#never will. be direct or deal with it idk wtf to tell you.

[snekdood]

ppl not being direct about their wants and needs from me literally only negatively effects them.

[kaondecay]

a couple little vol 7 thoughts featuring vashwood brainrot 😎✌️

man this scene makes my brain itch on so many different levels lmao, like on the surface level wtf wolfwood!! we’ve just had all these chapters explicitly digging into how vash has a Problem where he tries to hide his pain under empty smiles- and in fact wolfwood clocked that about him pretty much instantly back when they first met! so of course badgering him about ~looking sad~ (especially when he started the page with a neutral to mildly glum expression) is just gonna make him try harder to cover it up, and that’s exactly what he does with that stupid little smile on the second page 😔

but wolfwood’s whole point here is that that shit isn’t gonna work on him no matter how hard vash tries! unfortunately wolfwood is also emotionally constipated as hell, so it comes out as aggression and teasing rather than anything genuine.

actually i just gotta revisit that earlier moment here because the contrast is just fascinating lmao

like goddamn wolfwood really came in hot with the sincerity in that first meeting, how did we go from that to this?? was it just because they were strangers then, and wolfwood thought he could get away with saying shit like that because their paths might never cross again? this was also before ww got his assignment from Knives- did he not know this was the boss’s brother? he probably didn’t realize the twins’ inhumanity at that point either… he’s had a lot to grapple with over the course of this assignment, both re: the twins’ apocalyptic power, and the fact that he has to betray vash at the end of it, that would naturally create a need for emotional distance. allowing honesty and attachment with vash puts too much at risk.

so really, given that very high-stakes need for distance, it’s telling that wolfwood still can’t help expressing his awareness of vash’s suffering & investment in cheering him up, even if it comes out in such a ridiculous way lol

it also seems like a clumsy/oblique way of trying to reassure vash that he’s still a person? vash’s inhuman nature has come more to the forefront lately- losing control in the dragon’s nest, regaining the memory of all the death he caused in july, catching that bullet with a feather only for the whole town to turn against him for it- and it’s clearly been weighing on him. so wolfwood acknowledges that angle by calling him all those awful things- “the legendary devil gunman, the humanoid typhoon”- but immediately discredits them by pointing out vash’s softheartedness.

idk i also have one more little bit of brainrot about the moment they share leaving the bar, acknowledging that things are about to get serious with Knives

like goddamn there’s so much meaning packed into that exchange!! it’s the closest they really come to acknowledging their whole “you know i know you know” deal around wolfwood’s assignment. (hah, “i told you from the start…”, fuck. ) like, openly telling vash that knives sent him would break the plausible deniability that wolfwood is simply fulfilling his mission, and that would put the orphanage in danger. at the same time, he has been 0% subtle and never actually *lied* to vash about it either- the few times vash has asked direct questions, wolfwood has given him vague answers or conspicuous silence and allowed him to draw his own conclusions.

so this seems like their weird twisty way of setting mutual expectations for what’s going to happen next. wolfwood is vash’s “guide”, no more and no less- he has enough insider information to bring vash safely to his brother’s door, but past that point wolfwood will stay out of the confrontation. it’s the one thing wolfwood and both brothers all agree is best, whether they like it or not. god wolfwood’s face in that last panel kills me

i am absolutely normal about this

[erotomanicpixiedreamgirl]

tell me why this guy is like this with me like i can’t with this anymore

when we met he was so nice to me but then i noticed he never stopped texting other people. he introduced me to his whole family, met my family, we went to vegas twice together, i lent him money, because of how nice he was with me. he even had problems with his family and i let him stay with me and my grandma for a while until he got on his feet. he got a job, and started staying some days here and some with his gramma cause she lives closer to his new job. after that, he relapsed on drugs and started messaging bitches again. he said he’d stop but he was acting weird now and kept saying he’d pay me but whenever he said and it was time, he just never did anything. then, he rented an apartment, i helped him get a bike so he had transportation to go to work and to come see me and visit his gramma still. it got worse and now he’s saying he’s overwhelmed with work and with his shit in general and that he can’t be the bf i want or need right now but that if i give him time, that we’re still together but he’s dealing with shit. i’ve asked him to be direct and reassuring with me during this time since we won’t be together as much and now he’s ignoring me, barely texting, whenever i call he declines the call and now that i’ve asked about my money, he just blocked me (he’s done it where he blocks me when he feels “overwhelmed” with the amount of texts/calls) and then unblocks me. i’ve straight up asked him if we’re still together and he says we are but that he’s dealing with personal shit.

why are fucking men such fucking pussies. i gave him everything and this is how he fucking does me? i am so sad. he helped me through a really tough time and was with me during that time and now he’s doing this fucking shit like what the fuck. i can’t stand anymore of this and i don’t understand and i’m tired of reeling. how do i deal with this pain cause legit idk wtf to do besides wishing i was dead. what the fuck do i do if he comes back. i need my money back and this all sucks. anyways, yeah…. this the tea

oh dear this is a lot im so sorry but you’re way better off without him. i find a lot of things dumb about the sprinkle sprinkle mindset or whatever but she was correct in saying don’t be barbara the builder for these men. i honestly think from you’ve told me he’s just showing his true colors and he took advantage of your kindness and compassion. he sounds like a complete dick. i know it’s disappointing when the one you love turns out this way but you will find love again and that man will actually treat you right and respect you and love you with his whole heart.

[umbralstars]

Zelda fandom rant:

Totk is not a retcon. It literally is not. It has a few weird story things going on with BOTW in regards to the Sheikah tech but that's it. It does not up-end Any part of the time-line other than saying fan theories that people got overly attached to aren't true.

It is never stated anywhere (in the game or the books) that the Link and Zelda from Skyward Sword are the founders of the Kingdom of Hyrule. We did not know when or who established the kingdom, and we now have Rauru and Sonia as likely candidates. I fail to see how this could be such an upsetting "retcon" to people when all previous lore had the time between Skyward Sword and Minish Cap as multiple Vague happenings.

"Where is the Triforce?" "What happened to the Zonai?" both of these questions honestly have the same answer: the Era of Chaos. You know the one where the Triforce and the Sacred Realm gets sealed and when we know that at least one race gets yote from Hyrule's plan of existence? And that the Zonai at their height were not only the direct descendants of the Gods (so basically gods themselves) and very powerful magic users? By the time Hyrule's established the Triforce is already sealed away until OoT, and the Zonai also have their own powerful objects in the form of the Secret Stones (which could be any number of things. Aspects of the triforce, mimicries of it, things given to them by their godly ancestors, idk have some fun with it). And it's not a stretch to say that Rauru wouldn't know about it or the Hyrulians own heritage from the skies with the loftwings; eventually leading to the crest of Hyrule that we know.

The sky in and if itself is already a realm of the gods separated from the surface reality. Just because we don't see the Zonai in SS doesn't mean they weren't around or weren't doing things on the surface before the Skyloftians re-establish themselves on the ground. They're capable of existing as their own thing. I don't really ever see people get this upset over like Oocca (even tho like,,, wtf is up with them?), and I can only assume it's cause TwiLiP is already in the fandom consciousness as a "good Zelda game" so it won't get scrutiny like the new one.

Idk I'm seeing people get personally upset and offended over percieved changes in the time-line. Even though I would argue with my whole chest nothing has been retconned or changed.

Also it's very funny watching people who were so against the idea that botw could mean that the time-lines converged now tout the theory; just so they can shove both it and totk (including all the "in the past" stuff with Rauru and Sonia) so far in the future it can't touch their precious "classic Zelda." And the time-line that I remember a lot of the fandom not even liking.

Like I believed in the convergence theory back during botw cause it made sense to me and we were already dealing with time magic. But no, it was Impossible until the new game did something people didn't agree with.

It's fine to disagree or have different theories but to say that the game is objectively bad and was trying to retcon things? I have to disagree. I really think it's a matter of people disliking change and totk not being the game they built up in their heads (or not Entirely following up on some of botw's story, like the fight with Calamity Ganon from the legend. Which is a valid criticism and one that I kinda hold myself). But making up false statements about the game to justify your dislike? That's pretty weak.

