#my specialty is always writing to much so it's perfect tbh

[kindahoping4forever]

CRYSTAL!!! i am back from the dead and here to praise your writing (as always) hehe

THREE WORDS. BLOOD MOON LIT. CRYSTAL ITS SO GOOD i always love first time sex when they’re written properly - like when people go totally overboard on the ‘is this okay?’ & like awkwardness it’s booooooring BUT YOU HIT THE NAIL ON THE HEAD AND ITS PERFECT. made me feel very single though because now i want a fwb buddy who looks and speaks and thinks exactly like ashton irwin 🥲

honestly the flirty banter is i swear your specialty so it’s written PERFECTLY and the fact that you love beard!ash almost as much as i do if not more is the best thing EVER

crystal you’ve slayed once again congratulations babe

Thank you so much, I'm glad you got to read it! Tbh I'm so used to writing established relationships, I think I'd forgotten how fun it is to write first time sex! One of my favorite things about it is finding ways to convey that sense of discovery - it's comfortable but it's still kind of weird, it's something they've done before but not with each other - and I think having it be in the context of friends to lovers adds such an interesting layer to it!

And obviously. Beard!Ash forever. Like. My dude can shave all he wants IRL but you can bet Crystal's fic!Ash is gonna have a full and beautiful beard 99.9% of the time. 😌🤡

Blood Moon Lit

[phanomeheart]

1, 15, 17, 28, 30? sorry there's so many :)

No need to apologize! These were some of my favs

1. if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?

My first thought is Written on the Body by Jeanette Winterson, definitely. I love Jeanette Winterson so much, her writing is one of those things that just clicks with my brain and like makes my mind flow in the same rhythm and I’m not good at explaining it, but it makes me wanna think and write and is just such a great experience for me. And little not-quite-realizing-I-was-non-binary-yet me latched on so hard to the idea of a protagonist whose gender you didn’t know throughout the entire book. I spent the whole time trying to guess what gender the author intended the protagonist to really be, and then catching myself and reminding myself that the point is that we don’t know and maybe the point of gender in general can be that you don’t know and there is no ‘real’ answer and I just! I love it! God now I want to read it again.

15. five most influential books over your lifetime. 

Ahh I love this question, but also i hate making decisions about books :(

1. Written on the Body, for the reasons above.

2. The Realm of Possibility by David Levithan. I read an insane amount of queer YA lit when I was coming out in high school, and David Levithan was another one of those authors whose writing just clicks with my brain. He was one of the people who made me feel more comfortable in my queerness, and a big influence on me continuing to write in high school/early college.

3. Never Cry Wolf by Farley Mowat (and also A Walk in the Woods by Bill Bryson for similar reasons). The two things I loved about these books were that scientists/nonfiction writers could have a sense of humor, and the curiosity and the wonder I found in the natural world in them. I think Never Cry Wolf especially heavily influenced my decision to study biology/environmental science in undergrad. 

4. A Series of Unfortunate Events. Honestly, I think these books did so much in terms of forming me as a child. There are other series I loved (Harry Potter, His Dark Materials, and anything Tamora Pierce especially), but what these books did for my vocabulary, exposing me to different kinds of storytelling, and getting me interested in playing around with writing was pretty substantial I’m just now realizing. Thanks Lemony Snicket! (Also introduced me to Tim Curry through the audio books, which is very important.)

5. Honestly my brain just keeps telling me At Swim, Two Boys by Jamie O’Neill. I don’t know if it was influential so much as I just cannot forget it. I usually hate major character death cuz I just cannot deal and this book has it in a BIG way, which I didn’t know going in. But the love story is just so beautiful and the writing is gorgeous to me and I think in a kind of silly way it helped me understand a bit more the way you have to just handle death. I won’t say the beauty in it, but the inevitability of it (who am I Hank and John?) and the way it doesn’t change the beauty of the story that came before it.

17. would you say your tumblr is a fair representation of the “real you”?

answered here, but like kinda but also no

28. on a scale from 1 to 10, how hard is it for someone to get under your skin?

Hmm! Depends on my mood probably? I can definitely be a little petty sometimes, but I generally try to remember that we’re all complex individuals and people can have different tastes/opinions/ways of interacting (assuming you’re not being actually racist/homophobic/transphobic/etc.). So like maybe a 2 or 3 if 1 is very hard? 

30. pick one of your favorite quotes.

I don’t remember quotes very well, but that one Mary Oliver quote has been sticking in my mind recently. I was gonna just quote the first couple of lines, but actually the whole poem is so good. I’ve been in such a Mary Oliver mood recently, and trying to practice letting go of things and appreciating the simple things as we move into the never ending winter here, with her as my muse.

Wild Geese

You do not have to be good.You do not have to walk on your kneesfor a hundred miles through the desert repenting.You only have to let the soft animal of your bodylove what it loves.Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.Meanwhile the world goes on.Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rainare moving across the landscapes,over the prairies and the deep trees,the mountains and the rivers.Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,are heading home again.Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,the world offers itself to your imagination,calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting -over and over announcing your placein the family of things.

[mxsmwndr]

ALL HONESTY I DIDN'T KNOW IF YOU WANTED PRE ZOM-Bz OR POST ZOM-Bz SO I DID BOTH LOL @theratunderthesea

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PRE APOCALYPSE:

ETHAN'S LITTLE SISTER IS AMAZING AND SHE LOVES YOU!!!! Please let me have this because I'm in love with olderbrother!Ethan ok thx

Like lil sis will take your hand and drag you upstairs almost as soon as you step foot into the household

and Ethan gets JEALOUS but he refuses to show/acknowledge it because he loves his lil sis too much to be upset and it is precious

But basically you'll just spend the entire day upstairs with her on accident playing dress up and yea party and shit

Ethan pouts after, of course

But y'all quickly make up because he literally cannot stay mad at anyone especially you

And also his family loves you

And of course your fam loves him too

your dad/paternal figure tried so hard not too, but it was impossible because Ethan is literally PERFECT and had zero flaws and he’s so sweet and precious

But like back to school and all, you go to ALL of Ethan’s baseball games

Literally all of them, no exception

And if you can't make a game you'll make an excuse, like "I have a doctor's note, leT ME GO!!!" only to have teacher respond with "(Y/n) we've been over this, you cannot write yourself a pass to leave class early because you're 'Ethan's emotional support s/o'" "BUT MR/S TEACHERRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!

Oh also you always run into his arms after his games

And OH MY GOD Ethan blushes a hella lot

And if you kiss his cheek his face turns cherry red so you make a habit of surprising him with cheek kisses because Ethan is ADORABLE and SHY and WAY TOO PURE

But don’t get me wrong, he blushes when you hug him too

So you do it randomly bc again, HE IS ADORABLE and soft and shy and aidjdjdjdj omg

And y’all have movie nights together!!!!

It’s freaking adorable

Y’all just kinda cuddle on the couch and share a blanket while watching movies together

Cause Ethan would much rather stay in than go out tbh

And you love it

But the only problem is that he always falls asleep

Like even during scary movies or super cool action packed movies

ALSO UNRELATED BUT HE FELL ASLEEP EATING ONCE because you thought he could stay awake if he's eating but noooooooo the next thing you know he's snoring with a chip laying on his chin

And you obv took a pic

But wearing Ethan’s sweatshirts?!

Omg

His sweatshirts are SO comfy

And they smell like him so it's even betterrrrrrrrrr

And also since he's like 60000 feet tall you practically drown in them no matter what your height is and it's adorable

Um... what else?

Oh!

Ethan can cook kind of good lol

His specialty is mac and cheese

But his favorite thing to do is binge eat junk food that he bought with you in his living room

Or yours — he really just wants to cuddle on a couch with you so he’s not too picky

But yeah, Ethan is precious and you love him with your entire being

OMG YOUR FIRST KISs??

Ethan was SO hesitant

He held your cheek and whispered “can I kiss you?”

And you were like FUCK YES

It was so innocent omg

But on the contrary i feel like Ethan secretly has a dirty mind lol

Like I can imagine him laughing at some hidden meaning silently and no one notices except you and you’re like “wtf man plz just be normal for like 5 seconds”

But yeah. Ethan is all cuddles and blushes

DURING APOCALYPSE:

Oh wow

Poor babe has so much guilt, even though he couldn't do anything to save them all (family, friends, teammates, etc…)

And you remind him of this, of course, but Ethan is going through a phase of self hatred and it's rough for everyone

You're the only one who knows about it though

And maybe Harry because tbh he probably picked up on it

But that's all. Harry doesn't say anything about it, too, because it's not his place and he knows it

Anyways

You like to sneak junk food to Ethan

His eyes light up and he looks like a kid on Christmas Day

It's too cute to not do

He likes to cuddle

Sometimes he gets nightmares and will silently show up at your classroom door

No words are exchanged then, but you motion for him to lay next to you and before you know it you're big spooning your baby boy and he's snoring softly

So you smile to yourself and whisper an "I love you, Ethan" before falling asleep yourself

And you don't know it but he smiles too

And whispers “I love you too”

And then he falls asleep AGAIN while thinking of how lucky he is to have you

So yeah

Also, he promises to make a home run for you, and you can't wait to be there to witness it

Also mocking him playfully

Because again, this boy blushes WAY too easily

Um... I think that's all? Basically it's just innocent and precious and you both love it, though it would def be easier without the whole apocalypse ordeal

POST APOCALYPSE:

Everything is kind of slowed down now

Like Ethan is still hella guilty for not saving his friends (bc now he has even more friends he failed to save) but at least he has you right

Yea no

You’re great and all but Ethan is just SO mad at himself ok

So you take him outside one day

And he’s like wtf but you’re like “teach me how to play baseball” bc he promised a while back when y’all stayed in that school together

And so he does

But he is still hella confused

And you’re not to great but that’s okay because Ethan is laughing and smiling and actually looks like he’s his age instead of older like he normally does

And so it’s a tradition to play baseball together when y’all have a break

But that doesn’t mean Ethan doesn’t have bad days

But you’re there for him, and that’s all that matters

Also there’s lots of freaking cuddles omg

And sleeping together? Like not sexually but just literally sleeping because Ethan is so warm all the time he’s like a heated blanket and pillow and everything you need/want

And y’all still sneak junk foods to each other but it’s mostly you so basically you still sneak junk foods to Ethan

And it’s all good

So you’ll do this a lot when Ethan’s not feeling his best

But yeah. Y’all are precious. Like each other’s light in the dark world you live in

And of course he makes that home run he promised lol

[stickynotestoletters]

Yandere Headcannons BNHA

This is just a bunch of headcanons I have about the boys in BNHA and what they’d be like as yanderes. Only the really fluffy or good things about them listed here. This is not a good depiction of a real yandere and make sure to be careful to identify yandere traits in real people around you. It’s a very dangerous world and stay safe!

Uh no v serious warnings; Manipulation mentions, kidnapping mentions, and just this is a lot of heavily influenced trans reader headcanons because I’m having a lot of gender struggles rn and that’s where my headspace is atm and this is also after and or during when you’ve/re been/being kidnapped and conditioned,  a little NSFW because if I don't specify then they are aged up (around 20-25 is where I imagine the timeline that they actually captured you and have a hero carrier going for them already),

Bakugou Katsuki

This man loves you and you know it. 

If you meet him in middle school and don’t like his original persona he’s gonna adjust it around you to slowly lure you in

He wants to be yours no matter what he sacrifices and if giving up his pride is what it takes so be it

He only shows his affection through physical gifts and touch because words of affirmation are not really his specialty.

He loves the idea of you being submissive towards him even if you’re not a girl.

Loves holding your hips when you’re doing something, especially if you’re good at cooking and make him stuff once you’ve become more docile and have stopped fighting him on leaving

So if you are trans or otherwise in the LGBTQ+ community for gender stuff he will do the most to make you comfortable. Binder? You didn’t even have to tell him your measurements cause bby he already knows 

It’s who you are and he accepts that but it’s also a pride thing. 

It’s also a way he tries to gain your trust in the early stages of your kidnapping. 

He sees this as a way to prove he’s the only one out there who would take care of you and accept you so well, this also gives him more reason to tell you you belong there because of what happens to “your community”

If you think he doesn’t know before you come out to him then you’re wrong. He knows everything about you and nothing will get in the way from making you his.

He’ll only get you T-shots and other stuff like that if you promise to not talk to anyone else at the doctor’s about your relationship. 

But the best part about all this is how absolutely submissive you’ll be under his care while you recover after surgery

Izuku Midoryia 

There are a lot of things I see that headcanon Deku has a whole book on you but I feel like this boy has an entire series of books

He has taken notes on you since he met you and has a color coded system of books that detail on your beginning years too once he gets them out of your friends or family or even just you

If you met him before he had his quirk he would probably kidnap you once he got his quirk

He spent a lot of time writing how he would kidnap you if he had certain quirks

Anyways, he loves to lay his head on your stomach

He also likes it when you’re just writing or drawing and he can watch, writing things down is a very personal part of his life so when someone as special as you does it he gets all sappy and heart warmed

If you ever get the chance to look into one of his books about you and you complement him on it he will not be able to handle it

If you’re trans he will immediately start using your pronouns in the correct form

He wants to give you as much respect as you deserve so he just uses them naturally it’s just the way of things

He’s very nervous about getting you a binder, it’s just scary for him

He also goes back into his notebooks and changes your name and pronouns

He looks intensively into research about binders, T-shots, and surgery

He lets you get a binder after you say I love you the first time

Lets you get T-shots after your first year anniversary of being conditioned to be in love with him

Todoroki Shoto

So this boy is not very interested in talking to you when you first meet

It’s just he’s so scared that he’s going to mess you up and drag you into his own mess so he waits until he’s better or gets better to contact you

He loves to stare at you

Just while you’re doing nothing or asleep, especially when you’re talking though

He loves touching your hands and giving you things

He doesn’t really talk to you though and as much as he loves to watch you talk to people he just likes how quiet you are around him

He likes to make you food, even though he doesn’t know how to cook he’ll start learning for you

He’s def the big spoon no matter how tall you are around him just def the big spoon

If you are trans he’s just gonna nod it off then cuddle with you afterwards

He’s just super calm about everything

Top of the line binders and T-shots and check-ups by a special doctor that’s sworn to secrecy

Actually tracks down someone with a quirk that can modify your body permanently without surgery

But if he comes up fruitless in the en-devour (lmao) he will let you get surgery and will love how dependent and you get on him after 

You’re just so sleepy and quiet but you’re submissive and cute

Will cry if you call him babe when you ask for something and will beg you to do it more and will get you 2x whatever you’re asking for

Has to remind himself often of your pronouns in his head but never slips up when speaking to you

Kaminari Denki

Okay this man loves to touch you. Like no warning just loves to put his hands on you

Hips and thigh guy I don’t make the rules

For some reason he likes to grab and stroke up and down your bottom half of your rib cage.

Puts his legs around yours when you’re sleeping

Likes to scrub your back and take care of you in a bath, not even in a sexual way (besides bath sex and fondling turn him off because of his quirk)

grabs the little part of your hips and thigh where they connect to your but and just squishes it

Gets so flustered when you wear yellow

But loves to see you in a pastel yellow even if you don’t think you look good he’ll always say how amazing he thinks you look

Tons and tons of compliments

absolutely loves holding your hand 

Says I love you within the first couple minutes of kidnapping you

Power Bottom no matter your gender

If trans he will def go and get you a binder

Will make sure you don’t tell anyone about your relationship if you go get T-shots and stuff by holding your hand and giving you a little shock every time you get too close to saying something

Gets you tons of sex toys that help with dysphoria during sexy times (like thanks but ur a perv kami)

He doesn’t want to risk you if you get surgery so he will wait a couple years before he allows you to

Kirishima Eijiro

He actually saw you at the entrance exam for UA and he just immediately had hearts in his eyes

This boy is clingy af, if you even look away for 2 seconds he’ll start whining

Wants you to be the most comfortable person in the world

He likes the idea of you being the picture perfect little darling, cooking and cleaning and waiting for him to get home he wants you to depend on you

He needs you to depend on him! What is he good for otherwise? 

