#online I am awkward af

[lemonmaid]

Could I request kenma x male reader omegaverse where kenma has a huge crush on reader but doesn't know what to do with it?

Warnings: references to meeting someone on the internet and getting kidnapped/molested.

Omegan Stranger

Kenma Kozume x male reader

"Kenma!! You've gotta meet my friend (Name)! I feel like you guys would like each other!" Hinata jumped onto Kenma, almost latching onto him as a baby koala.

Kenma sighed and tried shaking Hinata off, "Hinata, for the last time please stop coming up behind me, like that you are going to give me a heart attack".

"But! He also likes video games!"

Kenma just stared at Hinata, giving a look, "So you think just because we both like video games, we would like each other? Pass".

"Hey, what are you two gossiping about?". Kurro walked up towards the duo.

"Oh hey, Kurro! I was just telling Kenma about my friend that he would like!"

"Oh is that so~ well you should give up, Kenma's alpha is like non-existent. Speaking of which, are you sure you're an alpha? You know, I've heard of school testing coming out wrong".

"Can both of you quiet down? I'm trying to finish this game before the match starts... also I'm kinda already 'talking' to someone.." Kenma rolled their eyes and focus on his phone.

"WHAT?!"

...

The three walked towards a corner store, "come on Kenma, can you give us a little details about them?"

"No".

Kurro sighed, "Okay... how about where y'all met?".

"On LOL".

Hinata and Kurro, gave eachother a look. "Okay listen buddy, I'm sorry to say but the person might be an 40 old man".

"No they arent".

"Okay! But how do you know! It's a stranger!" Hinata yelled.

"Keep it down please, we are supposed to meet up today at the Internet Café".

Kurro put a hand on Kenma's shoulder, "As your best friend-"

"You're not my best friend"

"Shush, again, as your best friend, I and Hinata will come with you to make sure you don't get molested or kidnapped by a stranger on the internet".

...

Kurro snickered, "Are you really wearing your volleyball uniform to this "date"".

"Yeah because I told them that I will be wearing a red sweatsuit"

"Okay but what are they wearing?"

Kenma looked at his phone, "He said a yellow turtle neck".

Kurro whisled, "Oh so it's a guy?".

"Yeah... is that a problem?".

"Oh no! I'm an ally!"

Kenma gave Kurro a look, "Shut up, we are here".

Hinata looked through the window, "OMG ITS (NAME), I'LL BE RIGHT BACK".

Hinata ran inside, "Jesus what's his problem, right Kenma? Kenma?".

Kenma just stared at the duo through the window, his breath hitch.

'This scent... it reeks'

"Kenma... hello?" Kurro kept shaking his hands in front of the blonde, trying to get him out of his trance.

"Sorry I can't do this". Kenma started walking away from the café.

Kurro looked af Kenma in shock, "HEY BRO WHERE YOU GOING?!".

Hinata and (Name) came out of the café, "(Name)! These are my friends! Kurro and Kenma! Wait were did Kenma go?"

"Um.. I don't know? He kinda just walked away".

"It's okay Hinata, I'm just waiting on a friend to show up, which could be any minute now".

Kurro gave Hinata an awkward look, "Listen, why don't we keep you company untill your friend arrives? So it's safer!"

"Um..." (Name) looked at their phone, "sure that's okay".

...

[11:43 p.m.]

Kenma just stared at his PC screen, debating whether or not to turn it on. 'If I go online, my online statues would be seen and if they are on, they'll wonder why I didn't show up today'.

'Fuck it. I am not wasting my daily rewards on some man' .

As soon as Kenma launched the game, he saw that his inbox had three missed messages.

Hey! I'm at the café! Let me know when you are here! :)

Hey, I don't mean to be a bother but are you coming? My friend came by and is keeping me company until then.

Hey, is everything okay?

Okay, I'm going to go. Sorry things didn't go as planned. Maybe next time? :)

Kenma stared at the messages and sighed, 'God, I'm such a dick'.

[Ding]

Kenma looked and saw that he was invited to an private in game chat.

'Time to face my consequencess'

"Hey, sorry that I didn't show up. Something came up".

"Oh, it's okay! I wasn't alone but we should really try meeting up again next time".

"Yeah. Next time.".

"Yeah.... I was thinking at the in person tournament? It's this Saturday! There is a grand prize too!".

"Yeah, we can try Saturday. Are you thinking about teaming up?".

"Yeah! Of course!".

"Good. Let's do a practice round".

"Ready when you are!".

...

"So why did you leave yesterday?"

Kenma stared at Kurro, "something came up".

"Bullshit". Kurro crossed his arms, giving a judgemental mother look towards Kenma.

Kenma sighed, throwing the volleyball towards the wall, "I don't know, I just kinda froze".

"You froze?"

"Yeah..."

Kurro scoffed, "for an alpha that was adopted by two omegan parents. You sure are skittish around them".

Kenma dropped the ball, "wait, they are an omegan?"

"Duh".

Kenma looked at his chest, 'Is that why you were acting up yesterday'.

"Well if it makes you feel better, we are going to retry Saturday"

"Way to go buddy!" Kurro put Kenma in a head lock, " I knew you could get bitches!".

Kenam growled, "LET ME GO".

"Woah woah, easy there baby alpha. Oh my God look at my baby, he is already growling".

"Please shut up Kurro!".

"No, but for real, we need to get you to prepare! Don't want you freezing up again!". Kurro teased.

Kurro looked at Kenma, "why did you freeze up again?"

Kenma face turned red, picking his nails, "I don't know. At first, his scent reeked then it felt welcoming and I don't know it just kinda made me freeze".

Kurro smiled, "Man, that omega has gotten a hold on your alpha".

"..what".

"Wait how long have you've known him?"