(And that's not to say I'm above hating games or spin offs. I don't like Hopes pretty much at all, but I Try to keep my hate grounded in things the game actually did)

To go off in a side tangent: I'm sorry but totk Does tell you the order it wants you to do it's story in. It tells you to go to certain areas first (like talking to Purah, then to Kakariko, then to Impa, etc), to talk with Impa on your way to Rito Village which is the first area the game directs you towards. Then when you go to the forgotten temple: there is a map on the ground showing you the exact locations of all of the glyphs plus the glyphs lined up on the back wall in a way that suspiciously looks....ordered. And Impa's dialog prompts you to try and figure out what this all could Mean. And you get a camera right at the start of the game which would maybe allow for something like Documenting the map and the wall mural.

Idk bout y'all but I figured out this riddle after a few seconds of looking at it on release day. So there was no guide or anything to "help" me. And yeah I'm being sarcastic because the answer is so blatant and obvious. The game Wants you to pay attention and do the glyphs linearly but is was not going to hold your hand and force you. And there is other dialog abounds which asks you to do the plot in a certain order, but you still don't Have to.

I don't know how to sign this off other than saying that, in my opinion, totk is a fantastic game. It's a good Zelda game. And yes, I have played plenty of classic Zelda games before anyone tries to accuse me of "not getting it." The lore and the story is also very important to me, I just disagree with much of the discourse I've seen (especially on Zelda YouTube). It's okay if you don't like it, but people who do like it aren't bootlickers or whatever.

And yeah there are things that I do dislike about the game, don't get me wrong. But gods it's not a bad game and it's not world ending. Maybe try having fun with the lore for once?

[alyjojo]

Love Reading 😍 - May 2023 - Pisces

Singles:

Overall energy: Knight of Pentacles

How you will meet: 8 Swords

How they will treat you: The High Priestess

Long-term Potential: 7 Cups

Oracle:

Sit Down and Shut Up 🤐

Embrace your tiny inner Buddha.

Yikes. The messages are great, but the reading is painful. If you two don’t have telepathy, idk how you’re communicating, there is no communication here. Mental link. Earth signs are very strong in their energy, and this person is clearly “the one”. Idk how, or how you’ll get there, because there is dead silence between you. And they take fuggin forever. Or this whole thing will. I’m impatient just looking at it. This is someone very responsible, serious about their career, loyal, dedicated, a skilled multitasker, and probably pretty boring as far as interests are concerned. They’re the type to eat the same breakfast for two years straight, stick to a strict routine, and never change anything, ever. Their favorite flavor is vanilla, no add ins. Probably owns a lot beige 😆 Haaa, I’m done. Also a real stickler for the rules, frugal with finances, insistent on saving money, to the point of…lighten up a little. So responsible it’s almost a drawback at times. OR, you are, and maybe have a lot of earth in your own chart.

I don’t get it being an ex, though with Judgement here it could be. It’s not something that will happen overnight either. Or quickly…whatsoever, the only thing this person does quickly is pee, because they’re on the clock 😁 Ok I’m done. You feel helpless in a family situation when you meet them, could be a job too, or they do, and you could help each other out in that way. You could work together, be friends, I’m not sure how you know each other. After that instance, you don’t, haven’t, or won’t hear from them again for who knows how long, and you go your separate ways entirely. One of you could even leave the area you’re in altogether, making distance an issue too.

At some point, long term, there will be an option to have a new beginning with them, and they won’t be the only one either. They are one Ace of Cups among 7 Cups, and I don’t even see you choosing them then, because you’re defensive they stopped interacting with you in the first place. It’s like “I thought we were friends, wtf” or something like that. You’re still very hesitant with them. But your messages all show them as being THE one. How it gets to where it’s going, I don’t even know. What a mindfk. The High Priestess also can be translated as “I’m not telling you” from Spirit, they love to do that with the good surprises (they always do this when it’s good, not bad), maybe it’s a surprise. Or something about this situation could lead you in the right direction, there’s a spiritual purpose to this.

If you’ve ever let them go, *they* didn’t let you go. You’re their toasted bologna on rye every Tuesday okay, this person doesn’t just let go of anything, ever. They’ll wait. Haaa. Now I’m done.

Messages -

Their side:

- Meant to Be.

- Long-Term Potential

Your side:

- Forever Love ❤️

- Karmic Connection

Signs you may be dealing with:

Capricorn, Virgo, Scorpio, Leo & Gemini

Couples:

Overall energy: 3 Pentacles

Current: Knight of Cups

Challenge: The Hanged Man

How they feel about you: The Hierophant rev

How you feel about them: 10 Wands

Outcome: 7 Wands rev

444 on the clock as I start this reading. 4’s are about stability, and your Oracle message of tranquility mirrors that. You’re good 💯 This person has heavy Angel energy on their side, needing to be more spiritual maybe, they could be dealing with an illness. They’re definitely going through something, but they’re putting that pressure on you, in order to nail you down to commitment when you’re simply not ready. This person has Till Death Do Us Part in the messages, but I’m not seeing that you’re actually married, because that’s what they’re wanting. And you don’t.

You don’t…not want that either. You work well together, this relationship feels kinda new, or at least to you it is. 4’s are important here, not because they’re here, but to show me your energy. You’re at 2’s and 3’s. They’re at Hierophant, and 10’s. Both expect the other person to get on their page, and both are not able to. If you are married/committed, there was a huge conflict that is now being mended, but you’re still not on the level they are, and won’t be this month. The only 4 here is 4 Cups, someone holding their hand out with an offer (several even), and you’re like…pass. Nah. Not into it. I don’t see anything from your side being intentionally hurtful. You seem to be in a place of peace of mind, good vibes, things are great, you like/love this person and just seeing where it goes. They’re getting downright demanding and insisting you make your decision now, which is gonna be a no if it has to be now.

You’re changing, and things are changing with you,

maybe what you want, like, are doing, your goals. I don’t see your feelings changing, but you’re allowing this to happen naturally and refuse to be pushed. This person is pushy. They want an answer. Validation. You’re both romantic with each other, probably going out on dates, feelings are established, it’s a great connection. But this person is not patient, they’re kinda controlling, and that’s a huge red flag for you. Waiting on you to commit to something is a nightmare for them. Did they propose and you left them hanging? That would do it, it’s a good example for what I’m seeing here.

They see you as noncommittal, not interested in marriage maybe or even discussing the future, you don’t and don’t want to. Cuz you’re not ready. And you don’t want to. You know this to be true because you see them as extremely burdened that they have to wait for you to decide what you want. Just decide on forever right now Pisces, I can’t sit here and just chill with my boba tea 🧋 because…you’re still here. I’m not sure why they’re so eager, and I’m getting that’s kinda where you’re at too. Because* they’re pushy, because* they’re not more relaxed and just happy about this, it’s like it’s pushing you away. Are you going to be guilted into love? It’s possible for you, so be careful of that. End of the month, you’re not fighting about it, and you’re not making a decision either. You’re just like “love this, love me, here and now, and I don’t care about tomorrow, yet”. I mean…technically that IS a decision.

Messages -

Their side:

- Till Death Do Us Part 💍

- I love to SURPRISE you! 😯

Your side:

- Facial Hair 🧔‍♂️

- New Perspective

Oracles -

Hello, sea of tranquility 🌊

Their side:

When you’re ill, ask your angels to help you, and visualize yourself being well.

When you get down, call on your angels.

Your side:

You can have a partner you love, but don’t forget all the other loves, such as friends, family, pets, and so on.

Signs you may be dealing with:

Capricorn, Aquarius, Libra, Sagittarius & Taurus

[jinglyhigh-heels]

Okay finally time to use this account for its intended purpose. Which was…basically anything other than what I’ve been using it for so far lmao. Anyway.

Teenage mutant ninja turtles, the 2014 and 2016 movies.

2014 movie was, in my opinion, alright. I haven’t seen the shows yet, so I can’t speak to canonical accuracy, but I like the way the teens are portrayed. Really made me wanna watch the shows. But I decided to watch the sequel first because, you know, sequel.

And Imma be honest with you, I’m 50 minutes in, and I can’t get through anymore. The first movie, the only real issues I had were with April (they tried so hard to get me to like her but she felt kinda one-dimensional ig? Idk if anyone knows of a more in-depth analysis of her character PLZ tell me) and the fact that it didn’t…seem to take much on? If that makes sense? The characters were there (and for the most part amazing!), the plot was there (although very straightforward and direct if that makes sense), but there was very little emotional reaction from the characters as to what was going on. The teens’ father was, like, on his deathbed, and not one of the three asked Raphael if the rat (I forgot his name already,,,) was okay.