Touch starved tbh

He likes to cuddle you when you first get kidnapped, like if you don’t let him touch you he’ll start crying

If you keep rejecting him he’ll get delusional instead and will just hug you anyways

If you’re trans and you want to ask him for stuff to make you feel comfortable like a binder he’s gonna use this to his advantage

You wanna shop for a binder? Two how cuddle session and he’ll consider taking your measurements

It’s gonna be hard for him to think of the safest way to get you testosterone or other hormone injections and stuff

He’s just concerned

Will lowkey try to convince you to drop the idea but if he’s not already delusional enough to ignore your feelings and you start crying then he’s just gonna comfort you

It’s gonna take a year or two to convince him but if you become more submissive and obedient for him he might be persuaded

In the end he’ll get you surgery and other things like that but he’s gonna need to speak to 30 different professionals about this just to be 200% sure it’s the right move.

Iida Tenya

Tenya isn't the most aggressive when it comes to things but he’s very stern and patient so he’ll have a little more freedom with disciplining you

He likes to hug you from behind

He starts to slowly stop raising his hands and yelling cause he knows it disturbs you and makes you flinch, plus you listen better when he whispers

When you cuddle he puts his legs between yours cause he wants you hold you whole

He covers his engines when y’all sleep together so you don’t scratch yourself on them

Lets you paint and draw and write but only under super vision and he analysis your work after to see how you feel

Compliments you a ton

Stern in the bedroom, very daddy/dom nothing else will do

Likes to compliment you

Loves it when you smile at him

Wants you to be comfortable out of any other option

If you’re trans then he’ll be pretty much the same as Shoto

Top of the line products and binders

Will be the first out of both of you to suggest surgery

Wants to look for a doctor with many experiences before he even asks you tho

You gotta admit that he is very sweet throughout the whole process and very supportive

He will also give you a personal doctor, but he will also have to sit in on sessions and the like to make sure you’re not concocting a plan to escape or anything

Thank you for reading this! Have a lovely day and if you have any suggestions just ask! However I can’t guarantee I’ll do everything. Maybe I’ll do a part two?

[v-le]

Kmusic: JTBC’s 슈퍼밴드(Superband) Review

Foreword: SUPERBAND WAS AMAZING AND IT WAS EVERYTHING I NEVER KNEW I NEEDED IN MY LIFE. yup

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After binge-watching this entire program, I knew I had to write something about it. This show literally took my breath away, this show filled all my senses with overwhelming excitement, appreciation, and respect for every single participant, and the music, THE MUSIC, that came out of this show will forever be some of the most amazing songs I have ever heard in my life. But above all else, this show filled a void, an emptiness, a traumatizing, painful longing in my heart that has been needing some intense healing for a while now.

With all the things that have happened with my singer, Superband coming into my life and being the show it was, with all those amazing artists doing what they did, it was a literal blessing and I just……. I just cant believe they did THAT. They did it and it was AMAZING.

First off, whoever thought to make an audition program for MUSICIANS, SINGER-SONGWRITERS, ARTISTS, PRODUCERS, and just instrument-playing people AND VOCALISTS…….. you are a fucking genius and I am so glad that this idea never died in the shadows and was allowed to come to life on the screens.

What I found so poignant about this show from the get-go was how GOOD THESE AUDITIONS WERE… these people came in being REALLYYYYY good at (presumably) one thing like the guitar, or singing, or the violin. These people each had their specialty, they were exceptional music-making people. No one was quite mediocre or “rookie”, each person had some pretty credible expertise or experiences with music, and that in itself, the fact that we got to start off with these sorts of contestants, is something ive never seen before.

I don’t want to compare to other singing shows or the Produce series or whatever else countless audition programs Korea has been churning out over the past years, but since Superband began with this concept, it was already a show that I knew I would LOVE. For the 2 times ive watched Produce, I was always so perturbed by these prepubescent pretty boys frolicking around on stage, barely being able to even pull off a simple note. I just thought so many of them were so TALENTLESS…. But who am I to judge.

I think it really just comes down to preference, and even though I knew very well that idols and k-pop are not even things I enjoy anymore, I forced myself through programs like Produce. But now, with Superband, I felt so HAPPY and glad to be watching and discovering such talented musicians…THIS IS WHAT I WANTED ALL ALONG.

Even with the very first audition with Ha Hyunsang… OMFG UGHhHhh THAT BOI IS SO FLUFFY but so good at the same time… I feel like each time I see him, I ACTUALLY just want to give him a hug :’-(( the emotional depth in his singing is beyond describable and im SO PROUD TO HAVE WATCHED HIM GROW !!!!!!

That’s another thing I really really realllyyyyyyy loved from this show........ it was the process of watching these people develop, mature, change, grow with show. Some contestants went through some major growing pains, but it was so heartwarming to watch them improve, not that they were even bad to begin with. And the reversals!! Or the expansions?? The turnarounds?? The CONMEN!!!

AHHhhHHhhh okay im still very obsessed with the infinite amount of talent some dudes had, but before I get to that, let me continue on with those stellar auditions, aka the three genius guitarists, too ;_______; they. Are. So. Amazing. I love them a lot. I think I completely fell for them. And I hate myself. I hate to admit it a lot because I used to ALWAYS shit on dudes younger than me, I disliked basically every contestant on produce that was younger than ‘99, I thought they were all useless young children… but 김영소, 이강호, & 임형빈, were a completely different story. I LOVE THEM!!! I always had a bias toward a man that could play the guitar well… but these guys holy moly, they blew me away… they are so exceptional at what they do and the fact that theyre still so YOUNG… good lord…..my poor heart was so conflicted but ultimately so happy to have discovered them.

To watch these guys be thrown into that first 1:1 perf, and literally tearing up the stage and setting the bar VERY HIGH from the very beginning of the competition… phew… my goodness…. The talent with these kids… o my…. Okay yeah, nope im never gonna get over it. The ‘Adventure of a Lifetime’ stage will always be an iconic one from this program, and we all know it. Who knew a pure acoustic, musical performance, no vocals included stage would be so amazing…. I LOVE THEM!! Have I mentioned that yet?

Going back to the reversals/scamming thing... I guess this goes with watching some people grow……. I want to give a holy and blessed shoutout to probably my favorite contestant out of this entire show: 신광일….. he was such a dark horse. In fact, I don’t even remember his audition tbh because he was THAT not-memorable in the beginning LOL (or also.. I believe they never showed his audition to begin with)… but he quickly caught my eye as the eps went on because he came out of nowhere and whipped out all (or maybe not even all…) his skills like secret weapons, stage after stage.. he came in as a vocalist, picked up the bass for two the performances after that (all while still singing, too), although having never played the bass formally... and then once joining hands with Juhyeok and Yechan, he just miraculously becomes the drummer, because they ultimately decided that they needed percussion in their songs. So from thereon after, since ‘Hold Back The River’, Gwang-il, to me, was literally GOD(신) Gwang-il, as he played the drums and SANG TOO…..and may I add, hes not even that old?????? HES FRKING ONLY 2 YEARS OLDER THAN ME WTF;__; the boy got all these crazy blisters while perfecting the drums, but he didn’t let anything stop him and he was sucH A SOLID BAND MEMBER ALL THROUGHOUT, AHHHHHH MVP GOES TO SHIN GWANG-IL, YALL….(also I just found out that hes a trainee from Mystic Story, aka Yoon Jong shin’s agency aka the agency that I’ve been following for many many MANYYYY years now bc a lot of my favorite artists have come out of it…. Wow what is this fate)

And special recognition goes to Im Hyung-bin aka one of the 18 yr old genius guitarists bc he … oh my…. He frking became the pianist and singer by the end of the show…. Omfg… yall.. HE is also another infinitely talented soul. AND HES EXTRA FRKING YOUNG…

Besides these two though, there were many many many manyyyyy other people as well that took up multiple instruments throughout the show, or even began singing, or just did EVERYTHING….I was so mindblown by this, im still honestly not over it at all.

Because like, is this normal?? Isn’t that so unprofessional?? Its already so crazy that this show already starts us off with NON-amateur musicians and artists. But then some of these dudes have never done any other things formally before they got thrown into it; they came into this show “specializing” in something completely different, yet they jump onto the stage and do what they needed to, HELLA FRKING WELL…… so many of these dudes, you wouldn’t know that was his first time playing the bass, playing the drums, first time playing that piano, or first time being on the keyboard AND being a vocal, you wouldn’t know any of that unless they mentioned it, unless you watched the show and saw their story.

Because they all pulled it off THAT well.. these people that did these things for the first time ever while being on Superband, they executed their roles so well and showcased such wonderfully exhilarating talent…. IM SO BLESSED TO HAVE DISCOVERED SUCH AMAZING ARTISTS….

That was one of the biggest feats of Superband for me. The limitless talent that came out of it. I LOVE watching people like this. Their passion for music fuels such undeniable skill and fervor, and when they step onto that stage, they are literally unstoppable. They made music that stopped my time, stopped my heart, in the moment, but literally MOVED me...i applaud these people so much. I really do.

Thinking back to it now, the number of stages that came out of this show was like…. Countless…. Like… A LOT…. Since episode 1, each stage was very well-produced and I truly enjoyed watching each one from the start. This show was just so jampacked overall, although I admit that sometimes it was arduous due to the GRIND that these people were on, presenting stage after stage after stage, and then listening to LOTS of feedback from almost each judge over and over and over, but it was still nothing short of musical masterpieces out there. I really appreciate how STUFFED, how FILLED TO THE BRIM, this show was with dynamic, enjoyable, exceptional performances (and words of valuable opinions & evaluations, too)

I can re-watch many of them, every day, for days on end. I loved it. And can we just talk about how impressive these dudes are for pulling off something new, for taking on a brand-new challenge with a brand-new set of members, time and time again, stage after stage, week after week, until we came down to the 6 solid bands in the last 3 episodes? They constantly had to work with new people, match their music preferences, fill spaces in their music where they didn’t exactly have someone they may have needed. They had to compensate, compromise, and ultimately DELIVER, at the end of it all. Multiple times. I don’t even remember how many rounds they did… was it 4? I think they had 4 rounds of eliminations before they settled into their official bands. But still... its crazy impressive to think about how driven and flexible a lot of these artists were, to be creating, producing & then performing despite all the different teams they were getting put into week after week.

ANDDDDDD, despite all the odds up against them like the time crunch, the new collab of members each time, the potential lack of a missing instrument or sound, SO many of these teams still came out with self-written and self-produced songs!!!!!!! I mean, even for the cover songs alone, many were already re-arranging everything & basically turning them into new tracks. BUT WITH THOSE SELF COMPOSED SONGS??????????? Some teams literally started from scratch each time, but busted out some amazing tunes and lyrics and executed very very very impressive stages and IM JUST AKFJAKJFKJBSN how…. Are they….. so…. Talented…… I still ask myself each time.

By far, the combo that took my heart and kept it for good….. LUCY ;_______;. I never expected to like Juhyeok’s voice tbh, it was a little TOO weird for me in the beginning… but watching him perform with Yechan and Gwang-il and Wonsang really brought to life his vocal potential for me… that team is literally a combination made in heaven, they have all the right pieces to make ARTWORK… their signature sound was so prominent from the very beginning and i was SO HAPPY when I saw that they stuck to the same exact members once the finale came around.

Before the winner was announced, I told myself very honestly that I didn’t even care who won because the two teams left over, Hoppipolla & Lucy, were already my two all-time favorite combinations of artists from the entire show, and I was already MORE than satisfied with all the wonderful music and stages that everyone had delivered up until that point anyway. But even with that, I was still thoroughly shocked when they announced Hoppipolla as the winning band LOL I gasped aloud. I thought that Lucy at least had a chance. Or like I guess, in my heart, I assumed that Lucy actually won.. LOL but they didn’t.

And in terms of the finale in general, I really would also like to address how I purposely tried really hard to avoid any spoilers and rewatching of performances on youtube before actually finishing the entire series. I tried like reallyyyyy hard, because I wanted to watch the program as thoroughly as possible without spoilers. I HATE SPOILERS. But oh the irony. It was in all in vain anyway.

Once I finally DID finish all 14 episodes, when trying to look for more information/reactions/articles/videos (initially searching in English), I actually struggled SO HARD LMAOOOO bc there was like NOTHING OUT THERE……..i should have known better; this show was definitely NOT catered to the intl. audience (yet?), especially because its in its first season still. There were probably like 2 articles max in English about Superband & it was just about its upcoming premier. Nothing about winners nor results nor anything else i was wary of, anyway. LOLLL THE INTL COMMUNITY DOESN’T CARE; or at least the intl population that DOES care about Superband, is probably reallyyyyyy small……a reddit thread I found was the most substantial discussion I could find, comprised of a few comments max.

And so that brings me to how I always see a lot of comments begging for English subs and everything, but honestly…….. all I have to say to yall is: LEARN KOREAN IF YOU REALLY WANT TO WATCH THE SHOW THAT BADLY !!!

If after all these years, I could pick up Korean to an extent where I can watch things raw, im sure others can do the same as long as they put their mind to it. Ive been really appreciating how far my skills have taken me LOL not trying to be THAT person, but I just know that if I COULDN’T read or listen & comprehend or type in Korean like I can now, I would be missing out on a WORLD of amazing stuff. E.g. superband. And if anything, I would like to think that this show helped me practice my vocab skills a lot more. Listening to the judges’ evals after each stage was really enjoyable: I learned plenty of valuable words out of THEIR words.

This show was phenomenal in that all the contestants had total musical freedom. It was soOOOOO refreshing to watch. They got to choose all their music & their teammates in a fair manner (maybe not so much their competition), but seeing them take their passions & what THEY wanted to do with music and laying that all out onto the stage, was so compelling!!! This freedom allowed for countless, ICONIC AF transformations and growth journeys for soooo many of the artists too!!!! I really realllyyyyyyyy loved watching some of them stepping WAYYYY outside of their comfort zones / the image that they originally came in with (e.g. HONG ISAAC HAAAAHAHHA, Jisang, Hyunsang!!), and also watching alllllll those multitalented “scam characters”!!! HAHAHA, without this program being as open as it was, it would’ve been impossible to be able to see such a myriad of sides to so many different people. I appreciate, I really do.

And I really really realllyyyy enjoyed watching all the behind the scenes of each performance as well!! Of course, its normal to give viewers some background story before each stage, but in Superband, we got to see some very raw sides of music-making….. these dudes literally lived like hobos in the recording studios, all disheveled and sleep-deprived human beans, but ceaselessly making music because that’s what they love. I liked watching teams try out a lot of different songs & styles as they searched for THE right one. And then we got to see the final result on stage after the countless discussions and trials behind the scenes. And these processes repeated for months on end. All the contestants are so commendable in this right. The grind was real, and the show didn’t try to hide that. I enjoyed this very realistic approach !!

At this point, after drowning myself in this show for a few days straight… (those episodes are LONGGGGG, close to two hrs each) ive literally spent every night, and basically day, too, watching all the cuts that jtbc uploaded on youtube over and over and oVERRRRR….. ive also been watching some Superband concert clips, from when the entire final 6 bands went on a domestic tour and performed together for several concerts!!

