#ow introject

[motoroil-recs]

[X / X / X] [X / 🏎️ / X] [X / X / X]

A moodboard for Gabriel Reyes [Overwatch] with imagery of coffee, TV shows, tattoos, and piercings in red, black, and generally dark colours.

[nyahkmenrah]

Me, forming into the system: I sure do hope the body doesn’t have crippling back issues

Me, fronting in the body: it’s like being stuck in that damn sarcophagus again…

[thebeeh1v3]

Two of my friends stole my monster and teased me with it, one of said friends broke the side of my monster open, i fell up the stairs and spilled some of said monster, and now both of my knees hurt.

On the upside, one of my other friends said the name Nico fits me, which is accompanied by the nickname Nix.

Today is going great so far

[autopsycollective]

i think too many people forget that just because they know you’re a system, it doesn’t mean they get to know everything about our system.

we don’t have to tell you:

our roles

our headcount

our trauma

our introjects’ sources

who is fronting

if we are professionally diagnosed

ANYTHING.

nobody owes you any information about their mental or physical health.

[system-hottakes]

Hot take:

An alter shouldn't have to change their name just because it triggers someone's past traumas. If there's an alter with the name Kelly you shouldn't force them to change their name because you had previous trauma with a person named Kelly.

Also just because an introject's creator is controversial or something doesn't mean to give them hell or demand they source separate, not everyone can and they shouldn't have to.

yeah, just this. Don't force people to change their names or source separate. Systems do not owe you anything. Just because you don't like their name or because you don't like their source doesn't mean they have to change it

Yes, being triggered by a name is a thing that can happen, but it's up to you to manage that and back away, you can't expect every single person with that name to change it for you.

[sys-polls]

here is the part 2, since part 1 went over well. we could do a part 3? EDIT: woman* not women. - finn!

[kaysdenofchaos]

Being an introject is so funny sometimes

Like some of the host’s triggers to traumatizing shit would happen and I could not care less

But then I see fanart of younger me getting stabbed/other horrifically angsty things and I’m like ‘ow. Rude much???’ -💜

[fictive-culture]

Was gonna make this a fictive culture is post to queue but then decided I wanted to make a long thing tw: anti endo mention

Sometimes fictive culture or even just Introject culture is something negative happening related to the source and headmates not showing up till after the bad feeling subside by time

By this I mean that and I don't talk about this often but when we first realized we were a system we were eventually presented with telling our friends, sure there is always the option of not telling they aren't owed that information but for better or worse we hate being friends with people that don't know? We hate hiding ourselves and not being able to be friends with people as individuals rather than a collective. We were horrified and while it went well for the most part, the system I already knew was thankfully supportive of endos and another friend even shot back with a same! There was one friend that wasn't supportive a singlet that was firmly anti endo and one of my best friends at the time. We met on a kin server both being tf2 kin though after realizing we were a system those tf2 kins were for sure not kins. We were both huge fans and would create things for each other fanart, writing. It hurt a lot losing them and even if we didn't have solid proof we knew we had tf2 headmates could feel them even if we couldn't interact with them. It's been nearly two years since then, and they fronted for the first time since learning we were a system in September of last year just a few months ago and we were ecstatic. Just felt like a sign we were healing and we were getting truly comfortable in our shared reality and it felt so nice knowing they weren't trapped any longer we have names and faces to people we couldn't reach for so long and it makes us genuinely so happy to see them on our sp and see their chat messages we can also look at tf2 content without being sad anymore? We can enjoy something we lost for a really long time and I don't know I just wanted to share that with y'all? Things hurt but it lessens over time, if you lost a joy you may be able to enjoy it again one day, if you are worried about a headmate they may return to you one day, if you are that headmate from a source the body has bad memories of know that you will still be missed that you are still wanted and your sysmates will smile and cry and hug you if you returned from disappearing. Sometimes we still miss them, especially one of our tf2 crewmates but we are all much happier knowing they aren't in our life and we aren't trying to fit into their box of what is and isn't okay. Even if we did end up being mostly traumagenic traumaendo the endo part is still so important to us and we and all of you deserve people that accept and love those parts of you too.

[clownrecess]

Introjects,

If you don't miss your source, that's okay. You don't owe anyone that just because it's common. But along with that, It's also okay if you do miss your source.

It's already quite difficult to miss a place and people, let alone a place you know you can never return to and people you'll never see again unless you split them. It's difficult. You have every right to be upset.

- SUNNY 🎻

[antiendovents]

Content warning for a very brief mention of Hitler, mentions of someone sui baiting, and mentions of autism fakeclaiming. There are also mentions of abuse, but nothing in depth or remotely descriptive.

