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paperglader · 2 months

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they really put alicent in bridgerton blue on the reunion and genuinely expected me to think that she didn’t in fact march all the way to dragonstone to get wifed up? bfr

#I am only a girl living in a society #I make connections #she looks so pretty in blue though I want more #also you’re telling me that rhaenyra saw her walk in all cute looking to not completely crumble at the sight of her?#like my girl got all dolled up for you do something #rhaenyra IS a puppy dog when it comes to those bambi eyes shut up #Alicent was like you think you want her? I’m the love of your life you moron #and rhaenyra is like I KNOW #like she’s been trying to get the other woman to realize that very thing for the last 15+ years #and alicent’s all heartbroken like oh so you’re taking her to wife #and rhaenyra is like nO? WHAT?? all dumb and speechless cause jealous alicent was definitely not on her bingo card this year #whilst also having her own mental breakdown #because how on earth is she meant to explain this to her councel #or jace for that matter #that sure was goint to be a fun future conversation to have with her heir #but also Alicent just strutted into the room and started acting like a scorned wife?#which left rhaenyra feeling like the asshole parent who stopped paying for child support after the divorce #but also she never wanted a divorce in the first place?? and alicent doesn’t seem to get this?#like she’s already figuring out how to most efficiently empty daemon’s chambers for the woman to move in permanently #but alicent’s still yapping off about not having a place in court anymore and fleeing across the sea #and rhaenyra can’t help the bitter taste in her mouth as she states how that ship came in a little too late for them and it is messyyyy #hotd leaks #house of the dragon leaks #hotd spoilers #house of the dragon #house of the dragon spoilers #rhaenicent #alicent hightower #rhaenyra targaryen #bridgerton

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ri-afan · 5 days

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Thought posed:

Danny does the college stuff and interning for stuff at Wayne Enterprises while living in Gotham, but he doesn’t catch the Bats attention because he simultaneously is both Just Normal Enough while the Bats are Slightly Out Of Step of normal long enough that things with Danny don’t catch their attention. (Gotham as a whole is a huge ‘well this might as well happen’ place and after however many years…the threshold is a bit off for weirdness. Pair that up with normal Batdrama and role-code-switching and minor things are likely going to be subconsciously overlooked if not clocked as Dangerous.)

(Does Danny know the Bats’ IDs? … He would deny it if asked. Not his circus business though. He does think it’s smart that they at least try to cover their faces, unlike when he played the hero. He meets Clark before Superman and feels like he’s on the Office or something.)

Danny moves on with the astro-stuff (whether an astronaut, an astrophysicist, or whatever else) in another city and catches the attention of another hero as Not Normal, What’s Up With That Guy?? (two parts coincidence, one part Danny’s willingness to trust for the better, one part Uncanny) and they track his history to Gotham/WE and decide to ask the Batclan if they knew anything.

They find out nothing really is wrong with Danny (…the JLD was not called or conferred with, unfortunately for all) but it does spark the reeducation refresher of the Gotham Clan for Human Weirdness (that also educated the rest in just how messed up Gotham can be).

#and then at the end Danny shows up in space or whatever idk #part as just a normal thing he does that didn’t catch attention before #part because the heroes were not subtle and Danny wants to fuck with them #Danny’s stuff is more background to the reeducation of Gotham vigilantes’ perspective of normalcy #I figure that with enough time some things that were Big News is now not and therefore doesn’t reach far #especially is Gotham had a period of not being able to rely on anything but itself #adult Danny Fenton #he’s in his 30s #two decades dead and a year or two off of finding out he’s functionally immortal #GIW not really an issue #governmant agencies may be watching him to use him for nefarious purposes (saving money on budgets with this overpowered space weirdo)#I’m on the astronaut Danny fenton tag again #lol #dpxdc #ao3 #op #Danny stared at Clark for 20 seconds without blinking during an interview and the déjà vu sense clocked him as alien #Clark was concerned when his interviewee spaced out mid word. saw him later when he saved him from a car later and the guy just…sighed?#the only thing he says as he walks away?#goddamnit wes. every effing time. should probably look into that.