As for the second movie, literally the only good thing I can think about it is the portrayal of Raphael and, by extension, his brotherly relationship with Michelangelo. I cackled when sent that officer guy to deal with…Skipper? (Idk I tried lol.) Oh yeah, his character’s really cool from what I saw too.

But goooooood the plot and characterization of Slasher or whatever his name is makes me wanna scream. Slasher’s main goal in the first movie was to take over a city by making them believe he saved them. His goal was never to destroy the fucking world. That came extremely out of left field for me. But on that note, wtf happened to that other guy? He isn’t mentioned at all in the movie, or at least when they’re talking about what happened after the events of the first movie. And just, the amount of sub-plots they’re trynna shove into this movie is way more than can be gracefully handled in an hour imo. There’s the whole “we found something that can make us human and what are we gonna do with it” subplot they’re setting up, the “there’s gonna be some tension amongst the brothers because the rat father mentioned it (curse you, Chekov’s Gun!!!)”, oh and O’Neil still isn’t getting a character development arc, but we have characters dealing with space warping now!!! Which is both extremely out of the left field and also has the possibility to go very bad when simply thrown into a movie for plot purposes. Ugh.

Knowing me I probably forgot something(s), so I’ll probably reblog this with more gripes and or general thoughts later though.

[37-children-of-the-dreams]

Damn, give Chase and Sophia an asylum sounds like an insult. At least in my language it is an insult and swearing words.

Also, about your fic, I wanted to say, but forgot, that it seemed like you tried to give an almost direct hint that Miss Maybell, or it was Lucille, I was sometimes mistaken them, was kinda in relationship with Hargrave, and she stayed at Avon's side, and Hargrave went with Klipse. Am I right, or I mistaken?

And I here saw one local dude made review video about monsunos, and it was second season, and he kinda showed sketch, where one scientist showing new dudes their best workers - Klipse and Jeredy, who are crazy scientist who are doing mad scientific things, and others just looking at it with wtf face, and the one who showed them is proud of that. And thats exacly how I imagine these two at work, haha) actually, in flashbacks, Klipse looks very calm, like really, even more like that always calm person with sweet character. But we know that he gone mad, even if it's just sometimes pops off. Cause when he's at work or home, we saw he's calm and even Dom is fine and not annoying him. So, what if Klipse just couldnt get over the fact that Jeredy didnt go with him, so went mad, but not fully, but as a thing that sometimes comes as attack or something.

Oh anon, I think I forgot to clarify. When I meant Avon would give them asylum, I meant political asylum as in ‘Avon is giving Chase and Sophia refuge and sheltering them from Klipse and Jeredy’ as political asylum means a country is giving someone or a group of people the right to live in their country of choice and given protection from persecution from their original government or country. I don’t know what nationality Chase and Sophia are, but given that they are the family members of a country’s sovereign and her heirs to the throne via Six, Avon would grant them political asylum to get them away from Jeredy and Klipse if they wanted to. And really, Chase could just ask Six to either ask Eira or Avon, or even ask Braille, if they can grant them asylum and those guys would actually give to them.

As for the person in the fanfic, it’s Miss Maybell. I wanted her and Hargrave to have some sort of history with each other as either a former good friend or as a what-if partner. This was because the show never explained how Hargrave got to be Klipse’s butler so I had the idea that Hargrave used to be a part of the Avon-Klipse household as their joint butler that was given to them from the royal family when they got married, but when he was working for the royals, Maybell was also employed at the same time and they had gotten close to each other before everything went downhill.

Yeah, idk what made Klipse go crazy since he was rather calm in some flashbacks and even calm when he’s dealing with people like Dom, but I guess it’s because of Jeredy that Klipse is just so unhappy that he went crazy. He has this act of being a scorned lover type of guy that’s willing to destroy his former love interest because he couldn’t have them due to various factors while also acting all cool, calm and collected in front of everyone so that they don’t know he’s wanting to kill someone who rejected him and then goes off with hurting his competition….

Klipse is a yandere. Anon, I think Klipse is actually a yandere. Not an extreme psycho crazy yandere, but like enough that he psychologically tortures his victims over one person type of yandere. Can someone tell me if that’s accurate or something? I’m genuinely curious about Klipse’s status as a yandere now.

[violets-arepurple]

Bsd as tiktok trends (yes I have specific tiktok ideas in mind)

Dazai/Fyodor: never let them know your next move (does anyone know their next move

Also Dazai: I hereby sentence you to (he would come up with some weird shit now he can't do regular torture)

Ranpo: walking in the opposite direction of where the persons running (trying to get a train)

Kunikida: beeping calculations trend (him calculation how much dazais bandages cost)

Atsushi: im not a cop (idk I just feel like it fits)

Atsushi/Akutagawa: butterfly in the sky (atsu- trying to firgure out dazais bs aku- trying to figure out how to impress dazai)

Kyouka: this is what dreams are made of (asushi buying her crepes)

Chuuya: hey isn't this easy ("not betraying your entire organisation and everyone you know")

Tachihara: I gotta put me first (spoilers - lowkey leaving the hunting dogs for the mafia)

Dazai once more: i know something you don't (he indeed knows something we don't)

Yosano: the feminine urge (✨the feminine urge stab your coworker✨)

Atsushi: and I think to myself wtf (look at what he has to deal with and tell me otherwise)

Kyouka/Dazai/Kenji: immortal snail (they'd all have wildly different tactics idk)

Ranpo/yosano: I know it ain't the stallion, you know it your girl (they're work and real life besties)

Kenji: good soup (he has some good soup)

Literally everyone: but you don't look gay (dazai normally vs dead apple dazai)

[somecunttookmyurl]

Idk who donny is but I want you to know reading thru those posts made me very angry for you and @ him bc like COME TF ONNNNN WHAT AN ASSHOLE WTF

you should be glad you haven't been around for the ongoing donny saga. i posted a video he made for the mental welfare commission once and everyone wanted to murder him without about 10 seconds. everybody who has ever met him hates him, including my GP but the rundown if you want it

- i was referred to him for an adhd diagnosis by a therapist who made it VERY ABUNDANTLY CLEAR i do not suffer from anxiety

- spent 2.5 years at every appointment insisting i have anxiety, something nobody who has spoken to me for 5 seconds could ever accuse me of. including the adhd guy i just spoke to who said "you definitely do not have anxiety whatsoever that's just ludicrous"

- was so convinved i Secretly Have Anxiety Not ADHD that he once prescribed a drug that had severe interactions with 3 other things i was taking and could - this is not hyperbole - have killed me. i had the good sense to confer with a pharmacist after 3 days who panicked and told me to cease usage immediately because i was maybe a day or 2 away from suffering a seizure and as i live alone unable to call for help, that type of seizure may well have been fatal

- i left a message for donny before making that call and he did not call back to check in for 2 weeks. had i waited for his opinion i would no longer be here

- had absolutely no idea how to treat me and as such i was the one coming up with all of the treatment options. which he was extremely dismissive of every time and had to "confer with the specialist first". on every occasion, the specialist agreed with the proposal. i now learn that every time he did that, he was taking credit for the ideas and research

- repeatedly claimed that he had asked the adhd specialist to meet with me (at my rquest) and the specialist had declined because he "saw no benefit" in a direct conversation. i now learn that this, too, was a lie and no such requests were ever made

- cannot tell the difference between hypomania and adhd hyperactivity

- cannot tell the difference between external adhd presentations and anxiety even after being informed of what those are

- insisted for 2 years that the brief psychotic disorder (with stressor) i have been experiencing for 15 years and know damn fine well how to deal with was, you guessed it, anxiety. if that were the case i would have absolutely been studied by psychs for being such a rare and bizarre presentation but, surprise! no.

- expressed no concern over the rapid and severe weightloss i experienced on a different drug he prescribed that was not stopping because i was still a normal weight. i have previously had issues with disordered eating.

- has never heard of adderall, or bupropion (wellbutrin)

- willfuly ignored the Royal College of Psychiatrists (Scotland) guidelines on good practice for treatment of adult adhd. because he was not even familiar with the document. that he is supposed to read. as part of his job.