Please stay safe <3

at the moment, our current host is a cc!wilbur soot introject. one that formed in the soothouse era. He is uncomfortable using fanart as a faceclaim and tends to use actual photos of the cc as that is what he is more comfortable with - that's him, that's how he looks. (He knows he isn't the actual cc, dw).

His pk display name has his name, pronouns, and emoji combo. Pretty.. pretty standard shit, honestly. He has set up the base account to be an extension of his pk. NONE of this is... uncommon behavior that we've seen in the syscord communities we've been in.

However, in the last week alone, he has been legitimately compared to ADOLF HITLER!! By a singlet who also claimed that DID wasn't an illness and that most people are fakers. another singlet in that server asked if we could split an alter for fun and if we could do that for them. Oh. By the way? We're Jewish. Openly Jewish. We have spoken about being Jewish in that server before. That was known information. yet that person still chose to call us. That. I'm thankful that Wilbur, while hurt, finds it an ironic twist of fate as there is a song by wilbur soot called screensaver where there is a direct lyric "call me Hitler, no one will notice the fucking difference".

Another singlet in a different server asked if he could change his name and icon as it is upsetting other members. That, despite the fact he hasn't DONE anything personally, he is triggering people. Just by existing. Also, apparently, just because he exists, he might support the abusive actions.

Now! The system server, that's the worst bit. Another member told us to kill ourselves for having our base account icon be cc!wilbur. The server staff did NOTHING to the member who has on more than one occasion outright bullied people, actively calling people freaks and telling people to kill themselves.

However, we got banned as wilbur stated he was uncomfortable using fanart as a faceclaim and that it would be more damning for his mental health. He even explained why he had changed the base account, as it was giving us active joy during a really hard time in our current life. That we can not help having an autistic special interest. We also got fakeclaimed on the autism front.

thats.. jeez. people really need to understand that introjects aren't their source and do not owe anyone complete source separation. those singlets sound-- horrible. being an introject of wilbur soot is not the same as being ADOLF HITLER!?!? that singlet just sounds stupid as well, because DID is a real disorder that many people have. the other singlet also sounds very fucking stupid because like-- he isn't his source and if people are genuinely triggered by wilbur soot then they're the ones who should be managing that, they shouldn't expect wilbur to change for them, thats just unrealistic. wilbur soot is not the first person to use the name wilbur, actually his name isn't even wilbur. this kind of logic is so stupid, like are you gonna go tell every single evan out there to change their name just because one evan committed an atrocity? no, no you wont.

and that server is just horrible because WHAT. they just let a member go around bullying others and telling people to kill themselves??? thats just stupid. we honestly hate syscord sometimes, that place is so toxic and they struggle to treat systems like regular people despite the fact half of syscord is made by systems. its really just horrible. also the fake claiming-- like really?? whats even the point of that?? autistic people cannot control special interests ((as far as i am aware)). honestly as long as you aren't giving wilbur soot money by streaming his songs / watching his videos then i think its fine ((try stick to watching reuploads of his stuff if possible because then it might not give him money,, i hope?? i don't really know how youtube works sorry))

[alter-soup]

Hello! We'd like to request another alter from you! We'd like to see an introject of a song by 100 gecs - any song you like, but if you're not familiar with their stuff, you can pick from "757", "bloodstains", or "torture me".

We'd like them to be some kind of non-binary (including xenos and neopronouns please!) and also a furry (which you can interpret as either "person who likes anthro art" or "person who IS an anthro"). Maybe instead of Picrews you could include pictures of animal species they could have for their fursona/species?

No further specifics, and thank you for your time!

HEADMATE INSPO

Name(s): Bolt, Radley, Zoe (pronounced so/zo) 

Role(s): Intrusive thoughts & depression holder

Pronouns: They/them It/its

Gender(s): Non-binary, Sodaflow, Decayedgender, Lostpoeic

Neopronouns ideas: Sprawl/sprawlself, tri/tricks, mur/murs, ow/ows, X/Xs

Orientation: Aroflux, unlabeled sxual orientation

Age: Presents as young adult but is sometimes ageless

Species: Human or Athro animal

Source: Bloodstains by 100 gecs

Personality traits/details: Distrusting, poorly motivated, tries to not show too much empathy but can get really attached, acts a lot like how people do when they were just woken up in the mornings

Likes: music, scrolling, staying in, animals (especially dogs, even if not in-person), drawing furry art/looking at other people's fursonas, gaming, making bracelets, working on personal projects

Dislikes: feeling ill, feeling trapped, being bossed around, crowded spaces

Signoff: -🛁🌡

Fursona species were all chosen specifically due to correlation with the meaning/lyrics of the song!

Wolverine: Wolverines tend to be solitary animals, which represents the lack of going out and asking for help and relying on themselves more than others.