THAT OPENING STAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BLESS THOSE PEOPLE THAT CAUGHT IT ON CAMERA BECAUSE IT IS LITERALLY SUCH A PIECE OF MUSICAL HEAVEN, omfg the energy on that stage IS SOMETHING ELSE… IF I WERE THERE IN PERSON I PROBABLY WOULDVE CRIED INSTANTLY……. lee juhyeok, kevin oh, chae bohoon, im hyeongbin, kim youngso, ha hyunsang, lee chansol, and kim woosung, all the guitarists/ vocalists lined up in the front… (hearing each vocalist sing a line each made my HEART HURT....I LOVE THEM SM) then the bassists, lee jonghoon, kim hyungwoo, kim hajin, jo wonsang, clustered up AND HAVIN A TIME all by themselves, and the three epic electric guitarists, yang jiwan, kim junhyeob, and Zairo, literally held SUCH stage presence… on the drums: kang kyungyoon all the way to the right, and red haired hwang minjae in the middle, and the super in-sync, traditional drum banging bois, choi youngjin, shin gwang-il, a-il, & jung gwanghyun, all 4 of them bouncing up and down in the back like intense oompa loompas LOL THEY LOOKED SO CUTE, and the string bois!!!!! Shin yechan & benji on the violin next to hong jinho on the cello; yechan and benji started off sitting down but as the song goes on they literally WENT AT IT HAHAHA as expected of two of the most high-energy musicians. On the piano, lee na-woo, the classic icon himself starting off the entire intro, and next to him hong isaac the transformation legend himself on the keyboard + his super distinctive voice!!!!!! And of course, d-pole with his much-expected little music break in the middle….. in fact many of them got ICONIC solo time: kang kyungyoon’s drumming part, kim hyungwoo’s super duper solid bass, minjae’s powerful beats, kim hajin’s LOUD ass bass, lee jonghoon’s legendary slap finger bass playing, jo wonsang’s super ting-y, classic bass section, and yang jiwan’s loud ASS ELEC GUITAR TOO, omg they were all so cute, pointing to each member & hyping them up as it was their few seconds to shine….AND THOSE COLLECTIVE VOICES???? HEARING ALL THE VOCALISTS SING TOGETHER ONE BY ONE… OH my gosh it was soooooo GOOOODDDDDDD.... just watching all those dudes literally have THE TIME OF THEIR LIFE on stage (literally an ADVENTURE OF A LIFETIME), the energy was off the charts… I loveeeeee seeing them so happy, making eye contact with each other, jumping up & down, rocking out, laughing with each other, all while playing their instrument, so fervently, all 27 people on the stage, connected by one song…. Theres SO MUCH OVERFLOW of talent in one freaking place, that song sounded SO MASSIVE just thru the video I cant imagine….. if I were actually there omfg… that’s an actual BAND Like A HUGE FRKING BAND… AHHHHHHHHHH a really legendary stage.. the finest of finest……I can literally watch this opening on repeat without getting bored because I just loveeeee the concept of all of them being together like that :”)))

After watching member after member, team after team get eliminated, seeing them like this on one stage with such happy expressions and making a beautiful piece of music like that o MANNNNNN…. This show…… has really done something to me…

I appreciate every contestant SO MUCH and I wish I could watch everyone be together FOREVER….because knowing how artistically talented each person is on their own, to watch them join together is like the avengers times 72737446352 or something, its just talent & skill plus talent & skill stacked onto even more skill & talents and just an INFINITE amount of potential AND THAT…IS LITERALLY.. THE POWER…. OF A BAND………and of great ass music.

This show was GENIUS TO combine so many musicians from so many different backgrounds…but watching them work together to make pure art, that is so frking rewarding and heartwarming and I feel so blessed to have witnessed it all.

The genres and potential were literally limitless……I think this is what encompassed Superband for me, this is what made me enjoy it SO damn much…. I think ive finally run out of things to say… this piece of text is quite a mess, not very polished….. but I was hasty in recording my thoughts & emotions before they left me, so I tried my best.

My biggest regret with this show is that I didn’t watch it sooner. (what is really ironic is that it took me FOREVER to start the first ep, despite having tonssss of time on my hands... I had it open on one of my tabs for the longest time, but I lowkey grudgingly, eventually, forced myself to finally start it LOL..(thank god I rly did tho) I watched it 2 months after the finale, which is… kinda late? If I had watched it while it was airing, all while I was still in korea, I feel like I would’ve been EVEN MORE in love, even more fervent and passionate about everything. Digging thru old vids & watching things from contestants before they came out onto the show, seeing the artists they were, I could’ve easily gone and seen them myself probably… goddamnit I probably could’ve gone to the superband finale live show, if I had known.. I COULDVE VOTED IN REAL TIME... not that I could’ve brought myself to do it anyway, probably lol….. but basically, if I had known of this show WHILE I was there with them… I don’t know, I could’ve been a lot more active as a fan, I feel like..

Now im back to my original roots: crying in front of my laptop screen and tap-tapping away at my keyboard as a I rant to no one but myself. Being in korea made my appreciation for all kinds of artists, all my beloved ones, EVERYONE, a lot more tangible.. but being back in America… it all becomes hidden into the depths of my heart, once again…

PHEW……I think now is a good time to mention my favorite stages… as I mentioned before, the Lucy AND pre-Lucy lineup will always hold a really special place in my heart so basically all my faves include their stages LOL

‘Swim’ cover by LUCY(신예찬, 이주혁, 신광일, 조원상)

‘Hold Back The River’ cover by 신예찬, 이주혁, 신광일

‘Adventure of a Lifetime’ cover by 조원상, 김영소, 이강호, 임형빈

‘누구 없소’ cover by 케빈오, 박찬영, 신광일, 강경윤

‘선잠’ by LUCY

'Castle on the Hill’ cover by 아일, 하현상, 노마드, 홍진호

‘1000x’ cover by 아일, 하현상, 홍진호, 김형우

‘One More Light’ cover by HOPPIPOLLA(아일, 하현상, 홍진호, 김영소)

‘Cry Bird’ cover by LUCY

‘Viva La Vida’ cover by 하현상, 홍진호, 김영소

‘Flare’ by LUCY

‘Find You Again’ by People on the Bridge(이찬솔, 임형빈, 김준협, 강경윤,  김형우)

My favorite funny moments:

“이게 무슨 짓이야!!?” - mellow kitchen (the stealing of the 3 kiddo guitarists)

“okay let’s be honest, you can’t even hear the bass” - shin hyunbin 2k19

울보 ���

Hyunsang’s fam: 아일 the mom, 홍진호 the dad, 김형우 the hyung

“idk if im allowed to say this but it looked like zombie movie” - yoon jongshin, as they all gathered around the cello man

“I thought to myself, isn’t that cello expensive tho..” - yoon jongshin as youngso slapped & tapped jinho’s cello for percussion

Ah-il’s iconic castle on the hill pose

Zairo’s luck with member choosing lmao

HONG ISAK’S DANCING in ‘Time of My Life’ LOLLL IT GETS ME LAUGHING EACH TIMEEE (& all his nicknames, like eungalchi lmaooo)

Benji’s “YO-RO-BOON HAM-KAY HEY-YO” during ‘Woo-ing’

Gwanghyun’s “do-doom-tak”

Gwanghyun calling Gwang-il’s drum skills equivalent to that of a middle school band’s LOLLLL

**I watched Mone’s radio appearance on Arirang Radio where Benji is the host, and they were an absolute MESS LMAOOOOOO THEY WERE HONESTLY ALL REALLY FUNNY THOUGH.. they kept roasting the crap out of each other and laughing their asses off and man… it was gr8 time and it was really cute to discover that Hong Isaac is now a part of one of Benji’s radio shows too!

One important question I have for this show though: where tf did all the females go? Why was there no female presence at all in this show, I have no clue…… :/

At the end of the day, this show reminded me once again, how to feel happy and excited because of music. how to let great music fill my life with undeniable joy. Being able to look forward to listening to these songs every day, definitely had lifted a small part of me that has been down for all too long. I really appreciate, I am very grateful for, I just… im so thankful to have discovered this show & all its wonderful masterpieces & the beautifully, magically, PASSIONATE artists behind it all………. I needed this in my life at this point in time, I really did. 

Thank you for coming to be, Superband.

[dimples-of-discontent]

An Epic Love Story: Paradise Lost and Destiel

So we wrapped Thanksgiving festivities with my family by reading the scene of the Fall in Paradise Lost (what? is this not traditional or something?) and I came away with SO many Destiel thoughts because it is basically the best love story ever and I am gonna flip a table and then set it on fire if the show doesn’t end with some kind of parallel scene (but reversed so that it was a positive thing).

Ok, wait. I see that context needed. This came up because we were talking about what we were reading and someone was complaining about having to read PL and, instead of the room backing her up as she clearly expected, all other 5 people went “NO IT’S AMAZING!!” with such force that she just stared and blinked. this was totally expected from me and my mom (both PhDs in English literature - her specialty is Medieval and mine is Renaissance) but the other 3 people we had no reason to expect knew or liked a 17thc. epic poem that is, admittedly, a really tough read. so then we all chose our favorite passages to read aloud to demonstrate its awesomeness and both me and my mom picked basically the saddest scene in all literature.

In Milton’s story, Adam and Eve have separate scenes of choosing to eat the fruit of knowledge and fall. Eve goes first and she’s deceived by Satan in the guise of a serpent who offers her himself as empirical evidence of all the great stuff the fruit can do. He’s a huge freaking liar, of course, but since there’s no such thing as deception in Paradise (until he gets there) Eve can’t tell that so she uses her reason and satisfies her natural curiosity (SO much more curious than dull old Adam) and, yes, disobeys the order from God not to eat from the tree of knowledge. There’s some gorgeous-ass poetry about it, but the immediate narrative consequence is that she wonders how to act when she returns to Adam. She’s never acted with him before, but being fallen means a split between seeming and being (and also the development of self-consciousness that gives you an internal monologue...something we only saw before with Satan). 

Cut to Adam, worried that Eve isn’t back yet. He made her a garland of roses when she was away because he missed her. (I’m not making this shit up, seriously.) He sees her and can tell instantly that she’s just different and all his joints go slack and he drops the garland and as it hits the ground “all the faded roses shed.” See, there had never been death in the garden before. None of the plants died; all the animals were immortal. But now that Eve has fallen there can be. Adam then immediately begins an internal monologue (interestingly suggesting he’s fallen already because he’s already made his choice). 

"O fairest of creation, last and best

Of all God's works, creature in whom excelled

Whatever can to sight or thought be formed,

Holy, divine, good, amiable, or sweet!

How art thou lost! how on a sudden lost

Defaced, deflowered, and now to death devote!

Rather, how hast thou yielded to transgress

The strict forbiddance, how to violate

The sacred fruit forbidden! Some cursed fraud

Of enemy had beguiled thee, yet unknown,

And me with thee hath ruined; for with thee

Certain my resolution is to die."

(9.896-907)

It slays me and I cry even when I read it for students in class and I have no shame about it. Paradise Lost is a religious epic, sure, but have you considered that it’s also an epic fucking love story?!

Now, tbh, you aren’t supposed to want Adam to fall. You’re supposed to be like “oh naughty bad Adam to put your love above your God” but, like, no one who reads this story thinks that. (Well, almost no one. I always have at least one dudebro student being like “dumb Adam! I’d never make that choice for a girl!” and then I tell him he’s clearly never been in love and he shuts the hell up. I’m fully serious.) There’s a lot to say about why Milton wrote it that way, but bottom line is that we’re all already fallen so we want fallen things...including love. 

Love and...love. You know where I am going now. I basically pictured this scene as Cas choosing to fall for Dean; to give up his immortal status and chance to inhabit Paradise because, frankly, it’s not Paradise if you’re alone. (That’s why Adam asked God to make Eve in the first place.) It could/would be less sad because Dean was never an immortal (despite that face) and so the choice that was made of his free will (also The Biggest Deal in Milton) would be an affirmative statement about the benefits of being human, of being fallen. Including love.

Paradise Lost ends with the following lines:

“They, looking back, all the eastern side beheld

Of Paradise, so late their happy seat, 

Waved over by that flaming brand; the gate 

With dreadful faces thronged and fiery arms. 

Some natural tears they dropped, but wiped them soon; 

The world was all before them, where to choose 

Their place of rest, and Province their guide. 

They, hand in hand, with wandering steps and slow 

Through Eden took their solitary way.” (12.640-649)

This, my friends, THIS is what I want for endgame Destiel. Yes, it’s got some sadness in it, “some natural tears,” and some significant loss BUT they do also get the rest of the world and, most important, they get to go together. I remember @thedogsled made a post about how it’s not yet time for Cas to drive the Impala because that’s the perfect last scene - Cas driving him and Dean off into the sunset...”hand in hand, with wandering steps and slow...”. I mean...what else could you ask for?

We say a lot of the time that SPN is “epic” but frequently when I say it I mean it in a literary sense because it shares many qualities with epics...and a LOT more than that with this one. I keep promising (threatening?) to write more about SPN and PL, but this is my most important point. Writers, please, take a lesson from Milton and end this love story this way. Please and thank you.

[rkjinhyuk-blog]

hello everyone! this intro post is super belated, but thank you for all your kind messages! i’m slowly but surely responding to all of them right now, but i figured i should get one of these up before it’s too late! i’m super excited to bring my best boy lee jinhyuk into the rp ♥ some quick stats: lee jinhyuk, 21, works as a delivery boy for yum yum chicken and at an escape room service, no escape! he’s also a former idol; he was in a group called spect8 (you can read more about them here) which officially disbanded earlier this year, so naturally he feels some kind of way about it. you can read more about him on his profile and background pages, but i’ll drop some notes + wanted connections under the cut as well! if anything interests you, please hmu or alternatively, if you’d like to plot please hit the like button on this post and i’ll pop into your ims ♥ thanks for reading and i can’t wait to write with you all!

TL;DR:

so: lee jinhyuk, former stage name is wei but he’ll still answer to it now because he’s fond of it. recently turned twenty one but sometimes he feels a lot younger and other times he feels like he’s ancient. stuck somewhere in the middle but definitely does not feel entirely normal

what’s up, my peers? cannot connect with you!

former idol (or failed idol, if you prefer). got scouted in his final year of middle school by a small company preparing to debut their first group, passed the audition and trained all through high school. was added to the debut line up in 2016 and it was honestly one of the happiest days of his life!

and then, you know, shit sucked. the group was never popular and suffered further when two of their most popular members left. were put on hiatus around the beginning of 2018 and officially disbanded in 2019, though most members had already gone their own ways before then

post disbandment, jinhyuk returned home and tried to get his life together, eventually realizing that he really did not want to give up his dream of becoming an idol just yet. so he’s still! fighting! to debut again, hopefully with better results this time

lives with his parents and younger sister - she attends hanlim and very much wants to be an idol in spite of jinhyuk’s own failure. does his best to be a supportive brother but he’s a little worried about her lmao

decided not to attend university after disbandment; he did one semester online @ kyung hee before dropping out and he genuinely like... does not think academics are for him

spends his time working as a delivery boy for yum yum chicken. works some pretty weird hours, tbh. also works part time at no escape! he’s really good at escape room puzzles so it’s a perfect fit

volunteers at the local community centre when he has time; teaches a baby’s first hip hop class, basically, which is great for him because he loves working with kids. probably would’ve gone into like childcare or early education if he had the drive

his specialty is definitely rap + dance but he doesn’t consider himself all that skilled yet. both are talents he had to work hard to develop after he became a trainee. still tries to take classes and keep up with practice when he can... 

a really good boy... like he’s genuinely very bright & friendly and easy to get along with. collects people like you might collect stamps... has a good memory so will remember the most random facts or things you’ve said but it’s because he cares about you. also generally laid back, doesn’t get angry easily, not really shy or afraid of anything. super affectionate, can get silly/dumb, adopts kids like no one’s business 

can get morose sometimes especially when his ~idol past is brought up. like he tries to pretend he’s not bothered! but he is... though he’s mostly sad because he’s internalized the failure as his fault and part of him worries he’s used up his one (1) chance at his dream but it’s fine. takes a lot for his bitterness to come to the surface but it happens occasionally

pls................... love him

WANTED CONNECTIONS:

his ride or die best friend!! is probably close to many people but like... (1) friend (preferably long term/established) who knows all the shit jinhyuk’s been through and stuck through the good times and the bad. jinhyuk would 100% take a bullet for them... he’s not good at leaning on people but someone who could like actually allow him to relax around them would be great

former fans of spect8? current fans? was pretty involved with fans (think wonho from monsta x lmao) so he had a good reputation in the fandom! the group was never all that popular to begin with, so jinhyuk valued all the fans he had. with disbandment he thinks they’re essentially forgotten--so to discover they still have fans would be really cool 

big fan of rebuilding relationships so like old friends or classmates he lost touch with after he became a trainee and is slowly reconnecting with now... not the same person as they remember, probably, but that’s fun to play with

yum yum chicken customers?? that one person who always orders the same thing @ 2 am and jinhyuk’s the one who delivers it every single time.... the person with the suspiciously large order who invites jinhyuk inside to eat so they don’t look like it’s all theirs... the person who made him run around the riverside searching for them so he can deliver their food please

also no escape! customers? you gave up 10 minutes into your escape room and now you’re just chatting with jinhyuk over the phone instead of asking for hints... you refuse to leave the escape room until you solve it even though your time expired like 2 hours ago... you and jinhyuk get trapped in an escape room but this is like the only one jinhyuk hasn’t memorized the puzzles for rip

other people who volunteer at the community centre, whether with dance classes literally anything else? they have a good working relationship or a friendly rivalry for whatever reason? 

or you come to drop your siblings/cousin/friend’s kid/whatever for dance class and meet jinhyuk who kind of ropes you into joining in with the rest and won’t take no for an answer! it’ll be fun!!

jinhyuk helped you out of a tight situation or something once and you accidentally caught feelings for him... and he knows you did but he doesn’t want to bring it up so now he just pretends he’s oblivious!

you’re small and jinhyuk is a giant and you absolutely hate being next to him but you get paired up or tricked into doing a lot of shit together. he thinks you’re.... so cute... but you want him to get away from you 

you and jinhyuk were rivals in like the fifth grade and when you see him again after falling out of touch, you’re filled with rage... turns out he doesn’t remember your rivalry and thought you were friends the whole time 

jinhyuk’s friends set you two up on a blind date. he’s literally never been on a date before and has 0 experience with romance so it would sure be something? 

you’re with jinhyuk when he gets injured and he’s like “i’ll deal with it!” but you try to get him to go to the hospital and he freaks the fuck out

you play basketball/video games together all the time and jinhyuk always loses so you think he just sucks.... turns out he’s been letting you win this entire time

you always meet jinhyuk at the public baths and you’re convinced he doesn’t exist outside of them like some kind of house spirit but...... you run into him at the store and you’re amazed

this is so long already but i’m really open to almost anything so please plot with us!!

