#reduce panic

[s0fter-sin]

something happening on a mission, something personal that has soap spiralling; panic and rage making him reckless, thoughtless, and ghost has to draw the line

“you’re compromised johnny; you know what that means?”

“you’re not pulling me out,” soap immediately snarls. he turns on him and ghost barely recognises him; venomous fear turning his eyes to unyielding ice. "you're not sidelining me; i need to be in this-!"

but ghost has never been afraid of venom; spat or dripped straight from bared fangs.

he snakes out a hand grip the back of his neck, jerking him in a rough shake. "if you can't think, you can't be a soldier," he growls and he flinches like he's been struck.

his lips quiver as they twist in a sneer and he wrenches, trying to free himself of his hold.

ghost doesn't let him.

"it means you give your body to me because your head ain't fucking attached to it anymore."

soap stills, body trembling beneath his hand as he sucks in shaking breaths.

he tightens his grip, pulling him closer and digs his forehead hard into his. “it means you give yourself to me so i can have the weapon that you are and use you the way you're meant to be used."

the ice in soap's eyes fractures.

ghost’s voice drops to a whisper, spoken only to johnny, not this facade of vengeance and pain, and wills it to reach him through the glaciers.

“so i can keep you safe ‘til it’s done and i can bring you back.”

[evilkitten3]

i know it's been said before but it's still startling every time i get the reminder that apparently a lot of young people think "gay panic" is "getting flustered by having a gay crush on someone" instead of. y'know. a legal defense for a homophobic hate crime

[theramblingvoid]

[ID: two screenshots from the game Fallen London. Both show an option called "Endure", greyed out and unavailable. The caption beside the Dangerous quality simply says "No" where a required skill level should be. In the second screenshot, the caption beside the Wounds quality says "Not even you."]

Hands down my favourite little detail of this event so far. In a game like Fallen London, where the player is so continuously referred to as important or skilled to the exclusion of nearly every common challenge, the uniform unavoidability of a giant falling wall of rock is...so nicely chilling. No. Not even you.

[markerofthemidnight]

will you be giving wiggly more panic attacks in future fics yes or no

Oooh, yes.

I can assure you, yesssss.

[ntll]

I don’t understand this post. Is it laughing at women who don’t understand the function of hormones and think of them of like some mystical vibe thing? Because I don’t think that’s a real thing... It feels like pcos rates are exploding and most people over 30 have insulin resistance issues. Most of the women I see online talking about trying to balance their hormones are doing it on advice from doctors.

Or is it making fun of them for thinking behaviour can affect them? Because they are in large part lifestyle induced problems….

Sincerely maybe I’m just being an autist but what are we making fun of the women for.

[shopwitchvamp]

General reminder that this shop is run by just two (2) people, and that we don't answer emails overnight or (usually) on our days off. If you ever don't get a response right away, please do not panic. We will absolutely get to you during regular business hours!

[nervocat]

Ok yeah I can definitely update it

[naomiknight-17]

By the way, whoever made that generous donation overnight and did so anonymously?

Thank you! 💕

I think I can make the student loan payment now, that's a big help!

[levynite]

My house is fine but this surprise mid-year monsoon climate change thing has gotta quit it, literal 24 hours of heavy-light-heavy-light rains since Saturday and whoops flash flooding in lower lying areas on Sunday and one poor woman got washed away and drowned (she was doing charitable but ultimately stupid shit at 1am in a major flood delivering food to trapped people when you have no business wading around blindly in the dark).

It started raining heavy again today (Tuesday), besides yesterday's more rain, but luckily it stopped at noon. Well, the evacuee count at 8am this morning was already over 460 so I'm expecting 500+ tomorrow.

[synthetic-ultramarine]

oh posts are Bothering me this morning.