Dumbo rat: Rats are often associated with messiness and carelessness, but are also understood to be messy because of the way they survive and live, not because it's something they can control.

Reindeer: I chose a deer to represent not being able to run or want to get away in the face of danger and instead freeze and allow it to happen, like with a deer in headlights.

Everything can be modified and added upon! :D

[mr-james-norrington]

People should realize that introjects can form with anything as their source, it does not have to align with "canon" or reality in any way

I am quite frankly very annoyed with people pointing out that what I can remember of my life is not "historically accurate"

I was fabricated in the mind of a child, based on an online interpretation of a fictional character whose story is set in a vaguely 1700s setting

I do not owe you historical accuracy

[system-hottakes]

Hot take I guess:

I am an introject and I do not want to source separate. Ever.

And I think it should be valid and respected that I don't want to.

- 🌇 > @sovereignsystem

honestly, valid. We have introjects that cannot or do not want to source separate and I don't think it should be expected. It's not anyone's business whether a introject is connected to source or not. Introjects don't owe people source separation

[villafordefeatedvillains]

When Mom was alive, we lived halfway normal. Now it's just me and my dad, we're less formal. I learned to cook pasta, I learned to pay rent. Learned the world doesn't owe you a cent.

Slaps the top of Admin C. This bad boy can fit SO MUCH daddy issues. Design headcanons are totally NOT based on our introjects. At all. Totally.

Anywho. Freeze Your Brain is THE Admin C song. It's about depression, daddy issues and slushies. That's him.

[valcksys]

source separation

(And my journey with it, all under the cut!)

I thought I’d write a long ranty post about source separation, since I’m an alter who’s gone through it (mostly). I just want to get my experiences out there and possibly help some other alters who might be struggling with this topic understand it more or, whatever.

So let’s start with Introductions! I’m Samantha, but I usually go with just Sam. I’m a factional introject of an ow esports player named S9mm. I use she/her pronouns and identify as a trans woman. (This will be important later.)

I first formed around June last year, so I’ve been around for a bit. When I first started getting my bearings, I was terrified! I mean, I’d been ripped away from my life (which was quite good most of the time!) and now I was stuck here, in a new body, alone. In a pretty abusive environment. Not fun at all!

My first reaction to all of this was escape. Which is to say I was so deep in wanting to be back in my source, and wanting to have my body and face and life back that I couldn’t focus on living the one I’m in right now. Whenever I fronted I was fucking miserable. All I could think about was my “past”. To me, this is an example of being unhealthily attached to your source. If it’s getting in the way of enjoying your current life or focusing on it then that’s not good!

I had a long chat with another alter, who’d been in the system for a while and went through that same deal. And the first thing they told me was to stop interacting with anything related to my source. Just find out who you are. Minus the source. Minus the premade personality and form you came with. Once you’ve found it, you can start to merge the two together. Finding you while still identifying with your source is possible. There’s just a delicate balance that I was definitely not balancing well.

And this is what I did for a while, I stopped watching OWL games, I stopped playing Overwatch, and I focused more on the things going on around me. I started trying new things. I learned stuff about myself! And it was nice. I’ve picked up art as a hobby, I love drawing. I also enjoy other video games, particularly roguelikes and rpgs which I never thought I would’ve liked. If I hadn’t ever let go partly of my source and who I’m “supposed” to be, I wouldn’t’ve ever discovered those things. During this period I also began realizing I might be a trans woman. (Source is a Cis male.) For a while I rejected it, still having that feeling in the back of my mind that it’s wrong because my source is a cis man. As well as all of the more typical woes that come with transness. (Which I’m going to assume nearly everyone reading this understands.)

Once I took that break, and found myself, I realized that life didn’t feel as. Well frankly, ASS, anymore. I wasn’t constantly dissociating, wishing I was “home” or the like. Home was here now, and I began to accept it. I participated more in our daily life.

After I did accept that I’m a trans woman, and that I’m Samantha, not S9mm, I was able to then reconnect with my source in a healthy way. I could watch content from my source and enjoy it without feeling like shit, I could play Overwatch and enjoy that without feeling like shit.

The point of me typing all this out really, is that there’s always a DEGREE of source separation that is healthy, and should be encouraged. But you don’t have to completely detach from your source.

I mean, my name is still Sam. I still look like my source in the headspace. (Kinda, I’m just more girly now lol.) I still refer to my pseudomemories and make jokes about my source and enjoy my source.

You can definitely have both!

Anyway rant’s over I hope this helps someone or something idk.

[solargeist]

ghostly if our newly formed lmanbur fictive turns out to be gay for other wilburs you owe us financial compensation, why are you making all the bur introjects gay /j

😈 I’m just being crazy all alone in my room if y’all look though the window n decide to join it’s not my fault !! /lh