[gracemyhearto]

I was tagged by @missemperor to do this com-myu-nity ask :D

1. What is your hobby?

History! I was fascinated of past times very early. When I was a child, middleages and stuff pretty much scared me but through that fear grew a deep interest and out of this interest grew an even deeper passion and here I am now studying it :D On my 2nd tumblr @renaissance-prinzessin I spam post a lot of history content :D Oh and I write. xD

 2. What is your special skill?

Special skill? Ehm maybe the way I understand animals? I am a very sensitive person. J

 3. What are your strengths and weaknesses?

Like I said, I am very good at working and interacting with animals. I also think that I am pretty good in academic writing.

 Weaknesses: as if I’d share that xP

 4. What is your favorite color?

Green!  

 5. What is your favorite animal?

Omg that is hard?  I love them all! But if I have to pick one.. horses! But ALL animals are precious babys!

 6. Which food are you into lately?

My mum’s risotto and I had really GREAT herb Schupfnudeln when I was on holidays in Bavaria this month <3

 7. What is the thing you never lose to from anyone?

My own goals.

 8. What is your most treasured item?

I can’t really think of an item, of course I love my books and my merch but there is no item or thing that matters to me as much as for example my horse Poly or my dog Pauli do :D

 9. What is your cooking specialty?

Recently I brought perfection to my beloved avocado-tomato soup xD I really do enjoy cooking (veggy of course!) and tried some vegan recipes recently too!

10. What is the thing you want the most at the moment?

Oh, I wished my bachelor’s thesis would be done already ahahaha.

 11. What is the thing you are most scared of?

Nothing I’d share in the internet but I have to admit that, beside the fact that I love all animals, ostrichs somehow really scare me xDD

 12. What is the thing you were happy about this year?

I think it’s getting back to my old university after switching to another last year. It feels home again but I am still glad that I was able to collect so many new experiences at the other uni.

 13. What is the thing you were sad about this year?

The retirement of Mirio and Miyacchi! I mean on the other hand they are/will be free to be themselves now without hiding behind the Otokoyaku mask but it’s still sad because I really adored both of them

 14. What is the thing you regretted this year?

 Regret? Actually there is nothing that I really do regret atm

 15. What is the thing you were angry about this year?

Unistuff, yep yep yep

 16. What is the job that gave you a sense of fulfillment this year?

Does my studies count? xD

 17. What has changed about you since you entered com-myu-nity?

 Mostly that I don’t care anymore if other people dislike me or my opinion

 18. Which character would you play in Sera myu?

 Aw! I would want to be Venus! Venus! Venus! But I think as for playing I’d be predestined for a bitchy badass Neptune or Mars xD

 19. If you were to form a collab now, who would it be with?

 Do ya mean a song collab like the stuff we do like everyday in the com-my-nity? Actually I am doing a lot of stuff with @missemperor and it’s always a pleasure! But I also want to do something again with my first besties @sailorzakuro and @MyuToni sooooo I am open to do collabs with everyone xD

 20. What do you love about Sera Myu nowadays?

That it made me be part of something and feel welcome among my friends <3

 21. Which cast member catches your attention the most at the moment?

Hmm, at the moment it might be Kana Nakada because I really liked her performance in NogiMyu. But tbh I am more into the BaniMyu actors/actresses.

 22. Which cast member would you want as your significant other?

EDO HIDEMASA <33333

 23. If you were to marry a cast member, who would it be?

EDO HIDEMASA <333333333

 24. If you would go to a deserted island, which cast member would you like to go with you?

Probably Yuuko Hosaka? She is such a mum, I’m sure she would get us back to civilisation easily xD

 25. If you would be born again, which cast member would you want to be?

Ehm… Nao Inada? I could play Venus in two very good productions then xD

 26. Which Sera Myu production would you want to be a part of?

The Dracul Arc!

 27. If you would create your own kingdom, what kind of country would you want it to be?

Don’t expect a pinky, plushy kingdom with worldpeace and same rights for everyone :P. Probably something like Middle-earth. I think there can’t be light without darkness.

 28. What is an interesting book or manga you read recently?

Thanks to @vampiruchan I am totally into the Black Dagger Brotherhood books atm xD

 29. What is an interesting movie you watched recently?

I rewatched The Hobbit and I realized again how much I love Bilbo and how much of an Elve I am xD

 30. What is your favorite Sera Myu song at the moment?

Always and forever FIRE! FIRE! FIRE! *starts dancing*

 31. What is your favorite Sera Myu song choreography at the moment?

Probably Fumi’s LINK from 1999?

 32. What is your favorite Sera Myu costume at the moment?

LOL totally Lamia’s breast pad I mean sexy cape outfit xD

 33. What is your favorite Myu at the moment?

Always and forever.. Kessen or Last Dracul. Can’t decide, it really depends on my mood. As for this moment it’s LD

 34. What is your favorite Myu cast?

I go with Last Dracul, I still love KSDK too and I really wished Yuuko was part of Myu in LD already

 35. Is there something you say a lot recently?

At least I use „!s” way too often xD That’s a typical german thing I guess

 36. What would you do if you could plan a Fan Kansha?

I wouldn’t change anything from the Bandai era. Just record it, PUT IT ON DVD and and add  official subs xD

 37. What do you hope to see Sera Myu doing in the future?

Not to relate too much on the manga…

 38. What kind of person do you want to be in 5 years?

I want to be done with studying and gain ground in working life

 39. What has been a memorable concert or event this year?

I saw the ballet “Swan Lake” by the russian nationalballet and omg it was awesome!

 40. What do you want to do in your private life this year?

Private life? Does that even exist? lol

 41. What kind of job would you like to do in the future?

I want to gain ground in historical research

 42. Do you have a hairstyle you would like to try in the future?

Let’s see: Last year I dyed my hair tips blue (it stayed like 3 weeks) that was fun. And recently I managed to get my hair back into it’s original colour (medium blonde) and I am really happy with that. Wished it would still be a bit more even but hey xD

 43. What Sera Myu merchandise would you love to have?

The Death Vulcan VHS as well everything available of Miyuki-Moon!

44. Where would you want Sera Myu to come to?

It would be nice if the other country’s themselves would organize Myus. Like, Germany was one of the countrys in which Sailor Moon was just so fkn popular that we even had an own Sailor Moon band, okay? xD So Myus based on the Bandai era here in Germany would be nice (even though I had no chance I’d so apply there xDDD)

 45. If you could have a holiday with any cast member, what do you want to do?

Probably talk about their life at Sera My and ask them things especially about backstage things.

 46. Please say something to your favourite cast member.

Well, Miyuki is in heaven but I’ll still dedicate this to her: You were wonderful. You didn’t made Sailor Moon just come to life, you put love in every single performance and transmitted all feelings to the audience with such a warm energy that it is always a pleasure and honour to watch your performances. I get never tired of watching them again and again. I hope you are happy where you are now but let me tell you that you can be really proud of what you did. You were not only an enrichment for the whole Sailor Moon franchise but also for my life and I just can not thank you enough for that.

[espship18]

Kpop ship for madeofsaltiness

Hello everyone! How are ya? As always, due to work, I haven’t been able to post in a while, but I am here with a ship for @madeofsaltiness ! I am so sorry it took me this long to get your ship up, but I hope that we will have no disappointment around here. Let’s get started! 

These are the traits I used in your requests from your submission: 

You’re a 99 liner hah same!

You’re 166cm and Latina

You can come off as intimidating at first, friends say you have RBF

But you really love to smile and make people happy

You also like to make the best out of every situation we love an optimistic queen

You can have a hard time expressing your feelings

You’re easy going

You love animals

You’re a hip hop dancer and dancing is your passion 

You’re a mixture of the mom and adventurous one of the group, and you also like to take care of people

You also don’t mind being taken care of

Eating and traveling

Your style is described as urban street wear

You know English and Spanish and are learning three other languages

And in your request, you asked to be shipped with BTS, NCT 127, and WayV! I had a lot of fun with this request- let’s go! 

BTS: Jimin 

Overall, you really sound like an all around kind of gal, and I feel like you and Jimin would be good for each other. Jimin has his hands dipped in a little bit of everything, and I think you two would have good chemistry together. No matter what, there is always sunshine and happiness surrounding you two, as you two never have conflicts and you’re both so bright and happy. Jimin would be the type of guy to always tell you how much he loves you tbh, and Jimin would also want you to know your worth. Not only would Jimin tell you about how you are his everything, but he also will gush over how important your sunshine and energy is to those around you, and how you can really make an impact on people. Jimin is also perfect because he always trying to take care of you. As a fellow dancer, Jimin would make sure that you are ALWAYS getting the proper nutrition you need for your body. Being a dancer is tough work, and it makes sense as to Jimin wanting you to be full, and feel strong and mighty when you dance. And to be honest, you would be equally as stern with Jimin on his nutrition. I feel like Jimin is also stubborn, so your mom like sense of nature can really help you poke at Jimin to eat right and keep himself in tip top shape. You take care of him out of habit and nature. Moving right along, I want to talk dogs and puppos. Dogs are going to play a big role in this whole ship to buckle up. You and Jimin would LOVE to spend a lot of your free time going to dog parks. You two wouldn’t quite get a dog yet, but you two would always want to see the varieties of dog and gush over their cuteness, and even play with them. And better yet, you and Jimin are the go to duo when it comes to puppy sit his fellow members dogs. You two are also quite playful, so I can see a prank war between you two. Sometimes the boys will get involved, but you two prefer to keep it to yourselves. The prank war is sort of that couple thing that you two do together. Some pranks even include hair dye in shampoo bottles and pouring salt in one’s drink. You also always impress Jimin with your language skills. Jimin would always do his best to interact with you in Korean since you are learning, and Jimin would also want you to practice different languages on him, any and every practice can make a difference. Lastly, this boi is always wanting some kind of snuggles. He loves to kiss your cheek, and hand holding would be his favorite. Oh, also, be prepared for a lot of prince like knuckle kisses. 

NCT: Johnny 

Okay so, I’ve said this in other ships but, it’s a perfect opener. You and Johnny would be a little intimidated and scared of each other when you would first meet. Both of your RBF would shine through, so it would be a game of time for you both to express your feelings for each other. Johnny would be the first to say something. You would have to take some time to spill the beans since you have difficulties with expression emotions and that’s okay! Also, Johnny wouldn’t be quick to give up. Before you would spill the beans, Johnny would know you had feelings for him. Although you didn’t say any words, your feelings would be expressed through your actions. The amount of time and effort you would put into Johnny would say more than enough to him. You would pick up on little details on things he would like or take a certain interest in him that Johnny would think would be super sweet. Johnny is smart, so he knew to stick around, and of course when you were ready, you would tell him how you felt about him. After you would spill the beans with him, you two would become love sick puppies. Wrapped around each others pinkies and you’re also constantly gushing over each other. I can also see you constantly gushing over how Johnny is the best boyfriend ever. Mr. Seo here would be so considerate and he would do what you did before you started dating. He is always wanting to surprise you- they’re his thing. Whether it be flowers, lunch, bringing you your favorite snacks or drinks, Johnny has got some surprises for you. Another surprise that Johnny would call “his specialty” would be travel trips! What he would do is, he would take you with him when NCT would travel. Whether it be around the country(you can imagine your location wherever you want) or abroad, as soon as Johnny would get the okay, he is coming at you to pack your bags. Of course you wouldn’t always be able to go with him, but you best believe that this boy would always bring you souvenirs back. The boys would also absolutely adore you, so they would always be more than happy to have you tag along. Taking pictures is #1 on your priority list when you’re traveling, and after you would get home from the trip, you and Johnny would make a little scrapbook of all the pictures. You would also keep track of the best places/entertainment spots you’d visit so you could go there again if you traveled there again. Lastly, PDA wise, Johnny would always have you wrapped around him. You’d be like his teddy bear, and you would fit around him perfectly, and he also loves to rest his chin on the top of your head. 

WayV: Kun 

This is my first WayV ship+write for WayV ever, I am so excited! So, much like Jimin and Johnny, I want you to think about puppy love through this ship like I said, that’s the theme of this ship. You and Kun are two smiley babes ftw. Starting out, Kun would be a little intimidated by you at first. When he took that first look at you, you were this beautiful, powerful woman and he would be shy- but this boy has two hands. Kun is more than qualified to told a powerful woman like you in his hands. Music would be the center of your relationship. There would be so much bonding between you two when it came to music. I can not even imagine how many all nighters you and Kun would have spent in a music studio. Whether you would be listening to music, studying different types of music, or even making music, music is everything. Those three am nights are always the most memorable as well since you can remember the nights when you two were basically delirious from exhaustion and you would be the cutest little pups giggling over something silly, wrapped up in a blanket together. There would be a couch in the studio where you two would snuggle and you two would keep a stack of pillows and blankets beside the couch in preparation for a long night. Some great take out and a microwave for reheating is also the cherry on top for the perfect all nightery by the way. There would also be nights where some of the WayV members would tag along with you two, and it’d be like a huge sleepover because the boys would litter the floor with their bodies, some of them even sleeping in the recording box. Also, just in general, the studio would be the place where you two would go to relax at. You two would lay together, eyes closed in the quiet, having much needed healing time when your weeks would get stressful. Moving along, but keeping the music theme, you and Kun would collab a lot. You would LOVE to make choreography for Kun’s music, and tbh, this bub would light up like an absolute Christmas tree. He’d think it would be so sweet. And, if a song was too slow, it’d be a fun project for you two to do and remix the song so you could make choreo to it- you geniuses. Also, I can not forget about the Kun and the WayV members wanting to teach you the choreo to their songs. That would also be a fun time. And once in a bull moon, I can see you getting the chance to help make some choreo for WayV for comebacks! Lastly, I feel like Kun would have reserved PDA. He would show enough love to get the point across, but he wouldn’t be overly flashy ya know? And ps, this boy may be all sunshine and sweetness, but he is not afraid to be protective over you. 

~STA

[phil-fiction]

Serious Business

Summary: Dan always thought Phil looked good in a suit

Word Count: 3.6k (holy fucking shit)

Tags: Smut, finally. Role playing? Bottom!Dan, Top!Dom!Phil. Businessman!Phil kind of, Secretary!Dan kind of, Aftercare.

A/N: First time writing smut. Don’t be nice, I know it’s extremely horrible. I sometimes find it weird writing it? I’m sure I’ll grow out of it, tbh. Also the role playing? Idk what I’m doing man. Anyway,enjoy! (Excuse me if I made any mistakes!)

- Runa

Everyone knew both Dan and Phil were socially inept. It was them and it was a significant part of their separate brandings. They had hard times properly functioning physically and mentally during social situations. It was almost inevitable for them to act as maladroit while in public or when the situation has to do with socializing. However, they two did have certain situations where they would most definitely take the lead.

Dan is a rather talkative person, whereas Phil is more reserved and laid-back, overall quiet. Dan mostly takes it upon himself to carry out a conversation while trying to be socially friendly and trying his best not to fuck up when speaking. The meet and greets during the tour is an example of those situations. Dan kept the conversation and friendly vibe in order for no one to feel too awkward while Phil’s overall welcoming vibe could put anyone at ease. Dan’s specialty was just talking, even if he made a complete fool out of himself. He enjoyed taking the lead in circumstances such as these and takes pride at how well he is able to withhold not being six feet filled with awkwardness.

Phil, however, took lead in more serious situations. Phil was a lot better at being professionally adept and puts more effort into more serious predicaments involving their personal lives. Phil finds himself somewhat proud of that, even liking the fact Dan considers it so “dad-esque”. Of course he enjoyed socializing for the fun of it, when he’s not being completely awkward, but he prefers to watch and listen rather than joining in. He enjoys doing the important adult stuff because he figures it made him feel a lot more mature and proficient at something at least.