[sassygwaine]

there is actually something wrong with me and that's also fine??

like when i was a kid/teenager with several health, mood, and developmental issues, it was years and years and years of being told "nothing's wrong with you, that's normal, everybody does that, you'll grow out of it, you're just a normal kid" and then look at that, i grew into an adult with several health, mood, and developmental issues

normal is fake, "normal" is a set of ever-moving goal posts set by any given person/group at any given moment to justify why they feel disgust or revulsion or pity or shame, normal isn't real

and also, there's shit that i actually legitimately struggle with that causes me a lot of stress and distress that are things innate within myself that will never change, some of which, in fact, will get worse as i age, and they're things that other people don't have to deal with

a lot of these things could have been mitigated when i was younger if somebody had just listened to me with the intent to help me instead of just to shut me up

no, it was always the insistence that i was normal, that nothing was wrong, then, further, that i was making it up, that i was just looking for attention

and maybe a lot of how i expressed myself was looking for attention, but when you're in pain all the time and feeling more like a gutted pig than a human and the people you're supposed to trust with your life tell you that nothing is wrong with you and go back to ignoring you, what else could you try to get but some fucking attention?

so anyway, there is something wrong with me, several somethings, and i'm unraveling a bit more each day (in some very good and cathartic ways, some very truthful, painful, and growing ways) and figuring out how to actually care for all of the little parts of me that are trying to get my attention, and i don't think any of that is a bad thing

[appendingfic]

When someone is talking about multiple blorbos and you realize with a sinking sensation they think those two characters would GET ALONG

[gortrash]

my only thing with saying alicent isn’t to blame for her bad parenting is that she also made helaena a victim of marital rape :( otherwise i agree that you can’t expect her not to hate her children for being the products of marital rape even if she also loves them

I agree. The whole theme with the Hightowers is the cycle of abuse. Otto forced her to marry Viserys and provide him heirs when she was a girl, and then she did the same to Helaena. It’s something that people don’t really understand with Alicent is that she is inherently abusive though she means not to, it’s what she’s learnt, it’s how she’s been raised herself, she knows no other way. She wasn’t raised with a mother’s guidance, only a scheming father. She’s abided by every demand of the men who’ve controlled her life with the naive notion that someday, somehow, she will be rewarded for it, when in actuality she is discarded, and she doesn’t understand. You’re right, she DOES love her children, but honestly, when you have children as a child… how the hell do you learn to love the things that stole your childhood and future from you with the amount of care and kindness that people expect of her? I absolutely hate when people assume that she’s misogynistic for the sake of it and don’t realise that she was conditioned to be. Helaena deserved better, and it isn’t even like Aegon wanted to be married to her in the first place either. It’s just the tragedy of their family and I am in utter tears over it. I didn’t mean for this to be a huge ass monologue but ohhhh boy I have SOOOOO many targtower thoughts 24/7

[soraeia]

Duels Round 2

"Alright, well...while our Princess gets taken to the infirmary.." He steals a glance at the Emperor, who simply gives a nod of approval before disappearing with his eldest son.

"....'guess I'll announce the matches for the next round..."

"Oh wait...maybe I should cut out the fourth match..."

@arcxnumvitae , @soulsxng , @fatestouch

[phagodyke]

I was on the wikipedia page for phobias just for fun but just discovered theres an actual word for a fear of being touched.. 🥹

[itsadragonaesthetic]

TW panic attack mention.

Something has been on my mind once again recently. My weird style of panic attacks? When I was around 17, I started to have proper panic attacks for the first time. I had no clue what they were and it scared the shit out of me. I made multiple visits to the hospital for them because of how physically and mentally debilitating they were. Around the same time, lots of weird stuff was happening to my brain that had never happened before. I was getting auras in my vision (with no pain) and these periods of short unconsciousness. This stuff would cause anxiety and worse episodes of it would soon follow. After maybe 2 years of it I just concluded that my panic attacks cause me to faint. But it never felt like normal panic. I would be sitting, doing fine, almost always playing a video game, and I would suddenly lose "power" in my head and neck, slightly loosing consciousness. I have to yank myself out of it, and my heart begins to beat out of my chest and full blown panic sets in. It always felt like the loss of consciousness came first?

I just had one again recently after a long time without them. I seriously think they are related to my anxiety and panic but it's still so weird to me because I had never heard of it happening to anyone else except my mom. She's the only person I know who experiences them.

I feel silly questioning it because like, what do you mean you don't know if you have seizures? Idk man panic attacks can seriously just be that bad.