the john chapters in ntn are so fun, I love seeing people discussing his justifications and motivations and failings, he’s such a good villain.
his narration is very much the account of someone who cared so much and was backed right up to the edge and decided to just fucking swan dive off. and I think it’s broadly true, or at the very least is true to how he understood the events, if not the specifics—when questioned on the order of events, he stumbles. “what’s the difference between the truth and the truth you tell yourself,” etc.
I think his explanation to alecto, in the aftermath of her destruction, isn’t him looking for absolution. he doesn’t want to be forgiven. he reacts badly to alecto/harrow saying “I still love you,” and I think that still is doing a lot of heavy lifting, because that means I love you despite, and that implies wrongdoing. but he isn’t a guy who makes mistakes. I don’t think he wants forgiveness. forgiveness doesn’t exist. I think he wants his audience (alecto primarily, harrow and us circumstantially) to go “okay. you didn’t have any other options. I get it now.”
but this seems like john’s account more or less immediately after the destruction of the planet and his reshaping of alecto, and we the reader have seen what he does afterward, and see exactly how many options he had—ten thousand years worth of them—and how every time he chooses to double down and keep hunting, keep punishing, keep building a wall between himself and accountability. because he doesn’t make mistakes. but it doesn’t work on harrow, and it doesn’t work on us, because we exist outside of the narrative john tells himself. we know too much.
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Taking a break from drawing art of my paladin D&D OC that's making me cry to point out things that people treat as canon but aren't actually canon (as of 4/15/24)
Alastor's sex- and romance-repulsed - The only indication of this is his reaction to Angel's advances and he reacts in the same way EVERYONE reacts, because Angel's advances are shown to violate literally everyone's boundaries (Vaggie even refers to this as Angel sexually harassing the staff). This can be seen with Alastor, Husk, and Sir Pentious. Alastor doesn't like being touched at all and this is made abundantly clear throughout the show. As someone who is sex-repulsed and aroacespec, a single canon instance (two if you count the pilot) of Alastor being repulsed specifically by Angel's advances doesn't mean he's sex-repulsed, it means Angel's advances violate his boundaries. (An alternative reading would be that he's just not interested, since the one instance of him being made uncomfortable by Angel's advances in the main series is him saying "Never going to happen." That still wouldn't mean he's sex-repulsed.) I'm not trying to say you can't headcanon that he is sex- and romance-repulsed but stop acting like it's canon that he is
Velvette doesn't want to work with Val and Vox and will break free from them at some point - Did the people saying this watch Scrambled Eggs. Did you see Respectless. You know she works with Val on love potions right. You saw how she interacted with Vox and Val during their part of Finale right. You realize the fact that she's complicit in their actions is barely subtext right.
Adam created the Exorcists - This is implied but never confirmed. I usually see this brought up as an argument against Guitarspear but thought I'd point it out anyway
I can't think of anything else right now but these are the main ones that irritate me (especially the first one). Anyway gonna go do some writing and take a break from drawing sad art of my silly paladin boyo
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I saw your reblog, please talk about Huck before you explode I'm worried about you /lh
ANON YOU BROUGHT WHATS COMING UPON YOURSELF-
When I tell you this is gonna be an essay this is gonna be a THESIS. I would defend this man in a court of my peers. I have been thinking so hard about this little man for the past few months this is gonna be SO LONG SMDNSMD
OH ALSO. tumblr likes to fuck with formatting so. some of the images might be out of wack. mwa that's all
Okay this is gonna be split,, btwn Gay Thoughts and pointing out Character Design Choices/Scene Details/Cool Shit bc. That is the joy of media :)
AAA <333 GOD I COULD TALK FOR AGES ABOUT HOW GOOD OF A CHOICE IT WAS TO. HAVE BOTH VANDER AND HUCK INTRODUCED TOGETHER.
Vander is humungalogongus, Huck is Tiny, putting them together just emphasizes both of those qualities in such a delightful way aaa <33
GOD AND THE MUG. THE MUG WAS SUCH A SMALL GOOD CHOICE.
Vanders hand wraps around that tankard like it owe's him money smmnmdsnd whereas Huck would probably need to use two hands to do the same.
I just. It's such a great use of contrasting character designs!!
AND THE TWO SITTING TOGETHER !!! LOOK AT THAT BEAUTIFUL CONTRAST!!!
Like sure Vander is big, but next to Huck,, he is BIG big. Absolute giant, I love how it helps boost those Protective Vibes he's meant to have!!! <333
AND THE SAME THING WORKS PRESTO-REVERSO FOR HUCK. He looks so insanely small compared to him, and joint with how he curls into himself, all of it just makes him look so. fragile.