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fisheito · 4 months

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everyone gets a turn in the ridiculous skintight edmondsuit. or at least, .everyone SHOULD

#a pre-sleep rarity... THERE ARE HUMANS IN MY BRAIN THIS TIME #idk i just missed them. there's something soothing about the fire water earth trio #been spending more time with the final trio (blade dante rei) lately and they bring lovable chaos #whereas the starter trio are tea parties and gentle smiles #edmond's outfit is iconic honestly it made me laugh for several minutes when i first saw it and i've never forgotten the feeling #imagine edmond going out to fetch some oats or smth #and when he comes out of the market he sees the entire clan cosplaying as him #it's not like the other soldiers have this uniform right? so it's an edmond exclusive?#maybe only ed gets the sash and badge #but everyone else gets those thigh high boots and capelet that ends just above their butts #in the universe where they must wrangle with dangling dicks ruining the flow of their outfit #ed and oli know how to tuck. they do it marvelously #yaku can either be slit-blessed (no need to alter his bits for the silhoeutte)#or CURSED with massive external dick. which is funnier bc then it's IMPOSSIBLE to walk around in an outfit like that #it's like the grey sweatpants meme. ur just tryna exist but all these jezebels keep staring at your dick outline #(jezebels is eiden)#nu carnival edmond #nu carnival olivine #nu carnival yakumo

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nemurian · 1 year

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@bigboobyhalo Your sacrifices have been accepted by the great Dapper. I'm so sorry but I don't think you'll be getting them back anytime soon. Or ever.

#nemart #qsmp #qsmp fanart #qsmp eggs #personal hc that bc the eggs are dragons they Love hoarding things #it differs with the egg #But Dappers pride-of-place in his little hoard are the plushies that Bad made him of 'their family.'#Bad's sitting in an armchair trying to crochet normally and Dapper is crouched beside him like a gargoyle watching him unblinkingly like 0-#Bad only realises the downside of how much Dapper loves them when Skeppy finally meets Dapper in person and Dapper reacts like that dog-#-who saw someone dressed up as his favourite toy and just went ballistic with happiness #-Like Dapper is Smart and he Knows that oh this is my other dad #this does not stop him from going ???? HUH ?????? PLUSHIE GOT BIG ?????? And attempting to add an increasingly confused Skeppy to the hoard #However the Real problems arise when he meets Junior who not only looks just like his plushie but is also Small and Shiny.#Skeppy can simply Walk Away when Dapper is trying furiously to get him to stay still #Junior Cannot.#Badboyhalo voice Where is my baby #Dapper (who knows perfectly well that Junior is currently going ???? is a veritable mountain of blankets) 'Oh he's missing? That's crazy.'#Anyway once again I am unable to resist writing a whole damn essay in the tags #Neon i Very much hope you like the drawing I cannot get your plushies out of my head they are so cute <3333

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ch1zzie · 4 months

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Forgot to post this here butttt

Working on a welcome home animation and mighttttt take me a while

#the idea is just wally getting the barnaby plush and thats kinda it #i did plan this before when i ordered the wally plush (sep 8 2023) but didnt have the motivation and stuff for it #its inspired by the image of wally peaking out of homes side window with the text below “there he is!” not sure if its wally saying it #either wally noticed someone or someone noticed him but anyway #i saw that image and was thinking to make an animation of it instead of the “there he is!” text its going to say “he's here.”#i also realized i might need to voice that only line or even make sounds for the background😭#i already was close to finishing background 2 (where eddie will be seen walking to wallys house) but my tablet died #grrrrrr #also unrelated but i wrote in my book todayyy (i never write at all) but hey its kinda fun to write my ideas huahahahaah #i plan on doing some research on welcome home and write it down (maybe even some theories hmm??) also doing research on the characters #just to try to get to know them more (cuz i have been crazy for them for AGES and still feel like i haven't done enough)#oh yeah CALL ME CRAZYYY butttt since the irl world sucks i plan on making little writings like im IN welcome home just because idk #more explaining and better ones on my tiktok vid description (user in my bio)#also i feel like things might be getting better for me cuz wowie i never thought id be animating again #but now all this motivation...so many ideas appearing...need to focus on one at a time...darn #HEY! 12 days till a break from the evil cell of educational purposes??? (school) FINALLY PURE HEAVEN I CAN BE FREE WITHOUT SUFFERING #welcome home #partycoffin #wally darling #welcome home arg #welcome home fanart #welcome home wally #7 backgrounds left to do...then ill have to animate...oh evilllll so evillll

