#possible adhd

[aaamadeus]

something about getting tangled up in quantum physics is so alluring when you’re just trying to do basic math homework; this is your sign to get an existential crisis and fall into a spiral of self-doubt from quantum entanglement and superposition and quarks and aaaaAAAAAAAAAAH

[tatooinetourism]

how the heck do people regain interest in a project that was originally fuelled by hyperfixation? am i doomed?

what do i do??

[aljdkskjx]

things just seem to slip away from me. and there’s suddenly 5-10 things that i need to do at any given moment :( unread messages and emails that’s i’m gonna get to soon i promise!!!, reading, sem qs, lecture notes.. just so much shit for uni that i had a week to do and god knows how but it’s 2am the night before and i’m just starting so ofc the other “insignificant things” just get forgotten or set aside and then forgotten. no time to exercise no time to eat healthy no time to drink water no time to relax no time to sleep no time to take my vitamins no time to do skincare no time to floss no time to do laundry no time to clean my room

everything falls apart around me. i feel like i’m thrown from one thing to another. once somethings done there’s something else that i need to start pronto but i get so exhausted after each task that seems to take me 10x longer than everyone else that i need a few days to just passively survive until i can brace it through the next task. and i cry. overwhelmed by the stress and pressure of everything that i need to do and everything that i should have done already and everything that everyone else has already done and everything that i should be able to do because i am smart and i am an adult and there’s no reason for me to be so fucking useless that it has taken me a month to respond to a fucking email for fucks sake.

but it’s fine. because i get it done. and it’s done well. because if it’s not i will be nothing. all i have to cling to is academic success. it’s all i’ve ever had. so i go to uni on 20 minutes of sleep to a class that i’ve done nothing for and hope to god that the lecturer doesn’t ask me a question i can’t answer. i skim through the articles on my 30 minute train ride, deciding to do the work during a different class that i will definitely make up the work for later i swear! and eventually i just stop going. because what’s the point?

but no one ever sees that part. they see As and Bs on a very difficult course and they’re satisfied to some degree. maybe if i tried harder or applied myself more or studied or spent longer on assignments or didn’t leave everything to the last second i’d even get straight As! or the occasional Cs would plague me no more. that’s all anyone ever sees. a cruiser. someone who puts very little effort into it, skipping classes, doing no work for seminars and still somehow manages to pull through at the last second. some are even envious.

but it stings a bit. because that’s not true. i do try. i try every single day to be productive, just get something fucking done. and yet. everything seems out of reach. things just seem to slip away from me.

[ssshh-im-a-secret]

I feel wrong

I don't know why

But I do

I feel wrong like somethings wrong in the room I'm in but I don't know what

It's WRONG and I don't know how to fix it

[atlastheecowboy]

What I look like when talking about my hyper fixation.

[anomalous-posts]

I have a question regarding sensory overload/overstimulation...

Is it possible to get cold sweats and a woozy type of feeling when experiencing sensory overload?

(There are examples of my experiences below)

Examples:

I've had this happen in a restaurant when it was extremely loud from multiple sources and I was sitting on a very uncomfortable stool that also kept sliding out of place and also had to interact with the others at the table. It came on gradually and I came to feel cold sweats, light headed and woozy, maybe a tinge of nausea. I moved to a booth seat that was much more comfortable and put on headphones to distract from and drown out the noise and started to feel better... Once I left the noisy place and was able to sit comfortably in the quiet car I recovered.

Then I felt a similar sensation again trying to get comfortable at another place, not so much loud but it was in public and I repositioned, took off some of my accessories (rings mainly) and it went away before it got too bad.

Yesterday, I was in a wheelchair (VERY long story short, I'm currently recovering from an infection and getting the strength back in my legs in a rehabilitation center.) for a while after doing physical therapy and it was getting very uncomfortable, multiple things bothering me, yet I wanted to sit in there for longer and tried, I couldn't quite distracted myself well enough, felt the cold sweats and some wooziness and decided I wanted back in bed, once there I recovered quickly.

I'm concerned about this, because I think it's overload and have taken steps to avoid it and had success, but not much of anything I find on internet searches confirms that it can cause things like cold sweats, dizziness, woozy feeling or nausea...

