#need to sleep in general

[leebythegods]

I discovered today that I am aromantic. This isn't completely new I've known for a while. I previously identified with aromanticism because I felt I experienced love differently from others. It wasn't any more than that.

But today, in a culmination of events, I really properly realised the truth of my aromanticism. I realised that I will likely never be in love, and that I will never be loved in any way I am able to reciprocate. I will never be able to give or receive love to the full extent and depth of how it feels natural to me.

I'm devastated. I can't explain exactly the sort of dumb struck shock I feel. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm not even upset that I'll never have a partner, or a relationship - honestly that doesn't bother me. It's more that I know I am capable of love. I know because I feel it profoundly and with exceptional depth towards my friends. But one by one these friends bring home romantic partners and I am forced to confront that our love did not mean the same to them as it did to me. That most people separate the romantic and platonic, and they will never feel the same fulfillment from my love that I do from theirs. I'm devastated because I will never share a house with all of my closest friends and adopt cats and share beds and grow old under the same roof. I'm devastated because I want to be loved very very desperately, but I do not want to kiss or have sex or exclusively own a partner. I want my friends. I want somehow to be enough for them.

There is so much more I want to say about how this all feels, but I'm so tired and I feel very directionless. I can hear my friend upstairs with his partner and they are making him laugh in a way only I could before. I feel so stupid. So, so stupid, and utterly devastated. 

[slushy-sash]

eepy little general

(based on this cute message from him, he just like me fr)

[aeolianblues]

This feels like a better summary of the last 14 years than any political correspondent can put into a neat paragraph. Save for Rishi Sunak, every single one of the Tory PMs of the last 14 years has been booted out.

[skawdia]

What happens at the tiefling party, stays at the tiefling party... Or will it?

[maingh0st]

i know i'm not the first to say this, but the acolyte's cancellation has confirmed how tired i am of disney's decision-making when it comes to their content. i know nostalgia is the easiest way to a big payout, but we can only take so many spinoffs before the universe starts to feel too small. but then fresh content—content that's building on the canon by looking to old star wars lore while asking new questions—fizzles out.

it's the sequel trilogy all over again. we're promised something new, something that actually expands the canon rather than just recycling it, even bringing in concepts from legends, and then the rug is ripped out from underneath us & we're punished for ever caring about any of it. silly babygirl! palpatine was always the big bad (don't worry about the fact that this is thematically nonsense and not foreshadowed in any way), and rey isn't a nobody ("your parents sold you because they loved you"), and this isn't a story about how the force transcends human categories and dynasties (represented by a grey jedi force dyad between a legacy skywalker and a nobody orphan from a backwater planet, fulfilling not only balance between light and dark but also transcending the old to become something new). silly idiot!!! rey's a palpatine by birth and a skywalker by self-adoption and god forbid she create her own identity outside of these names our fans recognize. watch as she stands alone on a sand planet that has no personal significance to her, ending her arc almost exactly as she began. but look!! two suns! neat

i don't even know if fanservice is the right word. at a certain point, it just starts to feel like they're quaking in their boots at the thought of doing anything new. i had my gripes with some of the choices in the acolyte, but at least it was unique. it explored a new era and asked questions that star wars has only ever flirted with. like: what happens to the children who are uprooted from their homes at such a young age, yet can't find their place in the jedi order? how does one survive in a supposedly honorable system that nevertheless relies on the repression of some of humanity's most fundamental emotions? is it possible that an organization dictating exactly how one ought to interact with the very life force of the universe... could perhaps be faulty and shortsighted? what happens when the ways of that order clash with other cultures and worldviews? (spoilers: space colonialism). and that's not even to mention the ideas they play with re: the force itself (vergences! plagueis! force witches!)

i know not everyone loved the show, but a lot of people really did care about it. a lot of people, like me, were excited to see these new questions being raised. but forget it—the disney gods have decreed that it didn't hit some magical threshold of streaming hours or reach a "broad enough" audience in the two months it's been out. but don't worry guys. turn your brains off and tune in for the next spinoff 2 chewy 2 bacca

[took-hold-of-nothing]

I don't blame you But I can't change you Don't hate you But we can't save you

[abirddogmoment]

sometimes i hang out with a herding breed dog and it really makes me go damn girl you live like this?? ://

[hijinxinprogress]

Whenever the JL starts complaining about YJs public image YJ just straight up gaslights them

[charmac]

I think getting railed by Mac would give Dennis a new perspective that doesn’t change who he is and is consistent with his characterisation... Just a thought tho.

[theprinceofdarknesssquad]

Jason: Okay, truth or dare?

Nico: Truth

Jason: How many hours have you slept this week?

Nico:

Nico: ...Dare

Jason: Go to bed.

Nico: I don’t like this game.

[zaahvi]

a compilation of everything evanuris related from the new IGN video!

and bonus commentary from the video/article:

"Another clear reaction to criticisms of Inquisition are our villains in The Veilguard, Elgar'nan and Ghilan'nain. The two elven gods feel much more present throughout the events of the early game than Corypheus, the frankly lackluster baddie of Inquisition. ... ... [Solas'] history, along with the history of the Evanuris, are baked into The Lighthouse, and you learn more and more about the threat you face as you unlock Solas’ murals with various wolf statues. You even get to see some of his memories firsthand."

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

some Lights Out au scribbles. thinking about Sally... thinking about her A Lot... shhhh she's sleeping<3

[starflungwaddledee]

did you know that coo is canonically lonely? {shipaganza prompt by @veveisveryuncool}

[kebriones]

Alcibiades taking a quick nap between naval battles on his ship hammock.

(commissioned piece for @optimisticdogcollector5 , who I have a million things to thank for, but first and foremost for enabling my alcibiades obsession on a nearly daily basis)

[1111-sunset-circle]

i love f/os and s/is with a big size difference. are they smaller than you or bigger? please tell me more about this dynamic in the tags

[vroom-vrooms]

No but like….

Lestappen musician au where they’re neighbors and Charles is a classical pianist and Max is a drummer in a band and Charles drives him crazy playing piano all night long so in return he drives Charles crazy playing drums all day long

So Max is basically falling asleep at practices because he can’t sleep at night because of Charles’ playing and Charles is also falling asleep at practices because he can’t sleep at all during the day because of Max’s playing and neither of them are thinking of logical solutions because obviously the solution is to make it worse and worse every single day until one of them gives in but neither of them want to be the first to confront the other

Do you see the vision?????