Dan always found it attractive when Phil was being really serious and tried his best to be as professional as possible. He loved how serious his face would be or how stoic he would appear while dealing with serious situations. His voice would get deeper and his posture was all of a sudden straighter and he radiated a dominant energy that turned Dan on. It was almost like the attitude of a businessman and Dan couldn’t love it any more.

Phil as a businessman? How hot would that be?

Although they essentially are businessmen due to their careers, he would love to see how Phil would act if he ran his own business.

How would he look in a suit?

The thought alone sent a shiver down Dan’’s spine as he thought of Phil wearing a tailored suit, hugging him in all the right places and accentuating the broader parts of his body. He could imagine an expressionless face looking down upon him in a condescending way and it only excited him more.

He’d always thought about what it’d be like if Phil really was a businessman.

Would I be his sexy secretary?

That thought made him bite his lip. He imagined it vividly. Phil being the wealthy, handsome older man that he yearned for daily, and him being the sexy secretary Phil wanted to fuck on every surface.

He’d love for Phil to fuck him on every surface with his suit on. That was a vision.

I need to go shopping.

It wasn’t exactly easy keeping what he’d bought out of Phil’s sight. He really wanted to keep this a secret from him up until he was ready to do what he planned.

He really bought a suit to fulfill his Phil fantasy and he had absolutely no regrets about it. It was a generic suit consisting of black slacks, a white button up shirt and a black blazer, but he pictured that Phil would still make it work somehow with his body.

Dan waited until Phil came home from the store where he was picking a few necessities for around the house. He stayed in the living room until he came through the door, where he greeted his boyfriend.

“Hey, Bear. I couldn’t get any soy sauce because they sold out so I just got us some marshmallows instead,” Phil told Dan as he came through the door.

How did he manage to be so cute and sexy at the same time?

Without answering, Dan took the bags from Phil’s hands and kissed him on the lips.

“Go upstairs and look at what I left for you?” Dan mumbled against Phil’s lips. Phil raised an eyebrow at his boyfriend, curious as to how he suddenly was feeling affectionate and weirdly horny when they’d only had sex the night before. “Please?”

Phil nodded and followed his boyfriend’s orders, climbing up the stairs to their shared bedroom to see what Dan had left for him.

Dan left the bags in the kitchen and quickly gathered the outfit he had hidden behind the couch. He quickly undressed until he was completely nude and took out the first article of clothing, which was a white button up blouse which showed just a tiny patch of skin on his stomach. Subsequently, he pulled out a black pencil skirt that reached his mid thigh. He quickly slipped them on with a pair of black heels that he felt would probably give him a hard time, but decided to go through with it for the sake of his fantasy with his sexy boyfriend.

He took a deep breath before making his way upstairs towards his and Phil’s bedroom.

The clicking against the floor made Phil furrowed his eyebrows in confusion. They quickly raised as his eyes widened when he finally saw Dan dressed up in a pair of black high heels.

He was absolutely speechless as he stared at his boyfriend in awe.

“Glad to see you back, Sir,” Dan told him with a warm smile on his face.

Phil was always open to trying new things in bed and really didn’t mind fulfilling one of Dan’s fantasies. It was something that made their sex life so great and he wouldn’t even bother to complain. They always wanted to find out the things they were into and not into in order for them to improve their sex life and spice it up a bit more rather than plain vanilla.

Vanilla wasn’t horrible. It never hurt to be vanilla every once in awhile, but they loved going all out and doing different things in bed whenever they had something in mind.

“Glad to be back, Daniel,” he replied, his voice all of a sudden deeper and huskier.

Dan got closer to him and although he was taller than him, he still felt as though Phil could dominate him by looking at him. His suit fit as well as he expected and he really couldn’t wait to just get on his knees already.

“There wasn’t really much to get done when you weren’t around,” Dan spoke, his voice low and silvery.

“Oh, really? I’m sure there was something you could have done to keep yourself occupied,” Phil looked at Dan in his eyes, his voice all of a sudden a lot more serious, which caused Dan to get excited. Phil’s gaze alone made the boy’s knees exceptionally weak and he wasn’t sure how long he’d be able to keep this up even though they’d barely started.

“Not without your permission, Sir,” Dan breathed.

“Wise of you, Daniel. Wouldn’t want you doing something without my knowledge and approval now would I?”

“No, Sir,” Dan bit his lip.

“Hm, I-” Phil was cut off by the sound of his phone ringing in his front pocket. He attempted to ignore it but Dan insisted he answered.

“Go ahead, Sir,” Dan didn’t mind his phone rang as it gave him an idea to start what he initially wanted.

Seeing as Dan was still playing his role with no complaints, he simply answered the phone call, “Hello.”

Dan tilted his head as he watched his boyfriend deal with what seemed to be an important phone call regarding something to do with their moving situation, considering they were still looking for houses to move into together. He saw this as the perfect opportunity to not exactly sabotage his boyfriend, but to keep his fantasy in mind.

He leisurely got down onto his knees, looking at his boyfriend in his face the entire time. He withheld eye contact as he softly placed his palm atop of Phil’s protruding bulge, watching as his breath hitched.

“Yes, we were considering a few more places in London,” Phil continued to speak on the phone as he watched Dan on his knees palming his cock through his pants. He admired how beautiful Dan looked on his knees in front of him; big brown eyes staring right into his own, plump ass on full display, and delicate large hands toying with his hard on.

Dan decided to test Phil further by unbuckling the pants and relieving Phil’s cock from the tight prison. He was always mesmerized by the size of his boyfriend and never understood how he managed to take all of him. Mouth watering, Dan pressed an open-mouth kiss over his clothed member, admiring how his boyfriend’s head slightly tilted back as his eyes dropped slightly.

“W-we are sure of staying in London, it’s a great city, really,” Phil continued to speak as Dan continued to kiss over Phil’s crotch.

Tired of the foreplay, Dan finally pulled down Phil’s boxers, revealing his bare cock. Licking his lips in anticipation, Dan looked up at Phil dead in his eyes as he took the tip into his mouth, sucking eagerly.

Phil let out a subtle breath as his hips slightly bucked in Dan’s mouth. He almost didn’t catch onto what the person on the phone uttered to him regarding their housing situations. He watched as his boyfriend licked him from base to tip, tonguing the slit when he got to the tip and delicately wrapping his lips around him again, sinking halfway down his length.

Somehow, however, Phil managed to get out a steady sentence in a formal and professional manner.

He watched as Dan hallowed his cheeks as he sunk down further, feeling his boyfriend breathe on his pubic hairs which sent a shiver up his spine. He gripped Dan’s head full of already disheveled curls, holding his head in place as Dan subtly glided is tongue at the base of Phil’s dick. 

“Uh, and h-how much would it be for that p-particular place?” Phil continued to question the person on the phone as he slowly pulled Dan off of his dick, keeping his curls in his grip. He roughly tilted his head up to look him in the eye, momentarily taking the phone from his ear and pressing his forefinger to his lips, indicating for Dan to be quite. 

Phil presses his socked foot against the front of Dan’s now tight skirt, causing the younger man to let out a tiny gasp as his eyes rolled back. Yanking his head by is hair, Phil made Dan keep eye contact with him as he teased the boy on his knees with his foot.

Dan absolutely loved it when Phil got all dominant. Him in the suit just made him more attractive and Dan really wanted Phil to fuck the lights out of him.

Phil pressed his foot harder against Dan’s chafing erection. Dan leaned forward to take Phil into is mouth once more, softly humming at the fixation. 

“Thank you so much. Goodbye,” Phil concluded his phone call and threw it on the bed across from him, pulling Dan off of his dick once again by his hair, causing a guttural moan to emit pass his lips. He ticked as he watched the boy beneath him, “that wasn’t very nice now what is, Daniel?” 

Dan licked his lips and he shook his head in Phil’s hold, “N-No, Sir.”

“You know it is very impolite to interrupt me while I am working,” Phil patronized the boy as he ran his hand through his hair and a finger over his lips, his thumb getting caught between the younger’s lips, “I might have to punish you,”

The word alone sent Dan into a different stage of euphoria, “Yes, please,” he breathed. 

“Go on, then,” Phil let go of Dan as he instructed him to go onto the bed, which Dan obliged to. He settled upon his wide spread knees and already weak arms as he waited for Phil to begin his “punishment”. 

He could feel the coolness on his back from how damp it may be through the blouse he wore. Everything felt hot; hotter than usual. Phil made him feel so hot and he fucking lived for it. 

He felt the bed dip behind him as he felt Phil’s body press up against him. He felt his bare cock against his still clothed ass and he so desperately tried to push back onto him, which earned him a harsh slap to the ass, causing him to let out a loud moan and collapse onto his chest, resulting in his back to arch even deeper. 

Phil ran his hand over his ass, then his perfectly arched back. He pushed the skirt up onto Dan’s lower back, exposing his bare ass. He hummed as he caressed it. 

“No underwear, Daniel?” Phil questioned, the cockiness and excitement perfectly evident in his husky, deep voice. 

Dan shook his head as his breathing accelerated, “No, Sir.”

Without saying another word, another harsh slap was given on Dan’s bare rear, causing the boy to yelp in pleasure.

“P-Please, Sir,” Dan begged as his boyfriend pushed up against him once more.

“Please what, Daniel?” 

“Please fuck me. Please,” Dan breathed heavily as he pushed back onto his boyfriend, pleading both verbally and physically. 

Dan heard the significant ‘pop’ of a bottle cap, instantly getting excited. He felt a finger circling his fluttering rim as he spread his legs even wider. Without warning, Phil pushed in the first finger, beginning to stretch Dan for his cock. Shortly after, he inserted the second finger, scissoring Dan open. 

Dan let out tiny pants and pleas as Phil prepped him, only wanted him to get his dick in him as soon as possible.

Phil then inserted a third finger, leaving Dan with a small burn of both pain and pleasure, which sent him wild. They may have had sex the day before, but Phil still wanted Dan to be properly stretched.

“Please. Please, please, please, Sir,” he begged Phil. His legs were shaking and he already wanted to release even though they’d barely started. 

Phil pulled his fingers out of Dan, once again opening the lube and coating his dick with it, lining himself up with Dan’s hole.

Dan whispered tiny pleas as Phil pushed into him slowly.

“More, more, please,” Phil obliged and quickly thrusted fully into him once, making Dan let out a long, throaty moan. Phil stayed still for a while until Dan began squirming for him to begin.

“Please move, please, Sir,” he moaned.

Wasting absolutely no time, Phil pounded into Dan forcefully, gripping his hips and pulling him back onto his cock.

“Ah, ah, yes,” Dan moaned loudly as he gripped the sheets tightly, pushing his head down into the bed and muffling his noises. 

Phil loved it when Dan was loud. He took pride in the fact that he was able to make Dan make those noises. It always gave him a feeling of possessiveness and domination that he loved. 

“Sir, faster, please, ah,” Dan whined. Phil placed one hand between Dan’s shoulder blades and one on Dan’s lower back, fucking into the younger boy faster and harder. 

“Oh fuck, yes Sir, yes,” Dan cried out as he pushed back on Phil. 

Phil let out little grunts as he threw his head back in pure pleasure, loving the way Dan was tightening around him, swallowing his cock like he was made for it. He fucked Dan, basking in how good his dick felt gliding in and out of Dan’s warmth, almost wanting to cum on the spot, but not until Dan did.

Phil grabbed Dan by his head full of curls, promptly lifting his body upwards and onto his lap. He pressed his lips close to the younger boy’s ear, panting and whispering and he lazy rolled his hips into Dan while Dan glided up and down Phil’s dick.

“You didn’t think I forgot about your punishment, did you Daniel?” Phil grunted in Dan’s ear as he continued to roll his hips up into Dan, almost hitting his prostate.

“Uh, ah fuck, no Sir,” Dan sobbed as he felt Phil’s tip brush his prostate. He slightly lifted himself up off of Phil’s cock to save him the orgasm, but was forcefully pulled back down, causing a moan to rip from his throat, “ah fuck, fuck, fuck, please, yes,” he threw his head back on Phil’s shoulder as Phil left tiny love bites all over his neck. 

“No cumming, baby,” Phil demanded as he wrapped a hand around Dan’s leaking member. 

Dan gasped as his dick finally received some attention, hands scrambling to grab somewhere, anywhere, before he lost his fucking mind. 

“No, no, please Sir, let me cum,” he cried as Phil’s hand worked on his cock slowly.

“Be good for me baby,” Phil told him as he continued to place love bites on his neck. 

He briefly pulled Dan off of his dick and turned him around, pushing him onto his back. He admired how fucked out his boyfriend looked; lips swollen from biting them, eyes lidded in pleasure, hair unkempt, and chest heaving in anticipation. 

“Fuck you look so good Daniel. So fucking good for me,” Phil uttered deeply to him as he pushed into Dan’s warmth once more.

“Just for you, Sir,” Dan moaned, arching his back as Phil pushed into him. His thighs were then pressed against his chest, allowing Phil to enter him deeper.

“Ah fuck, yes, Sir,” he moaned as Phil fucked into him hard and fast.

“So fucking beautiful, Daniel,” Phil breathed, groaning as he fucked into his boyfriend. 

“Sir, m’close, m’so fucking close,” Dan cried as he felt his release approach him.

“Hold it, Daniel. Be good for me, love,” Phil groaned. Dan looked so fucking good in his outfit he almost forgot this was a little fantasy of his.

Dan, however, fucking loved how broad Phil looked in his suit. Watching the older man fuck into him with his button up and blazer still on made his eyes roll back into his head. 

Phil re-positioned Dan’s legs and wrapped them around his waist. He unbuttoned the first few buttons of Dan’s blouse to access his chest, leaving multiple love bites on it.

Dan wrapped his arms around Phil’s neck as he continued to get roughly thrusted into. He was moaning into Phil’s ear, causing Phil to only groan at how sexy he sounded. His voice was slightly hoarse at how loud he was being and Phil loved it.

“Fuck, you’re so beautiful, Daniel. So fucking good. All mine,” Phil grunted in the other’s ear as he crashed his lips onto his lovers.

Dan moaned on Phil’s lips as Phil hit his prostate dead on, arching his back and his eyes rolling to the back of his head.

“Uh, fuck, yes. Your’s, Sir. Only your’s,” Dan’s voice wavered as he was nearing the most mind blowing orgasm he’ll probably ever have. He pulls off Phil’s blazer and runs his hands up his button up shirt, not even bothering to unbutton it, and reaching his hands to his back, scratching on it.

Phil groaned loudly as his thrusts became for erratic and rough, approaching his orgasm even quicker.

“Fuck, I’m gonna cum. I’m gonna fucking cum, Sir, please,” Dan sobbed loudly as his legs trembled severely. 

“Cum, baby. Cum for me,” Phil groaned in his ear. They press their lips together almost desperately as Dan comes first, the orgasm running though his body intensely as he sobs out loud moans, pulling Phil closer to him as his legs shook around the older man’s waist, feeling weaker and weaker. 

Phil’s thrusts get slower and deeper as he subsequently releases into Dan moaning out loudly on his boyfriend’s lips, pulling away to catch him breath as he rests his head in the crook of Dan’s neck.

The two took a while to recuperate from their intense orgasms. Phil then rolled off of Dan, ridding himself of the rest of the clothes that he had on as Dan laid in a post-orgasm daze. His mind was blank as everything seemed so surreal to him. 

Phil knew Dan would get like this afterwards, so he didn’t bother to get him up just yet. He took off the remainder of Dan’s clothes and threw both of their damp clothes into the laundry. He went into the bathroom and got a wet cloth, wiping himself down, then going to wipe Dan down afterwards, figuring they’d take their baths and change their sheets when they woke up from their inevitable nap. 

Phil got Dan some water and allowed him to take a few sips from it, putting him back to lie down next to him. 

“You alright?” Phil questioned the younger softly as he played in his hair. Dan nodded and smiled softly with his eyes still half lidded.

“Mhm. Very. Fuck, that was so good,” Phil chuckled at his boyfriend.

“Wouldn’t mind doing it again sometime,” he shrugged. Dan looked up at him and grinned.

“You do look pretty sexy in a suit,” his hoarse voice uttered as he snuggled closer to his boyfriend. Phil took him closer and wrapped his arms around him tighter.

“Mm. I’ll keep that in mind. Heels make you look good by the way,” Dan scoffed.