Kenma took a minute, "Well we've been playing on LOL together for a year now".

"And yall are going to meet for the first time Saturday?".

Kenma nodded.

Kurro sighed, "Well you might aswell confess now".

Kenma started choking, "WHAT?".

Kurro started tsking, "No omega would meet up with a stranger they meet on LOL for christ sake. So let's get you to prepare for Saturday".

♡

[Saturday]

"Now Kenma, what did we practice saying?"

"Don't tell him that he stinks"

"Good. What else?"

"Make them feel like they are being heard in the conversation".

"Wonderful. Last thing?"

"Um... food is the way to the heart?".

"No, but just be a good host".

Kurro gave Kenma a pat on the back, sending him his way into the convention center.

Kenma laid eyes on (Name), freezing again, "hey buddy, you are going to be okay". Kurro pushed Kenma foward.

(Name) turned around and smiled at the duo, "hey! Are you Kenma?".

Kenma gulped, "um yeah".

"Oh cool! My name is obviously (Name)! You know the guy you've been talking too on LOL".

The two both nervously laughed, Kurro smiled at them, "Well I'll leave you kids to do whatever nerd shit this is! Later!".

(Name) smiled, "So... the tournament doesn't begin until 1:50, I was wondering if you wanted to check out the anime convention next door until then? There is a lot of VAs here!".

"Um yeah sure that's cool".

"Great!".

The two walked around endlessly in the hot box of an convention center, pushing pass people, looking at the over priced dropshipper vendors.

"Oo! Actually Kenma there is an local artist I want to check out before we go eat. Is that okay?"

"Yeah sure, what art do they do?"

The two walk up to the vendor, "Well they just do fan art but I can't resist keychains".

As the two waited in line, something caught Kenma's eye.

"Hey, (Name). I'll be right back!".

"Oh okay! I'll meet you at the food court?" (Name) chirped happily.

Kenma walked up to an LOL vendor that was selling keychains of the video game characters.

"Um excuse me? Can I get two of these?"

♡

"Kenma there you are!". (Name) smiled and walked towards the blonde carrying drinks.

"Hey" Kenma smiled down, rubbing his neck, "Well I got this for you".

Kenma held out (Name)'s favorite LOL character in a keychain.

"Oh my goodness, Kenma.. you didn't have too".

As (Name) reached out for the Keychain, Kenma grabbed the man's hands.

(Name) look at the blonde, "(Name)...."

"Yes?".

"(Name) if we win this tournament... can I court you?".

(Name)'s face flushed in red.

♡

[Few years later]

"Name... wake up. I don't have time for this today".

(Name) snuggled closer in the bedsheets, just coming off of his latest heat, "I don't wanna, if I do get up that means I gotta be a person today".

Kenma chuckled, "Babe, I love you but I'm trying to stream... I don't wanna anyone else seeing my omega laying in their natural habitat"

"NaTUrAL HaBiTAt, you make it seem like I'm an animal"

Kenma sighed, "Well.. you do bite..".

(Name) threw a pillow towards the man, "You dick!".

(Name) charged towards Kenma; Kenma grabbing (Name)'s legs and flipping him upside down.

"AND HIS NAME IS JOHN CENA! BOOM BOOM BOOOM".

This was my first request and I am very happy! It was long, barely proofread, but I think it was goof! I hope you enjoyed it. Thank you so much! This was kinda rushed, sorry user if this wasn't as good as you hoped it to be. Thank you for the request anyways!

[twyftwyt]

I agree with what you said about not being online. Although I think it’s healthy of them not to be online for their mental health, I also think it sucks to be a fan and have no interactions. I’ve been a fan since 2017 and I used to love the insta lives, the twitch streams, the insta posts and stories. It made them seem more real and made them more human. Now they hide and I understand but as a fan… it kinda sucks. Also they don’t interact much with the crowd during shows, I know due to Noah being awkward af… but he does like one speech/interaction and that’s it… and they hardly ever come out and meet fans after the shows anymore. As a fan… it makes me feel distanced so I feel distanced from being a fan too if that makes sense.

It does make a lot of fans feel distanced indeed, I agree with you on that. Also Noah being awkward and very introverted, I am very sorry, but in this industry you don’t get the option to be that. You gotta break out of the shell at some point if you want to make it somewhere. He can moan into a mic and write a speech for “Just pretend” but not interact a little more here and there, just to make every city’s experience a little bit more personal? Yeah, no. It takes practice the get out there and show people who you are, but he’s introverted, he’s not shy.

[0nl0n]

woah I'm online

Uhh idk what to do so uh

random hc rambling

Emo-jiter

Uranus' moons and makemake&haumea personalities headcanons BEFORE the canon (I still love them :3 dw I love the Canon too)

These are copy and pasted from a convo-

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They all have a sibling relationship w/ eachother

Titania : fandom kid, loves art & animation [+ fics]. Shy and just AMAZING OMGA I LOVE HER SO SO MUCH (I am so weird) has oldest kid problems ;-; can be weird sometimes (but it's the fandom kid type of weirdness lol) Obreron: le brotha, middle child treatment ;w; chill and pretty cool person Ariel : le angle child. always fights with umbriel (sibling fighting) Pure…….99% of the time- Umbriel: mischievous, AN ABSOLUTE RASCAL OH MY GOD UMBRIEL DONT YOU DARE— Ahem Anyways- Always fights with ariel (sibling fighting). Demon/gremlin child, silly Ariel and umbriel are twins✨ (Ariel and umbriel are lola loud without the brattyness/short temperedness and lana loud) Miranda: smart / Lisa loud. Also short tempered and likes to be alone most of the time but she makes sure the 4 don't jump off a cliff or somthing.