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trivalentlinks · 9 months

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Let F be a Floer homology theory. For the purposes of this talk, you can assume it's any Floer homology theory you like, and if you don't like any Floer homology theory, then pretend you do like one and assume it's that one

-- a conference speaker

#floer homology #math #maths #mathblr #you really should have at least one Floer homology theory you like!!#i have for a while wanted to do a longpost about floer homology #a very cool concept that shouldn't yield anything but miraculously does #and also about the guy who came up with it (andreas floer)#who was a very interesting guy #he died in 1991 at age 34 which is usually when an academic is only starting to build their influence #and thus didn't have any phd students #and most people in the math community don't seem to have known him personally #(his wikipedia page has a section of quotes about him but they're all about his math #which is pretty much universally agreed to be one of the most striking developments of modern mathematics)#but one time they did a memorial conference a couple years ago in his honour at (uc) berkeley #where they talked about the extremely fruitful field of research he pioneered #they put up posters around campus advertising the conference that happened to have a picture of him #and apparently a bunch of old guys showed up who knew nothing about math #it turned out they were his housemates in the gay commune he used to live in #who were going for a walk around campus and saw a poster with his photo and were like #'wait isn't that our buddy who died twenty-some years ago??'#apparently they knew nothing about math so it was totally incomprehensible to them but they attended the whole conference anyway

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foccaccia · 6 months

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does anyone have recommendations for fictional media that has like. actual lesbians in it. not like supergirl Two White Skinny Girls, One Blonde and One Brunette Kiss media, or "its implied lesbianism!!!" but just regular fucking lesbians

#i say lesbians but i guess i mean sapphic #im just like. tired of gnawing #and of men also. sorry men in my life i love you but on god if i have to pretend one more man is butch just to get #content that isnt m/m or m/f im going to turn into a horse and run into the wilderness until im saved from the glue factory by a plucky #young woman except instead of letting her have her formative summer where she trains me and bonds w me and wins a competition w me #im going to commit horse suicide in front of her & change her life forever. just because im so tired of bland CW-marketable women kissing &#digging for scraps in a refuse bin while brushing aside 7002993829292929939292929399394 gay and het romances #m text #i will also take nonfictional lesbians if its like a story #not to be whiny on main but one of the hardest hurdles i had to jump wasnt realizing i was a lesbian. i came out to myself and to friends a #lesbian multiple times. but i would always walk it back when a friend would express doubt or a male friend would ask me out #bc i dont and especially then didnt know very many lesbians in person. and so i had to turn to examples #and all i fucking had were fictional women who liked men. or fictional lesbians who were so cleaned and sanitized and prettified #(you all know what i mean right. the 2 skinny white girls one blonde one brunette. im not crazy right)#and i would be like. i dont feel things when i look at these fictional lesbians so i guess i belong back here #(this is also bc my gender ended up being fuckier than i realized but shhhhh)#I WAS GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THESE TAGS but theyre too long and im lost.#anyway the point is if people werent so fucking weird abt fictional or onscreen lesbians maybe thered be a lot more people comfortable bein #out as lesbian #like sorry but this awful ouroboros of 'all lesbians onscreen have to be cute and sanitized' meaning that people write and believe wlw has #to be cute and pure and sanitized (OR a 'badge of honor' bc good for u u doodled two women together or had it as a background in ur fic)#meaning that therefore all portrayals of lesbianism continue to be like this. is just #and im also gonna be honest theres probably a lot of good sapphic media im just in the wrong circles to have stumbled into lol. so #yknow. personal viewer bias here #but i still like swing wildly between overly brandishing my dykeness as a badge to feel like im proving im lesbian #and like. backing up under a blanket bc i dont wanna be weird or annoying or freak people out #but if people just Saw Normal Ass Lesbians. aough.#im going to watch revolutionary girl utena one of these days even if i struggled w the writing style the first few episodes #I JUST WANNA SEE AN OLD BUTCH ONSCREEN GET SOME PUSSY.#like it also doesnt help im mostly femme4butch so seeing 2 femmes on screen is like. okay cool so what. but only femmes are 'marketable'