- refused to transfer my care to another consultant, constantly, until i wrote a 16-page document detailing the extent of his malpractice and negligence thus shaming him in front of the entire clinic. for which he is now under investigation

- never administered any adhd rating scales and ignored proper drug titration procedure

- even after finally arranging for a consult with the adhd guy (post "you are at best negligent and at worst actively dangerous" letter) did not transfer my care in the meantime to another consultant meaning i have been without access, and woefully insufficiently medicated, since december

i mean there's more the guy truly is a fucking stain upon this earth but that about covers the worst of it

[sanchoyo]

danny phantom episode 4-7 Thoughts: (under a readmore because, these got kinda long!)

-the outfit danny had to buy for dash's party. CLASSIC 2000S i cannot stop laughing. And also showing up to the party and everyone is dressed like the trio is hilarious. and further proof that everyone looks good dressed goth.

-dash has a closet full of cute lil bear plushies?? LOVE that. adorable. also his response to danny trashing his room fighting a ghost was SO valid if somone BROKE MY BED IN HALF ID BE PISSED TOO.

-technus being like 'oh smart, u should be a tutor!' then later being like 'forget tutor, be a teacher!' :) supportive king <3 I also really like his upgraded suit/design. AND SPOCK CAMEO??? HELLO??

-the music in this show is super. its so funky. I looked it up and the guy who does it, guy moon (awesome name) also did music for other cartoons like fairly odd parents, barnyard, chalkzone, billy & mandy, AND some actual movies like FIGHT CLUB??? the whiplash I got from reading that)

-sam being rich explains a lot about her, actually.

-I know the moral of the episode was supposed to be 'dont ditch your friends for popular people/spend a lot of money on clothes that arent You to Fit In'. but tbh. it wouldve been easy for danny to have been like 'well, okay, ill come but only if my friends can!' but I get. that hes 14. so. not a lot to say there.

-BOX GHOST IS BACK!!!!! also, danny sitting up and wearing the dress/wig/makeup. umm thats how I dress everyday LMFAO. unironically me. (hate the jokes that boil down to 'haha funney man in dress' tho. but this is a look)

-jazz being protective of her brother once again being like NOOO YOU GUYS BETTER NOT STAKE OUT HIS (actually haunted) LOCKER!! shes aware of how people perceive him and she wants to help :( which is also probably why she told dash to invite him to that party even tho she had no interest in going!! she wants to help him out :(

-gotta say im with tucker on the whole 'should danny use his powers to get back at bullies' debate. 100% yes. let him teach kids to fight back. making dash throw his food at paulina out of the blue? no. but when hes actually about to pick on someone? yeah! for self defense? YEAH! if dash and his friends just threw food at him, I think rather than. idk doing sneaky shit with frogs he couldve just threw it back and not pulled punches if they tried to fight. I kNOOWWW its a kids show so they are like 'if u fight back ur just as bad!! violence bad!!' but. theyre HIS POWERS. WHO CARES.

-like my only gripe is that dash really isnt LEARNING ANYTHING WHEN DANNY GETS BACK AT HIM IN THE MOST PETTY INDIRECT WAYS. whatever they had to add a bully psa episode I guess. I hate it and I hate the way cartoons usually handle it because these methods simply Do Not Work. 'aND YouRE USinG YOur poWErs FOR EVill???!' this is Not Evil. even when poindexter takes dannys body, theyre only being 'nice' bc hes stealing soda for them!! bitches deserve what they get (nothing too brutal bc theyre high schoolers but damn, if they pick on danny he doesnt need to be the 'bigger person' he needs to start biting people)

-SAM TRYING TO SMUGGLE FROGS OUT OF THE BIO LAB?? girl in middle school when we had to dissect frogs we could opt out, also, they came to us already dead and preserved...

-sidney's lingo and the fact hes in black and white is sending me. also, danny is a ghost celebrity apparently for being a halfa?? ok. thats interesting to know

-the DENTIST BEING EXCITED ABOUT THE COTTON CANDY FLOOD IS THE FUNNIEST THING SO FAR.

-I LOOOVE the trope of 'wishes gone wrong'. not crazy about the stereotypical genie, or the use of the dreamcatcher looking design. (also, I KNOW theyre scientists but the way theyre handling a cold...are the fentons ANTIVAX)

-the genie. she. whitewished paulina. JKASDFHKJ. (the ghost literally just being hello kitty???? im dying) 'why do i feel that im special and wonderful? because I AM! <3' paulina ilu self worth queen. felt bad for her also getting possessed by (2) boys later who were arguing INSIDE HER. WTF.

-imagine being the guy trapped in his now flying car. he thought danny and tucker were HALUCINATIONS. imagine being trapped in a flying car with two, what you think are imaginary arguing 14 year olds convinced ur gonna die. i WOULD say this dude is gonna need so much therapy, but he seemed totally fine and excited when they landed (I would be happy too if a chicken was on my head. chickens rule) stoner rights

-sam's bat slippers??? iconic. SO cute.

-I think desiree's backstory is so :( do all ghosts have messed up sad backstories?? poindexter's was sad too...cannot imagine box ghost has any kind of fucked up backstory. but what if. his mom got pushed off cliffs by boxes...........a la cruella... anyway her 'no man may lay a hand on me' iconic. ilu

-I know danny has no concept of how much bras cost but my god dont attack tucker with some girls bra. those are so expensive.

-its really. well its not a GOOD THING he went into the portal and got fucked up, but its good danny was the one to do it rather than sam or tucker. because even tho he was being influenced by desiree and kept getting more malicious and it prob wasnt 100% him...he sucked as a ghost like most the people he 'pranked' were innocent ppl just Chillin and he didnt want to help anyone at all. I think danny is the most responsible out of them but also, hes 14 and shouldnt HAVE to feel obligated to fight every ghost. hes a good kid and wants to, but I also feel like he feels like...responsible for the portal turning on?? because his parents did give it up,, but it was an accident and not his fault (if anything, why was the on switch on the inside. why was it that easy. why was there no safety measures. that seems like smth OSHA needs to hear about). like thats my son. hes a good boy. and hes never done anything wrong in his life, ever. if anyone hurts him im killing everyone in this room and then myself. etc.

-danny's curfew is 10PM????? DUDE. when I was 14...shit I couldn't be out that late, I had to be back at like, 8 at the latest, and my parents had to know exactly where and who I was going with, AND i had to call/text them regularly...is this a case of my parents being overbearing, or the fentons sucking??? the only time i could EVER be out that late was if I was at an overnight sleepover or smth...

-the vultures have lil fezes. why do they have fezes...theyre so fuckin funny 'ask him for directions' 'I KNOW WHERE IM GOING' these ghost vultures are my new grandpas. pick them up, put them in the adopt box.

-'I wonder why those guys were trying to waste dad!' THEYRE GHOSTS. YOUR DAD HUNTS GHOSTS. why is that not a conclusion you'd immediately jump to??

-*jazz voice, clearly disgusted* WISCONSIN???

-mrs fenton with the lab coat and leg warmers and PERM. YESSS STYLISH.

-was going to say 'ew billionaire' @vlad but. super valid he used his powers to assumedly steal and cheat to get that money, thats how all billionaires do it! but ew hes a SIMP. and spending your billions on FOOTBALL STUFF?? you are Not Valid overall. I DO respect the fact you have a castle instead of a mansion. in wisconsin. if youre going to be stupidly rich might as well go all out, torches on the wall and all. I DO like his ghost form's little kitty ears. catman. and his cape! every design can benefit from a cape. and how different his forms look, like danny looks the EXACT SAME IN BOTH FORMS ASIDE FROM COLOR CHANGES. vlad's is like,, I could believe they were different people!! also I love the drama. but dude you are fighting a 14 year old. lame. also he was like, telling danny he wanted his mom and him and like, wanted him to renounce his dad?? WHAT ABOUT JAZZ?? bitch. those r MY kids and they are both important and special. I do agree they need better parents but thats not u sir <3

-I thought vlad's 'little badger' nickname for danny came from the football mascot of the packers, but google says they have NO MASCOT?? so now I'm like?? is it because his hair is sometimes black and sometimes white?? I hate to give him props but thats a PERFECT NICKNAME. theyre also tiny and vicious!