Make: OMG HES LIKE UMBRIEL NGL- very silly Reckless and besties with haumea Confident and will try/will kick your ass if you hurt haumea and/or eris (BTW I see/hc eris and makemake as siblings) (Also I hc the dwarfs love making music) (Also I hc Pluto and Mercury are BESTIE WESTIES and basically Mercury are also besties with the dwarfs, + he also helps out with making music) Makemake always drags haumea along for adventures when haumea just wants to read manga :3 Has a really good sense of humor like funny af

Haumea: Similar to canon haumea Anime Weeb Loves reading manga and watching anime Bookworm but not nerdy Quiet and a little awkward but really fun to hang around with and talk to Softie but not too Softie Chill dude

Bonus If makemake was cooking he would burn the whole solar system down Haumea is decent but would probably burn something

[meat-wentz]

you are an mcr blogger stop posting about fob and leave it to the real fans

okay so i wanna actually talk about this because it’s something i’ve seen a lot recently and kinda came to a head last night with fob trending.

ya gotta understand that there was an obvious influx of bandom with the return of mcr. like myself, although i’ve had dedicated fan accounts on other platforms, made this account so i could actually *engage* with the tour in a way i couldn’t engage with it on other platforms. you gotta understand i’ve been on tumblr for 14 years (in a week it will be my main’s 14th birthday!) but i also haven’t been actively involved in tumblr fan spaces in a really really long time, like a decade probably. so this account came with some adjusting, especially considering how different of a space tumblr is (more suited for long posting, analysis, ongoing jokes and more stable friendships/relationships to mutuals). so yeah i came here for tour but stayed because it’s really one of the best online spaces for community i could recommend (not surprising, i’m still friends on facebook with a bunch of my mutuals from 2010).

but also something to consider is, for a lot of people, this is their first dive into bandom in any meaningful way. not only are they making connections in a generally positive environment, they’re also engaging with material in a way that you can’t really get on any other platform (analysis! parallels! deep dives! inside jokes that last more than three days when meme cycles run dry after 24 hours in other places! the ability to say fuck without punishment! a more open space for queerness to thrive! and most of the time, a general welcome to horny content) so there’s also an adjustment time for everyone else too, which is why we keep having to have the same conversation about bandom racism every few weeks, and now too why fob is coming up in reference to petekey, because mcr/fob crossover fans are noticing how the mcr fandom consistently reduces fob’s line of work down to a punchline (especially considering many of which do not engage with fob at all).

personally, now that tour is over, i started posting about fob because they are an equally important band to me and because they mean so so so much to my heart and wow! i finally have a space to talk about it with people who are interested in hearing my thoughts about it (or not, if i’m not for you, i’m not for you), AND i wanna hear about and engage with all the cool people on here about their thoughts too! and i think a lot of fans now have the brain space/dash space to actually talk about fob, or engage for the first time with fob, which is so awesome!!! the way i’ve always approached tumblr is as a personalized archive, so that’s why i’ve been posting things that may have been posted before, doing intro lore and jokes and dives, because i like having a place i know i can reference in the future.

i know this is an arduous process for people who are dedicated fob bloggers and have been for years, to see a lot of people blogging about fob solely in reference to a ship for months on end and then they get recognition on the trending page for the same damn thing but this time saying “stop doing that” i know it’s hard to see your favorite band only recognized not by their artistry or their members or their music or any of the cool things about them, but by their relationship to another band. i feel like right now it’s a transitional phase for a lot of people into bandom blogging just in general, i know a lot of blogs who have never been bandom blogs but now are dedicated bandom bloggers just in the past year! so there’s adjustments to be made, stuff to learn, annoying conversations to have, but don’t doubt for one second, i hold fob in my heart and always have and i am so so so grateful to have a space and community to express that love with. i’m sorry to all the fob bloggers out there that are seeing this awkward kinda messy transition, i know it’s annoying af and will continue to be but know there are bloggers out here who are genuinely in it for their love of fob and lots of new fans out there who will look to you to guide them into their new favorite band!!! for now there’s going to be a lot of rehashing of ground already beaten to death so apologies on behalf of the post-mcr wreckage.

to you, personally, anon, idk what you consider a real fan but i don’t have to prove my credentials to you, so sorry if that’s what you were looking for. like i mean this with all good intention, but if you don’t like seeing me around, you’re totally cool to block me! you deserve to experience your favorite band the way you want to and at the end of the day i’m just some guy, don’t let me be the person that makes you upset to come on tumblr and engage in a way that feels meaningful and positive for you.

[thegirlintheshadows101]

It’s New Years! I am drunk but i just have to say I am so grateful for @icey--stars and @acourtofwhatthefuck for becoming my mutuals this year. It means a lot to me! I know I am shy (unless I am drunk) and awkward about interacting on here but regardless of if I am online or offline just know I am here cheering you guys on and all your amazing wips! I love y’all and always have y’all in my mind.

Anyways HAPPY NEW YEAR AND LOVE YOU!!!💙

I hope y’all are happy healthy and are safe tonight! (I am in pacific cost time and idk what y’all are on but this is probably late af for y’all or early? Whatever but regardless I hope all your resolutions and wishes for 2024 come true you two are genuinely the best and I wish you all the best cause you deserve nothing less love yah!) 😘

[erika-xero]

Did you know, that my native language is not gender neutral? Word художник (hudozhnik) means an artist and for the female artists there is a term художница (hudozhnitsa). Most people use the word hudozhnik only, claiming that feminitives are distasteful and that somehow the male version of the word is also a gender neutral term. Which is... in my experience just not true.

My surname is gender neutral since it is non-Russiаn (it’s Ukrаinian actually), so most people who see it written down automatically assume that I am a man if it’s not stated otherwise. This usually lead to a whole lot of awkwardness in online conversations and during various events.