“I’m not fucking wearing those again,” he told Phil as he snuggled into his chest. Phil laughed lightly. 

“I guess the skirt will suffice for now,”

“Yeah, it better.”

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After a delay for the holidays, I’m excited to share the lovely Carole @padfootagain is this week’s writer of the week! So excited to share her story with you all. Check out her blog and read some of her wonderful writings. Send some love this week as January is @faficowrimo as well!

An admin note as well: wotw will be posted Sundays each week from now on.

Tell us a little about yourself.

Well, hello! Thank you for doing this, this is so much fun!

So, my name is Carole, aka padfootagain. I am 23, I’m French and I am doing a PhD in nanomaterials (basically, chemistry). I have a Master’s degree in Physics and Chemistry, with a specialty in Nanosciences and I am doing a PhD because I want to be a researcher :)  I love cinema in general, books, music and drawing. And obviously, I love writing :) I have fallen a few years ago in the pit of fandoms, and I don’t think I’ll get out of it, not that I want to, to be honest. Which explains why I write fanfictions!

What do you currently write?

Oh dear… I write for quite a lot of fandoms. It started with the Marauders (so HP) and it got completely out of hand and now I also write for Narnia, the MCU, Star Wars, Doctor Who, Sherlock, Stranger Things, Poldark, LOTR and a handful of characters played by Ben Barnes (yes, I’m a fan of this actor). I also write for a few actors. I write original stories that are not fanfics as well. And I write both one-shots and series, long and short. I have a tendency to write more than I intended to at first :) I write with reader-insert and OCs alike.

When did you start writing? Do you remember your first piece of fan fiction? What was it about?

I don’t remember a time when I wasn’t writing, really. I think that as soon as I was able to use a pen, I started writing. I’ve always loved stories and had a wild imagination, so it was a good way to control my crazy brain (it still is).

The first real piece of fanfiction that I posted is a Jily, Sirius Black x OC fic that I posted on fanfiction.net (I wasn’t on tumblr yet at the time), and it is a very long one… 70 chapters. I liked it very much tbh and I took around a year and a half to write it. It was basically about their 6th and 7th year at Hogwarts.

But if you want the real funny story, then the first piece of fanfiction I wrote was when I was seven. And I had no idea what a fanfiction was, at the time, obviously, but without knowing it I actually wrote one! We had to present a book for school, and I wanted to present Peter Pan, because it was my favourite book. But one of my classmates stole my idea and presented this book first, and I was very upset about it. I tried to negotiate with my teacher, but he didn’t want me to present that book, saying that I couldn’t present the same story as one of my classmates.

Huge mistake from my teacher here. He said I couldn’t talk about the same story, not the same characters! So I wrote a story with Peter Pan and I presented it to the class! It was about a treasure hunt and I did drawings for it and everything. I still have it. It was ridiculous but I reckon the story is funny. And that was my first fanfic!

Why reader insert?

I find reader inserts very interesting. When I started on tumblr, and learnt about that way of writing, I had spent around two years writing for OCs, and I was looking for a challenge, honestly. So I started to write one-shots, when before I had only written very long series. And I also tried reader inserts as another challenge. It requires to change your style of writing quite a lot and to be careful not to reveal details so readers can identify with what you’re writing. And I love doing it! I’ve never liked very much describing my OCs in terms of appearance, so it was quite liberating, as with reader insert I had to avoid that. Also, I write series with that style, because even if you have to try to not describe how this Y/N looks like, I’ve never considered that I shouldn’t develop her/his personality any less than for an OC. So I still have fun creating characters, I just change my style of writing, really. And even if now there’s not really any challenge in that anymore for me, I still use it all the time. Also, on a purely practical way… I don’t like choosing names for my OCs and this is the best solution! Especially for one-shots. I have more than 200 stories on tumblr, I would have never been able to choose so many names!! So… there is also this lazy part of me :)

If someone wanted to get into your writing, what piece would you have them start with and why?

Ooooh… that is a good question… I write quite a lot of fluff. I don’t write any smut at all. I do write some things with angst too (I’m a writer, I like torturing my readers from time to time, like any writer), but I also love writing fluff. I think that lots of people are snobbing the sweet stories nowadays, but I love a good happy ending, and some cute moments, and a love story that is sweet and ends with a ‘and they lived happily ever after’. Call me cheesy, if you’d like, I’m proud to be so!

So… I guess that a good one to start would be a series that I wrote for Caspian (Narnia), called A Recipe For Love. It’s pretty popular, amongst my readers, I think. It’s very cute, and has a bit of angst too. It’s about Caspian falling in love with a cook working in his Castle. I think it’s a good start for my stories.

You are currently working on a winter event filled with delightful seasonal themed prompts. Tell us more about that!

I very often organize events on my blog, because I love talking with my readers and I want to make them happy! So, to celebrate the winter season and the fluff that goes with it, I wrote a list of prompts, and my readers can pick up a few of those prompts, and a character from my masterlist, and I write a little one-shot for them :) They can’t send requests anymore, it was for a limited time, but I’m writing the stories now! I’m going to keep doing this for a few weeks. I just love writing cute stories, really… ;)

What are your goals for your writing moving forward?

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I’d like to finish the series I’ve started… Is that a goal? I don’t have goals when it comes to writing tbh. I just write what inspires me and makes me happy! I don’t pretend to be talented enough to be published, and I only write because I love it. So, I don’t have goals. I just want to enjoy myself, and I hope that the love I pour into my stories transpires enough to make a few people happy too :)

What are you currently reading?

I am reading a very cute book called Let It Snow, which is composed of three love stories taking place during a blizzard. It was written by John Green, Maureen Johnson and Lauren Myracle. It’s very sweet and very funny, I like it! It goes with the season :)

Do you have any advice for new writers?

Several people asked me for advice before, and I even made a few posts about that, but tbh… the best advice that I could give is to know when you should not care about advice.

When I started to really write a lot and to create long stories (not as fanfictions, but other stories) I was on my own. And I loved writing them, but as I could feel that it was a serious thing to me, I looked for advice on the internet. I thought that it couldn’t hurt, and that having advice from professionals could help me getting better. But actually, I realized that my way of writing was completely different from the advice I read! Especially, I’ve always hated to plan my stories. And everyone will advise you to plan your story. So, I tried to follow this advice, and a few others, thinking that I was doing it all wrong before. But it completely killed the joy I had for writing. I was asking myself tons of questions, and trying to apply rules that clearly didn’t fit me, and I ended up stopping to write for more than a year. Until one day, I started to write something else, deciding not to take into account the advice that I had seen before. And here I am. Not planning my stories, and having no clue of where I’m going, and having too many ideas for my own good, but I’m writing. And I’m enjoying what I write and I love writing these stories.

Now, I’m not saying that all advice are bad. But I think that when you just start writing, you look up to other writers and try to use the same techniques as they do, which is normal. And it’s important at the beginning to try tons of styles and ways to write to find your own way to write. But you shouldn’t forget that you and this writer you admire are different people, and your brains don’t work the same! There’s no shame in writing your story your own way, even if your favourite writer doesn’t write like that at all! On the contrary. I think it’s important to stop torturing yourself trying to get something perfect, and just actually write something you want to write and, more importantly, the way that makes you the happiest. And if you have to write your story without any plan and make a mess to do it, then I think that you should do it. Writing is such a liberating thing, it’s a shame to lose this freedom and joy because you’re trying to fit in categories and techniques. Just write what you like, the way you like, and you’ll be a happier writer :)

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[flemmie]

Are You Ready?

I hope this is good. Those who follow my blog, betcha didn’t know I could write. tbh, I’m really proud that I wrote something this long, and with as much detail as I can, but at the same time I feel it’s not enough and I’m not fully happy with it. But hey, I wrote the best I could. After all, I’m only 14. I’m not a professional writer.

 This beautiful sander sides au belongs to @the-pastel-peach. 

This is about what happened before the animatic. Some phrases in here were inspired by The pastel Peach. !!Please do correct me for any mistakes, whether it be punctuation, grammar, spelling!! It’s quite long so get comfortable to read. Hope you enjoy. 

A knock at the large doors to the castle library. The King took his gaze up from a book to see a man with chestnut brown hair, with white, formal attire, red scarf draped over his shoulder and around his waist.

“Hello, Roman, what brings you here?” setting aside his book, placing his hands in his lap. Clearing his throat, and preening at the small kind “hello”, he stepped further into the library. The library was a place to bestow, although other rooms could easily override the library, it still seemed to be the Kings favorite place. Bookshelves as tall as you could possibly imagine, lined against walls and walls of the room, books you can read till your heart contents. The library has been here for generations and generations, books held by queens and kings, princes and princesses. Most covers seem worn down, but it gave them more specialty to them, made them all the more astonishing. Tables lined in the center as a seating area for those who wish to spend hours away here, just like one King.

“Your majesty” bowing and kneeling, hand on chest, in respect, and showing him a simple smile at his presence.

“Please, no need for my dearest friend to bow down” The King had said. Roman walked closer to him, taking a seat in the chair across from him.

“I just wanted to see what you’ve been up to, reading as usual” he placed his hands together on the table, running his thumb over his other hand, seeming has if he’s falling into his thoughts. “Thomas…” Roman spoke, with a sigh, not knowing whether he will get the answer he wanted or not by his king. He noticed Thomas had his crown set aside on the table. Roman never understood why he hardly wore that crown, Thomas would always take it off whenever he had a chance. It was something to be proud of Roman thought, if it were him, he’d where that crown with pride, possibly even in his sleep.

Roman and Thomas had been close friends for a long time; they’ve grown up together, and Roman had always looked at Thomas as if he was the luckiest person alive. To be a prince, and to grow to be a king. It’s something Roman dreamed of for years to come. He never failed to remind Thomas he was the luckiest person ever, but Thomas had always resented that idea. He never felt lucky, but he never entirely hated that he was to be a king. Thomas was willing to take that role for his people, he had always been the one to put his care aside for others, and if his people wanted him as king, so be it. As they grew, Roman slowly lost hope that he could ever be king or prince. He learned at a fairly young age that he had to have royal blood to be king or prince, or even marry a royal family member, but he never looked at Thomas that way.

The closet he could get was a royal knight, and as soon as he was at age, he trained and trained, and soon became Thomas’ loyal knight. He was happy for that, but still deep down inside, he yearned for that higher role. A king.

With a sigh, Roman spoke “I know I’ve asked you every possible way, but please...!” looking up, and giving Thomas his fullest eye contact. Thomas could see the plea in his eyes, he knew exactly what was to come out of Romans mouth next. “Was there any- anyway I could have been a prince, a king, if you truly never intended or gave a slight interest in being one, that I could have taken up the role before you had?”

Thomas sighed, feeling pity for his friend. All he could do was give the same answer, the true answer, the only answer he gave for years. “Roman, I’m sorry, but you know the rules. You have to have royal blood or marry into the castle. I know for sure, you do not want to marry someone you don’t truly love just for the royalty. I’m sorry, but there is no other way.” He leaned in, placing a comforting hand on Romans, in hopes to reassure him that he gives him his best wishes for it to be some easier way.

A knock had grabbed their attention. Turning to see who it had been, it was Logan, yet another one of their closets and dearest friends. They had met him on the day of Thomas’ correlation. He was introduced to Thomas as his royal advisor. They soon became close, and grew their friend group.

“Sorry to bother you, your majesty, but you’re needed greatly.” Logan pushed his glasses up, making sure he stood formally, hands placed behind back, making sure he showed his respects for the King. He had the same shade of hair as the others, but his was smoothed back, in his way of formal. Logan rarely kneeled down in the presence of Thomas, he had already understood Thomas’ wishes for him not to.

“Please, just call me Thomas, Logan. I’d appreciate it if you remember that as well as the kneeling thing. I’ll be right there” Logan nodded, waiting for Thomas. Standing up, and placing his crown back upon his head, he gave Roman a reassuring smile. Roman returned it, watching Thomas walk off to wherever it is his royal presence is needed.

Cursing himself, he placed his head in his hands, feeling this deep feeling of great sorrow and disappointment for receiving the same answer he had always heard. A long sigh flowed from his mouth, as he looked out the large, colored stained window, that viewed over the town.

“Could I ever be a good king to start with?”

-

A walk through the forest was a good idea Roman thought, and surely it was. He had come across this man, eyes as uneasy as a snake, scales that line half his face, and cynical grin. This man had promised to grant his deepest wishes, to be a king, a prince, a royal ruler. Roman was suspicious of this man, someone out of nowhere simply told him he can make his wish come true. But his suspicions were soon gone, as this was all his last bit of hope could hold onto. The yellow eyed man had given him a fairly large bouquet of the most astonishing, beautiful roses he had ever seen.

“Give each person you see a rose. Reign over you own kingdom, for they shall kneel down in your kindness, see you a promising king. After all, a king needs loyal civilians”

“A… a king?” Roman spoke, with disbelief, under a soft voice, falling into thought. Him a king, it was something hard to believe after what he had been told his whole life. But of course it was something easy to believe, start his own kingdom, how could he have never thought of that. He thanked the eerie man, ready to turn back to the town and hand out roses to those he believed would make good people for his kingdom. People really did love him for the gifts he gave, he was slightly surprised with how much roses he could handout, but was greatful.

He attempted to give one to Logan, and yet another one of his dearest friends, Patton, a rose. Patton was just a simple staff that worked in the castle, always there to brighten up things with his bubbly personality. He was always the perfect one to talk to about emotions, he knew how to handle them. He made someone smile even when they were deep, deep into their sorrows.

Logan simply declined, saying “I don’t need a simple trinket to know the admirable affection you have, as my friend, for me. I do appreciate the thought though.”

It was weird for Patton to decline a rose, normally he accepts any gift given to him, but he had stated “Oh, I’m sorry Roman, I don’t need a rose from you… because I already have seven vases full of flowers you gave me over the years! Sure they may dead, but that doesn’t mean I won’t still love them. And I sure as heck won’t stop loving you when you’ve died. And It’s just, I don’t really like roses, they hurt, you know?” with the usual chuckle he gave, he patted Roman on the back.

Weeks after he had given out the roses to whomever took one, the man had appeared again, in town. Roman was browsing the markets for foods, for his home. The man had a hood on, hiding as if he was a wanted man. He took Roman to a secluded place, and took out this rose flower crown from under his cape. It was a beautiful crown, Roman flushed at the thought of wearing something oh so beautiful.

“What is a king without a crown” He said, placing the flowers upon his head. Roman, yet again, thanked him for the flower crown, but before he could walk away, he fell to the ground in excruciating pain. Something was digging into his scalp, it burned, it stung, and couldn’t help but hold his head tight, howling in pain.

The scaled man began laughing in a cynical way, howling laughter with Romans screams. “I promised you a kingdom, I never said I’d Give you an entirely new one.”

Those were the last he heard of that man, he vanished. Those who had the roses, and ever pricked by the thornes through the weeks, soon acted in a zombie like daze. The flowers upon his head drained of the beauty they once held, now wilted and pitch black. Roman, soon calming down, no longer in pain, but a urge to dominate over this kingdom that already stood upon him. He stood to his feet turning to see the castle in the distance, with the coldest look, smirking, he began his journey towards it.

-

Bursting through the doors of the library, he had found who he was looking for, Thomas. He was standing, crossing his arms in worrisome, looking out the window at his people, wondering what was going on. A group of people walking towards the castle, banging on the entrance, fighting past guards. Thomas worried. Seeing the group of people building, he soon realized something was up. Quickly turning around to fetch the other guards, he stopped at the sight of Roman.

An evil glint in his eyes, sending shivers through Thomas. Walking up to the window, he gazed at the people Thomas was just looking at, humming in satisfaction.

“Roman, what is going on. Why aren’t you down there? People are gonna get hurt!” Thomas spoke.

“Hmm… is that so?” Roman spoke in a nonchalant tone, keeping his gaze through the window. Thomas stayed silent, wondering what could possibly be going through this mans head to seem so careless. Roman turned to Thomas, looking him up and down.

Thomas soon felt worry for his friend, he didn't look like himself once he got a closer look at him. “Roman-”

“Quiet!” His voice echoed, silencing Thomas immediately. “Come with me” he spoke more calmly.

“No, Roman, what the hell is going on with you. What is going on with my people. They need you! You need to be the guard you trained for” He stepped closer to Roman, daring to get in his face. Sighing, Roman pulled his sword out of the scabbard that was attached to his side. Pointing it forward, forcing Thomas to step back, the tip of the sword against his throat.