-why did I get so excited that Skulker is back!! its been like. 2-3 eps LMAO. AND THE DAIRY KING. ICONIC I LOVE HIM. hes the nicest guy ever :) more nice ghosts please. danny cannot be fighting alone everytime with no ghost buds like every ghost being hostile sucks :(

-mr. fenton knew vlad was controlling him, but a few episodes ago he had no clue danny was doing the same thing...is it something about how malicious the ghost is?? he just seemed to think his memory had gaps the first time, this time he was INSTANTLY LIKE 'GHOST'. then again in this ep when danny did it again he was just slightly confused but not immediately freaking out like he did with vlad possessing him!!

-'my parents will accept ME NO MATTER WHAT' so. so why haven't you come out to them yet, danny?? if you really think that?? if theres no harm, and you're sure??? if vlad is a real problem, wouldnt that make dealing with him easier, to expose him???? SO WHY HAVENT YOU COME OUT YET?? COULD IT BE,, MAYBE YOU HAVE DOUBTS ABOUT WHETHER YOUR PARENTS ACTUALLY WILL ACCEPT YOU??? 🤔 ... 🏳‍🌈 I get why people say He Is Trans. I totally totally get u danny.

-sorta unrelated, but it just occurred to me in one of these eps they go to casper HIGH not casper middle school??? theyre 14?? dont highschools usually do ages 15-18? (I didnt go to hs so I might be wrong, if I am ignore this...) freshmen are usually 14-15, could just be a case of them not turning 15 yet but they will sometime in the school year (I say they because tucker said he was 14 too)? I know the show has 3 seasons, so by the end of it will they be older? thatd be neat but usually cartoon characters stay the same age...I love shows where you can see the characters age and grow up, though...three seasons seems like a long time to spend on like, 1 year...

[luimagines]

I am not a writer. Nor am I a person who posts stuff online,if at all rarely. But I am capable of typing and I am legally allowed to say that I have won a high school writing contest in my 3rd period English class in Sophomore year.I am still,what they call,VERY RUSTY.Take that as you may,but never in my life have I read an anonymous ask that has made me be burts into a desire to want to write down a bunch of story ideas of a dream that stranger had and then share it to another stranger online, to reply to publicly to about 100 more other strangers online. But none the less I STILL want to share to you sone of my--headcanons??--ideas??--bullshit dream story plotline??--(idk)-- I'll try to keep it limited because i don't want you to end up reading a rant novel-

I like to think that this //reader link? I'll just use y/n as a stand in i guess for this character or reader ??sorry if you dont like it,you can change it if you want?//before meeting The Chain Links *tm,she use to have a lot of problems being a #femaleheroinduringmediaveltimes but not in a way that most might see?I don't believe she would have really care for other people's opinions on the matter because she sees it as something very trivial and people will alway find a reason to look down on you and she also wasn't exactly let off easy for it during her training to be the hero of her kingdom.Even if she didn't want it,she was already destined and chosen for this path regardless of any possible sexist belief anyone had to offer.Her being the destined hero and needing to be strong enough to fight against Ganon was the utmost important thing on the to-do list,So bullshit like that was not accepted and they made sure it was in grain into her brain.

"Don't believe your enemies will ever go easy on you no matter what you are".

Most of the problems she would struggle as female I think ,would be on more on the biological side of things,for example like getting her period but being forced to have to truck though them anyways because she was a hero and it meant that you couldn't just take time off from your responsibilities and duty as Hyrule's saviour "just for some bad cramps" when you have lives to be saving and a world that needs to be protecting.So she would just not show any sign of complaint to the others about it or even let alone tell them about it and it just always seemed like from the outside that she would randomly just get super quiet and little withdrawn for no reason every month or so with a sort of tired/vacant look in their eyes?Anon also mentioned them having more of a military knight background and assuming she had been trained to or at least has lead troops into war/battle before,she could definitely be one of the teams best strategist along side with Warrior Link.I can definitely see them getting closer because of this as they're usually chipping in plans together and coming up with ideas/plans with what the best ways to use everyone on the team's special skills for certain position/roles during possible future battles.But a little bit after the whole "river" scenario i can definitely see legend sort of yell at her like

"wtf you is a girl and did not tell??? eXPLANaTiOn?????" "Because i didn't think it mattered??" "iT DoSe MaTtEr! ThAtS a bIG tHiNg!!"

There would definitely be a bit of an intervention with everyone to talk about the issue from "before". Maybe some what after everyone had gotten redressed and suddenly didn't feel like bathing anymore. After that everyone seem...awkward. No one knew exactly how to continue on with the revelation,so they all just stayed quite.At first she mistook this as a sign that everyone handled it well,she tried to continue business as always.While everyone was packing up to head out,she'd suddenly feel everyone's eyes.... Looking at her. When she turned she everyone just minding their own business.Maybe it was all just in herhead.The rest of the walk seem almost dead quiet.The once cheer mood of chatter was now replaced with an awkward tension filled with only small side glances,little quiet whispering from behind and an inability to look her in the face when she tried chatting with anyone.Is this what it was going to be like from now on?No of course not.They wouldn't let something as trivial as this get in the way of their relationship,right?they were still friends,right?

If you have the ability to but the stories in your head into recorded words then that makes you a writer.

No, I will not take any criticism on this matter.

This is beautifully thought out and it was a joy to read. I had to read it out loud out of fear that I would miss something entirely but I'm glad I did.

I would imagine it to be difficult to be on her period simply because when you're traveling there's no supplies to help out or lessen the situation! No cotton, no pain killers, not a lot of hot water to begin with... And yeah, she wouldn't say anything about it because a soldier wouldn't have the time to take care of it, let alone a hero.

She would also be the most used to blood on her clothes out of the group I think at this point. Just takes it upon her self to clean their clothes because they never seem to be able to get all of it and they don't know what they're doing even if she were to tell them how.

The boys think it's some magic technique but no.... it's just experience.

But the reader here that you mentioned would have had good teachers for burning it into her brain that it doesn't matter what body she has or what other people say because she the hero. She was born for this and there's no pleasing any one anyway. the best way out of this is to do the job and make sure you can get out alive.

What I want of the last paragraph is for her to get a little mad and question what the hell s wrong with everyone and then for someone to reply that it would have been disrespectful to look without direct permission because she would have deserved better than that. Like, they're fine with each other because they all have the same parts so like no big deal, but for them so openly show her themselves, verses her being seen openly.

I think it'll be a mixed bag of them being embarrassed that they were seen and that they saw her.

I think the ones least effected by it would be Wind, Warrior and Hyrule. Hyrule, because there's no like no people in his world so he doesn't have the same perception as the others, verses Wind who would probably be weird in the beginning but promptly not think too much on it because he has a sister at home and would help her bath when she was younger, verses Tetra who has had multiple shirts torn in the middle of battle- so who cares?

I was originally going to put Warrior as one of the most effected but I've played the game.... There are so many female warriors so if they got hit in the boob and needed attention then you take care of it. no questions asked and you move on with your day end of story.

The most effected would probably be Time, Twilight and Sky.

Time and Sky because- holy cow, I have a significant other, what am I going to say if they find out I saw another naked woman? Nothing. That's what. I'm a dead man if they ever find out.

Twilight because he was raised with his respect woman juice for breakfast and would have gladly turned away and oh my god- my mom is not going to like that I just didn't do anything this entire time and she's going to think that I just stared like some degenerate and what do I do now?

I think this is a fun concept and I don't mind exploring it more, but I'm beginning to suspect that I'm going to need a tag for the dream saga aren't I?