[iamtrappedplssaveme]

Why am I like this..

It feels so bad thinking about how on my side blog I promised to make a playlist for my OC (where I was going to mess with the audio myself - lots of speed changes, reverb, amalgamating) AND draw like 50 different things for it and... I never delivered. I never did it. I still have the first 3 songs edited and I was finished with the characters in the FIRST drawing but I have never gotten around to the background of it and I promised to do this a year ago.

Btw, some of the tags are for context. I don't think that I have ADHD BECAUSE of this, I just think that looking through the lens of me being someone who suspects they might have ADHD to be helpful in gaining a full understanding.

[pigeonwearingawaistcoat]

Thinking I might have ADHD but not being diagnosed and not being sure is the worst because I'll see something that I completely relate to and feel validated and then see something I don't relate to five minutes later and feel like a complete fraud.

[sparrovv]

Oh my god ok today was literally just- nevermind basically, first my dad tried to teach me how to drive, which it's like my second time so I suck at it obviously, and the entire time he was either doing the Asian parent thing of explaining shit that doesn't need to be explained,

ex. "YOU SEE THAT STOP SIGN?? WHEN YOU GET TO THE STOP SIGN YOU HAVE TO STOP."

Yes thank you for clarifying, I had no idea I was supposed to stop at the shiny bright red sign that says "STOP"

Or he's just like screaming orders at me like, "转弯要打灯！！！" (turn on the turn signal when you turn) Which first of all NO SHIT, and second that gave me a damn headache which, yay.

Then I go to tennis practice because, yeah I'm that type of Asian. And it was like 90°F (32°C) outside plus like 75% humidity or something and a sun that wants to burn me alive or something. And if you haven't been on a tennis court in summer, it literally absorbs heat and throws light back into your eyes.

So I ended up with headache #2 of the day and hit my doubles partner in the face... she's fine dw, I think.

So after all this I'm like alright, this is fine, everything's fine I'll just draw and read in my room until I go sleep it off.

well life literally just went NOPE, you get to listen to your brother and dad watch a movie at max volume, along with the oh so pleasant sound of my mom practicing violin.

(Nothing against them it was just loud and annoying. Like seriously stop playing that one measure over and over again it's good enough.)

I swear I have Hanzo's ult voice line stuck in my head now.

So yep. No midnight post today unfortunately... But I applaud you for getting to the end of this rage induced rant :D

[nicxxx5]

y’all, who is the big account that reblogged my “is it an autism thing..” post because she is blowing up right now. i do appreciate everyone who’s interacting with it though and sharing their thoughts, feelings, opinions and own experiences. also all the people saying the post and the reblogs clicked and is helping them make discoveries about themselves you are all super lovely and valid 🥰

[wandering-ghost]

Being a procrastinating lazy person while also being a creative person is both stressful and hilarious because all of these crazy scenarios in my head are most likely never going to come to fruition because I can’t get STARTED-!

[vents-andrants-andmore]

sometimes it's hard knowing that you're mentally ill and yet noone around in your house can seem to believe you. even if you know. even if they know. they still won't listen.

because you're not ill to them. because they're ill.

they think it's normal. but you know it's not. you've seen it.

they haven't.

they refuse to.

and yet they tell you. "you're too loud, you need to quiet down." "you need to wash dishes, i dont care if you don't like how it feels." "you need to be nicer, that sounds rude."

i dont know what they want from me.

-finn

[guardianspirits13]

I've gotta say that there is no better achievement as a neurodivergent person than hyperfixating on a character for so long that you are known as "the 'insert character name here' person"

[thequeenofhorsesofficial]

My apologies for not posting anything about my horse Sega and I for months now. I’ve had lot of struggles with mental health and I’m 99% sure I have ADHD and autism, just waiting on getting a diagnosis. So I’m having fun 😀

[blanketforcas]

i think what saves me from a lot of discourse is that i'm simply Not Reading All That

[chaotic-being]

In the waiting room for my assessment rn... Guys, gals, non-binary pals, whoever is reading this. I'm fucking terrified. The psychiatrist is about to come out 😞😨