“I need to be the king I dreamed of, the king you denied me of, the king you could have easily given to me, because you never cared for it to start with. This will now be my kingdom, your majesty”  Cooing the last words in a mocking tone, followed by a smirk.

-

Virgil. He was just a simple messenger boy, but he was much more. He was the best friend of Logan, Patton, and possibly the love of Roman. Virgil was never the most upbeat person you’d meet, he could possibly bring down the moods of those who were happy at first with what would spill from his mouth. He was never one to strike up conversation. But as a kid, he had found those who saw he was more than just a walking ball of anxiety. They were willing to look deeper. He was thankful for the friends he had made, even if he wasn’t the one who spoke first.

He was heading towards the castle, doing his job, when he noticed people walking strangely in groups up to the castle. Workers simply dropping what they had in hand, mothers leaving their children, lovers hand in hand, etc. They all began their march for the Castle. Strange, he thought.

He tried not to think much of it, and leave it to the guards, he just wanted to continue his job and get paid. That’s all he cared for. He never really took it upon himself to care for others issues. (besides his dearest friends) He was soon stopped when he saw Logan striding towards him in the distance on a horse. “Logan?” Virgil spoke, voice practically cracking because it was the first word he spoke of that day. Again, he was never the social one.

“Virgil, thank goodness I found you as soon as I can. I figured you’d be on your job, delivering messages to the castle” (I don’t know what entirely a message boy in medieval times did, so I’m writing what I think they did) The horse seemed a bit frightened at what was going on, more and more people headed towards the castle. Logan was calming the horse, as she trotted and neighed trying to run elsewhere. He patted her and shushed her in a calming voice.

“What’s going on? Why did you need to see me? And also, why are there people fleeing the town, and some herding towards the castle?” the questions that filled his head but refused to spill, soon came spilling out.

“Hop on, I’ll explain the whole predicament when we get to our destination” reaching his hand out, Virgil took it, climbing on the horse behind him. “Hold on” Logan said, and he did so, wrapping his arms around Logan’s waist. Virgil rarely rode horses, he knew how, but he was never keen for the idea. He still never got used to the bumpy ride they gave.

What the hell is going on here? Is something that serious happening? Virgil thought. As they rode to wherever Logan was taking them too, he noticed those fleeing, they were running, pushing one another, trampling over the unlucky ones, leaving them probably broken and bruised on the ground. Virgil felt a wave of pity for them, he almost wanted to hop off the horse and help those who were hurt by the madness that ensued.

Taking his gaze from the poor people, he noticed the sun was setting, night began to fall. The cold breeze sent shivers down his spin, knowing well something wasn’t right. He noticed the red scarf on the horse, between him and Logan, now realizing who’s horse this was. Roman’s. He grabbed it, filling with dread. Where was Roman, Virgil thought. His chest pained at the thought of what could possibly be happening to him. The breeze brushing through his hair, as Logan kept this focused and serious gaze.

-

It really was a large kingdom, it felt like they had been traveling for ages only to just find themselves at the outside of the kingdom entrance. People were gathered here, and as people who flee’d made their welcome. Others were calming the new comers, explaining what's happening. Virgil couldn’t help but overhear a woman tell her husband, who just made it with the kids “-did you hear? King Thomas had been kidnapped-”.

Virgil quickly turned to Logan, they were climbing off the horse. “Thomas was kidnapped?!” Virgil exclaimed, in shock, almost in anger. Logan turned to him, keeping a serious gaze.

“Yes, Virgil, he was kidnapped-” he cut him short

“Then where are the guards! They should be saving him!- Roman! He’s rescuing him right?!” Virgil couldn’t help but overthink things, what if Roman couldn’t, who’s attacking that’s so bad? What is happening! Roman. He had to save the day, he was the highest ranking guard there was. Virgil felt this dreaded gut feeling as if something happened to Roman. They had their best friend group, but Virgil was closet he could ever be to Roman, something about the boy who dreamed to be royal always caught his attention. How he’d dream the biggest of them all, how he had such passion for things, and how he never gave up hope. Virgil always loved that about him. Unlike Roman, Virgil always wanted to give up. If he couldn’t get it right, he was just gonna give up, but Roman was always there to change his mind, tell him to never give up, because the biggest mistake he could make in life is giving up to early.

Virgil remembers one moment, when Roman was still in training for a guard, Roman had taught him some of the tricks he had learned in training. He was full of pride, excitement, and confidence, and Virgil’s heart fluttered to see him so happy.

Virgil was soon brought from his thoughts when Patton ran up to him, and engulfed him in a hug. “Virgil! Thank god you’re okay. Just stay calm, everything's gonna be fine!” They held each other's gaze, calmness in Patton’s, worry in Virgil’s. Patton soon let him go. Virgil almost yearned for that comfort again, but put it aside.

Patton was always one to try and stay calm in situations as bad as this, he was always there for his friends when they find themselves lost. On days where Virgil was so upset, so sad, Patton was always there to pick him back up, help him walk his path again. Never did Patton let any of his friends lose their feeting. “Guys, explain to me, what’s going on?” Virgil spoke, calmed a bit.

“Roman… Roman has turned against us” Patton spoke.

“He’s holding Thomas hostage, forming an army. I tried to get some guards to go check on Thomas when I couldn’t find him in his usual area’s, I even tried to find him. But all the guards were busy trying to hold the people attempting to break into the castle, and cause more havoc than needed”

Virgil's heart sank. Why was he doing this? The Roman I know would never cause such chaos, sure Roman can get head over his heels, but he always made time for others, cared for others, Virgil thought. He turned back to the town, looking at the mess that was going on, wondering how this could have all been caused by Roman, so much passion he had seemed to have become obsession. “What happened to him? Why is he doing this?” He asked his two friends.

“We have no idea, Virge, were hoping the guards can get a hold of this. We evacuated out here in hopes to stay safe” You could almost hear the hopelessness in Patton’s voice, but he quickly covered it up.

“How long has everyone been here?” Virgil asked.

“For quite some time, Virgil” Logan answered, looking back at all the people with some pity. Children cling to their parents in spite of fear, others looking around for their family they lost, some even isolated from the group, mumbling a string of worries and prays.

“We need to fight back…” Virgil mumbled, thinking, eyeing all the people. He knew exactly what they can do.

“What?” Patton peaked his curiosity, not helping the slight smile from what he thought he heard.

“We need to fight back” He spoke louder, “we need to bring our friend back, h-he must have been corrupted or something. Do you really think Roman would do this out of nowhere?” Logan and Patton shared glances, agreeing.

“Then, we should prepare” Logan suggested.

“We should make our own army!” Patton gleamed with triumph.

“Yes, but we need to teach them how to weild a weapon, the proper dynamics on how they can strike an enemy…” Logan trailed off, on ways how to show their supposed new army.

“Logan, we don’t really have time for that” Virgil spoke, bringing him out of his thoughts, “We need to prepare now. Bring Roman back. Save. Thomas.”

He nodded, thus, began their preparations, for the rescue of their friends.

“Are You Ready?” Virgil smiled triumphantly, ready to prepare for the fight for their friends, and bring back the one he loved.

Animatic

[kuackity]

You saying that you smile when you see me in your notes means everything to me I'm gonna start crying awwww I'm so glad I was nervous maybe it came across as weird if I reblog too much from you I also smile whenever I see you on my dash 💖💓💝💗♥️💘🌸

Did you ever see that clip of cc!Quackity saying that his favorite dsmp character is c!Dream while his oc was still actively torturing c!Dream in the prison well that's us towards k!Quackity we are already assigning him a million traumas that he's probably gonna get in the server either way at the end

K!Quackity having a fear of pickaxes and mining and stuff it's going to be one of my headcanons for the whole series now

I can just picture Quackity checking time and time again that there's no scar in his face because he is In pain and he can feel it there but it's not there and other people have to reassure him all the time his face is fine

You know what would be even better if once fighting some mob k!Quackity did actually wind up getting a scar in that side of his face it would be the perfect irony I would love it

I'm very much into dsmp lore but my specialty I guess you can call it that it's c!Dream lore so tbh I don't really know very intensily about other characters

I also started as just I really love this cc and then I ended up getting incredibly attached to their character same thing happened with Techno so I understand the pink coloured glasses for them they are my little mewo meows they never done anything wrong

I think it's very normal to be scared of the dsmp fandom I think everybody who is in the dsmp fandom is scared of it -Drellumina Beloved

Drellumina! I am happy that you took it that way, I have always reblogged and never interacted with Tumblr in whatever fandom I was. So you are like the first person so I am cautious with which things are weird to say but I adore you ❤

I understand cc's Quackity, loving is angst <3

k!Quackity checking his reflection in lakes and pieces of shining armour so he can reassure myself and maybe a night, when he got closer to the lake he didn't see a monster nearby so getting up he got attacked, after killing the monster he gets once more close to the lake to see now his bleeding face, and he starts crying cause his paranoid mind cause him at last to make his dream come true and then he starts laughing cause FINALLY FINALLY IS THERE he has a reason now, its not a dream now, is real.

Mmmh why do I keep wanting yo write things? Fuck this earth.

I know! I noticed your dream reblogs, so yeah you are now like my only source of c!dream he is interesting to me but the discourse got me running away from him quickly, I am pretty non-confrontational so fights and similar being most of the time in a fandom are a no go for me when picking characters to love. In cc's I don't give a fuck cause it can't get that deep and most tumblr loves cc's is only in c! that things get weird for me.

[preciouslypristinepanda]

Venting Frustration

... not that I know how to talk about my frustration let alone write it into proper words. I can’t write eloquent words, pfft.

But, idk. I’m just in the mood to randomly talk about my obsession with Bruce Greenwood... wait no, Theo! Wait that’s not right, I meant Kal! Ergh, no, no, it’s the asshole David Bell, right? Wrong, it’s totally about Harry - hold on a sec, Nessa, they’re basically sharing the same face claim! Damn. My obssession with Bruce Greenwood isn’t even funny 😭 Binge watching his movies/tv shows obviously isn’t making it any better - I kept coming up with so much plots based on the feels I get from all the characters, waaa 😭 #imagonecase

President Theodore G. Rutherford or Theo as he is affectionately called. God damn it, he’s my favourite out of the five, no wait, six, yeah six characters that I’ve come up with thanks to all my insane feels. He’s easily my favourite for the fact that he managed to ticked off literally everything from my dream guy to marry in a heartbeat list! I basically went crazy and just threw in everything for Theo, all the traits that I love and find sexy as hell, everything that Theo is made up of is solely to satisfy my personal needs, HA! I mean come on, Air Force Pilot who had to resign because of war injuries, Lawyer with a specialty in Constitutional Law though I prefer Criminal Lawyers but it doesn’t fit his plot so the next best thing will do! Bahah. Married a girl with quite a big age difference only because I want to marry an older man too, sniff. Just wants to leisure fly his plane but then his Presidential ambition damn it, loves his expensive liquor and nicotine plus occasionally cigar though it’s obviously unhealthy to finish three packs of cigarettes a day but hey he’s sexy smoking those imported cigarettes, ok!? Can’t even scold his daughter because he’s smitten and would never raise his voice at his little girl. Designs jewelry for his wife because simply buying whatever Cartier can offer is just not good enough! Has the most impeccable fashion sense because wearing tailored suits and well-fitted ivy league outfit is always a good idea for man of his standings... I rest my damn case, here Theodore, have my heart on a gold platter.

And then we have this asshole David Bell.

I stole his surname. In my defense I was drowning in the sea of feels, I had to save myself, ok!? 😭 Marathoning The Resident within a day was the best thing I ever did, well next best thing after creating all the characters #2k18youvebeensogoodtomyfeels AHEM. So, let me just briefly introduce you to one of god’s createst creation that is David Bell - damn I love pronouncing his name - and what makes him worthy enough to be mentioned in this magnificent post of mine, hah. He’s an asshole but a sexy asshole, if he isn’t I wouldn’t be talking about him now, would I? So, David was the preferiti of Perk-Azaria Hospital’s - legit amazing name I came up with, eh? - Chief of Surgery to succeed him way back when he first met his third wife aka the love of his life, Natalie. Yes, he’s a twice divorced man who ended marrying a girl twenty years younger than him, in simple words, he’s a damn craddle robber. But hey, David totally didn’t start the flirting, guy doesn’t even give a shit after the second time seeing his divorce lawyer, lol. Natalie, goodness Natalie, I want to be her in sense that she had the balls to start the flirting, you know? It doesn’t matter that she’s actually Perk-Azaria’s heiress - ok, I kid, it mattered a lot because if she wasn’t David would’ve just indulged and ignored her, hah. - who totally would inherit the hospital one day and being her husband would give so, so much benefit. Of course, her family opposed to it but she loved him and he did eventually fell for her, who would’t!? She’s the definition of perfection, any man would be lucky to have even an inch of her, David is needless to say the luckiest son of a bitch to have her whole. So they married, he got the post he aimed for, life was supposed to be so damn good for them, right? So, so wrong. Throw in affairs, miscarriages, insane ex girlfriend, a brief meeting with death... YEAH. I have one chapter written for DAVID AND NATALIE. Maybe, it’ll be made online, who knows.

Look at that adowable face. Stahp it, Harry 🔥

So, umm meet President Harrison Wyatt aka Harry. He is so damn adorable, I just can’t! I know, I love Presidential characters, I’ve always wondered if it could be considered as a fetish? Hmm. Ahem, anyways, so Harry, goodness Harry. Thank you, National Treasure Book of Secrets - yeah, Nic Cage’s movies suck big time but thank you casting producer for casting Bruce Greenwood as the nerdy President who studied Historical Architecture in Harvard. Sniff. Lemme marry him. Harry’s plot is just so damn interesting. If Theo’s loosely based on JFK, Harry has 9/11 which tbh I know, it’s quite insensitive but I was watching documentaries and I thought of writing something that’s sort of based on it but not so? To clarify, I mean no harm, it’s just that tragedies tend to help when you’re a writer? Maybe it’s just me. I was watching The President’s documentary when the plot came rushing in... I thought, what if, the President was in that tower when it happened? How insane would that be, racing against literally everything just to get him out to safety. And then I saw the 9/11 (2017) trailer - would never watch it probably cause apparently it’s a disgrace to the memories so uh, I’ll skip - and how they’re trapped in the elevator, well hello plot, cue in the President attending a summit held at Sky Tower (yeah, I created my own fictional tower) in NYC when two planes crashed into it, trapping everyone that’s everyone including other leaders attending the damn summit! So yeah, President and his Secret Service details stucked in the elevator whilst the ones outside climb at least twenty sets of stairs to reach the floor they’re stuck on before whatever shit happens and they loose their President. Then when he’s out, that’s when conspiracies and all the dramas start to unfold because guess what? It’s the Generals starting civil war because Harry’s not listening to them... I named the story The Enemy Within, get it, get it? Hee. Oh btw, Harry’s married to a badass wife called Ingrid who looks like Jaimie Alexander circa long hair and also has twin children, Harley Kai who looks like twelve years old Tom Holland in The Impossible and Chloè Rhea whose face I borrowed from my favourite girl ever, Elle Fanning. So yeah, will work on the script, Harry might be threatened to be given a public execution but he made his Secret Service detail promise that he’d kill him before the enemy gets him because no way will he let his wife and children witness him being murdered live on every damn media platform. Yeap.

I love astronauts especially YOU.

Alex Powell, that’s what I named him. Air Force + Astronaut = Nessa is resting in peace. Right, for this plot, his occupation is entirely useless as it’s a horror thriller and I just need to make his CV look super good, ha. Where do I even start!? I mean, it’s all about ancestors evil spirits wanting to kill his daughter by possessing his pregnant wife and making everyone’s life a living hell until help came, epic exorcism before everyone lives happily ever after... or did they not? Who knows.

So uhh... I feel good typing all that. Really good.

[kingsofeverything]

Annual Writing Self-Evaluation

*All answers should be about works published in 2017.