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joskippy · 3 months

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Tv glow has officially earned its way to the spot of movies that left me stuck with a overwhelming sense of dread so intense I felt sick hours after my viewing

#a place that only fire walk with me had at first and the ending of twin peaks s3 #god damn man this movie #I’ve never had a movie that made me just uncontrollably sob during most of it before #to the point I was just brought to complete and utter silence #I recommend this and were all going to the worlds fair to anyone #worlds fair ending absolutely brought me into tears as well but the just #utter horror I felt watching the last sequence of tv glow is absolutely unbeatable #a movie that if my mind stays on it for too I long I feel a sense of sickening dread so powerfull I feel like sobbing #what a movie #jontalks #I’ve seen the theres still time still a lot before I saw the movie but the way it felt like the rug was pulled out from me when I saw the #context of it in scene made me shake so intensely #one of the rare movies that left me feeling such intense emotions since eeaao

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bunnihearted · 5 months

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🐰🌧️

#so on my way home..#i walked by a school and besides the fact that i felt so depressed bc just looking at these kids and adults i have NO hope for the future #i saw two boys on a bench as i walked by... and i just thought they were talking. and too late i realized that no one of the boys were #bullying the other boy. the bully walked away and the other boy just sat there looking so lifeless and dejected #a teacher came and sat down w that boy and i just kept walking. even if i wanted to say smth it's like what would i even do abt that situati #that made me so sad both bc that boy.. he looked so dejected and used to it. that anxiety going to school knowing you're bullied is awful #and like i imagined talking to him and saying heyyy if you're lucky you'll grow up to be 25yrs old #live like a parasite off your mom and be on wellfare and never have had a job :)#you'll have no education or highschool diploma :) you will still struggle to finish hs even at an easier level :)#you will also not have had friends in 10yrs and you'll be terrified of ppl and getting close to anyone and even going outside!!#you'll have no interests and hobbies and skills! you'll simply be a waste of space loser being a burden on everyone around u!#whoop whoop stay alive buddy it will only get worse ❤️#god i just wanna cry. how did i let my life turn out this way??? i used to be full of dreams and life and passion and HOPE #i used to believe in things and in people. i had so many dreams and i wanted to try and do so many things #now all i can think is 'i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die'. im miserable wherever i go lmao #there's this bridge over the highway i have to cross when i walk to school and every time i look down at the trafic and when a truck drives #by i feel my entire body vibrate. i just wanna jump and get mauled by it.#or i dont *want* to but i feel so deeply and desperately that it's the only way for me #only way to make it stop hurting. and i am weak. i dont know how to just 'stop' or take control of my life. thats why i wanna die #bc i know that i wont be able to. that my life will never amount to anything #for fuck's sake my dream now is just to have my own 1bedroom apartment and have a shitty job - like in a grocery store or whatever!!!!!#not even that can i make happen! bc im so worthless i cant do anything. im also stupid so i wouldnt be able to do my job right #i dont know... i dont know... these feelings and thoughts are too much i just wanna relax #but i cant bc my ribs hurt and idk if it's heartburn or an ulcer 💀 why am i even alive???? what am i doing all this for? 😭#my thoughts ran away but i meant like seeing that reminded me of how much of a failure i became #bc of my circumstances and all the shitty ppl around me thru out my life

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carcarrot · 4 months

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i wish i could articulate the experience of seeing a band you're into live like actually seeing them in person because its so strange yet fascinating