This feature of Russiаn language usually makes women of different specialities invisible - like there are only male artists, actors, workers, scientists and even students. I’ve been told that women can’t be artists for hundreds of time.

And that is why I always state my pronounce in bio and also refer to myself as hudozhnitsa on every occasion.

Also being referred to as he/him is awkward af.

[bas-writes]

i am so sorry, hi, uhmm, this is awkward af but like you did the prompt thingy of plus size reader, right? Would you mind making a list of words helpful to describe a plus sized body?? I never specifically wrote for my body type before, and I want to start but I have no idea how too and i can't find much anything useful in Tumblr, so it would be a huge help, sorry if I annoyed you!!

Hi!

Yes, I made the plus size prompts list, but I generally don't write down such things, it's just one of rare exceptions 😅

Idk if it will be any help for you but when I write about a body like mine, I simply use words I feel comfortable using in relation to it. If I run out of options, I check synonyms online and, if I'm not sure, check their meaning and context of usage to avoid potential slurs or words widely considered unfavorable.

Dictionaries are a big help, too!

[psycholattemacchiato]

about me

🫧 my name is nico

🫧 my pronouns are he/him

🫧 08-liner

🫧 16+

🫧 intj

🫧 i absolutely love:

🧷 kpop

🧷 kdramas

🧷 bnha

🧷 jjk

🧷 criminal minds

🧷 books and fanfics

🧷 music in general

🧷 taekwondo

🧷 marvel

🧷 mangas 'n animes

🧷 writing

🫧 i am an art student

🫧 english isn't my mother tongue

🫧 i am bilingual but i know like two-three more and am currently learning more l

🫧 i am coffee and energy drink dependent

🫧 i'll write more genres than one (fluff; angst; smut; etc.)

🫧 my favorite food is spring rolls and asia noodles

🫧 i support lgbtq+ and also am a part of the community

🫧 also i like making new friends, but mainly online, cus i'm awkward af irl, so don't hesitate to text, i'll respond as fast as i can

🫧 if i write, the reader can have any gender, but i think it mostly will be gender neutral

🫧 my fandoms are:

🦕 army - bts

🦕 stay - stray kids

🦕 atiny - ateez

🦕 jujutsu kaisen

🦕 my hero academia

🦕 one piece (live action)

🦕 marvel

🦕 criminal minds

🫧 i loooove bubble teas and mochis

🧋 my ults are yoongi, mingi and bang chan

🧋 i am currently simping for satoru gojo, suguru geto, megumi fushiguro, toge inumaki, tomura shigaraki, katsuki bakugo, shoto todoroki, shota aizawa, eijiro kirishima, roronoa zoro, red-haired shanks, sukuna, derek morgan, spencer reid, kim gwang-il

👽 for those, that read until here, or at least acted like they did, thank you, i think you know now more about me, than any people i know in real life

🫶🏻 and well one thing else: i do not think, that i'll be able to update any one shots regularly due to a full schedule and not so many ideas.

so sorry in advance!

[khaleesiofalicante]

Hellooooo!! I realized it's been a while without gossip!! How are you? Have any interesting things happen lately?

I have actually had a two week break because I ended another semester (which was also in the worst timing. Just when I did want to go to classes cause things at home are awkward and tense af with my family, they cancelled them. Are they shitting me???). Anyway, not many updates...

Oh, I just have one I think!!! Remember the pretty girl from the bus I forgot to ask her number? Well. I saw her again the last days of classes and she introduced me to her friend that takes the same road, and told me we could go together whenever I wanted, and we ran into each other like 3 other times that day. And I still. Didn't. Ask. Her. Number.

Istg I'm hopeless.

But also, fun fact. That girl is best friends with another girl a friend of mine has a big crush on. It's quite a small world, huh?

Well, I have tons of things to do tomorrow, so I better get going. Hope you have a nice day, and please remember to take enough rest. Preferably more than 6 hours!!!

💙.💙.💙.

You're the only person on this hellsite who truly understands me love for gossip 😭

I'm good. Remember the project that almost killed me last year (the one I was doing while writing tlnd?) we are so close to publishing the fucking thing so I am very emo about it 🥺

TWO WEEK BREAK? NICE. I hope you to spend some of it with your amazing friends. Family never gets the timing right, dude. They love making things worse 😭

AND YES I REMEMBER THE PRETTY GIRL. Also if you want to get someone's number, the easiest way is to tell them about something online they might see (like a video or a resource - for nerds hehe - and then be like "oh I can send it to you. do you wanna share your email or whatsapp or something?" ALWAYS WORKS.

Also does everyone in your city know everyone or are you just the magnus bane of your city jsbhxhjabsdjc.

I've been getting 6-ish hours of sleep everyday so not bad at all. TAKE YOUR OWN ADVICE THO. AND GO DRINK SOME WATER RIGHT NOW.

love you 💙

[gun-powder-milk-shake]

me and my mom are planning to ask my psychiatrist for a full psych evaluation and advice on how to get an autism diagnosis and it’s crazy how many things i’ve been describing to people that i never realized were apart of autism:

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sensory overload:

- i have an insane sensitivity to sound something that i’ve been trying to explain to people (including about 7 therapists) for years. i can feel it in my brain like in my ear IN my brain. it physically pains me and i’ve literally dropped to my knees in the middle of a school tour because i heard a random ass scraping noise. i also cannot stand pencils for one thing, the feeling of it hitting the paper is unbearable. i physically cringe everytime i see one being used and especially using one myself. istg my younger brother purposely tries to set me off and that gets me angry as fuck. this usually ends in me just screaming at the top of my fucking lungs (no words just screaming) and at times becoming physical. it’s just literally my brain doing anything possible to get rid of the sound

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masking:

- i’m still trying to find out the definition of this but i literally just talked to my therapist about this the other day. i had to permanently move from in person to online school mainly because of sensory overload but because i always fucked up socially. i pride myself on being well mannered, polite at all times, wary of other people’s needs, considerate, analyzing facial emotions, but i’m only able to do those things with people i actually know and i’ve learned over the years how to handle those people and myself around them. i never realized that until i got out of the insanely small bubble i was in. i told my therapist that “i can’t help but be myself” and by that i mean i always wanted to change myself into just being more friendly and able to keep up a conversation without being unbearably awkward, but i always fucked up.

