#posts from the drafts of my old blog

[farawaywiththefairies]

when i say older men i mean older men!!

[eunwooverse]

ASTRO 'Like Stars' ✶ Eunwoo Ending Fairy

[woahjo]

i've been thinking a lot about a jjk hunger games au... gonna add content warnings just in case

cw: mentions of sex work, implications of noncon/trafficking, references to gore, canon typical violence and discussions for hunger games stuff

if satoru were a victor in the hunger games, he'd be a capitol darling. he'd be so adored and so admired. he's so handsome, so charismatic, that even some folks in one and two find him completely captivating.

he's a career from district four, who won his games with all the savvy of someone who was born to do it. when he volunteered, there was very little doubt that he was the most promising tribute. strong and surly. 18 years old with a long, lithe body and smile that screamed winner.

so of course he had sponsors and allies. of course he was highly sought after by the other careers. his district partner, a pretty person with a quiet and stoic disposition, was simultaneously proud of him and deeply threatened. they'd trained in the same class and she knew what he was capable of. no one remembers her name anymore, they just remember that he hadn't killed her. he'd spared her from what he could until someone else took her from this world.

it seemed that after she passed, satoru flipped a switch. that was it. the games would end and he'd come out on top.

after his victory, satoru had all the wealth he could need. no family anymore, hardly any friends save for the other victors, but money and wealth beyond what he'd ever imagined. it was dazzling even for him and his district was better off than most. career districts tend to be.

he disconnects from the world, lets snow sell his body and keeps playing the game. that's all there is left to do. to just keep playing. fame isn't all he thought it would be and satoru realizes now that he was too naive in volunteering. he dreamed of a kind of glory that doesn't exist and with every passing year, he grows more and more bitter internally of the kids after him who make the same mistakes.

then, three years after his games, an 18 year old from district 7 miraculously wins. you're an underdog, an unexpected victor from an outlying district with little to no chance of winning. but you did.

satoru meets you on your victory tour, when the fear of the arena hasn't fully worn off, and he's struck by the quiet stoicism you have within you. you're sweet, but with a bitter edge, given to you by your district and the unlucky hand dealt to you. he finds himself a bit in awe.

he thinks you hate him at first. satoru gets the impression that you hate him so much that you can hardly stomach being around him. it isn't until he pulls you to the side and warns you about what comes next, that you start to humanize him. that defensive glint wavers for a moment, leaving nothing but a pretty person with an unlucky lot in life. he's not sure why he warns you, but he does. he feels some sort of kinship with you. you've endured something similar, felt the same fear he felt, and you don't revel in it. instead, you quietly chew up the hand dealt to you and spit it out, something he never thought he could do.

satoru, a victor from district four with nothing left in this world, is awestruck by the idea that he can love someone this much. suddenly, it's not just about playing their game, it's about winning it. just surviving isn't enough anymore. with you in the equation, he needs to thrive.

[huellitaa]

✧˚. ᵎᵎ 🎀 bee's perfumerie

i think scent is definitely one of the most important parts of a glow up or daily routine or wtv of any kind, esp if ur super into physical touch like myself cuz its the first thing people smell when they hug u!! plus nobody likes feeling and smelling gross ♡

🧁𓂃 ࣪˖ spray, don't rub!

do not. rub in. the scent. it will not last long. no more. i do not care what your parents told you. It Does Not Last

👛𓂃 ࣪˖ not just the perfume!

to be smelling good, you need to make sure ur hygeine is on point and ur using all the basics, and a few extras if you can get ur hands on anything else. BO + perfume = disaster!

🐈‍⬛𓂃 ࣪˖ opposites do NOT necessarily attract!

layering and cohesiveness to some level is so important w scents!!!! otherwise ur gonna pile all of these lovely yet completely opposing fragrances on top of each other n its not gonna be very pleasant.

of course, experiment! these things are supposed to be fun! try to keep everything in a sort of cohesion with each other, i.e. super sweet, super fruity, and maybe just throw something in there that makes your scent more you! i.e., if you have a generally sweet theme with your scent profile, maybe you could throw something more cinnamony or pleasantly bitter in there! have fun with it! ♡

🎀𓂃 ࣪˖ eating right

so you hear this a lot, but it is really important; do not underestimate the importance of eating right! junk food n unhealthy food is yummy in moderation!

💬𓂃 ࣪˖ making it stick

something that helps me so much is adding vaseline or any type of cream, lotion, jelly, whatever onto the spot ur gonna spray before you spray it! it is SO effective and i literally cannot use perfume without doing this. pulse points in particular!