#every time i hear take me for a ride by sparks it makes me think of the nyc show - the first show of theirs i saw #bc that was their walk on music. and i was front row for that show #and like. it was so surreal. so strange. obviously in a good way but its just something id never experienced before #and i noticed this especially with russell in that i had a weird thought that went 'oh wow thats him. he realls looks like himself'#and like of course he looks like himself but what i meant by that was he looks like that guy who ive seen 5 billion images of. hes that guy #like not only does he look like the him in more recent pictures but seeing him in person like 10 feet away #its like i could recognize every era of him. i could see like 70s russell in his face. bc of course thats his face! but still #is this making any sense.#like i feel like if you met 70s russell once and never saw him again until now youd immediately recognize him #and sure thats because of two other things - one that he has distinct facial features kinda and also that hes aged so well #but it was again so surreal to be like. in the same space. right in front of. fairly close to. that guy whos been in my phone. you know?#this was true for ron and the other guys in the band too of course its that feeling of wow its them! those people ive only seen pictures of!#and again being front row for that was bonkers insane. its like what do you mean these people are real #but the thing w russell i just especially noticed almost immediately when they came out onstage like hes that guy. for real #is this making any sense . anyway i just had to finally get this one out #the only downside of this experience was that yes these people are real and yes they can see me. a little anxiety inducing #its like nooooo dont look at meeeee im such a weirdo i bought a ticket to see you like everyone else here #anyway. concert thoughts

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mazzystar24 · 4 months

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In other news guess who got followed by a strange man today 🤩

Everybody say thank you to the random guy who helped me by scaring the creep away by simply being a man and walking with me till I got out from the subbies/underpass thingy area🥰

#it was actually so terrifying the guy followed me onto the bus then sat behind me and stared at me the whole time and then when we got to #the road close to my stop I was like fuck he’s gonna follow me off isn’t he #time to pull out the tricks #so I press the stop button and walk down and hide behind the corner the stairs cover #then he comes down and goes to sit cos he saw that I tricked him and stayed on the bus #so the minute he sits I squeeze past and get off a stop before I need to #then he waits till the last second then gets up and off the bus after me #except at this stop the only way for me to get home is through a secluded corner road or the subway (under the motorway idk what it’s called #basically big open section under two roads with tunnels leading out to different roads #so I walk down quicker hoping he won’t see where I went or I can go out the next side fast enough he’ll think I went into another #of the tunnel thingies #but then I see him pop up #there was a guy ahead of me who’s about 25-35 so I walk up to him and quickly explain then THE SECOND THE CREEP SEES ME WALKING WITH #A MAN HE RUNS OUT THE WAY HE CAME IN #so random man you may have actually saved my life🫡#he was so nice about it too and walked me out till I was by the main road

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gayspock · 7 months

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on one hand i dont wanna be an asshole & complain bc i know those delivery drivers are overworked . but the dude seriously threw a box that said fragile on all the tape, & stamped over every inch of the box, over my wall and smashed everything in it 🤨. im sooo sick of it bro bc this happens every time... 😭

#egg.txt #i cant drive & im limited by what i can physically carry on buses #and i was like ok. im gonna grt myself a nice set of plantplots #bc my house is completely barren stil but ARGHGHHH... ALL FUCKED UP NOW.l #also the update didnt even come through & so ive been sat here waiting all day for the update #bc i didnt hear the knocking...#bc they went round the back... and knocked on the door to the garage... thats completely detached from my house #like yeah? i cant hear you bro? 😭#only saw it when i walked out ...#ITS SO ANNOYING BC LIKE #literally every single person uses evri now. ALL OF THEM.#small businesses. big businesses.#its ridiculous