- this has resulted in me trying to be aware of everyone around me’s needs and i try not to offend anyone. this usually ends in me breaking down because no matter how hard i try i usually end up failing and “feeling mentally ill af” as i usually call it. this is only really a problem for me with in person situations. online i am more myself and unafraid to do so because online i feel like i don’t need to hide if that makes sense?

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stimming:

- YOU WILL NOT UNDERSTAND HOW HAPPY AND RELIEVED I WAS WHEN I RESEARCHED MORE ABOUT THIS. i for a stupid amount of time have certain things i do to calm down. these things have been noticed by family friends, my mom especially, friends, and random ass people because of how strange it apparently is. what i usually do is shake my hand in an orderly manner if that makes sense. like i shake it back and forth like a tambourine. i used to do it in the middle of soccer games and that’s when people started to take notice, but now i use it in breakdowns and when my senses are overloaded. i just recently was doing it to calm myself down after a failed social attempt that was thrown at me while walking my dog (my safe space usually)

- i’ve never brought up that method before because i thought it was stupid i suppose and i have a hard time talking to people about something that matters to me without thinking that they don’t fucking care. i’ve been taught for a decade now how to do deep breathing and grounding exercises but nothing compares to that random ass jazz hand i do 🤷🏻‍♀️

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mutism (sometimes):

- something i’ve done for a long ass time now (that has gotten me into a lot of fucking trouble btw) is shutting up completely when i’m super fucking stressed. actually sometimes i just don’t feel like talking? i will stop mid sentence, like i run out of juice. even my thoughts get tired of moving, it’s relaxing sometimes. unless it’s almost involuntary, for example me struggling to form anything other than hums and grunts when spoken to. humming is a habit of mine that people point out and associate with me on a daily basis. i just hum out words and sometimes people get what i mean and sometimes they don’t. if they don’t i ignore them entirely because of how fucking pissed i get of having to repeat myself (even tho i have people repeat themselves to me all day because i always drift off)

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special interest:

- okay this one was hard to deal with because i always talk nonstop about “you’re just mad you’re not interested in anything! i’m not obsessed it just makes me really happy!”and they may have a point but at the same time fuck off because it makes me happy so leave me alone. i go into like hyper focus on really random shit. for example i’ve had years worth of phases (or current ones): sims 4 (obsessed with the control), minecraft (easy to drift away into), certain musical group (i don’t even know how to explain this one), hot wheels (holy shit i lost my fucking mind over these things growing up), etc. the thing is when i get into something, i get into it. i learn everything about it, i make whole notebooks, i make focused playlists on spotify, i daydream about it for fucking years and lose my sense of reality, etc. it becomes a staple for who i am and i guess i do get a little obsessed? but i really don’t see it that way. it’s just normal for me

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twitching (?):

- time for the “this isn’t right but i also don’t know if this is apart of asd?” i’ve read something about tics as some people have describe them? my face and body repetitively twitches hard. it usually starts when i start to get triggered but gets progressively worse as i go more into it. it can be painful at times because i can’t really control it and i knock into things (the anemia already has me knocking into things but this is different lmao)

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advice please:

- i really don’t know much about this, but i do know that autism can be genetic (i’m still researching) and both of my brothers (21 and 10) have been diagnosed with autism and it’s never really been considered for me? i have been diagnosed with all the same mental disorders as my older brother, we’re very similar when it comes to how we perform as human beings, but nobody has bothered to check with me. they usually just try to add another mood disorder, ocd, or bpd to my list.

- i’ve actually been told i display ocd tendencies by my psychiatrist and looking back at it i think it was just repetitive movements and intense bursts of energy caused from me having a breakdown

- i’m going to ask my psychiatrist about what to do and get some advice about where to go from here especially with everything i’ve learned because these basic ass anxiety and grounding coping skills aren’t working anymore and i just need something more, something that is actually helpful for what i’m going through, and i honestly believe that this is it

- please let me know any info you have, i’m researching a lot and am hyper focused on this shit like a mf but i still have some stuff that i don’t know and some paper online isn’t gonna teach that to me

[rickie-the-storyteller]

Happy Storyteller Saturday! What would you say is your favorite part of your writing process? How do you create your characters and once you do, what is your favorite kinds of scenes to write with them?

Happy Storyteller Saturday to you too!

There is a lot I enjoy about the writing process... I love the initial brainstorming of ideas of places the story could go... I also love to create characters and develop them into people. Something that I like to do (and have been doing for my Steph's Crew series) is come up with the main story, come up with a structure, and then think about potential conversations that my characters might have in each of those stages/moments in the story before I actually do any writing. I've posted some of the dialogues of my Steph's Crew story, and once I've posted all of the conversations in order, I'll get to posting the actual chapters.

My process when it comes to creating characters kind of varies? I'll be 100% honest with you - for my main character Steph, I used a character generator that I found online lol. That was about a year ago, when I first got the idea for this story. It gave me a good starting point: I got a name, age, basic backstory and a few rough ideas for a personality. A lot of stuff from there has been added, removed, or changed around... I feel like I'm better at developing characters than I am at creating them. Starting is the hardest part.