[janiedean]

I came from a country where being gay is not illegal but still very badly seen so what Eric did to me came off as spoiled and privileged. Nigerian men risk their lives every time they try to live and he just comes on a holiday risk for nothing and get a high out of it like... I get he is a poc in uk so racism but he is still privileged in respect to Nigerian living there and it felt like when tourists do all they want and use foreign countries as a eat pray love playground for adrenaline and Deep Moments

thanks for having partially confirmed to me one thing i didn’t quite know how to articulate and again i don’t… right with the premise that ofc not being poc and/or lgbt myself so my opinion is worth what it’s worth i felt like not only it made eric come off as privileged and not quite realizing it - or if it was the target then it wasn’t well written nor did it come across well - the points that imvho are not well put in this entire narrative are the following

let’s say one target was ‘we want eric to reconnect with the nigerian part of his heritage and realize that being gay in the uk is a privileged position in comparison to being gay in nigeria’: there is a single moment where he feels unsafe on the car but then he goes into the bar and it was played as… like THRILLING WILL WE GET CAUGHT OR NOT but i didn’t perceive that he felt in danger or like he realized exactly what he was facing

the whole family reconnection part was like… his mom lied about her husband bc family peace and kind of forces him to not be out bc she fears for his safety so like now unless i remember wrong eric has been out/never felt like he didn’t have to be since the show started so it should have a) given him insight re how it feels to NOT being able to be out b) let his mom connect with him on having to lie abt your significant other part c) concluded with at least a hint he could come out to nigerian family and like… point b) was more or less explored, c) was hinted bc he talked to his grandma abt adam but a) felt ABSOLUTELY missing because he comes back and everything he seems to gather from it is I WANT TO GO TO BARS BECAUSE I CAN? and most of all……. going through a) should have made him more sympathetic to adam’s struggles and instead it seemed like he deduced ‘oh since in nigeria it’s illegal then it makes no sense he’s taking so much time’ like…? it’s… a pretty self centered take to get out of this entire experience and if it was a check your privilege storyline then good but… it didn’t feel like that was how they framed honestly and why talking abt adam to the grandma if he’s gonna dump him???? 

now the eat pray love thing you mentioned is… i mean i felt like it was along those lines but as stated couldn’t be sure re my take but again my issue is with how they went at it, bc you CAN do that narrative if you clearly frame it as ‘we like eric and he’s a swell guy but he’s not free from that kinda behavior in light of the fact that living in the uk gives him automatic privilege wrt being out so we’re going to explore how he deals with it and it might be badly but then he learns from it and checks his privilege’ like it’s smth that can happen and everyone in this show has been shitty wrt smth at some point which is good bc it means everyone is written realistically… i’m not sure the narrative said THAT but it didn’t look like even the writers knew bc it was all over the place?? and i mean… i get that this show has realistic teenagers which means they can behave like petty assholes but like it was rushed, badly explained, not overt re wtf they wanted to do with this storyline and it’s not clear if eric even cares at the end?? and thats ooc anyway bc the eric we saw until this point isn’t… that callous or dismissive? and it never seemed to me like they wanted to write him as positive char that progressively gets less sympayhetic so honestly this entire plotline looks stupid

like the thing is at the end of it: - has eric reconnected to his nigerian heritage/found a way to balance it with his uk background? doesn’t seem to me like he did - has eric concluded anything re telling the nigerian side of his family that he’s out? no - has eric gained some actual insight from his experience that’s not ‘I want to go to bars because I can and I have no patience for someone who needs to take it slower’? doesn’t seem to me like he did - has eric realized that adam not being ready to tell his own mom stuff was a sort of parallel situation to his own mother not being ready to tell her mom stuff and like... if eric’s own mom lied about her partner to her family for years and still wasn’t ready to do it then why is giving adam a bit more time to tell his own mom especially given his less than stellar background re accepting himself and coming out such a hardship? no and we just don’t know basically this entire plotline could have gone a bunch of different places that were interesting/could have caused strong conflict/interesting storytelling but it didn’t do any of these things and fell back on like... cheap drama for the sake of it and honestly idt it was very sensitive wrt anything included in it which honestly strikes me as odd bc if sex ed ever did one thing right was treating sensitive subjects well without dancing around it or making things sugarcoated and still letting the characters not be cardboards so I’m very very perplexed about it and I just hope they plan to reveal wtf they wanted it to be next year because honestly I don’t know what it wanted to be and if they didn’t make it clear it’s not good writing - which until now they had in spades, therefore....

like, there’s nothing... narratively wrong in ‘I want to show that character X who faces racism and homophobia in the UK would have privilege wrt being able to be out/live his sexuality without shame in the UK and not in the country his family comes from and he has no idea because he hasn’t entertained that thought and he might come off as unpleasant or incapable of immediately getting it while that happens’, but the thing is that in this specific narrative it’s not clear whether eric got it or if he didn’t bc teenagers are shallow and don’t get it (which..... I mean the teens in this show aren’t exactly shallow like that so that doesn’t really hold up) or if he’s having trouble processing it or if the trip shook his entire world (didn’t seem like it) so like... I should hope next season it’s addressed what they want this thing to be because honestly idk and I don’t particularly like the direction it took

this adding that anyway again the way they broke eric and adam off like that makes the whole S2 finale look sour and eric come off like an asshole also wrt rahim because I mean, one thing is ‘eric has been in love with adam/has liked adam best all along but adam wasn’t around and he liked rahim so he gave it a shot but rahim wasn’t it for him so when adam does the great love gesture for him in front of everyone he decides to leave rahim for him’ because like that sucked for rahim anyway but it also wouldn’t have been fair to him to not break it off if eric had stronger feelings for someone else (and that was clear from the get-go) and then when they get together eric puts effort in it and they go places, one thing is ‘all of that happens but then the moment they aren’t on the exact same page and/or eric realizes he doesn’t want to put the necessary effort into respecting the time adam needs to handle his things even when adam forgives him and says he’ll try to get on track with him’ and so the solution is nah let’s break up instead of putting some work into it when ngl adam has been doing 85% of that this season................. it makes him look like the moment there’s an obstacle to a relationship he’s in or his partner isn’t on the same wavelength he’d just rather break it off first instead of giving it a go and that’s not a really great look on him and as stated it makes the thing with rahim look really bad because again one thing is leaving someone you like for someone who feels like is the love of your life and another thing is leaving someone you like for someone who loves you that much but then you’ll leave them too because..... he needs time to talk to his mother and he’s not ready to be fully out when he comes from repressingyourfeelingsinternalizedhomobiphobia central? like........ dunno but it just feels sour and like nothing one would expect out of eric as he was written/developed until now so I’mma just wait to see what they do next season but it’s just not good writing all around

[skylar36]

So, question for all you neurodivergeny folks like myself who have been masking so hard for so long that they basically started stimming as an adult. I’m 20 and I don’t know how to explain to my mom that the weird thing I’ve been doing with my hands lately is a stim and I should have felt like it was okay to do it my entire childhood, but for whatever reason I didn’t.

Probably the complete lack of adult neurodivergent role models that stim.

I don’t know how to explain to her that I didn’t just start stimming because I saw some people on TikTok do it and thought it was cool, I started doing it because I saw some people on TikTok and thought, “oh, I’m allowed to do that because it’s okay. There’s nothing wrong with me because my head sometimes wants to twitch in different directions and my hands want to fly around when I’m happy.”

I don’t know how to explain to her that I don’t flap my hands around because I saw someone on TikTok do it, I do it because the way I’ve been dealing with too many emotions has been to hit myself (I stop if it hurts, but it’s still not good) and this has been an incredibly positive change in my life.

I don’t know how to explain to her that the tone of her voice when I have conversations with her have such a dramatic impact on me and I shut down when it feels like I’m about to be made fun of even if that’s never what she intends because I’m still feeling really sensitive and defensive about it.

It’s still raw. It feels like I’ve had a part of myself hidden away for so long and I’m so excited to share it, but I’m also so scared of being rejected for it. Or made fun of for it. Not because my family is malicious, but because we tease each other a lot and this is something that isn’t ready to be teased. It’s too new, it’s too raw. Like an open wound.

You can laugh with everyone about an old scar. I have a scar from a fight with my sister years ago and it’s hilarious because it came from such a superficial scratch that I don’t even think actually drew blood. I wasn’t laughing while it was still healing, but I’m laughing now.

Im not ready to laugh at stims that objectively look very silly. I know that someday I will be, but not today. The wound is still healing. It’s scabbing over, but it hasn’t quite scarred and faded into the past yet.

We’ve known that I have ADHD since I was little and my mom has been a strong advocate for my school accommodations and getting medication when it became clear that that’s what would help me most. Just to make it known that my mom is not a neurodivergence denier and she’s never told me that I need to be more normal or anything like that.

Though she did look very confused when I called ADHD a disability, so there is that. I think we’ve got some of that internalized ableist ideas that I have so much potential and if I would just work harder to apply myself, then I would be doing so much better. We’ve worked on that, it’s become clear that it’s not just my dumbass being lazy, we just didn’t know what the fuck executive dysfunction was and what it means. I had been telling people for years (including therapists so idk wtf they were doing knowing I had ADHD and not explaining to the crying middle schooler that what she’s describing has a name and there are tools to help with that, but go off ig) that I didn’t fucking know why I couldn’t do my homework. I wanted to get it done because I always felt better when it was done, but I just could not do it. Nobody suggested that maybe I try this or maybe we do some research on executive dysfunction and emotional regulation in people with ADHD. Not a single fucking adult, even the child therapist that I saw in middle school, but that’s a rant for a different day because I’ve got some feelings about that.