🐧𓂃 ࣪˖ general maintenance n consistency

make sure ur doing the basics all day long! topping up deodorant, perfume, especially in the summer! regular shower routine, etc, etc. be on your a game ! ♡

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 where:

♡ on ur neck

♡ on ur wrists pulse points

♡ behind ur knees

�� on ur inner elbow

♡ on ur ankles (so the scent travels up)

🗒🎀 note: more on this in the "resources" chapter at the end 💬🧁🧸

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 bee's favourites:

♡ jimmy choo, rose passion

okay jimmy choo perfumes are my favourite ever and this one in particular i got for my last birthday, and it smells absolutely divine oh my gosh ♡ it kind of reminds me of a more mature version of the avon far & away perfume (which i mention later on! ♡ 💬💝)

♡ miss dior (on special occasions)

♡ johnson's pomegranate and hibiscus body lotion

♡ vaseline cocoa body oil

so i generally like to have sweet, cocoa type of scents in any product i use, and yeah its a body oil but it smells SO good oh my gosh, n layered with similar scents its actually heavenly ♡

♡ avon far and away perfume

hands down the BEST perfume i have ever used. smells like a summer daydream ♡

♡ victoria's secret bare vanilla spray & shimmer lotion (especially when paired! ♡)

♡ skinnydip creamy vanilla body scrub ♡

literally the only body scrub i use 😓♡

♡ imperial leather rose milk & mallow body wash ♡

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 recommendations:

PERFUME & SPRAYS

viva a la juicy, juicy couture (on my wishlist! ♡)

bodycology strawberry cheesecake spray (on my wishlist! ♡)

any ariana grande perfume ♡

sweet tooth (any variation), sabrina carpenter

miss so, twilight kiss (my favourite ♡)

body fantasies cupcake swirl

tubbees strawberry cheesecake eau de parfum (i dont care if its for kids!)

BODY PRODUCTS

kwailnara strawberry milk body lotion (on my wishlist! ♡)

eos shea better body lotion, vanilla cashmere (apparently super good? ♡)

any philosophy product ♡

skinny dip raspberry ripple body lotion (on my wishlist! ♡)

anything victoria's secret ♡

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 resources:

[javierduffy]

ohh javieran … javieran post kieran’s death .., javier is a poor lonesome cowboy in america a long way from home with no more sweetheart to sit and talk with him ooohhh can anyone hear me ….

[heffrondriving]

Do you still like big time rush or has James ruined them for you?

i have absolutely no idea how long ago this was from but like. y'all what even is this offhand ask lmao ( ; ⚆ _ ⚆ )

but alright screw it, just to set the record straight: i loved Big Time Rush lots and lots, that much is obvious. the nick show itself was such an integral part of my childhood, and i absolutely have no regrets about rediscovering the band last 2020 and diving in headfirst right into the deep end *Hot Summer by Heffron Drive starts blasting out* of their music and inevitably joining the fandom. i'm especially forever thankful for all the interesting experiences and fun projects and amazing friends i've made along the way, so i'm sincerely always going to have a certain fondness for BTR in the deepest crevices of my vv heart and soul.....

although yes, certainly *that* whole situation and other such related unfortunate controversies had kinda soured it to the point where i got uncomfortable calling myself a rusher—but that ultimately wasn't what made me fall out, it was just plain 'ol ✨burnout✨ idk keeping up with the fandom just got a little bit too hectic and way too toxic for me, so i moved on to other things better for my peace of mind. anyway, i'm mostly into cool J-pop stuff and ofc my most beloved svensk pojkband FO&O nowadays (also for language-learning purposes hehe :^D) and tbh these have been so incredibly wonderful and healing for me.....but i confess, i still kinda miss BTR and check in on them from time to time. hell, i even have a whooole bunch of chaotic BTR ocs that casually live rent-free in my mind now and forever and i'm constantly tempted to return to this rotting blog just so I can endlessly infodump lore abt them but i'm Annoying™ and who'd want that anyway soooo ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

so yes, i do love Big Time Rush. despite everything, i still like the show and the music, i like all the silly wacky unhinged creations and nostalgic memories i have of it, i like the fandom generally and seeing notifs still pop up on this inactive blog as the ever-faithful rushers continue to thrive and be inspired by the band and its legacy (shoutout to all the new-wave tumblrushers hehe i see u guys much love and hugs and i hope y'all keep up all the fun vibes and creativity here mwah xoxo (⁠*⁠＾⁠3⁠＾⁠)⁠/⁠～⁠♡), and i really don't wanna allow anything to ruin all those good feelings i got from them, even if that means being critical and letting go of certain aspects. i don't have to love everything about it, really. just enough for me is hopefully enough ❤️‍🩹

and now, the musical journey continues...?