1. List of works published this year: 

In the order that they were posted

Fall At My Door 

Collide

Mercedes Boy

The Oldest Magic Word 

With a Word (part 2 of FAMD)

Possessing All of Me (part 2 of MB)

It Had To Be You 

One of Many 

Stranded in a Dream

How Fast You Fall

Soft Wings

Has The Ocean Lost Its Way 

Splish Splash 

Don’t Want Shelter 

Wasted Like A Memory (part 2 of DWS)

Just Around the Corner 

Find You Home 

Sweating ’Til My Clothes Come Off

Number 84 

Let Me In (part 3 of DWS)

Admission

Intention

Resolution

2. Work you are most proud of (and why):

Don’t Want Shelter, definitely. The idea for it came to me over a year ago, and that was basically exes to lovers stuck in a hurricane together. I tried to write it earlier in the year and scrapped it. It was a completely different story and they were actually exes, but it just wasn’t working. RIP those 10k words. But I set out to write something with more emotion and I wanted to write something different and I feel like I succeeded. I’m very emotionally attached to their characters in DWS too. It’s been hard to get my head out of that universe.

I’m putting the rest under a cut because this got really long.

3. Work you are least proud of (and why):

Soft Wings. It was soooo hard to write at that time. I was just struggling to write anything at all and every single word of that fic was a giant pain in my ass. It was a bday gift and I actually decided not to do gift fics anymore because of how hard it was to write. The last gift fic I wrote was DWS and it was like 2 months late-- sorry about that @justafatbirdonaboat <3

4. A favorite excerpt of your writing:

So, this was actually difficult and I would rather include the sex scene I mention below in question 7, but it’s long and... it’s smut and I feel like dropping it in here with nothing leading up to it or after it takes a lot away from it. This is from DWS:

If he keeps himself busy enough, which he’s fairly successful with, he doesn’t have time to think about Harry and how once again he practically laid himself bare for absolutely no reason. It’ll fade, he knows that, but at the same time he doesn’t want it to. It’s how he finds himself going out of his way to some specialty store to find Harry’s organic cinnamon toothpaste. It’s why he bought some fancy vanilla candle for his bedroom. He’s fighting with himself over trying to forget and wanting to remember, because he knows that eventually it’ll be gone no matter what he wants. The toothpaste will be empty and the candle will burn down, and it’ll all become a distant memory.

5. Share or describe a favorite comment you received:

i got a super long and detailed comment on FAMD from one of my favorite drarry authors and bloggers that came at the perfect time when i was feeling really shitty about writing and also life in general. it was such a surreal thing for me because i was reading the comment and it was just super lovely and the whole time i was reading it i was like OMFG and fangirling lol

all of the comments on DWS from people who read it as a WIP. they were like some sort of super fuel for me. and it was... idk a special thing for me. i’ve never done a WIP before and idk if I ever will again. it just worked out with that fic because of the chapters and betaing etc. but every time i posted a chapter and people would comment on it, it was just... idk it meant a lot that anyone would follow along, i guess.

6. A time when writing was really, really hard:

Writing Soft Wings, so late May, and then again after I posted DWS, I struggled with Sweating ’Til My Clothes come off. That was Reason #14 and literally NO ONE wanted to write that prompt, so I took it. Mainly though, my struggles have been with fics that either I’ve abandoned (the old version of DWS) or my unfinished sci fic au.

7. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you:

i feel like everything i write surprises me. i’m constantly shocked that i write anything at all. i think that most of dws was surprising to me. i had a vague idea of what i wanted their personalities to be like, but the way they ended up was so much better than i thought they’d be. I MEAN, i legit thought that the entire fic would take place over 3 days and would end when the storm ended! and then the storm ended and i was like... wtf i’m not anywhere near finished with this. and then a scene specifically, umm... there’s a sex scene in ch 7 of dws that ended up being wayyyyyyyyyyy more emotional for me to write and it still makes me sad to read it. and i’m like 99.999999% sure if you’ve read that fic, you know what i’m talking about. i wrote that and immediately was messaging nic like “i’ve made myself sad with smut! what is wrong with me?”

8. How did you grow as a writer this year:

i’m much less messy, though i’m still messy. i think i was easier on my beta this year. less cliche (unless i’m cliche on purpose) and better at getting the emotions across? I DON’T KNOW @louandhazaf is better at this stuff. she answered a different question about this earlier in the year actually.

wait. also. i think i’m better at conceptualizing a story BEFORE i start writing. i still suck at it, but not as badly as last year. 

9. How do you hope to grow next year:

i’d like to write another long fic. i’d like to get better at developing secondary characters. i’d like to write more emotion into my fics. i’d love to be better at outlining and planning fics, but idk if that’s who i am lol 

tbh i’d like to be better at the part of writing that, up until this point, and to a certain point, come naturally to me. i don’t think about my character’s motivations or what they’re separate stories are or backgrounds and shit like that until i’m writing and sometimes i do it and don’t realize i’m doing it? i guess? I DON’T KNOW. coming from a math background and never having written or even taken a creative writing class or anything like that, like... some of the most important aspects of writing, i have no clue about them. at least that’s how i feel. a lot of what i do is just................. like me flying by the seat of my pants. 

10. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc):

this is my answer from last year and i’m just going to leave it because it’s still true.

NIC @louandhazaf​ my friend and forever beta. one day we’re going to take over the world. just depends which one of us is in charge of the brain that day as to whether it’s for good or evil.

however, i’ll add to this a bit. nic is the best cheerleader and beta and all of that. bouncing ideas around with her is always fun and always productive. we laughed so hard when we were talking about ideas for DWS. like... i think we both laughed so hard we cried. 

having writer friends -- so all of you -- has been such a positive thing for me. knowing that we all sort of go through the same shit makes it easier when it’s my own lol. 

specifically, i’ll say that @phd-mama influenced me with her fic ‘feels like coming home’ because i read that fic and when i finished i decided that i needed to write something with more emotion behind it, something with a really great (though not necessarily good) back story. the history between her characters in that fic..... idk a lot of it hit home for me. and because of that fic, i wrote DWS. so, thanks <3 

11. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year:

ummmm... yes. let’s just say.......... yes.

12. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers:

yes! write what makes you happy, even if that means writing something sad and depressing. but also try to challenge yourself to write things you’re not used to or things you haven’t done before. also, just write. you can edit later. put words down.

13. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year:

my near misses fic, which is what i’ll call it until i title it, that i am super excited about (this one just came to me yesterday)

moodboard fic - it’s anon, so i can’t say anything other than that. i started it, but i think i’m going to start over. 

2 time stamps for ‘don’t want shelter’. one that takes place the summer they’re 13, and one that takes place between chapters 8 & 9, but before ‘let me in’

my sci fi au - it’s been kicking my ass for most of this year 

i have a fic idea where they go from friends to lovers, but it’s a long long road to get there. idk if i’ll get to it. it would be loooong. 

i want to do a valentines fic but idk if i’ll have time. i’d like my near misses fic to be for valentines, but that’s a lot of pressure on me and then on my beta.

28 proposals with jess @someonethatsfunny and if we want to do it for an advent fic for next year, i need to at least write a proposal per month. 

i want to do the new relationship travel the world fic with nic @louandhazaf that we’ve talked about co-writing, but we both have so much going on......... 

oh and the tiny penis fic series. which is 5 short fics that are not connected, but one of them has a tiny penis in each fic (it switches around and also maybe they both do in one fic)

14. Tag three writers/artists whose answers you’d like to read. ;)

I would like to tag all of my writer friends, sooo you’re all tagged. Also, this is more than 3, but idc

@dinosaursmate @allwaswell16 @letsjustsee @gaycousinlarry @goodmorningtoyouuniverse @assisreal (writing or art, saori! or both!) @prettytruthsandlies @someonethatsfunny @phd-mama ok i’ll stop tagging so that y’all will have people you can tag lol

[wearetakingthehobbitstogallifrey]

I need more batman media but I don't know what to watch or where to watch it and Netflix took off Young Justice and Justice League :(:( do you have any fic recs or fun facts

A.  Blogsto follow if you haven’t already followed them, the first three write FREAKINGAMAZING fanfic and the fourth creates THE BEST fanart I have literally sat and scrolled through these blogs for hours

@camsthisky (good GOSH I love her she writes so much about Dick Grayson)

@audreycritter

@preciousthingsareprecious

@laquilasse

B.  RandomFics to Read (and honestly there are so many more, I just can’t think of themat the moment):

1. TheAcrobat Series 

by fishfingersandjellybabies http://archiveofourown.org/works/4079917

Look anytime anyone talks about how much Dick loveshis family they’ve won my heart and soul. I especially like the Kori section.

2.  Mori Shej 

bydickiegayson  https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12298375/1/Mori-Shej

OH MY GOSH.  Ilove this story so freaking much.  Ok,imagine if Jason Todd, after coming back from the dead and going through allthat stuff with the Lazarus Pit and training, goes after Dick Grayson to gethis revenge on Bruce.  Except when heshows up at Dick’s apartment, ready to kill the Golden Son, he finds somethingcompletely unexpected.  Jason has a lotof issues, Dick has a lot of issues (courtesy of the Blockbuster incident).  I have read and reread this story countlesstimes, and I can never not cry because I love my broken sons so much.  There is a lot of anger, some cursing, muchregret, and brothers being brothers.  And Dick is the sweetest most protective [redacted because spoiler] and Jason has a mushy heart after all.  Itcan stand as complete but I think the author is writing more?  Also, either before or after, or both, go to https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qqeNxdyp5CEand listen to the song.  It is my newfavorite song and CAN YOU IMAGINE DICK SINGING IT OH MY GOSH

3.  the roadwill only be wide (the rain will never stop falling) 

by weird_bird (2weird4) http://archiveofourown.org/works/8610391/chapters/19743343

A collection of Dick and Damian moments.  So very beautiful.

4.  The RobinsUnited Series, first story is Bird by Bird 

by laceymcbain  http://archiveofourown.org/works/2656487/chapters/5936243

…some hurt/comfort, Jason doesn’t know what the hellto do with his family, and they all insist on calling him brother.  *shrugs* family feels are my drug of choice

5.  Penny Lane 

by @jerseydevious  http://archiveofourown.org/works/11757690

Damian wants a horse, and drat I’m crying?  (tbh I cry very easily over my sons…but still)

6.  Sun Spot 

byDawn’sEternalLight (@preciousthingsareprecious) http://archiveofourown.org/works/11748606

This fic is a quiet moment of beauty and rest for Dickand Damian.  Damian draws, and Dickwatches his talented little bro.  Thereis sunlight.  You skin will clear andyour crops will grow and any heartache you have ever had will be healed likemagic!

C.  Abunch of fics by Kieron_O’Duibhir

1.  TheTill-Then From the Ever-Since http://archiveofourown.org/works/3506603/chapters/7707866  

There is a problem in the Batcave, as in, youngerversions of the Batfam keep turning up. It’s absolutely fantastic, and one of my favorite things is youngerJason being SO done with his older self and calling him out on stuff and being all protective of his brothers.  It gets better and better with every chapter.

2.  But a Walking Shadow http://archiveofourown.org/works/4259511/chapters/9641367

 Sothis story is not finished yet and the author takes waaay long to post updateson it but she has promised not to abandon it soo…It is Nightwing-centric, witha whole mess of comic Teen Titans making appearances.  The author has written a lot of stories abouta world where Dick became a Talon, and in this tale Talon-on-the-run winds upon Earth-1 and Nightwing is trying to figure out who this apparent clone of hisis.  Talon Dick has always intrigued me,and it is interesting seeing him and Nightwing face off.

3.  All the Roofs of Uncertainty http://archiveofourown.org/works/2273208/chapters/4994631

HOLY HECK this is one of my favorite Jason Todd fanfics EVER.  I love the description by the author “The onewhere Dick bleeds a lot and Jason argues with everybody.”  Jason is in the wrong spot at the wrong time,ie. He finds Dick bleeding to death and is forced to save him.  Tim and Damian make appearances.  Jason has anger issues.  That doesn’t stop him from caring.  Bruce and Jason hash things out in the mostbeautiful (painful) way.

4.  Wheel and Blade 

http://archiveofourown.org/works/2492957

 Inwhich Dick confronts Damian about his practice of taking weapons to school, andalso gets slightly distracted by the idea of living in a vardo.  I love this story because it shows the bestway to parent Damian—not by telling him no “because I said so” but byexplaining and debating things like he is smart and capable.  

5.  I Pass the Night Watchman on His Beat http://archiveofourown.org/works/2326226

Thisis a cool one-shot of Dick and Amy, his partner on the Bludhaven police force.  I freaking love Dick being a cop.

D.  Okay now if you want something towatch:

 1.     Nightwing—TheSeries 

by ismahawk https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o297A1wmys0

This is THE BEST Nightwing fan film I haveever seen.  I love the Dick Grayson in it—he’sgot acrobatics, sounds like Jesse McCartney (Robin/Nightwing’s VA in YJ), and is quite handsome.  He fights, gets the stuffing beat out of himand keeps getting back up, has a bit of a temper, loves Barbara—perfection.  Watch it, you won’t regret it.  (Also Jason is there yay!  I will take him in any capacity I can get. And I kinda really like the actor for Bruce?)

2.     RedHood: The Series—Episode One “Homecoming” 

by tenshunn https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6BdVSgshgFA&t=136s

My favorite Jason Toddfanfilm!!!  Heavily featuring TimDrake!  Look this adaption is fab, I lovethe actors and the dialogue and the fight between Jason and Tim (spoiler?)  As far as I know they are trying to puttogether a second episode.  Watch thevideo where Jason Todd tries to get people to donate money for it, itsHILARIOUS

3.      Batman The Animated Series is on Netflix tillSeptember 1st.  I’m in thesecond season and love it a lot…Alfred is so freaking sassy!  

4.     DamianWayne: Robins Fly at Night

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tS30bYjVmL4

 It’s just five minutesand doesn’t have any dialogue, and it doesn’t come close to deserving an Oscar, but dang it it’s hard to find Damian stuff…and also seeing a littlekid running around in the Robin costume made me realize that there is nothing Iwant more than to see Damian Wayne on the big screen, being all angry assassinkid, and Dick Grayson capturing him in a hug…

5. Gotham on Netflix

I am pretty sure you already watch this? But if not, DO!  It is AMAZING.  I love it so much, especially Bruce and Alfred and Selina Kyle

E.  Some things from Batman: Dark Victory

Okay I know he is a talented young acrobat and all but how the FUDGE did Dick get up on that chandelier?!  the kid can truly fly (yeah yeah, the stairs probably lead up to a hallway floor/balcony that Dick leapt off of but still) I wonder how many grey hairs the kid gave Alfred in those first weeks alone

On dark days I like to remember the time bby birb Dick Grayson caved in the Joker’s cheek with a well-placed kick.  My nine or ten year old son then proceeded to smash in the Joker’s teeth with a stick a few minutes later and it was amazing

You think I lied??  Nah my son Dick Grayson was cracking teeth and bones and witty puns from Day 1.  Go Robin!!!

Okay so just look at this picture.  Bby Dick is SO FREAKING TINY!!!  also very intense. OMG Batman’s fists are as big as his first son’s head!  *cue a very many feels in my heart*

F.  Random things I am including because I feel like it, and they all revolve around Dick Grayson mostly because he is my fave so…

1. Apparently some official websites say that Nightwing’s martial arts specialty is Aikido.  I do not think that word means what they think it means

2. “I close my eyes now for a few moments and I can see my parents riding the air current with me. Forever young. Forever strong. Their faces wide with excitement, big smiles on their faces, enjoying the adrenaline surge even more than I do. And there is one thing I am sure of … my parents would be proud of my life.” (Nightwing, Nightwing #141, 2008)  

3.  [Talking about Blüdhaven] “It’s a hopeless case. A lost cause. A town so mired in corruption and sin that it’s drowning … When Batman sent me here, I thought I’d solve one case and book. But then I realized … if I could make a difference here – well, that’d be something. This filthy old town needs me…. Surrounded by a dozen of my worst enemies. No way out. Nowhere to hide. The little brat was right. I do love it. (Nightwing, Nightwing Secret Files #1, 1999)

4.  There once was a dumb writer who thought killing Nightwing for real would be a good idea, and he tried writing toward that end, but everybody else was like hahahaha NO

5.  I used to hate when fic writers would shorten Damian’s name to Dami (kind of like how I majorly dislike when people shorten Sirius Black’s name to Siri, he is not an iPhone gosh).  But then I read a post on tumblr that said something about Dami actually meaning something in Arabic, something like blood or life-blood or heart blood…I can’t exactly remember what and maybe it isn’t even true but I choose to believe it is and that Dick knows exactly what it means and he calls Damian Dami as a way to show how special he is, how much Dick loves him.  Because Damian is his little brother/son and means the absolute world to Dick.  And Damian, though he pretends to despise all nicknames, absolutely LOVES that Dick calls him this