I get a lot of inspiration from my life, actually. I put a little bit of myself in every character I write. I mean, they aren't all like me, but they all represent different things to me. So for example:

Stephanie

Passionate, argumentative, knows what she wants and fights hard to get it

Cares deeply about her friends and wants to protect them

Gives good solid advice, learns through experience

Tends to hold on to the past (and can hold a grudge for an insane amount of time lol. I don't think I'm as bad as her, but still)

Bret

Really wants to do and be better, but struggles a lot with the process

Can be quite careless and thoughtless, but always ends up regretting it in the end

Deeply sensitive (though he may not seem like it at first glance)

Super creative and artistic

Loves music

Elise

(Probably the most similar to me lol.)

Major bookworm (down to her obsession with reading fantasy novels late into the night. She refers to it as her "fantasy-novel-before-bedtime time" when Bret calls her in the middle of the night to ask her for help with something)

Curious af (always wants to know more, always asking questions)

Kind of quirky and awkward, but owns it lol

Introverted, with a quiet confidence

Smart girl (really good student, works really hard and genuinely gets passionate about learning)

Tries hard at everything, kind of a perfectionist

Cares super deeply about her friends, and wants to help everyone out all the time

Used to be in a choir, but stopped (partially due to a toxic environment)

Super close with sibling (for her, it's Adam, and in my case, it's my younger sister, Hannah. She's my absolute best friend!)

She has this inexplicable (to some of the others lol) crush on Bret (bless his overly chaotic soul), and eventually ends up getting with him. Could be me subconsciously giving her my bad boy phase (I used to be into that aesthetic, but I grew out of it lol)

Dylan

He's black

Lives with a younger sibling and a single parent

Comes from a broken home (divorced parents)

Tends to bottle his emotions

Doesn't feel comfortable about sharing his problems sometimes

Alice

Sarcastic sense of humour

Very insecure, and has this tendency to compare herself with others (in her case, her genius twin sister Mary)

Uses humour as a coping mechanism sometimes (uses it to mask her insecurity)

Puts pressure on herself to be perfect (or at least make up for the areas she lacks in)

Feels bad when she fails, but is determined to improve and tries hard to change and be better than she was before

Yeah, these are all the ways that my characters are like me. I think it's fun to incorporate little pieces of your life into your writing (whether its just general stuff, or really specific things like the fantasy novel thing. I actually used to do that lol).

I don't know if I have a specific favourite type of scene that I like to write for my characters... mostly I just like it when they have good chemistry together, and when a conversation flows in a satisfying way that showcases all their individual personalities well. Like, I love to incorporate a bit of banter, some joking and teasing. I love the more lighthearted scenes. And I have included some romantic subplots in this story as well because I love love❤️️ (I enjoy writing the lovey dovey scenes, but it's slightly awkward for me, too, since I seriously lack experience in that department, so I don't really know if I'm capturing it right. It's fun, though).

Hope this answers your question! Thank you so much for the ask.

[meowzfordayz]

MILESTONE 10.0 Grats on meeting goals! <3 I hope you continue to get them literary gains. <3 May I plox have a match up. SFW & NSFW <3. I am a Gremlin Menace to society that is obsessed with Pho and Tacos. Fav season is Summer even though I can't stand temps over 104F. Gemini. Fav color is OD Green. I like to dress my SD up even though he hates it. I dress my cats up too. I have a white turkish angora I am gonna have in a Cat Gojo cosplay soon. I play video games a lot and I think that is about it. Man it is really weird describing yourself and trying not to feel awkward af about it. *gives noms* Hope you have a Happy time of day where you are and thank you for reading this weirdness. <3

MILESTONE 10.0

💞: Kanroji Mitsuri

learns how to cook pho for you — the long way (as in, the broth takes forever). "What's in this pot?" you sniff curiously, reaching for the lid. "NO!" she shouts, gently catching and restraining your wrist before you ruin your surprise, "IT'S FOOD!" You blink at her, amused glimmer in your eyes, "Food that takes... eight, nine, ten, eleven, noon... over six hours to cook?" She nods firmly, kissing the top of your hand before releasing it, "Please don't look, or smell, or anything! It's for you, for dinner."

isn't great at playing video games, but has a blast watching you game. Asks a fuckton of questions, researches lore and fanart, and replenishes drinks/snacks throughout the session. If you play online/multi (i.e. League of Legends/Overwatch/Valorant), then she highkey enjoys being on speaker. Maintains good team banter, talks shit like a pro, and gives you all the credit whenever you come in clutch, "Oh that wasn't me guys — it's my amazing, wonderful, talented partner playing!"

18+NSFW below

roleplay! She typically breaks character pretty soon into the scene, but thoroughly appreciates and adores the time and effort put into planning plot and costumes. Really, the costumes are what cause her to break character, because, "Baby, you're so fucking hot!" jumps from her heart to her mouth before she remembers she's supposed to be your professor. "Baby?" you feign confusion, back arching subtly to further present your tits, "It's not too bad in here, actually. I'm not even sweating. Are you feeling okay, professor?" Obvious blush coloring her cheeks, she inhales deeply, stare raking greedily along your frame, "Of course. Thank you for your concern. I don't know what came over me!" already imagining how delectable you'll look sitting on her face, clit swollen against the tip of her tongue, thighs muffling her ability to hear your stuttering moans as you grind down eagerly.