(p.s. #1: UNRELATED-ISH GIF BUT ALSO I PROMISE THIS GIF IS RELEVANT BC HE'S TECHNICALLY ONE OF MY BTR OCS SO LIKE THAT COUNTS RIGHT??? (⁠ ⁠ꈨຶ⁠ ⁠˙̫̮⁠ ⁠ꈨຶ⁠ ⁠))

(p.s. #2: BTR actually dropped by our country in their world tour last October 2024,,, too little, too late :"))) and apparently there was a whole fucking drama that went down abt it too??? anubayan nakakahiya gagi ahshdjsjdk)

[barklikeagod]

finished sending all of the old (published) oc questions to my new blog and privated all of the originals from my old blog

[swildy]

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[fightingthetides]

This is a piece I commissioned for. Do not steal, do not edit, do not use, and do not repost. I was given permission to post this onto my blog. Okay to reblog.

Art by Oohebi from DeviantArt

Yamamoto Takeshi © Amano Akira

[ragnars-tooth]

One of my big compulsions is taking a fuck ton of screenshots Just In Case a piece of information is important in like 4 years and I can't remember it (sometimes the information is an instagram post that I might not remember later and of course needs to be recorded everywhere (I will Not be looking at that again)) so today is my transfer 16000 images off my phone admin day (woo)

Like yeah I never looked at any of them and they were completely irrelevant to my daily life, But what if I need them ✨️ later ✨️ (you'll see that the idea of Later is doing a lot of heavy lifting here) OR what if there's a vital piece of information in the mix somewhere that I'll lose forever if I delete them? So: onto the external hard drive they go

This is one of those cases where. Yeah. Ideally I wouldn't take 16000 screenshots in half a year. And YEAH ideally I'd just delete them and not transfer them somewhere else to never look at again. BUT at least I get a clean slate and I can maybe not mindlessly save everything for 2 seconds. It's like. Small wins? Progress. Yknow.

[kartana]

I feel so sad this sucks i can't stop thinking about doing everything wrong with v I feel like im gonna cry I hate going to sleep early the day after I stay up it's just hours of laying down with stupid train of thoughts that come at night and I can't sleep I just want to sleep I don't want to feel so awful in the morning I don't want to feel awful right now I wish I could just get my thoughts in order get to the point and cry and be done with it. Nothing is going to change from yesterday to today to tomorrow I will just have been miserable and things won't change because of it I wish the world was kinder I wish the world wasn't so cruel I wish things were different I want to cry and now I can't even feel that anymore.

[karloff-the-uncanny]

Happy 91st anniversary to “The Mummy” 1932!

I used this as an excuse to draw Im-Ho-Tep in a Santa hat, because why not? I love drawing Monsters out of character 🎅

This also gave me a chance to try and make a “sketchy” piece of art, as I have a habit of turning all my drawings into marathon projects that take hours, and not just sketch something out quickly and efficiently. This drawing still took longer than I intended, as I decided to change some details last minute, but I managed to do the face and outline quicker than usual at least. I also got a chance to practice using my Lyra brush pens for once, which was nice.

“Im-Ho-Ho-Ho-Tep” came to me when I was about halfway through the drawing. I am still exceptionally pleased with myself for coming up with that, and will probably be very smug for the next couple of weeks 😂

[heffrondriving]

this is how i'm gonna fucking die i think

[paulgadzikowski]

I thought this week about that I'd never drawn anything for this series for Endgame. So I did.

[zosonils]

the old pinned post is starting to get moldy so! new one!

spore or zoe or any mangling of zosonils you like. she/they but i don't really care, australian, very queer and very autistic. 20 as of this post; minors are welcome to interact as long as you're sensible about talking to adults you don't know on the internet

main blog for reblogging stuff i like and spouting whatever silly shit comes to mind. i also have an artblog, which you should follow, but i reblog most of those posts here anyhow

speaking of that artblog, i take commissions!

i don't engage in discourse, i don't post about real world misery, i kill reblog bait with my bare hands, and unless i know you personally i won't signal boost fundraisers or donation posts. i'm just on this stupid little website to hang out and have fun and to have a nice little internet house with all the things i like in it. if you really desperately need to know my opinion on a serious topic, ask off anon so i can respond privately.

i block empty blogs [as those tend to be bots], nsfw or fetish oriented blogs, discourse, and people who annoy me. if you think i've blocked you erroneously, feel free to shoot me an anon with your url and i'll be happy to unblock you, or at least tell you why if i don't want to

asks and dms are always welcome! there's no guarantee i'll answer because i have very bad executive dysfunction, but i promise i am trying my best. things i am somewhat good at talking about are the various fictional characters and scientific topics i'm into, my ocs, and my pet turtle

my about page has more details, though it's much longer and this post covers the basics fine. liking this post to indicate to me that you've seen it is appreciated but not required. enjoy your stay on my webbed site! :]

[cannibalistic-suggestions]

Blog Update • December 24, 2023

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