Right, this turned into a vent where I make metaphors that probably don’t make any sense. Anyway, I would still like that advice if anyone has some. My mom isn’t an asshole, she’s willing to listen, it’s just hard not to feel like I’m being talked down to.

Maybe it’s just my own attitude and expectations that are the issue here?

[angelmichelangelo]

i’m about five years too late and nobody asked for this except me and i need to just get this out of my brain because it’s 2am so here’s a list of things i wish happened on glee that didn’t HERE WE GO:

- new directions being actual teenagers. just them hanging out. going to group sleepovers. giant study sessions (because school exists in this universe?) like remember in tpp when they were eating lunch together ? that’s what i wanted MORE of. just them being actual friends. a sleepover episode is all i wanted imagine all the abba songs we could have gained from that episode

- a halloween themed episode. the closest to this that we got was the ‘thriller/heads will roll’ mashup which YES was iconic but im greedy and it’s not enough. my idea for a halloween episode is that the gang gets trapped inside the school after staying behind to idk rehearse? or something? and then things get progressively worse as they start to go a little mad, thinking the school is haunted and they split up into pairs trying to find an escape and they think they’re seeing ghosts/someone lurking around the school and they’re getting real spooked but it turns out it’s just sue fucking with them lmao

- kurt and finn being brothers. THE POTENTIAL WAS THERE and sadly after furt we are left with crumbs. why ?? WHY?? little moments like finn saying that he’s driving back home with kurt or them saying they can’t do something because they have a family thing would have been good enough. more scenes of them hanging out in their home with their parents would have been *chefs kiss* but alas. it never happened because glee writers are bastards

- based off my last point: sam actually living at the hudson-hummel house because he actually did live there? but nothing is ever said like what’s the dynamic there why weren’t kurt and sam and finn close if they all lived together for what? like a year? was sam living in the mf shed? did he ever get close to carole and burt?? where tf did he live when everyone went off to college did he just stay in their house lol who knows not me LMAO

- blaine dealing with his trauma ? mental health was never dealt with very well on this show. emma’s ocd was just ignored after she got married or whatever and blaine mentioned his trauma once and then it was ignored until it was mentioned in passing a few seasons later and even he just brushed it off and it was never brought up again like wtf. i have no idea how they wrote a whole episode about hate crime in bash and they never once thought to have blaine and kurt have a single conversation together, let alone a conversation about how they’d both been victims of a hate crime. AND THE ONLY TIME BLAINE DOES MENTION IT IS IN TESTED WHERE ITS JUST USED AS A REASON FOR THEM TO FIGHT AAAAAAAA no wait im calm it’s okay. i just would have liked to have seen kurt and blaine have an emotional moment together in that episode that didn’t include blaine singing and kurt being knocked tf out. just sayin.

- kurt dealing with HIS trauma !! again, glee gets bad points for talking about mental health and it just is crazy that they had so much potential with kurt, ie: depression, anxiety, ocd (kinda?) his bullying, being literally assaulted (i see u ryan murphy taking that whole plot line so loosely mmhm) and then shoehorning in the fact that he was suicidal AT THE SECOND TO LAST EPISODE when they had a whole episode about suicide and they could have mentioned it at any time but ofc they didn’t because the writers just wanted to shove in as much as they could in the flashback episode AYE AYE AYE the potential!!!! oof.

- literally just more tina. jenna ushkowitz is a fantastic actor/singer/preformer and she was criminally underused. i like the episode props because of two reasons: one. everyone switching characters was amazing. and two. some actual tina scenes. even if she.. technically was rachel but also herself or something? either way. i digress

- this is just in general but MORE ABBA AND ALSO THE CARPENTERS and also some sound of music songs would have worked GREAT but they already had like a million songs and as the show progressed they veered away from old songs and more towards popular songs at the time to help chart numbers blah blah blah whatever it’s cool. but also how did they only do a few abba songs that is criminal

- a more fleshed out ending that wasn’t so rushed. like rachel won a tony and everyone else is just? there? why is sam at mr shue’s house ??? how did artie get up the stairs? did quinn graduate from yale? and where tf was kurt and blaine’s child during ‘i lived’ because burt and carole are vibing in the audience and rachel isn’t pregnant so like? is the baby just?? alone somewhere in the wings?! lmao where are u bby girl!! but once again i know they didn’t have the time to do it so idk it’s fine what they did it just sucks we didn’t get more! but again. fanfic exists so yah im all good

- more of blaine’s mum. or mom, in this case i guess. why cast gina gershon and then give her ONE line like ? ik there was a whole deleted script that explained why she was there but i love that up until that point blaine seemed like he genuinely murdered his parents, lived in their big house all alone and when people got suspicious he just told them that they were “out of town” :) either way pam is great i love her and i wish she had more to do in the one episode she was ever in. not even a moment with blaine?? wasted.

- more of cooper anderson, matt boomer is so fucking funny everytime i think of the emotion tornado i bust a lung laughing like it’s so fucking stupid but oh my good i love it. (and if you haven’t watched the special feature of cooper’s transformers audition tape please please watch it because it’s just so funny.) ik he was just a special guest but i wish they got him back for at least the wedding ep but guess my mans was just busy. boo ;(

- going back a couple of points, i wish they’d done a whole episode like props. every actor here just shines when they’re impersonating each other. finn and puck as kurt and blaine is beautiful and quinn and sugar is incredible. also idk why they refused kevin the right to wear the cheerios skirt; they could have put a little more effort into some characters but that’s glee for ya lmao but yeah. a whole episode like that would have been so much fun

- they should have let chris colfer write more episodes. purely for the fact that he wrote with his own bare hands the whole scene where lea michelle’s character gets dragged down a road by dogs. this guy. it’s a shame he only got to write one since he actually did a really good job! i would have loved to have seen what other episode ideas he had :)

- glee in the summer! obviously it only was centred around the school year but after season 3 who honestly gave a shit about the glee club and mckinley lmao i wanna see them in SHORT SHORTS and POOL PARTIES but nope we just got september - june so like rip all my hopes and dreams

- WHAT HAPPENED TO DALTON? bitch just burst into flames ?? and for WHAT?? oh yeah plot convenience smh this is so sad i wish they’d either written something better than “we need the warblers to team up with new directions so uhhh the school burnt down” like. it’s a private school. if the school is gone and they’re just staying at mckinley what are the parents paying for? they’re just cool with sending their kids off to public school now? every adult in this universe has been murdered by these kids, haven’t they? they’re just doing whatever they want jfc

- a wedding was a good episode. ish. and yknow, huge kudos to them because gay marriage wasn’t legal in the us at the time so im less harsh on the fact that they definitely threw up the rainbow flags and made it less about the characters getting married and more so “we have gay characters and look they’re getting married what a concept” but i do wish we could have gotten some more married!klaine since they don’t really have much to do after this understandably but a little moment alone together after the wedding would have been nice :) IT WOULD HAVE BEEN NICE IM TELLING YOU

- get rid of the hummelberry friendship and send mercedes to new york instead. i have nothing else to add to this other than the fact that i mourn the fact that kurt and mercedes went from bffs to just. school mates. this is tragic this is traaaaagic !! and all for more of the rachel berry show smh

- every day i wonder what was going through carmen tibideaux mind when she watched the kurt hummel preform not the boy next door and was like :) and then watched rachel berry have a breakdown on stage and then proceeded to give rachel the spot at nyada and kurt gets payed literal dust. and THEN she had the nerve to tell him it was because his performance had no heart. AND HOW DID ADAM GET IN THIS BABY GOT BACK MOTHERFUCKER?! nyada is a circus school oh my god !!!!! kurt deserved better im telling yall he deserved so much better

there’s so much more i could rant about but im going insane im so tired and i need psychological help after watching glee so im gonna leave it here and say peace out homies it’s been fun but i need to sleep so bad

[cookiiecats]

Anon:

" I L O V E the "taco goes to lightbulb instead of taco" AU am i allowed to ask about it on this blog, or only on your main? if i can ask about it here, why taco approached lightbulb over microphone, and what led lightbulb to go into the forest?”