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minimoniii · 1 year

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and they’re boyfriends

#oppenheimer #lawrenheimer #i just made that name up 💅 let’s get this ship sailing #IDK how to explain it but the CHEMISTRY they had #it was unbearable i felt like i was choking on air when they were close to each other #so good. literal art #wait sit down let me convince you to ship them!!#personally i shipped them from the first moment but the scene that is really precious for me is that one #when Izzy and Oppenheimer are sitting in the hallway and you see Lawrence walk in and then immediately leave when he sees them #cause like. you KNOW he came there to give a NEGATIVE ass review but then he saw Oppenheimer sitting there looking all defeated #and he just couldn’t do it #and i especially think of that scene in contrast to the discussion on Kitty’s testimony #since both of these scenes occur in the hallway some fake-deep analysis is necessary #it’s like 🤌🤌 Lawrence protected Oppenheimer with his silence the way Kitty protected him with her testimony #sort of a way to hold onto his morals while letting Oppenheimer go just out of sentimentalism #(my bad theory is that Lawrence was HURT by the knowledge of the affair w Ruth because it meant he wasn’t the only one 🤫)#(GOD i can just picture their relationship it would be so MESSY)#(Lawrence hopelessly in love. Oppenheimer being well aware and just using him for his body. Lawrence who can never refuse him anything.)#(wait did this turn into a foil for the relationship with Jean???? but with the roles reversed??????)#also?? irl Lawrence DID testify against Oppenheimer and ripped him to shreds (😭) so like. we know what movie!Lawrence protected him from #ohh and what i also find really interesting is the parallels with Kitty since off the top of my head there’s 2 more #the fact that Oppenheimer takes Lawrence to New Mexico as he did with Kitty later #and the fact that Lawrence encourages Oppenheimer to be ambitious and take the opportunity w the project #(and iirc it’s his words that finally convince Oppenheimer?)#anyway that was my dissertation on why you should ship them; if you aren’t convinced then i hope i’ve at least made you mad 😴

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opens-up-4-nobody · 10 months

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I'm walking. Fast. The world is tilted. There's green peaking up from flat gray. Short, stubby moss. Like an ooze. Like the sidewalk is compressing it sideways. Persistent even in a concrete jungle. This little thing. This tiny thing. Reaching up toward the sun from under trampling feet. Toward a distant star. And I'm walking, but I'm light through a prism. Splitting seven different directions. A billion and a billion and a billion years brought this tiny crumpled organism to the crushing weight of my foot. And I want to scream and I want to run and I want to cry. Because it's beautiful and I'm worried I'm the only one who sees it. I'm worried it'll burn through me. I'm worried that when I walk this path for my hundred thousandth time, I won't see it like I did this first time. That my world will fall to ash again and I won't see the moss growing up between the seams in the sidewalk.

#cringe writing. bc in my grant writing class we switched to public outreach. so i have to write a thing that will go on the radio #and its better if u add a personal component. the lady gave us a prompt: take a memory of being out in nature and write like u love it.#like u hate it and write it nutral. we only had ten min. and for some reason i was like. hm i will write #abt one of my 1st times walking to this building and i saw some moss. maybe not a typical out in nature memory #but for some reason it came to mind. bc my mood was a lil elevated so i was like a lil insane. i think thats when i went out onto my deck #and was like weeping like i see the clouds and the sunbeams and they feel like angels lol #idk wtf im gonna write for the radio tho. like i just wanna talk abt algae but i dont wanna do it infomative. which is the intention. i #just want vibes. like who cares if it relates to ur life. appreciate the green goo. its cool as fuck #idk. its only 9.30 and im sweepy. im back to being knocked tf out at night after my medication dosage went up lol #maybe itll stop my world from returning to ash. hopefully #idk my tatto0 is fucking itchy >:'[#unrelated

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icewindandboringhorror · 1 year

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I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little #bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the #very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the #house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks #Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a #gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a #treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of #color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration #like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a #auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies #so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk #and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver #but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and #sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an #active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have #been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start #to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've #done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!'#(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks #with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm #secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool #stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers #me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or #it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for #too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been #investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely #enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed #google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj #LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!

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danothan · 6 months

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watching tlm after getting into dc was a rly bad idea actually, i got so happy it went right back to feeling bad. zoomies with no outlet. why was hal like that

#i understand what it feels like to be a dog that doesn’t get to go on walks.#barry was there and i never noticed the 4 times i saw this movie before #i’ll be real i used to only watch it for benny #so so funny how batman and barry were in this movie and their respective superhero partners never interacted w them once #and in fact superman and hal were only paired w each other #also hal has a toothgap in tlm1 but it’s off center in tlm2. what does it mean what does it all mean #i feel sick #also our little sister freaked out when she realized my benny outfit today was the same benny on the screen lol #tlm #dc #danbles

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