It's such a fantastic way of getting across the Vibes of the characters in a nonverbal way. giving the animators my bank info as we speak.
there. is no analysis here this image. this shot is just so funny MNSDMSNDS
He is Experiencing so intensely. Help Him.
Um. Well. See.
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No comment your honor.
NO BUT,,,, he shivers here!! It's such a small detail it's basically impossible to actually see unless you slow down the footage!!
they didn't need to make him. Literally Shudder In Fear but they DID and I LOVE them for that. It's not even smth most ppl are gonna see, it's like 3 frames at most, but they DID.
AGAIN, SMOOCHING ALL THE ANIMATORS WITH TONGUE.
OH AND HIS EYES!!
I brought this up somewhere else but. Big Eyes + Small Pupils That Can't Sit Still adds so much more,, stress and tension to everything he does. I'm sorry the design details have me by the throat what can I say.
THEY GIVE HIM SO MANY. BEHAVIORS. The drumming of his fingers is my favorite - it pops up three times that I've noticed.
The bar, before Vander hands him his drink.
The table, when he's getting upset about the deal going south.
The counter of the Apothecary's dispensary in ep.6
ITS SUCH. A MINUTE DETAIL BUT IT ADDS SO MUCH PERSONALITY.
Like even outside of his tinger-tapping - the way his eyes can't sit still, his very jittery uneven movements, his eyebrows are almost always Bunched Up in that worried expression, that nervous laugh like UGHHHH <333
ITS THE LITTLE THINGS YKNOW? <333
His lanky frame and frantic gestures have entranced me
There's so many good details post-timeskip I gotta talk about MSNDSM
I. GRMGKRKGR. The way they re-introduce Huck makes my brain start bounding off my skull
First he's fully covered by the cloak, he looks relatively normal
then he falls backwards, revealing that he's completely emaciated, far past his previous thinness.
THEN we get the close-up shot to show the tumor, giving us a glimpse into just how damaging shimmer has been on his body - his hood even falls off to give us a full look.
I JUST. GOD. The escalation. Those small moments of Tension-Release are scattered all throughout Arcane and they all give me such massive brainworms.
LIKE EVEN FOR PPL WHO MIGHT NOT REMEMBER HIM,, ITS JUST SUCH A GOOD WAY OF REVEALING THOSE DETAILS.
and for the people who DO remember him it adds that little layer of,,,, Youch
AND THAT ANGLE. GOD. It really feels like we're looking down at him from the barrel of Cait's gun. The cinematography in this show is always so pretty.
(this is also the moment where we can see the escalation of his habits!!)
His eyes are more jumpy, his hands are more expressive, that nervous laugh he has is escalated to the point that it. sounding like he's gonna burst into tears. ('I- I owed her old man my life. Probably more.. than that - I guess' ..... Bill Lobley did such an amazing job w/ his voice aaa)
My absolute favorite detail they added was post-timeskip Huck's,, self-soothing behaviors?
He holds his own hand, he leans against his arm - at one point he tries to rub his forehead before flinching back, forgetting his tumor is there AAAA </33333
It's so clear he isn't accustomed to contact, which makes Cait's hug feel so much more cathartic </3
HE JUST <33333. They really emphasize how vulnerable he is. His constant fear and his desperation to not be afraid is such a key part of his character.
Like he says himself that one of the main reasons he turned to shimmer was to finally, finally make other people the ones who are afraid I JUST. AAA. I FUCKING LOVE THIS GUY YALL IDK WHAT TO SAY.
SIGH,,,,, TUMBLR'S IMAGE LIMIT IS BULLYING ME SO. one last little detail before I wrap up.
HE SMILES WHEN THE APOTHECARY SLAMS DOWN THE VIAL
HE. SMILES WHEN. THE APOTHECARY. AAAA <3333
ROSES HEARTS SPARKLES WHOEVER THOUGHT OF THAT IS GETTING PUT IN MY WILL
He's!! genuinely happy that Vi is gonna get help!! It's so clear that the choice he made to turn in Vi wasn't one he made easily.
If there's any last thing to say it's just. The crew did such a good job adding all that depth. Huck gets 5 mins total on-screen and they still took the time to flesh him out.
TLDR. Mwa I need season 2 stat
SHUFFLES FEET... ANON TYSM THIS WAS SO FUN. Anybody who made it this far and read through everything,, I'm making us friendship bracelets and cookies ilysm.
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