IM SO SORRY THIS ASK IS OLD AND IM JUST NOW RESPONDING TO IT GFDJK but like this ask never left me i kept thinking about it at work

more stuff down below!

idk how to format tumblr posts anymore its been too long but im just gonna type all the AU stuff here. if u didnt know abt the au back then its just lightbulb instead of microphone as taco’s pawn. and yknow its lightbulb so ~wacky hijinks~ would ensue

for taco’s reasoning, i think its pretty clear that ii lightbulb is a fan favorite. which is a big plus for taco. i would like to think taco does see herself in lightbulb (said in a comic that i cannot find found it!!pog!!). lightbulb just needs to be guided in the right direction. (rewatching the mic taco first interaction she doesnt really need to change much abt her speech tbh though she probably wont be able to monologue because lightbulb. shes god. its lightbulbs world and ur just living in it)

for the first encounter and why lightybulby is in the forest i feel like lightbulb gets exhausted from the show sometimes so she goes to the forest to like decompress and rest because being god is tiring af. and taco follows to do her manipulative thing but also because “why is she going to the forest? alone?? wtf” and she just finds her lying there. ITS REALLY DUMB but this au is dumb + fun and i love it.

i swear though, if taco and lightbulb interact in the new episode im gonna scream so much i hope adam katz Personally hears it and it awakens something within him and the ii crew. please please please i want them to talk i love them so much i love taco lightbulb i want lightaco real pleaes im still waiting for the official vore shirt please i sent an email If they dont interact im suing the ii crew for someting idk ill think later but ill sue and cry and like pass out from crying and dealing with the law Literally thers no reason why they wont interact THere is NONE!! NONE I TELL YOU! THEYRE BOTH LONELY RN COME ON COWARDS. COME ON!!!

[alias-b]

OKAY. So, I wasn’t gonna dignify this with an answer, but I’m feeling super good and starting my vacation and have few things to lose tbh. I blocked you, but you’ll find a way back if you feel this is really worth it.

You certainly found it worth it enough to slap that anon button to insult me and dress it up as idk ?? being helpful & even kind in your mind?? If you followed my fics, you know the nasty msgs I get monthly so why would I take a personal jab as from a good place? Why would anyone mean to act “holier than thou” ???? Telling me you’re not coming from a bad place....yet you still went anon bc you knew how this read. Hm. Anyways....to answer, I’ll just unpack this neatly:::

1) ???? When did I say ANY of that even in a talk down/negative context??? lmao I even searched my asks trying to find myself being this rude. Slide into my DMs and let me know bc from my POV, you’re blatantly misreading something or making it up?? I’m confused and of course, I’d never want to come across any kind of way like that! If I ever mention young ppl, I mean actual teenagers in fandom spaces that adults get nasty interacting with. Ppl in their 20s/30s+ really need to be mindful about interacting with ppl under 18 and attacking them or being creepy and inappropriate with them/their content. Don’t twist my words.

Ppl who write thin OCs still get hate on their fics lmao, I did. But they don’t get constant hate generally based on their size or race. ((Also like...we’re all aware of fatphobia & racism in fandom and what types of OCs/characters are targets for that...esp if they’re being paired with favs... Writers of color are absolutely also allowed their frustrations with racism in fandom spaces btw too. Do not talk over them. Just listen and be aware. Do your best.))

2) I absolutely DO NOT think I’m better or “more moral/braver” than any other writer on here wtf, I consider myself even “still young” and learning... I’m in my 20s, I’m not a fandom gma trying to police anyone??? As long as you’re living your best life, surrounded by the best content YOU want, go tf off, sis!!! We’re all in a pandemic here trying to get by.

Writing is always a growing process and we’re doing it for free, it’s not perfect and always is a skill that gets better as we do it. I try not to compare myself to others, my fics are mine and that’s IT. I’m allowed to be proud of what I’ve created and I encourage all writers to do the same. A lot of writers are happy and patting themselves on the back for what they created but I’m NOT taking digs or doing it cause I think I’m some brave crusader on a mission. I’m too tired for that bull. I don’t get/want cool points for anything. Have you sent these concerns to any one else for doing the same??? Or are you irked I’m trying to uplift MY fat character?? That I get constant hate for??? More reflection for you.

3) I’ve been incredibly supportive of OCs of all shapes and sizes. I’ve gotten asks shading thin/white “model” ocs and only ever preached patience and support to all oc writers bc it’s never right to bring someone down to lift someone else up. It’s never right to shame a writer not hurting anyone. All OCs are good OCs. That’s the point I always make!! Writing is hard. Finding face claims is hard. Making whole ass humans for a fictional world is hard. So, I’m constantly posting/replying to be open and understanding with writers, whatever they do. It’s their fic. Their characters. Their choices. All OCs are valid.

No one is obligated to make a specific type of OC, just make the OCs you want to see. I don’t think it’s right to hate or shade ANY writer/OC and I make it clear in asks that try to suggest otherwise. Maybe go reread them before slapping that brave anon button again to come from ‘a good place.’

4) Evie is ONE of FIVE OCs I’ve written on this account. And the only plus size OC of them too so IDK why I’d ever act ‘holier than thou’ about a SINGLE OC when the numbers are 1 of 5 here... I’m not gifting the fandom the gift of me, I’m just writing content I enjoy. I’m gifting it to my damn self. There’s no crusade. There’s no BIG STATEMENT UWU. She’s not some political piece, y’all can be so dehumanizing with that toward fat characters or characters of color. Just let them exist proudly. If you don’t like it maybe they’re really not for you!

Evie’s literally just a character I created that I adore. Fat characters exist and they can be whatever we writers want. If people feel represented by her, I think that’s amazing and I so so appreciate when I’m told. It’s a special thing to see yourself represented when you never do in fandom or mainstream spaces!! She represents parts of me too that I’m still learning to love. But if not, I’m sure she’s still relatable. She has a whole personality beyond being a plus size girl bc being fat is not her defining trait. We absolutely should encourage more positive diversity in fandom, esp in main characters. Everyone of all sizes writing about what they look like is awesome! We agree on that point!

5) Evie is one of five ocs. Again. I’ve gotten hate messages and passive aggressive comments for all three of my big fics. Evie has ONLY EVER gotten hate for her size and race. She’s gotten a LOT.  ((sometimes her eating disorder, but that’s another issue)) And yeah, it doesn’t shock me. It’s too transparent. People who relate to her don’t deserve that shame either.

I hadn’t even started posting the actual fic before I got my first hate msg about her being an “oc reach bc billy hates fat chicks” whatever. So I think I’m allowed to defend and stan her that much harder and her role in this fic. I think I’m allowed to gush about how much I love her story against all the disgusting hate she gets. I’m not apologizing for that. Me loving Evie super hard has nothing to do with anyone else’s OC. It’s not a mission. It’s not a dig. She’s mine.

**So no, anon, I don’t think I’m doing any big, in your face, public service with my ONE plus size oc. I don’t think I’m better. I think I’m just creating content for myself to enjoy. If others enjoy it too, awesome!! If not, they’ll find something else to enjoy. It’s a big space with lots of amazing writers, I can even direct you to a few!!! I’m happy to do that!! ****If I really had an issue with white or skinny ocs....I wouldn’t be writing them myself which I DO. I wouldn’t be supporting my fellow writers who also write them!!

So you’ll excuse me if I don’t believe that you actually support Evie or me or my fics. All this message served to do was dwindle an author’s excitement for her OC and accomplishments. And you didn’t do that. I’ll try even harder to support fellow writers around me tho!! ^_^

If this is a big misunderstanding bc you misreading asks that I’ve gotten or you misread my tone or remarks anywhere, that’s really not my issue either. IDK, maybe I’m popping off too much too, but this accusation is truly mean-spirited. I know things don’t always translate over the internet well, but I’ve been openly loving and supportive to fellow friends and authors despite anything that’s been said. Even through laundry lists of passive aggressive and hateful messages about my stories since my first fic took off. I’ve seen friends get hate too and I can’t stand that they have to deal with that. They SHOULD be proud of their works always.

I know I don’t deserve them and I know I don’t deserve this either. I know who I am at the end of the day and I know what I put into the world and I know that my fics are mine first. I know my truth and I hope you know yours behind that anon button.

So, thank you for your concerns but please drop them somewhere else and have a wonderful day enjoying the free content we put out. Support your favorite writers and encourage all writers to keep doing what they love and getting better at it! Thanks!!! xoxo :)))