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[protaetia]

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[novelconcepts]

Do you ever just lay awake at night, turning over in your head the stark difference in delivery between Hewson's Van saying--steadily, unshakably--"it's just something that's happening to you...happening to us" and Cypress' Taissa saying--imploringly, whiningly--"this was not just my dream, this was our dream"?

Do you ever just turn it over and over, how often Tai tried to scare Van away, and how it only made Van set her feet more firmly? How Taissa's first love was this person who saw a problem fall into Taissa's lap, a problem that was quite literally trapped inside Taissa's body, and decided unflinchingly: No, that's an us problem now? How she refused point-blank to walk away even with blood in her mouth, how she flatly informed Tai "I'm never gonna be scared of you", and promptly turned a moment of pain into a declaration of love? And how this would etch itself into Taissa for the rest of her life? How she'd take these things that worked with Van--with the person Van was, with the bond they shared--and try so hard to run through an identical script with Simone?

Except Simone is her own person. A completely different kind of person. A person who hasn't been offered any of the context, any of the realities going on inside Taissa. So: naturally she doesn't respond the way Van did at eighteen--and will go on to do all over again in her forties. Naturally, she hears our dream as the excuse it is, not as a plea for connection. Naturally, she is scared away when Taissa pushes, and shouts, and begs. Because there isn't blood in her mouth, not yet, but there will be. And they have a son to worry about. And she isn't eighteen and a special kind of immortal, a special kind of romanticized. She's a grown woman with responsibilities, with priorities, with an understanding that you can't fix someone just because you love them. And Tai can't just perform a revival of the play she and Van had memorized twenty-five years later with a whole new performer in the works, and expect it to shake out the same.

Of course it doesn't work. But look at Taissa trying it. Look at Taissa trying to reframe her first love through a new lens. Trying to recast it. Trying to play it through again. Van taught her love was sticking out the blood, shaking off the pain, making a you problem into an us problem. Does it ever just eat at you, how tragic it is, watching Taissa try to shape her marriage around a woman who isn't even wearing a ring?

[bonebrokebuddy]

If I’m not able to pull up the DSM-5 and check off at least half of the criteria for autism when reading a Batman run, then I believe the author fundamentally misunderstands Batman’s character.

It’s not that I’m saying Bruce should be autistic. What I am saying is that if Bruce is not at least neurodivergent-coded then he ultimately loses nearly all of his most defining habits and personality traits. Expecially the ones that are shown through interacting with other characters & internal dialogue.

[timegears-moved]

tbh i gotta take back what i said before. totk hasn't really done anything to make me care about this version of zel*nk

[karinyosa]

im like one of those tumblr blorbos that collects parental/elder sibling figures on the regular but in real life

[thedreadvampy]

oh boy the depression hole is deep and it is muddy

hahaha I fell into the classic trap! overidentify with your job and considering leaving it will trigger an existential crisis!!!!

[plushies-and-petrichor]

As someone who visual sensory seeks almost constantly and uses social media and other digital outlets to help me stay regulated, the fact that my tablet is glitching so bad I can barely use it and my laptop is an absolute potato has me s t r e s s e d

[bassiter2]

i'm realizing through this book i'm reading (same-sex affairs: constructing and controlling homosexuality in the pacific northwest) that like... yknow the conflation between homosexuality and pedophilia. well i've realized why that is, and that it's more than just all "sexual perversions" getting lumped together by homophobes. but also insanely enough more mundane

it's literally that for many decades, the only concept most people were able to have of gay men were through the lens of it being a crime. aka arrest records and the newspapers telling you who got put in jail last night. obviously gay men who were only having consensual sex with other gay adult men did get caught sometimes, but you could only catch them if they were doing it in public, if you were sneaking around in their private home, or if someone involved ratted them out. and if you ratted someone out, whatever motivation you might have, you were also ratting yourself out, so why would you do that? but if you were underage, especially if it was non-consensual, you wouldn't be in trouble at all. so of course the majority of the "immoral acts" charges are going to be between an adult and a minor.

not only that but apparently "youth" in referring to a young person used to literally mean anyone under the age of 21. and the vast majority of charges that read "engaged in immoral acts with a youth" it's referring to like a 17 y/o or even 18 or 19. so then ppl in later decades read that and misinterpreted it too.

and that's literally it lol..... it feels obvious in hindsight but i never would have thought about it. crazy what bias confirmation does.

[erabundus]

it sounds strange, but i just really enjoy the fact that ren is a deeply flawed person — not only in the ways that are immediately apparent, but in subtler ways, too.

[whimsycore]

Imagine feeling you have the right to control someone’s racial, cultural, and religious identity.

[sleepknoot]

One of the things that infuriates me about tumblr R/P is the kind of rolep/layer who is only genuinely interested in writing with you if they can see their muse being romantically and/or sexually involved with yours.

Like I don't give a fuck what you wanna R/P. I'm not paying you, I'm not your boss, and I know damn well I'm not going to change anybody's mind on anything. I just wish people were honest about what they want instead of pretending they want to write with you only to consistently ignore you in favor of muns with muses their character has a crush on.

[butterflies-and-bumble-bees]

.😖😵‍💫.

[sevengeese]

also if you're mean to asexuals or aromantics, i am soooo mad at you

[moonsidesong]

u kno i really enjoyed watching hfjone with my friends and they loved it too but part of me is just a little sad they didnt get to watch the early first season with the added context of having grown up on object shows. like. obviously i made them watch bfdi first so they’d understand the point of it being a subversion but, like. having watched so many of these silly little competition shows as a kid it really adds to the Discomfort of those early episodes. like all the pieces of the competitions youve always known are there but it feels Wrong. its just a little sad they didnt get to experience that part like i did lol

[lovenpeace-pkmn]

mind for the ask game!

//ok so i cannot find the ask game this one is from (please send the whole question guys i can't keep track of the original posts) but iirc it was something like "have they struggled with any mental health issues?"

//to which the answer is: yeah they both struggled with depression, low self-worth, anxiety, and difficulty trusting/relying on others even before Ghetsis (being an orphan is not great for mental health). the adult responsibilities, underground castle, and isolation from pretty much everyone but traumatized animals did not help.

//they are doing a little better now but. they definitely need therapy. too bad their issues include a deep mistrust of authority and a fear of admitting vulnerability to anyone but each other! :') 👍

[myrfing]

i feel like "there needs to be a good reason why anyone does anything" is a faulty way to write stories and people who get a little too caught up in trying to concoct the Most Morally Gray character fall into this trap. it's not that pointless completely inexplicable cruelty is common in fact I think there is almost always a circumstance that makes enough sense if you contextualize everything surrounding the situation but it doesn't always have to be a "good" one. and it's weird because I'm willing to bet that most people including these writers have done awful things just because they felt their pride was hurt or they didn't want to get in trouble or they just wanted something or they were jealous or frustrated, or something that isn't a good reason but still very human. there's stuff you do that hurts to think about because you know what you did was petty and hurtful and pointless and you know you have little excuse and were pathetic and childish. guilt is just another emotion but ppl dont really want to confront it ever even in fiction some people write like if everyone just understood the REASON they'd be absolved of it. and then it gets kind of condescending to the audience because what if they already understand the reason they just don't think it's worth any type of shit but they can't drop this mindset they have to keep making the argument in hopes that with enough rephrases you'll take their side