The Equestrian Nightmares’. (Yes a parody of the Ice Nine Kills Song, ‘The American Nightmare’ but with all MLP). But I don’t know. Even if @lil-mizz-jay (sorry for the tag jay, you can ignored this if you want) or anyone would think about it I might not do it and scrap it unless I got backed for it. It sounds too cringe right now and tbh it’s best to keep Flare retired but it’s a constant dilemma for me. The ‘What If’s. If you would like to see me return let me know. 

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My #1 post of 2022

So It’s HAPPENING!!!!!

Yep I am coming out of retirement! (Thank you @lil-mizz-jay & everyone for the kind words ^^) I know very exciting!

I have already started the process of re-mastering & distributing all my old music through my new distributor, ‘DistroKid’ Once I have all the links set up I’ll make another post to all of them :). This has been a dream ever since I started making music with this name but never had money to make it come true and it’s finally coming true for me so excuse while I grab a tissue for this. 

Do Be Warned! My older stuff will sound off and like a bunch of noise but look at the release date before you judge me. I was a drunk idiot back then in 2014, but some of them have their moments but you have the right to your opinion just giving you all some warning.

Before you ask @a-spoonful-of-generosity & @diamond-tiara-4-serving-spoon Yes all the DiamondSpoon albums (Including the dark sides) will be released out there as well.

Well Flare Flare, Where Will All Your Music Be Released?

Why I’m glad you ask. They will be released to the following services: Spotify iTunes Apple Music YouTube Music Amazon Music Soundtrack For Twitch & if you have a service you’d like for me to add it too (If available), then I’ll add it. I already have my Discography available on my Bandcamp & my Soundcloud (Some tracks are missing and the person I made it for would like for to not be released anywhere else and I am respecting their decision).   What About This ‘New Album’? Well.....I have done some thinking on it and I have decided to make it cause I wanted to make something like that before but couldn’t cause of no budget. It will be Heavy Metal (Like Very Heavy Jay, Prepare LMR for that lol. So much heavy metal screaming coming for this). I don’t think you guys know how heavy. So let me provide you this song to give you a hint on how heavy it will be. It will be covering some the horror ponies: Lil Miss Rarity (majority of the album is about), Murdershy, Pinkamenia. Also, if anyone has my doubts of my screaming abilities, Here is an example of my screaming (I come in at timestamp 1:40). Here is another example of my screaming. So I will be brining my A game to this. Plus, I’ve matured very much when it comes to making music so this album will be LIT! The album will be name, ‘The Equestrian Night Mares’ and I want a seasonal release date but I don’t know when (definitely not this year. Too many projects going on). But It’s so good to be finally be back. Welcome new followers from Jay’s. To my current followers....Flare Flare is BACK! Let’s headbang!

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About the ocs:

So I know nothing about formula 1 but that has never stopped me before (one of my favorite books talks about cricket and I only know vague things about cricket after reading it a million times) JAJSJSHS 😳

We only met two boys but im kinda into them, could I meet the others? Generational drama so intense is a great plot and I had many questions: The journalist has a name? Why are they interested in these stories? Will they talk to Ale and Rodri? 👀

The moodboards are gorgeous and I'm curious what the boys will look like.

Ale- alejandrooo sounds adorable and my god he funded Rodrigo's career in certain way. I don't know what happened between the two of them that ended so badly but ever since I read that part I knew something fucked up was going to happen in some moment eh. It's the kind of thing that foreshadows tense moments.

Rodrigo is horrible. He's the temperamental type who craves companionship and care but will refuse to openly accept it? Because that sounds awesome. Sounds like he may be my favorite <3

Pd: so you like Dune too? Because im shaking over that movie. Chani my love-

KSLSKSLSK I'm actually just like you regarding this 😭 I'm in LOVE with anything regarding sports (series, movies, books), and this is coming from comeone who isn't able to kick a ball for their life (also, please, tell me the name of the book 🙏 I also don't know much about cricket BUT I've watched an indian movie about it once and it was SOOO GOOD). and plus, formula 1 is just the PERFECT sport for a fiction story, it's naturally full of drama and tragic stories, I'm actually surprised it's not more common for sports books and stuff.

sureeeee I'm actually excited to talk about the other two bc I love them so much (I'm going to talk only abt other two, even tho there are another two let, but it's bc I'm too scared to be annoying 😭). but before, about the journalist: yessss her name is vienna morello!! I haven't developed much about her bc I've focused on the racers, but vienna grew up in maranello, in italy, and her familly is very involved with the auto racing scene. her mama is an engineer, a famous one at that and that worked with winning teams, and her father was a racer (not a very succesful one, but still a racer). so when vienna decided to go into a path that was so different from the expected, her mama was... disappointed, to say at least, specially after she tried so hard to push vienna into go-karts when vienna was a kid. vienna struggles to find a job because most of the magazines and newspapers she wanted to work at didn't want to be involved with any drama because of vienna's background, and she only found a job at a sports maganize. not her dream job, okay, but it's already something! but the thing is, the magazine hired her because of her background, because of course she has contacts in the formula 1 scene. they want her to write a big article about formula 1 legends and interview some of them. vienna is not glad about it, but the more she researchs about the subject, the more she understands it's a rabbit hole. and yessss she'll talk to alejandro, who's now on his 70s!! but about rodri... oh, well... you know, formula 1 is a very dangerous sport...

(rodrigo died in the 90s during a violent and horrible crash, shortly after making amends with alejandro. this incident damaged alejandro emotionally for the rest of his life. he tried to race for two years, but... he just wasn't able to. he retired and in the 2000s, became a team principal, but alejandro really isn't the same anymore.)