[michaelaftonsonlywhore]

My bio because why not ^_−☆

My name’s Aralise but you can call me Ara for short

I’m your local beañer (Mexican🇲🇽) l enjoy beating the shit outta my friends irl (that was a joke for legal reasons)

I am a transgender gay dude he/they pronoun’s only <3

Your openly gay person 💁✨( not irl tho💀)

I like storms and rain + in the night there’s just something so relaxing about it and comforting quiet rain and loud rain l like it when it rains super loud and l can blast my loud and depressing music loud af 🤙

I enjoy talking online but l hate talking irl

I’ve been in the fnaf fandom for a while by now

+ A Michael afton and William simp ☆

… and phone man simp 🙄

The fnaf fandom is the only real fandom I’ve got an extreme attachment to

“ The true ending speech fnaf 6 “

“The quote I'm sorry that on that day, the day you were shut out and left to die, no one was there to lift you up in their arms, the way you lifted others into yours.” Is so fucking relatable I’ve always been shut out buts it’s just easy to get use to now 🤭🤙

I enjoy being alone but hate being lonely..struggle’s as an introvert 🙃

Last time l took an mbti test l got infj so l guess I’m an infj????

I act very different online vs irl..irl being just an awkward person

I act aggressive but in a fun way online irl as l stated before l am a very awkward and quiet person

Michael afton kinnie 💗💗💗

….Depression.

..I also enjoy Michael afton fanfics heh😈

[horrible-oracle]

just a rant cos im anxious af

extremely anxious rn abt a class ill have starting tmrw, which will be online, bc of the coming-out-and-stating-my-name issue.. usually for the firs time we either introduce ourselves or write down our names on a piece of paper so that the teacher/professor knows who's present and absent, and i can just write my deadname in brackets so that they know who i am on their official papers and the student data base on the website or whatever but obvs there won't be any writing down our names during an online class and most likely the teacher will call everyone's name from the list theyve got and i will have to be like yep that's me im present but also uh pls call me this name instead of what you've got there and it is soooooo awkward.... and ive had to do it 2 times b4 but i said the gender neutral version of my name (cos i was to scared!) so ofc they misgendered me and so i don't wanna do that nd say the long masc version of my name instead but like it's so fucking awkward and scary!!!!!!! theoretically i could email the teacher b4 the class but uhhh that's even more weird and awkward and like im almost 100 percent sure it would be ok, like ive had zero issue with any teachers abt my name/pronouns it's just that its extremely awkward and also kinda scary to come out like that esp saying the masc version of my name out loud when it's being checked whos present at the class

[kennyomegasweave]

I watched episodes 7-12 of TharnType in one go. I love this show. I will hear no criticisms. It was straight up soap opera trash and I got my entire life.

NOT TYPE TELLING HIS DAD ALL THE BOYFRIEND STUFF THARN DOES FOR HIM. Don't be suspicious, don't be suspicious.

Type needs so much therapy. Just so much. Baby. He just needs so much help. Out here whole ass dating a man and being homophobic af. My dear sweet child.

Champ wearing a shirt that says I Am Basic when he's turning Mai down. Damn the women just could not catch a break in this show. Just catching strays left and right.

"Do you seriously think I'd tell him we're together?" Oh baby. I get you have issues but that's just not a nice thing to say to your boyfriend. But also like this whole conflict, like Tharn baby you're right and valid but also you're dating a man so deep he's in Narnia, what did you think would happen?

Tharn baby. Just tell him you don't like raw food. Oh love.

NOT THIS SALESLADY BEING LIKE YOU NEED A DURABLE MATTRESS FOR TWO MEN.

Why the HELL is Thorn still hanging out with this guy that is like "I miss the 14 year old you I fucked at school." Thorn, you are not passing the literal bro code.

I would die for Techno. The boy just does not know how to be silent. Just out here saying everything in his mind. No situational awareness.

Not Type out here scalping his friends for dragging Tharn for being rich. That is His Boyfriend okay. Also not Type out here being so emotionally constipated he can't even say happy birthday to his boyfriend but he can get mad at his friends for indirectly dragging his man. Oh baby boy.

Not Type's present to Tharn being an entire gift box of condoms. Type really had sex with Tharn once and then straight up stayed gagging for it for the rest of his life. I like that about him.

Techno just be out here blabbing everyone's secrets. He is THE main character okay.

Tharn must really want to die though cause he knows Type is like a jealous ball of rage and he's like oh hey here's my ex let's let them meet. I know he didn't want to see San but still. Baby even calling like oh hey I can't go out anymore sorry would be better than that.

NOT TECHNO INVITING SAN ALONG. He really has no situation awareness at all. How does the boy even survive the day. Oh my GOD. No situational awareness whatsoever. He's so dumb. I would die for him.

Oh this man. I want to scalp him. I already wanted to scalp him for being 17 and fucking a 14 year old so badly he never bottoms again. But now I'm like oh you bitch. Why the hell do faulty ass people stay surrounding Tharn.

I'm sorry Type calling Tharn a shitty boyfriend cause he's like finally mad at Type's shitty behavior. The audacity of this boy. He is such a brat. I see why Tharn loves him.

Thorn really is like a bad brother I'm sorry. "You let me punch you so it's fine you fucked my 14 year old brother in a classroom." Thorn. No. Absolutely not.

Type baby. Kneeing Tharn in the dick is a self own. Now you're both not getting any. It hurt itself in it's confusion.

Type looking at Thanya like he's never seen a child before. Now he has to have dinner with the family. The poor boy is the having the most awkward dinner. I am dying.

Techno's shirt says "I'm a boy not a toy" and Techno is THE main character okay. Every time he's on my screen I am just so thrilled.

Oh the trife one has shown up. "Remember when your photo was posted all online calling you a homophobe." I see you villain!

I mean, y'all. Techno is right there! Y'all. But I get it. If my musician man said I was his most cherished instrument I'd jump his bones too. Also like Type baby you fucked your boyfriend in the same room as Techno. Of course he heard you. I love one horny dumbass.

Also okay wait Tharn was like "I wanna tell Lhong we're together but only if you're okay with it" but he invited him to their place with one bed. My dude. My guy. There's one bed.

Lhong really needs to be gone. This evil villainous music. You can tell this is a trife ass bitch.