BUT OKAY let's talk about the 2000s duo, my problematic favs:

andrea kaddari is an italian-moroccan driver. andrea was born in italy from moroccan parents in a low-middle class family. he loved racing since he was a kid, that boy grew up watching alejandro velez race for ferrari and it was his dream. his parents were very supportive of his dreams (it's also worth saying andrea is a mama's boy) and always encouraged him to seek it. but for you to try to seek a future in formula 1, you need a lot of money, and andrea's parents made a lot of sacrifices, including selling the family's car to get him to be able to compete in the junior categories. andrea felt extremely guilty for this, so he does EVERYTHING to pay off the effort his parents put into him; he's terrified of disappointing them and being a failure after everything. but andrea is actually able to get sponsors, because he's not only a good driver, but a very charismatic one. he's funny, is always cracking jokes with journalists, and he's just that kind of guy who everyone likes. also, he's very handsome and a flirt, so it's not unusual for him to be involved with different people. andrea gets a seat in formula 1 in a team with a bad performing car, but still, he's able to get points in this car and even win some races; it catches the attention of the ferrari team principal (ahem... a certain alejandro velez) and now, andrea is ready to achieve his biggest dream: be a ferrari driver. but ferrari also signed with another new driver to be his teammate, kimi eriksen... and even though andrea tries his best to be nice and friendly to kimi, they definitely don't get along, and andrea feels nothing but despair seeing how kimi performs in the race track. he can't believe that after everything his parents have done for him, he got so far just to not be able to give his best because his younger teammate is outshining him. it feels unreal.

kimi eriksen is a danish driver. kimi was born in denmark and he's from an extremely wealthy family. actually, most people don't know a lot from kimi's past. he's extremely reserved and in the interviews, he cuts off anyone who tries to ask about his parents. there are plenty of theories regarding him and his background. people don't know about it, but kimi has a horrible relationship with his parents, and they have a deal regarding his racing: once he wins a world championship, he has to go back home and perform his duties and what's expected from him. that's all I'm going to say, but kimi has some secrets. he kinda emerged from nothing and no young driver really remembers him from the junior categories, so kimi is pretty much a mystery, including to andrea. but it doesn't matter how much of a mystery he is, because he is BRILLIANT. his racing is insane. he's a strategist, he's fast, he's not scared to put his life at risk. some people go as far as to call kimi a genius regarding it. even though he's definitely not the nicest driver around, he wins races, and wins a lot of them. kimi is very serious and chill on the race track, he's professional and keeps his head cool. but he's also very arrogant. he doesn't like listening to others and he WILL insult you and your family line if you dare saying he's wrong. his dynamic with andrea is so funny because he thinks andrea is insufferable and he has 0 tolerance to his jokes 😭 even though kimi is talented, he has concerning problems with substance abuse as an unhealthy coping mechanism. he'll drink and use other things until he can barely stand, and then skip training because of how much he's throwing up. even though him and andrea aren't friends... andrea can't help but feel concerned about kimi. it's not fun when andrea wins races, but he knows he won them because kimi was so high he could barely speak in the radio.

aaaaaaaaa tysm <33 I'm so glad you enjoyed the moodboards 🥹 I already have in my head how they look like, but most of the designs I made for them are in my sketchbook, maybe I'll try to draw them on my computer these days :')

alejandro is a dork, he's so in love with rodrigo it's actually embarassing how head over heels he is 😭 his biggest problem is being too self-centered. that's what really made things fall out with rodri, he didn't listen; he thought rodrigo should be fine with being pushed aside and living in his shadow, after all, alejandro did everything for him, why couldn't rodrigo be fine with being neglected by the team? that makes things even more sadder. that wasn't an enemy, it was someone alejandro loved.

(since I'm not able to hold back and not tell everything about them, rodrigo was getting pissed off because of how neglected he was by the team... and by alejandro, too. he tried to talk about it, tried to talk to alejandro, but every single time alejandro would try to change the subject. and rodrigo was getting more and more hurt. then one day, during a race, the team told rodrigo to let alejandro pass him on the track so alejandro could get points, and rodrigo said HELL NO, he was faster that day, he was performing better. so when ale tried to pass him, rodrigo threw the car on alejandro and they crashed, so none of them finished the race. after that, they had a big, nasty fight, and rodrigo signed with another team. so, yeah. it was pretty bad. alejandro never felt so betrayed in his whole life.)

rodrigo is the devil, you pretty much sumed him 😭 he feels lonely and wants people around him, and he adores alejandro as much as alejandro adores him. but he's too stubborn, and too temperamental, and he makes too many bad decisions. he's pretty much that audio "I'm not a violent dog, I don't know why I bite".

AND YESSSSSS I LOVE DUNE, I've never read the book (I REALLY want to, but the book is too expensive, and particularly I can't handle reading big books on epub, but one day I'll be able to get it), but I fell in love with the first movie, the worldbuilding is amazing, the visuals are GORGEOUS and it just really gave me game of thrones vibes... and game of thrones is my favorite book series/tv series, so, yeah, I was HOOKED. I watched the part 2 wednesday, and OH. MY. GOD. IT WAS SO GOOOOOOOOD. let me tell you, I was so in love with chani 😭 going to be very honest here: I liked paul until, like, when it was close to the end. I was there rooting for him, enjoying his development, but when it came to that scene with him talking to the emperor's daughter about marrying her and he did that IN FRONT OF CHANI...... it was so over for me, I was SO PISSED OFF, wanted grab that man by the throat (why is it always the white twinks..... why....). but anyways, to wrap it up, I just loved it so much <3 I really can't wait for a part 3 (because, to me, it really felt like they left the ending open for it).

(also, tysm for asking abt my ocs <33)