Oh no baby, you don't go through your man's phone. That's never a good thing. Just ask baby.

I know this baby has trauma but I'm really like about to throw hands with a 13 year old. OH NO TYPE. You can pinpoint the exact minute his heart breaks. You can also pinpoint the moment he decides to make a bad decision out of anger. Oh this is gonna hurt.

I'm sorry it just hit me that Tharn was really fucking his bandmate's baby brother. Like way to go off code like a motherfucker dude. My god. Like that was a child and your bandmate's baby brother! A whole mess. Why is Tharn's life so messy. I know he's a gay slut by my god man.

Techno really is absolutely terrible at keeping a secret.

Type is now also on the "nearly threw hands with a 13 year old" train and I can't be mad at him for that one.

I do feel really bad for Tharn but I also like feel so bad for Type. Like he's homophobic af cause his trauma but then falls in love with a dude and now he is being played by a Master Manipulator in this trifling ass bitch.

Not shitfaced Type being furious about Tharn but still cuddling his face. And doing all that in front of Lhong's bitch ass. Seethe hoe.

"You're awful." I love you. As I said in my first 6 episodes thoughts. they are a Ludo song.

Oh I wanna punch Lhong in the face so badly. I AM ALSO GOING TO THROW HANDS WITH A 13 YEAR OLD. Okay I no longer want to punch the baby because logically I know he's a victim of the master scammer herself, but I still want to punch Lhong in the face. I CANNOT wait for him to get wrecked.

"But I didn't do anything." Oh Tharn baby. My baby boy. This whole scene. Damn. I know how it ends up but like my baby is begging on his knees and my other baby is ugly crying. I'm glad I know what happens because I would have been PISSED if I had no knowledge. Straight up pissed. He is just crying oh the ground. Like goddamn.

Lhong just went on his villainous monologue. Sis is crazy crazy. Which we already knew but that train has gone off the rails. Oh damn we had a whole breakdown of Tar and Tum and now we've cut back to Lhong still delusional monologuing to no one. I love this show. I love this show so much.

Okay at least Thorn is there for Tharn. I still side eye the shit out of him for staying friends with San, but I'll allow it.

Lhong can't even stop his talking aloud when he's in Tharn's house. This crazy train has gone fully off the rails baby. I can't decide if Thorn is picking up on the BATSHIT INSANE vibes Lhong is giving off and is like "let me be nice to this insane man before he kills us all" or if he's genuinely like "wow such a good friend." Because, let's be real, it's not like he knows about good friends.

Lhong really has gone and lost his damn mind. Punch him Tae! Kick his ass! Song baby you should have let him catch that fade.

Lhong has LOST HIS DAMN MIND. How can you be dickmatized if you never even got the dick? How sad.

Aww, Type really loves the hell out of Tharn cause he's like "he might not take me back, but then he'll go be happy with Tar" and that's love baby.

I absolutely adore the random piece of concrete just right there in the road. The drama of it all. This young man playing Lhong is kinda amazing though cause he is GIVING IT. He is straight up batshit insane delusional.

I'm sorry Type's face during Lhong's complete break with reality is like just amazing. He is just straight up disgusted.

Techno once again saving the day and getting everyone to leave while holding on to both Tharn and Type. That's the realest of the reals right there. That's my boy. Champ, you get a gold friendship card as well. Those are some real ass friends.

Like okay this is a nice scene with Lhong and his sister but like he had a 16 year old gang raped. I'm for letting him die. Straight up. I'm Pro Lhong Death.

They've been together for like a semester and a half and are like we will be together the rest of our lives. And I mean. They end up married so they were right. I love dramatic gays.

Lhong didn't need to show up for this I'm sorry no one heard or cared about. Sorry I'm not sorry, he deserved to get wrecked way more. I didn't need his emotional catharsis.

Tharn singing a whole ass love song about how he wants Type to be his last first kiss in a bar of their friends, so I'm guessing everyone knows now? I still go back to my initial "what was their thought process of getting a studio with one bed if they were a secret couple?" But I know I will never get answers.

Overall, I really liked it. Like. So much. Was it "problematic?" Yes. But I don't watch things for perfect fluff, I'd go to hallmark for that. I will hear nothing bad about this show and I can't wait until I have time for s2 even though everyone says it sucked. I know Type becomes a monk at some point??? What the fuck is this show even. I'd die for it.

[tiny-tigers]

Interesting point - he does seem lovely and I always got the vibe that James is closest with Fred out of the first string boys, probs because he met Caitlin through him??

And DK seems very protective and loving of his mum so you never know, he might surprise you and not be a lothario/bad guy! (Also I feel like Fred is a decent guy and I doubt he'd carry on living with/being as close with DK if he wasn't an alright bloke)

Also I'm so glad you're now seeing shy/awkward Fred 😂🙈 I really don't think he's much of a ladies man at all - you don't get grades that good or rise to the top of English rugby by prioritising your love life...

also no sisters.....(makes them awkward af)

To your previous message - that is really sweet of you! 💕 I don't really have much of an online presence at all and I kind of prefer it that way so I will stay anon on here if that's okay?

[I will however come rushing to your defence at Jacks questionable taste in women/life choices whenever you need] 🏃‍♂️💪🏻

Because they were flat mate with jonny law fred and dk at one point and the other Ollie they even had an aquarium and an insta account . J is very protective with his mom and sister and still see his brain is ruled by his 🍆. "Home wrecker" it is so disapointing and scratch the varnish I brushed myself on saint judas... And I am an art restorer so I know the deal. Also it is so damn stupid but why does it break my heart in 2 as Well 😔😥💔 I am not stupid enough to imagine anything but it still hurts a bit.

Yes shy fred confirmed.

Well fred anon you are very dear to me and it patpats my heart to know you are here because that tumblr is my only safe place now.